A

COSMOLOGICAL

JOURNEY

[A SHORT TRIP TO THE SHOPS AND BACK]

BY

DERMOTT O DOWD

FOREWORD

This book is the culmination of a lifetimes searching for

answers. It was never enough for me to accept the status
quo, the orthodox view, what my parents told me I had to
accept, what my teachers swore was right and what my
culture said I should not question.
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I guess you are either born a seeker of truth or not and this
book is a primer for those who have the same thirst for
knowledge I have.
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It�s a simple query, why do I exist? Why does anything

exist? Is it by accident or is there a plan for it all?

The answers I discovered are sometimes contrary to

popular scientific understandings and are certainly bound to
offend those who want a big parent God to look after them.
Yet these very same answers take us into worlds beyond
our tiny imaginations and into the essential validity of our
being.

I developed a simple process for my researches. First I

would develop the question I needed answered and then
search through those works that gave me the answers.
Often the question is more important than the answer and in
the honing of the query the solution begins to unfold,
sometimes taking decades.

I am convinced that the Universe responds to us in the most

intimate way and no cry for understanding goes unheeded,
even though we may end up in some brightly lit cul de sacs.

Sometimes an answer received before the question is fully

formed can act like poison on the consciousness

and create a setback which has to be overcome in time.

For a long ,long time I berated our schools and teachers and
social systems for denying the queries I so eagerly made
and been given frustrating responses. A bit like when
someone sheds their body and is told that they live on just
because we remember them. For a true seeker such
responses are an insult to his/her intelligence.

Truth exists whether we like it or not or deny it repeatedly.

We are all entitled to be stupid and wrong and convinced
that something is right when in fact it is not. Much of the
world turns on this ignorance and I admit to my own fair
proportion of same.

If you cannot accept some or any of what I have written

then good, that is your free choice and I honour it. If you
read it and your curiosity is aroused and you develop the
desire to find out more then also good, that is your free
choice and I honour it.

The truth cares not for bias or prejudice it just is and I

prostrate myself at its high altar. At the end of my search
which is also the beginning of grander journeys, for it is
never really over, I am convinced of the Divine Intelligence
that permeates all of existence. That nothing is ever wasted
and everything valued to its utmost. Love would not be too
strong a word here.

So it is with great respect and humility for you my dear

reader, I offer what I know and hope this small work will
take you further along the road of your own personal quest,
at the very least may it encourage you to explore further.
CONTENTS

FOREWORD������������......... 1

CHAPTERS

1 �����Death�������.. 3
2.��.Worlds within worlds����. 5
3.�.Consciousness and evolution��. 9
4.����Poles apart������ 13
5.���..Mirror/mirror������.17
6.���Life��movement���� 22
7.���.Illusion v reality����� 25
8.Evolution and the birth of the soul� 30
9.��..The human condition��� 35
10.���..Relationships����� 42
11.���..Russian dolls����� 46
12.���The secret agenda���� 50
13...Old endings, new beginnings�� 56
14.��..The law of one����� 62

CHAPTER 1
DEATH

The worst word, the most abused and wrong word, the
word that is most meaningless, is the word �death�.

This awful word pretends to identify a state that cannot

occur, for there is no death nor can there ever be.

There is only life and what we call death is the transmuting

of substance from one place to another.

To understand this more clearly, let us look at what we

know of the physical Universe. The Universe is made up of
say x number of atoms. Everything that exists is made up of
atoms and combinations of atoms. An atom cannot cease to
exist but can attach itself to other atoms and appear
different according to these relationships.

Because no atom can cease to exist, the Universe will have,

always had, and has at this moment the same amount of
atoms.

Because it will never change in the quantity of atoms it

encourages us to contemplate that nothing can really die.
What we observe as death is the collapse of one form into
another.

Take for example the burning of an object. For instance, to

burn a log only means that what previously made up the
shape and substance of the log is now transmuted into fire,
smoke, ash and air atoms. Although now dispersed into
other elements, if the process were reversed and all these
constituent atoms brought back into the log, not one atom
would be missing.

So it must be for all forms, from a grain of sand to a mighty

Galaxy. Atoms are shape changers through combinations,
they are infinitely alive, animated, not one single atom in
the whole of Creation can die.

When a person so called dies, it would therefore be more

appropriate to state, he or she has just changed form, all of
the physical atoms that comprised this being have just been
transformed into other elements.

This is also why only life can come out of apparent

deadness, because bodies are only in a different form and
becoming together to form other bodies.

Even if a Planet were to explode, each and every atom

would still be in existence and its new shapes would be
according to its combinations in disintegration.

Eternally then, the physical Universe through its atomic

relationships is constantly changing shape, everything is in
the process of becoming something else, yet absolutely
nothing can be annihilated or simply cease to exist.

This must then mean that the physical Universe has always
existed and will exist infinitely with the same amount of
atoms that it had, has and will have albeit in different
forms.

Therefore birth or growth of new bodies or matter only

means that atoms have rearranged to create a shape from
atoms that were always in existence in the first place.

There truly can be �nothing new under the sun� only a

rearrangement to suit the body that is being formed.
CHAPTER 2
WORLDS WITHIN
WORLDS

The physical atom vibrates at a particular speed and cannot

occupy the same space as another atom. However there is

an enormous amount of space within the field of the atom.
Although not visible to the physical eye it can be assumed
that particles moving at a greater speed would not be seen
by the physical atom. These faster moving particles would
then form other faster Universes.

Until science can register these �faster� atoms it will be

assumed by physicists that only matter as we know it,
exists.

�In my Fathers house there are many mansions� is a

profound mystical statement the full meaning of which has
yet to be uncovered by science.

To use logic here we must deal with concepts of movement

and space. It is known that that the atom moves in space
and is an indivisible unit of energy. If this were not so there
would be constant collisions and forms would disintegrate
before they could become bodies. Atoms build up
relationships with other atoms to form bodies in a very
organised orderly fashion, this I will write about later.

For our purposes here it can be stated that an atom moves at

x speed in y space and nothing interrupts its field of play.

Lets assume that this y space is occupied and not a vacuum.

For it to be so inhabited, particles would need to move at a
rate that did not interfere with the movement of the
physical atom. This could only happen by exaggerating the
speed of these particles.

The rate of movement of these very fast particles would be

such that they would be invisible to the physical Universe.
Along with speed their weight would have to be lighter.
This would mean that these particles could occupy the
same �space� as their physical counterparts without
interference.

In esoteric literature man/woman is deemed to have seven

bodies only one of which is the physical. This means that
there are six other bodies in the same being/space. This
leads to the conclusion that each physical atom has six
other atoms moving within it in the same space. As a
consequence of this there then would have to be six other
Universes within the physical Universe.

It is said once again in esoteric understanding that the

higher can see the lower but the lower cannot see the
higher.

As we can only see the physical as this is our focus, we are

blind deaf and dumb to the other bodies/Universes unless
we are a highly evolved soul or divine master. Psychics
also can penetrate the veil at times and people under the
influence of certain mind altering drugs but this can have a
negative impact which I will write about later.

Going with the assumption that there are these different

atomic rates, vibrations is possibly a better word, in the
same relative space, it is also understandable that there is
still space within

and around each vibration. This I like to term as THE

GREAT UNMANIFEST. Whereas the movement of atoms
could be regarded as THE GREAT MANIFEST. Both
these together comprise �All That Is� , GOD for short.

GOD could then be regarded as that which �IS� and that

which �IS not�. That which has no outside itself but
contains all. Our difficulty in trying to imagine something
so complete without anything else, yet at the same time
manifesting itself in all the seven vibrations, and at the
same time simply being UNMANIFEST [being without
becoming] is possibly too much for our little brains.

Yet it is observable that humans live, move and have their

being in GOD and are an intrinsic part of GOD. We are the
living manifest reflection of GOD, in GODS image, within
the GREAT UNMANIFEST.
At the core of the atom, travelling through the seven rates
of vibration, we would come to the centre and that centre
would be the UNMANIFEST, the GOD within.

If on the other hand we travel from the core to the outer rim
we eventually come to the UNMANIFEST state once
again.

So the UNMANIFEST is both at the core of our being and

of every living thing or particle, and also surrounding all
our being and every living thing or particle.

Every single physical atom therefore has this essential

makeup.

The physical atom is the outer crust of a seven tiered

structure that has at its very core the very Breath of GOD.

It makes sense also to comprehend that Creation came from

the centre to the outer and will consequently evolve
through time from the outer to the centre.

