52 Day Journal

Day 1, Tuesday, June 15, 2004----Roy was a pretty boy controlled by mama. .. at some point they had to be in ne ati!e campai nin to try to rescue themsel!es "rom the truth . #on"essions o" a sub. Day 1 on the Road, $ a.m. at the rape!ine%%e&it 'orman at $24 a.m.%%(nterin )ern #ity at $2* a.m.%%%+ort Te,on -tate .istorical /ar0%%%-mell o" Truc0 1ra0es%%.i hway 5 2orth%%%1eholden to no one but 'od%% rape !ines 3 crop duster at 4 a.m.%% Temblor Rid e ,ust a rid e%%all part o" the san Joa5uin 6alley%%car had de"ecti!e tape player7%%88 Jac0son 1rowne tape%%potato truc0 at 1015 a.m.)in s #ounty at 1014 am%%'riselda at 1a0ers"ield -hell%%.. 1192 a.m enterin +resno #ounty ,ust passed #oalin a..the "i!e "reeway 4runs alon side the #ali"ornia :5ueduct.. on the other side is the Diablo ran e %1;90 preachin Dub%%This e&plains Tt1<s a""ection "or rape!ine%%8y seatbelt is on%%at the #oalin a (&it = bou ht cherries%%%"inished cherries at 112> a.m.%%%terrible road%%8erced #ounty at 1210 pm%%%1290 pm at -anta 2ella%%%around 1;90 this is :lameda #ounty ?@athropA%%%88 the 0ids in the "ountain at -toc0ton%%2ice ci!ic center in -toc0ton%%Dubbin selected sermons%%(l Dorado #ounty% Desolation Bilderness :rea, /olloc0 /ine%% -il!er"or0 at *1> p.m.%% @a0e Tahoe at $94 p.m. %%@a0ers et crushed to lose "inals $*-100, %-lept in Toiyabe 2atl +orest the "irst e!enin % Day 2, Bednesday, June 1>, 2004----%-ent letter to 8r. 1ibb at 1yrd 8iddle -chool at 559 a.m. ?and a minisac0 to @ilahA%%-ent the -ermon D6D to -chuster at40$ am "rom downtown Reno%%%=<m lea!in Reno at 450 a.m. %%% ?you can o ra"tin in Reno .. on the .umboldt ri!erCCA/assin by the Trinity Ran e =s this the .umboldt Ri!erC 8y reply brie" is due July 4---= uess they ha!e held the openin brie" "rom +ebruaryDthe de"endants brie" is due on June 24%%En the other side is the -till water Ran e%%and this is /ershin #ounty%%= le"t on .1 somewhere at 1229 pm.---oh year on top o" the as pump %%and then another .1 at the Thunder 8ountain e&hibit ? an historical siteD=ndian monument, with windshields used "or house windowsA this .1 was at 1F10 pm. :t =mlayDwhere the e&hibit is.. and then = also started /salm 25%%Then another .1 at the Binnemuca #oGy 8otel on the hood o" the carDwhere the als were sunbathin by the pool%% =s Reno in Dou las #ounty or BashoeC Binnemucca is in .umboldt #ounty%%1attle 8ountain is in @ander #ounty, ne&t to the -hoshone ran e and near the =ndependence 8ts. 88Dtapin the s0y and H=t is well with my -oulI at 242

p.m. %%%(nterin @ander #ounty at 9 p.m. and = see the -hoshone Ran e at 9;11 p.m.%%8ouw came "rom a 2J literary , law, and "ear based settin %%(nterin (ure0a #ounty at924 p.m. , Tiny Dunphy%%(l0o #ounty @ine at 959 pm%88 the tiny little church by the train trac0s in #arlin%%8y "ly was down the entire time = was at the 8a!eric0 as station in (l0o%%Railroad 8useum at #arson #ityC%%1as5ue "est in (l0o on "irst wee0end in July%%2. on 225 at (l0o---=ndependence 8ts. %%52> p.m. on lonesome road%%#ompleted /salm 25 by hay bale on the 225 2. at around >;00 p.m. %%-uddenly = realiGed the lure o" porno is, in part, the lure o" innocence, beyond pretense and e!il%%Ence they ?0ca, 3 htie0A lost their ability to dream and ima ine they lost "aith, or !ice !ersa, and lost hope and became He!il.I +or e!il is banality.. Bild .orse -tate recreation area at >24 p.m. Ewyhee Desert% a "alse sense o" "amiliarity can arise, in part, due to a pastor who welcomes all in his home indiscriminately with the burden on the "amily to entertain and ma0e him loo0 ood, and i" there are Hone loopI thin0ers in the crowd,. Jou will li0ely be pi eonholed accordin to their stereotype or pre,udice at your e&pense7%%8ountain #ity at >51 p.m.%% Duc0 6alley at *0* pm%%%#ould = buy land on ( bayCC%(ntered =daho at *15 p.m., now we<re in 8ountain Time Kone%%Tee /ee at *20 p.m. %%Tiny Town o" Riddle at *90 p.m. %%% 2ew -on ---H.is name is7I?i.e. Jeho7!ah, wonder7 "ul7Aand separate the syllables temporarily, then ,oin them, and then do H8y name is7I ?i.e. .um7.ble, Than07"ul,7A%%%'i!e me a si n @ord at $14 p.m..---and made a .1 on the street si n in Bild .orse area.%% Day 9, Thursday, June 1*, 2004DBo0e up at > a.m , *$ north, (lmore #ounty, birds on -na0e Ri!er at >95 a.m. 88 sprin0lers in .ammett.%%'oodin #ounty 88 train at >52 a.m.%%Thou ht = lost the 0eys at 'lenns +erry%%1liss 2e!ada at *90 a.m.%%.1 at Jerome, =daho -hell station%%(ntered -hoshone +alls par0 at 494 a.m.%%Robin at -ears at 44* a.m.Jerome #ounty%%:borted .1 attempt at -hoshone +alls%%.1 at (den =daho, 1010 a.m.%%%2o Do s at Dier0es par0 la0e abo!e -hoshone "alls% the man "rom Ere on said, H= don<t see why not.I .eyburn at 1142 a.m, 8innido0a #ounty%%2o helmet law in =dahoC #assia #ounty, /ower county%%.1 at rest area at 124> pm.%%%-tran e -cooter 0id at Re ister Roc0%%:merican +alls at 114 pm%%#asino in =dahoC +or 'od so lo!ed the Borld si n a"ter :merican +alls at 1224%%/ocatella at 19> pm%% +ound 0in0os at 9 p.m.%%IBhat a butt headI said Ti""any at the -onic about her "ellow employee%%:t 914 pm = bou ht a #oney do in /ocatella%%-ent -ermon !id to TT1 "rom =n0om%%/ortneu" Ri!er at 990 p.m. #aribou #ounty at 940 p.m. %%1lac0"oot Ri!er and Reser!oir %%#aribou #ounty +air, :u ust 2*,,,%%:rri!ed at -oda -prin s at 402 p.m.%%#op at 404 pm%%9 o""icers 0illed in 1irmin ham, :labama%% passin throu h the tiny little town o" .enry%%

Day 4 Friday, June 18, 2004--- HB at marker 84Gravel Creek Campgr und at !!4 p"m"## Cari$ u %ati nal & re't i' an pen e(pan'e & land at )0! pm"##*in+up ,t" -t )24 pm ##Gr ' .entre range## /alt 0iver 0ange at )1! pm## Baker Ca$in##2n /tar valley , -lpine at )!0 pm##HB in pi+kup at t3e Bull , 'e /al n, +am &ailed at 't re##4ady gave me a dirty l k at t3e G 't re## 4ater l t' & r ad 5 rk, +au'ing $a+kup'## $ea+3 $all 'a+k at )41 p"m at 6a't *a$le day u'e area##4 la '5am in t3e 'nake##6ntering Bridger *et n at )!! pm" 7 5 'un'et at 8 pm##,+ D nald' at 821 pm##,, t3e kid' in t3e pi+kup yelled, 89 u d n:t 3ave t 't p retard"; 4eaving d 5nt 5n Ja+k' n , +ir+led .G 3 u'e at < pm## /erm n vid t ,.G at 821 am "" &r m , 'e =>## HB at , 'e =>"##=a''ed $y 4.G, 6lk re&uge at <11 a"m" &i'3 3at+3ery at <21 am" pa't t3e airp rt at <2? a"m" ##6ntering %ati nal =ark at <18 a"m"73 i' t3e may r & Ja+k' n $y t3e 5ay@ Ja+k' n 4ake Dam at 1004 a"m"##,en at 5 rk at 1022 a"m## 9 u +an:t tame t3e /pirit##='alm 2? at 1240 pm n )#18#04## pa't Aepler Ca'+ade' at 120 pm## Bu&&al at 110 pm## 7alked t3r ug3 4 dge at 1 pm ## $a+k at >ld &ait3&ul at 241 pm##Jim r *im at t3e mu&&in '3 p 5 uldn:t pau'e in 3i' + nver'ati n 5it3 a +u't mer a$ ut a +amera in rder t 'erve me a 'and5i+3 ' 2 5r te d 5n 3i' name and le&t" ###4e&t HB n Bta3 van### 0eed rang up my rder in t3e +a&eteria at 14! pm# ##/erm n vide t GD, &r m 9ell 5't ne at 4!0 pm## $ig &l +k & $u&&al at ?10 pm###0e'ting at t3e -CCCCCCCCCCCCC Gey'er 'upp 'ed t erupt at $et5een 10 and 2 ## ,ark 7 +ame $y at < pm##"" 'a5 erupti n & t3e t3er gey'er 53ile talking 5it3 ,ark 7 Dniak## #4ater 0anger 4i'a Hendry +ame $y at 12 11 a"m#t3e gey'er erupted at 1212## *3e gal 'leeping in t3e +ar 3ad 4= ' ut3 Dak ta E 2-G<1)## Day 5, -aturday, June 14, 2004 ---494 a.m. start loop trail. = basically stayed up all ni ht. % 50> at .eart pool., my camera went out at 521 a.m.%%'iant eyser, 'rotto 'eyser at 590%% two ladies thou h they saw a bear.. it was ,ust wood%% #astle 'eyser, wowL :t 54$ a.m loo0s li0e a iant sand castle%%88 people on the roo" at the Eld +aith"ul =nn%%%100tha anni!ersary.., FF another ran er at *05 a.m. There were less than 2 doGen bison in the par0 in 1402%% Today there<s around 4000. %%at *95 a.m. a 1ison wal0ed ri ht in "ront o" me, it stared me ri ht in the eye M@ola bar0ed, = stopped in 'rant "or "oodD bou ht popcorn and 'atorade and = bou ht a ,ac0et--- ha!en<t worn it yet%%Jim or Tim at the chec0out said that some o his "ellow employees would o all the way to #ody "or roceries..%%-ent .b to ran ers at 10;90 a.m. "rom the "ishin brid e post o""ice, where bu""alo were roamin ri ht outside the door%% by Jellowstone @a0e a ran er was standin on top o" his truc0 alon

with tourists said they saw a bear, but it was hidin now. washed my hair at 1114 a.m./salm 2$ at 1245 near the east e&it o" Jellowstone%%e&ited J- at 1250%%amaGin roc0s at e&it%%passin the -hoshone Ri!er, lea!in -hoshone 2ational +orest at 121 pm%%catch a piece o" newsDthey say /aul Johnson was beheaded%%1u""alo 1ill Reser!oirN-- wowL -o beauti"ul the 1lueness o" it. and there<s a !isitors center ? with an aw0ward wal0 "rom the par0in areaA%%the ran er said you could camp at 8adison and pay by credit in the mornin , but it was already mornin L :nd i" = waited "or whoe!er collected payments it mi ht be 4 or 10 am by the time = et oin .. instead = hit the loop at 490 am as the sun was risin = %%at #ody = went to the /ow Bow Days at 990 pm, = had a bu""alo bur er7. Batched the =ndians dance7 entered the museum 1u""alo 1ill 8useum lobby but didn<t want to spend O15.00 "or the entrance "ee.. althou h it was a beauti"ul museum, with uards and e!erythin %%pass throu h par0 county and bi horn county7= went to the :lbertson<s =n #ody and pic0ed up two two-liter bottles o" soda and used the sel"-chec0out lane---"irst time =<d e!er done that.. it<s 0ind o" handy "rom cherries in #ali"ornia to a bu""alo bur er in #ody By,,,, all in the span o" a "ew days7.. %%= passed throu h the little town 0o" (mblem, population10 and a little church at 4;24 .%%in the news they say that /hil Jac0son is not oin to coach anymore "or the @a0ers. =<m ettin low on as, but none o" these little towns ha!e stations.. Dirty :nnies said H'asI on their si n, but when = pulled up the pumps said Hout o" asI %%the si n said :ntelope 1utte s0i area at > pm but didn<t see any slopes. = arri!ed at -heridan at * pm%% -:ddD ot as at Dayton ,ust a"ter bar restuarnt as..now =<m in the bi horn mts at *94 pm beauti"ulDcapturin reat !isuals with music.. beauti"ul descent down those bi horn mts. Bent in with !est onDno lau h ranchester at $12 pm . in the news now -ha5uille apparently says he wants to be traded -unday, June 20, Day >, wo0e up in -heridan outside a little hotel at >90 a.m. =mp at the little town o" 1i .orn at *;00 a.m. 1rad"ord 1rinton 8useum Mclosed--- it<s in a little shaded area.. do s bar0 at my car @ola bar0s bac0 = am enterin 8oorcro"t at 10;0> a.m. on -unday, June 20, 2004%%--si n directs me towards De!ils Tower..%%southern 1aptist church in 8oorcro"t%%+ort /hil )earney at (&it 44. Johnson #ounty%%.1 at +etterman 8onument--- boy wal0in do Dthat was a ood placement. Re"lectin on yesterdayDit was a beauti"ul moment comin on the -hells +alls on the hi hway in eastern Byomin Dapproachin 'illette in #ampbell #ounty, bac0ed up "or haw at $90 a.m. ? = "lashbac0ed on -heryl @eetsma washin out my mouth with soapADalso = thou ht abou the boy at the as station in rant who said he went to H1#IDone o" those collo5uialismsDis that 1oston #olle eC%%#raGy Boman #ree0 at $49 a.m. =sn<t there a helmet law in Byomin eitherC

There oes another bi0er without a helmet%%powder ri!er at 4 a.m. %%De!ils Tower is in #roo0 #ounty @isa .endry said P.a!e you decided to be nice now because there<s more o" usCI 1ut she nor 8ar0 BoGnia0 were bein nice to meDthey chose to en"orce a law that they do not uni"ormly en"orceD so they decided to use it a ainst me on a personal basis rather than a pra matic- uni!ersal, sa"ety or practical reason%%the little town o" 6ol a -outh Da0ota is by -outh Da0ota state Qni!ersity%%= realiGe now that Roeda is dan erous%% 'as was only 1.*4 in 'illette, Byomin . %%De!ils TowerDe&it 159 at 8oorcro"t%% rades are a re"lection o" ood "aith e""ort %%%Day 5 1190 am -unday, approachin De!ils tower, past the tiny town o" #arlisle, , a one store town, De!ils Tower is in #roo0 #ounty, .1 on truc0 with @/ 2#9*$1 Dthe state name was co!ered but the bottom o" the plate said Hwild wonderlandI, /rairie do s at 1241, letter to :. )o0 at 1291, entered De!ils Tower at 129>, "amily eatin to ether at 1250, .1 at 194 pm on motorcycle at 6isitors center , at the !isitors center --, = temporarily par0ed in what apparently was an HR6<s onlyI sectionDand the lady came runnin up behind me, , and said, Hcould you please mo!e so we can par0 our R6, so = did, not ha!in noticed the si n, and then the ran er came and as0ed me 0indly to mo!e a ain, at 14* pm, then = saw a "ew pheasants as = was lea!in the par0, and loo0ed at the prairie do s a ain, @ea!in De!ils Tower at 20$ pm , approachin .ulette, past thunder basin national rassland ? which = cannot see "rom the roadA, , -topped at the #uster si n at 9 pm, add it to my news "oota e, /assed the little town o" :lladin at 905 pm, , sandwich at 91* pm RRreminder, = topped o" the water in the radiator at -heridan, it wasn<t really low at allS, chec0 oil at ne&t stop, , .ow about a chapter entitled HJoun ladiesCIC , There oes a dear- mamma and baby across the road at 290 pm . Thou hts 3 /rayers re R:-, so = le"t two .1<s at the De!ils Tower par0 --, approachin 1lac0 .ills, 1elle +ourche Ri!er, ---loo0s more li0e a cree0, lea!in .ulettrccc. = am enterin 1elle +ourche at 929 pm, and turnin toward -pear"ish, past the 1helle +ourche country club. =t<s startin to rain at 940 pm. (nterin -pear"ish at 94$ pm, it<s rainin hard, 1lac0 .ills /assion play strai ht aheadDhome o" blac0 hills state uni!ersity, ---1lac0 .ills /assion play celebratin >5tth anni!ersary, hmm.. has its own buildin ..-- mmDsou!enirs o" -tur is, two si ns ..%% -ittin 1ull #rystal #a!erns, --1ethlehem ca!e e&it 40%%--%%in the newsD:l 5uaeda claims it was ,usti"ied in beheadin /aul Johnson because e!en thou h he was not a member o" the military he wor0ed on military a!iation, and there"ore assisted the military, ---@a0ers are e&pected to o""er )obe 1ryant * year contractD140 million dollarsD20 million per year. @a0ers say they will accommodate any trade demands or re5uests re. -ha5. Bhat ma0es )obe di""erent is the "act that he rew up somewhere elseDnot in :mericaDhe<s not a typical or true :merican blac0, --with the same semi-!eiled anti-white sentiments as many blac0 :mericans. --%---Reptile ardens billboard HThis aint no pettin GooI%%Bhat<s the Rushmore 1or lum storyC --- -i ns "or reptile ardens and crystal ca!e e!erywhere, /etri"ied "orest. Dance hall irls e&it now. Reptile ardens, -i nD1ear #ountry Q-:, 445 pm.D-i nD1lac0

.ills +ellowship %%#osmos 8ystery area, see it "eel it on the way to 8t Rushmore, crystal ca!e canyon%%% @ea!in 1lac0 .ills , Billow at #rystal #a!e, shorts on, "lip"lops, na!el re!ealed, the little "amily with whom = too0 the tour was "rom 8ontana-- t, -ta e 1arn #rystal #a!e #anyon Road, @ea!in at >90 pm. Er was it be"ore thatDit was earlier than that-because she said she ot o"" at > but = noticed she was already lea!in around 545, anyways = went down the road and "ollowed the si n to the H/etri"ied +orest< but it was closed already, = dro!e up the steep ascent, and somebody came ri ht behind me in a pic0up . = thou ht it was a tourist because there was a lady with two 0ids in the bac0, but when = e&ited she turned into the residential dri!eway near the tourist site, so = "i ured she was some sort o" owner or operator o" the place and was chec0in to see what = was doin up there a"ter hours---the only problem is that they didn<t ha!e the hours posted, nor was there anythin to su est it was closed until one dro!e all the way up there. This tourist site, the petri"ied "orest, was attached to the (l0 #ree0 Resort, and was on (l0 #ree0 Road. 1y the way, = le"t a little 1ible in the ca!e at >01 pm "or somebody to "ind. =n Rapid #ityD= pulled throu h the 8cDonalds not really because = was hun ry, althou h = ordered a "ilet-o"ish, but to as0 "or directions to 8t. Rushmore. The al 0ind o" smir0ed, but was niceDand a!e me clear directions. = went down the roadDand noticed a myriad o" churches---some beauti"ul ones, and one indicatin it was on the Hre istered historicI list. =n the news---:l 5uaeda is now holdin a -. )orean man hosta e with demands that -. )orea pull out o" =ra5 or else the soldier will be 0illed. =<m on .wy 1>, at $ pm. :n adult and two children are "ound deadDwashed up on the shore o" @a0e 8ichi anDall three tied to ether at the waistDwhich says an o""icer would be e&pected i" a boat capsiGed to 0eep each other to ether. : 2orthwest +li ht mista0enly lands at (llsworth :+1 rather than the commercial airport in Rapid #ity. There is no e&planation "or it. :n article about an internet company that !eri"ies internet mail deli!ery, called HDidtheyread it.comI. =n 14*5 there were only 250 bears le"t in Jellowstone, now it has doubled. 6assopressin is released when humans ha!e se&. The si& day warDanti--emitism is at its hi hest since the holocaust. 8an spends $ years in an apartment until ele!ator is "i&ed. 1arry 1onds has had 44 wal0s in 5* ames this year. .ope #lar0 was arrested "or alle edly not payin a "ine she ot in Jellowstone "or not ha!in 0ept a ,ar o" peanut butter and ,elly closed. :n article about R. .arrison<s Hblac0 #hristI now on display a ain. = pass a si n "or HRushmore #a!e.I = drop a 1ible in a pic0up truc0 at $4$ pm. =n the 8t. Rushmore par0in lot. = sleep in a hotel par0in lot. 2e&t day, Day * 8onday, June 21 2004---=<m on the /residential trail at $ am. = did a /salm in "ront o" 8t. Rushmore. =<m at the 8t. Rushmore 8useum at $14 a.m. = call the Q-/- about puttin my mail on !acation hold and they tell me that the post o""ice will automatically hold any /E1 mail "or thirty days without a "ormal hold bein placed on it by the customer. = lea!e

8t. Rushmore at 49$ a.m. and head towards the Rushmore #a!e., arri!in there at 10 a.m. = wait 5 minutes to rechar e the camcorder, but it still oes out within moments o" enterin the ca!e, so = use my camphone. =<m on the ca!e tour at 1045 am. Be o throu h !arious sections o" the ca!e, includin the H1i RoomI . #lay, our uide, tells us to remember that -talactites Hhan ti htI to the ceilin , whereas we mi ht trip o!er Hstala mitesI because they are on the "loor. .e shows us the weddin room where people ha!e actually been married on !arious occasions, esp. when there is motorcycle rally in -tur is. .e recommends Jewel #a!e as a reat ca!e to o to, sayin it is the 9rd lar est in the world. .e says i" we li0ed him we can write down H#layI , i" not, H:dam.I---he had a sense o" humor. @ea!in Rushmore #a!e at 1190 a.m. = lea!e a little 1ible in the boo0store "or somebody to "ind. = head to the :lpine -lide, and chec0 the price o" a helicopter rideDit<s 25 buc0s "or the distant ride, 50 "or a close up rideDthe ride lasts "rom 9 to > minutes. = decide to wait on itDmaybe o bac0 to it later, and ta0e the tram up to the top o" the nearby hill and o down on the :lpine -lide, pic0in up somebody<s 0eys "or them . = dri!e down the middle o" )eystone, loo0in at the storesDsee cowboy Da!e doin his act in the middle o" the street to ad!ertise the un"i ht in the Red 'arter -aloonDit<s 9.50 "or adults. = buy a train tic0et "or O14.00 buc0s7 which lea!es at 2;00 pm and then = pic0 up a tic0et "or the shootout show inside the Red 'arter -aloon which starts at 1;90 pm = wal0 bac0 o!er to my carDrechar e, wal0 the do , and then stop at the Red 'arter -aloon "or the show. @ea!in cowboy show at 155 p.m. They said it was H"amily entertainment< and most o" it was H' ratedI e&cept "or the little thin in the be innin where tall cowboy Da!e ,o0ed, H+irst all women must remo!e any loosely attached arments7I = sat in the balcony Dthe waiterDperiodically po0ed his head o!er the balcony and turned towards me tryin to et me to lau hD= smiled "or his bene"it, but wasn<t really all that amused with the show, but it 0illed some time be"ore the train ride. -o = o bac0 to carDrechar e a ain, = hear the train whistlin in the distance, and head on o!er to the train station. = et on boardD"irst thin #oleen a nice youn lady employee o" the railroadDstands in my aisleD=<m alone on a two person bench, and she is tryin to et out o" the way "or incomin passen ers. -he<s nice enou h about it, it<s 220 pm. Be ha!en<t e!en started mo!in yet. /eople are still boardin . En 1lac0 .ills TrainD"rom )eystone to .ill #ity, on train :t 240 pm on >%21%04 M saw bi Da!e at Red 'arter -aloon do his cowboy act with 1illC The train was "ull a lot o" camp rounds on the ri ht, in 14*2 there was a iant "lood that washed out some o" the train trac0s as well as a lot o" homes, a al comes wal0in by sellin popcorn at 9 pm, past 1aptist youth camp, 0ids playin , on the other side a man named @eonard comes out to wa!eD the train narrator says he is out there almost all the time to wa!e to the train and that he was a "ormer roc0et scientist "or 'eneral Dynamics and 2:-:, ;= thou ht to mysel" in response to the 5uestion, HBhere are you

"romCI 8y response is to say, HDo you mean, where was = bornC Bhere did = row upC Er Bhere am = li!in nowC H/ast (l0horn 8ountain, =s it oin to rainC The narrator points to another train trac0 and says that a "ew o" the buildin s still standin were used as part o" the set "or a mo!ie called HErphan Train.I The narrator points out that .arney /ea0, which we can see "rom the window, , is the hi hest point between the Roc0ies and The -wiss :lps, , my !idcam has already one outDthe battery depleted, and now my camphone is about to die. =t started to rain at 912 pmDa sheet o" rain, "or only a "ew seconds, then it stopped. The narrator says that they du a mine o!er on the east side o" the train, went down about $00 "eet, but didn<t "ind much tin, Be see some deer at 914 pm, Be see two woodchuc0s at 915 pm, -ome beauti"ul an ora oats at 91*. pm on the east side o" the train, boy on dirt bi0e at 914 pm, Tin 8ill .ill is one o" the steepest railroad ascent%descents in the country, with a 4-> percent rade. Two more deer at 990 pm, arri!e at .ill #ity 1lac0 .ills central railroad station at 999 pm.. There<s a little i"t shop there, and = see a bicycle shop and Eur -a!ior @utheran #hurch. 8m al in yellow, ---------------- this railroads been in use "or 100 years, did = hear him ri htC .e tells the new passen ers that there are no restrooms on the train so use the station restroom be"ore we o. En the way to .ill #ity = sat on the wooden benches with open windows. This time "or the return trip = sit on the last carDa coach car with cushioned seats and some o" the windows are closed, but you can still see ---, in "ront o" me is a blond haired boy with his irl"riend or wi"e, across "rom is an :sian al with what appears to be her :n lo boy"riend. .e<s carryin a "ancy camera and ta0in pictures o" e!erythin . : man stares "or me "or a "ew minutes at 94> pm. = a!ert my eyesD"indin somethin else to do than stare bac0. 14 railroad crossin s on the trip says the conductor. .e tells us somethin = ne!er 0new be"oreDthere is a standard code "or the meanin o" train whistles, one o" which is the lon -lon -short-lon when comin to railroad crossin s. .e says we ha!e all probably heard such a whistle on a periodic basis when in our cars at railroad crossin s. .e says this speci"ic code ori inated in (n land when it was used to announce a train with the 5ueen on it, thereby i!in it top priority, but has since become the standard "or railroad crossin s. .e says the train we<re on has an Harticulated en ineI with 2 ponywheels and se!en 0inds o" wood, . .e mentions somethin about the 2ational :nthemDbut = didn<t catch all o" it, only that the son was declared the o""icial Q.-. anthem in 1491. .e points out a cabin alon the way which he says belon ed to (liGabeth 1li ht at one time, and that she had li!ed in the same house "or most o" her li"e, % .e points out where they once mined "or Tun sten, and told us that Tun sten is used to harden steel. .e tells us that the 1lac0 .ills are 2 billion years old while the Roc0y 8t<s are HonlyI 25 million years old. = was thin0in Dyes i" you belie!e in e!olution. 2icole comes by sellin popcorn at 421 pm. -he<s ot blonde hair and is wearin a red shirt. Be see deer at 429 pm. The conductor or spea0er tells us that .ill #ity is at 4400 "eet abo!e sea le!el, while )eystone, where 8t. Rushmore is, is at 4900 "eet abo!e sea le!el. .e tells us that the last car,

which is what = am in at the moment, is a HRooche"ortI?CA and was once a bo& car, be"ore bein con!erted into a passen er coach. .e tells us their namesDthere<s Jar!is, 8i0e, (dDthe one who yells the elon ated Hall aboardI, and 1illDthe bra0eman, and there<s a -tacy, and Ro er 1urnsD that<s the uy = captured on !ideo. .e tells us that the woods around us are made up o" 40 percent /onderosa /ines, which is characteriGed by pine needles in clusters. .e says the blac0 and white mar0ers alon side the trac0s are mile mar0ers. There<s also an lithium mine alon the way. Ether trees include :spenDwhich are "ound standin alone, and 1irch, which are "ound in roups. .e says the purple "lowers are called -------somethin dames, sounds li0e H@ilac damesI, but = could be wron . . .e tells us the 1lac0 .ills -pruce is the -. Da0ota -tate tree and has been used twice as a national #hristmas tree in Bashin ton D#. .e tells us to wa!e at +redDa doll at somebody<s h house, and to notice the boy "ishin on the other sideDalso a manne5uin o" sorts. .e tells us we are now at (cho 6alley /ass which is a mile behind 8t. Rushmore. Doane Robinson was the idea man "or 8t. Rushmore. .e li!ed in a rey cabin on the le"t 490 pm. There<s @eonard wa!in a ain. .e ma0es a ,o0e about when they "irst considered the 1lac0 .ills "or 8t. RushmoreDand that at "irst they didn<t thin0 it had any H"ace !alue.I .e says somethin about the H#entennial TrailI, Ene o" the train personnel comes by at 494 pm. The "amily in "ront o" me is eatin licorice. .e tells us a little more about .arney /ea0Dthat it is *240 "eet abo!e sea le!el, and that it is three miles up, three miles down accessible only by "oot or horse. .e says the "irst white man on .arney /ea0 was Dr. 6alentine 8c'illicuddy. .e says that 40T o" the 1lac0 .ills is public land. :t 44> pm =<m sayin an open Meyed silent prayer "or people = happened to re"lect upon "or a moment. Be pass @a""erty 'ulch. .e points out a narrow area where they decided to ma0e a HcutI rather than a tunnel. .e tells us to wait "or the train to come to a "ull stop be"ore standin up----one whistle is the si nal "or the bra0es bein set. Be arri!e in )eystone at 454 pm, = lea!e a little 1ible at 45> pm 'ettin o"" the trainD= o bac0 to the car--, and ta0e o"", headin up the hill, thin0in = still mi ht do the helicopter ride, but when = pull into the par0in lot, the helicopter is one and = don<t want to wait. = head up the hill towards Rushmore and see a "ew o" those craGy loo0in 8t. 'oats =t<s 50* pm = pass Brin0le Roc0 /ar0 or /oint, .orse Thie" @a0e, = thin0 bac0 to some o" the meanin "ul moments in the day and am pleased = was able to lea!e a little bit o" 'ood 2ews on the train , and the day be"ore at 8t Rushmore. = also did a /salm outside Rushmore. =ts 11 miles to #uster says the si n. = re"lect on the day some moreD#lay at the Rushmore #a!eDnice "ella. #olleen on the train. Ro er on the TrainDwas that Ro er 1urnsC Tall Da!e at the Red 'arter saloon. = also remembered = le"t an .1 at the Rushmore #a!e boo0store. = pass #raGy .orse at >1$ pm and pull inDit<s 4 buc0s to enter. = pay the "ee. :s soon as = et out o" my car Mthere<s a booth

ad!ertisin a 9 dollar bus ride to the base o" #raGy .orse. That<s as close to it as you can et. = lea!e an .1 on the school bus. They<re still wor0in on the monument---the =ndian "ace is completed, but the body o" the horse upon which #raGy .orse sits has a lon ways to o. They started wor0in on this memorial in 144$. = o into the museum%boo0store and loo0 at all the in"ormation they ha!e about the monument as well as the =ndiansDit<s as much about 2ati!e :merican history as it is about #raGy .orse himsel". There<s a #al!in #olle e%-outh #hristian "amily !isitin Dhow do = 0nowD one o" themDapparently the motherDhad a #al!in #olle e sweatshirt on, and on the bac0 o" their car was a -outh #hristian decalDan anchor ?-outh #hristian -ailorsA, and they ha!e a 8ichi an plate. = don<t stay "or !ery lon at #raGy .orse. = head onwardsDhopin to ma0e it to Jewel #a!e be"ore it closes. = pass throu h #uster at *20 pm . There<s a "ew churches, a boy playin tether ball, . -hortly later a si n says, HBelcome to 4 8ileID apparently the name o" the town or !illa e. =t<s *25 pm. = see a si n that says P.arry 8ills -tate /ar0IDit stri0es a chord in me because = ha!e relati!es by the name o" 8illsDon my mother<s side, and one o" them was H.arryID= don<t thin0 it<s the same oneDat least = don<t 0now o" him ha!in any historical si ni"icance in -outh Da0ota. This is all part o" 1lac0 .ills 2ational +orest. = pull up to the entrance o" Jewel #a!e at *90, almost e&actly. = see two ran ers at the ate, apparently closin it. = yell "rom my car window, HBhat time do you close and openI The male ran er wal0s o!er and answers my 5uestions. = than0 him, turn around and ta0e o"", noticin the male ran er is dri!in himsel" and his "emale ran er partner in his little 18B. .e says the "irst tour in the mornin is at $20 a.m. = o bac0 to #uster, pic0 up a nachos at HTacos JohnI Mthe nice window cler0 M i!es my do a biscuit. = than0 her and o onwardsDstoppin in #uster<s HDa0ota 8artI "or bread, soda, and chocolate mil0 ?"or some reason = had a cra!in "or itA. Then = o up the hill and ta0e a picture o" a church ?"or the church "ile--A, and notice two deer roamin in somebody<s "ront yard. BowL = watch them "or a while and then = pull into the Da0ota #owboy =nn "or the ni ht.

he ne&t mornin , Day $ Tuesday, June 22, 2004, = wa0e up to a dead battery. = thou ht it was because the i nition switch was le"t in the start position, but as it turns out, the li hts were le"t on. 8y bac0 up portable enerator, which could use to ,umpstart the car, is also dead, because = had used it "or a "ew hours a"ter turnin o"" the car the pre!ious e!enin . = pop the hood , pull out the ,umper cables and loo0 "or somebody to i!e me a ,ump. =t is deadly 5uiet. = must be one o" the "ew people who re ularly ets up at 4 o5 in the mornin . :ll the hotel uests were still sleepin . = pulled out a ball and played catch with my do "or a whileD@olaDthat<s her name. .ow did = e!er come up with the name @ola "or my do C = thin0 = named her in honor o" my housemother in -painDwhere we li!ed "or a semester durin colle e. Ro,elio and @ola were our house parentsDand @ola was so 0ind and

racious, she mi ht not "eel honored to 0now a do was named a"ter her, but it was meant to be a honorDso when = thin0 o" @ola my do , a pretty do Da white haired, apparently mostly olden retrie!er, = thin0 o" @ola in Denia, -pain. :nd by the way, how did = e!er et my do C Bell, that<s another interestin story. Ene day, around 1442 = was bac0 at #al!in #olle e wor0in on a second de ree and = realiGed, not bein married, that = needed a companionDto wal0 me . -o = decided = was oin to et a do . :nd = wal0ed into 8ei,ers on 2$th -t in #ascade ?8ei,ers is a rocery store chain in that areaDalthou h = noticed a +red 8eyer store out west once too, and wonder i" it<s relatedDalthou h =<!e seen two spellin s both 8ei,er and 8eyer, but +red is the "irst name in the 8ei,er chain i" = recall correctlyA. :nyways, = wal0ed into this 8ei,ers to do some shoppin one day and see a little paper si n on the bulletin board sayin Hpuppy "or sale--O25.00I. =t doesn<t say what color it isDit ,ust says HlabI, i" = recall correctly. = had rown up with two blac0 labs = our "amily one named +riendly, the other named -am. 1oth o" them were "emales. -o = actually was thin0in Hblac0I when = saw the word lab, but decided to ta0e the pup si ht unseen, not to ma0e it a matter o" aesthetics or bre4edin or any o" that "ancy stu"". = called the number went to the house o!er on the southwest side and when = pulled up = heard a lot o" bar0in in the bac0. = wal0ed to the bac0 and there = saw a little white puppy cowerin in the corner o" the yard, separated by a "limsy "ence "rom two bi , bar0in adult do sDthey loo0ed li0e 'erman -hepherds. = tal0ed to the "ellow who owned the do s, and he said that an elderly lady had owned the puppy but that she thou ht the puppy was too hyper "or her and decided not to 0eep it. = said = would ta0e her. = a!e the "ellow 25 buc0s and pic0ed up what would soon become H@olaI and too0 her to my car. -he was tremblin . : cute little do yDand white. = had ne!er had a white do be"ore, and had actually been e&pectin a blac0. = put her on the passen er seat but she scrambled bac0 up on to my lap and then = tried to pic0 her up and put her in the bac0 seat and she s5uirmed out o" my hands and clun to the bac0 o" my nec0. -he literally clun , and was still tremblin . = let her stay thereDli0e a nec0 warmer "or the entire ride home. That<s how = remember ettin @ola. Jewel ca!e was disco!ered in 1400, and apparently there is 124 miles o" ca!e, much o" it not yet e&plored. This ma0es it the third lar est in the world. -he tells us that scientists thin0 there was a shallow sea there at one point. -he tal0s about limestone, nail head spar, calcite crystals, -he mentions somethin about bo& wor0 or bo& wort, somethin that is "ound much more o!er in the Bind #a!e ,ust down t he road by #uster -tate par0, -he says this is by and lar e a dry ca!e. Be enter the "ormation room . -he shows us Hca!e baconI a "ormation that loo0s li0e uncoo0ed bacon. . -he tells us about a room called the Htorture chamberI named such because when they were ori inally e&plorin the ca!e they had run out o" water and had a "ew more days to o when suddenly they heard water drippin and were reatly relie!edDthin0in they would be able to drin0 to their hearts content, only to disco!er that the drippin was between

roc0s so ti htly enclosed that they could not e!en et a sip, let alone et their cups under. -he says somethin about e&plorers who o in periodically that ha!e to do a U mile belly crawl to et to some spots -he mentions that "or these e&plorers a '/- doesn<t wor0 under round and that they ha!e to use compasses to na!i ate. -he shows us some identi"ication mar0ers they use to 0now where thy are or were, and how to et bac0. -he says there are a "ew animals in the ca!e, includin a "ew rats, as well as some Hwhite cric0etsI and bats. -he mentions that underneath the wal0way they installed is a Hlint catchI which captures the stu"" that comes o"" e!erybody<s clothes and body as t hey wal0 throu h the ca!e and that at the end o" the year this can amount to s se!eral pounds o" lint, s0in cells, etc. =t<s an interestin hi0e. = lea!e the ca!e around 490, lea!in a 1ible behind "or somebody to "ind, and head east, bac0 throu h #uster. -ome beauti"ul runnin horses at 102* am = pass the little town o" #uster, and head towards 1adlands 2ational /ar0 The ran er at the ate lets me pass throu h without payin because = am oin strai ht throu h. The in"ormation she i!es me says they ha!e a Pbu""alo roundupI once a yearDthis year on Ectober 4Dwhere they round up all the bu""alo in the par0, on horsebac0 and put them in corrals to count them and ta them, and they 0eep a "ew out "or auctionDto maintain a healthy herd. Then they let them bac0 out. = pull into a little campin areaDappears to be a discreet settin where = can relie!e mysel". = try to o out the other way but a truc0 sits in the middle o" the one way roadDthe owners apparently not o" the disposition to mo!e itD= don<t "eel li0e ar uin with them so = bac0 up the one way road and o out the entrance. = o past the -tate 'ame chapel, and #uster -tate /ar0 airportDit<s a beauti"ul par0. = see a "ew bu""alo. :t 1105 am. :s = am dri!in = ha!e this indescribable "eelin o" ,oy and peace descend upon me. , as = approach the 1adlands. :t 1244 . = "elt the presence o" the .oly -pirit distinctly at that moment. = pass o!er 1attle #ree0 at 1259 Dits a little cree0 and =<!e seen it be"ore. This is -hannon #ounty. = mana e to et the news on my wirelessDthey repeat that the -. )orean man was beheaded. -uddenly the pa!ed road becomes dirt, :nd =<m on this dirt road throu h the 1adlands "or se!eral hours. = pass throu h the little town o" @one 8an , and throu h a little E alala -iou& area where = see an old church in an indian !illa e and pull throu h the bumpy dirt road to try to et a picture o" it. There are a "ew indian 0ids playin on an old bro0en down car. = as0 them how do = et to the church and they point to a dirt path that = didn<t e!en see despite passin a "ew moments prior. = o that way, then bac0 to the main road. -uddenly there is a beauti"ul church buildin apparently run by some #atholics "or the =ndiansDit<s in stri0in contrast to the little church = ,ust saw. :n indian lady is hitchhi0in to /ine Rid e as = e&it and she pee0s in sayin I #an = ha!e a rideCI at 115 pm. = tell her there is no room in here but = am sure she will et a ride "rom somebody soon enou hD probably somebody with a pic0up. = come out in E alala o" all placesDnot 0nowin = had one that "arDmy orientation based on the map was di""erent

"rom where = actually was. E alala is memorable to me because this is where my dad, Jim, tried to sa!e a drownin man as we were passin throu h on a summer trip one year. = pass throu h /ine Rid e at 125 pm. =<m headin towards Bounded )nee at 194 pm = come upon the Bounded )nee 8emorial at 145 pm, --some indians ha!e an arts 3 cra"ts stand ne&t to it. The si n tells about the story o" Bounded )neeDhow adults, women, and children were massacred by :merican soldiers. -o there<s two sides to e!ery storyDli0e at #raGy .orseDhere one is hearin the pointedly =ndian !ersion o" the battle. = thin0 about the dan er o" !eneration o" ancestorsDor o!er!enerationDwhen it becomes too much li0e ancestor worship. Be should remember our reat leaders, but not o!erly adulate them. = pass 1atelsand at 220 pm headin towards the 8issouri Ri!er. There<s another #raGy .orse memorialDthis time ,ust a si nDre-tellin the reat =ndians story. = o throu h the little town o" -wett at 290. = see somebody dri!in a H8ad 8a&I li0e motorcycleDthree wheeler at 299 pm = pull into a little con!enience store as station called +resh -tart in the town o" 8artin. = o in pic0 up a bottle o" 8ountain DewDrealiGin = need a little ca""eine to 0eep me awa0e "or the rest o" the day. 2ormally = don<t drin0 ca""eine but "or the sa"ety o" mysel" and others on the road = will imbibe. = lea!e a little 1ible in the bathroom at the +resh -tartDsomebody will "ind it. The trumpeter swan is popular in this area accordin to a si n. Be are ,ust about at the border to 2ebras0a , passin the @a#ree0 2ational Bildli"e Re"u e. This is Todd #ounty. = o throu h a one store town called 6etalDall there is is a woodshop o" some sort. = notice some beauti"ul hay bales at 920 pmDthey<re so per"ectly bound and rolled = ta0e a picture o" them. : si n says that a mo!ie entitled HJourney throu h RosebudI was "ilmed around here. There<s a town called Rosebud ,ust down the way as well as Rosebud -iou& =ndian Reser!ation. = wonder i" there is any connection between this Rosebud and the rosebud "rom #itiGen )ane. Qn bro0en horses are runnin alon side the road Mon the other side o" the "enceDat 99> pm, a "ew colts as well. = see an old churchDone o" those small wooden churches with a steepleDhistoric loo0in Dbut there<s no road to itDas best as = can tell. = see some 0ids on a trampoline at 951 pm and slow down to capture the moment, but when they see me slowin down they stop ,umpin and stare, so = 0eep oin . = pass the @ittle Bhite Ri!er at 95> pm . = thin0 to mysel" as = am dri!in that there is a problem with sophisticated easterners ta0in ,obs in the westDand bein obsessi!ely le alistic. The al wor0in up at the Jellowstone par0 M@isa .endryDas well as 8ar0 BoGnia0 ..were both obsessi!eD= wanted to tell them that nobody really cares that much about a person sleepin in the carD "or one ni ht in the summer at JellowstoneDin "act, under the stars ne&t to some eysers is one o" the most idyllic thin s to doDbe it in a car or a tent or anythin else. Be don<t want ran ers becomin super pri!ate in!esti ators tryin to "ind out i" somebody<s sleepin in their car or not. Bhat<s ne&t, = 5uip to mysel"Da snore detectorC . There<s lots o" Tom Daschle si ns alon the roadDsayin he<s a stron !ote "or the =ndians.

There<s a uni!ersityD-inte les0a Qni!ersity. =<m behind a 'rand :mD with it<s door stuc0 partially openDthen = notice it is bein towed by another carDa rope connectin the to. = pass them at 424 pm V = notice a beauti"ul church in E0ree0, with a sin ular lar e tombstone ne&t to it. The church apparently is no lon er in use-but it has beauti"ul stain lassed windows. The tombstone tells me that it was a !eteran buried there. = pass throu h the little town o" #arter at 55> pm. The si n says = am now enterin #entral Time Kone. . Be are now in Tripp #ounty. = see a lar e si n that says HJesus #aresI . = 0eep oin , passin throu h the town o" Binner at >14 pm =t<s still li ht out. The "irst day o" summer is June 22C That<s today. 8y wireless is connectin a ainDit says that the /eterson case has resumedDthat<s -cott /etersonDthe man accused o" ha!in 0illed his wi"e and unborn child in 8odesto #:. 2ow =<m in the beauti"ul reen 8issouri Ri!er basinDat least that<s what = call itDit doesn<t say that on the map. 1ut the reen is !ibrant here and = presume it<s because o" the pro&imity to the ri!er. There<s the ri!erDwow a beauti"ul stretch o" blue N--a "ew boats, people inner tubin behind the personal watercra"t. E2 the other side o" the brid e there<s a HBayside #hapelI = pull into the par0in lot and let @ola outDshe runs throu h the tall rass and = step inside the chapelDit<s unloc0ed-well 0eptD "or those passin by. There<s some 1ibles inside, and a hymn boo0. There<s a row o" little wooden pewsDenou h room "or maybe ten people at the most. = pull out my 1ible and read a /salm M/salm 95D=<m ma0in a !ideo o" mysel" readin the /salms Mone a day Mall 150 o" themDwhere!er = happen to be on any i!en day. 8y battery dies be"ore = "inish the /salm.Done !erse "rom the end. = step out.. @ola is one. = whistle. Bhere did she oC Bell = didn<t ha!e to as0D i!en the water nearbyDthere<s only one place where @ola would beDand sure enou hDa boater hears my whistle and says she<s down thereDon the ban0 o" the 8issouri Ri!erDshe went swimmin in the slow-"lowin e&panse o" water. -he hears me and comes runnin upDha!in the time o" her li"e. = play catch with her "or a "ew moments and then head onwards. = le"t a little 1ible in the chapel "or somebody to "ind alon with the others already there. En the other side o" the road is the -na0e #ree0 Recreation :rea. =<m approachin /latte at *42 pm/latte-"or some reason sounds "amiliar in my mindDbut = don<t< 0now why. =t< doesn<t loo0 li0e its much bi er than any o" the other small towns on the map, but = t seems to be a point o" re"erence. The "irst si n = see is one "or the Re"ormed #hurch in /latte, but = don<t< see the church itsel". : bloc0 or two later = see the #hristian Re"ormed church. :t*55 pm. =t<s on the main street. =t<s !ery spacious and modern. )itty corner "rom the church is a Dutch E!en 1a0ery with an unlit H.appy .olidaysI si n on itDthey apparently 0eep it up all year round. = loo0 aroundDand then proceed onwardDne&t stop, 2ew .olland. . This is a !ery stron ly #hristian Re"ormed Dutch area. = loo0 up the #R#<s in my directory and then = notice somethin stri0in Dthere<s "our #R#<s almost in a strai ht lineD"rom /latte to 2ew .olland to .arrison to #orsicaDthese country #R#<s are one a"ter anotherDsome o" these towns are so small they<re not e!en listed on the inde& in the bac0 o"

my map under -outh Da0ota. = see a si n that says H+uture site o" Da0ota #hristian -choolI = see a lar e ,ac0rabbit allopin alon side the road at $24 pm = see a deer. = see an ea le at $99 pm There<s a si n "or Da0ota #hristian .i h -chool . :nd there<s 2ew .olland #R# at $4> pm. 8ain -t. and #hurch,, and there<s tiny little post o""ice and a house that says 8ulder on it. : do wanderin . The 2ew .olland #hristian -chool and a /hillips >>. and a rocery and "eed store. There<s a boy in his car circlin the bloc0. The church itsel" is historicDone o" those old structures that ma0es you sentimental. = circle once and then hit the dirt road east towards .arrison. =t<s a "ew minute dri!eDthere<s H6anden1os RoadIDthere<s a Hhistorical schoolI around the corner "rom the church buildin Dand a Re"ormed #hurch around another corner. : man comes wal0in out o" the .arrison #R# parish ,ust as = am dri!in by with the camera. .e appears nonplussed . = circle aroundDboth the R#: buildin and the #R# buildin are plain but well maintained . :cross the street "rom .arrison #R# is a home with the name 1rin0s on it. = lea!e .arrison #R# at 404 pm and head towards #orsica. = come into #orsica at 422 pm. The #orsica #R# buildin is bric0Dwith a lit up cross on the "ront and a cross on the steeple. The houses surroundin it are com"ortable rural%suburb style homes one o" them has a little windmill in the "ront yardDit<s a !ery Dutch coGy Dutch area. = circle the nei hborhood and then et bac0 on the road towards 8arion. =t<s too late to o any "urther. = stop in /ar0ston "or the ni ht. =t<s 1029 pmD= sleep li0e a baby. The ne&t mornin = riseDe!erybody<s still sleepin in this town-0-or at least there<s< not much mo!ement. Bednesday, June 29, 2004. 2ow were passin throu h Eli!et---a town in -outh Da0ota, in .utchinson #ounty , there<s a little 8ethodist church here. The town li0e all the others =<!e run throu h is sleepy, not many people out or about. E!er the James Ri!er at >22 am 8enno #R# is in a modern style bld . 2e&t to an older wooden church that may ha!e been the ori inal 8enno #R#. 2ow = am lea!in 8enno at >4* R, oin east on 1$ , turnin north on $1. /ass throu h +reeman at *21 am and et some as. The man is complainin about the price o" as and = thin0 about tellin him that in #ali"ornia the a!era e price is aboutO2.40 whereas here as at O1.$0 seems cheap. = ta0e a ri ht bac0 on to the 44 headin eastDtowards the town o" 8arion. (nterin 8arion, pop $40 at *44 am. 8arion #R# is a little white wooden one steeple%spire church ,ust down the street "rom a /resbyterian church, and near the Balter +uneral #hapel. 8arion is celebratin its 125th anni!ersary this summer. Bell 0ept country dirt roads plus residential area. +lorida -t. 2ow = o northDuntil = et to the 42 and head east. 2e&t stop, #olton, -outh Da0ota. Just north o" -iou& +alls. =<m chu in on a two liter bottle o" rape soda as = oDha!en<t eaten yet todayD= ha!e a loa" o" wheat bread in the bac0 and some /1 3 J to o with it, which =<!e been sur!i!in on "or the last "ew days. =<ll probably stop pretty soon and ma0e brea0"ast.

(nterin -iou& +alls at $9* a.m. 'as as low as 1*1 in -iou& +alls. There<s three #R buildin s in -iou& +alls. Day 4, June 29, 2004, Bednesday continuedD-iou& +alls at $90 a.m There<s 9 #R#<s here. Re"lectionDthe only way some o" them could chan e the social order was by !iolence or psycholo ical manipulationDthe de"ense in either case is a!oidance. = pass the Roose!elt hi h -chool, = see a store that says HJear Round #hristmasI on it. = went the wron wayDsupposed to o east. = went a "ew bloc0s west. 'orman hi h -chool at 41$ am. :nother casino, --so "ar no si n o" a HdowntownI area here in -iou& +alls, at least not the typical 0ind. cop at -pencer /ar0 at 42* am. Re"lection; The early departure in my li"e "rom home le"t me with an internal loci o" identity ?i.e. who = am, in the =ma o Deo, my sel" worth etc.A rather than an e&ternal locus ?i.e. "ancy house, car, parents ,ob, etc.A. .ay bales ne&t to the churchDor church related institution. -halom #R# at 444 a.m. in -iou& +alls, -D a little ca"W., another church, , a par0 with a pool, a dominos piGGa. : ca"W7 southern .ills Qnited 8ethodist #hurch. 1st #R# on 2>th -t. 8cDonalds, photo shop, !illa e s5uare on main busy street, not a country church. De,on e +inancial across the street "rom it. @ei" (ric0son Day #amp down the road "rom the 1st #R# in -iou& +alls, -D. They ha!e a canoe launch there. = see a bumper stic0er that says, H=" the -upreme #ourt opens with /rayer, why can<t the public schoolsCI There<s no helmet law in -outh Da0otaC Q-- -outh Da0ota 1attleship 8emorial, a Goo, @ea!in -iou& +alls at 1014.=<m loo0in "or #olton. =<m in 8innehaha #ounty. #olton #R# is ,ust around the corner "rom a Re"ormed #hurch, a Qnited 8ethodist #hurch, and a +irst @utheran churchD!ery beauti"ul and stately, it has a dirt par0in lot. : warehouse style buildin , !ery simple. = "ound it. =<m lea!in #olton #R# at 1050 am 8en at wor0 at 1055. = see a la0e on the le"t. = pass #hester at 1109 am. There<s two churches. = o towards 6ol a, past Rutland. 1111 am. There<s a Da0ota -tate Qni!ersity and a -outh Da0ota -tate Qni!ersity -omebody did a psych. Job on @inda--. = had a bi oop at 119$ am. @ots o" mos5uitoesD= open all the windows to try to et them out. =<m in 1roo0in s #ounty now. = enter 6ol a at e&actly noonDcomin in the bac0 wayDno si ns tellin me this is 6ol aD= see a churchDit happens to be a @utheran #hurch i" = recall correctly in retrospect at the end o" the day---= didn<t ,ot e!erythin downD= "i ure = must still be somewhere elseD not yet 6ol a, but then = see a street si n that says )asanDthat<s the name o" the street that the 6ol a #R# is on. = dri!e towards what loo0s li0e the town centerDand sure enou h there<s a white church buildin Dit<s 6ol a #R#--there<s a si n out "ront indicatin they celebrated their 100th anni!ersary a year a o. = notice John Douma dri!es a Dod e #ara!anDloo0s ban ed up on the "ront. Da0ota -r. :ssisted li!in , bi water tower, auditorium, Deeters bar, a co-op , 6anden ber law o""ice, /ittsbur h paints. -------------- county .istory 8useum. )napp (lectric, a /resb church around the corner. Tre!or<s Ta&idermy , 8edical #linic. 6ol a Tribune.

The parsona e is niceDspacious. John Douma, now the pastor at this church, mo!ed into a house where = was li!in when = had returned to #al!in #olle e "or a second de ree. .e was not easy to li!e with, and = le"t there with some bad "eelin s towards him. .is bein #anadian didn<t help---not to say that all #anadians are li0e himDbut there are always a "ew outspo0en #anadians at #al!in #olle e and he was one o" them . :lthou h = stopped at a lot o" -outh Da0ota #R#<s ,ust "or interest sa0e on the way hereD= speci"ically intended to stop at the 6ol a #R# to lea!e a note "or John Douma and obser!e the settin o" his employment. :"ter circlin the nei hborhood = pull in by the local par0Dwhich has an outdoor pool where the 0ids are swimmin happily. =t<s a warm day, the second day o" summer. = type a letter to John sittin in my carD= didn<t o there to personally tal0 with himDthat ne!er wor0s. : letter sent "rom the same place is ,ust as e""ecti!e i" not betterDat least to start con"lict resolutionDand there<s no mista0e about itDa con"lict was le"t unresol!ed. .e treated me badly while = was wor0in on a teachin de ree at #al!in and he was in -eminary. .e ori inally ot a 8asters in :rts de ree at the seminary then switched o!er to the 8.Di!. .is perse!erance paid o""Dhe was there "or so lon . = remembered him "rom a "ew years prior bac0 in $4 when = ori inally raduated. Then when = returned in 49, he was still there. :nd when = returned a ain in 4>Dthis time "or a year at the seminary he was still there. .e had a lispDthere was somethin stran e about his a""ect. = ne!er ot to the bottom o" it, but he head learned to dia nose other people with problems be"ore they could do it to himDand at one point he told me HJou ha!e problems.I .e ne!er e&plained what he meant by it, and = didn<t really care to hear his sophomoric ideasDso = ,ust let it pass "or the time bein . 1ut = realiGed some time a oD"or the se!en years = was around +uller and my local con re ationDthat he had !iolated meDand it had not been addressed. -o = wrote a letter this a"ternoon while sittin in a 6ol a par0Dand mailed it "rom the 6ol a post o""ice. = also too0 the time to do a little e!an elism in the city be"ore lea!in . The town itsel" is li0e a lot o" -outh Da0ota country townsDthis one has a "ew Hco-opsI which sometimes ha!e as, roceries , or "ood or a combination o" themDthere was a little law o""ice by 6andenber . +urther away on .i hway 14 was a Re"ormed #hurch. = le"t a 1ible "or whoe!er li!es at 911 )asan. :lon .i hway 14 = see a dri!eway with a si n sayin HDale (arnhardt Jr. 1l!dI---= wonder i" an (arnhardt actually li!es there. :s = was sittin by the pool typin the letterD= obser!ed two youn als, elementary school a e dri!e up on their bi0es throw their bi0es down and run to the pool. They didn<t ha!e the sli htest concern about loc0in them or par0in them properly There was a bar. :round the corner on the nearby hi hway there were a "ew as stations0Dsome o" them had casinos. That struc0 me as well-= ne!er realiGed that -outh Da0ota had casinosDbut there were a lot o" little onesD li0e 6e as or some o" the newer ones in #ali"ornia, but nonetheless they were there. o"ten connected to con!enience

stores or bars. They were not bi and "lashy. That<s country li"e. = lea!e 6ol a and arri!e in nearby 1roo0in s a little lar er town and the home o" -outh Da0ota -tate Qni!ersityDthe uni!ersity itsel" is spacious and has some stately loo0in buildin s. = "ill up a water bottle at a local as station and continue onward. : si n says H@aura =n alls Bilder< hi hway. =<m headin "or (d erton nowDwhere my rand"ather )o0 was a pastor at one time in his career. 8y dad, in "act, was born in 8innesotaD.ills 8innesota , but le"t there so earlyDhe actually rew up in #ali"orniaDor li!ed there throu h his elementary school years be"ore oin bac0 to .olland, 8ichi an, where he stayed throu h hi h school . =n the #R# directory = notice there is no .ills 82 church listedD= wonder i" it closed. -ometimes they do. The church my "ather pastored in =owa #ity was no lon er open. (d erton is in Roc0 #ounty. There<s another casino. :t 154 pm = enter 8innesota. There<s a bi la0e at 904 pm The wind is blowin pretty stron ly. There<s a lot o" those modern windmills here---all o" them twirlin "airly constantly. = turn toward a little town called /ipestoneDa si n says H.ole in the 8ountain /rairieI This is /ipe -tone #ounty---there<s a #R# in /ipestone #ity. = see a man standin up on his tractor and = wa!e as = o by. .e doesn<t< wa!e bac0 . 1e"ore /ipestone there<s .olland #R# at 295 pm. Then = arri!e at /ipestone at 255 pm. There<s a si n ad!ertisin the Hworld "amous -on o" .iawatha /a eantI. There<s a lar e 2ational 'uard buildin in /ipestone, with a tan0 in "ront . :s lea!e the town = pull into what = thou ht was a rocery storeDcalled /amidaDbut as it turns outDit only had a little "oodD most o" what they sold was household itemsDnot roceries. They did ha!e peanut butter thou h and so = bou ht a ,ar. :s = am standin in line the lady in "ront o" me chats with the al cler0 and tells her she<s oin to do laundry todayD= "i ure it must be a mom tal0in to her cashier dau hter. = continue down the hi hwayD= see a si n that says HBhat<s at the #enter o" (ducationC H and the :nswer is (d ertonD(d erton is ad!ertisin it<s educational system, = thin0 it was "or the #hristian schools. = thin0 ironically, they may ha!e reat #hristian education but the name o" their town is (d erton. : little si n points toward Boodstoc0Da mile in the other direction "rom (d ertonD= decide to ta0e a loo0Dthere<s an H:merican Re"ormed #hurchI buildin thereD= wonder i" that<s di""erent "rom R#:--C :s = lea!e the town a do races a"ter my car and @ola, my do , ets e&cited. =t<s 410 pm. : man is dri!in down the road on his lawnmower tractorD=<!e seen that a "ew times nowDa popular "orm o" transportation "or some. = enter (d ertonDthe name means a lot to meD= heard it so o"ten rowin up and we were sent there as 0ids "or a "ew days to !isitD,ust mysel" and my older brother :ndrewDmust ha!e been in Jr. hi h at the time. = ,ust remember the chic0en coop, the swimmin pool, the ice cold 8t. Dew, and the shot un. The si n says Hpopulation 1099. = use my wireless location "inder to et directions to the De)ams house. =<m not plannin on stoppin inD,ust passin by--. = 0now their addressDit<s on 8echanic Road. :"ter ,ottin down the directions = dri!e thereDthere<s the house-= don<t remember it loo0in that way, but its in the same place. There<s a si n that

says HDe0am +eedI and somethin else on it. +aith )o0, my dad<s sister married Bayne De)amDa "armer o" sorts. .e raised chic0ens when = was thereDand apparently does a "ew other thin s as well. = remember the pool bein ,ust down the road "rom their houseDand sure enou h there it was. =t<s always interestin to "ind out what is still in one<s memory. = dri!e around (. +irst -t. , -outh 8ain -t., 8ill -t. , -outh +irst, -t. The pool is at the #ity /ar0Dand there<s a lar e windmill in "ront o" itD= didn<t remember that. = step out to read the si nDit is called the HJuist Emdat 8illI and was a city endea!or. Dutch roots apparently run stron throu h the entire city. Down the street = "ind the 1ethel #R# at 444 pm Dthere<s two #R#<s in this town, around the corner "rom 1ethel is 1st #R#, which = "ind at 5 pm. Tim 1rown is the pastor there. . :nd there<s a Re"ormed church ,ust down the street "rom that. = pull o!er by the post o""ice and type up a letter to the De)amsDit<s mostly about what =<m doin , how =<m doin and = as0 them about their 0ids7= send it out at 524 pm. There<s a De1oer :uto in the center o" the town. = notice an H:5ua @anes<<-a bowlin alley o" sorts, = circle the city one more time. :t 599 pm = drop a little 1ible in the bac0 o" somebody<s pic0up truc0. = hope it mi ht be meanin "ul to them. Then = lea!e (d ertonDcomin to the little town o" #handler a "ew moments later at >02 pm = "ind the #R church and the si n announces one o" the summer seminarians. Then = lea!e at >19 pm =<m oin down the hi hway when = see a little "amily o" s0un0s about to cross. = slow down and try to et my camcorder up "ast= enou h, but the mama s0un0 rears upDand = thin0 she<s about to spray at me, but she was ,ust barin her teeth so to spea0 = uess, and she and her babies disappeared into the rass. = didn<t e!en ha!e enou h time to et the camcorder "ocus50 ed on them = pull o"" in "ront o" a "arm with some silos and recite or read /salm 9>---=<!e been doin one /salm a day e!ery day "or the past month or soDuntil = read all 150Dat which point = will put it to ether in a consolidated "orm. = pull into the little town o" :drian Mthere<s a con!enience storeD= "ind a /ower:de drin0 and wal0 up to the counterDthe lon -haired man is polite. = as0 him "or the receipt and say than0s. .e replies HJou bet.I =t<s * pm . There<s a beauti"ul #atholic #hurch in :drian. = see a man on a motorcycle without a helmet. There<s no helmet law here eitherC = 0eep tapin the silos--- puttin them to ether to music. =t<s a beauti"ul e!enin . = coast into the town o" Borthin ton which is on a la0e- a "airly ood siGe la0e. There<s a train sittin on the trac0sDnot mo!in . The conductor is tal0in on his cell phone, with one arm propped up in the window. =t<s *50 pm. = loo0 "or a as station but see noneDdespite this bein a lar er town than many o" the other ones. There< must be somethin =<m missin , but = don<t< stay around to "ind out. = head south towards =owa, lea!in Borthin ton at $24 pm = see a si n that says @e8ars =: is the ice cream capitol o" the world. = enter =owa at $94 pm. : si n says = am passin H.aw0eye /ointI the hi hest point in =owaDat 1>*0 "eet. =t barely loo0s li0e a hill. The sunset is beauti"ul. = arri!e at -ibley at $54. They ha!e a #R# thereDwith no si nDapparently it is an Hemer in I con re ationD"or

