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Note on the author

Nadia Maryniak-Halsteadis a graduateof the Rhode IslandSchool of Design

(Providence,RI). For her Master's thesis (Departmentof GraphicDesign,

1992), "Thevoice madevisible: subtitlesin ethnographicfilm", she conducted

fieldworkin Turkey,Tunisia, India and Burma(Myanmar). In Tunisiashe also

collaborated on The great invisible (1993) -

an independent film by experi-

mentalfilm DirectorLeslie Thornton- in the capacityof soundrecordist. Her

primaryarea of interestis broad-based:developing countries, their representa-

tion and "voice"in Westernvisual media,and indigenousspoken language(s).

Since 1989 she has pursuedan ongoingpersonal project of exploringissues of

Self andOther in the contextof

foreigntravel and tourism. Currently Nadia bal-

ancesthe desireand need to travelwith a dualcareer in graphicdesign and mas-

sage therapyand new parenthood.She lives with her husbandand child in

Boulder,Colorado. Address: 3280 47 St # 207 Boulder,Colorado 80301 USA;

e-mail:nadia@reedandnadia.com

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