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Strange Leads the Way

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&ar !or th 'ours , h r 'o( s anoth r journal ) kno# nothing about * consciously , that is+ ),( sur on deeper levels ) kno#+ M an#hil , that,s a good r (ind r to b 'autious or at l ast a#ar o! how we define the I. )t,s so asy to sli- into th old #ays # # r taught, taking th body or th (ind !or #ho # ar and (aking our (o. s !ro( th r + )t sounds lik a littl nough thing but ),. !ound it is not+ )t,s a'tually huge + %ust lik a on d gr (istak on your h ading !or a long tri- 'an land you in th #rong 'ontin nt, (u'h l ss th #rong 'ountry, taking th out r s l! !or th ) 'an do th sa( sort o! thing * thro# you #ay o!!+ /h r ar things you just won't see, and not . n kno# th y # r (iss d+ 0 ,r not in th Present !ra( o! (ind+ B ing -r s nt * truly -r s nt * is so( thing that ! # o! us -ra'ti' , so( thing o! #hi'h ! # ar . n a#ar + 1 t it do sn,t ha. to b that #ay, and th on s #aking u- ar br aking that (old+ 0 ,r (ad o! !in r stu!!, and # s ns it, so( ho#+ So( o! us . n know it, #hi'h is a r ally gr at s-a' to o''u-y+ 0 g t all kinds o! (isdir 'tion in li! , that,s a gi. n * but ho# (u'h do # fall in with * or !all !or2 /h (isdir 'tion isn,t r ally th issu + /hat,s a -art o! th s' n ry, that,s all+ It's on us to #ak u-, not on so( on ls to -oint us in th right dir 'tion+ /his b ing -r s nt thing is . ry deep , -ot ntially+ )t starts o!! ni' and 3ui t and si(-l , but it has th -o# r to tak you -la' s * -la' s th lik o! you,. n . r 4- ri n' d+ )t,s r ally 'ool+ So i! you !ind yours l! b ing bored #ith so( thing * anything * tak a -aus !or th 'aus o! #aking u-+

),( turning over a new leaf. ),( not going to b bla(ing (ind !or things * # ll, not as (u'h, any#ay+ 5ot to tak it naturally, and not g t 'arri d a#ay #ith so( id a+ ),( ! ling (or int grat d, o! lat * ! ling (or one, su'h that isolating (ind as th bad guy in any #ay just do sn,t sit right, any(or + So l t,s s #h r this l ads+ Mind is d !init ly an i(-ortant -art o! th t a(+ And l t,s !a' it, it isn't mind's fault that it got -ut in th l ad+ /hat,s ho# # ,r brought u-, and th r ,s no us !ul !ing r--ointing to b don + )t just is, and any sort o! bla(ing is a sign o! resistan e , a sign o! blo'kag o! th !lo#+ 6i! is so !r aking en!oya"le th s days, so( ti( s ) don,t kno# #hat to do #ith (ys l! * ho# to handl that+ ) s- nt so( ti( (using o. r th drasti' 'ontrast b t# n (y No# and ho# things on' # r !or ( + )t,s r ally lik t#o di!! r nt li! ti( s+ So strang + ),( not going to t ll you how ) got h r , or why th 'hang or any su'h thing b 'aus I don't know + Anything ) #ould say #ould just b -roj 'ting so( id a or anoth r on li! + 5u ss ),. got b tt r things to do than that+ So th not knowing is still a 'onstant in (y journ y, and ),( good #ith that+ /ruly, it,s a peaceful #ay to li. + )! it gi. s ( a t#ing no# and th n, ) just r (ind (ys l! that th only 3" 'onstant is 'hang , so nothing lasts !or . r * and ) (o. on+ Why a( ) (or !ri ndly #ith (ind, no#2 I don't know and it do sn,t (att r to ( + ) just a(+ )t just feels right, ! ls good so( ho# to ha. !inally a'' -t d (ind ba'k into th !old, so to s- ak+ ) kno# ) ostra'i7 d it, didn,t trust it !or a good #hil + So any o! you that ha. !ound anoth r -ath to (ast ry o! (ind, ),d b int r st d to ho# that #ork d !or you, sin' all # 'an do is share our own walk + ),( not saying ),. (ast r d (ind in th ty-i'al 3" #ay that (ost !olks #ould ( an #h n saying that+ Sin' th r ,s not r ally anything ) kno#, that do sn,t sound (u'h lik any sort o! (ast ry, do s it2 )n that #ay it,s not+ /h #ay ) r ! r to is int grating it into its n # -la' as !unior to #eart. No doubt you r 'ogni7 how we were all raised to r ly al(ost 'o(-l t ly on (ind, on th l !t-brain as- 't o! that, -utting (ind

