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Carlo M. J.
Copyright 2014 Carlo M. J.
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Chapter 1
was humble, like the rest of his room. This was easy to
distinguish, thanks to a very pale light projected from the moon.
This languid and simple light started to describe in light and
shadow all the stress experienced by every muscle on his face;
that beautiful mestizo face, a mixture of a Quechua native and
European blood that was reflecting a half-finished expression of
sorrow. It was a feeling caught between his lips and his forehead;
a feeling that revealed the kind of anxiety which occurs when a
deep fear takes you out of reality and introduces you into another
world. Nevertheless, his dark eyes seemed to have the insidious
desire to go back to the world of shadows he had just escaped
from. Those dark brown eyes possessed the same fire that can be
found in a brave man who searches the distance for the unknown.
Those eyes were provokers. They were alert; even more, they
were excited by fear.
It was just a dream. A dream and nothing more, he said to
himself in a tired voice. It was no doubt that his body was still
trying to recover its strength. Despite all, he seemed to be well
used to this kind of nighttime experience. Brasas! My friend,
come, come here boy! It is over! The nightmare is finally over.
His words still sounded tired. Immediately, his dog changed his
expression of fear for one of absolute devotion toward his master.
Hastily, Brasas took his huge mass of fur and muscle right to the
edge of the modest cot where Diego was laying down. Only you
are the witness to my dreams, my dear Brasas, he said as he ran
his fingers over his dogs noble square head. Dear friend, if you
would know what happens in any of these dreams, I know that
you would do anything, even giving your own life to save mine,
right Brasas? I know you would, my friend, I know you would!
All Spanish mastiffs have an incredibly sad face, and this one was
no exception. However, Brasas had something very special and
unique; perhaps it was a reflection of self-awareness, maybe even
a glimpse of an almost human soul. For Diego, this animal meant
much more than just a pet. Brasas was a real friend, a confident,
and even more; he was a brother.
Come on Brasas! Do not look at me like I am crazy, he tried to
smile as his two hands kept holding the mastiffs head, delighted
by squeezing his big velvet dog ears. Brasas adored that game of
raw caresses, and he usually responded to Diego with something
resembling a human smile. I know you are worried about what's
disguise any other physical odors, and make him clean, a friend,
even a father.
As a curious note, because of the brown of his clothes, his big
height and his heavy girth, this good man had earned the
nickname of Papa Bear. In fact, everyone in town knew him by
that name. It was beautiful to witness the way all the children in
town used to run to meet him, happily, all shouting his nickname
as soon as they saw him walking down the streets.
Papa Bear! Papa Bear!
However, this mountain of a man seemed to have eyes only for
his dear Diego. Papa Bear knew about his horrible nightmares.
Moreover, he had the custom of visiting Diegos room every
night, knowing that he would be awakened and cursing his bad
luck. Once Diego saw his friend next to him, he tried to force a
smile, however this futile intent only turned into tears. It was then
that Papa Bear broke the silence by saying with a strong
Andalusian accent, Calm down my son! Come on, change that
long face. I know you have had the same nightmare again, but
come on! It is just a dream, a dream and nothing more. Come on,
boy, lift those eyes and give to this old Franciscan a smile, as
which was told every Easter night, as if this tale was a reminder
of the miracle that brought together the lives of these two
peoplethe lives of the painter and the soldier. It was a story of
hope: an abandoned newborn, left to his own fate in the middle of
the night, and the tormented apprentice of a monk, whose life was
one of bad memories and past battles. That night, both saved each
other; both found themselves in need of a hero and a purpose. This
miracle used to inject hope and faith in the hearts of all the monks,
while they shared the bread and the frugal broth that used to feed
them at night before bed. A night like this one, twenty-three years
ago, had changed their lives and made them both stronger. It was
hard to imagine, how the violent heart of a soldier had been healed
by the love of a child. Despite Ceras youth and inexperience, at
that time, he gladly accepted the mission that his own fate gave to
him that night. He would stop being the monk tormented by his
memories of war and death, becoming just Papa Bear. The young
monk had become the Friar of this congregation, and the infant
had grown into a man. Moreover, he was a gifted artist. Maybe it
was finally time for both of them to begin their final destination.
Papa Bear approached Diego and noticed his face was drenched
in sweat. Ceras looked at him fondly, as if trying to give him all
his strength in a single breath.
