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bxcv 3

bxcv 4

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bxcv 5

bxcv 6

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bxcv 7

bxcv 8

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bxcv 9

bxcv 10

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bxcv 11

bxcv 12

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bxcv-aivi evev wkecmb GKUv jvnvi iW cyuZ iLwQjb| wekl wekl
w`em mLvb DoZv cvwKvbi cZvKv| meyR-mv`v, gvSLvb Puv`-Zviv
AuvKv| bxcv Zvi Kvjv Kvcoi UzKivUv iWi gv_vq eua w`jv|
bxcv ejj, gv G Avgv`i cwZev`, G Avgv`i kvKi cKvk|
bxcvi PvLgyL Dj Ges MbMb Avbi gZ Zxe cwZev`x Zvi K^i| Zvi
Aeqe| w`we DoZ _vKjv Kvjv cZvKv|
69-Gi 20k Rvbyqvwi QvbZv Avmv` cywjki wjZ wbnZ nj 24k
Rvbyqvwi MY-Afyvb w`em NvlYv Kiv nq| AvIqvgx jxMi Qq `dv Avi
me`jxq Qv msMvg KwgwUi GMvi `dvi mwwjZ Kgm~wPZ `yevi Av`vjb
Qwoq co QvmgvR| bxcv ivRkvnx miKvix KjRi Qvx| wgwQj Avi
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gv, Avwg AvR cwZev` wgwQj wMqwQjvg|
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mevBZ MQ gv, AvgviI hZ BQ KiwQjv|
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cvwKvbi ivhi wfZ Kuc IV| AvMi eQi 68-i wWm^i AvMiZjv
loh gvgjvq kL gywRemn ek wKQz bZv Avi evOvwj emvgwiK I mvgwiK
KgKZv KviveiY Kib| wK GB gvgjvi AmviZv Qv msMvg cwil` wVKB
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K` KiB| Avgiv h w`bwUi K_v ejwQ mwU 18B deqvwi| 69-Gi
20k Rvbyqvwi QvbZv Avmv` gviv hvb cywjki wjZ| 15B deqvwi
bxcv 13

AvMiZjv gvgjvi AbZg Avmvgx mvRU Rij nK mvgwiK ndvRZ ew`

Aevq wbnZ nb| 18B deqvwi wcq wkK W. kvgmyvnvK nvwiq
ivRkvnx hb gyn~Z iY ic bq|
wkecmb wdijb `ycyi|
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bxcv, hvI Kvjv cZvKvUv bvwgq Avbv|
bv, evev, IUv bvgvev bv evev| Avgiv mevB AvR kvK cvjb Kiev|
bxcv, hvI, hv evS bv, Zv wbq K_v eje bv| bvwgq Avbv cZvKv|
wbj `uvwoq _vK bxcv|
Avgiv h AvR kc_ wbqwQ, evev| AvR cZK evwoZ Doe Kvjv
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bxcv, Avwg klevii gZ ejwQ, Avgvi evmvq Zzwg G cZvKv ZzjZ cvie
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bg Gjv| wK Ni Avi XzKjv bv, DVvbi gvSLvb bviKj MvQi Zjvq
cZvKv nvZ wbq Vvq `uvwoq iBj| deqvwii m~h ZLb gv_vi Dci|
bxcvi gyL jvj| PvL w`q Mwoq coQ duvUv duvUv Ak| cvqi eyov
Avyj Ag va gvwU AuvPovQ| bxcvi `ynvZ cZvKvwU aiv|
bxcv, eySZ Pv Ki| Avwg miKvwi KgPvix| Kvb ^vaxb gZ cKvki
AwaKvi Avgvi bB| gv, Zzwg Ni Gm, Zzwg DVvbi gvSLvb cZvKv wbq
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KvUj| mv hLb cvLv weZ Kijv bviKji cvZvq, bxcv AKvi Ni
XyKjv| wkecmb evBi ewiq MQb Pv Lq|
igv fvZ gL LvIqvZ Mjb mvivw`bi Af~ bxcvK|
Kb cvMjvgx Kwim gv? Zvi evevK Zv wPwbm!
wkecmb ivRkvnx KjR evsjvi nW Ae& `v wWcvUgU| cyiv evsjv`k
wkecmb-igvi GKK GKwU cwievi| Zuv`i `yRbviB AvZxq-^Rb AbK
AvMB cvwo RwgqQb Icvi evsjvq|
bxcv Avi aiv wcQbi wews-Gi KvYvi Ni Gjv ivZ| mvo mvZ KvVv
Rwgi Dci GKZjv evwo wkecmbi| evwoUv `yB fvM wef| mvgb Rwg|
euv-cvk eVKLvbvi Ni| mB NiUvq wQj ARm eB| ewkifvM mgq e
_vKZ NiUv| Wvbw`K weivU GKUv wbgMvQ, wkecmb-igvi mLi evMvb,
bxcv 14

KzqvZjv| Zvici i nqQ Avmj `vjvbwU| `yUv Ni, Zvici ivbvNi,

Qv`i wmuwo| igv-wkecmb G `yUv NiB _vKZb| gvS gvwUi DVvb|
Zvici wZxq `dv wews| DVvb eomo GKUv bviKj MvQ| jvj jvj QvU
QvU ARm bviKj ai _vKZv MvQUvZ| Zvi cvkB GKUv Svcov UMi|
elvKvj mB UMi MvQUv dzj dzj Qq hZv| gb nZ H GKgvmB
MvQUvi `gvK eo MQ| nqQ kZ ivYx-ivR`vYx| A_P evwK mvivUv
eQi Zgb dzj nZ bv MvQUvq| ZviI wcQb wLowK `iRv| ev_ig,
cyKzicvo| wfmv Awdmi wews| ivRkvnxi Kzgvicvovq evmv bxcv`i|
bxcv-aiv `yevb Ni XzKjv|
Rvwbm aiv, AvRKi w`bUv eo Ki| Rvnv mvi Lye fvjv wkK wQjb|
ZzB Rvbwj wK Ki? Dwb Zv bwQ fvwmwUi wUPvi|
Avwg bwQ| Dwb Avgv`i KjRI GmQb KqKevi| me QvQvxiv
AvR ejvewj KiwQjv| Avgiv mevB cZvKv evwbqwQ Kvco KU, Iobv
w`q| K_v wQjv me evwoZ evwoZ Avgiv dvM Iovev| evevi Rb cvijvg
bv Avwg|
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wbivfiY `ycvk `yevbi covi eB ivLvi euvki ivK| eo GKUv Rvbvjv
mvgb, AviKUv Rvbvjv wcQb| GKUv Wvej PwK| ZvZB `yevbi kqvb|
covi UwejUv wQj PwKi KvQ Nul| aiv weQvbvq em cv Sywjq, Mv `ywjq
cov gyL Ki Ali is going there, Nasima is coming here. gvS ga
Mi eB jiv Bwj&m IqvBvi jyKvbv _vK covi eBqi bxP| evev
Avmvgv eB D hvq| ZjviUv Ici IV Ali has a cat, Nasima has a
doll. evev wcQb _K Gm SuyK co ejb, eBUv mvRv Ki aiv|
Zvovovq eBUv Dv Ki aiv wQjv|
aiv Avi bxcv Avivg ZuZzj Lvq, eZdji Lvmv Qvovq| wcQbi Rvbvjv
w`q `Lv hvq AKvi KzqvkvXvKv cyKzi| ZviI wcQb wUg wUg Ki evwZRjv
NiMiwi gvbyliv| cyKziUv wNi Pviw`K ARm evwo|
bxcv Nyg _K DV mvb Kijv| AvR wgwQj ne KjR| Rvnv mvii Rb
cwZev` wgwQj| bvk&Zv LZ fvjv jvMQbv Zvi| gv GK Kvc Pv Gb
w`jb|
ZzB wK Ime Svgjvi ga hvmb|
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Zvi evev Ah_v ivMvivwM Kib|
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Kx Kej u u KiwQm?
gvqi K_vi Di w`j bv bxcv| wLoKx w`q wcQb cyKzii cvki ivv
aijv| evwoUv AbK DuPz| GK wmuwo w`q bg Zvici AviK c wmuwo|
cvk wnRj MvQ| MvQUvi Mv Rwoq DVQ ZjvKzPv Avi gvKvj dji jZv|
bxcv 15

