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chj;, j; fahj[ih faMs dUjs;. d]ks' z;uhih' dhu Hh;C|d Csts
tjhrih;, VuN;ih jhs[ jh;s;.... fah;mhSrhj[ @hmh[ fahj[j[ jh;mrhih[
lhFrsh chj;, j[ oh[uHh;mh[ ohhmh[u kss ohhghs[ B;u}dih. ZhnZhnSrh
zrhd;.... Csts tjhrih;.
chpmh Ah[ VfazAh NghhGhhy[ chyh;. Nghhqhhj;t pdHhhyh; cdGhhyirh qheah"M w`z;lhhut Cs% yhghyh;. chsh ut Nghh'ih; Is jh;s;
pd Ghhy[ wh'Nthlh]Q\ ghhtBy;yh qheah"M w`z;lh jh;sh. Srh Ghhyirh
Cshth'ut Hhdzhb oh'ghy; u CeahMs?CkMs ihhyy;Yrh GhnfahM
wjhn[ dh jh;Srh. SrhsYrh Srhs Ah[ qheah"M w`z;lhhut Csts
jh;sh;, j;ih qht; jh;s;
Ghhyihh qhe"a Qh]kQh]lh[s chpmh dtAh pzks jh;sh. zjh?w'Zhth
e]abhutih w{thlh}b kh;n}d hu;, ckh puihht Ahdhs chyh, dhj[ st
ohh;thirh uhTrhd; w{thlh}b qhth;qht ch;Nyh ohhmrhih[ lhFrsh jh;s[....
wmh qhe"a Qh]kQh]lh[s d pdHhsh, wFfah pdHhhyh st jhn'ih Ahh;nhrih[.
Ajmh}d w{thlh}b kh;ny; dhj[.
Ghhyirh qheah"s ohhC|d fah;kMyh; Ah[. qhe"a cghz[ih Qh]kQh]lh[s
jh;sh. Ah[ cZhh"cpZhfa ghhnyh gh;yh; qheah"s cd- chs Zhks gh;yh;.
qhhj;t pdHhmrhkhB[ ohkohkh jhswhr jyumrhihh w`rSd fats
jh;sh;, oh;uN[ Zhnwn fats jh;sh;, pssfah cpZhfa Zhks ohhs jh;sh;.
qheah"Ah]M; jhswhr vsf;a ghhtBy; fa[ s; jyushj[ r;v"dhs. !hhmhih
Cty; dUjs;. chsh clh[ih pohu's kAhhZh[ pAhMmhht fa[ fahr rh
qheah"s Ah[ puihht fa% yhghyh;.
VuNRhs uhTrhih; ohh;tzht Ohh;f;a r;C| yhghy;. w{thlh}b e]ayy; u
ch;Ny; ohhC| yhghy;. s; qhhoh}yh ch;Ny; ohhs jh;s; u Ah[j[ pstwhih
fah jh;v"dh, wmh qheah"qhhj;t ch;Nyh ohhs jh;sh;. wtfahLB;ihh w`rSd
fa%d jhswhr jypumrhk k]t|uhs f;ay[ Ah[. f]aB}d st[ lhFs[
chy[ c'ghhs. qheah"ih[ wfan pNy[ jh;s gh;y[. jM}jM} qhTrhih
Zhnwn[d'st xhh;n; AhhOrh w`rSdhd; u Ah]Grs w{thlh}b uhTrhirh
Ohh;sh'd[, ohh;tohh;thd; ch;Ny; ohhs jh;s; Ajmh}dih qheah"irh Srh kAhhZh[s}d
qhhj;t wnyh; Ah[ chpmh w{thlh}b qhth;qht ch;Ny; gh;yh;. qheah"ut z}tut
eateabs gh;yh;. c'ghhyh ghht?ghht ghh;Bu}d bhfamhht; xh'n?xh'n ihbf;a
qhks jh;s;. eateabsh?eateabsh faAht;utih; qhbd zhqh}d w{thlh}b

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Zhh;Frhih[ k}ihdh jh;s[ s[ u:Ahhpdfa[?fa@hhs[y v'KbPR}Ah;'b?w{d;yirh