I will write about evolution later.

Therefore the physical atom can only come into existence

after six other layers have preceded it, skins of an onion.

The physical is the final externalisation of the atomic

family and is fed and rooted by all its internal structures.

It is understood in esoteric lore that the MANIFEST came

out of the UNMANIFEST and then returns to the
UNMANIFEST at the end of its evolutionary journey.
It is reasonable also to comprehend that not all atoms will
journey to the physical rim but instead will reach levels of
evolution and satiation in the higher worlds. The Angelic
Realms populated by beings, not with wings but of intense
purity and light. To try and get a tiny glimpse of the
immensity of MANIFESTATION, take for example a grain
of sand. This one grain contains millions of atoms each
vibrating in its own space, within every one of these atoms
there are six other layers of inner vibration, with at its core
the UNMANIFEST. To consider that this grain of sand lies
on a beach that borders a vast ocean, on a massive planet,
in an immense Solar System, that moves in a mighty
Galaxy that also moves in a physically infinite Universe,
must leave us totally overwhelmed and grabbing with our
tiny imaginations at even very partial comprehension. And
this only the physical Universe.

CHAPTER 3 9
CONSCIOUSNESS
AND
EVOLUTION
At the very beginning of Creation the UNMANIFEST
began to move unto itself, giving rise to the MANIFEST.
Life was born.

The atomic Universes came into existence. Each atomic

particle or divine spark contained the essential
UNMANIFEST/GOD core and as such is and was
indivisible, complete unto itself, the divine, eternal and
immortal soul.

Consciousness is the ability to be aware through experience

and occurs through the accumulation of more
consciousness units.

At the very beginning as our eternal soul atom travelled

outward from the core, its experiences were simple and
primitive. It would have been in a bliss state, being aware
of its essential Godhood.

After aeons of time and as other dimensions came into

existence it experienced newer and slower rates of vibration
till eventually it pushed out to the outer crust and developed
its physical coat.

It could not leave any band of vibration until it had satiated

its experience there. In other words until it attracted similar
units, built its bodies and these bodies finished their cycle
of

experience.

When it first came into the physical it was in a gaseous

state but after billions of circuits it eventually arrived in the
physical as a particle of mineral.
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The eternal atom/soul is much like a seed, even before it

experiences, it has at its core the blueprint of all its
expressions from the beginning of setting forth to the final
spiritualised return as a fully realised being.
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It must be kept in mind that this seed/soul/atom is

completely perfect, indivisible and cannot be destroyed.
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It is at the very centre of all forms no matter how small or

big they are. The smallest thing is the biggest thing. Each
moment or movement or life, could be regarded as a unit of
consciousness, thus coming from very simple, elementary
structures, larger and more complex bodies are formed.
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For example, the physical Universe will first be gaseous

and then solidify, then develop plant life, after which
animal life and on to human or self aware consciousness
and so on. Time has no meaning here, all that is important
is that the soul atom accumulates units of consciousness, a
bit like a tree growing branches and leaves.
b

The human body therefore has at its core the soul atom, its
six other inner bodies and its physical outer shell. It is
essentially responsible for the accumulation of billions and
billions of like atoms that form its body.
b

So each body that is formed is a vast network of

consciousness with at its core the soul atom. These bodies
experience in bodily form all of life.
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It is stated in esoteric literature that the three most inner

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planes
are formless, nevertheless there is experience, beginnings
and endings even on these planes.

As the consciousness expands it becomes aware of its

focus. Wide awake in the body it occupies. Self conscious,
in other words, it develops the capacity to understand itself
and the Universe, to manipulate matter, to become like
GOD. It cannot do one essential thing however, it can never
create life, only GOD can do that.

At our present stage of evolution, the human is still

partially in the animal kingdom and its full wide awake
focus limited to awareness only on the physical plane.

Due to being fully immersed in physical matter it is easy to

understand why a separation is felt, not only in sexual
terms but also separateness from GOD or its true self.

Eventually we will no longer need to incarnate, [have lives

in the physical], but this cannot happen till full satiation of
the physical plane occurs.

Everything that exists has the imprint of GOD in it and

must follow according to the divine laws. There can be no
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exceptions.

So we have the smallest thing behaving in a similar fashion

to the biggest thing, all of which occurs within the great
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UNMANIFEST.

The divine laws are immutable and cannot be challenged or

overturned, they do not evolve but simply exist and
although it may appear that these laws are broken, this is
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effectively only an illusion. Anything that is done �wrong�
is within the law, anything that is done �right� is within the
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law,

The major laws are called :

The law of love.
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The law of attraction and repulsion.
The law of passivity and activity.
The law of productivity and receptivity.
The law of compensation and retribution.
The law of polarity and balance.
The law of cohesion and adhesion.
The law of cycles and periodicity.
The law of supply and demand.
The law of cause and effect.
The
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CHAPTER 4
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POLES APART
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For anything to exist it must have two poles, a positive and

a negative. No entity can exist in total positive or total
negative. It would not be able to �hold� together. These
poles vibrate together in harmony on the higher spiritual
planes, it is only when they get to the lower formfull planes
that one or the other pole is suppressed. This is particularly
necessary as the physical plane can only accept �new�
beings onto it through the process of birth. Here we become
involved in one of the greatest illusions of the material
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world.

The essential misconception [an apt word] is that a being in

a female or a male body is incomplete and needs to find its
other half outside itself. In fact its other half is within itself
albeit suppressed. It could be said that the only reason we
appear to be different or incomplete is for the purpose of
propagating the species in the physical worlds.

When we realise that there is no longer any need to project

onto another being in such a way we will be well into the
true human kingdom and birth will be completely different
to todays laborious process.

As we are complete entities unto ourselves, why do we love

others and attract others to love us? It is acknowledged in

psychology that that which is suppressed, expresses itself

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often

Without our conscious knowledge of what we are doing.

A being in love with another being therefore projects the

hidden side of him/herself onto the object of his/hers desire.
Being �in love� he/she cannot really see the other person
but only the idealised hidden counterpart of his/herself. It
could be stated that what occurs in the �in love� state is the
beings perfect other half. This is why it is often expressed
as �I will love you forever� �You are the only one for me�
and so on. These are powerful projections which after a
period of time and familiarity fade away to expose a more
realistic picture.

This type of personal love is important in that it gives us a

glimpse of our own ecstatic perfection. A parents love for
their children is a powerful and necessary projection that
enables the parents to care deeply and intimately for their
offspring thus protecting them from harm and enabling
them to grow. If the parents were asked to love another
persons child in the same way they would invariably be
unable to access the same intensity of devotion. However
this very necessary illusion is when, all is said and done, a
deflection from our own essential completeness.

As no energy can be lost in the Universe that which is

projected or sent out from our being must inevitably be
reclaimed and owned. This �in love� state must not be
confused with unconditional or altruistic love which a
completely different dynamic.

The sex act itself gives us an echo of what our true

complete state is. It reminds us in orgasm of the ecstatic
true nature of our being and acts as an external reminder of
what we are internally.
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Unfortunately religions have contaminated this joyful

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expression of our beingness, with fear of sex being instilled

into the hearts of their followers and encouraging the
consequent perversions and aberrations of suppressed
sexuality as often occurs in celibacy and denial.
s

Before we are born into the physical, a choice is made as to

what body will be most suitable for the expression of our
unique sexuality. We tend to have blocks of lifetimes in
either a male or a female body and seldom alternate after
each lifetime. This is in order to experience the full gamut
of either male or female impulses and gain a deeper
understanding of our true androgynous self. It is important
to note here that there is a wide variation of male and
female impulses and no discrimination should be made
against any particular combination of male and female
aspects as the outer is a parody of our true complete self
and useful only for the lessons that can be learned.
a

By accepting the almost infinite complexity and balances of

our male and female elements both within ourselves and in
others we take a step into our higher more complete human
s
state.

Where sexuality is suppressed and feared by cultures,

religions and states there can only be fear of ourselves and
others and all the inevitable pain that this creates.
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When it is fully understood that each and every being is a
complete unit then much of the silliness about sexual
projection will resolve itself and we will be well on the way
towards expressing selfless love, which is our essential
g
goal.

Personal love as we know is limited and selfish but it does

serve to bring us forward through the minefield of
relationships and
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towards a deeper letting go and loving of all.