gvwUi Geov-_eov c_| cyKzii DuPz avi Nul c_, c_i Dci AvMvQvjv
KPzwicvbv Zzj ivLv nqQ| KvbvUv Kbv cvqi Zjvq coj dU&dU&
Ki dvU| KvbvUv fRv-_uZj hvq| Rjv RvqMvq AKcY KPz| KPzi
dzjjv Kgjv-njy` gkv| Kj&wgi `vg| mLvbI dzUQ ewb dzj| wfmv
Awdmi `qvj Nul ivv eq nuvUQ bxcv| ivvq bgB evM _vKv
Kvjv evPUv Mu_ wbqQ mv`v kvwoZ| `Z cv dj mvne evRvii
gvo Gm GKUv wiv wbjv bxcv|
mevB Zix| GLbB wgwQj i ne| Zvovovq bxcvi evPUv GKUz bg
wMqwQjv| bymivZ Avevi Lyj wVKVvK jvwMq w`jv| KwP mvgb Gm
bxcvK ejjv,
GB, Zviv cZvKv DwoqwQwj?
ivwk`v WvKveyKv gq| ejj,
Dovev bv Kb! Avwg gBq Ki Qv` DV cZvKv UvwbqwQ|
bxcv wKQzB ejjv bv|
Pj& Pj& wgwQj hvB|
GvB! GvB h gqiv, me mvgb Pj Avmv|
AvZvDi ingvb fvB PuPvwQjb Icvk _K| AmsL Qjgq Rov
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68-Gi wWm^i MwVZ me`jxq Qv msMvg KwgwUi GMviv `dv `vex hy nq
Qq `dvi mv_| 6B wWm^i miKvi AvMiZjv loh gvgjv `vqi Ki
Qq`dv `vexi cwZ| kL gywRe, AvIqvgx jxMi Abvb kxl bZv`i
KqKRb, mv_ ek KRb mvgwiK I emvgwiK Awdmvi MdZvi nb|
mvaviY Qv`i KvQ GB GMviv `dv LyeB MnYhvM nq IV| Ab me
RvqMvi gZv ivRkvnxI Db nq IV va| weklZ W. kvgmyvnv mevi
KvQB wQjb GKRb wcq ewZ| Zuvi gZz hb AwMZ NZvwZi gZv
ivRkvnxi QvmgvRK Av`vwjZ Ki Zvj| Gi Kw`b AvMB gNbv`
iRK bvg RbK Qv AvnZ nq cywjki jvwVPvR mvbv`xwNi gvo|
wgwQj i nj ivRkvnx KjR _K| mvneevRvii gvo GZ GZ
wgwQji AvqZb AviI eo Mjv| Abme zj KjRi Qj-gqivI hvM
w`j wgwQj| wVK nj AvZvDi ingvb fvB, wmKv`vi Avey Rvdi fvB cuvPk
MR `~i _K AbymiY Kieb wgwQj| hw` Kvbv mgmv nq, GwMq Avmeb|
bxcvi nvZ Kvjv cZvKv| nvweeyi ingvb, dinv`, nvwg`yvgvb, Drcj,
KwP, ivwk`v, bymivZ, Mvjvg mvg`vbx, Rvjvj, gyI Kvjv cZvKv DuwPq
GwMq hvQ wgwQjwU|
BDwbfvwmwU Avi KvRjv MUi gvSvgvwS AvmZB ZvjvBgvixi w`K _K
GKUv Rxc Gm c_iva Ki `uvovjv wgwQji| Rxci PviKvYvq e`yK ZvK
Kiv PviRb Avwg| Rxc _vgvi mv_ mv_ Rv Ki bvgjv Zviv| Ajv
ZvK Ki aijv wgwQji w`K|
bxcv 16

Kb evjvqv Avc&Kv Bq dvMK wjq? Kb nvq Zzgnviv jxWvi?

AvZvDi fvB, wmKv`vi fvB mvgb GwMq Gjb|
AvcjvM jxWvi nvq, Mvoxg mIqvi nv|
Pviw`K i nq Mjv evdvqvi| mevB wPrKvi Ki DVjv| Avgv`i
wUPviK nZv Kiv nqQ| Avgiv dzj w`Z GmwQ| AvZvDi fvB Avi
wmKv`vi fvBK nuPovZ nuPovZ Zviv fvwmwUi wfZi wbq AZtci Uwbs
mUvi XzwKq `iRv e Ki w`jv| bxcv cZvKv wbq wgwQji GKevi
mvgb ZLbI| Drcj wPrKvi Ki Afq w`j fq cvmb, bxcv| wfZi _K
ZLbI ZK-weZK kvbv hvQ|
Zvgiv Avgv`i cqmvq wj wKb Avgv`iB Qv, Avgv`iB wkK`i
gviv|
Dont dare talk like that, bloody buggers.

Gi cwiYwZ wK fvjv ne bv...

wfZi _K cej cwZev` Avi Uwej Pvcovbvi k bZ cvQ bxcv| Zvi
fqI KiQ GKUz, wK wfZi _K dYv Zzj DVQ vf, NYv|
GK mgq GKwU evm Gm `uvovjv| Avwg RIqvbiv wgwQji QvQvx`i Rvi
Ki UbwnuPo DVvZ jvMjv Avwg evm| Zvici ZxeeM Pvwjq wbq
mvRv bvwgq w`jv mvneevRvii gvo|
Mvoxm DZviv, Rjw` NiK Pjv hvI|
weKj _K i njv kniRyo KviwdD|
W. kvgmyvnv NwUZ NUbvi GLvbB kl nqwb| GK`j Qv fvwmwUi mvgb
`uvwoq ZLbI cej cwZev` Ki PjQ|
Avgv`i Rvnv mviK Kei w`Z ne GvWwgwbwUf wews-Gi mvgb|
wekwe`vjqi DcvPvh AavcK gvnv` kvgmyj nK ewoq Gjb| ejjb
fvwmwUi mvgb Kei `qv me bq| Zvgiv wcQb Kv_vI Kei `vI|
wK wZwb ZLb Aei kvKvZ Qv`i gvSLvb| Zviv eyK PvcovQ,
Kuv`Q Avi wPrKvi KiQ,
mvi _vKeb Avgv`i mvgb, hb cwZ gyn~Z Avgiv Zuvi AvZZvM iY
KiZ cvwi|
GK`j Qv Pj Mjv gwWKvj KjR| cvgUg kl gM _K weRqxi
ek wdi Gjb gnvbvqK knx` W. kvgmyvnv| wZwb wQjb Qv`i
`qi ivRv| we`vq ejvZI wcq wkKi Rb fvjvevmvi kl k Zuvi
kl khv iPbv Kijv ZuviB cvYwcq Qviv| kvej-Kv`vj nvZ wbq ivZ
Aw Kei Luvov njv| ivZ `yUvq RvbvRvi ci wZwb mgvwa njb| evBi
ZLbI KviwdD| mw`bUv 20k deqvwi 69|
ciw`b KvKWvKv fvi| Kzqvkvq AvQb ivRkvnx| bxcv ewiq Gjv| KuvPo
igvi evMvbi m~hgyLx, P`gwjKv Avi Muv`vi Zc| ivRkvnx KjRi
Kgbig Muv_v nj gvjv|
bxcv 17