ut cky;Yrh vAhoh"Dk[?w{d;yAhZh[y, eahrt uh{pd=gh yhv"b chgh[ih[
u Zhh;Frhih[ k}ihdh
z]kTrhih @hmh[ v'oh[dhs}d Zh}t pdHh} yhghyh. chfahlhhs fahMRhf]a
Zh]thih[ Vfa yh'qh t;Lhh CAhb} yhghy[. pdAh"y uhshutmh z}pLhs jh;C|
yhghy'.
Ghhy[ QhUr Ahjhfahr wu"s.... chpmh wptkt cohK\?cuhNUr
Nghh'd[ Ohhfay;yh. puAhhd k]tp@hswmh; Cstpumh' lhFrih dUjs'.
qh;kih; puAhhdsM Ahhgh' Gh}wih z}t jh;s'. fahr fathu; jh puihht wnyh
Ahyh. s;uNRhs v'pohdhs}d chgh[irh yw;b[ pdHh} yhghYrh. fahj[
@hmhhsih cuHh; puAhhd w;b Hh;mhht jh;s;. chsh puihht fatmrhk u;Mih
dUjsh. puihht fats qhkyh; st, puAhhdhkfab, chgh[irh w`ih'n
yh;Mhs Ah[j[ ohM}d Ghhfa jh;mhht jh;sh;...
jh;Ahy+n, pZhk voh t;fah{dh{kDk?pAhlhd d'qht dhv"d cYeah.
v'pohd ch{d eahrt. wh;pOhlhd j'nP;n c+n Vb[ Ahhv"Yk dh{xh"?v"Kb
ch{ea qh;k. c{qh'npd'gh Vctf`ahEb. qh;py'gh?chC|b. ch;Ujt.
VuNh k'z;lh Ah[ puAhhdhs[y t;pnch;ut fakhqhkh Zupd@h;pws
f;ayh. sh; qh;kut[y puAhhdsMhyh pAhMhyh fa[ dhj[, rhih[ Ghh!h[
fa%d Hh;mrhvsfahj[ u;M Cty;yh dUjsh.
u:Ahhpdfa[ fa@hhih[ f{adh;w[? fahih;ih; chutmh, Ah[ qhbd zhqh}d
Cnu}d pzy;. uhTrhihh s[u` Ahhth k]% Ohhyh. zh;Dj[ jhs ut fa%d
Vfah OhbFrhsih Ah[, whryb?k[bih; voh;Flhd j+ny ch;Ny;.
cd- Srh k[bkfab puAhhdhqhhj;t CHhnRh chfahlhhs e;afayh
gh;yh; Ah[. chZhhtj[d. k[b lh'Qht kuhlh; e}ab ut gh;y[. ut ohhsh?ohhsh
z}t?z}t jh;s @hmhhZh" xhh'qhy[ u Ahgh ygh;ih cpZhfahpZhfa s[u` u;ghhd;
Ghhy[ ohhC| yhghy[. Cyb[?whyb[ jh;s, zghn?Zhh;nRhkhtGh[ Ghhy[
'
wn} yhghy[. chfahlhhs}d s]b}d wny;Yrh VGhhh CYf;akhtGhh, Ah[
Ghhy[ fah;kM} yhghyh;.
johht..... zh;d johht..... ihht johht.... kjh johht... zjh johht
e}ab Ghhy[..... chpmh VfazAh Vfa Ohbfah qhkyh cd- w{thlh}b
CHhny;. Ghhy[ fah;kMmrhihh s[u` u;gh Ah'zhuyh u Ah[ jM}jM} Cs%
yhghyh;, w{thlh}birh khjh$rhd;.
Cstsh?Cstsh Ah[ ut[y w{thlh}bfan; whpjy;. pdMRh chfahlhhirh
whlu"Qh}Ah[ut Vfa d@h[zht wh'Nt; e}ay CAhyy;y; jh;s;.
AhhOh; puAhhd AhhOrhpudh fahj[ @hmh sk;ih chwh;chw Cns thpjy;
chpmh d'st VfazAh w;b Hh;C|d z}tirh Vfh plhGhthut fah;kM}d
QhKAhkhs Ohhy;. ih}t?ih}t Ohhy;. thGh?thGh Ohhy[ puAhhdhih[. chgh[irh
yh;MhAh]M; pd puKeah;bhAh]M; plhGhthut[y xhh;nh qhe"a pusM}d, s;xh;
Vfa fahMkt pBwfah wny;yh jh;sh.
orh pdmhh"rfa @hmhh's pdrs[ cd;fa u:Ahhpdfah'irh oh[udhihh
lh;ub fats;, Srh @hmhhs w]doh"DAh Ohhyh jh;sh AhhOhh. shSw]ts; fah
jh;v"dh, duoh[ud pAhMhy; jh;s; Ahyh. Ah[ w{thlh}bd; Ghhy[
Cstsh?Cstsh puihht fats jh;sh;. wmh chsh w]N; fahr pyj}d
B;uy; jh;s; pdrs[d', fah;mh ohhmh;
kh;khbRhirh uhTrhd' w{thlh}b j;yfahu; Ghhs jh;s;. ktM Ghhy[ d
Cstsh, uhTrhirh pzlh;d; pstw' uhjs ihhyy; jh;s'. f]aB; ohhC|d
Cstmhht Ah[, fahj[ faYwdh r;s dUjs[.
Ghhy[ z}tut wkty;y; Ngh jh;s; chpmh Srhs}d AhZh}dih nh;fahumhht[

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Ah[. Ghtihbs jh;s;, Ah]fah Ahht qhks jh;sh.

lht[t xh'n[d; qhZh[t Ohhy;y;. SrhAh]M; Ghtihbmh; u Ahht ohhmhus
dUjsh. Nghh'ihh xht chyh. fah;yAhnsih Nghh'irh xhthGhhy[ Hhkts
gh;yh; Ah[. Ghhy[ whC|k k]% jh;sh. Hhkts?Hhkts ch;NRhirh
pfadht[ ohhC|d fah;kMyh; Vfazhihh. chGhn}d gh;y; jh;s; kht; lht[t.
kuh=ghh'ut wRh ck}dj[, Ghtihby; jh;s,; Ah]Frh Ahhthd; c'gh z]Ghhuy;
jh;s;. !hhmhih Cty; dUjs; c'ghhs.
chnh;lhhd; qhkyh;. Vf;afa fa%d khTrh wRh jM}jM} Ah[ kh;nYrh.
fahj[st[ fa%d xhh;n[ chgh w;buhryh ju[ jh;s[ chsh. C|qh ju[
jh;s[. lh;fahryh ju; jh;s;. Eyhv=ghk}birh chs[y pGhlhhs yhrbt
jh;sh. sh; fahNyh. zjh?u[k u;Mh w`rSd fa%d orh;s w;buy[. wmh
ohhMmrhkhB[ fah;tn; fahj[ih dUjs; ohuMwhk. wRh ch;Yrhih
Ohhy;Yrh jh;Srh. ch;NRhfahBirh fahnRh?f]abFrh, whyh?whihh;Mhj[
ch;yhih jh;sh. cihhdfa y@hhs chy;. whrhohuMirh WyhpKbfairh
pGhlhhs dfahlh; jh;s;. s; fahNy;. k]z:uhd; dfahlh; fah;tn;ih jh;s;.
Vfast u:Ahhpdfah'khB[ cky;Yrh rh dfahlhhs, qhht[fa?kht[fa
dz[?dhy; chpmh Ih;bRh?Ahh;BRh uKSrh, jh swlh[y dUjsh.... cdlh;ub[ ch;Yrhpih'qh cuKxh;s xh'n[d; f]anf]ans Ahtmrhw;@hh, dfahlh;
ohhMy;y;ih fahr uhv"b
dfahlh; ohhM}d jhswhr lh;f}ad Hh;sy; Ah[. ihht?zh;d @hmh qht;
uhby;. xhh;nhkh oh[uhs oh[u chyh. st[j[ cghz[ ghpysghh!hih
Ohhyh; jh;sh; c'gh chsh ohhKs Bmhf}a yhghy;. Ghtihby;Yrh ohhgh[
chgh jh;C| yhghy[. lh;faYrhd; tFshpQhktmh w]Djh ohh;ths k]% Ohhy;
jh;s;. qhZh[twmhh gh;yh jh;sh. khTrh z]GhTrh ohhpmhuh, u;zdh VfazAhih
ohhgh_s OhhYrh jh;Srh. sMAhMs jh;sh; Ah[ d]ksh..... wmh coh}dj[ Ah[
pohu's jh;sh;, j;ih Gh}w jh;s;
slhhih ghpysghh!h cuKxh;s, ch;NRhirh fahBhfahBhd;, uhjSrh
whmrhirh pzlh;d; ihhy} yhghyh;. Vf;afa whC|y AhmhhAhmhh'ih; Ohhy;y;
jh;s;. @hmhh;@hmh[ fah;yAhns?fah;kMs jh;sh;
c'gh shwhd; eamheamh}d r;s jh;s;. nh;f;a ghtghtYrhkhtGh; uhbs
jh;s;. whuyh;whuy[ z;uhih; dhu Hh;s, famjs?f]'axhs, CBs?wns,
fanAhns?Zhnwns, th'ghs?Hhkbs ohhs, fakhqhkh uhjSrh whmrhirh
pzlh;d; ohhsh?ohhsh, dz[pfadht[ wh;jihyh;. c'Zhhts jh;s; fa[
nh;MRh'kAhh;t c'Zh;t[ r;s jh;s[ fahj[ faMy; dhj[. dz[pfadht[
fahj[ whuy; w]N; ohhshih nh;f;a s[u` ghtghty;. cuHhh chkAh's
QhthQhth peatyh Qhh;us[ cd- dz[pfadht[irh wu"shirh whrxrhlh[ih
Ah[ gyhd[ r;C|d fah;kMyh;.
..... nh;M; CHhny; s;Ujh nh;MRh'kAhh;t c'Zhht jh;sh. jM}jM} c'Zhhthyh
kthuy; nh;M;. Ah[ Vfah Ohh;wn[irh chs jh;sh;. fah;wTrhs ih}y
w;by;y[ jh;s[. ih]y[ut fahj[st[ plhohs, GhzGhzs jh;s;. Ohh;wn[
Zh]thd; Qhty;y[ jh;s[. ohuMih Vfa pzuh pAhmhpAhmhs jh;sh.
ih;jTrhut kjK\huZh[ k]tf]aSrh cky;y[, Vfa u_ chpzuhk[
K!h[, AhhOrhfan; th;Gh}d whjs jh;s[. psirh lh;ohht[ih Vfa chpzuhk[
st|mh[ jh;s[. chwy; k]'zt qhzhAh[ nh;M; psd; AhhOrhut th;Ghy; jh;s;.
pAhmhpAhmhSrh pzUrhirh yuyuSrh orh;s[ih[ y]fay]fas[ w`pspqh'qh;,
psirh Kd;jy drdhs s;us jh;s[. Ah[ nh;M; CHhnYrhihh Srh
zh;Hh['dhj[, Gh}wih chd'z Ohhy;yh pzks jh;sh.
AhhOh; c'gh shwhd; eamheamhy;y;ih jh;s;, z]Ghs jh;s;, ckjR u;zdh

