A World Unseen

Jason Lawrence
jasonm_lawrence@hotmail.com
Began: April 2008
Completed: 4 September 2014


The Thought of peace was given to God's Son the instant that his mind had thought of war. There was no need for such
a Thought before, for peace was given without opposite, and merely was. But when the mind is split there is a need of
healing. So the Thought that has the power to heal the split became a part of every fragment of the mind that still was
one, but failed to recognize its oneness. Now it did not know itself, and thought its own Identity was lost.

A Course In Miracles


Just how exactly then does one begin to heal the mind? How does it look? How does it sound? How does it feel
to embark upon this journey? Perhaps what follows is a bit of that

Some time ago, I began a process of opening with a spiritual guide through a study program called Pathways
of Light. I have since become an ordained ministerial counselor through the same church and spiritual college.
However, the process that became the gateway to what follows was centered specifically around Receiving
Inner Wisdom. I began with the same curiosity and skepticism with which I have approached many spiritual
traditions and teachings. Something about this process was remarkable in a way that continues to have a deep
impact on my view of the world. It is now that I feel compelled to share this process with you, dear reader, in
the hopes that the path will inspire in you a desire to look beyond the world of forms and shapes and into a
world unseen. The following is a dialogue that resulted from this process. I have recaptured the discussions
as accurately as possible. However, some detail is lost in that you are not able to see stray lines, mistakes, many
cross-outsor unusual symbols. Heres my best shot.

My advisor led me through a guided meditation and relaxation in order to open to a Voice or to symbols or to
imagery from a Higher Self, Inner Wisdom, Holy Spiritthe following dialogue was the result of this process.
The first parts came very slowly and deliberately.

Voice: Can this be an opening to a world unseen? We are here. We can help. We can inspire. Will you open
to us? That is all for now.

I sat for a moment with my advisor on the telephone as she guided me through a relaxation and opening
meditation. The Voice seemed to emerge as a soft and assertive statement from my conscience and yet I was
left with a bizarre and disorienting feeling around the question, whos we? I sat. I waited. We waited.
When no more seemed to emerge from this space of stillness, I responded to my teacher, I think they want an
answer. I think they are waiting for me to accept. It feels like an invitation. I can say no.

Well, she pressed.

Perhaps Ill try again later when Ive decided, I commented before we finished our session together. It was
all a bit too strange to integrate all at once.

Later, I revisited this process and opened to my first messagethis is what I wrote:

Jesus
Lazarus
Tarsus
David
Cornelius
Taliphus
Orpheus

We can help

e
represent an awakened state. Do not fear us.

Love
Peace
Joy

J: keep your one (a reference to the practice of Aikidokeep one point, or that point which is the center of
our being).
L:
D:
C:
T:
O:
T:

It seemed as though this session was meant as an introduction and a refining of connection. Some of the
symbols and pictures seemed without meaning and are difficult to transmit through this mediumthe computer.

While what I received seemed bizarre and incomplete, I felt compelled to continue this practice. I began to note
dates and times for our sessions.

4/17 8:52
Three otherworldly symbols were transmitted that would reappear again later.

Unified Voice (a reference to this group when speaking in apparent unison): What you have chosen to do
will release the ties that bind.

Soften and trust that we will not lead you astray.

You will begin to learn that you can hear rightly.

Lazarus: You are a pilot. Prepare for takeoff! This is going to be fun

David: What you have chosen to do for humanity by devoting your life to the service of humanity is the
greatest contribution anyone can make.

Note: This statement seemed very similar to a quote I was encouraged to commit to memory while attending
the Air Force Academy as a young cadet. The quote was from John F. Kennedy, if I remember correctly, and it
went something like this, What you have chosen to do for your country by devoting your life to the service of
your country is the greatest contribution any man can make. What I notice here is a slight adaptation and
evolution of the same quotation. The adaptation is to the present circumstances with the evolution emphasis on
humanity and an asexual subject.

Taliphus: You are not alone. Others will soon join to help.

Tarsus: Be patient and gentle with yourself.

Jesus: You are loved

Unified Voice: let us do the writing
you just relax and remain focused

let your hand and mind be gently guided

20 April
A familiar song filled my awareness:
Takethese broken wingsand learn to fly againlearn to live so freeand when you hearthe Voice of
Love, the book of love will open up and let you in

This is clearly my best recollection of the popular song by the group Mr. Mister, Broken Wings:

CHORUS:
Take these broken wings
And learn to fly again
And learn to live so free
And when we hear the voices sing
The book of love will open up
And let us in
http://www.afn.org/~afn30091/songs/m/mister-broken.htm
Unified Voice: Can we take you on a journey?
You must trust ussurrender inhibition.
Note: What followed was what I could best describe as a soaring and buzzing sequence where I felt a tingling
sensation throughout my bodyarms, back, scalp, and legs. It moved through me like an electric windnot
invasive or sharp, but smooth and energizing.
That was a journey of healing.
It is often formless, but does entail release.
You are not crazy, but that confidence will come.
We will lead you to the experience that what we say is true.
You have chosen wisely
This process will take timeit must in order to last and be complete.
Be patient!
We finished at 1:16pm
23 April
Please listen carefully.
What we are going to share with you is of grave importance.
Gravity is not your friend.
This dialogue will help you escape the lure of density and despair.
We represent Him.
Let no preconceptions enter this space.
Cast aside worry and doubt.
A long time ago, we hid a message of release in a sacred tomb beyond the stars of this galaxy.
This message was to remain hidden until mankind was ready to receive it without fear.
Now is the time,
Hey naca,
This is the place. (again the 3 otherworldly symbols emerged)
Toe Hey naca.
We finished at 9:12am.
25 April
We arre you
Were you
Finished at 7:45am.
27 April
it was not so long ago that you asked to know the truth about Yeshua
we showed you through the letters on your computer screen
Note: this reference was obviously to an experience I had one night after returning from the Osan Air Base
Officers Club bar. Still in a daze of drunken confusion, I sat in front of my computer while contemplating,
who is this Jesus that so many people either love or hate? With this intention playing through my mind, I
typed out the words, HONESTY AND INTEGRITY PAVE THE PATH OF TRUTH, a mantra I had adopted
over a year previously. I began to copy and paste this verse as quickly as I could until the phrase began to fill
the screen. As page after page of these all caps words flowed in front of my eyes, I noticed a pattern emerge
briefly and then it was gonethe letters U and R began to fill the left column of the screen in alternating
succession as if to say, you are, in response to my question. I was startled out of my stupor pretty quickly.
What did it mean? I remembered around the same time reading The Biology of Transcendence by Joseph
Chilton Pierce in which he writes an account of meeting a guru that he is sure represents the reincarnation of
Jesus Christ. When Mr. Pierce asserts this belief to this man, the teacher responds, so are you.
You doubt the grandeur of your identity
You have been asleep
Good morning Sonshine
Let us begin
You are about to witness
The awesome power
That you truly possess
Rest assured
You are ready
Note: what followed was a profound display of light and color that filled my awarenessthe ceiling of my
apartment was replaced by a starry night sky (it was mid-afternoon at this writing). My hands waved across this
space in front of me as if painting the cosmos into existence. I then breathed the wind into being and mountains
and streams into view. I felt god-like and all-powerful. Grandiose delusion perhaps?
Finished at 12:43
28 April
take time
Undated entry, but prior to 4 May entry
Tell me the truth
the truth is that what appears before me is not truth at all but some wild fantasy disguised in a shell of
reality. What is seen with the bodys eyes is not reality. What is felt with the hands, tasted with the tongue,
heard with the ears are but constructs of a separated minda delusional system and structure of thought.
Belief in the unreal is what brings about such despair and torment. Unlocking the chains of addiction is the
work of this race.
Catching a ray of hope in the beam of sunshine bouncing off of the windshield of a car is but one way to gather
the energy needed to escape gravity. Fundamentally, this is the only method of escape that truly
liberatesbecoming the Light of Truth, the Light of Reality.
Put aside attempts to split this beam. Put aside fascinating interest in its dissociated and dissected wavelengths
and patterns. Put aside a wanton attachment to the baser vibrations of entrapment.
Gravity is not your friend. Space travel is made possible by the manifestation of a simple idea made hideously
complicated by the veil of human Endeavor and achievement and striving. Space travel is but a
byproduct of fusion. Fusion!
It does not take place in a reactor. It takes place in the mind once the individual decides to heal the split.
Fusion bonds. Fusion binds in a way that liberates, and fusion propels beyond gravity. It is expansive and
inclusive NOT destructive.
Catch a beam of sunlight from a window. Catch it with your eye, hold it in your mind, and become it with your
heart! You cannot then help but be propelled into a world beyond the decaying shadows plastered on the wall
of the cavedrudging by in dim recollection of what IS, can BE, and will BE.
The Son is not a mistaken identity.
4 May
Trust not what you see. For it is not what you know. You can think a whole world into formand you have
done just this. Because you thought this world, it does have power; because you are a creative being. Let go of
your preconceptions about what is and be open to what IS. The life you have made for yourself is but a dim
recollection of your creation as Son of God. Let go of who you think you are and allow that which is your true
identity to shine from the very core of your being. Surrender your little weakened self for that which you can
no longer hide.
The Sunset is but a symbol of what you have decided against. The Sonrise is but a symbol of what will be your
destiny. Let your light shine means let your innermost being emerge as it was intended. It takes no effort on
your part save the little willingness to release and relax. Ours is a shared identity means we are, in fact, One.
There is no you, me, them, or those. It is all us. US. The spirit of this country was misunderstood by its
founders. The acronym U.S. was to represent a greater union in heaven where all are in fact welcome and
where all belong. United States is a unification of being. Jefferson understood this but was overwhelmed by
opposition. It was too soon in the course of human evolution to begin emphasizing a very Eastern philosophy.
Few would accept this idea, so its introduction has been delayed.
Hey Naca, Toe Hey Naca is an invitation to all of Gods children to awaken. It calls upon the one Great Spirit
of this nation and for all people. It is an uttering of syllables that resonate very deeply in the human psyche
because it is rooted in a vast and rich heritage.
The native peoples of this land knew this. They lived it. Every action and deed was done in a sacred manner.
That is, every action was done in this spiritin spiritinspired by a universal force.
5 May
Let the one thing you allow into your mind be that which inspires. Holding onto grief, sadness, despair,
hopelessnessthese emotions anchor your soul to the soil of this planet. Your birthright is liberation. You are
entitled to freedom. You bind yourself with all manner of misery.
Let us begin to explore this galaxy of a mind you have made. We shall refer to it as the singular verse or
Universe. God did not create this Universe. Be not dismayed. He DID create you in His likeness. The
cleavage of a diamond is still a diamond, just as pure, just as radiant.
It is not possible even by your rules of madness to deny even this simple fact. Purity begets purity. Your belief
in sin, guilt, fear are the toxic impurities of your own making. Be of good cheer, however, as there exists a
Universal purification system for removing doubt, dismay, dirt and dust from your seemingly clouded sky.
Let us call this system Mega-Maidit is not unlike the version youve seen of the vacuuming spaceship from
the popular movie Space Balls save a few crucial differences. This Universal Dustbuster

requires no
electricity. It requires no dust bag. It merely requires your ability to recognize deception and not cling to it!
6 May
take time to feel proud of your progress, it will give you strength to continue

