English word of the month assignment

For the month of September, the word that has been the most relevant to me these past 30 days is anxious.
Corrupted and plagued with uncertainty, anxious is all I've felt this month.
Anxious. We live for serenity and certainty virtues only those without an anxious mind can obtain. Turmoil
originates from an anxious and uncertain mind so in order for one to obtain nirvana it is essential to get rid of
such obstacles. Anxious Is defined as experiencing worry, unease, or nervousness, typically about an imminent
event or something with an uncertain outcome. Anxious defines who I am, what I've been, but hopefully not
what I will continue to be. Clouds of doubts and rains of consequential sorrow have loomed over me this past
month with little to no sign of a coming sun. Precipitated, my worries have almost come to an end. Whether or
not the outcome is for the better is still unknown perhaps that is why I've been so anxious. Whatever the
reasoning may be for these feelings of unease matters not for the harbinger is of little importance what comes
is what matters. I dance to the melody of misery I've composed with an ease of heart but a rhythm so horrible It
almost mimics my state of mind. Tripping over myself I can only hope for a betterment of rhythm or a change of
song for this tune be dammed.