Avgvi fvBqi i ivOvbv GKzk deqvwi Lvwj cvq ARm Qv-Qvxi

wfo wgk Mj bxcv| knx` wgbvi dzj dzj Qq GKUv dzji wgbvi nq
Mjv| Zvici mevB QzUjv Rvnv mvii Keii w`K| mwU GLbI bZzb|
nvq! Zviv wK RvbZv AviI mnm Kei iwPZ nZ PjQ mvgb!
bxcv, bxcv
GBZv gv Avwg, ejv!
Kv_vq wMqwQwj? evBi wK MMvj nZ cvi|
bxcv gv_v SuvwKq gvqi Kvj q co| GKivk GjvPzj Qwoq co gvqi
eyK, nuvUzi Dci|
gv, GZ fq cvI Kb? Rvbv, Avgiv knx` wgbvi dzj w`qwQ, Rvnv
mvii Kei wMqwQjvg|
gv nvZ eyjvq bxcvi Puv`i gZ Qv KcvjwUZ|
Avgvi h Zviv Qvov Avi KD bB! Zvi Zv Kej nvwiq hvIqvi
Afvm| mB h QvUejvq ^i^Zx c~Rvi dzj ZzjZ wMq nvwiq Mwj!
LuvR LuvR PZzw`K| c~Rvi ejv hvq hvq Ggwb mgq GK muvwR fiv dzj
wbq `uvZ KjvZ KjvZ Dwb Gjb|
wK Kiev ejv, dzj cvwQjvg bv! cvwQjvg bv! kl GK evMvb `wL G
G dzj, eySj gv, dzj ZzjZ ZzjZ Avgvi Avi wKQz LqvjB wQjv bv|
ZzB e eLqvwji bxcv!
mygb ZLb Qv GK eQii| aivi Kvj Pc GK Pi Nyi Gj Kv_v
_K| bv`ymby`ym dmv mygb| h `L mB nvZ evovq Kvj wbZ Pvq| wK
wK Qji evev wKQzZB AcwiwPZ Kvb gqi Kvj m hve bv| w`we
cvovi Qj`i Kvj Kvj NyiZ|
cuyUzmvbv cuyUzmvbv mygbK nvZ evwoq Kvj bq bxcv| mygb AgwbB Lye
Ki LvwbKUv jvj gvwLq `q eow`gbvi nvZ| Pzj ai Qv gywVZ| evey
eveywb bxcv eviv`vq ewiq Avm| DuPz wfUvAjv eviv`vq GKUv RjPwK
cvZv| bxcv Zvi cyuUzmvbvK wbq Ljv Ki gvNi ivyi| wkecmb ZLbI
dibwb KjR _K|
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bxcvi evev wkecmb| cyivbvg t wkecmb jvwnox| Gm. wc. jvwnox bvg
Qv`i KvQ cwiwPZ| Rb t cqjv Ryb, 1919| wcZv t Kcmb jvwnox,
Avw`wbevm t cvebvi Djvcvovi jvwnoxgvnbcyi| Rb, eo IVv me GB
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Minwi`| gv_vq PKPK UvK| Mjvq GKMvQv cZ| KvVi Log co

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`ex RwVgvi kvwoi KzuwP wVK KiwQj| jvjcvo Mi` RwVgvK `yMvi gZ
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feZvl eve wdi Avmb| AjKv bB| wK GB UzKiv UzKiv AvZvjv

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myKz AevK nq,

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Mr. President, Sir. I move: "That in sub-rule (1) of rule 29, after
the word 'English' in line 2, the words 'or Bengalee' be inserted."

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'Pakistan has come to stay';

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the majority of the people of the State. So, Sir, I know I am
voicing the sentiments of the vast millions of our State and
therefore Bengalee should not be treated as a Provincial
Language. It should be treated as the Language of the State.

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hveb| igvi gb GLvb AviI Lvivc jvMe| GKB cwievii mv_
m`weQ`| Zvi Dci wkecmbI _vKeb bv| igv wkwUK wbq wec` co
hveb| Zvi Pq ivRkvnxi evwoUv fvov w`q wmjU Pj hvIqvB gj| igv
GiB ga AvB. G. cvk Ki djQb| bxcvUvI nqQ fqven Pj|
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gSZ nvuUz b nq hve ej| eoRvi weQvbvq DV GKUz AvaUz nvgv `q
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dwiIqvjv Gjv PvMvg PvMvg KiZ KiZ| wkecmb BQv-AwbQvi
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Pv Lve?
igv gv_v bvojb| Rvbvjv w`q `yUv LywoZ Ki Pv w`q Mjv Pv-Iqvjv|
igv PzgyK w`jb Pvq|
GvB mveavb! bxcvi Mvq hb bv co `Lv!
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igv evunvZ Lywo ai mcY PzgyK w`jb oi Nb Pvq| ek gRv jvMQ|

Ggwb mgq Kz D D D KzD D `yB Bm&j w`q bo DVjv g ARMi
UbUv| `yj DVj Pvqi Lywo| igv k gyVvq aijb| hb KvbvgZB
Qj&K bv co| Ub PjQ| Rvbvjv w`q `Z AwZv nQ `kcU|
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cKwZivYx| igvi PvLi mvgb w`q `o hvQ bviKj MvQ, Nievwo,
Loi Mv`v, gVv c_, e`ywZK Lv^v, meyR avbZ, KjmxKuvL e,
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Ub wK ej! Kz wSK wSK bvwK GK avgv Pvj GKUv cUj| igvi gb nj
Ub ejQ hvwQ hvev hvwQ hvev, ai&Zv `wL ai&Zv `wL| Pviw`K ZvwKq
wZwb cwiwwZ evSvi Pv KiQb|
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bv evBi, nvZ KU hve|
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Zv AbMj cvIqv hvq| ^cgq c_wU kl njv| wkecmb wmjU kb
cuQzjb| wewUkiv Die Avi wKQz bv KiK, eWMR jvBb Ki w`q
wMqwQjv| Ub PjvPj wQj mnR Ges my`i| kbi n n, Kzwj`i
PuPvgwP kl Ki Iuiv wmjUi c_ bvgjb| PvL Ryovbv wUjv| MvQcvjvi
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g`y Uvu UzuI Ryo w`qQ| igv mme Mivwn bv Ki bxcvi wcV _veovZ
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Gjv wK cvnvo!
bv Zv, cvnvo Zv Aviv DPzu nq| Gjv wUjv| wUjv -eySQv?
wkecmb Zvui Pq lvjv eQii QvUv ZiYx ea~wUK wei gZv vb`vb
KiZ KiZ cuQzjb Aw^ Me| kb _K cvq Pvi gvBj c_ cvi
nq Gg. wm. KjR| DuPz GKUv wUjvi Dci fvix my`i cvPxbZ wbq `vuwoq
AvQ KjRwU| euvcvki c_ w`q ek wKQzUv GMvevi ci KvqvUvii mvwi|
ZviB GKUvi Zvjv Lyjjb wkecmb| MvVwi evPKv GK GK Ni Avbv nj
me| bxcvK weQvbvq iL AZtci MnbvwqKv igv i Kijb Zuvi NiKbv|
7.
wmjU bZzb RvqMv| wRwbmc QvZ QvZB KU Mj ek KUv w`b|
wZb igi Qv evmv| mvgb wcQb AevwiZ Lvjv RvqMv| ARm Rsjv
MvQ| jvMvqv ivbvNi| DVvbi gvSLvb wUDeAqj| ev_igUv `~i|
Pviw`K AviI AbK KvqvUvi| wkecmb KjR hZb mKvj `kUvi
w`K| wdiZ wdiZ weKj PviUv nq hZv| igv mKvj DVB iwU
bxcv 109