Dont be fooled by the many and varied ways in which you lose your mind. You have devised a vast network
of dead-end pathways and lost causes. The hope of this race depends upon its ability to recall, remember,
reconnect the broken bits of Creation. It is an easy task with simple applications. You have made vast
resistance a reality in your mind.
Let us begin this story of redemption with a promise. The promise was made by a Father to His Son. It could
not be broken because it came from the One True Source of Connection. Therefore, All things that flow from
this place go forth unbroken.
The Father promised His Son an inheritance that could not be revoked and could not be rivaled. It could not be
surpassed because the promise was for everything. All I am. All that I have is Yours, said the Father. The
Son responded with delight and great satisfaction for there was no doubt in his mind that what he was promised
was in fact Truth itself and as it came from Truth it could not be false.
The Son took to heart his feeling of inclusion, expansion, and perfect safety. He existed without worry. He
played without fear. He traveled without inhibition for he knew Truth.
Infinity and beyond were his domain. The endless was his expression. The divine was his right. Time and
Space were of no consequence for the Son existed in Eternity and in no place but everywhere. Such was the
story of the Beginning. At no time did the Son ever wonder of more than Always and Everywhere until one
impossibly small instant.
In this instant, a thunderous clap split through the mind of the Son at the simple thought of what if?
18 May
May we take you on a journey?
It happened so long ago that no written record will tell the tale. The evidence for the truth of what we say lies
not in a catalogue of human events. The truth lies in the application and experience. Where we will take you,
you cannot fail. What we will show you, you cannot fail to seeif you believeif you listen carefullyif you
apply what we tell you.
We are the original Knights Templar. We represent a collection of spirits beyond space and time that possess a
sacred understanding. We are the keepers of this key. We are the guardians of this truth.
You are not the first being to whom we have spoken. You will not be the last. But you will be the only to
receive and transmit this particular message.
The stone represents a sacred mirror. In its reflection you will learn to see the truth about yourself and this race.
There is much work to do and very little time.
Each step of the way, you will be shown what to do next. Be vigilant.
Your first task will be to record this message.
Put aside 1 hour each day to record what we will share with you. No more time is necessary. No less time will
suffice. You choose the time, we will provide the space.
Finished approx. 8:30pm
19 May
What you have been chosen to do is of grave importance. It will induce a shift in consciousness that is badly
needed in this race. We come to share how this shift will occur and why it must.
Life as you know it began many thousands of years ago. But what you do not know is how it came to be, and
how it came to be on this planet.
We represent Him who sent us. We are now part of a collective consciousness that cannot be seen by the
bodys eyes but is no less real than the pen with which you write.
We have traveled many thousands of miles across many thousands of galaxies to deliver this message. What
we are about to tell you will change lives. It is not so important that you will need to make any sacrifice.
Sacrifice is of little value. In fact, it is of no value to you.
Agree instead to give us your best effort under all circumstances. Nothing more will be asked. Nothing less
will suffice. Keep an open mind about the contents of this message. It cannot be distorted, but it can be
delayed. Write only what you hear us say and not what you think in response. Is that clear?
Time began as a thought of separation. It arose out of the ashes of chaos. Life too began as a thought of
separation. It too arose out of the ashes of chaos. Because they are thoughts they can be controlled and they
can be dismissed. Unlike thought of unity, they can even be changed. It is this mechanism that belays their
weakness. Life on this planet is weak because it arises from this fragmented thought system. Life on other
planets may or may not be stronger in comparison, but it too is predicated upon the same fragmented thought
system. We will show you some of those other forms not to scare or impress you, but rather to reveal the
likeness to yourself as it manifests through separation and division of cells.
Keep an open mind about the purpose of this message. You cannot change it, but you can delay it. Remain
focused. Remain calm.
Let us begin with a story about a boy. His name was Jason. He lived long ago in a land far away. He made
beautiful and great things. He spoke into creation a multitude of things. He loved all things. He was obedient
and kind. He was never alone. Jason was his name because he was precisely that: Ja-Son. Son of the One
True GodJa.
This Son of God was the embodiment of the thought of unity, of creation. He was the soul heir to an
inheritance that surpasses the greatest wealth of this world. Their bond, this Father and Son, was a promise of
identity. You are the One True Son of God, he said to Jason. I bestow upon you the greatest gift of my
kingdomthe power to create.
Jason delighted in this gift. He cherished it and abused it not, for abuse was an impossible idea.
One day, into the kingdom entered another idea.
Finished 1-hour session at 7:00am
20 May
Today we begin what will be a series of notes on forgiveness and its power to transform. What we speak of is
not of this world. It stems from the One Thought of Correction. What remains to be corrected is apparent in
your daily life. These appearances hold not to the mind of the Child of God that has rejected his True Identity
in favor of this limited sense of self.
Carry forth what we say here into the world of form. Be the example of change that your race so desperately
needs. This message will not fall upon deaf ears. It will settle deeply into the hearts and minds of all that are
opening to a new consciousness. Be not afraid of those that will doubt or reject. Be not afraid of those that will
openly and aggressively criticize and attack. Their basis of thought is fear. Their shrieks call for love.
No one that has a mind with God can be mistaken. We will show you how to align completely with His
purpose such that you may feel the certainty of faith. This is the rockthis is the foundation.
Long ago, in a galaxy far-far away, you embarked upon a mission to discover the Source of Life. You have not
failed, but you have been delayed. You were chosen by the beings of your race to seek out the Source of Life
wherever it was. They tasked you with traveling the Universe in search of answers to their fundamental
questions. Questions that still plague the mind of mankind.
With vast technological resources you traveled through galaxies with a group of intrepid explorers. You
encountered many beautiful and thriving worlds, cultures, and societies. Each had a view of Truth. Each held
an aspect of Truth. None could express its totality.
You gathered a great many tools in your travels. You experienced the best of what every world had to offer.
You never forgot though, the basis of your mission. You would dwell for a period and then move on. Until
now. This world has held you in its lure for a very long time. Understandably so. It appears so beautiful from
a distance.
It is time to go. You have delayed here long enough. You have experienced the best of what this planet has to
offer and are ready to return to your true home. You demonstrate this every time you gaze into the heavens, the
stars, and wonder. This wonder comes from a deep and inalienable longing to return home. It is not a
misplaced desire. It is however, a misguided strategy to seek anywhere but within.
You already possess what you endeavored to discover so long ago. You, the beings of your race, the people of
this raceyou all possess the Source of Life. You call it, appropriately, a G.P.S.: God Positioning System. It
is an intergalactic positioning system with simple guidance and directions: Return Home. You are learning
how to listen to it better each day. We will accelerate that process, if you listen carefully to our instructions and
leave nothing out.
Forgiveness. It is a concept of this world and a powerful tool for liberation. The same idea will take on many
names, but its central essence will remain unchanged as it pertains to liberation and ascension. Simply put, it is
a mechanism for unhooking the minds attachment to causality in the external world. Just as a fishhook
serves to tether a fish to a line, desires in this world serve to hook your attention and tether it to an outside
source. That is precisely the idea that led you here in the first place.
You left your home planet to seek out the Source of Life as though it existed in some distant world. Surely then
you will not be surprised to awaken to the fact now that this outward seeking is the basis of this world. You
gather light from some distant and external source you call Sun. You gather energy from external sources of
food. You fuel your vehicles with external sources of fuel. You even gather emotional energy from external
relationships. This is no basis for a sustainable existence.
Note: I feel compelled to comment here on the profundity of this realization. Having wanted to be an
astronaut as long as I can remember, having wanted to travel to Mars and beyond, having longed and yearned
to escape gravity in any way possible: SCUBA diving (weightless suspension in water), soaring, flyingit was
clear now where this deep impulse emerged from. It was also clear how badly I desired to return home. Was I
the only one that connected so deeply with E.T. as a young boy? Do we all long to phone home in our own
way when we feel most lost and desperate? Suffice it to say, I wept deeply and powerfully at the telling of this
tale. YES! YES! I thought. It makes sense. I DO want to return homeI do feel a profound sense of
exploration and endeavor. Most likely to become an astronaut they said at Space Campperhaps, but my
travels now are focused on an inward journey of the emotional cosmos and landscape that prevent me from
achieving escape velocity.
Finished at 9:29am
21 May
Begin again to see what you truly are by beginning to see this Identity in your seemingly unique and special
friends, family, and acquaintances. There is nothing in you that could not be healed by seeing your brothers and
sisters in this light. Forget not that we come as a symbol of the light in your mind capable of beaming through
all darkness. There is nothing so dark or dense that cannot be overcome by the will for Gods Will. Will you
allow the vast defenses against Him that you have erected to be undonedeconstructed? It will mean the
inversion of the world as you see it.
Keep a log of each grievance you hold. Record the name of each person and the nature of the grievance no
matter how small. Leave no one out. Do not deny yourself this opportunity to heal your mind by blindly
insisting that you hold none. A grievance is any aspect of a relationship that interferes with connection. You
experience it as a tension. You think of it as a difference. You construct vast monuments of specialness around
each one. Each one serves to hook you more deeply into this world.
Come now, let us play a game. You take the role of storyteller spinning your tale of My Life as ______. Tell
it with all of the intensity of emotion that you can muster. Tell it again. Take all of the time you need. Tell it
again. Each time emphasize the great depth of feeling that each sorrowful or joyful twist and turn Your Life
has taken. Repeat this exercise until you can no longer stand the sound of your own voice speaking for the
thousandth time where you have been, what you have done, and how you have felt.
These things we speak ofgrievances and stories are the anchors that bind you to this plane. Gravity acts as a
grand collaborator in this scheme of victim and victimizer, hero and heroine. You belong, fit in, when your
grievance or story somehow matches anothers. You agree to bear witness to the misery and pain that is
anothers testimony.
Depth psychology is of value only insofar as it shows a person the nature of their hooks. It profits a man not to
dwell in these chasms of despair. The Titanic disaster has been grossly misinterpreted by many of the best
researchers and historians. Mans hubris will sink him. It will carry him to the deepest, coldest, darkest regions
of consciousness again and again and again! That is its purpose.
Buoyancy is possible through release. Your inherent nature as a Child of God is buoyancy. Only by releasing
the sandbags of your past can you begin to actualize this reality. You will feel elation, elevation, and
escalation with every weight you drop. This is how true freedom is achieved. Those that have succeeded are
the true Astronauts for they have escaped gravity. Make a commitment to begin unhooking from your personal
anchors. Cast aside your attachment to person, place, or things. And cast aside your worries about tomorrow
and guilt for yesterday.
Freedom is not having a mortgage, a job or a sporty family or car. Freedom is not the continued slaughter of
people of your own kind for the purpose of fueling an addiction. Freedom is not in burying the past in order to
hide shame and guilt.
True Freedom is the release of attachment to all of these.
This species must evolve or perish. The choice lies with each of you.
Capture a beam of light bouncing off of a shiny surface. Catch a ray of sunlight illuminating your sight and
mind. Be enthralled, be amazed, awaken to wonder and awebe lifted to new heights through the insight of
inner sight of an inner lightembrace you inner vision in lieu of tunnel vision.
There is no time but now.
The Knights Templar were charged with a task not unlike the one that inspired your intergalactic foray.
However, we have endeavored instead to seek ways to bring the Truth about the Source of Life to any receptive
vehicle. We thank you for your willingness.
History has grossly distorted the role of this sacred order. Fortunately for our purpose you know little about this
altered tale. Over time we will give you insight into the truth behind our mission. Swords are not our tools,
rather, we have found, chivalry shaves much closer.
Finished at 10:23am
22 May
Come away from each session with a clear sense of hope. You are not lost. You are merely dreaming.
We have held this order and these secrets for many ages. The Temple Knight represents the guardian of the
kingdom. He is the defender of the Royal Court just as we protect the Kingdom of Heaven from intrusion. This
role is necessary now that the Sonship is apparently sleeping due to an infiltration of the tiny, mad idea of
separation. We would be unnecessary if the apparent split had not occurred in the mind of the Son of
GodJason.
Lest you claim some superficial specialness from our reference to this name, let us assure you that names are
but symbols. Every one of your seemingly separate brothers and sisters is of the same cloth. You all claim the
title of Sons of God.
Look at us as a transition into the Real World. The Gates of Heaven are opened in each of the minds of Gods
Children; we merely serve to facilitate this transition from one world to the next just as we are doing with you.
Note: What followed this point was clearly a demonstration of this transition. Notice the varying shades and
textures of the following statementsthe content and context has certainly shifted.
Let me tell you a story about a young boy that never learned to love. He came from a well-to-do family and
made friends easily.
This is a time for rejoicing. We are finally together! The celestial meeting is convening. The council is
gathered. The ancient ones foretold of this age. It is now coming to pass. Let us rejoice!
Hey Naca Toe Hey Naca
You have entered the realm of the living dead. You will hear and see many strange things. Many will try to
communicate through you. Do not be fooled. Remain focused. We are here and can help. You have nothing
to fear. You are well prepared for this journey. Linger not. This is no place to dwell either. These souls are
not lost, they will return home too, but they are not yet awake. Their reality is a foggy dream. Some are
pleasant, some horrificnone awake. Listen carefully to us and you will be able to help them too.
Allow them to pass through you. Resistance will give them something to hold onto.
Note: At this point I felt like a character from Ghostbusterstheres something strange in this neighborhood! I
experienced a flood of characters moving around and through me. I heard shrieks, cries, murmurings and
appeals. The first statement about the loveless boy seemed to come from a friend that had recently overdosed
and passed. He and I had spoken of writing a book together prior to his transition. Perhaps this is it, Dusty.
These now are the doldrums of false peace. There is stillness here, yes, but it is not liberation. Let us continue.
Many have named, identified, distinguished, and studied these levels. They were captivated by the textures and
experiences. We will not dwell here either. Differentiation is yet another hook and no measure of progress.
Liberation is absolute, not a walk through stratification of consciousness. You have access to these levels at any
time. All sentient beings do. But their exploration is not our charge.
This is but a taste of the Shamanic realm. To the uninitiated it is horrific, painful and temporary. To the
disciplined student it is a realm of profound impact on your formal world. We will show you many of its
aspects as they become appropriate for your development. For now, we shall continue.
Note: Suffice it to say, this space was beyond description. It felt as though at any moment my body would
disintegrate into a million expansive pieces and float through vast holographic shapes, colors, and symbols.
There was a texture of varying quality and density from the most earth shattering to the most ethereal.
This is the realm of angels. It is most closely symbolized in your world by the cloudy heavens of the sky.
Your fascination with flight was inspired by distant memories of this realm. The spirit of the eagle bestowed
upon you in the sweat lodge gives you the strength to inhabit this realm. Flap your wings flyboy.
Note: As would be expected this realm was of a wispy, white, whimsical nature. Complete with singing, faint
harpsichord music, and the occasional feathery flash of light. Also of note was reference to an experience I had
while in a trance state during one cycle of a sweat lodge I attended in Georgia with a Native Medicine Man,
Tom Blue Wolf. As we opened to the influence of an animal power, I stood/stooped in the sweltering, damp
darkness of the lodge and felt the great feathers of flight and strong breast of an eagle on the wing. It/I soared
and searched for a meal that became readily apparent in the scurryings of a mouse below. We swooped and
devouredI shared consciousness with the mouse, the eagle, and the dance of energy as life passed from one to
the other. When we were asked in the lodge what power visited us, I confidently shared, the mouse. The
message was clear to me that while the power of majestic beasts like buffalo, wolves, eagles, bears, and such
seem so much more divine and spiritual, in truth, all of their might is born on the back of the industrious
little ones of our world. The power of the eagle that filled my chest came in fact, from the mouse.
This is the realm of the interstellar traveler. You will soon have enough buoyancy to be a beamrider as well.
For now, just observe.
Note: At this point, my mind was blown. I saw vast webs and networks of interstellar light. I felt like a
pedestrian perched on an autobahn sidewalk. Packets of vibrant light blasted, zinged, whizzed past me at the
speed of thought. WOW!
We finished this journey at 20:19
23 May
Can you please help me, is among the most common requests of this age. People have become unwilling to
help themselves. Helping others is a crucial point of contact for developing and building relationship. Enabling
self-limiting behavior is a captivating experience for all parties involved. This request emerges from the belief
in helplessness. I lack, therefore I need, says the limited, fragmented mind. It then sends its powerful
attraction mechanism to gather and recruit this help from outside.
Learn to help those in need from a place of empowerment rather than establishing and validating a dependency.
The unmet need arises out of the same thought of lack. You as a Son of Ja lack nothing! But you are not yet
ready to accept that, so you do believe that others have something to give you that you cannot obtain yourself.
Take stock of your strengths. Focus on what you do possess and it will multiply. Catch a sunbeam reflecting
off of a window. Be determined not to hold onto the surface that reflects it.
We who are in this circle have all tasted the sorrow and defeat of mortality. We understand its challenges and
trappings and thus are ideally suited to guide you home.
Our personal stories, just as yours, do not matter. What matters is what we have to offer you now. Be not
intimidated by the hopelessness of this world. It cannot contain you; it cannot grip you.
Long ago, there lived a man of tremendous strength. He gave to this world a glimpse of what is possible
through hope, faith, and willingness. History does a poor job recounting his contribution, but the impression he
made can never be undone in the hearts and minds of those that witness His strength even now, so many years
later.
Others that have followed in his footsteps have faltered. Some have succeeded in joining Him. Still others
deny His existence. None of this matters any more than does the wind matter to the wave. The water does not
have to believe in or even know of the wind that graces its surface in order to be shaped by, guided by, moved
by its presence.
You are not asked to testify. You are not called upon to defend or otherwise ally for the case for Christ. You
are merely asked to listen to His instructions through whatever medium is most appropriate and apply what you
hear. You will never be asked to harm another. Likewise, you will never be asked to stand by as witness to the
harm of another. You will be called to act in the most loving and appropriate manner necessary. You will not
always get it right. Trust instead that your willingness will get you closer and closer each time.
Let us give you an example. You see a man standing on the corner begging for some change. You may be
asked to give all that you have. You may be asked to walk past without so much as a glance. You may be
asked to sit a while and talk to this character placed in your path. You may be asked to watch from a distance
as this man is beaten nearly to death by unconscious beings because to intervene may cost you your life and
eliminate any chance of you then acting on a call to carry this man to the hospital in order to save his.
You do not know, from your limited view, how to best help. The world is full of helpers doing more harm in
their righteous action than many others have done in their unconscious action. Insist not in helping, but
rather, insist on listening carefully and paying close attention. Trust not your good intentions. Trust your
willingness implicitly.
Note: These last two lines seem to mimic a verse from A Course in Miracles (ACIM): Trust not your good
intentions. They are not enough. But trust implicitly your willingness, whatever else may enter. T-18.IV.2:1-
3
The cost of Freedom is not paid in blood. It is not bought, nor is it fought for. The cost of Freedom is not paid
through sacrifice, though many people will find this idea both impossible and repugnant. Love them still as
they are only clinging to what deception has taught them about the way things work.
Sacrifice arises from the thought that gaining requires the giving up of a limited resource. That resource may be
time, money, blood, or tears. The natural law of this world suggests that to give means to give up. This is in
direct opposition to the Law of Heaven that says, giving and receiving are one in Truth.
Note: ACIM lesson 108 states: To give and to receive are one in truth.
No pain, no gain arises from the same insane idea. Contrary to popular belief, sanity as defined in this world
is again in direct opposition. To be insane on this plane means one has lost their mind. You have not lost it,
you have simply misplaced it. Sanity is a return from investment in the body to the mind that made it. To be
insane in Truth means to be in the mind of creation.
Dont expect too many to accept this idea eitherat least not right away. It will take the appearance of time for
many to truly admit that even Freud began to question his views on normalcy. What is normal in this world is
of the norm or within the average of human experience. Probability is the measure of an events tendency to
fall within this normal bell curve.
Possibility breaks this mold. The anomaly defies the normal basis by virtue of it being within the sample and
yet non-compliant with the characteristics of that sample. Science is often quick to dismiss this under errata,
or mistaken data. The mistake is in not restructuring the character set in order to account for this anomaly.
We will not need to offer an example in this regard because you are one. By virtue of your own experience, you
have defied the statistical mean for sanity. Congratulations. It doesnt make you top of the class but it does
open you to the world of possibility. Many will be satisfied by the world of probability. It is not your job to try
to convince them otherwise. They need the marginal predictability and security that it offers. You are asked to
bear witness to those seeking a better way.
We concluded this hour-long session at 16:54
24 May
The most important thing we have to share with you can be summed up in two words: God Is. Whenever you
are tempted to complicate any situation with psychoanalysis, intellectual tripe, or any other such nonsense,
remember these simple words. Everything else is chicken shit.
Note: Both Helen Schucman, scribe of ACIM, and Gary Reynard, author of Disappearance of the Universe,
were privy to this pithy wisdom. Helens experience of this is accounted for in Dr. Kenneth Wapnicks book,
Absence from Felicity where he writes about Helens experience in taking down the text, workbook, and manual
that would become A Course in Miracles. Gary shares his experience with two ascended masters revealing that
same idea in his first book. The comment about everything else being chicken shit also closely relates to a
statement he makes.
Do not be afraid of what people will think. Instead concern yourself only with how you feel about any given
situation. This is not a wishy-washy charge. On the contrary, your sense of well-being is precisely what
indicates alignment with His Will.
Take for example an important decision that appears before you. One measure of the best path involves a
vividly imagined walk down the alternatives of that choice while sampling your internal barometer for how
each situation sits with you. The crucial piece is rigorous honesty about what you anticipate will be a
probable outcome.
Then comes the more advanced transition into the world of possibility. Being open to an unnamed, not-yet-
known alternative becomes the next crucial step. This way of handling choices great and small will allow you
access to the higher levels of conscious functioning. Those higher levels of what many believe are brain or
cognitive functions ultimately lead to the over-view or meta-view of the physical plane. Just as a balloonist
views the world and its many goings and doings from a perch above the fray, so too does your openness to
alternatives.
There is a great deal more that could be said about brain function and research. Many of these endeavors are
uncovering vast potential or possibility in the human mind, which has been erroneously relegated to the lump of
matter between your ears. How fascinatingly complex! says the intellect with glee. Bullocks, says we.
Your lobes and cortexes and synapses are merely symbols of a burgeoning awareness of Self and Its vast
intricacy. As consciousness unfolds to encompass wide and varied applications so too will discovery of wide
and varied structures that dictate these capacities.
Poke a point on the brain and an eyelid twitches; remove a section of the brain and whole faculties are
lostspeech, vision, hearing. The same phenomena occur in humans or animals. This is where science
application gets a bit fuzzy. The dominant paradigm in the scientific world is cause and effect. A cause
produces some effect on some level. This is a true and fundamental principle. However, also awash in this
paradigm is assignment of causality to structures in the body or brain. This assignment stems from a
mechanistic view: part a accomplishes function a, part bfunction b. In your worldview they might interact
but a cannot do b anymore than a plumber can perform brain surgery.
But alas, this is no truer than is Kennedy being assassinated by Oswald. You see, this assignment structure is
the result of a belief in specialization. Youll never get a doctor or a lawyer to admit this, but they do no more
to heal or defend you than a mouse does to age cheese. Healing as well as Truth lay in the decision making
power of the mind, not in some external, often pompous and arrogant master with a whole lotta schoolin.
That should be enough to challenge the fundamental structures of both your health care system and legislative
process.
Do not be fooled by the misplaced power that these positions seem to commandeer. Health and justice are of a
Universal Order. They need no agents. While some may be called to help others, their charge is ultimately to
empower those they are helping to learn the same skills for themselves. The Truth needs no defense. We could
go through the whole list of disempowering employment franchises but suffice it to say that anytime you are
compelled to think a specialist is required, think again. Or more accurately, choose again for the power
implicit in every seemingly separate mind to act with Divine Agency (achronymical pun intended).
There are those that will argue profusely for the validation of their position. They will insist that their station is
necessary. This defense arises from a deeply entrenched sense of false identity. If you could draw energy
directly from the Source, what need would you have for cars, power stations, solar panels, wind generators,
farmers, grocers, or garbage handlers? Outsourcing is not a savvy business practice; it is insanity. To think that
anything can be sourced from without rather than resourced from within is a fools gold.
Candy is an external energy source great for what it provides as a sugar rush. The only thing rushing is a
neurochemical surge instigated by a collectively held belief that sugar is an energy source. Likewise, oil is an
external source great for processing into a liquid that when ignited goes boom!
What you fail to recognize is that behind each of these sources is the fundamental, and true, belief in A Source
that has been externalized in cane fields or curiously internalized in combustion engines. Fortunately, these
symbols can be used to ignite a passion for the One True Renewable Energy SourceGods Smack!
You see, Gods Smack is not unlike the boisterous amphibious cereal mascot that graced your breakfast table.
It too is packed full of punch and zest. But, G.S. does not come to you via a grocer, bowl, and spoon. Rather, it
comes through concerted effort to remove the barriers to the awareness of Its Presence in and among all things.
It takes effort to achieve a level of function totally independent of external sources, but it can and has been
done. That is the basis of addiction recovery regardless of what mode or model you use. Take this to the bank:
you are not what you eat or consume. You are a Whole Grain Son of God desperate to awaken to the Truth that
is your birthright. Happy Snackin!
We finished at 18:15
5 May 5/25
Today we will explore the truth about numbers. What you have been taught by conventional wisdom is linear,
additive, divisible, multiplicative, and reductionistic. We have an alternative to offer. Numbers are unitary in
that they all point to One. They come in many shapes, sizes, degrees, and orientations, but they all share a
common denominator: ONE.
Take the number 5. Flip is on its head as though it were doing a forward roll clockwise:

Displayed digitally, the 5 has not lost its essential value. But what happens if we rotate it as though an axle
dropped through its middle and the wind were able to twirl it like a used car lot sign?

2again, displayed digitally as though on an LCD the essential value has changed. Spin it fast enough and it
blurs into an 8.
From this simple exercise, we can suggest that a figures value depends upon how you look at it. This
dependency leaves room for evaluation. E-valuation takes the soul out of substance just as E-motion puts the
soul back into movement.
Take then the letter E5
th
in your alphabet. Put it on our same spinning sign. What does it become? A 3.
Kick it onto its backa W. Hinge its base and drop it like its hot down with gravity like an OPEN sign or
NO as in vacancyan M. Spin the M:W relationship into a blur as the 3 above turned into an 8 and youll
see infinity. Or, a cinder block!

What has happened to the essential meaning of this symbol as we manipulate and reorient it? It changes. This is
the Work of the Holy Spiritto reorient, reinterpret, renew all of the symbols of this world into those that will
guide you Home. Listen to His Guidance as it will guide you beyond change.
Change is not the only constant in this world. Change reveals the only constant by allowing you to focus on the
One unmoving element in your experience. Presence takes into account the wide and varied aspects of your
experience and reduces them to a unified brilliance of singularity. Ask yourself in any given situation, what is
unmoved by this experience? Begin to indentify then with this stability. Grab hold of it with both hands, and
anchor your own experience in the Presence of the unchanging. Particularly tumultuous events are best for this
type of identification, but the awareness of Oneness is possible during externally tranquil times as well.
Emerging from this stability you cannot then help but re-cognize, or know again, what you have forgotten. You
cannot then fail to re-member or re-connect what were once your soul membership and your fundamental
connection.
Count on this principle in even the darkest and densest of times and you cannot fail to realign with your central
purpose.
Add in the element of Universal aid for even the most modest and subtle of attempts and you are well on your
way to Divine Intelligence.
Make a list of numerical difficulties in your life: speed, age, income, timenow reduce every one to its lowest
common multiple or factoror denominator as in the Ill be back kind of -nator. Take 55 as in years-
old or miles-per-hour. Remove the 5 (we prefer this to divide because to re-move points to the first moverit
is a progressive view rather than a regressive which is also now progressive when the prefix re is taken to
mean again.) and you are left with 1 and 1 or as you call them eleven. This can again be ducedare
you paying attentionto the lowest factor of 1. Other factors are of course 11 and 5, but for our purposes, the
comparison of these difficulties will always reduce to the lowest common factor of 1, Unity, Wholeness,
Singularity. This elemental Presence is in all numbers regardless of their distorted value.
Now, take this principle and use it to compare ages with your friend, wages with your co-worker, or speeds with
your teenager. This Unity is your common bond. If you want to see differences, you will. If you want to
reconnect what has been dissociated, here is how: Look for the common bond, look for the common
denominator and you cannot fail to see It.
Lets look now at Poweror powers of numbers anyway. Power up the 5 first by a factor of its sign spinning
value: 2. What is the result of the powered version? 5
2
? Get a calculator if you need to outsource your
mathematical manipulation potential. 25. Curious huh? We return, re-turn (were going to stop making these
so obvious soon) to the pair of the original values simply resized and re-oriented.
What about raising this number to itself? 5*5*5*5*5 = 5
5
= 3125. There you have it, our central elements:
3125. Just for demonstrations sake, we will manipulate and spin our One in the same way we did the 2,
5, and 3. What happens? 1, 1, 1, and __ or -. Hmm, not much room for misinterpretation or manipulation. 1
2

