Manifestation of Blistering Thought - Part 3 - Im I Nuts? Written by Norman. F.

Fagan Science Looking Beyond the Coded Colors Friday July 20, 2012 I was sitting watching television when a science show called Nova appeared before me and the narrator began discussing time and its creation. Earlier in this document I stated that time was something we created to make better use of our day. They have a more scientific version of absolutely nothing but useless mumbo jumbo. In my opinion time doesnt exist, but clocks do and these devices created a product called time that we consume. They suggested that their version of what time is can move forward and backwards while standing absolutely still. They also mentioned that Einstein wrote a theory stating time travel was possible, even though there is absolutely no proof and their going simply on his reasoning. If he was so smart, why couldnt he tie his shoelaces? Too many easy avenues are missed due to the lack of focus upon the simplest tasks, the hard road to scientific discovery falls short of the truth in this field of overlapping theories of idiotic thinking. I know I will be condemned for my reasoning on this subject, simply because theres no profit in my conclusions of what and why time is, unless youre buying a clock. The life of a human is minuscule to that of the cosmos and our understanding of what is will never be truly understood, based solely on theories from people who want attention and prizes, not so noble in their pursuit of the truth. Its strange sometimes the things I write about, considering some of the horrific events that have occurred lately. A couple of days ago there was a shooting at a block party in the capitol of this province, leaving 2 dead and dozens injured. The week before this one, the boys in evacuated a cold city north of us, because of explosives found in a house full of guns. Then last night in a Midwestern area south of the border near a Boulder name state, a man walked into a theater and shot 71 people, killing 12 at the scene. If time were a factor then the moments between shots would have been an eternity for those hiding from the shooter and longer for the boys in blue that took between 60-90 seconds to arrive on the scene. I know some of those families will wish time travel was possible, so they could go back and save their love ones. But if time exists then it is fluent, it always continues forward, tick tock tick tock, no going back. If you want to change the future you have to act in the present before it becomes the past. July 22, 2012 the sexual traits of a human female can be traced through the lunar cycle of dormant barn mice atop of the Himalaya Mountains, near the core of the western glacial peaks of the sometimes forgotten realism of intense body manipulation. Looking through the eyes of a willow swaying in the wind on a clear green pond in the mainstream designs of modern romance will have you embarking on a journey of self-discovery. July 23, 2012 Im not sure what to write, my head is swimming in a pool of confusion, maybe if I explain what happened everything will come into focus. I awoke around 1:45 pm another night of restless sleep. The sun shone brightly through the windows, warm and comforting. Realizing there was no milk, decided to go for a walk around the block before retrieving the motherly milk of a steak sandwich. I followed the sidewalk around the

neighborhood and then walked back through the park toward the small store on the corner, when a bright flash of blinding light engulfed me. I felt my body being twisted, burning in never ending spins until I came to, lying between the buildings of where I live shaken, burned, bleeding and pain that covered all of my being. Getting into the apartment was somewhat of a chore and then the stairs. Looking up at them I sighed heavily and moved my battered body upwards. Im now sitting in front of my computer writing and I cant begin to tell you the pain that ripples through my entire body. Im popping pills to deaden the pain. My eyes are drooping; I wonder if Ill be okay if I let myself sleep for a while? I only slept for two hours. Im now spreading cream over the various burns I have. Ive noticed that I now have several broken teeth and they hurt like hell. I dont remember where I went thats if I even went anywhere other than a few blocks, hard to say. Im just going to let it go for now and move on. More files have shown up at my door and I need to focus on those, especially since one of the files says Presidents eyes only. Here I thought that this file would have something interesting, but its just standard fair, military updates, proposed targets and movements. I know someone out there wants me to put my twist on these files, but I dont do treason, even though Im not from south of the border. To send out that kind of information would mostly rebound back at our security. The other files are special projects, you know secret, secret area 51 stuff, really cool. July 24, 2012 Im starting to wonder whether that incident with that strange phenomenon may have been a test run for something far more devious. You see last night when I went to sleep I awoke in the middle of the night, but I wasnt in my own bed, actually I wasnt even in my own body. I climbed out of bed and wandered into an adjacent room. Before me a mirror the length of the wall, I peered into it only to see a stranger looking back. I was in the body of a being that was a cross between an elf and a hunters favorite crosshair target, but much younger than this old fart, possibly fifteen or sixteen. My eyes blue, hair long and flowing blonde about half way down my back, skin lightly tanned and a decent muscle build. I looked around the room and saw what appeared to be a toilet, so I thought, I used it anyway. My stomach growled, so I snuck quietly out of the room, down the hallway and into the kitchen. How did I know that was the kitchen? It seemed natural, strange huh. I picked through the contents of this room tasting everything, finding very little to my liking. The drink I settled upon got me tipsy. I headed back to the room of origin. I decided to sit on the balcony with my feast and stared up at the nights sky. There were several moons and another planet over shadowing this one. I felt tired after eating and returned to the lush satin bed. When I awoke, I was back in my own bed. The really strange thing was that before I fell asleep, I ate a piece of fruit. I could still taste it in my mouth. One other thing I should mention is that I believed I was actually there, so I wrote out our alphabet pointing out vowels. I also wrote down my name, our planet and where it was in the constellations, I hope that wasnt a mistake? July 26, 2012 it would appear that scientists have discovered Valeria sitting in a solar system similar to our own. Three planetary bodies orbiting a new star, I wonder what theyll do when they find out that all three planets are occupied, by the same species. One main planet and the other two colonized. The ratio for time is they live three years to our one. I find that strange because, I thought it was the other way around, my mistake. I wonder what the Royal family of Valeria is doing right now. After all, didnt I leave our address on the table outlining our solar system to them? If youre wondering why all of a sudden a flush of premonitions and other strange events have occurred lately, is because I slipped off the wagon and began burning the herbs from the

garden of Eden, once again. Not much, just a few micro-flips, enough to ignite a flurry of these bazaar events. Its always the funny herbs that start the rash of odd premonitions and it will last for a few days. Its just a bit disturbing to have a string of events so close to each other in design that it sometimes puts me on edge. I used the word events three times, six letters in the word, 6 plus 3 equals 9. Science White Jacket Sometimes I get the weirdest stuff sent to me by courier, other than secret documents that my eyes shouldnt see. Anyway, the packaged I found at the bottom of my stoop, had several layers of protection and when I removed them all, I was flabbergasted. Inside was a Japanese love doll, oh my, what should I do, lets see, youre a single middle aged man with no girlfriend or wife, not a hard decision, is it. It figures, the instruction manual came in Japanese, Ill go online and see if I can get them translated. I typed in the serial number for the product and they sent me three separate instruction manuals in three different languages Chinese, French and Germen. This isnt your ordinary love doll, this thing has a control panel and I need to know how to start and stop my new girlfriend. I managed to understand several of the words, so I took her for a spin. It was like making love to a gas tank, it felt empty, so I filled her up. While were beating around the bush, there are a few things I would like to say to the writer. Whats wrong with you! Are you even paying attention to what youre writing? I am, but the squirrels stole my nuts. They did leave two and both were cracked. Whats worse, Im missing some marbles, can only find one and the deck is also missing cards, not full anymore. Theres something dripping out of my ears. My brother wants me to go swimming, said something about the deep end. My niece said Ive lost it; I hope its fat and need to lose a few pounds. I wonder what dad meant when he said my hamster died. My mom didnt help either; she mentioned something about loose screws. Two are missing from the cabinet, I wonder where they went. Tormented souls ripped from their flesh, beg for mercy from their executioner. Scream, shout, bleeding tears of pain, nobody cares because your insane. Demons glide over crushed human souls and laugh a fiery song of hells untold. From beyond heavenly winds to frightening goals, mercy is for the living not for cursed souls, who are now enslaved in Lucifers home. July 28, 2012 there are some days I should just stay home and hide from everyone, but I didnt and I got caught up in trivial dust of the modern world. I sat sipping my morning coffee in the middle of the afternoon down on Clifton Hill, minding my own business. When a young child about 6 or 7 years of age, female I think, they all look the same at that age, troublesome. She grasped the back of her pants and mumbled a strange word along with a bunch of others, I have to tinkle. Wasnt sure what she meant at first, but she did a weird dance in circles. It must have meant she needed to relieve herself. So in an act of kindness I pointed toward a group of bushes. A few moments later I could hear a womans voice ring out, what are you doing, thats not a bathroom. I looked over and could see the child pointing right at me. Less than 2 minutes after this event begun I had mommy, daddy, grandma, grandpa and an assortment of other siblings, the boys in blue four of them and the store owner all discussing why I shouldnt have pointed her toward the bushes. That was only the beginning; my mouth always gets me in trouble. Someone said I was a pervert, doesnt surprise me. Anything out of the ordinary for these monkey thumpers and that word comes spewing out like vomit. I said to the father, the

only thing Im interested in, is your wife. Followed by, shes like a used car; still has a good body, and only a few miles on her. I have a black eye and summons to appear in court. The strange part about this whole incident was that the child repeatedly asked her family to take her to the bathroom and they told her to hold it until they got back to their hotel room. In my mind thats cruel and Ill be mentioning this to the judge. The store owner that stood pointing, grumbling at me had in fact barred people from using his facilities, even though he operated a restaurant. You see they hadnt eaten in that establishment, so he wouldnt let the child use the bathroom. The boys in blue completely washed away any wrong doings of both owner and parents. Its easier to point a finger at a stranger then it is to admit youre an insensitive S.O.B. August 3, 2012 Ive suffered through several days of insomnia, I finally fell to sleep but now I wake up in the middle of the afternoon. Things are getting backlogged because of it, files piling up. A few weeks of clarity and wham back to being unfocused and slipping into madness once again. James contacted me, Ive been expelled from their network, apparently Im too hot for them to continue sending me material and they have asked me to destroy everything Ive been sent. Im too unstable he said. Making a coffee table out of C4 showed them that Ive become a security risk and thats why they have abandoned me. August 9, 2012 12:06 PM 1 plus 2 plus 0 plus 6 equals 9 I went to bed earlier but I awoke abruptly from a terrifying, but surreal nightmare, I could taste the blood in my mouth, salty and dry. I remember being in a shopping Centre, you now the one with the robot name with a cart. When suddenly shots rang out and people began to fall to the floor, screams reverberated through the store, followed by more gunshots. I collapsed onto the shelf in front of me, my face and chest burned with excruciating pain. My eyes felt like they were on fire, unfocused and blurred from a wet substance. I turned to see two men pointing long objects, followed by puffs of smoke and shouts of enjoyment. I was leaning against a shelf covered in tools. Reaching down I picked up a hammer and threw it at the closet individual. It struck him in the head, he screamed, turned and fell over and at the same time fired his weapon, shooting his accomplice. I realized I had a window of opportunity and I took it. Grabbing a sludge hammer moved as quickly as I could toward them, striking the first man who I knocked down, twice in the head, crushing his skull. I turned toward the other man, who was groaning. He fired his weapon at me; it struck me several times but it didnt stop me. Two more quick swings and he was down permanently his head crushed beneath the heavy metal end. I could hear shouts of another accomplice. I reached down and snatched up a shotgun, staggered over to a pillar in the middle of the isle and sat down in front of it. A piece of mirror beside me and the gun between my legs waited for him to come over. He screamed, shouted in rage that his friends were dead and wanted to know who did it. I was closest to him, but slouch over. He moved erratically toward me, but stopped just a few feet away when his attention got drawn away. A small child stood several feet just beyond my position but behind me, I could see the child in the broken mirror. I heard the assailant say youre next little bitch. I knew I had to act. I raised the shotgun and blew away his balls. He fell to his knees screaming. I then shoved the end of the barrel into his open mouth. I said to him as his eyes focused on mine F$%# you, and pulled the trigger. I clambered to my feet swaying from the loss of blood and made my way over to the child. I smiled before collapsing. Thats when I woke up. I hope that was just a nightmare and not a premonition of something to come. Science Melting Away My Mind