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kh;ny; Ah[. w{thlh}b lh'Qht?kUuhlh; e}ab z}t ohhC|d pAhby; u xhh'qhy;.

chsh Ah[ ohth wFFrh qheah"ut jh;sh;. wmh w]N; w]Djh Qh]kQh]lh[s qhe"a
pzks jh;sh.
pdrs[d; khxh pzy[ Ajmh}dih AhhOrh w`rSdh'dh rlh chy; jh;s;.
d]ks; w{thlh}b uhTrhd; ch;Ny; gh;Yrhd; pdHhhyh; dksh; Ah[ qheah"qhhj;t
chpmh AhhOrh d]kSrh w`rSdh'd[ st qheah"s Zhksih ihhyyh; jh;sh;.
Ah[ cpZhfahpZhfa
AhhOrh c'zhohhw`Ahhmh; Ah[ ksth?cBth johht e]abh'ut jh;sh;. C~ht?w}u"
pjAhhyrhs[y Vfah qheah"iIhpzs wu"shirh Cshthut. pAhlAh[ wjhnh'ihh
puQhhgh jh;sh jh. ohuMih psqh;bih; ohghhs[y kuh;"iih wBht k]% jh;s
jh;s;.
fahr fathu; f]amh[fan; ohhu; fahj[ kAhohs dUjs; Ahyh. fahj[
k]ihs dUjs;...
AhhOhh lh;ubihh k'z;lh qh;kirh puAhhdsMhyh pAhMhyh ck;y fah
Ahyh lhh;Zhhryh oht[ chy[ puAhhd', st[ Srh'dh Ah[ khwn;d fah
orh pBfahmhhj}d Ah[ lh;ubihh k'zlh Zupd@h;pws f;ayh, Srh pBfahmhhj}d
;
Gh}w z}t ohhC|d fah;kMy; jh;s; puAhhd. w{thlh}bj[ uhTrhd; uhjs?uhjs
u;ghMRhih pzlh;yh qht;ih z}t r;C|d wh;jh;ihy; jh;s;. clhhs chAhih[
puAhhd' chy[ st[ Srh'dh AhhOhh lhh;Zh Hh;mh' eahtih faB[mh jh;s;.
w{thlh}b wh'Nt; ckYrhd; qheah"irh whlu"Qh}Ah[ut pzkmh; lhFrih dUjs;.
thGhhn[ t'ghhihh AhhOhh Eyhv=gh?k}bj[ qheah"s qh]ihfaM}d pdHhhYrhd;
u qhe"a pihfabYrhd; wh'Nthih Ohhyh jh;sh. AhohohuM z]kt; fahj[
pdlhhmhj[ dUjs;.
rhihh cxh" rhs}d k]bf;akhB[ AhhOh[ Ahyhih fahj[st[ Zhnwn
fathryh ju[ jh;s[. dhj[st r;xh;ih ghh;B}d Ahtmh; w`hWs jh;s;. Ah[
cZh"ub CQhh thpjyh;. kQhh;ushy[ whpjy;. qhe"aih qhe"a jh;sh ku"!h u
CQhh Csht. ihhymh; lhFrih dUjs;. zh;d?s[d johht e}ab Ghhy[,
whukhirh Nghh'ihh Vfa s]bfa xht jh;sh. whih?kjh johht e}ab
Ghhy}d oh'ghy k]% jh;s jh;s;. oh'ghyhirh fan;d;, pusMYrh qheah"ih;
whmh[ kss uhpjYrhd;, Vfa ch;Nh srht Ohhyh jh;sh.
ch;NRhirh uhjSrh whmrhirh pzlh;d; Ghhy[ gh;yh;, st VGhhh
dz[yh ohhC|d pAhMmrhih[ lhFrsh jh;s[ u dz[irh pfadht[?pfadht[
w]N; gh;yh; st VGhhh uKs[ohuM ohhC|d wh;jih;d Ah[ Ah[ puihht
f;ayh. chsh rhs}d k]bf;aih[ j[ih Vfa chlhh jh;s[.
c'Zhht wnhrirh chsih wh;jh;ihhryh ju; jh;s;. th!hQht r;xh;
qheah"s wn}d thjmh; clhFrih jh;s;. chpmh th!h oh'ghyhs fahNhrih[,
j;j[ lhFr dUjs;.
w{thlh}b Ghhyirh qhhoh}yh jh;s;. Ah[ w{thlh}b eahny; chpmh Srhirh
wRh qhduYrh. nh;Frhyh qhh'ZhYrh, faAht;Ghhy[ whlu"Qhhghhut ohhnoh}n
xht qhh'Zh}d Hh;syh. jhshwhrhut qhh'Zh}d Hh;sYrh. cghz[ kuh=ghhut
qh+n;oh;kkhtGrh qhh'Zh}d Hh;sYrh.
wu"sh'ih; zh;d Csht pAhMs jh;s;, s;xh; utwhk}d Ghhywr=s Vfa
Hhktgh]'n[ srht Ohhy[ jh;s[. s;xhut Ah[ fakhqhkh wh;jh;ihyh; u
Ghhy[ Hhkthryh k]t|uhs f;ay[. wpjy; ihht?kjhlh; e}ab st c@htlh
Cns?CkMsih jh;sh; Ah[. Csht xhh;nh kwhb jh;shih, w]Djh Hhk%
yhghyh;. AhZh;ih qhe"a Qh]kQh]lh[s ckhrihh s;xh; pf'apihs Zhks gh;Yrhd;,
Hhkthrihh u;gh AhZh}dih faAh[ Ujhrihh u chuhFrhs tjhrihh.
Cns?CkMs, fah;yAhns?B;ihfahMs Ghhy[ Hhkts ihhyyh; jh;sh;