@aotians. = pass by and head towards EcheyedanDthe si n "or the town says Hhome o" the moundI which = don<t understand-- = "ind a place to par0 and sleep. = thin0 it<s a ood place until suddenly at 405 pm = hear a youn als !oice say, HEh my osh, there<s somebody in there with a computer7I = si h DJesus, = ,ust want to et a little rest. (!erybody is so alert. = decide to mo!e e!en thou h they ha!en<t o""icially pee0ed in on me to see who = am. = assume i" = stay they will or they will call the police to do so. =<!e been throu h that routine be"ore-and in the smaller towns the police are all the more e&cited to "ind somethin to do. = dri!e around till = "ind a 5uiet dar0 spot by a par0. The house nearby has no li hts on so maybe there<s nobody there to notice me. Bish"ul thin0in . 2obody was there, but at around 11;00 a truc0 Mor the cab---one o" those cabs that pulls an 1$ wheeler comes dri!in up and par0s in the middle o" the par0 on the rass. : man hopes out and ambles o!er towards my car, H=s somebody in thereCI = immediately call outI JesD= couldn<t "ind a hotel, so = thou ht = would ,ust sleep in the car "or the ni ht. H.e says, HBell, = li!e here. Jou<re ri ht there<s no hotels in this town. Bhere ya headin C H = say, H8ichi anI and then "rom there "urther east and then bac0 towards #ali"ornia. .e says, H= don<t mindI in a "riendly tone, and wal0s towards his house. That was the nicest ni ht interaction =<!e had in a lon time. Be<ll ha!e to wait and see i" he subse5uently ets paranoid or cautious and calls somebody to chec0 me out. :lthou h it is annoyin sometimes = suppose it<s understandable to a certain e&tent. Ene ne!er 0nows. Day 10, Thursday , June 24, 2004 The man who was nice in Echeyedan li!es at 49* >th -treet. = wa0e at >40 it<s rainin . This is Esceola #ounty. = didn<t see any remar0able HmoundI in Echeyedan despite it ad!ertisin itsel" as the Hhome o" the mound.I = o throu h Esborn, =owaDthey ha!e a city pool with a slide. = stop in "or as at the /ronto in -anborn, =:. = pass a place called HDouma /ar0.I En hwy 1$ outside o" -anborn a "ew white "ol0, men, are ha!in an e&istential co""ee hour at the /ronto con!enience storeDwhere = et as and a two liter o" -5uirt. = o throu h -heldon, =owaDthere<s a bi #R# there. =<m lea!in -heldon, headin towards -iou& #ity, . There<s a .erita e Re"ormed #hurch in -iou& #ity. = arri!e in .ull, =owa at $21 a.m. Then = o on towards Roc0 6alley. There<s three #R#<s in this city. , , in addition to the Re"ormed and 2etherlands Re"ormed #hurch. = notice a si n at a house that says Hmassa e.I :ha, so they ha!e that sort o" stu"" here in the middle o" "armland =owa too. Don<t< sneer at usDJac0 Roeda. = lea!e Roc0 6alley at 40$ am. = pass a si n that says H-iou& #ity Bildli"e /reser!e1 mileI and o down that way but it trails o"" into a dirt road and it doesn<t loo0 !ery promisin . Despite the wide open "ields, or perhaps because o" the wide open "ieldsD"ew "orest areasD= ha!en<t seen any deer in =owa yet. : bi si n in the shape o" a bottle says P'et .i h on #hristLI = notice "rom my boo0 that there are * #R#<s in -iou& #enterDenterin the town = see a car dealership that says H8ouw +ordI on it. = see a si n "or Dordt #olle e and "ollow it. =t<s 499 a.m. The colle e itsel" is "airly plainDno remar0able

architecture or steeples , not e!en any stately buildin s. =t is !ery plain. = don<t e!en see a chapel. = "ind all the #R#<s "airly 5uic0ly--- and am on my way out o" -iou& #enter at 100$ . = thin0 to mysel"Dwhat<s worse !eiled se&uality in the name o" not doin it or open se&uality in the name o" total en,oyment o" it. 2either nor = conclude. 8idwesterners do it but pretend otherwise, while other parts o" the country hit you o!er the head with it.. =t<s really not an either or dilemmaDthere<s a happy middle that doesn<t "all into either e&treme. = turn towards Eran e #ity at 1021 wow = thin0 to mysel" this town is more .olland than .olland itsel", in some ways. There<s #al!ary #R# at 1052 am . #ali"ornia has H6onsI rocery store chain, here they ha!e a H6ansI . They sell wooden shoes here. There are iant windmills. = lea!e the town at 1109 am. = see some pin0 pi s at 1104 am = thin0 to mysel" Eran e #ity is li0e a Dutch Disneyland o" sorts, windmills alore%. = come to @emarsDwhich ad!ertises itsel" as the ice cream capital o" the world. The "irst thin = see is a 1lue 1unny =ce #ream /arlor and 8useum. = pull in and order a /eanut butter =ce #ream concoction to o.. the al is nice, but not !ery sociable. = lea!e a dollar tip and ta0e my ice cream on the road. =t<s ood, but not cheap. = stop at the post o""ice around the corner at 114> and et a money order to pay the bail amount "or the citation = ot in Redondo 1each on 5%20 "or not wearin my seatbelt. The cost o" the citation was almostO900. = can<t belie it and plan to contest it. 1ut = ha!e to pay the bail in order to contest it. = p-ass o!er the +loyd Ri!er. There<s no helmet law in =owa eitherC = see a couple o" motorcyclists without helmets. Eop reen. 2ow =<m in -iou& #ityDthe 0in0os at 244. :"ter 0in0os = pull throu h the taco bell, order a couple 44 cent burritos and as0 the "ellow at the dri!e throu h window where the post o""ice is. .e says down that way three or "our bloc0s and ta0e a le"t at =!y, or .i!y. = repeat what he says bac0 to me and he nods. -o = o that way but there<s no =!y or .i!y or any other similar soundin street name. = ,ust 0eep oin , stoppin at a post o""ice in a smaller town outside o" -iou& #ity to mail the payment and trial by declaration, "rom .inton, =owa. :t 92> pm. = chat with the post o""ice cler0 'erald Jor enson D"or a "ew moments tellin him about the seatbelt law in #ali"ornia---O2$0 "ine. .e a rees with me that it is e&cessi!e. .e in5uires about what = am doin around these parts i" =<m "rom #ali"ornia. = clari"y that = didn<t say = was H"rom #ali"orniaI M,ust happen to be li!in there at the moment. =n "act = was born in =owa #ity. = mention the stron presence o" the #hristian Re"ormed #hurch in this areaDand it doesn<t seem to rin a bell in his head. That tells me he<s not !ery educated. -o = mention the DutchDsurely he realiGes there is a Dutch presence in this areaDand that stri0es a chord in his mind, he a rees. -o he<s not totally i norant. = "ind the sears in -iou& #ity, it<s ,ust around the corner "rom where = happen to be. The ad!anta es o" wireless is that = could call in"ormationD et the number o" -ears and sometimes e!en the addressDin this case ,ust the number, then calls -ears et the address, and then use my wireless location "inder to i!e me o" -iou&

#ity e&act directions how to et there. 8y location "inder tells me which direction to o. .ow many miles to o in which direction, when to turn, and total distance and estimated time to et there. =t<s !ery nice. = e!en used it to lead me directly to 8echanic road in (d ertonDdespite it bein a small enou h town to ramble around a "ew times until = "ound it. = respect these small towns too much to do that. :nyways = "ind the -ears M oin there because their the only place = 0now that sells the /anasonic d!d<s that = need to record "rom my d!d dri!er hard dri!e o!er to a disc-7.. which = ha!e to do in order to "ree up space on the hard dri!e. =t can only handle so much . -o = pic0 up the d!d<s on saleDand = notice a youn lady openly breast"eedin her baby, --her husband is at the other end o" the aisle. -he<s .ispanicD= want to bend down and pat the baby on it<s head and smile--, but = 0now there are stran e cler0s around who probably would be o""ended by the si ht o" the woman<s breast and me pattin the baby on the head, so = pass by pretendin not to notice. -he<s ob!iously ner!ous. = want to put her at easeDlet her 0now that it<s o0ay, . The womanXs breast has become such a symbolDway too much a symbol o" se&uality rather than nutrition. =t !ery un"ortunateDit<s demeanin to both men and women.. = lea!e the -earsD headin east on 20 out o" town. . = pass throu h Boodbury #ounty. :s = o alon = thin0 to mysel" the #R# is not a rowth oriented denomination inso"ar as it bein hi hly attracti!e to people "rom outside Hthe clanI. The #R# rows "rom within accordin to the birthrate o" #R# members, who are predominantly Dutch. , or Dutch :merican, or with some notion that they are part o" the Dutch :merican tradition. This tradition runs so deep that = remember meetin an adopted )orean boy Mthe son o" a #al!in #olle e pro"essor who thou ht o" himsel" as HDutch M:merican #R#. -o it really is not dependent upon actuality as much as it is a construct. :nother boy = 0new "rom bell"lowerDalso adopted went throu h the Dutch #hristian re"ormed schools and #al!in #olle e and thou ht o" himsel" as Dutch :merican or Dutch #R#. That<s "ineDi" it i!es them a sense o" identity, but = thin0 one should try to disco!er his or her true linea e and be proud o" it. = pull into a as station mini martDand "ill up the tan0, then = wal0 inside to et a mountain dewD= need a little ca""eine to 0eep me oin "or a "ew more hours. = ta0e a little 1ible with meDplannin on lea!in it inside "or somebody to "ind. = rab a little 8t. Dew and drop a 1ible behind a ba o" Doritos. = wal0 up to the counter with the 8t. Dew. The lady says to me, HDid you ha!e asCI :s i" she didn<t 0nowCDDon<t they ha!e monitorsC = "illed up the tan0 usin my credit cardDwith the credit card machine attached to the pumpDshe says HEh.I = pay "or the 8t. Dew and lea!e. There must be a prisons here in 8o!illeDthere<s a church across "rom the minimart. =n the news = et on my wireless , :/ tells the story o" the day John )erry 0illed one o" the 6ietcon in 6ietnam. .( was assi ned to o up one o" the ri!ers in a boat with a "ew other soldiers and suddenly the came upon a 6ietcon with a roc0et blaster--- o" some sortDwhich, i" launched, would blow up the boat ---so )erry apparently a!e orders to Hbeach the boatI so as to ma0e it impossible "or the man with the roc0et launcher to

arm it---the roc0et apparently needin a "ew more yards to build up the speed needed to "ly, and%or the person holdin the launcher unwillin to "ire in such close ran e because it would probably 0ill him as well. -o they beached the boat, and they say the launcher man was still tryin to arm the thin Dat which point )erry "elt it was necessary to 0ill him. :nd he pulled out his un and shot him at close ran e. -ounds plausible, but---the 5uestion is were these li0e the terrorists we 0now today who are willin to commit suicide "or the cause. =" not, it lessens the li0elihood that he was still tryin to "ire or arm the un at that point. . Bell = continued onward eastbound, = pass a town called H#orrection!illeI ---= "i ure it must be a prison townDbut = don<t see any si ns "or a prison. -tran e name i" there<s no prison there. =t<s 10 am. = head north at the ne&t intersection, and o throu h the town o" -torm @a0e. There<s a nice la0e thereDwith cotta es and little stores. = pull inDtryin to et the d!d recorder to dub on to the new /anasonic tapes = ,ust bou ht at -ears in -iou& #ity. The display 0eeps readin Hincompatible or non-recordable discI. #an<t beDthey<re brand new. =t must be the machine. = trouble shoot "or a while and then try the disc cleaner. :haL That does the tric0. The pre!ious time = had tried usin that lens cleaner = don<t thin0 it wor0ed. This time it clearly did because = heard the audio !oiceo!er indicatin the cleansin was complete. -o = stuc0 the blan0 d!d bac0 in and this time the dubbin proceeded as e&pected. = ha!e all the "oota e "rom the trip trans"erred "rom hard dri!e to disc. This is =da #ounty. =t<s !ery "ast, but beauti"ulDthe corn and the silos and the open s0y is somethin to behold. = see a si n that says H8useum and .istorical /oint MEne 8ileID= "ollow the si n and enter :lbert #ity --H.ow -wede it isI says the si n. = pull o"" into a side are across "rom a beauti"ul church ne&t to some corn "ields. = read /salm 9$ aloud. =t is a beauti"ul moment. = continue onwards. = thin0 to mysel" we must o beyond merely moraliGin as the body o" #hrist. 8erely moraliGin as = pun -medes boo0DH8ere 8oralityI Mis perhaps 5T o" what the church should be doin , maybe e!en less than that. Bhat the church should be doin more o" is tellin the ood newsDprobably more race than condemnation because the body o" #hrist is the body o" redeemed sinners, not predominantly disco!ered saints. = pass throu h the little town o" /ocahontas. =t<s $ pm---there<s a iant statute o" the =ndian /ocahontos at the east end o" the city. = pass throu h 'ilmore #ityDwhich touts itsel" as the Hlimestone capitalI, =n the news on my wireless :/ says that the soldier who accidentally bombed the #anadians will not recei!e ,udicial punishment. .e will recei!e military punishment, probably thirty days o" con"inement or one month o" missed pay. = /:-- T.( west "or0 o" the Des 8oines Ri!erDenterin into .umboldt. . = et as, = pull into the -ubway -andwich shop and order a "ootlon tuna on 8onterey cheddar to o. There<s a couple o" hus0y =owa boys behind the counter. .e piles on the !e ies pretty nicely and = lea!e. = drop a little 1ible in the bac0 o" a pic0up truc0 there at $4* pm. . = see a si n ad!ertisin the @ittle Ri!er 1andDmy oodness, = hadn<t heard them in so lon D= remember listenin to them in

the *0<s or $0<s as a youn ster, but had no in0lin that they were still playin to ether. .

Day 11, +riday, June 25, 2004. = wa0e in Renwic0 . = enter 1ritt at >4> am. There<s supposed to be a #R# here. The -i n says 1ritt "ounded by the train sustained by the plow. . There<s a #atholic church a 8ethodist church. There<s the hobo museum a ain. here<s an (!an elical +ree #hurch there. :nother si n says home o" the 2ational .obo #on!ention. = see a paintin o" a clown or dri"ter sittin by a tree. There<s a #hie" 8o!ie theatre con!erted into a .obo museum and i"t shop. There<s a #asey<s 'eneral -tore and a H)um and 'oI #on!enience -t. There<s a dollar eneral and a #ene& as station and an : 3 B. There<s the #R#Dri ht on the corner o" .i hway 1$ = had passed ri ht by it. =t doesn<t loo0 li0e a church at "irst lance. =t<s a warehouse style buildin . @ea!e 1ritt at *02 cst. (nter Duncan a "ew moments later, there<s a beauti"ul Besleyan church there. = choreo raph the moment with a son "rom the #arsDwhich was a popular roup when = was rowin upNNmi&in synthetic sounds with some utty uitar pic0s. = started out on this trip thin0in = would choreo raph e!erythin to e&plicit #hristian musicDha!in amassed a small collection o" #hristian #D<s while = was in seminary---which is a departure "rom my ori inal mentality o" collectin only secular roc0 cd<s or records. +or meD the chan e was due to a chan e in understandin about the e""ects o" music on the soul. 2ow there is some ood or decent secular roc0Dand a lot o" spiritual lessons can be tau ht as a se ue "rom some o" it, but to listen to it indiscriminately on an on oin basis e""ects the soul. The lyrics be in to run throu h the mind, you sin with the music, it enters your mind, which deli!ers it to the soul. -o = decided that e!en i" #hristian music can sometimes be HcheapIDnot alwaysDit<s impro!ed a lot Mit may be more edi"yin to the soul in the lon run. 1ut while = was tra!elin = #rossin the =owa Ri!er at *14(nterin 'arner at *15 am. : ape church with its own pond at *24 cst. (nterin #lear @a0e =owaDthere<s a dri!e in restaurant there. = pull into a little /hillips >> as0 the lady "or radiator waterDshe "ills up my bottle "or me while her do s bar0 at my car and my do bar0s bac0. There<s a #onoco---se!eral churches, a "ire department museum. = enter 8ason #ity at $04 , there<s a #R# here on 20th street. Bell, no indication where 20th street is so = try the location "inderDit is unable to help me this time-. -uddenly = notice that = am not rollin normally. = "i ure one o" my tires must be low. = pull into a con!enience storeDobser!in an air pump there-1ut as = draw closer = see a little si n that says H:ir pump out o" orderI. The al who wor0s there is standin by itDand points to the si n. = as0 her i" there are any other as stations around here. The tire, in "act, is almost "lat. -he points the way---not botherin to tell me that there<s a tire repair center

one bloc0 east o" the as station, nor apparently realiGin that the as station she directs me to doesn<t pro!ide an air pump. Y= o a little ways past the as station without the air pump , but realiGe i" = o any "urther on it =<ll probably ruin the tire, when ri ht now the way it is, it probably ,ust needs a patch. = pull o"" into a @and E @a0es butter "acility and ta0e out the spare and ,ac0. = start my stopwatchDsee how lon it ta0es. /retty ood-about nine minutes total. =<m bac0 on the roadD= see the tire shop. = pull in and as0 them to chec0 it out. The boy repairs it 5uic0lyD= pay them O1>.00 and try to stri0e up a con!ersationDtellin them = am passin throu h =owa and en,oyin the beauty o" =owa, = mean it. .e smir0s Hthe beauty o" =owaIC = said there is beauty here--- . .e says, Hlots o" reenI = smile he had succumbed to the notion o" =owa bein ,ust a lot o" corn. -o = play it upD yeah-lots o" corn . 1ut = add, HThere is a beauty to this stateI but he loo0s too depressed to belie!e it.. -ometimes the rim-ness o" people in the 8idwest is sel"-ser!in . -omethin <s 0eepin them mildly content---but theyP!e learned to act as i" li"e is ,ust wor0, wor0, wor0. =t<s their actDsome o" them come to belie!e their own act a"ter a while. = o on my way. #oincidentally, ,ust one bloc0 east o" the tire shop happens to be the #R church = was loo0in "or Dand there<s li"e thereDa al on stilts is wal0in around the buildin . There are 0ids millin around the bac0Dapparently this is 6acation 1ible -choolas the si n con"irms. =t<s a nice churchDsi ns o" li"e ma0e any church nice. 2o buildin can pro!ide li"eDthe peopleDwho are the body and temple o" #hrist i!e li"e. :re those the :mish or are thy ,ust ha!in "un dri!in around in a horse and bu y with broad brimmed hats onC =<m in 2ashua at 110> Mhome o" the Hlittle brown churchIDThere<s a nice la0e hereDand a little ice cream standDloo0s cleanDsays HDairy sha0es H on it. There<s a brid e o!er a ri!er ---parallel to a railroad brid eDa"ter circlin the town and "indin the @ittle 1rown #hurchDwith the help o" an old man, = o bac0 by the brid e and wal0 hal"way across it. :nd = stopped "or a mint sha0e at the little ice cream stand. 1uildin s can<t replace the heart----belie!ers ma0e up the temple Mthe body o" #hrist, not buildin s. Bapsipinicon Ri!er at 1190. +rederic0sbur at 1215D= o into the little rocery store thereDpic0 up some meat, bread, and pic0lesDthin0in = would ma0e my own sandwich. Y= o down the aisles pic0in out what = need and brin it up to the cashier. -he<s a youn al, healthyDwearin ,eans, = i!e her my :merican (&press cardDand she slides itDbut it doesn<t o. -he says it<s Hunsupported.I = as0 what she means by thatDand she Ps not sure.. so = say, H.ere try this oneDa 8aster#ard.I This time it wor0s-- . -uddenly a siren oes o"" outsideDit sounds li0e those tornado warnin s we would a!e in 8ichi anDsometimes "or real-most o" the time ,ust the monthly chec0 at noon on the "irst +riday o" e!ery month, or was it the lastC = "or et. :nyways, = say to her H=t sounds li0e a tornado warnin .I :nd she says, P-ounds li0e time "or dinner7I = uess it was the noon bellDthey call lunch HdinnerI in these parts---and dinner, Hsupper.I That isDto themDthe meal

at noon is dinner, and the e!enin meal is supper. That<s country li"e0D e!erythin has a time and place--- and a proper nameDthis al had ne!er bro0en out o" that. -he 0new the country li0e it was somethin reli ious that couldn<t be chan ed. 129$--- = ate three sandwiches and washed them down with a little cola, ca""eine "ree. = am now in the town o" .aw0eye--- which is the Qni!ersity o" =owa<s nic0name. There<s a "ew churches, a co-op, a couple o" stores. : +ire hydrant is ushin waterDapparently either purposely or nobody is concerned. N. = o throu h the town o" Best Qnion throu h which .wy 1$ east runs. There<s a "ew churches, a city hall, some businessesDa little lar er than some o" the other one-store towns. = enter H1ric0 #ity H #lermon at 10* pm and cross the Tur0ey Ri!erDa "airly wide but shallow ri!er. Best QnionDlittle town o" #leremon, at 10*, past clermon is an old o!ernors mansion. 8ista0en notion that you can chan e reality ,ust by chan in the way one thin0s about thin sDpart o" his psycholo ical theme about e!erythin Dchan in the mind. e!en medication, rather than the "acts, the problems, sur ical chan e. 8edicatin e!erythin doesn<t wor0 in the lon run. #owardliness ---a common characteristic in the #R#N--starts out with pra matismDstill ot to do this, somebody has to do it, it<s anti-theolo ical, sounds prudent, "alse appearance o" wisdom, runs deep causes problems. 6oice 8emoDdan er o" :rminianism and thin0in one can earn one<s sal!ation. =<!e already seen three steeples "rom a"ar. = lo!e the steeple chase. There are se!eral steeples, a man on his electric wheelchair, a statute in "ront o" one M commemoratin a "ormer state politician--, . The day is mo!in 5uic0ly There<s an old o!ernors mansion ,ust east o" #lermon. There<s a si n "or massa e therapy on one o" the houses around the corner "rom the (piscopalian church. = thin0 to mysel"Dyou see all the same thin s you "ind on -unset are here as well- ,ust not hittin you o!er the head with it. :ctually less o" the thin s "ound her you<ll "ind in southern #ali"orniaDthere probably "ewer casinos in southern #ali"ornia than there were in 8innesota. = enter /ost!ille at 199 boyhood home o" Dr. John 8ott says the si nDhe was a 2obel peace priGe winner. (nterin 8onona at 145 pm. Then = see a si n that says Hspoo0 #a!eIDon itDat 290. = turn towards it, and wind down a road into a camp round that also is home to the spoo0 ca!e, a ri!er ca!e. : hus0y boy by the name o" #hrist comes out and in5uires whether = am interested in ta0in the ca!e tour. = tell him = amDbut do they accept credit card. .e says no. = as0 him how much it costs and he says $ buc0s. = say, = am not sure = ha!e enou h cash, do you accept chec0sC .e says yes, so = pull out my credit card chec0s and write a chec0 to spoo0 ca!e, and hop in the little row boat with the trollin motor attached, and enter the ca!e with #hrist and two ,unior hi h or early hi h school als and a mother and a child. Be "loat slowly throu h the ca!eDha!in to bend down in parts because the roo" is so low. The mother and child behind me are on the "loor o" the boat. = mana e o0ay by lyin down on the seat since = ha!e it all to mysel". =t<s a

"airly short tour---there<s not a lot o" "ormations in the ca!eDthe no!elty is that we<re in a boatDthere<s a "ew "ormations. The boy tells us about the history o" the ca!e when it was disco!ered by whom. .e tells us a scary story about HEld Joe -mileyI as part o" the narrationD"iction, supposed to be scary. .e shows us the Hli"elineI o" the ca!e sayin e!ery ca!e has a Hli"elineI. .e tells us the water temperature a!era es about 42 de rees. .e shows us a "ormation called the H"roGen water"allI which = consider to be the most impressi!e "ormation in the ca!e. There are not many stalactites or stala mites. :t the end o" the ca!eDor as "ar as we are oin to o there<s a paintin with a cross on itDwhich he says the "ounder wanted thereDit<s called HRoc0 o" : esI. =t<s a nice little ride, a nice brea0 "rom the road. = hop bac0 in the car and continue east. -uddenly = see the 8ississippi. BowL Bhat a ri!erL =t<s so bi . =<m at a little town on the H'reat Ri!erI by the name o" 8ar5uette. = see a ri!erboatDor somethin that loo0s li0e a ri!erboatDnot sure i" that<s actually one o" those hotel%casinos that is built as a permanent structure on the side o" the ri!er or an actual ri!erboat. Down the other way there<s a 2ationaliGed area commemoratin the (""i y 8ounds. = wal0 into the !isitors center and am reeted immediately by 8e an RoothDthat<s how she spells her last name. -he<s an a ressi!e host Dcapturin my immediate attention with a little in"ormation about the area and the usual, HBhere ya "romCI = respond with my usualDdo you mean where = was born, where = rew up, or where = am li!in nowC :nd she appears con"ounded by the 5uestionDso = say = am li!in #ali"ornia ri ht now. That seems to put her at ease. -he i!es her little memoriGed speech and = listen politely, than0 her and do a 5uic0 wal0 throu h o" the tiny museum-. =t<s not muchDthe (""i y 8ounds are somethin the =ndians created-0Din the shape o" a !ariety o" di""erent animalsDthat could only be see "rom abo!e. :pparently they were spea0in to somethin or somebody they belie!ed in that loo0ed down "rom abo!e. These shapes were o"ten in the "orm o" a bear or a caribou but many other types o" animals as well. =n this particular area there seems to ha!e been more e""i y mounds that in this area . There<s a si n up in the middle o" the town "or each president o" the Qnited -tates. an in others. wr areas. = don<t ha!e time to ta0e the hi0e,. = dri!e bac0 up the road alon the 8ississippi and throu h the town o" 8ar5uette.. There<s a brid e to the other side but =<m not ready to ta0e it yet. = want to et a closer loo0 at the 8ississippi. = o south o" the town, and there<s a state par0 called /i0es /ea0. : man wal0in his two do s comes up to me and our do s reet each other-. .e says, HThey ha!e to the usual butt smellIDa crude statement but true. Bhat is this tradition o" butt smellin by do sC = thin0 about ma0in a ,o0e Hwhat i" humans were li0e do sCI =t would be 0ind o" dis ustin . with an o!erloo0 on to the 'reat Ri!er. :nd there<s a trailD= ta0e my do on the leash and wal0 down the .2 mile trail to 1ridal 6eil +alls. =t<s a tiny tric0le o" waterDnot really a water"all-, but it does ha!e the shape o" a 1ridal 6eil. There<s a deer ri ht by it. :nd @ola sees it ?@ola is the name o" my do DrememberDshe was named a"ter my housemother in -painA, -he pulls at the leash. = ha!e to physically hold on to

her to 0eep her "rom brea0in the leash or collar = am unable to use my !ideo camera because the battery no lon er rechar es. =<!e char ed and rechar ed it so many times it doesn<t ta0e a char e any more. =<m not sure i" or where = can et a replacement battery. = ta0e the circle trail bac0 to the !isitors center and notice there<s a little weddin reception bein planned. The "ather o" the room is ather wood "or 0indlin in the nearby "orested area. = say howdy and he tells me his son is ettin married, = say H ood luc0I and pass on by. .eadin "urther south on the hi hway that runs inward "rom the 8ississippi Ri!er the ne&t attraction apart "rom the many beauti"ul steeples is Dyers!ille. 1ut be"ore Dyers!ille = pass throu h 8c're or, =owa. :nd in 'arna!illo =owa ,ust as = "ocus on a beauti"ul steeple the lyrics o" the son = am playin switch to HJou are .oly, you are .olyI Mit<s one o" those poi nant moments--. :s = am dri!in alon = eat a peanut butter and pic0le sandwich on wheat bread. = stop alon !arious 8ississippi Ri!er !iewpoints. +or some reason my mind "lashes on my mom and = thin0 to mysel" was she obsessi!e compulsi!e or is sheC Did her "ather ma0e her that wayC There were times when she was so "astidious it was almost abnormal. 7= come to the little town o" @u&embur and there is a baseball "ield with a ame in pro ress Mmust be little lea ueDno it<s e!en youn er than thatDthis is elementary school irls so"tball, but it<s not the ame that catches my attention, it<s the locationD the out"ield, or the perimeter o" le"t and center "ield is a cemetery. 1eyond the 1ac0stop is a church with a iant steeple. 1eyond ri ht "ield is a corn "ield. =t<s ,ust a beauti"ul si ht. = dri!e throu h the little cemetery and obser!e it all 7.Then = o throu h the town o" 6ienna, =owa. There<s a beauti"ul steeple there. :nd "inally = arri!e in Dyers!ille at >2$ pm 2ow Dyers!ille is an a!era e corn-"arm town---which includes the +armers Toy 8useum, but since 14$$ has had a di""erent reputationDit is also the home o" the H+ield o" DreamsI baseball "ield. = didn<t e!en 0now that until a "ew hours priorDwhen = noticed the little notation on my road map. = "i ure it<s probably some run down baseball "ield nowDmade to loo0 special ,ust "or the mo!ie, and thin0 it will probably be di""icult to "ind--, but as soon as = enter the town there<s a lar e si n with an arrow pointin me directly to the H+ield o" Dreams 8o!ie -ite.I =t<s not "ar. :nd then suddenly there it is Dit<s about > pm so the sun is ettin low, althou h not settin , and = dri!e down the lon dri!eway towards the house that is ob!iously the one they used "or the mo!ie, and there<s the baseball "ieldDli hts and all ?althou h they are not onA and the corn "ield ri ht alon side the perimeter o" the out"ield. BowL =t really is stri0in Dand it is immaculately maintained. There<s a little sou!enir stand alon side it and a hand"ul o" cars. The mo!ie H+ield o" DreamsI li0e a lot o" other "ilms o" its type is analo ous "or meDit<s analo ous to 'od<s 0in domDit<s analo ous to hea!enDin a limited manner, but that<s all we can 0now "or the time bein Danalo iesDsome o"

us are more out o" /lato<s< #a!e than others, but nobody on earth has a total understandin or appreciation "or the riches o" the )in dom o" .ea!en. @ea!in Dyers!ille = pass the +arm Toy 8useum, but don<t o in. = turn towards Dubu5ue =owa, passin throu h (pworth alon the way and the HDi!ine Bord #olle e.I = stopped "or some water. :rri!in in Dubu5ueDit surprised me, to say the least---this was a ri!er townDwith some o" the most inspirin steeples and church buildin s = ha!e e!er seenDand so many o" them. .ere on the west ban0 o" the 8ississippi was a town "illed with ecclesiastical herita eDalthou h there were no #R#<s there. 1e"ore = toured throu h Dubu5ue howe!er = went north o" town a little waysDtryin to "ind a place o!erloo0in the 8ississippi where = could read /salm 94. = rolled into a con!entDno ate, nothin su ested si htseers were not allowed. The si n said H-isters o" #harity o" the 1lessed 6ir in 8ary ?or 168A , 8t. #armelI. +rom there = had a awe-encompassin !iew o" the reat ri!er. = pulled out my portable enerator which = needed to carry to power my camcorderD ma0in it a hea!y hi0e but it was only a "ew steps "rom the car---where = set up "or /salm 94Da ri!erboat in the bac0 round. The 8ississippi Ri!erDit Ps li0e the breadth and width o" 'od<s lo!e "or us---the belie!ers and body o" #hristDit is un"ailin , seemin ly ne!er endin , constant , albeit perhaps not immutable--- and =<m not so sure 'od is immutable either0D.e hears usD our prayers are not ,ust recitations to a dea" and dumb piece o" wood, our prayers are to the li!in 'odDwhich is why we prayDit does ma0e a di""erence. = conclude the beauti"ul /salm and pac0 up. Then = o bac0 to Dubu5ue and be in seein up close the beauty o" the steepled city. :s = am "ocusin on one steeple a man in a blac0 con!ertible cor!ette smir0s at m at $41 pmDthat was only the second sarcastic e&perience =<!e had on the trip so "ar, the "irst bein in Jac0son .ole where the adolescents yelled at me, HJou don<t ha!e to stop retardI as = came to a intersection in the middle o" the city where they were waitin at their stop si ns "or me to proceed. = assumed wron ly it was a "our way stop. Their comment was unnecessary. -o = responded also unnecessarilyDby stic0in up my middle "in er at them. 2ot !ery pastoral, but there are times when = respond li0ewise to wron "ul comments or actions, but much less than be"ore. = chec0 the news a"ter the tour o" the townDJud e #alabresis o" the 2nd #ircuit #ourt o" :ppeals has apolo iGed "or ma0in comments that compare the election o" 'eor e 1ush to that o" :dol" .itler and 8ussolini. The comment he says was meant to compare the way 1ush ot elected not so much 1ush as similar to .itler or 8usolliniDthe ,ud e says that 8ussolini was appointed dictator by the )in o" =taly and .itler was appointed by .indenbur . :pparently he ma0es the comparison because o" the closeness o" the election which was ultimately determined by the courtDwhich concluded nebulously that 1ush won. :lso :/ reports that Dic0 #heny, the !ice-president, used the H" wordI towards -enator @eahy a"ter a con ress session, o!erheard by many. There<s an article on the wireless about the )obe 1ryant trialDand an accidental lea0 o" a transcript "rom a closed trial. The ,ud e subse5uently

issued an order prohibitin any publication o" that transcript. :nd the press is contestin it to the court o" appeals on the basis o" Hprior restraintI not bein allowed. . :s = am dri"tin o"" to sleep suddenly @ola 0noc0s my camera downDand = respond with an an er = hadn<t "elt in a lon time. =t was not really in proportion to the e!ent---@ola tripped on a wire that was not usually there. = had le"t it in an unusual position. -he would not ha!e been accustomed to it bein there and it was dar0. 1ut = blew upDyellin at her and threw my little stapler at herDshe snapped bac0, probably ri htly, but that drew my wrath e!en more. = yelled some more. =t was displaced an erDand suddenly a "lood o" emotions and memories went throu h me. = ,otted them down as "ast s = could on my little electronic notepad. Ene thin = thin0 o" is Jim<s unbridled allowance o" his 0ids bein persecuted, so much so one could ma0e an ar ument "or it bein on the !er e o" abandonment. There<s a bi di""erence in allowin 0ids to "end "or themsel!es !ersus abandonment. +urthermore, not bein aware o" the e""ects o" one<s pro"ession on one<s children or arti"icially minimiGin it can do secondary harm to the childrenDbeyond the primary e""ects themsel!es. Then = thin0 o" Da!e (n elhard -rDand thin0 he sort o" used our "amilyDmaybe especially Jim , himsel". The way 'rand Rapids or the 'rand Rapids #hristian .i h crowd manipulates peopleDit is , or can be e!il. Da!e (n elhard sr. o" course married his sweetheart "rom 'rand Rapids #hristian .i h and ne!er le"t his hometownDstill there todayDthe eneral secretary "or the #R#. 1ut = thin0 Jim allowed it to a certain e&tent, but re"usin to e!er thin0 any bad thin s about people, e&cept his own 0in, that is. (specially @eoD'randpa /etersDall we e!er heard about was how bad @eo wasDand it was show time "or e!erybodyDJim 3 @inda entertained by tellin how bad @inda<s "ather was. Then you see him tryin to do the same thin towards me. HJou<re li0e @eo,I he said one time. M:s soon as @eo died they needed a new enemy. :ndy "ollowed suit. TT1<s an er was e&plosi!e o"ten towards meDout o" proportion to the incidents, usually and sometimes without concern "or meDli0e = ,ust did towards @ola--. TT12<s re"usal to help "amily without deliberate instruction was in accord with his low re ard "or human li"e, and his Hliberal Hposition towards li"e and abortion. , and his la&ity towards homose&uality. .is willin ness to de-populariGe others in order to boost their own popularity was indicati!e o" such. :nd he ,oined "orces with Richard 8ouwDcausin double trouble. , or 8ouw enlisted Jim. -omewhere alon the way Jim Hca!edIDperhaps due to his mother<s early deathDand the impact it had on him or which he subse5uently psycholo iGed to ha!e had on him. 1ut then @inda<s mother died at an early a e tooDall the more tra icallyDthus a ain a duo o" common e&periencesDsad ones. /erhaps this was the bondin point between Jim 3 @indaDthe loss o" their mothers at an early a e. :nd they "ound sympathiGers, perhaps not as many as they would ha!e li0ed. 1ut nonetheless enou h, or a "ew. :nd = thin0 a lot o" their identity was "ormed on their lossDit was sort o" a ne ati!e identity , i.e. Hwe are because we lost our mother at an early a e7I rather than a positi!e identityDi.e. H= am because = belie!e in Jesus #hrist7I ?e!en

thou h that was combined, in part, with it---but it was not the "ocal point. /erhaps the reatest wea0ness o" Jim 3 @inda was their need "or popularity and need to be li0ed. , sometimes at the e&pense o" others, and that is a trait = "ind to be in common with 8ouw, .ar0ema and probably :ndy )o0, my older brother, as well. That may be their character "law. :nd now that = thin0 about itDJohn Douma-the pastor at 6ol a #R#Dtoo--. 1ut the time comes when they can no lon er employ social control the way they did so e""ecti!ely at their hi hest point o" popularityDpeople see throu h it a"ter a while. @isa .endry 3 8ar0 BoGnia0Dthe ran ers at Jellowstone tried to do the same thin . Jou can et away with it onceDmaybe--, but that<s it, once. Ence their blu"" is e&posed, it<s o!er-. (n elhard ,r. tried to do the same thin . Teri /eters tried it. . =t<s total desperation, but nonetheless still annoyin li0e a mos5uito. Their entire identities is build around Hpoor me.I This is the town o" Dubu5ue , =owa, and what a town it isL There are so many steeples. Bell, be"ore = et to the steeples, my "irst concern is to say my daily /salm which = had not yet doneDso = o a little south o" Dubu5ue and roll into a con!entDthe Day 12, -aturday, June 2>, 2004. -insiniawa 8ound #enter at >44 a.m.. This is #lara #olle e.C Bisconsin. -insiniwa 8ound +arms. -insiniwa Bisconsin, =<m on .i hway 11 oin east. The little town o" .aGel 'reen at * am. = turn on to north $0:t .aGel 'reen there are three beauti"ul churches and a H'an sters 1ar 3 'rillI#uba #ity at *1* population 215>. They ad!ertise themsel!es as the P#ity o" /residents.I =t<s a an a!era e small town. = enter /lattes!ille at *99 am There<s se!eral churches in this beauti"ul town. :nd a minin museum. = wonder to mysel" where 1eth 1oyd, my #(/ super!isor at Q#@: 8edical #enter , rew up. -he said she was "rom Bisconsin. 1elmont Bisconsin at $ am. #rystals and minerals.. :mish candy says the si n. =<m oin northDa lot o" si ns ad!ertisin somethin called HThe .ouse on the Roc0.I -o = "ollowed the si n. :nd = pulled in at 4 am ,ust as they were openin . = thou ht it was some sort o" small house build on a hi h prominent roc0 "ormation, but it was more than that. +irst there<s the lon dri!eway and the ornamental Hthin sI alon the wayD= call them Hthin sI because = don<t thin0 there<s a standard word to describe themDbi ob,ects with !arious arti"acts and "i ures han in "rom it or a""i&ed to it. -econd o" all the hi h price o" admission indicated to me either that this was a tourist trap or somethin more that = ori inally presumed. (nterin in one "inds a basic houseDbut much more elaborateDthere is a 0itchen with a nice sin0 and sto!e, and com"ortable cushions on benches which one can sit on--, but the "irst thin you do is wal0 across this brid e o" sortsDthat ta0es you out on to this e&tension that is not supported by anythin beneath. =t is "ree han in ---it<s called the Hin"inity roomI and you would ha!e to see it to understand why. The !iew "rom the in"inity room is sta erin Myou<re han in out abo!e the trees with a !iew o!er the trees into perpetuity it seems li0e. :lon the way into the "irst HroomIDor HeraI and the di""erent

sections o" the HhouseI are di!ided into eras---there<s all sorts o" arti"acts, toys, statutes, lamps, mechanical !iolinsDor sel"-playin !iolins, , plants ?in the in"inity room which recei!es sunli htA, a lot o" bellsDand HmysticI type thin sDsome o" it what we would call Hnew a eIDdra ons, crystals, etc. There<s a ma ician statute o" sorts. There<s a collection o" paper wei hts with swirly desi ns. There<s occasional #hristian ima esDa do!e in a stain lassed window, a cherub o" sorts, , but it<s de"initely not de!oted to #hristianity or 'od. =t hi hli hts e!erythin D"ish, a iant whaleDa maritime section. =t<s 415 when = arri!e and almost two hours later when = lea!eDit<s so elaborate and comple&D= ha!e no idea where = am when = am insideD= can only "ollow the si ns indicatin where to o ne&t. There<s music inside, a wal0 way to the in"inity room and a arden ca"W. =t<s a blend o" new a e mysticism, orientalism ? a lot o" "u manchu "i uresA, pottery, stained lass, , e s, crystals, mood music, sel"-playin pianos, or ans, and strin ed instruments. =ncense is ob!iously burnin --. The whole thin was apparently created by a "ellow named :le& JordanD"rom 8adison Bisconsin. = wal0 down the H-treets o" JesterdayI. There are dolls, there<s a bric0 road. There are !arious sorts o" carria es, there<s deer head mounted. There<s a collection o" anti5ue cameras, and a collection o" ci arette li hters. =" you put a to0en in the machine you can hear the son HEctopus 'ardenI as you wal0 by the iant whale, and the iant octopusDwith it<s eyes starin up at you. The whale room = write be"ore = am "inished is the most impressi!e room, but then = come to the #arousel Room. 1e"ore that thou h = pass by !arious displays Msomethin commemoratin a "ellow named .arry Kupnic0. There<s somethin about a Hhup"eld phonolisGtIDwhich is some sort o" sel"playin instrument. There are hot air balloons han in "rom the ceilin Dthe old 0ind , not the new. Then = come to the #arousel Room and that is clearly the most impressi!e room. =nside this roomDthe entire tour is inside with no windows e&cept "or the initial in"inity pony ,ust the carousel, but on the ceilin s there are "emale manne5uins in dresses with win s starin downD not ,ust a "ew but the entire ceilin is co!eredL There are carousel horses all o!er the walls, but no horses actually on the carousel itsel" ?says the si nA. The carousel itsel"D"illed with li hts and music twirlin bris0ly has all sorts o" "i urines ?e&cept horsesA on itDit<s a real carousel, but you can<t ride it. There are cheese !ats that they trans"ormed into drums. The man watchin thin s tells me that it didn<t cost that much because most o" it was ,un0 that was oin to be thrown away. The only cost was transportation he said in many cases. = stand in aweDbut realiGe that there is somethin dan erous here--- the dan er o" creationismDbecomin absorbed in man<s accomplishments in human spirit rather that 'od<s accomplishments and the .oly -pirit. 1ut = don<t preach then and there. = ,ust obser!e. = 0eep oin D there are mas0s---, there<s a collection o" old cars and bi0es or bicycles, there<s an old car with a heart-shaped hot tub in the bac0. There<s a pi with a shoe behind itDbein pulled bac0 and "orth by an electric le!el simulatin 0ic0in the pi in the behind. There<s a little ca"W insideDwhere they sell piGGa. Then there<s the eclectic roomDand a collection o" butter"liesDthe

actual insectsDdeadDpinned to -tyro"oam li0e we used to do in science class at 8illbroo0. There<s the 1lue Room. . There are the -t. 2ic0 plates, there<s a #hinese room with +uZmanchu "i ures and dra ons. :nother or an. There<s a collection o" beauti"ul old cash re istersDbronGe plated. There<s an old dentists chair, the actual thin "rom an era lon a o. Then there<s the Red RoomDnewspapers hi hli htin important historical e!ents. There<s some cannons, 0ettle drums. There<s< the H#halet o" the Ra!enI , . There<s a iant old propeller "rom a bi ship. There are bu ies, and a "ew smaller carousels. There<s a dollhouse e&hibit. -e!eral miniature circus scenes. : mini-roller coaster, models o" ri!er boats. There<s an oriental room. There<s a Royalty RoomDcrowns, 0ni hts, a model o" 1uc0in ham /alace. -ome swords. =t<s amaGin Dimpossible to ta0e it all in one tripDnor do = want to Dit<s too much. = e&it at 10;4> a.m. = lea!e a little 1ible on a 2orth #arolina car "or somebody to "ind. -prin 'reen at 121* . They<re ha!in a "air there. . @ittle town o" :rena at 1244. There<s a cheese outlet store there. . =n 8aGomanie = pic0 up a brat at the Hbrat "ryI alon side the road "or O2.00 at .ardware .an0s. =ts. 105 pm. Then = o throu h the tiny town o" 1lac0 (arth---at 124 pm. .ere<s the little town o" #ross /lains at 124 pm. There<s apparently no helmet law in Bisconsin either. Throu h 8iddleton at 194 pm = chec0 my current balance, it<s su""icient to pay the bills "or the time bein . Throu h 8adison Bisconsin at 14* pm, stoppin at the )in0os to ma0e a "ew payments on the internet and "a& a messa e to TT12. 1illboards are ad!ertisin the H-ummer"estI =n 8ilwau0ee Bisconsin. +rom June 24, to July 4. 7Dees +ood shop bou ht 2 liter 8t. Dew. :shley at the 8adison )in0os was nice--, The "a& to TT12 oes out at 290. = "ind the Dewitt house at 92* in Ere on, B=, ,ust south o" 8adison. 2ow the reason = made a speci"ic trip to "ind the De Bitt house was because o" my internal con"lict with the way 'ary De Bitt treated me when = li!ed there "rom -ept. o" 4> throu h :u ust o" 144*. = li0e to o to the root o" my concernsDand the parents o" 'ary De Bitt were the closest thin = could "ind. -o = trac0ed down their house in Ere on Bisconsin usin my wireless and obser!ed where they li!ed what 0ind o" settin little 'ary rew up in and le"t them a little 1ible and also wrote a letter to them "rom an area ,ust around the corner, a ain re-statin my concerns about how 'ary acted towards me, and e&pressin my concern that he was an Hadult child. H. @alor road is on the Hrustic roadI route. Ether houses on @alor include 2$22, 2*4>, 2*5$, 25$4, 25$>, 25$0, and 2599. :nd there<s the [aubesa Betlands , a i"t o" Julia 1o holt on the same street as well. = lea!e a little 1ible "or the Dewitts at 949 pm, concernin the dan ers o" /antheism. = completed the letter to the Dewitts and dropped it in a bo& at 444 pm on the corner o" 1room 3 Bashin ton. = dri!e throu h 8adison and the beauti"ul capitol buildin at 45> pm. = twirl around, o up and down a "ew streets- capture some steeple pics, and "ind a Jamba JuiceDpullin o!er in this contemporary town = put a "ew nic0els in the par0in meter and o into the ,amba ,uice. = order a /eanut 1utter 8oo with ener y boost, powersiGe, . = lea!e 8adison at 540 pm, passin throu h the town o" 8arshall at >. There<s a circus at >0>, one

o" these tra!elin ma0e shi"t set up circuses, they ha!e a +erris wheel, a roller coast. There<s some sort o" whirly-twirl ride. There<s a billboard ad!ertisin the county "air in /orta e, B= "rom July 21-24. There<s a windmill. = o throu h the little town o" #olumbus at >22. 2adar loses 'reen /arty 2omination.= come to Randolph. +ind two o" the three #R#<s in a "ew brie" moments, near the center o" the town. The other oneDis not so apparent. = try the wireless but it can<t detect addresses which ha!e a letter in themD and The ones = am loo0in "or all ha!e letters in them . -o = pull into a little con!enience store and as0 them i" they ha!e a map. 1ut (. +riesland isn<t on it. -o = as0 the al emptyin the arba e cans by the as pumps and she points me in the ri ht direction. = o bac0 throu h the center o" the town and ta0e a le"t at hi hway 99. -he says to watch "or the blue house on the corner Dthat<s (. +riesland roadDta0e a ri ht there. -o = do, and there it is. = ta0e a ri ht and =<m ramblin down the road loo0in "or the #R# which is supposed to be on (. +riesland road ?and the al had ne!er heard o" )o0 road be"ore so =<m not hope"ul o" "indin itA suddenly there<s )o0 roadL =<d been there once be"ore, when = was youn . =<d been to Randolph a ain since then, but ne!er stayed lon enou h to "ind any o" the old si hts. =<m not sure where -eymour<s "ar is or wasD-eymour passed away a "ew years a o. .e was related to my rand"ather. :nd = thin0 .enry<s "arm was in Baupun , , but he<s passed away now too. -o = ha!e no way o" chi address "rom wireless in"ormation. :nd = "ind a #arol )o0 in the #al!in directoryDan e& <51D which means she attended #al!in #olle e "or a while but didn<t raduate. 1oth #arol and Jim li!e on 2orth *9 which isn<t "ar away, so = o in search o" their houses, thin0in maybe one o" them still li!es on -eymour<s "ar. 1ut #arol )o0<s houseD?she must be about *0 years old i" she was han in around #al!in #olle e in 1451A Mwhile it does ha!e a barn and a "ew cows and a pastureDdoesn<t resemble what = remember -eymour<s "arm loo0in li0e. = "i ure she mo!ed, assumin she is the wi"e o" the late -eymour. Bell = o down the road a little "urther and there<s Jim )o0<s houseDnow Jim was in his late teens or early 20<s when = was in Jr. .i h, .e was a lan0y "arm boy, then. = lance o!er at the house where Jim )o0 supposedly li!es. There<s a lar e picture window in "ront o" the houseDand = see a hus0y middle a e "ellow standin up mo!in around inside at 412 am. D= wonder i" that<s JimC = don<t ha!e time to stic0 around and "ind outD= ,ust obser!e "or a moment and then proceed onward. = "ind a place in the middle o" town to sleep "or the ni ht. =t seems li0e a ood place. The ne&t day = rise early--and o bac0 to the intersection o" )o0 3 +riesland. = sin or read /salm 42 5uietly in "ront o" the si nDwith the "arm and silo behind it. =t<s a nice moment. 2o cars pass by while = am there. = write on my electric notepad H= ha!e Pin!isabilityI---that ability to be unnoticedDwhen necessary. The pre!ious e!enin = wrote down HJou ha!e to remember that both TT1 ?JimA and TT2 ?@indaA hate or hated H0oolI 0idsDwhich is why there was a little bit o" anta onism by Jim towards me rowin upDhe wanted me to be a

replica o" somebody li0e H1ea!erI on the show H@ea!e it to 1ea!erI. .e e!en tried to cut my hair in such a wayDit was the worst butchered bowl cut you<!e e!er seen. JimD"ore!er held those wonder"ul 50<s in his mindD= Pm not sure his theolo y e!er went beyond tryin to reco!er the wonder"ul 50<s probably those days be"ore his mother<s death. The death o" his mother was to haunt him the rest o" his li"e. :nd his entire pastoral career it appears re!ol!es around the loss o" his motherDand his study o" rie" and death and dyin issues was what dro!e him. The loss o" his mother was !ery si ni"icant , and when ri ht-. Their<7 combined with a wi"e ?my motherA who also lost a mother at an early a e you can ima ine the source o" their bondin Dit was around loss, not disco!ery. The only problem is that 0ids comin out o" the womb don<t 0now this historyDthey don<t understand why mom is sad, why dad is rie!in . They ,ust understand that today is a beauti"ul day, let<s en,oy it. =t wasn<t until much later in li"e that = was able to come a little bit closer to understandin the way Jim "elt about thin s and how he saw thin sDunderlyin his theolo y was a deep sadness, one that he would ne!er completely con5uerDnor e!en thou ht he should. =n "act, some o" his theolo y was built around disco!erin one<s pain and musin o!er it perpetually. PDon<t ta0e away my painI he wrote as the title o" one o" his #are #apsule H articles late in li"e. /erhaps this was in contrast to his collea ue -chuller whose Hthin0 positi!eI theolo y seemed to too 5uic0ly loss o!er loss and sadness. 2ow there may be some truth to both -chuller and )o0 ?sr.A Mand the contrast between the two may ha!e brou ht balance, but at times, aloneDJim<s theolo y was sometimes escapistDand both Jim 3 @inda were allowed by their o!erseers to indul e themsel!es in escapism i!en their special circumstances. The only problem is that their 0ids didn<t need thatDso e&tendin it to them ?i.e. Julia, :ndrew, /hilip 3 -te!enA as well not only wasn<t doin them any "a!ors but was the opposite o" what they needed at a youn a e. )ids are concrete , !ery concrete up to a certain pointDthey don<t understand abstract thin0in that soonDnor should they. To thrust them prematurely into abstractionD"orces them to use a part o" their mind which is not yet truly or "ully de!eloped Mand causes con"usion. That<s why there<s school and churchDhowe!er, to 0eep one "rom ha!in to enter totally into the minds o" one<s parents while one is de!elopin one<s own mind and e&periences and thin s to dwell upon. 1ut church 3 school can<t always catch e!erythin . :nd o" course there<s the presumption on the part o" HauthoritiesI that all is well in those households where pro"essionals Dpastors 3 teachers 3 social wor0ers et. alDreside. That presumption is not always warranted, albeit they<re the best there is as "ar as we 0nowDand they did as best as they could, in ood "aith. @inda tau ht all o" us piano lessons. They were members in the church, and Jim was pastorin at /ine Rest .ospital. There were problems in the community and the church tooD the problem arises "rom people become leaders in the church based on tradition rather than #hristDor tradition alone, and #hrist on the perimeter. That doesn<t wor0Dand so you saw church leaders "rom the tradition but not so much "illed with the -pirit ta0e "allsDsuch as Jim ..

"ather o" a classmate o" mineDha!in an a""air , leadin to di!orce and e&communication "rom the church, and /astor 1. --- at our church also ha!in an a""air. :nd our #hristian elementary school principal, cau ht solicitin a prostitute on Di!ision :!e.Dsubse5uently Terminated. :ll o" these e!ents had an e""ect on the children---- bad thin s can ha!e ood e""ectsDsome o" it was a reality calDthe realiGation that people, e!en #hristian leaders are not in"allible. 1ut a ain the response to some o" these thin s by some o" our adult leaders was escapism--- it was not lon a"ter the down"all o" Jim .. , /astor 1., and 8r. 2 ?the principalA that some people started lea!in . /astor Don ). le"t 1st #R# "or :riGona and subse5uently #hino. 8y dadDalthou h probably un related to the community issuesDtoo0 a call to 'arden 'ro!e, #:. -hortly therea"ter , two other #R# "amilies le"t 'rand RapidsD8ouwDwent to +uller -eminary where he is now president and not lon a"ter so did /eter .ar0emaDa #al!in #olle e administratorDnow an administrator o" sorts at +uller, and li!in in 8onro!ia, #:. The problems ne!er were really addressed. The church did not try to heal as much as they did amputate, perhaps prematurely. :nd too many leaders were psycholo ically enmeshedDthat their only percei!ed sense o" a way out o" the mess was distanceDbecause "or a lot o" themDtheir identities were "ormed by association. -o suddenly here were some o" their "riends, "ormerly respected leaders, now "allen, and they had to disassociate themsel!es, rather than stand up on their own merits. =t<s the same problemD= see with my brother :ndrew ---and his apparent inability to separate or distin uish between mysel" and those "riends or "ormer "riends who had somethin bad be"all them---Dou )osters commit suicideDthat<s tra icD= 0new him all my li"e "rom #hurch nursery throu h colle eDhis suicide has no re"lection upon meDas a person o" inte rity and ood mental health. Jet they see an associationDthey psycholo iGe it, roup people, and it stic0sDperhaps , in part, it is sel" ser!in to ma0e those associations and disassociate themsel!es, but it is also cowardly, and essentially meanin less.

Day 19, -unday, June 2*, 2004, there<s some eese and a pheasant ?or tur0eyA standin by the side o" the road at >91 am. . = pass the idyllic little la0e in 8ar0esan at >9> a.m. There<s .oricon 8arsh at *9$ am. =t co!ers 91>59 acres accordin to the Hhistorical mar0erI and was car!ed out by a lacier at one point in time. +ond du @ac #ounty at >40 am. , The @ittle town o" +airwater, population 950. =P!e done the daily /salmDat the corner o" )o0 %+riesland Road at >;00 a.m. in Randolph, where = also spent the ni ht. =<m oin north on the 44 now. (!erythin seems to be alri ht. /ast Kion @utheran church in +airwater, past the +airwater .istorical -ociety. 1randon , Bisconsin at >5* am =<m headin south on 44 now, and may o throu h the little town o" Baupun, which is actually where either .enry<s or

-eymour<s "arm wasDi" = recall correctly. There<s 8ouw +arms on the country road to Baupun. = pass by :lto #R#, and :lto Re"ormed churchD or si ns "or them at *0$ am. 2ow =<m down by +o& @a0eDa si n says H+o& @a0e #orrectional =nstitutionI at *10 am 2ow we<re in Baupun, pop 10, *1$ Da little bi er city than Randolph and +riesland. There<s a 2etherlands Re"ormed #hurch in Baupun. (nterin 1rowns!ille, Bisconsin at *45 a.m. There<s a bowlin alleyDa si n says Hbrea0"ast on the "armDJune 2*IDat one o" the dairy "arms--. . (nterin )ewas0umDthere<s a little 8cDonalds here at the 1/D1ritish /etroleum as station. = o south on the 45. There<s a little s0i resort on the ri ht sideD-unburst. = could see the red chairli"ts "rom a "ew miles away. = pass the /i ly Bi ly at $95 a.m. in E!er the 8ilwau0ee Ri!er, welcome t To 2ewbur at $49 am. .oly Trinity #atholic #hurch rises up to reet you as you enter 2ewbur "rom the west. To the eastDtwo police cars "or the county ha!e their li hts onDone on each side o" the roadD= don<t see an accident or any car pulled o!erD= pull my seatbelt on as = approachDnot wantin to et hit o!er the head with another seatbelt !iolationDit<s ironic tooDsome o" these states ha!e no motorcycle helmet laws, but they ha!e seatbelt laws. /ort Bashin ton on @a0e 8ichi an at 410 a.m. There<s a cop with his radar onD25 mph here. This is EGau0ee #ounty. There<s< se!eral churches and an 1$>0 li hthouse. This ri"t that de!eloped in 8ichi an howe!er, around the church, and 1st #R# and the schoolDdid not ,ust result in escapism by some o" those mentioned. -ome o" the decisions to mo!e onward were intermin led with !arious other thin s, but there remained the church parishioners-- 7. :nd their narration o" thin sDlo ical, reasonable, rational or otherwiseD still needed to be contended ?withA M "or "aulty, "alse, ap-"illed stories are still stories that are told and re-told e!en i" they are incomplete or sel"ser!in or what ha!e you. :nd the morale boostin , story that e!ol!ed, o" course was the e&pense o" some othersDand that<s the problem when these morale boostin stories et told at other peoples e&pense, without bein rounded in truth. These stories o all the way bac0 to other enerationsD historically. =t was clear "rom some o" the thin s that = e&perienced that there was tal0 about my rand"atherD@eo /etersDwho owned the bi est and most stately home in 'rand Rapids, 8ichi an. There were attempts by the industrial crowd to mar inaliGe on !arious wor0in class criti5uesDH8ust be nice bein born into money7I, H-omebody has to do the wor07I as well as the below-the belt cheapshots. : lot o" it was indirectDsometimes the unspo0en spea0s much more loudly than the spo0en. 1ut it was there- you could detect it a"ter bein there a while. =<m headin south nowDon the west coast o" @a0e 8ichi anDa side o" the @a0e = ne!er saw too much rowin up. = was always on the east side, by .olland. =t<s a warm dayDchurch ser!ices are in pro ress--- the doors are

open as = pass by a "ew o" them. The smell o" burnin lea!es or "irewood wa"ts throu h the air at 441 a.m. = pass by an octa onal shaped buildin %barnDthe si n says HEcta on +arms.I Jou see Mproblems in the churchDwhen psycholo ical enmeshment occurs, is much more di""icult to unra!el-and there<s a lot o" that in the con re ationDdue to incomplete understandin o" the Bord, due to people Hin the "leshI , due to un resol!ed con"licts, you name it---due to simply the way one loo0s, dresses, combs or cuts their hair, some thin s as trite and meanin less as that. : lot o" these silly meanin less trite thin s become part o" alon -term psycholo ical enmeshment that doesn<t ma0e lo ical sense, but ma0es illo ical senseDi" you indul e it. 1ut you can<t indul e it--- you ha!e to address it a ressi!ely and 5uic0ly. :nd to pre!ent the enmeshment "rom occurrin you ha!e to be open, honest and not do the 8idwest thin o" sayin one thin while meanin somethin else. This doesn<t mean that you are so HhonestI you say whate!er comes to mindDit means that you "ilter throu h your deliberati!e process what matters and what doesn<t matter be"ore you allow yoursel" to internaliGe a thou ht, and especially !erbaliGe itDbecause too much o" that nonsense that becomes part o" the psycholo ical enmeshment is ,ust thatD nonsense. -o it re5uires disciplined thin0in . Er as the .ar!ard /ro"essor who wrote the boo0 entitled Teachin -mart /eople .ow to @earn says, it re5uires Htwo loop thin0in .I = dri!e past #oncordia Qni!ersity o!erloo0in @a0e 8ichi an at 455 a.m. There<s a statute there that says H+ollow me and = will 8a0e you +ishers o" 8en.I Bhat i!es rise to some o" these sel"de"eatin and con"lict causin enmeshmentsC E"tenDsin"ul thin0in Dsin is not somethin ood that 'od ta0es away "rom us to test our "ortitude or to ma0e us asceticDasceticism is not what 'od wantsDthere are times when "astin is a ood thin - but not always. There are times when a little more sel"-discipline and e&ercise is re5uired but not to the point o" sel"-"la ellation. 1ut sinDthose thin s such as lust, co!etin , reed, most o" what is summed up in the Ten #ommandments are at the heart o" some o" the enmeshment lot o" that also is rooted , and then, subse5uently sel"-,usti"ication "or commit wron s a ainst othersDor tellin untruths or hal" truths about others. a sense o" sel"-pity. Be be in to HwantI because we thin0 we deser!e more, that we<!e been mistreated, that there<s been an ine5uity at our own e&pense, o" some sort. This HwantDonnessI leads to ,ealousy, en!y, and then ,usti"yin wron doin s a ainst others and ,usti"yin hal" truths or untruths a ainst others . = stop at a little place called 8e5uon, )atherine )earney #arpenter /ar0 in the city o" 8e5uon, where do s can run "ree. = hear so me tal0--- about property !alues, borin stu""7 a couple do s ,ump up on the picnic table = am sittin at, alone. Ene o" the owners comes o!erD= "eel a sense o" hea!iness in himD0nowin what he<s trapped byDtrapped by success-- --thin0in he<s happy li!in in a prosperous areaDon @a0e 8ichi anDnot 0nowin he<s ensla!ed himsel" to the wron thin . :nd what he ori inally thou ht was his source o" "reedom and liberty was now his bonda e. = lea!e a little 1ible under somebody<s windshield wiper. (nterin 1ay side at 1054. . =<m pro ressin south towards 8ilwau0ee. Just as =

"ocus on a si n that mar0s the e&it "rom a church sayin HJou are now enterin the mission "ieldI the son says, H7willin to die i" we must7I=t<s a secular roupNNDire -traitsDit<s probably not 0nowin ly #hristolo ical, but it e&presses a truth nonetheless. -ecular music, writin , etc. can spea0 truth. 1ut as = was sayin Da lot o" enmeshment comes "rom sinsDthat stem "rom wantin what one has not ot. =t<s a sense o" appreciation "or what one has at the moment. =T TEE) 8( : B.=@( TE R(:@=K( :2D ://R(#=:T( T.:T /.(2E8(2: . -ome o" the enmeshment = also e&perienced was due to my own sense o" want--- some o" that was instilled in meDa natural sense o" e&pectation i!en my roots, the randson o" a success"ul entrepreneur- there was a natural sense o" entitlement to his success e!en i" it was to be 5uashed o!er time--- e!ery time that sense o" entitlement arises Mto be 5uashedDthe "irst 0nee-,er0 response is an erDa sense o" sel" ri hteous an erDonce = realiGe can<t do anythin about itDe!en thou h = am ri ht, the ne&t response is ac5uiescence, and then a "eelin o" liberationDa realiGation that = do not want what = ha!en<t ot, and in some cases = do not want what = otD= don<t need it. : lot o" that sense o" HwantennessI ?ob!iously a play on wordsA comes not "rom actual need, nor natural desires, but "rom psycholo ical enmeshmentDarisin "rom a sense o" entitlement to what e!erybody else hasDor especially what one<s peers ha!e. = didn<t et enmeshed in others that way so much as much as occasionally others ot enmeshed in me that way. The mo!e to #ali"ornia in 14$4 when = was still a senior in hi h school caused some people to HwantIDsome people to loo0 upon me with en!y and perhaps e!en co!etousness. -ome o" the sense o" want normal e!en healthy . =+ you row up in west 8ichi an you 0now how lon the winters can become and the lon in "or warmth and sun. -o there was a natural sense o" lon in Dthat was healthyDthe unnatural is when it becomes en!yDwhich then "or some turned into denialDand the denial o" me. The denial o" #ali"ornia weather bein nice. :nd at the same time the "ailure to appreciate one<s own story what one hasDthe chan e o" seasons, the spaceDmuch more nei hborhood space-- , Bilshire 'lendale la0e a!enue sounds li0e southern #ali"ornia =<m on 2. @a0e in 8ilwau0ee which runs alon side @a0e 8ichi an. : truc0 with red sires oes by that says H2orth -hore +ire%RescueI. =<m still oin south on the 92. (nterin 8ilwau0ee and Bhite"ish 1ay at 1114 a.m. = really noticed a pronounced enmeshment amon st those who had the mostDthose with the most wanted moreD oin to 'randpa /eters cotta eDthey were more pic0y and upti ht about their thin s than most people = 0new with much less. Bhen somethin bro0e it was either the )o0<s or the )ammin as to blame and this was comin "rom 2ancy the second wi"e o" randpaDand the "ormer maid. -he had scored when she apparently seduced 'randpa /eters. :nd then she ac5uired a sense o" superciliousnessDand pride , and a need to

,usti"y hersel" as deser!in what she had, and simultaneously a need to ,usti"y why the 0ids "rom the "irst marria e were unworthy, . =t was all e&actly the opposite o" what we preach as #al!inists "rom the Re"ormed traditionDand the sense o" deep than0s "or e!erythin . M it<s this phenomena ---those who suddenly et a ma ni"icent i"tDwho cannot prolon a sense o" ratitude "or the i"tDthat results in a lot o" "racture, and harm to others. Bhen that sense o" sel"-,usti"ication and entitlement simultaneously leads to tryin to ne ate others entitlement, bi problems occur. :nd it<s all due to a lac0 o" raciousnessDan ability to belie!e that it is a i"tDnot somethin you earned. Mit Ps still hard "or me at times, to come into an area that = 0now = ha!e a le al entitlement toDonly to realiGe that a lot o" it has been disbursed into obli!ion because o" my rand"ather<s apparent inability to maintain a marria e that 0ept his wi"e happy. E" course you can<t re5uire the husband to be superman and ma0e e!erybody happy, especially i" somebody is clinically depressed, which may ha!e been the case with my 'randmother .elen 8ills /eters. 1ut then a ain, it mi ht not ha!e been. (nterin 1ay!iew, on the south side o" the brid e in 8ilwau0ee. : man on his motorcycle with his woman or wi"e, yelled Hdri!e it or par0 itI at me as = was dri!in down one o" the older parts o" 8ilwau0ee----That<s only the third insult =<!e had so "ar this trip. 2ot bad considerin the number o" times =<!e had to pull o!er and stop to capture somethin ?and =<m not includin the ran er incident at JellowstoneZ, which would ma0e it "our insult e&periencesA. 1asilica o" -t. Jehosophat7wowL That was incredible.. and then there was the -aint -taniclaus #atholic #hurch---wow .. Ascend Mortals to this Mountaintop, for here through Mary all shall Obtain Salvation--- one o" the 8arianic statements =<!e seen on : #atholic church--but notwithstandin thatDan incredible piece o" ecclesiastical architecture. :nd then down the street "rom that, yet another at 121* pm. En historic B. 8itchell -treet there<s -t. :nthony<s and -t. -taniclaus 1oth !ery awe-inspirin . :nd then ,ust north o" that oin down south 4th -t. -tephen @utheran #hurch, no less transcendent in the midst o" the downtrodden nei hborhood. 8any o" the houses and buildin s themsel!es had a distincti!e herita e to them. : little = come across the 'uadalupe Trinity "esti!al, and another iant church buildin . = can<t et close enou h to it to "ind out it<s name. The "atalistic tunes o" Dire -traits, combined with their sense o" somethin more than ,ust this, as = dri!in throu h 8ilwau0ee really accentuated the transcendence o" some o" the churches in 8ilwau0ee. =t was a reminder o" the immanence and transcendence o" the body o" #hrist, a !isual symbol o" which, o" course, is the church buildin . :nd then to hear the sea ulls NNNit combined the "eelin with that smalltown seashore !illa e atmosphere, a total dependence upon somethin outside one<s sel". = ramble into downtown 8ilwau0eeDthere<s the public library and the public. museum and more steeples and #athedrals--- and then = roll into 8ar5uette Qni!ersityDunbe0nownst to me that it was so

close. 2o w = did a little bit o" study concernin the Jesuits when = was in seminary and those "rom the Re"ormed tradition characteriGed them as a dan er---ori inally bein some o" the /opes stealthiest and deadliest "i hters Dthey became an institution o" their own. There are those who say they are still a dan er to /rotestantism and that their sole purpose as part o" the counter-Re"ormation is to undermine all the pro ress made by the Re"ormationDin brin in the Bord bac0 to the people "rom a top-down , control oriented #atholic church. That<s a reat simpli"ication o" the Jesuits and the #atholics, but what an institution starts out asDit will carry on, consciously or otherwise. (!en thou h at the same time = would say, perhaps impetuously, that the #atholic #hurch is better than no church at all, but not as ood as the /rotestant church. :nythin that points towards 'od = would applaud e!en i" their theolo y is incomplete. .al"-way is better than not at all. = o bac0 around Mone o" the bi buildin s is 8ilwau0ee #ity .allD they<re reconstructin the bell tower. Then = come across H.istoric .oly Trinity #hurchI at 2. 4th and 7 .(R( = -(( T.( 1R(B(R=(- TEE, there is -chlitG /ar0, and here is /abst 1lue Ribbon. There<s -t. 'eor es Ma little church-- . = turn east on to .i hland and another steeples looms--- the cross at its pea0. 7. The enmeshment oes so "ar that some "athers Hsacri"iceI their children to sa!e themsel!es. +rom .i hland comin in on a re ular basis. = o o!er one bloc0 to Juneau. :nd then bac0 to .i hland past the /abst 1lue Ribbon 1rewery, and le"t on >th street at 145 pm. = o up west 6liet -treet . :t the corner o" 2. $th and B. 6liet is -t. Johns @utheran #hurch, : couple o" 0ids are playin outside on the sidewal0. There<s a -ara @ee "actory behind the church emittin a sweet smell o" pastries bein ba0ed. This enmeshment---perhaps especially occurs amon st the industrial wor0in class crowd , perhaps because they are the wor0in class due to their inability or unwillin ness to belie!e, to belie!e that 'od doesn<t want them to li!e their li"e doin meanin less wor0. +or those who are truly unableDbecause o" lac0 o" possibilities-s lac0 o" educationDlac0 o" pri!ile es, lac0 o" callin -----in some casesDthey ne!er had the taste or opportunity and enmeshment is less li0ely, but "or those who are unwillin due to hardness o" heart to breath the "reedom o" 'od<s race and brin that li ht o" li"e to others, enmeshment may be more li0ely, because it is not due to lac0 o" ability, lac0 o" opportunity, lac0 o" talent, but laGiness and a hardenin o" the heart. =ronically, it<s some o" these who are the 5uic0est to "ind the spec0s in others---because e!en while they stay in the churchDe!en some in the #al!inist community slip into :rminianismDa rim wor0 oriented li"estyle. They choose itDand it<s not that much wor0Dit only has the appearance o" it. +or those who ha!e succumbed to :rminianismDit becomes increasin ly clear to all, includin themsel!es , that there is somethin -t. 8arcus (!an elical @utheran #hurch at 2;0> pm in the 1rewery .ill District at the corner o" 2. /almer and (. 'ar"ield , and the 8ount Kion 1aptist #hurch at the corner o" 2. 2nd and B. 'ar"ield :!e.

