Dreamers

Why do we exist? Why do we think in so many different ways but have only a single possibility? Why do we only have one road, but with loads of pathways? Do we have a choice? Do we choose? Who are we? Whats the possibility of us doing things without actually imagining them? Yes These are my questions. I was thinking on a not so usual night, but the same as the others, if we could live in a dream? To be conscious more or less... to have dreams. So thats how my story began A story with an end, but with no beginning. Do you think something like that is possible to exist? I was on the street and I was looking at everything that existed around me and I could see that everything was evolving but we were still its not us thats evolving, but our minds. A mind that hides everything you see in front of your eyes. I was trying to realise if I had the possibility to pierce all the limits and I think I did, in a way. When I got home I had a nightmare I hit my head when I was sleeping , the point is that I was aware of this when I hit it , but was I after ? Or was I not? The next day, I woke up with banging headaches, I wasnt myself. Thats how it went on for the following two, even three weeks. Every time I went to bed , I had some sort of weird dreams ,so then I said to myself that I need to dream something else and I managed to do so . I managed to dream myself being poor, and being rich. At first I dreamt that I was poor. I didnt have any possibilities, I didnt have anything. Nothing. I lived on the edge of a cliff life didnt exist for me. I was living a nightmare, I knew I was dreaming, but I still felt it.I lived alone in an apartment in my native town, I worked 4 hours a day to earn 3 pounds so I can buy myself a loaf of bread. I didnt have electricity, only a candle that seemed to guide me, and then I fell asleep. I woke up instantly was it possible? Was it me? I wasnt paying attention to anything anymore; I kept thinking why I was like that in my dreamI left my job , I left everything I was too preoccupied with my dreams , with my decisions. In the evening, while thinking of what to do, I fell asleep. I startled! I was in an apartment; however everything was different this time romantic music, a suede couch I got up, went to the window and saw a futuristic town. Thats where I lived. I had a girlfriend, I had everything, and I was a man with a future ahead of me. I came down the stairs and my dog was barking it was like I never wanted to wake up, but again, I was well aware it was just a dream. I came out my block and everyone greeted me as I was going to work, where I was a shareholder. For what? It was like I was the happiest man, I was known, but was this fame for free? I asked myself these questions every time. I met my girlfriend Joana at my work place. She was so young, only 28 years old. She kissed me as if she hadnt seen me in ages. I was going to my office, and when I opened the door I was shocked to see I had guests. It was my birthday, I was just turning 29. I was way more older than I thought , I hadnt seen myself in the mirror ,but everyone was happy that it was my birthday. Was I though? I remember not celebrating my birthday, because I didnt have a lot of friends, at least in reality I didnt I was standing still while watching them sing happy birthday to me. I was quite nervous. Everyone was kissing and congratulating me as I walked to the other side of the room and sat down on the couch. Then that something happened. I woke up to reality. It was dream that I kept wanting more and more, but the other dream I couldnt even stand... I hated what existed, everything around me was grey. I got up from bed and decided I wanted to become the man from my dreams. It was snowing when I came out from my block It was like a never ending blanket for me. I threw myself in the snow with my eyes to the sky and started smiling. I was flying, just like a kid bursting of happiness and melting the snow that just settles at that moment. Suddenly I slipped and fell. I started to dream of the poor side of me

I blew out the candle because there wasnt much left of it, but I burned my left hand as I did it. Someone was knocking at the door. I got up quickly to see who it is and standing there right before me, was my other persona .The rich one, sleeping on the couch. Suddenly, I hear someone shouting at me: wake up, wake up! The snow is cold It was a lady and her dog that woke me up since I fell over and must of past out. I got home, soaking wet and my hand was stinging, my thumb was also sore. I was so confused, I didnt know what happened. I changed out of my wet clothes and got ready for university, where I didnt really pay attention to the courses I was taking, up till now. I was so tired due to my work place so I couldnt really cope with any other things. I got there, and saw my class mates talking amongst them, but I didnt stay with them, I went straight to my class to sit down. Time was ticking by so slowly for me 5 minutes were 100, it was like I could see the future before my eyes. As the class was filling up I was thinking to myself: why are there so many of us here? What is the purpose of all this? What does it help us with? Our teacher walked in and started talking to us about what were going to do today, but I was way too hypnotized to listen to his words. After class I had a little catch up with my friends and decided to go out for a drink, and so we did. We sat at a table and started to order. As everyone was getting carried away with their talking, one of my friends