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uhngh; sh; ' n hyh yhu} d Ah[ Vfa Hh] b fah Hh; s yh.
ch'qhb?s]tb?Ghhtb?fanub fahj[st[ pupih!h ihu jh;s[ Srh z`uhih[.
ciIh j:, qhj]s ciIh Ah[ th;f]aAhyh Ajby;..... chpmh uhnghh
sh;'nhyh yhu}d ku" HhbhHhb pwC|d bhfayh, Vfah zAhhs, Hhlhhs
ohMohMs sh; z`u wh;bhs gh;yh chpmh Ahgh VfazAh Gh}w?Gh}w qht; uhb}
yhghy;. VfazAh chd'z[ cd- CSkhj[ Ohhyh;. AhhOrh Ahhghh;Ahhgh
kuh=d[ chwhwy; uhngh; ptfahAh; f;ay;.
cqh Ghhdh Ghhch; th;f]aAh Ajmhhyh.
jh+. Ah[ C~htyh;.
kAhh;t Ghhryh st fahj[ih pzks dUjs;. Qhhohy;Yrh Ahh'khihh
uhk Ahh!h r;s jh;sh. Ohh;wn[s Zh}tj[ Gh}w Qhty;yh jh;sh. Vfah
qhhoh}yh fah;wTrhs puKsu w;by;yh jh;sh. Srhut fakyh st[ Ohhnwhyh
ohMs jh;sh. rh Zh]thd; luhk Ahh!h fah;'ns dUjsh.
Ghhdh Ghhch; th;f]aAh w]Djh Ajmhhyh.
jh+ Ah[ w]Djh C~htyh;.
wmh chsh Ahh!h Ah[ w]tshih ghh;'ZhMyh; jh;sh;. kAhh;t Ghhryh st
fahj[ih pzks dUjs;. Ah[ ghh;'ZhM}d gh;Yrhih; th;f]aAhirh u ku"
chpzuhk[ Ah'nM['irh y@hhs chy; u s; cghz[ Ahdhwhk}d GhzGhz}d
jk} yhghy;.
jAh ohhdsh. s]Ahfah; Ahhy}Ah dj[. Zh[t;?Zh[t; kqh k[Gh;ghh sh;
Ajmhhyh. d'st ut vlhhth fats sh; Ajmhhyh, Cwt z;Ghh;.
Ah[ ut whpjy;. ut Vfa Zh}n bh'ghy;y; jh;s;. Qhhohy;Yrh thdn]fathih;
Vfa Zh}n, Ohh;wn[irh Ishyh bh'ghy;y; jh;s;.
th;f]aAhd; jhs ut fa%d Zh]nhihh Vfa yihfah sh;nyh u Ahyh
pzyh. Ghhch; sh; Ajmhhyh. Gh]z yh;, ch:t Ghhch;.
pAhBhihh Vfa yhfan[ uhnghh AhZhh;AhZh B;umrhs chyh. kuh=d[
QhthQht utirh Zh]nhih; yihf;a sh;ny; u Ah[B yhu}d GhhC| yhghy;.
th;fa] Ah chpzuhk[ QhhLh;s kuh=dh fahj[st[ Ajmhhyh. w'ghs[yh khufahlh
jh;C| h Ah'nM[ Ajmhshs sk; Ah[z;Gh[y coh}d zh;d?s[d yihf;a
sh;n}d Ah[B yhu}d GhhYy;.
oh;umh OhhYrhut Ah[ th;f]aAhyh puihhty;, Ahyh r;xh}d AhhOrh
puAhhdsMhyh k'z;lh whBuhrihh chj;. s]Ahihh fah;mh[ Ahhmh}k k'z;lh
Hh;C|d ohhC| lhf;ay fahr
jh; sh; Ajmhhyh. faKs]t[ pufamrhkhB[ chAhihh Vfa Ahhmh}k
Ch r;xh}d pdHhmhht chj;. sh; j; ku" wu"s ch;yh'n}d, QhUr q\Ajw]!hh
wht fa%d chkhAhhs ohhsh;. s;xh}d r;shdh Ah[B, fawn; vSrhz[
chmhsh;, wmh Srhyh r;xh}d s;xhut wh;jihmrhk Vfa Ahpjdh yhghsh;.
fahj[ jtfas dhj[. Ah[ Ajmhhyh;, yhghyh st yhghyh.
chpmh VfazAh AhhOrh y@hhs chy; Ah[ih ohhv"d Srh Ahhmhkhqhth;qht,
Ah[ th;f]aAhyh kh'pghsy;.
uhb eaht cuHhn chj;. s} ohhC| lhfamhht dhj[. uhb;sih
Ahtlh[y. lhh'swmh; qhh;ys, AhhOrhfan; qhHhs, sh; chw]yfa[d; Ajmhhyh.
s} coh}d w}mh" qhth Ohhy;yh dhj[k. chAj[ s]yh ohhC| z;mhht dhj[.
s} eaFs k'z;lh z;.
poh fatmrhs, j Zhtmrhs fahj[ cxh" dUjsh. Srhih; Ajmhmh;
Ght; jh;s;. cuHhn uhb;ihh cd]Qhu Ahyh jh;shih. Ah[ w}mh"wmh; qhth
Ohhyh; dUjsh;ih.
jptmhhirh fahsn[ut pzUrhirh fahohM[d; pyj}d pzyh Ah[ k'z;lh