and the 1eauti"ul red 2ew .oly 'host Tabernacle 8issionary 1aptist #hurch across "rom it. BowL = let @ola wal0 at 229 pm.. Jou see there<s no shorta e o" 4 to 5 wor0ers who ,ust Hdo their timeI so to spea0. :lterra #o""ee Roasters i" pac0ed, across "rom the marina, at 299 pm., at 8c)inley 8arina. = o bac0 o!er the brid e, this time = don<t e&it at /ort o" 8ilwau0ee. = stay on *44 -outh and ta0e @a0e /ar0way. :s = ha!e a little time to re"lect-N- = thin0 that the Jehosophat church was mot stri0in , but that one at the endDthe red buildin Dthe .oly 'host church--, while much less costly--- with the redDthere was somethin stri0in and cheer"ul about it. =t was li0e a bur undy red wine amidst the dry white---that<s a drastic simpli"ication o" all = ,ust saw, but 7 = lea!e 8ilwau0ee and enter the #ity o" -t. +rancis :ssisi---, less steeples at a lance, but surely a "ew. This is an ob!ious suburb town that "eeds into 8ilwau0ee. Then = come to #udahy at 244 pm = pull o!er to what apparently is a "ranchiseDli0e subway but it<s called H#ousins -ubsI M = order a sea"ood sandwich "or O950.00Dit<s not a "oot lon , only * U but = ta0e it, the ser!ers are 0ind o" paleDthey don<t loo0 !ery healthy- that comes "rom the indoor li"e, and spea0in o" the indoor li"eDwhen these eastern educated and eastern raised persons come to #ali"ornia they brin their eastern ways, includin the indoor li"e, they don<t really adapt to the "act that this is a totally di""erent climate. -ure they mi ht put on their bri ht colored suits and ... the beach ri ht away, but they 5uic0ly return to the cocoons they<!e been s li!in in all their li!es. = pull intoBil-o-way 'rant par0 at 91$ pm, no par0in places. -o = 0eep oin . 2e&t dri!eway oes down to the HbeachID@a0e 8ichi an that is. There<s a "ew hearty beach oers---throu h -ummit althou h it<s really not a !ery warm dayD= suppose it seems so i" you li!e here all year round. = pass 'eneral 8itchell :ir +orce 1ase at around 94* pm and around the corner "rom that is a commercial airport with planes . =<m still in -outh 8ilwau0ee, = hit the 44 "reewayDrememberin that "rom the days o" my youthD= spent a lot o" time in western 8ichi an rowin upDwith periodic trips to #hica o Dnot much elsewhere until later in li"e. =<m approachin )enosha---the border o" =llinois---there<s "ew cheese shops, last chance to et Bisconsin cheese. . EGau0ee #ounty at 415 am. = le"t a little 1ible at the )atherine )earney #arpenter /ar0 at 109> am, it is a do par0. Two do s ,umped up on the table as = sat there. The sin er san HReady to pay with our li!es i" we mustI as = "ocus on a si n that says, HJou are now enterin the mission "ieldI at the e&it o" a church dri!eway. = pic0 up a sub at #ousins -ubs at 255 pm in #udahy. There<s a si n that says somethin about H@awsonomy.or I Bhat<s thatC = lea!e a little 1ible in a con!ertible at the cheese store in )enosha Bisconsin, @/ 4455109, at 454 pm. @ea!in )enosha countyD=<m enterin =llinois. = put a 5uart o" oil in the en ine at a )enosha as station. =sn<t there a motorcycle helmet law in =llinois, eitherC =n the news on my wireless they say that now :l [uaeda has 0idnapped three Tur0ish soldiers and are threatenin to behead them as well i" they don<t with draw "rom =ra5. The president o" Tur0ey has !owed he will not ne otiate with the terrorists. This is #oo0 #ountyC Er Du/a e #ountyC = pull into the -hell

-tation Mthin0in = would et a re-"ill at the soda "ountain, but they don<t ha!e one, >05 pm. = o throu h 8orton 'ro!e at >0*, ta0e a le"t on 49, pass the Bhite #astle restaurant at >1>---that<s somethin you don<t see in the west. = o throu h 2iles at >1* pm, and there<s a HTasty /upI. = pass a beauti"ul churchDthe #hurch o" the +ull 'ospel Mthey e!en ha!e their own pool and are connected with a monasteryDthe H/assionist 8onastery.I = ha!en<t e&perienced d too much rudeness on this entire tripDbut et a little more o" it in #hica o. -omebody yells, H@et<s oI as = ma0e what they apparently deem to be a slow turn at >99 pm. = turn on to .arlem :!e which runs a lon way throu h #hica o and it<s suburbs. There<s (lmwood /ar0 at >59. = pull into a *-11 on .arlem at *0> pm. = purchase a >4 ounce ice tea mi&ed with 'atorade. = ha!en<t seen too many *11<s this entire tripDnow =<m bac0 in a ma,or metropolitan area. = pass throu h Ri!er +orest at *15 and 1onnie 1rae ?that<s "amiliarA, and throu h the little suburb o" Ri!erside at *42. Then = o throu h -ummit and $4th street at $0> pm. There<s a cop at 40th st at $11 pm. This is (!er reen /ar0 at $21 pm. There<s a +ran0s 2urseryD= thou ht that was ,ust a west 8ichi an shop. = cruise past the H8ost .oly RedeemerI #hurch . = thin0 to mysel" as = am oin PThe De!il ne!er did li0e Jesus, did heCI = am ettin close to the area where my #al!in #olle e directory says (ric 3 :udrey )ooyer li!e. Bhy am = oin thereC Bell, = "eel li0e thin s were le"t undone when they Hbe"riendedI me durin colle e. =n "act, = came to 0now :udrey a little bit when = was in -pain "or a -emesterDshe<s "rom #anada, and "rom there = would occasionally see her bac0 around #al!in #olle e. -he went on to marry (ric )ooyerDa youn man "rom 'rand RapidsDwho went to the public schools and then #al!in #olle e. They showed up one day in southern #ali"orniaDwhen = was at #-Q@1 in the social wor0 pro ram. = treated them to dinner at a local restaurant. = had seen (ric once while = was wor0in at /ine Rest as wellDhe was doin an internship there while = was employed as a mental health wor0er. Their treatment o" meDhowe!er, = realiGed e& post "acto-o!er time was supercilious and condescendin . = sort o" re ret the amount o" time = wasted around them tryin to win them o!er to #hristDdude e!an elism in this case did not wor0. = tried to be as much o" a HdudeI as = could to win themDe!en smo0in ci arettes occasionallyD drin0in Detc. but nothin would win them o!er = realiGe now. = call in"ormation and et their phone numberD=<m connectedDa !oice answers Dsounds li0e (ric<s = han up. =<m not there to personally !isitD= ,ust had to o to the locationDwhere = would re-claim it "or Jesus #hristDand = did Dspendin the e!enin there, and in the mornin = le"t a "ew 1ibles "or them on their car windshield and wrote a note to them "rom a "ew bloc0s away which = will mail. =t e&plains to them some o" my "eelin sDsome o" my own personal and e&tended history, and my disappointment in themDand e""ecti!ely terminates any "urther relationshipDit<s a closure o" sorts. They li!e in decent area Msimilar to H.erita e .illI =n 'rand Rapids, 8ichi an where they were li!in be"ore. = wonder i" they 0ept that houseDprobably

rentin it out. = thin0 about some o" my other "ormer classmates in this area and loo0 them upD're 1ouwer is actually in =ndiana and so is Troy 8ulderDboth o" whom = would li0e to stop by, i" it Ps not too "ar away. Diane -lotema0er is now marriedD= came to #hica o one wee0end and !isited her when she was still in optometry school. -he<s ori inally "rom Ere on. =n the 2ews---John )erry has cancelled a spea0in en a ement "or a 8ayors con!entionDbecause he re"uses to cross a police pic0et line. There<s been another 8t. @ion attac0 in #ali"orniaDthis time central. They say there were 4$ deaths in schools across the country this yearDone o" the hi hest years e!er. There<s news about a man ma0in a new world record in ta0in a photo o" 2*00 nude people on @a0e (rie. 'eor e 1ush is at Dromoland #astle. Day 14, 8onday, June 2$, 2004D= wa0e up and place a couple little 1ibles on the windshields o" what = presume to be :udrey 3 (ric<s two carsDone o" them is a 6ol0swa en Jetta the other is a white #hrysler !an. 545 am. = wal0 down the bloc0 and bac0Dproclaimin the area "or Jesus #hristL Then = lea!e--- it starts to rainD= am lad = wrapped those 1ibles in plastic. : si n says P.istoric 1e!erly .ills 8or an /ar0IDit<s not on the map , must be ,ust a local name "or the nei hborhood. = drop a letter to :udrey 3 (ric "rom Throop and B 45th -t. at *41 a.m. There<s the third 1aptist #hurch o" #hica o. 6ander /oel humanities academyDa public school. :nd -. 6anderpoel :!e. -. Damen :!e. =t was a humid, mu y ni ht. : tiny little si n says H#elebratin #hica o<s 1un alowsI. This is the bun alow districtC 1e!erly :rts #enter. -o (ric0 3 :udrey li!e on the south side o" #hica o--- east o" 1lue =sland . :s best as = can tell they li!e in the /alos .ills or /alos .ei hts area. Then = pic0ed up a soda re"ill at the shell on 45 hwy ,ust o"" the 5* "reeway. :s ar was the attendant-- O1.2* "or a re"ill. =<m loo0in "or a buildin called the HEld -tone #hurchI Mit<s on the map so it must be somethin at least a little si ni"icant. :pproachin Erland /ar0 $54 am ..%% -topped at (instein<s ba els at 405 am. Bill #ounty at 420 am past the Eld Ea0 #ountry #lub at 424 am ------------------past the /alos #ommunity .ospital. =t<s supposed to be in @emontDapproachin = see se!eral steeples and pass by a number o" them NNthere<s at least ei ht ob!ious steeples in the town, but = don<t "ind the Eld -tone #hurch ri ht away. = pass o!er the brid e seein somethin in the distance that = thin0 may be the Eld -tone #hurch, but it turns out to be a .indu Temple. = turn in and obser!e itDit<s a piece o" architectural wor0, "or the wron reason. 1ut as =<!e said be"oreDmost reli ion, e!en i" wron ly directed, is better than no reli ion at all. = lea!e a little 1ible on the windshield o" a car, hopin = can reach someone with the truth and the ood news at 459 a.m. = turn bac0 and o o!er the brid e a ainDis this the Des /laines Ri!erC This time = "ind the Eld -tone #hurchDit<s a museum as well , and commemorates, in part, bein used as a depot durin the #i!il Bar. = o throu h the little town o" Darien at 10F11 a.m. = o throu h the little town

o" @isle at 1025 am. Then = "ind Bheaton #olle e at 11 a.m. =t<s in the little town o" Bheaton. There<s nearby 8orton :rboretum. = circle the colle eD it<s a well maintained, but note o!erly stately campus. =t<s not !ery bi . There<s a "ew summer studentsDactually about twenty or soDdoin some sort o" warm-up to etherD,umpin ,ac0s and chants o" some sort. = wonder to mysel" who or what was HBheatonIDand remind mysel" to loo0 that up sometime. = head bac0 east towards the la0eD oin throu h @ombard at 1120. There<s a 6illa /ar0 here tooDwhen = thin0 o" 6illa /ar0 as well as Bheaton = thin0 o" +ran0 +reed who attended Bheaton and now li!es in 6illa /ar0, #:. Downtown #hica o<s s0yline be ins to emer e at around 119$. = see -. .alsted at 1220, and thin0 maybe = should o try to "ind Diane -lotema0erDor at least obser!e where she li!es or li!edDor is listed as ha!in li!ed. =t<s on .alstead. = remember that "rom the directory yesterday. 1ut it<s 2. .alsted so = ha!e to ramble throu h the town and all the tra""ic si nals to et there, but it doesn<t ta0e lon and i!es me another perspecti!e on the city. = chec0 the door to see i" either her married name or maiden name is listed but = see neither. = "i ure she must be lon one. -he<s "rom Ere on ori inally---maybe she mo!ed bac0 west. 1ut then = "i ured :udrey 3 (ric would be lon one too, but their still in #hica o. = 88 -t. 8ichaels #athedral---same time HDon<t you 0now tilin about a re!olution7I by T. #hapman, at 1244 pm Balter /ayton #olle e /rep .i h -chool at 1252 on 2orth Bells -t. as enter downtown with s0yscrapers in "ront o" me, headin south, and ,ust down the street "rom the 8oody 1ible =nstitute. :n ry ta&i man at B. Entario ?CA and 2. Bells -t. ---a"ter = stuc0 my middle "in er at him because he was hon0in , ob!iously obser!in my #ali"ornia plate. That<s the 1*th #hurch o" #hrist, -cientist at 105 pm and the .otel *1 and other side o" street the #hica o -un Times. -outh -hore #ultural #enter at 194 pm. /ast Rainbow 1each /ar0 at 141 pm. 2ew -piritual @i ht 1aptist #hurch on -outh -hore Dri!e at 14* p.m. 1eauti"ul lar e church at -outh -hore 3 (. $9rd st. =n "act it is another -t. 8ichaels. @ittle town o" Bhitin at 212 pm. =n Bhitin a i antic #athedral with no identi"ication mar0s but across "rom it is a -t. John<s center ---so it may be -t. John<s cathedral. realiGe as = lea!e that = still ha!e to ma0e a payment on a credit card and loan be"ore the end o" the monthDit<s with the /asadena +#Q, but they don<t accept phone paymentsDat least not "or the loan, and "or the credit card it must be co!ered by one<s ban0 accountDnamely the one with the /+#QDwhich = don<t use much and doesn<t ha!e enou h balance to pay the minimum payment. -o = call /+#Q and tal0 to 1asil at 259, and as0 them what they recommend , thin0in maybe = could wire the payment to them, but they said they don<t do that. -o = sayDthere<s nothin else = can do but mail itDhope that it will ma0e it on time. = tell him to ma0e a . = pull into a business area and withdraw a "ew hundred "rom the :T8. Then = o to the post o""ice, purchase a money order, prepare it---and mail it out. 'ary, =ndiana is an old steel townDhome o" Q.-V -teel amon other companies. =t<s 0nown "or not smellin too ood---it<s a wor0in class town,

but it has impro!ed aesthetically o!er the years. There<s a nice minor lea ue baseball par0 thereDcalled the steel Jard. There<s a nice loo0in la0e or ri!er in one part o" the city. =s racism the number one sin, = as0 mysel" as = stand in the post o""ice. =t<s mostly :"rican :mericans in thereDall o" them slow and deliberate in what they do. =T TEE) me a while to "ind the post o""iceD= had pulled throu h the 8cDonalds and bou ht two O1.00 "ish "ilets---and as0ed the al there where the /E was but the directions she a!e me didn<t et me there, so = as0ed a ainDthis time = ot a little closerDat least close enou h so that = could "ind it mysel". = lea!e the /E at 412 pm. = i!e a ood natured wa!e to a "ellow in his carDand = o east on 12.. stoppin at a little nature area to stretch out. :s = am lea!in another car pulls up and the man wal0s by. = lea!e there at 492 and pass by Q.-. -teel at 494. =<m in the little town o" /orter by 49> pm. FF= remind mysel" to "ile an (DD claim sometime this wee0. = pass throu h 8ichi an #ity at 50> pm. There<s a P1lue #hip #asino H in the water--- a cruise ship made into an apparently permanently doc0ed casino. =t is now 540 pm. = pass throu h 2ew bu""alo at >0> pm. = thin0 to mysel" about /ro"essor 1aronDpeople who ne!er chan e themsel!es cannot see chan e in others. =t<s hard to ima ine "or some people Mthat which they themsel!es are notDor cannot do or beDperhaps especially, i" not solely, "or non-#hristians. #hristians , at least, learn how to step out o" their own shoes 7=<m still on @a0e -horeDor 12 . There<s #apoGios /iGGa. There<s .arbert at >2$, and Joe Jac0son<s +ruit -tand where Julia 3 )e!in :nderson used to own a little con!enience store. This may actually be the Red :rrow .i hway. = pass by a buildin callin itsel" a car museum o" sorts---they say they ha!e the ori inal 'eneral @ee "rom Du0es o" .aGGard, a tele!ision show. =<m playin the opera PTommyI by the Bho or some o" the members o" the Bho7Isee me7heal me. 7touch me, 7"eel meee7I = pass by the Donald #oo0 nuclear power plant--- at >51 pm. Then there<s a house by the side o" the road with rass and bushes rowin on top o" it--- literally or seemin ly with roots rowin strai ht down into the roo" area. = o throu h -horeham at *05 pm then = pass Dic0inson -tadium at *1$ pm . There<s Julie at*21 on .oward -t. the adopted )orean al is out in "ront with her. =t<s a touchin moment. = don<t stop because = don<t want her to see me, so = dri!e by and as best as = can tell she didn<t e!en loo0 up. There<s a dairy cream or some sort o" ice cream shop around the corner. There<s a si n that says somethin about HEld -t. Joseph 2ei hborhood. There<s the beach, somethin re"erred to as +ort 8iami, . = see se!eral churches includin a #R# and = pass throu h an ad,acent city or !illa e by the name o" @incoln as = am sur!eyin the area. ---= continue north and arri!e in -t. Joseph 8ichi an in the early e!enin hours on 8onday, = circle around the town and sur!ey the churches, there<s "air amount o" them here.

Day 15, Tuesday, June24, 2004 .: best as = can tell so "arDthey dri!e a old #amry and a old Tahoe.. there<s an alleyDha!in roo"in done. They ha!e a red house. : second pass at >99 am throu h the alley and there was TT9 apparently wrin in somethin outDa towel on her head. = -lept in -t. Joseph, 8ichi an. -ent letter the ne&t mornin to TT94 "rom a mailbo& at /ar0 3 8aine at *05 a.m. = san /salm 49 at *40 on the shore o" @a0e 8ichi anDnear -t. Joseph. = continue north past 6itales mar0et at *4$, 6an 1uren #ounty, past the #ritical dunes, at *51 am. /ast 6an 1uren -tate par0. De randchamps blueberries at $0*. -outh .a!en at $10. /ast the 8aritime 8useum at $14am. 1eware o" satanic le alism = thin0 to mysel". = pass throu h 'lenn, 8ichi an at $9>. = ta0e (&it 94 towards +enn 6alley 6ineyardDthou ht maybe =<d see what a 8ichi an !ineyard loo0s li0eDit<s only a "ew miles. There<s the +enn 6alley BineryD= don<t< thin0 o" wine when = thin0 o" 8ichi an but they say on their si n that they%re one o" the best. = see the rape!ines, but the tour hours are "or later in the day. There<s a little so-called monastery alon side the road nearby---calls itsel" the 6i!e0ananda 8onastery at 402. =<m in 'an es, 8ichi an. . There<s the )alamaGoo Ri!er. =t<s pretty bi . 425 a.m. = 0eep oin . = enter -au atuc0 at 42$ am. There<s a si n ad!ertisin an arts "air on July 9. There<s a house with a water mil turnin bris0lyDloo0s li0e it<s ,ust "or whoDsays /eterson 8ill on it. There<s a lar e steamship in the water thereDas = et closer the si n says H-teamship 8useumI at 440 am. = o past -au atuc0 #R# and a dune ride place. = didn<t 0now -au atuc0 had dune rides. There<s 'ibson #R# at 100*. = use my 8icroso"t map point technolo y to locate 1ob )ool<s house. .e li!es on 1lue Jay @ane not "ar "rom @a0e 8acatawa. .e dri!es two older model .onda-s .. "ittin ly humble "or a #al!in #olle e #al!inist. 1ut the house is nice, stately e!enD"or a middle school teacher. ...ass by it and then par0 o!er by 1lac0 @a0e and type up a little note to him. Then = dri!e onDthere<s 8ontebello #R#. = drop the letter to 8r. )ool in a bo& at 115> at the post o""ice in .olland. Then = dri!e down towards .olland -tate par0Dand pull into the little airport alon the way to chec0 on somethin D= uess = must ha!e sat in the empty par0in lot too lon "or the com"ort o" somebody insideDa lady came wal0in out a"ter a while and = dro!e o"" be"ore she could et to my car. , presumably to tell me to lea!e. = et a loo0 at the .olland @i hthouse at 11* pm.. = don<t o in because = don<t want to stay that lon and = O$.00 is too much "or a 5uic0 ride throu h. = dri!e down @a0e -horeDand stop at Tunnel /ar0DwowDit has chan ed tooDa new dri!eway and a entrance ateDand you ha!e to pay-- O9.00 to o to Tunnel /ar0 1eachDyou ne!er had to pay be"ore. = o down a little "urtherDand turn down the dri!eway ne&t to the /eters at 9>$ @a0eshoreD the Bestrates and the @o ans dri!ewayD they<!e been there ,ust as lon or lon er. = want to ma0e sure nobody is there so = don<t et the e!il eye "rom anyone "or Htrespassin .I = don<t see any cars--- there<s a new dec0 out in bac0, the trampoline isn<t up as it used to be in the summer. (!erythin else is about the same. = dri!e up the 1os<s dri!e way on the other side ,ust to

ma0e sure nobody is there Mthere<s no si n o" mo!ement. 2o cars. -o = dri!e up the /eters dri!eway "or brie" "oota eDcapturin HQncle JoesI cotta e and wonder i" :unt #hris is still ali!e. Then = turn around and = lea!e a @ittle .oly 1ible on the post at the end o" the dri!eway at 19* pm . -omebody will "ind it sooner or later. 145 pm lady o" the @a0e #atholic church 152nd and James street headin east on James. = dri!e bac0 into .olland and stop by 1ob )o0<s houseD1ob )o0 is the oldest son o" -herwood )o0, my dad<s brother. .e is married to #indy De6ries and has se!eral 0idsDthe names and a es o" which = do not 0now. 1;4* p.m. = o by /eace @utheran church. Then = o past Julie 1owman<s house which is bac0 by the airport---Julie 1owman = 0now "rom all the way "rom ,unior hi hDand then when = did my student teachin at .olland #hristian 8iddle she was teachin o!er at the hi h schoolDand durin this time = heard a little ne ati!ityDapparently ossip comin "rom herDas best as = could tell , she bein the only person = 0new at either school prior to comin there. Bhate!er she said about me it was repeated by a student in my classDand so = suspected it was comin "rom herDso = wrote a letter to address thatDten years or so later. = told her about my theolo y or missiolo y that when = was youn er attempted to be"riend the Hbad 0idsI "or #hristDun"ortunately sometimes these bad 0ids a!e me a bad name ,ust by associationDand that was un"ortunateDbecause = was not one o" themDbut = was close to them. Thin0in ri htly or wron ly that it was a ood thin to do to try to disciple them. Today, = realiGe that no matter how reat, stron , power"ul, or well-intended you areDi" a person is not HelectI --all the ood intentions and e""orts in the world wont chan e him or her.. and there<s the dan er o" them chan in you. -o = said to hereDit<s the end o" dude e!an elism "or meDe!en thou h occasionally it<s still e necessary. = drop the letter to Julie 1owman at 22* pm. :nd then = o bac0 in the direction o" -au atuc0, but stop at Biersma "ood store alon the wayD"or some bread, cheese , meat and mustard. Tammy is the cler0 Mshe<s a sassy little alDbut is decent, i" not e&actly racious. = reach -au atuc0 at 54* and a"ter ettin as and dealin with the H=s that all "or yourI 5uestion "rom the cler0, ---- = told her = am on the road so o"ten = want to turn the H=s that all "or you Hcanned response o""D= 0now what it means, it<s their le al way o" co!erin themsel!es in case a customer stu""s somethin n their poc0et and wal0s out with itDshe can say that they a""irmati!ely told her that they didn<t ha!e anythin else there by ne atin a H= "or otI plea i" cau ht shopli"tin . =<!e been a cler0 too. = dri!e down the road and let my do outDthere<s a do par0 o" all thin s in a wooded areaDin a countryside areaDwhich stri0es me as stran e because the only other places =<!e seen do par0s has been in southern #ali"orniaD and that<s because o" con estionDdo s need a place to roamDhere in the country there<s plenty o" places "or the do s without a do par0. = let @ola wander somewhere else Min a little wooded area with a turn o"" while = loo0 "or somethin in the bac0. B- Bhen she comes bac0 = roan. she rolled in

somethin a ainDshe has a habit o" rollin in smelly thin sD"or some reasonDthis time she has blac0 stu"" on her and smells horrible. = ha!e not yet "i ured out what the hec0 this stu"" is that she<s rollin in but it stin0sDis it road 0illC = 0now why she does itDit<s the hunter instinctDtry to smell as much li0e that which you are huntin so as not to betray your presence. -he<s a hunter at heart--- do s are li0e wol!es and coyotesDonly mostly domesticated, but not completely. = et really an ry this time. = don<t< want her in my car smellin li0e thatD= yell, = e!en 0ic0 at her a "ew timesDit<s pent up an erDprobably not totally at herDbut in partDsometimes = thin0 besides bein "un to ha!e around sheXs totally dependent.. and can do no "a!ors "or me. Bell, = dump a little water o!er herDand rub some shampoo on her but it doesn<t helpD= ha!e to et a hose or et her to the la0eDso = dri!e towards the bi la0e and throu h -au atuc0 a ain and "ind a place called Dou las 1each. :lon the way = disco!er a place called the castle or somethin li0e thatDit<s a pri!ate area , beauti"ul, no uards or chec0pointD,ust a lot o" si ns sayin Hpri!ateID= loo0 aroundDand then lea!e. Dou las 1each is a nice little beachpar0Dand = let @ola swim "or a while rubbin more shampoo on to her and then lettin her chase a stic0 into the water to rinse o"". (!en with that thou h threes still some smell to her when we et bac0 to the car.. = dump more water and shampoo on her and "inally she smells better. = dry her o"" and on we o. : man with a wetsuit on does a double ta0e at me.. = nod and say hello. 1ac0 down the blue -tar .i hway and past the steamship the steamship museum. = o past the Tulip #ity airportDnot the one o!er by @a0e 8acatawa. :nd then = pass by .olland #hristian middle -choolDwhere = did my student teachin Donly it<s not .olland #hristian 8iddle anymoreDit<s -outh -hore 8iddle -chool *04 pm There<s +aith #R# at *19 pm = drop the letter to 1ob )o0 in the mail at *20 and turn toward Ns Keeland by *94. there<s a nice #R# M1st #R# on #entral in Keeland. = can<t belie!e how lon the line is at the little dairy 5ueen ice cream shop---it<s li0e a line to et into a bi e!entDthat<s the bi e!ent "or them in the e!enin in the little town o" KeelandDthe ice cream parlor. = notice they are buildin hospital in KeelandDKeeland #ommunity .ospitalDthe little town is rowin . There<s 1ea!erdam #R# :nd = ma0e it to .udson!ille at $15 pm. = dri!e by the house which is listed in the 'R#. directory as bein where Tim )we0el li!es. = 0new Tim in hi h school and !isited him once in -an Die o Mand dro!e bac0 with him "rom there to 'rand Rapids in his 2o!a. = ha!enXt heard or seen "rom him much at all in many years, but wanted to see i" there was any si n o" him i" = passed by. The house was empty and no si n o" li"eDso = ,ust 0ept oin . ThereXs a new mall oin up in the area as well--actually its< already upDthereXs a 8arshall +ields store and !arious others. $94 pm 2e&t stop is @isa )or"<Xs house in 'rand!ille, 8ichi anD= 0new @isa )or" o"" and on throu h hi h school and saw her a little bit here and there durin colle e. -he was s cute as a buttonD conser!ati!e, strai ht laced..and she e!en twirped me onceDmeanin in hi h school the al as0s the boy out.. it was a nice dateDnot much too it. = ne!er 0new what to ma0e o" her because she was always so closely attached to one

o" the bas0etball players in a rade abo!e us-= ne!er really "elt as i" she were truly interested in anybody elseDe!en i" she toyed with the idea. = didn<t li0e bein toyed with thou h. -o nothin really occurred between us at allD throu h hi h school or colle eDat one point = did as0 her outDin colle e but she turned me down. -o that was the end o" thatDand = only saw her once moreDthat was at Dou )osters "uneralD= had "lown bac0 "rom #ali"ornia "or that "uneralDand she showed up. -o = went to a little ca"W with herDand that was itDshe was still ob!iously attached to this other uyDand didn<t 0now how to or want to brea0 away. Bell, there< their house on @oc0eDit<s a middle class nei hborhoodDcemetery at one end o" the streetDan elementary school at the other. Tim )aGber ers photo raphy, .ar!est Road, =!an rest Road, Tom KandeeXs name on a real estate si n. /rairie Road. 8ostly humble middle and e!en lower class houses. and then turn on to 2$th st. 2ow 2$th st in 'rand Rapids is probably the best 0nown streetDit<s one lon stretch o" stores, restaurants and e!ery 0ind o" business you can ima ine. =<m loo0in "or 8i0e Baal0es house, but = turn the other way the wron wayDnot "ollowin the map point technolo y<s directions correctly. =nstead = loo0 "or )eith -teensmaXs houseDat least the address they a!e me in in"ormationDhe<s listed as still li!in at his parents houseDbut there<s a ). -teensma somewhere elseDnot sure i" that<s him or not. There<s Q-rent it Da business owned at one time perhaps still is by 1ob 'eGon, the "ormer husband o" Judy 'eGon nd "riends o" my dadDat least they were "riends be"ore the di!orce. = thin0 o" the !arious "riends o" JimDand the "act that at least two o" them ended in di!orce7= ne!er realiGed how liberal Jim wasDor how liberal his "riends were-. = o past a H.ahn in #R#I .. ne!er heard o" that one be"ore. 8i0e Baal0es li!es at 2>20 Randall :!e. in Bal0er, 8ichi an. There<s the #R# head5uarters with a new si n at 2$th 3 )alamaGoo. There<s a new D 3 B at 52nd and 1retonDD 3 B is a "ood chain in Best 8ichi anDor aleast in 'rand Rapids. :nd = "ind Joel .o an<s house on [ueensberry #t. -eDa spacious com"ortable home. 459 pm. =<m about ready to sleep "or the e!enin . = o down the street pic0 up a sodaD and "ind a place to nape "or the e!enin . @ots to do tomorrow. Tuesday e!enin June 24, 2004 Mtal0in about -cott /eterson caseDhe tal0ed how he would murder somebody i" he had toDand a se ment about 8achu /icchu becomin an endan ered area due to tourism. Day 1> Bednesday, June 90, 2004---Day 1>, @etter to Joel .o an *92 am "rom )alamaGoo and 52nd. .b "or 'ary 3 -hirley at *55 am "rom their house on Ra!ine 6istaDa new area condominiums all attached, immaculate , sanitary, steriliGed. 1arb 1. a cashier at the new D 3 B center at 44th \3 1reton and also dropped the letter to 'ary 3 -hirley in the bo& at $91 a.m. :lso le"t a little .1 in the bo& at 'ary \ -hirley<s at *5* am. ?repeatA. Rac5uetball /lus is oneDit<s now the Bood -ourceDit<s chan ed so many times but it was always a health club, now it<s not7#ourthouse (ast, 24th -t. +itness, etc. The little /# shop is oneDwhere = bou ht that ori inal @aptop, now there<s a ba el beanery.. and there<s a Bendy<s at 2$th 3 1reton, the

8r. +ables is one. ---88-1ar"ield Dri!eDnear 1reton and 1urton%%%%.ope Re"ormed #hurch at the corner o" 1urton 3 )alamaGoo at 4;00 a.m. (astern -t. .ouse at 10;90 am----our "irst house in 'rand Rapids. /ast the old (n elhard house , and De,on house, and 1os0er house, and 1oorsma .ouse, and Baal0es house, and :l er school at 10;94 a.m. @etter to 1yles and to 1020 'riswold -t at 11;29 am "rom near the 1utternut 1a0ery, now = am passin throu h the cemetery where Dou )osters was buried. /assed by the old 2092 )alamaGoo house. @etter to D. (n elhard -r. at 1;10 pm, "rom #ascade. 1uccaneer Dr *>4$ 8aracaibo shoresDblac0 -Q6, blac0 do , se!eral "la sDpond and "ountain down the road. #ompleted letter to )orhorn at 204 pm oin east on #ascade Road. :da 1ible #hurch at 20$ pm. (nterin =onia #ounty at 21* pm. Epened /.E. 1o& at 9 p.m. at #lar0s!ille, 8=. Dropped note to TT5> at 4 p.m. @etter to )orhorn dropped at 92* pm. 'oin down :lpine :!e. Jac0 D. .olwerda is listed at >54$ 6inta e Dr. 'eor e town TownshipDpart o" Jenison. 88 the B@:6 si n. There<s a new de!elopment by TT5>7.2ow = am loo0in "or Jerome -len0<s house at 440 pm = "ound Jerome -len0s at 445 pm . :n -Q6 Edyssey and a #ou ar with a #ou ar stic0er on the bac0 in the dri!ewayD0ids toys scattered around the "ront. Dwayne Thiel0e went to 'R#. --<55. BowL .e<s still in TaclobanC /ast [ui le @a0e at 592 pm. There<s -now #ommunity #hurch at 59> pm . The Theule house at 542 pm :da Township, letter to Jerome -len0 dropped at >0* pm Did :mway chan e their name to :lticorC .ow come it<s not there anymoreC = o past the J8#: at >21 p.m. in #ascade. /ass #al!in #olle e at $05 pm. Jur ens 3 .ol"luwer is one. Ene hal" o" the -eymour -chool comple& is now a church. #oo0s is oneDor mo!edDthey mo!ed down the street. -leep at (d elawn.

Day 1* Thursday, July 1, 2004 88---man listenin to prayer radio..at as station, in 1yron #enter. HJesus is @ord o" :ll H at the )ooi0er homeDin the window. 1ec0y at post o""ice Msaid she used to li!e in #oloradoDH-o you<re onna be a ran er ehCI 1yron #enter at 411 a.m. @etter to ran ers at 4;00 am "rom the 1yron #enter /ost o""ice. #ompleted letter to 1rin0s at 451 a.m. #ompleted @etter to 8r. 1rowerD1110 a.m. and past 6andersloot house at 11;10 a.m. %%IICCRe"ill at 1uchanan and 9>th "or *$ cents. 'odwin .ei hts #R# at 1125 a.m. Qnion -tation a0es the hi hway nicer. #ruise on the 'rand @ady, cops at 1155. #o!enant #hristian hi h -chool at 1154. Day 9 in 'rand RapidsDwow. Remembrance #hurch at 1210 in Bal0er. To 8r. 1rower at 111 pm. = "ound /ine Dunes 3 6inta e on the map. There<s a /onderosa Restaurant at 114 pm. =<m on @eonard at 121 pm. @ea!enrest at 195 pm. #al!in #hristian .i h -chool at 141. Baal0es con"irmed at 151 pm on EcontoL JesL .e has at least two 0ids. = didn<t 0now 8i0e was so close to the )or"sD,ust around the corner. 1arry #apel Real (state at 901 pm

@etter to :ndy De!ries at 445 pm "rom Jenison /ost o""ice. 2ot 'uilty to District #ourt Mpriority with con"irmation. #ompleted @etter to @isa )or". E""ice 8a& at >15 pm. /almer /ar0 at >91 pm. -o 1rian )o0 li!es in a newer area with condominiums and a !iew o" the #hurch at one end o" the street. The /ines 'ol" #ourse ,ust around the corner at 52nd and ?= swat a mos5uito on my computer screen as = am typin Dit must ha!e already otten me cause there<s blood in itA, 1i0ini al at >55 pmD8ichi an irls are di""erent about the way they wear their bathin suitsDdi""erent than #ali"ornia irls there<s somethin almost na0ed about the way they wear themDsome o" them whereas #ali"ornia irls are more HnaturalIDit<s probably because 8ichi an irls can only wear their bathin suits or shorts three or "our months o" the yearDcom"ortably only two or three. /ast /almer /ar0 a ain oin east on 52nd. #ompleted the 1rian )o0 letter at *52 pm . Dropped the letter to )or" and 1rian )o0 at $02 pm "rom 52nd and (astern. = as0 mysel" Dhow do these cler0s, con!enience store cler0sDwith little education maintain poise and controlC =t<s because o" their hi conte&t !isual orientationDand so you ha!e to "i ht "ire with "ireD ettin them under !isual control as wellDthat<s somethin they don<t e&pectDnor realiGe is happenin . :nd then there<s e!an elicalDcontrolDsendin them sac0s.. = pass by Julius \ 8arilyn )osters house at $9* pm and ta0e a picture o" itD it<s an enormous chan e "rom their house on 1urtonDwhich was a run down old houseDspacious but still ramshac0leDno bi deal to me = 0ind o" li0e that settin Dit<s not pretentiousDbut = remember it bothered Dou Dhe was always complainin that his dad<s partner li!ed much more nicely in Jenison. = pass by the 'erald +ord :irportDor )ent #ounty :irportDwhen did they name it the 'erald +ord :irportC = notice that the old 8r. +ables is oneDnow it<s a 2ew 1e innin s restaurant one o" at least "our that =<!e seen around the city. Thin s that bothered me todayD1ec0y at the post o""ice sayin H-o you<re oin to be a ran er huhC H :nd her snippety e&chan eD= used to li!e in #olorado tooDapparently she was "rom here with that in"eriority comple& that seems to stri0e some o" the 'rand RapidiansD= thin0 =<ll send her a letter. -addam .ussein had his "irst appearance in #ourt, declarin that he is the /resident o" =ra5, sayin this is all about theatre "or 1ush. #assini /robe doin e&actly what it<s supposed to says 2:-:8.%%8an with a 8illion pennies in @os :n eles. -pain is proposin to double their troops in :" hanistan. , perhaps a diplomatic esture "or heir planned pullout o" =ra5. -lept by #astle 1lu""D*-11---new condominium comple& Day 1$ +riday, July 2, 2004----ome come to west 8ichi anDmaybe e!en some pro"essorsDbecause they thin0 it<s a Hso"tI areaDbut those who row up "rom within don<t want thatDthey ha!e a tou her mindset. 1e00er has a red !an with two tone door, that says @udin ton #hristian :cademy on it, and a blue Eldsmobile =ntri ue, and another !ehicle in the ara e. Then =

went to 8ichelle :l"erin0s, Richard Ettes<, #al 6an Re0ens<, /aul Die0emas house by 'ar"ield par0 ,ust around the corner "rom -te!e 1rin0s. -ent the :pol letter at 1025. Ric0 8innemas house at 1119 a.m. , red ,eep, blue !an bi lot. )urt /"a""<s old house at 1152 , (rin (n elhard<s house by (asttown , )risti )ooistras house on Bealthy, :udrey 6an Eens old house at 1190, and John 6an Een ri ht around the corner on :uburn, oooped at par0 at 122>, , Reply 1rie" due :u ust 19..they ot another e&tension. . = helped a boy ,ump his motorcycle in @owell. 8y thin s were not at the post o""iceD:ndy had not deli!ered them yet . .e is one until the >th accordin to the receptionist at his law o""ice. -he said it loo0s li0e he chec0ed in yesterdayDthou h. . .mmDi" soDthat ma0es me suspicious. = TQR2 TEB:RD- @owell :T 214 /8 :ndy<s personal secretary is also one. = see a deer at 252p m, allopin . = pass by Da!id Theule<s house at 915 pm on 8urray @a0e. :t 95* pm =<m at the )in0os on 2$th street, and = "a& in the (DD "orm. :t 405 "rom the same place. .ouseman "ield at 559 .i hland par0 at >95 pm with pool. /arish o" the .oly -pirit at >44. 1land"ord 2ature #enter at * pm. . 'ri""eons at *0> pm70ids in "ront.. = realiGed how Hsoutheast sidedI = had become rowin up in Best 8ichi an , not lea!in my "riends "rom that side, all the way throu h colle e7.There<s west side #hristian and Qnion .i h -chool, "irst time seein 6an :ndel #enter, there<s another 2ew 1e innin s RestaurantDmust ha!e replaced many o" the 8R. +ables. /ast -unshine #R# and 1lic0leys at $5>. .istoric #annon Township at 412 pm. , Towards #anonsbur s0i resort. . =n the news 8arlon 1rando died. #amp Ro ers at 44* pm, Day 14 -aturday, July 9, 2004----@etter to 'reenway at *24 a.m. -tea0 n -ha0e apparently is a new chain in west 8ichi an. = "ound Jac0 Jr.<s apartment comple&Dat Jor0 #ree0Ddon<t 0now i" he still li!es there. =t<s in #omstoc0 /ar0. = pass by Johnson /ar0 at 101* a.m. 1lasphemy occurs when you call that which is ood, badF or you characteriGe somethin ood as bad "or your own personal sel"-ser!in moti!es. = see that as ha!in happened in west 8ichi anDe!en amon st those = was tryin to disciple and lead to #hristDthey did it to meDblasphemed meDnot 0nowin what they were doin , not understandin what = was doin Donly ood. =n the short run this is ad!anta eous to themDand at the e&pense o" others, but in the lon run it ma0es thin s worse "or them, it ma0es them impotent. : lot o" these 0ids who rew up here and ne!er le"t are li!in completely on !isual, spatial, and eometric cuesDwhich e!entually will collapse in on themD because it i nores the in!isible or pretends to i nore it. , and the in!isible is so much more si ni"icant than the !isible. They thin0 they can pretend only that which they see e&ists, but e!en some H#hristiansI are only "oolin themsel!es in that re ard. Qn"ortunately, in too many cases it will be the 0ids who pay. = "ound the Rachel )or" house on -haron st. ,ust o"" 2$ th st. almost a lower class, wor0in class area, little houses.. a pet shop at the end o" the roadDsays Hpi s earsI on it. Rachel )or" at 1092 am. :n :uto Kone around the corner.. The Taco 1ell went out o" business. : police o""icer with his

radar. Bhy so many churches "or the #R#C 1ecause those who attend are so oodC Er not so oodC =ma ine oin to a hospital all your li"e---without e!er bein releasedDchurch is a hospital Mshould be sendin people out, not 0eepin them "or perpetual obser!ation. (ast on 2$th -t. past 1oston 8ar0et, )entuc0y +ried #hic0en, Ene .our 8artiniGin , /eter 1ilt, 8ac Truc0s, there<s a )ia :uto , approachin a mo!ie theatre comple& by the name o" -tudio 2$. .'re .eynen house at 11;00 a.m. There<s )eeler 1rass ri ht down the street. 2aturalism operates on the premise that you ha!e to de"eat others in order to impro!e yoursel!es. 1ecomin a #hristianDtruly rowin in #hristDshow that you<re able to comprehend the bi pictureD#ompleted .enry 1aron @etter at 190 p.m. @ola out "or wal0 became a mess o" stic0y thin s.. so = went to the /et -martDthen = was loo0in "or a post o""iceDon 44thDheadin that way, aborted Mand went to )in0os to ma0e copies. Then = went to the 44th -t. /ost o""ice at 912 p.m $9 cent posta eDbrushed @ola and cleaned her up. 914 pm headin towards Tom 3 8el!a /osts house on 8enominee near 1urton and /lymouth, around the corner "rom 'R#.. 1retonDby 2$th still a terrible roadDthey<re repa!in but it<s still bad as it always has been. The dan er includes assumin those at the colle e are #hristianDthat was an assumption = held---thin0in e!erybody at the colle e are ood, "aith"ul, 'od "earin , Jesus lo!in #hristians. = "ound Tom /osts house at 945 p.m. = completed the letter at 4 pm. = passed by Ric0 De6ries house at 492 pm. = sent the letter to Tom /ost and /ro"essor 1aron at 949 pm "rom 1reton 6illa e. = included 'reat @a0es -hippin #ompany in the "oota e indicatin that Ric0 De!ries ?#al!in /ro"essorA was also a bartender there. 2ow = pass by Duane .eerin a<s and Jon 8uller<s house. Duane is on 8ul"ordDdown the road "rom the 6andersloots and almost ,ust across "rom the old .olwerda house. Eld )ent 1an0 is now 5th 9rd 1an0. = pass by the .eerin as house at 515 pm. Duane .eerin a was a roommate o" my older brother :ndrew, and = li!ed with them too "or a little while, on 2oble -treet and on Bealthy at one point. .e was a !ery platonic person at the time . 2ow he<s married and may ha!e 0ids, = see a "ew 0ids in the dri!eway and what loo0s li0e a mother. = o past the old 'eGon house , and past the old Kwaanstra house, /ast 8i0e<s :unt Dots house on 1illintau. = pass /am Balcotts houseDwith whom somebody said :ndy had a "lin at one time. Then = o past the old Boodland -0atin 3 Tennis #enterDwhich is no lon er either. =t apparently is now a i antic shoppin centerD.ispanic. There<s a person with a barbe5ue by the entrance. 542 pm . #ompleted letter to 8el .u en at *0* pm . There is no 8ar0 /eters listedD= ha!e no idea where he li!es. There<s a )rispy )reme here too. Thorn :pple Ri!er at *4* pm. -omebody hon0s at me at . There<s a nice pond at #aledonia #R# at *54. 8iddle!ille at $11 pm. = pass by -chrotenboers house on the ri!erD what ri!er is thatC 2ow =<m lea!in 8iddle 6ille and arri!e at #ampau @a0e at 421 pm. = trans"er the !ideo data "rom tape to d! hard dri!e, hearin the "irewor0s o!er the la0eD0ids are playin with themDit<s not 4th o" July yet, but there<s a "ew pre-4th o" July -howsD= can see somethin in the distance tooDli htin up the s0y. = need a new patch cord "or trans"errin

dataDthis connection is ettin looser all the time. =t<s startin to rain. = close the windows. = be in to doGeDthin0in =<m o0ay here "or the ni htD thin0in nobody noticed my car. = was wron . :t 125 am = am awo0enDwell not really awo0enDbut alerted "rom my state o" semi-sleepDby a patrol car li ht. =<!e seen those be"oreDas well as "lashli hts. = uess somebody did notice my car, or mo!ement or li hts within. Bhen =<m dubbin a "aint low does emanate "rom the interiorDand sometimes = use the laptop which also is noticeableDalthou h = try to dim all li hts i" possible. Bell, it<s the sheri""<s department. -omebody apparently was concerned. =<m up out o" the car be"ore they can e!en reach my door. = chat with themDcooperati!e, but a"ter (ric Ra0ow repeated the same 5uestions = stopped tal0in so muchDtold them what = was doin D"ilmin H'od<s #ountryI and that = am a pastor and a teacher, and that we used to own a cotta e on this little road by #ampau @a0e, and that it started rainin and it was dar0 and = "elt sa"er ,ust sac0in out ri ht here. They were politeD= bantered "or a while, but did not say anythin importantD,ust repeated who = amDa pastor%teacher.. he as0ed who do you et paid byDnow that was a little more than he needed to 0now but = told him = was employed with the @:Q-D , and still am. 1ut = also told him about .olland #hristian 8iddle ?or -outh -hores 8iddleA and then = as0ed him where he was "rom Mhe said mid-8ichi an. .e as0ed me i" they could search my carDand = said = already told them they could, but i" they<re oin to act li0e hooli ans = mi ht not be so cooperati!e. .e bac0ed down a little. = told them = 0new my ri htsDbut = didn<t tell them about /asadena. .e as0ed me i" = had e!er been arrested be"ore and so = said well = am not oin to tell you my li"e storyDi" you want that you<ll ha!e to read the boo0. .e didn<t 0now what to say about that. = tal0ed a little more about the mo!ie ma0in Dtold them the title; H'od<s #ountryI and that was about it. = only wrote down one o" their namesD(ric Ra0owDhe did most o" the tal0in o" the three o" them. They had nothin on meD(ric su ested i" = wanted to sleep somewhere to "ind a par0in lot o" some sortDbut he didn<t realiGe that par0in lots can be ,ust as problematic because alert cops sometimes li0e to patrol them. 1ut = didn<t say that. = said = was oin to head bac0 into 'rand Rapids now that =<m wide awa0e and he a!e me bac0 my dri!ers license and = too0 o"". Day 20 -unday, July 4, 2004Eld )ent 1an0 is one. That<s a chan e. Jim :pols< house at 492 a.m. .e has two -Q6<s li!in com"ortable --=n the news Da man is attemptin to ol" across 8on olia. /ass by Dr. 8onsma<s my old dentist at *4> a.m. There<s an accident near #E-, police on the scene. = pass by #E- at $1* a.m. Their "irst ser!ice is at $90 a.m. -o 1ob 3 Judy 'eGon were both in the #al!in class o" <>1. Jac0 Roeda was <>*CC :my .olwerda is on Balsh -t. @isa .olwerda is on )in ston Dr. #olin /iers ne!er raduated "rom #al!in. .e li!es on =nnes -t. Dan )lunder is on -ibley, 2B. Jim Reitsma is in @owell. Randy is in :da. Ray is in 'R. = pee0 in at #E- at $45 a.m. Then = pass by -hawnee #R# at 424 am. Boodlawn #R# at 499 am )osters li!e almost ri ht ne&t door to the

8innemas. :nd attend 1urton .ei hts #R#. . = pee0 in at 'race #R# ] 11 a.m. = o by the GooDon +ulton at 120>. There<s Denise at *-11 in JenisonD = buy some dill potato chips and re"ill at 1294. J. 6anderlu t at 1255. 1ob De6ries at 114 pm =<m near -unnybroo0 #ountry #lub. . = le"t an .1 "or 1ob De6ries. 8ac Bood Dune rides. /ast #roc0ery Township. 'reat @a0es .orse Trac0. 2ear 8us0e on :irport at 25* pm 8elissa Theule li!es by the 8us0e on :irport. =<m at 8us0e on :irport at 920 pm. = lea!e a 1ible "or :rie 6B at >04 pm. = turn towards .esperia. This is Den!er Township. =<m stopped by E""icer T. +rench at *19 pm. .e saw me wanderin o!er the middle lineD= admit itD= was typin while dri!in he<s nice enou h about itD,ust wanted to ma0e sure = wasn<t drun0 = uess. .e chec0s my papers and my license and lets me oD= catch him on "ilm..% = realiGe as = am sittin thereDbecause = am readin my wireless newsDthat this +ahrenheit 411 "ilm--- by 8ichael 8oore is the 8ichael 8oore who produced HRo er 3 8eI the documentary about the closin o" the auto plants in +lint , 8i, his hometown. *20 pm on the way to -tony @a0e. @ittle town o" Rothbury at *90 pm , turnin down Binston Road. Just moments a"ter = was pulled o!er7 near 2ew (raDso = should be able to "i ure out where the o""icer was "rom. /assed by cotta e at *50 pm. , double sweep, on the return sweep = thin0 = saw )ris (n elhard. . -il!er @a0e at $24 p.m. -lept at #obmoosa -hores and le"t an .1 there at >2* a.m. /salm 4* at *;00 a.m. , -tony @a0e.

Day 21, 8onday July 5, 2004---/salm 4* by -tony @a0e at *;00 a.m. 2orth 1ranch /entwater Ri!er at *90 a.m. /ere 8ar5uette Ri!er at *41 a.m. 8anistee 2ational +orest and the 6illa e o" #uster at $1$ am =ts about respect, ta0in your hat o"" saltin somebody who<s better than you, or who has done a e&cellent ,ob. and that<s the essence o" blasphemy e!erybody can "ind someone who does thin s better than themDthe di""erence between class and those without class is respectD those with it ac0nowled e oodness, those without it, not only don<t ac0nowled e it but they try to characteriGe ood as bad. :nd that<s what = see as ha!in happened in Best 8ichi anDa eneration o" 0ids who are re"usin to ac0nowled e and respect othersDand their accomplishments, and "ind somethin ood in the thin s =<!e done or people in my "amily ha!e done, ---while e&pectin me to do so to them. =t<s li0e a wel"are systemDbut these are people who are !ery capable o" wor0 and producti!ity. 4;10 a.m. headin toward +almouth , 8ichi an. Tears at $50 as = pass by the 1aptist church, near Bhalen @a0e , and a ain. Esceola #ounty. /-pot spilled a ain. /salm 4$ at 450 am on a wooden brid e o!er the 8us0e on Ri!er in town o" (!art. 10;15 am turn le"t on to 8>> northDtowards +almouth. +our ma,or hubs in 8ichi an, --; 'rand Rapids, Detroit, @ansin and +lint. Deer runs across the road at 10;25 a.m. 88Dreadin the little church si n ,ust past

-ears 8ichi an as = turned on to 8>> north. /ast #al!in #R# on 8>> at 10;44 am = had to double bac0 twice to loo0 "or the 1ible and = "ound it at 1129 am on July 5, 2004. Turnin towards +almouth at 1194 am on the #lam Ri!er. There<s two #R#<s and one R#: in the little town o" +almouth. = added a letter to the 1ible at Ray 1rin0s house at 111 pm7. @ea!in +almouth #R# at 191 pm headin north towards Tra!erse #ity. :nd then = ,ust happened to come across :etna #R# which is ,u2 . Re"lection--st down the road "rom the /rosper #R#Dboth o" them in the +almouth area, 19$ pm Darcy at the 8obil in @a0e #ity, 8=DHyou still do thin s the old "ashioned way, ehI 8anton, 8= at 225 pm , turned on to 119 west at 241 pm, not much to see alon 119 westDe&cept "or a lot o" beauti"ul trees. )in sley at 251 . Tra!erse #ity at 955 pm #ompleted @etter to -teele at >0$. , = dri!e past the bay a ain. @ea!in Tra!erse #ity at >9$ . #herry treeDstopped by the cherry orchard at >%%%%Re"lectionDyou can only be "ree i" you are liberatin others in the process. . )al0as0a #ounty at *24 am the city o" )alas0a at *99 a.m. 88D iant trout in )alas0a.. 1ear @a0e Township at $01 a.m. -on D= will i!e you me i" you will i!e me you7 1ear @a0e at $10 p.m. 8ar rethe @a0e, by #amp 'raylin 8ilitary 1ase. -i n says Tan0 #rossin . . E!er the :u -able Ri!er. Roscommon #ounty. Jou ha!e to separate ministers into two classesDactors ! actual. @ate ni ht thou ht HBe did it , we thread the needleLI Day 22 Tuesday, July >, 2004---)aw0awlin Ri!erDheadin towards -a inawR near *5 southDo"" the hi hway *91 am on hi hway towards -a inaw. Belcome to )och!ille at *92 a.m. )yle ran up my order at the +irestoneDand = tal0ed to Joe @ewis "or a whileDhe was stationed at /endleton at one time--, he says (. -a inaw is a bad side o" town. Denise at post o""ice at 10;00 am on July >, 2004D-a inaw. @etter to :manda -teele "rom -a inaw /.E at 10;00 a.m. 1eauti"ul #astle 8useum in -a inaw 8ichi an---1onners #hristmas wonderland at 1119 am in +ran0enmuth, 8=. Eops at 112> a.m. +ran0enmuth. 1lueberry #heese ca0e sha0e at .alo 1ur er. .eadin towards +lint. /ower nap at 1250 o%s "lint. #opy -hop at on @inden Road in +lint, 8= . 2;00 pm )erry announces John (dwards as 6/ runnin mate. /ast the :nn :rbor is in Bashtenaw #ounty. .ere<s my :meriprayer. :meriprayerDcareD"or :merica--, :mericare ..:pproachin Detroit at 919 pm. (nterin @i!onia, Bayne #ounty. +ound Da!e 'albens0i<s address. The sprawlin Detroit metropolis with nothin !ery uni5ue about it. /rayin "or Ric0 1yle, prayin "or Ric0 1yle. Drains, utters, or manholes i" you willDin the middle o" this bumpy ma0eshi"t hi hway ne&t to the reconstruction Gone on the 4> east. 1i billboards 0eep ad!ertisin $>>-se&-4-li"e. (nterin .aGel /ar0 at 414 pm.%% @amphere .i h school around corner "rom 'albens0is. #ompleted letter to 'albens0i at 505 pm +ound his new o""ice at > pm (ast on >4> at >11 pm /ast Rose!ille >20. 88 Mthe irl playin uitar by the church at #ampbell and 12 mileC . . 'albens0i is on Royal Ea0 now--- their called contract counsel. +ound R.

1yles at *45 p.m. in 2ew 1altimore, chester"ield township. =" you 0eep oin north you come to /ort .uron, across "rom which is -arnia, #anada. /ast the #linton Ri!er. . -t #lair -hores at $0$. @istenin to -inead E #onnor . There<s #omerica /ar0 which is Ti er -tadium ne&t to the +ord +ield. = realiGe now that the parents o" some o" my H+riendsI coached them to de rade me due to their own irrational "ears. : ain that s< the essence o" blasphemy. =n the 2ews, the :ustrian president died on the e!en o" his retirement. 'ay "ilm producer 6on /raunheim is ma0in a mo!ie based on the li"e o" the "ellow who wanted to ha!e his penis eaten and then 0illed. This "ellow also made a "ilm entitled ;#an = be your bratwurst pleaseCI the runnin o" the bulls in /amplona -pain starts Bednesday in the -an +ermin "esti!al and protestors are strippin in a nearby town to ain attention , or ta0e attention away "rom it-Day 29 Bednesday, July *, 2004. -tratcha0 and Jatcha0 at the brid e border crossin , #anada side---@andry is the super!isorD= called them pric0s and assholes as = dro!e away at $44 a.m. Then = went bac0 o!er the brid e to the Q.-. -ide where = was met by )ana0ry and #arter. #arter saw me hold up the camera phone and said to me, HDid you ,ust ta0e a picture o" himCI = noddedD=<m "ilmin across the country---he said you cannot ta0e pictures o" persons at "ederal institutions without e&press written permission. = said = didn<t see any si ns, it<s ,ust "or narration purposes anyways. Then -eidl came o!er and started tal0in to me. :s he was tal0in = put my sun lasses on and he said ta0e your sun lasses o"". = said, 8y eyes are sensiti!e to the sun. :re you oin to treat me li0e a pun0. .e said =<!e been tal0in to your "or about a minute now and suddenly your eyes become sensiti!e. C = too0 the sun lasses o"". They in5uired more about the cameraDwhy = was ta0in pictures, etc. :nd then instructed me to pull o!er to the inspection area. = said, Jou<re oin to search me "or a 4th timeC-There should be a chain o" custody. The "ellow almost told me to shut upDbut stopped short, apparently realiGin that = was, in "act, not a pun0. 1ut he did try to tell me to be 5uiet. = ot out o" the car a!e them my dri!ers license a ain. ToledoDEhioDnow = am oin throu h ToledoDand the 4*5 is bac0ed up . = le le"t Toledo at 19;01 by the way. Tim .orton<s is a pastry dri!e thru chain o" restaurants. Mli0e a classy donut shop. Ettawa #ounty and 'enoa at 222 pm. , .i hway 1>9. 2o helmet law in Ehio. (nterin @a#arne at 24* pm . /ast /orta e Ri!er at 252 pm. (nterin /ort #linton at 259 pm. @a0e (rie at 255 p.m. = read /salm 5* on the shores o" @a0e (rie and waded in the la0e at /ort #linton at 990 p.m. ,ohn )erry was in #le!eland today with his new 6/ runnin mate, John (dwards. #orruption occurs when people such as yra and yelrihs indul e themsel!es---either se&ually or with "ood or what ha!e you, but then maintain a pretense o" not----it<s not the indul ence that<s so bad it<s the pretense--, and playin the wor0in class part---, sellin themsel!es shortD that<s a sin too. They accept tt1 as a pastor because he<s no threat to them.