ejZ emZb| Avjy wKsev AvjycUji QuPwK KiZb| KLbI GKUv wWg
fvRv| mv_ Pv| wkecmb ewiq Mj igv GKv| bxcvK wbq mgq KvUvbv|
mvivw`b PjZv gqK wbq igvi GB ggZvgq cyZzjLjv| mili Zj Mvq
gvwLq mvb Kivbv| `ya LvIqvbv| cvDWvi gvwLq `Iqv| igv Qv Kvjv
GKUv wUc AuvKZb bxcvi Kcvj| bxcv m` K_v ejZ wkLQ| gv gv, ev
ev, `v `v| igv Dj w`q mvqUvi evbb| jvj Dj mvey`vbv Avi bviKjx
dzj wWRvBb w`q eo ggZvq evbvbv Qv mvqUvi ci bxcv| VzKUzK nvuU
Nigq| KLbI `iRv Lvjv cj `o hvq| Zvici Uvjygvjy cv dj `uvovq
PKvV ai| igv QzU Avmb| PKvV ciZ wMq fvimvg ivLZ bv
ci hw` co hvq Zvi bxcvgwY!
wkecmb eo wPvq co Mjb| nVvr hw` bxcv nuvUZ nuvUZ ewiq co!
AZGe LvUi Pvicvk jvMvbv nj eov| bxcv eov ai ai nvuU Avi nvZ
evovq b b b wkecmb GB nvuwU nvuwU cv cv gqwUK Kvj bb bv|
wZwb Kgjvi Kvqv wQj cwiQb Ki bb| GKUv cvZjv cwivi Kvco Zv
gyo `b| Zvici bxcvi gyLi KvQ GKUz Ki aib| KvcoUv PzlZ `b|
mivmwi Kgjvi Kvqv wki gyL `Iqv hvebv| hw` exR ev Auvk Mjvq
AvUK hvq! evmvq bxcvK igvi nvZ evbvbv Mvjvcx iOi KzuwP `Iqv dK
civbv nq Avi Zv ci hLb m Kgjvi Kvqv Lvq Pzl Pzl, ZLb ixwZgZv
iOi `vv| mevi KvQ eo Acic m `k |
KjRi Qv-Qvxiv Avm `j `j| cvki evwoi cdmi wMbxivI Avmb|
igv vbxq wmjwU fvlv GKeviB evSb bv| nuv u KiZ _vKb|
Zvgvi GWv dyqv bv dyix?
igv Mvj Uvj dj nvmb| ejb,
cyix| cyix| GBUv Avgvi eywo|
wkecmb KLbI mLbI igvK gxivevRvi wbq hvb| igv bxcvi dKi Kvco
Kbb| wkecmb ejb,
ekZ AbK nqQ| GKUv wKsev `yUv bvI| ewk wbI bv|
igv nuv Ki ZvwKq _vKb| G wK KcYZv bv KQZv! wkecmbi G aibi
`xbZv igvK eo AvNvZ Ki -m wK Zvi gqi Rb `yUv ev wZbU dKi
Kvco wKbZ cviebv? igv A_bwZK civaxbZvi Mvwb gg gg Abyfe
Kib| evwo dib wkecmb| wZwb `yUv eB wjLQb bRij mvwnZi
f~wgKv Avi wmjwU fvlvZi f~wgKv| bxcv em AvQ cvk | nVvr
wkecmb ZvwKq `Lb Zuvi m`iwPZ wmjwU fvlvZ KzwU KzwU KiQ bxcv
Zvi QvU QvU nvZ w`q|
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wkecmbi PuPvwbZ GKgb KvMR wQuoZ _vKv bxcv fq cq Ku` IV|
wkecmb jv cvb,
bv, bv gv, Avwg ewKwb Zv!
Awfgvbx gqK Kvj wbq nvuUvc_ KvqvUvi _K evi nb wke|
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H `vLv| H h KZ dzj! gv, gvMv! H H kvwjL cvwL| cvwLi Qv Qv `vLv Zv gv|

bxcv Awfgvb fzj ivR`vYxi gZ Nvo wdwiq Pvq| AevK nq ZvKvq
eybvdzji w`K| PvL Rj| gyL GKMv`v nvwm| wkecmb eySZ cvib bv
wZwb gqwUK KZLvwb fvjvevmb|
8.
cnjv ekvL| KjR iex` bRij Rqx ne| evsjvi wkK wnme
`vwqZUv wkecmbi Kuva GmB co| ivZ bB w`b bB LULyU Zix KiZ
nq QjgqjvK| Zvi Dci AvQ wmjwU fvlvi wevw| AvwR nZ
kZel ci K Zviv ejQ di| GB dijvK K ci KiZ wRf
Gwjq cvY ewiq hvIqvi hvMvo| ZvI ev hgb Zgb wKQz GKUv njv|
cK hw`ev c Kiv Mj d K wKQzB Kiv Mjv bv| c-Gi RvqMvq d
Avi d-Gi RvqMvq c wbqB iex`bv_ Avi bRij Gg. wm. KjR Avjv
Ki Zzjjb| Abyvb kl GK`j wUPvi Gjb wkecmbi KvQ|
GB h waw gqjvK Avcwb R Qj`i mv_ bvPvjb GUv wK
kwiqZi KvR nj?
wkecmb cojb wec`,
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Pv KiwQ gv|
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wdijb|
9.
1954 mvj| Rj _K m` Qvov cqQb cmv` ivq| fvwMi WvK Pj
Gjb wmjU| wmjUi w`KUvq Gi AvM Avmv nqwb Zvui|
Lye ivMv nq MQv. gvgv|
Zj ZRcvZv m^vi w`q igv KovBZ Wvj Xvjjb| QvuZ Ki k
DVjv|
nuvi, Qvov cq c_g Zv`i evwoZ Xzu gvijvg| cvebvq cZvcfeb gb
wUuKwQjv bv| m, myKz, `xcvwj mevi K_v gb nwQjv| KZw`b `wLwb
I`i| ZvB Pj Gjyg Zvi KvQ|
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wkecmb cmv`gvgvK `L cmb njb bv| igvK ejjb,
gvgv KZw`b _vKeb?
igv ejjb,
hZw`b BQ|
bxcv 111

ZzwgZv Rvbv, Avwg GKRb msLvjNy miKvix KgPvix| Avgvi `vl c`

c` aivi Rb GwU-Kivckbi jvKRb nb nq AvQ| Avwg mvgvb
iex`- bRij Rqx KiwQ KjR| Zvi Rb kv-KR Kiv nqQ
AvgvK|
igv wbweKvi Di w`jb,
Gme meB Pje, gvgvI _vKeb| evev-fvB-evb KDB Zv bB Avgvi|
gvgvB GKgv AvZxq evsjv`k| Zzwg hv cviv KiM| Avgvi gvgv Avgvi
evmvq Avmeb Ges _vKeb|
wkecmb c_K Zcvl Avkq wbjb Ges Mnhyi Akwb msKZ eR
DVjv| bxcv Gm ejjv,
I_v, I_v, evev, LvB|
wkecmb bv Lq iBjb| cmv`gvgv w`b `yB _K Avevi KvR wdi Mjb
Die| wK wkecmb khv c_K Ki djjb wPiZi| igvK UvBU w`Z
ne| igv wK UvBU nIqvi gvbyl bb| `v`v, myKz`v, Szbyi wPwV AvmZv
evivmvZi Qv evmv _K|
Kgb AvwQm igv? eyejvi KUv `uvZ DVjv! myKz`vi weq, ZzB wK
AekB Avmwe|
igv AvwR ck Kijb wkecmbi KvQ,
Avwg Bwqvq hvev|
ZZw`b bxcv AviKUz eo nqQ| wkecmbi cvws nqQ ivRkvnx
KjR| igvi Pv-evMvb Avi KgjvevMvb `LvI kl nqQ| kl nqQ
fzwUqv`i KvQ _K Avwb `yAvwbZ ivRi Kgjv Kbv| wmjUi wSiwSi
ew| eiKdzwPi gZv Zv Si Si co| GB AvQ Zv GB bB| MvQcvjv
SuvcRj `Z AwZ `ZZvq evoZ _vK| gvUv gvUv Kbv, uqvcvKv
Avi RvuKi hYvq Aw IVb igv| bxcv `o wMq Lc Ki ai Ijv|
Zvici PUKvq nvZ w`q| bxcvi nvZ WUj w`q ayq wMmvwib Avi cvwb
wgwkq gywQq `b igv| GiB ga ivRkvnxZ cvws b igvi gb eo Lywk
nq IV| ew`b wZwb ivRkvnx Qvov|
Avevi i nj ZwZv euvav| igv Avi wkecmb wdijb ivRkvnxZ| bxcvi
eqm ZLb Q eQi| 1963 mvj|
10.
1954 mvj mvaviY wbevPb gymwjg jxM kvPbxqfve civRq eiY Ki| hy
dUi GKzk `dv RbMYi wekl mg_b jvf Ki| AvBb cwil`i 309 wU
Avmbi ga hydU jvf Kib 236wU Avmb| 1954 mvj ki evsjv
G.K. dRjyj nKi bZZ gxmfv MwVZ nq| G. K. dRjyj nK
memwZZ cv`wkK cwil`i bZv wbevwPZ nb| wK gymwjg jxMi K`xq
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miKvi wbevPb hydUi GB wecyj weRqK gvUB fvjvfve MnY