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jh;s jh;Srh. AhhOhh Eyhv=gh?k}b fahN}d Srh'd[ AhhOrh kuh=ghh'ut

fakyh st[ whyh?whihh;Mh qhh'Zhy;yh jh;sh. Gh}w chgh jh;s jh;s[.
Ah[ xhh;n[ jhyihhy fatshih, Srh zh;Hh['d[ Ahyh CBu}d qhkpuy;.
ih]y[ut[y Qhh'n; fahNy;. Srhs[y CfaMsh z`hu uhngrhs ch;syh u
sh; uhnghh Ahyh pzyh.
uhngrhs}d pdHhmhhTrh uheah ih;jTrhut chYrh. Gh}w qht; uhby;.
dhfahs plhohy;Yrh Ahh'khihh gh'Zh plhtyh. nh;Frhs pQhdyh. Qh}fa
cdhut Ohhy[ jh;s[. chZhhlhhkhtGh; pwC|d bhfay; Ah[ s; ku".
Ahh'khih; s]fan; ihhu}d?ihhu}d GhhC|d bhfay;. uhnghh ptfahAhh Ohhyh.
Ajhsht[ u st|mh[, zh;Hh['irh ih;jTrhut kAhhZhhd pzky;. Ahyh
w]Djh gyhd[ chy[. nh;f;a ohn Ohhy; u Ah[ Ohh;w[ gh;yh;.
khs pzuk ck;ih gh;y;. chBUrh pzulh[ Ah[ qhth Ohhyh;. xhh;nh
pj'n}?pea% yhghyh;. uKs[s[y kuh=lh[ Qh;b[ghhB[ jh;C| yhghYrh.
uKs[s[y ku" chpzuhk[ Ah'nM[ Gh}wih chpsxrlh[y jh;s[.
th;f]aAh pAhdrh+gh jh uKs[ihh w`Ah]Gh jh;sh. z]kTrh Ahjhr]hirh u;M[,
Qhhts[r k:Drhs[y Vfa k:pdfa jh;sh sh;. d'st vfan; chwYrh
ohAhhs[s wts chyh u uhNSrh urh;Ahhdhw`Ahhmh; pAhMhy;Yrh
cd]Qhu?kAh_s;Ah]M;, uKs[w`Ah]Gh Ohhyh jh;sh. r]hirh Srh fahMhs
sh; pj'z[?v'g\oh[ plhfay;yh jh;sh. coh}d pukty;yh dUjsh.
zjhUrh pzulh[ th;f}aAhd; AhhOh[ Qh;b Hh;mrhkhB[, Ahyh oh;uhurhk
qhh;yhuy;. Ah[ Srhirh Ohh;wn[s wh;jihyh;. vst chpzuhk[ Ah'nM['irh
Hhh;MFrhs qhkyh jh;sh sh;. Ahyh whjshih CB}d chyh u Srhd;
AhhOh; Kuhghs f;ay;. Ohh;wn[ fakYrh st[ Zh]thd; Qhty[ jh;s[.
jAh th;f]aAh, th;f]aAh. rjh+ fah Ah]pGhrh, Srhd; Kusih[ ch;MGh
fa%d pzy[. cKuyhirh fahsn[ihh Vfa Qhyh Ahh;Bh fah;b Srhd;
Hhhsyh jh;sh. nh;Frhut fah;YjRhirh fahsnRhih[ bh;w[ jh;s[. ghMRhs
t|z`h@hh'ih[ AhhM u AhhM;yh k]MRhkfab uhHhhihh ohqhnh, yh{f;ab
Ajmh}d yhuy;yh jh;sh. Srhd; puihhty;, s]Ah fah:d
Ah: clhh;fa. clhh;fa whryb. whryb? Vcteah;k". Ah[ Kusih[
ch;MGh fa%d z;s Ajby;. AhhOhh Eyhv=ghk}bih Hhhsy;yh jh;sh Ah[.
Srh st|mh[d; Zh]u}d uhMu}d B;uy;yh.
clhh;fa... whryb... Vcteah;k" sh; puihht fats Ajmhhyh u
Ahgh Srhd; AhhOrhfan; th;Gh}d whjhs puihhty;, ohjhoh pfaZht, vZht
s]Ah f:akh chrh
ohjhoh Ghthqh.... chgh ygh[.... pght ghrh.... Ah:' f}azh w{thlh}b
k;...... wjhn w; pghth. pdih; chrh. peat vZht chrh... Ah[ Srhyh
kAhoh;ylhh s]bfa QhhLh;s ku" kh'pghsy;.
jh'.... jh'.... jh'.... chwYrhyh ku" kAhohy; clhh cxhh"d; sh;
Ahhd jyus Ajmhhyh. Srhd; qhhoh}irh, th'ohmhhkhtGrh Vfah Qhh'nRhs
uhngh; qh]nuy; chpmh Srhs[y z`uhd; fahBh;fahB Qhty;yh sh; uhnghh
AhhOrhkAhh;t Zhtyh.
jAh s]Ah zh;Ks sh; Ajmhhyh pwch;, cwh+gh pwch;.
chpzuhk[ QhhLhh'ihh u ihhy[t[s['ihh Ah[ xhh;nh cQrhk f;ay;yh
jh;sh. shfahkhtGrh z`uhd; fahBh;fahB Qhty;yh sh; uhnghh Srh
kuh=irh Ah:!h[ih; u chpsxrlh[ys;ih; w`s[fa jh;s;.
Ah[ sh; uhnghh jhshs Hh;shih. th;f]aAhd; u vst kuh=d[ chwhwy[
uhngh[ QhthQht Srh th'ohmhhs qh]nu}d Qh%d Hh;sy[. chpmh s; AhhOh[
uhb whj} yhghy;.