.e doesn<t push them. .e tells them what they want to hear. (lectric or phone wire is down on the island across "rom -andus0yDacross "rom #edar /oint. @etter to 8. Theule at "rom 8arblehead, Ehio at 41> p.m. 8arblehead @i hthouse at 42$ pm and you can see #edar /oint "rom across the bay. Two ladies playin cro5uet at 494 pm near -andus0y 1ay. This part o" the @a0e (rie, 8arblehead #ircle Tour. #rossin o!er Thomas (dison 1rid e, o!er -andus0y 1ay, enterin (rie #ounty at 45> pm . .eadin (ast on .i hway 2, 8iss :merica .i hway. E!er the .uron Ri!er at 550 pm. 2ear the 1irth place o" Thomas (dison. The moment o" the day was wadin in @a0e (rieDand readin /salm 5*. 2ow we<re on hi hway > headin north towards #le!eland. @orain at >24 pm. 2ow = can see @a0e (rie at >91 pm. The le al pro"ession li0es to use the term H oin "ishin I in a ne ati!e way, but that<s e&actly what we<re doin , in a positi!e way as #hristians. )ids on tire swin at *04 pm (nterin 1ay 6illa e at *14 pm /ast #le!eland .op0ins =ntl. :irport at *5* pm :pproachin Jim Timmers house at $05 pm in 1erea Ehio. = see a colle eD1aldwin Ballace #olle e. +ound Jim Timers house at $25 pm , middle class house, somebody watchin T6, Jim ot his doctorate at the Qni!ersity o" 2ew 8e&ico, in (ducation. 8aple .ei hts at $44 pm . -olon has a 0in0os. Triple 8urder at -am Donaldsons Ranch. @eopards are 0illin people in 1ombayDthey 0illed ten people in one month. Day 24 Thursday, July $, 2004 'eau a @a0e-----lept in -olon Ehio 8aple .ei hts at $44 am -olon has a 0in0os. There was a triple murder at the ranch o" -am DonaldsonDthe T6 newscasterDthe son is suspected o" 0illin his "ather, mother, and sister. There<s a report about leopards 0illin humans in 1ombay =ndiaDcomin out o" the preser!e and in one moth 0illed ten people. 2ow they<re dumpin pi s and chic0ens and other animals into the preser!e "or the ,a uars. 7Re!iewin the e!ents o" yesterdayDdespite the hassle = ot by the uards at the border o" Q.-. #anada----that was not the bi e!ent---that was humdrum---what was bi er was wadin in @a0e (rie and lettin my do swim and readin /salm 5* . 1ut =<ll ne!er "or et the namesDo" those uards on the #anadian side there was and on the :merican side there was -heehan, -eidl, 0ana0ry, 8itchell, De 1loc0, #arter, %% (nterin :urora at *19 a.m. --- -olon .ome Days July 22-25, V There<s a small si& "la s resort down the street "rom -olon and near #ha ran +alls. Thin s to see in #le!eland includes the Roc0 n Roll .al o" +ame and #le!eland 1rowns -tadiumDbut = passed throu h the outs0irts. :nd there<s the pro "ootball hall o" "ame in #anton Ehio. Throu h Barren Ehio at 495 amDthey ha!e a beauti"ul #ounty -eat Town .allD!ery impressi!e. +a& to TT12 "rom Barren EhioDbac0ward 7at 10 ; 00 am e!erythin spelled bac0wards. )erry at the -taples in Barren EhioDmy am e&press card was declined -he as0ed "or my =D with my second cardDthe /asadena +#Q card. The 1aseball .all o" +ame is in #ooperstown 2J , not Joun stown Ehio. (nterin 'irard, Ehio at 1019 a.m. Joun stown Ehio at 1045 a.m. .eadin

east on the 224 towards /ennsyl!ania 1order. Be are in /ennsyl!ania, 1129 am. approachin 2ew #astle, /:. -topped in at the -ears around thereD and the par0in lot lines were so "aded, you could not e!en see themDor barely. = chec0ed "or sheets, but decided to wait. )eep emphasiGin the end o" dude e!an elism. (nterin the 6illa e o" (ner y at 1210 pm . (nterin -lippery Roc0 Township at 1211 am. (nterin Bayne Township at 1212 . -lippery Roc0 /resbyterian #hurch o!erloo0in the cemeteryDdown upon the hills---!ery beauti"ul. (lwood, /: said the bi si n as = entered the little town at 1299. Ene o" the most peace"ul, tran5uil, aesthetic dri!es =<!e hadD oin throu h western /ennsyl!ania towards /ittsbur h :T 120 /8 . 88D Descendin down the hill into 2ew 1ri hton. 'reen "orests all aroundD wor0in class homes. Throu h (ast Rochester at 125 pm 1rid e into 8onaca at 125 pm. The shield blew out. There are many borou hs in 1ea!er #ounty. /un0s =ce #ream -hop. 'oin alon side the Ehio Ri!er. (d eworth 1urrou h at 15*. Ehio Ri!er 1l!d. Robert 8orris Qni!ersity. .einG +ield at902. Tunnel at 925 pm Mits pretty lon Dthe three ri!ers that run throu h /ittsbur h are the Ehio, the :lle hany, and the 8onon ahela Ri!er. The liberty Tunnel was really somethin . Then = came to the #arne ie 8ellon =nstitute. :t 499 pm 1rian 6anderwell li!es ,ust around the corner "rom the /ittsbur h Theolo ical -eminary. There<s Du5uesne Qni!ersity. @ea!in /ittsbur h !ia 9*> east throu h -5uirrel .ill Tunnel. Bhich is !ery con ested at 54$ pm = choreo raphed /ittsbur h with Dire -traits . =n the newsDthis has to be one o" the saddest stories =<!e heardDa pre nant lady oes out to the bars with her "riendsDthey don<t 0now she<s pre nant. -he<s hi h on cocaine. -he i!es birth to the baby in the bathroom unbe0nownst to anybody elseDwhen one o" her "riends comes into the bathroom she tells them she passed a 0idney stoneDto e&plain the blood. -he stu""s the baby into the trash can, lea!in it there to die. -he oes home with her "riends, chan es clothes and oes out partyin some more the same e!enin . @ater , somebody "inds the dead baby, and puts the pieces o" the puGGle to ether. -he<s arrested "or murder. That was in Den!er, #E, apparently the second instance o" its 0ind in a "ew months. There<s a R:^ roast bee", at >95 pm. D ha!en<t seen one o" those in a lon time. Throu h Bestmoreland #ity, =ndiana #ounty M1lairs!ille :T >51 Mwhat an incredible H+:=T.I church si n N--"irst one =<!e seen li0e it ] *1> pm . There<s a billboard "or H/enn<s #a!eI . -t. +rancis Qni!ersity at *94 pm . : si n "or @incoln #a!erns. = read a /salmDin the little town o" 'allitGenDat a cemeteryD o!erloo0in the sea o" reen trees surroundin us---,ust down the road are the H'allitGen TunnelsIDan old railroad tunnelDand a little railroad museum alon sideDactually there are two tunnelsDone loo0s as i" it<s still in use by trains, the other clearly not. Readin /salm 41 at -t. /atric0<s #emetery ---then = let the do wal0 outside the cemetery. =<m nearin :ltoon Da lar er city in the midst o" a steady stream o" !illa es and borou hs and townships. = enter :lton at $44 pm ---thin0in =<ll retire here "or the e!enin . = pull throu h a @on John -il!er sea"ood restaurant and order a "ish sandwich. Denise is a 0ind alDand ser!es me wellD= obble down the

"ish sandwich in a matter o" moments and turn down a "ew streets . -heetG con!enience store is a chain o" as station%con!enience stores in this areaD classy loo0in places. =n the 2ews a roup called +D0 "or +orests sponsored a li!e se&ual act on sta e at a concert to raise attention to the problem o" de"orestation. :nother sad storyDa man sues his wi"e "or di!orce a"ter disco!erin she is baldDapparently she had an illness at an early a e that caused her to lose her hair and wore a wi all the way throu h their courtship. Janet @udema Bol" li!es in 'aines!ille, +lorida. -andra 6anderlinde li!es in Durham , 2#. = hate to disappoint you :udrey but =<m still a !ir in. Day 25 +riday, July 4, 2004Dslept in :ltoon. 2ow = am in the !illa e o" 1ald (a le at *90 a.m. /ic0ed up a allon o" reen tea at the little as station con!enience store. There was a beauti"ul butter"ly on top o" the as pump, dyin . -andy Rid e -ummit, :lle hany 8ts at *94 . = am in the middle o" the :ppalachian%:lle henies. -tephanie at the con!enience storeDcute as a button. (nterin /hillipsbur at *54 pm. 1eauti"ul townDup here in the :ppalachians.. abo!e most o" the surroundin towns and treesD= can loo0 down on the tops o" houses, throu h #urtis /ar0 . Ta0in 504 east throu h 1lac0 8oshannon -tate /ar0. /assin throu h /hillipsbur at $01 a.m. 2ow =<m in the 1lac0 8oshhannon -tate /ar0 area ,ust past the mid-states re ional airport, on the 504 east at $1* a.m. 1eauti"ul la0e in 8oshannon -tate par0 with canoes and a swimmin area. #rystal clear water comin out o" a spout on the 504 east washed my hair = "eel beauti"ul, = "eel clean. Qnion!ille at 414 am. .uston township at 422 a.m. 1ald (a le 1aptist #hurch at 495 a.m. Bhat<s Hblo in IC The boy who 0illed his "ather , sister, and stepmother on -am Donaldsons ranch said he did it because his "ather slapped him . = had no idea that /enn -t. Qni!ersity was up here by -tate #olle e, way up in the hills---throu h sin le lane roads, corn "ields, barn yards. 1el"ontaine at 1024 a.m. 1eauti"ul 1u""alo Run 8ethodist #hurch near /enn -tate surrounded by corn "ields, and the :ppalachians. 1oo ers!ille -chool at 1051 am. Bhat a name "or a school. /enn -t. +ootball -tadium at 105* a.m. 8useum in the stadium. :rts +esti!al .The architecture here is ,ust plain brown bric0 buildin sDno spires, no rand or stately buildin s. =t<s called the peoples choice arts and cra"ts "esti!al. Boodward and /enn #a!e comin up. @e"t /enn #a!e, too0 power nap, now approachin Boodward. (nterin the 1ald (a le -tate /ar0 and .airy John /icnic :reaDstill on /urple .eart .i hway. 951 pm "irst church built by :lbri hts people in 8i""linbur . /:. 8an on bu y at 955 pm near /enn<s #ree0. 2ow we are in the !illa e o" /enn<s #ree0 a"ter passin o!er /enn<s< #ree0- . This is the same cree0 that ran throu h /enn<s #a!e. -hady> 8t. Binery 3 6ineyard at 4;00 pm =mmanuel @utheran and Trinity Qnited 8ethodist in 8iddle bur , /:. =nside /enn #a!e--- there<s a room they call the H arden o" the odsI. -he says they stoc0 the "ish in the ri!er and they also "eed them. -he shows us the dry room at 124>. -he points out a

"ormation in the shape o" a dra on and a "ormation she calls H/ennsyl!ania /othole.I Juliata #ounty, .unters 6alley Binery, lots o" HadultI stores. :nother winery. There<s another Hadult storeI called H:dult Borld.I The bi -us5uehanna Ri!er. #lemson =sland at 442. :nother adult shop. Batts Township. 2ew 1u""alo. :lliance #hurch. 6illa e o" #o!e, 6illa e o" /erdi& at 45> p.m. 8arys!ille at 5 pm. H.ome o" Roc0!ille 1rid eI says the si n. There<s a bac0up on $1 north at .arrisbur . = purchased a new camcorder at -ears "or O900. Trinity .i h -chool in -hiremanstown, /:. .arrisbur =nternational :irport at $59 p.m. and /enn -tate, .arrisbur . Day 2> -aturday, July 10, 2004 -lept near Bri hts!ille, /:---outside o" @ancasterDnow =<m on the 90 (ast almost in @ancasterDalready in reater @ancaster. +ran0lin 3 8arshall #olle e is near here. There<s no helmet law in /ennsyl!ania either. 2ow = am in @ancaster, = ,ust passed the +irst Re"ormed #hurch o" @ancaster. @ea!in @ancaster at *0$ a.m. = see two hot air balloons at *11 a.m. (nterin 6illa e o" -oudersbur at *21 a.m. -hoe +ly /ieDan :mish Dutch restaurant o" some sort. .orse and bu y at *99 a.m. /ast the 2ational #hristmas #enter and #hrist .ome "or #hildren, and another horse 3 bu y. The hot air balloons are still "loatin alo"t. =t<s Beis 8ar0et, not Beirs, . #oates!ille at $90 a.m. #otta e #heese and Eolon Tea at the Beis 8ar0et. Eolon Tea is stron er than reen but not as stron as blac0, tea. Bho was -t. #ecilia by the wayC @ea!in #oates!ille at $94 a.m. 'oin o!er the memorial brid e. Downin ton /: at $4$ a.m. Bestchester at 4;00 a.m. the borou h o" Bestchester. (ast 'oshen at 411 a.m. (nterin B. 'oshen at 42* a.m. That<s the only other 'round Round =<!e e!er seenDhere in B. 'oshen. 1attle o" 1randywine apparently too0 place around hereDalon the 922 (ast. 1ethel Township at 444 a.m. There<s a helicopter 8useum in Bestchester, /:. E!er the John 1arry 1rid e o!er the Delaware Ri!er enterin 'loucester #ounty into 2ew Jersey at 10 a.m. Township o" 'reenwich at 10;0* a.m. , 44 north towards /hiladelphia. H(nterin the boro o" /aulsborou hI says the si n at 1015 a.m. 2ow we<re oin o!er the Balt Bhitman 1rid e Mcan see a "ew o" the stadiums--O9.00 toll, 10;40 a.m. =n one s5uare bloc0 there is Bacho!ia -pectrum where the *>ers play, #itiGens 1an0 /ar0 where the /hillies play, and @incoln +inancial +ield where the (a les play. (nterin /hiladelphia !ia 20th -t. at 11;05 a.m. 1etsy Ross .ouse at 114* a.m. /ast the old +irst Re"ormed #hurch. The al sportin a lot o" clea!a e on the corner said H.urry the "D0 upI as = dro!e by. The son played H= could -in o" your @o!e +ore!erI as = went throu h /hiladelphia and by the lo!e plaGa where the "ountain is. The Eld +irst Re"ormed #hurch in /hiladelphia is not spectacular in terms o" architecture. There<s the (astern -tate /enitentiary Dthe old one at 109 pm . Train -tation at 215 pm 8ar0et runs into 1road. @a-alle Qni!ersity is near :lbert (instein 8edical .ospital. 88D8t #armelDsome sort o" ecclesiastical establishment on 1road -treetD surrounded by hi h walls and ates. -prin "ield townshipC = read /salm $* at Bestminster -eminary ?(astA at 405 p.m. The seminary is smaller than =

ima ined. Billow 'ro!e at 440. Taco 1ell at 520. Rude lady dri!er at 521 . = pointed the camera at her at 521 pm near Tre!ose, /:. There<s a billboard "or a church with .eGe0iah Bal0er, pastorD=<!e heard that name be"ore. =n the news, :/ reports that some missin nuclear in"ormation has been reported at @os :lamos. :lso, the :ustralians ha!e disco!ered the chemical in smo0e that causes seeds to erminate. There<s a lon bac0up on the "reeway near Trenton, 2J. =n the newsDthere<s a story about a man raised by chic0ens ---in +i,iDapparently his parents loc0ed him up in a chic0en coop at a youn a e "or e&tended periods o" timeDor permanentlyDand when he was disco!ered they too0 him to a psychiatric hospitalDand they loc0ed him to a bed in a con"ined roomDso he continued to act li0e a chic0en "or years be"ore a social wor0er disco!ered him and is now doin therapy with him. @awrence!ille at >29 pm. /rinceton Theolo ical -eminary at >9* pm /salm 54 at *90 pm "rom /rinceton. . There<s some deer roamin the campus. There<s a lot o" Hno turns on redI around here- ne!er see those in #ali"ornia. 8ercery #ounty, woman<s lacrosseDmust be a tournament. @ea!in /rinceton at $01 . 1lueberry "esti!al at church. +ran0lin , #icadas---1* year ermination cycleC =n the 2ewsD2ew Jersey o" all places Dwhere = am ri ht nowDhas rati"ied ay marria es. 1ush proposes an amendment to stop ay marria es permanently. = a ree. Day 2* -unday, July 11, 2004DRut ers uni!ersity at >05 a.m. across "rom that there is (nterin township o" Boodbrid e at $24 a.m. w 1runswic0 Theolo ical -eminary. 1ristol 8eyers -5uibbs #hildrens .ospital at Robert Bood Johnston Qni!ersityDstatutes o" 0ids playin in or near the "ountain Don a hot day. *29 a.m. = read a psalm near the Billiam the -ilent statute on the campus o" Rut ers across "rom 1runswic0 Theolo ical -eminary. /iscataway 2JNNwhere the Rut ers -tadium is7 Bhat<s the si ni"icance o" the #ornelius @ow houseC $24 a.m. passin throu h 8enlo /ar0 2ew Jersey . RahwayDthe city o"Das = approach Jersey #ityDthe scenery is unspectacular. 8ostly industrial so "ar. 1owcra"t :musement /ar0. (nterin @inden at $40 a.m. @inden :irport at $41 a.m. 2ewar0 @iberty =nternational :irport at 411 a.m. @incoln /ar0 at 421 a.m. =ncredible #athedral 1asilica at 449 a.m. 2ewar0 1ears play at the little Ri!er"ront -tadium near the crosso!er to Jersey #ity. @ea!in 2ewar0 at 451 a.m. = "ound Tre!or Rubin hs house or apartment at 1015 am on 6ir inia :!e. = pea0ed in on the ser!ice at the -ummit #R# in Jersey #ity "or a "ew moments. = "ound the new church where Tre!or is at 0----- called the 2ew #ity #hurch "or #hildrenDand a bi red bus that says 1i red bus says H'ospel #ruiserI on it. 2ow we will head into 2ew Jor0. +irst si ht o" -tatute o" @iberty at 1124 a.m. "rom across the bayNNthe @iberty .arbor 8arina. :nother limpse o" the harbor at 1195 am ---there<s a memorial to the 4-11-01 There<s a shirt draped o!er it Mwhich appears to be a "ireman<s shirtDwith blood stains still on it. -i& buc0s to o across the .olland Tunnel Dhere<s a di!ision called 1owlin 'reen. = passed by round Gero at 1240

88.Dthe tow truc0 with "la s all o!er it. = ot as at 1ri hton 1each at 219 pm. = made an .1 drop at 29> pm at #oney =sland. @ea!in #oney =sland. 8anhattan 1each at 259 pm. )in sboro #ommunity #olle eNNNit said in hu e letters. [ueens at 99*. There are no truc0s on this e&pressway. They are not allowed. =n the newsDthere<s an article about so-called H.onor 0illin sI in /a0istan----when brides marry without the permission and arran ement o" "amilyDsome o" the "amilies o so "ar as to 0ill their dau hter%sisterD because it was done without permission . This is all part o" @on =sland by the way. = pulled o!er to the side o" the road somewhere alon the way, near .empstead = thin0 it wasDdown the road "rom 1elmont /ar0 as it turns out----and = too0 a power napDstran ely, = "ound the noise o" the !ehicles com"ortin Dprobably a si n =<!e been li!in in the city "or too lon now. There<s a .o"stra Qni!ersityDne!er heard o" it be"ore. .empsteadDthe si n says is Hhome o" the JetsI-0---the "ootball team. = o throu h the little town o" Jamaica at >40. This is also near -t. Johns Qni!ersityDwhich re ularly produces a pretty ood bas0etball team. :nd [ueens #olle e is nearby. There<s an :uto Kone. = must ha!e missed Bood .a!en. =<!e been dri!in down :tlantic 1l!d "or a lon time now. = et my bearin s "rom the si n pointin to the 1roo0lyn #hildrens 8useumDthat<s on my map. =<m ettin close to the 1roo0lyn 1rid e area at *91 pm. . = see the (mpire -tate 1uildin and head that wayDa"ter oin o!er the brid e bac0 into 8anhattan =sland. = ma0e my way down one o" the many a!enues oin northDtowards the (mpire -tate 1uildin and "inally ma0e the turn east to come out ri ht underneath the iant one. =t<s not the hi hest anymore, but it was one o" the "irst. Then "rom thereD= o by 8adison -5uare 'arden at $9> pm Macross "rom there is the beauti"ul post o""iceDwith a Romanes5ue "a_ade. +rom there = continued east throu h 8anhattan =sland or 2ew Jor0 2ew Jor0. = "ound #entral /ar0 as it was ettin dar0Dand circled around the southern ed eDthen = "ound a place to rest and.. the ne&t mornin = was on my way. #entral /ar0 at >41 a.m. = try to na!i ate throu h it, determinin which way is one-way and oin the ri ht way---so 5uiet here in the mornin D= pulled out my tripod Mput on my robe and san , or read, a /salm---/salm 122.

:cross "rom there was one o" the museums and = passed by a 8useum in #entral /ar0 as well. There<s a pool thereDa nice outdoor poolD!ery lar e and well maintained. +rom there = pro ress northDthrou h .arlemDand then = s0irt around Jan0ee -tadium---and "rom there = ma0e my way eastD plannin on oin o!er the Bashin ton 1rid e, but = miss the turnDso instead = ta0e a road northDa ood decision as it turns outDbecause it a""orded me a ood loo0 at the .udson Ri!er and the beauti"ul ban0sDand a "ew historic sites, includin the home and arden o" 'eor e Bashin ton =r!in Dthe writer---althou h the home was not open --, and ne&t to that was the @yndhurst (stateDwide open "or dri!in or wal0in throu hDand ri ht

alon the .udson Ri!er-at $50 a.m. - Mthe .udson Ri!er 8useum came b be"ore that7 the little town o" Dobbs +erry at $24 pm. =<m ma0in my way towards the Tappan Kee brid e---There<s< the Tappan Re"ormed #hurch. = stop "or as in 2ew Jersey and "ind out that 2ew Jersey law does not allow a dri!er to "ill his or her own tan0---the attendant is there ,ust li0e the old daysDat "irst = thin0 accidentally pulled into "ull ser!e, occasionally still seein those aroundDbut the attendant says there<s no sel"-ser!e. =<m in #ress0ill at 102* a.m. and Tena"ly at 1090. 1y 1209 =<!e "ound Da!e (n elhard Jr.s house--- it<s in a modest areaDthere<s a Re"ormed #hurch around the cornerDa pond at one end o" his street-----it loo0s li0e a wor0in class town. :s = am loo0in at the boo0 = ha!e another epiphany concernin the (n elhard "amilyDand by the boo0 in this case = am spea0in o" the 'R#. directoryD= notice that Da!e (n elhard Jr<s mother did not o to #al!in #olle e-----= had pre!iously disco!ered that she and he ?Da!e -r. 3 his wi"e JeanneA were hi h school sweethearts "rom 'R#., but = had assumed that she went to #al!in #olle e li0e her husband-to-be, Da!idDbut as it turns outDin "act she went to a school o" nursin in DetroitDthe 8ercy -chool or somethin li0e that. .mmDso that puts another new perspecti!e on the (n elhard "amilyDDa!e -r. bein , o" course, the 'eneral -ecretary "or the #R#. /assaic #ounty---this is..,-par0s at 115 pmD= "ound the buildin where Da!e Jr. wor0sD-par0s 1eltin #ompanyDnot "ar "rom .awthorneDin +air"ield, 2J. =t<s an industrial areaDaround -par0s is -tainless Tubular /roducts, /resti e Rubber, Dri!e 8aster 6an #on!ersions, the =nstitute "or .ealth (ducation, and Triac =ndustries. :nd around the corner "rom that is a beauti"ul :merican Red #ross buildin on +air"ield. Just down the street is +air"ield R#:V =t<s been rainin all mornin . = o throu h Totowa and B. /aterson at 141 pm . = can see that there are some beauti"ul steeples in /atterson as = pass by, but = do not stop inDbecause o" the rain. = want to ma0e it to 2ew .a!en #onnecticut be"ore ni ht"allDbut this time, as an e&ception, the directions i!en to me by my 8icroso"t 8ap /oint na!i ator seems to be erroneousDso = circle around 2ewar0 and e&it the toll road a"ter one ,unctionDaccidentally = pulled throu h the (K /ass lane rather than the cash laneDand it<s too late to o bac0Dthe uy behind me is already hon0in . = dri!e throu h and pull o!er and wal0 o!er to the "ellow in the toll booth and tell him that = accidentally went throu h the (K pas lane and = would li0e to payDhe said it<s too lateD nowDpointin to the camerasDthey will send you a bill "or O*.00 or O11.00 7 = really would ha!e rather ,ust paid the tollDand assume they ha!e a way to allow you to pay and i!e you a !oucher so i" laterDyou are matched by their photo systemDyou can show them a receipt indicatin that you did et out and pay. 1eeper at 25* -loatesber at 999 pm. :pproachin Eran e #ounty 2ew Jor0, oin throu h the little town o" Tu&edo /ar0 at 999p.m. = ta0e the turn o"" towards 1ear 8t. :t 944 p.m. Belcome to .ariman -tate /ar0. @a0e )anawau0e---

at 954 pm. . )ids swimmin in the rain at 404 pm. /ast -il!er 8ine /icnic area on the * la0es road at 415 pm. 1ear 8t. 1rid e at 429, and the town o" #ortland. 2ow we<re in the /ee0s0illarea. There<s #amp -mith 8ilitary base at 495 pm. 2ow we<re in the #ity o" /ee0s0ill.

Day 2$ 8onday, July 12, 2004 ---slept in 8il"ord #onnecticut----topped in #armel , 2ew Jor0 "or as still oin on .i hway >.=n the 2ews Ronald Rea an Jr. is now spea0in out a ainst 'eor e 1ush and his policies "or oin to war and also "or his re"usal to "ederally "und stem cell research. #on!icted rapist -cott 8iller is holdin a hosta e in a Delaware prison ri ht now. (&it to * southDhead to the coastDHBelcome to H at >25 pm. 'ood opp at >45 pm at a nature trail with a cree0---, : little nature trail oin down the * south ri ht be"ore 1ranch"ield #2., past a little rac5uet club and health and "itness club at >5>pm 7 (nterin #annondale on * south at >5* pm. Bilton 1aptist #hurch at *0> pm. :rri!ed at 2orwal0 #T at *49 pm. )in s .i hway up towards 1rid eport, `1. 1rid eport, #T at $ pm. Two police cars behind the #hurch o" #hrist, -cientistDby @aurel :!e. (nterin -trat"ord at $29 pm. Taco 1ell at $9> pm.Dthin0in to mysel" a lot o" people et into sel"-contradictions because they re"use to respect oodnessDand end up puttin themsel!es in to a blasphemous state o" mindDcausin their own dissonance Day 24 Tuesday, July 19, 2004 . 8erwin /oint is in BoodmontDand it is on @on =sland -oundDwhere Rachel li!es. +ound Rachel -ytsmaXs at *15 am D"la on the roc0.. li"e uard standDsome stran e loo0in duc0s. Rachel , or whoe!er li!es thereDhas a canoe in "rontDa "ew cars in the bac07 There<s a s0ateboard par0 here *44 a.m ri ht alon the coastD1ush is campai nin in 8ar5uette, 8= today and Bisconsin tomorrow. = "ound Rachel -ytsmas house early in the mornin Dstill rainin Dat least where she was listed in the 'R#. directoryDon 1lac0all RoadDone bloc0 away "rom the :tlantic Ecean---there<s a canoe in "ront o" her apartment houseDthe 12 si nDher addressDthe numeral H1I is han in as0ewDand there<s no indication which part o" the buildin is Hapartment `1I---so = ,ust loo0 at it, circle around and proceed onward---then = realiGe her phone number is listed in the boo0Dso = try callin it on a lon shotDnot plannin on tal0in to her, but to hear her !oiceDi" she<s still thereDa man answersD= say, H=s Rachel thereCI .e immediately replies, HEh no she hasn<t li!ed here in years.I = wonder who he isDa "ormer boy"riend, li!e-in mateC 1ut = don<t as0Dit could ,ust as well be a landlordDa platonic male roommateDsomebody who mo!ed in a"ter herDand 0ept the same phone number or what ha!e you. = really don<t< want to 0now---all = needed to 0now he answered alreadyDso = say, HDo you 0now where she isC H :nd he says in that (astern coc0ney dialect, H= ha!e no idea.I

= than0 him and han up. = continue up the coastDtowards 1ostonDmy ne&t bi stop, a"ter 2ew .a!enDthe home o" Jale Qni!ersity. = arri!e in 2ew .a!en around $ am and o past the Jale 1owl H at $10 amDan old historic loo0in stadiumDlea!in Jale at 410 a.m. 1i 1illboard says H/enthouseDme astoreD rand openin -H another e&ample o" how this sor t o" thin is uni!ersal. D oin by the Thimble =slands at 44$ a.m. This is all part o" the @on =sland -ound. =t<s still rainin . = et as at 10 a.m. This is 8iddlese& #ounty. There<s +lorence, and the 'riswold 8useumDwho was this "amous 'riswoldC = pass throu h the seaside town o" 8ystic at 11 a.m. and stop in at the rocery storeDwhere = pic0 up a loa" o" bread and a H,umbo +lorida a!ocadoI Mand it is lar er than the #ali"ornia !ariety. = ma0e a "ew sandwiches out o" it as = dri!e northward. = enter Rhode =sland at 112$ a.m. MBashin ton #ounty Rhode =slandC 2ow @on =sland -ound becomes 1loc0 =sland -ound. . = stay on the 45 throu h /ro!idence R= at 1212, then = o throu h /awtuc0et, and then :ttleboro at 121*, and enter 8assachusetts. :lon the way = mana e to ma0e contact with my post o""ice in /asadena, #: and spea0 with Jenny who says they will hold the mail until the end o" July. Then = arri!e in 1oston at 1259. = memorialiGed the an ry dri!e moment by puttin them on the camera--. =t<s amaGin how the disposition o" people will chan e when they realiGe they are on the cameraDbein recordedDespecially an ry, insolent dri!ers. = "ound the /aul Re!ere .ouse and the Eld 2orth #hurch at 52> pm. :"ter stoppin initially in at the J+) library---"rom the J+) library = went throu h the center o" townDor part o" itDand then = circled aroundDseein di""erent churches and steeples and "inally "ound the /aul Re!ere .ouse and the Eld 2orth #hurch where he hun the lanterns to warn the :merican Troops that the H1ritish are comin 7LI. =n the 2ewsDsome o" the 1ul arians are now bein held hosta e by =ra5 rebelsDwith the threat o" death i" the 1ul arians do not withdraw. .ar!ard is at 1950 8assachusetts :!e, and 8=T is ,ust down the street "rom that. =t<s >;90 p.m. There<s 1un0er .ill at * p.m. with a pillar o" stone standin solitary Min memory o" the :merican soldiers who sacri"iced their li!es "or the :merican cause at bun0er .ill. Then = proceed westwardDtowards @ittleton, 8:Dwhere 1rent 'atesDan ac5uaintance o" mine in colle e and at /R#. "or a while, li!es. En the wayD= pass by .ar!ard @aw -chool at *25 pm Mit<s "airly small Dalthou h the library is si ni"icant--, and ri ht around there is a buildin that loo0s li0e a #athedral but is now used as a social center o" some sortD hand it to .ar!ard to turn #athedrals into socialiGation 9buildin s. Then = see a little si n that says H@eslie Qni!ersityIZ--and wonder what that isD ne!er heard o" it--, and there<s the .ar!ard Di!inity -chool at *90. = thin0 bac0 to 1ostonDoddly Mdespite the rand architecture = saw and the symbolic or historical places and buildin s = sawD= also thin0 o" the *-11

con!enience storesDand how stately they trans"ormed them---"or the 1oston areaDnone o" them had the bri ht reen and red si n announcin their presenceDthey were all nice brown bric0 buildin s that "it in with their surroundin sDo" course e!erythin else inside was the sameD= assumeD althou h = didn<t o inDare you craGyDtry to "ind a par0in place in 1oston---= stop "or as at *50 pm, and = thin0 to mysel" "or those who "ell behindDHit<s harder to play catch up than to play stay ahead.I =P!e been playin Hstay aheadI "or a while now. = realiGe that a lot o" the "ast "ood stores here Mincludin 8cDonaldsDdon<t ha!e any dri!e thru windowsD= assume that<s due to some sort o" ordinance. =t<s 0ind o" niceDre5uires more personal interaction with each otherDnot ,ust Hhandin o""I some hambur ers on the o-9p..=n the newsDresearchers at .ar!ard ha!e disco!ered that there is electrical conduction in the photosynthesis processD in plants such as -pinachDand they are tryin to duplicate thatDand%or use spinach or other plants li0e it to ma0e micro electrical processors o" some sort. Day 90 Bednesday, July 14, 2004 = sleep in @ittleton, 8:Dit<s a nice little town ?no pun intendedA and the ne&t mornin = rise around 590 am and a"ter a "ew turns and double bac0s "ind #olburn @ane where 1rent 'ates li!es. = 0new 1rent 'ates "rom #al!in #olle eDand a little bit Ho" himI "rom 'R#.Dhe was "riends with mar0 /eters. @ater, 1rent would wor0 at /ine Rest #hristian .ospital ?/R#.A at the same time as mysel"Dand we too0 a trip to 'eor ia to etherDwith a roup o" #al!in 0idsDand went hi0in down thereDhe was also present at the hospital when the 0id patient tried to escape out the window by smashin it with his portable stereo ?i.e. Hboom bo&IA---this was one o" those security windows with wires intertwined in the lassDso e!en i" the lass brea0sDthe wires ma0e it di""icult to et throu h without a lot o" pain and su""erin Dplus the windows are "airly narrowDso you ha!e to be a slim person to et out the window e!en i" you can clear away the lass and wires. = was a mental health wor0er on the unit that particular a"ternoonDit may ha!e been a -undayD and sta""in was lowDtoo lowDthere should ha!e been more people there but they were cuttin bac0 and sometimes too much so. = heard the noise and loo0ed in the room and saw him standin there on the des0Dthe window already bro0enDand he had a radio in his hand. = called "or bac0 up and 1rent 'ates came in with a "ew othersD1rent had a mattress in his hands which we would use "or co!era e as we approachedDto protect oursel!es "rom the an ry youn patient. =t started out well, but ,ust as we ot to the window where the boy was standin still tryin to et outDhe too0 a swin at me with the radioDand despite my holdin on to one corner o" the mattress Dand duc0in Dhe mana ed to catch me in the templeDcausin si ni"icant bleedin and a blac0 eye. = sur!i!edDwent to the eye doctor "or a chec0 upD but e!erythin turned out to be o0ay--, but =<ll always remember 1rent 'ates on that particular occasion. :nd he also went with us to a concert with two other als "rom /R#.Dthe Depeche 8ode #oncert--. BellDhere<s his

house on #olburn @aneDa bi yellow oneDhe does woodwor0in and desi ns it says in the 'R#. directoryD= e&pect to see his name on a bi si n but Mthere<s ,ust the houseDno attached buildin or store. There<s a 8ormon #hurch ,ust around the corner. -o = o onward and arri!e in 8aynard at >90 a.m. Then -udbury, :nd onward and suddenly = come to HBaldens /ond<I o" all placesDmade "amous "rom .enry Da!id Thoreau<s boo0 HBaldenI--7and o" course = remember /ro"essor )uyper ma0in that a li!in story in the way he presented itDe!en playin sounds o" loons ma0in their noises---the late pro"essor )uyper that isD'od bless himDa "ine "riendly "ellow he wasDat #al!in #olle e. The pond is used "or recreational purposes Mas wellDsome people were swimmin there already that mornin and some "isherman were in their boatDacross "rom the la0e is a little replica o" the house that Thoreau li!ed inDa tiny little shac0 Mwith a bed, "ireplace and not much elseDand there<s a statute o" him in "ront o" it. = read a /salm there, /salm 14$, Din "ront o" the home and also = read a /salm by the pond ?/salm 19*A. /salm 19* is actually one o" the most, i" not the most, !iolent /salms in the 1ibleDendin with a !ery !iolent !erseDnot really the best /salm "or Baldens /ondDbut "or some reason it ,ust stood out---/salm 14$ is a little more appropriate "or the settin Dbut what settin is appropriate "or a !iolent /salmC :nd = intend to read all o" them.. 2ow = am on my way towards @on "ellow<s Bayside =nn. = arri!e at @on "ellow<s Bayside =nn at $0$ am. = read /salm >4 and /salm $4 at @on "ellow<s Bayside =nn at $45 am.. =t<s a beauti"ul settin Dand it is easy to see how @on "ellow became so !erbose and inspired i!en the surroundin s. =t<s a replica o" course but = assume it is in a eo raphically pertinent areaD althou h there are no si ns elaboratin on the settin . =t<s ri ht ne&t to the little town o" 8arlborou h, 8assDand = "ind a @aundromat a "ew moments later and do some laundry.. a 5uietDuncommunicati!e "ellow is in there doin his wash when = come inDand then a youn al steps inDneither o" them tal0edDo" course neither did =, but =<m ,ust passin throu hD= don<t want to be presumptuous. Bhile my clothes was in the wash cycle = too0 time to o !acuum out the carDand when = came bac0 = threw the clothes in the dryer and 7. 2ow = am on the way a ain7this is a "lashbac0 by the way---=<!e already le"t the @aundromatDand already passed by Balden /ond7now = am 7 (nterin /awtuc0et at 121$ pm. The /awtuc0et /awsoc0sDstadium Hhome o" the lon est ameI it says. = circled throu h #umberland, Rhode =sland, :ttleboro 8:F and now #entral +alls, Rhode =slandF and now = am on the way bac0 to the 45 south. #entral +alls /olice are !ery acti!eDout and about. = now realiGe that Tom /ost and%or his wi"e purposely sent me out with their "oster dau hter 8irthaDthe 1eliGean al, --to ha!e some drin0sD in the hope that = may become HlooseI and it almost wor0ed---suddenly she did appear attracti!e to me, but not so much that = he H+un n +ssswould do somethin as stupid as ha!e a 5uic0ie with her. 1ut -till M= hold Tom 3 8irtha responsible "or encoura 4in the possibility. Ro er Billiams par0

and GooDmm the cheetah in the paddleboat, and the eese and the "looded road, and so many statutes. @ea!in Ro er Billiams Koo at 159 pm. -topped at 'ood JearDhe said he could try to et me in between appointments but = didn<t want to wait so = 0ept oin . This is )ent #ounty Rhode =sland. = ,ust passed 2oosenec0. That 'oodyear where = stopped was in Best Barwic0, Rhode =sland. (nterin #onnecticut at 29$ p.m. /assin by 8ystic a ain at 24> pm. -ubmarine 8useum at 940 p.m. The al wor0in at the +un n +ood #lam 1ar in 'ales +erry Mher name was -hastaD rud in ly polite-- 2$9 Route 12, 'ales +erry, #2 0>940. ph. 2o.$>0445>1$>. =n the 2ewsDthe !ote on an amendment to ban ay marria esDwas turned down 50-4$DErrin .atch spo0e out in "a!or o" the amendment sayin H=" protection o" marria e D"or male%"emale only doesn<t deser!e protection = don<t 0now what does.I The @aundromat was at 444 1oston /ost Road in 8arlborou h, 8: 01*52. There was a bac0up on the 45 throu h #linton, where = e&ited and went around throu h suburban 2ew .a!en and came bac0 to the 45 south "rom the = $0. Throu h 1rid eport at >1$ pm = count at least si& steeples. (nterin 2ew Jor0 at >55 p.m. Bhat<s the 1[( in 2ew Jor0C 1ac0 on the 1%4 oin southDe&ited be"ore the toll booths at *50 p.m. 1road 3 $9rd at *5> p.m. 1road turns into Tonnelle :!e at *5$ p.m. = didn<t realiGe there<s a Best 2ew Jor0 on the 2ew Jersey side. = bypass the .olland tunnelD= do not want to o into 8anhattan =slandDinstead = ta0e the /ulas0i -0yway which is the 1%4. = e&it at @inden at $94 p.m. = enter Rahway and -. :mboy at $50 p.m. 'oin throu h Eld 1rid e Township at $59. = sleep at the Days =nn in the outs0irts o" 2ew JerseyDit<s still pourin D.

Day 91 Thursday, July 15, 2004 =n the newsDthree 0ids sur!i!ed a capsiGe but there<s no si n o" their parents and in"ant sisterDthey spent se!eral days on deserted =slands or in between swimmin in :ustralia<s #ape Jor0 /eninsula near /apua 2ew 'uinea Ma"ter their boat capsiGedDtheir parents told them to swim "or itDand they separated--%:lso in the newsDthere<s a story about a con"lict in #hina about Hcloud seedin I<Da process where they shoot some sort o" chemicals into the clouds to ma0e them rainDand now di""erent re ions are claimin ri hts to clouds or in"rin ements o" those ri hts. Just as = said to mysel" P'od will pro!ideI my eyes loc0ed on a /ro!ident 1an0 that = was passin by at that e&act moment at >04 a.m. si n says H#radle o" 8ethodismIDand tal0s about the roots o" the 8ethodist #hurch and mentions +rancis :sbury. @ea!in .owell Township = saw many syna o ues on the 4 south but not that many churches. 2ow = am in Ecean #ity at >10 a.m.D = o throu h Do!er Township at >15 e a.m. headin south towards :tlantic #ity. = et as at >20 a.m. = washed my hair >45at >99 a.m. =<m in 1ay!ille at -------------------:nd o throu h the town o" @acy at *. = ta0e the turn towards 1arne atDo"" the 4 south thin0in 8aybe = would dri!e throu h @on 1each, 2ew Jersey, but the road loo0s uninterestin D an endless sprawl o" "ast "ood restaurants and strip mallsDso a"ter a "ew

miles = turn around and o bac0 to the 4 south7 at *94 a.m. That was *2 westDnow = am bac0 on the 4 southDa much more edi"yin road. 1ass Ri!er Township at $10 a.m. :nd "inally = enter :tlantic #ity at $90 a.m. There<s the .oly 1oldness #ommunity #hurchDwith :sbury<s name on it. :nd there<s the casinosD#aesar, .arrahs, Trumps, 1allys. -e!eral stores ad!ertise Hcash "or oldID= ma0e two passes throu h HdownbeachI ?as they call itA :tlantic #ityDand twice = dri!e up near the beachDthe "irst time on the 1oardwal0---and et a loo0 at the :tlantic EceanDit<s a warm dayDso the beaches are already crowded. Then = proceed onwardD oin throu h 6entnor at 1092 a.m. There<s an attraction called H@ucy the (lephantI alon side the roadDit<s a iantD20 or 90 times li"e-siGe elephantDmade out o" some sort o" plastic as best as = can tell. There are si ns that say H-a!e @ucyI around itDand you ha!e to pay O4.00 to be uided throu h itDthere<s windows on itDnear it<s tailDand !arious other parts o" its body and you can wal0 throu h the interior o" itD= step inside to the !isitors center and there are three people all sort o" ,ust standin thereD= say HBor0in hard, ehCI = in5uire about the cost and the "ellow replies politely, and = say H8aybe =<ll come bac0 laterI not too encoura ed by the en!ironmentD they<re the 0ind that stareDor lare without realiGin what they are doin or how they are ma0in you "eel. =t<s probably "rom li!in at the beach too lon Din a transient townDand they build up territorial entitlementsDalways a"raid o" a newcomer who mi ht threaten their territoryDwell = wasn<t there to stay and had no intention o"7 althou h it is a nice place to !isit "or a little whileDso = 0eep oin Mthe ne&t little seaside !illa e in the chain o" island towns is @on port at 105> a.m. = see a si nDa second one that says H1each 1ad es Re5uiredID= wonder what that meansD=<!e ne!er heard o" ha!in to buy a Hbeach bad eI to o to the beach be"oreDis that li0e a "ishin licenseC = don<t bother to as0Dthin0in laterDits< probably ,ust some sort o" plastic ta with your name and identi"ication in"ormationDin case o" emer ency. =t<s a ood idea--. They are not that cautious in #ali"ornia. = o throu h Ecean #ity at 1115 a.m. There<s some 0ids playin "ield hoc0ey there at 1125. = o o!er another little toll brid eDone o" se!eral on the Hocean dri!eI as they call itDwhich connect the little islands that are south o" :tlantic #ity and run alon side @udlum 1ayDall the way down to the Delaware bay . :round Bhale 1eachDwhich isn<t on the mapDbut a little si n says HBhale 1eachI on itD= pull o"" and read a /salm >9 M o!erloo0in the :tlantic Ecean on a wooden plat"orm leadin "rom the road to the beachD= ,ust happen to be in an area where there are no peopleDits< a beauti"ul moment. : "ew moments later = drop a little 1ible under the windshield o" a window alon the same roadDthe 4 south. =<m in :!alon at 1244Dit stri0es me that so many o" the same names on the west coastDare also here on the east coast---there<s a 8anhattan beach #ali"ornia and 8anhattan 1each 2ew Jor0. There<s a @on 1each, #ali"ornia and a @on 2ew Jersey. There<s an :!alon on #atalina =slandDo"" o" the @os :n eles coastDand there<s an :!alon, 2ew Jersey. Then = o past * mile beach. Mand

stop at a *-11 alon the wayDit<s a "airly sa"e place to stopD"or a re-"ill o" a soda cup. Bhales 1each apparently is in or close to -ea =sle. Then = o throu h -tone .arbor at 1;0 1 p.m. +inally, = come to 2. BildwoodDand you can tell = am not "rom the east coastDbecause while this is ob!iously a east coast summer resort hotspotD= had ne!er heard o" it be"ore. :nd at "irst it really doesn<t stri0e me as bein anythin !ery si ni"icant until =<!e one a waysDthen = be in to realiGe this is a ma,or resort townDhotel a"ter hotel a"ter hotel a"ter hotelDbeaches, beaches, and beaches. There<s an amusement par0 ri ht on the beachDa +erris wheelDa water slideDse!eral o" themDthe beaches are pac0ed--- sun umbrellas dot the coast. = let my do out "or a short wal0--. 1F21 p.m. Bildwood wowL = "inally ma0e it to the end o" the lon strip o" hotels and beach, and o o!er the toll brid e--, = hand the lady a tenDand she says Hthan0 youI as i" she thou ht it was a oneD= 5uic0ly tell her it<s a ten be"ore she stu""s it in with the other bills and it<s too late to be sureDi" she simply stu""s them all to etherDthere<s no cash re ister. -he says, Hit<s o0ay, =<m not oin anywhere. =<m still here, Hshe says, almost condescendin lyDand hands me a stac0 o" one<s bound by a paper clip. = arri!e at #ape 8ay at 22$ pm. There<s #ape 8ay @i hthouse at 250 pm. There<s a church around the corner "rom it, and another ,ust down the road. = dri!e past Best #ape 8ay and throu h -outh #ape 8ayDand ma0e my way around the bend towards 2orth #ape 8ayDwhere there<s supposed to be a "erryDto ta0e us across Delaware 1ay---and sure enou h a"ter a "ew more turns = see the si nDH#ar +erryIDwhich will ta0e me to @ewes, Delaware. = pull up at 925 p.m. ---the "ellow at the booth says Hhey uyIDand, H,ust you by yoursel"CI = nodDand he says H25 dollarsID= pull out a credit card and hand it to himD and pull out my phone to snap a picture o" himDhe doesn<t realiGe =<m ta0in itDits< a phone. 1ut he says H2o phones allowed here, it<s a ainst the law..I = didn<t see any si ns sayin prohibitin cell phonesDbut = don<t ar ueD=<m used to the bossy personalities o" bureaucratic tic0et ta0ersDits all "or showDthey need to belie!e they thin0 they ha!e powerDwhy not let them belie!e it "or the present purposesDso = don<t ar ueDbut = still ot his picture, unbe0nownst to himDand it<s all "or a ood causeDputtin to ether a documentary o" my trip H'od<s #ountryIDand it helps to show the HcommonI people doin their ,obs. :nd we<re all Hcommon H in some ways, while also uncommonDuni5ue in some ways we all areDthey wa!e me "orward and = et in the line o" cars waitin to o on boardDit doesn<t< ta0e lon Din a "ew moments we are on the boatD= par0, and step out o" the car D"ollowin the crowd up the stairs to who 0nows what. =t<s actually a "airly lar e boat Mwith se!eral dec0s a couple barsDan indoor loun e, and e!en a !ideo ame arcadeDwhich is closed. En the top dec0Dthere are two als sittin on loun e chairs in bi0inisDbi0inis so s0impyDthey<re almost none&istent. = pretend not to noticeDit would be impolite. = wal0 around the di""erent dec0sD"ilmin the si hts o" cape 8ayD= can see the li hthouse.. as we head out to seaDor across the Delaware bay s it may beD"our ,et s0is

"ollow our wa0eDand "ollow us across the bayD= wonder how much as they can carryDi" it<s enou h to et them all the way acrossDapparently it is--. =<!e only tried ridin a ,et s0i onceDand = cannot now remember whose it wasDbut it was on @a0e 8ichi an. = say a prayer while we<re oin and pray "or the people on the boatDwho are members o" our countryD presumably most o" them are :mericansDmaybe not all-, 7. :nd then = o bac0 down to my carDand read a psalmDpsalm 5$ on the "erry at 494 p.m.---inside the car as we are crossin the Delaware bay. -ome o" these /salms can be !ery !iolent. The !iolent lyrics o" the /salmist don<t always seem to "it the settin where = am readin the /salmDat "irst blush , but then where do theyC There<s the dan er o" Hpeace peace when there is no peaceI or preachin Hpeace peace when there is no peaceID= li0e the motto =<!e heard be"oreDH=" you want peace "i ht "or ,ustice.I =t<s not ad!ocatin !iolenceDire<s ad!ocatin ,usticeDand H"i htin I does not always mean the use o" weapons or physical "orce. There<s a lot o" ways to H"i htI without !iolence or "orce. = o bac0 on top o" the "erryDone o" the bi0ini als is tryin to li ht her ci arette in the windDshe stands up and mo!es o!er to where = am standin D= can see a tattoo on her bac0 throu h the re"lection in the window. 440 pm. = ha!e a little 1ible that = am waitin to i!e or lea!e somewhere, but we<re almost in the portDso = don<t et a chance to use it on the boat. = circle around one more timeDthe bi0ini als are one nowDthe screamin 0ids are now bein screamed at by their mom down by their car. Jim Taylor is playin on the "erry<s sound system. Be arri!e in the harbor at 5 p.m. The trip too0 ,ust about 1 U hours e&actly---there<s a pirate type sailboat in the harbor. Be pull inD= et in the car ?/rayer === as = sometimes call itA and moments later = am dri!in o"" the boat M= circle around---a"ter oin out the e&it and pull bac0 in to where the "erry passen er cars are par0edD= slip a little poc0et 1ible under the windshield o" one o" them hopin it will ma0e a di""erence. Tuna +ish sandwich at 8il"ord at *;00 p.m. Dro!e by 1arretts #hapel at *1* pm. :lon the "reeway towards Do!erDthe 0ids said = couldn<t par0 there Dcause their ridin their bi0es thereD= humored them and said = am ,ust turnin around youn man. 'oin into that town ,ust o"" the "erry--somebody threw somethin out their windowDit was that truc0 as it was turnin Dand it splattered all o!er my carDsome sort o" purple stun ri ht "" Mwas that intentionalC 'oin throu h the little town o" +entonDthe train is stopped on the trac0sDbloc0in 12 westD,ust as = was ettin a !ery stron ur e to relie" my bowelsDthat Tuna +ish -andwich was oin ri ht throu h meDso = pulled into an empty lot ne&t to a bunch o" electrical conductorsDand too0 care o" businessDyes sir it sure did o ri ht throu h meDbut = "eel better now. 1y the time = ot bac0 to the 12 west the train had bac0ed upDso = proceeded. =<m in 8aryland nowDheadin towards

:nnapolis. There<s "ew si ns on these bac0 road hi hwaysD=<m ,ust win in it ri ht nowDma0in the turns which = thin0 are westward althou h = don<t ha!e a compass--, and then = come out into a clearin and a si n tells me =<m in 1rid eportDand another si n points me toward #entre!illeDwhich is westDso = o that way, $92 p.m. = "inally pass o!er the 1ay 1rid eD #hesapea0e bayDthat isDbeen o!er it once be"oreDmany years a o. :s = am comin o!er = re"lect on a "ew thin sDoneDhow my own dad, Jim, cut me o"" at the waistDdue to his own Hper"ormance an&ietyIDpeople sensed that in himDthat he was a per"ormer who needed to be li0ed, and they would use that a ainst meDe!en when = was ri htDon a purely lo ical basis they would appeal to emotionDand et Jim to turn a ainst meDdespite emotion at the moment bein totally irrele!antDit also came "rom his sense o" pity "or othersDtoo much at timesDsometimes out o" proportion to the person or place, and sometimes at his own 0ids e&pense. 8y other thou ht was that some o" those who moc0ed or taunted me in colle e or shortly therea"terDhad also cut their own sel!es o"" at the waistDbecause they blasphemed meDthey called that which was oodDthat which = was doin D badDor characteriGed it as such. They called my e""orts to do wellDto be an a ent o" reconciliationDto 0eep people happyDbadDor too0 below-the-belt cheap shots towards meDthis was comin bac0 to haunt them todayD"or when = went throu h 'rand RapidsD= "ound a town with an impro!in in"rastructureDbut decayin soul. This was e!idenced by the state o" disrepairDperpetualDin the inner cityDthat bears witness to the suburbs and the community at lar e. =t hadn<t otten betterDand maybe e!en became worse. = 0new 'ary DeBitt was still thereDhe was an e&ample o" bad #al!inismDopportunism and manipulation o" others. Jet he would 0eep 5uac0in his mouth till the day he died--.

6oice 8emoDproblem with theme o" election in the #al!inist community is e!idenced by so-called "riends who = 0new in the #al!in #ommunity rowin up.. they<re insistent, they<re complete sel"- assurance that they are superior to almost e!erybody and perhaps especially me7 because = was a pastors 0id and had better rades.. they would rationaliGe.. that don<t mean anythin .. no matter what you would do7e!erythin e!eryday step o" the way.. 1192 am enterin +resno #ounty ,ust passed #oalin a..the "i!e "reeway runs alon side the #ali"ornia :5ueduct.. on the other side is the Diablo ran e%% )orhorn became sleaGy oin to the cabaret. 2othin classy about it at all.. and he suc0ed 0ids in, )eith oin to 6e as.. Ric0 6eldman.. .. ossipin bac0 bitin .. .is 1ody, .is 1lood.%%% bro0en "or me shed "or me.. "or a new li"e in .im.. "or the reconciliation and redemption o" all men who belie!e in .is name and bow down be"ore the @ord...is body .is blood..%%%Bhen they mo!ed into their house on 'odwin streetDthey li!ed by .eynen<s houseD'ar"ield par0, =n rid7 = !iewed 'ar"ield in contrast to how = !iewed it7 the "amilies = 0new, the cause-e""ect thin s.. 2ow = am

dri!in throu h 1urban0D= 0now nobody here.. no a""ections or "amiliarity with the nei hborhood%% >%15%04 /ea -oup :ndersons 12411 -outh .i hway 99, -anta 2ella, #: 45#hester"ield township. 922, 11;40 am O5.04 >%1>%04 -ubway -andwich at Reno, 26 , >405 -. 6ir inia -t. Reno 26 $4504 O5.$4 >%1>%04 Two -ti""s -ellin 'as, 1040 #ornell :!e. @o!eloc0, 26 $4414, as at O2>.$2 >%1*%04 :lpine 8ar0et at *;0$ pm Two Two @iters o" -hasta -oda "or O2.0$ ?ph. ` 90*0>54*5*9 >%1*%04 8cDonalds 1i n Tasty 1ur er O2.44 at 20;24 , #ashier `12, >%1*%04 )eystone 1an0 1>>5 1lue @a0e 1l!d , Twin +alls, =D withdrawal O40.00 >%1*%04 /ost o""ice =n0om, BJ O9.$5 14;52 >%1$%04 Reynolds at 1055 B. 1roadway, Jac0son .ole BJ 'as "or O1>.99 at $;50 a.m. >%1$%04 Eld +aith"ul @od e 949 pm Reed was the cashier , -andwich O>.09 >%14%04D'eneral -tore at 'rant Jellowstone , /owerade, Bhite /opcorn, O5.0* >%14%04-Taco 1ell, -heridan BJ O9.2> >%14%04 #ommunity +irst 1an0 at 1190 -heridan :!e. #ody, BJ 15;14 withdrew O40.00 >%14%04 :lbertsons a -tore Director Randy Titmus ?ph ` 90*-52*-*00*, O2.10 "or soda pop, sel" chec0 out #ody BJ >%20%04 De!ils Tower , 12;95 pm O10.00 >%20%04 -peedy 8art, -pear"ish, -DD>%20%04 1>;0>, O19.24 "or as. >%20%04 )um 3 'oD910 -0yline Dr. 'illette, BJ $2*1> O10.>2 "or as >%20%04DDans -upermar0et , /1 3 Jelly 3 1read , 3 1ananas O$.$2 44* a.m. , al named -hayla, >%20%04 Q- 1an0 withdraw O40.00 , Rapid #ity, 14;2$ >%21%04 1eauti"ul Rushmore ?:lpine -lideCA 19>22 .i hway 40, )eystone -D 5**51 12;21 >%21%04 Train Ride, 119 /ine 8ountain `: , .ill #ity, -D 5**45 ?>05D5*42222A O14.00 19;5* >%21%04 :moco `12 944 8t. Rushmore, #uster, -D O1$.** 20;24 >%21%04 )eystone #-8art O2.11 at >4* am , had to buy water bc their hose didn<t wor0. =t was only two hours and thirty si& minutes a o or less that E""icer -chmid stopped me as = proceeded up the entrance o" the #=: head5uarters in @an ley, 6ir inia. 2ow = am o!er in 1ethesda, 8aryland writin down some o" my re"lections about the matter. +irst, = had been dri!in all dayDin "act, =<!e been dri!in "or the last "ew wee0sDas = cross the country "or the H-ummer o" .ope, 2004I tourDas = am callin it. = le"t the west coast a "ew

wee0s a oDand "inally arri!ed on the east coast ,ust a "ew days a o, and will turn ri ht around and head bac0 down alon the southern part o" the country probably tomorrow. This trip has two purposes;1A to re!i!e the .oly -pirit amon belie!ersDto touch base with the churches across our country and the peopleDsome o" whom = 0now or 0new-some whom = will come to 0now, in #hrist. = used my 8icroso"t 8ap /oint 2a!i ator to uide me to a lot o" places that = wouldn<t ha!e been able to "ind without local maps, althou h the #=: is on the road atlas = carryDand it was simple enou h to use the map to et there. = had almost "or ot about it, in "actDwith all the new thin s that ha!e been happenin in our nationDand the Department o" .omeland -ecurity sort o" ta0in o!er a lot o" the +1= and #=: operations as "ar as = can tell? and = say that "rom an obser!ational perspecti!eD"rom in"ormation anybody is pri!y toD"rom the news, etc. A The Department o" .omeland -ecurity is e!en on my road atlasDsupposed to be at the corner o" 2ebras0a and 8assachusetts :!eD,ust down the street "rom the Besley -eminary, but the only thin = saw was the 2a!y 1aseDmaybe they share operations there. This is nothin top secretDi" its on a road atlas. :nd dri!in by ta0in a loo0 at what ta&payer money is oin towards doesn<t seem to be too much to as0. -o a"ter dri!in by the 2ational #athedralDbeauti"ul it is, = ,ust happened upon the Besleyan -eminary a"ter crossin o!er 2ebras0a -t. without noticin it. = realiGed = must ha!e passed it and doubled bac0 and was pleased not only to see where the Department o" .omeland -ecurity is purportedly based, but ,ust down the street "rom that the /resbyterian #enterDapparently the national head5uarters "or the /resbyterian church. = come "rom the Re"ormed tradition mysel"DJohn #al!in bein our predominant theolo ianDalthou h = am closer to the Re"ormed #hurch o" :merican than the /resbyterian #hurch, but we<re !ery close theolo ically. :nyways, "rom thereD= realiGed it was not too "ar o!er to @an leyDand was surprised to see that @an ley is ,ust a tiny dot on the mapD= always ima ined the #=: head5uarters was in a lar er municipalityDand "or some reason = also thou ht it was nearer a body o" water. =<m not sure why = had that presumption. -o = Gi Ga ed across a "ew roads and came upon Dolley 8adisonDand loo0ed bac0 at the map and noticed that the #=: is ri ht there on Dolley 8adison RoadD oin a little "urther sure enou h there was a si n H'eor e 1ush #entral =ntelli ence : encyI or somethin li0e thatD= didn<t 0now /resident 1ush had his name on itDbut then wasn<t he in char e o" the #=: "or a whileC Bell, = actually missed the entranceDso = turned down the ne&t road. There was a si n "or a "arm o" some sort and as = went down towards the "armDa tourist "arm o" some sort as best as = could tell, = noticed a white police car on the ri htDand by the way the only si n = had seen so "ar that discussed prohibitions and rules in or around the #=: head5uarters did not say

anythin about not ta0in pictures. =n "act = too0 a picture o" that si n itsel" Don the road by the "arm. The only other picture = too0 was o" a camou"la e hummer at the closed entrance alon the "arm road. Bell, = pulled in the tourist "arm par0in lot and noticed the posted hoursDit was closedD althou h there were se!eral cars there and = could hear somebody on a me aphone o" some sortDsounded li0e they were si nin . 2onetheless, = wasn<t really interested in thatD= ,ust wanted to et a loo0 at our #entral =ntelli ence : ency entranceDassumin they had somethin "or the casual obser!er who ,ust wanted to et a broad brush idea o" where the #=: was head5uarteredDli0e the +1= i!es tours. Er maybe a little !isitor center Mthat tells the a!era e person the history o" the #=:. :s = turned around and headed bac0 towards Dolley 8adison Road = notice the white police or security car behind me. -o "arDacross the entire country =<!e only been loo0ed at closely by one police o""icerDin 8ichi anDbecause = happened to swer!e across the middle line brie"lyDand he was concerned that = was drin0in and dri!in . =n "act, = had been reachin "or somethin "or a momentDbut was completely in control and lucid as to e!erythin that was happenin . Ence he realiGed = was not in an altered state o" mind he let me o on my way. Ether than that this trip has been a blessin in terms o" not bein harassed. 2onetheless, = 0new this "ellowDas it turns out, -chmid, wanted to 0now what = was doin . 2ow = suppose you could ma0e an ar ument that he needs probable cause to start HGoomin I in on a personDand that ,ust dri!in down the road and turnin around is stretchin Hprobable causeI in terms o" suspicious acti!ity, but = wasn<t there to ar ue those points. = pulled o!er be"ore he pulled me o!erDi" that was what he intended to do. = rolled down my window and o""ered to answer any 5uestions he hadDtellin him that = was ,ust loo0in around, that = saw the si n "or the "arm and also the #=:, and tried to put him at ease by as0in him i" the #=: i!es tours. .e said no. = said o0ay and turned ri ht on to Dolly 8adison and he "ollowed me. 1y the way, = thou ht he was a 8c@ean /olice E""icerDbut "ound out later he was a #=: security uard. Ene reasons = thou ht he was 8c@ean was that he "ollowed me in that direction a"ter = turned. Then when = made a u-turn bac0 towards @an ley he 0ept oin . :lthou h this was my "irst time in the area, = 0new "rom the map and a si n that this was also 8c@ean. = didn<t notice the mar0in s on his patrol car. :nyways, = was about to ,ust 0eep oin bac0 towards the D.#. areaDwhere = planned to spend the ni ht and wanted to et a picture o" the Bhite .ouse in the mornin Dthin0in = would ha!e better luc0 "indin a par0in spot in the mornin than = did durin the day Mearlier today, but then = thou ht to mysel"Dthere must be some sort o" !isitor center or at least a turn around "or dri!ers who turn into the #=: dri!eway either

accidentally, or thin0in they may ha!e tours, or what ha!e you. = "i ured they would ha!e a "ront area H"or showID"or the tourist. -o = doubled bac0 and went in the entrance that = had missed earlier. = noticed another white security car as = entered. :nd then = also noticed the si n sayin no photo raphy or photo raphic e5uipment is allowed a"ter = had entered the dri!eway. :s soon as = saw that Dmy camera went o"", but there<s no turnin bac0 at that point. Ence you enter that dri!eway you apparently ha!e to o all the way throu h the chec0point to turn around or bac0 up. :nd = "i ured bac0in up would ma0e me ,ust as suspicious as well as a dan er i" any cars were comin in behind me. -o = pulled up to the intercom and they said H#an = help youCI at the same time that the security car put his li hts on behind me. =t was the same "ellow who had loo0ed closely at me o!er on the "arm road only ten minutes or so earlier. = had been polite and told him what = was doin Dalthou h he told me they don<t i!e tours, he didn<t say anythin about not oin in the entrance dri!eway nor that there was no !isitors center or some place where they mi ht i!e you some in"ormation about the #=:. = e!en told him later that = mi ht be interested in employment with the #=: at some point in time ?i" = don<t et elected presidentADor e!en as a steppin stone towards the presidency. .e didn<t lau h about thatDbut = ot the "eelin he didn<t ha!e a lot o" respect "or me. :nd =<ll tell you why in a moment. +irst, he as0ed "or my dri!er<s license and re istration. = a!e him my dri!er<s license and started loo0in "or my re istration but he wal0ed away with my dri!er<s license and ne!er as0ed a ain "or the re istration. -o = uess he wasn<t concerned about the car bein stolen or whate!er other in"ormation he mi ht et "rom my re istration. Then he came bac0 and loo0ed in my window and said HBhat<s thatCI pointin to my !ideo camera. =t wasn<t hiddenD= had nothin to hideD= told him it<s a !ideo camera and he as0ed me i" = had been ta0in pictures. = assured him that = had notDthat as soon as = saw the si n sayin no photo raphy that = had turned it o"" and put it down. = showed him on the playbac0 screen on the !ideo camera that = had not ta0en any pictures on that entrance dri!eway, and that the only pictures = had ta0en were o" the si n outside the #=: on the "arm road and the hummer at the closed ate. There was no si n sayin no photo raphy alon the "arm road. :nd = told him that by the time one sees the si n indicatin not only no photo raphy but no photo raphic e5uipment it<s too late to turn bac0. :nyways, = "i ure the si n is primarily "or people enterin the #=: "acility not outside the entrance. That is why there is a turn around and uards at the ate, isn<t itC =t seems un"air to post a si n a"ter one enters at a point when there is no turnin around until one ets to the ate, and then issue citations "or !iolatin a prohibition that one cannot 0now o" until a"ter one enters.