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When the Master said �Love your neighbour as yourself�

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He

wasn�t just asking us to be nice to each other, but to

actually express unconditional selfless love.
a

It is difficult for us in our present state of evolution to do

this due to the imbalances in our outer sexual state but
when the two poles within us become wide awake in day
consciousness it will be an obvious thing for us to express
truly unselfish love. This will mean that we will be able to
love GOD above all things which will be same as loving
others and as a consequence of this, love ourselves, for they
are all one and the same.
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CHAPTER 5
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MIRROR, MIRROR
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Projection of energy is a vital component of a living beings

makeup. In fact it is paramount in the evolution of
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consciousness.

Nothing can exist unconnected to the rest of life. Just as the

great UNMANIFEST projects the MANIFEST out of itself
and that life eventually returns home to the UNMANIFEST
so all living beings express their energy in a circuit. That
which goes around comes around so to speak. Due to the
innate imperfection of living beings, the nature of projected
energy is equal to the level of growth or lack of it.

For example; if someone has a tendency in terms of being

jealous then they will project this energy of jealousy onto
others. The illusion is of course that others are now
responsible for the projectors own difficulty. Whatever is
projected belongs completely to the projector, not the
projectee. This is why in our current stage of development,
our human nature is inclined to look for a scapegoat to
hang their projections on.

There are of course positive projections. A mother and a

fathers love for their offspring as mentioned previously.

After much battling we learn that no one else is responsible

for our own imbalances although they may have pressed
buttons that activate our own individual area of difficulty.
Projections are always to do with wanting something from
someone else, yet until we really know ourselves and take
full responsibility for every single projected element, we
cannot possibly see other beings as they truly are.

This is why, that after many lifetimes of close relations we

often end up knowing less about another being than when
we started.
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Where there is violence projected, a being is essentially at

war with him or her self, others enter into the field of play
due to being attracted to similar energy or karmic
connections. No energy that is projected remains �out there�
forever even if it takes millions of years, it has to come
back home.
b

Here we have the enormous responsibility of owning our

own energies and developing the essential moral attitude of
not harming others, for if we do so, we only harm
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ourselves.

When we eventually learn to cease harming others and

bring home that which has always been ours, then at last we
can begin to express selfless love.

Confusion occurs because there is often more than one

being doing the projecting. Conclusions then assumed by
all projectors can be riddled with misconceptions often
creating illusory agreements to sustain the essential
relationship. It is extremely difficult to know if a projection
is valid in these circumstances.

No one likes to have their energy back when it reminds

them of a negative aspect of their own being. Yet it is only
when this
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energy finally comes back and is totally assimilated and

reabsorbed that it becomes possible to transmute it.

Selfish love can create even greater difficulty if it is not

fully reciprocated and a shared love projection expressed.
Love of this nature can quickly turn to hatred.

From what has already been stated it is clear that that we

create others according to our own perceptions or
projections and do not really �see� each other.

Projections are not just to do with other beings but also

about environment. Great mass collusions are entered into
particularly in terms of politics, religious understandings
and businesses which dominate whole ethnic groups, social
systems and world belief structures.

Our projections are the end result of our beliefs, conscious

and unconscious and they continually, like the tentacles of
an octopus surge out from us looking for beings , objects
and systems to absorb them.

Harmony can only truly exist when beings are all at the
same point of consciousness so their projections are on the
same page so to speak.

The confusion created by a multi levelled consciousness

world is obvious when beings often in the same family are
projecting on very different wavelengths.

Projections are relatively healthy where no abuse occurs.

The example of a parent allowing a child to follow its own
path even though it is not what they believe is the best way
forward but will honour the child�s choices ahead of their
own determinations. Equally a child also creates its parents
out of its own needs and perceptions and can take much of
its adult life to
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unravel what it has created.

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We see the world through our own particular set of biased

glasses and although others can effect us dramatically it is
our own perception that matters, not anyone else�s.
o

It is worth understanding why we cannot intrinsically lose

energy. Lets say it were possible for a being to project onto
someone and lose their energy to that other person. This
would create a depletion of consciousness resulting in one
person being less than they are and the other becoming
greater than they were.
g

This can appear to happen when a person idolises a famous

person, religious figure, pop star or president. This is a
shallow illusion and may result in the person at the centre
of attention feeling more important than others and
enjoying the adulation, but it in no way adds one iota of
consciousness to them that belongs to others.
c

The projected energies invariably all return home to their

projectors and all that has occurred is a temporary boost to
another�s ego.
a

Possibly the greatest dangers of projection, aside from

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family, friends, close relations, reside in the joining of
projections with many others and something monstrous
adhered to, which contaminates the field of mass
consciousness. Nazi Germany for example. When such a
group power is invoked it becomes increasingly difficult to
reclaim our own particular tiny part of it and often we do
things as a result of a mass hypnosis which we would never
contemplate on our own.

Advertising is the art of the manipulation of projections,

constructing ideas for the perceiver that they did not have
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say about. Politics and religion do the same thing.

As no man can truly be an island we dive into the great sea

of desires, accumulating beliefs and assumptions about
everything. Most of these things have been projected onto
us and we have accepted them without question.

The imperative for us all is to become aware of and

question these projections and begin to see our true self in
this magic hall of mirrors.

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CHAPTER 6
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LIFE�MOVEMENT
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Life and movement are the same thing, that which does not
move is not living. The great UNMANIFEST does not
move, it just simply is. On the other hand the great
MANIFEST always has a beginning and an end. Indeed all
living things have no alternative but to move and this
movement must follow the immutable laws of evolution.

To know why the UNMANIFEST expressed out of Itself

the living moving Universe with its myriad bands of
existence is to attempt to know GOD.

As we evolve we will begin to see and understand the

�why� of everything more clearly. I like think that it may
very well be the actual process of life itself that holds the
key to the Divine purpose. This gives validity to every
single moment of existence at whatever stage it may be, at
however primitive or complex. Love is the binding
substance uniting all of Creation.

Because we cannot create life we can only get a tiny

glimpse of the love that our Creator has for all of its
creations. Our attempts at love can only be incredibly
shallow when compared with this intrinsic bonding,
Mystics who penetrate through to this bliss state albeit for a
moment are overwhelmed by the Oneness of all things
saturated in Love.

When the soul sets out it, spends the first half of its journey
ploughing through the darkness. Along the way it
accumulates many overcoats of experience that separate it
further from the Source. When eventually the human stage
is reached we begin to become self aware, conscious of self
and prepare for the long journey home. This involves
making positive and negative choices, choosing the paths
that suit us best. In our current stage of third density
experience here on Earth we determine our orientation
before going on to fourth density positive or fourth density
negative. No being can graduate into the next density
unless it has completed all experience on the previous level.
That time of choice is said to be occurring now. Beings
who have not experienced full satiation in third density will
continue on another planetary body suited to their
experiential needs.

The illusion of separateness is responsible for much of the

pain we are working through, the Lucifer principle so to
speak. As nothing can exist outside of GOD then it is an
illusion to think that something that is part of Creation can
ever be outside it. However beings can and do choose their
path whether positive or negative in order that the full
possibility of all experience can be lived through.

Being on a third density planet means that beings are in

conflict due to their orientation. This means wars are
inevitable in the cauldron of emotions that swirl around us.
Positive beings by their nature are at odds with negative
beings. Positive meaning those who are Service to Others,
thinking of others at least half of the time and negative
being Service to Self who think of themselves ninety
percent of the time.

In general STO believe in sharing and caring while the STS

believe in control and domination. This makes our current
existence on this Planet fraught with difficulty, a hard and
harsh schoolroom that can culminate in the very destruction
of our Planet as technological developments can be
misused. Esoteric literature states that the Earth will not be
so destroyed but will be a future home for fourth density
STO beings.
S

Thankfully fourth density STO and fourth density STS

cannot exist together and are separated onto suitable
separate worlds to avoid endless conflict. Eventually it is
said in the higher densities the two separate strands
culminate as the journey of the soul heads nearer home.

Getting back to the nature of life itself, it is evident that

there are three aspects to every living being.

That which comprises the being, the world or environment

where the being moves around and finally the greater body
that contains it. In more detail:

Microcosmos = That which comprises a body, atoms

molecules and cells.

Mesocosmos = The planet or body that sustains the

being comprising animals plants

minerals and an atmosphere.

Macrocosmos = The Universe [body of GOD]

It is as difficult for a microcosmic being to understand the

body in which it resides as it is for a mesocosmic being to
understand the macrocosmic being. However all exist
connected to each other according to Divine law and each
part no matter how small or large is essential to the
existence of the living being.