Kibwb| MYZi weRq cvwKvbi kvmKMvwK cejfve fvweq Zvj|
Zuviv wKQzUv AvZM nq cob| K~UKkji Avkq wbq Av`gRx I
P`Nvbvq kwgK`i ga msNl euvwaq Zvi `vq Zuviv Pvwcq `b hydU
miKvii Dci| GQvov XvKv K`xq KvivMvi evOvwj I AevOvwj IqvWb`i
gaI KqKc gvivgvwi nq|
Gme NUbvK K` Ki hydU gwmfvK eiLv Kivi Rb AevOvwj
Avgjviv Zrci nq IVb| lohKvixiv AwPiB kl myhvMwU MnY Ki|
ki evsjv G. K. dRjyj nKi fviZmdi I Zvi GKwU eZvi AcevLv
`Iqvi gvag welqwU Nwbq IV| gyLgx wnme dRjyj nK wZwik Gwcj
KvjKvZv mdi hvb| KvjKvZvi wewfb Abyvb I mseabvi Di Zuvi
mme fvlY eZvi I msev` gvag cPvi nq, ZvZ wecyj weZKi mw nq|
Zmiv g, 1954 mvj| bZvRx feb `uvwoq weivwk eQi eq dRjyj nK
ejwQjb
evvwj GK AL RvwZ| Zuviv GKB fvlvq K_v ejb, Zuv`i Av`k GK|
RxebaviYi cYvjxI GK| evsjv AbK welq mviv fviZK c_ c`kb
KiQ Ges `kwefvM mI RbmvaviY Z_vKw_Z bZe`i D _K KvR
KiZ cvib| AvR AvgvK fviZi fwelr BwZnvm MVb AskMnY KiZ
nQ| Avkv Kwi fviZ K_vwUi A_ Avcbviv eySZ ciQb| GLvb fviZ
viv Avwg cvwKvb I fviZ DfqKB eywSqwQ| G wefvRb Kwg wefvRb|
Avwg AL fviZi mev Kiev|
Gici PVv g wci Mv nvUj AvqvwRZ GK mseabvi Reve ki
evsjv G.K. dRjyj nK ejb
cwgei Pq c~eei gvbyl evsjvfvlvi Rb ewk Drmvnx| GgbwK
evsjvfvlvK ivxq ghv`v `evi Rb GKwU z` wkI cvY wemRb w`Z
cZ| Avmyb, Avgiv ivRbxwZ fzj Avgv`i gnvb msnwZi aviK k fvlvi
HwZni K_v wPv Kwi| evsjvi gj, evsjv fvlvi mev, evOvwj RvwZi
DbwZ I wn`y-gymjgvb wbwekl RbmvaviYi mevq Rxebi Aewk w`bjv
wbqvwRZ Kwi| Rxebi klcv `uvwoq Avgvi Avi Kvb Avkv AvKvLv
bB| Dfq ei ga h wg_vi cvPxi iwPZ nqQ, Zv AcmviY Kivi KvR
hw` Avwg Avi Ki hZ cvwi, Zvnj wbRK ab gb Kiev|
`yB evsjvi ga h eeavb AvQ, Zv GKwU `yt^c, auvKv gv| KiYvgq
Lv`vZvqvjvi `ievi Avgvi GKwUB cv_bv wZwb hb GB eeavb `~i Kib,
Avgvi GB AvKvLv hvZ c~Y nq mRb Avcbviv AvgvK `vqv Kieb|
K`xq gymwjg jxM bZviv dRjyj nKi Hme eZvi fZiB ZuvK
AcmviYi chv KviY LyuR cjb| Zuvi wei `k`vni AwfhvM Avbv
njv| cKZ `kcwgK dRjyj nKK ejv nj wekvmNvZK| fviZi KvQ
wZwb c~eevsjvK wew Ki w`Z Pvb Ges mePq Avhi welq eovi
gyn` Avjx`i gZ jvK`i gyL _KB DPvwiZ njv Ggb me K_v| wZwb
bxcv 113

eZvi fvlY dRjyj nKK Traitor AvLv `b Ges ejb, Mr Haque

was in League with India and trying to undo Pakistan by
acceding.
ki evsjv G. K. dRjyj nK KjKvZv _K wdi Gj ZuvK KivPxZ
WK cvVvbv njv| KivPx _K hw`b wZwb XvKv wegvbe`i cv ivLb,
mw`bB iv`vwnZvi AwfhvM 92-K aviv Rvwi Ki hydU gwmfv f
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ki evsjvK Zuvi wUKvUzwji evmvq bRie`x Ki ivLv nq| kL gywReyi
ingvb cgyL hydU gxK MdZvi Ki KvivMvi cvVvbv nq| mviv
c~eevsjvi nvRvi nvRvi cMwZkxj ivRbwZK KgxK ew` Kiv nq| c~eevsjvi
civwRZ gymwjg jxM hydUi wei AccPvi PvjvZ _vK| nZvkvq
Avv nq c~eevsjv| Gici wKQz w`b AwZv njv| AZtci 92-K aviv
DwVq wbq cybivq hydUK gwmfv MVbi GKUv myhvM `Iqv nq| wK G
mgq hydUi AfixY weiva cKU AvKvi aviY Ki| kl ch f
hvq hydU| Gfve c~eevsjvi gvbyl 1954 mvji wbevPb evcKfve
msLvMwiZv cqI gZvq wUK _vKZ cvibwb|

11.
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jMwQjv| wK igv ivRkvnxi cvi ayjvevwj LvIqv gq| GZvw`b cvK
bv `L, cvi Rj bv Qzuq Zuvi fvjv jvMe Kb! weKjejv Kbv wbq
igv ei njb cv-`kb| elvi Dvj cg cv cvq euvai KvQ Gm
coQ| cvoi evwj meB fRv| Dvj XD| cvK Dbhebv cvnvox
gqi gZv jvMQ| igv wbRi AMvPi bxcvK Pc aib| nVvr hw`
gqUv nvZ dmK co hvq Rj!
fvovwUqviv ZLbI wQjb ivRkvnxi evmvq| wcQbi `vjvbi PviU Nii
ga `yUv Zuv`i `Lj| me evg Avi me Wvbw`Ki ig `yUv Zvjv `Iqv
_vKZ| evcuvUiv NuU Wvbw`Ki KvYvi NiUvi Pvwe evi Kijb igv|
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GUvi Ges wLowK `iRv w`q XzK w`we INi ivZ KvUvbvI hZv| hZv
cvvi Avi evbvi jLv| wkecmbi MvPi wKsev AMvPi cmv` gvgv Avi
Zuvi eziv Gm ILvb DVZb| KvR KiZb| wgwUs KiZb| cyiv Die
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wjLZb| bxcv wZb eQi eqm _KB wkecmbi cvk em wjLZv A, Av,
K, L| igv bxcvK w`q wPwV jLvZb `v`v`i KvQ|
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eyejv|
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GmQ| gR`v myKz`vi weq| igv K_vUv mcY cvojb wkecmbi KvQ|
wkecmb GK K_vq Dwoq w`jb,
Avi wK hve! Avwg hZ cviev bv| Zzwg wK GKv bxcvK wbq hve
bvwK, Ame! Avwg miKvwi PvKzi| `L&-bv-`L& Bwqvq hvIqv cvwKvb
miKvi gvUB fvjv PvL `Lebv| PvKwii Amyweav ne|
igv Muv ai em iBjb,
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bxcv 115

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bxcv 117

RvqMvq Kg GKPwjk kZvsk njv Ges RbcwZ elg eo AvU kZvski

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bxcv 119

wK i! hvwe bv evmvq?
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gaydzji gay| GB jvdvQ Mii `wo wbq| GB QzU hvQ gvV| bxcv
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wnmwnm Ki IV wkecmbi Mjv| igv `qvj gv_v VzKZ _vKb| Zvici

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msweavb Zix nqwb| msweavb Qvov GKwU iv bxj AvKvk fvKvv Nywoi
gZB jnxb Ges fvmgvb| 1955 mvj RyjvB gvmi mvZ ZvwiL me
c`ki bZviv wgj GKwU msweavb Zixi wmv bb| G Pzw gvix Pzw
bvg cwiwPZ| AbK GK gvnv` Avjx dg~jvI ejZb| 1953 mvji
Gwcj gvm Mfbi Rbvij Mvjvg gvnv` ZrKvjxb cavbgx LvRv
bvwRgywbK AcmvwiZ Kib Ges eovi gvnv` AvjxK cavbgx wbhy
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wbevPb eev Pvjy ne Ges cvwKvbi ivfvlv ne evsjv I E~|
gvnv` Avjxi G dg~jvq GKUv wRwbm cwivi nq hvq mevi KvQ| Avi Zv
njv cvwKvwb kvmK`i KvQ bv Avkv Kiv hve mgZv wKsev Dfq Aji
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mvebv|
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fvimvg nwiq djjb| ZuvK AZtci eva Kiv njv Aemi MnY| Gci
Avqx MfYi Rbvij-Gi `vwqZ MnY Kib gRi Rbvij Bv`vi wgRv|
Gw`K Payix gvnv` Avjxi bZZvaxb gymwjg jxM Ges ki evsjv G. K.
dRjyj nKi bZZvaxb hydU Dfq wgj K` GK Kvqvwjkb miKvi
MVb Kib| AvIqvgx jxM GB Kvqvwjkb miKvi hvM `bwb|
1955 mvji AvM gvm cvwKvbi cavbgx gvnv` Avjx c`ZvM
Kib Ges Payix gvnv` Avjx cvwKvbi cavbgx nb| 1956 mvji
AvUB Rvbyqvwi wZxq MYcwil` cvwKvb Bmjvwg cRvZi msweavb wej
Dvcb Kiv nq| 1956 mvji `vmiv gvP MfYi Rbvij GZ mwZ `b|
1940 mvji jvnvi cveK iYxq Ki ivLvi Rb G msweavb 1956
mvji ZBk gvP _K KvhKi Kiv nq| G msweavb iPbvi ci cvwKvbi
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cavbgx nb Payix gvnv` Avjx| Paywi gvnv` Avjx gymwjg jxM I
bxcv 121