Bell, they made me sit there "or a while, and = was completely cooperati!e the entire time. =t also bothered me that = was unable to et the names o" any o" the other o""icers besides -chmid. The one who stood on the passen er side obser!in me the entire time Mtellin me to 0eep my hands on the steerin wheelDseemed to not want me to see his name, and later Mthe only other o""icer with whom = had any interactionDheld a "lashli ht in his hand and 0ept it in my eyes----especially when = turned and tried to see his name ta . = started my stop watch 9 hours and 29 minutes a o, but that was a"ter = had already been detained "or se!eral minutesDso this whole thin transpired between $;00 and 4;00 p.m. ?sorry, =<m not real ood with military timeA. They let me sit there in my car "or probably about an hour or soDat one point -chmid came bac0 and as0ed me i" = had a camera phone. = wondered how he 0new thatDand = showed it to him and showed him that = had not ta0en any pictures with it. Then = realiGed laterDhe must ha!e 0now that because he watched my mo!ieDnot ,ust the ten seconds or less o" recordin outside the #=: "acilityDalon side the "arm road, but he must ha!e rewound "urtherDand watched more o" my "ilm. 2ow that seems li0e he was oin too "arDalthou h all = had been ta0in pictures o" was mostly churchesDand a "ew other buildin s most recently in the D.#. areaDbut = ha!e "oota e "rom my trip across the entire countryDalready recorded on to #D<sDnot on that tape in the !ideo camera.. Bhat<s on that tape is a lot o" the trip "rom 2ew Jersey down past :tlantic #ity and #ape 8ay and across Delaware 1ay on the +erry. :nd then "rom there into Bashin ton D.#. -o = really hope = can ha!e that !ideo bac0. Bhat he must ha!e seen is some o" the photos = too0 usin the phone cam inside con!enience stores "or e&ampleD= ta0e photos o" the cler0s sometimes Dand then put that photo on !ideo tapeDto document where = was, who the cler0 was etc. =t<s ,ust sa"eDso i" anybody as0s where =<!e been, what =<!e been doin , =<!e ot a trail o" sortsDthat way in case = am e!er accused o" bein somewhere that = wasn<t = can show where = was. =2 addition to that = 0eep receipts etc. :nd it<s also handy to use the phone cam when it is disturbin sometimes to people to thin0 they are bein !ideo recordedDand it<s not recordin s o" pri!ate thin sDnot in a !oyeuristic mannerDis ,ust a Hcolor o" li"eI photoDto show other people at wor0Din con!enience stores, at tolls boots occasionally. 2e!er in any other way. 1ut it bothers me i" he<s watchin my entire !ideo tapeDa ain =<m tryin to be help"ulDcandidDbut = still do ha!e some ri hts, don<t =C :nd then a"ter he came up and said he was oin to i!e me a warnin he went ahead and issued a O>0.00 citation "or ha!in photo raphic e5uipment on the "acility. :s = said, by the time you see the si nDyou are already in the one way dri!eway entranceDso any tourist, any interested person, any innocent in5uirer is sub,ect to bein issued a citation "or ha!in photo raphic

e5uipment a"ter it<s too late to turn around and the si n comes a"ter one turns into the dri!eway. There<s no si n that says H(mployees EnlyI or anythin li0e thatDand what about persons interested in applyin "or employmentC Bhat about ,ournalistsC -urely there is some sort o" procedure "or interested persons. = told -chmid that = am a pastor--, in "act = ha!e my own ministryD8ustard -eed 8inistry,=nc. which includes 8ustard -eed 8inistry 2ews and 8ustard -eed 8inistry 8o!ies. =<!e been puttin out a news !ideo on a wee0ly basis "or 5uite some time nowDand would e!en possibly li0e to include somethin o" H eneral interestI about our national security. This is no ,o0eDit<s o" interest not only to other law en"orcement a encies and personnel but to people in the church as well. 8y ministry and news hour and mo!ies are aimed at in"ormin and inspirin the Hbody o" #hristIDwhich is the "ellowship o" belie!ers. 2onetheless, = would not 0nowin ly do anythin "orbidden by law, nor did =. Bhat "urther bothered me is that the "ellow with the "lashli ht at one point reached in my window and rabbed a !ideo cassette o"" o" the passen ers seat. .e didn<t as0. .( didn<t ha!e probable cause to ,ust rabDi" they wanted to search they could ha!e or should ha!e done it in the ri ht way with probable cause. There<s nothin to su est that = ha!e terrorist intentions or any intent to sabota e #=: operations or any other operations be it at the local, state or "ederal le!el. = am supporti!e o" our police, our military, etc. = may ha!e e!en one that direction mysel" i" it weren<t "or my bad eyesi ht. :nyways, reachin inside my car was oin too "ar = thou ht, but = was not about to ar ue or ma0e a scene. =<!e been around cops li0e this be"oreD they<re ,ust waitin "or an e&cuse to pounce. = a!e them none. 1ut = did tell them asserti!ely that = would ma0e a complaint. = did not deser!e to be treated this way. They all 0new thatDthis was harassment-my only 5uestion is whyC =<m not homose&ual ?but e!en i" = was harassment would be wron A. =<m not a trouble ma0er ?they could ha!e realiGed that a"ter !iewin the !ideo themsel!es which they apparently did !iew at len thDat least lon enou h to 0now that = was usin the cam phone occasionally--- all they would ha!e seen is that by and lar e = li0e ta0in pictures o" churches, with the occasional other matter o" local interestDto show what = plan to call P'od<s #ountry.IA Bhat they won<t 0now is how some thin s "it into the lar er picture because in order "or the mo!ie to be completeD= will ha!e to edit and add narration to some partsDe&plainin the meanin o" some thin s. -o this is my complaintDthey had no reason to belie!e = was photo raphin or had the intention o" photo raphin anythin o" material interest

re ardin national security in or around the #=: "acility. They could see = had an out-o"-state plate. They could see "rom the !ideo they watched, without permission, that = was photo raphin thin s o" reasonable tourist and citiGen interestDi.e. churches, monuments, memorials, statutes, steeples, the Q.-. #apitol 1uildin , ri!ers, la0es, oceans, airplanes, etc.Dthat<s part o" H'od<s #ountryI. Jou won<t "ind any top secret material on that !ideo tape or any otherDand there<s nothin in that entrance to the #=: head5uarters that any terrorist couldn<t see "or him or hersel"----and there lies the problem Dthe prohibition concernin cameras and photo raphy seems to apply primarily and predominantly, i" not wholly, to inside the baseDwhere thin s o" national security are ob!iously o" concern. =" there were issues o" national security concern in the entrance way to the #=:Dit would not be !ery prudent "or the #=: to allow people to dri!e up that "ar without a chec0point prior to oin that "ar. =n a town with many tourists, interested citiGens, obser!ers , etc.Dchances o" people pullin into that dri!eway with a camera or cameras is hi hly li0elyD in "act to be e&pected. To "ollow, pull o!er, and cite them is not li0ely, and = am certain the #=: does not do so on a re ular basis, so why was =C = was polite. = was 0ind. = was cooperati!e. = did e!erythin they as0ed. Bhat was -chmid<s pointC :nd what was the point o" the "ellow with the "lashli ht rowlin at meC :nd why did he "eel he had the ri ht to reach inside my window and rab somethin C =" = was truly a credible threat then they should ha!e searched the car entirely at that pointC That<s why = belie!e this was harassment and = don<t 0now why. = would really ,ust li0e to ha!e my camera bac0 and be on my wayD= was plannin on brie"ly wal0in the 2ational 8all in the mornin and then headin west or southwest, and "inally endin up bac0 in #ali"ornia where = am a pastor and a teacher in ood standin . = loo0 youn sometimesD sometimes it ma0es o""icers thin0 = am a Hpun0I, but =<m not that youn anymoreD=<m almost 40 years old now. :s "ar as = 0now -chmid may e!en be youn er than me, but the "ellow with the "lashli ht sounded olderDthe 0ind who sounds li0e he<s accustomed to ettin away with mistreatin youn er people. +inally, when E""icer -chmid as0ed "or my addressDhe as0ed me to write it downDand as0ed whether the address on my license was my current address. = in"ormed him that this was my o""ice address o" sortsD"or a while but told him my /.E. 1o& is currentDbut then he sort o" snidely said H:re you sureDyou<re not oin to i!e me some other address are youCI Jou see there the Hpun0 treatmentI oes---he had no reason to belie!e = was dishonestDso it was some sort o" pro"ilin . .e<s ne!er met a person "rom a di""erent stateC :nd what does that mean, PBhere are you "romC< = personally was born in one state, rew up in another, and mo!ed to another

while still in hi h school . :nd since then =<!e li!ed in a "ew other countries and at least three di""erent states. 1ut this doesn<t ma0e me dishonest. =n "act, in a lot o" ways the mo!in re5uires more patience, tolerance, endurance, mental and physical a ility than does li!in in one place all one<s li"e. There<s nothin more honest about li!in in one place all one<s li"e than li!in in a !ariety o" places. =n "act = 0now some HhomeboysI, so to spea0, who are anythin but honest, educated, intelli ent, or 0ind. :nyway, when people as0 me where = am "rom = sayDdo you mean where was = bornC Bhere did = row upC Bhere am = li!in nowC Er where ha!e = li!ed the lon estC The baby boomers largely managed to convert a historically unique advantage in prosperity, education, andinto narcissistic blightit ill ta!e fifty years to overcome the damage rought by the baby boomersI this "ellow asserts. The writer is a sel" proclaimed hyphenated hippie-yuppie who rew up wanderin at .ai ht :shburyDwhat<s .ai ht :shburyC Then he attac0s the so-called H eneration &I as still tryin to et people nostal ic about slac0erhood . :nnapolis at >90 a.m. :lpha bet comes "rom alpha beta etc. :nnapolis 2ational #emetery at *15 a.m. and the 2a!y "ootball stadium with the H o na!yI all o!er it at *90 a.m. :nnapolis town center at *95 am. 901 Best towards Bashin ton D.#. o!er the -outh Ri!er at $19 am /rince 'eor e #ounty 8aryland at $1$ o!er the /atu&en Ri!er. There<s a si& "la s :merica here in Bashin ton D.#. 88. The H'ospel @i!e RestaurantI near the #apitol /laGa 8allDwhich is ,ust a mallDdespite it bein on the road mapDthis is the "irst restaurant =<!e e!er seen dedicated to bein a #hristian settin . = see the Q.-V #apitol 1uildin at $59 a.m. /ass the +ol er -ha0espeare library and the Q.-. -upreme #ourt and the #apitol 1ld ?and @ibrary o" #on ressA at $45 a.m. +irst si ht o" Bashin ton 8onument at 490 a.m. @ola went swimmin in the /otomac ri!er around 445 a.m. at the @ady 1ird Johnson /ar0 in the /otomac Ri!er or the @ittle /otomac, ,ust south o" the 'eor etown #hannel and south o" the :rlin ton 8emorial 1rid e. Throu h the entrance o" the :rlin ton 2ational #emetery at 45* a.m. @incoln 8emorial, +ederal Reser!e , and Department o" the =nterior at 10;04 a.m. The new BB== memorial at 10;0> a.m. Je""erson 8emorial at 1004 a.m. :t .ahn<s /oint alon side the ri!erDpeople hi0in , wal0in , runnin , "ishin , e&ercisin , etc. = read /salm >* at .ahn<s /oint around 10;90 a.m. Then = passed the Bashin ton 8arina at 109* a.m. :d hominum ar uments are specious, meanin lessDattac0 the lo ic not the person. 2ational :ir 3 -pace 8useum, Department o" (ducation , and Department o" Transportation at #irclin the Bhite .ouse at 1109 a.m. They ha!e do s to sni"" all incomin tra""icD= ,ust saw one. The 2ational #ity #hurch is a stri0in edi"iceDsmall but poi nant in the midst o" e There<s the -udan (mbassyD= Goomed in on the little si n because = wanted to 0now why so many people were by itDand the police noticed and came o!er to my car demandin to 0now what = was doin . Ene o" them was H)elly ,r.I the other

one was HRossI accordin to their name ta s. 1151 am = see a statute o" 'handi. +alls #hurch at 115 p.m.This is where 'eor e Bashin ton was a !estryman at one point in time. Eutside +air"a& = pull into a hair salon to et my hair and beard trimmed around 215 p.m. 8ost o" the employees are :sian:mericans, but there is one :n lo woman Hslummin I it with themD-he<s the only one who tal0s---and she tal0s about her son as best as = can hearD some o" the HcuteI thin s he<s done lately, and about buyin some pots "or her plants. .er client was pleased with the new hair style she had ,ust i!en herDand e&pressed hersel" in that re ard pro"usely. 8y cutter as0s me i" = want my beard trimmed and = say sureDwhy notDand she really oes to wor0 on it. = don<t ar ueDit<s the middle o" the summer it<s hotDmaybe it will help 0eep me cool. :s = pull out my credit card to pay-0-= "irst as0 her i" she ta0es :merican (&pressD,ust as = do the :n lo stylist comes amblin up Dand says HBe<re 0ind o" simple around here7I =<m not sure what she means by thatDbut = ,ust smileDa reeablyDand i!e my al a O2.00 tip and lea!e. D= wal0 out o" there with my hair shorter than it<s been in a lon lon time. Ri ht around the corner is 2orthern 6ir inia #ommunity #olle e at 252. 2ow = am loo0in "or the /enta on. = wonder i" any o" the dama e le"t o!er "rom the -ept 11 attac0 is still !isible. =n the 2ews 1obby +ischer was arrested in Japan a"ter bein detained by airport authorities "or passport discrepancies. :pparently 1obby +ischer is still wanted in the Q.-. "or !iolatin sanctions a ainst Ju osla!ia many years a oDand played a chess match there despite the then-current sanctions "or which he is still wanted. .e was tryin to o to the /hilippines---now they are sendin him bac0 to the Q.-. = had come across somethin about him in /asadenaDhe posted somethin on the internet indicatin he had been treated wron ly by the /asadena /oliceDwhich doesn<t surprise me Bhat = didn<t 0now is that 1obby +ischer praised the -ept 11 attac0sDthat surprises meDa"ter lea!in the /enta onDwhich is unremar0ableDand no e!idence o" the -ept 11 attac0 ---= o to the 'eor e Bashin ton 8ason 8emorialDthis is a pri!ate memorial built by the 8asons the +reemasons, a sect o" sorts Mto which 'eor e Bashin ton apparently belon ed. :nd they ha!e part o" a letter 5uoted near the entrance "rom 'eor e Bashin ton to the 8asonsDin which he endorses Hthe cra"tI as he calls themDDurin seminary = studied a little bit about the +reemasons ha!in heard about themDthis Hsecret societyI but not "ully understandin them, and ha!in heard about the split between the R#: and the #R# which was based, in part, on the di""erence in attitudes towards Hmembership in secret societies Dwhat was to become the #R#Ddidn<t belie!e membership in secret societies was compatible with membership in the body o" #hrist. = a ree. The R#: howe!er decided it should be a local decisionDthat each con re ation and their pastor should decide "or themsel!es. This and a "ew other thin s

was at the cru& o" the split between the R#: and what was to become the #R#Da"ter brie"ly callin themsel!es the True Re"ormed #hurch or True Dutch Re"ormed #hurch. 2ow =<!e readDabout the +reemasons Mthose critical o" it, has not been encoura in in terms o" their alle iance to #hristD or compatibility with the #hristian "aithDthe +reemasons. They also ha!e a sub chapter called the Demolays and = read about one o" the "ounders bein a con!icted pedophile o" some sort--, and this Demolay society "or children is based on this pedophiles inspiration "or a +reemason chapter "or #hildren. = also noticed the -hriners Truc0 as = enteredDall o" us ha!e heard o" the -hrinersDthey sponsor the tra!ellin circus, and they are associated with Jerry @ewis< muscular dystrophy annual campai n. BellDthere<s enou h about the "reemasons to ma0e me cautious and also ma0e me wonder why there are so many "ormer presidents associated with themDor alle edly soD accordin to !arious thin s =<!e readDsome o" it on the internetDhow reliable it is = do not 0now. +or that matterDapparently 2orman 6incent /eale was in!ol!ed in +reemasonryDor an honorary memberDalthou h is bein bestowed an honorary membership e!idence o" a""irmation o" that societyC = could bestow honorary 1oard 8embership on whome!er = wishD"or 8ustard -eed 8inistries but that doesn<t necessarily mean they a""irm me or 8ustard -eed 8inistries. -o in some cases = ha!e to wonder i" the +reemasons simply bestowed honorary titles on someDwithout their e&press appro!al or a""irmation or i norant acceptance. The boo0 = read by a "ormer "reemason turned #hristian, howe!er, made it sound as i" the +reemasonsDalthou h respect"ul o" other "aithsDonce in the society were not !ery tolerant o" worship o" only the Triune 'od--. :nyways, = lea!e a little 1ible there "or somebody hopin it will do some ood. .1 at 'eor e Bashin ton 8ason 8onument at 944 p.m. Ri ht around the corner or down the street "rom the Bashin ton-8ason monument is a place called HThe /ositi!e /iGGa /lace.I = ,o0e as = !ideo itDthat Robert -chuller would lo!e it. = 8y notes indicate that = went to the /enta on at 421 pm Mso apparently = the abo!e was out o" order. Then "rom there- = went bac0 throu h townDby the +1= buildin at 595 p.m. and the 8artin @uther )in Jr. 8emorial @ibrary at 540 pm. and the +ord Theatre at 54> p.m, althou h you can<t turn down the street due to constructionDon the map also is a blip "or the H /eterson .ouseI M= wonder what that isC = can<t recall a "amous /eterson associated with Bashin ton D.#. 1ut = don<t see the house itsel". = pass by the Bhite .ouse areaDstill hopin to "ind a par0in place so that = can wal0 the 2ational 8allDno luc0 Dtra""ic is still hea!yDand no par0in spaces are a!ailable. -o = turn towards the 2ational #athedralDwhich is supposed to be on 8adison -tD= "ollow 8assachusetts :!enue in that directionDbac0 by the 'handi statute a ain and a "ew other thin s =<!e already seen, and =<m at 8assachusetts and 15th at >9$ p.m. :s = Pm dri!in = thin0 to mysel"Dsome o" these "ellows = 0new while rowin up were losersD oin around tryin to et close enou h to you to pro!e you are no betterDthat<s not hard to "ind what you<re

loo0in "orDalthou h not !ery truth"ulDthe hardest thin to do is set aside assumptions, presumptionsDthose which are rooted in laGiness and local traditionDand learn "rom the presentD"rom the pastDeducation, history, current e!ents-, etc.Dto row in #hrist Mto row in truth, to row in "aithD which is one in three, three in one. :nd you should 0now who = am tal0in aboutDincludin -te!en )orhorn, but now as = realiGe it perhaps also Jac0 .olwerdaDas well, amon a "ew others. There are se!eral embassies alon 8assachusetts RoadDrepresentati!es o" !arious countries. = arri!e at the Bashin ton #athedral at >55 pm. :nd it is really somethin to beholdD impressi!e architectureDand = dri!e around it tryin to see it "rom di""erent an les. The uy behind me hon0ed as = put on my le"t turn si nalDhe hon0ed repeatedlyDapparently tryin to tell me somethin . = loo0ed closer and noticed a Hno le"t turn H si nDbut then another si n said that was only "rom 4;90 to >;90 . =t was now >;5$ p.m. +or the "irst timer throu h that intersectionDthere is enou h con"usion to ma0e it nebulousDand the uy in bac0 o" my undoubtedly saw my #ali"ornia plate and thou ht Hstupid touristI and rammed on the hornDwhich = "ind obno&iousDand disrespect"ul --. This is a tourist townDits our nations capitolDi" you li!e here you ha!e to e&pect tra!elers "rom all o!erDand i" they misread a si nD i!e a little toot to remind themDdon<t blare at them. That<s cowardly. Bell, = si nal to him my annoyance with the e&cessi!e hon0in and mo!e ahead out o" his way, "or the time bein Da!oid unnecessary con"lict is my motto. +rom there = o a little "urther northDand inad!ertently pass 2ebras0a road where the Department o" .omeland -ecurity buildin is supposed to be---= pass o!er and come across the Besleyan Theolo ical -eminaryDwith a statute o" a man on a horsebac0 in "ront. E" itD= "i ure that<s BesleyDnot Jesus M= circle throu h the par0in lotDit<s actually a "airly lar e campusD with a spacious dormitory or apartment "acility--, "rom there = o bac0 to 2ebras0a roadDbut = don<t see any si ns that say anythin about the Department o" .omeland -ecurityD= . = see 2a!y 1ase o" some sortD maybe .omeland -ecurity is housed thereDbut there<s no si n. There<s a 2a!y #hapel . :nd ri ht beyond that across "rom the Japan (mbassy is the 2ational /resbyterian #hurchDor #enter*;90 p.m. 1y now = realiGe = am "airly close to @an ley 6ir iniaDwhere the #entral =ntelli ence .ead5uarters is supposed to be---= decide to cruise byD et a loo0 seeDand so = head in that direction not sure e&actly where it isDbut assumin =<ll "ind somethin to orient me alon the way. :nd sure enou hD= come to Dolley 8adison Road which is on the mapDindicatin = am ,ust a bloc0 or so "rom the #=:Dwhich is now called 'eor e 1ush<s #enter "or =ntelli enceDo" course they<!e been under "ire lately "or their so-called intelli ence that 1ush used as a premise "or warDthe #=: asserted that there was clear and present dan er "rom =ra5Ddue to their stoc0pile o" Beapons o" 8ass DestructionD?B8D<s ADthat was the basis "or warDaccordin to 1usD that they posed a threat because o" these B8DIsDbut to this day they still ha!e not "ound any B8D<s. -o the #=: has been under "ire and recently the director o" the #=: stepped downD!oluntarily but under ob!ious pressure

to do so. :nywaysDnone o" that was in my mind as = dro!e past the entrance D= ,ust wanted !isual idea o" what the #=: loo0ed li0eD,ust the entranceD ob!iously anythin secreti!e or a matter o" national concern would not be out "ront !isibleDbut = miss the entranceDso = turn down the ne&t roadD and there<s< a si n "or a tourist "arm o" some sortD= dri!e down that way and notice a white police or security car alon the roadDbut read the rest "or yoursel"D=<!e already written itDand sent out my initial complaint about the treatment = recei!ed by the #=: security7..R o to complaint to the #=: letterS 7. 2ow it<s $25 p.m. = started my stop watchNN-earsNNthere<s a -ears hereDon Democracy 1l!d. = consider stayin in 1ethesda 8aryland "or the e!enin , but =<m not tiredD= type up my complaint 7at 1204 =<m still typin .. then = o around the corner to the 24 hour 0in0osDand print itDput it on blue paperDand prepare the address labelD?as =<!e already told you = mailed it earlier today "rom = The other thin -chmid didDwhich = thou ht was unnecessaryDwas the use o" my "irst nameDand not in a respect"ul mannerDbut in that sort o" condescendin way one uses to control. Bell, = am dri!in throu h and out o" Bashin ton D.#. at 2;00 amDon +riday e!enin Dand the ni ht li"e is acti!eDthe people are out and aboutDtal0in , socialiGin , drin0in , han in out. 8y last stop be"ore = hit the "reeway is the Bater ate .otel%E""ice buildin D= ,ust happen to come across itDthat<s where all o" the 2i&on scandal be an--.

Day 99 -aturday, July 1*, 2004----lept near [uantico 6ir iniaDthe 8arine 1ase head5uarters. There<s a statute o" them postin a "la outside the base Dthe town there is called Trian le, now enterin -ta""ord #ounty at >54 a.m. Ene day a"ter the #=: incidentD-ta""ord 1aptist #hurch at *11 a.m. #hurch on the roc0 with 8ustard -eed 1oo0 -tore at *1> a.m. as = head south towards Richmond. HThan0 you Ronald Rea an says the si n. :t *20 a.m. 1irthplace o" Robert @eeD4> 8iles on Route 9. :rri!al at +rederic0sbur at *95 a.m.. @i!in Bord #hurch and the 'race 8emorial #hurch in +rederic0sbur 6: at *45 a.m. and #hatham 1aptist #hurchDall three ri ht o"" the Je""erson Da!is .i hway = ta0e the turn to wards downtown +rederic0sbur . -t. 'eor e<s (piscopal #hurch, The /resbyterian #hurch and 0itty corner "rom each other. -hiloh 1aptist #hurch at *5$ am . /assin by 8ary Bashin ton Qni!ersityDit<s a bi campus = uess it<s a colle e not a uni!ersity There oes the -potsyl!ania #ounty -heri"" at $0> a.m. = pull into the (instein 1a elDthin0in = mi ht pic0 up somethin to o, but = don<t see anythin interestin so = lea!e 'oin throu h -potsyl!ania Dthe townDwhat a nameD= see a si n "or the #i!il Bar @i"e 8useumD another interest o" mineDa"ter = came across a "amily tree tal0in about some ancestors on my mothers side who were in!ol!ed in the #i!il Bar. =t<s part o" the !isitors center and not open yet. 2ow enterin Tallant, 6: accordin to the water towerDthose waters are handyDmost small towns

ha!e one and more o"ten than not the name o" the town is painted on it. 8assapono& 1aptist #hurch at $9$ a.m. = turn towards the -tonewall Jac0son 8emorialDit says HThe "hancellorsville "ampaign #death of $ac!son%To this cottage during the height of his fame came thirty&nine year old "onfederate 'en T. $. Stone all( $ac!son May ) *+,-. After his ounding on the "hancellorsville .attlefield his left arm had been amputated and he had been brought here a distance of /0 miles by ambulance agon. 1e ould soon be ell enough it as confidently e2pected, to proceed south ard on the railroad for complete recuperation. 1o ever, hen his ife and infant daughter 3oined him on May 0, he as beginning to fail . 1e died of pneumonia on Sunday afternoon, May *4. 564* a.m. Did you 0now he was a con"ederateC = ne!er saw that mo!ie H2orth-outhID=<!e always supported the north--. = send out my complaints o" harassment to the #=:<s public a""airs o""ice at 4;20 am "rom Thornbur , 6:. :lon side the road ,ust south o" there is a si n that says HTurn in Sheridan7s 8aid6 At this point in his 8ichmond raid 'eneral Sheridan , after a fight ith confederate cavalry "ommanded by 'eneral 9illiams ". 9ic!ham, turned off the Telegraph 8oad to .eaver :am , May 5, *+,). This change of route caused Sheridan to approach 8ichmond from the ;orth est instead of the north.( @adysmith 6ir inia at 49* a.m. The si n alon the road says <'rant7s Operations6 here at Mount "armel "hurch on May /-, *+,) 1ancoc!7s =second> corps turned south to the ;orth Ann 8iver? 9arren7s =fifth> corps and 9right7s =si2th> corps here turned est to $ericho Mills on the 8iver. 'rand had his headquarters in the church on May /). On May /0, *+,), the four corps of 'rant7s army returning from the ;orth Anna&, here turned east to "old 1arbor.( =t<s ri ht ne&t to #armel 1aptist #hurchDwith three wooden crosses in "ront. The si n says @ee and 'rant faced each other on the ;orth Anna, May /-&/,, *+,). Anion forces crossed here and four miles to the est but found they could not dislodge @ee7s center, hich rested on the stream. 'rant then turned east to "old harbor.( 45* a.m. The ne&t si n says HThe Marquis de @afayette and his outnumbered colonial l troops abandoned 8ichmond on May /0, *0+* to avoid 'en "harles "orn allis7 approaching forces. @afayette marched north from 8ichmond through 1anover "ounty and li!ely crossed the nearby ;orth Anna 8iver by may -*. "orn allis pursued @afayette to the ;orth Anna 8iver the ne2t day. There "orn allis sent the .ritish troops est in a t o&pronged attac! to destroy storehouses and attempt to capture the governor and the 'eneral Assembly in "harlottesville. @afayette continued north ard to the 8apidian 8iver to a ait reinforcements. = pull throu h the #hic0-"il-a at 1059 a.m. =<!e heard so much about this place and the "ounder Mhe was a uest at our church on at least one occasionDone o" the "ew i" not only national "ast "ood chains that is closed on -undayDand this may be the "irst time =<!e eaten hereDalthou h = recall a #hic0-"il-a at the mall in #erritos #:Dwhere = may ha!e tried a chic0en sandwich at one point in timeDbut not that = can recall clearlyDso = pull inDwant to see what ma0es this place so uni5ueDthey only sell chic0en sandwichesD= order the classicDand it is a "ried chic0en breast on a bunDno lettuce or tomatoD

or any special sauceDalthou h there are some pic0les under the chic0enD= put some catsup on itDeat itDand it is de"initely better than the standard chic0en sandwich you et at 8cDonalds, Jac0-in-the-1o& or othersDThis is the real thin Dnot processed chic0enDit<s a de-boned breastD"riend and put on a bunDwhat a di""erenceDand "or only O2.5*. = continue towards Richmond, 6:Dthere<s a bi si n that says HThe Dump H on itDa carpet, "urniture, and mattress stoore0-----uni5ue name. #atchy, althou h not real ele ant . 11;00 a.m. = arri!e in Richmond, 6: around 12;90Dand buy a new camcorderDnothin "ancyDwhat<s< the point. 1ut it does the ,obDthey<re all "airly similar. Re"lection; most people don<t ta0e the lon ,ourney towards sel" actualiGation. They ta0e short cutsDin e""ect shortchan in themsel!es Dbut also when you don<t sel" actualiGe and li!e up to 'od<s plan "or your li"eDyou end up usin , abusin , or oppressin othersDso you do short chan e others as well. Re"lectionDbody analo yDwe o "rom interest in our own bodyDto interest in others bodiesDnormally interest in the opposite se& and as we row in #hristDas we mature we row in interest and concern about the lar er bodyDthe body o" #hrist its all analo ical. :t some pointDthou hD people stopDi" they<re not rowin in #hristDtheir de!elopment ceases, abnormallyDand they remain stuc0 at a limited le!el. /etersber 6: at 20> p.m. 'entleman<s club in Richmond 6:. Rebel "la s at the 1land"ord #emeteryD/salm *5 at 1land"ord #emetery at 240 pm -t. /etersber 1attle"ield at 901 pmDactually it<s ,ust /etersbur , not -aint. Re"lectionDin some parts there<s too much concern theolo ically about tryin to "i ure out how 'od wanted us to HbeIDwhen in "act it may be more pertinent to concentrate on what 'od wanted us to HdoIDbecause doin leads to bein . Richmond apparently was ;con"ederate capitolI "or a while. 2ow we<re in Binn Di&ie and Ba""le .ouse territory ---when = thin0 o" the south = always thin0 o" the Ba""le .ouseDthey<re e!erywhere li0e 8cDonalds. = pic0ed up some bananas and do "ood at the Binn Di&ieDnice chec0out al there by the name o" -hawnaDand a ba boyDwith some sort o" de!elopmental disability. Then = went o!er to the as station and ot a re"ill o" iceDtea brewedDit<s always a little better. The si n said H(nterin #hesapea0e 1ay BatershedI at 4 p.m. 'eneral @ee was a con"ederate who was de"eated around this areaDsouth o" /etersbur . = bou ht a #i!il Bar son #D at the #i!il Bar 8useum. Ene o" the son s is about the #umberland 'apDwhat happened at the #umberland 'apC .eadin south on .i hway 1 le"t the #i!il Bar 8useum at 490 pm -ecurity uards and police and others li0e themDo"ten dwell on tryin to "i ure out how somethin wor0s---and once they "i ure it outDthey thin0 it<s no bi dealDthat<s their classic mista0eD and their mista0e about what colle e is all aboutDthey thin0 o" colle e as a place where you<re supposed to "i ure e!erythin outDand decide not to o because they belie!e they can "i ure e!erythin out enou h without colle eD what they don<t 0now is that the liberal arts colle e ?as opposed to the technical colle e A is not about "i urin thin s outDand ma0in conclusions

o" "actDit<s about rowth in understandin and comprehension o" the world Dand the uni!erse which ma0es one all the more humbleDbecause it becomes increasin ly ob!ious in such a course o" study that 'od<s plan is "ar reater and ma ni"icent than we will e!er "ully understand e!en thou h we can trust and belie!e that he has i!en us some comprehension o" the meanin and purpose at lar eDnot necessarily how e!erythin wor0sDbut = don<t need to 0now how somethin wor0s in order to use it with inte rityD= don<t 0now how e!erythin in my car wor0sDbut = use itDa lotDprobably more than some mechanics who 0now what they re doin . 1ut e!en i" you did want to boil it all down to "i urin thin s outDthe person without a o!er!iew o" all the di""erent thin s that ha!e happened o!er time will not be comprehensi!e in his understandin . .e mi ht be able to understand a little bit about psycholo y but not the history o" psycholo y, or statistics or de!elopmentDand there are !arious theoriesDnone o" which is pro!en "act. .e mi ht be able to spea0 (n lish but he wont 0now the history o" (n lish, how the lan ua e de!eloped, why that is important, how it helps us understand others, etc. .e mi ht be able to add and subtract but he wont be able to understand math at an abstract le!elDand why it<s important and how it "its into 'od<s plan. The si n says somethin about the HEri inal home o" 1runswic0 -tew and somethin about s5uirrels7.e mi ht 0now how to read a basic te&tboo0 about history but not about how the write o" that history compares to other writers o history and which one is more truth"ul and which one has sympathies towards whomDand how that e""ects the way they paint the picture o" what happened. .e may 0now he li0es a particular son on the radio Ma little bit about the lyrics to any particular son Dhe may ha!e e!en learned how to play an instrument in ,unior hi h or hi h school but he wont 0now how the music pro ressed to that point and why it is played in a particular way now when it wasn<t Hthen.I :nd why it matter7. a apart "rom whether he li0es a particular son or not.. Eur understandin o" each other at an inte ral le!el is e&panded and broadened by education.. =n the news the #=: is bein hi hly criticiGed by #on ress and the #ommittee "ormed to o!ersee what went wron that allowed the 411-01 attac0 to occur7 and it appears that a lot o" power will be ta0en away "rom these so-called intelli ence . :s = was sayin the cop or uard without education may be able to "i ure out a lot o" technolo ical ad ets and iGmos maybe e!en more so than Hcolle e boyI ---he may be able to "i ure out how a 6#R wor0sDor how to hoo0 it up to the T6, or how a camcorder wor0s0--but not be able to use it to put thin s to ether in an edi"yin , meanin "ul mannerDthey<ll only see one part o" the wholeDli0e the bodyDthey<ll see women as a part o" their sumDonly b o" the e5uation-.i h /ower #hurch o" 'od at 52> pm on .i hway 1 -outh. Dimwittie or Dimwiddie #ounty7:lthou h we may be in 1runswic0 #ounty now. =t<s hard to tell "rom the map. =n the newsDthis is the 5th anni!ersary o" the death o" J+) Jr. ---who crashed in a plane with a "ew others a"ter ta0in o"" "rom 8artha<s 6ineyardD"i!e years a oDthey say he did a Hdeath spiralI

into the waterDha!in become disoriented in the o!ercast weather. . There<s a lon stretch o" not much to see at > pm. = thin0 to mysel" it mi ht be more appropriate to call the #=:Dthe #entral =diotic : encyDin part, not wholeDsurely they do ha!e some !alue, but7= bou ht this #i!il Bar -on s #DDand on the insert it tells me that one o" the son s has to do with Billiam -herman<s march "rom :tlanta to the :tlantic and how it demoraliGed the con"ederates. . :nother son called H'oober /easI is about peanutsDwhen the con"ederates were ettin low on suppliesDthey resorted to eatin stale peanuts which they called H'oober peasI---Jet another son Done more "amiliar to many is the HJellow -tar o" Te&asI Mand apparently the meanin o" that ori inally comes "rom the 8e&ican-:merican BarDand is in re"erence to a 8ulatto sla!e al whom somebody lo!ed dearly---now =<m headin south on the $5 at *12 pm . This is 6ance #ounty. . = thin0 to mysel"D= preach "or my own souls sa0e as much as any others, i" not more so DThe son 'oober /eas is now playin at *24Dit<s a whimsical ballad o" sorts. 2ow = am oin throu h E&"ord at *59 p.m. , throu h #reedmoor at $11, and = am in Ba0e #ounty accordin to the si n at $24pm = o past +alls @a0eDa lo!ely little body o" water at $24 pm and = see a -hrine -tatute at $9$ pm =t<s a statute o" a man holdin a child lo!in lyDand is in "ront o" some sort o" -hrine #hildren<s #enterDnow the connection between the -hriners and the +reemasons is much more clearD= had read about it but now = saw the association "ormally maintained :T T.( 'eor e Bashin ton 8ason monument, alon with the Demolay displayDit<s somethin to be cautious aboutDi" not o!erly concerned.

Day 94 -unday July1$, 2004Dletter to -andra 6anderlinde at *2$ a.m. = didn<t 0now Du0e and Q2# were so close to ether---= ta0e the turn o"" towards Du0e Q. at *44 a.m. =t<s a beauti"ul campus----arah Du0e ardens *55 pm . 2ow we<re at Q2#Din #hapel .ill 2#. Mboth Du0e and Q2# ha!e a beauty to themDarchitecturally spea0in 0Dnot all colle es or uni!ersities doDthin0in bac0 on Dordt Qni!ersity in Dordt =owaDnamed a"ter the town o" Dordrecht in the 2etherlands presumably ---Dordt #olle e is !ery plain and simple in its architecture---no steeples no randeur not really e!en stately in the con!entional meanin o" the word. Bheaton #olle eD !ery smallDalso !ery simple. (!en my own alma materD#al!in #olle e is "airly plainDmaybe that<s a Re"ormation characteristicDthe austere antiima ery, history o" some parts o" the Re"ormation..IThou -hall not ma0e any ra!en ima es< had a si ni"icant impact on the de!elopment o" the churchDand e!en the ecclesiastical edi"ice Mmore so in /rotestantism than in #atholicismDin eneral%%%% o!er the Deep Ri!er at 49> a.m. Belcome to @ee #ounty at the same time. =t rained a lot last ni ht ---= was up and down closin windows when it started pourin , openin them when it brie"ly stopped. = o throu h -an"ord at 45* a.m. and ta0e 42 west. = hit a hu e pothole with water in it. Those with less education see less parts o" the sumD

they see 1%10 or 1%5 or what ha!e you. =<m sure = only see a "raction tooDbut more so than many othersDmuch more soD i!in me a much reater chance o" ha!in a liberatin e""ect on others rather than oppressi!e. #hurch ser!ices are in pro ress as = pass by 72ew @i"e, -aint @u0es, -an"ord +irst, #ornerstone 1aptist and a "ew others---then = come to 'lendon which is ,ust north o" this place on the map called H.ouse in a .orseshoeI which has me curious and where = am headin towards7:nd there it is at 11;00 am and = read a /salm outside the Phouse in the .orseshoeI where a battle between the Bhi s and the Tories too0 placeD= read /salm $2 outside the .ouse in the .orseshoeDon a mu y -unday mornin 7.. Re"lectionDwe ha!e a !ested interest in 0nowin how our national security intelli ence a encies are doin Dwe ha!e ri ht and need to 0now that they are doin a sound ,ob. HBelcome to :berdeenI said the si n at 120* near /inehurst #ountry #lub Resort. = pic0ed up some 1read, bolo naDbb5 chips and rape soda outside o" Durham . (nterin Richmond #ounty-, lea!in 8oore at 1220. 'ood ooop at 1290. /ower nap at 190. >2 cent re"ill . +reedom Bill 1aptist #hurch with t he hands brea0in the handcu""s on the si nDat 210 Mpm The current action #=: director is John 8c@au hlin. (ntered -. #arolina and the city o" #heraw at 240 pm. /atric0. -# at 254 . The windshield wipers went on by themsel!es at 25> pm. -tran e. /salm 24, 42, and 12$ at the -. #arolina -andhills 2BR around 990 pm Three ood rules to remember; )now where you are, 0now where you<!e been, and 0now where you<re oin . :lli ator Bater Bater Tower at 494 pm. /ast the /each Trees Mnot ripe yet but close at 49* pm. = bou ht a bas0et o" peaches at a wayside stand at 44> p.m. (nterin 8c1ee the si n said Hbabies were born to be breast"edI. 1ethune at 504 pm. (nterin #amden at 590 pm #amden police are busy, acti!e, out and about. #olumbia -# at >90 p.m . [uestion ; Bhat does Reho mean in HrehobetIC Be 0now 1eth means house---so 1ethlehem means house o" bread, but =<ll l ha!e to chec0 my .ebrew "or the meanin o" Reho. =<m assumin it has a 'od connotation--. =n #olumbia -outh #arolina there is a i antic #ity .allDwith the military man statute on "ront M a typical southern customDand then = dro!e past H.is .ouseI ministriesDin bi bold letters on the si na e. . =n the news MTim 1erners @eeDthe "ounder o" the Borldwide Beb is bein H0ni htedI at 1uc0in ham todayD"or his achie!ements as the "ounder o" the Beb. Billiam 1ennetDadmitted to bein a hi h sta0es ambler about a year a oD= didn<t hear about that thenD 1ennet is the or was the Q.-. -ecretary o" (ducation. :i0en #ounty at *44 p.m. :nother ood op at $14 pm (!ery July 20 'ermany remembers those who attempted to 0ill .itler in a coup attempt- but "ailed Mthe bomb 0illed many o" those around :dol" but not :dol" himsel"Dwho apparently was unscathed by itDand this led to deadly repercussions by .itler a ainst those he suspected o" bein a ainst him. : si n on the side o" the road says H'et us out o" the Qnited 2ationsI John 1irch -ociety. :t $94 p.m. There<s one o" those -onic Dri!e thru restaurants at $44.. =n the news they<re tal0in about

a #i!il Bar "ort on an island >$ miles west o" )ey Best +loridaD+ort Je""erson Mapparently bein ra!a ed by the seaDbut now bein prepared "or reno!ationsDthe "ort itsel" is i anticDbi enou h to hold two coliseums Dor a pro "ootball stadiumDit was used to house prisoners durin the #i!il war. There<s been a bi dinosaur bone disco!er near :ra on -pain. .oodia cactus has been disco!ered to be an appetite suppressantD"ound in :"ricaD now bein mar0eted.. Day 95 8onday, July 14, 2004----lept in :u usta near the -a!annah Ri!er D :u usta 2ational at *51 a.m. =t<s a tiny entranceDthe entire ol" course is surrounded by thic0 shrubs and treesDunnoticeableDno bi si ns indicatin that this is where the 8asters is held. :cross "rom the entrance there is some sort o" clubDnot clear i" it<s related to the ol" courseDbut it says HBelcome .erman #ainID.erman #ain was a uest o" our con re ation. now headin south on the 25 towards -a!annahDthe #ity, then Jac0son!ille +@7 'reen Eop at 422 est. Baynesboro at 425 MH1ird Do #apitol o" the BorldI says the welcome si n. 8a nolia -prin -t. /ar0 on the 25 south at 455 a.m. 'as and Eil at 1014 a.m. =n the news :rnold -chwaarGenaa er calls some o" those le islators who cater to special interests H irlie menI. Baynesboro is in 1roo0 #ountyDthen Jen0ins #ounty. The church si n said HBhen li"e ets too hot try /rayer #onditionin I and another one said H1e "ishers o" men . Jou catch em he<ll clean emI = stopped at the #hic0 "il a in -tatesboro +@ ?or ':A and she a!e me an e&tra sandwich either accidentally or intentionally around 11;00 a.m. . Belcome to 1rooo0let, home o" the peanut "esti!al at 1109 a.m. s. (nterin (""in ham #ounty at 1194 a.m. ---o!er a ri!er. P+le&ible /eople 2e!er et 1ent out o" -hape H said the #hurch si n at 1149 a.m. . (nterin 1loomin dale at 1144 a.m. @on slow stretch "rom :u usta to -a!annah%7 Day 95 8onday, July 14, 2004.-o = called the #=: and tal0ed to Eperator `1 who would not i!e me his name---he said that operator `2, his super!isor, was indisposed at the momentDand he a!e me the main ate number instead. -a!annah .istoric Ri!er District at 1295 p.m. :pparently we are now in 8idway. /ast +t. 8orris historic -ite turn o""Dat 224 p.m. Three candy bars "or 44 cents. (nterin Riceboro at 290 pm. %%/salm *> at the smallest church in :merica at 9;00 p.m. =n the newsD"ire in 2. @os :n eles #ounty 0eeps burnin . Min -anta #laritaDand somethin about the -cott /eterson murder trial. +ort )in 'eor e -tate .istoric siteDclosed on 8ondayDat 995 p.m. Darien ': at 940 p.m. Day 95 8onday, July 14, 2004.-o = called the #=: and tal0ed to Eperator `1 who would not i!e me his name---he said that operator `2, his super!isor, was indisposed at the momentDand he a!e me the main ate number instead. -o = tal0ed to )hedara at the /asadena E""ice around 404 p.m. Dand Darryl at the Bashin ton D.#. E""ice o" Representati!e :dam -chi""--- laterD= ot a call "rom .ai at *0$ pm sayin to start the process by writin a letter. . -chi""<s address in /asadena is 95 -. Raymond ` 205 41105 (nterin 1runswic0 at 404 p.m. 'oin o!er the brid e at 414 p.m. There are manatees in the area says the si n7by the brid e. Boodbine at

515 pm.Dlittle crabs on the beach% Those who use dru s or other arti"icial means to in"late their ability and lon e!ityDend up creatin an arti"icial hi h that ma0es e!erybody ha!e to do the same thin to maintain that le!el . (nterin +ernandina , the4n Jac0son!ille at $09 pm. En the 45 -outhD-t. Johns #ounty at $24 pm :t $41 the stran est thin happenedDsuddenly = ot two bi oblets o" water on my windshieldDit<s not rainin Dthere were no o!erhead wires or branches---and it appeared to be soapy water---li0e the 0ind that comes "rom one<s windshield wiper "luid e,ector7 but my windshield wiper cleanin "luid e,ector has not wor0ed since the day = ot this carDand = didn<t push any buttonsDe!en i" it didDthis stran eD,ust li0e a day or so a o when the wipers suddenly did a sweep o" the windshield without any prompt "rom mysel"Dand then ,ust as suddenly turned themsel!es o"". =<m on .i hway 1 -outh toward -t. :u ustine. There<s the airport t $45. :pparently a haw0 electrocuted by a wireDwhich then "ell to the roundDstarted the -o. #ali"ornia "ire.. Day 9>, Tuesday, July 20, 2004--->52 a.m. headin south on the 1: throu h -t. :u ustineDa lo!ely little townDit<s cooler nowDthe heat ha!in subsided. There<s a Ripley<s 1elie!e it or notDa "ortDa lar e cross on the seaDmany beauti"ul churches includin a beauti"ul /rotestant churchD #athedralDthere<s a winery.. a H9D houseI and many other thin s in this lo!ely little town o" -t. :u ustine. 'entleman<s club at *2$ a.m. /utnam #ounty at $9* a.m. The map scale has chan edD+lorida is a much lar er state than those =<!e been in the last "ew days--. (nterin /alata0a at $4> a.m. : lot o" lo in truc0s at 401 a.m. -o = sent a letter to :dam -chi"" "rom 'randine +@.. -o = bou ht a piece o" piGGa that =<!e seen ad!ertised at all these con!enience store % as stationsDas ha!in Hall the toppin sI "or the one-toppin priceDand all it has at this particular location is pepperoniDso = say to the alD= thou ht it had all the toppin s7 and she said Hwell, sometimes we do it di""erentlyI (nterin :lachua #ounty :T 109> a.m. (nterin .awthorne at 109$ a.m. The si n says H.awthorneDthe heart o" -port "ishin I 8an on motorcycle doin a catwal0 at 1044 a.m. = passed by Janet @udema Bol"s at 1192 a.m. Mshady dirt road area..---the house is "or sale7the Qni!ersity o" +lorida is in 'aines!ille as well. = completed the Janet @udema letter at 120$ pm . = thou ht o" a ood name "or a #hinese restaurant based on all the di""erent wordplays o" Hwo0ID=<!e seen HBo0 and rollI and HBo0 on inI , amon others--..how about H2ew Bo0, 2ew Jor0I . = mailed the @udema letter at 124$ pm . The De!ils 8illhopper par0 is closed on 8ondays M12;55 p.m. =n the newsDthey say the prosecution inter!iewed or in!esti ated se!eral hundred se&ual o""enders in the area where @aci /eterson disappeared. 1ut in some cases ne!er "ollowed throu h on all the potential leads. The police are !ery !ery acti!e around 'aines!ille. (nterin :lachua at 11$ pm .=n :lachua the :dult Borld Mwas closedDthe si n said HTa&payer O at wor0I. (nterin .i h -prin s at 140 pm . (dd called at 14$ pm . = did not pic0 up. (nterin +t. Bhite at 154 p.m = tried

callin bac0 (DD Mtried to et throu h twice but couldn<t et throu h ..then = did et throu h to 'race at 214 pm. The phone numbers = a!e her wereD well one was the "a& number = inad!ertently a!e her the "a& number, the other one was !alid and current--. @ola swam in t -uwannee Ri!er ---a ri!er made "amous by the son DHDown by the -uwannee Ri!erI 22> p.m. = read /salm 195 down by the -uwannee Ri!er. This is in the town o" 1ran"ord . 2e&t town is 8ayoDli0e the salad dressin . = thin0 = ,ust saw a wild pi D but when = turned bac0 = couldn<t see itDat the ne&t as station = notice on their ma aGine rac0 M a ma aGine called H1oar .unterI< about wild pi huntin in 2orthern +lorida. =n the newsD@ance :rmstron is doin wellD with "i!e days le"t to o. :nd the +ilipino hosta e has been released . = enter the town o" 8ayo at 950 pm There<s a prison at 490 pm. = dri!e by the prisonDloo0s li0e a road you can dri!e on that oes around the perimeterDlots o" barbwireDthen a uard in a pic0up truc0 pulls up ne&t to meDand indicates that maybe =<m not supposed toDthere<s no si ns sayin do not enterDshe appears embarrassed "or some reason--..= say to her H=s this ma&imum securityCI -he nods. = 0eep oin . = pass o!er the +ennholloway Ri!er at 444 p.m. = notice a lot o" lo in truc0s in this area7. Throu h the town o" /erry at 455 p.m . The church si n says P.e who an ers you controls youI = pass the county ,ailDand then another prison ?TaylorA7 at 519 pm E!er the :ucilla Ri!er at 54> pm enterin into Je""erson #ounty. Re"lection; in the #al!inist community the doctrine o" election is used to et away with a lotDtoo much and sometimes at the e&pense o" others. This is a !ery barren stretch o" hi hwayDin terms o" steeples Mor any other buildin s "or that matterDbut a lot o" trees. =<m approachin TallahasseeDand stop in a place called HBa0ulla -prin s---it<s O4.00 entry "eeD= tal0 with the lady al at the entry ateDshe<s a li!ely middle a e womanDtells em about all the thin s to do at the -prin sDbut that the boat tours are closed "or the e!enin .. = as0 her about alli ators noddin at my do Dsayin that she li0es to swim in the ri!ersDis it sa"eC -he tells me about her 0nowled e o" alli atorsDa how she went 0aya0in one day and suddenly realiGed she was ri ht ne&t to an alli ator. -he said be care"ulDthat<s about all you can do--. = pay the "ee and dri!e down the short road to the lod eD= see a pond behind itDand there<s a plat"orm a hi h di!e plat"orm "or ,umpin o"" into the deep waterDa "ew 0ids are still on itD and there<s a li"e uard watchin D= 5uic0ly circle the doc0 areaDthe swimmin is bein closed ri ht at the moment = arri!e.. = wal0 throu h the lod e Mthere<s a display with a hu e alli ator in itDdeadDwhom they call Hold JoeIDand who they say mi ht ha!e been 100 years old at the time he diedDshot by a poacher as it turns out laterDby a man who is now on death row "or the murder o" his wi"e. = lea!e Ba0ulla -prin s at *09 pm .. and head towards Tallahassee.. There<s lots o" "ast "ood restaurants and strip malls oin into the Tallahassee area. . =n the newsDa story about 1randy 1ri s in Te&asDaccused o" 0illin her in"ant baby by sha0in --..Dat the time o" the prosecutionDher attorney ad!ised her to plead uilty and that

there was no way the ,ud e would i!e her prison time. -he a reedDnot able to pay the mountin le al costs, but then the ,ud e did, in "act, i!e her ,ail timeD1* years. 2owDse!eral years laterDsome attorneys too0 a closer loo0 and had some other coroners i!e their opinionsDand se!eral coroners concur that they don<t they the baby was sha0en at allDand that there is e!idence that hospital personnel put the o&y en tube into the stomach rather than the lun "or a while which could ha!e contributed to the death o" the babyDwho had been sic0 prior to bein brou ht to the hospital. 2ow they<re tal0in about 1randy 1ri s bein released. :lso in the newsDthe identity o" the scribe "or 'eo""rey #haucer ed es o" that bondDin "actDwhen = "irst arri!ed at -eymour--r has been identi"ied by matchin si naturesDthis is the scribe who helped copy H#anterbury TalesI "or #haucerDand whose name was ne!er 0nown until now. 8uhammad :li<s dau hter is a bo&erD= didn<t 0now that and she apparently is unde"eated.

Day 9* Bednesday , July 21, 2004 ----lept in Tallahassee, +@Da town "illed with lon stretches o" "ast "ood restaurants and st ...is a downtown with some si ns o" culture , herita e and reli ion, but it<s relati!ely small i!en this is the #apitol o" the state. malls.. (nterin 'adsen #ounty at *5* = didn<t o to colle e and do all the pain sta0in wor0 o" colle e to be bossed around and harassed by hi h school dropouts or ,unior colle e raduates . These 0ids didn<t do the wor0Dthey didn<t "ollow the plan, they didn<t pay the dues..they should not be rewarded more than those who did. They didn<t ha!e the disciplineDit<s lie i!in the waterboy all the lory e!en thou h he didn<t do any o" the wor0Dor not much o" it. Be ,ust entered .a!anna at $0> a.m. Day 9* Bednesday , July 21, 2004 Then = contacted the 8c@ean /olice departmentDat $4* a.m. and she told me to 0eep contactin the #=: themsel!es. (nterin #lima&, 'eor ia at 40* a.mDthe si n says P.ome o" -wine TimeI 2ow = turn towards 6adaDa little town ,ust a small dot on the mapDwhich is a ,unction "or the northern hi hway = need to ta0e. Re"lection;---when = was mo!ed "rom :l er public -chool to -eymour #hristian -chool in 5th radeDcli5ues had already "ormedDthese 0ids had been to ether "rom 0inder arten M= was the newcomerDthe most stron ly bonded in that little -eymour-8illbroo0-'R#.-#al!in roup was Da!id (n elhard, Ric0 Ette, and -te!e 'ri""eon. -te!e 'ri""eon was the best athlete DeasilyDthe bestDRic0Dwas a!era eDand Da!id (n elhard was a!era e. 1ut they were stron "riendsDand = was on the ed e o" that social roupD= was in!ited to their houses now and then, and included in a lot o" the social "unctionsDbut they still hun closely to etherDmore closely to each other ---and did so all throu h ,unior hi h, hi h school, and colle e. Bhat = see in this is an analo y to #hristian li"eDand the meanin o" the !erse tellin us we must HhateI our mother, brother, etc. "or the sa0e o" JesusDas best as =

can tell this means Plo!e lessIDlo!e our mother , "ather, brother, "riend teal. less than Jesus and all thin s will "all into place.. but sometimes these cli5ues, relationships, "amily ties, etc can become too stron , too close, and at the e&pense o" othersDthat<s where Hhate your brother, mother, etc.I is pertinentDour ties to our lo!ed ones , "riends, e!en our spouse can ne!er become more intimate than our relationship with Jesus #hristDthe Truth"ul oneDit is this most intimate relationship with the @ordDthat 0eeps us honest and inte ral. Bhen that is !iolatedDwhen we put a bondship o" "riends "amily or e!en spouse be"ore the @ord, bad thin s ine!itably resultD and o"ten at the e&pense o" others. -tron "amilies-, stron marria esD ironicallyDi" too stron Dcan be contrary to the =ma o DeoDand it is not uncommon "or such to occur. +amily members co!er up "or "amily members M lossin o!er their mista0es, their e&cuses, e!en their sinsD"or the sa0e o" preser!in "amily bondship---at the e&pense, howe!er, o" inte rity-. Bhen you loss o!er thin sDeach H lossI is a deterioration o" the steepin stones which one pre!iously built on #hristD-hame and uilt are o"ten at the heart o" co!er up---which is why od see0s con"essionDi" not to others to 'od .imsel"Dbut sometimes con"ession to others is necessaryDthat<s basically what the ,udicial system doesDwhen it is not done on a !oluntary basisDthe ,udicial system tries to unco!er the truth which is a Hcon"ession H o" sortsDi" not !oluntary all the time. These con"essionalsDare necessary to redeem the peopleDto maintain an inte ral systemDone that is honest about its mista0es, "laws, wea0nessesDbut doesn<t loss o!er them as i" to ,usti"y itD in "act that<s the one sin that cannot be allowedDto ,usti"y sin, to do somethin wron and then rather than con"ess repent and humble one<s sel" 00t to try to ,usti"y it as either not so bad or in "act oodDit<s a con!erse "orm o" blasphemyDblasphemy bein that which we do when we try to characteriGe somethin ood as bad. Be see somebody do a ood deedDhe or she becomes 0nown "or bein ood and somebody ets ,ealous and tries to mischaracteriGe the ood deed and color it badDli0e the /harisees did when Jesus was healin on the -abbathDthey pic0ed on the "act that he was doin Hwor0I on the .oly Day rather than seein that what .e was doin was ood Dand that was what mattered. (nterin #amilla at 459 a.m. = pic0 up a ba o" chips and ta0e the 14 north towards :lbany, ':. . The /harisee also attributed the healin ministry o" Jesus, on occasion, to the wor0 o" demonsDthat<s another "orm o" blasphemy. +eelin s o" shame are a H i"tI "rom 'odDalthou h we don<t usually li0e this i"tDwe don<t li0e to "eel shameDbut there are times when we need toDit<s 'od<s way o" tellin us, occasionally, that we ha!e done somethin wron D and we should 0now it. :nd when e!erythin oes ri htDthe honest person "eels the shameDlistens to it, ac0nowled es it, repents , is "or i!en and a community or roup o" people is redeemed. Bhen thin s o wron howe!er Dthe response to shame is denialDthen co!er-upDand sometimes an attempt to blame othersDrather than con"ess, be "or i!en and be healed. Too o"tenDin our society todayDpeople don<t ac0nowled e the shame in the

ri ht wayDtoo o"ten they try to loss o!er it or deny it , or in the worst case scenarioD,usti"y it by sayin it<s not so bad or e!en that somethin bad is ood. The re"usal to ac0nowled e a ood e""ort, an achie!ementDsomethin ri ht, pure, innocent, lo!ely, honorableDre"usal to reco niGe that is at the bottom o" blasphemyDthe con!erse is when one oes so "ar as to ta0e that which is dishonorable, mean-spirited, bad, wron , or what ha!e you and characteriGe it as ood. =t<s ultimately a re"usal to honor the @ordDto i!e praise where /raise is due. :nd when that "ailsDit descends into all other parts o" li"e and society. =t all be ins with whom one places oneXs utmost alle iance in. 2ow somethin happened in 'rand Rapids as = was rowin up that caused a "orm o" blasphemy to occur. ---most o" us ha!e a conscience "ormed by our parents and teachers and churchDsome more than others--7 and this includes indi!idual and collecti!e conscience . There<s a person or persons who "orm the moral conscience o" the communityDthey are the barometer o" sorts Bhen the only barometer is the le al system the church is at a low point, because that which the law considers ood or bad is always oin to be at a lower le!el than that which the body o" #hrist honors. The -pirit reco niGes and honors all thin s oodDbeauti"ul , lo!ely, per"ectDthe lawD saysDas lon as it doesn<t roc0 the boatDit<s o0ay. 2ot alwaysDthere are some law communities which are stron ly intermin led with the "aith community and produce a hi h standard, but not that manyDand i" it<s not !oluntary due to the -piritDit is missin the mar0. :nd missin the mar0 is a sinD(nterin :lbany at 1049 a.m. = turn west on the 294. E!er the +lint Ri!erD=<m always amaGed at how city names that we ha!e "i&ed in our minds as bein the name o" a particular re ion we are "amiliar with may also be !ery common in other parts o" the country as well-7most o" us thin0 o" 2ew Jor0 when we thin0 o" :lbanyDbut here = am in :lbany 'eor ia. :nd most o" us thin0 o" 8ichi an when we thin0 o" +lintD and hereXs a +lint Ri!erDand one can probably "ind a "ew other cities by the name o" +lint around :merica. :nd = can say = came close to missin the mar0Dbut 'od pulled me throu h Dthrou h some thin s that = let mysel" "all into and other thin s that unscrupulous others pulled me intoDone o" those thin s was drin0in Dnow D= did well throu h hi h school and colle eD ot ood radesD raduated with honors "rom colle e, but = did drin0 a "air amount on the wee0endsD ne!er so much that = was unable to "unction, but enou h to limit my potential "or better--. 1ut than0 'od = did not "all into problem drin0in li0e = 0now some o" my classmates didDnor did = et in trouble "or dri!in under the in"luence li0e at least one o" my "ormer classmates did. :nd a"ter a while = was able to stop drin0in alto etherDwhen = say HableI perhaps it sounds as i" = were alcoholicD= don<t thin0 = was e!er at that point, but = would say

that = could ha!e "ound better thin s to do with my time. 1ut drin0in or alcoholism is usually enabled by a community and alcoholics usually ha!e an enabler close to themDand the #al!in %'R#. community a close 0nit as it can beDenabled each other in such re ards on occasionDe!en thou h #al!in #olle e was, at one point, listed as one o" the most HsoberI colle es in the country. The drin0in is thereDbut it<s done much more co!ertlyD that<s the main di""erence. :nd the dru s are thereD= personally did not et in!ol!ed with dru s much at all Mthrou h hi h school or colle e. = did occasionally on a social basisD ta0e a pu"" on a mari,uana ci arette, but by and lar e "airly in"re5uently. (specially compared to others around meDthere was DJ ?not his real nameA who was !ery much in!ol!ed in the HstonerI crowd at 'R#.Dhe was !ery in!ol!ed in substance abuseDthan0"ully = dri"ted away "rom him be"ore hi h school be an and mana ed to stay away "rom that roup by and lar e throu h hi h school. 1ut DJ came bac0 a"ter hi h schoolDa pro"essin Hborn a ainI #hristianDwhich was "ine enou h, but = was still oin throu h colle e payin the dues, doin my time , so to spea0. :nd "or him it was essentially o!erDthere was not much more "or him to mo!e on to or up towardsDhe had ta0en shortcuts that would e""ecti!ely limit any . "urther opportunities . .e compounded problems by incessantly tryin to pa e me when = came bac0 to #al!in -eminary "or the P 4>-4* school year. :t that point = contacted his bossDthe senior pastor at #hrist #hurch on 1reton RoadDand ha!e had no "urther contact with him since thenDalthou h = ha!e sent letters. To himDtryin to communicate with himDbut not i!in him any idea about how to reach meDor where to "ind meDe!en when = went throu h 'rand Rapids a "ew wee0s a oD= dropped him a messa e but made sure = did not see him "ace-to-"ace, nor i!e him any contact in"ormation. 1ecause the way he interacts with people is stran eDand i" he were to come o!er to your house he would Gealously inspect e!erythin Deyeballin all you ha!eDto such an e&tent that it was unner!in De!erythin was completely !isual to himDthere was nothin beyond thatDand he was ,ealousDalways en!iousDthin0in he had otten the short end o" the stic0 somewhere alon the way--. : ain, here he was ta0in it easyD= was doin the wor0Dstic0in it out throu h colle eDbut yet he was still sin in the Hpoor meI son -.. There was no real common denominator "or our relationship any "urther--. Be had 0nown each other in ,unior hi h , a little in elementaryDand that was the e&tent o" it. =t was not a relationship bonded in #hristDnot really. =t had to end or somethin had to i!eDand he was used to dominatin and = was used to i!in inDabut = 0new that at that pointDmysel" bein much more ad!anced than himDat that point i" = a!e in it would be i!in in to dar0ness. = chose li ht. . :nd = don<t thin0 he<s in!ol!ed in ministry anymore Dloo0s li0e he<s doin sales o" some sort.