CHAPTER 7
C

ILLUSION V REALITY

In this chapter I will attempt to summarise the previous

chapters by using commonly accepted understandings
against the truth or reality as I see it. To do this I will use
the concept of illusion versus reality.

The first grand illusion�. Death, that anything can really

die, no longer exist, be no more.
There can be no death in the above terms, only
transmutation of one form into other forms according to the
movement of one state to another. No aspect of the material
world can totally cease to exist although its outer form is
changed and may break down into other elements or
combinations of elements. So even the physical world is
essentially eternal never losing any minute part of itself.
e

The second grand illusion�. As humans we have only one

life then die, if not religious we are totally absorbed into
matter and are no more, if religious we go to an after state,
termed heaven, hell or whatever and meet our maker.
t

I have suggested here ,according to ancient wisdom, that

we are as humans made up of six other bodies or states
aside from the
a

physical. This is very apparent to mystics and is accurately

outlined in esoteric literature, often called the Chakras,
each a centre or vortex in the living beings body. When the
physical falls away it goes to the next state often termed the
astral plane. The being permeates through to the point in
the spirit worlds that satiates it before once again
reincarnating into the physical world again. I will also add
here that some beings have their spiritual homes in other
Star Systems and Galaxies and will return to these once the
physical vehicle has ceased.
p

The third grand illusion�� We are separate from GOD.

T

Although having free will and feeling separate in individual

bodies, it is impossible for us to be ever removed from our
b
Creator. GOD is everything that exists and everything that
does not exist or is not in manifestation. There can be no
way around it. No other GOD or family of GODS exists.
God is unified in its totality. All that is and is not and we
are, however minute, part of that. Although it boggles our
imagination, as this is too infinitely small and too infinitely
great to get our heads around, yet GOD is completely there
in every component of existence. This is the Law of One.

The fourth grand illusion��.. We can create life.

As previously mentioned only GOD can create life.

Humans can feel that they create new life in conception,
and the birth of a child which holds their DNA and genetic
makeup. On deeper examination it becomes apparent that
they can only be vehicles for the incoming being. Your
children are not your children but a continuing opportunity
of an incoming being to experience the

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physical world. Most parents are imbued with a love

injection that enables them to care deeply for their
offspring and this is very necessary for the eventual care
and well being of the being coming in who is in a
completely vulnerable state. Yet they cannot ever own the
child, ever lay claim to the soul of the child, or have the
right to determine it as their own property.

Even in laboratories if a child is cloned or physical

components juxtaposed to supposedly create new life,
without the decision of the incoming spirit to reside in said
vehicle, it will remain hollow shell, void of consciousness.
At best we can only manipulate matter and have therein the
divine responsibility to do no harm or suffer the
consequences if we do. If life could be created by artificial
methods then GOD would cease to exist as there would
have to be more than one GOD.
h

The fifth grand illusion�..That we have another half that is

external to us and must seek it, in order to find completion.
e

If this were so we would only be half of a being instead of a

whole being. It is true that we are born into this world with
a particular sexual orientation correspondent to our need for
growth using the particular vehicle we inhabit. In no way
however are we incomplete as a being. Our essential soul
being is androgynous and only requires polarity in order to
experience the full gamut of male and female attributes.
Each male has an equal and opposite female part and each
female has an equal and opposite male part. Through the
process of myriad lifetimes in
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the physical and spirit worlds, experiencing every single

combination of male and female energies, we eventually
evolve an understanding of our androgynous state. Even in
so called heterosexual relationships balances of these
energies occur so that equilibrium can be found. There is
no preferable sexual orientation, only a journey towards
understanding who we are in our totality, which once
achieved, enables us to manifest true love for another, for
then we know they are one with us.
t
The sixth grand illusion��.Others are to blame for what
happens to me.

It is easy to fall into this trap and there is no doubt that

history shows great crimes perpetrated against the innocent.
Indeed our present state has grown from thousands of years
of manipulation and abuse by a few against the many. Yet
who knows the bigger picture?, the journey of a being
through time and all of its positive and negative acts. If
reincarnation did not exist as a divine truth then of course
evil could go unanswered and criminals get away with their
crimes. As we have explored previously every action
creates an equal and opposite reaction and is compensated
for even over aeons of time. No one gets away with
anything although in a small life it might appear so. What is
important here is to focus on our own reaction to harm
done to us. Some will turn the other cheek, others will take
up arms. This is all acceptable under free will and personal
choice and a necessary part of our evolutionary process. If
we make a mistake and perpetrate great harm on others
then we will undergo the process of unravelling this energy
through future experience. When we look at beings, we
often jump to

judgement on very little knowledge and become righteous

very quickly. On examination of the deeper story and
karmic layers the greater truth is told.
The seventh grand illusion�. We are judged by GOD

Or if atheist by our peers.

It is not the remit of any living being to judge another.

GOD does not need to judge or condemn or forgive, for we
are part of God, none of less significance than another. It is
true when crimes are committed human laws intervene and
keep order, yet they cannot judge someone, only restrict or
terminate there movements on this planet through
incarceration or execution. Only when a being senses that
what they have done is wrong can they truly be remorseful
and prepare for true compensation, sometimes in a future
life.

Every living being can only then judge themselves in the

true sense and reach their own levels of forgiveness and
compassion. Even in the higher spirit worlds the sanctity of
a beings own understanding is maintained sometimes to
that beings own pain and punishment in the lower astral
worlds. After all there is no escape from oneself.

CHAPTER 8
EVOLUTION
AND
THE BIRTH OF THE SOUL

Having shown that even the physical Universe is

effectively eternal and cannot die, only being capable of
transmuting and changing form, we are now ready to
contemplate why in fact a physical Universe exists in the
first place.

It is accepted by even our narrow scientific understandings

that there is a process of evolution in the origins of the
Universe. From the Big Bang to the gaseous state to the
solid state to the plant state to the animal state to the human
state. Each stage following on from the previous one.

As mentioned previously time has no significance here.

Aeons and aeons of time can occur to create a new stage of
evolution and if this is what it takes, so be it.

It is obvious to the discerning mind that there is an

intelligence working here, even in the most rudimentary
stages, for each step has purpose and intent.

As gaseous states whirl around and coalesce to become

solid spheres that orbit around central suns, suns that have
also coalesced into dynamic balls of light and radiation, it
is apparent that everything even in the physical Universe
has purpose and is mathematically correct.
h

As planets move and change in time, organic life appears

out of elemental pools, leading to where we are today.
o

Simply put each step leads to the next step. Gaseous to

solid, solid to organic, organic to animal, animal to human
and human to higher human and so on.
a

When we look around we see even in our own tiny Solar

System a variety of planets , although alive in the sense that
they exist, being unable to sustain intelligent physical life
and therefore deemed dead worlds. Who is to say that these
planets are either more evolved or less evolved than the
Earth having undergone their own circuits of evolution
when Earth itself was a so called �dead� world. From what I
understand from esoteric literature there are only two
planets in our current System in third density at this
particular time.
p

Let me explain what I mean by density. A density is a

singular complete phase of evolution. So first density is the
mineral kingdom, second density is the plant kingdom,
third density is the animal/human kingdom, fourth density
is the true human kingdom and so on. It is said that there
are seven densities in all corresponding with the seven
bodies in each living being. Planets and the life thereon
have a symbiotic relationship and each need the other in the
evolutionary process. A thought occurs to me that when all
the rounds or densities are
t
experienced in a Solar System the System is then ready to
transmute back into its latent state, possibly by condensing
into a black hole and becoming the raw material for future
Systems. This I can only speculate on.

We currently reside in the third density of Planet Earth in

the animal/human kingdom. I accept the mystics
understanding that we are entering into fourth density as
Planet Earth prepares itself for a major evolutionary leap
into its next phase of existence. I will discuss this in greater
detail later.

Although everything that exists is intensely alive whether it

appear inert or not, not all Planets have third density
ensouled physical beings on them as mentioned previously.

Planet Earth however has myriad life forms culminating in

the ensouled human.