August 22, 2012 its been awhile since I have written anything. Ive been busy cleaning up loose ends, since being severed from all my connections. Ive got rid of all the dangerous chemicals, explosives and other fatal flaws of design. Unfortunately now that Im totally alone, there isnt much holding me back from exploring the true possibilities of human nature. Ive begun researching serial killers, methodology and technique. Need to add some flare to my portfolio of well-planned entertainment. August 24, 2012, After researching several individuals like the Night Stalker, The Candy Man, Killer Clown, Atlanta Child Murders, Green River Killer, The ABC Murders, The Hitcher, The Ripper of Rostov, Necrophilia Man, Monster of the Andes, Ted Bundy and Jack the Ripper. I came to the conclusion that these individuals with the exception of Jack that they lacked true professionalism, sure they raped, killed and brutalized their targets, but Jack was a man believed skilled in medical procedures, but in fairness he did picked sheep to hunt and destroy just like all the others. Hunting women, children and old people shows there lack of a true definer of this profession. It would have been better if they chose targets that were either the same skill level or higher to make the hunt far more intriguing, then it is to hunt the weakest of our society. The possibility of being eliminated by your prey adds to the thrill of the hunt and these people lacked this inspiration, so they are rightly named, monsters. Ive switched to studying the schematics of Boeings second largest plane the 747 and how they are set up. In reality, the only way into the cockpit is through the door that has an electronic lock. Im going to ask the company whether or not, it is possible to enter from below through the belly of the beast. Below the cockpit is the aviation section and Im curious if this is accessible from the area beneath where the passengers sit. Ive had a reoccurring dream where I walk into my kitchen only to find myself on a 747 bound for London out of New York. All the passengers and crew have been incapacitated. When I look around I find that all their possessions have vanished, there is no jewelry, wallets, purses, cell phones or computers, a possible skyjacking. The stewardesses are all unconscious and the door to the cockpit is closed. I hear the sound of an engine shutting down and fear grips me, I panic. In the dream I manage to get into the crew area and remove the men from there in and take over the controls. The only experience I have with airplanes is all simulated, you know, game boxes. I realize that the headset for the plane has been ripped out and the landing gear is down. Several lights are flashing, buzzing noises fill the confined space, following the sound I see that the fuel has been dumped, were flying on fumes. After looking over the controls I realized I have to land the plane or well just fall from the sky. I could see an open field, I began our descent downward. A bumpy ride that didnt end in disaster, I quickly open all doors, releasing the slides and I exited the plane. I figured nobody noticed us coming down, so I went looking for help. But in order for this to occur, I must first gain access to the cockpit and if the door is closed, I must find another way in. So I need that information or we all die. A plane cant land itself, it needs someone at the controls to make her descend and eventually reverse thrust upon setting down and apply the brakes. The craziest part of the above paragraph is that I have a fear of heights, planes, flying and Im Claustrophobic, plus a fear of water and being over it. I also dont have a passport, drivers license, nor do I venture far from home, Im practically a shut in. Im the perfect guy for the job, a wise choice for our gods who are all drunk, stoned and missing a few marbles. August 25, 2012 7:02 am, 7 plus 0 plus 2 equals 9 and Im still awake, my insomnia has returned once again. That can mean only one thing. Another bout of highly suspicious

premonition, dreams of surrealism that I will crack my skull against the walls of my room trying to figure out, whether theyll come to pass or not. Ive been working around the clock on the code book for this document and without a piece of what Ive done the following set of digits and numbers will make no sense to you whatsoever, unless youre a brilliant mind. MBT1SAT2TD10132WR3W4DS4PARA4L5W6PRE3F9W4OT3PARA3L3W6N20CNTPOT432BFC2NLHPARA2L1W13 This is a message to those who need what is suggested within the coded text and what they need to do. I bet you dont even have a clue and Im not going to tell you. You see, Ive already sent the coded text to those who need it, with an explanation on how it works and they in turn hack my computer for the story to find the information they need. This is just a sample for the authorities who have been eavesdropping in on my work, not nice. Mind you, youll have to figure out what I did to make this code work and also know my settings, language, fonts, line spacings and the program used. Without any of that, it will come out as gibberish. Lets try a more complicated one; sclbccpar1l7w9par3l3wlcccwjpar6l1w2par9l1w5coappar1l1w8par3l1w15cofpcspar2l2w18wccp ar1l3w4ld27l3w5dsftdietpar1l7w1par2l5w8s2wpar1l2w1par2l2w4. If you hurry, maybe you can save this mans life, but I doubt it. So stick to praying, to save his tormented soul from a merciless god. August 31, 2012 add just the numbers 3 plus 1 plus 2 plus 0 plus 1 plus 2 equals 9, my time is running out, 6 months until the end. Ive got something Earth shaking planned. I invite all to come and watch the end of the world with me. If you have been paying attention to what has been written then you should be able to figure out this easily defined code; 9-5/2 3/2 A 5/3 1/3 P 1/1 5/2 6/1 1/1 1/2 1/3 D 2/1 3/2 1/3 WA 2/1 1/3 3/3 6/1 4/3 PPLY. Disturbing Mental Breakdown Ive talked to various agencies about my slide into madness and the responses I received were in fact disturbing. They each said to me in different words that I was wasting their time, there are those in greater need than you. They suggested I pull my crap together and face the fact nobody cares about a middle age white males psychological problems and if I really thought I needed psychiatric help, Id go pay for it myself. It would seem I need to vent my frustrations in a violent way toward innocent people in order for anyone to notice, sounds like good advice, I think thats exactly what Ill do. I wonder how high of a body count do I need to show them Im truly insane or do I just need a target thatll sound the horn of schizoid. You probably think Im over exaggerating the situation, but people can be cruel especially those who say they are there to help. Let me explain, I went down to the food bank to get some food; while I was there I noticed they had vegetables, local farmers had donated some of their crops. I reached into one of the bins and pulled out six small potatoes. The woman at the counter stomped on me. She said the vegetables were for families only, I was ordered to put

them back. I reluctantly did. After a short while I got handed a bag with some food stuffs, you wont believe what that nasty woman put in that bag. She gave me several cans containing the following; cranberries, chick peas, lentils, cream of broccoli and a small bag of macaroni. I never felt so degraded in all my life; Id rather starve to death then ever return to a food bank. They obviously dont like white single males asking for a hand out, even if its for a good cause, like not starving to death. This is a cruel impassionate world that needs to be bled out and Im the one whos going to do it, they have it coming. September 3, 2012 just the numbers; 4 plus 2 plus 0 plus 1 plus 2 equal 9. Today I decided to treat myself, by going over to a locker auction to see if I could get anything good or at least interesting. After several failed attempts I manage to snag a locker, only because nobody else wanted it, it was full of clothes. The smell emanating from the enclosed area reminded me of sweaty old men at the Y. I paid a whopping ten dollars for it and thats only because of a douche bag pushed the price up. Anyway, I decided that I would wash the clothes and donate them to charity. After pulling out several pounds of nothing but clothes, I came to discover a metal box at the bottom. I looked it over; it appeared to be made of lead. Beside the container there was a device to measure radiation. I turned it on and it went nuts, the needle made a beeline to the other side. I put down the device and opened the box. There are nut jobs all over the world trying to acquire fuel for nuclear weapons and I buy a locker with 6-2 litre containers of it and I only paid ten dollars, how cool is that. September 4, 2012 for two days I slept well, even got up early 7:30 am until last night I slept for only 3 hours 12-3:00 am, didnt get back to sleep until after 6:30 and paid an awful price. This nightmare that unfolded was nothing like anything Ive experienced before and Ive dreamed some strange stuff. It was extremely brutal. Its fading now but Ill tell you what I remember. I saw a handsome young man climb into the drivers side of a silver jag or a corvette; it had a long snout front. He then grabbed his female companion by the back of the neck and repeatedly smashed her face into the dash board, while driving around the parking lot. I told another fellow about what I had seen and he went after the car, I never saw him alive again, his face appeared in a newspaper obituary. I then found myself checking out a sports coupe and the man approached with several young people, he showed them how the roof retracted. They all climbed in and went for a test drive. It then jumped to me sitting in front of the television watching police cover the body of a teen male in a Mascot costume. Apparently someone had skinned him alive, sprayed him with glue and put the costume on him, while he was still alive. They said when he awoke he screamed terrifying cries before his heart gave out. Another jump had me standing in a long lane or driveway watching two people who had escaped their tormentor only to run repeatedly into the traps he had set. They circled around and approach one another, each thinking the other was their tormentor and began slicing away at each other with knives. Why would they do this, simple, at some point they closed their eyes and when they awoke their tongues had been cut out. To make matters worse, one had acid splashed on their face and the other had a run-in with barb wire, neither one could talk or identify the other. Before this they were brother and sister. I stepped away from the horrific seen and up the lane a bit further, I stopped. Another female stood trying to balance herself, swaying from side to side, her face mutilated, blood pouring from her mouth trying to be quiet, watching the distant shadows coming together repeatedly. I snuck by her and as I did, I caught glimpse of what appeared to be a giant Venus fly trap or a living sliced green pepper. It screamed haunting howls toward us and moved off. You see what I mean not normal, I hope this isnt a premonition, maybe a flashback of something before, either way, I saw the face

of the killer and it wasnt me. There was more to that nightmare; a carnival reunion, a diners staff and several more teenagers from the same town, all butchered by the same guy and most in broad daylight. Disturbing Fear Rules Me September 11, 2012 an ominous day in history for some and a frightening revelation for me. I have now discovered what that wormhole has done to me. Remember the Croatoan virus I talked about earlier in this text, well that strain was only the first part. Ive now been introduced to the second. All those symptoms that I went through before have now returned and I fear this is just the beginning or the end for us all. September 12, 2012, to offset my fears of strange rashes, severe cramping and agonizing pain emanating from all over my body, I decided to look up Earthquakes. Ive been keeping watch over the statistics and there puzzling. This year of 2012 shows the lowest levels of earthquake activity ever, but there is also an alarming increase in sea levels worldwide. Something is definitely happening on our planet, possibly a shift on a continental level that could explain the very large whirlpools that occurred in the southern hemisphere. I believe there will be several 9.0 earthquakes in 2013 that will make all our fears of a cosmic global disaster of unprecedented proportions, real. I spent most of today lying on the couch with a severe migraine; I took four Tylenol to squash the pain but it only subsided by half. While resting I turned on the television and watch a show with scantily dressed college women, very nice. I got disrupted by the sound of a large vehicle outside my loft. The whole building shook, it rattled everything in the apartment to the point I couldnt even enjoy the show. I went to the front window and peered out to see who had stopped outside of my place, my jaw dropped. A bus was now sitting right out front and the words written down the side of this noisy machine were the words, Salem Baptist Church. For the love of Mike, talk about a spoiler of hot barely dressed females. The morality squad had come to town to steal away my fantasy. I tried to watch the show but the noise from that bus was driving me insane on top of the migraine. I got to wonder what they could be doing, there were only three places open on the street, a variety store, fishn chips shack and my favorite, the place I believe they all were at, the tattoo parlor. Maybe there burning the lord into their skin, so they dont forget why there here, after all, we do have two casinos, an about 400 bars nearby and lets not forget the strip club less than eight doors down. Halleluiah and pass the G-string. September 14, 2012 there has been a volcanic eruption in Guatemala right in the middle where there have been several hundred known earthquakes. I noticed a pattern evolving between seismic activity and volcanoes. Where there have been hundreds of earthquakes reported, shortly thereafter a volcano erupts. High points of these events show possible eruptions occurring in the near future, happening in South America, Alaska, Japan, in between China coast of Hong Kong and Australia, with a possible eruption on the African east coast as well. I believe earthquakes not only occur when the plates slide, but those tectonic plates lose grip because a lava tube has emptied into the caldera of a nearby volcano. The ground shifts from the hollow ground left behind when the lava went elsewhere. There are however earthquakes in areas that do not have volcanoes, but the lava tubes stretch far beneath the Earths surface, crisscrossing the underbelly of the world, heading to their ultimate destination and leaving an aboveground trail of destruction.