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yhghy[ jh;s[. pAhd[ih; st Ahdih ohny; jh;s; AhhOrhut th;f]aAhih[j[

qhj]zh jtfas dUjs[.
pAhd[ u psirh Ah:p!hmh[ dz[pfadht[ ohyf`a[nh fats ckshdh
Srh'irh c'ghhut Ahh;BRhd; eamhfahts?e]aSfahts, ohh;thd; ihhy}d chy;Yrh,
cSr's puLhht[ clhh AhjhQh]oh'ghhyh zghnhd; B;ih}d fahNy; jh;s;
chpmh uKs[s[y yjhd Ah]yh'irh Hhh;MFrhut ihhy}d chy;Yrh
thdn]fathih[ QhhYrhd; plhfaht fa%d Ah[ Srh'dh uhihuy; jh;s;.
rh zh;d w`k'ghh'd[ uKs[s[y AhhOh[ ws uhNy;y[ jh;s[. th;f]aAhyh,
Ajhsht[yh u pulh;Lhs pAhd[yh AhhOhh eahtih cpQhAhhd uhbs jh;sh.
AhjhQh:tuhirh plhGhthut Hh;C|d ohhmhht chj; Ah[ s]yh Vfazh s[
Ajmhhy[ jh;s[. chpmh Ajmh}dih chAj[ choh vxh; rh plhGhthut
chyh; jh;sh;, Ah[ qhth jh;mrhkhB[ psd; f;ay;Yrh dukhyh AhjhQh:tu
whuyh Ajmh}d
Ah[ Ghhy[ whpjy;. wu"shirh whrxrhlh[ dz[pfadht[ uKs[ jh;s[.
z[n?zh;d Ahpjd; Ohhy; jh;s;, Ahyh rh uKs[s r;C|d. faKs]t[
pufahryh gh;y;Yrh Srh Ahhmhkhqhth;qht whBuy;yh sh; k'z;lh pAhMhyh
ck;y fah AhhOrh qh;kirh puAhhdsMhyh r;s[y fah s; Ahyh
Hrhryh wmh fak; r;s[y zt[ vsfa[ ct'|z jh;s[ fa[ r;xh;
j;pyfah{Wbt Cstmh;j[ lhFr dUjs;. wts[ih[ uhb Ahhj[s dUjs[.
Ahhj[s Ohhy[ st[ Gh}w cuHhn jh;s[. AhpjDrhQhthih[ s[ uhb, Ah[
VfabRhd; s]npumh; lhFrih dUjs;. uKs[irh yh;fah'd[j[ ohhC|ih pzy;
dks; Ahyh. pAhd[d; st dhj[ih dhj[ pAhd[yh z]Ghuhrih; st[ fak;,
kh'ghhrih; st[ fak;, kAhohuhurhih; st[ fak;
AhhZrhDj[ihh k}r" nh;Frhut sMws jh;sh. ghz" ghpjt; pdM; chfahlh
ut wh'Hhty;y; jh;s;.... Qh:tuhirh pw'n[kAhh;t ZrhdKxh qhky[ jh;s[
pAhd[. nh;M; pAhby;y; jh;s;. C|t Zhwhwmh; chsh xhh'qhy;y; jh;s;.
faAhMhut wny;Yrh zuhkhtGh;, Ku;zpqh'z} psirh chtFs ih;jTrhut
ihAhfas jh;s;. w`kDd chpmh lhh's pzks jh;s[ psih[ Ah]z`h. psd; nh;M;
CHhn}d Kd;jhz`" doht;d; AhhOrhfan; whpjy;. Ah[ psirhfan;ih qhHhs
jh;sh;. s[ jky[. AhhOhh jhs Zhts CBy[ cd- Ajmhhy[, ihy
wts}rh chsh. chAj[ zh;Hh; uKs[s wtsyh;.
s]yh pAhd[ chuns; fah k'ZrhfahM[ th;f]aAhd; Ahyh puihhty;.
Ajhsht[ u pAhd[ chnh;lhhyh CQrh jh;Srh. AhhOh; C~ht V;famrhk
CSk]fa. oh[uhih; fahd fa%d
jh;.... wmh.... Ah[ C~htyh;.
qhk?qhk th;f]aAh chd'zhd; Ajmhhyh, w]Nih; chAj[ ku" whj}d
Hh;C| Ajhsht[yh u pAhd[yhj[ Gh}w chd'z Ohhyh. pAhd[d; st
chd'zhd; pAhB[ih Ahhty[ Ajhsht[yh. s[ th!h sMAhMsih fahNy[
Ah[.
pAhd[yh pd Ajhsht[yh fak' kh'ghhu' Ght' fahr s; th;f]aAhyh fak'
kh'ghhu' fa[ pAhd[ Ahyh chuns;, wmh ohDAhQht rh uKs[s thjmh;
lhFr dhj[ Ahyh. cd- Ajmh}dih psirhlh[ ygd fatmh;j[ lhFr
dhj[. Ah[ puihht fats wnyh; jh;sh;. Ohh;w r;s dUjs[. Ohh;wn[irh
z]kTrh fah;wTrhs Ajhsht[ u pAhd[ VfaAh;fa['dh pqhygh}d Ohh;wYrh
jh;Srh. Ohh;w;sih AhZh}dih jks jh;s[ pAhd[. fak' kh'ghhu' rh Ah]y[yh,
Ahyh s]Orhlh[ ygd fatmh' lhFr dhj[ Ajmh}d pfas[ f;ay' jh;s' psd'
AhhOrhkhB[ f;auNh oh[u yhu}d qhky[ jh;s[ s[
Ahdhs Vfa puihht chyh, pjyh r;xh}d Hh;C|d ohhu; chwYrhqhth;qht.