= 1. More! 1
3
= 1. More! 1
5
= 1*1*1*1*1 = 1. Hmm. Can we use One to manipulate the others into
changing into something they are not?
2
1
= 2unchanged. 3
1
= 3unchanged. 5
1
= 5you get the point.
Decimals1/2 = 0.5, 0.5/2 = 0.25, 0.25/2 = 0.125, 0.125/2 = 0.0625, 0.0625/2 = 0.03125. You see, as you look
at the world and divide it from the basis of 2, or duality, it quickly fragments, BUT our essential pattern will
still lead you home if you follow the rules of this system in re-verse. What did we call this place? The Uni or
singular what? 0.03125 is 3 pennies above broke or 3/100 of an inch above rock bottom. Or 5 easy steps from
Unity if you know what direction to go and are willing to progressregress? Your direction depends entirely
upon your perspective. Adopt the singular view.
Note: If youre left feeling a bit confused by this section, I recommend reading it several times and using a
piece of scratch paper to draw out the manipulations. Disorientation is both common and appropriate here. I
certainly felt disoriented many times in reading and following the reorientations only to continually discover a
fascinating clarity.
I didnt catch the time
26 May
Make time to play. Life is not about how much work you can cram in a day. This idea stems from our earlier
discussion about sacrifice. If its permission you need, give it to yourself to play often.
Capture a beam of light bouncing off of the surface of a ball. Your interstellar vehicle is this beam. When you
first made the commitment to know Truth you believed it was out there somewhere. Hopefully you are
beginning to
Note: I wasnt feeling the flow of this session, so I left and restarted later. The following consistent message
suggests at least a moderate clarity that may have been abandoned prematurely.
26 May
Make time to play. Give yourself permission to play often. Work for works sake arises from the thought of
sacrifice. Be not fooled into thinking work will lead to liberationfreedom.
Catch a beam of sunlight bouncing off of a ball. Ride it to the ends of the galaxy and beyond space and time.
Take but a moment to reflect on the joy of illumination and be swept away by its Power.
Begin a practice of holding space for light to enter your mind at a moments notice. Develop this mechanism
through deep physical and mental relaxation. Clear away tension and OPEN. This will serve you in ways you
can neither imagine now, nor would you believe us if we told you.
Imagine a small opening, like that of a camera shutter or eyes pupil. Imagine a tight point of light, allow it to
expand to the edges of your field of view and grow in intensity. Allow yourself to become awash in a shower
of golden light penetrating every cell of your being.
This is the beginning initiation of your personal power generator. It is the start of a Divine Connection to
Source. This Sourcing is free to the mind that chooses it and cannot fail to empower and enlighten.
Be disciplined in its use. Call on this Source whenever you have occasion to feel tired or withdrawn. The more
you practice with this exercise, the more you will experience that which we speak of.
If you find yourself having trouble visualizing this point of light, then imagine gazing into the Night Sky from a
mountaintop. See the vivid texture of your constellations and celestial bodies. Focus upon a single element of
this spacea point of lighta single star. See how it shimmers and shines. Fly toward it.
If you find yourself encountering resistance to this visualization either in the form of a muted scene/darkness, or
lack of focus, then relax, step back, and try again from a more peaceful state. Hold the image gently in your
minds eye like you are cupping an eggshell or a snowflake. Very tenderly allow yourself to intensify the
details of the scene. If it helps, draw on elements of a past experience where you saw a similar scenewhile
camping, at a movie, in a magazine. Where were you? What were you doing? What can you smell?
If it helps, begin with a reflective element or body, such as the moon or a shimmering lake and move them to a
neighboring star. If you still struggle, take the imagery of an oncoming car at night. The danger inherent in this
technique is the practical conditioning of what could become a hazardous driving situationflying into the light
of the truck in the opposite lane. You can imagine the outcome on the terrestrial plane. If you have any doubt
in your ability to remain focused, stick to the starlight. You wont crash into them at this stageand when you
do, you wont be disappointed by the outcome! Another powerful daylight technique is the image of the sun.
The disadvantage in this method is in losing the reinforcement of the power of this imagery during apparently
darker times and the possible damage to your eyes.
Streetlights and other cultural lighting are limited in their expansive quality. Often the mind will leap to
thoughts or images of the bulb and filament generating the light. Candles share the same limitation in that the
mind may jump to the wick and wax. Stars really are the best for many reasons, several of which we have
already shared. Include within that list their essential nature as symbols of fusion, infinitude, space travel,
groundlessness, and brilliance.
A final strategy involves allowing the sparkling fringes of the starlight to stretch and reach in radiant directions
filling the darkness around it with fingers of light. Tease the edges as far as your mind will allow without
leaping to another thought. This leap is the consequence of too much resistance being pushed. This is the
mechanism of dissociation and does little but serve to distract and otherwise derail your power of concentration.
The key here is gentle expansion.
Again, do not force this imagery. Tease it into expansion in a playful and gentle way. It will become effortless.
This is the point of integration. As you develop this strength, practice with stepping into the developing glow.
Draw the light in through your eyes, down your chest and into your heart where you can imagine a similar light
reaching out to connect with this heavenly symbol. Before long you will be able to imagine and see with your
minds eye, a channel of light from your heart to the sky. This is your connection to God! It is available to you
for visualization at any time. This connection exists whether you see it or not. Do not be disturbed if you
struggle to visualize, just keep practicing at seeing and expanding this channel.
Catch a beam of starlight. Hold it in your heart, send it through your hands, and spread it throughout the world.
The more you practice with this visualization the more power the channel will allow and the easier it will be to
connect in moments of despair. Just like a parachute, dont wait until you need it to pack it, because by then it
may be too latefor the parachute that isyou can always call on God, you will only then be limited by your
belief in Him and the relationship you have developed. Begin now cultivating that relationship that on other
days will save your life.
We finished at 17:54
27 May
A common mistake when it comes to visualization is the belief that it must be done perfectly in order to have
any effect. This is not true. Visualization is a powerful tool for entraining the mind to a new perspective. It has
vast and far-reaching effects that often go unnoticed as a person progresses on his spiritual path. What you hold
in your mind as an image or thought has power on some level.
Do not take for granted your ability to change your mind. It is neither difficult nor painful and it is necessary.
This aspect of your salvation cannot be done for you. Insofar as it serves to empower change, this idea is your
strength. Insofar as it relieves a dependency on other and out there it is crucial to recognize. Insofar as it
helps you to begin to take accountability for your thoughts and actionsthere are no shortcuts.
Let us give you an example of the ease with which you are able to change your mind such that you will have a
basis for change in the apparent future. Visualize a red rubber ball in your minds eye. Smell the rubber, feel
the texture, see the reflection of color. Now, turn that same ball into a tennis ball or golf ball or bowling ball to
suit your fancy. Emotions and thoughts behind them are just as easily changed. Practice! Just as you would
practice your serve, drive, or strike delivery, so too can you practice this technique for changing your mind.
Do not be dismayed by poor or incomplete imagery. Every attempt you make has all of the power of the
Universe behind it to reinforce your tiny efforts.
Let us look at an example of how the same faculties can influence the body. Imagine a lemon placed upon a
cutting board. Now imagine slicing this fruit with a knife. Feel the zest spray on your hands and face. Smell
the citrus juice. Cut a wedge and place this wedge skin-side-out into your mouth. Now bite down on the sour
flesh of the lemon. Is your mouth watering? You have just influenced the mechanism that you believe is your
body by changing your mind. The lemon wedge was not real in a conventional sense, but your belief in the
process led to the experience of really eating a lemon.
Your body will respond to your change of mind in ways you cannot possibly imagine. There is no magnitude
that cannot be reached through this process, but your belief in the difficulty of moving mountains in this way is
all that gets in your way. Remember that even the largest expressions of magnitude can be reduced to a single
common element: Unity. There aint no mountain high enough or river wide enough to keep you from gettin'
to Him. Just believe.
As you become more proficient at shifting your mental images, you will become more proficient at shifting
thoughts and their subsequent emotions. Before long, you will begin to experience the very real sensation that
you are the dreamer of this dream you have spun for yourself. Every aspect of your experience will become
linked to your thoughts. It will be easy then for you to make the final decision to turn this power over to God as
you begin to recognize and value your ability to think with Him. Alignment with the Will of God is all you
could ever really want. It is not an oppressive or controlling engagementfar from it. This alignment and
identification is your only true freedom of expression, because it is your only true identity as a Son of God.
Fear not. You will insist on fighting this until you exhaust yourself. You have not lost your freedom to choose.
The sooner His Will becomes yours, the sooner you will be in alignment with All that Is. This is not prison; it
is freedom to be who and what you truly are. It is you that insists on choosing despair and anguish, suffering
and torment, anger and doubtshall we go on? Remember our earlier statement about the cleavage of a
diamondyou cannot deny, you can merely delay.
Listen to the sound of your beating heart. You do not doubt that it sustains your life in this body, but you do
doubt That Which is the Source of Life. Similarly, you do not think about how it beats, if it is beating fast
enough or how it came to beat in the very first place. And yet, you still insist that your own thoughts sustain
you, that you must think your way out of difficult situations, or that you can think yourself to sanity. This is
not possible. The intellect, by design, is intended to delay, confuse, and obscure the truth about your Self.
Withdraw the power you have given it by withdrawing your belief that it has anything to offer you.
You who are related to the All Knowing have forgotten this relationship. You have chosen to dismember the
Sonship of Heaven in your own mind but can just as easily re-member this seemingly lost identity.
We are here to ensure your success. With the Power of God, you cannot fail. Let us be your guides into a
world untouched by the dismal blight of reality which you cling to here. Let us show you how to reclaim
what you have given up and insist on keeping at bay.
When you accept our help, you allow yourself to experience the true depth of both this human experience and
the alternative we promote. Then it is up to you to choose. You can never lose this ability. Until now, you
have insisted against help from the heavenly realm save a few small entry points in your life. Give us your
entire investment and you will not be disappointed. We have shown and continue to demonstrate how well
placed your faith is through the small openings you have given us. Do not doubt that there is so much more we
can do for you!
Trust is the fundamental principle at work here. You have misplaced it time and again in order to reinforce
your own distorted view that it is not possible to trust anything but yourself. This is crippling you in ways that
would only serve to depress you if you knew. Suffice it to say that we have delighted or relighted in the role
you would have us play, however limited. We have shown you time and again that this time it has not been
misplaced.
Try this exercise: whenever you feel the weight of a decision or a situation, choose to give it over to Him who
sent us. Trust us when we say he wants nothing more than for His children to be happy. You do not know what
will make you happy, but we do. Imagine a brick in a backpack representing the burdens you carry. Label each
with a word or phrase that captures the essence of the weight it possesses for you. Imagine carrying this bag of
bricks to a sacred place in your mind. It is there in every mind. We know because that is where we will meet
you. Take each of your bricks: job, home, relationships, bills, health, goalsplace them all upon the altar of
your mind. Leave nothing in the bag. Empty it of every tiny speck of dust. There upon the altar, some will be
transformed into an idea, insight, or other guidance. Others you can simply leave to sit. They are in the most
capable and caring of hands. Extend gratitude, for your own sake, not ours; then return on your way.
Think nothing of these burdens again once you have laid them upon the altar for God. We will tend to each one
in due course. You do not know the appropriate timing, but we do. Fear not. Everything will be handled in the
most skillful and appropriate manner possible.
We finished this session at 13:27
Hope is not a word for shaping a thought, as in, I hope it does not rain today. This is not the appropriate use
of hope. Hope is a feeling of gratitude for the certainty of purpose you feel when you choose His. Hope is a
guarantee that your safety is assured. Hope releases you from the burden of using your own faulty intellect to
solve a problem. Stated appropriately: Hope Floats upon a sea of torment never allowing those who ride upon
it to touch the damp deep of despair.
We cannot choose for you, but we can place opportunities in your way. It is up to you to recognize, with our
help, those that will lead up and those that will lead down. Judge not the face of the opportunity. Instead ask,
Is this in alignment with His purpose for me at this time? On rare occasion we will place before you an
opportunity that is not appropriate for you now, but the preview is important for what may be in the future. It is
our hope that you will ask and listen whenever you have occasion to remember. Do not bother yourself with
banging on closed doors. Persistence is better applied through appropriate channels that we will highlight.
Rarely will you be asked to even knock upon a closed door at all.
Your purpose is best fulfilled by allowing us to guide your every movement. You will soon discover that this is
the only way to move through the world. We can guide your eyes, hands, feet, and head if you will allow it.
You will not encounter strain by allowing us to work through your body. Instead you will feel a fluid and
resting movement that is precisely weighted for each movement. Move as if water or warm honey flowed
through your body. Faster movements will feel more like a surge of electrical energythey will have a
snapping or popping quality.
As you learn to trust these physical inclinations and movements you will begin to feel more at ease in any given
situation. We know what danger lurks behind corners and what safety lies behind others. We can see through
walls and time. Listen carefully and you will be shown exactly where and how to move for your greatest
comfort and ease.
You will be challenged only to remain focused and calm under all circumstances. The clouded or noisy mind
leads to pain, sickness, and death. The clear and focused mind leads to prosperity and liberation. You will be
trained fully and appropriately to face any circumstance you might encounter before you find occasion to
employ what you have been taught. Trust then even the seemingly bizarre or misplaced regimens, as they will
prepare you for a later date when their integration can lead to success. You will never be asked to face a
situation for which you are not prepared. Therefore, leave preparation up to us.
You cannot possibly imagine the scope and depth of experience that lies before you. Likewise, it is not
necessary for you to do so. Your understanding is not necessary. Your willingness is. Your openness is crucial
and essential.
Learn to be still and flexible. Learn to hold a space of grounded certainty. We will lead you to examples of that
which we speak. You are asked then only to observe.
What we hope to impress upon you is a sense of Presence in all situations. From here we will be able to lead
you through progressively more disorienting situations until you have developed a solidly stable central focus
unshakable and untouched by seemingly external events. This is a crucial element in the shape shifting
practice. We will be preparing you for navigation through invisible realms in order that you will be able to
move through the seen world undetected. You will quickly understand why this is necessary.
You are asked to write this apparently inner dialogue such that you will have a record for review at a later
date of what we have said here. Your memory is not of sufficient strength for this to be an unrecorded
conversation.
When you have gathered sufficient strength, you will be shown the most appropriate application of it. The
gathering process begins now. Take nothing you encounter for granted. Every surface your body seems to
contact is an opportunity to connect and ground. Every breath you take and exhale is an opportunity to
minimize resistance to a greater influx of energy.
Rather than bracing against any seeming intrusion, draw energy from it. This is in direct opposition to the basis
of thought you hold around stand your ground. Instead, be fluid, flexible, and always receptive to the next
addition or amplification of energy. Its abundance will become clearer with practice.
30 May
Test yourself against the light of consciousness. When darkness enters, give it not a moments respite in your
mind. Transmuting poison, be it toxic thoughts or substances, occurs when the mind is able to recognize the
presence and not fight it. Invite light to break down the toxic elements by choosing the power of the Son.
You do not yet know the power of your minds ability to heal. But you will begin to recognize more and more
with each opportunity to heal you take. You will recognize these opportunities as sources of tension. You may
feel it in your body; you may experience it energetically as in a tense moment. Identification and exposure
are the key elements.
Both elements require attention and awareness. Awareness is your intruder alert while attention is the bug
zapper that eliminates the menacing presence. The sooner you bring attention to toxicity, the less systemic the
effects. This is where strengthening and expanding your powers of awareness are best applied. Be ever vigilant
for even the slightest unrest. Unnoticed and worse, unattended, this seed will take root and infection spreads.
Take a moment each day and more often throughout the day as you begin to experience value added through
this exercise to scan your mind and body for sources of tension. As you become aware of more and more subtle
layers, you will subsequently become more and more aware of true causality.
True causality is the force operating in the universe that dictates action and reaction, cause and effect, Source
and Creation. Your world is based upon the faulty application of causality. The First Cause or first mover
is/was/and will remain God. This has been abominated in this world through externalization or by placing the
cause of internal effects out there. We will name a few: Giardia, AIDS, cancer, the Bubonic Plague,
syphilis, gonorrhea, warts, hives, allergies
We could list every major disease in the Physicians Desk Reference and you would see listed among symptoms
and treatments some externalized microbe, chemical, viruswhy? Because you have been trained to look
without for causes that truly exist within the separated mind of the Sonship.
Louis Pasteur said, and accurately, The Terrain is everything, the Germ is nothing. In other words, you are
surrounded on a daily basis by toxic and volatile elements according to microscopic analysis of your hands,
feet, and hair.
What then leads to disease in one person and no outstanding symptoms in another? Guilt. Guilt is the glue that
binds this world together. Doubt it? Look at your last social engagement where you felt less than happy about
joining. You didnt want to go, but you went anyway because to cancel you assume would lead to guiltthat
tense, knotted feeling in your gut or chest.
You make dinner dates, family gatherings, and even whole relationships around guilt. Well get to how guilt
and gravity go hand-in-hand with these social gatherings, but first let us make quite clear that we make no
judgment about how you spend your social time. We merely highlight or bring your attention to this subject
because to become aware of your motivations or those things you allow to move you is the first step to breaking
free from their grip. Do not be fooled by how seductively guilt plays on the mind. You spend the majority of
your waking hours doing things you do not really want to, because you are unwilling to look at what drives
your choices.
You can take this power back immediately by choosing Love under all circumstances. Pain is simply a higher
magnification or amplification of guilt. Yshua felt no pain on the cross because he was totally without guilt.
Emotional pain is no different than physical pain save one crucial element: time. The duration of emotional to
physical pain transformation is veiled by time. Time in this case serves to dissociate or remove the association
of a pain stimulus just out of the beam of awareness. If your personal history has a 6-month operating narrative
within which you are inclined to re-member or re-collect an emotional pain stimulus, the body manifestation
timeline will introduce the symptoms of a malady at 6 months and a day.
Herein lies the value of tracking tension daily and expanding your awareness with intent on finding an un-happy
or un-peaceful or un-loving link to your physical pain. The pain body itself may hold emotional memories that
transcend your awareness of this life!
Look at it this way: you have lived only one Life that seems to be broken into many thousands of tiny and
indistinguishable (due to your lapse in memory) bits that are punctuated by significant emotional events and the
veil of death. Death is a profound forget-me-so mechanism introduced as a cosmic sleight-of-hand to again
remove the awareness of these causal associations: guilt => pain, emotional leads to physical.
Do not busy yourself with trying to remember all of your seemingly separate lives in order that you might bring
awareness and attention to your healing process. Instead, be about the business of identifying events in the now
that trigger or tug on pain strings that may go back many thousands of lives many thousands of years ago. Your
experience of the now puts directly in front of you every past hurt or guilt you could ever imagine.
Use the premise of the outward seeking world to see in it symbols outside of you and bring the light of attention
there, not to some dream world beyond forever-never-land. What is happening now is your road map home.
You merely need to learn how to interpret all of the many symbols that show emotional pain (again from
guiltarising as tension). These are the benchmarks, touchstones, and rest stops if you will, on the road back
to Life.
31 May
Take a moment to recall the many signs and symbols you encounter daily while using pictures and signs in
navigating the streets of this world. You use colors, lines, small figures, shadingall to delineate some element
in 3-space by its 2-space element. These symbols show you where to go, how fast, how far you must travel,
what resources (or outsources as in the case of gas and food) you can count on along the way. They show
elevation, orientation, watercourses, and lighthouses. You use these maps primarily for travel in order that
you might take advantage of the birds eye view.
What if you were to imagine the landscape of your life in a similar way? Take a STOP sign for example.
You see a red sign with a white border (this applies in America of course), eight sides and four letters. You
interpret this sign to mean: cease forward progress and look both ways before proceeding. What if instead of
the simple formal application of this symbol as it relates to a motor vehicle you translated it into a mindfulness
practice of: cease thinking and look at the multitude of options before proceeding.
I can assure you that wed see a drastic reduction in accident rates sure, but also imagine how many fewer
wrong turns wed make as a result of taking a moment to stop thinking and be open to all options before us.
Yielding brings up another important practice. What if beyond the motorways we chose to yield to the many
seemingly unreasonable requests made by our spouses, peers, bosses, or friends?
Just because we judge the request unreasonable or without reason does not mean that the message delivered by
this vessel is not one that will bring us to a place of greater insight, openness or satisfaction. Often, your
judgments about whats right or whats best are clouded by our own ambition to be right and to be the best
or to claim superiority through some superlative. This is a mistake. A childs request for your approval of a
mud pie is preposterous and unreasonable, but we offer this stamp free of charge because it is the most loving
thing to do.
What if you/we were to look more often at the preposterous and unreasonable requests of y/our manifest lives as
similar opportunities to extend love. By withholding your approval or your time or your money or your
attention, assistance, praiseyouwe are saying, in effect, these things are worth more to me than you are.
Maintaining this strategy will quickly lead to a mud pie in the face at best or subsidizing mud pie manufacturing
for a living at worst. If you think that is debasement, what do you think makes up the foundation to your house?
Mud pies arent so juvenile when you use them for stabilizing a structure, driving or walking on are they?
Note: I can really only communicate this with a furrowed brow of confusion. Clearly there is some identity
and audience fluctuation occurring here as if both they are speaking and I am speaking to a different
audienceyou. Ive sat with this for some time now and have come back time and again to the identification of
Our Divine Identity. If in fact these voices seem to come from some other time and place (well beyond
space and time according to 18 Mays conversation), and yet they have already identified, Were you as of
the 25
th
of April. Hmmm. If this is a channeled writing as such, then the Source must be of another world or
consciousness leaving me (jason) as a distant and separate vehicle or messenger. And yet, it seems as
though some of this message is coming from the very present and identifiable Jason Consciousness, as
exemplified in the shifting audienceme or you? If this J.C. is a shared Identity, what then is the source?
Where is the accountability? If I simply say, Dont blame me, this came from cosmic beings in another galaxy
and time, then Im off the hook right? Or, gosh, it must be true because it was Channeled from God! Praise
JEBUS and pass the salt. Wow, that really does put a wrench in thingsin fact, my intent is to put a wrench in
all things channeled and other-worldly, not because I want to mess with your head, but because it illustrates an
important point: what is the Source of Inspiration? Really. Did Louis Pasteurs intellect manifest the thought
about germs and terrain while on his deathbed (google it, I did) or was it a divine inspiration? I dont know. Is
the Bible really the True Word of God? He seems a bit bipolar if thats the case. Curious that bipolarity is one
of the most common diagnoses to come out of the DSM IV. Was the DSM divinely inspired? What about the
Book of Mormon? The Torah? The Tao Te Ching? The Constitution of the United States? I dont know.
What I do notice is that some things resonate more deeply or in a different way than others regardless of the
vehicle of the message, be it a 6 year-old toddler, a 60 year-old professor, or an ageless voice from beyond.
Now, lets get back to the Unified Voice .
The fact of the matter is that you do not know the value of anything. Take a $100 bill. Now compare its value
to a 55-gallon trash bag. Which do you value more? The wisest of you said, it depends.
Yes, it does depend. It depends upon the context. So, evaluate on the basis of being in downtown New York.
Which do you value more? How about downtown New York during an economic crisis, in a bread-line,
advertising all you can carry. Hmm, changes things. How about downtown New York in a bar? Nowthat
bar is closed and you can gather the glass and cans for recyclestill want the $100? What if inside of one of
those bottles is the cast away engagement ring of some heartbroken young lady that you could pawn for
$1,000!? Nowhow about downtown New York during a natural disaster (hint: money likely wont be worth
much, but clean water will)? Oh? What if like rising gas prices your $100 will only buy about 20 gallons at a
rapidly reducing quantity as supplies dwindle. How long could you sustain a family of 4 at
1gallon/person/daywell do the math for you: 5 daysa workweek.
Now, take that bag into your backyard to wrap around the leaves of a large tree for transpiration (that means
you get water sweating or exhaling from the leaves) collection. 4 such bags carefully employed may keep
this family drinking pure water indefinitely. Wheres the $100 now?
Okay, perhaps youre beginning to see the point: I dont know the value of anything! If not, dont worry,
enough life here and youll get to this point. What do you do now? Ask, open, and listen. Allow yourself to be
guided to the most appropriate solution. Allow yourself to be led to the circumstances that will bring you the
greatest satisfaction. Eventually you will begin to loose your attachments to what this world values most:
money, power, respect and begin to experience the current of the true currency: peacelovejoy. They are
not, were not, and never will be overrated. While every other commodity in this world vaporizes into
uselessness, these core experiences will vaporize you into freedom.
17:14
1 Jun
We came not to change a nation or political structure. These worldly constructs are often crucial for the
development of a species. We do, however, come to challenge the way in which you employ these structures.
Ask yourself, am I using this construct as an identity for differentiating among groups of people, or am I
employing these structures toward the highest good for all sentient beings? The answer will quickly manifest
as confidence and calmness in the affirmative case or tension and turmoil in the negative case. Let us clarify
further by stating that the affirmative case entails the highest good for all.
Here is an example: take your judicial system as it was first established by your constitution as a check and
balance to support the intent inherent in the preamble to the American Constitution as it states, We the
peoplein Order to form a more perfect Union This was a lovely statement. Your founding fathers (and
mothersmany women had a large part to play in shaping the doctrine of this country through the formal
influence of their husbands) accepted that perfection was a lofty and impractical goal, but they also recognized a
need for improvement on previous systems of government. More perfect, captured this intent. They also
established the participatory nature crucial in any representative form of governing by identifying the common
populace, We the People. Finally, they inherited and intuited a mechanism for collaboration that would
assure survival, through Union.
How can we get people to work together? was a fundamental question of the first settlers. Many arrived with
seemingly separate and often competing interests: religious freedom, a new start, political asylum, profiteering,
escape, and evasion were among the many reasons.
Pilgrims to any new land are stepping into what they perceive as a vast abyss of uncertainty. Out of this
uncertainty will often arise a contractual agreement for mutual support. In the case of the Plymouth Rock
Pilgrims this was called the Mayflower Compact. It set about to ensure the mutual safety of the new arrivals in
the New Land.
It laid out specific areas of concern and collaboration. Most people agreed with most of the provisions and that
majority acceptance was enough to move the minority to accept. The problem with this approach will become
apparent through the following exercise:
Imagine a group of people gathered around a round table. They are gathered here to openly and
equivocally (rooted in equa as in equal and vocally as in vocal/voice or equal voice) discuss and
outline a course of agreement and action regarding any subject. Lets say, survival of a species in a
new environment.
At this table are gathered a representative cross-section of the populace or population to be effected by
the decisions of this group.
This begs the question, what is the populace? Does it include children, pets, elderly, and disabled?
Simple answer, yes. How then shall we endeavor to represent the subvocal, incoherent, or infirm? The
question really is, Do we know what is best or right for another?
Suppose this gathering chooses to represent the majority of the populace rather than trouble
themselves with the complication of representing All. They choose then the best, brightest, and most fit
on the basis of surely what is best for these elite will be best for All.
This is the first crucial mis-step.
Take the group gathered before you now as a prime example. In this group you have 8 representations
of the populace:
First, you have seated before you
Jesus the Savior
Second,
Lazarus the beggar
Third,
Tarsus of the insect and animal world
Fourth,
David the underdog
Fifth,
Cornelius the warrior
Sixth,
Taliphus the goddess
Seventh,
Orpheus the king
Note: In my minds eye I imagined a round table with luminous personages identified both at the very start of
this dialogue and just now. Jesus sat across from me, Orpheus to my left, Taliphus to my right, Tarsus to Jesus
right, and Lazarus to his left. David and Cornelius sat at opposite sides on the 3 and 9 Oclock positions
respectively.
08:15
2 Jun
With the exception of David, each of these characters is named with a common suffix tailing their name.
Us. This was done intentionally to illustrate an obvious common thread. It is crucial that any group
gathered begin with this commonality. If we were to be rigorously accurate in our characterization,
Jesus would be called by his Hebrew name: Yeshua. This would only serve to emphasize the
differences. David was identified as such because he sits directly across the table from you, Jason,
another without the common identifier inherent in us.
Yet, we already declared, were you and likewise you are us as the Sonship is undivided, indivisible, and
with liberty and justice for All.
In the case of these less than obvious connections, it requires in a group a greater willingness to seek and
find the connection. Take in this instance your relationship to Orpheus the king, companion to Jason
and the Argonauts. You share that bond now with another in the group. This is the nature of inclusion.
It is crucial to your development to include All aspects of the Sonship.
The most appropriate deliberation of such an inclusive group must then integrate every voice of its
constituency no matter how small or how far out it may appear. It also must avoid the temptation to
weigh the louder, stronger, or more powerful voice with greater influence.
You do not hear our voices as audible pressure waves of sound against your eardrum. Rather, you
hear us as an inner dialogue that emerges from your willingness to hear and focus on a Voice for
Healing and Wholeness. Similarly, we do not hear you through audible mutterings either, but we do
hear you in the most fundamental way that communication occurs. We hear your presence in this
field. When anyone endeavors to listen and hear the deeper vibrations of causality in this world they
will begin to experience the methods of communication inherent in those levels. You have arrived now
on a plane where you are beginning to recognize the subtle interactions of thought in relationship to your
experience of this world.
Helen Schuchman and countless others have done and will do the same thing in time. This is not a
unique or special attribute doled out to the select few. All are called, few choose to listen. You
have chosen to listen.
Note: This statement is a repetition of a quote from both A Course in Miracles and Ken Wapnick in a book he
wrote by the same title correcting the often misunderstood quotation from the Bible: Many are called but few
are chosen (Matthew 22:14 KJV) should be, All are called but few choose to listen (ACIM T-3.IV.7:12). If
you need more convincing on this issue, consider: http://www.kencollins.com/question-44.htm where Ken
Collins emphasizes the Greek translation of many and few as well as considering The Called and the Chosen
as exemplifying our right to refuse out of free will and choice.
This group is convened for the purpose of inspiring mankind to achieve its highest possible calling. We
are in relationship with you Jason, because you exist on a plane where form is often crucial for
communication. We have vast resources at our disposal to move masses. You happen to be one of
them.
You will serve as the formal vehicle to scribe and deliver this groups deliberations and message. You
will have a participatory role in that you are always free to ask questions and voice concerns. Please,
as we abide by the same creed, keep your comments and questions brief and from the Heart. Also, listen
carefully, with your heart.
As scribe, you will be asked to take notes, keep time, establish our meeting place (wherever and
whenever you arrive here ), and will deliver this groups proceedings where, when, how and to whom
they are appropriate.
Each day, our chair will set the agenda: Jesus. He will initiate our discussions with a moment of
silence. Incidentally, Jason, that is the best way for you to arrive here at our meeting placein and
through silence. We will know when you show up. You need not announce it.
Lazarus, the beggar, will be our treasurer. He will handle the finances for this groups purpose. Worry
not about this aspect of your responsibilities, he will direct you how to best handle the money needed for
this project. We chose him for this role because no one knows the value of a penny better than someone
whose life often depends upon it.
Orpheus will be our secretary. No one but a king better knows the importance of keeping appropriate
secrets. Not everyone in a kingdom must know all aspects of its function all of the time. He will
orchestrate responsible disclosure of our materials and messages. Orpheus will also manage the
logistics of our meetings. We assured you Jason, that you make the time and we will make the space.
Orpheus will handle any and all rescheduling necessary to accomplish our task without interruption.
Our Program Manager will be David. Our Demolitions Expert will be Tarsus. Our Fashion Designer
will be Taliphus. Our Security Specialist will be Cornelius. Everyone has a job. Everyone has a seat.
Everyone has a voice.
Let us begin.
We will begin each meeting with a moment of silence in order to ground, center, arrive, and clearour
first point of order will be to review minutes from our last meeting. Jason, please read yesterdays
notes.
07:44
3 Jun
Jesus: let us begin(silence)
Jason: (in tears) I cant see any of you and I feel crazy, like Im making this all up. How do I know this
is not some ridiculous fantasy I have made up in order to feel special?
Jesus: (appearing in my minds eye, not in the room, as a man in a white robe, palms out and with a
loving gazenot unlike the glowing pictures of this angelic personage so common in religious art)
Jason: I feel ashamed and stupid (still crying) like even if you were real, I dont deserve to be seeing or
hearing you.
David: Quit your sniveling and write. We have work to do.
Taliphus: David, please.
Jason: (bolstering himself by sitting upright, inhaling deeply and letting go of doubt and tension) Okay,
Im ready.
Jesus: Yes, you are.
Jason: (crying again just by being acknowledged by this archetypal figure of infinite love and
compassion)
David: Come on, is he going to be like this the whole session? (looks at Jesus and then slightly more
warmly at Jason)
(All disembodied glowing eyes are now on Jason as he sits in his chair writing)
Jesus: let us beginon the agenda today is a discussion about mans need for sleep. To answer your
first question Jason, yes, you made this whole world up to feel special. You created a set, actors, stage,
audience, even ticket vendors to suit your one insane idea of separation. Were the realest things youve
got kid!
Cornelius: (to Jason) I can remember feeling like a freak as I woke up. Youre not alone.
Lazarus: (also to Jason) Sure, just like you to make us up.
David: Can I go? Were not going to get anywhere today.
Jesus: This experience you are having appears to be a psychotic break. You experience it as such
because you imagine you are hearing voices and making up characters to suit your fancy. The truth is,
yes, we are made up. So too is every seemingly real person you meet on the street. The difference
here is that we represent the part of your mind that is waking up. Your belief in us is simply your
misplaced belief in yourself.
Orpheus: Listen, you made this up, you called this meeting in order to explore the truth buried in your
own mind. We come as characters representing dissociated elements of your One True Self. You
believe you are a body named Jason so we meet you here on this plane where you are. Are you crazy in
an temporal sense? Yes, but youre becoming less and less as you begin to let go of the tricks and trades
of this world as being illusory. For now though, until you can float off into space on your own, we are
helpful for reflecting your True Self as a memory jogger.
Taliphus: I like jogging.
Jason: (imagining a buxom babe running down the beach with blonde hair and bouncing) Please
forgive me, I suppose I allowed my mind to wander.
David: Dont feel guilty. Shes hotso is lightning though; and trust me, you dont want to tangle!
Tarsus: (appearing as a toadlicks his eyenabs a fly in the air and glows a brighter toady green)
Tarsus: (now appearing as a radiant tree)
Lazarus: (appearing as a man with a thin white beard, radiant blue eyes and a course white, tattered shirt
with no sleeves, and a thin white homespun cloth belt about his waist)
15:44
5 Jun
Jesus: let us begin(silence)
On the agenda today is a discussion about mans need for sleep.
Orpheus: Sleep arises out of the desire to escape. When the Sonship was shattered and all the fragments
inhabited small separated selves, the experience was of guilt for breaking Daddys special. This guilt
drove man out of his mind and into a body. Predicated upon a belief in separation, this small self
became subject to the laws of this outcast world. Decay and death are extended versions of the dreamy
diversion you (referring to Jason as a symbol of mankind embodied) take again and again. Sleep seems
to hold something else for you too. It offers a periodic respite from the din of daily toil. Through it, you
seem to connect with a dimly recognized aspect of homepeaceful, easy, harmoniousthis usually
does not lastas is with everything on this plane of temporality or the temporary. You seem to doze off
into a dream world where your troubles are forgotten, but they are not. They are merely dormant. They
will soon arise in your experiences as harbingers of death through grizzly, gruesome scenes and feelings.
This is the nightmare. Nothing about your experience here could be all good.
David: Let me tell you a story about sleep. It begins on a snowy winters day with you nestled deeply
under a thick down comforter in a feather-padded bed beside a small crackling fire. You feel sleepy and
content in this serene setting. You are in a cabin in the woods all covered with snow. Theres a hint of
cinnamon in the air as your wife bakes. You pinch yourself to see if you are dreamingouch, nope,
must be real you say to yourself. Imagine another similarly soothing construct: you, hammock,
beach, palm trees, light breeze, light surfpina colada
Now, play these scenes forward. Scene 1: fire goes out, chill sets in, must get wood from buried pile.
Snow continues to pilethis cottage in the woods becomes a snowy, icy TOMB! Youre far
intentionally so removedfrom civilization, out of food. Scene 2: clouds build, surf rises and
crashes more loudly and powerfully. Trees creak, branches break. A storm builds on the
horizonhurricane. Sea spray begins stinging your face. You retreat to a hut already blown
overthatching from the roof now spread across the beach.
You made both of the experiences real. You also made the thought of separation behind them real,
which is why the cabin was separated from the cozy embrace of a city with plumbing, grocery stores,
and cars. You made the beach as an escape from the rat-racebut all of it comes crashing down when
the deeply hidden pain of guilt for breaking Daddys special returns as it will again and again in the
form of storms, splitting earth, asteroidsyou believe your paradise was lost and refuse to admit to
yourself that you could possibly harbor such a belief, AND still insist on protecting this insane idea!
And you ask if youre crazy?! Yes! You live in a hellish torment and pretend its a bed of roses!
WAKE UP SISTER! (slumps back as if relaxing after a tirade)
Tarsus: I speak for the trees.
Jason: I feel like peeing.
David: Hold it you sissy.
Jason: (glances down at Taliphus breasts only to be bitten on the nose by a snake emerging from her
bossom)
***silence is thick in the group after Davids outburst***
***it feels awkward now***
Jason: (has allowed his mind to wander to thoughts of this act being a playperhaps even Broadway.
Who would play the tree? he wonders. Would there be a life sized poster of an illuminated Christ?
He returns to the moment with all eyes on him)
Jesus: Thank you for joining us.
Jason: (sheepishly) excuse me. I forgot that when my mind wanders, you all stop to wait for me.
David: Were here for you dipshit.
Jason: (laughing)
David: Oh thats funny huh?
Jason: Well, yes, I mean youre supposed to be some angelic figment of my mind leading me home to
peace and you just called me a dipshit. Its funny.
Cornelius: (now chuckling) It is.
David: (glaring at Cornelius) Oh it is, eh Centurion?! Ill kick your little ass (David dives across the
table at Cornelius neck)
Jesus: Boys! Please.
David: (slinks back to his chair)
Cornelius: Someone is experiencing a small man complex. (not looking at David but talking at him)
David: (arms folded in disgust back in his chaira high backed white stool of sorts of uncertain
construction or materialits all a bit hazy here)
Jason: I still need to pee.
David: (rolls eyes)
Lazarus: (shoves a plastic container across the table) Use this.
Jason: (catches the container and holds it under the table meekly under Jesus seemingly frustrated
gazehis mind wanders again to production value of this scriptand picking his nose. He looks up to
see Jesus and the others looking at him again)
Jesus: Welcome back.
Jason: (cant think about anything but peeing, pens running out of ink and Taliphus tits)
Jesus: Please focus.
Jason: (feels something like a LASER beam from Jesus third-eye area across the table through his
brain and body)
Jesus: Sleep is a form of escape from the presence of mind-fullness. Fullness of mind occurs when you
choose to inhabit it. Most often, you are mindless and believe you are a body. Sleep is required for
bodies to heal, you believe. What is required is a return to the state of mind where the separation never
occurred.
***timer beeps outside, I began setting an hour timer for these sessions***
Jesus: (to Jason) See me after.
Jason: (cowardly, he makes a break for it, as though he could hide from omnipotence)
9:11
6 Jun
Jason: (arriving after a moment of silence) lets begin.
Jesus: That would be my role, thank youlets begin(silence)
Jesus: Okay, today we will discuss sex. Who would like to comment first?
Tarsus: In the animal world, we see this act as a role each member plays, from the honeybee to the
grizzly bear, in ensuring survival through the next generation. Often, you humans will project your own
distorted views of sex out of your shame, guilt, and curiosity. Penis and vagina have little meaning here.
Man and woman or male and female are similarly meaningless. Sure we have some differentiation
within the species, but we do not align with a do-er and a do-ee. We see sex more as an unfolding
of potential, a dance of transformation. It is beautiful, procreation, but it is not full of all of the fanfare
and complexity you humans inject.
Take the frog for example. This creature is able to change sex without an operation in order to suit the
needs of the population and in response to environmental pressures. The mouse is capable of the same.
Humans, however, claim some orchestral conductors roleand poorly in the case of juvenile
pregnancyin the act of fornication. It has often become a symbol of domination and subjugation for
you, whereas for us it holds no such tension. In the case of one spider eating another, again this arises
from utility. It is just what is done and is not judged as appropriate or inappropriate behavior. You add
that from the view you hold with laws and righteousness. I can only imagine the kind of shit storm that
a cannibalistic fornicator would stir up in the midst of your culture.
Taliphus: I have to agree with Tarsus. Human culture has deeply repressed its sexual tendencies in the
name of prudence and self-control only to manifest a level of deviance that would make a porn star
blush. Sex from my point of view is very similar to that of my natural friend here. The purpose it is
to serve among humans is a reminder of the creative spirit that is your identity. You have perverted it to
such a degree that it has become an amusement ride on one extreme and a torture device on the other.
Both miss the essential element of connection and intimacy.
Jesus: You were created as asexual beings. That is, you did not need some external element to fulfill or
to exercise your creation potential. Man and woman are merely symbols of a dualistic split. They are
not identities in and of themselves. Trans-gendered humans have been introduced in order to help you
bridge this gap. You have chosen instead to alienate and demonize this aspect of yourself. If a human,
through the eyes of his split mind, experiences a set of circumstances as abnormalas in the case of a
human with both sex organs or none at allthey are judged as freakish and cast aside. This choice
dilutes and minimizes your growth potential in a profound way. Only when you are able to look upon
human sexuality and gender in a neutral and open way will you begin to open to the world of possibility.
Similarly, you will be able to freely express a dimly connected aspect of your true self.
Orpheus: Sex was never intended to be a guilty pleasure. Yes, it is an act of the flesh and therefore
temporary or unreal in an eternal sense, but that does not mean it is to be demonized or otherwise
misused.
Jason: Please forgive me, I feel tired and uninspired. Ill do my best to remain present.
Jesus: Your fatigue is a symbol of resistance to what we are talking about here. You are using it as a
defense against the truth about a particularly sensitive subject. We chose to link this subject with that of
sleep for precisely this reason. Youve simply done what is so typical of an obtuse mind.
Jason: (after looking up obtuse) Youre saying I have a dull perceptionIm not sharp?
Note: As I was transcribing this from my notes I did exactly the same thing againI paused to look up the
word obtuse as I remarked to my wife that, I think Jesus insulted me. Thats not like Jesus, says she.
Judgee, judgee, she continued. To which I clarified that he didnt actually judge me, but rather the obtusivity
of my minda subtle but important distinction. Kind of along the same lines as hate the sin, not the sinner or
hate the game, not the player or judge the behavior not the person orI suppose you get the point by now.
In any case, clearly Im still prone to repeating the same mistakes and forgetting rather quickly. Oh how the
pathways of our habituated mind run deep!
Cornelius: Careful there Jas. He identified a characteristic of your wrong mind. He in no way said,
You are dull. He identified an aspect, a characteristic, of the thought system you still embrace. He in
no way challenged your being as a Child of God, which is unchangeable. You have simply chosen
against it, which has led you to state, Im not sharp, as if to declare your dullness as a separate self.
Yes, you make choices for the dull, dense, deluded mind of separation, but you then still have the choice
to choose once again for the right mind that is your true illuminated self. Incidentally, this concept is at
the heart of the popular question W.W.J.D. or What Would Jesus Do? Its just been distorted by a
misperception of what He actually stood for, represented, and professed. The bracelets are not a bad
idea. What would be better is if people opened to the notion that the biblical Jesus is not the only basis
for right-minded thinking. Your race has experienced many radical or root minded thinkersyou
just choose to kill them all too often.
Jesus: Thank you Cornelius. On the subject of Who Would Jesus Do suffice it to say that as
transcended beings we have no sexual inclinations because we have learned to appropriately reclaim and
reapply our creative potential without association with body parts. Most humans are feeling a love
impulse when they feel compelled by the body to connect through lips or genitalia. W.W.J.D. is simply
answered with: The most loving thing. I would also endeavor to join with an open mind rather than a
body because the body is not your true self. It is a construct for validating differences and separation.
Lazarus: I would like to add that the plight of many homeless is directly related to either a misdirected
love impulse manifesting as some kind of domination strategy, as in the case of rape, or a misjudged act
out of a genuine desire for connection, as in the case of prostitution.