Thats not the only thing that exploded; the middle of the world also went up in flames over a film of not a nice nature. I could understand the protest, but not the fires and killings, but theyre not alone when it comes to violence. The red, white and moose did it over hockey and the Leaders of freedom to the south of them did it because they didnt like the verdict. Some do it for food, while others over taxes and cut backs. You just never know when people will snap; unfortunately others take advantage of this for their own agendas causing even more strife. Ive been watching the Ebola outbreak closely to see if it spreads beyond where it is now, I have a feeling its Asura one of the nine. I hope Im wrong, but I dont think I am. I am a mosquito and soon to be your prick, drawing first blood and bringing chaos with it. Spreading like a disease across the land, stealing your soul and replacing it with a plague. Carried by fate along the winds of desire, all will be forgotten or better yet devoured. The stench of rotting flesh will cover the smog and drench this world in frightening clause, deemed unworthy banished to hell; Earth is condemned by an uncaring God. Feel my wrath and bow to me, for I am the chosen and totally crazy. Ask my Doctor and hell agree, for 850 an hour, he better be. Disturbing Everything Ends September 26, 2012, The Ebola outbreak came and went with little to do but watch and yawn, followed by unnecessary violence over that film which has claimed a few hundred people, for no other reason but to spill blood. The red zone has cancelled a forty year tradition of friendship with the others like them, but they live on a small island and the people that dont walk threatened to destroy the story of three kings with nuclear weapons that they say theyre not pursuing. Our neighbors to the south say theyll pursue the conquest of stopping the people who dont walk from attaining that which they have thousands of, even if it means war. Lets not forget that the place that rattles its sabre because its people have no food has also sounded the trumpet of war with the same people the red zone has turned a blind eye to, because they feel left out. Our weather has taken a huge toll on life all over the world, either more is happening or were getting better at reporting it. I would also like to mention that earlier in the text, part one I think; I mentioned that I havent had any premonitions beyond this year of 2012. I wonder if it is because Im losing the power or am I dead, along with everyone else. Remember the man in the cage, EE was his sign to run and hide, maybe we should to, too, to, to, now I sound like a train with Asthma. I would also like to mention that the hockey people went on strike and nobody cares if they settle or not, because its just a bunch of whining millionaires fighting over the scraps and neither side cares about how many people they put out of work, because of their greed. You know what really turns my crank is that Commissioner saying prior to the ending of the contract with the whiners that he was going to lock them out. He had no intention of negotiating a contract with them and didnt care how many under paid common folk he put on the welfare line. This prick is on an ego trip and well make him pay for it down the line when his net profit crumbles from lack of fan support. October 1, 2012, I believe there are three things that define all of us regardless of what we believe in, the first two dictate to everyone, theres no denying it and they are; desire, fantasy. The third however teeters on whether you feel that you are actually in control, even then its questionable. the third is action or inaction. Everyone desires something whether it is an object

or something else like train of thought, religion or path you can take. The fantasy is what we think about after the desire has been determined. Action is what we take to obtain the desire or for some an inaction depending on your moral grounding. I question this for certain people because they may not be in control of what they chose to obtain through the first two. Some call it following orders and not necessary of a military origin, cult, religious conviction, it may just be a mental condition blocking a persons ability to understand the truth of their nature or are they following the basic animal instinct too closely to define their humanity. October 4, 2012 I had another nightmare of a viral outbreak, but this one was different then the past ones. This time around only the females were infected; it made them go completely insane. They also feared the males whose aggression had boiled over to the point that they saw everything as a threat, including all animals. I know you may ask, whats the difference between the dream and reality? That would be the amount of carnage outside of my window. Disturbing Crazies October 4, 2012 Television surprisingly has shown me that Im invisible considering what Im facing when it comes to my insanity. Various television shows saluting the nut jobs of the world, dancing to the beat of stupidity. Do I feel out classed by these individuals; by no means? I have a superior intellect that they couldnt begin to appreciate. If I really need the attention Ill have to be clever in my approach or Ill be in the top ten of the ridiculous monkeys of the world episode. There are other things I need to consider before coming out of the sanitarium closet into the eye of exploitation by media. As in criminals that will take what I have written too seriously and come looking for my head. How about religious fanatics who may see my way of thinking as blasphemous and will want my head? Lets not forget law enforcement might take my thoughts on various murders as factual and want my head. A lot of nut jobs are waiting for the sign from their invisible god to take action based solely on their interpretation of what I have written, however twisted the outcome may be. I need to be graceful in my approach to keep the rabid dogs at bay or Ill end up as a statistic. I said head three times, I was thinking about Kaley, the holly hills hottie of chocolate flavored cereal October 10, 2012 last night I wandered into a bar, asked for a whiskey and it cost me thirty-two bucks. I stared at the cashier. Are you trying to stiff me? I asked. No thats good whiskey, he said, while sucking back his drink. His friend beside him did the same. I shook my head. His buddy who Ill call trigger (had his hand on his pistol the whole night) caught me staring at his smokes. Want one, he asked. No Im trying to quit. I try a lot of things, I said. They both looked at me and asked Like what? I tried having sex with the wife while drunk. That didnt work out to well, I replied. The two men laughed. Youre married? asked Trigger. No, but my neighbor is. I then tried to out run the cops, I mumbled while sucking down another whiskey. Well did you? asked the cashier. I said I tried, nobody told me that red meant the bridge was up. What else have you tried, asked Trigger. The two men chuckled.

Ive tried to keep my teeth, I smiled a toothless wonder. What happened? asked Trigger. I keep going to bars, I muttered while staggering off to the bathroom. A little while later they came in to see if I had drowned and caught me vomiting. The cashier called out, Are you throwing up good whiskey? while peeking over the top of the wall divider. I hollered out, Im trying to keep it down. The next day I returned to that very same bar looking for my wallet and came upon the other two. They stared at my leg that was bandaged up to the knee. What happened? they asked. You tried to take me home last night, I replied. We did, we even put you in your backyard, said Trigger. That was the wifes back yard and she owns a Doberman, it tried to rip my leg off. October 16, 2012 Ive been monitoring the world and have discovered that some of my predictions on where earthquakes might occur have happened in those areas, just like some volcanoes that have erupted near the many smaller tremors that have happened. Predicting such events isnt as hard as one would think unless you believe the scientist facts that theyre not. Governments are more than aware of these events and have pressured those who have the information to keep quiet. Over population is something that they worry about. Its in their best interest not to give notice of a major disaster that is about to occur. Doing so wont help relieve them of the burden of who shall live and who should die syndrome. Another thing I should mention is that the planet Neptune hasnt appeared in the sky above, yet. If it wants to intersect with us on the first day of Winter Solstice, it better get a move on. Time is ticking, only two more months before the end of the world and the main event is nowhere to be had, how disappointing. There are however things you should be concerned about, the other day I was downtown by the casino when I came across some soldiers, they caught my attention because their uniforms reflected both sides of the border. I moved up beside one of the trucks and listened in on the conversation. I could sense uneasiness in their tone, fear and animosity bloomed from their words. They repeated the words Resident along with virus, with a hint of evil from the trembling of the words spoken. I thought holly hills movie, but they wished it wasnt true. They also mentioned something about patient zero had escaped and they had to find him before it is too late to stop it. This conversation made my skin crawl, had the unthinkable occurred? did they allow something to escape their labs only to find shelter within a large city. When two different militaries converge in a border city does that mean the religious nuts are right and an Apocalypse of our own making is about to occur? Im stocking up on supplies, food, water, medicine and whatever I can get my hands on. You cant trust the Government to do right by us, since theyre the ones who created this scenario in the first place. October 22, 2012 12:42 am 1 plus 2 plus 4 plus 2 equals 9, I need to talk about Yellowstone National Park. Remember a few months ago I mentioned that the caldera (lava depth below park) was at 12 kilometers, not anymore. It took me awhile to find the national reports on this volcano. Most of the legitimate websites have vanished and all information regarding the depth of the caldera went with them. I did however locate the information. It appears the new depth is 10 kilometers and rising. Some scientist predict that it will continue to

rise beyond safe level of 8 kilometers and preparations should be taken to prepare people for a possible eruption later this year or even into 2013. November 2, 2012 its been awhile since I last wrote anything, been preoccupied with a class one hurricane sweeping across the nation. The children south of us got hit pretty hard, first the surge from the ocean then the chaos that followed the deluge. Entire streets burned to the ground while others had indoor swimming pools they didnt order. The subway needs to be overhauled; they need to switch from trains to submarines, with all the water down there. Unfortunately for some states the warm air from Sandy clashed with a cold front and they got buried in snow, we had rain. It doesnt want to stop raining either, five days and counting. The doomsayers think we need to build Arks. I think they should have thought about that before the storm, not during the flooding, talk about slow. November 3, 2012 I was dancing around the internet when I came across a site featuring various pictures of mystifying landscapes. Each vision more astounding then the next which got me thinking about something someone else wrote. They say you cant forget an image that you have seen and there right. When Im looking for insight into emotional Armageddon, I sometimes wander to close to the reality of the internet. The images that spewed forth into my mind, twisted my soul into a darkened mass of disgust. Words I write about the horrors I saw fill these pages, without all the shredded humanity. I dance away from telling you what exactly I saw to spare your mind the image of true evil within our society. The frightening part is, is that I only skimmed across the surface and it, scarred me for life. Our minds are like computers, they store everything we see and we just cant arbitrarily erase these images unless we destroy the hard drive, hand mouth trigger comes to mind. Unfortunately we sometimes have the strangest luck and the tiny metal pellet will get imbedded into our thick skulls and we survive. Now another dark image has taken up space between my ears. Until we stop these horrific things, the images from those sites will continue to flood into the general pool of knowledge. The law of the land is the freedom to desecrate everything that we hold dear just for the desire and for some the thrill, worse yet, the profit in human misery. Maybe the end of the world isnt such a bad thing after all, especially if your one of the millions of humans at the wrong end of humanity. November 14, 2012 I use to write practically every day after experiencing some event that would cause an emotional outbreak from my mind, but Im preoccupied with other things. I would like to note that there have been several earthquakes close to home. Vancouver has experienced two quakes off the coast. Mexico also had one off the coast and believe it or not, a smaller one near Ottawa. Theres a pattern forming here and Im aggressively pursuing it to see where exactly the next one will occur. If Im right, there is trouble brewing below and we better get prepared for what is about to occur on our planet. This is not a Mayan thing, more like an environment clash between Mother Nature and pollution. I went to USG website to find how many earthquakes have occurred in the last seven days and its frightening. The state of Alaska has had 66 earthquakes in seven days followed by Vancouver with two, California has had twelve and the state of Hawaii has had three. This is a pattern to watch. If you look at past records, you will find that just prior to the devastating quake in California in 1906 that there where dozens of quakes in Alaska, touching off several down the coast, before a crippling one hit San Francisco, magnitude of 7.8. Some people will doubt my hypothesis saying that Im just an alarmist sounding the horn of chaos for attention. But if you really think about it for just a minute, havent you noticed how