Diego! You are a strong man. I know that this will end soon; I
assure you, I know so. Abruptly, the painter stood up and stared
at the Friar's face. His deep black eyes revealed a very old pain,
an almost ancestral hopelessness as if this pain had come from a
long time ago. For a moment, Ceras could not recognize his
beloved Diego behind that gaze; it seemed that this pain was
coming since the beginning of time itself, even long before he was
born, even long before the world was created. Ceras asked
himself, what kind of dark force is trying to destroy Diegos
heart? Finally, the painter responded.
Ceras, Ive been dreaming the same nightmare for seven weeks.
I'm about to go crazy. I have lost the desire to sleep, and I cannot
even concentrate on my paintings. My whole life has become a
nightmare in just a few weeks. Ceras, when is this torture going
to end? Or is it
Ceras interrupted immediately. Or is it what? Diego could
manage to say no more. He simply began to walk aimlessly
throughout the room. Clearly, the painter was about to reach the
limit of his despair. Finally, his steps led him outside the window;
the show of a starry and cool night always used to calm him down.
He realized he needed to talk, and let all of his frustrations out;
after all, Ceras was more than a father, but also a guide and a
mentor.
Ceras, I cannot keep living with this uncertainty. I have to find
the answer, or at least the reason why I am having this dreams,
night after night. I think my only option is to get away for a while.
I need to leave these walls and your protection. Ceras looked sad.
I have to find a way to stay within this nightmare a little bit
longer. Maybe, the answer I am looking for lays beyond what has
been shown to me so far. Ceras said nothing, he only nodded his
head in approval. However, as a parent, he had to say something,
anything, even if his words were only nonsense.
I knew you would say something like this someday. Diego,
remember that the only source for answers is God. I'm sure he
knows why and whos the responsible for this heavy burden.
After all, he is the one who put you in my path. Diego, please, do
not lose your faith now. Never let the devil win this battle, never!
You batty boy! You are going to make me cry! Diego, you have
to trust in God, and you will see that everything is solved in less
time than you think; I want to see you again, running all over the
place full of life as before. Come, grant me a smile, the kind you
used to give me when you were a kid and you got in trouble,
remember? You jester! Diego raised his head, somewhat dazed.
Immediately, his eyes fixed on the face of his Papa Bear, just to
give him a smile from ear to eara fake smile, of course.
Yes, Ceras, I remember. You used to forgive all my tricks and
pranks. You always forgave me every time I smiled to you.
That is true, jester! I do remember very well who gave me the
nickname of Papa Bear. It was you, jester! Suddenly, their two
voices met in a single laugh. For a moment, all the frustration and
pain had been shot in the air and was bouncing off the walls in the
shape, or rather, in the sound of laughter.
Diego, The Lord knows that I dont have all the answers,
however, he has taught me the most important lesson of all.
Believe me, without this teaching, the world would be lost
forever.
Ceras, tell me, what is that lesson?
Faith, Diego. The same kind of faith that Christ feels for all
mankind. Because it is clear that he believes in us much more than
we do on him. His faith for us is infinite. So tell me son, if a holy
spirit as powerful as him has so much faith in us, who are we to
have the last word. At least for now, Diego knew that he was not
alone in this world. He knew that Ceras and all his Franciscan
brothers loved him like a son, and they would be with him in
every step of the way. One more time, the painter tried to tighten
his embrace, holding his adoptive father with all his might,
perhaps with even more intensity than the fear he felt in his chest
for so many nights.
Finally, thanks to that warm and comforting gesture, Diego could
feel the wonderful gift of hope in his heart once again. Hope, a
feeling that seems to conquer anything, and yet, it does not give
us a solution; it only gives us a little more time, and with it,
perhaps the promise of an answer. Soon, Brasas too ran to meet
his master. This time, both father and son could not help but open
their arms to embrace their faithful furry friend, who, with his
canine ways, was reminding them that he was also part of this
tribe and would follow them faithfully until the end of his days.
Diego watched the two of them with a bit of melancholy. Despite
his personal hell, these two hearts were his only family. So,
unable to wait any longer, he smiled as before, as a child, as a son.
He embraced them with all his might, trying not to miss anything
from this warm feeling, and from this gift of hope.
Thank you, Papa Bear! Thank you, dear Brasas! Thank you both
so much!