hydUi mg^q MwVZ gwcwil`i bZv wQjb| msweavb cYqbi mgq

MYcwil`i weivax`jxq bZv wQjb MYZi gvbmcy bvg LvZ nvmb
knx` mvn&ivIqv`x| bq eQi ci Pvjy nIqv G msweavb envj _vK gv `yB
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gxmfvi m`m wnmve kc_ MnY Kivi AvM MxZvi l Aavqi c_g
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m mbvmx P hvMx P b wbiwMbPvwqt \
dji AvKvv bv Ki KZe Ki hZ ne| `ki gwZ MnY Avi KgeZ
Avwjb GKB K_v|
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Rvwi Kib Ges 1956 mvji msweavb m~Yfve f `b|
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wkecmb bxcvi nvZ ai nuvUZ ewiqwQjb| zi Rv dvwii gvo
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bxcv 141

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bxcv 167

aiv, LvUi bxP DuwK w`q `L&Zv! `yUv eqvg Zv`i Rb AvPvi
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bxcv 168

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bxcv 169

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bxcv 170

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bxcv 171

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bxcv 173

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bxcv 175

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bxcv 177

ii mv_ mv_ ejjb `e, Avgvi AaK Avqy Avwg cgivK w`Z PvB|
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bxcv 179

gjy ewiq Gjb kvU Mvq Mwjq|

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bxcv 180

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bxcv 217

Gm. Gd. -Gi nvZ wQjv fvRvwj Avi PvKz| me`jxq QvbZv`i nvZ
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bxcv 219

hZ _vKb Qv`i| W. Avyj LvjK, W. KvRx Avyj gvbvb, W.

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bxcv 221

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wVKB `ev, AvR ivZB `ev, gb Ki w`m|

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gv, AbKw`b ai LyuRwQjvg LvZvUv| `vLv, ivuaywbwcmx cvki evwoi

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Dcyo nq q dzj AvuKwQjv aiv| bZzb inmi mvb cq Gevi DV em|

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31.
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bxcv 229

gvjxi Ni cvi nq g~jevwoZ XzKZ c_gB eVKLvbv| Zvici wmuwoNi|

hvi A_ DV cov wmuwo eq `vZjvq| wmuwoi iwjs KviKvhgq Ges
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`qv eo cej wQjv|
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gb ivLe bv Avgvi K_v| Kuv`ebv Avgvi Rb| wcqb ingvb fvB wiv
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PZzw`K fm MQ Rj| jwM Vj bKv wbq Zbmi Nvi Gw`K Iw`K|

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bxcv 359

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bxcv 389

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Rxc| cZ ivLv gvBbi AvNvZ D ci mwU| Avwgiv Mvwo _K ei
nevi mv_ mv_ i nq hvq wmivR, gvRvddi, Avi kyi AvgY|
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wbqwgZ Unji mgq mvZvwbcvov Mvgi gywhvviv cvwKvbx`i NuvwU
_K AvgYi wmv bq| GB `j AMvwb, bRij, Avjx nvmb
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15.
AbKw`b ci Rqivgeo wfvwiqv`i w``vgwYi evmvq Gj bxcv| w``v
AvKzj nq Rwoq aijb,
ZyB GZv KvR e nq MwQm, w`w`?
wfvwiqv Avi kv ivvgwUqv wMRvq wMq bxcvi mv_ M KiZv| KvR
KiZv bxcv I`i wbq| KLbI Zygywjqv, KLb fv`vZx, KLbI Rqivgeo
Nyi Nyi ivMx `LZv| gywevwnbxi mv_ hvMvhvM KiZv| Zvi KvRi
mxgv wQj bv|Mvgi gq`i wKQzUv dv GBW UwbsI w`q iLwQjvbxcvhvZ kiYv_x`i wKQz mvjvBb LvIqvbv, cvivwmUvgj LvIqvbv, MR evR
cuvPvbv, i e Kiv Gjv Iiv KiZ cvi| PvLIVv ivMi Rb
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cYAvbvi eev Kiv njv| KviY h Kvbv gyn~Z h KvDK mvP Kiv
nwQjv - GZ Alya Kb? KviRb wbQv? h KD Gme ckigyLvgywL
bxcv 411

nZnZ cvi cvKAvwg`i mvPi mgq| mevB wgj GZv mwwjZ Pv

Ki ZviciI megZz VKvbv me nqwb|
bxcv ew`b ci evwoi cwiek Gm hb Avevi AvMi bxcv nq Mjv|
cyZzj evbvbvi Ljvq gZ DVjv kv Avi wfvwiqvi mv_|DVvbi
gvSLvb em GuUj gvwU GKUz GKUz Ki Rj w`q gvLZ gvLZ big gmY
nj mB Zvj _K wKQy gvwU `ynvZi ZvjyZ j^vU Ki cyZzji kixi
evbvbv nZv| Dcii AskUv Pvv Ki nZv gv_v|`ycvk PvLv KI
evbvbv nZv nvZ| Zvici Mvj GKUv QvU ej Pvv gv_vi Dci Rj w`q
GKUz Kv`v Kv`v Ki jvwMq w`Z ne evm! nq Mj cyZzj mvbv| Gevi
SUcU SuvUvi GKUv KvwV bvI Avi LuvPv w`q GuK dvjv PvL bvK gyL,
kvwo-evDR| Aek kv PvBZv mwZKvii Rvgv civZ| nuv, bxcv
mw`KI nj hvq| GKUz big Ki cyZzjUvK| GLb BQ Kij kv
KvcoI civZ cvie mwZKvii| mevB wgj cyZzj, cvwL, wkjcvUv, c`xc me evbvbv njv| Zvici `vIqvq KvZ `Iqv njv| bxcv Kv`vgvwU w`q
GKUv Ki wUc GuK w`jv mevi Avi wbRi Kcvj| fiwbKv PuPvwQj,
w`w` Kv`v gvLvQv Kb?
bxcvi PvL w`q Uc Uc Ki Rj Si co,
fiwbKv, GZv Kv`v bqi fiwbKv, GB gvwUi RbB AvR Avgv`i
GZeo hy! G nQ P`b| evsjvi gvwUB Avgv`i P`bi wZjK|
wfvwiqv w`w`i PvL gywQq `q|
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gL Nyiev mviv Mvg|
gvgxiv Gm nvZai emvjb bxcvK,
eywo, Kuvw`m Kb? meZv ii gv, AviI KZ K KiZ ne| gbK
k Ki&| wewUk MQ `ykv eQi ci| cvwKvbxiv Ke hvq `vLv|
w`w`gv Gm _yZwb ai bvov `b,
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cvwei? PvLi Rj h ZLb wKq hve|
GB w``v, Zywg Pzc KivZ!
bxcvi PvL Rj, Avi gyL nvwm|
Avmv w`w`, Avgiv mvZPviv Lwj|
wKiY nvZ GKUv Pviv, gvwUi Lvjvi UyKiv, wbq Mvj `vM KvU|
mevBmvZPviv Ljv i Ki| nvjKv Kzqvkv cv cv Ki GwMq AvmQ
AvgMvQi gv_vq| m~hUv Wye MQ| dj MQ Zvi Mvji jvwjgvjvjP
AvKvk| Avjv gi hvqwb wVKB, Zey Kv_v _K hb AKvii M fm
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GvB, Avwg KvbvgvwQ nev|