The mineral, plant and animal kingdoms have elements of

soul energy or partials to be more exact. Over aeons of time
these partials begin to coalesce in the higher animal
kingdom till they unify in one complete unit and when the
moment is right the human soul is sparked and will
continue from here on out to the final immersion in the
Creator. The soul is never dependant upon the body in fact
it is the other way round. Souls inhabit bodies like a driver
inhabits a car. Souls are self aware, complete unto
themselves, indivisible, indestructible and eternal. They
occur at the culmination of long evolutionary steps and
could be said to be the intelligent process behind these
steps. They are focused, self aware points of the Creator
and have free will. They inhabit bodies, on this planet
humans, on others, reptilian, cetacean, insectoid and so on
depending on the
d

suitable body for the worlds they are on. It is said that the
mammalian is only about twelve per cent of ensouled
beings in this Galaxy alone.
b

Souls also can travel anywhere in Creation and experience

existence in many different vehicles according to their
desire to learn, serve, and experience. However many souls
will stay on a particular round or cycle of time on one
planet in order to be with loved ones and aid in that
particular planets evolution.
p

In the early stages when the being is primitive it will

incarnate almost instantly. When the being has reached the
higher human stage its sojourn in the spirit worlds is far
longer than its physical lifetime. This is because the soul no
longer needs the full saturation of the physical schoolroom
and is preparing itself for its evolution into the higher
spiritual realms where no physical reincarnation is
n
necessary.

The personality of the ensouled human does not necessarily

reflect the soul. Indeed it could be said that the ego is often
at variance with the soul and this is a subject I will address
in detail at a later stage.
i

Ensouled beings who commit suicide with the intention of

c
reaching nothingness are unfortunately misguided as once
r
the soul has sparked it cannot ever be transmuted or
annihilated. It is with us to the very end which at this stage
of understanding is beyond our finite imaginations. This
then makes it a huge gift from our Creator and binds us to
the Godhood in the most intimate way, for now we are as
GODS and essentially feel God intrinsically. We could be
likened to the self aware thoughts of GOD, the purpose
behind the aeons and aeons of evolutionary steps, the
sacred and most treasured offspring of a Father
s

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/Mother, intensely loved and becoming aware of how to

reciprocate that love.
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CHAPTER 9
C

THE HUMAN CONDITION

T

After aeons of time a Planet eventually arrives at a point

when it is ready to accommodate incarnating souls. Souls
are divine sparks of the Creator and cannot be extinguished
r destroyed once they have ignited. This usually occurs at
or
o
the mid point of the Animal kingdom. Planet Earth has
chosen the mammalian humanoid form as the vehicle of
choice for the inhabitation of such souls. It is possible that
other grand ensouled forms existed on this Planet before us
but there is little evidence left of their time here. Once a
form has outlived its usefulness it will transmute into
another suitable vehicle. This is said to be happening now
as we prepare for the higher human kingdom in fourth
density.

As a side note to the evolution of forms, it is obvious that

this Planet has had help in speeding along the forms that we
see today. Indeed Neanderthal man provided the raw
material for the eventual human shape we currently inhabit.
Left to its own devices and without the direct input of
higher beings we would still be living in caves in a rather
crude body.

The form is only useful in terms of its experiential

possibilities and its compatability for the environment it
will inhabit. The next human form which has already been
created is waiting in

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the wings for the transition into our next stage.

In third density it is very evident that humans are still very

much in the animal human stage. The massive imbalances
in civilised understanding across this world where most live
lives of hardship and poverty whilst the privileged few
control and command us. Conflicts are a natural result of
such chaos and the reason for this I will explain further on.
Third density is the fiery cauldron in which the soul is
moulded.

At the beginning of this grand stage of soul development ,

beings are self aware but only on primitive levels. Basic
survival like foraging for food and having rudimentary
shelter. There are relatively short intervals in the adjacent
spirit worlds as the being develops greater consciousness of
him or herself and their surroundings. Eventually new
evolutionary possibilities occur, imagination becomes more
active and reason begins to develop whilst relationships
become more subtle. Surroundings become more
sophisticated and arts and religious interests begin.

It takes many thousands of lifetimes to get to this stage.

Each step is fundamentally important as it leads from the
previous point to the new point. The being must undergo all
necessary experience in each step before going on to the
next.

To give some idea of the enormity of this process lets look

at the concept of astrology. There are twelve sun signs
covering one whole year. A being must experience each
aspect of every sun sign, in male and female bodies in a
multitude of cycles from the primitive to the refined
consciousness. The tarot also shows this as a vast journey
through archetypelic experience. Each one of us correspond
to a particular point until we have mastered all

of third density.

Mixed in with this we have the development of orientation

which further complicates the matter. It is obvious that
some beings choose a path contrary to the religious and
moral ideal whilst others fervently think of, and serve
others in a loving caring
o way.

This is due to a division in the paths which occurs in the

human kingdom and this path determines our future
evolution into the higher densities.
e

Simply put, there are those who choose to serve others and
there are those who choose to serve themselves. There is
also a third category and that belongs to those who vacillate
between these two points and are currently undecided. It is
said that the STO represent around thirty percent of
ensouled beings on the Earth at this time, STS represent
under ten percent and the remaining sixty per cent are
u
undecided.

As can be understood this is a complicated mixture and the

cause of much conflict and strife. It is the reason why wars
are inevitable and people suffer great hardships through the
oppression of others.
o

The power of STS should not be underestimated despite

their small percentage as it takes only a tiny few committed
STS to dominate and control vast multitudes of people. Our
history shows they have had very effective for many
thousands of years up to and including today. Many
programmes are put in place by them in the political and
religious arena to dominate the thinking of the unsuspecting
populace. If our true repressed history were exposed, most
M
decent people would find it hard to believe and be
extremely upset at being duped by those they
e
look up to.
l

Whatever orientation all must act within the divine laws

mentioned in an earlier chapter. However when a definite
path is chosen the being will then continue to learn its
lessons in that orientation, not just here but in the next
density as well.
d

As the Earth is transmuting into fourth density even as I

write this and is about to have major changes to its body as
well, only beings that are STO will graduate into the New
Earth. This is because the Higher Beings who manage these
movements know that if STO and STS were to continue
alongside each other there would be constant conflict with
no real growth possible for either side.
n

The STS who graduate will go to an STS planet that is

suited to their evolutionary growth. The undecided will not
be able to continue here but be moved to a Planet that is
already being prepared for their arrival.
a

Our reality in third density as stated previously is

controlled to a great extent by powerful STS beings but
there is also a greater control exerted by the Council of
Worlds who protect our matrix from extraordinary
intrusion or harm, leaving us to exercise our free will
without bias or advice that would take away our divine
right to grow. Consequently we are protected in some ways
from interference but are also left to figure things out for
ourselves and to have the possibility of being proved
wrong. This makes our current stage of evolution very
w

e
interesting indeed as the element of doubt pervades all
things.

Serving others does not necessarily mean that we are

doormats for others to wipe their feet on. Although Service
to Other being will use his/her heart and mind for the
greater benefit of

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humanity and is often bemused at the selfishness of those

who do harm intentionally.

As Service to Self works on the dynamic of mastery and

slavery it exerts massive control over others and their
environments. On the slave side it sees itself as a lackey to
those in control but cares little for others in its peer group.
Two elements of the same type that feed each other. As can
be witnessed by our present controlled system, they do their
work extremely well and have had power over this Planet
for the last twelve thousand years.

Yet the development of healthcare and human rights point

to strong Service to Other elements breaking through.
Regretfully it is always a battle in our current mixed
orientation.

Earth also has accepted beings who have come from higher
densities. This would be a tour of duty for them and an
opportunity to serve in a very fundamental way. It is also
risky as they can be caught into the material world in a way
that can at times shift their orientation. I believe that this is
relatively uncommon.
These beings are called starseeds or wanderers and there
are many millions here today due to the transmutation of
Earth from third density to fourth density. This has also
been made possible due to the Earth moving into positive
fourth and not negative fourth. As a side note, fourth
density is said to take four times longer than third in
evolutionary terms and takes the being into such aspects as
telepathy, awareness of the spirit worlds, the ability to see
the auric nature of another and also to travel to distant
constellations. It is a feature of third density that physical
travel can only occur within our own solar system and no
m
matter

how hard we may try, we are quarantined to our own

system. Star Trek does not reflect our current status but a
possible future state in fourth density.
p

Beings in third density cannot see fourth density beings

unless they choose to be seen and there are many beings
here today surrounding the planet in space and on the Earth
itself with a multitude of shapes and aspects, hidden from
us, guiding and preparing us for the great transition into
fourth density positive.
f

Planets exhibit the densities of the beings that inhabit them

and have a symbiotic relationship with these beings. There
is a strong relationship between the Planets stage of
evolution and the beings that reside on it. As a side note
there are at least two or three other third density races
living underground but only very tiny populations. They
will cease to be here also unless they graduate into fourth
w

r
density after the transition.