:nd the painsta0in wor0 that<s< re5uired to stic0 to the truthDmaintain the course o" enli htenment in #hristDthere are times when it ma0es one an ry to see others who ha!e not done so pro"itin Dwith their "ancy homes and boatsDsometimes at the e&pense o" others. . /erhaps most o" the time at the e&pense o" othersDbecause when they stop short o" ettin the "ull education they need to actualiGe they end up ha!in to imprison others in order to maintain their position. D, did that by persecutin blac0 peopleD the word Hni er H was constantDhe dumped it on meDbut = ne!er told him to stop, = was not asserti!eDe!en thou h inside = disa reed with it. -ame oes "or 'ordy Baal0esD"ather o" 8i0e Baal0esD"riend o" mine "rom :l er (lementaryDwith whom = played "ootball and whose dad-, 'ordyD dro!e us to practice on a daily basisDhe would use the Pn word< incessantly Dma0in little comments about them as we dro!e past, while he chainsmo0ed those Binston ci arettes that both he and his wi"e /atsy smo0edD correctionDhe smo0ed BinstonDshe smo0ed 6ir inia -limsDand sometimes they would send 8i0e to the store to pic0 up a carton "or them-. 1oorsmas rocery store that isDwhere = wor0ed as a Hpac0erI and a Hcarry out;I boy. This is the community in which = rew up. 2ow = wouldn<t come to 0now -te!en )orhorn until much later in li"e. :nd in my last letter to him = challen ed him as bein the one who HtrashedI .im Timmers dri!eway durin hi h school. The reason = suspect )orhorn is because he 0new the roads better than anybody. .e was dri!in snowplow "or or with John -cholten his nei hbor already in hi h schoolDso he was up early in the mornin or late at ni ht plowin dri!eways and he would also ob!iously 0now the streets "airly well and probably pic0ed up a "ew classmate addresses alon the wayD/lus, he was the center on our "ootball teamDand Jim Timmer was the 5uarterbac0 . 2ow = don<t thin0 = would be too "ond o" the person who 0ept his hands between my crotch "or two or three years o" hi h school "ootball. :nd so = wonderedDdid )orhorn Htrash H Timmers dri!eway out o" spite "or those humiliatin days as the centerC -omebody dumped trash and apparently threw paint on Jim Timmers dri!ewayDJim bein the son o" #oach Timmer "rom #al!in #olle e. The other thin = remember about -te!en )orhorn is when he stepped on Dou )osters uitar and snapped the nec0 o" the uitar, and all he did was lau h. .e didn<t "i& it or buy a new one, nor e!en apolo iGe. =t was upsettin Dand compounded Dou <s depressionDand didn<t help my attempts to heal D= did my best to be"riend Dou Dand at the same time they were a response "amily 0nowin that = had no "amily thereDand they would ha!e me o!er "or dinner now and then. -o my ac5uaintance with the people = 0new rowin up was mostly southeast side 0idsDthose 0ids "rom -eymour-8illbroo0-'R#.#al!inDe!en throu h colle e = was still mostly "amiliar with those 0ids =

0new "rom the :l er .ei hts areaDnamely Jac0 .olwerda Jr. , )eith -teensma, Dou )osters. = pass tou h the little town o" .erod at 11;90 and there is a tiny stone commemoratin :ndrew Jac0son thereD, i!en it was a""orded a red spot on my road atlas = "i ured it would be a little more si ni"icant than that, but it was ,ust a stone. 2ow = am in Dawson--, = see a H+ood 8a&ID= thin0 =<ll pull in and et some bananas. 21 miles to /lains, 'eor ia. (nterin Bebster #ounty at 121> (nterin -umter #ounty. Jimmy #arter current house at 1295. @ea!in /laints at 245. (nterin /reston at 252 . = bou ht some old "ashioned peanut butter and peanut brittle in /lains, ':Dat one o" the eneral storesDa"ter oin trou h the hi h school museum, the boyhood home o" Jimmy #arter, and the /lains Train depot where the campai n process be an. 'ood op at 905 pm = dro!e down the dri!eway o" a placed called HBest!illeDwhere it<s always 1$50I. E!er the #hattahoochee Ri!er at 429 pmDenterin :labama. (nterin the little town o" 8idway at 52* pm . -omebody called but didn<t lea!e a !oice mail at 590 . Belcome to Q-: said the si n HQnion -prin s :labamaI . :ndrea JatesDthe woman con!icted o" drownin her children is now re"usin to eat. . (nterin 8ont omery #ounty at *21 pm . =n the newsD-tephen .aw0in s now concedes that blac0 holes may not permanently swallow up e!erythin Da departure "rom his ori inal claimDblac0 holes are "ormed when stars lose their ener y and collapsyue inward, causin si ni"icant ra!itational pull. .aw0in s has a de!elopment disorder o" some sortDalthou h it apparently does not e""ect his co niti!e abilitiesDand he is also the "ather o" three children. (nterin reater 8ont omery at *49 pm. = "ound the H+irst Bhite .ouse o" the #on"ederacy H at $94-this is where our countries capitol would be i" the con"ederates had won the #i!il Bar. @ea!in 8ont omery at 419 pm. (nterin Bhitehall at 49* a.m

Day 9$, Thursday, July 22, 2004---:rri!ed in -elma at *90Dthere<s a H+reedom to 6ote /ar0I as you enter. 8arch *, 14>5Dwas called H1loody -undayIDwhen :"rican :mericans ot beat so badly a"ter they or aniGed a march "rom -elma to 1irmin ham to protest not bein allowed to !ote. E!er the :labama Ri!er at *40 am. .D-o the :"rican :mericans marched "rom -elma to 1irmin ham :labama to protest not bein allowed to !oteDand e!entually @yndon 1. Johnson si ned a H6oters :ctDallowin :"rican :mericans the ri ht to !oteD :nd = 0eep thin0in to mysel"Dwhat<s better "or HthemI is better "or us.- = rew up in an inte rated settin by and lar e. :lthou h the public school = went to throu h 4th rade was much more inte rated than the #hristian -chool = attended "rom 5th throu h 12th and #al!in #olle e as wellDbut the #hristian schools , apart "rom some who used it in such a manner, were not

bastions o" pride, pre,udice, and se re ationDalthou h there is a history o" separation in the Dutch Re"ormed tradition--. :t the heart o" that separation , ri htly or wron ly, is a deep pietyDand a stron sense o" the doctrine o" election. BellDas = ha!e said it mi ht be that this doctrine o" election is o!er usedDwithout re ard "or "ruits o" those Helected.I Those who deems themsel!es HelectI will e&hibit "ruits o" the -pirit. :nd one o" those "ruits is Hnei hborliness.I 2owDit is possible to ma0e an ar ument "or a nei hborliness that maintains a distance and separationDdri!e across :mericaDmost o" rural :merica are distant nei hbors. :nd they may not do much or see much o" each otherDbut they are still Hnei hborly.I = thin0 it<s a matter o" acculturationDwhat one is accustomed to--7= mysel" rew up in a semi-suburban areaDbut not so suburban that it was all HwhiteIDit was a mi&ed areaDbut not nearly as urban as some other parts o" 'rand Rapids-. There was the Dutch #hristian Re"ormed community all around us, which is HwhiteI but the collecti!e consciousness o" the Dutch Re"ormed #ommunity is based on alle iance to #hrist- not so much a collecti!e consciousness o" bein Hwhite.I There are e&ceptions. DJ was one o" those e&ceptions. /erhaps also Jac0 Jr. /erhaps also )eithDmaybe e!en Ric0 1. and probably 8i0e B.Dbecause o" his dadDso what happensDdespite the education they attainDit<s always with a win0Dand the bond which really unites them is racismDor white superiorityDre ardless o" "acts. There<s a di""erence between racism and separatism-7 separatism in #hristDcan be ar ued "orDit doesn<t depend on 0eepin others down in order to 0eep one<s sel" up. Racism is based on i norance and "ear. -eparatism can, ar uably, be based on lo!e and respect. There are those who mat attend an inner city church all their li!es to pro!e how much they lo!e their blac0 brotherDbut the problem is that they are only showin how much, in some cases, they do not, in "act ha!e a brotherly bond in #hristDbecause they<re comin to their blac0 HbrothersI as separate and une5ualDbut tryin to pretend otherwiseDand they ha!e to continue to pro!e and re-pro!e that lo!e because it is not sincere. -incere lo!e is much more at ease Hin the midstI--.the list o" 0ids = 0new rowin up who operated on an assumption o" racism is lon Din addition to those named abo!e there was -te!e ). ?)orhornA and Dou ). ?who committed suicideA. -te!e ). was a cop "or a whileDalthou h = thin0 he ot "ired at one pointDmaybe re-hiredDbut didn<t stic0 with itDended up bartendin , !olunteer "ire"i hter, and tow truc0 dri!er. Bhen = was at #al!in -em "rom 4>-4* my car wouldn<t start one day and = had to call "or a tow truc0---and it was ,ust by coincidence that -te!e )orhorn came to i!e me a tow. .e was not the person = once 0newDand not !ery "riendly anymore either. .e seemed distant and mar0edly di""erent than the happy o luc0y 0id = 0new who dro!e with us down to +lorida once time. 1ut the racist mindsetD doesn<t ,ust come in whiteDthere<s blac0 racists as wellDthey<re ,ust as racist towards white as some whites are toward blac0s. =t<s this mista0en belie" that they can li!e without any interaction without any cooperation

without any bene!olence "lowin between peoples. There<s an element o" e otism and pride in!ol!ed in racism contrary to what we should re"lect as persons in 'od<s =ma e ?the =ma o DeoA Mwhich is HopennessIDa willin ness to interact and respond to others--. 'rowin up in 'rand Rapids---= e&perienced, in part, a community based on a understandin o" 'od bein a Hclosed H 'odDunchan eableDor the term used -eminaryDan HimmutableI 'od. This is a od who has a "i&ed order "or thin s Mwhich will ne!er chan eDuntil )in dom comesDso those in the Dutch #al!inist #ommunity -- who belie!e in the doctrine o" electionDo"ten "all into a belie", consciously or otherwise, in a immutable 'odDa 'od who does not chan eDwhich ma0es one wonder why prayC :nd o" course in the minds o" some o" the communityDis an unspo0en thou htDand althou h they may attend church and close their eyes durin prayer or e!en say prayers at meal timeDwithout an abidin belie" that prayers ma0e a di""erence, the 5uestion as to why pray is a ood one. 1ut you seeDalthou h = came "rom a #al!inist communityDthis one = am ta0in aim at ri ht nowD= did not row up with a belie" in an immutable 'odDsomehowDunconsciously or consciously = came to 0now a mutable 'odDa 'od who hears, a 'od who cares, a 'od who responds. =t is that simple, or not so simple, belie" that ma0es a di""erence in my li"eDbecause it i!es me .E/(L H+aith is the assurance o" thin s hoped "or, the con!iction o" thin s not seen.I E!er the #ahaba Ri!er at $2> am = passed the cat"ish pond at $94 a.m.D with water"allsDor water ushers on the corners o" themD8aren o #ounty at $51 a.m. (nterin Demopolis at 411 amDH.ome o" the #hristmas on the Ri!erI = san /salm 194 Dthe humidity is so hi h hereDmy :c is condensin on the dashboardDthere<s li0e a little puddle o" water by the control panel. Be are now in 8eridian :labama at 114> 7 Jimmie Rod ers 8useum at 1194 a.m. Dunns +alls at 110 pm. :s = le"t Dunns "alls which is a lo!ely waterwheel settin Dwith a pond abo!e the ri!erD= saw wild tur0eys alon side the road. The man in the pic0up truc0 with tattoos on his arm is ta0in his ood old 8ississippi time at 1224. /salm 19* at 205 at the train trestle ri!erDwith a special prayer "rom the ri!er . alon the road by a ri!er coolin mysel"D= bathed in the ri!er. That was somewhere between .eidelber and /echuca---probably closest to 6ossbur . (nter -anders!ille at 229 pm There<s< a lar e Hstate schoolI hereDand a si n indicatin a seminaryDbut = dro!e down that way "or a while and didn<t see the seminaryDwhiche!er one it is. (nterin +orest #ounty at 224 pm. (nterin /etal at 994 pm 7.attiesber at 94> pm. 8t. #armel 1aptist #hurch in .attiesber looms up as you enter the town. : lot o" police cars in the .attiesber /D par0in lot, but not too many on the road. Throu h /ur!is at 51* pm @umberton at 525 pm /ear Ri!er #ounty at 594 pm /oplar!ille at 544 pm There<s a company here called 8o!ie -tar =nc. /icayune at >1* =n

the newsDthe husband o" the missin Qtah ,o er apparently lied about ha!in raduated "rom the uni!ersity and apparently lied about ha!in been accepted into medical school at Q2#Din #hapel .ill, 2#. (nterin @ouisiana at >25. The wipers o on mysteriously at >50. Throu h -lidell at >59 p.m. :cross @a0e /ont #hartrain at *0* pm That<s a lon brid e oin o!er the la0e The wipers o on a ain at *14 pm Mthis time stayin onD= can<t turn them o"". this is !ery stran eDso = pull o!er and pull out the "use bo&D not 0nowin which one controls the wipersDor what else it controls i" = pull it. 2onetheless, = can only pull a "ew out with my "in ersDreally need a needle nose pliers "or this ,obDthe ones = can pull out don<t stop the wiper.. = decide to 0eep oin , re ardlessDbut then the wipers turn o"" by themsel!es Dstill this is !ery stran e and a potential headache in the "uture. = arri!ed at +ort /i0e at *59. =t was closed "or the e!enin D= could see a "ew cannons and wallsDthen = turned bac0 towards 2ew ErleansDobser!in all the di""erent names o" the HcampsI ?not condos as one si n saidA alon the way. (ach camp ownerD a!e their place it<s uni5ue, indi!idual nameDre"lecti!e o" their personality. :s = am dri!in = thin0 to mysel"Dsomethin heretical happened in 'rand Rapids amon st the #al!inist community circa 14$4Dwhen we mo!ed "rom 'rand Rapids to -outhern #ali"orniaDa "alse narrati!e sprun up at the e&pense o" our "amilyDbut which in the lon run will actually do more harm to the "alse storytellersDbecause they ha!e to wor0 so hard to maintain a story that doesn<t hold waterDthe story is thisDthat the )o0 "amily is a wealthy, pretentious "amily now li!in the li"e in southern #ali"ornia where /astor Jim )o0 is employed by the #rystal #athedral. :nd that the success o" Jim )o0 and%or his children is due to the blessin s o" a""luence rather than dedication, perse!erance, wor0, endurance, commitment etc o" Jim and %or his children. . =n "act an entire subculture was built around the tellin o" a "alse narrati!e by those in and around 'RDwest 8ichi anD"or their own sel"-ser!in purposes at the e&pense o" othersDshort-term e&pense o" others Dlon term e&pense o" themsel!esDbecause they ha!e too 0eep bailin the boat to ma0e it "loat--77..= dri!e by the 1ayou -a!a e 2ational Bildli"e Re"u eDlisten to those cicadasDwowL They are a buGGin chorus. There<s 2ew Erleans 1aptist -eminary at 49* pm . = pull inDit<s a community o" its< ownDit<s a bi campusDone o" the bi est seminaries =<!e seen. = 0eep oin towards 2ew ErleansDthereXs a si n "or Tulane Qni!ersity-- = dri!e throu h the +rench [uarterDit<s noisy, li!elyDlots o" people en,oyin themsel!esDmusic spills into the streetsDindi!iduals playin on the corner "or 5uarters and dimes. = was here once be"oreDaround 4445 when = dro!e around the country---in my .onda /reludeDsimilar to what = am doin this summer but this time around with a much more speci"ic purposeDhere = am to re!i!e the -pirit-.. to tell the 'ood 2ews. = "ind Jor0 -t. where Ra5uel Bol" li!es or li!ed and then = call it a ni htDit<s hotDas = am lyin there in my own sweatD= thin0 to mysel"DJim 3 @inda<s m.o. "or dealin with "amilyDan e&tended "amily much lar er than mostDbecause o" the "act that

both o" their "athers re-married and there were children either already "rom the second wi"e or created in the new marria eDJim and @inda had to ha!e a m.o. "or dealin with "amily.. and they made a choice to be inclusi!e and appeasin rather than di!isi!e and conclusi!e. They chose to compromise rather than ma0e decisions that would re5uire steeliness. Bhether that was the best decision or not = do not 0nowDothers in the "amily tried steelinessD and =<m not sure that was superior . althou h there are times when the ,udicial decision "rom a top down perspecti!e is necessary----ob!iously it seems nicer to ne otiate and compromiseDbut sometimes it only seems that way--. This is de"initely one o" the hottest ni hts so "arDno this is the hottest ni ht so "arDnot ,ust the heatDbut the humidity. The cemeteries here re di""erent too---the tombstones are much lar erDmore li0e the 0ind that the whole body is entombed in abo!e round in !aults o" sorts. =t ma0es the cemeteries loo0 li0e mini-!illa es with mini-buildin s. .owe!er, returnin to the discussion o" Jim 3 @inda<s e&ecuti!e style ? or lac0 o"ADin some cases their attempts to appease may ha!e only caused reater dissonance in the lon run, because there was nothin decisi!e doneDlea!in too many thin s Hhan in I .. 1ut you see --ne otiation "ails when one side doesn<t enter inD in ood "aithDi" it is "orced ne otiation--, its not really ne otiation at allD it<s ,ust a "a_ade or pretense. 7. 7 li0e with the terrorists Malthou h ob!iously at a totally di""erent le!el o" e&tremity---recentlyDal[uaedaD threatened to behead a +ilipino soldier i" the /hilippines did not pull out---and so the president o" the /hilippinesDmade a decision to pull outDthere weren<t that many +ilipino troopsDaround >0 or so, but nonetheless they pulled outDand the terrorists let the man o a"ter about a wee0 . =n contrast when they tried the same with the :mericansDthe :mericans re"used to pull out, which would ha!e been a much lar er withdrawal ob!iouslyDand subse5uently the :merican was beheaded. The terrorists threatened -pain with "urther bombin s i" they didn<t pull out o" =ra5, and the new president a reed. 2ow ,ust recently :l [uaeda has ta0en non-military industry employees hosta eDthose wor0ers who are doin pri!ate contract wor0 in =ra5Din the process o" rebuildin the in"rastructure. :l [uaeda is demandin that their employers pull out o" =ra5. The captors are insatiable Denou h can ne!er be done to appease themDand in "act by appeasin themDor H"eedin I themDyou ma0e them more hun ryDyou whet their appetite. +eedin them ma0es them want more. :nd that<s< the way it is with the de!ilDwhen you compromise with a demonDyou open the door to that e!il one to enter inDe!en i" it<s ,ust a "oot in the doorDit<s a be innin and then they want moreD=" they 0now you to be a uncompromisin , idealistic, #hrist-centered personDthey<ll e!entually 0noc0 elsewhereDbecause demons area laGy Me!il in a lot o" cases is nothin more than carin lessD bein without care or concern "or othersDe!il is not always some wic0ed person con,urin up bad thin s to do to othersDo"ten times its ,ust sel"centeredness and apathyDat the heart o" itD"eedin the de!il ,ust ma0es Pem more hun ry. :nd it !alidates themDdo not "eed the Hduc0sI so to spea0. :nd too o"ten we thin0 o" people bein Hbede!iledI or HdemoniGedI

as some sort o" bad, wic0ed personDwith whom we must ha!e no contactD but in a lot o" cases the demoniGed person ,ust needs to ha!e the demons cast out o" him or herDhowe!er, that is only possible i" the person wants to et rid o" those demonsDthere are those who li0e their demonsDand they are stron holds "or those demons. :nd some people can li!e with their demons all their li"e n socially "unctional waysDthose who are le alistic "or e&ample Dlots o" lawyersDha!e a demon which we allow under the title o" lawyer. Than0 oodness not all lawyers are demoniGedDbut the process they o throu h to become a member o" the bar is probably one o" the most seculariGin procedures o" all7 more so than a lot o" other pro"essional schools and pro rams. The only reason some lawyers mana e to et bac0 or close to the body o" #hrist is because they ha!e the ability to "or et what they learned and become persons o" natural a""ection a ain. =<m still lyin in my sweat here at around 2;00 in the mornin Dthe humidity is li0e a warm wet blan0etDand neither warm nor wet do = need to be ri ht now. :nd = say a short open-eye prayer "or Ra5uel Bol"Dthat thin s may be o0ay "or herDthat she is alri ht----she was actually a "airly intelli ent and ambitious youn lady in colle eD= wonder i" the liberals will completely wear her down alto ether so she ac5uiesces to bein a mother%wi"e bare"oot in the 0itchen. -he had a boy"riend = thin0Dbut it doesn<t mention that she<s married. :nd spea0in o" marria eDsome o" these nuptial arran ements become a ood e&ample o" why the command is i!en to HhateI one<s lo!ed onesDone<s "amily members----really the word means Hlo!e lessIDlo!e "amily M"ather, mother, --some marria es need to be mind"ul o" thisD because they place spouse abo!e JesusDand thereby the seeds "or corruption are planted. Bhen the wi"e starts enablin the husband in sinD then she is enablin a departure "rom the complete and "ull and healthy body o" #hrist. = call this Mthe woman bein the Hde!ils ad!ocateI. Bhen the husband becomes demoniGedDand it can happen to persons o" all a es, pro"essions, abilitiesDe!en a pastor can become HdemoniGedIDand usually it<s a simple matter o" He&orciGin I those demonsDit<s called prayer-, humility, con"ession. Repentance, ---we do it on a re ular basis when we o to churchDwhen we abide in the "ellowship o" belie!ers, when we are wal0in truly with #hrist, in #hrist, "or #hrist. Bhen such is the caseDdemons o" waywardness can<t lead us !ery "ar astrayD 1ut occasionallyDa stron er, meaner, demon ets entrenched in a personD and it ta0es much more stren th and perse!erance to et that demon outD and it usually re5uires the willin ness o" the demoniGed personDthere has to be some sort o" ac0nowled ement o" one<s state o" distressDsometimes howe!er the demoniGed person as = was sayin either doesn<t 0now he or she is demoniGed or doesn<t want to et well. =t mi ht be a demon o" alcohol. =t mi ht be a demon o" se&ual addiction. =t mi ht be a demon o" laGiness. =t mi ht a demon o" le alism. These are all H"unctional HdemonsDand some people may li!e with them their entire li!esDthe sin bein Dapart "rom the

"act that they are probably not ma0in the world a better placeDthey<re not "ul"illin their 'od- i!en potentialD"allin short Mthat<s a sin--. Day 94, +riday, July 29, 2004---that spiritual encounter = had with the "ellow at the as station was at around $ a.m. at 8ilan and -. #laiborne -t. 0--actually closer to $95 a.m. Bhy are Hpo-boysI so popular in 2ew Erleans. C slept in 2ew ErleansDon Jor0 -treet----near Rachel Bol"<s house. Throu h Je""erson at 425 a.m Mstill on eastern timeDalthou h we are in cst. -o it<s actually $90 . E!er the .uey @on 1rid eD= remember studyin about .uey @on Despecially in hi h schoolD8r. 1olemaDtau ht that part o" history7 but = can<t remember what his actual si ni"icance was--. .e was o!ernor, ri htC =<ll ha!e to loo0 that up a ain. (nterin -t. #harles /arish at 449 a.m. = pull into the post o""ice at 444 in :ma, @:. T @(TT(R TE Ra5uel wol" needs >0 centsD= had stopped by Ra5uel Bol"s house last e!enin D= 0new her ,ust a little "rom #al!in #olle e----in "act when = had dri!en "rom 'rand Rapids to @os :n elesDsometime around <42 or soDshe and her youn er sister, @aura, went with meDit was a nice dri!e, une!ent"ul and not much to tal0 aboutDwe were di""erent in a lot o" ways. 1ut she also had some misimpressions about meD= could tellDso = wrote a letter hopin to i!e her a better idea, i" only a limpse, at who = am. :nd =<!e been doin that in a lot o" the communication =<!e been transmittin across :mericaDthe last month or so. -o much o" this "iction tellin arose a"ter our "amily mo!ed "rom 'rand Rapids to southern #ali"ornia in 14$4. The ima ery in the minds o" many with my dad at the #rystal #athedral is si ni"icantDthese ima es really "orm perceptions or misperceptionsDwe<re oin under the 8ississippi 1rid e at 45* am estDor $5* cstDon the 1$ north towards 1aton Rou e. = had a ood prayer e&perience with the man at the as station this mornin Dhe said a prayer as we held hands there at the as stationDnice "ellow boastin about his educationDand his 0ids educationDand so = as0ed what about -unday -choolC That ot him oin Dand he told me he went to Qnion Theolo ical -eminary and that he recei!ed a standin o!ation when he ot his de ree. = didn<t doubt him, but he appeared to be li!in humbly nowDhe o""ered to say a prayer and = could tell he had preached somewhere at one point in time. 1e !ne the ords. 1e !ne the verses%he petitioned the .oly -pirit. .ahn!ille at 10;09 . = pulled into a plantation areaDthat o""ered Hswamp toursIDbut she said it was too muddyDthey 0eep ettin stuc0D so theirs< no swamp tour today. 11;00 a.m. (nterin 6acherie at 11;02 a.m. /ast H@aura ; a #reole /lantationI Ea0 :lley /lantationDat 1111 a.m. = pull up a dirt road and suddenly "ind mysel" loo0in o!er the mi hty 8ississippi Ri!er. = sent the Ra5uel Bol" letter "rom -t. James, @ouisiana at 1114 a.m Donaldson!ille at 115* a.m.D"ormer capitol o" @ouisiana said a si n. .

(nterin Bhite #astle at 12; 11 Msi n says there<s a "erry hereDa car "erryC :cross the 8ississippiC = con"er with the map and it concurs. -o = turn aroundDwhat a better way than to spend a part o" the day than on a "erry across the 'reat Ri!er. . = pull into the "erry entrance and up to the boat--an arm wa!es me bac0Dthe si n says they o e!ery hal" hour. = par0 the car and wal0 up to the boatDa blac0 man stic0s his head outD= sayDare they oin or notDhe says Hnot until 9;90I- its only 12;90 M= wont be waitin that lon D= say H.ow much is itI ,ust out o" curiosity sa0eDhe says HBhatCI = repeated mysel"Dand he cups his hand o!er his areaDHBhatC = be in to thin0 he<s ,o0in Dso we repeat this a "ew more times be"ore he "inally says HEne dollar.I = say o0Dand he ,ust stands there starin . .. = lea!e with him still starin as = dri!e away. The si n says H.ome o" the :cadian +esti!alI = wonder what that is because there<s cross ne&t to it on the si n. There<s a Jac0 in the 1o& RestaurantDthe "irst one =<!e seen in a lon timeDtells me we are mo!in bac0 west--7 /la5uemine Mthat<s the name o" this city. . sounds li0e some sort o" dental "loss. ThereXs the /la5uemine loc0s hereD which = pass by .. Mthe day is oin 5uic0lyD!ery 5uic0lyDhal" tan0 o" as. . ---7 HBelcome to :ddisI says the si nD at 1252 we are !ery close to 1aton Rou e now. =<m wonderin what the words 1aton Rou e meanD= ne!er too0 +rench but = can uess that rou e means red, but what about batonDmi ht it be Hstic0I MHred stic0IC . 1rusly at 125> pm . = made it to 1aton Rou eD beauti"ul capitol buildin Dthere<s e!en a 8useum o" Rural @i"e there which = didn<t ta0e the time to o see. = did pic0 up a crab bur er and root beer at the +rosttop RestaurantD2ow = am headin towards @a"ayette on the ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ -wamp +reeway. 1ecause = care 1ecause = care = 0eep tellin mysel"D= ta0e the Bhis0ey somethin e&itDbut it doesn<t loo0 too promisin so = et bac0 on the 10 westDthe entire "reeway so "ar has been on HstiltsI Mo!er the swampDit cuts ri ht throu h the middle o" a swampDwithout apparently ha!in been too much o" a disturbance to the wetlands. :tcha"alaya Ri!erDand swampDthat<s it.. welcome center at 294. .. @a0e 1i eau&, and @a0e /elbaDwow so much water hereDit<s all water here "rom 1aton Rou e to @a"ayette is one i antic e&panse o" water and treesD.enderson -wampDthe trees row in the water7 'oin o!er the :tcha"alaya -wamp +reeway at 220 pm a"ter pic0in up a root beer and a crab bur er at the +rostop in 1aton Rou eDwhere there is one o" the most rand state capitol buildin s = ha!e e!er seen. Be are now ten miles or less "rom @a"ayette, @:. 'o to notepad. ---= decided ta0e a swamp tour while oin throu h the second lar est swamp in the countryD= pulled o"" at the Bhis0ey Ri!er @andin and paid the "ee "or a tour at 8c'ee<s :tcha"alaya 1asin Tour--- as = waited "or the 9;00 tour = let my do

swim in the doc0 areaDoh she needed itDshe<s been pantin and hu""in and pu""in "rom the heat all day and all o" last ni htD?in 2ew ErleansAD the humidity is really hi h here. :s = am watchin her on the doc0Da boat pulls up with an old manDhe as0s me to help him with the ropeD= obli e him accordin lyDand then another boatDcomes upDand a man hops out to help the old man et his boat o"N out o" the waterDas he is doin so the old man says HJou 0now who that isC That<s Kac0Dhe has a tele!ision "ishin showDapparently a top notch pro"essional "ishermanI .mmmDhe says to me HBhere are you "romCI 1y now = ot the re"rain downDH= was born in =owa, rew up in 8ichi an, and now = li!e in #ali"orniaI .e nods. =t<s almost 9;00 M= chec0 inside at the restaurant where they or aniGe the tourDand somebody saysI -ir, they<re ready to oIDso we ,ump in the boatDa pontoon boat o" sortsDand head out to the open waterDnot e&actly open0D this is a swampDtrees row in the middle o" the waterDand little tubular water "lowers o" sorts also adorn the waterwaysDhe says these "lowerbeds can double in siGe so 5uic0ly it<s amaGin and that they are not natural to the areaDthey were introducedDhe says they do 0eep the water cleanDbutDit costs @ouisiana o!er 9 million per year to clear the channels because they et so thic0. :t 420 pm we see a bea!erDbuildin its nestDit<s a lar e bea!erD and doesn<t seem to mind our presence at allDit oes about its wor0Dbusy as a bea!erDwhile we snap pictures. There<s "our others in addition to mysel" on the boatDplus the uideDwho is an elderly man. Two o" the irls are "rom =reland, the other two =<m not sureD= didn<t hear their response when the man as0ed. Bhen he came around to meD= was ready Hborn in =owa, raised in 8ichi an ?in partA, now li!in in #ali"orniaI. =<m actually always see0in "or ways to be spiritual in settin s where we are supposed to be neutralDor Hci!ilI, which means HsecularI Dso = am practicin silent prayer in those roup li0e settin sDand now = am prayin "or the als on the boat. The uide is tal0in about the cypress trees in the waterDand how lon it ta0es "or them to reach maturityDsayin sometimes they<re still rowin at 200 years oldDand now they are a protected class o" trees90 pm . .e says the moss which han s down "rom them was used at one time in !arious ways such as to stu"" pillows . Then he mentions alli atorsDsayin that it is ille al to hunt them ele!en months o" the year, but in -eptember it is open seasonD and last -eptember they cau ht 49 alli ators in this particular area. .e says what they do is tie a piece o" chic0en or meat on a lar e hoo0 connected to a rope which they tie to a tree. Then i" they et one on the hoo0Dthe ne&t day they come by and shoot the alli ator. .e says somethin about alli ators bein able to hibernate "or up to 4 months. = lea!e the swamp tour at 59* pm Dthere<s< @ola lyin in the shadeDwhere = le"t herDen,oyin the brea0 "rom the carDwe head westDbac0 throu h @a"ayetteD = o o!er the 1ayou 6ermillion at >and = ta0e the time to dri!e by the Qni!ersity o" @ouisiana, @a"ayetteDwhere = see the iant #a,undome at *1* pm and another stadium across "rom it, as well as a "ew other uni!ersity buildin s in the area--. @ea!in @a"ayette at *49 pm at $11 pm = pass throu h RayneDthe H+ro capitol o" the worldI says the si nDand = see "ro s on !arious si ns includin

on the #ity .all si n. The ne&t little town is #rowleyDHthe rice capitol o" the worldI . +inally = come to @a0e #harles , @: at 495. There<s hi h :"rican :merican /opulation hereDat least the part = "irst encounterDthen = come to the casino areaD= "ind a hotel and spend the ni ht there--% =n the newsDthe e&istence o" "rea0 wa!esDthese wa!es that purportedly rise up M up to 100 "eet hi hDout o" a "lat or calm seaDo"ten the topic o" "ol0lore, in some cases myth, and other cases debateDand the purported cause o" many shipwrec0s, has now been documented by some sort o" studyDindicatin they do , in "act, e&ist, albeit the causes are not yet 0nown or understood. :pparently, to this day on a!era e two ships per wee0 are lost. =<m thin0in that at the ne&t -ears = may pull in and buy some new shortsD= only ha!e this one pairDand they are handy but they are thic0 and hea!y too. They are carpenter shorts. =n the newsDtal0in about the @os :n eles @a0ersDan inter!iew with Jeanne 1ussDthe dau hter o" @a0ers owner, Dr. Jerry 1uss Dand irl"riend o" "ormer @a0ers coach, /hil Jac0son. Jeanne 1uss says she wants a stron er commitment "rom /hilDand mentions marria e but that /hil is not willin to commit himsel" that "ar. :nd they as0 her i" )obe 1ryant was at the heart o" the bi Hsha0eupI in the @a0ers "ollowin their loss to the /istons in the championship series and she says she is not sureD only her "ather 0nows "or sure, but she says they did try to si n -ha5uille Eneal but that the price he had in mind was more than they could pay, and that they also o""ered /hil Jac0son a contract but that it wasn<t a matter o" money with himDhe ,ust decided he was throu h coachin "or the time bein .

Day 40 -aturday July 24, 2004--- headin westDapproachin the Te&as borderD$; 00 am.D(nterin 6inton alon the 40 west at $;09 am. (nterin Te&as at $1* a.mDEran e #ounty Te&as. Two airboat swamp tours at borderDneither opened at *90 central time. = spo0e with @aura at the /asadena /.E. -he said she was the main bo& cler0 and that she would put my mail on hold throu h the middle o" :u ust. 1eaumont, Te&asDa 1abe Kaharias !isitor center and museum%monument. -he was a ol"erC = turned bac0 "or the HJesus lo!es me this = 0nowI si n. There<s a H/lantations 'entleman<s #lubI here in 1eaumont , T^. There<s also a @amar Qni!ersity here in 1eaumont. @ea!in 1eaumont at 49$ am when suddenly = "ound the 1abe Kaharias monument. There was also nice memorial to the "ire "i hters in 1eaumontDa i antic "ire hydrant. 2ow we are in Je""erson #ounty, T^D/asadena is a oil re"inery suburb o" .ouston, T^. =n the news there is continued tal0 about an intelli ence director to o!ersee the 15 a ency intelli ence community. Bhat happened to the HDepartment o" .omeland -ecurityIC :t the (&&on in Binnie , T^ = "illed up with as and the lady in the car nearby threw her um on the round by the pump "or somebody to step on. 6ery thou ht"ul o" you lady. The white e ret is a !ery common bird in this area. E!er the Trinity Ri!er at 1051 a.m.

There<s a 2ederland , T^Din the /ort :rthur area ,ust south o" hereD which honors the Dutch-:merican herita e. 'ood op at 1020 am by Jesus the .ealer church. =<m waitin "or the "erry to cross o!er to the 1attleship Te&as area at 1142 a.m. @ea!in 1attleship Te&as and -am .ouston ?et. alA monument at 129$..----the monument is really 5uite somethin D rememberin when -am .ouston led the char e a ainst the 8e&ican rebels, includin the rebel chie", -anta :na, sayin HRemember the :lamoI in re ard to the atrocities the 8e&icans had committed there a ainst the Te&ans, and the :mericans, or Te&ans, won that dayD(nterin .ouston at 1244. Bhatabur er is a chain o" "ast-"ood, dri!e thru style restaurants in this areaD= tried a hambur erDnothin special. Downtown .oustonDthere<s the stadium where the :stros playD8inute 8aid /ar0Dapparently this is where the 2004 :ll -tar ame was played as well. :cross "rom the stadium is the =ncarnate Bord :cademy. There<s not that many churches here in downto4wn .oustonDrelati!ely spea0in Dalthou h = later notice din the directory that there<s at least "our #R churches hereDin the reater .ouston area. There<s /ennGoil /lace and -hell /laGa. The tra""ic si nals are lon and slow hereDespecially "or a -aturday a"ternoon. Re"lectionDin the case o" some o" those = 0new in 'rand RapidsDsuch as Dou )osters and -te!e )orhorn and maybe Jac0 .olwerda as well, amon others--it .ad been instilled in them or they had come to adopt the notion that they were superior as HwhitesI to blac0s because o" intelli ence. =n so doin Dthey died by their own sword so to spea0Dbecause it is not intelli ence that separates us "rom others as #hristiansDit is "aithDand the "ruits o" the -pirit--. There are :"rican :mericans more intelli ent than many whites, and there are many whites more intelli ent than many :"rican :mericansD that is a "ruitless debate or point o" separation. @on bac0 up on the 45 north lea!in .ouston on a -aturday a"ternoon. The airport here is named a"ter 'eor e 1ush too. The .ouston area does not stri0e me with numerous steeples li0e some other reat citiesDthere area "ewDbut = see much more retail than anythin elseDthe roads =<!e been on in the last "ew hours ha!e been retail con lomerates. There<s a lar e church ne&t to the +orest 'ate #ountry #lub with a storeli0e si n that says H-e&ual :ddiction Reco!eryI . = pull o!er to a Bhatabur er at 245Dorder a Bhatabur erDit<s nothin special. =n the news, :rmstron is now 9rd in terms o" number o" sta es won at the Tour de +rance, but will be "irst when he wins the Tour de +rance on -unday, ma0in it his si&th consecuti!e. = entered .empstead at 940 pm . = turn towards Bashin ton on 1ra!osDad!ertised as the birthplace o" Te&as. = o past the @aGy @ RanchDa"ter #hapell .ill, Te&asDan old "ashioned town o" sorts--, and come to Bashin ton, T^Dthey ha!e a !isitors center, museum, and "arm thereD= do a wal0 throu h at the 8useum---it i!es a lot o" the history o" Te&as includin the HpresidentsI o" Te&as be"ore it was anne&ed as a state by :merica. = lea!e there at 424. @oo0in at my #R# directory =

notice that -tephen!ille is pretty close to Baco, Te&asDwhich is not too "ar "rom #raw"ord, T^Dthe home o" 'eor e 1ush. (lliot 6anderlu tDmy "ormer suitemate at #al!in #olle eDwas pastor at the -tephen!ille #R# "or a "ew yearsDnow he is in Ripon, #:VF = order 9 tamales "or O1.14 at the as station in #hapell .ill, T^. = as0 mysel" as = pass a church si n what does Heben eGerI mean C = o throu h 1urton at 529 pm . They ha!e a cotton museum there. . (ssentially what you had was persons tryin to hold a community to ether based on "ictionDmeanin they must continue to HbailI the boat to 0eep it a"loat. There<s a HBendesh 8useumI around hereD595 pmDne!er heard o" the name or term Bendesh. Throu h 'iddin s at 541 pm. = thin0 to mysel" H = ot mu ed by the #=:IDessentially that<s what happened. :nd then = thin0 HThere<s a "ine line between bein a re"ormer !s. counter-re"ormerII the latter will act, tal0, and e!en wal0 li0e a re"ormer but it will be an actDnot real, and the counter-re"ormer will not truly want thin s to chan e "or the betterDthe counter-re"ormer will sti"le in!entions, thwart in enuity, suppress chan e. /salm 144 at the train trac0s by the train. 2ear :ustin at 415 pm. Throu h 8cDadeDthe si n says H8cDade Batermelon +esti!alI at *14 pm. Throu h (l in at *94.,. =n the newsDa robber in 8ilwau0ee tried to return the money he stole "rom a ban0 the same dayDand was arrested upon return. The way they tried to limit me was by splittin between mysel" and TT1, whose main concern was to a!oid con"lict at all costs Mwhich they pic0ed up upon a"ter a whileDthey were counter-re"ormers. Then they too0 their last ditch shots at discreditin me. =n the newsDsenior ol"er 'raham 8arsh ets two holes-in-one in the same tournament on the same holeDat the 1ritish -eniors. TT1 "inally ot enou h umption later in li"e to ris0 re,ection. Binnin so much at an early a e in li"e may ha!e been the worst thin "or TT1. 1ut there<s somethin worse at playDit<s the presumptuous sense o" entitlement by others to my li"e and person, and the "alse sense o" "amiliarity within the #al!in #ommunity. =n the #R# it was not ood "or me to li!e so much with those who thou ht they 0new me based upon bein H#RI Mthey didn<t really 0now meDit was a "alse sense o" "amiliarityDand = did not really 0now themDalbeit their li!es were much more plain and easy to read than was mineD i!en the mo!es = made with my "amilyDand the di""erent e&periences = had based upon those mo!es. They ended up smotherin me Min their lon -term attempts to ne ate meDto let me 0now = was nothin special. They treated me li0e a boy pun0NNmy so called "riends, --Ence = no lon er accepted that treatmentD there was no basis "or relationship Mthey disappeared with shame. -omethin insidious crept in to the '.R. #ommunity with shameless attempts to social en ineer. Demons are cowards especially when they are alone but can become particularly "erocious with other demons or demoniGed personsDi.e. the mob mentalityDis basically a roup o" demons or demoniGed persons who become coura eous to do outra eous deeds because they are in a roup o" li0e-minded persons. Bhat ma0es their actions di""erent "rom other HcommunityI actions which are positi!eDis that they do thin s to hurt people or property Mand which rarely has a intelli ent purpose to itDi.e. to

draw attention to a meanin "ul causeDit<s ,ust random acts o" ra eDmaybe i" one du dip enou hDin a psycholo ical analysis one could "ind that the an st e&hibited is based upon in,ustices or percei!ed in,ustices done to them in the pastDbut o"tenDit is Hpercei!edI Mrather than actual. This is also why cops can do the same HmobI thin s as unruly citiGensDand it is empowered by a process called H roup thin0IDthat which i nores the rational, which i nores truthDand proceeds based upon roup alle iance e!en i" the rational is "aulty. . @ots o" *-11<s here in :ustin, --and more churches than in .ouston. Bhen = thin0 about Jac0 .olwerda Jr. = don<t thin0 he did that much, or not near as much as = didDhe may not realiGe that = had a paper routeDthat = deli!ered ma aGines "or a while, that = pic0ed beans, he did do pac0in Dthat<s trueDat 1oorsmasDno doubt about that. .e didn<t play "ootball. .e was in choir. )eithDhe played more sports than = realiGedDat least he was on the teamDwhether he played that much or not = do not 0now. The problem is that they used me as their barometerD"or themsel!es Dalways sayin H.e RmeS has done nothin more than usI when, in "act, in some cases = didD Re"lectionDin some o" these citiesDthe #ity .all becomes the most dominant buildin , architecturallyNNa departure "rom the traditions o" (urope in which the church buildin is always the lar est, most si ni"icant presence. :nd )eith attitude towards women was that anytime somebody ot married it meant they ot HwhippedI or de"eated by the woman-enemy-, so to spea0. = don<t 0now where he pic0ed up this attitude. = 0now he had ne!er been much interested in datin , nor marria e. .e remained absolutely stoic in cross- ender interactionDne!er indicatin any interest whatsoe!er in women, datin , or marria e, and scornin it as wea0ness. Thus, he ne!er dated, rarely tal0ed to irls, and remains sin le and indi""erent to woman and marria e to this day. .e<s the second o" "our children, with one older brother and two youn er sisters. Day 41, -unday July 25, 2004 1rentwood #hristian #enterDlon dri!eway Dthey ha!e their own athletic "acility, there<s< some deer wanderin around on their campus7#hristian -chool, #hurch o" #hrist7 beauti"ul "acility. 2orth o" :ustin a HJoy 8ens #lubI , an H^^^I and a .ooters. /assin throu h 'eor etown and the -outh -an 'abriel Ri!er at *40 a.m. 'ood op at *45 a.m Re"lection; #hrist is education. #hrist is education. 'ood educationDsound education, but e!en imper"ect education is better than no education at all, unless it is propa anda leadin towards !iolence and harm to others or sel". /assin by the 8ary .ardin 1aylor Qni!ersity. E!er the ri!erDenterin Temple at $2> a.m. There<s a story in the news about a woman beaten so badly by her husbandDan air tra""ic controllerDin BisconsinDshe came to ta0e custody o" her dau htersDand he alle edly beat herDand stu""ed her in some sort o" arba e bin, le"t her "or deadDshe had a cell phone in her poc0etDand was able to call the police, but was not

"ound until the ne&t dayDha!in spent an entire e!enin in this arba e bin Dwith not much clothes onDand it was close to Gero de rees--. The police "ound somethin that led them to the dumpsterDand heard her yellin "or helpDwhich sa!ed her li"eDbut because o" the "rostbiteDall o" her toes had to be amputatedDand now she cannot wal0, or not !ery well. .er n me is Teri Jendusa 2icolaiDand there is a "und set up "or her7at the 1st 1an 0in #enter *44$ -. @oomis Road, Bind @a0e Bisconsin 591$5. =n the news Mwith the Democratic 2ational #on!ention this wee0 in 1ostonD there are concerns about Bhite -upremacy roups bein in or around the area.. includin 6ol0s"ront and Bhite Re!olution. There<s a si n "or the Te&as .all o" +ame and the Te&as Ran ers 8useum at $4> a.m. John )erry as0s the a e old 5uestion in an inter!iewDPDoes li"e imitate art or does art imitate li"eI in re ards to the probin 5uestion by an inter!iewer about the problem o" increasin !iolence in .ollywood and his position on it i!en his closer a""iliation with the .ollywood people than 'eor e 1usDand his dau hter went to "ilm school at Q-# or Q#@:. 2ow li!in with Jac0 .olwerda Jr. a"ter colle eDwas an e&perienceD because = had ne!er actually li!ed with him be"oreDhe had been around "or a lon timeDhe li!ed in the #al!in #olle e dormsDbut didn<t et alon too well with his roommate and mo!ed out a"ter the "irst semester i" = recall correctly. The "irst time he mo!ed in with me ?or usADthis included )e!in 6rede!eld, my older brother<s "ormer suitemate "rom #al!in #olle e, and Dan De)amDa #al!in rand "rom +remont, 8= ?who went on to marry the 1or dor"" alD:rlene 1or dor"A. This was on )alamaGoo -t.D,ust down the street "rom Ettawa .ills .i h -choolDwhere = played tennis with )im )ooi0er once. 2ow at that timeD= was wor0in at /ine Rest #hristian .ospitalDthis was the "irst year a"ter colle eDa"ter raduatin . = decided to ta0e a year Ho""I "rom school M raduate school or law school or what ha!e youDto et some wor0 e&perience. = was still debatin between oin into law or psycholo y. = had 1: in psycholo y and had done "airly wellraduatin with honors, but = was also interested in lawDperhaps because my brother was now in law school at Q. o" 8, perhaps because @.:V @aw had made the pro"ession loo0s so interestin , perhaps because o" sincere interest in wantin to help othersDand thin0in maybe = could do so most si ni"icantly !ia a law de ree. Towards that end = decided to et a ,ob at a law "irmDwhich = did durin the second semester o" my last year o" colle e D= wor0ed in the law library at 8i0a, 8eyers, 1ec0ett and JonesDit was nothin lorious that<s "or sureD= mainly replaced inserts in law boo0s with the latest editionD= was, essentially, a librarian assistantDbut it didn<t matter to me what = was called or didDit was the en!ironmentDwould = want to wor0 amon st people such as this, and do the 0ind o" wor0 = obser!ed them to be doin , all my li"eC That e&perience did not answer the 5uestionDbut it was !aluable nonetheless.

8uch more !aluable to me was my e&periences at /ine Rest #hristian .ospitalDwhere my dad used to wor0 as a hospital chaplain. = remembered oin there on -undays "or worship ser!ice in the .ospital chapelDonce a month my dad conducted the -unday -er!ice "or the patients and employees on duty on -unday mornin s. .e would usually show a mo!ieDo"ten that one about the boy and his do palDand use that to ma0e a lesson and i!e a short messa e. The patients were !arious sortsDsome o" them se!erely retarded, others there "or depression or other emotional%mental challen es. = didn<t understand it as such as a youthD= ,ust 0new that a lot o" them had problemsDbut it was my dad<s apparent intention to instill in us at an early a e an attitude o" compassion and 0indness "or persons with Hproblems.I =t was a ood mo!e on his partDwiseDe!en i" = didn<t< t "ully understand it. -o while = was wor0in at /R#.Dassi ned to di""erent units MrandomlyD sometimes childrenDmostly adolescent, but also adults and eriatrics on occasionD= would wor0 !arious hours Mincludin ni hts a"ter a while, and touch HhomeI on a periodic basis at our )alamaGoo house. =t was durin this time that = met )im )ooi0er who was also wor0in at /R#.Dand we dated a little bit, and = was sincerely interested in herDa beauti"ul youn ladyD about my same a eDshe had attended Junior colle e and then #al!in #olle eDa"ter -outh #hristian .i h, but at the end o" my year at the )alamaGoo houseDas = was ma0in the mo!e to Detroit "or law schoolDwe were still seein each other periodicallyDand = was dri!in all around on the wee0endsDlea!in DetroitDa"ter the end o" law school studyDbut "elt so distant "rom 'rand Rapids and li"e thereD= e&plored Detroit a little, "inally = decided that law school was not ri ht "or meD= was not able to maintain "ocus, my "riends were not encoura in . They had come down on one occasion to !isitDat that time Daryl -teensma was still at Bayne -tate Q.D studyin chemistry ?he<s now in 2ew Jor0A. 1ut be"ore = made the mo!e to DetroitDstill at the )alamaGoo houseDthis was the time when = noticed Jac0 .olwerda ,r ?my "irst e&perience li!in with himA becomin so increasin ly an ry-. En one occasion = borrowed a shirt "rom his closetDin retrospect = realiGe it was presumptuous to borrow a shirt without as0in , but = had li!ed with much more rela&ed roommates be"ore where it was not such a bi deal. 1ut he de"initely noticedDmaybe he 0ept his shirts cate oriGed, but rather than come tal0 to me about it , one day = went in there thin0in = would borrow a shirt a ainDand = saw all these hand-written notes all o!er the doorway Mtied to a strin crisscrossin in "ront o" his closet with pro"ane lan ua e tellin me to stay out o" his closet and not to borrow his shirts etc. That was my "irst interaction with Jac0 as a !ery hi h strun almost HanalI personality. .e could ha!e ,ust as0ed me nicely not to borrow his shirtsDthere<s< the possibility that he didn<t 0now who was borrowin his clothesDso he was writin to Hwhome!erI but e!en soDi" such was the case he could ha!e done it in a more appropriate manner. . .e was dri!in truc0s nowD"or a company called -teelcaseDa 'rand Rapids o""ice "urniture businessDwhich is today "airly well 0nown and

respected across the nation "or it<s o""ice "urniture. :nother e&ample o" his an erDwas an interaction he had with Dan De)amDsomethin occurred between themDone day or e!enin Dand Jac0 .olwerda Jr. became so an ry that he pic0ed up a dart "rom the dartboard = had put on the wall "or "unDand he threw the dart at Dan De0ams<s "eet . 2ow Dan De0am was not a person easily intimidated or impressedDand he didn<t tolerate Jac0 Jr.s beha!iorDand lau hed at Jac0. 2o harm had actually been doneDbut "or meDbein in the psycholo y business at the time and bein employed at /R#.De!en little acts o" harmless !iolence stood out in my mind as si ni"icantDin con,unction with the si ns he had posted on his closet door. =t was around that time as well that he started applyin "or employment with the +1=Dand = ot a call "rom an +1= in!esti ator who as0ed i" he could as0 me a "ew 5uestions about Jac0D= said sure o aheadDone o" the thin s they were interested in 0nowin is whether = had e!er heard him e&press any sort o" pre,udice towards minority persons, especially blac0s.. = had to thin0 about that "or a whileDin "act = had heard some o" itDsometimes !eiled and not nearly as blatant as some o" the other 'R#. 0ids = 0new, but still it was there. Bas Jac0 Jr. able to see beyond race and color to ob,ecti!ely do a ,ob as an +1= in!esti atorC = don<t 0nowDhe didn<t as0 that 5uestionDhe ,ust as0ed about racist sentimentsDand = responded honestlyD= had heard some sentimentsDnot a lotDbut a little. :s = mysel" had e&pressed a "ew timesD albeit much less so. :nd = than0 my dad "or thatDhe had wor0ed !ery hard to 0eep his 0ids "rom becomin racist and separatistDhe chose an inner Mcity church "or us to attendDwhich had its pros and consDand = stayed in an inte rated public school throu h 4th rade be"ore oin to the predominantly white #hristian school system "rom 5th throu h 12th and then #al!in #olle e as well. 1ut that brin s me bac0 to how = or we attended the #hristian schoolsDwas it with other HwhitesI as was the perception o" someDe!en some who attended , or was it with H#hristiansI and somethin uni5ue and si ni"icant mores because it was a .oly -pirit empowered educational e&perience +or some such was also the caseDand that was a di""erence in terms o" the indwellin o" the .oly -pirit. Bhat one e&perienced or percei!ed had mostly to do with the presence ?or lac0 o"A o" the .oly -piritD and a -pirit "illed person could o throu h all o" one<s #hristian education sittin ne&t to, playin sports with, socialiGin with, etc. a non--pirit "illed personDthe di""erence bein not so apparent yet 7.That di""erence was to become more apparent later in li"eDand with law school comin 7the di""erence was to become much more acutely apparent. = didn<t thin0 = would e!er li!e with Jac0 Jr. a ainDbut = did se!eral years laterDthis time not so much with my "ore0nowled e or appro!alDit ,ust happened as a result o" a person we now 0new in commonDhis name was :rie 6anderweide. 1ut be"ore = et to that = need to o bac0 to the se ue "rom the )alamaGoo house to Bayne -tate law school in Detroit , 8ichi an D?and by the way, ,ust this summer, 2004 = dro!e throu h the Detroit area Dand dropped a note to the only person = remember by name "rom that

semester in @aw schhool0---his name was Da!e 'albens0iDa polish #atholic "ellow who had raduated "rom the Qni!ersity o" 8ichi anD=<m still not sure he truly 0nows Jesus #hrist-and in!ited him to surrender his li"e to #hristDhe wor0ed at an o""ice called H#ontract #ounselI in one o" the Detroit suburbsD= pic0ed up a piece o" @ittle #aesars piGGa as = dro!e by his o""iceDand he had mo!ed down the streetA. 'albens0i had in!ited mysel" and a "ew other law school classmates to parties on a "ew occasions and e!en down to the Q. o" 8. law schoolDone occasion where one o" his buddies was now attendin Dwe slept in the dorm there one ni htDthis was e&perience o" Bayne -tate law schoolDattendin classes durin the wee0Ddry analysis o" !arious aspects o" the lawDin lar e classroomsDwith my roommateDa "ellow = had ,ust met somehow at random "rom some #hristian Re"ormed connectionDhis name was TimDTim somethin D= want to say 8aatDbut can<t be sureDhe wanted a roommate somebody #R#Dbecause he had one to Dordt #olle eD?another place = passed by this summer in Dordt =owaAD o" course my only 0nowled e o" Dordt at that time was stereotypeDa ri!al o" #al!in #olle e and somewhat "undamentalist in nature compared to the relati!ely more liberal #al!in #olle eDboth #al!in and Dordt bein part o" the Re"ormed tradition. =n "act, Dordt is short "or Dordtrecht a town in the 2etherlands where the #anons o" Dordt were compiledD= passed throu h DordtDbac0 in :pril o" 2004Don my trip to the 2etherlands. Bell, a"ter a "ew months o" law schhool0---partyin a little with this "ellow 'albenss0i et. alDand a "ew trips to !isit my brother :ndrew who was in his third year o" law school studies at Q. o". 8. ?and his wi"e #arol--A, = realiGed-N-it became e&ceedin ly clear that the bottom was droopin out here D= didn<t li0e the "eelin Dwhat = was bein indoctrinated into at law school Dit lac0ed somethin Dsomethin = needed and = 0now now it was the -pirit Dlaw school pretends it can set aside 'od, Jesus, the .oly -pirit and ob,ecti!ely analyGe thin s without any other means but the mind. 2ow = can say in retrospect ha!in subse5uently recei!ed a theolo ical education that the /latonic assumptions in the law school settin ?which includes the socalled -ocratic methodA is e&actly what the 'ospel is wary o" to a certain e&tent. Bhile /lato ?and -ocratesA were wise "ellows Ma lot o" their HwisdomI was based on the belie" that e!erythin can be "i ured out solely by co niti!e analysisDanythin and e!erythin can be determined usin the mind. This Hmind o!er matterI mentality had a stron in"luence on all parts o" society e!en the early church and e!en some parts o" the church today. = mentioned )eith -teensma earlierDa "ellow whom = li!ed with in colle e "or a year and in -pain "or a semesterDhis dad, in "act, was a math teacher at our #hristian ,unior hi h schoolDa !ery dry mathematics teacherDand his son Daryl who = mentioned pre!iously as wellDwent on to et a /hD. in chemistry and is now employed in 2ew Jor0. )eith also inherited a mathematical %scienti"ic outloo0 "rom his dadDwhich, despite it bein #hristian education was not complete #hristian educationDit separated or presumed to separate 'od "rom the processDwhen , in "act, with 'od

in!ol!ed in the processDmath and science is that much more si ni"icant and meanin "ul. =n a lot o" cases the /latonic in"luence has led to a notion that se& is bad, se&ual thou hts are bad, succumbin to se&ual desires is wea0ness, and so on and so "orth. (nterin Baco, Te&as at 419 amDisn<t this where that stando"" between the 1ranch Da!idians and the policeC = didn<t realiGe until now how close #raw"ord, Te&as , where /resident 1ush has a ranch, is to BacoDand not much "urther away is -tephen!illeDwhere my "ormer suitemate pastored a #R church "or a while ?be"ore oin to RiponA. ThereXs a 'eor e B. Truett theolo ical seminary here, near 1aylor Qni!ersity. John )erry i!es a "airly thou ht"ul discussion o" abortionDin an inter!iew = ,ust read alon the way Dsayin at the end that he<s not necessarily pro-abortion ,ust because he is pro choice. There<s 1ear Rid e ol" club at 1092 @ea!in Baco = pass throu h #raw"ord Ma "ew stores a lot o" si ns sayin Hhometown o" 'eor e 1ushc and sellin 1ush "i urines etc.Dat 1105 am = as0 the man in one o" the i"t shops where is the 1ush ranch and he says you can<t et close it<s all closed o""7 but says its about ei ht miles west o" town. =<m oin westDbut there<s no "urther si ns o" 1ush or the ranchDuntil you come to 6alley 8ills which calls itsel" the H'ateway to 1ush #ountryIDat 1120 am This is also the home o" ma,or lea uer Donnie -adler says the si n. #li"ton at 1199 a.m . 8eridian T^ at 114$ am = pic0 up a 59 cent re"ill at the -hell in 8eridian T^. . The word 1os5ueDis -panishDand the si n reminds me that it means HwoodsIDo" course the 1os5ues or 1as5ues ha!e a si ni"icant chapter in -panish history on the =berian peninsula. ThereXs the little town o" .ico , T^ at 121$Dwhere 1illy the )id died-NNthe si n says 1illy the )id was tryin to con!ince others that he did not do all that he had been blamed o" doin Dand mentions his real nameDthe si n says that we "or i!e him i" he was sincerely repentin at the time o" his death. There<s a 1illy the )id 8useum down the street "rom the statute. This is (rath #ounty , 12 9* pm There<s a Tarlton -tate Qni!ersity in -tephen!ille T^. 101 pm = enter -tephen!illeDsee a lot o" county roads but not the hi hway that the #R# is onDnot so important this time that = see the actual buildin D,ust wanted to et a "eel "or the cityD There<s a city pool thereDa li"e uard sittin out by itDbut nobody is swimmin Dnobodies there e&cept the li"e uard and one other "ellow. = decide to the particular county road = am loo0in "or ,. = ma0e one attempt to locate the county road = am see0in Dbut the al in the con!enience stores tells me that they don<t ha!e a local map and that she has no idea where =n the newsD@ance :rmstron win s the Tour de +rance. Mhis si&th consecuti!e7 = turn north on 2$1 Min some cases = see the re"usal to be ,usti"ied by "aith and a clin in to wor0s to be at the heart o" some o" the problems in some communities maybe e!en includin the #al!in community. (nterin /alo /into #ounty at 2 pm . (n,oy a lan uid meal sometime. = ta0e a 20 minute power nap = o past the Ran er .i hway church at 901 pm . Re"lection;-- one o" the bi oals o" re-directin peoples thin0in patterns is,

in my opinion, is to help them see the Hne&usI ? a le al word meanin HconnectionI or direct connectionA between their beha!ior and it<s e""ect on othersDand help them to realiGe they do not li!e in a !acuum. . #omin into +ort BorthDit<s a beauti"ul entry roadDcomin in to +ort BorthDas =was sayin be"ore = stopped to pic0 up some rocery itemsDit<s a beauti"ul city-- !ia 1owie west bl!d.. near a !illa e or town shamelessly called HBhite -ettlementI but then you come to the Bill Ro ers e5uestrian centerDand coliseum o" sortsDwhere on this particular day they were ha!in a Hhorse cuttin I tournament. = pull in be"ore = realiGe thatDand thin0in this is a Bill Ro ers museumDenterin , howe!er = realiGe it<s notDso = say to the "ellow at the tic0et counterDHwhat<s the e!ent C ------= thou ht this was a museum< .e tells me and = say H#an = ,ust ta0e a pea0 inI .e sha0es his head no, cyou need at ............H = don<t plan on stayin lon Dand he realiGes =Xm "rom out o" townDas0s me where = am "rom M= i!e him the usual re"rain7 he smilesDhere you oDtosses a tic0et at meDa "reebieD= i!e him my best Te&as rin and than0 him "rom the bottom o" my heartDinside there<s horse and cattle contest o" some sort oin onD= watch "or a whileD it<s the heart o" Te&as. ---Ri ht around the corner "rom the Bill Ro ers coliseum is the cow irl hallDnow that<s a museumDand there<s a science museum across "rom that. . +rom there = see the si ns ad!ertisin the .istoric -toc0yards o" +ort BorthDand "ollow my nose Mer the si ns, to the -toc0yardsDthere<s a lot o" commotion hereDa !ariety o" stea0 housesD and other traditional western "ood and a stoc0yard areaDwith a mechanical bullDsomebody<s han in on "or dear li"eDwith a crowd cheerin him onD it<s outside 442 pm. There<s a place called H1illy 1ob<s H down the road "rom the stoc0yardsDwith more stoc0yard apparatus ---althou h one thin = don<t see much o" is any actual li!estoc0--. +rom there = pass throu h downtown +orth BorthDa "ew s0y scrapersDand 7 then = proceed west towards Dallas. YYYYthe road to Dallas "rom +ort Borth oes throu h :rlin tonDpast si& "la s and se!eral waterpar0sDand HThe ball par0I<D we are on the Tom @andry 8emorial +reewayDand there<s a 2olan Ryan e&press way ri ht by here as well. There<s a si n "or the Ba& museum or Ripley<s 1elie!e it or not 8useum or both- 524 --enterin DallasDthere<s a lot o" s0yscrapersDEne thin =<m interested in seein is the #otton 1owlDand so = "ollow the directions on the mapDmissin it the "irst time aroundDbut e!entually arri!in in the ri ht !icinityDand the #otton 1owl is surrounded by a little !illa e o" sortDs there<s a restaurantDand there<s also the state par0 "air roundsDwith a lar e +erris wheel loomin o!er the #otton 1owl, but not in use at the momentDit<s "airly 5uiet and not much happenin there at the timeD= circle the areaDand then = trac0 down Dallas -eminary which isn<t "ar away-NNNthe reason = wanted to see Dallas -eminaryDis because o" how much = had read about them or parts o" those who teach thereDconcernin dispensationalism, Bhich the Re"ormed tradition does not , by and lar e, embrace---, Dallas Theolo ical -eminaryDis nothin "ancyDit<s in a

inte rated nei hborhoodDade5uately maintained but nothin o!erwhelmin D*10- pm7. +rom there = head north and pass by this placed called the H1iblical :rts #enterIDthe only reason = 0now about it is because it is mar0ed with a red sport on my road mapDmeanin , usually, the place is o" some notable si ni"icance either historically or in some other way---it<s ri ht by -8QZ-southern 8ethodist Qni!ersityDand there it is at $ pm.---it<s a mo!ie theatre plus boo0store C BellDit<s not clearDbut apparently it includes a #hristian mo!ie theatreDand says somethin about HThe /assionI in "ront. -pea0in o" the /assionDtheirs< still e!idence o" it bein shown or e&pounded up across the country---one si n = saw said H(&perience the real passionID= thin0 a lot o" churches are usin it as a tool to se ue "romDand e&pound uponD"rom there = o past -8Q----it<s not a hu e campus but it is spaciousDin the middle o" campus there are some trees "illed with birds sin in li0e you<!e ne!er heard birds sin be"ore7= ,ust sit and listen "or a "ew minutes. Re"lectionDsa!!y but unscrupulous cops will try to et so-called Hcolle e 0idsI to match wits with them so the cop can pro!e he<s ,ust as smart or smarter---with the presumption on the cops part that colle es teach colle e 0ids Hhow toI do thin s----there<s "ew colle es that do that sort o" thin D!ocational and technical schoolsDbut the liberal arts colle e and uni!ersityDis not teachin so much Hhow to do H as much as it is teachin DHhow to thin0I ---but beyond thatD oin to colle e is a si n o" sacri"iceD,ust on that basis aloneDbecause you<!e sacri"iced a "ew years o" your li"e rather than ,umped immediately into the sel"- rati"ication boatD you deser!e moreDand our society by and lar e 0nows thatDrealiGes thatD but cops still try to intimidate and con the colle e 0id or e& colle e 0id who is still in the "o 7 7 oin to colle e is a delay o" rati"ication and that is somethin we reward. 2ow oin thou h the town o" 6analstune at 1090. +or the sa0e "or bein a better citiGen7 we reward that7 =n the news-N-the son o" a )ansas representati!e 0ills himsel". Day 42, 8onday, July 2>, 2004----lept in a suburb o" Dallas. (nterin Dennison at >4> a.m cst. (isenhowerDDwi ht (isenhowerD"ormer president was born in or around Dennison, T^Dthere<s memorial to him showin his ori inal birthplace homeDwhich = pass by around *20 a.m. . Dennison DamD@a0e Te&oma. Belcome to DurantD8a nolia #apitol o" E0lahoma. = ha!en<t seen any HBhatbur ersI latelyDbut = see a new chain MHBatsonbur ersI There<s a nother si n "or H6an8eter RealtyI. BallysRP :uto Borld. Rhynes and Rhodes +urniture. = turn west towards E0lahoma #ity. E!er @a0e Te&oma at $90 am There<s a bi re"inery o" some sort here in Bynnewood, E0lahomaD1010 am . The al at the -hell minimartD i!es me a 2* cent re"illDo!er the Bashita Ri!erDa shallow sandy ri!er ,ust north o" Bynnewood at 101$ am . = pic0ed up some branscwaau er and por0 rind chips and an a!ocado and continued toward E0lahoma #ity. :t about 11; 05 a.m = noticed a roundish ob,ect in the roadDloo0in closer = realiGed it was a

turtleD= doubled bac0 and Goomed in on it as it scurried ?as "ast as a turtle can scurryA o"" the road and into the rassDwhat a moment that was7 seein the eyes o" the turtle peerin at me7 =<m sure there<s an analo y = can ma0e = ,ust can<t thin0 o" it ri ht now. (nterin #le!eland #ounty at 1124. . PBelcome o 2obleDRose Roc0 #apitol o" the BorldI Mwhat<s Rose Roc0 there<s Rose Roc0 8useum and i"t shop. T 1140 a.m. (nterin 2orman at 1114* a.m. . 1rahms is a bi ice cream chain here in the E0lahoma #ity areaDwith a dri!e thru "or whate!er you want. (nterin E0lahoma #ityD= am directed towards the 2ational 8emorialDwhich is a reminder o" the problems o" !iolenceDob!iously with the Timothy 8c6ei h episode in mind but not speci"ically dedicated to that particular e!entDbeyond thatD= o throu h a part o" E0lahoma #ity called the bric0 city Dand there<s the 1ric0 #ity ballpar0. =t is !ery clear ha!in now dri!en throu h parts o" Te&as E0lahoma and )ansas- ?well =<ll tell you a secret. =<m already in )ansas ri ht now as = type thisDmost o" my notes are on !oice memo or electronic notepadDbut chronolo ically spea0in D= ha!en<t reached )ansas yetA how important Bill Ro ers is to the "ol0 lore o" the 8idwest or south 8idwestDor mid southwest as it may beDhis name is all o!er the mapDwith memorials and monuments and coliseums etc named a"ter him. . .ere in E0lahoma #ityDthere<s a Bill Ro ers /ar0 and the airport is called Bill Ro ers Borld :irportI. There<s a mid-:merica 1ible #olle e here in E0lahoma. = ordered a lar e chocolate chip sha0e at the 1raums ice cream parlor dri!e thruDwhich apparently is a chain o" ice cream parlors in this area. 20* pm =<m surprised that =<m on He&tended networ0I with my wirelessDe!en by a ma,or metropolitan area--. = o by the cowboy museum at 954 pmDbut decide not to o in M= o past the E0lahoma #ity Koo, the E0lahoma "ire"i hters .all o" +ame, and the -o"tball /layers .all o" +ame, and there<s a horse trac0 nearbyDRemin ton at 415 pm Re"lectionDsome o" those who succumbed so 5uic0ly to materialism and the H:merican BayIDso to spea0Dmay ha!e not actually otten all that much. =n "act my thou ht is that they bou ht their own hellDand thin0 their in hea!en. The police cars here are dar0Dnot bold brash bri ht colored. ---and they<re watchin Dsittin at "reeway interchan esDand here and thereD Re"lectionD1ush may ha!e made a mista0e in not allowin stem cell research. The home o" Bill Ro ers is in Dolo ah E0lahoma. The other aspect o" oin to colle eDin addition to sacri"ice, it<s part o" Hplayin the ameI--maintainin the impression and appearance o" "airnessDmeanin that you are not cashin in on simply bein born on :merican soil and bein able to spea0 decent or e!en ood (n lish. There are plenty o" Hwhite boysI who do thatDli!in locally "or their whole li!esDcausin con estion more than anythin else. -te!e )orhorn did thatDwell he did two years o" per"unctory ,unior colle eDthen became a cop and then did odd ,obs includin bartendin , tow truc0 dri!in , and snowplowin Das well as !olunteer "ire"i htin . Bhen the system starts sayin H= uess soDit<s o0ayI to these dropout white boys it causes a si ni"icant decline in moraleDin terms o" belie" that the :merican systemDdemocracyDtruly is e5ual and "air---

that<s a story that 0eeps :merica ali!eDthat i!es the country a pulse---ta0e that away and you ha!e a community o" wal0in dead people. = o past the 2ational Brestlin .all o" +ame near E0lahoma -tate Qni!ersity. +urther east is the home o" Jim Thorpe accordin to the map. There<s also a /awnee 1ill 8useumDwho was /awnee 1illC . There<s also a Tom 8i& museum. Re"lection; :s = continue to thin0 about TT1<s character ?that<s Jim )o0A M= am now wonderin i" his su estion to me at a youn a e to masturbate was not ton ue in chee0 but sincereDperhaps his su estion was not a conscious plot to emasculate meDperhaps this was the only Jesus he 0newDthe therapeutic JesusDand perhaps he sincerely belie!ed that masturbation relie!es pressureDand perhaps it does "or a lot o" people but "or meD= don<t thin0 it did. =t was shortly a"ter that little tal0 when he a!e me the de"inition o" masturbation as Hwi lin one<s penis until white stu"" comes out7I that = too0 what he said at "ace !alue as somethin necessaryD he bein a pastorDhe should 0now, ri htC -o = made mysel" play with my penis around the a e o" puberty until a little drop o" white stu"" did , in "act, come out. = "elt a tremendous amount o" uilt in so doin Dthere seemed to be somethin irre ular about itDit seemed wron to me--. 1ut then Jim was not aloneDas = ha!e said be"ore this was the predominant position, by and lar e, o" a lot o" the "athersDand it was the medical modelDthe belie" that se&ual Hrelie"I o" some sort is necessaryDreminds me o" the doctors wi"e in #osta RicaDwhen = was teachin down there at the Dra0e 1ay Tourist #ampDshe summed up the medical models understandin o" se&uality when she said to me on one occasion ?= helped as a tourist uide "rom time to time tooDand too0 them horsebac0 ridin once-A HQse it or lose itI in a "ran0 sort o" manner--F and another e&ample o" the medical model assumptionsDis the Hinter!iewI = was i!en by the Qni!ersity o" =owa .ospitals +omon =n"ant Research @ab where = was bornDunder the care o" Dr. Kie lerDit was around 144* or so---they mana ed to ma0e contact with meDand said they were inter!iewin all those adults who were once born at the Qni!ersity o" =owa .ospital and part o" the soy protein pro,ect. = was one o" those in"ants----the e&periment was to ha!e the mother "eed the newborn soy protein rather than breast"eed the baby. Bhat their hypothesis was = do not 0nowDbut thirty "our or so years laterDthey were now "ollowin up to see i" there was any si ni"icant di""erences in those raised on breast mil0 !ersus those i!en soy protein--..= a reed to the inter!iewDin retrospect = re ret it Dbecause $0T o" their 5uestions had to do with masturbationD= thin0 = was in some sort o" shoc0 at the time o" the inter!iew because = would ne!er endure such intrusi!e 5uestions otherwiseDit was a youn "ellow M apparently they contracted with the Qni!ersity o" /ennsyl!aniaDto do the inter!iewDand he as0ed these ridiculous 5uestionsDas i" anybody could remember the phases o" maturation and puberty they e&perienced rowin up in the way they were in5uirin . The 5uestions, "or e&ample, were li0e H1etween the a es o" 10 and 12I did you masturbate 1A a lot, 2A a little, 9A

not at all. F H1etween the a e o" 12 and 14 did you masturbate 1A a lot 2A a littleA 9A not at all7and so on and so "orthDit was !ery intrusi!e and = still don<t 0now why = didn<t ,ust han up. @ater, = would "ile a complaint with the uni!ersity itsel" as well as with the =owa 8edical #ommission. The commission loo0ed into it but didn<t ta0e any actionDsayin i" there were more complaints they would ta0e another loo0. :t its worst the medical model is so microscopic and reductionistic o" the personDit "ails to consider the whole person much , i" at all. This is the scienti"ic or pseudo-scienti"ic model my dad 0new as wellDhe was a psycholo y ma,or and was so at a time when the medical and scienti"ic model still held a lot o" presti e and was still i!en a lot o" credence. Bhat the medical model lea!es out is 'odDa sense o" spiritualityDsomethin more than molecules, atoms, blood cells, etc. =t<s !ery reductionistic and it also e&plains why my dad has little i" any HromanticismI in himDperhaps = too would be more li0e him i" = had stopped at the psycholo y ma,or le!el ?spea0in o" which, 1arry 1osscherD the husband o" my dad<s sister, )ay, stopped at that point A.

2eed to discuss H"antasy rooted in realityI !ersus mere "antasy---there<s simplistic "antasyDthe male adolescent "antasyDo" simply ha!in 5uic0 and easy se&ual intercourse with the "emale0Deither an actual person they 0now Dor one they come to 0now !ia porno raphy F and then there<s "antasy rooted in realityDthe 0ind that is constructed in the mindDmost li0ely or at least most si ni"icantly !ia one<s relationship with Jesus #hristDJesus #hrist is the root o" the real ima inationD!ia the .oly -pirit which empowers one beyond the mere adolescent se&ual "antasy to a "antastic !ision which is much more power"ul and inspirational than any porno raphic !ision alone can beDit<s a spiritual se&uality that oes "ar beyond merely Hpleasurin one<s sel"I at the rudimentary se&ual le!el. -piritual se&uality ta0es as much or more pleasure in pleasurin othersDand not necessarily in a rudimentary se&ual mannerDbut in terms o" the whole personDthe whole body which includes mind, body, and spirit7 and spiritual se&uality may start out with actual concern "or the whole person at the indi!idual le!elD but mo!es Mas one pro resses in #hristDtowards the corporate bodyDwhich is the body o" #hrist--. L 1ut = will return to that laterDreturnin to TT1DheDeither truly belie!ed in the medical model or had decided to Hbelie!eI it "or sel"-ser!in reasons. Er sophisticated others had pulled the wool o!er his eyes "or their own sel"ser!in reasons. :nd when = say HsophisticatedI "riends o" TT1 = thin0 o" Richard 8ouw and = thin0 about Dr. Da!id (n elhard ?sr.A whose wi"e, Jean, ne!er attended #al!in #olle e00 but did attend the 8ercy #olle e -chool o" 2ursin in Detroit, 8=---albeit both Da!e -r. and Jean were 'R#. raduatesDhi h school sweethearts. 'i!en she was a nursin super!isor at 1lod ett ?now -pectrum .ealthA .ospital---it<s a "air

assumption to thin0 she was also a belie!er in the medical modelDand perhaps made Da!e sr. a belie!er as well. Bhate!er the case may be at some point TT1 had ac5uiesced o bein a Hdude pastorI--. 1ein 0ool, li0eable, popular---was more important to him than truth. Re"lectionDin re ard to attorneysDwe don<t li0e themDmost o" us don<tD but on their behal" at one le!elDwe must rant them somethin based on the "act that they did et their colle e de reeDindicatin they did sit out the "our or so years Mwith their minds open to ideas they may ha!e ne!er considered, may still not belie!e, but at least they were made aware o" thin s Dthat<s what the non-colle e boy doesn<t doDand with re ards to law Mwe can rant them somethin i!en they sat out the three or so years o" law school with their minds a ain openDwe may not li0e the product but we can rant those who o that road a bit o" somethin Dac0nowled ement ?CA, "or doin it. Be hope and pray that it leads to somethin better. Jou see oin into colle e, into raduate school etc. is a Hplun eI o" sortsDinto the un0nownDone cannot "oresee the resultsDthe temptation o" many or most is to han on to what one has at the local le!elDwhy should = chan eC Bhy should = try somethin di""erentC% This is ood enou h "or meDand some mana e to stic0 with the re"rain all or most o" their li!es, cops, security uards, retail cler0s, etc.Dmost o" them clin to a localistic and simplistic le!el o" thin0in Di.e. simply that we are persons in passin who must occasionally interactDsuch as a the le!el o" consumer%cler0. There<s somethin much more happenin at the spiritual le!elD"or Hpeople o" the truthIDand Hpeople o" the truthI may be "ew and "ar betweenDso interaction with others Ho" the truthI is sometimes a rare occurrence, albeit on /lato<s behal"Dhis Hca!e analo y< dos ha!e some !alue in terms o" the "act that we are all in our own ca!eDbut some o" us much closer to the li ht than others, albeit none o" use at the human le!el see thin s in the li ht completely or per"ectlyDbut we can and do pro ress towards more enli htenment as we row in #hrist.