!ir(ly in 'harg in our li! + )t #as ho# # (ad all (ajor d 'isions, and (ost o! th (inor on s as # ll+ /hat s ( d natural th n * it do sn,t no#+ At this stag ) ha. to say it,s r ally h l-!ul to b the empty up * to kno# you don,t kno#+ 8an,t ha. old ( (ori s o! ho# things on' # r 'louding u- th No# * that do sn,t h l-+ So ),ll -ut u#ith not r ( (b ring a ! # things # ll !or th b auty o! nt ring (or d -ly into th $ow#ere * th -r s nt (o( nt, #hi'h is so( ho# al#ays di.in + )t (ay b that a ' rtain emptiness is r 3uir d to drink d -ly o! th draught o! th N90 * ) don,t kno# :)";<+ )t,s an abandoning o! both th past , but also th future + /h r ar a--ro-riat ti( s to d al #ith !utur and -ast, and you !lo# into that #h n it,s n d d+ 9. rall, though, you go about (-ty o! both+ /h r ,s a r al fle%i"ility to it+ 1ou don,t g t stu'k in old habits, old #ays, al#ays b ing #illing to tak a fresh look at #hat . r -r s nts its l!+ )t turns out that in . ry day in . ry #ay Sour e holds a onversation #ith us+ )! # ,r not at l ast larg ly -r s nt to our No#= r th n it sli-s right -ast us, unnoti' d+ )t,s all so ama&ing , ) don,t kno# #hat to say+ ) don,t s ho# to 'on. y it, so b sur to list n !ro( a ' nt r d s-a' + /hat #ill h l-+ ) !ind th (or ti( ) s- nd in No#, th 3ui t r (y (ind g ts+ Also strang * but . ry ni' + /h r ,s a r al i nterior spa iousness that 'o( s a.ailabl , too+ So( ti( it has th ! o! in!inity, or at l ast hug (-ty s-a' s insid + Also -l asantly strang + /h r ,s l ss thinking and (or o! a sort o! intrinsi knowing going on+ 8 rtain things ar just clear * things that (ay ha. b n 'loud d or not und rstood b !or + As long as on do sn,t 3u stion that, you 'an rid on th !lo#+ )! you start -i'king at it, asking int rior 3u stions su'h as #h r did it 'o( !ro( or ho# did you kno#, you sli- out o! that !lo#+ 0hat ),( !inding is that so( ho# * ) don,t kno# ho# * (ind s (s no# to get that+ 0h r it on' !ought !or do(inan' , no# it,s respe tfully integrated into th #hol + )t,s . ry ni' + )t #ould ha. b n so 'o(!orting to kno# this #as ah ad, ba'k #h n ),d just r ally dis'o. r d ho# l tting (ind run things #as at th root