addressed himself to me. How have you been? he said to me. Good, just agitated with a thing and another, what about you? Yeah, same as you, I need to get ready to go to work at 7 Cool, Im happy you work, I quit for some time now. Why? he asked me. I have a few problems that I dont want to mix them with work, with everyday life, so I intend to wait till I get better. Perfect! I hope you get well as soon as possible Thank you I said to him. After that I made my way home to eat something and use the computer. I got home, had a shower then made myself two eggs and started to savor the silence that was filling my apartment. Slowly, slowly, it was getting late so I forgot about everything and went to sleep. Before getting into bed though, I always said my prayers; it was like I wanted to believe in God, that he will help me. Asleep, I awake again as the rich man, on the sofa. It was the 8th of June 2021, 20 past 11. I slept two days. I get up, trying to figure out where I am. I was at my work place. I had 13 missed calls when I looked at my phone but I didnt recognise any of the numbers, except for one, which was Joana. After about 30 minutes I decide to call her to tell her that Im off to Paris to buy some presents for my parents. The voicemail came in so I left her a message; Im on my way to the airport to get my ticket for Paris, I cant wait to get on the plane. I took my bag of clothes that I had in my office and took off. I came out the building and called a taxi To the airport please! Sure thing, Ill take you as quick as possible Thanks. After I purchased my ticket, I took a seat and time only seemed to pass slower and slower. An old man came up to me and said: Is anyone sitting there? No, have a seat. I responded. I didnt know him and Ive never seen him before. Since I had quite some time on my hands, I decided to start a conversation, so I asked him where he was going. Paris, Mr? He didnt know my name and didnt want to tell him either. Good, me too.im going shopping After 5 minutes, the plane arrived and we all got on. I took a seat and received a text from Joana: Sorry I couldnt pick up, I was busy. Enjoy your flight.

As the plane was lifting off, I glared out the window to see the beautiful sky, and how we rose into the air just like a bird. I leaned back on my chair and took a nap. The alarm is going off! I wake up quickly because I was late for a meet up with my friends. I get dressed, put on my shoes and leave the house. As I was walking to the bus stop I could see my bus coming so I ran in order to make it. I thanked god that a passenger on the bus told the driver to wait for me. I thanked the man himself and as he turned around, it was like there was a flash before my eyes. It was like I knew him, but I wasnt too sure if it was him or not. It was the old man from the airport that asked me if the seat next to me was taken. I didnt know what to do so I took the seat next to the door. That moment, he came to me and asked me: Is anyone sitting there? I was in a state of shock when I heard; I didnt even know what to respond. No, take a seat. Thank you, youre a nice young man he said. I got off the bus and started to make my way towards my friends, with my mind still wondering about that man on the bus. I felt so agitated when I saw him but he helped me, I didnt know why I was feeling like this.as I was approaching my friends , one of them said: Hey Raul, did you oversleep again? Yeah, sorry Im late I dont know what you do at night but I must keep you kind of busy Yeahill fix this, dont worry I said in laughter. I sat down and we started laughing, talking about football, various people, then we started playing cards. We ordered something to eat too then suddenly, I looked at the time. The hours went by like the wind after a rainy day; it got dark way to quickly. I tell one of the guys that Im going home due to my tiredness and he offers to take me home. On our way there, he asks me: Why do you stay indoors so much? Are you having problems with money or any sort? Oh no, its not to do with that, dont worry. Well, you know you can come to me if you ever have any sort of problems. Ill try help you out however I can. Thanks man! When I got home, I walked to the stairs of my block; where my neighbors were quietly chatting. I had to pay the maintenance but I totally forgot. I went up quickly and got the money so I can give it to the ladies. I go back up and turned on the TV while I was waiting for my pizza delivery that seemed to be taking its time. Suddenly the intercom rang, I get up sharply and after I pick up, my knees started wobbling. I passed out and I saw that same poor man walking right and left. I was looking at him all confused, and all of a sudden he puts his hands around my neck and said: Get up, Get up! Be a man! Get up! He lifted me up by the side of the wall and let go. Stay there, coward He turned towards the door and went through it just like a ghost. The doorbell went off just as I woke up again, standing up and leaning against the wall. I quickly opened the door and there, was a man saying: Good evening, your pizza sir. Thatll be 8 pounds please. Yep, just a minute please. I said. I went to get the money and paid the guy his money, and started to eat my pizza. I was thinking about that man the lifted me up. He was so strong and it was as if he wasnt scared of anything. I saw him like a real man. I went to sleep but again, I wake up all of a sudden. It was so hot in the room, I couldnt even breathe. Next to me was the old man sitting and laughing at me.