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u f]aB' hrihh s; kh'pghsy'. oh; c'st Ah[ puAhhdhd; w'ihu[k?s[k

pAhpdbhs wht fatsh;, s;xhut jh k'z;lh wh;jihmrhk w]th Ahpjdh
yhghmhht jh;sh.
Srh Ajhsht[d; u st|mh[d; AhhOh[ Gh}wih fahMoh[ Hh;sy[. Srh'irhAh]Mih
;
ohghyh;?uhihyh; Ah[, Ah[ th;f]aAhyh kh'pghsy;.
Ahhd jyus jyus, Ahdhwhk}d jkyh sh;. d'st Ahyh faMy;, s[
Ajhsht[ th;f]aAhih[ih qhhrfah; jh;s[ u s[ st|mh[ Srhih[ih Ah]ygh[. rh
uKs[s w]t|Lh faAh[ jh;s; u qhhrfah ohhKs. th;f]aAhirh kjh?khs
qhhrfah jh;Srh. w`Sr;fa[ih[ u;ghu;ghM[ Ohh;wn[. Srhih[ u;ghM[. chM[whM[d;
kuh=kh;qhs tjhrihh sh;, Srh?Srh Ohh;wn[s ohhC|d.
Ah[ r;xh; fakh chyh;, rhih[ fajhmh[ jM}jM} ku" uKs[s wh;jihy[.
ku" Ahyh r;C|d Qh;bs, f]as}jyhd; u chlihrh"d; AhhOrhfan; whjs,
qhh;ymrhihh w`rSd fat[s. jM}jM} Srh'ih[ QhhLhh Ahyh cughs jh;C|
yhghy[.
s[ st|mh[ Ahyh kss kh;qhs Hh;C|d pj'n} yhghy[. ohuMwhkihh
cuHhh wptkt Ah[ psirh kh;qhs whr[ pj'ns, wu"sh'ut ihNs?Csts
whpjyh. AhhOh[ k;uh?k](\}Lhh fa%d Ahyh uhihpuYrhd; Ajhsht[irh u
psirh Ah]y[ihh AhhOrhut cpZhfahtih jh;sh. Ah[ chfahlhhs}d chyh;
chj; j; faMshih Srh zh;Hh['dhj[ eahtih chd'z Ohhy;yh jh;sh.
fahtmh Ahh'p!hfahd; kh'pghsy; jh;s;, rh Ah]y[ihh ut, chfahlhhs}d
wu"shu%d Ghhy[ r;mhht chj; Ajmh}d.... chpmh Ah[ gyhd[ r;C|d
dz[pfadht[ fah;kMyh; jh;sh;, sh; d;Ahfah Qh:tuhih; plhGht cky;Yrh
wu"shihh whrxhh jh;sh. th;f]aAhirh Ahhmhkh'dh Ah[ s;xh; qh;lh]huKxh;s
khwnyh; jh;sh;. Srh'd[ Ahyh Cihy}d chmhy; jh;s.; th;fa] Ahirh chz;lhhu%d
Ajhsht[irh k]w}z" f;ay; jh;s;. zh;Hh['irh cputs (\Ahh'd[, Srh'd[ Ahyh
Ah_Sr}irh zhN;s}d ch;N}d fahNy;; jh;s;. Ah[ qhth Ohhyh; jh;sh;. th;f]aAh
pAhd[ Kusfan; pdz;lh fats s[ st|mh[ Ajmhhy[ jh;s[. t|pFAhmh[khtGhh
"
uhbyh Ahyh psirh dhuhihh Ciihht.
clhh;fa? Ah[ Kusih; dhu kh'pghsy; jh;s;.....clh]fa s[
w`rSd fats Ajmhhy[ jh;s[. clh]fa?falh]?falh]?falh]
psd; pfalh] Ajmhshih ihAhfayh;ih Ah[. s[ t|pFAhmh[ chpmh Ah[ pfalh}
cj' Ah[ Ahhd jyus Ajmhhyh; clh}?clh}?clh}.
psirhkhB[ Ah[ AhhOh; dhu kh;w; f;ay;y; jh;s;.
clh}?clh} s[ d[b Ciihhts, chd'zhd; Ajmhhy[ jh;s[.
jM}jM} chAjh' zh;Hhh'ih[ QhhLhh VfaAh;fah'dh kAhoh} yhghy;y[ jh;s[.
chAhih[ Gh}w Ah:!h[ Ohhy;y[ jh;s[. Ah[ psyh pAhd[ u s[ Ahyh clh}
Ajmh} yhghyh; jh;sh;.
Ah[ psihh VGhhzh cAh}Yr B;uh ckYrhkhtGh[ ohwhrih[ s[ Ahyh.
chw]yfa[ihh cpZhfaht ghhohuhrih[. oh'ghyhs ohhC|d plhfaht fa%d
chmhhryh kh'ghhrih[. dz[ut ohhC|d AhhkMRh wfan}d chmhhryh
kh'ghhrih[. vst chpzuhk[ Ah'nM[kh;qhs ohhC|d, j[ fahAh; Ah[
plhfayh; jh;sh;. pAhd[ u psirh chv"irh Hhtihh, fash" w]t|Lh Ohhyh;
jh;sh; Ah[. chsh th;f]aAhyhj[ j; chuny;y; jh;s;. Vfah qhhrfah;yh u
psirh Ah]y[yh cDd w]tpumrhih[ Srhih[ ohqhhqhzht[, Srhd; AhhOrhut
bhfay;y[ jh;s[. Ah[ oh[ fahj[ plhfaht Hht[ chmhhrih[ s[ plhohu}d,
Ahyh fa%d Hhhyhrirh u d'st Kus Ghhrirh. th!h[ nhkh'ihh,
pihybh'ihh, pfanRh'ihh !hhk jh;C| dr; Ajmh}d, Ohh;wn[s fakYrhlhh
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jtwpumhht; k}t, rh'd[ uhshutmh Urhwy;. ih'z`hirh ihh'zmrhs pih'qh

Ohhy;yh jh;sh cuHhh chkAh's.
ihh'zmrhs DjhC|d pdHhhy[ jh;s[ pAhd[ih[ cuHh[ fahrh. s[j[
dhihs jh;s[. yhy gh]yhqh[ c'ghfah's[ ckmhht; psih; yuyus; lht[t,
cpgdf]'anhs w`oupys Ohhy;Yrh ouhy;khtGh; pzks jh;s;. cpslhr
Ahdh;jt, cSr's chfaLh"fa pzks jh;s[. psih[ koh[u d_SrAhgd
chf_as[ pAhd[. KuWd uhbs jh;s; ku".
pAhd[ ghhs jh;s[.....
Ah:d;d; thHh}yh
eaMh'irh udhs d;y;
d;y; jh;d;y;