quiet it has been in Los Angeles lately. This is a city that usually gets dozens of minor quakes, now all of a sudden, its gone idle. Some may say the calm before the storm. November 22, 2012 the earthquakes in Alaska continue averaging in magnitude from 2.04.8. Ive been studying the maps indicating when and where they happen and have come to the conclusion that the lava tubes that connect to the volcano in this area are collapsing. That could mean the caldera may be filling with lava. Its possible that an eruption of this particular volcano could in fact erupt in the near future. Indonesia continues to get pummeled along with Japan with more and more intensity to the earthquakes there. Lets not forget that Japan also has a volcano and if it were to erupt, the loss of life would be staggering. But Alaska is a cold region home to most of our heavenly wildlife like polar bears, the animal not the Russian hockey team. The ecological damage that could occur would certainly be felt around the world several months after the fact. Disturbing Road Kill December 5, 2012, 12/5/2012, 12 plus 5 equals 17, 1 plus 7 plus 2 plus 0 plus 1 plus 2 equals 13 Yesterday I walked over to the mall to do some shopping, but when it was time to come home it begun to rain, so I took a cab. On the way back, I watched two black squirrels chase each other across two yards. One dashed out several feet in front of us while the other waited until the very last second. The car hopped briefly like it had hit a bump on the road, unfortunately there wasnt one until that daring little black squirrel tempted fate. Its strange how fleeting life is, one second its having the time of its life and then the next its road kill. Some risks are not worth taking and some we dont even think about until after we make that mistake. You cant live and learn unless you survive. December 7, 2012, 12/7/12, 1 plus 2 plus 7 plus 1 plus 2 equals 13, It appears Japan is once again being pummeled by numerous earthquakes all across the island. I wonder how many earthquakes they had prior to building the airport in the bay. This monstrosity is slowly sinking into the soft bottom year after year. Think about how much pressure its putting on the tectonic plates for that region. Everything is calculated in pressure points and lets say it, that airport is huge and the weight pinpointed in one spot could have a serious impact on whats happening now. One cannot assume its not connected until the statistics leading up to the completions of the airport can be properly examined. Fourteen more days until winter solstice and the Mayans faulty prediction of the end of the world but in case it does happen, it kind of sucks really, since the tyrannical commissioner overlooking the frosty meat-bags dancing on ice, has locked them out again. I hope theres something on television to watch or well all go insane waiting for everything to come to an end. Why couldnt it happen on January first, then we all be dead drunk and wouldnt notice. Some of us would even be wishing we were all dead, just to escape the five alarm hangover. December 10, 2012, Ive had two odd dreams of late, the first one occurred two nights ago. It started with me being summoned into court to testify against a man accused of murder. As I took the stand the court clerk brought over the bible and told me to raise my hand and swear upon the bible. His question was do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so help you God. I responded with No. Everyone in the court room was taken-back by my response. The judge asked me why? I replied, in this country we have the right to freedom of religion. The judge interrupted me saying that everyone accepts the bible as their own, so what is the problem. I said, I dont believe in God or any scriptures put forth by those who believe in

such things. He stared at me. I continued to explain that the right of freedom of religion doesnt seem to apply to someone like me. I do not accept this bible because I dont believe and I will not swear upon it. He said I was excused, I protested. He said I had to swear and I said. If I were to swear upon this bible and to God, it would be a lie. First you order me to lie and then you expect me to tell the truth, how will the jury interpret this? Non-believers in invisible astronauts are condemned by those who follow these teaching to the point of violating our rights to freedom of religion. A thousand years ago the religious orders could brain wash the masses into believing such things but in todays society, it just doesnt seem relevant anymore. The judge replied that if I didnt take the oath my testimony wouldnt be accepted. I turned to him and said, are you saying because I refuse to lie that Im a liar, that I dont have the same freedoms as others. If you need me to swear to something get a law book. I then wrote something down on a piece of paper and handed it to him, he stared, and a small grin appeared on his face. The note had a statement on it and it read, I swear to tell the truth of the events that I witness to the best of my abilities in order to determine whether the person charged is innocent or guilty of the crime they are accused of. Religion has its place, but not in a courtroom, because not everyone is represented within their declaration of what is acceptable. The second dream, short, but confusing, I found myself in a home of a renown Jewish leader and he was having an argument with one of his followers when I asked them to autograph scriptures pertaining to Jewish teachings. They stopped their bickering momentarily. They seemed surprised that I had all of a sudden chosen to follow those ancient teaching instead of forgoing all and being an anti-believer. They smiled and happily signed the book. As I left they spoke words of praise upon other followers how they single-handedly turned a lost soul towards their faith. When I exited the house I ran into Mary Beth who stared quite ferociously at me, she grabbed the book and the autographed cover fell off. She chuckled and said what do you think they would say if they knew you had them sign a magazine full of scantily clad women? I responded the apocalypse wont necessary start from religion perceptive; it could and mostly likely happen because of a simple misunderstanding. She raised her eyebrows. Do you consider yourself the catalyst Norman? When it comes to your bickering family, why yes, I chuckled. She slapped me and then went inside carrying my book, I ran like hell. I think I know why these strange religious dreams are occurring, theres something I need to tell you about why there was a long delay in writing inserts in my log; between the months of November to December. Im hesitant to explain because of its religious amplifications since its coming from a non-believer such as me. Strange events occur in my life that Im unable to explain even to myself but I will try. I was walking over to the store across the street and as I entered the store it appeared different, it wasnt the same store. I turned around and walked out and found myself in unfamiliar territory. I saw a group of men approach. The words they spoke were of a colorful nature, not something I would normally hear in my neighborhood. Their demeanor changed to that of a territorial nature and insisted that I explain why I was on their turf. I in a respective friendly tone asked where I was. They laughed, again speaking with colorful words each coming every second word. The taller more masculine of the group moved up within inches of my face and declared welcome to Hells kitchen. I spoke out loudly, New York? As if I was asking a question. One of the men turned his finger around his ear pointing to me, since my response seemed unique in nature. The leader stared at me bewildered that I wasnt fearful of them but distant in thought, he waved his hand to keep the others at bay. I explained to him that moments earlier I was in my

home town and now I was here. He said nothing, but continued to stare. I asked how far to the border. The young man chuckled. Its about 400 miles north of here. I sighed. A white man in Hell attempting to walk out, I said. One of the other young man snickered while saying, what you need is an angel. The leader of the group looked me over. If a white man dies in the kitchen white cops will be harassing us for weeks, especially if youre another misplaced tourist. Ill get you out, he said. His soldiers were displeased, but followed his orders. Needless to say the young man was good to his word. He not only got me out of hells kitchen, but he even managed to get me across the border. You see I didnt have a passport, a wallet or even money, but he was honorable because he knew what was at stake, but did he? Just before we departed I asked him his full name. I felt a cold chill run down my spine his middle name was Castiel. For you who dont understand where I coming from, there is a show of natural content, but super in action that talked about the first seal being broken. I was sent to hell and Castiel pulled me out of harms way. Makes me think that maybe I should have just stayed there. December 20, 2012 one day before the end of the world is supposed to happen and so far it appears a bit quiet. Theres no planet X as of yet to be seen in our skies, but there has been a string of earthquakes up and down the coast. You see up until the end of November we had only experienced half of what we normally get, if you look at past records. Since the beginning of December and up until this day, we have had double the amount of earthquakes compared to previous years, maybe something is rumbling below us and were just laughing it off to biblical insanity. Time will tell however. The end of the world scenario isnt supposed to happen overnight, but in fact occur over several weeks, it just starts tomorrow. Damn I forgot to buy tickets. I would like to mention sadly that on the fourteenth of this month, an upper crust citizen walked into a well-established elementary school and silenced the voices of six females and twenty children under the age of six. Some people think this tragedy will bring change, not likely. America loves its guns and butchers its amendments, so this will only escalate into more heartbreaking bloodshed. Now if the end of the world is a bit slow coming about, we can at least look forward to Christmas. Its that time of the year that you dont get what you really want , but actually get something someone else thinks you need, sigh more socks and underwear or a sweater that has road kill all over the front and its butt sticking out the back. I hope Grandma doesnt notice the strange taste in her fruitcake, at least not until after shes eaten most of it. Just kidding, I put the sweater on the cat hoping the neighbors dog will eat it. At the beginning of crazies, I mentioned several groups that may want my head for what Im writing, accept one group, hookers. They say there isnt enough hard cash in the world that would make them touch my head. However, I was with this one lady and she cursed my name, kept saying OMG. Apparently, I was trying to enter the wrong hole and it wasnt either the normal two, it was her belly button. How was I supposed to know I had to slap the wave to find the beach? Now dont get me wrong, females that are larger than life are fun to be with, but only if youre really into Jell-O. String beans feel a bit bony, so I usually opt for a slightly beefy with fewer trimmings. This one young lady I was with, I asked her if she liked sausage and she replied just a little and I said, good thats all I got. December 21, 2012 its the end of all things, maybe. Earlier in this document I mentioned that I believe September 9th 2013 will actually be the day everything changes. September 7th Pearl Harbor, September 11th WTC, September 9th is the in between of all that will come.

Remember the numbers its the 9th number 9. Then you have 7 plus 9 plus 11 equals 27, 2 plus 7 equals 9 and it is the ninth month. 999 and the whole world will turn upside down 666. January 5, 2013 December 5, 1941 Okay fine. the original date of the Pearl Harbor attack wasnt September 7, but in actuality it happened in December, so what? The information we receive from all sources isnt always correct, its meant to get a certain message across even if it is laced with a lie. The world didnt end, planet X never showed up, she was probably washing her hair on that day. The New Year didnt bring chaos and destruction, but define that. The end of all things doesnt necessarily mean an explosion of some incredible event only seen in movies, most of the time its fairly subtle in its true form. For instance, I was watching the news and they reported an earthquake of a magnitude of 7.5 occurred off the coast of Alaska. Two things to look for, first one, this earthquake was more intense than the previous ones to date and could creep out to something far greater as the year progresses. Second is the way they reported it, on the news they stated that this was the second earthquake in the region in three months. This is what we call a misdirection of truth. If you have visited the various sites around the net about earthquakes then you and I know that there have been hundreds of earthquakes all over Alaska in the last three months, so why the misdirection in truth? Maybe there hiding something or they may not be allowed to report an earthquake, unless its significant in magnitude. In other words the Government controls the media and you should never truly believe everything you see or hear coming from a controlled substance. The Reaping Genocide January 14, 2013, 1 plus 4 plus 1 plus 3 equals 9 any numbers that I can add to come to my favorite number works for me, in predicting the end of all things. Hockey is about to start finally, but how good will it truly be, since these greedy old farts have been sitting on their butts for so long. January 21, 2013, 2 plus 1 times 2 equals 6 plus 0 plus 13 equals 19, 9 minus 1 equals 8 and now add a one for the month equals 9, hows that for back ass thinking. Remember that 7.5 earthquake off the coast? Since then the tremors persist just like prior to this one occurring. Also there has been an increase in earthquakes all along the California coast right down to Mexico, something to watch out for in the coming weeks. As for Alaska, just like I had thought there has been another rumble around the Redoubt Volcano, not too far and not very deep. It could just be a bowel movement down below. Ill keep an eye on it to see if there are any more earthquakes in this area. Now I was keeping tabs on YSNP, but information about tremors or earthquakes in the region is scarce. Smells like a cover up, time to dig deeper into political corruption of them hiding the truth of this not so sleeping giant of mass destruction. January 22, 2013, I met somebody new while walking around the neighborhood, but this person had in-depth knowledge of what I do. He asked, how do you get the information since we havent seen any visible signs of communication between you and the groups you work with. I replied in the simplest way possible. He stared at me. I took a moment to explain since he pulled out one of my code books and asked how do I know about this stuff? Its true that Im so