Youre going to sleep, but you dont know that Im going to save you What did you say? Youll see with your soul, not your eyes. Then he disappears. I go back to sleep, awakening as that poor man. I had quite an intense workout, my apartment was so hot. For the first time I go over to the thermometer to read it. It said 35 degrees. I was confused again. I didnt know what was going on so I decided to put on a vest top and go out. I see all my friends and walk towards them, a girl, Ramone says to me: Why dont you just go see her and say sorry? See who? Who should I apologise to? Well, you know best, just watch out. After this conversation, I decide to go to the shop to get a bottle of sparkling water and go towards the stadium. I cross the bridge over the river and as I look to my left, I see some black clouds. I didnt really pay any attention to them and continued my journey. At the stadium there was another girl that was jogging dressed in black with her hood up. Hi! Are you alright? I greeted her. Not really she responded. Okay, I hope you get used to it. I start jogging too and after about 5 laps, she runs ahead and starts laughing at me, then she tripped. I help her up but I still couldnt see her face. She says thanks and I go back to jogging, when a storm hit us. I use the gallery area as a shelter, as appose to the girl that left. I lie on the chairs and fall asleep. I woke back up to reality I was sweating and had a banging headache again. I had a shower and when I get out, I took some pills. I knew I had a friend coming over tomorrow morning, so I lay in bed to go to sleep for I knew she had a key to get in. Thats when the change was due to happen: I awoke as the rich man on the plane, now in Paris. I get off the plane, pass the security, when the security guards approach me and tell me to stop. At the moment I put my hand in my pocket when one of them tells me: Dont move! Take your hand out and put it behind your head! I was so scared, shaking with a heartbeat so fast it was like the whole airport could hear it. They hand cuffed me and took me to a room, where a man in a black suit was standing. Hello, Im lt. Nichel Scott. I was contacted by the Romanian Authorities regarding a dangerous weapon that you are transporting. Is this true? What Weapon? Where?! In your luggage sir, do you have anything to declare? No, I dont. He opens my bag and made me take out everything that was in it. They were surprised to find out that there was nothing but clothes in there. Are you sure you dont have any other bags? No sir, just this one. Okay, we apologise for any inconvenience we might have caused you, thank you for your time. No problem, I just got quite scared, thats all, and now Im not feeling very well. Do you need to go to a hospital? Or we can assure you a hotel room. No, dont worry. I only came for the day to do some shopping, Im going back after.