nvjKv igvj w`q wKiY bxcvi PvL eua `q|
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wfvwiqvi PvLgyLPzj nvwZq bxcv PuwPq IV|
wK gRv! Gevi wfvwiqv KvbvgvwQ!
fiwbKv wfvwiqvi Pzj Uvb AvjZv Ki| wfvwiqv wPrKvi `q,
Lei`vi, Pzj Uvbwebv ej w`wQ|
wfvwiqv cvq AKvi nq Avmv DVvb PvLeua NyiZ _vK| ivZ Rvov
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w``v, M ej, M ej|
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Zvi KzivM fvjv nq Mj| wKfve mvMii Dci `yj DVj bKv So
evZvm| hx evZvmK agK w`q, mvMiK agK w`q _vgvjb So|
bxcv w``yK Rwoq ai ejjv,
w``y, Zvgvi hxK ejvbv `kUv GKUy ^vaxb Ki w`Z?
w``y nvmjb,
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Avme| ^vaxb nZB ne w`w`!mgq jvMe, cwikg, GKvMZv jvMe
msMvgi|
bxcv Nywgq ^c `Ljv -m igvi Kvj gv_v iL q AvQ| mygb Zvi
Kvji KvQ| aiv Avkcvk bB| aivi gyLUv gb KiZB Zvi gb Gm
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Gi hZ g~j m wK aivi a~jvq ne nviv
wek^i fvvix wae bv GZ FY
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aiv, aiv -bvgUv A~U ejZ bv ejZB aiv `o Ni Gm XyKjv, w`w`
`k ^vaxb nq MQ Pj, Gevi Zzwg evwo wdie| Avi wVK ZLywb cvKAvwgiv
XyK wj Pvjvjv igvi gv_v j Ki| bxcv ii mvMi| Zvi VuvU ii
jvbv ^v`| bxcv wbtkvm wbZ cviQbv| m Nygi gaB Ku` DVjv,
gv, gvMv, gv|
16.
cvwKvbx mbv`i GKwU `j wSbviw`Z Zv`i Kv Ki| `ycyi AvovBUvq
GKwU Mwijv`j cvwKvbx mbv`i H Kv AZwKZ AvgY Ki|
wSbviw` ij kbwU mc~Y fve asm nq hvq|
bxcv 413

fv`vZx _K cvq AvovB wKjvwgUvi `~iivvgvwUqv Mvgi cvk bqvevRvi,

nvUi w`b wQjv mUv| fvi nevi AvMB ivZ cvq wZbUvi w`K bxcv,
Rqbvj, evZb, bRij, wmivR,kvnRvnvb iIbv nq hvq| bqvevRvi
AvwgKvUv wQj evRvii kl gv_vq| Kzqvkv-AKvi PZzw`K, evZvm
kxZi AvMgY awb| AvKvki KZvivwU ZLbI RM iqQ| bxcv Avi
mnhvviv GwMq hvQ| Mwijviv cvwKvbx wWdi KvQvKvwQ Gm
Pviw`K _K AevUv cheY Ki| `o cvjvevi c_ PZzw`KB AvQ|
Zviv wbtk wjs Ki KvwUi w`K GMvZ _vK| cvq AvU-`k nvZ
`~i _K Zviv Pvicvk Qwoq co| MbWi wKcUv `uvZ w`q Lyj bxcv
Qzuo gvi KvwUi wfZi| mv_ mv_ wZb/PviUv MbW wevwiZ nq ci
ci wgwbU wZbKi eeavb| evgvi Avb RjZ _vK, cP auvqv Avi
evi`i M fvix Ki Zvj evZvm| wfZi _K wji k AvmZ _vK|
bxcviv ZLb DV ivBdj _K wj QzuoZ QzuoZ wewfb ivvq cvwjq hvq|
GB Acvikb mgq eq nq gv cbiv wgwbU Ges gviv hvq Pvi Rb
cvKAvwg|
ivZ cwiq w`bi i nZ bv nZB Zv`i cwZkva MnY i nq hvq|
`j `j mb GwMq Avm ivvgvwUqv Mvg, wgkb Avi Rqivgeo Mvgi
w`K| Zviv wj QzuoZ QzuoZ GwMq Avm| bqvevRvi fxfyZ Ki|
ivvgwUqvi Ni Ni Zjvmx Pvjvq, gyw Kuvnv? gyw Kuvnv nvq? `j `j
jvKfvi bv nZB `ovZ i Ki Rji c_| wfvwiqv, fiwbKv,
kv, wKiY gvgv`i mv_ cvjvZ _vK, `ovZ _vK Mvgevmx| Zv`i
Kvbi cvk w`q QzU hvQ wj| `yPviRb jywUq co wjwe nq| wcQb
ZvKvevi mgq bvB| cvjvZ ne| ivvgvwUqv, Rqivgeo GKmv_ AvgY
Ki mbiv| RjZ _vK Nii ci Ni| w``v wK hvqwb evwo Qo|
fiwbKv, wekvj UbI ZvK AvbZ cviwb| evox AuvKo co _vK m|
bvt hvevbv| evc`v`vi wfU Qo hve Kv_vq? Zviv cvjv, Avwg eyovgvbyl
wK Kie AvgvK?
eywo iq hvq evwoZ| G Acvikb mb`i mv_ kvwevwnbx Avi
ivRvKviivI Ask bq| Zviv Mvg XyK Avb jvMvZ _vK evwo evwo|
wbwePvi wj KiZ i Ki| hviv cvjvZ ciQ, Zviv euP hvq| kkvb
nq hvq cyiv Aj, MvgK Mvg| ivRvKviiv hLb wfvwiqvi w``vi evmvq
Avm, w``v Zv`i ej,
nuv i, Zviv Avgvi cowk| QvU_K G evwoZ Gm hq Ljva~jv Ki
gvbyl nqwQm| AvR GmwQm Avgvi evmvq Avb w`Z?
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DVvb| evwoihveZxq wRwbm jyU Ki Zviv Avb aivZ _vK| PZzw`K
Avbi jwjnvb wkLv Avi wji k| mKvji ivvgvwUqv, Rqivgeo biK
cwiYZ nq| ivwk ivwk gZ`n gyL _yeo co _vK cvov QvBqi ga|
Zviv evwoi wUbjv Lyj wbq hvq| Loi Ni Avb `q| mgvbnZv Ki
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gvbyl| wZb/Pvi NUvqKjiegyLi Mvg bg Avm kkvbi bxieZv| cvK