One of the visiting fourth density groups has responsibility

for the next form that will inhabit the Earth. This will be a
mixture of current human DNA and theirs. These beings
are in large ships surrounding the planet and some are
acclimatising to earth conditions in various portions of the
globe in order to get used to the atmosphere of this world.

The end of third density is a time of choosing for all the

ensouled beings here and is a very exciting time. Many
humans have had long cycles of experience here and their
home is changing. The grand illusion that we are alone in
the Universe is about to be shattered along with our ego
concept of being in charge and being able to dominate other
life forms. In fact the human as we now understand him to
be is about to become extinct just as Neanderthal man did,
but in its place will be a

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human with huge intellect and spiritual understanding that

will care for his/her world and its fellow beings with total
love and spiritual understanding.

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CHAPTER 10
RELATIONSHIPS

Once a soul has sparked in third density it enters into a

classroom of connected experience. The vital core of this
experience is our interaction with others, so much so, that
even at the end of third density itself a choice is made
whether to be service to other or service to self.

It is how we interact with others that determines our

individual step on the evolutionary ladder, making
relationships the central theme of our existence.

As has been shown earlier each being is in fact complete

unto itself. Why then the need to interact with others?.
Firstly we are born into this world in a male of female
body. In fact our spirit has an innate imbalance and a desire
to experience in a particular sexual aspect. Sometimes the
body is inhabited by a different sexual balance to the spirit
itself causing even greater challenges in the Earth life.

Let us imagine a clock face with the minute and hour hands
representing the male and female balance. A being comes
into the body with its own unique mixture of male and
female elements, it is at a particular point on the clock so to
speak.

It then has the sense that it must locate another who will
compensate this imbalance in order to have a feeling of
completion. This is of course an illusion but becomes
vitally important for the being to experience all it can in
this imbalanced state. There are also pre birth agreements
that set in so that the beings who enter our life fulfil
necessary roles in our own particular dramatic working out.

As written earlier the hidden aspect of our sexuality is

projected outwards and corresponds to the perfect partner
we seek. In the strongly projected state this can become
extreme as anyone who has had the anima or animus
experience will testify. True love of the unconditional kind
cannot be so selfish. It is only when we relate in a mature
way and love the other truly for themselves that we get a
glimpse of our and their true state.

The idealised love of another is really a reflection of the

other aspect of ourselves and therefore cannot be sustained
in an objective sense, yet this type of love is often
emphasised as being more vital than unconditional love. It
has huge excitement and commands total absorption but as
anyone who has experienced it will testify, it cannot last
long, as the reality of living with another will drain it of
fervour and vitality.

I will mention here the soul mate drama. Souls are part of a
family group, this in no way diminishes their unique
totality. Sometimes two beings from the same soul family
will connect on the Earth plane. They will be so completely
aware of each other that there would be no need to speak or
explain anything. They will be as one. This has its
drawbacks as it prohibits the beings from entering into the
difficult but rewarding drama of relating to others and
encouraging selfless action and growth. There is in fact
nothing to strive for so this state occurs only unusually.

For most of us relationships are fraught with difficulty as

being with another involves interaction with a world of
particular nuances that are foreign to us. This creates a
complex and often confusing field of interaction but is at
the kernel of our growth as ensouled beings, enabling us to
experience others with tolerance and understanding and
reaching for what is the eventual truth of the matter, that we
are all one and as we serve another we serve ourselves.

A being can only perceive another in its imbalanced state

according to its own unique makeup. Others exist in the
same way and this leads to the great dramas that unfold in
our interaction with others.

No one has the power to own or dissipate another being.

Abuses occur, and harm is done which has a compensatory
component but nothing of the soul of a being can ever be
reduced, broken, drained or dissolved in any way. This is
not of great reassurance to those who have been the victims
of huge abuse, be it mental, emotional or physical, but the
truth of the matter stands that even though the ego or
personality has experienced damage, the soul is always
intact and complete.

In the outer physical worlds there is the appearance of

injustice and harm done to others that is often in our minds
unforgivable. Yet on deeper examination and from a
spiritual point of view, taking in the full weight and energy
of a beings many thousands of lifetimes, what we see and
judge to be harm is the consequence of the being
experiencing growth from huge obstacles it has agreed to
create. Herein lies the dilemma of our too physical state
that sees only the surface of things. It is said
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that there are no accidents, no matter what age or how

innocent a being appears, that all is part of a greater story
for which we are unable in this state to know.
f

I will add here that crime deserves to be punished and laws

put in place to protect us are necessary, as we have a duty
to deal with matters as they effect us from our Earthly point
of view, and those who suffer, deserve our support and
compassion and understanding no matter what the deeper
circumstance may be.
c

Beings often incarnate in familiar groups where a different

aspect can be worked upon. The mother can be the
daughter in a future life, the son can be the father and so
on. Each time around a different component of the
relationship is worked upon often with the sense that we
know the person in a deeper way than just their status in
this life.
t

The purpose behind this complex web of relating is to fully

understand ourselves and by our interaction with others
achieve awareness of our male and female nature,
culminating eventually in the manifestation of our true
s
androgynous state as is set out in the Tarot card, The
W
World.
A bit like the agitation in the oyster creating a beautiful
pearl, each relationship takes us a step nearer to our true
self.

So our relationships with others is a reflective process, a bit

like a hall of mirrors where we see others but in reality only
see ourselves. Even the negative reflections are intimately a
part of ourselves and when we adjourn to the next world
the truth is revealed, sometimes much to our astonishment.
Relationships are the cosmic play on the grand stage of
Earth and they defeat us and reward us, they give us
sadness and joy, hatred and love and everything in
between.

CHAPTER 11

RUSSIAN DOLLS

Most of us deal with the most potent illusion of all.

Namely, that the matrix is in fact real, being unaware of our
true nature and purpose, the external world appears to
command us totally. To survive the physical environment
we are called upon literally to �dig to eat�.

We have a physical vehicle or body for a short time which

can be cumbersome and difficult to manage. There is
immense pressure to stay within the mainframe and accept
the illusion blindly and not to think it through. The
organism is programmed to survive at all costs and will
resist anything or anyone that threatens it.

In third density there occurs a closing down of gateways to

our wider reality. This is mainly due to each and every
being on this planet needing to concentrate on the life
lessons at hand. If we truly understood who we really are
and what we are connected to, a strong temptation could
arise to defer painful experiences thus slowing down our
evolutionary development.

There are essentially two types of ensouled beings aside

from the orientation stated earlier. Those within the matrix
who accept everything they are told without question and
those who

are aware there is a matrix and seek the windows and doors
to greater understanding.

This book will only encourage disdain from those in the

first category, who are unlikely to read it anyway, but will
provide an intuitive platform for those who tread further
outside accepted parameters. In time, those who have held
onto the accepted reality will become curious and tempt the
matrix. It is all a question of spiritual thirst and the
evolutionary step the being is on.

The Planet we inhabit has seven densities, just like us, we

currently witness only three of them. The Planet itself is
poised to enter its next evolutionary stage and will
transition into full blown fourth density very soon, some
say it is already happening. As mentioned previously it is
only possible for a being to see across its own density and
the densities on a lower level but impossible to see higher
more refined states. Humans currently represent a massive
cross section of evolutionary steps running the whole
gamut from early, young, mature to old.

Each human has within it seven planes of existence the

physical only being one part.

For those who are psychically sensitive it can be observed

that there are seven chakras or wheels driving our
physicality. These vibrate at a particular rate according to
the evolutionary step we reside upon. They are veritable
engines of our individual soul and profoundly state who we
are and what point we are on.