Okay. Well, thank you for your understanding. Have a good day. Thank you, you too. Bye. What happened in there hit me quite hard. I felt as if it wasnt the first time it happened to me. I exit the airport very dizzy and go towards a shop that was across the street. After I get something to eat, I go out shopping in central Paris. I take a ride on the Eiffel tower too, and start taking pictures, when a picture appears on my camera. It was me, in a hospital with a girl that was meant to visit me. It was weird, when all of a sudden I start to hear voices; Please wake up! What did you do?! I come down form the tower and run quickly towards the airport. I felt something had happened. I call a taxi to take me there quickly. I got to the airport; I didnt get to call Joana to tell her that Im coming home. I bought an engagement ring for her, without her knowing. I wanted to propose, I was so happy. I get on my plane and after about 20 minutes of take-off I call Joana. I was hearing voices again, through the phone. Please take care of him! The team on board then announced turbulences and so we should fasten our seat belts. I decided not to call her any more, since I was becoming frightened of the situation I was in. I felt like someone was taking the ground from beneath my feet, I couldnt control it so I went to sleep in order to try and relax. I wake up, still on the plane. That was something weird, it had never happened to me before. We finally landed so I could now call Joana, but again, it went into voice mail. I take a taxi home and told the driver to hurry up because I felt something has happened. Im going as quickly as I can sir. Thank you very much. I took my bags from the cabs as we approached my house and gave the driver a 20 pound note. I knocked on my door but no one answered. I try to open it but I was closed, but a split second later a man opened the door and said: Who are you? Who are you?! I replied confused Well, this is where I live When I heard I went for his neck and pushed him inside shouting in despair: Joana, who is this man?! I am her boyfriend he replied. Oh yeah? Where is she? All of a sudden I feel a knife stabbing me in the back, as if through my heart. I turn around and I see Joana crying. She said to me: Im sorry but I dont love you anymore! I was hearing a lot of voices. I turn back to that man, but I see a mirror and I push it. It was me, the rich guy. Money had changed me, it wasnt me anymore. When the image of the poor man appeared, I went to the mirror and screamed: Wake up! And I woke up at the stadium.

I get up, all tired and I try to snap out of it, my chest was hurting and it was still raining, slowly It was so windy outside, cold as well so I started to rush past the chairs and make my way home. As I was crossing the bridge, a girl appeared out of nowhere. She was sitting there by herself on the side of the bridge so I said to her: Dont try to do something stupid Yes I will. What is the point of living? My life is nothing but fog! Thats not truetry and smile every time and then the fog might clear up. Get up! No! Then Ill sit next to you. If you jump Ill jump too! You must be kidding! You wouldnt dare! Then you wouldnt either. I sat next to her and she took her hood off, and then presented herself. Im Andrea. Im Raul. Nice to meet you! I was then holding her hand. She was a red head with colored highlights. She was like an angel to me, an angel that saw herself as a demon. Why did you sit next to me? Its not like youre going to stop me anyways. She said to me. If Im not going to stop you, then Im truly sorry. She started smiling and got up, but slipped and fell, luckily I caught her. She was dragging me down with her. Save me please! Dont let go! With only one had holding on the side of the bridge, I tried to pull her up. I couldnt. Reach up you other hand and try to pull yourself! I told her. She does so and because I was helping her, I forgot about myself and fell in the river where I hit my head on a rock. I could see her crying and calling for help. I closed my eyes, ready to say goodbye to this cruel world, but then the miracle happened. I woke up sitting, vomiting out blood and pills. I was in the hospital. I look to the left: the resuscitation machines had been used. I look to the right: it was Simone, the girl that had always been there for me ever since Ive known her, as appose to me, I wasnt there for her when she needed me. She starting laughing with tears in her eyes and started hugging me. I love you!! You woke up! she cried out. But I was awake Maybe thats what you saw, but I saw something else. You have been a coma and only the machines were keeping you alive. Im sorry; I didnt know what I did Getting a bit better, stepping slowly, I realised that the most important thing existing is the chance of life, that has been re-given to me. I took the wrong pathway and couldnt decide which way is better to take. I wanted to be something in life, but building my way up I hurt people closest to me, that loved me. I decided to try and be a better person, and see life for what it is, good or bad. You have to take care of it for its not necessarily it that is important but the decision you take and the people surrounding you. The End