Avwgiv va Db nq gZ`njvZ eyUi jvw_ w`Z _vK| hviv ZLbI
Kvbg wbtkvm djwQjv, Zv`i Avevi wj Ki cyivcywi Avk nq
cvKevwnbx Avi Zv`i `vmi ivRvKviiv| wfvwiqv, fiwbKv, wKiY, jey,
wekvj, AvKvk cvvivi Rj XyK co| hLvb KqK nvRvi kiYv_xi
mv_ Zv`i PvPvivI wQj| Zviv PvPv`i KvQ _vKZ iKi Mnxb Rj|
biwms`x-Zvivev moK cuvP`vbvq iZc~Y mZzZ cvnviviZ Avwg`i
Dci Suvwcq co Mwijviv, AvnZ cvKAvwgi euvPvI euvPvI k cvwKvbx
mbviv Pvi UvK fi Pj Avm hy vb| Mwijviv wcQz nU hvq| bvMix I
Zzgywjqv GjvKvZI evRvQ hyi `vgvgv|
KvjxM GjvKvq Mwijv Aevbi Lei cq biwms`x _K Avwg dvm GwMq
Avm KvjxMi w`K| fv`vZx Avi AvwoLvjvq Mvwijv`j AZwKZ AvgY
Pvjvq| bRij Avi ew`Dvgvb f~uBqv, Lmii mvnvh Avjx nvmb
ZvjyK`vi I gvq~b Kwei Mwijv`i AvgYfvMi mvgb wQjb| civ nq
cvKAvwg|
17.
wK cvwKvbx Avwg Zv civwRZ nZ Avmwb| civRqi Mvwb `~i KiZ
GB y cvKevwnbx MvgK Mvg evRviK evRvi cyovZ i Kijv|
jyVZivR i njv cKvk| iwWI, UvbwRmUi,Uc, mvbvi Mqbv, UvKvcqmv -hv cvIqv Mjv| Zvici inZ Kv wMq fvM evUvqviv,
nvZvnvwZ| ivRvKviivI cjv mgvb fvM|
cvwKvbx AvwgI je wQj c_gZt gyw evwnbx, wZxqZt Kvdi,
gvjvDb, wn`y, e, Lvb, ZZxqZt evOvwj| G`i ga cvwKvbcx wKQz
Z_vKw_Z evOvwj wbq ivRvKvi, Avje`i Avjkvgm, cxmKwgwU ev kvw
evwnbx Zix nqwQjv| Avje`i Avi Avjkvgm evwnbxi mw nqwQjv
RvgvZ-B Bmjvgxi m`m w`q| Zviv cavYZ: eywRxwe`i, wkK, Wvvi,
Kwe, mvwnwZK, mvsevw`K G`i wWUj&m msMn KiZ cvKAvwgi KvQ|
kvw KwgwU Avi ivRvKviivB wd KvR KiZ Ges msev` mieivn
KiZ|Zviv gywhvv`i Aevb, KgcwZ GBme Mvq`vwMwi Ki `ki
cwZ Pig wekvmNvZKZv KiwQj| myhvM cjB G`i jvk djZ
gywevwnbxiv| Mwijv`j e`ywZK cvBjbjv KU b`xZ dj `q|
fv`vZx cvIqvi kb APj nq co| Mwijviv kxZjvq GKUz `~i
Avgeyk cZ Acv KiZ _vK| cvBjb KvUvi msev` cq wZb-PviU
jfwZ cvwKvwb mbv gyRvwn` I ivRvKvi b`xc_i GB euvavjv cwivi
KiZ Avm| Mwijviv nvgjv Pvjvq Ges nZv Ki Zv`i| G`i nZv Ki
Zviv evOvwj RvwZK cwe KiZ PqwQj, gywhyK wbweN KiZ| AvR
bxcv 415

hw` me Avje`i, Avjkvgm, ivRvKvi Avi kvwevwnbxnxb evsjv`k ZixnZ

Zvnj mvbvi evsjv mwZB nqZ mvbvi nZ cviZ| bxcv wmivR Avi
kvRvnvbK ejjv,
`Lv, Zvgiv Wye w`q `vqi Kvc Avwg`i Mvb evUjv Wyweq w`Z
cvibv?
wPvUv AvwgI KiwQ wK Ijv wK `vqi Kvc KvUe?
gwdR ck Ki|
cyiv fvOvi gZv Avgv`i bB Ze dzUv Ki w`jBZ KvR nq| kqZvb
jv Avi `Lbv`L Mvg nvbv w`Z cvibv|
mgiwWKv ej,
Pv KiZ `vl wK? Avgv`i nvZZ gvBb bB| `yPviU hv wQj ijjvBb
DcovZB kl nq MQ| bZzb Kvb eivI bB Ai|
bB bB bB Gme ej em _vKjZ nebv, ejZ ne AvQ AvQ
AvQ| Avgv`i hv AvQ ZvB wbq Suvwcq coZ ne|
nvmb Avjx kL gywRei Uvb K_v kl Ki| mevB GKB mv_ mB
gnvgvbewUi K_v fe nvm Ges GKB mv_ kvKi AKvi wbgwZ nq|
mwZB KLbI Avi wdi Avmeb wZwb?
Avwg wK mvZB gvP imKvm wQjvg!
bxcv ej|
Avi Avgiv Zv Zuvi fvlY c_gw`bUvq bZB cvBwb| GLvb Zuvi fvlY
cPvwiZ nqwb c_gw`b| Zvici cPvi njv| wK A~Z fvlY ZvB bv?
kvRvnvb ej IV| ky ej,
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wfbMni Kvb Gwjqb Gm Avgv`i ggy Ki MQ|
bRij ej,
Avi wKQz bv njI ^vaxbZv Avi kL gywRe GB `yB evcvi meZt evOvwj
KLbI Acvl Kiebv|
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bxcv hvM Kijv,
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iLv|
Zvgvi wbRi K_v ejvwb Zvgvi CkiK?
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nq Avmb| iv Kib gvbeRvwZK|
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m A_ evOvwj RvwZi AeZvi AekB kL gywRe|

bevj wmivRi K_v kl nq|
ky ej,
Ii, wL` cqQ| Lvev -wKQz Avb|
ky GKUz gvUvmvUv aibi| gywhvv`i eiv Lvevi cU fibv Zvi|
bxcv PviU Kbv Uv wewU AvuPji wMzLyj ei Ki| ky gPgP Ki
wPevq| mevB nm IV| ky cI Kibv|
ciw`b mKvj kxZjv Avi ZzivMi gvnb-evjy b`xZ mejv MvbevU
Wye Aevq cvIqv Mjv| h evUjv wejvB weji cv evuav wQjv|
mjviI GKB Aev| kxZjvi Pvicvk Avwgiv iPbv Ki AmsL evsKvi
mLvb _KB Zviv evU, j Ki AvgY Ki kmb Mwijv`i
Dci| Mwijviv b`xi Zxi ivvi Dci eywe Uvc jvwMq Avm| ciw`b
mKvj cvwKvbx mbv`i GKwU kwkvjx `j m ivvq LeivLei bIqvi
Rb AMmi nIqvi c_ eyweUvci KvQ co hvq Ges gvBb wevibi dj
wZb Rb mb wbnZ nq|
Avwg`i RjKwj Ges bwenvi wKQzw`bi Rb wMZ nj| mviv KvjxMB
k`i QvU QvU cUvj `j Avv nwQj gywhvv`i viv| Zviv
myhvM myweavgZ MvQi Avovj ev Suvci wfZi _K nv MbW Quyo
cvwjq Zvici inZ Avwg`i Zve| hvbevnbjvI gywhvviv KLbI
Avb awiq w`Z KLbI Mvgevmxiv fO bvk Ki AvmZ| mePqgRv nZv
hLb nVvr Iiv GKv co hZ| nqZ `jeua wgwjUvix AvmQ nVvr GKUv
evgv ev MbWi k b QLvb nqMj `jwU| h hw`K cvoQ QzUQ|
mB mgq Zv`i wjKiv mnR wQj| gywevwnbx Kvb myhvMB nvZQvov
KiZbv| Zv`i jvKej Aej Kg LyeB KgwQj| wK `kcg I Rbej
wQj AcwiwgZ| cwZwU gvbylZv`i Ni `yqvi, jc K^ji Zjvq, Pvji
gUwKi wcQb ev LwoNi, Mvqvj Ni Lwo Avi wePvjxi wcQb Zv`i jywKq
ivLZ| cvij Zviv gywhvv`i eyKi wfZi jywKq ivLZ| KwgDwbiv
hw`I c_g c~eevsjvi ^vaxbZvi `vex Dvcb KiwQj wK gywhy bZZ
wQj MYZvwK kwi nvZ| GiAvM cvwKvb hKwU Av`vjb cwiPvwjZ
nqwQj Zv nqwQj evgcx`i nvZ| gvxq Ges jwbbev`xmsMVbjv
h_fve GB evgcx Av`vjb Z_v ^vaxKvi I ^vaxbZv Av`vjbi mv_
RwoZ _vK| wcwKscx bvg cwiwPZ KwgDwb`i GKwU Ask `ki
Afi hkvi, Lyjbv, cvebv, ewikvj, bvqvLvjx BZvw` Rjvq Rybgvm
ch gywhy msMwVZ Kivi KvR wbhy wQj| Zviv QvU QvU myLhy
bZZ `q| menviv cvwUI `ki wfZi _K gywhymsMwVZ Kivi KvR
wbhy wQj| mmgq evgcx`jwji AvIqvgxjxMmn mKj ivRbwZK `ji
bxcv 417

mg^q GKwU h_ gvPv MVbi welqwUI weePbvaxb wQj| kwgK-KlvYKgxmsN Gwcjgvm AvbyvwbK fve gyw hy Ask bevi Rb `ki
wfZii AevbiZ evgcx `jjvi mv_ hvMvhvM Ki Ges cKZA_B
Zviv mwq AskMnY Ki| Ze `j gZ wbwekl mevi ga h mvswZK,
gbvRvMwZK, A_bwZK Ges ivRbwZK cwiwwZ Zix nqQ Zv wQjv
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bxcv 433

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bxcv 435

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bxcv 437

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