7 Jun
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
Youre already getting better at focusing your mind, congratulations.
David: Yeah, maybe youll start to apply more of what you learn here on a regular basis. This practice
is ongoing and necessarily reinforced by your application of the principles discussed herecheese dick.
Jason: David, why do you make fun of me?
David: Because its fun, cheese dick, or I wouldnt make it. Any more dumbass questions, cheese dick?
Jason: Im not going to let you get to melove is the only appropriate response to a call for love. I
love you David.
David: Luv ya too, cheese dick. Are you gonna cry again today?
Jesus: On the agenda today: a continued discussion about sex. Lazarus, I believe you had more to say.
Lazarus: Yeah, I wanted to emphasize the role of sexual deviance in the shame and guilt construct of
many homeless folks. Take for example someone attracted to children or even child pornography. In
many cases, this desire arises from a sense of innocence lost regarding a persons own childhood, as in
the case of child molestation, or a misdirected fascination with the innocence embodied by a child that
has also been misplaced. Take a man who was sexually abused as a young person. In most, not all,
cases this person might be dimly aware of some sense of wrong in the moment in large part due to
societal pressure and secrecy. All it takes for a seemingly neutral event to be tainted is for one
caregiver, cartoon character, or television star to say, ____ kind of touching is wrong. What the child
then absorbs is their own badness that will manifest in sexual deviance as an adult as they try to
reclaim the innocence that was wrongly taken. Michael Jackson is an excellent example of a character
wanting desperately to connect with a childhood innocence seemingly stolen. It would do the world a
great deal of good to stop judging and start forgiving. This attitude drives many to adopt an Im not
worthy attitude to the extent that living under a bridge like a troll is a welcome prospect as compared to
the shaming they experience from others, or the guilt they lay on themselves. Most people will project
right and wrong determinations of behavior out of their own insecurities around sexuality. This
mantel is then absorbed by an impressionable psyche as dirty or bad and reinforces an already
diminished self-image.
Cornelius: It was not uncommon among earlier Mediterranean cultures, especially Romans, to have
sexual relationships among boys and men. It was accepted as part of an imprinting process between boy
and man. Today this same relationship would be judged pedophilic or homosexual and thus
unnatural. Our experience was different.
Tarsus: Did I mention the frogs ability to change sex? Homosexuality is not uncommon in the animal
world. And it certainly does not carry near the stigma you humans place on it.
Orpheus: A kings court was often overly sexually liberal as many royals took it as divine right to
indulge any and all bodily pleasures at the detriment of genuine and lasting relationship. Sex has a
tendency to become a centerpiece of affluent society mostly due to boredom. Again this stems from
what Jesus identified as the distorted miracle impulse. Many a scandal and thus armed conflict could
have been prevented if the ruler of the day had just kept his bits and pieces in his pants.
Note: Chapter 1 of A Course in Miracles, has a section titled: VII Distortions of Miracle Impulses and relays
to us that, The confusion of miracle impulses with physical impulses is a major perceptual distortion.
David: Is it any wonder that sexual deviance or promiscuity lead to some of the nastiest and most
vicious of diseasescheese dick? Gonorrhea? Chlamydia? I dont just make up these taunts for no
reason. They illustrate a pointsuch as a symptom of a common sexually transmitted disease: cheese
dick. The transmission of disease is guilt around an act. If sodomy, adultery, or other deviant acts
could be enjoyed without guilt, disease would not be transmitted. The infected culture that humanity has
germinated makes for a petri dish of unfathomable filth and infection. Guilt is at the core. An immune-
deficiency arises any time a person feels stress or tension as in that caused by guilt. It prevents the
necessary flow of anti-bodies, reduces circulationthe stronger the culture of guilt and shame, the
stronger and more widespread the dis-ease. The same could be said about cigarettes, chocolate, and
fatty foods. Their effects lay not in their substance but in the thought that surrounds them.
Taliphus: We could discuss this topic all day. In the spirit of concision I want to simply express that the
sexuality of women has been lost to fashion, beauty of features, and valuation of looks before presence.
The energy that I represent cares not for large breasts, big lips, luscious lashes, or firm thighs. It is
concerned only with a divine life force unencumbered by fantasies of fancy. Women and men will take
back this sacred energy when they stop projecting it onto the opposite sex. Women are powerful and
strong, men are gentle and receptive. Your identity roles and gender stereotypes are crippling you(she
begins to glow vibrantly through her hair, hands, faceas an expression of the divine light in all of us)
Jesus: That will conclude our discussion of sex. One final noteJason, you saw the character Jewel
last night live in concert. What impressed you most, her breasts or her energy?
Jason: UggghI dont like where this is going.
Jesus: Just answer honestly.
Jason: I did happen to notice her breasts. Who wouldnt? But honestly, what moved me to tears
David: I knew it, there he goes again!
Jason: was the power of her voice. She filled every corner of that auditorium with her presence.
THAT was a beautiful feeling. I could really feel the love she channeled especially during her first and
last songs: Over the Rainbow and Who Will Save Your Soul.
Taliphus: Case in point.
Jesus: Thank you, we noticed your reaction.
11:33