far below the radar that it doesnt seem possible, so it seems. Lately my friend Peter receives the documents and scrambles the text to create various scenarios which he then in turn, downloads them to his face account. I automatically get this sent to me. I then use the 9 different code books to decipher what he has read. I then apply this to my book in my own way. I update the code books every couple of months with a whole new set of numbers. My contacts use those numbers to pick the right code book for each sentence then apply the code inside. It sounds complicated, but in reality it is one of the simplest coded texts ever and nobody has figured it out yet, kind of funny isnt it. The smarter they are, the easier it is to get something past them on a lower end scale of coding. January 25, 2013, as I was browsing the internet looking for strange news, I came upon an article about a convention of Physicists, Mathematicians and assorted amount of Brainiacs discussing questions on Quantum Mechanics. This is an actual quote of the question implemented by the head honcho; Do you believe physical objects have their properties well defined prior to and independent of measurement? Truthfully I do not believe that this is a yes or no answer. Whether the object is subatomic or physical like a vehicle or even a human, you might define it and expect a predetermined measurement, but there is always the random element that will alter this perception. With no random elements, then we would not have factory recalls or deformities in human beings. The second round of discussions was about quantum computers that would utilize the quantum properties of particles, such as (their abilities to be in multiple states at the same time, to achieve superfast calculation speeds.) The above statement in brackets was also taken from the website so you can understand what they were all discussing. The statement shouldnt be if they can build such a device that can do this, its whether or not they should even try. After all, the computers are just an outstretched part of our psyche trying to obtain immorality through mechanical influence. We are flawed and the super computers will also be flawed. Imagine a computer that can think a million times faster than us, using an ungodly amount of power to achieve a scientific monstrosity that may even achieve conscience and be imbued with our flawed reasoning and uncontrollable urge to outdo one another, even commit unthinkable acts just to get noticed. Sounds like a holly hills movie coming to life, dont laugh, some of the crap they put out is actually true and some of it has come to life. I went to the store a little while ago and bumped into a person who passed on a warning to me, I dont know this person or have I ever seen them before, but his message sent a cold chill down my spine. About two weeks ago a member of a notorious group from the middle of the world approached me and wanted me to pass information on to them about military movements around this area. I gave them a flat-out no, for two reasons, one I dont meet with people at all they have to go through channels if they want something. The other reason is that those who I do help only dislike the Government and they go after them. But this group attacks mostly civilian targets, which in turns cranks up the heat for the rest of them. Another reason I said no was because this person made my skin crawl just being near him. People may not like that I pass information on to questionable sources, but I will not pass to people without a conscience, or even care that their mission is severely flawed in construction, design and implementing. The message I received was directed solely at me, my cover is about to be blown. Im a leading Mole in the world and this group is upset that I wouldnt help them achieve their ultimate insanity, is going to bring me down. Im sending information to all those who I have and are still receiving my help, about this serious threat to our network, and let them deal with it on their own terms.

January 31, 2013 earthquake watch has a minor one in Oregon, it was very deep and nobody really noticed it, accept for a few light sleepers. Also there have been more earthquakes in Alaska, especially around Redoubt Volcano which concerns me. You see this Volcano has erupted 5 times in the last hundred years, the last time was in 2009 and they predicted this eruption through seismic activity. The more earthquakes there are and watching exactly how deep the earthquakes are, they can predict when a Volcano will erupt. Almost like predicting earthquakes in a specific area, lots of minors will result in a big one within a few days. Pinpointing exactly has been a bit slow in processing considering the wide area these occur in. But if there is a volcano around, less assure there will be activity deep below the crust. As for Yellow Stone National Park that information has become restricted in most parts, even trying to get information on the depth of the caldera is becoming more difficult. If there is nothing to be worried about, then why hide the facts regarding one of the biggest super volcanos in the world, maybe thats why? February 1, 2013, word is in, everyone is tired of these people and those who I have dealt with are about to relieve this world of their presence, once and for all. James mumbled something about militia, cartels and other fanatics gathering to implement a fatal blow to this organization in the twilight hours, not to long from now. Only those they felt strong enough in size and determination have been invited to the party. If they dont know anything about it, its because they werent invited. They have asked me to stay low and move my family out of harms way, until the deed is done. Some may ask why do this this? Its simple; any group who refuses to at least sit down and talk about what they want is a threat to all and needs to be dealt with swiftly and with extreme prejudice. When they do something in the world, it affects all of us and even hurts those with other organizations. After all didnt they say that we are all, the enemy? So in reality, all their enemies have gathered together to deal with them, so they can get back to what they do best, whether its business, Government harassment or toying for reputation and power. When you step on so many toes all at once, wouldnt it be obvious that those toes have people attached to them and would want to deal with that which caused their pain, as quickly as possible. February 11, 2013, they say there will be a near miss event on Friday the 15, when an asteroid will come within 17,000 miles of Earth. Its big enough to wipe out London England, but they say it will miss. There was another near miss last year, a small asteroid passed within 3,400 miles, but as it did, Earths gravity reached out and changed its course by 60 percent. If you do the math, this newer one will have its trajectory changed by 10-12 percent. You also should keep in mind that if this asteroid is spinning on its axis, it will create its own gravity field and depending on its material makeup, will either move differently or even act like a magnet and be pulled toward us. To determine if the scientist are telling the truth about this, just watch to see who in Government and the wealthy, decide to take an earlier March break this week. February 14, 2013 Valentines Day, the only thing I can remember about this, is a massacre from a time before most of us were born. A movie that depicts lawlessness as a guarantee of profit for holly hills incorporated. I need to return to how I go about collecting information from those who need me to see certain files to pass on. There are nine books; the sixth one is used to find certain letters. I would receive a list of numbers and match them up in book 7 of sites to go to. Using book 6 a list of other numbers apply to a number for a certain picture would be listed and depending on why Im there, determines what Im looking for. Items of clothing are listed in the book, if its a picture of a person, Id look to see if they are wearing clothing; 1-pants-H, 9-dress-R, 5-skirt-P, 6-socks-E

and color would also count; 8-blue-L, 2-red-F, 3-yellow-W, if the person is not clothed then its a string of vowels 195-AA. Sometimes I would go to a site called Wired, which shows cosmic pictures; planets moons and other oddities. A number for the picture will decide what Im looking for, such as Jupiter, fifth planet, so the letters would be JF, cosmic with a K. Its only seems complicated, but it is designed to confuse; most people would react to the picture, especially if that person was unclothed and sometimes in bondage, but that has nothing to do with why Im there. Im just gathering information to apply to the code books, for determination of files to implement into the story for others to acquire. Controlling the information 100b inside a watt is easier than the mind can determine what is written. You have to be careful at what you do, if you dont go with the flow of those who control all that you see, than your story will end, even if youre where the buck stops. Especially when the line in the sand is filled with oil, you are a slave to their will and it isnt because youre the same color as the oil. One more day and well see if the scientists are right about us not becoming extinct, cross all toes and fingers please. February 15, 2013 it would appear the scientists were right to a degree and so was I, it passed safely by without hitting anything. On the other hand our gravity did in fact affect its course when it passed. The next time it comes around it will pass further away, but we need to watch to see how close it will come to our moon, wont know that until it returns. I would also like to mention that a different meteor exploded over Russia injuring 1,000 people and not one scientist in the world even acknowledged that they even knew that it was coming and that my friends is frightening. They didnt even know. The end of the world could be just around the corner and we wont know it even happened, until the world is gone, thats if anybody survives. February 20, 2013 I took a Smart Serve course online and just barely passed, so now I can legally serve liquor to all my power drinking friends. February 22, 2013 every day I get another set of codes to decipher and its fast becoming time consuming. Im starting to feel like a whack-a-mole, sigh. The Reaping Reflection February 24, 2013 the Pope is retiring, not surprised, sitting around in bulletproof vehicles waving your arms can take the years right off. They say hes ill or is it because he was tired, others say its because of a scandal, infidelity with minors. Like thats news, Im sure theyll say the devil made them do it, but their fraction stated years ago that there was no devil, so what is their excuse. If these men cant fend off temptation, then that will leave the rest of us damned, it explains why our prisons are fast becoming full. Its time to create a new prison, but this time inside our minds, to lock away needs and desire and focus on whats important, our sanity. Nobody is listening, the northern half of a split country is threatening masturbation by nuclear holocaust, but not as brilliant in text as I stated, to the neighbors to our south. Really boys, they have more erections than any other country in the world and youre trying to scare them. Dont dance with the devil next month or youll be sorry. Right, as if they actually have a dance card that isnt already full with darker threats. But hey, whats another tango to them, their ready, willing and able to bring extinction to your front door without blinking an eye of remorse, dont forget who you are threatening, especially if you want to keep on breathing. Another hunk of land in the middle of the world has stated that they captured an unmanned probe.hope it wasnt alien, touch the top to see if its sticky.

Its that time of the year again; pull up your socks to swim in an ocean of black liquid, sending me many trips to the bathroom. Six cups and Im already back-on the same losing trend as last time. The truth is I really dont like their coffee, thats worse. February 28, 2013 last night I had another surreal dream of strange journey into nightmare conditions. It started within a discount store when my brother begun a conversation with the clerk explaining he needed to go someplace, but couldnt get a cab company to answer the phone. The young lady offered to drive him wherever he wanted to go, but I had to stay here. They would return later to pick me up, I hung around outside down the alley-way for some time, when I realized my brother had my smokes. Looking around the ground I saw several broken smokes just waiting for me to pick them up like some kind of low life. As I reached down to retrieve one, I noticed a five dollar bill beneath some dried grass, I pulled on it. That was a mistake. As the paper slid through the grass it ignited, the fire spread quickly from grass, to smokes to the whole bush ablaze. To dark shadows cast over me, I looked up. I said, it just started all by itself. they replied, we know, it happens. I stared momentarily. They said it happens a lot around here. What do you mean, I asked? They said, whats the point in being a pyromaniac if you cant start a fire. We all chuckled. The tall one asked me if I was going to call the cops and I replied, what for, they would just blame me for starting it and technically I did, just not intentionally. We stared at each other until the fire died down, the tall one asked why I was in the alley way and I told him my brother was busy running errands with Jenna, the clerk from the store. He sighed; he came to talk to her about getting three brown lumps of hallucinating magic. The dream then jumped to us all riding in the car, two in the front three in the back. The tall guy lit up a spliff of some mighty fine dream makers for us to enjoy. I reached out and tapped Jenna on the arm and then said could someone wake Jeanne up, my brother replied, let her sleep, shes tired. I had a problem with this, she was the driver. I continued to shake her when I noticed the station wagon in front of us spun around and begun travelling backwards before flipping over. Several vehicles begun to bounce around us, we even flipped over in midair before coming upright. This woke the driver up. Jenna slammed hard on the brakes; we came to a screeching halt on the bridge. We all looked to our right and saw a wall of vehicles carried by water heading toward us. Jenna cried out, what is going on and I laughed, its the end of the world. She turned toward me, they said that wasnt going to happen. I said, the weather man is always wrong. everyone laughed. We were all so stoned we didnt care. Jenna pushed hard on the gas, swerved around demolished cars and headed up the mountain to our left. You see she knew the first wave wasnt the last; it was just the beginning, thats when I woke up. This particular dream was triggered by the docudrama about what happened in the fareast several years ago. Just seeing the pictures of what happened triggered something inside my dreamscape. Its just seems odd that the dream itself went from pyromaniac, to getting stone and then to the end of the world, what a build-up. March 4, 2013, information is the key to all things that we learn about ourselves and those around us. Not everything we read is filled with fact, in some cases theirs only an underlying of truth followed by speculation and innuendo. I read an article about bases, scrolling down the webpage came across one that caused my heart to skip a beat, Dulce in New Mexico. Ive seen information on this place in the past. Considering what was written, it was fairly close to what actually happens there, a bit eerie. I may not sleep well tonight, as my mind focuses on past events. There were other places of concern on that page, for instance; Mt. Rainer, another

