I can no longer stand up (photo)

Kaiwind Dictated by He Changshou,Edited by Jun Zheng 2012-11-05

He Changshou confined to bed due to paralysis

I am He Changshou, 74-year-old, and live in Dongzhuang Village, Taishan Township, Huojia County, Henan Province. Our family has been earning our living by farming. Although we cannot make big money from farming, we led a pretty comfortable life with enough clothes and foods. My wife and I lived with our children and grandchildren. We enjoyed our life together.

I have had hereditary high blood pressure since my young age. Doctors advised me to take medicines, to do exercises and to have rational diet. I took these advices, and my blood pressure has been under control without causing any other complication.

In the summer of 1997, one of my neighbors told me that there is a kind of Qigong named Falun Gong, which had magic power. According to the neighbor, a lot of people were practicing Falun Gong at that time. Falun Gong not only can cure diseases and improve physical health, but advocates the tenets of faithfulness, compassion and forbearance. Those who try to be a good person and cultivate to a certain extent may achieve Consummation and go to the heaven, added my neighbor. The neighbor gave me a book Zhuan Falun, suggesting me take a look at the book during my spare time. Therefore, I got accesses to Falun Gong.

After a period of regular physical exercises and relaxation of my mind, I felt alleviation in my blood pressure condition. Thus, I believed that Falun Gong was able to cure diseases. I became particularly keen on cultivation. I kept on practicing

day and night. I hang up a portrait of my Master on the wall and presented offerings. I persisted in worships everyday and got utterly obsessed. Before I got involved in Falun Gong, I did farming work and took my grandson to school everyday. Since I began to practice Falun Gong, I took no care of the farming work and my grandson, which led to the tension in relationships among our family members.

Falun Gong was outlawed in 1999. I was too upset to accept advices of my family members and relatives. Sometimes when my sons talked too much on this topic, I blamed that they were not filial and were devils impeding my cultivation. I asked them to get off.

In 2000, I stopped taking blood pressure medicines. When my sons figured out this situation, they persuaded me for several times. But I did not accept their advice at all. Due to my insistence, my sons did not have alternatives but to let me do what I wanted to do. Thus, as time passed by, my hypertension deteriorated due to my refusal to take medicines. I often suffered from daze or vomit.

On a summer noon in 2005, I fainted in meditation. I survived the danger since I was sent to hospital in a timely manner. But when I came back to senses, I refused to take injection and insisted on going home. I complained my family members for bothering my efforts to cure disease by karma elimination. When I got home, I resumed practicing Falun Gong. My eldest son He Guangcai was so angry with me that he tore up the Falun Gong documents on my bedside. I then and there kicked up a row with him.

My health was worsening. My family members were worried, but they can do nothing with it. Although they persuaded me to go to the hospital, to take medicines, and to give up my belief in curing disease by karma elimination, I firmly believed that taking medicines may increase my karma and my illness could only be cured by karma elimination through cultivation.

In April 2007, I was often dazed and in low spirit. I slobbered and could not see or speak clearly. One morning at the end of April, I fainted again when I practiced meditation as usual at home. My eldest son forced me to a clinic in the township. I recovered after emergent treatment including injection. But

when my conditions was improving, I sneaked back home. When I got home, I felt relieved, feeling my recovery was the result of my Masters help, with which I ascended to a new level.

In March 2010, when I practiced Falun Gong with crossed legs, I felt headache, vomit, twitch and sweating. Although I felt uncomfortable, I insisted on cultivation. I murmured, "Falun Dafa is good," "Faithfulness, compassion and forbearance are good", and asked for help from my Master. Shortly after I fainted and became unconscious, my sons took me to the peoples hospital in the county. I was diagnosed with cerebral infarction caused by high blood pressure. Despite the treatment, I was paralyzed from the waist down. So far I lost feeling below the waist and cannot sit up without support.

This is what has happened to me. This is my real experience. I had expected to cure my disease by karma elimination. But my expectation became fruitless. I can no longer stand up.