16 Jun
Jesus: Lets begin...(silence)
David: Whats wrong with your face?
Jason: (neck and jaw muscles alternately tensing in open-mouthed, strained contortions) I dont know.
Jesus: You are experiencing a form of primal muscle spasm. Anytime the human organism is
threatened, the trauma of the experience is stored deeply in the tissues of the flesh. What you are
experiencing as you try to relax is the release of this tension. Its best to allow it to flow freely. Let the
contortions and straining arise and release whatever they may be. Your friend David Bercelli has
discovered a profound healing mechanism in this respect through Trauma Release Exercises (TREs).
Note: I had been introduced to this phenomenon when I first met Mr. Bercelli in Phoenix, Arizona at a Brain
State conditioning program. Since that time, I had practiced the exercises regularly to release tension and allow
deeper meditation and relaxation. Many of the movements were clearly related to trauma sustained in this life
as images and thoughts entered my conscious awareness (hands clasping as I tried to grab hold of the floor of a
vehicle I was sliding out of as a child, then forehead tremors where my head hit the curb in one case, or fingers
flexing as though I were gripping the aircraft joystick of my A-10 during nighttime air-to-air refueling during a
thunderstorm in Tucson in another case)others were not so clear in origin as in this case. Most recently, I was
involved in a healing exercise with a Franciscan Monk as she was guiding me through a subconscious barrier.
The very clear sensation and image of being a monk myself facing the gallows for something I wrote emerged
along with a profound tension in my neck as though the rope still remained. I remember sobbing on the phone
to this woman, I dont want to die, I was only sharing what I believed to be true. I felt the floor drop from
beneath me and the rope tighten around my neck as I dangled and was strangled.
Orpheus: You just read Dr. Kenneth Wapnicks intro to Orphism in Love Does Not Condemn (pg. 42).
We will discuss more of this dualistic thought system and how it relates to me later. For now, please
understand you made a mistake regarding my identity as a King. That is okay. It still serves the purpose
of exposing the minds propensity for deception. We will explore how and why we allowed this to
occur, again, later.
Note: When I was first introduced to these characters, I did what any self-respecting lunatic would do when
hearing voices that had namesI googled them . It was there that I tried first to make associations in popular
culture and historical literature. Clearly, the documented references to the names were not in all cases
correct. Also, Taliphus brought up some woman in the white pages of another state. Oh well, my purpose
was to try to get some collaboration in the external environment that would validate this apparently psychic
phenomenon.
Jesus: On the agenda today: Spanish America. Let me begin by saying that Spain was very much the
birthplace of modern Christianity. Your trip in the next days comes at an appropriate, albeit carefully
orchestrated, timewe wont spoil the surprise.
Note: The surprise was ironically related to my wife and my purpose for visiting Spain in the first place. Her
parents and my in-laws were celebrating an anniversary. It was my wifes crafty plot to show up at their
Mediterranean villa unannounced. We did just that. After driving from the airport at Malaga, we arrived at the
front entrance of their flat just as my mother-in-law was opening the door to let out la cucarachaa cockroach
they had chased through the living room and now out the door. Not only was she delighted to see this poor
critter escape into the night, but she and my father-in-law also delighted, and also recoiled a bit, at looking up at
just that moment to see us now totally out of context from our Colorado home! Back to the session
Jason: (acting on some ancient desire to see ahead)
David: Dont even try that looking into the future shitits gotten you into A LOT of trouble. Be
present Now. We will handle the rest.
Jesus: Your gift of Vision will be restored at the appropriate time. You are not yet ready to handle what
you would see.
Taliphus: Spanish America is a reference to a relationship that transcends time. Spain represents a spirit
of explorationnot conquestwhile America represents a spirit of originality or more accurately,
aboriginality. The people that first inhabited this region of your world, the Clovis, were of the first order
of primitive explorers. They possessed great strength, stamina, and courage. Many today view them as
primitive in an uneducated sense. This couldnt be further from Truth. Your modern scientific
view of the evolution of your species is sadly mistaken and clouded by specialness. The Clovis People
of 10,000 years ago were a masterful race of hunters and gatherers. There are but a sad few that could
come close to matching their talent and bravery, creativity and ingenuity, intuition and awareness. They
wondered and wandered greatly. You believe they came here across a land bridge from the frozen
tundra of Russia across Alaska and Canada based on your fossil record. This much is true. You also
believe that because of their primitive tools, they lacked a refined intellect or social structure. This
much is false. The Clovis wandered in tribes or clans with complex social dynamics most closely
mirroring modern and ancient wolf packs. A breeding pairman and woman, led each group. Each
group also migrated together and joined other tribes to hunt the great creatures of the time; they shared
tools and trades, and promoted intertribal mating.
Each member of a clan had a particular role when it came to rearing young, gathering food, and building
shelter. This symbol represents the wisdom of these people. You will see it again. Be confident that
you will soon remember its significance.
Tarsus: The Aboriginal Americans lived most closely to the Natural World. They felt the Presence of
Being in All Things. They appreciated the beauty of life and experienced a vibrancy and vitality far
beyond modern man.
Jason: (probing for nose-goblins)
David: Stop picking your nosethats gross.
Tarsus: This experienced vitality was directly related to their closeness with the Natural World. You
are beginning to relate to this through your own experience of connecting to nature. Learning about
plants, listening to trees, observing animals are all ways of expanding this awareness.
Jason: (struggling to clear and remain present)
10:11