The earth itself has six other bodies beside the physical, all
existing in the now. Once the human physical body has
served its purpose it is absorbed back into the physical
body of the Earth but the soul aspect continues into the next
adjacent more

subtle spirit world. This is often called the astral. If we can

imagine spheres within spheres we can get some idea of the
vast nature of a planetary entity. A bit like a Russian doll
but with each doll being constituted of a more subtle atomic
nature. These worlds or states go far out into what we term
empty space.
e

When the human body is shed, the spirit that inhabited it

goes to the next adjacent world.
g

It will proceed through these worlds till it reaches the point

of total saturation. For each being this culminates in their
evolutionary capacity to manage more and more subtle
states till finally it curves around again to begin a new
cycle on the physical plane. If reincarnation did not exist
then nothing would make sense.
t

The astral is vast beyond our comprehension and takes each

returning consciousness into its folds enabling them to
refresh, recombine, understand their individual path and
assist those who are in great need both in the astral planes
and on the Earth. It has all of the reflected state of the Earth
and much more.
a

Once there we naturally gravitate to beings of like

consciousness and levels of conflict are dissipated.
Eventually a point is reached when the being feels the need
for the more exacting lessons of the material plane and
agrees to cycle in again.
a

This process is guided by our birthing guides and a

blueprint is put forward concentrating on the particular next
evolutionary step and the growth to be gained therein.
Factors taken into account are hereditary, genetic,
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environment, protagonists and the beings we often are
familiar with in our reincarnational
f
family. Once agreed, connection is made with the vehicle
that is already gestating in the Mothers womb. A bit like
diving into a deep pool, at the appropriate time, usually
around birth the union of body and soul occurs.
a

Now the being is in a rudimentary body that can only

accept levels of input from the soul according to its
physical growth. It is dependant and needy and requires the
support and care of parents to enable it to reach full soul
saturation which usually occurs in the late teens or early
twenties when the body is capable of sustaining the total
energy of the spirit/soul. Birth as we know it into this
world, actually only fully occurs when maturity is reached
and the body and soul completely unified. That is not to say
that the child has no experiential factor. Indeed the raw
blotting paper that an incomplete being presents, draws to it
the inks of experiences and consequences that herald the
life lessons that eventually have to be absorbed and
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assimilated.

At some future point the need for reincarnating into a

physical world will fade as the more subtle planes take us
closer to home.
c

From the too human perspective it may appear that there is

great injustice, that evil pervades our lives and takes hold
and destroys good people. This is far from the truth for
everything is very good and no part of Creation is lost or
forgotten or goes uncompensated.
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Love permeates all, binds the inner and outer worlds

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together so that each minute component and vast Galaxy is
held equally, sublimely balanced and intrinsically known
without mistake or blemish and without flaws.

CHAPTER 12

THE SECRET AGENDA

Never to be underestimated, the dark forces have, over all

of our recorded history, exacted their hold on this tiny
planet and its occupants. Yet they remain �unseen�.
invisible to all but a select few. They hand down there
legacy like a relay runner hands over his baton and
maintain the concept that they own us and can do what they
want with us.

It is unusual for a service to other being to penetrate their

fold as they are diametrically opposed to the concept of
caring for others, it has little or no meaning for them. As
mentioned previously, it only takes a small number of their
kind to manipulate and control the majority whom they
regard as useless unless serving their interests. They hold
power tightly through business, bureaucracies and religion.
Any aspect of humanity that might break through their
elaborate veneer is regarded as a threat and dealt with
ruthlessly. They prefer anonymity using their mass of foot
soldiers to serve them blindly and subserviently. Indeed
many good souls have sacrificed themselves on the bloody
altars of their purpose. Even today they are still relatively
invisible, using known
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names and key personnel to do their dirty work. They hold

a mighty pressure over those who dare to contradict them
and many succumb to their influence knowing the
inevitable consequences of challenge.
i

They gain their power from the negative side of life and
this has its own feeding mechanism which sustains them
totally. They have no conscience for harm done but suck
the life�s blood from others to achieve their agendas.
t

This is the mighty counterbalance to the light side and is an

accepted part of the Creative principle.
a

Although at higher levels of evolution, they are aware of

the Divine Laws, which even they are subject to, they
regard the price paid as worthwhile and a truly committed
service to selfer is not susceptible to moral arguments much
to the amazement of a service to other being.
t
p
In history they have controlled most of the great
civilizations from ancient Egypt to modern America. From
time to time their power has faded and we are now in a
time where other matters [rather than the control of
humanity] are of greater significance and taking up their
h
total attention. Regretfully they hold the knowledge of our
iminent future and have refused to share it with the rest of
h
humanity.

On minor levels, service to selfers seek power over others,

whether it be in relationships or in the workplace. They can
act the role of the manager or chief executive or the
subservient follower who willingly betrays others in order
to impress his or her master.
t

Not all people in power or subservience are of this ilk but

these beings are particularly fed by the excesses of egotism
and servitude.
a

It only takes one such ruthless self server to contaminate

thousands of lives and they see it as their divine purpose to
do so.
d

So what have they hidden from us at this point in Earths

fragmented history?
f

There is a mountain of information on this subject, of

which, I will only touch the more significant points.
w

In the mid part of the twentieth century with the

development of nuclear weapons this planet was deemed of
interest to the Council of Worlds. There were two reasons
why such an interest occurred. Firstly we were now capable
of destroying not only all life on this Planet but we could
potentially destroy the Planet itself. Secondly as the Earth
was deemed ready for transition to Fourth Density in the
near future it was necessary to determine whether it would
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be a service to self world or a service to other world.
b

Greater contact from other worlds was agreed upon and a

vote taken to ascertain the true future orientation of Earth.
The vote when counted, taken at a soul level, was for a
service to other world and this was taken subconsciously
from all the beings existent at that time.
f

The U.S. top personnel and military were invited to

participate in dialogue from both sides of the Extra
Terrestrial equation so that true balance could be
maintained and the element of doubt and free will be
honoured. The U.S. chose to batten down the hatches and
not divulge any of the information given to them at that
time. Indeed they went further and tried to disseminate
technologies which were supposedly freely given by
negative E.T. entities with the hope that their and their
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children�s future could be secured and their dominance of

the Earth could continue. To hell with the �useless
t

eaters�. The powers that be, feeding off the Illuminati

control, determined that humanity as a whole be kept in the
dark about their iminent future.
d

Roswell and the E.T.s that were recovered were responsible

for the initial introduction to off world civilizations.
Thereafter much was communicated to a powerful few, not
just American, who then made the choice to keep such
information from others. Not only did they determine this
n
but they removed ruthlessly any who weakened as a
terrifying lesson to others.
t
The vital message that was given from both sides of the
T

E.T. orientation was that the Earth would experience, in the

early part of the twenty first century, a ninety degree pole
shift causing the demise of up to ninety five per cent
Of humans and animal life.
O

They even explained how this would come about and

invited the powers at the time to check this out for
t
themselves.

Out of this core information NASA, arose with a space

programme cloaked in a hidden agenda. To be fair to the
personnel at NASA, they corresponded to the usual
pyramid power structure with only the chosen few knowing
what was really going on.
w

The reason why NASA became vitally important was that

through satellite exploration of our Solar System and
beyond, verification could be made of the information
g
given.

A key component of these earlier communications was that

our Solar System was subject to the intrusion of a Planet
four times the size of Earth, this Planet would
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come through the inner portion of our System and be

responsible for creating the pole shift.
r

Sure enough this Planet was found in the early eighties

exactly where it was supposed to be and it was heading our
t
way. Now armed with the truth of what they had been told,
a decision had to be made whether to alert mankind.
True to their pedigree they opted for the easy way out, and
decided to prepare shelters for themselves and their lackeys
and look for alternatives places where survival might occur
even on other Planets or the Moon. Anyone, and there are
many, who actively and scientifically pursued investigation
into this matter and were to be deemed a security risk were
summarily executed. All of the promises made by the
negative E.T.s turned to dust, as they were bound to do,
leaving them holding a very uncomfortable baby, which is
about to turn around and bite them.
a

Under the guise of the Cold War and the other more
vehement wars that have taken place since the second
world war [which was driven by a vortex of extreme
negativity on all sides] programmes were put in place to
prepare for what is now regarded in the higher echelons of
power as inevitable. Bunkers were built all across America
and in many places in Russia too, for the privileged few in
order that they survive and maintain their control in the
aftertime. The attack on the twin towers was a poorly
camouflaged attempt at creating an artificial enemy so that
the oilfields in the Middle East could be controlled and
used post pole shift for the advantage of this powerful elite.
u

It is extraordinary that these few still hold sway over our

I

reality but their days are numbered too and there will be no
escape allowed and no privilege given, indeed they will
become vilified and hunted down as the truth begins to
dawn on the public when signs are seen in the sky and no
answers forthcoming. The very bunkers they have so
a

a
elaborately constructed with taxpayers money will be their
tombs and those unfortunate souls who were duped into
serving them, will turn on their masters when times get
really rough.
r

In the next chapter, I will focus on the intruder planet and

what it means to us now and our future from the physical
and soul point of view.
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CHAPTER 13
C

OLD ENDINGS
NEW BEGINNINGS
N

It is a recurring theme of religions, psychics, mystics,

Mayans, Native American, channelled teachings, new age
understanding and our recorded history whether biblical or
u

a
otherwise, that we are approaching the End Times. Most
speak about a new beginning after a period of huge turmoil
and all have their own particular slant on what is about to
h
happen.

