Kathy CasseyKathy Hoyt: Many thanks for your kind words back in April.

You are a person I respect and appreciate very much, in a lifetime of meeting some extraordinary people. To everyone who replied to my Casa Ben Linder listserv message 10289 that I posted on April 23, whih was my reply to a message on April 20 from Centro Cultural Batahola Norte, with the heading Collection of Books: I'm terribly sorry to sound so abrupt and stressed out, but PLEASE anyone who wants books for children or some for teenagers for a reading room, library. cultural center, or school, you MUST reply to me at my email address now, case_ykat@yahoo.com. Please use Nicabooks as the Subject line, and include in your message, at a minimum, the name of the contact person, the name of the project, the place of the project (specific and also department), the email address of the contact person, and the approximate number or minimum number of books wanted, as well as how many of them, if any, should be for teenagers, specifying fiction or nonfiction or high-school textbooks or reference books, for the teenage group. Otherwise I will suppose that only books for children (the majority) are wanted by your group. Perhaps some of you can retrieve your Sent message(s) to me that you sent via the Casa Ben Linder listserv in late April or later, and simply forward it to me. I just have spent two hours fruitlessly trying to collect this information using Casa Ben Linder web access to the Yahoo Group, as well as the messages in my own Inbox and Sent box. The problem is that the vast majority of you did not send a reply to my email address, as I requested--unless you did so in May or later. You did not even post your reply within the Yahoo Group listserve, you merely replied to the sender, me. So, as far as I can tell, there is no way for me to retrieve the information I need, from the Yahoo Group archive. I tried using the advanced search, with the proper date and subject settings, but this only netted me the message of Denise von Wissen Zuniga (thank you very much), who DID post her April 25 message to me so that everyone could see it and it is retrievable. Now I only have scraps of information. I was trying tonight to make a list of the 15 or so groups that want books, so that I could make my own Contact Group in my email account, share it with the woman from Nicaragua whom I mentioned in April, and really could get down to selecting and sorting the books for the various groups. (I am very sorry that I missed the departures of people from two groups who had persons traveling from New York City to Nicaragua in June. I already had selected those books, but I could not contact the audiologists going to work with deaf children and youth, or the other group.) Now I do not have time to go through the hundreds of emails received in my Inbox since April 25. I am at a college library that will close in 20 minutes and not reopen until Monday (summer hours), and probably there is no place where I will be able to use a computer for more than an hour, in the next three days. I tried going through the Casa Ben Linder members list, but I did not recognize any of the first 200 email addresses as being those of people who replied to me in April, except for Darrell Bushnell. I am sad right now about having still more delay in selecting, sorting, and shipping the books, because today literally was my first day of "coming back to life" and I was very much looking forward to making the list of projects, writing to each of you at once, and working with the books. I have not seen any of my emails since April 25 or so. (Apologies to anyone who still is reading this, who did NOT reply to the April message.) I have a big, lifelong problem with depression, and after some people wrongly fearing that I might try to kill myself, I was locked up in a psychiatric ward, incommunicado, for almost all of Mayl. After that experience I DID want to end my life, and I am not going to try to describe the month of June, except to say that mainly I spent 24 hours lyng in bed, with a few forays to see if I had the opportunity and courage to utilize certain suicide methods. (Jumping off the George Washington Bridge was described as "popular."). In a

vicious circle, I knew that my behavior would result in my being locked up in the same hellish place again, and then for months in an even worse one called Bronx State Hospital, but I could not change it. My eyes are so messed up from not taking my thyroid hormone that I cannot see what I am typing. However, this all will happen at some point (sending the books), if you each send me the information I asked for tonight, as well as any that I asked for in April that you did not send yet. I am very impressed with many of the projects (some of which I knew about before), especially the Biblio-Bus, and I will be very glad if I can provide some books to enhance or expand what you have been doing. I guess I will stop there for now. Kathy Casey