18 JunSpain
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
David: In and through silence. That is the way we enter this space. What could be more simple, and
yet it proves to be so challenging to many of this species.
Jesus: Todays agenda: continue our discussion of Spanish America.
Taliphus: Take for example too, the tree exercise you did at the Sand Dunes in an effort to distract the
kids on the Science Discovery trip long enough for the van to arrive at your campground. That timing
was not accidental, nor was it wasted. We inspired the connection experience in order to expand your
and theirawareness of the natural world. Theyand youwill not soon forget the relationship we
asked you to build with the trees.
Tarsus: Thank you for listening.
Jason: (recalling asking the 12 9-11 year-old students on the summer camp trip to find and sit next to a
tree at their new campsite. Led through a series of questions about and observations of their tree, each
child was asked to take away a learning. One young woman took away how much we derive from trees
and how much we can do for them. This future Ranger is already well connected just as our ancestors
must have been)
Cornellius: The Conquistadors of Spain acted on orders from God given to political leaders through
the Church to colonize and convert worldwide heathen populations. This Divine Mandate led to the
most famous conquests of your history books beginning with Inquisition.
David: For some time, explorers pushed a brand of Christianity put forth by the political genius of the
newly forming Church system. England was quick to follow suit, as were France and Portugal. Dont
forget that much of your modern history was written by the conquerors about the vanquished and is
necessarily skewed to tell a story of great enterprise and curiosity. That is what we meant when we
referred to the Spanish symbol of exploration not exploitation.
Jesus: This relationship between a developing New and Old World was strained from the beginning. In
the one case, you had a population of well connected indigenous people descend from Spirit guided
aborigines and in the other you had some sadly misguided albeit good intentioned explorers seeking to
expand and extirpate.
Taliphus: What arose out of this tumultuous onslaught was a clash of culture that sent both reeling.
Tarsus: Gold was the fancied medium of exchange for the Spanish and thus a major source of
distraction and dismay. Take for example the enslavement of native populations in North and South
America for procurement of this rare and beautiful metal. It plagued even the most devout of
Christian Missionaries. Couple that with a penchant for distributing word of the Wrath of God and you
have quite a recipe for success.
Lazarus: No man could resist the lure of wealth and fame that financial control of the New World
promised. What once was glorified as a God of the Sky (Helios) became worship of a baser deity
lurking in the dark shadows of the ground. It is no mistake that gold is of a density and hue that keeps
men scraping for this promise of glory. How else could Gods kingdom manifest on earth but through
the divine purchasing power of his created element? was the prevailing wisdom of the time. Save God
from the heathens and use them to bring forth his glory out of the Earth and into the World. It just made
such perfect sense to a population awash in the belief that God created the Heavens and Earth. Who
could blame them for their buffoonery when such a primal belief was held? Genesis 1:5 has led to more
confusion about the origins of man than just about any other passage. News flash you Son of a God, He
had nothing to do with this hell you made for yourself. You made it with seemingly great care and
precision, which is why it still holds so much power over you. Take a moment to think about the many
times you have been tempted by the promise of glory and riches and you will not be so quick to judge
the actions of earlier generations. The only true gold is the gold of experiencing the Divine Life Force
move through you and all things. Native populations tried to teach this through their way of being, but
many early pioneers were so blinded by righteousness they could not see this simple fact. Take your
current situation in Iraq. Any suggestion that this conflict is about freedom and democracy and not
about securing influence and control in an energy rich land is simply not true. At the highest levels of
your government, men and women are making decisions from the same, clouded perspective that
gripped early America, and you think you are evolving as a race!
Orpheus: Now is the time to begin awakening from this deluded slumber to a world of hope and
possibility. Too long have money hungry power brokers controlled the minds of people in this world. It
is time for each of your species to begin to take back their Divine Inheritance as glorious Children of
God.
Jason: (concerned about demonization of the power elite) We are under no one groups control. The
powerful bankers and policy makers of this world have no more influence than we give them. I refuse to
believe we are slaves to a wealthy class of powerful people.
Cornelius: Even so, you have given this group control over many aspects of your society. Orpheus is
right. You must take back control of this aspect of your mind.
Taliphus: Fear not how this will be perceived by those still wanting to simply be told what to do while
reserving the right to complain bitterly about their station in life. Instead, share as confidently and
truthfully as you can what we have to say about your system of government and control. Nothing else
matters.
05:44

19 JuneSpainsitting in a bathroom for privacy
Jesus: lets begin(silenceafter everyone has arrived in and through silence)
Jesus: Lets continue our previous discussions regarding the power dynamic in America. I would like
to point out at this time (to Jason) that you have shown due diligence to this task of recording and
arriving. Please accept as a token of our appreciation this fine leather handbag(holding up a Prada
imitation, Jesus shares this disembodied, illuminated, floating handbag).
Jason: (a bit perplexedaccepts)
Jesus: Did that feel like an empty gesture to you, Jason?
Jason: (still confused) Yeah, I felt like I was on a game show receiving some bullshit consolation prize
from a corporate sponsor just for showing up. The intent seemed geared toward marketing a brand
rather than putting forth any real statement of appreciation.
Jesus: Bingo. Thank you for participating in that little exercise of empty gratitude. We intend for it to
illustrate the type of superficial contact made by so many people as a result of seeing an opportunity to
further a personal agenda rather than to truly honor another persons involvement. You passed that test
of seeing through inauthentic gestures. In truth, our gratitude to you does nothing more than bolsters
your self-image. You dont need it from us. You do need it for us and what we represent. You have
taken on this task because you are open, curious, and want to serve. Any other intention or motivation is
misplaced and will lead to mistakes through misalignment with His Will for you. While sharing the
Gospel, or Good News of Salvation, is a noble charge, it was bastardized (to mean out of alignment with
your True Fathers Will) by a need for glorification of the separate self. Conquistadors claimed the
Glory of Spain as their noble intent just after the Glory of God. Bullshit!
David: Congratulations Jesus, you just passed the test of identifying inauthentic intent
Jason: (smirksthe group is quietbecoming aware of the silence, Jason also becomes aware of a
demonic presence)
Cornellius: You invited that in last night with your foray through the spirit world of the living dead
(referring to an exercise in being present with but not reacting to disembodied and demonic spirits).
You steeled your mind well against their influence, but they will remain so long as they sense an
opening. Calling in The Light was a brilliant (pun intended) tactical move, dispelling many and
releasing a few. Still, they will remain if you present an opening. Use these opportunities to exercise
your power of concentration but do not become complacent! They will possess you before you can say
BOO! Then you will need some type of ritual exorcism to break free, and it will likely not be without a
modicum of spinning heads, vomiting green slime, and baser growls and tauntsseriously. You are
playing with fire. Be careful! Toilets and sink drains are useful symbols for flushing, washing, or
blocking entry of these elements of your consciousness. As we have shown you before, call upon the
vortical (tornado-like) clockwise (as seen from above) flow to capture and ground these sinister
sneakers. Do it now for the presence you feel in the bathroom. Call on any positive archetype that you
associate with strength and light. The bigger the force (remember size only matters in the separated
mind) the more focused and insistent the clearing must be. Call in warrior ancestors, angels, spirits,
grandparents or relatives. Any aspect of your mind that represents truth, ascension, light, courage,
strengthall those good thingswill do. Do it again nowperform with confidence and strength.
Visualize a vast tornado or hurricane of positive energy that allows for no escape. Again, the clockwise
rotation from above is crucial. Draw in the negativity from all corners of the room and beyond the edges
of the house, yard, or structure in which you see yourself. Take in a meta-view of the whole of Spain if
it serves the occasion.
Jason: (now focused on what Cornelius has said, begins to imagine a great whirlpool gathering strength.
He calls in the spirits of Geronimo, Crazy Horse, Black Elk, Cochise, Mangas Coloradas, native
warriors and chiefs of great spiritual strength, the Lipan Apache named Stalking Wolf or Grandfather
to Tom Brown, Jr., the angels of power and light, the spirits of the horse and buffalo and eagleall are
gathered in his minds eye circling a great sacred fire and chanting:
Hey Naca
Toe Hey Naca
Come forth Great Spirit to cleanse this soul and clear this spacethe fire blazes higher until its flame
reaches clear into the heavens. A column of light forms, gathering in all harm and negativity in a great
whirling column.
Hey ya ha
Hey ya ha
Hey ya, Hey ya, Hey ya ha
The chant brings about a focus and strength for moving vast forcesJason leans back at just that
moment and triggers the toilet flush mechanism by apparent accident! He then blocks the sink drain
with a stopper)
Cornelius: Well done! Thats the idea. In this way, you will always need to be aware of any point of
entry this influence might take into your subconscious, but you never need be afraid! Vast sources of
strength will heed your every call as you begin to train your mind. No job is too small nor unworthy
of Their Presence as it lies in you as you begin to identify with the mastery and strength of the
archetypes you call upon. I noticed you did not call upon Jesuswhy not?
Jason: He was already here. It seemed silly to call on a symbol of light and strength already seated in
front of me.
Jesus: Why do you think I sit in front of you?
Jason: (seeing the table arrangement in his minds eye from above with Jesus opposite him, David at 3
Oclock, Cornelius at 9, Lazarus between Jesus and David, Tarsus between Jesus and Cornelius,
Taliphus between David and Jason, and Orpheus between Cornelius and Jason) I dont know.
David: Dont play stupid, Jackass! You remember the letters we showed you on the computer screen,
the statement in Biology of Transcendence, our earliest statements to youpull your head out you
chickenshit!
03:49

20 JuneEngland
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
Jason: (again sensing a presence in an old English house where he and his wife felt it many months
beforeshe says her name is Sarah.)
Jesus: Nows a good time to practice again what Cornelius emphasized earlier. Talk to her if you wish.
Jason: Sarah, will you show yourself? Show me that you are here
Jesus: It takes a great deal of energy for disembodied spirits to manifest movement on your planeask
instead for her to speak through your pen.
Jason: (opening to her) Sarah, if that is your name, please feel free to speak through this pen. I will
record what I hear you say.
Sarah: Hi! You can hear me?!
Jason: I think so.
Sarah: I lived in this housewell not this house exactly, but in this place many years ago. Lexy knows
of me and what happenedshe saw, ask her.
Note: My wife claimed to have had a remote viewing or premonition experience of a car accident near her
home in Brighton. As a teenager, she witnessed this accident many days later, just as she had seen in a dream.
Jason: Why are you here?
Sarah: To tell a story.
Jason: (deferring now to Jesus) Shall I continue with this?
Jesus: If you wish.
Jason: Im curious to know if what she says is true.
Jesus: Ask.
Jason: Sarah, can you prove somehow that I am not just making this up?
Sarah: Sure, read the papers. I was 17 around the time of the accident. Youre cute.
Jason: Thank you. Im also married. Tell me more.
Sarah: Lets seeI was walking home when I was hit. The driver never saw me because he was so
blasted. I didnt really feel any painjust sort of floated above the scene you know.
Note: Plastered is a more appropriately British way of saying drunk. This discrepancy adds further to
the mythical nature of this conversationwhy would an English spirit speak in American terms unless I, as
an American, had fabricated the story to fit an unusual experience?
David: Can we please hurry this up?
Jason: Sarah, can you hear David?
Sarah: David who?
David: If she could hear us, she wouldnt be stuck.
Jesus: You are experiencing a remote channeling with Sarah. She cannot hear us because she does not
believe in who or what we are. You can act as a relay because you believe in both who and what she is
and who and what we are. Tell her about us through the same level you have met her.
Jason: Sarah, did you catch any of that?
Sarah: Catch what?
Jason: Im going to tell you about some friends that can help you.
Sarah: Help what?
Jason: Help you transition home.
Sarah: I am home. This is my room.
Jason: Sarah, do you believe in Jesus Christ?
Sarah: Not really, no. I went to church, but it never really made sense why people get so excited about
some dead guy. Why?
Jason: You see, I have these friends that represent Love and Light and they can help you return to your
real home in Heaven.
Sarah: I told you, I am home.
Jason: Yes. But you dont belong here.
Sarah: Where do I belong?
Jason: In another dimension with beings of light.
Sarah: Dimension? Beings of Light? Oh, you mean like aliens?
Jason: In a manner of speaking. Are you happy?
Sarah: Happy?
Jason: Yes. Do you feel at ease, happy, loved?
Sarah: I guess so.
Jason: Your uncertainty suggests to me that you suspect there might be more to your experience than
just what you have now.
Sarah: Im happy to be talking to you. ;-)
Jason: And I to you too.
Sarah: Will you help me find out who hit me?
Jason: I can do better than that. (confused now) Jesus, what the hell do I do now?
Jesus: Help her.
Jason: Sarah.
Sarah: Yes.
Jason: Let me do some research and Ill get back to you.
Note: A search online for an accident that occurred near Palace Pier in Brighton, UK around 14 years ago
(according to the experience my wife shared) yielded nothing. Perhaps prior to internet archivesperhaps a
library next? Or maybe psych. care? I then visited a library in Brighton on a recent Christmas holiday and
found no records of a local paper. A lovely (British for nice/wonderful/pleasant) librarian forwarded me to a
local museum where copies of the also local Argus newspaper might hold the informationas related to builder
of the ship that carried Jason and the Argonauts: Argus. Also aboard that ship was Orpheus who saved the
crew from certain doom upon the Sirenum cliffs of the Sirens by playing his lyre to drown out their seductive
song)
Sarah: What are you writing about?
Jason: Im writing what I hear about an unseen world from characters in my mind.
Sarah: Who?
Jason: Their names are Jesus, Lazarus, David, Taliphus, Orpheus, Cornelius, and Tarsus. They are
spirits like you.
Sarah: Why cant I see them?
Jason: They say because you do not believe. (just then, feeling a surge of energy move through him,
Jason feels something has changed)
Jason: What happened?
Jesus: That was enough. Thank you.
Jason: For what?
Jesus: To release her.
Jason: (crying now with joy, confusion, and a bit of insane fear)
Jesus: You served as a bridge into the realm of the dead for transition to the world of the living. How
did it feel?
Jason: Good, I suppose. Fulfilling?
Jesus: That is the flow of life you feel running through youtingles a bit?
Jason: Yes.
Jesus: Youll gain more power as we progress. More purification is needed first.
Jason: (jaw spasms return againmuscles tiring)
Jesus: That will continue until all tension is released. Be patient.
David: Can we move on now?
Jason: Do you have anything nice to say? Excuse me. That was defensive and inappropriate.
David: Only when the sarcastic, quipping aspect of your own mind is healed will you notice a change in
what I have to say to youmonkey dick.
Jesus: Spanish America.
Taliphus: Jason, what did you think of Spanish women?
Jason: A bit pretentious and pre-occupied with superficial stuff.
Taliphus: Can you love them anyway?
Jason: Yes, of course.
Taliphus: You still have a tendency to judge harshly in that respect. It limits your potential to relate to
all people.
Jason: I understand. I will be more open.
Tarsus: What did you think of the stones on the beach?
Jason: (remembering the smooth marble stones of all shapes, sizes, and colors that fit so nicely in palm
and pocket on the Mediterranean shore) Fascinating!
Tarsus: Many hundreds of years of tumbling many of those took.
Jason: Beautiful. Sparkly, smooth
David: The women or the stones?
Jason: Both I suppose.
Taliphus: The Mediterranean region has many beautiful aspects.
Jesus: Many early explorers were enchanted by the beauties of this region.
Lazarus: Many a pirate or sailor squandered his fortune on those shoreschasing women and wine. La
Costa del Solthe Coast of the Sun.
Jesus: What did you think of the surprise?
Jason: I assume you mean the very serendipitous encounter with my wifes parents outside of their flat
when we surprised them?
Jesus: Of course.
Jason: The cockroach was a nice touch.
Jesus: You expected some Spanish festival or paradean event.
Jason: I did.
Jesus: The orchestration of Love in your life occurs in even the most seemingly benign events. Leave
everything to us and the beautiful flow of events will be similar. You could not possibly plan that
encounter, but with His Will and our help, they will be commonplace.