o! all or (ost o! (y -robl (s+ /h n again, ) don,t think ) #as ready to r ali7 , ba'k th n, that th r #ould 'o( a day #h n ) no long r b li . d in su'h things as pro"lems + ) don,t s anything as -robl (ati', any(or + Strang , again, but not on' you g t us d to it+ /h n it,s just d li'iously ni' + %ust i(agin , never ever having a problem again to g t a tast o! #hat ) ( an, h r + So y ah, it,s attainabl , but how it ha-- n d #ho kno#s2 ) don,t+ )t,s just th 'urr nt r ality, on ) !ondly a'' -t+ ) s #ith new eyes , no#+ ) us d to 'all it y s o! = art or = art .ision, but ),( not sur that !its, no#+ /h r ,s (or and (or that ) just don,t kno#+ )t,s r ally easy to "e pea eful #ith that, though+ /his is a li! o! so (u'h - a' + So( ti( s it a(a7 s ( , !or th r ,s no 4-laining it+ 0 ,r taught to s things in t r(s o! goals and st -s and stag s, as tri-s !ro( point ' to point ( + 0 ll, that no long r !its, not in th l ast+ )t,s so out(od d it ! ls lik a -r .ious li! + ) r ali7 (or and (or that our doing isn,t an ans# r to anything+ B in = art to h ar that, as it,s not said to (ind, #hi'h #ill do nothing but (isint r-r t it+ Sur , to #at'h ( you,d s th doing g t don , but it,s not (ind dri. n * it,s not th sa( + /hings ar n,t don #ith a -ur-os , #ith a !utur goal * not . ry (u'h+ /h y,r just don b 'aus th y b 'o( a part of the flow * = art !lo#+ ) kno# th r ar so( , (ayb (any, #ho #ill g t #hat is ( ant, h r , or at l ast th feel o! it+ ) 'an s ho# this is all a natural sorting out going on+ )t #on,t b that long b !or th t#o grou-s, th a#ak n d/a#ak ning on s and th r st ar so !ar a-art in 'o((uni'ation that it #ill b hard !or on to und rstand th oth r+ )t #on,t (ak s ns to th (+ =a. no worry about that, though, or any su'h things+ /h >ni. rs , Moth r Natur h rs l!, kno#s #hat Sh ,s doing+ /h r ,s a natural intelligen e at work , an )nt llig n' so a# so( and d -ly int grat d into . rything that it,s #hat is truly running th sho#+ 9ur 'hoi' is to ith r fight it or l arn to ad!ust and adapt to its !lo#+

0 ,r "eing dan ed + ) kno# a lot o! you not only g t that, but you,r o!t n consciously -artaking o! th dan' + B ing dan' d is to have a tions flow through you + /h r ,s no s -arat you 'hoosing to do anything+ /h r ,s no thought in.ol. d, at l ast no 'ons'ious thought+ Sour' is th "an' r and # ar th dan' * # ar b ing dan' d, s 2 )t,s su'h a lo. ly -la' to b + ) 'an,t gi. you any st -s to g t h r , but ) kno# ) don,t n d to do that, any#ay+ )ou already know + )t,s just a (att r o! s ttling do#n into your S l! * ' nt ring and just b ing still, no# and th n+ So( ho#, i! that,s our int nt, # !ind and har(oni7 #ith that divinely intelligent flow + )t has an )nt llig n' so subli( that it,s !ar b yond #hat 3" (ind 'an d .is , so it,s not that+ 0 ,r all a -art o! this gr at, fra tal we" + )t,s d -ly awesome , d -ly divine + )t,s so gr at to b dis'o. ring, or rath r r dis'o. ring all o! this, !or # all kn # it b !or , and # all kno# it, #ithin+ ? ali7ing # ar multidimensional and that it,s #ithin 'ons'ious r a'h 'o( s as a natural -art o! this+ 0 just kno#+ ),. o!t n shar d th things that s ( d to gi. ( th greatest "oost in un'o. ring so (u'h o! this+ /h y,r . ry si(-l , r ally * but things you "e , not so (u'h things you do + 1ou ( rg s so( ho# into /hat * ( rg s #ith Sour' , ) gu ss+ /hings su'h as r 'lai(ing your divine identity , ' asing to id nti!y #ith !l sh and blood, brain and (ind+ 0o#, that,s a journ y and a hal!, too, sin' you basi'ally lose !ust a"out everything o! #ho you # r * rath r, o! #ho you thought you # r + )t,s (or than unsettling , but that,s !in , sin' # ar di.in + 0 # r all along, but nobody told us so+ No# # 'o( to kno# it in a . ry organi' #ay+ )t gro#s on you+ ) !ind Love #o. n into . ry -art o! (y journ y+ )t,s everywhere, in everything * also organi'+ /his is di.in , as in un onditional Love , #hi'h is so( thing (ost o! us ha. not n'ount r d b !or + 1ou s - o-l g tting tongu -ti d trying to 4-lain 'onn 'ting #ith that during an N"@ :N ar " ath @4- ri n' < #hil on th Aoth r sid +B 0ords don,t . n b gin to 'ontain it * but th n you 'an r joi' b 'aus you don't n d th #ords+ 1ou !ind you 'an ! l it just