=ronically in some cases this means oin beyond the !isible as Hproo"I---and reater trust in the in!isible proo"----o" 'od<s presenceDthat proo" is called "aith and H+aith is the assurance o" thin s hoped "or, the con!iction o" thin s not seenI. 8y "ew bad e&periences with police remind me that the bad police rely on creatin an impression in the mind o" the ,ud e about persons which is not necessarily true to reality or "act. They use thin s Hnot seenI in a ne ati!e wayDbecause a ,ud e rarely i" e!er sees what actually happenedD in the way you mi ht obser!e somethin transpirin on !ideo tapeDso the entire ,udicial system is based on creatin a belie!able story to a person or persons ?in the case o" ,ury trialsA who were not there. Bhoe!er can create a more belie!able story, wins. 2ow "acts and e!idence come into that story tellin Dand some o" that ob,ecti!e "act is pertinentDbut in the case o" cops at the tra""ic le!elDthe bad ones who try to "rame others or pic0 on some at

a le alistic le!el Mthey are relyin on bein more con!incin in "ront o" a ,ud e than the citiGen. 2e ati!e "aithDusin the relationship between policeman and ,udicial o""icer to condemn othersDwell sometimes we do need that to maintain a sa"e societyDbut sometimes cops become HpoliticalI and start sub,ecti!ely choosin what laws they will en"orce and a ainst whom. Bhereas pastorsD#hristians pastors Muse the relationship between themsel!es and Jesus not so much to condemn but to support and encoura e D"indin positi!e thin s to embrace. :nd this reminds me o" the time when we were ta0in a "amily trip around Than0s i!in "rom 8ichi an to 8innesotaDi" = recall correctlyDto !isit my mother<s sister, Diana, in 8inneapolis, 82Dour entire "amily was in the station wa on and :ndrew, the eldest son in our "amily, and my older brother, was ta0in a turn dri!in ---= recall him ha!in one accidentDit happened when he was oin throu h the 'eor etown apartments behind 'R#.Dand he apparently hit some ice and crashedDnothin serious but it did cause some dama e. Bell, on this particular wee0end he was dri!in sa"ely and care"ullyDhe was always a "airly deliberate, methodical personD as e!idenced mostly by his ability at the ame o" chessDwhich he thri!ed at Danalytical mindDhe read boo0s about chessDstudied 1obby +ischers Hhow to H bestsellersDhe e!en beat my 'randpa @eo /eters onceDwhich e!erybody mar!eled about because so many were in awe, ri htly or wron ly, about randpas mental superiority. 1ut when :ndy beat randpa /eters it was somethin to cheer about because 'randpa had wron ly pic0ed on :ndy one time when :ndy accidentally 0noc0ed a mu o"" the wall , brea0in itDit was a complete and understandable accident. Those mu s were han in "rom hoo0s on the wall ri ht behind the dinin room tableDit was an accident waitin to happen and whoe!er put those mu hoo0s there should ha!e 0nown better. =t was probably 'randpa himsel" who put those mu s thereD but :ndy didn<t ar ue but he was clearly upset by the incident and so later when he destroyed 'randpa /eters at his own ame it was somethin to behold. 1ut bac0 to the Than0s i!in storyDhere was :ndy dri!in the "amily car at a sa"e speed in accord with the speed limitDaccordin to him when suddenly the li hts o" the patrol car lit up behind us. The cop came up and as0ed "or :ndy<s license etc. and went bac0 to his car "or a "ew moments to purportedly call in his in"ormation. 8eanwhile, :ndy is in the car almost in tearsDsayin that he was , in "act, dri!in the speed limit. Be all ,ust sat there not 0nowin what to doDwantin to belie!e :ndy, but not bein able to do anythin about itDa "ew moments later the police o""icer returns with a pac0a e in his hand. Be<re all wonderin at this point what the hec0 is oin onDhe hands :ndy his dri!ers license and the pac0a e and says, H.appy Than0s i!in Dthis is our way o" sayin than0s "or bein a sa"e dri!er.I 2ow that<s probably a rare e&ample o" ood cop wor0Dbut that<s a lot o" what we do as pastors and want to encoura e others to do more and

more. =t<s seepin into the schools too-in @os :n elesDwhere = personally ha!e tau ht all o!er the districtD=<!e seen The Hcau ht bein oodI mo!ement in e""ect and it seems to ha!e some positi!e rami"ications---rather than HwhistleblowerI cops and teachers ,ust pointin out e!erythin wron the 0ids are doin . =t "orces both the teacher, sta"", etc. as well as the student to "ocus on what ood thin s they are doin 7% Re"lection; bad cops will try to paint a picture o" some as bein brash, coc0y, etc.N--which o" course ,ud es hate. To a!oid bein painted in a "alse li htD one needs to learn how to a!oid intersection with bad copsDbut when it does happen "or it is always a possibilityDwhen it does happenDone needs to be ready "or the interactionDthe bad cop is oin to pin somethin on you that doesn<t "itDand i" you<re oin to contest itDyou ot to con!ince the ,ud e that the bad cop is "abricatin somethin about youDuntrue to your character--. .ow do you do thatC Jou be in by maintainin a record o" the thin s you are doin D0eepin trac0Da paper trail some people call itDin my case = ha!e both a paper trail and a !ideo trail---i.e. where =<!e been ?receipts etc.A as well as a narration o" where =<!e been and what =<!e been doin and now = also ha!e a !ideo catalo that 0eeps me rounded as to where = was , when, and what = was doin . This has been !ery help"ul to me Dwith the use o" both !ideo camera and still camera shotsD= am able to 0eep a !isual narrationDwhich = supplement with a written or spo0en narration. (nterin town o" Ton0awa at *99 pmDa si n says H(lect 6an .oesenI "or sheri"". = dri!e throu h an eye-catchin cemetery at *45 pm The rouchy-loo0in al at the (&&on in 1rahman , E)D a!e me a "ree re"illDnot sure whyD= uess she li0ed the way = loo0ed, it was a surprise to me.. than0 you. = enter )ansas at $25 pm---headin north towards Bichita #ity-= see @ittle .ouse on the /rairie on the map "ew moments laterDand ma0e a decision to double bac0 towards itDbut be"ore = can et there = realiGe = need to sleep. = pull into the little !illa e o" #edar 6ale and "ind a place to spend the e!enin . The decision to turn bac0 towards the @ittle .ouse on the /rairie--- was a heart decisionDmost o" the decisions = ha!e made so "ar on this trip ha!e been head decisions. Bhat would be the result o" this heart decisionDonly 'od 0nowsDit<s li0e the butter"ly e""ectDcan one little "lap o" a butter"ly win e""ect anythin apart "rom propellin the butter"lyC Bhat thin s mi ht happen i" = chan e my course nowC Bho will = meet or what will = see that = may not ha!e e!er seen be"ore because o" this chan e in direction and timin C 'od only 0nows.

Day 49, Tuesday, July 2*, 2004---slept in #edar 6ale, )ansas---the last two ni hts ha!e been relati!ely coolDno sleepin in my own sweat li0e = did in 2ew Erleans et. se5. =<m headin a little eastDbe"ore turnin bac0 westD=

saw a little red dot on the map that said H@ittle .ouse on the /rairieI ne&t to itDworth the detour = thin0 to mysel" and head that way. H@ittle .ouse on the /rairieI was a tele!ision series based on the boo0Dthe narration o" a "arm al named @aura =n als Bilder---and the tele!ision show made up a new wee0ly plot e!ery wee0 to tell an ad!enture o" the "amily in the little house on the prairie. = was in elementary or ,unior hi h school at the timeD and watched periodically albeit not reli iously li0e my older sister, Julia. -he adored the show. =t was on "or se!eral years and was !ery popular. -o = "ound the @ittle .ouse on the /rairieDby Bayside )ansasDwith the /rairie -tore, post o""ice, and /rairie school---..as the sun was risin o!er the prairie Dit<s a replica based on the dimensions i!en in the boo0Dsays the si nD= read /salm 145 in "ront o" the @ittle .ouse on the /rairie.. Belcome to -edan at $12 ,, with their own Jellow 1ric0 road and home o" (mmet )elley the world "amous clown. :nd they do ha!e a yellow bric0 road here---it<s a path on the sidewal0D renames en ra!ed on the bric0s-----past the stores and restaurantsDnothin "ancy or spectacularD,ust a yellow path o" bric0sD not bri ht yellow eitherDit doesn<t catch your eye ri ht awayD= had to loo0 "or it "or a while be"ore = noticed it. Reminds me o" the play we did at -eymour -choolDwhen = was in 5th or >th radeD= was one o" the bats i" = recall correctlyDwho swooped down on Dorothy causin her "ri ht at one point in her ,ourney--. $2* am Throu h .oward )ansas at $51 am. ThereXs a tinman there. Then = entered the tiny town o" :u usta, )ansas---and "irst stopped to pic0 up some bra0e pads or HshoesI as some call themDthe auto parts store loomed upD,ust what = was loo0in "or--, then = went a little "urther and saw a auto repair shop.. H:u usta Tire and :uto RepairID= pull in and there<s a hea!y set "ellow at the des0 loo0in boredD= tell him = thin0 = need new bra0e pads on the "rontDhe says Hyou<ll ha!e to tal0 to @arryDnoddin towards the inner o""ice where a "ellow was sittin , tal0in on the phone--7 Hare you 0iddin . = don<t han around with those 0ind o" peopleDmy "riends 0now their white7I said the "ellow---7 . .a Ma candid loo0 at HBhite!illeI---he assumed = was one o" them-because = was HBhiteI---. .e could ha!e been wron Dbac0 in or around P144$ = went to a con"erence in Ri!erside , #ali"ornia entitled HBhat then is BhiteC Mwhich in!ited !arious uest spea0ers, both blac0 and white and others---to spea0 their mind on the topic o" bein a so-called HwhiteI personDo---power nap at 90$ pm7 Re"lection; at #al!in #olle eDthere are ood pro"essors and then there are HlocalI pro"essorsDthe ood ones enli hten youDthe HlocalI ones are doin a ,ob---, the ood ones mo!e on--, the local ones are there "or li"eDand so are their 0idsDmost o" them. Jou 0now the #al!in pro"essors 0ids because they o to the #hristian -choolsD"or e&ample Ric0 3 Ted 8innema were the sons o" /ro"essor 8innema "rom #al!in -eminary. = ne!er 0new /ro"essor 8innema personally so = can<t say that much o" himDhe was one "rom the seminary by the time = ot there, but = 0new his 0idsDboth o" whom went to

8illbroo0 and 'R#. and #al!in. :nd there was @isa )or", dau hter o" a /ro"essor )or" at #al!in #olle eDa ain = ne!er too0 the courses he tau ht, mostly thespian stu"", but = "ound out who he was o!er time. =n "act, when = came bac0 to #al!in "rom <44-4> one day = was in the co""ee shop and = was sittin ended there loo0in o!er somethin and suddenly = noticed Rachel )or" wal0in thou h with her dad. 2ow = had "i ured out who Rachel )or" was a"ter ha!in been there a "ew months. -he was the Hbi al on campusI--- as best as = could tell Malthou h = didn<t 0now her at all at 'R#.Dshe was much youn er than mysel"D= must ha!e pa ed throu h a bod boo0 ?which is the #al!in #olle e directoryA and "i ured out who she was at some point in time--. Bell, she came wal0in throu h the co""ee shop with her "ather and a!e a sli ht nod in my directionD= 5uic0ly realiGed she was pointin me out to himDalbeit tryin to do so without bein noticed. = noticed howe!er. =<m not sure what it was all about, but = noticed. 8ade a payment to -hell and '8 at the )in0os copy shop in Bichita )ansas at 112 pm . There<s +riends Qni!ersity at 120 pmDa beauti"ul buildin in the middle o" the campus. Re"lection; Jac0 .olwerda Jr. and Dou )osters were !ery !ery close to becomin educated 0ids--. 1oth o" them were HlocalsI---and that localism dra s one downDit<s a !ery real thin D"or those who "ail or drop out--- they want to enlist their "riends or "ormer "riends "rom hi h school to be one o" themDthey<re scared , ri htly soD because when they "ail in education ? and = am spea0in o" "ailure "or want o" tryin , "or want o" in!estin in the education, "or want o" truly carin A ? and by the way to a certain e&tent education is #hristDthat is, #hrist<s mission on earth was to HeducateID.e was there to empower man !ia personal relationship in which .e e&panded their perspecti!es by tellin them about a reater power and person than themsel!esDnamely 'od. (ducation is all about 'odDe!en i" it is not always in the name o" 'od. Qnless the education is intentionally tryin to teach somethin anti-'odDi.e. indoctrination in e!il Dwhich is rareDthen it is pro-'odDe!en i" it<s ,ust a en!ironmentalism classDwithout e!er mentionin stewardship or 'od<s nameDit is pro-'odD not as pro 'od as would be a class that teaches the same or similar in Jesus< name, but still better than nothin at allA. Dou and Jac0 almost transcended the localisms that surrounded themDalmost, = had hoped that their trip to #ali"orniaD? = thin0 Jac0 came twiceA would be edi"yin to them, but they ot dra ed bac0 down, and Jac0 Jr. e!entually tried to dra me bac0 inD the years when = came bac0 and was wor0in on a teachin de ree ?"rom <444>A he re-appearedDand that<s when he mo!ed in to the same house as = was li!in inDon 1altimore -tDthis house owned by :rie 6anderweideDthe "riend o" the late Jim Koetewey ?"rom 1ell"lower, #:A. 1oth :rie and Jim K. rew up in 1ell"lowerDor that areaDand attended 6alley #hristian Mthe school system "ounded by my late rand"ather /astor 'areth )o0. The Koeteweys, in "act, attended 1ethany #R#Dwhere my then Mretired rand"ather attended, and where my "ather was listed as an Hassociate pastor.I :rie, howe!er, attended the 2etherlands Re"ormed #hurch which is

a much more conser!ati!e branch o" the Re"ormed #hurch---and where the pastors still preach in the Dutch lan ua e7 as "ar as = 0now e!en to this day. =<m not sure how Jac0 Jr. came to li!e there but he didDand so it wasDand so = stayed in 'rand Rapids "or another tow yearsDand Jac0 Jr. was there a ainDthe only problem is that Jac0 Jr. wasn<t doin much, i" anythin , to connect me with othersDhe only 0new his only local contin entDthe same 0ids = 0new "rom hi h schoolDwith whom = didn<t ha!e much to do anymore. :nd the presence o" other locals such as -te!en )orhorn and Da!e De,on ?DJA who had not otten colle e de rees ?albeit )orhorn had a Jr. #olle e de ree and DJ had a R1# de reeA 0ept a drainin wei ht on the community. Jou seeDthe other thin about educationDis the "urther one oes the more li0elihood that you will become a liberatin personalityD because o" what you 0now. The less education one hasDis correlati!e with reater oppressi!enessDa drainin wei ht. @oo0 at the a!era e copNNNNmost o" them ha!e no more than associate de rees at the mostDand the best they can do is o around Hbustin I people "or little thin sDoccasionally a cop may be in a position to truly help someone, to sa!e a li"e, but in the meantime they don<t ha!e a clue as to how to help people, because they are only seein people as pieces o" the puGGleDthe piece becomes an entity in itsel"---rather than it bein a part o" the puGGleDthat puGGle they don<t understand at allDthey cannot see the bi er picture. /eople there"ore become ob,ects---and porno raphy adds to the problemDbecause porno raphy leads to ob,ecti"ication o" the human bein Dthe person<s body Dbreasts, physical attributes etc. stand out in the minds o" some o" these peopleDbecause it<s all they 0now7all they see0D:nd then they become de"ensi!e about itDironically = e!en thin0 o" my own brother :ndrew in this re ardDone whom you would thin0 would be educatedD i!en his 1: "rom #al!in #olle e and JD "rom Qni!ersity o" 8ichi an @aw -choolDbut this only oes to tell you that a de ree alone does not uarantee a person is educated and capable o" liberatin others. = was at their home in #lar0s!ille, 8=Dmany years a o when #arol was still breast"eedin one o" their babies and = had stopped by "or a social !isit and she was about to breast"eed her baby, when suddenly :ndy blurted, H= don<t want my brother starin at my wi"e<s breasts.I -o he told me to ta0e a ,o with him. That was a shoc0 to me D= had no intention or interest in starin at the breast or breasts o" my brother<s wi"eDnor had e!en thou ht about the sub,ectDit re!ealed to me more about my brother<s state o" mind than my own. .is wi"e<s breasts were his own in"atuation, not mineDbut he was pro,ectin it on to me. Jou see how pro,ection wor0sDit assumes li0e-mindedness in others around you. :nd that is a part o" localism that is dan erousDit happen to me on !arious occasions when Jac0 Jr. and )eith -teensma were aroundDthey, themsel!es, ha!in otten 1: de rees "rom #al!in #olle e and there"ore certain that = 0new no more than they, and e!en at one point Jac0 Jr. stretched it when = made a theolo ical point and he said H8y brother-in-law is a pastor tooI attemptin to ne ate what = said by !alidatin his position merely on the

rounds o" ha!in a brother-in-law who was a #R# pastor. This associati!e patternD= was the same "or a whileDbe"ore = personally ot my own 8.Di! ha!in one throu h the torture o" seminaryD= would spea0 on authority o" bein a pastors 0idDo"ten replicatin what my dad had said and tau ht. That was hollow, ,ust as hollow as Jac0<s assertion based on ha!in a brother-in-law pastor. Bhereas )eith spo0e, in part, based on ha!in a dad who was a teacher--. 1ut they stopped thereDJac0 and )eith went no "urther as "ar as = 0now than the colle e 1:Dboth o" them business ma,ors althou h Jac0 went bac0 and ot a second 1: in accountin . The sin o" localism has the same roots as the sin o" homose&uality in -odom 3 'omorrah, e!en "or those who are married----essentially there<s an entrenchment based on nothin else than enitalism. :nd this "alse sense o" "amiliarity with each other is based on enitalism. There<s somethin that transpires between persons at the local le!elDan appro!al or acceptance o" each other based on some sort o" H enital nodI o" sorts. Tra!elin cross country = become acutely aware that = am not a HlocalI anywhere = oDe!en in 'rand Rapids Mpassin throu h there = was no more a local thereD= had lost enital acceptance and now had to mind mysel" in such re ards, so to spea0. Bhen this local enitalism becomes so "ierce e!en i" it does not lead to the actual HrapeI o" another personDthere can be other types o" rapeDrape, o" course, bein unas0ed "or, unin!ited, intercourse e ---at it<s most literal senseDin terms o" actual se&ual intercourseDbut this can happen in other ways tooDassertin one<s power o!er another by slanderDtellin "alse stories about anotherDthat<s a "orm o" rape. There may e!en be a !isual rape o" sortsDthat 0ind where the person is so adept at reducin the other person to na0edness and acute awareness o" that person<s se&uality or lac0 o" Dcan be !ery demeanin . E" course popularism o" the sensationalistic sorts caters to this sort o" mindD o throu h any rocery store and you will see tabloids "illed with stu"" about others at the most personal, intimate le!el. :nd some persons ma0e a li!in o"" o" this sort o" thin allowin themsel!es to be ob,ecti"ied in such a mannerDsellin their bodies so to spea0Dmaybe not actually physically prostitutin one<s sel" , but in other ways doin so. 1ut then the church has contributed to the problem with the /latonic o!ertones o"ten "ound in ecclesiastical settin sDbut the response should neither be e&treme asceticism ?i.e. star!in one<s sel", or sel" mutilationD albeitDsome people can and should diet and e&erciseA nor e&treme aestheticism ?i.e. becomin entrapped in porno raphic indul enceDbased purely on the physical attributes o" a person or in a substitutionary "orm o" porno raphyDbecomin ensla!ed to the aestheticism o" one<s nei hborhood or house or the li0e, albeit one should ha!e a healthy respect "or one<s own bodyDto ta0e care o" it, and one can appropriately thin0 well o" others who ta0e care o" themsel!es. A Ene e&ample o" inappropriate perusal o" other persons bodies = recall when = was in this roup called Han er mana ementI Mwhich = was ordered to ta0e as part o" my Hno contestI plea to alle edly

Hdisturbin the peaceI when = was in /asadena, #ali"ornia in +ebruary o" 2001---as it turned outD= had no more disturbed the peace than a "an at a "ootball ame could be accused o" disturbin the peace "or yellin too loudD but nonetheless, = didn<t ha!e the time to contest the matterDso = accepted the "ri!olous and un"ounded char e which re5uired ta0in 12 so-called Han er mana ementI courses. =n one o" these sessions = recall a youn man tellin about how he "elt li0e sayin to a al in the o""ice HJour breasts loo0 nice today.I =<m not sure why he was tellin us this storyDbut he ot a lau h "rom a "ew o" the attendeesDbut as humorous as it may soundDit<s an e&ample o" the de radation o" othersDbut women do it to men as well. =n my hi h school yearboo0, @isa )or"Da hi h school classmate wrote somethin about my H reat bodIDseemin ly "latterin Dbut in retrospect a potential e&ample o" e&actly what = am tal0in about in terms o" de radin or ob,ecti!iGin others accordin to physical attributes. Bhether or not it is de radin howe!er depends on how the person is sayin it or thin0in it. There are those who de rade others e!en while thin0in complimentary thin s about their physical attributesDbecause it is all they seeDnothin moreDthey do not care about the whole person. 2ow = thin0 @isa )or" cared about me as a whole personDso = accept her body comment accordin ly. En the other hand "or a short period o" time a"ter colle e Teri /eters reappeared and = did a "ew thin s with her socially and she would ma0e comments about men<s< bodies as we would dri!e down the streetDshe would see a ,o er, "or e&ample , and say loudly ob!iously "or me to hear, H2ice butt.I = would ,ust lau hD=n retrospect, = realiGe, she didn<t really respect menDshe e!en had some an er towards menDwhich she attributed to an er towards her "atherDmaybe soDnonetheless, without respect "or the whole person her comments or thou hts about men or me and my body were not respect"ul and there"ore = considered it o""ensi!eDbecause = realiGe now she did not truly care "or me as a whole person. :s = was sayin , localism caters to de radation and enitalism. :t its worstD it becomes somethin li0e you read about in the 1ibleDin -odom and 'omorrah---where these men ha!e an e&treme sense o" entitlement to their townDto the e&tent that they insist on se&ual ri hts to the uests o" @ot, and e!en when @ot o""ers them his dau hters insteadD"or their se&ual pleasure, they are so "illed with se&ual a ression and per!ersion they insist on ha!in the men "or their se&ual pleasure. =t<s an e&treme "orm o" per!ersion, localism, entitlement and corruption. :t a seemin ly more mild le!el, but nonetheless wron is the "orm o" mental entitlement to other person bodiesDwhen = was in the 2etherlands there was this neon messa e post o" sorts in the airportDat -chiphole :irportDand one o" the messa es it deli!ered, amon countless others was HEther persons bodies area wonder"ul place "or one<s mind to wander.I =<!e already written messa e entitled H8y body is no place "or your mind to wander.I (&poundin on that = thin0 o" a "ew mo!ies that came out se!eral years a o

DEne o" them was a mo!ie called Hhappiness is7I i" = recall correctlyDan ob!ious play on the #hristian son H.appiness is7to 0now your -a!ior7 li!in a li"e within .is "a!or7I and so onDin this caseDin typical .ollywood wayDthe theme o" the story is H.appiness isI----masturbation--now = didn<t e!en watch the whole thin Dbut = remember a "ew parts because they were utterly stri0in Done o" the scenes showed a "ather tal0in to his cryin sonDapparently the "ather had been accused o" bein a pedophileDand the pre-adolescent son has "ound outDand he<s ha!in a heart-to-heart tal0 in tears with his "ather and he as0s his dad i" he<s such a pedophile that he himsel" ?the sonA is in dan er o" his "ather<s homose&ual%pedophilic lustC :nd the "ather responds H2o, =<ll ,er0 o"" instead.I 8y "irst encounter with the word H,er0 o""I was when = was in the "ootball stands at 'R#. watchin a hi h school "ootball ameD= was still in ,unior hi hDmaybe only *th radeDpossibly $th radeDbarely at the a e o" puberty and = was lau hin about somethin and commentin on somethin may be sarcasticallyDwhen suddenly Ric0 De6ries turned around and hit me on the headDand said to his "riends around him, H.e<s a ma,or ,er0 o""I. = had no idea what the word meant. @ater = would "ind out it re"erred to male masturbation. To be honest = am not sure = was e!en at the a e where = was capable o" meanin "ully masturbatin . That<s probably why = was actin li0e a pre-adolescentDwhich ironically would be the opposite o" a ma,or ,er0 o"" i" one is not e!en at the a e or sta e o" bein able to masturbate anyways. The other mo!ie = saw that was stri0in was :merican 1eautyDa ain = don<t thin0 = watched the whole thin Dand "or that matter = ha!e not watched a mo!ie since around 144$ or soDa"ter se!eral years o" intensely watchin and ta0in notes on ma,or motion pictures at the theatres. -uddenly = ,ust stoppedDand =<ll e&plain why later. 1ut while = was still watchin D= saw a part o" :merican 1eauty and there<s one scene in which the alDthe H:merican 1eautyI o" the "ilmDa blonde haired :merican adolescent al, still in hi h schoolDsays to her "emale "riend and nei hborD somethin to the e""ect o" "indin it "latterin that her "riend<s "ather would masturbate to the thou ht o" her. = "ound it stri0in because both this "ilm and HFhappiness isI del!ed into the topic o" masturbation in a way that = had ne!er noticed be"ore--. =t was beyond the loc0er room masturbation ,o0es or sarcasm or insultsDit was del!in into somethin more deep and perhaps insidious about not only :merican culture but society. This sense o" entitlement to other persons bodies Me!en i" it is HmerelyI mentalDseems to me to be a departure "rom healthy li"e and culture. 1ut then one has to as0 why there is such a hi h le!el o" porno raphic culture in our society and correspondin !oyeurism. Ene thin = cannot help speculate about is whether part o" this increase is due to a departure "rom the 1iblical norm i!en to us ---a norm which seems to clearly prescribe marria e as the a!enue "or those who are unable to sublimate their se&ual needs. Bhen = say H-ublimateI = am spea0in o" en a in the mind and

body in ways such that a se&ual outlet is not so compellin Dbut masturbation is not sublimation. 8asturbatin is a si n o" an inability to sublimate and an indication that one needs an appropriate outlet "or one<s se&ual desires which the 1ible tells us is a person o" the opposite se&D"or #hristians, pre"erably another #hristian. 8asturbation, ar uably, is acceptable durin adolescence when marria e is not a !iable optionDbut e!en at that a e or sta e = would recommend sublimation, i" possible. = don<t thin0 = would ha!e had a problem with sublimation at all i" my dad hadn<t impressed upon me the medical model and the notion that a se&ual outlet is necessary "or one<s healthDi" not actual than !irtual. = really has no inclination or compulsion towards !irtual se& at the point in time when my dad a!e me the masturbation lesson ?i.e. H=t<s when you wi le your penis and white stu"" comes outIA. Today, = stron ly belie!e in sublimation, not masturbation. :nd = belie!e in "ocusin on other thin s than the bodies o" others, e!en thou h = still lon "or a time when = can en,oy a relationship with a person o" the opposite se& without con"lict or intrusion by others. /art o" "ormer potential relationship was 5uashed by inter"erence "rom others, includin :udrey 6an Een and her now husband (ric )ooyerDthey did so stealthilyD"or a period o" time ettin inside 1arb Biersmas mindDto the e&tent that they ,ust about ruined a reat irlD1arb Biersma was "rom 8ontanaD= "irst met her when we were ta0in the orientation classDan interim class at #al!in #olle eD"or the semester in -painDand then she was around durin the entire semester in -painDlater = would become a datin "riend with herDbut at the same time :udrey 6an Een was still "eedin her ideasDto lead her away "rom not only me but her own "amily. The model (ric0 3 :udrey led people away "rom was the 1iblical model o" heterose&ual marria e---e!en thou h they, themsel!es, attended a so-called churchDthe #hurch o" the -er!ant. 1ut they embraced the medical modelD not rud in ly as some #hristians who enter the medical pro"ession mi ht do Dbut apparently with ustoDembracin the notion o" homose&uality bein normal. 1ut = realiGe now that they were doin all they could do to 0eep me apart "rom any si ni"icant marria e possibilityDe!en one a"ter 1arb had one Mwhen = was "riends with )athy @awrenceDshe came o!er to my house on 2oble -treet onceDand ended up stayin the ni ht. . 1ut with /hil )o0 DHstayin the ni htI does not mean what it means "or most peopleDbecause = too0 a !ow lon a o to not en a e in se&ual intercourse until = am married. That<s a !ow =<!e 0ept to this dayDbut = didn<t say not to en a e in any intimacy at all until marria e, in "act pre-marria e intimacy is necessary in the process o" ettin to 0now another potential spouseDand there is not a sin le al =<!e e!er met and dated that = ha!e not considered to be a potential spouse.

2ow when = say = am still a !ir in = should tal0 about my brie" relationship with a al by the name o" :my Jon0ers. = met :my Jon0ers, a #al!in al and 'R#. raduate, durin the <44-4> period when = was wor0in on my second 1: at #al!inDwe met at a #al!in /artyDand hit it o"" ri ht awayD and "or the ne&t "ew days or wee0sDperhaps months were in"atuated with each other. :"ter = le"t "or Byomin D"or the summerDshe e!en came and !isited ---it was there in Byomin that = almost lost my !ir inityDin a heated moment o" passion = let my penis slip in to her !a ina "or !ery brie" momentDbut not what = would call se&ual intercourseDthere was no seminal e&chan e inside her !a inaDand it was not repeated intercourseDit was a slipDin the heat o" the momentDso = still consider mysel" a !ir inN and that was the closest = e!er came to bein otherwise e!en thou h that was a physically passionate relationship otherwise. 1ut bac0 to )athy @awrenceDas = was sayin she Hspent the ni htI accordin to /hil )o0 de"initionDand when we awo0e both she ?assumin she was a !ir in, althou h there is a possibility she may not ha!e beenA and = were still !ir ins. 1ut o" all people to show up in the mornin while we were eatin brea0"astDhere comes (ric )ooyer and :udrey 6an EenD= don<t 0now e&actly what they were doin there at that time o" dayDthey seemed to a!e some sort o" reasonsD= "or et which0---but in retrospect = realiGe now that they were, in "act, spyin on me---and probably assumed somethin contrary to the truth. Those are my H"riendsI :udrey 3 (ric. 8urdoc0, )ansasD944 pmD= was runnin low on asDso = too0 the hi hway e&it towards a little dot on the mapDthe name o" the town was 8urdoc0D= "i ured they would ha!e at least one as station hereDi" nothin else a "armer with his own pumpDbut there was nothin thereD e&cept "or a post o""ice-=<!e ne!er run out o" as in this carDso = don<t 0now how "ar below that (mpty line the indicator oesDbut = was ettin close to "indin out. 2onetheless, since there was a post o""ice hereD= would ma0e use o" itD= needed to ma0e a payment to my credit unionDand had a chec0 ready to send themDso = stepped inside the little /.E. and there was -herry JonesDthe sole cler0Das = was preparin the mail "or priority with con"irmationD= as0ed her about as. -he told me that the closest town was ten miles westDand was so nei hborly to tell me that i" = should run out o" as be"ore = et there that she would come and et meDshe a!e me her phone number and told me to call her i" = made it or notDand tell me either wayD2ow that<s somethin you would ne!er e&perience in a bi or e!en medium siGed town. = than0ed her and headed westDthe as indicator becomin increasin ly ominousDbut ten miles later = was still oin "orward and not because = was pushin itD= made it to the as station and called -herry and told herDand said Hthan0s a ainI . Jou hear about southern hospitalityDhow about 8idwestern hospitalityDBichita styleD= li0ed that town, and the surroundin areasD"riendly people. Throu h the town o" #unnin ham at 42>pm. Re"lection; -te!en )orhorn Mwhom we all too0 "or

ranted as a little slowDco niti!elyDsurprised us allDshowin us he was not slow at allDbut at the same time showin us he was snea0yDand sometimes not !ery carin about othersDin "act = don<t thin0 anybody assumed him or others li0e him to be HslowI or retarded or the li0eD= thin0 we thou ht he mi ht not care. :nd o!er timeDdespite the o!ertures o" "riendship he made reticently, i.e. oin out on his motorboat "or a cruiseD with "riendsD, oin to +lorida--, oin to a B.E concertDthere seemed to be a hidden a endaDand it seemed to be in his mind that colle e 0ids ,ust li!ed pri!ile ed, "un-"illed li!es "or a "ew more years than those who o to wor0 ri ht out o" hi h school. .e had a classic wor0in class mentality---maybe instilled in him by his dad, a truc0 dri!er. The only problem is that he was wron Dand that colle e is wor0Dsome colle es more than othersD and #al!in #olle e one o" those. =t<s wor0D"or the casual obser!er who only comes by when there<s a party or celebration the inept conclusion mi ht be that this is colle e li"eDbut they are wron Dand -te!en was wron Dand he was out o" place han in around with us, or at least meD?"or there are some colle e raduates who do ta0e the easy route and "or whom colle e is essentially an e&tended partyA. 1ut at the same time = was bein e!an elistic Din a way = thou ht was meanin "ulD= now call it Hdude e!an elismI and realiGe it didn<t wor0Dthose people = attempted be a dude around "or the sa0e o" #hrist are no closer to bein "ollowers o" Jesus than they e!er were b be"ore. The problem be ins with the "act that these people don<t respect themsel!es 0---so when you HdudeI around with them-.yper-obser!ation o" details Mobsessi!e compulsion concernin tidinessD ne!er ettin beyond the cynicism o" nothin matters e&cept rule obedience---is more li0e that o" a bad copDwho can<t thin0DJac0 .olwerda Jr.Dwhen you would dri!e in his carDyou could ha!e done sur ery in there Dit was so cleanD= mean "astidiously cleanDcompulsi!elyDand i" you had the tiniest spec0 o" dirt on your shoesDit would ma0e him !ery upsetDwhen = thin0 o" Jac0 Jr. = thin0 o" the mo!ie Ta&i Dri!erDa /aul -chrader mo!ie DironicallyDbecause /aul -chrader was a 'R#. raduateDand a #al!in #olle e dropout.the ta&i dri!er in that mo!ieDplayed by Robert De2iro i" = recall correctly had a !ery suspicious attitude towards othersDso did Jac0 ,r. and was not a !ery enerous personDesp . towards minorities. 1ut then how could a lot o" these 'R#.-#al!in 0idsDsome o" whom ha!e ne!er e!en been in a classroom with a blac0 person or .ispanic---my ad!anta e there was ha!in one throu h 4th rade at a public schoolDinte ratedD= already had inte rated e&perience by the time = trans"erred to the #hristian systemD where there was no more than a hand"ul o" blac0 0idsDand white #hristian 0ids were tau ht to treat them with compassion because they were Hdisad!anta ed.I =t was a supercilious compassion , sometimes,--not an empathicDenterin intoDwal0in in their shoes sort o" compassionDand always at the handout le!elD"or any o" the blac0 0ids to "eel sorry "or some o" these white #hristian 0idsDwould ha!e been insultin ---that sort o" insult you see in the mo!ie HTo )ill a 8oc0in birdI when the blac0 sla!e%ser!ant

who was accused o" ha!in raped the white4 al at one point inad!ertently ac0nowled ed that he "elt sorry "or herDand the courtroom aspedDno blac0 man was supposed to be in a position o" "eelin sorry "or a white person. =t ,ust couldn<t be. This sort o" racial superiority based HcompassionI had nothin to do with #hristianityDit was ,ust a matter o" social order as some wanted it. =n the town o" /latt )ansas---there<s a nice city pool with 0ids swimmin and a "ew li"e uards and nearby a li"e-siGed statute o" @ibertyDRe"lection; H'ames 8issionaries /layI---=<!e unco!ered a "ewDthe problem be innin with the title HmissionaryIDthat<s a top down titleDyou mo!e to a "orei n countryDcall yoursel" a HmissionaryI and e&pect to be treated li0e oneDthe problem is Hmissionary is what missionary doesII----you are what you doD title-based occupation%pro"essions are meanin less without action ---occasionally you may ha!e to pull that wild cardDespecially in the company o" those who are impressed by titlesDbut we are what we do, to be honest. =<m hu""in and pu""in as = lea!e the lar est hand du well in 'reensbur , )ansas---the billboards had been hittin me o!er the head about it "or the last se!eral miles so = made the turn and chec0ed it outDpaid the O1.50 to o down the steps into the now-dry wellDand = loo0ed at the meteorite they "ound. 551 pm. 'ood op at >90. Re"lection; as much as there is a ripple e""ect o" 0indnessDthere is a !icious cycle o" badnessDthe way your parents raise you is li0ely to be the pattern in which you raise your 0idsDunless you ma0e a conscious e""ort to depart "rom that norm. -o i" your parents were abusi!eDthere is a "ar reater chance that you will be li0ewise. That cycle can be bro0en but it re5uires wor0. The more one ac0nowled es the "ailin s o" one<s parents and one<s own propensity towards the sameDthe more li0elihood one can o!ercome those "ailin s. That li0elihood is increased i" one repents "or the "ailin s rather than tryin to ,usti"y "ailin s as not so bad or e!en oodDthat<s the hei ht o" blasphemy when we call ood bad and bad ood7 The body o" #hrist is cross denominationalDor nondenominational. Denominations are part o" the body o" #hristDno denomination by itsel" is the body o" #hrist. = enter Dod e #ity at * pmDthere<s the old +ort Dod e M a hea!y set security uard loo0s at me curiously "rom behind his steerin wheelDand then pulls up ne&t to me and says, H#an = help youCI = tell him =<m ,ust loo0in aroundDli0e a touristD hasn<t he e!er seen one o" those be"oreC ? = don<t say thatA0---and li0e = as0ed the #=: o""icerD= as0 him H:re there toursCI .e says it<s too late--. = than0 him and dri!e throu h the old +ort Dod eDbuild to protect wa on trains "rom a ressi!e =ndiansD1u""alo 1ill and Bild 1ill .ic0oc0 played a part in the history here. Ene o" the si ns in the middle o" Dod e #ity says HBestern spo0en here.c Be really need to stop the !icious cycle o" H,er0o""s< pointin their "in er at alle ed H,er0o""sI---sometimes the actual ,er0o""s are cryin HwitchI to ta0e the spotli ht o"" o" themsel!es in their despair.

2ow to be "airDto my dad<s enerationDthose who were li0emindedDthey came out o" a social system that was percei!ed to be strict, maybe e!en stin y or Hni ardlyI as = ha!e heard some say. E" course some o" that was to be e&pectedDbecause their parentsDour randparentsDli!ed throu h the depressionDwhen e!erythin was or seemed scarce. #omin out o" that time Dthe attitude o" caution and reser!e pre!ailed. :nd = assume based on obser!ations =<!e made o!er timeDthat masturbation was still considered not only a sin but a !ice and somethin that could cause acne and other physiolo ical problems--. E" course at that time in historyDe!en birth control was considered under a suspicious li ht, not to mention oin to mo!ies, dancin , and playin cards amon other thin s. The church was or seemed to be much more o" a rules-based reli ious settin at that period in timeDHThou shall not7I outwei hed the Hthou shallI or so it seemed. +or the churched white personDdespite some o" the restrictions --, it was nonetheless a period o" enormous opportunityDthe 0ids born shortly a"ter the depression still had a lot o" opportunities-7 "or those who 0ept their nose to the rindstoneDcolle e was an a""ordable opportunity--Nwith much less, i" any, personal debt re5uired to et a de ree. +urthermoreDthey were not limited by standardiGed testsDsuccess was all rade basedDsub,ecti!e--to a certain e&tent upon the teacherDbut in eneral i" you were a decent, clean cut person you could ma0e it--. =n the newsDDic0 #heney, the !ice president, says in de"ense o" oin to war a ainst =ra5Dthat terrorism H is not increased by the use o" "orce a ainst terrorists but is tri ered by the perception o" wea0nessI . Ene o" the )ennedy<s howe!er su ests that we were better re arded by the world shortly a"ter the attac0 despite our bein in a position o" Hwea0nessI--7 = ,ust realiGed that the typical pra matic business ma,or "rom any colle eD e!en a liberal arts colle e is oin to pass throu h these towns with a much di""erent attitude than one with a mission-based mentalityDsure-it<s not healthy "or me to eat e&cessi!elyDto eat the wron 0inds o" "oods, but = may not be eatin "or pleasure as much as = am eatin "or #hristDa show o" support, concern, empathy "or othersD= o past 1i 1asin at $9$ and -t. Jacobs Bell ?althou h = can<t see it "rom where = amADwhich purportedly has ne!er one dry. There<s some deer at the side o" the road at 4 pm = ha!e the HTommyI opera by the Bho playin in the bac0 round. Down the road to the west a little "urther is the Dalton 'an .ideoutDand museumD includin the escape tunnel they apparently builtDalthou h it<s closed by the time = arri!eDin the little town o" 8eade, )ansas at 411 pm >. Re"lectionD some o" those who played sports in hi h school or e!en participated in e&tra curricular roups Msome o" them were they ,ust Hdoin their timeI or did they really put their hearts into itC = o throu h /lains )ansas at 490 a.m ., and throu h )ismet at 445

'ood op at 451 pm. :nother re"lection 5uestion = ha!e is why isn<t H eneral re!elationI wor0in with 8uslimsC 'eneral re!elation is the idea or doctrine that "or those who are not electDi.e. those who are not in #hristi.e. those who ha!e not recei!ed special re!elation---that 'od did nonetheless i!e them a eneral re!elation o" 'od throu h nature or other meansD which subdues their soulsDand 0eeps them, in eneral , "rom doin despicable deeds. Eb!iously eneral re!elation has e&ceptionsDthe 5uestion is Mi" the e&ception occurs more o"ten than the ruleDis the rule a !alid ruleC =s eneral re!elation !alid notionC BellDthin0 about how much o" 'od<s world wor0sDhow chaotic it could beDi" e!erybody acted upon their own immediate personal desires. 1y and lar e that does not happenDwe ha!e a system that allows persons to "ul"ill their desires without the needless e&pense o" others. 1y and lar e it seems to be !alidDi" you thin0 o" how many 8uslims there are in this worldDand what would happen i" eneral re!elation were remo!ed and they united a ainst the rest o" the worldDno matter how much weaponry the Qnited -tates hasDit could not control a world riot. = ,ust arri!ed in @iberal )ansas.

Day 44, Bednesday, July 2$, 2004-----= slept in @iberal campus the home o" Dorothy<s houseDHthere<s no place li0e homeIIDthey ha!e a replica o" the home o" Dorothy "rom the BiGard o" EG here. :nd there<s a yellow bric0 road o" sorts around it. =t<s not as meanin "ul ton me as the @ittle .ouse on the /rairie because the land o" EG and the whole story about the BiGard o" EG is purely "iction, but it<s still interestin . The BiGard o" EG story has analo ical or parabolic si ni"icance e!en i" it is "iction. = thin0 , most particularly, o" the moment when Dorothy disco!ers that the BiGard o" EGD who appears to be this i antic almost roboticDunseeable odli0e persona--is actually a little old man usin a !eil o" sorts and a /: system to sound much bi er than he or she is7 that<s a moment o" truthDit<s not that Dorothy has necessarily unco!ered "raudDas much as it is somethin the people wanted to belie!e. /eople do the same thin to preachersDsometimes Dthey want or need to belie!e that this pastor is somethin in"allible, per"ect, power"ul etc. :nd to the e&tent that a pastor is that much closer to Jesus- in terms o" a personal relationship and%or academic 0nowled eDthe pastor should be on a pedestal o" some sort, but---ironicallyDthe closer = et to Jesus the less = want to be on a /latonic pedestalDthe 0ind too o"ten the con re ation wants to put you on---because part o" the ,ob o" the preacher who 0nows the 'ospel is to re-tell the 'ospel and the li"e o" Jesus #hrist without the /latonic o!ertones that crept into a lot o" the church o!er time. The /latonic o!ertones0Dand %or nosticismD?i.e. appearance o" wisdom or "alse 0nowled eA led to a belie" that material is badDand that the body is there"ore bad or unimportantDin comparison to the mind and one<s ethereal relationship with #hrist. The result o" this Hbody badI philosophy was one o" two possibilities; 1A +or some it led to the ne lect o" the body-0-!arious sorts

o" asceticism<s too0 placeDe!en sel"-mutilation under the assumption that it would please 'od. 2A +or othersDit led to total indul ence o" the bodyD since the body didn<t matter one could do with it as one pleasedDso indul ence in "ood, wine, se&ual indul ence with multiple partners etc. became more common in some parts o" the early church as they intermin led with the world. 1oth positions were erroneous-Belcome to @a0in, )ansas at 40$ am. Belcome to -yracuse )ansas at 44> a.m. 1etween @a0in and -yracuse there is a historical point where you can see the actual ruts o" the old -anta +e Trail. :nd it points to a set o" trees to the south as bein the old border between 8e&ico and the Q.-Dway up here in )ansas. Belcome to #oolid e at 100$ am. L :s = am e%%%% (nterin #olorado at 10;11 am Belcome to .olly #olorado at 1015 am (nterin @amar, #E at 105> a.m. /ete #oors is runnin "or Q.-. -enate. This is #oors country. ---The lady at the welcome center in @amar #olorado was !ery "riendlyDalmost pro"usely "riendly-----in words and in deeds ?she a!e me a map and a ma aGineA but = didn<t et the "eelin that =t was enuineDor that she could i!e me any real in"ormation about #olorado in terms o" ha!in been thereDthe a e-old notion that readin D alone can ma0e you a better person is only hal" the e5uationDwithout oin there, bein there and doin thatDall the readin in the world is o" limited !alue--. =t<s li0e ettin a /hD without correspondin e&perienceDthe process is as important as the product---.. how one ets there is as important or more important than bein there. . (nterin the town o" @as :nimas at 1215---there<s supposed to be a )it #arson 8useum hereDand = see a museumDbut the buildin is in a state o" disrepairDand there<s a closed si n on the door--. 'ot cash "rom the :T8 at @a Junta 1250Dnow enterin the town o" -win0 at 104. The ban0 in @a Junta was built into an old train car. Town o" Roc0y +ord at 122 pm . = had a son thou ht; H.e is my T, .e is your T, he is our T. he is 8='.TJ, .e is Jour hty, .e is Eur hty.< 8anGanola at 199 pmDa little townDbro0en down si ns, closed storesDa post o""ice.. . :t the #onoco in +owler #E-- at 150 pmD= pull in "or a tea re"illDthere<s a roup o" hi h school als in thereDapparently ,ust "inished some sort o" athletic e!entD= et a re-"ill and the lady at the des0 as0s me HDid you ha!e as out thereCI = didn<t say it but ne&t time = willDi" = had as and didn<t pay "or it out there at the pump = would tell you ma<m. =t<s li0e the canned 5uestion you hear periodically "rom cler0sDHBill that be all "or youCI They co!er themsel!es that wayDin case you stuc0 somethin in your poc0et and wal0 out with it Myou can<t say H= "or ot.I = et tired o" the 5uestionDsometimes = say H=+ = had anythin else = surely would ha!e put it up here on the counter, @:DJLI

= was cau ht shopli"tin onceDactually twiceDthe "irst time = shopli"ted = must ha!e been in 2nd or 9rd rade or lessDwe went to :ce .ardware -tore in :l er .ei htsDmy dad and =Dwal0ed o!er there "rom our house at 1020 'riswoldDwhile there = saw these little cor0sDthe 0ind you stic0 in the top o" a bottle Mthey<re li0e one cent cor0sDmaybe 2 or 9 cents at the most. = thou ht they were 0ind o" neatDand stuc0 one in my poc0et. En the wal0 bac0 homeD= hinted to my dad what = hadDand when he realiGed = had ta0en this cor0 "rom the hardware store he yan0ed me aroundDwal0ed me bac0 to the store sobbin D= had been made ashamed at that point by my dadDand was "orced to o up to the hardware store cler0 and in shame tell him that = had stolen the cor0 and was brin in it bac0. = understand Jim<s pointDstealin a penny is as wron as stealin a million dollars. :ctually in our ,udicial system stealin a penny could be worseDor could result in more hassle. The white collar criminalDwho embeGGles lar e amounts still doesn<t et that much time, relati!ely spea0in Dcompared to the criminal who brea0s in and steals. The use o" "orce always compounds the penaltyD probably with some !alid rationale to itD 1ut the lesson = learned that day "rom my dad was not a lesson about shopli"tin bein wron Dhe didn<t teach me why it was wron Dhe tau ht me not to tell7.. .( could ha!e tau ht me a lesson had he not "orced me to return it ri ht then and there in tears. :nd theolo ically =<m not sure story o" the poor lady who i!es a penny ? or miteAbein o" as much !alue as the millionaire who i!es O100,000 can be honestly applied in con!erse to the person who steals a penny bein as much o" a thie" as the person who steals a million dollars. = understand the story o" the widow and the mite, but = don<t accept the con!erse. =t seems to lac0 inte rity and thorou h rationale. +or the impressionable person with penchant "or crimeDthe result may simply be him or her thin0in Dwhy not ris0 stealin a lot rather than a little i" the punishment is the sameC = don<t thin0 any shop owner or insurance company will want criminals thin0in that. The punishment must be in proportion to the crime. Dad could ha!e had me mail it bac0 with a note o" apolo yDwith less embarrassment but no less o" a lesson learned. .e could ha!e e!en waited a day. :nyways, today = understand why shopli"tin is stupidDi" not wron . =t<s wron because it<s stupid and will lead to unnecessary trouble. =t<s not necessarily wron because you are ta0in somethin that doesn<t belon to youD"or that matterDa lot o" cler0s are ta0in thin s that don<t belon to othersDit all depends on how you loo0 at it. #ler0s who drop out o" hi h school or colle eDare ta0in "rom societyDbecause uneducated people don<t i!e anythin bac0. They don<t edi"y the community. They ,ust subsistDnot much more than the way an animals subsists. They<re philosophy is that we all need to eat and drin0 and maybe smo0e and loo0 at porno raphy or what ha!e you7 and maybe reproduce and that<s about itDthey<re not i!in us any hi her thou hts than that o" mere sur!i!al. :lbeit we 0now that li"e can

be and is more than mere sur!i!alDand that we ha!e a ri ht to li!e at a le!el beyond mere sur!i!al. Bhen cler0s and others li0e them impress upon our youth that this is all there isN--they<re robbin youth and others o" dreams. Bhether you belie!e in it because o" 'odDor whether you belie!e in it because o" our system o" democracyDeither "rom the sacred perspecti!e or secular perspecti!eDwe reward dreamers who put that dream into actionD ta0in the ris0. BhyC 1ecause we all 0now both sacred and secular educated persons that we are not animals merely sur!i!in . = would endorse a system that is much more i!in Dso that Hstealin I wouldn<t e!en be a word we understand. There<s a Ronald Rea an .i hway here between /ueblo and #olorado -prin s. This would ta0e away a lot o" the power 0ic0s that some o" these hi h school cler0s deri!e "rom their positions. =t would allow us to concentrate on more important thin s rather than Hbustin I people or ha!in to care"ully Hobser!eI people in case they try to steal. #ops and cler0s build their whole li"estyle around suspicionDi" we ta0e away the potential "or suspicion by ma0in our society much more open to each otherDma0in HcrimeI a matter o" the repercussions it has rather than the connotation it carries, then we also ultimately "orce some o" the Hmasters o" suspicionI towards doin somethin more use"ul, constructi!e, and edi"yin to the community. = thin0, in part, that it was my contempt "or cler0s and con!enience store personalities, and a little bit o" a Robin .ood ethic which led to me shopli"tin on occasion. = don<t< try to ,usti"y it anymoreDit<s wron because its stupid e!en i" its not wron because it<s so bad. Ta0e away the power "rom cops and cler0s et. al to HbustI people and they no lon er ha!e much power at all. :nd that<s e&actly what we wantDpowerless cler0s and powerless cops because they don<t 0now how , by and lar e, to help peopleDthey<re unable to empower people Donly to try to disempower peopleDand people who disempower people with ne ati!ity, insult, sarcasm, petty citations and arrestsDthese people are a dime a doGen. (nterin the #ity o" +ountain at 255 pm @i0e drin0in Dthere came a point when = ,ust 5uitDor stoppedD= couldn<t rationaliGe the need to drin0 any "urther past a certain social period o" li"e durin colle e and shortly therea"terDand similarly = couldn<t ,usti"y shopli"tin Dand in "act ha!e one bac0 to some o" those places where = stole thin s "rom and paid bac0 to them anonymously two or three times the amount that = too0 "rom them ori inally. . =n one case this was a "roGen piGGa "rom the rocery store in (ast 'rand Rapids. :nd there were a "ew others0Dbut it<s not the amount or locations that mattersDit<s my understandin o" it now, in retrospect and how = ha!e dealt with it. =<!e i!en bac0 more than = e!er too0, "or what its worth. +urthermore, in re ards to drin0in Dit became apparent, in retrospect, that = had H"riendsI who would ha!e been lad to ha!e made me a Hdrun0IDand put me out o" commission. These H"riendsI = do not socialiGe with anymore.

=n so doin these thin s and admittin and con"essin to thin sDre ardless o" ri ht or wron Dwhat = am e""ecti!ely doin is ta0in away the shame o" Hre!elationI by hypocritical enemies who don<t really care about the HcrimeI bein committed as much as they care about control . :nd i" they can use shame and re!elation to ma0e you loo0 bad and control you then it<s better to come "orward "irst o" all with it yoursel" and put it behind you once and "or all. #olorado -prin sD/eter Ba ner7= see si ns "or #olorado -prin sDone o" them says HThe 'randest -e!en 8iles, (&it 141 o westI and then another si n "or the H2orth /ole, (&it 141 Best, .i hway 24IDThe audacity o" the cop or cler0 or any other person o" that type to plop themsel!es down and say, H=<m not oin any "urtherD=<m oin to ma0e my place ri ht here ri ht nowDbased on le al ri htsDH and thereby o around Hbustin I people and 0eepin an eye on people li0e a haw0De!en the colle e raduate etc. is really somethin to behold. =t<s really somethin else-. =t<s almost obno&ious Dbecause i" somebody watched them li0e a haw0 the way they purport to do themsel!esDso concerned about a person who mi ht be speedin "i!e miles o!er the speed limit or what ha!e you. /ast #olorado #olle e at 950 pm = am now in #olorado -prin sD= stopped at a 0in0os and used the internet to et the address o" /eter Ba ner<s Borld /rayer #enterDhe tal0ed so much about it while at +uller---= also called directory assistance to see i" = could et his addressDbut he<s not listed despite sayin he ma0es his residence in #olorado -prin s. There<s also James Dobson<s +ocus on the +amily head5uarters hereDit<s a !ery lar e "acility. 2ow some o" these me a churches are !ery success"ul in a certain sort o" way but = am always wary o" the dan er o" depersonaliGin the member too muchDwhereby the member is ,ust a co in the machinery so to spea0. En the other hand the small church e&periences the dan er o" the HpersonalityI ta0in o!er 'oin throu h the heart o" #olorado -prin s there is not an abundance o" churches. 2e&t to the Borld /rayer #enterDwhich is surrounded by "la s o" di""erent countriesDis the 2ew @i"e #hurchDwhich is e&pandin Dand ne&t to that is a structure called HThe TentIDapparently "or worship. = t loo0s li0e they<re plannin to mo!e "rom The Tent to a more "ormal worship buildin . = lea!e the Borld /rayer #enter thin0in about /eter Ba ner and the class he tau htDhe was into thin s such as H=ntercessory /rayerI and H-piritual 8appin I and H-trate ic =ntercessionI and other sort o" "ancy Hspiritual war"areI ideas--- = e!en went to !isit a church down in .emet, #ali"orniaDto hear him and his pastor "riend o" that church e&pound upon the ideolo y o" spiritual war"are. +rom there = o down the 25 south ,ust one e&it and et o"" at the :ir +orce :cademy roadD= thou ht there was a !isitor center and%or museum but it<s the baseDand there<s no entry without a special pass. -o = turn around and head bac0 down the 25 southDand et o"" the ne&t e&it "or the +ocus on the +amily head5uartersDnow James Dobson is not somebody = e!er listened to or saw much o" rowin upD= am !a uely

aware that he has a radio broadcastDand maybe e!en a tele!ision ministry Das well as !arious boo0s he<s written, but that<s the e&tent o" my interaction with his ministryDsecond hand 0nowled e. There<s a si n "or Re is Qni!ersity--. = turn in the dri!eway o" the +ocus on the +amily buildin Dthe par0in lot is "ull o" carsDboth !isitors and employees---there<s a !isitors center and se!eral other buildin sD!ery "ormal, no HTentsI o" any sorts-. =t<s 4;90 pmDa lot o" people are lea!in Dapparently the end o" the wor0 day. +rom there = o a little "urther down 25 south and come to the e&it "or the 2ational Rodeo .all o" +ameDthat loo0s interestin too so = pull inpay the O5.00 "ee and ta0e a trip throu h the hall o" "ame---there are saddles on display, photos o" !arious rodeo persons, a !ideo o" rodeo hi hli hts, numerous statutes depictin rodeo riders, ropers, clowns, etc. There<s e!en a display with current /resident 'eor e 1ush sha0in hands with some o" the rodeo champions in .ouston. =t<s really an e&citin place. = lea!e the rodeo hall o" "ame at 50$ pm . =n the newsDanother suicide bombin oes o"" near a bus and 0ills around >0 or more =ra5i citiGensDnot the apparent intent o" the bombers. Enward = oD"ollowin the si n towards the H'arden o" the 'odsID despite ha!in li!ed in Jac0son , Byomin "or a couple summersD= ne!er spent much time in #oloradoDne!er made a special trip to see Den!er or #olorado -prin sDand despite ha!in passed throu h Den!er a "ew times =<!e ne!er really seen that city either. -o this is all a "irst "or me. = come to the 'arden o" the 'ods 6isitors #enterDand it<s rainin . = run into the !isitors center and see a si n "or a tourDonly O9.*5Dthey are lea!in ri ht nowDso = pay the "ee and hop on the busDthe lady dri!erDintroduces hersel" sayin s she dri!es a bus durin the school year and does this durin the summer---then she as0s us to introduce oursel!esDshe starts with meD= i!e the by-now usual re"rain---= was born in =owaDmo!ed to 2ew Jor0, rew up in 8ichi an, and now = li!e in #ali"ornia ?=<!e added the Hmo!ed to 2ew Jor0I part i!en our little interlude durin that time with 'owanda 2ew Jor0A. -he ta0es us throu h this place called HThe 'arden o" the 'odsI---it<s a beauti"ul red roc0 areaD"ree to enterDa i"t by a "ellow "rom =owa whose only stipulations were that the name ne!er be chan ed and that it always remain "ree to all. =t<s not national par0Dit<s part o" the #ity o" #olorado -prin s. Eur uide points towards /i0es /ea0Dand says that 2ER:D is built into a mountain up there ---2ER:D is a Q.-. a encyD"or de"ense as "ar as = 0now. =t is a breathta0in areaDand a"ter the tourD which was !ery shortD= o bac0 throu h the area a ain on my own and stop and read a /salm. :s = do so it starts rainin a ainD= try to co!er the pa es o" the 1ibleDto 0eep them "rom ettin too wet and mana e to "inish the /salm---in "ront o" a red roc0 structure . +rom there = turn towards /i0e /ea0s .i hway and am thin0in =<ll o up to the top be"ore e!enin Dwhen suddenly = see the si n "or H#a!e o" the BindIDand decide to chec0 that out D= pay the O15.00 "ee to ta0e a uided tour throu h the ca!e and thin0 to mysel"Dthis may be one o" the best ca!es =<!e seen so "arDmaybe in "act, the

best. :nd my camera wor0s the entire time althou h = run out o" tape near the end. =t<s almost dar0 by the time = lea!eDbut = decide to proceed towards /i0es /ea0Dnot ha!in any idea what it entailsDhow lon it ta0es, how "ar it is. = o past the H2orth /ole-H with -anta #laus and his el!es and a tram ride and come to the entry to /i0es /ea0 .i hwayDahaD= didn<t 0now you had to pay---yes you doDit<s O10.00 per person or O95.00 per car Dand the si n says it<s not a H2ational /ar0IDalthou h it apparently is 2ational +orest. There<s a "amily man at the entrance who approaches my window and says it<s a pretty "un dri!eDsaw some mountains sheepD althou h he says at one point it ot so "o y they had to stop tra""ic "or 45 minutes. +riendly "ellow and his 0ids wa!e at me as = turn around and head bac0 down the t then a "ellow emptyin the arba e cans comes by and says H-ir , do you ha!e a tic0etCI 2ow that "i uresD= thou ht this was a complimentary show "or those who too0 the ca!e tourDbut apparently its e&traD=<m not that interested so = sayI = didn<t 0now you needed a tic0etI .e responds, HJou need a 2eon 1raceletI---= say, H=n that case, =<ll ta0e o""VI and mo!e onwardsD=n the news---Da!id )ay the "ormer chie" weapons hunter "or the Q.-. =n =ra5 says it is "anci"ul to 0eep hopin that we will "ind B8D<s in =ra5Dhe says there is noneDand he also sco""s at the misnomer o" Hintelli ence communityI sayin that the !arious a encies that ather intelli ence are not cooperati!e as the word HcommunityI su estsD he says they are more li0e a bunch o" "eudin empires not wantin to be led by any other. Day 45, Thursday, July 24, 2004---= sleep at the bottom o" the /i0es /ea0 .i hway---and by >;15 a.m. = am ready to head on up the road. =" = recall correctly #arol -chuller 8ilnerDdau hter o" Robert .. -chuller li!es out here in #olorado -prin s now ? = stand corrected--she li!es in 1oulder, #E = realiGe laterA. . *95 a.m =<m at 12,000 "eetDthe timberline.. :t *45 a.m =<m at 19, 000 "eet--. There<s the bi horns at *54. BowL :t the topDit says that )atherine @ee 1ates wrote the son H:merica the 1eauti"ulI the same day she went to the top o" /i0es /ea0Dinspired by her trip to the top July 22, 1$49 in #olorado -prin s. There<s a train trac0 up hereDapparently you can ta0e the train "rom 8anitou -prin s "or 1* dollars one wayDta0es one hour and "orty "i!e minutes and runs ei ht times per day accordin to the al . The "irst /salm = read on /i0es /ea0 is /salm 10$. The si n says /i0es /ea0 is 2.5 miles abo!e sea le!el and there<s 40T less o&y en up here. = belie!e it D= "eel li ht headed. Readin /salm 10$ at the top was a thrillDwith the wind blowin it was cold.. now =<m oin down thereXs the bi horns a ain at 401 am That roundho that is all o!er the placeDposin "or me is the yellow bellied marmot . 19,000 "eet past De!ils /lay round at 410 a.m. /salm $1 at 422 a.m. /salm $0 at 49> am /salm 4* at 10 a.m. 1ac0 at the timberline at 1001 a.m. 8andatory bra0e chec0 at 11009 am. 1ac0 on the pa!ed section at 1015 a.m.

Re"lection on the sheer audacity o" those who are HwhiteI to resort to ,usti"ication by whitenessDthe re"usal to participate in the pro ram we ha!e set up to create a "eelin o" "airness amon st each other. Their re"usal to Hplay the ameI is obno&ious. Their ostensibly sayin the rules apply to all but me. :nd their re"usal to delay rati"ication which oes hand-in-hand with oin to colle e. To a certain e&tent with a "ew e&ceptionsDhow much education you ha!eDby itsel"Dno matter what you sayDattests to how much you careDbut thenDthere are those with education who don<t< care--.. so it<s education plus ?plus actionDand wordsA Jes words do countDand you see 'od already 0new all the cle!er thin s man could do to a!oid bein in .is ima eDthat<s why Bord and deed is so important7 :t 10;99 a.m we<re at *000 "eet. 'old #amp Road. 1ear #ree0. 2ear * +alls a deer ,umped out o" the woods at 1115 a.m. .1 drop at * +alls at 12 noon. The .1 happened to be on the !ehicle o" the entleman with the blue blaGerDand the little :"rican :merican boy. .elen .unt +alls at 1290D.elen .unt was a supporter o" :merican =ndiansDtried to correct the in,ustices done to them. .elen .unt Jac0son. +riendly security uard at .elen .unt +alls. =n the newsDthe ,ud e has denied the de"enses motion "or mistrial and dismissal o" char esDand now 8ar0 'era os is sayin that his client has run out o" the "unds to pay the attorney "ees. = passed by the Bill Ro ers -hrine to the -un and the #olorado -prin s KooDthey<re connectedDit<s O12.50 to enterD= passed by. =s that tall buildin on top the shrineC Jou see how important Bill Ro ers is to the western worldDto the western Qnited -tates, that is. = stopped at the 8cDonalds in #olorado -prin sDand a beauti"ul al reets me at the dri!e thru ,ust as it starts to rainDusually the dri!e thru als loo0 worn out and hea!y setDbut this al is !i!acious with personality. =t ta0es a lon time to et my two 8c#hic0ensDthey tell me to pull o!er and they<ll wal0 it outDon 'arden o" the 'ods road at 92* pm . =n the news they say that -tephen 1in is the `1 political contributor to the Democratic /artyD ha!in donated up to 1> million dollarsDand he<s a .ollywood behind-thescenes "i ureDwho he isDit<s not clearDthey don<t say what he has done in .ollywood ,ust that he<s connected there somehowDbut that he is also a""iliated with mobster HDonnie -hac0sI who is now in ,ail "or rac0eteerin . Bhat will that contribution lead to i" )erry becomes presidentC Jou can<t help but belie!e there will be some "a!oritism shown. 'ood op at 905 pm. Den!er at 929 pm. . #olumbine .i h -chool at 4 pm . 8orrison at 420 pm M wow the red roc0s are really somethin L :nd the amphitheatreDwow and Dinosaur Rid e at *0*. There are trac0s Mactual !isible Mlar e trac0s o" dinosaurs imbedded in the roc0sDri ht alon side the roadDthe trac0s o" the = uanodon and the Ernithomimus. :nd there are ripple mar0s "rom the ocean--- imbedded in the roc0.. Then = turn towards Den!er ma0in a ri ht on to +ederal 1l!d at * pm =n!esco +ield at $12 pm % Q.-. 8int at *45 . =n the news they are sayin that John )erry can pro!e he<s not an Elympian Eratorian with his Democratic 2ational #on!ention address toni ht. @on dri!e down Bashin ton 1l!d. 8a,or "loods in DallasDtwo days a"ter = passed throu h there. -. =n the newsDthere<s a story about a dentist by the

name o" John .all near 8ec0lenber #ountyDaccused o" discrepancies with his patients. #oncernin the )obe 1ryant caseDthey say the alle ed !ictim ?or accuserA has already recei!ed O20,000 "rom a !ictims compensation "und which the de"ense says is an incenti!e to ma0e up a story. HEnce in a blue moon e&coriatin ---attac0in that was one word used to describe the )erry -peechDhe attac0ed 1ush and all thin s related.

