Teachings on Focus and Presence BY YUKI KO AMAYA PHOTOS BY ALANA GREGORY layoga_july2011_text.indd 28 5/07/11 9:37 AM Mohammed Shahabaz & Alexander Kutschera, practicing kattarah (name of the dagger) payattu. layoga_july2011_text.indd 29 5/07/11 9:37 AM 30 LAYOGA JULY/AUGUST 2011 Focus, Yukiko! I hear senior teacher Rameshs voice calling out as I leap forward in the softening afternoon light, momentarily blinded by the slanting shaft of sunlight. My breath sounds rough and ragged and sweat is pouring down my face; with my gaze xed straight ahead, I stamp my right foot on the red clay oor of the kalari (the room where this art is practiced). Crouching low I cut the air with my right hand, step out with my left foot and stretch both arms forward. His command confuses me. But I am focused! Cant he see how my eyes are so concentrated? The thought moves through me, creating a ripple. We are in the heat of practicing the Kalarippayattu Shakti Form One. I feel how tired I am as I kick, leap, and turn following the instructions coming in rapid succession. I was rst introduced to Kalarippayattu, a South In- dian martial art, at a Yoga studio in Los Angeles when two German practitioners, Gerhard Schmid and Kai Hitzer, led an afternoon workshop. I was mesmerized. They moved through the warm ups and sun saluta- tions with the smooth grace of tigers. The freedom, power, and balance of the leg swings were exhilarating to practice. But it was the short stick practice they demonstrated that really captured my imagination. It was beautiful to watch the rapid movement and staccato rhythm of the sticks hitting each other as the two warriors listened to each others movements and responded with their en- tire bodies. There was an elasticity and uidity in their powerful and rapid changes in direction and the varia- tions of their movements. Watching them evoked in me the feeling of how water ows, re leaps, and air breathes. It was as if the two bodies became one in the ow of energy between them. It was beautiful with an undercurrent of danger the promise of something that could be lethal. Kalarippayattus origins reach back into the mists of time. The kalari or practice arena was traditionally made by digging a large, rectangular hollow into the Earth along an East/West axis, lining it with red clay, and protecting it from the elements by covering it with a thatched roof. Similar to many martial arts, Kalarippayattu includes physical routines, known as body forms that are prac- ticed alone along with weapon forms that are taught with a partner. Many of the forms and movements have animal names, such as the elephant pose, cat pose, horse, and others. These suggest a close observation and understanding of the various currents of energy that ow through nature and the adaptation of these energies to human form and movement. In the practice, there exists a sense of being very close to Earth and her primal energies, and moving with liquid uidity, becoming those energies. The form used in Kalarippayattu serves as an entry point to be able to access these currents of energy that ow throughout nature. Three years after my initial introduction to Kalarip- payattu, and after hours of solo practice of some of the basic forms, I nally made my way to Gurukal Sher- ifkas school, Kerala Kalarippayat Academy in Kannur, Kerala, to practice for ve weeks. My inquiry into con- nection and truth led me to this place at this time. I am a novice practitioner in this art. Sherifkas senior teacher, Ramesh, talks to me after the practice in the traditional kalari space that after- noon. Yukiko, your form is good, but your body is not steady. You need to focus more. As I reected on my practice, his simple observation suddenly made sense. I have learned how to catch the not-so-subtle uctuations of my mind through observa- tion. But the oh-so-subtle uctuations of which I am not aware, these the body knows. And it shows as I practice. The body does not lie. The body, does not lie. I am blown away by this simple realization, and sud- denly, I see Kalarippayattu as more than merely an outer physical training, but as also a path of the inner warrior. The movements on this path are honest reec- tions of the practitioners state of being. In life, it is so easy to make subtle or gross alterations to truth of the moment, and not be completely present. I observe how that happens in the middle of my medi- tation or Yoga asana practice. But in kalari practice, when you are not completely present, the body will lag and waiver, and no matter how much your mind insists otherwise, you are not really focused. There is no fudg- ing the reality and truth of being in the moment. If the practitioner is open to listen, the feedback is immediate and precise: You lose your balance, the body teeters, you do not land from the leap with your feet solidly planted, your body and your feet start heading in dif- ferent directions, your stick does not hit the other stick, and on and on. This, for me, was an invaluable mirror to gaze into on the path of Consciousness. The next morning, I return to the kalari. It is hard as I feel my energy dispersed and sluggish. A part of me observes this state and is curious to see how or if it will shift as I warm up and practice. I feel into each body part and observe the awakening of the body. I notice how the breath comes naturally, and become aware of how the parts of the body are activated through warm- practice kalarippayattu In the practice, there exists a sense of being very close to Earth and her primal energies... layoga_july2011_text.indd 30 5/07/11 9:37 AM JULY/AUGUST 2011 LAYOGA 31 up exercises. Slowly, my feet connect to the clay Earth; I feel myself move through the air around me, I feel the way my body awakens. I sense the energy of the other practitioners moving in the kalari. Every- thing becomes simple. Phillip Zarrilli, one of the rst Westerners in modern times to study and write about Kalarippayattu, speaks of it as When the Body Becomes All Eyes, also the title of his book about the art. Perhaps this description is a common precept in many martial arts, yet somehow, this is the practice that has hooked my attention. There is something innately satisfying for me in the practice it- self, in the way the body and mind awaken, and become more sensitive, and even more alive. After practice, I feel worked out yet vibrant. I am told this experience is related to the fact that the practice stretches and awakens the nadis, or energy lines. I sense it also has to do with embodying other en- ergetic currents available in the Universe. The practice brings into full play my studies and trainings in shamanism, Yoga, dance, Ayurveda, and meditation practices, then it takes all of them further. I grab the long stick for partner practice with an instructor. Focus on the eyes, I am told. Relax the upper body and keep a strong lower body. I stand in horse stance, and with our long sticks crossed, I gaze in- tently at the eyes of my practice partner. I am focused yet simultaneously relaxed; see- ing and sensing everything. I still have a long path ahead of me, but in this moment, I am glad to be here, now, practicing to stay in a state of focused pres- ence while feeling life energy pulsating fully through me. This state of focused presence represents for me total aliveness. You are no longer caught in the past and future plans, the usual, human condition. Instead, you are relaxed, ready, and capable of response that is accurate and true to a current situation. That state of presence is also the crux of spiritual practice for me. I am interested in living fully engaged in this human dimension and connected at the same time to my divine nature. So I take a deep breath, ground my energy and begin the practice again. Yukiko Amaya is an artist, teacher, and healer born in Japan, now living in Topanga. She practices and teaches embodied consciousness through Tantric Yoga and meditation, conscious dance, and Kalarippayattu: Sundarisacredarts.com layoga_july2011_text.indd 31 5/07/11 9:37 AM