hot spot of miss information not clarified, but enough to make my skin crawl, its operation is close to that of Deep Springs. On the same list it had Blue Diamond, even though it said function unknown, Im afraid I do know what happens there and if I was to write something down, Id become a memory to my family. If you want to continue having nice dreams then I suggest you stay away from Dulce, thats where nightmares are made. And todays special word is Cannibalism, several articles on people who like to taste the flesh of our fellow beings got me scratching my head. One person actually said whats wrong with eating human flesh, theyre not hurting anyone. Are you nuts! Im sure this is a faceless crime, literally. Im sure little Johnny didnt mind daddy coming at him with a cleaver, especially when he tipped the scales at 300 pounds. Please, someone had to die in order for those few unbalanced individuals to have a nice dinner. Pray that they dont meet your family on a camping expedition into the outback or downtown. So what does this got to do with what is happening in those underground bases you might ask? Even though some of the things they do deep underground is considered sadistic and inhumane, what occurs on the surface in the general population is far worse. You see the more civilized we become, the more our animalistic behavior emerges. If one person does it, everyone else thinks its okay if they do it. Or think of it this way, to control someone you use fear and to do that, know their secrets, everyone has something to hide. But remember controlling an individual is easier then controlling a large militaristic body that hides underground, far too many against you, wanting to hide the truth about their real intent for our race. March 6, 2013, earlier today I walked over to the local store, as I entered I saw a beautiful woman walking out. I towered above this vision that shone a gentle smile; she seemed surprised when I held the door open for her. Maybe she thought chivalry was dead, but not today. But thats a mans idea; women know the truth behind our devious on-looks. When we open doors to let them pass, they know full well that were checking out their various curves until their nothing but a memory. When women look back after they walk by, men think that the women are interested, but in actuality their checking to see if youre staring at their buttocks. Thats why most women dont smile at their onlooker; youve shown her your true nature, of pervert. I didnt look any further than her eyes and then focused my attention forward. Everything appeared cool until our eyes met in the mirror just above my left shoulder, she laughed. At least I brought a few moments of laughter into her life, but by the time she reaches the corner, Ill be nothing more than a memory thats soon forgotten. March 8, 2013, yesterday my niece came by with her son Jaybear; its his nickname for Jonathon. We went over to the store with the robot name with a cart and on the way there, I heard strange noises coming from her baby. It seems he likes to blow bubbles with his spit, but if youre not looking at him, it sounds like hes loading up his diaper with not so great stuff that you wouldnt want to blow bubbles with. Then again, Ive seen other peoples children grab a hold of the not so delicious chocolate from the kitty litter box. Youre wondering if I stopped her from eating the I cant believe its not chocolate. of course I did and this is what I said. Sarah dont eat that, unless your share it with your little brother. See Im a responsible guy, I asked her to share with her brother, how nice. March 10, 2013, someone asked me why there is so much advertising on television these days, I said mind control. Ever notice politicians seldom ever watch television, its because they know that its all about the manipulation of the mind. They dont want to be manipulated by someone elses desires. My friend just stared at me. Do you really believe that they stopped subliminal messaging, the answer is no, they just got better at it. For instance, I saw a

commercial about perfume. The young extremely attractive model took the tip of the dispenser of the product, leaned her head back and slowly slid it down her throat. Perfume has a powerful scent, you only need to dab a little behind each ear to get a good effect. What she was doing could be considered a deep message; why else would she be touching her throat. March 11, 2013, and todays special words are Dumb-Ass, every year at this time we are required to turn our clocks forward one hour, daylight savings time. But for some reason I turned my clock back an hour, making me two hours behind everyone else. You wont believe the stress that caused me. I was supposed to call the Center at 9:00 Am to book myself in for the CPR program, but because of what I did, I missed my opportunity and now I have to wait another month. My worker is going to flip sideways while scratching her head in disbelief and then wonder whether I did it on purpose, sigh, god Im such a Dumb-Ass. March 14, 2013 todays special words are Head-Scratcher, Ill let you think about that for a moment.okay onward. A place in the east from a northern split country has once again rattled its sabre of war against everyone. They started by terminating a cease-fire that had been in place since 1951 over war games being practiced in the ocean, nowhere near where they live. These particular games have been done every year for some time and yes they complain every single time. Usually they complain about their people starving, which is the head scratcher. They can however afford maximizing their military might and nuclear weapons program. Maybe thats why you dont have enough for dinner? All those guns, bombs and soldiers chewed up the money for groceries. Im no different; I use my food money for cigarettes. Drug addicts well thats a no brainer, alcoholics, need I say more. You need to create a budget for what you can afford, just ask our Government. If it didnt work, we would be billions in debtanother head scratcher. I guess I should mention they elected a new religious leader Pope Francis, this has me concerned. My middle name is Francis and we all know what kind of whack-job I am. The first thing they said was; they will have to deal with the poor. Oh great another organization that wants to deal with us, why not just line us up and shoot, far more merciful then most of the ideas they come up with. The most favored by these groups is to hire a bunch of wealthy money grubbers that have no idea what its like to be poor, pay them an ungodly amount of money for their services, just to come up with a ridiculous plan of creating a committee to deal with the problem. March 22, 2013, and todays special word is Scandal, imagine taking what you have written and making it real, so real that people actually believe you. You could wash yourself in wealth to absorb the masses, but in time someone else might leak something not so true, this could lead to a scandal. Now it is possible to turn the hand of fate, back in my favor, but only if Im willing to write my most inner darkest secrets. We will see. March 26, 2013 what color do you get when you mix white with red? You could Try using your imagination, but in this instance only a females voice will bring out a beautiful outcome. Other things to note; I warned my brother of the contents in the pot on the stove, a few hours ago it was an oriental soup, but its been sitting for a while, so now its something completely different. You cant stop of the mush, its natural like dying your hair, it absorbs everything and in the end, its never what it started like. Slither Burning Loins

March 26, 2013 its been five days since the last time I purchased a pack of smokes and since then, its been a steady decline in consumption. Yesterday I had two cigarettes and I hope I dont have any more than that today, but my brother is still consuming a pack a day, so its going to be tough. I had a strange thought inside my dream last night which I found amusing, especially after I woke up. Within my dream scape a young woman asked me what do I like about woman. I said, I like to go down. She called me a pig. I said Im not a pig, Im a cow. I love to munch the grass. This statement is only disgusting if the person, who reads it, has a dirty mind. Maybe Im talking about being a vegetarian. It takes a different route when its influenced with the word woman. Depending what is suggested determines what is transcribe within our minds to focus upon what we think is the correct path in logic. But this is not always the correct path or the right response. To give you a better understanding of what I mean, picture this, Im sitting next to a beautiful auburn skinned female with delicious curves and my stomach growls. She turns toward me and asks, hungry are we, I say, Yes. What are you hungry for? She asks, and I respond with a devious smile, chocolate cream pie. Creamy milky juices, is what came to my mind when I stared down the soft curves of a young model, taunting me to dream wet desires toward her. The more I lust for the tasty side order of young lamb, the moister my black cloth trousers become. Sooner or later, something will give, will it be an explosion within my threshold or will a darker desire fade, as the truth of the thinking leads to a resolution toward staying out, of the animal cage. March 27, 2013 its time to return to my apocalyptic ramblings and the end of all things. Last year it was all about the Mayans faulty predictions of annihilation by calendar and we all know what happened there, nothing. Just like Nostradamus scribbles of destruction followed by death. This year however comes with scientific facts, a cycle of the sun that brings light, warmth and romance when it departs each night. A huge space storm which they believe will occur sometime this year bringing with it dire destruction electrically, tearing down our technology and implementing all forms of anti-humanitarian situations, brought on by our lack to communicate like we use to. This storm happens every now and then, but more often than we would like to admit, unfortunately, because of the technological stage of our development, this storm will wreak havoc on everything and everyone. Some people are down playing what might actually occur, by simply checking it off to conspiracy theorists. As this year progresses, without a storm the more the doomsayers will get mocked, even though all this concern is coming from creditable sources. One of these places sounding the alarm for precautions to be initiated is the space organization south of us. The only thing we really can do is hope that not all the information gets buried deep under a pile of biblical nonsense. I watched a show about people cursing their birth and blaming the parents for their predicament. Some went as far as to suggest why they even bothered having them in the first place. This struck me kind of funny. I wonder if people realize how lucky they are to even exist. Think about how many little swimmers that fought fiercely up the stream of dreams, to boldly go where none of them had gone before, without being eliminated along the way by torrential flooding through desirable effects to create life. The hundreds of dead-ends, misleading avenues of advancement and even if they make it, its first come first serve for ovaries sunny side up. Sometimes there are enough eggs for two and on rare occasions, entire groups of deserving swimmers get to lay back and enjoy the fruits of their labor. But to demand why irks me that they

of all people were the fastest swimmers, caught the prize of life only to turn around and state they wished they hadnt won. Ever heard the statement that only the strong survive and the weak perish, maybe this statement is only true if the strongest athletes give up before they realize why they wanted to win in the first place. Weakness only appears in the strong when everything they cherish fades to dust. Everyone is an athlete, it takes great desire, strong limbs to swim through the tunnel along opposing currents against all odds and thousands of others just like you to claim the prize of life. March 28, 2013 and todays special letters are, OMG, I had to take a step back and think about why so many people use these three letters so intensely. Its a head scratcher, unless youre a dumb-ass like me. Why would anyone say these letters out loud? Todays society apparently uses them to inflict outrage over something. Ive always known these three letters as Operators Manual and Guidelines. But Im wrong, the new definition is, Oh My God, sometimes associated with other letters to carry an even more profane approach to communication. March 29, 2013 Im curious about something, in this day of advance technologies especially when it comes to photography, why is it that people seem to grab the disposable camera to take pictures of UFOs? I mean they seem to get the crappiest photos, blurred from a distance and some are hard to even distinguish that its even anything of importance. What is also odd is that when they take a picture of one thats over a city, we get thousands of crappy photos. What nobody closer? Didnt someone have a real camera? Please do us all a service and take the snap shots with the more advanced stuff and maybe we wont dismiss what you claim, what its supposed to be? Im not saying that there arent any aliens running around on the planet or probes circling our world. After all, how much has the Government dished out for space exploration by sending probes to alien worlds. Their just responding to our curiosity with their own look into our world, its expected. The only thing you should be concerned about is whether or not they here to help us, exploit us, or worse, hasten our demise. April 2, 2013 time ticks forever forward dragging us further into madness and beyond reason. Two things to talk about, the first one is about the split country rattling its sabre of war, in an attempt to get more attention than the rest of the children, while spending money they say they dont have on nuclear weapons. They also mentioned something about their economy, but with declarations of war spewing from their lips, I guess it got lost in translation, the words, not the holly hills flick that put everyone to sleep. The second one came to me in the form of a question; I was asked whether or not I would be going to heaven or to hell when I die. I responded to this rhetoric with male souls start off in hell, while female souls start off in heaven. When you are born you begin the struggle of life and depending on how powerful your spirit becomes, this will determine whether you move on to a different form of life or whether or not your spirit dies when your body dies. You need to live a full life to achieve the next level. If the life in questioned is snuffed out prior to this achievement, other factors could alter your destination, some call it purgatory. The war between Heaven and Hell isnt over who will control the Earth or even over souls; its all about finding the best warriors to guard their territory and their treasures. Why do you think humans fight over these things? Weve been taught this ritual even before any of us were even born. April 7, 2013 well the split country is still rattling its sabre toward the west by declaring war, but like most end of the world scenarios they cant seem to give us an exact date. Theyve said after the tenth or maybe the fifteenth. I think they are all planning to get their feet scrubbed