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wmh rhqhy cw`Sr@h ihh:falh[ chZh[ih f;ay[ jh;s[ Ah[ pAhd[ohuM,

th;f]aAhohuM, Ajhsht[ohuM, ohhurhd; khkt[ thjmrhih[ ws[ jh;s[
rh yh;fah'AhZr;. Ah]ygh[ uKs[qhhj;t u ohAhhs[qhhj;t whBus dks j;
yh;fa. pK!hrh'ih[ k'Grh ohhKs ck}dj[.
fah;mhSrhj[ K!h[yh pf'auh w]t|Lhhyh uKs[qhhj;t whBumh;, jh Vfa
Hhh;t cwAhhd kAhohyh ohhs jh;sh psihh pf'auh Srhihh. VGhhh
Qhr'fat cwthZhhqhy VGhhhyh ohhs[qhhj;t fahNs, s;Ujhih s[
UrFs[ uKs[ u ohAhhs kh;n}d ohhs ck;. ygd;j[ chwhwkhsih jh;s
cks Srh'ih[. Ah[ qhhj;tihh ck}dj[, rh z[n?zh;d AhpjDrhs rh
uKs[ihhih Ohhyh; jh;sh;. Ahh'p!hfahd; sk; kh'pghsy;y; jh;s;. Srhd;
pAhd[khB[ oh; QhpusUr us"puy; jh;s;, Srhsj[ Ah[ qhks jh;sh;.
Qh]oh'ghhirh chpmh thdn]fathirh w`k'ghh'Ah]M; AhhOrhqhy kuh=dh chzt
uhbs jh;sh. Qh:tuhih; plhGht cky;Yrh wu"shirh whrxrhlh[ Ah[
khwnyh; jh;sh;. rhs pdplihsih fahj[ z:u[ k'f;as chj; ck; kuh=dh
uhbs jh;s;. Ajmh}dih uKs[s[y fah;mhhih[j[ rh ygdhyh jtfas
dUjs[. wmh Srh'dh kuh=dh Ah[ ohDAhQht s;xh; Srh uKs[sih, ohAhhs[sih
juh jh;sh; chpmh j;ih lhFr dUjs;. Srh'irh z_Lb[d; ku" B[fa jh;s;.
wmh AhhOh; fahr
Ah[ Ohh;wn[qhhj;t chyh;. ihh'zmh[ th!h jh;s[. dz[ GhMhM}d uhjs
jh;s[. Qh:tuhih; plhGht ihh'zmrhd; CohMy;y; jh;s;. dz[pfadht[ ohhC|d
qhkyh; Ah[. oh[ud uhjs; ckhu;, GhMhMs; ckhu;. Vfah pBfahmh[
xhh'qhy;y;, khihy;y; dkhu;. dz[khtGh;, ch;NRhkhtGh; ckhu;,
nqhFrhkhtGh; dkhu;, AhhOrh Ahdhs puihht chyh.
pdHh}d ohhu; fah ch~hhih, f]amhhyh d kh'ghsh, d Qh;bsh w]N; oh;
jh;v"y s; whpjy; ohhv"y wmh Kuslh[ih puihht fats jh;sh; wmh
dhj[. jh Qrhnwmhh Bt;y, f_asHdsh Bt;y. KwLb kh'ghhu; kuh=dh
kAhohhu}d chpmh Ahghih ohhu;. wmh ohhmhht st[ f]aB' wpjyh t;pnch;utihh
k'zlh pAhMhyh fa[ dhj[ qh;kyh, f]amhhk BhC|fa faKs]t[ pufamrhkhB[
;
gh;y;yh Ahhmh}k, sh; st[ k]Gh%w wh;jihyh ck;y fah wu"shqhhj;t,
q\Ajw]!h;wy[fan;. AhhOhh z]kth k'z;lh st[ pAhMhyh ck;y fah qh;kirh
puAhhdsMhut fahr jh;s' dplhqh[ f]amhhk BhC|fa Ahd pZhh
Ohhy;y' jh;s'. fahr fathu' fahj[ faMs dUjs'. wts Ohh;wn[s
ohhC|d, Ohh;wmrhirh w`rSdhs skhih sMAhMs wnyh; Ah[ th!hQht.
z]kTrh pzulh[, pzukQhthirh srht[d'st pAhd[d; qhh;yy;Yrh dukhih;
ghhuoh;umh jh;s'.
th'ohmh' QhtQh%d cwh+gh jh;s[. yhfan[ uhngh; uhbmrhs chy;.
khAh}pjfa cwh+gh w`hlhdhihh kh;wKfaht Ohhyh. chpzuhk[ ghhufaTrh'kh;qhs
Ah[, plhfaht[yh ohhC|d, Ahh%d chmhy;y[ jtmh; u thdn]fat;, uKs[s[y
cpgdf]'anh'ut Qhhohy[ ohhs jh;s[. cpgdf]'anh'ihh Ah'z yhykt w`fahlh
uKs[s ku"!h wkty;yh jh;sh. Qhhohy;Yrh Ahh'khihh gh'Zh uhshutmhhs
ztuMs jh;sh. cwh+gh pwC|d, st'ghs ckYrhkhtGh; uhuts jh;s;
ku"ohmh.
ut chfahlh ihAhihAhmhhTrh shtfah'd[ e]ayy;y; jh;s;. ih'z`h;zrhk
coh}d u;M jh;sh. GhhC|dpwC|d AhKs Ohhy;y; jh;s; ku". Ah[z;Gh[y
Zh]'z[sih jh;sh;. cwh+gh nh;Frhs ohhC|d pQhdy[ jh;s[.
ih'z`h;zr Ohhyh. dhihghhmh[ k]% Ohhy[. shyhk]thut, B;Frhut
wzDrhk fat[s, yr[s dhih} yhghy[ ku" Ah'nM[. zrhirh shth
I;nmhht; k'gh[s k]% Ohhy;. u;n yhumhhth shy, Zh]'z, yr, Qhhd

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vxh; thpjyhk st, Ahyh Ku[fahtyk st

pAhd[... pAhd[ s}z;Gh[y Ahyh Gh}w?Gh}w chuns;k, s]Oh; cd's
Cwfaht chj;s AhhOrhut. Ah[ psyh Ajmhhyh; wmh.... wmh Ah[... Ah[
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