!in * you 'onn 't #ith it in oth r #ays * (ultidi( nsional #ays, it turns out * but you don,t kno# that at th ti( #h n it starts sho#ing u-+ ) !ind this 6o. th b #hat 'ould b 'all d th ground of "eing * it,s that deeply integrated , su'h that things, as th y a-- ar, ar just th !or(s tak n by this 6o. + So, this stu!! is . ry strange to the mind , ) think you 'an s or si(-ly kno# by your o#n e%perien e o! it+ Mind 'an,t grok it, and at a ' rtain -oint o! (a4i(u( !rustration, (ind gives up trying+ )t go s through its o#n d - 'hang s !or a ti( * a ti( that 'an s ( to b . ry rough+ /h n (ind just gi. s u- * or at l ast (in did+ )t surrenders , !inding it 'an,t !or' you to l t things 'ontinu to b as th y on' # r , #ith mind running the show + At a ' rtain -oint (ind has to ad(it d ! at o! that -lan+ )t r 'ogni7 s that you,r d t r(in d to let #eart lead th #ay, so it starts just wat hing ho# things go, not -i-ing u- (u'h+ /hat -has 'an b kinda rough, as # ll+ )t 'an ! l a lot lik depression + So( g t stu'k th r !or a ti( , but oth rs #ho ar a#ak ning . ntually r ali7 it is mind that,s d -r ss d * and th y,r not (ind+ Su'h a hug di!! r n' b t# n ha.ing a (ind and b ing a (ind+ So th y b gin to g t th (u'h n d d "reathing spa e b t# n th ( and (ind+ /his is a hug mer y , r ally, !or th y,r 4iting a . ry dark time + 1 t no#, #ith (ind 3ui t (u'h (or o! th ti( , th still small voi e 'o( s (u'h (or 'l arly onlin + Intuition r ally -i'ks u-, (ay . n skyro'k t+ /h y lik ly . n b gin to dis'o. r that (u'h o! #hat th y took to b th ir thoughts just #asn,t * it #as telepathy + Strang u-on strang + 0hat a #alk it has b nC ) 'an,t say ) kno# #h r ) a(, ith r * just that, on' again, things ar markedly different , and in #ays ) don,t y t kno# ho# to 4-r ss+ /hat,s -r tty strang , !or ),( 'o(!ortabl #ith #ords, but oh # ll+ B ing -hony or trying to -last r o. r th unkno#n #ith so( th ory or oth r just do sn,t #ash+ )t . n ! ls kinda dirty or un'l an * r -ulsi. + 9nly "eing real #ill #ork, it s (s+ And sin' it ! ls so good that #ay * . n #h n 4-osing th gr at .ast .istas o! #hat ) don,t kno# * ) lo. going #ith just b ing r al+ 9th rs, a ! # st -s

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So this is a tou'h and a tast o! what it's like to "e me , right no#+ 0hat,s it lik to b you2 )s that 'hanging !or you, too2 My b t is that it,s 'hanging !or all o! us, th awakening ones , . n though so (any o! us (ay not ha. d -ly noti' d or just don,t ha. th #ords !or it, y t+ & rha-s you,ll !ind so( 'o(!ort in taking u- th pen and the "lank page, and l tting your not kno#ing l ad th #ay in #hat g ts #ritt n+ %ust b sur to dat it, so it #ill h l- you lat r r 'all th strang -la' s you,. b n, and #hat it ! lt lik + ) !ind that in 'hanging so . ry drasti ally , had ) not journal d #h r ),. b n, ),d no long r ha. tou'h #ith that, as today,s 'ons'iousn ss is so distant !ro( it+ )t (ak s a lot o! th -ast s ( rath r lik ith r a dream or anoth r in'arnation, ntir ly+ $ ry strang , but also . ry Na(ast DED njoyabl + ) hoyou agr +

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b ing, br athing s-a' , still s(all .oi' , no (or -robl (s, a'' -t not kno#ing, b ing dan' d, Sour' is th dan' r, 3" F di( nsions, (ultidi( nsional, 5od or S-irit, 90N b ing di.in , #at'h and obs r. , a#ak n or nlight n, !l 4ibl - rs- 'ti. , li. !ro( = art, shi!t b li !s