during those dates, after all when war does initially starts, they will be wearing those boots for a while. Even though this seems like a serious threat toward the west, its comes with a humble feeling. They moved several missiles to their east coast putting them in range of a naval base, but as for striking the western country their screaming at, not likely. The projectile of choice hasnt even been tested yet and it only has a range of 2000 miles. But remember, their taunting not just the west, but all its allies. Its starting to appear that they will most likely strike the closet friend and that being the overpopulated island just off the coast and this is serious. They believe that the red republic has its back, but in reality their agreement for protection only comes if theyre the ones being attacked and not the aggressor or instigator of the conflict. The red republic has a lot to lose if their drawn into a war, at the moment their looking at being at the top of the global stage for economic standing in just a few years, turning the tide of financial ruin for most countries in the world. But if war breaks out over this countrys need for attention, it will all crumble. They have worked long and hard to be recognized for their accomplishments. Will they stand idly by while an arrogant leader destroys it all? So they have to decide if they are leaders of peace and prosperity or destroyers of life. On a lighter side of things I had two strange dreams last night one involved Hayden with P, the young Holly Hills actress who likes to open her mouth wide when shocked by something, sending many of our older males to the cemetery. Ashcan was there also, hes one from the 2.5 a bit gnarly for my dreams, so lets classify this as a nightmare. I made alluring suggestions with my tongue; she was not amused, almost offended. She stared intently for a few minutes until she noticed I was moving my eyes aggressively toward the door, she turned to see Ashcan Cruncher enter into the restaurant. She cursed and then headed over to him, slapping him on the arm while laughing, he flashed a surprised look. She laughed, but soon it faded when she learned he had nothing to do with my provocative advances. The second dreams was even odder, I dreamt my brother got abducted by aliens, it was so surreal that I climbed from my bed to go see if he was alright and what did I find when I enter his room. His computer was on, his game of WOW running and he was nowhere to be found. I walked through the apartment and couldnt find him anywhere. My God did it actually happen? Did they take a skinny white human for experimentation, not? He walked in the door a few minutes later carrying milk. Soon Ill be turning one year short of two packs of large cigarettes in just four days and gone will be the crazy ramblings of a lunatic toward something even more depressing, the rantings of a senile old fart, just lovely. April 8, 2013 I would like to return to talking about subliminal messaging in commercials. I saw another peculiar advertisement with deep messaging and a bit provocative, I may add. They showed several beautiful women dancing around with their mouths gaping open toward the camera, very suggestive if you have a dirty mind like mine. These women showed signs of being happy about paying over exaggerated prices for their clothes. When it comes to the cost of these items, women complain the loudest, as for men, we just care whether or not they fit. Well the commercial continued on to finally showing a younger model down on all fours with an open blouse (top buttons undone,) with her mouth wide open, facing the camera. What exactly are they trying to sell? It couldnt be clothing anymore, we couldnt see what she was wearing; only what she appeared to be offering. These deep conceded messages are appearing in all commercials today, far more frequent then in earlier years. The truth is they believe sex sells especially in advertisement, push every conceivable idea no matter what the cost to our conscience of decency. There programing us to

desire the young in various ways while taking a back seat in deniability. They would like us to believe that they had no idea that thats what they were doing, but they needed an idea in order to make the statement in the first place, corporate incompetence fueled by money. I just want to add something here that happened yesterday when my niece was over; she was listening to a song by Princess Selena. I began singing the lyrics out loud; she turned and asked what are you saying? I want you like a love doll baby, I said. Those arent the words you pervert, she said and laughed. She reached into her over-sized purse and pulled out a large battery and handed it to me. This is for your Japanese toy you have in your room, she sighed, while pointing to my door. Ah the threats of nuclear Armageddon by the split country have shriveled up like a penis in cold water. Mind you they have barked about more tests while we wait to see if they have what it takes to bring their nation to the front door of annihilation. The people south of us are ho humming about the real thoughts of having to listen to this countries rhetoric. It puzzles me though that the red republic has said or done nothing to curve this kind of tongue wagging. They may be an ally to the nation spewing words of dissatisfaction, but do they really want to go to war? A few years ago they admitted they couldnt win a military conflict with the nation to the west, but they could rally economically against them. But unless they speak up soon, all their planning will go to not, another wasted effort. April 10, 2013 I thought about talking about medicine and a certain Doctor, who would prescribe drugs to just about anyone, but I dont feel this is the right time, lord knows it could be an endless rant spanning the universe in mumble jumble, so Im not going to. April 11, 2013 Happy Birthday to me, my niece is taking me to lunch and then I get to do my laundry, yippy. April 14, 2013 a new leader for one of our political parties has come to pass and he is a young pup compared to the geriatrics that we normally see drooling on parliament hill. The young leader of the Northern part of a split country has threatened the world with nuclear annihilation, to prove his manhood. Makes one wonder what our young leader plans to do to prove his. Its been four weeks since the beginning of spring and were still in the deep freeze. I wonder when the controllers of the HAARP project tend to let us out. If youre curious about this organization check the web. This project appears to be a form of testing our upper stratosphere, but in reality it changes the course of the jet stream and that is why the country south of us has had such a warm winter. Slither Pandoras Box Get your minds out of the gutter you perverts, but to be fair I do know this really hot female named Pandora, who has committed several sins. On occasion I have dreamt that she would commit a few with me, a guy can only hope. April 16, 2013 another day of pain for those from the cream pie with a city name south of our border. Someone or something detonated several explosives at the end of a yearly traditional race causing death and destruction, for the innocent bystanders. At the moment they are not sure who did this horrific deed, but with so many resources at their disposal, Im sure it wont be long. For those who are responsible, if you thought this was a significant achievement then why dont you speak up and take claim for your dastardly crime. Not so noble are you, you wont even admit you did it, an empty victory.

On another note, I successfully completed my CPR training and received my certificate. I have the knowledge to save someone, but do I have the skill and courage to act, if the situation arises? As for those who I met in the class, two people are memorable, an attractive female who I gave the nickname of porch licker with bright shiny pants and a flamboyant guy, an Aussie from down under. Aussie said to porch licker I have your name tattooed on my butt. I offered to take a picture of it for keepsake, everyone chuckled. It took a bit for this female to acknowledge that he was playing her. The tattoo on his butt had two words Your name, it was funny. He had a lot of tattoos up his arms and all over his body, mostly aquatic sea creatures and symbols of life, instead of the usual fanfare of skulls, demons or mom. You are probably wondering why I call her porch licker. We were talking about food and I mentioned sea salt. I sometimes use it to melt ice off my stairs and she said she loves sea salt and thought about coming over and licking it off my porch. Now this could have serious implications, if I had a dirty mind, Aussie laughed. We were thinking thoughts to impure for this document. The pants she was wearing reminded me of Jim whose band loved Doors, he wore snake skinned pants and they too were shiny. April 19, 2013 after locking down the city of cream pie, the boys in blue, green and an assortment of other colors, now stand victorious with the capture of the remaining criminal at large, after they silenced the voice of the other one, in an explosive shootout. Unfortunately a young officer lost his life before the man hunt began, when the two want to be noticed syndrome inflicted, robbed a store, he was sitting in his car when they shot him in cold blood. Its been a bad week for our neighbors to the south, first the marathon and then another explosion at a fertilizer company, leveled a large area taking even more lives. Someone asked me when will the carnage end, unfortunately the answer to that question is, never. We live in a violent world where things arent always predictable; the random element is constantly flexing its superiority over all living things. On a lighter note, I heard scientists say supersized, I thought for a moment that maybe they had discovered larger than life women or maybe they visited a variety store for drinks, but in the end they only found planets that are in the habitable zone. Who cares, just more real-estate when cant get to, like Mars, unless you dont mind six months in space with no hope of coming back, all the power to you boys. Theres something you need to know about me while youre reading the thoughts of this document. The man you believe who is writing this, isnt Norman, you see he was taken by our people some time ago and I took his place. Im an alien from a distant star sent to observe the human race. My time here is almost up; Im looking forward to going home. My people have sent word that a portal will open and pull me in. This will be quite frightening to all of you. Youre wondering what happened to Norman? Hes been tortured, experimented on and studied, similar to what your military does to the life forms it has encountered. The truth is you really dont want to know what my people have been doing to him, all these years. All the writing about holly hills females was taken from him, he really liked certain females for various reasons, Selena has gorgeous black hair, Miley nice legs, and Emily has a cute butt. He sure liked young actresses. Even I was surprised that a human female got my blood pumping along with other organs. So Ill make a suggestion when we return to take your world from you, save some of the females for breeding. April 20, 2013 well they found the criminal at large just like I expected they would, another shootout, but this time the suspect was hiding inside a boat, when all hell broke loose.

Hes in critically condition. The question comes down to whether the people from the city of cream pie want him to survive; after all, it will most likely be a lengthy trial. The media will love it, while others will loathe it. On the other side of the world the red republic got rocked by a 6.6 earthquake that has taken a significant amount of human lives and sent 5,500 more to the place the healthy shouldnt go. I wonder if 2013 will be a year of destruction or just normal for the human planet named after dirt. Im going to rename her Valeria, it means love and were going to love living here after youre all gone. April 22, 2013 today I was flipping around the dial looking for something to watch when I came upon a show about dancing. I watch the young girls preform their routines. One young lady danced quite beautifully, drifting across the stage like an angel. The judges gave her third place, but she also received a special award for expressional heart. Another young girl from her team received first place. But I saw her performance. I thought that it was a bit seductive in nature, especially for a girl of her age. I guess exploitation is everywhere. The other thing I noticed is that the instructor for these young performers, lets call her a big butt fart goblin, a real nasty piece of work. She condemned the heart of dance; called her a bad performer, degraded her even after she took third and the special heart award. I tell you some people should be tarred and feathered for attacking the hopes and dreams of the young, especially after the child preformed with such elegance. I know that this woman may want to sue me over what I have written about her. But before she can do that, she would have to admit to everyone that she is the big butt fart goblin Im talking about. Who says there isnt any justice in the world? April 24, 2013 this must be, I need attention month, everyone is doing all sorts of outrageous rituals. Last week we had the cream pie bandits, this week rail jumpers and hacker delight on ricin. Why is everyone so hung up on being a celebrity? How far will you go to be like them? Im going to look on the web to see if anyone climbed down onto all fours to lick the snot off the sidewalk, just because a celebrity walked on it. Do you really need that kind of attention? Are you so naive that you actually believe that they know each other? The only difference between us and them is location, profile and privacy. If you dont mind living in a prison and being alone most of the time, then go on ahead. Dont rein chaos and destruction to get there, because all those people who you want to hob nob with will most likely steer clear of your sadistic ass to avoid a decline in their popularity. Some may hang around criminals, but none of them hang around child killers. April 25, 2013 last night I had an intense erotic surreal dream that blended dreamscape with reality so fine that I couldnt tell the difference between the two. One of the females was a hot holly hills actress that practiced every notable sin you could imagine. The other female came across as wholesome; all she wanted to do was snuggle. What made this surreal escape into sexual fantasy different was that she had never before appeared within my dreamscape of lustrous desires. This young female star appears on a wholesome show for everyone and the name she was given on stage is the same name of sexy lansira, Teddy. Maybe my subconscious is suggesting I eat healthier. Now I did say that reality blended with dream so closely that I couldnt tell the difference, but when I woke up, there wasnt any mess on the bed, so I passed it off as fantasy. On the other hand my cats were far more affectionate then normal; they were lying on the couch

licking their bellies. I guess Ill just have to wait until they have their litters to see who the Daddy is. Did I mention that one of my cats is named Hayden? Just kidding I dont have any cats; it was all dreamscape, twisted, bent in ways it shouldnt have gone. Our dreamscapes reflect on our inner turmoil, Im not suggesting that we delve deep into the heart of bestiality to escape, but analyze the outcome of the dream. Cats are extremely affectionate thats why people have them. They dont need a lot of care and they practically take care of themselves. Cats bury their crap so nobody can see what they have done. As for the young ladies, both are attractive, one is more wholesome than the other, but both have a special look that everyone craves for different reasons. It doesnt always have to be lust that they feel; sometimes its just innocent affection. After all, Lansira and I only snuggled, who cares that she was naked in the dream, it still counts. I know I talk a lot about holly hill honeys only because its easier to desire them without the pain of rejection. The difference between them and regular females is that normal women will look away from you if they dont find you attractive, some even cast dirty looks in your direction to discourage you. When we see holly honeys on television the desire affect is cast upon us and there is no rejection or ugly glance either. We lust after them thinking all kinds of erotic fantasies, but in the end we know its not real and we move on, accept a few mentally disturbed individuals who just dont get it. If youre wondering would I chase after a holly hills honey with such passion lets see, 200 dollars in cab fare to airport, 3k in airfare and even though Im a Canuck, I look a bit mideastern so I can look forward to the cavity search in two airports. I really dont like being in buildings with lots of people, is LAX really crowded? Now since its a celebrity chase, Ill need to stay at an expensive Hotel that will max out my credit cards. Ill also need to dress important so Ill take a second or even a third mortgage. Will I be busing around after her? More cab fare or rent a car, now I got to think about gas. Do I know where she lives; now I got to take a tour of the stars with all the other geeky tourists? How about visiting her where she works, sigh another tour. Even if I manage to locate her, what do I do then? Do I go out on a limb and profess my love? You know where that will get me, jail, harassment is against the law. I could get a camera and pretend to be a paparazzi then I can look forward to a punch in the face. Not bad, I would have a story to tell how she caressed my face, so what if its a black eye, she still touched me. May 4, 2013 weve enjoyed some great weather for the last couple of days and thats partly why I havent written anything down. The only other mentionable thing is that Ive had some really odd erotic dreams about Selena. They were intense sexual encounters leaving my sheets wet and desires unfulfilled, has holly hills managed to manipulate my mind to their advantage? Some may say its perfectly natural to have such dreams, but I think that the exploitation of youth through entertainment has altered my perception of control over my own subconscious. Mind you, I do have some control over manipulation of what occurs during REM sleep since I have a guilty conscious to protect me, such as, during our encounter of melding flesh in the heat of passion Selena whispered that I was old enough to be her Dad and that ended the blending quite quickly. She asked whats wrong and I replied that the word is strong enough to bring a man around to his sense of decency. The age difference could become a factor unless she was totally okay with the thought of being with someone that is much older than her. Some men dont have a conscious and theyll always go too far to get what they want. As for me, I need to reassure myself that what Im doing wont leave me alone, while she departs after finding someone younger. The same problem a lot of married women have with cheating spouses.