Day 4> +riday, July 90, 2004 : e%-ta e /roponentsDsome o" them belie!e so stron ly in a e%sta e they come to thin0 it is written in stoneD"act. Jac0 .olwerda Jr. "or e&ample assumed that a"ter colle e most men should be oin bald. .e wanted me to act li0e an old manDpointin to his recedin hair line and tellin me mine was recedin as well ?it wasn<t, and still isn<tA. (!en TT1 ?my dadA has some o" that a e%sta e in himDuntil nowDuntil he<s become a senior citiGenD suddenly to hell with a e%sta e---he<s writin boo0s such as HThere<s no -uch Thin as E!er the .illIDso you see "or some o" these people the a e%sta e theory is sel"-ser!in until there comes a time when they don<t want to abide by it anymore. =" they can li!e with their lac0 o" consistency ood "or them--= mysel" ha!e ne!er bou ht into the a e%sta e pro ram---= studied it in psycholo yD(ric0son<s theories and others, and also in -eminaryD1ob De6ries reiterated some o" the a e%sta e stu"" in a theolo ical "ramewor0. 1ac0 in #olle e we e!en had a De!elopmental /sycholo y class which was re"erred to collo5uially as H+rom Bomb to Tomb.I = thin0 it<s "atalistic and has no theolo ical basisD=<!e ne!er heard about retirement in the 1ibleD there<s no such concept in their minds as suchDbecause there was no such thin as H!acationI, HpensionsI , etc. =2 "act, Jac0 .olwerda Jr.<s entire "amily = belie!e was o" the a e%sta e theoryDand when = went bac0 to #al!in #olle e they thou ht it was out-o"-place "or me to consider some o" these youn under raduate als as potential marria e partners-. They were wron a ainDbut nonetheless ser!ed as impediments to the possibility. They apparently belie!ed that marria e was meant to be between two persons o" the same a e or thereaboutsD. = "inally wrote a letter to them sayin that i" = want to marry a al ten or e!en twenty years youn er than meDthat<s my business. .illcrest #R# at >9* a.m. =li"" -chool o" Theolo y at >4$ and Qni!ersity o" Den!erC =<!e ne!er heard o" =li"" be"ore. Jes this is part o" Qni!ersity o" Den!er. Qni!ersity campusDarchitectureDwowL :t >55 a.m. 8any 1eauti"ul buildin s here. This is a bi campus. Kwaanstras at *1> am comin in the southbound e&it on the 25 was closed due to construction so = turned around at the ne&t e&it and ot o"" at the northbound e&it. There<s a lot o" li5uor stores in this area.

#ompleted Kwaanstra letter at 490 a.m . +illed up asDdro!e past Dumb +riends -ocietyDa do poundI :ndre at @eetsdale @ube chan ed my transmission "luid and "illed topped o"" the coolant--. :t 490- a.m. -- (instein 1a el at 245 #olorado 1l!d. Den!er, #E $0220, ph,`909-921-4000, Re"lection; 8issionary 0ids arti"icially in"late the standards--:ndrea at Bild Eats 8ar0et on #olorado 1l!d =n Den!erDwas a nice cler07at 1112 am M= pic0ed up some do "ood. Re"lection; Jac0<s nose cleanin habitDnot necessarily pic0in his noseDbut he would constantly chec0 to ma0e sure there was nothin stic0in out. =t was !ery disconcertin and repulsi!eDbut he did it as i" he had the holy nose. -o = o past the 9rd #R# in Den!erDby "ar the lar est and most rand o" them allDin terms o" architecture at 1190 a.m. = ,ust remembered that the Rubin hs li!e in #olorado -prin sDboth (u ene and their "ourth child, )e!in, accordin to the #al!in Directory. :nd -cott Kwaanstra li!es in /ar0er, #olo, which is a suburb o" Den!er, in the direction o" #olorado -prin s, so = o that way. = consider dri!in by the #R# in :urora #E@E, but as it turns out, it<s closer to the =-*0 than /ar0er so = decide not to. = o throu h the city o" #entennial at 120$. = am approachin -cott Kwaanstras houseDit<s part o" an association as best as = can tellD"or there<s a clubhouse with a lar e pool and a lot o" people rela&in around itDsome 0ids swimmin and mothers sunbathin . = ta0e a "ew local color pictures o" the pool--, and then, --there it isD-cott Kwaanstras house at 1290---it<s a tractDwell 0ept housesDsomebody<s wor0in in "ront o" itD= thin0 it<s -cott at +irst, but noDtoo slender. .istoric +ran0town at 110 pm Malthou h = don<t see anythin historic loo0in . 1ushDpic0in up on )erry<s< theme o" Hcommander-in-#hie"I says he will not allow the Q.-V to appear wea0 on his watchDotherwise we will dri"t towards tra edy. =n the newsDthereXs a new reality tele!ision show in which they watch the :mish in actionDsome people are protestin that it e&ploits their innocence. 2ear this little town o" 8onument there<s a "arm "or an animals. called theI:lpacaIDa stran e llama-li0e loo0in animal--althou h it<s not the usual llama , i" it<s in that "amily. = stopped at 4 mile historic par0Dand they a!e me an idea o" what it was but not muchDthey ,o0ed about her pronunciation o" root or root and route,788Dthe leerin , ,eerin -neerin "ace o" the man in that blaGer--. There<s< #oo0 #ommunications 8inistry. (u ene Rubin hs house at 292 pm. =ts< in a !ery well maintained proper housin comple&Dthe only distinction between their house "rom that o" others is a little windmill they ha!e in "ront. :nd then not "ar down the road is )e!in Rubin hs houseDaccordin to the directory. =t<s a less "ormal area than his parents nei hborhoodDsomebody<s watchin T6 inside. -pea0in o" the Rubin hsD= lance at the other two children in the directoryDnot 0nowin them nearly as well as = 0new )e!in and Tre!orD the dau hter 6alerieDis in 1uena /ar0, #ali"orniaDo" all placesDand she<s a substitute teacher o" all thin sDshe<s married and has a "ew childrenDand = ne!er 0new thatDso close to where =<!e been the last "ew years.

:nd Je"", the oldest son, is in -eattle Bashin ton and does some sort o" computer so"tware desi n. Then = dro!e past the sole #olorado -prin s #R# --, and then :"ter that = pulled into the *-11Dand ot a re"ill and purchased a nachosD"or the roadD= hadn<t eat all day. = realiGe now that there are those Hdrainin I personalities who will parasitically li!e o"" o" your ener y i" they canDthey will sap you stren th without recompense or e!en than0s,. These are the bad copsDwho le alistically bust people. These are the ,unior colle e 0ids and the colle e dropoutsDthey are whoe!er has dropped out o" the ame o" li"e and are li!in subsistently o"" o" othersDbecause you seeD the laws o" "aith are all the more in!iolable as the laws o" physics. There are those who want to pretend that "aith is somethin that can be added or subtracted to one<s li"e accordin to one<s "ancyDbut that<s li0e ,umpin o"" a cli"" and thin0in maybe the law o" ra!ity won<t wor0 this time. Bish"ul thin0in Dthe only di""erence between the laws o" physics and the laws o" "aith is that you mi ht not see such an immediate ob!ious result such as you would see i" you stepped o"" the ed e o" a cli"". 2onethelessDwhen you brea0 a law o" "aithDit<s called HsinI and it leads to deathDima ine ,umpin o"" a cli"" and on the way down ettin a chance "or raceDwhereby suddenly 'od pic0s you up and stops your "allL These low li"eDcops Mand the 0indest thin = can say on their behal" is that they are in a state o" depressionDbut nonetheless probably because they<!e denied 'od and .is Reality. :nd you seeDwhile the operates on this notion o" people payin when they li!e at the e&pense o" otherDand impose a burden on othersDultimately e!en the hi hest ,ud e in the land i" not acti!ely #hristian is also li!in at the e&pense o" othersDi" not li!in by the laws o" "aithDthe best cop is li!in at the e&pense o" others when not li!in by the law o" "aith. +ailure to li!e by #hristians principles is li!in at the e&pense o" othersDin some way. :nd some o" these depressed copsDwell "irst o" all they<re probably depressed because they<!e !iolated the laws o" "aith and thin0 they can ma0e up "or it by en"orcin man<s lawsDthey<re wron Dbut they tryDand in so doin they o a"ter those with more ener yDand those are the people o" "aith, in most cases- -o the bad, depressed cop busts the ood person o" "aithDand what<s the resultDultimately more trouble and depression "or the bad cop because he<s bustin that which is oodDand doesn<t e!en realiGe it, or subconsciously doesDbut consciously is in denial. 1ut they li!e at such a hi h-conte&t, concrete le!elD?and concrete thin0in can be sin"ul thin0in AA it<s easy "or them to con!ince themsel!es and their collea ues and their subculture that what they are doin is ood and ri htDe!en they 0now deep down that what they are doin is wron Dbecause it denies the laws o" "aith Dthose laws which are imbedded in all o" usDeither by eneral or special re!elation. :nd many o" those who ha!e only recei!ed eneral re!elation ha!e recei!ed enou h o" it to abide by itDwithout harm to others, but there are those who consciously brea0 "rom the re!elation they ha!e recei!ed at a eneral le!el Mand they are li!in in blasphemy Mand 0now itDbut wont admit it.

There<s a tail ater behind me---so = pushed the as down and it belched blac0 smo0e in his "aceDmy car does that when = "loor it. Qsually = pull o"" to the side "or these local yo0els who are =n a hurry to o nowhere, but this time = decided to speed up. There are a lot o" Hdrainin personalitiesI Mthe 0ind who will siphon it all "rom you and lea!e you with nothin and i!e nothin bac0. =<!e met those peopleDthey can<t writeDthey ne!er doDthey li!e at a local , hi h conte&t le!el. Bhat they ain "rom le alistically bustin people ?and remember Hle alisticI does not mean they are ri htDin many cases it means they are wron Dbut they are usin the law in a manner which re5uires ener y to counterDso they are countin on you not ha!in the ener y to properly addressA. #oncernin /orno raphyDi" ,ust had a thou ht that as much as it may be a theolo ical concern it is ,ust as much i" not more so a social concernDand the problem o" people li!in at the e&pense o" othersDso needless to say we ma0e them pay "or the porno raphic ma aGines they purchase, but what moreC -houldn<t we put an e&tra ta& on those ma aGinesDli0e the Hsin ta&esI we put on alcohol and tobaccoC :nd that<s re ardless o" whether one a ress or not theolo ically as to whether porno raphy is a sin. =t<s a HsinI in the sense that it<s an indul ence at the e&pense o" others, which means you ha!e to pay--,, at least that<s< the way the law thin0sDat its most pra matic le!el--, which brin s me bac0 to my point that e!en ,ud es are li!in at the e&pense o" others i" they<re lot li!in e!an elistically. = o o!er the -. /latte Ri!er and throu h De00ers at 515 pm = ,ust realiGed somehow my tape rewound without my 0nowin it and = taped o!er parts o" Den!er Mwith the recent parts = ,ust went thou hD= lost 8ile .i h -tadium or =n!esco +ield as it is now called , and may ha!e lost the > +la s portion as well. Re"lection; (arly on in li"e = had a "lood o" lo!e come o!er me "or othersD sometimes more so "or those who had less "riendsDit was an early callin in my li"eD= realiGe nowDand = 0new so then as wellDit made li"e harder not ta0in the popularity route-N---but durin this period o" li"eDwhen = was o!erwhelmed with lo!e "or peopleDothers too0 ad!anta e o" me. Ene o" my wea0nesses is allowin emotion to o!ercome rationale. Eccasionally, howe!er, = need to allow rationale to submit to heartDto a certain e&tentD not e&cessi!ely. = come to the passDwhere this H#hrist o" the Roc0ies H is supposed to be--. = don<t see the #hrist o" the Roc0ies but = do ta0e the pass Dat >90 pm which ends up in 'eor etown by =-*0. = o past 1urnin 1ear #amp 'round at *05 pm . :ccordin to the map we are !ery near the hi hest road in the Qnited -tatesDand 8t. (!ans is one o" the hi hest points at 142>4 "eet, which is hi her than /i0es /ea0 at ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ and hi her than the 'rand Teton which is 19**0 "eet. This is an amaGin ly beauti"ul road---and not much tra""icDit<s "ar away enou h "rom e!erythin to ma0e "amily campers waryDand so its mostly 5uiet campersDand there<s a

stream runnin alon the road almost the entire wayDsmall enou h to wal0 or wade in without bein swept away ?in re ards to my do <s sa"etyA. :t the end o" the road is #lear and reen @a0e and this is the end o" :rapaho 2ational +orest, when suddenly a deer ,umps out o" the woods and bac0 in a ainDso "ast = don<t ha!e time to catch him on the camera. = enter 'eor etown at $4$ pm and pic0 up some chips "or the road, and head west on =-*0--, passin throu h -il!er /lume at 409 pm. 8i0e TysonDthe bo&erD the a in bo&erDin the newsDapparently was 0noc0ed out in the 4th round. Day 4?, /aturday, July 11, 2004

#opper 8ountain, @ead!ille *1* am (nterin (a le #ounty at >24Dwhere all this )obe 1ryant stu"" has been happenin . (nterin the #ity o" 6ail at >94 a.m. There<s a -0i 8useum here. =<m too early thou hDit doesn<t open until 10 am. and ri ht now it<s only * a.m. -o =<ll ha!e to "ore o the pleasure o" the s0i museumDwhich does sound interestin to meD= rew up s0iin at least once a wee0 durin the winters in 8ichi anDat a place called #anonsbur ---which = dro!e by a "ew wee0s a o "or the "ilmin o" 'od<s #ountry. -0iin in 8ichi an is di""erent than s0iin in some other placesD includin the west7#anonsbur had one main hill called HThe +ace< Mand it was o"ten built up with "airly challen in mo uls. That<s another thin that Jac0 did not e&perienceDhe ne!er s0ied as "ar as = can recall. )eith didD and so did DJ, and "or a while so did 1rad Rottschae"er. :nd we had a s0i club at 8illbroo0 Junior .i h. -o "or a while = was !ery much into the s0i culture or sub culture. :nd watched with interest the Binter Elympics. +rom time to timeD= would say = s0ied more than = ice-s0ated. (a le #ounty #ourthouse at $20 a.m . There<s an ea le statute in "ront o" the courthouses with the "ace o" woman embedded into its side. :cross "rom the court is the public library. Bith a statute o" a cowboy holdin a boo0 open. =t<s a !ery 5uiet, serene, idyllic area--. 'lenwood -prin s at 415 a.m. @etter to Jay 3 8ary at 424 "rom 'lenwood -prin s /ost E""ice. :t 441 a.m = entered the 'lenwood .ot -prin s /ool on at 415 (. >th -t. and paid the O19.50 "ee-- . = was surprised at how many people were already thereDand it was already rather warmDthe pool itsel" is lar er than an Elympic siGe pool Dit<s rectan ular, and is apparently naturally heated and "ed by the sprin ----= laid out my towels and stepped into the warm 109 de ree poolD ahhD!ery rela&in , !ery soothin . = swum around in the pool "or a "ew moments Men,oyed the momentDbut didn<t plan to stay the whole day li0e some o" those there campin outD= le"t a "ew moments laterDintent on headin towards :spenDmaybe tryin out a white water ra"t rideDbut then = saw the tramDand pulled in thereDthere<s a ca!ern up thereDlo and beholdDanother oneDhow may ca!es ha!e = been throu h on this trip so "arC Bell, = had to o seeDnow that = was in the business o" comparin

ca!es across the Q.-Dand = 0new = would disco!er a ood theolo ical ca!e analo y sooner or laterDactually /lato already a!e us oneDand =<!e discussed him abo!e. The ca!ern Mon top Mthere<s two portionsDthe upperDone is not too impressi!e althou h you do come out in a scenic o!er!iew area----where you can loo0 down on the #olorado Ri!er and see the ra"tersDand you can see =*0Dand our uide in"orms us that the 1* mile stretch o" hi hway here is the second most e&pensi!e stretch o" hi hway in the countryDat O40,000,000 per mileDsecond only to somethin in 1oston but then you o down into the lower sectionDand it is amaGin Dthere<s numerous stalactites, and stala mites,, and some columnsDwhich is when a stala mite connects with a stalactiteDand there<s some ca!e HpopcornI and ca!e HbaconI and !arious other "ormationsDand down at the bottom o" this tunnelDis an area they call the H)in s rowIDwhich is an absolutely stunnin section "illed with stalactites, stala mites, and columns, more so than any o" the other ca!es =<!e been to. The "ellow uidin usDis ha!in troubleDa lot o" cou hin D0eeps losin trac0 o" what he was sayin Dwith lon o!erly pre nant pauses. The bottom part o" the ca!e they call HThe 1arnID: Turnin toward :spenDlea!in 'lenwood -prin sDenterin 1asalt at 2 pm. /ast -nowmass- the iant sprin0ler is hittin the roadD= et my windshield splattered. There<s a "airly lar e airport here . 2ow we are passin 1uttermil0 at 222 pm---another lar e s0i resort areaDthere<s a lot o" them here. E!er 8aroon #ree0 . 2ow we<re in the city o" :spen. 942 pm---descent down :spenDwent up to the top with my do . :t the topD there was some newlyweds---- en,oyin part one o" their honeymoon. There was also a trampoline ,ump swin and a roc0 climbin wall and hoola hoops "or the 0ids. The :spen 'ondola ta0es about 15 minutes each way. This is /it0in #ounty. @ea!in :spen at 42$. 'oin up $2 throu h =ndependence /assDwhich will turn out to be almost as lo!ely, i" not more, than the pass = went throu h yesterday e!enin . Re"lection; Richard 8ouw, president o" +uller -eminary, introduced me to the term H8asters o" -uspicionIDin re ard to those who 0eep us Hin placeI by ma0in us potential thie!es or what ha!e youDthere<s an entire industry built upon mastery o" suspicionD and its cheap7 it<s security uards, police o""ices ?some, not allA cler0s--, anybody without much education is more li0ely to be a master o" suspicion because it<s their only de"ense.---they don<t 0now how to help people. :nd in some cases it<s necessary, not an act--, but in a lot o" cases , i" not mostDit<s an act--, it<s a lot easier to be a cler0 than to et an education to arri!e at the point where one is able to be constructi!e and help"ul to others. 1ut then = realiGed there<s another class o" peopleDthe H8asters o" #autionI---- they are cousins to the 8asters o" -uspicionDand a ain it<s they<re de"ense systemD"or e&ample, my brother, :ndrewDhe<s now in a !ery com"ortable hi h payin position at a law "irmDand he calls himsel" an en!ironmentalist, and lo!es nature and deer and so on- and ma0es a point o"

pretendin to be !ery disturbed and shoc0ed by the notion o" huntin , usin a shot un, etc. 8eD= had a shot un "or a whileDin "act = le"t it at :ndrews house and he purportedly sold it to a "riend, not wantin me to ha!e a shot un. The reason = had itDwas "or "raternal purposes o" sortsDit a!e me a reason to o out with "riends huntin D"or deer and eese. = ne!er ot a deer----too0 a "ew shots but missed. = did et a oose once althou h we ar ued about who actually shot it. . 1ut at the same time = can o out and o Hpicture huntin I which =<!e been doin "or the last two months. =n "act a "ew moments a o = ,ust snapped mamma and baby deer in 'unnison 2ational +orest and wouldn<t be surprised to see some more any moment now ?:u ust 1, 2004 at >29 amA. Jou see, :ndy has become a 8aster o" #autionDin order to maintain his income and Rposition---he doesn<t ha!e to do anythin e&cept a!oid contro!ersy. :nd it always seems so nice to be a lo!er o" nature and deer and "orests, etc. but---there<s truth to the need to thin out "orest, thin out the deer population in some areas, perhaps e!en thin out the alli ator population , amon other thin s. Be<!e seen "orest "ires that may ha!e been less se!ere or pre!entable had some o" the dead trees been remo!ed. There are other sel"-ser!in reasons "or bein a 8aster o" #autionDe!en my dadD pastor o" careDsometimes indul es himsel" in such a manner-- . 1ut HcareI comes in di""erent shapes and siGes. =t cane be a matter o" care to put a do to sleep at a certain a e. =T can be matter o" care to o deer huntin to thin out the deer population "or the sa0e o" the "armers crops. =t can be a matter o" care to cut down some trees to pre!ent the "orest "rom becomin a "ire waitin to happen. :nd it can be a matter o" care to cut down trees so human bein s can li!e in di nity. 8oderation not abstinence. +or e&ampleDlo and behold as = am writin this = come by a si n in the 'unnison 2ational +orest that says H2o 8ore 8istletoe; The diseased trees on this site were remo!ed by clear cuttin in 14$$ to 0ill mistletoe. : harm"ul parasite to lod epole pine. : "ew sna s were le"t "or wildli"e. 1ein mistletoe-"ree, the new trees will row into a healthy !i orous "orestI ?>94 a.m.A. /salm $4D oin throu h =ndependence /ass "rom :spen to Twin @a0es #oloradoD= read it in "our partsDbecause its so lon Din di""erent parts o" =ndependence /ass. /art === o" /salm $4 at 545 pm and = washed my hair in the cree0. @ost 8an trailhead at 559. =ndependence 'host Town at >02 pm +rom 1$$1 to 1$$2 they mined "or old hereDand brou ht out about O140,000 in oldDbut the ne&t year production dropped to O4000. >11 pm per"ect picture pointD= set the camera with music towards the cree0 and capture mysel" "reshenin up in the clear water tumblin o!er the roc0s. #ontinental Di!ide at 12045 "eet at >90 pm . #ompleted /salm $4 at * pm :nd = arri!e in Twin @a0es at *15 pm /ast the :r0ansasD+ryin /an /ower /ro,ect /lant. The area around :spen is called the .unter-+ryin /an Bilderness :rea. This must be the @a0ota Ri!er here. =n the news a bi ma"ia "ellow, 8assino, has been con!icted on numerous char esDthere<s

mention o" him bein associated with Donnie 1rascoDwho is associated with this "ellow by the name o" -tephen 1in Dthe `1 contributor to the Democratic political party. 2ow were< in the :r0ansas 6alley and !arious national "orests. =n the 2ews-- :merican soldiers admit that they "orced =ra5i soldiers to ,ump o"" a brid e into the water but didn<t thin0 they died or drowned .

Day 4$, -unday , :u ust 1, 2004 -lept up the road "rom the town o" 1uena 6istaDin the 2ational +orest. /eace"ul. [uiet. BowL---now =<m on the way a ain dirt road no tra""ic. This is 'unnison 2ational +orest. Be<re at the timberline. . 8ama and baby deer at >19 . 8ade it throu h #ottonwood passDnow oin past Taylor /ar0 Reser!oir. /assed o!er @ottis #ree0 at *92. :s = am oin alon the way suddenly a haw0 descends upon a postDand = et a per"ect loo0 at it. BowL. :lmont at *4* a.m 'unnison at $05. =n the news---new in"ormation "rom the husband o" the missin Qtah ,o er apparently has made "urther searchin unnecessary. /salm *$;90 stop. 1lue 8esa Recreational Ranch at $ a.m.. 1lac0 #anyon 2ational /ar0 at 41$ a.m. 1lue 8esa Dam at 420 a.m.This is all part o" #urecanti 2ational Recreation :rea. #hristian ministry is the only HbusinessI or pro"ession that tries to help the enemy. =n eneral, unless it means 0illin oursel!es----what is ood "or the enemy is ood "or usDthat<s sometimes a di""icult concept to remember---in classical competitionDthe tendency is to de"eat the enemyDor e!en to de"eat a H"riendIDor so-called "riend, but classical competition is much di""erent than #hristian li"e. (!en in the #hristian schools to a certain e&tent we are tau ht to competeDto win, to be better, to de"eat the others. 1ut is that #hristianC :re athletics a ood trainin round "or the #hristian li"eC /robably more so i" one loses than i" one wins. (nterin 8ontrose #ounty at 494 am =" lawyers and ,ud es can et us hoo0ed on the idea that we need money to sur!i!e then they control the system and who is worthy. Re"lection; =" = et any better =<ll be worseDwhat does that meanC 8ore to come. H.a!e a nice dayI said the 8ontrose cler0. Re"lection; :t the corporate le!elDdoctrinal correctness and purity is important, but at the indi!idual le!elDH,ust JesusI is most importantDa relationship. 'oin throu h some o" these small townsD there<s no Re"ormed or #hristian Re"ormed #hurch--but = am sure lad there are 8ethodist and 1aptist #hurches and other churches ---and = as0 mysel" is any church better than no church at allC (!en i" the church is not doctrinally per"ectC Bell, i" there were no churchDsome o" these towns would be hell. =n the 2ewsDa man in 6alley -prin s, #ali"orniaDpaid O10,000 ransom to et his do bac0 . Throu h the town o"

Elathe at 1045 a.m. =n the news--+erial 8asry, a teacher in @os :n eles, =s runnin "or the assembly-:nd i" she wins will be the "irst "orei n-born assembly personDshe<s "rom -audi :rabia. The si n alon the road says, H=" 2a"ta hasn<t cost you your ,ob, the +T:: will, ---stop the +T::I Mwho is the +T::C =n 'rand Junction #oloradoD= pulled into the Bal-8art and bou ht some new ,eans Dsome @e!i RustlersD"or O11.00Dand they "eel o0ayDnot bad at all. Re"lection; re. Jac0 .olwerda ,r.Dhe ot inside my head at an early a eD and did so intentionally = uessDalthou h he<s out nowDwellDhe<s ettin outDthe error o" his assumptionsDwas, once a ain, concernin a e%sta eD he belie!ed e!erybody pro ressed at the same rateDand assumed that ,ust because both he and = were around the same a e and oin to colle e and hi h school, and ,unior hi h, and elementary school Mto etherDthat somehow M the same thin s were happenin to usDnot so-. =<m dri!in throu h #anyon @ands 2ational /ar0Dand so are other tourists ?althou h = ha!en<t seen any cars yet =<m sure there will beA but ta0e 50 people oin throu h the par0- and = can uarantee you that 50 di""erent thin s are happenin HwithinI to those peopleD"or me it<s a monument to 'odDa reminder o" .is reatness. , .is lory--, =<m sure there are others with reatly di""erent thin s on their mind. To a certain e&tent, li0e .u h .al"ord Dwho 0ept sayin Hwe treat e!erybody (5ualI = ot the "eelin that Jac0 Jr. had a little bit o" 8ar&ist ideolo y in him as wellDthe notion that we are all ,ust co s in the machineryDdoin a ,obDno better or worse than anotherD seemed to be pre!alent in his thou htDand it coincides with his lac0 o" e&tracurricular participation in much o" anythin . .e was in the choirDtrue Dbut did he ,ust Hlip synchIC Er did he put part o" himsel" into itC That<s the di""erence between in!ol!ement !ersus participation. 1ut he didn<t play any sport-s- = thin0 he tin0ered with trac0 "or a whileDhe had sprintin capabilitiesDbut there was a country%racist sentiment comin "rom his "amily that loo0ed down on sports as somethin "or the heathenDor somethin "or the n----r ?slan word "or blac0 personADwhich is ironic because ori inally all the pro"essional sports teams were ori inally whiteD and blac0s radually were allowed to play. 1ut Jac0 Jr. didn<t e!en s0iD maybe he tried once or twice but = 0now he wasn<t out at #anonsbur much, i" at all. Jac0 Jr. was in the band at 8illbroo0 Jr. .i hDhe played the trumpetDa nice shiny sil!er oneDand too0 pri!ate lessons, but he ne!er pursued it beyond that le!el. -o = am le"t wonderin what e&actly was Jac0 doin all those yearsD= remember he was a ba boy and pac0er at the local 1oorsmas 'rocery -toreDhe was a hard wor0erDhe li0ed to wor0 with his handsDwhich is probably what led him into truc0 dri!in "or -teelcaseDbut he 5uit that and went into accountin D= ha!en<t heard anythin at all about what he<s doin since thenDalthou h = 0now he did landscapin "or a while. 1ut = 0eep comin bac0 to what +eli& +ran0"urter, a "ormer Q.-. -upreme #ourt Justice, once said; H= can thin0 o" no reater ine5uality than the e5ual treatment o" une5uals.I :nd we are all une5ualsDbecause we all ha!e di""erent i"ts---to treat us all the same as i" we were robots and ,ust part o"

the bi machinery is to diminish our re"lection o" the ima e o" 'od. +indin one<s i"tedness and usin it is part o" 'od<s plan "or us. TE not li!e up to that, or not try, is a sinDit<s really the ood "aith e""ort towards that end that counts e!en i" "or some reasonDcircumstances beyond one<s control cause one to "all short. = pas throu h the little town o" +ruita at 15* pm. There<s a dinosaur museum in +ruitaDbut = decided a ainst oin in. :ccordin to a Hpoint o" interestI si nDthis is 0nown as the HDinosaur Diamondbac0IDthe "our or so bi er cities in the area bein the "our points o" the diamond---appar5ently because o" the numerous dinosaur e!idence they ha!e unco!ered in this particular area. = passed by H#olorado 2ational 8onument H which is supposed to be spectacular as well--. (nterin Qtah at 295 pm. = turn towards #isco o"" the "reewayDthe scenic way towards :rches 2ational /ar0 at 255 pm. :nd then, alon the way = started /salm *$ shortly laterDnear 'unnison, #EDby the 'unnison Ri!erDand read it in "our parts alon the way endin at the historic Deweys 1rid e o!er the #olorado Ri!er ,ust around the corner "rom :rchers 2ational /ar0 at 990 pm. . = read /salm $$ at 4 pm at a place called +ishers Tower approachin :rches national /ar0 at 4 pm. = see some ra"ters on the ri!er at 415 pm. . = be in /salm 40 at 44* pm at 'oose =sland Recreation areaDbut am interrupted and ha!e not yet "inished the /salm 40. = arri!e at :rches 2/ at 5 pm. = purchase aO50.00 annual passDthere<s so much beauty hereD= see the H2orth and -outh Bindow H"rom a"ar at 524 pm. = see 1alanced Roc0 at 594 pm. = see -0y@ine :rch at 544 pm :nd = ma0e it to HDe!ils 'arden H at >15 pm. = ta0e the hi0e down the dirt path towards /ine Tree :rch past Tunnel :rch-----it<s a nice little hi0eD ood to et out o" the car. : Japanese couple pass by--, then = return to my !ehicleDand head bac0 towards the entrance Dalthou h there are two side scenic roads to ta0e be"ore = et there. 2ot "ar down the roadD=<m lancin down at my map and when = loo0 up = suddenly see a cloud o" dust in "ront o" meDa man on his oldwin motorcycle ?with his wi"e holdin on to himA wiped outDon the side o" the roadDhe must ha!e been en,oyin the scenery so much he dri"ted o""Dbut it<s a ditch on the side Mnot le!el with the roadD"ortunately not too deepD and they ma0e a slide into itDli0e somebody stealin second base---=<m the "irst one thereDalthou h they ha!e their motorcycle "riends behind themD= yell, H:re you alri htCI = thin0 they<re more embarrassed than hurtD cyclers ha!e "ierce prideD= 0nowDmy uncle 'aryDa social wor0erD oes ?motorAbi0in e!ery summerDand he can be 0ind o" a pric0 about it sometimes--, well the lady wa!es to me sayin they<re alri htDbe"ore they<!e e!en had time to assess whether they<re actually alri ht or notDand be"ore they<!e bothered to chec0 to see i" the motorcycle is alri htDbut = don<t< want to embarrass themDthey ha!e their bi0er "riends with them i" they need assistance so = o on at >4> pm. = turn down the road towards the are they call HBindowsIDand "ind out why it<s called that shortly laterDthese roc0s ha!e iant holes in themDli0e

windowsDsome o" them !isible all the way throu hDothers o" them partial holes on one sideDli0e a picture window on the "ront o" a house. =t<s really incredibleDand there<s< the double arch, *91 pm. =t<s really somethin else. +urther onward = ta0e the road towards Delicate :rchDwhich is also a beauti"ul roc0 "ormationD= ta0e my shirt o""D to ease the heat o" the dayD and as = do a man loo0s at meDapparently 777.thin0in = was a woman D= ha!en<t wor0ed out much at all --so maybe my chest is a little sa y ? my H"riendI Ric0 1yle once told me = had HbreastsI not a chestDthan0s Ric0 "or your candorA , then he loo0ed down apparently embarrassed that he was loo0in at a man the way he loo0s at women. That may ha!e been the "irst time =<!e e!er "elt the way a woman mi ht "eel bein stared at by a man "or solely one reason. Then = head towards the entrance and as = am comin to the section called the #ourthouseDor #ourthouse Roc0Dthere<s a rainbowL E!er the roc0sD = capture the rainbowDand remember 'od<s promiseD.is co!enant to ne!er almost utterly destroy man0ind a ain the way he did with the "lood so many years a o. = e&it :rches at $ pm. =n the newsDthere<s an impendin hurricane or tropical storm on the east coast causin "loodin and e!acuationsDonly a wee0 or so a"ter = le"tDit<s ettin dar0D= pass the placed called H.ole in the Roc0IDthe words painted lar ely all o!er the roc0 itsel"D= was wonderin i" this is the same hole in the roc0 = saw many years a oDon my trip "rom 8ichi an to #ali"ornia a"ter = had le"t law school in Detroit, 8ichi an. =t isn<tDthat one was somewhere else alon the western route. 8aybe northern QtahDand was an actual hole in the roc0 you could see throu h "rom a"ar----this one is apparently a hole inside the roc0 with a house o" some sort built into itDand you ha!e to pay "or a tour.. . but its closed at $40 pm. Day 44, 8onday, :u ust 2, 2004D(nterin #anyonlands 2ational /ar0 at >04 a.m. /salm ** at #anyonlands 2/. /salm 19$ at #on"luence E!erloo0 TrailDend o" road in #anyonlands 2ational /ar0Dwith Dire -traits playin . 1eauti"ul sunrise moment. . Re"lection; = JQ-T realiGed why 6anEens were so inclined to #hurch o" the -er!antDbecause Jac0 Roeda is #anadian, or was. . = see tur0eys, ,ac0rabbits, and cows alon the #anyonlands 2ational par0Das = am lea!in . Bhat a beauti"ul way to start the day and it<s not e!en 4 a.m yet. =n the newsD= mana e to et a little "rom my wirelessDbrie" connectionD1ush apparently has a reed to o alon with the 4%11 commissions recommendation to ha!e an intelli ence directorDsomebody who o!ersees all o" the so-called Hintelli ence communityI which others ay isn<t a community at allDbut a roup o" H"eudin empiresI Mapparently the only stipulation 1ush is ma0in is the 5uestion as to whether the intelli ence director will be part o" the e&ecuti!e o""ice. 1ush apparently wants to retain

the autonomy o" the intelli ence community which would be potentially diminished i" the director were politically in"luenced by the e&ecuti!e o""ice. =n the newsDthe arrest o" a terror suspect in /a0istan led to intelli ence "rom his computerDthat may ha!e contributed to the hei htened terror alerts in the "inancial districts o" 2ew Jor0 and 2ew Jersey. There<s a military branch called the 2orthern #ommand which is dedicated solely to de"endin Q.-. boundaries. =n 1landin there is a 8useum called H(d e o" the #edarsI which has a lar e array o" =ndian arti"acts "ound in the Qtah and :riGona desert. =n the bac0 there are some actual ruinsDone o" which is a )i!aDan =ndian house which you can climb down into. 8ost o" the arti"acts and ruins are remains o" the /ueblo =ndians. Then = pass throu h the dinosaur museum down the roadDthe prices is a little more reasonable ?O2.00A than the dinosaur 8useum in +ruita, #olorado ?O10.00A. There<s< a nice display o" dinosaur bones and reconstructed dinosaurs o" di""erent 0indsDand a lot o" mo!ie posters on the wallDshowin the history o" dinosaurs bein used in mo!iesDboth documentaries and "iction---a myriad o" the busty heroine in the mouth o" the dinosaur bein sa!ed by the muscular hero. They e!en show a poster o" )in )on which is actually a orillaDnot a dinosaur li0e 'odGilla, but they<re hi hli htin the history o" pre-historic animals not ,ust dinosaursD?althou h = don<t thin0 there is any e!idence o" a iant orillaDthe siGe o" )in )on Dli0e there is e!idence o" iant dinosaurs li0e the Tyrannosaurs Re&A The most memorable poster is the one with Ra5uel BelchDshe did a dinosaur mo!ie amon others at one point in time durin her career. @ea!in 1landin Dinosaur 8useum at 11 a.m , turnin towards 2atural 1rid es 2ational /ar0. 8ap chec0 at 119> a.m. 1utler Bash =ndian Ruins. 8ule #anyon =ndian Ruins. = arri!e at 2atural 1rid es 2ational 8onument at 1155 a.m. = am reeted by :le&is Kac0ey-the ran er inside the !isitors center who i!es me in"ormation. -he<s a nice youn lady , !ery polite and help"ul. -he noticed = was usin my cell phone and as0ed me i" = was able to et ser!ice here---= told her it was o"" and on--.Re"lection; -ome o" the #anadians are 0illin us by posin as #hristians. @ea!in the third brid e o" three at the 2atural 1rid es 2./. at 125> pm. @ea!in 2atural 1rid es---down the roads ways a man wa!es me o!erDand as0s me HBhere<s .ite, =<m ettin low on asCI = 0now about as much as he doesDor lessDall = ha!e is a mapDand = don<t see a H.iteI on the map at allDhe says he has a 5uarter o" a tan0 o" asDand = tell him that should be enou h to et him to 1landin and point him in that direction. = continue onward towards #apitol Ree" 2ational /ar0Ddecidin not to o down to the Toll +erry at halls @andin which oes across to 1ull"ro D althou h = "ind out later that there<s ser!ices at both o" those stopsD nonethelessDthe "erry only oes across on e!en hoursDand so chances are = would ha!e to wait a while. : si n says H+rys #rossin IDwhich is or was a hotel at one point with an apparent restaurant and as "acilities but it appears to ha!e been closed "or a while nowDand the pumps appear to be rustin out, which is why = "ound it stran e that when = "inally arri!ed at this

place called .iteDwhich is not on the map , but does ha!e as, that the man in the as station would as0 me HBas +ry<s #rossin openCI The 5uestion seemed to be speciousD i!en the appearance that +rys #rossin has been closed "or a lon time. 1ut = don<t press the issue. There<s a lar e roc0 "ormationDthe si n says it is H#heesebo& Roc0I at 141 pm = sin /salm 25 at 2 pm between 2atural 1rid es and #apitol Ree". = pass by a "ormation called HJacobs #hairI at 20$ pmDit<s a lar e roc0 structure on top o" a butte which loo0s li0e the pro"ile o" a i antic chair. :nd then = see the si n pointin towards .iteDat 249 pm, althou h it doesn<t say how "arDnonetheless = ta0e the turnDand it<s only a mile or so down the roadD= et asDnotice there<s access to the #olorado Ri!er hereDand then turn bac0 towards #apitol Ree". = pass o!er the Dirty De!il Ri!er at 250 pm. There<s actually three parts to #anyon lands 2ational /ar0Dthere<s the P2eedles DistrictI and the H=sland-in-the--0y DistrictI and then there<s the H8aGe District.I = went to the 2eedles DistrictDapparently the 8aGe District is di""icult to tra!erse without "our wheel dri!e, and the =sland in the -0y District . :nd +J=D1landin is the be innin o" the HTrail o" the :ncientsI which is what = ha!e been on , in part, "or a while now. :lso +J=Dthe stone at 2atural 1rid es 2/ is white sandstoneDwhich the water has eroded to create these natural brid esDalthou h there<s no water in the ri!er here now. =t<s a dry ri!erbed. Bayne #ounty at 995 pm. .an0s!ille at 415 pmD pic0ed up nachos and 0ept oin . .an0s!ille had a "ew splashy restaurants Done o" them called HblondiesI another attached to the #he!ronD ad!ertisin Hthic0 rich sha0es and hambur erI, and another as station%minimartDactually built ri ht into the stone cli""--. Re"lection; /art o" the problem o" the =ntelli ence HcommunityI is that it is de"ense only---we need belie!ers Mwhat<s ood "or one part o" the body o" #hrist 7 o""ense too. That<s where the church comes inDwe are on the o""ense, not de"enseD we are in the -pirit..NNwe don<t< et con"licted in decision ma0in because we are not politicalDwe do what<s< ri ht "or e!erybodyD= arri!e at #apitol Ree" 2ational /ar0 at 44* pm +ruita is apparently part o" #apitol Ree" 2/--it<s an old townDthere<s an old school house and there<s a tiny cabin indicatin "amily o" ten used to li!e in this tiny cabin, and past a lar e wall with a si n indicatin Hpetro lyphsI, and then you come to the !isitors center D= step insideDit<s crowdedDa lot o" "orei n touristsD= 0now because they are all spea0in lan ua es other than (n lish. There<s a slide show inside a tiny auditorium "or those who are interested , = lance at it and the boo0s and the in"ormation they pro!ide. 512 pm. Then = enter the par0 at 520 pm Dit<s been rainin so the dirt roads are muddyDthen suddenly wowDa "ew mama deer and their "awns cross the roadDthey ,ust amble acrossDand the deer loo0s me directly in the eyeDthe mama deerDseemin ly not a"raid o" me and warnin me not to mess with her babiesDthey almost seem tameD= wonder i" the tourists or ran ers "eed themD= watch "or a while , astonished by their boldness and beauty. Then = realiGe to mysel"Dre"lection TT1 is not a romanticDor at least not "or othersD"or himsel"---perhaps. (nterin the

heart o" #apitol Ree" = ha!e a lot o" it to mysel". The !isitors center was crowded but the par0 is not. = scramble up a ra!ine o" roc0s and shrubs in the shadow o" one o" the reat walls and sin %read /salm 45---my !oice echoes throu h the canyon---a natural ampli"ier---it<s really ma,esticDand to roadDthrou h some muddy areas which = mana e to tra!erse despite not ha!in 4 wheel dri!e. = turn around at >02 pm. :nd head bac0 towards the entranceDstoppin to read%sin /salm 111 be"ore = e&itDat >24 pm. Re"lection; both classical competition and the homose&ual world operate on the need "or a dominance%submissi!e hierarchyDclassical competitor wants to de"eat the other person or team---and the homose&ual world seems to ha!e a need "or one bein dominant and the other bein submissi!e--. The #hristian li"e is di""erentDit does not rely upon, or shouldn<t when it is wor0in ideally, hierarchyDat least not the stereotypical sortDwhere one bosses others around in a ru"" sort o" way. :nd = thin0 that is, in part, what 8irosla! 6ol" is dri!in at when he says HThe Trinity is our -ocial /ro ram.I The relationship between +ather--on-.oly -piritDis a model "or relationships between belie!ers. Be are one with each other as the "ellowship o" belie!ersDbut also distinctD,ust as the three persons o" the Trinity are three-in-one, at the same time they are also uni5ue and separateDwith di""erent "unctions. :re they He5ualCI =n a certain sense. :re they di""erentC =n a certain sense. The distinctions and similarities in the Triune 'od re5uires much more elaboration and discussion than = intend to i!e here, but, the main point is that they are certainly wor0in to ether in harmony "or the reater ood, or the ood o" those who belie!e. The +ather--on-and .oly -pirit are not competin with each other "or popularity or presti e or !ictory. Bhat is ood "or one person o" the Trinity is ood "or all three persons o" the Trinity and !ice !ersa. 'i!en suchDas we are in the =ma o DeoDthe "ellowship o" belie!ers 7 what is ood "or one part o" the body o" #hrist is ood "or all other members o" the body o" #hrist. This is probably why there<s a 5uestion about competiti!e sports in #hristian schoolsDis it ood preparation "or the youn #hristian or is it instillin in them a competiti!e spirit contrary to the -pirit o" #hristC -hould there be more cooperati!e HcompetitionsI so to spea0C That sort o" competition which encoura es people to HcompeteI at ma0in thin s better "or others, "or all.C Bhereas the homose&ual community ?alon with, in part, the community o" classical competitionA thri!es on "ear and personal pleasure, the #hristian community thri!es on, or should, pleasin 'od, which means, by and lar e, ma0in thin s better "or all, lo!in our enemies, turnin the other chee0, humblin oursel!es at times, relyin on the .oly -pirit not on man<s spirit.. :nd the #hristian li"e is not so topsy tur!yDit maintains a steady pulseD because our "aith is based on certaintyDwhich i!es us resol!e, sin lemindedness, repose, and "ocus. . 7because ultimately we are not a"raid o" death-and there"ore we wal0 without irrational "ear. 2or do we see0 the ultimate hi h and personal pleasure in this li"e because we 0now that there is better to come. (nterin Di&ie 2ational +orest at *25 pm. Then = entered the

little town o" Torrey and ot asDthe cler0 there was "rom 1ul aria and had a student wor0 permit, and down the road "rom there = pulled in to the -ubwayDand ordered a !e ie and cheese sandwichDwhich normally is at least O2.00 less than the meat sandwichesDso = didn<t e!en bother to loo0 at the menuDbut then she ran me up and it was o!er O5.00D"or a sandwich that is usually O9.00 or O9.50 at the most. = couldn<t belie!e it, but didn<t ar ue ---the sandwich was already made. HThe cler0 said Hthan0sI without meanin it, and = le"t. = ta0e 12 south towards (scalante -taircase and 1ryce #anyon. There<s some spectacular !iewpoints and lots o" deer alon the way. = completed /salm 40 at $9$ pm ?the second hal" o" /salm 40 which = be an o!er by :rches be"ore = was interruptedA, and then = read%san /salm 100. @oo0in at the map as = near the return to #ali"ornia = realiGe that = ha!e been throu h at least thirty states on this ,ourney. That<s a lotL = call it a ni ht at the town o" (scalanteDand watch a little clip "rom the hot sprin s to :spen o" what will soon be P'od<s #ountryI Mit<s "antasticL Re"lection; There are those 8asters o" #aution and 8asters o" -uspicion who operate on the basis o" "i urin out what a persons criticism o" them is and then pinnin it on the critical person be"ore they can o!ertly pronounce their "indin s. .u h .al"ord comes to mind.

Day 50, Tuesday, :u ust 9, 2004----lept in (scalante, QtahDpart o" the (scalante -taircase 2ational 8onument. 2o as in .enrie!ille. :t *02 a.m. #orrectionDthe rest o" .enrie!ielle is down the roadD,ust li0e .an0s!illeD-2atural 1rid e at 1ryce Bow at $94 a.m. :nother canyon o!er!iew Mwow M li0e iant sandcastlesDthe 1ryce #anyon ot its name a"ter (beneGer 1ryce and his "amily who came to 1ryce #anyon in 1$*5. .e was sent by the #hurch o" Jesus #hrist o" @atter-day -aintsDand ended up buildin a road to the plateau o" what is now 0nown as 1ryce #anyon. /salm 44 "rom /onderosa /ointD1ryce #anyon. The pinnacles in 1ryce #anyon are called .oodoosDwashed away by water and ra!elDthey "irst are H"insI , and then become HspiresI 7414 am . The word HhoodooI means to H#ast a spellI and they say 1ryce #anyon casts a spell with its beauty on all its !isitors. Be ma0e it to Rainbow /ointDby 415 a.m and turn around, no time or place "or another /salmDwith all the tourists around. = head "or Kion to read a /salm o" Kion. Re"lection; = realiGe now that -te!e )orhorn ne!er rew beyond his elementary and ,unior hi h e&periencesDnow he<s li!in ri ht in the same areaD#ascade%:daDwhat to thin0 about these "ellows who ne!er mo!e beyond their childhood nei hborhoodDdo they want to re-create their childhoodDand throu h whomC =ne!itably they try to re-li!e their childhood

throu h their own children, and o" course,I the older they et, the better they were7I ?as the sayin oesAand o"ten they re-li!e it throu h classical competitionDinstillin in their own children a spirit ?or demonA o" classical competitionDwin, win , winDwhich, "or those who do win, o"ten leads to a spirit o" sel"- lori"ication. = e&perienced that brie"ly in my later elementary and ,unior hi h years ?be"ore my poor !ision ot to the point o" becomin a disability "or meA. = was a natural athleteDand had = not e&perienced di""iculty with my !ision ?and correcti!e lensesA would ha!e e&celled in hi h school and maybe colle e had = been so inclined to participate. /erhaps = can say H"ortunatelyI = was blessed with bad !ision. = e&perienced a lot o" losin especially in baseball and probably stuc0 it out lon er than most would ha!e i!en how much = was stri0in out, committin errors, and bumblin thin s Dhad = worn lasses thin s would ha!e been di""erent. 8y e o or discom"ort with correcti!e lenses ?and this was at a time be"ore so"t contacts had become a "easible alternati!eDonly hard lenses were a!ailable and they were !ery uncom"ortableA led to my disability in baseball, and to a lesser e&tent in bas0etball. = was not as disabled in "ootball because acute !ision is less necessary. The blessin o" Hbad !isionI was that = learned to perse!ere no matter what-- despite losin , bumblin , ma0in a "ool out o" mysel", etc. =t was durin this time that = learned the Hprinciples o" "aithIDas oppose to, or analo ous to, the Hprinciples o" physics.I Those who e&cel in sports learn, by and lar e, to belie!e or trust in, the laws o" physicsDhit the ball, ma0e the bas0et, run, tac0le, catch, throwDthese are all classical !irtuesDthe one = was ood at was tac0lin D= lo!ed to hitDa ood solid ta0edown was my !irtueDat a youn er a eD= was a pretty ood shot in bas0etball. :nd in baseball-when = occasionally did connectDthe ball "lew "ar. = ,ust couldn<t ma0e the connection !ery consistently without bein able to see the ball better. :nd so we de!elop other s0illsDthe classical !irtues will always be hi hly praised and admired, but the #hristian !irtues are the bread and butter o" all li"e . = learned to rely on my hearin instead o" !ision. = relied on principles o" cooperation rather than sel"-per"ection e!en thou h = ne!er a!e up on bein a better person in the classical sense. Ta0e my parentsD they were much more o" the classical heroesDJim was the bas0etball starD @inda was the musical starDplayin both cello and piano to per"ection. Those are classical !irtues which can be used to honor 'odD,ust li0e the beauty o" creation = see all around me here in the 2ational /ar0sDit<s a reminder o" 'od<s beauty, but it no less diminishes the less !isible beauty and importance o" #hristian !irtuesDJim cau ht on to that later in li"eD re!ealin some o" that sensiti!ity and understandin in his #are3 )indness mo!ement. There<s a lot more to the in!isible world than sometimes we either realiGe or ac0nowled e. =t<s easier stayin in the world o" empirical sensibilities and e!idence, but it<s probably only a small percenta e o" 'od<s re!elation to us, which is why this world is somet>imes a burden to

#hristians Mor those #hristians who are more conduci!e with the in!isible world. :nd this is not to ta0e away "rom the material world Mor to say the material world is badDthat would be to repeat the error o" the 'nostics and to platoniGe the #hristian "aith. 1ut "or those who are so Gealous about de/latoniGin the 1ible and "aithDthere seems to be a need "or re!erse balanceDat times. 1ryce /oint at 1015 a.m. i!es one the classical !iew o" 1ryce with all the H.oodoosI lined up row a"ter row a"ter row. /aria 6iew at 1020 a.mDanother iant sandcastle-li0e o!er!iew. = pass by =nspiration /oint and -unset /ointDwhich i!es another classic hoodoo !iewpoint. 6isitors #enter at 1044. @ea!in 1ryce #anyon. =n the 2ewsD4>4 people died in the /ara uay -upermar0et "ire. 1e"ore the $4 hi hway and a"ter 1ryce there<s a little stretch o" canyonland called Red #anyon with a !isitors center. Re"lection; =<m ha!in startin problems suddenly. :t 1ryce = heard it clic0DhesitantlyDso = didn<t turn it o"" the entire time = was there--, now =<m at a as station and it won<t start. = pull out my own power pac0 to sel",ump my carDi" that<s what it needsD= hope it<s not the starter or alternator. The ,ump wor0sDit "ires up, but = 0now = need to et it chec0ed. = stop at a #he!ronDthe only place with a mechanic in Erder!ille, QT--, the "ellows eatin lunchD= tell him the problem. .e says he can do a electrical chec0Dand wal0s out to the ara e and chec0s it o!erDit turns out that it ,ust needs a new clampDthe old one had corroded. Bhat = was thin0in be"ore that was thatDwe can become so autonomousD= can cross the country with credit cards and a basic understandin o" how a car en ine operatesDand with basic tools can stay Ha"loatI without much human contact at all. 1ut we need contactDas the "ellowship o" 1elie!ersDit is this contact that edi"ies the -piritDand so that is why = went across the country toDto edi"y the .oly -piritDto ma0e contactDand to "ilmDand the "ilm will ser!e as a point-o"-contact with people e!erywhere. Re"lection; There<s a certain sense in which the clea!in o" man to woman and !ice !ersa can be a positi!e healthy re"lection o" the =ma o DeoDbut = thin0 that comes a"ter a period o" indi!iduality%indi!idualism%independenceDuntil that time comes when the man and woman can operate simultaneously as independent and dependent. There<s an ob!ious and understandable push to ma0e children more and more independent and sel"-reliant as they pro ress throu h school and become youn adultsDbut then-"rom there, it seems to meDa sense o" dependency and reliance on others is analo ous to our reliance upon 'od. The only problem is i" that dependence comes too soonDbe"ore independence has been truly achie!ed. @ea!in Erder!ille at 120$ pmDhe chan ed my battery cableDand on the newsDhe<s watchin tele!isionD there<s all 0inds o" co!era e about 8ar0 .ac0in Dthis "ellow who may ha!e 0illed his wi"e, the missin Qtah Jo er. (nterin )ane #ounty at 1214 pm = pulled into the 8t #armel .istoric churchDwhich says HopenI and come on inDand turns out to be a chamber o" commerce buildin o" sorts Mused to be

a 8ormon #hurch and 8ormon school. Down the road "rom thereDthere<s a bu""alo !iewin areaDnot li0e the bu""alo you see wanderin "ree in JellowstoneDwhich one spontaneously encounters here and thereDthese are "enced-in bu""aloDand they are apparently accustomed to bein "edD because they<re close to the "ence and tourists are aGin at them. (nterin Kion 2/ at 104 pm. /salm 190 at Kion at 199 pm. 2ow = am waitin to o throu h the tunnelDthere<s an o!ersiGed !ehicle causin a si& minute delay ?last time = was hereD= was the o!er-siGed !ehicleDtowin 7the car = am now dri!in Dcomin bac0 "rom my annual #hristmas trip to the 'rand #anyon, where my car bro0e down and rather than stay and wait "or repairs = decided to tow it bac0 and ha!e it repaired upon return ?which is another storyA. :s = am waitin "or the tunnel to openDthe ran er standin there tells me = ha!e a or eous do . Than0 you. Then = read /salm 110 which spea0s o" Kion inside Kion 2/Dat 205 pm. Re"lection; = don<t li0e anonymity as much as = li0e accountability. #ourt Date "or alle ed Hcamera !iolationI on "ederal property is set "or -ept 24, 2004 at 4;00 a.m. at 41 #ourthouse -5uare, :le&andria, 6: 22214, % #itation ` #14419, E""ense #har ed---92 #+R 1409.1?aA ?2A, by E""icer John -chmid, 1ad e `2>$, July 1>, 2004, $9$ pm , and now = am sendin Hnot uiltyI response to the courtDei hteen days laterDwithin the twenty-one day limitDon :u ust 9, 2004. There<s a dinosaur disco!ery siteDhere in -t. 'eor e, but its closed due to e&cessi!e heat says the si n. :pparently they<!e "ound !arious trac0s and e!en a Htail dra I here., 4;50 pm. 2ow =<m loo0in "or the winter home o" 1ri ham Joun Dit<s supposed to be her e in -t. 'eor e, QtahDwhich they call HQtah<s Di&ieI----but = don<t "ind itDinstead = o to the art museumDand then = head onwards-the !isitors center was already closed. =<m interested in learnin more about the 8ormonsD i!en their "airly si ni"icant presence in the westDand their apparent continued rowth --. . The road "rom -t. 'eor e QT to 8es5uite QT has a Kion-li0e stretchDwith some beauti"ul red-roc0 "ormations loomin upwards. : = o throu h there = am sayin a prayer "or !arious persons--.. prayer helps = enter the town o" 8es5uite at 505 pm =n the news a woman will apparently testi"y in the )obe 1ryant trial that he H ropedI her at a part at -ha5uile E<2eals house in Erlando se!eral years a o. Be ,ust passed throu h and o!er the 6ir in Ri!er and 6ir in 8ountains prior to enterin 8es5uite. +or the de"ense in the )obe 1ryant caseDan e&pert will testi"y that she belie!es, based on tests o" the accusers panties, that the accuser had se&ual intercourse with somebody else shortly a"ter ha!in se&ual intercourse with )obe 1ryant. This is startin to sound more and more li0e a repeat o" HTo )ill a 8oc0in birdIDthe only thin )obe 1ryant may be uilty o" is bein a blac0 man ha!in se& with a white woman. =" it is true that she had se& with somebody else shortly a"ter the )obe 1ryant se&ual interactionDit would seem that she was not, in "act, all that distrau ht about the incident. The prosecution says that the sperm o" H8r. ^ID"ound alon side the sperm o"

)obe 1ryant on the same pair o" panties is old and that residue o" sperm can remain in panties e!en a"ter bein washed. The de"ense e&pert says that it is unli0ely because o" the si ni"icant amount "ound on the pantiesDnot ,ust traces. @as 6e as is in #lar0 #ounty as best as = can tell. = pass throu h @o andale , 26 at 59> pm = read /salm 119 at >0> pm. 2ear @a0e 8eadDin a 5uiet, place, and then down the road "rom there = read /salm 144 at * pm. =n "ront o" what they call the H1owl o" +ireIDincludin the 8uddy 8ts. = enter 2. @as 6e as at *40 pm. and pull into a *-11 "or a re-"ill o" my ice teaD the en!ironment here is immediately di""erentD"rom almost anywhere eels in the Q.-. =<m here "or one reasonDto "ind the #R#<s and mo!e onwardD =<m at the corner o" @a0e 8ead and .ollywood 1l!d. = can<t belie!e how many *-11<s there are in this town. :t one intersection = saw two *-11<s 0itty corner "rom each other. = would say there<s a *-11 about e!ery s5uare mile at least in this part o" @as 6e as. = "ind Jun )wan #R# at $24 pm. on a busy boule!ardDyou don<t 0now it<s a #R#, in part, until you o around the bac0Dwhere there<s a si nDand they are apparently combined with a /resbyterian #hurch. Then not too "ar away = "ind the 'race 6alley #R#D in an o""ice comple&Dnot it<s own buildin Dapparently they lease a part o" the comple& "or worship ser!ices. Ri ht ne&t to it is an Eriental 8assa e o""ice and on the other side is a "ine wine store.The Third #R# is it<s own church buildin Dthe -oman /odowon #R# on (l #amino Road with /astor /il .wan .wan and a membership o" 4> Mis also combined with /resbyterian. = o towards the ne&t #R#Dpast the Ja uars 'entlemans< #lub and )osters #ash @oans ? that catches my eye because o" the nameDa Dutch name--A The "ourth #R# is supposed to be on 1i 1ear /ines :!eD and appears to be an :n lo-dominant #R#Dbut = don<t see it Mbut then = went to B. 1i 1ear /ines, well it<s too late and too dar0 to o in search o" it D= "ind a place to retire "or the e!enin and the ne&t mornin =<m on my way out o" @as 6e asDa "ew hours there is lon enou h , i" not too lon , "or me. @as 6e as caters to e!erythin temporalDinstant rati"icationDmoney, se&, etc.Dthe hope o" immediate rati"ication. :nd that is why = included all the ^^^ and H entleman<s< clubsI and other related material in H'od<s #ountryIDit<s not to say that these sort o" thin s are ood--, it<s an endorsement or appro!al o" it, but it is a part o" 'od<s #ountry, "or better or "or worse. :nd the ar ument "or better is that the church has become so /latonic that se& and the body has been wron ly mar inaliGed. The ar ument "or the worse is that in an attempt to de-/latoniGe thin sDall that<s happened is that society has made instant rati"ication an end in itsel". =" the church were intent on de-/latoniGin thin sDit would encoura e relationships and lon -term plannin Dnot ,ust rati"y the senses at the immediate le!elDin order to not be too /latonic. =" /lato<s thin0in led to a dispara ement o" the body, wron ly so, the answer is not to simply indul e one<s sel" to the ma&imum, the answer is a moderate response to bodily dispara ement, not to commit the opposite error and become indul ers o" ma&imum appetite.

Day 51, Bednesday, :u ust 4, 2004 = slept near @as 6e asDa"ter "indin three o" the "our #R#<s in the town. There<s a correctional #enter at >92 . Throu h the town o" =ndian -prin s at >40. There<s an :ir +orce base here. = ta0e the turn towards /ahrump at *0* a.m. =t<s the entry ate to Death 6alley. = enter /ahrump at *25 a.m. There<s a "ew crosses by the side o" the road hereDusually means somebody died in a car accident. +ala"el%pita wraps, tomatoes, a!ocadoes, bananas, O1*.00 at the @as 6e as :lbertsons. /salm 109 at $4* a.m did it twice decidin to put on the robe the second time. TT1 would do the same thin as )orhornDplayin the H"atherI Mwith his boatDli0e we were supposed to "eel pri!ile ed to be ta0en out on his boat and we<re supposed to Hbeha!eI---and he would "ind somethin minute to pic0 on---TT1 would do the same as we tra!eled across the countryDat an e&treme le!elDwhere it becomes a dominant%abusi!e pattern---it is dys"unctional and wron and needs to be addressed as such. :thletes are more li0ely to "all into that pattern than othersDand both TT1 and -tephen )orhorn were athletesDli!in by their natural , physical abilities. Jou can repeat untruth o!er and o!er until the day you die, but it doesn<t ma0e it any more true. -ome o" these losers desperately want to create a psycholo ical relationship which they can tal0 about o!er and o!erD"alsely, but to their own sel"-ser!in ad!anta eDmuch o" it to petty to deal with in court but nonetheless destructi!e and harm"ul to others. /salm 102 at Death 6alley at 45* a.m. /ast 20 8ule Team #anyon at 10 a.m. Kabris0ie /oint at 1009 a.m. There<s been a lot o" odly men arrested "or spea0in the truth. De!il<s 'ol" #ourse at 102$ a.m. There<s a 2atural 1rid e 2.5 miles up the dirt road into the canyon. 1adwater 1asin at 1049 a.m---the lowest point in the Qnited -tatesDbut not close to the lowest point in the world which appears to be, at "irst lance, the Dead -ea area in Jordan. There<s salty water in the 1adwater 1asinDand /ic0leweed mana es to row in it, says the si n. The road is li0e a roller coaster lea!in Death 6alley a"ter 1adwater 1asin. /salm 112 at 1124 in "ront o" the @a0e 8anly -i n where there used to be a la0e--many, many years, a o. Jubilee /ass at 1149 a.m. @ea!in -hoshone at 1225. The 'estalt theory has a lot to say "or itsel"---we want to "ill in the loops to resol!e dissonance to complete the storyDthe only problem is that those with less education will "ill in the loops at a more restricti!e and e&clusi!e le!el, and in a sel"-ser!in way, too o"ten at the e&pense o" others. =n the 2ewsDthe :merican bas0etball team ot beat by the =taliansD40somethin to *$---wow Dthat<s an upset. : thirty-"our year old "emale teacher who has been in prison "or se!en years "or seducin a >th rader and ha!in two children "rom him, is bein released "rom prison in Bashin ton. = ,ust saw a mira e at 129 pm. =n the newsDthe accuser o" )obe 1ryant is now wonderin i" she will be able to et a "air criminal case and may, instead, do a ci!il suit. The missionary and the "orei n student = realiGe now ----their oal is to try to brea0 the :mericanDto et the :merican to do somethin silly, "oolish, etc.

to brea0 throu h what they thin0 is a "a_ade---not bein truth"ul, themsel!esN---they pro,ect their own tendencies on others. Then i" they do et the :merican to imbibe in alcohol or other thin sDthen they can discredit him or herDand not ha!e to be beholdenDthey thin0, wron ly. =t<s sort o" a "orm o" co!enantal nomismDwhereby they sayDH=" you are #hristian, then you should act li0e this, otherwise you<re not #hristianI, it<s the same thin s some tried to do to 'od, sayin , H=" you are 'od, then you must do this "or us, otherwise you<re not 'od7I 1ut 'od does not respond to that sort o" blac0mailD'od responds to raciousness and oodnessDhe does not respond to bein told what he must do or else. 2either do Jesus lo!in #hristians. That<s ta0in the liberty out o" "aith which is what #hristian "aith is all aboutDliberty and lo!e. They<re "ear o" me bein a H,er0o""I actually re!eals their own "ear o" bein re!ealed. RRRtemporarily s0ip !oice memoSSD:nd maybe that was the apparent intent o" the 1rin0s in the Dominican Republic to re!eal me as HhumanI not Hdi!ineI---what it re!ealed, howe!er, was their only limited understandin or relationship with Jesus #hrist. #alico (arly 8an :rcheolo ical -ite at245 pm. .e said there was a dinosaur site in -t. 'eor eDnow = rememberDbut it was closed. +rom there = went to the #alico 'host Town ,ust down the road "rom the #alico (arly man :rcheolo ical -ite. =t<s O5.00 entry "eeDand = did a 5uic0 wal0 throu h---, @ea!in #alico 'host Town at 99> pm. There<s a Route >> 8useum in 1arstow, but its closed. =n the news, -cott /eterson alle edly shopped "or boats on the internet the day a"ter he was con"ronted by :mber +rey<s irl"riend "or bein married. =n 1ei,in a man slashed 15 0ids in a 0inder arten classroom with a 0ni"e. 88Dpassin the bottle trees on Route >>. Throu h 6ictor!ille at512 pm. Throu h #a,on -ummit at 549 pm. , -an 1ernardino 2ational +orest . Route >> apparently stops and then resumes ?544 pmA. Re"lection; =s the -eduction o" /orno raphy the same as the seduction o" pantheismC =n the news a -iberian boy was disco!ered apparently raised by a do D"or 5 or > years. =n the news Da Romanian man 0eeps a dead cow in hisapartmentDcuttin o"" pieces o" it to eat when hun ry. Three ban0s are robbed in Da!enport, =: while )erry 3 1ush are campai nin . Day 52DRe-(ntry into -outhern #ali"ornia