None speak of the end of the Earth where it is totally

annihilated and devoid of life, rather they express the
opposite, that the lion will lie down with the lamb,
ascension will take place for the chosen and the Earth will
begin a Golden Age. So the term End Times is a misnomer
and very few people really believe in the total extinction of
the Earth.
t

That said, the transition to this paradisiacal world comes

with a price. In Biblical terms the evil ones go to hell to
join Lucifer, the chosen few go to God to sit at his right
hand. There is much said about punishment by God for the
evil that man has done and no mercy will be shown to the
w
wicked.

As in most of these stories, a little truth has been spread

thinly over a broad spectrum of recorded history.
t

Yes there will be cataclysms and upheavals and a parting of

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the ways but no being is condemned or lost in this process,
for as explained earlier, we are all immortal and cannot
truly die.
t

It is also absurd that God would intervene with a

judgemental approach to its own creations, so the concept
of a Jehovah character is very primitive and for those stuck
in orthodox theologies.
i
The truth of the matter is really quite simple. The Earth if
looked at objectively has a chequered history, a stop, start,
Planet that goes for a while and develops and the suddenly
finds itself back in primitive mode having to start over
a
again.

Even in our tiny recorded history, which only represents the

tip of the iceberg, there are noted times of massive
upheaval and cataclysm, such as the Flood, the Exodus and
whole civilisations wiped out like the Minoans and the
ancient Egyptians and many others.

The reason for these dramatic shifts in our progression on

this Planet, point to an external event that occurs on a
cyclical basis every three thousand, six hundred and fifty
years or so.
y

These changes occurred at times when man had no

capability to destroy himself and they always happened due
to an event witnessed by all occurring in the sky.

We are once again approaching the end of a 3650 cycle and

the precipitator of the ninety degree pole shift that is about
to occur has entered into our Solar System in 2003 as
predicted and foretold by the E.T.�s

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This is the biggest secret withheld from humanity and the

cover up is set to continue right up to the event itself.

A planet four times the size of the Earth came in on a thirty

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degree angle to the plane of the ecliptic and was repulsed
by the Sun, it gradually has been making its way just under
the ecliptic for the past five years. It has slowed to a snails
pace as it attempts to penetrate through our Solar System.
When it gets to approximately four million miles from
Planet Earth it will finally work its way through the Ecliptic
and continue on its way.

Even at four million miles, being four times the size of the
Earth and having a gravitational power twenty five times
stronger, it grabs the earth in its magnetic clasp, stopping
rotation and drawing Earth towards it till finally a conflict
must occur between its and the Suns hold on us. The Sun
wins out as it must but in that awkward moment of conflict
the Earths mantle is at variance to its molten core, resulting
in one of the most catastrophic pole shifts this Planet has
experienced in its history.

From an ego point of view the result of this pole shift is

devastating causing the immediate end of ninety per cent of
the human population and thereafter a further five to eight
per cent due to shock, starvation and disease.

Survival will be difficult and communities set up to sustain

the few that remain.

It is predicted that within one hundred years of the shift, not

one single human will remain.

So where is the Golden Age?

The answer lies in what has already been happening since

the

Early nineteen eighties. A vast hybrid programme was

undertaken by one particular group of E.T.�s who have
been called upon by the Council of Worlds to create the
new human body, using a mixture of their and our DNA.
These new bodies are already taking souls/spirits from the
Earth and waiting in the wings for the Great Transition to
occur. Beings who die from the human state and are
deemed fourth density service to other will also reincarnate
in hybrid bodies, while third density development will have
reached a cul de sac and not be chosen by future beings to
incarnate into.

In a nutshell service to self who graduate into fourth

density will go to a Planet suited to them. The undecided
which are the majority will be moved by Great Spirits to a
Planet already being prepared for them and the Service to
Other who graduate to fourth density will have the choice
of continuing on Earth or going to a Planet of their
choosing. Not one single life is lost or ignored

There are many here today who have had previous

transitions from other planetary bodies and this will just be
the next evolutionary step in there souls journey. For those
who have deep connections with this Planet there will be a
profound sense of loss particularly in the understanding that
the current human form is about to become extinct. Being
replaced by a better more improved model.

As mentioned previously forms are only necessary for the

optimum amount of growth that can be acquired in a
particular world. Our extra terrestrial friends represent a
huge variance in shapes colours forms, much we would
consider monstrous. From their point of view we are not all
that pretty either.

It is said that once the earth transitions to fourth density it

will no longer be terrorised by its nemesis as it will remain
in third density and cannot effect cannot effect the atomic
structure of fourth density. This will be a most welcome
relief for this long suffering world and for the beings who
have witnessed these massive Earth changes in the past.

There are many recorded sightings of the above, even by

NASA who make errors in its attempt to cover up. Coming
in from the eye of the Sun it will remain camouflaged till
the final weeks. Timing is not known but many think it will
happen in two thousand and twelve to coincide with the
Mayan calendar. I expect it to be earlier than that, possibly
mid two thousand and ten for various reasons. It is for
everyone to determine their own path during these
extraordinary times on the physical Earth. Most importantly
to understand that we are immortal beings, we have chosen
this lifetime at this particular time. Some of us are part of
the hybrid programme giving our DNA for the construction
of the new form that is about to inhabit this Planet. Some
will chose the negative path as others determine that they
cannot decide and will continue their third density
experience elsewhere and others will continue to serve
others and be proud forerunners of the new human
condition. Whatever our orientation, we are all counted and
cared for by our Creator and the many multitude of beings
that surround us, not only from other star systems but from
the depths of the spirit worlds that envelop us.
The intruder Planet leaves our System to come quickly
around again in seven years at a point on the other side of
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the Earth causing little disruption. It then heads off again to

its second Parent, Dark Sun for its 3650 year cycle and yes,
it is inhabited by third density beings some of whom will
graduate into fourth density Earth hybrid bodies when they
shed their current bodies.

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CHAPTER 14

THE LAW OF ONE

There are many laws governing things and they are

immutable, but there is one law that permeates every aspect
of All That Is, it is steeped in Love and vibrates in every
particle. It pervades the tiniest aspect of all atomic
structures and is evident in the mightiest of Galaxies. It has
its home in the six grand spiritual Universes and at every
point knows itself. It is the all pervasive Law of One.

Divisions occur to enable us to grow faster. The endless

dualities of the Earth Plane with there innate oppositions
and diametrically differing aspects often ending in conflict
and termination of physical vehicles as in war and
premeditated or natural disease programmes. The
classroom that we inhabit is crucially real due to resistance
not acquiescence.

This is the dilemma of the apparent state of things. It is not

real, not really real, not what is really happening. Humans
even have two brains polarised against each other. The
outer, day awake conscious brain which spends most of its
time dealing with conundrums of the fragile and shortly
lived ego and the subconscious mind that knows really
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barely listened to as the dramatic needs and demands of the

personality overwhelm it.

Yet all this conflict provides the rich manure soil that the
soul/spirit grows in, and on this tiny Planet, a veritable
grain of sand on the vast shore of Creation, the growth is
rapid and deeply meaningful. It could be because of our
stop, start status and the regular disruption at the hands of
extra solar events, but at its heart the Earth holds a dynamic
key to the most important journey we make. Namely, to
know ourselves.

At some point it will come, we will walk out from our

homes and see the Universe as it really is and at that point
we will know we are all ONE.

Each component of our reality is totally connected to our

being, not just in an objective way but in an intrinsic way
so profoundly connected, we are actually it.

The time will come when those who appear separate to us

are in fact another aspect of us along with the worlds and
places they inhabit, combining the microcosmic,
mesocosmic and the vast macrocosmos into One vibrant
dynamic gestalt.

Till that time let us enjoy the drama, the cosmic play,
knowing that we are a tiny part of GOD, yet GOD all the
same and every moment of our existence is loved,
understood and accepted totally.

It is a simple thought, why do I exist at all? It could be that

I easily could not exist and would not know anything, be
anywhere, never permeate the planes of existence, never
know fear or hatred love or joy. Yet I exist as you do and
am a being on a step of evolution like you are and this is
the reason for GOD, as we know ourselves so God knows
GOD and we at

every stage, One with God.