Yes it was just a dream, but our dreams reflect our real lives and everything we do, our subconscious is just trying to deal with it, so we can move on. Slither Corruption of the Soul May 13, 2013 The frosty bags of ice with the maple leaf name fought back from a 3-1 game deficit to slam together for a seventh game, only to have a 4-1 lead evaporate into not going to the next level of entertainment. They did better than most people thought they would, maybe next year, yeah right, took nine years just to get to that round. May 14, 2013 will someone please shutoff that damn fire alarm, I cant get any sleep, I wonder if I have any explosives left. The last time the neighbors alarm went off it took two whole days for someone to get off their butt to shut it off. Im not going to wait that long. Im looking for my fuses, matches and enough explosive fun to level the block. Ill just scream I went nuts and lost it or grab the marshmallows or hot dogs. No point going to the big house on an empty stomach. May 19, 2013 its another round of suggestive commercials. This time a male model gently caresses a womans leg at the start of the advertisement, leading up to him sliding down below her waist, she leans back with a bright smile. This commercial gave us the impression that a liquid could be used to remove hair from her legs, when the commercial started. But when he vanishes below her waist, one wonders does he plan on removing the hair with his teeth? Soon after seeing this advertisement I saw a blip for a television show called, inside Amy (last name here). I have a dirty mind, a flash within me had her bending over and I was inserting a long sausage with a camera on the end, between her folds to get a better look. I wonder how many people would watch that. Lets face the truth about men, we do certain things to occupy our time, working, fighting, drinking, watching sports and think about sex, which we also do when we are doing the others, its called time management. I talk a lot about female celebrity and all the ins and outs of their curves, someone may ask what about normal women. I dont have a problem with normal women; just show me one that is. Most people wont take this document seriously; they may believe its fiction, except for a few inserts of brief clarity from my life. My emotions have a tendency to influence my writing, flowing on to the pages like a wet dream into a crusty towel. May 20, 2013 today my brother told me that I have 12 days to find somewhere to live; he gave his noticed to the landlord, 2 months ago. I was under the impression that I had to the end of June to find a home. He talked to the landlord to give me an extension. Considering my financial situation this will most likely end with the word homeless. May 22, 2013 I havent eaten in 2 days, been drinking nothing but water as I pounder my predicament. Apartments are not cheap around here and my budget doesnt fit the area, hell it doesnt fit any area. Well at least my possessions will have a roof over their heads. Dont you find it strange that I could find accommodations for my stuff, but not for me? Still think that my writings are those of a lunatic or Im I a prophet. Ive predicted the fall of humanity and this is the first step, possessions over people. After talking with my niece earlier tonight she looked at me with concern, she suggested that maybe I should have a psychiatric evaluation. Let me explain why, two weeks ago we were at the coffee shop waiting for our order, in the drive through. She turned and asked what I was

doing, she could see my lips moving and my eyes were dilated. I told her I was thinking about climbing out of the car and going back to the car behind and killing the driver. When she asked why, I said I dont know, I just know I wanted to. I also told her about these other two instances which made her heart stop. When my brother gave me the bad news about leaving something inside me snapped. I wanted to kill him, I thought about stabbing him to death. The only reason he is still alive is because I knew it would devastate her. Then I told her that I thought about blowing up the neighborhood as well, sound impossible, not really. When my brother wasnt around I made homemade plastic explosives in my spare time, learned it from the internet. I have a bar in the window sill cooling, because its an unstable mix it began to sweat, so I needed to cool it down. You cant miss it, I labeled them myself, and it says C4 explosives on the package. One bar wont do much damage she said and I responded, remember when I talked about having 96 bars, she said yes. I said that part wasnt fiction and I still have them in my closet. Even with one bar that fact of matter is that I live above a paint store, theres a parking lot on the left side and an alley between us and the building on the right, which so happens to be a tattoo parlor. All those chemicals will make the air toxic and with a good wind, think about it. This is a tourist town full of people visiting from all over. The honeymoon capitol will have a new stain. Maybe Im delusional, desperate or mentally unbalanced, something has broken within me, but do I reach out for help from those that deal with this kind of thing. I reached out once before and got turned away. Maybe I have no choice now but to take this to the extreme. The more attention I can draw toward me, the more likely they may be willing to help, if not, at least Ill have a roof over my head and six feet of dirt to keep me warm. May 23, 2013 after talking with a woman from the services about my future and the situation Im in, I felt a bit hopeful. She gave me a few numbers to call to get some help with clothes, housing and the number for a crisis nurse to discuss my mental stability. Later I met up with my niece and went for a coffee. Its the first one that didnt taste like dirt. I mentioned to her that I hadnt eaten in four days. I tried to eat a bun the other night and threw it up after. I did however drink about thirty bottles of water, maybe thats why I wet the bed for the first time in forty years. Before she departed, she asked what I would be doing later and I replied jumping off the roof, she didnt laugh. Instead she told me not to do anything that she wouldnt do, I said, didnt you say you wanted to fly, she was not amused. She was talking about an airplane, not what I was suggesting. After coming inside I experienced another round of severe depression filled with the fear of being alone. I have always lived with family and now I have to live with strangers. Im not even sure where I want to live. Mind you, thoughts of strapping explosives to my body and heading down to the casino, has crossed my mind several times these last few days. Even had an actor appear in the dream, the one from a cop show who also played opposite the actor who spent time as tool and acted like it. My guy has no hair and slurs his words in alien garb. In the dream he tried to talk me down, idiot, if you strap bombs on yourself its for a reason, not to pee yourself and be led away in shame. It will be an explosive outcome, just like in the movies. Tomorrow I see the nurse and if she cant figure out whats wrong then maybe I should do what I said and stop talking about it. Actions speak louder than words and lately thats all Ive been doing, its summer, time to heat this place up. This is what depression does to people; it drains them of all good happy thoughts and replaces them with doom and gloom. Some people curl up and cry, others lash out in violence, and then there are people like me who write about chaos to try and sideswipe the feelings.

The above statements sound like I want to commit suicide, but I dont have the balls for that. It would be much easier to have the boys in blue fill me full of holes or click a switch on an explosive device and let it do the job. Either way the feelings will grow until something snaps. The depression is the trigger and not seeking help will have you spiraling down to your own selfannihilation and unfortunately, some people dont like to die alone. I think I need some meds. But for me this would only work for a bit or until I find secure lodgings somewhere and then theres the problem of living with complete strangers. Im trying to decide whether this is worse or being alone, Ive lived by myself before and I didnt like it, nobody to talk to. I need human companionship, not furry little beasts that need boxes changed or late night walks. Im tired of scooping poop. May 24, 2013 I decided to call the crisis nurse before heading down to where the healthy shouldnt go and a good thing I did to, the Centre had been closed down, they only talk to you by phone and if you need medication you need to see your doctor and a psychiatrist. Plus you have to show them that youre really a nut case in need of medication. Apparently, having thoughts of blowing up an entire city doesnt count. Soon there wont be any medical help in this entire city everything is being moved to another city. They built a super place where the healthy shouldnt go and have decided to close down all other avenues for care. It appears that this may be a form of population reduction in the cruelest way, get hurt here and it will be almost an hour before you get to where the healthy shouldnt go and most likely you wont survive the trip. But yeah, we are spending billions on aircraft, so what if a couple thousand peasants pay for it with their lives. When I was thinking about leveling the casino here, I took the time to scope out the building. I was here when it first opened and know the design pretty well, while walking around I noticed something odd, are you aware that there is a pillar in the garden area that wasnt there when it first opened. They added this particular piece just recently. They use forced air to heat the building using several large boilers and other cost saving devices. They also use natural gas to run those machines, now most of the piping is in a well-protected area. I noticed something about the design; because the building was built in a certain way they had to redirect some of the piping to come up through the floor. They added the pillar to hide the lines, very interesting. If I were thinking of wrapping explosives around my body this would be the place to be. The area could easily be confined to keep an explosion from doing too much structural damage. So if the boys in blue dont know about the gas lines running up through the pillar, I could entice them into shooting me. The explosion would rupture the mains, igniting the gas which would in turn race down the pipes into the storage tank. Do you want to know how much natural gas they have in storage? Get this, one-million litres of fuel, more than enough to wipe this town off the map. The land here would be blasted into the Niagara River redirecting the flow of water into our southern neighbors backyard, wiping out towns, municipalities, cities and pretty much anything that gets in its path without ever letting up. It pays to know the structural plans of the place you want to be buried in. I just ate a pastry that is considered a delicacy in a foreign country; it didnt have any sugar in it, totally gross. Pastries need sugar to actually taste good. A pastry without sugar is like a bomb without a trigger, it wont work. The reasoning behind this is to reduce sugar intake. You see this particular tasty grain of white can trick your brain into thinking youre thirsty. Thats why soda has so much of it, to increase your craving. Like explosions in a movie you, always want more. May 27, 2013 my depression is starting to fade, not so on edge as I was a few days ago, but my situation hasnt changed. Im still staring homelessness right in the face and it isnt even

flinching. My brother is renting a basement apartment from his daughter for 750 a month with everything included. Her and her husband cant understand why he doesnt ask me to move in with him. You see the one room apartment hes renting, the bedroom is twice the size of a normal room. They offered to put in a divider wall so we can share the place. Mind you their new home is in butt-crack nowhere and job potentials are few. Id rather have less work opportunities then be homeless. My eldest brother may consider renting one of his sons rooms to me for a while; they are all out west, so there vacant. His home is in Grimsby, not many jobs out that way either. My second eldest brother would rather I didnt ask him, even though he has his own home, my parents stay with him when there up here, its a small house. As for my third oldest brother, well we departed with some very colorful words so that isnt even an option. Most rooms for rent here in this city are for students only and all other options for a roof over my head are too expensive to even consider, so I may have to get use to the idea of living on the street. But before my lines scribble out of control, I will get myself a passport, like hell Im being homeless here for the winter, time to get my parents to take me to their home in Florida. I will however allow my dad to dump me off anywhere along the highway as long as it is in the sunny state of Florida. I will also try taking what little cash I have at the beginning of the month to the casino and try my luck at the one dollar slots, maybe Ill win the jackpot, if not, I could always try and go through the scenario of taping C4 to my body and walking into the garden. May 30, 2013 my depression has returned in full force, myself worth is now reduced to zero and my confidence doesnt exit. Im having thoughts of walking down to the rainbow bridge and climbing under the rail. Im just going to let myself fall into the embrace of Mother Nature. There comes a time in a persons life when they know its time to step aside and let someone else carry the torch of the human spirit. Im taking up precious space, the vacancy I leave behind wont stay empty for long, theres a new generation waiting to take long strides into life, mines over. The one good thing about all this is that I will finally silence all the voices. Im Norman F Fagan and this is my note, Good-Bye.