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Thank
you.
When you live forever, what do you live for?
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After my little spat with Julia I left the house and decided to go with Aspen. I’ll face the
immature kids.
When I got there I put my Blue CRV in park and slammed the door.
It was now raining in Burkwood.
Rain was beautiful. I didn’t understand why people hated it so much. It’s one of
the closest things we have to God. It’s a symbol of cleanliness. Why would anybody hate
that?
Aspen’s house is new. Its color was tan with white shutters around the glass
windows. It also was a two story.
I lived in a 1987 blue, two story, with faded paint and old windows that almost
could pass for plastic.
Her mom, (Andrea) answered the door.
“Oh, hello Willow. Come in, come in.” She beamed with love. Something my mother did
not know about.
“Hey Mrs. Hamilton. Thanks.” I smiled walking in.
The living room was open with candles lit up making the house smell like lavender.
There actually was carpet. It felt good on my cold, soaked toes.
I looked over at Andrea. Her eyes were brown, her black hair with swept scores
her face neatly, and her skin was pale.
“Where’s Aspen?” I asked.
She smiled generously. “In her room.” She laughed pointing up the stairs.
I heard her music. “Bring me to life” by Evanescence was blasting.
“Oh,” I grinned. “So I hear.”
I knocked on her door making sure she wasn’t undressed or anything.
“Come in!” She yelled turning down her music.
“You ready?” I asked raising my brows.
“Oh yeah hold on.” She lifted a finger rubbishing through a bunch of clothes on her floor.
I glanced around her room. Of course it was a mess.
“Okay, let’s go.” She said walking out the door.
“People who come here are so fake.” I muttered as we drove into the mall parking lot.
Aspen laughed. “So, we’re fake?”
“No, I mean the people who come here every single day.”
I spotted some of the preps walking together in a pack. Just the way I left them a
month ago.
Tan, sporty, Abercrombie, size two blonds hand in hand with their jock-strap
boyfriends. Sickening. It looks like they haven’t eaten in days.
I frowned as we walked into the huge building crawling with teenagers. I
couldn’t help but notice there was also strong PDA in the corner by the bathrooms.
“Get a room.” I complained walking in the opposite direction. Then I did a
double take and my heart smashed into a million pieces.
Mitchell.
“Elizabeth?” Aspen asked. I stood motionless watching them. I felt nauseas.
“Oh…” Asp mumbled. “Mitchell, GET A ROOM!” She yelled walking away and
taking my hand.
He turned away from the red head.
I just glowered at him, pondering of how he enjoyed that. How could he just…walk
away? Because of him I was angry. Because of him I spend every day thinking to myself,
“Am I that stupid?” I am dieing inside because of Mitchell, and I didn’t like to see him
with that girl. It hurt…horribly.
He stared back probably taking the revenge in. Although he has no revenge or
right to. This was my time to be angry. Not his.
I walked away without another word.
“How could he just stare at you and not say anything?” Aspen mumbled looking through
the clothes rack in “The Buckle”. I frowned.
“I don’t know.”
She studied me. “Why didn’t you just…. yell at him right then and there?” She asked.
I shrugged looking away as I sat on a chair.
She shook her head and continued to search.
Meanwhile, I thought of the summer of ‘07’.
***
The night was dark with a dim glow of a midnight campfire. You could hear the popping
of the sparks flying in the air. The faint aroma of mosquito spray filled the atmosphere.
We sat on plastic chairs staring at the stars. They were translucent against the black sky. I
leaned my head against his chest looking in his warm brown eyes.
“What are you thinking about?” I asked.
He smiled the smile that made me drop over dead and chuckled. “How someone so
perfect made such a beautiful sky….” He stopped and looked at me. “And such a
gorgeous girl.”
I blushed beat red.
“I think your being biased.” I giggled. He took my face in his hands.
“Biased? No. I think I’m telling the truth.”
Then I couldn’t breath. I closed my eyes and kissed his full lips.
His hands were soft and felt good against my cheek. I sighed. The night was too
perfect.
“Do you know how much I love you?” He questioned looking down at me.
I ducked my head. “Nope. But, I know how much I love you.” I grinned.
“How much?” He laughed taking me into his arm. I considered.
“About….” I let go of him and spread my arms out as far as they could go. “This much.”
I snickered. He smiled.
“No, I’m just teasing. If, I dropped a tear in the ocean, I would try to find it but I
couldn’t because it’s impossible.”
A confused look crossed his face in the silent light from the fire.
“In other words….” I smirked. “My love for you is impossible. There’s no end.”
He laughed.
“I love you more than there are stars in space.”
There was silence. “Wow. That much huh?” I asked.
“Yes. That much.”
Again, awkward stillness while gazing into each other’s eyes. Did he really love
me? I asked looking back.
“I should probably leave now.” He exhaled.
I frowned. “Fine.” I said getting up.
He kissed me forehead. “Goodnight.” He whispered against my head.
I smiled while shutting my eyes.
“Goodnight.” I repeated kissing him tenderly once more going on my tippy toes.
Endurance kept me going from after that night. He left the day after that, meeting me at a
coffee house and telling me goodbye. I cried many tears that night and couldn’t blame
him. Maybe I was too clingy. Too self-fish. I always wanted him in my sight. Then I
realized after years of struggling that was because my mom and dad didn’t have a good
relationship and I wanted to be sure he was faithful. To this day I still do not know why
he left me.
Endurance. I keep trying.
I didn’t mean to be ugly to my mom today so I decided to apologize.
I walked into our dirty, old house and took off my chucks. I could hear the
sizzling of the pans in the kitchen so that’s where I headed. She stood there flipping an
omelet.
“Hey, mom I’m sorry for acting that way this afternoon.” I whimpered. She
smiled while grabbing the salt. I watched her as she twisted the handle.
“It’s fine. But, dang your anger…when you get mad your like some vampire
prepared to eat me.” She laughed turning the stove down a notch. I giggled.
“I wish I was.” I grinned. She gave me a confused look. I wish I hadn’t said that.
The reason why that had slipped out was because in fairy tales things go awful, and then
the princess ends up with prince charming. I was the mythical creature.
The one who had always fought for what they wanted but never got it in the end.
I was the vampire and Mitchell was my prey.
“Never mind.” I smiled walking away.
Flipping the switch my eyes swarmed around my room. It was really neat and everything
was in order. I’ve had a lot of free time on my hands. My bed was brown with a white
wood headboard. There were pictures of Aspen and I on my bedside table and a folded
picture of my grandma and I on Thanksgiving under the book that read “literature 101”.
My schoolbook.
I tripped over my backpack that was out in the middle. I had forgotten to put it
away. Something I normally don’t do. In my life, every T was crossed and every I was
dotted. Every CD was in alphabetic order depending on the artist and every wrinkle in my
sheet was ironed. There was nothing else to do so…why not? I mean, that wasn’t me two
years ago but I’ve learned a lot about my self from the breakup. Things I usually
wouldn’t see.