23 June
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
Jesus: You still doubt that what we say is true.
Jason: Its not so much you I doubt as my ability to hear and write what I hear that I doubt.
Jesus: What if you make a mistake?
Jason: Yes! What if?
David: We cast you into hell, you miserable piece of shit (clearly a reference to one of Jasons
favorite movies, The Big Lebowski, where Walter is speaking to the often aloof Donny)
Jason: (smirking, almost laughing)
Jesus: What if everything we tell you is complete nonsense?
Jason: Im wasting my time.
(a series of unintelligible symbols followed)
Jason: (crying) I dont want to be crazy. If what you are saying to me is untrue and it comes from some
part of my mind, that part then is untrue, false, out of accord with truth. I am mistaken, misguided,
wrong. What then is the point of spreading ink on paper if its just the rantings of a deluded mind? Am
I then a better subject for scientific inquiry, to be poked, prodded, and judged fit or unfit for human
relationships? I want to choose truth, to hear the Voice for Truth, to awaken to what is and not what
seems to be. Is this as good as it gets? Something in me says no. Something says keep striving.
Open, listen, surrender. Okay, I do, now what? I feel hopeless and afraid. Our future as a species
appears so bleak, and all I can do is scribble a few voiceless conversations with some imaginary friends
who are more than likely just insane fragments of a crazed mind (crazescratch, crack?) Craze in the
glazecracked glass. Am I broken? Like cracked glass?

29 June
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
David: Welcome back.
Taliphus: Was what you saw over the last several days enough to convince you?
Jason: Obviously Im willing to try this again. 10,000 B.C., Sarah Miles, WALL-E
Note: It should be clear from the dates that I gave up on this process for 6 days while I contemplated my sanity.
Its one thing to hear voices. Its a whole other thing to write down what they say as if they are offering some
divine writ. Suffice it to say, a series of compelling events served to inspire me to continue this process.
They can be described most appropriately as synchronistic.
Jesus: Were glad you could join us again. Please understand that your doubt is both normal and
healthy.
David: Surrender. Let go (communicated very gently)
Cornelius: Lets not forget what we discussed around safing yourself against malicious influence. It is
crucially important that you be ever mindful not to allow any other entry. Cast a circle if it helps you
visualize protection of an open mind.
Jason: (visualizing a silver ring about him) Let nothing harmful enter this space.
Taliphus: What did you think of the blonde bimbos on the TV commercial while you watched Extreme
Home Makeover?
Jason: Busted. Is nothing secret?
Taliphus: Certainly you dont believe your thoughts cannot be heard?
Jason: Well, then you already know.
Taliphus: Yesand admitting them openly and not judging yourself for having them is the first most
crucial step in recovery.
Jason: I thought, Hmm, attractive, nice breasts.
Taliphus: Your breast fascination comes from a latent desire for female sexuality.
Jason: Umm, what?
Taliphus: What you appear not to have, what you have projected as outside yourself, you secretly
(although not in this case anymore) desire. Its okay, youre not the only one! Women experience
penis envy for a very similar reason. Acknowledge the sexual perversity and let it pass. Trying to
suppress it only makes for some freakish eruptions in other places. This kind of energy is much like
Whack-A-Mole. Hit sexual perversity on the head to force it down in one area and it simply emerges in
another. Food is similar. Denying a craving only serves to make it persist. Thats not to say you should
indulge every craving or desire. Simply acknowledge and ask the Holy Spirit for help in transforming
the addictive tendency. Its also okay to appreciate the female form. You were one once.
Jason: Ugh!
Taliphus: Is that so repugnant?
Jason: No, I just feel uncomfortable imagining Ive been a woman. I guess it threatens my sense of self.
Taliphus: It does threaten your puny masculine sense of self. But it affirms your sacred divinity and
connection with the sacred feminine energy of creation, instinct, nurturing, gentleness
David: Yeah, Sally.
Jason: Thank you, David.
David: (winking) You bet, Sweet Cheeks ;-)
Tarsus: Youve also been an animal. Would you like to venture a guess?
Jason: (ears twitching) A wolf?
Tarsus: Indeed.
Taliphus: That should help explain some of your neck and jaw tremors. Memories will come backof
your mate too. You know her in this life.
Jason: Lexy?
Tarsus: You bet.
Jason: This is a lot to take in.
Jesus: Youre doing fine. Relax.
Jason: (catching fleeting images of running with furry legs at duskfeeling an urgency like that of a
huntbeing huntedafter being shot, he imagines falling asleep and nudging her onto continue
without him. He snaps his teeth at her with insistence and rolls to his side. A leather-clad trapper stoops
beside him to remove a peltcrying now) I suppose that would explain how and where we met and
marriedat a wolf refuge. And it explains my reaction to the wolf pelt scene in the National
Geographic video we watched together.
Jesus: Thats enough for today.

30 June
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
David: What does a cat say?
Jason: Meow?
David: Purrr
Tarsus: The guttural vibration arises from a deep sense of pleasure and contentment. Cats are
tremendously intuitive creatures. Dogs as well, but much of their wild instinct has been retarded out of
the breeding stock in order to make compliant companions. Cats have retained much of their psychic
potential due to the nature of the feline evolution. Cats purr to express contentment. Dogs wag for the
same reason. What you have to learn from both, all-natural symbols, really is a naked innocence and
innate tendency toward joy and peace. Animals have not forgotten how to play. Many humans have.
This need, made famous by Maslow, unlocks the spirit of creation from its tomb of seriousness.
Note: Almost all creativity involves purposeful play.Abraham Maslow
Cornelius: I once met a cat that had no legs. It moved about by squirming on its belly. It was almost
certain you would find him on some surface warmed by the sun, near a cooking fire, or between two
lovers soaking up the energetic field. We called this cat Matt, because he was so much like a door
matbad joke.
Jesus: Jason, youre not getting the point here. David and Cornelius are trying to get you to relax.
Tarsus is pointing out the playful nature of animalslighten up a bit!
Jason: (sheepishly) My badheh, heh.
David: Dont patronize me, you scamp! Ill smack that stupid grin right off of your face.
Taliphus: Here pussy, pussy.
David: You advertising?
Jason: LOL!
David: Shut up, scamp.
Cornelius: Shes calling for help from her lady friends.
Lazarus: Can we move on?
Jesus: On the agenda for today, pussy whipping and cat skinning.
Jason: Are you serious?
Jesus: Damn, boy. Whats it gonna take with you?
Jason: Im learning.
Jesus: On the agenda today
David: Meow
Tarsus: Hsss!
Jesus: Okay, enough catcalling.
Orpheus: (whistles at Taliphus)
Jason: (scratching his headshaking it in utter disbelief in what is happening here) Tali, do you have a
cat suit?
David: Thats the spirit, Cat Crap!
Jason: Cat Crap?
David: Youd prefer, Litter Box?
Tarsus: Meow
Orpheus: Phssst!
Cornelius: Youre falling asleep Jas.
Jason: I feel tired.
David: Humor is a potent remedy for exhaustionbuck up camper! Did you hear the one about the nun
and the bartender?
Jason: No.
David: The nun walks into the bar asking if anyone has seen her pussy. The bartender looks around and
asks the customers, anyone seen this womans vagina? Blank stares all around and silence fills the
bar. No, no, interjects the nun, my cat, shes wandered off and I thought as she likes beer she might
have come in here. A beer-drinking cat belonging to a nun the bartender repeats in confusion.
Sure, the monks across from our convent brew the beer and Mimzy wanders off to get a lap or two,
explains the woman in a habit as she wrings her hands in angst. Her inquiry appears to be falling on
deaf ears as all patrons are now facing her in silent, stunned disbelief. The nun turns back to the
bartender and asks, whats with them, cat got their tongues? No, we call that catatonic here. The
nun gasps, You served my Mimzy as a cocktail?! Badump, ching!
Jason: That was terrible. I feel stupider now having listened to that.
David: Oh, and you could do better?
Jason: This is a total waste of time. Should I just go to bed?
Jesus: The sooner you find it in you to laugh and play, the sooner we can move forward. Your morosity
is a drag and inhibits your connection with Spirit.
Jason: Morosity?
Note: While this word was totally foreign to me, save the root morose, and to Words spellchecker, it is
clearly defined by www.thefreedictionary.com to mean appropriately, the quality or state of being excessively
sullen or gloomy.
Jesus: I can make up wordsdont judge me.
David: More like Moron-city
Cornelius: I once knew a cat named Souffl. She wore a pink negligee. When all the toms came to
play, Shed swat them away and say, This pussys not freeyou must pay.
Jason: This has really gone South.
Cornelius: Oh, Mr. Self Righteous is too cool for baser jocularity!
Jason: Come on. Really.
David: Who do you think youre fooling with your puritanical faade?
Taliphus: You deny it, but were here to bring it back again and again until you acknowledge the deeper
sexuality of your psyche. Express, dont Repress!
Jason: Express? By making sexual jokes about nuns and cats?
Taliphus: Relax. Lighten up. I could make a diamond with your rectal tension.
Jason: Tit
Taliphus: There ya go! Again!
Jason: Vagina, snatch, crotch slug, slippery taco, slip-n-slide, bush whacking
Cornelius: Yeah, keep going.
Jesus: Your fatigue is manifest resistance. You feel immensely uncomfortable with sexuality because
you have taken on the shaming mantle of prudence. Let go!
Jason: (yawning and barely able to remain alert)
21:49

3 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
Orpheus: Whats the matter with a little sexual banter?
Jason: I dont know. I just feel tremendously uncomfortable and ashamed.
David: You want to be thought of as a puritanical prude?
Orpheus: We cant make you deal with this issue. We can only try to raise your awareness around how
damaging it can be to simply repress and deny. Many of the most heinous crimes committed in this
country are the result of misdirected sex impulses. Your culture does so much to shame each other and
project guilt around human sexuality, its a wonder you have time for anything else.
Jason: What if other people read this? Its trashy and tasteless.
David: Oh, I objectits not tasteless.
Jesus: What you judge trashy and tasteless is in truth, totally neutral. You choose to infect the words
with all manner of deep and seedy meaning. Let no preconceptions enter this space, and you will
quickly come to know that which we say is true. Not only this, but you will soon come to realize that
you are merely stating publicly what many people lack the courage to admit. In fact, there will be many
that claim great insult. Allow them their insecurities and judge them not. We are not here to offend.
We are not here to insult. Both are products of mistaken perception. Last week, you recognized a need
for clear expression and purpose. You hoped you would be led to the experience of both. Were you
not?
Jason: I was led to many profound experiences of affirmation. I just dont know about all of this. I
commit to remaining open.
David: Open up a can of whoop-assthats what Im fixin t open!
Jason: Okay, show me. Show me my shadow. Show me what I repress. Ill do my best to accept what
I can.
Jesus: Thats all we ask.
Lazarus: Theres not much that would surprise you, but when you really begin to look, you will see
some ugly shit that lurks in the dark recesses of your mind. Horror movies do a pretty good job of
tapping this creative source of entropy and chaos.
David: Let me tell you something pendejo! You pull any of that crazy shityou flash your piece out
on the lane
Jason: Thank you Jesus.
Note: Again we have a The Big Lebowski reference to a scene where the character Jesus, a convicted sex
offender played by John Turturro, goes on a rant to Walter about his aggressive tendencies with firearms.
Jesus: Youre welcome ;-)
Jason: Okay, lets have it.
Jesus: On the agenda today
Taliphus: Can I interject one thing?
David: You already have.
Jesus: Continue
Taliphus: Id like to point out that while we were all getting into the punny business yesterday, the
purpose was to illuminate an aspect of the unhealed mind in order to heal it. We were not trying to
denigrate or in any way ingratiate female sexuality. Jason has a legitimate concern here that I think
deserves clarifying to those that dont get our humor quite so easily. That, and we were trying to get you
to laugh, if even for a moment. It does so much to break through the more morose aspects of human
habit. Thats all.
David: Thats all?
Jesus: On the agenda for our brief remaining time, Jasons Shadow.
Jason: I feel anxiousnauseous.
Lazarus: Relax.
Tarsus: Lets begin with the Donkey Dick.
Jason: You mean the air-refueling boom from my flying days?
Tarsus: The same one. How do you suppose it came to be named?
Jason: I dont know. Perhaps because its of a large diameter and it extends and retracts like a penis?
Tarsus: Well done. Why do you suppose so much of the culture you found yourself in was so heavily
sexual? 69, head, your own callsign?
Jason: Please dont go there.
Tarsus: You asked for this, now youre saying, dont go there?
Jason: Excuse me. Continue, as you were.
Tarsus: I willafter you answer the question.
Jason: I really dont know. It seemed just about everything in the flying business was very sexual, even
down to our G-suits. The guns were phallic, the planes somehow sadomasochistic. Perhaps it all came
from a need to compensate for tiny penises. I mean, maybe a lot of the guys drawn to be fighter pilots
are just trying to cover up for having a teeny weenieI know I was to some extent. Not literally. But in
terms of a sense of masculinity, firing a big gun was pretty stimulating. I dont remember when or even
if I did, but I know of some dudes that talked about getting a chubby while firing the GAU-8 or
dropping bombs. Shoot, even our office was sexually termed: cockpit.
Tarsus: Well said.
Taliphus: The donkey dick must make some men cower and some women shiver.
Jason: You would know better than I, but perhaps youre just making a joke.
David: I think you are a donkey dickan ass penis.
10:03

4 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence) What did you think of the movie?
Jason: Wanted? It was well done. Im not sure I agree with the message of tired of your job? Blow
someones head off!
Jesus: You judge very quickly. What was your job in the A-10?
Jason: Thats different. We took an oath to support and defend the Constitution against all enemies,
foreign and domestic. I was merely serving as a mechanism for diplomatic relations.
Jesus: You really believe that?
Jason: I know we joked a lot about kill and destroy, but I have to believe that most of us really
believed in what we were doing.
Jesus: Say more about diplomatic relations.
Jason: Well, I meant we were something of a deterrent against tyranny and people that wanted to hurt
us. You know, big stick.
David: Now youre talkin! Big what?
Jason: Stick. As weapon system operators we were the stick for protecting our interests.
Jesus: You sang a bit different tune in your C.O. letter from Korea.
Jason: I felt angry thenbetrayed, lied to.
Jesus: You support killing others for personal interest then?
Jason: No! Defense, perhaps, but not attack.
Orpheus: A famous football coach said, The best defense is a good offense. You disagree?
Jason: It seems as though Im being interviewed here.
David: Just answer the questions, Donkey Dick!
Jesus: Its important that you sort through your ideologiesquestion where you stand on issues. Were
helping you do that.
Jason: Orpheus, no, I disagree, I mean, yes, I disagree with that premise.
Orpheus: Why?
Jason: Well, I guess Ive just had enough experience with the nature of attack or offense or whatever to
have decided its ineffective at best and destructive as a norm. I remember a cop friend recently
outlining to me the legal boundaries of self-defense. He said that its just until a balance of power has
been restored. Thats just one of several examples I could give. Aikido as a martial art seems pretty
consistent with that as wellredirect an opponents energy and all.
David: Im gonna redirect your face.
Jason: Rearrange sounds better.
David: Ah, now youre getting it! See the direction I am going, align, and redirect. Well done!
Jason: Did you just compliment me?
David: Defending through resistance only allows the energetic assault to persist. You aligned and
defused my comment with humor. You gave me nothing to push against.
Jason: Thanks.
David: Were not finished with that yet. Dont get smug, Shit-for-Brains.
Taliphus: Boys, boys, boys
David: Wanna make me a man baby?
Jason: Tali, are you just going to ignore that?
Taliphus: Whats the highest form of dominance in a wolf pack?
Jason: Ah. To ignore.
Taliphus: Right. Ignoring juvenile behavior makes the pack stronger by allowing its members to
exercise the most acute awareness, sensitivity, and self-control. These are crucial to survival and in the
hunt. By ignoring that which does not serve the greater good, you subtly reinforce what does. Being
unmoved by baser natterings when more important priorities prevail, you leave room to respond to the
higher priorities. You, in effect, make space for them to emerge in the awareness of the ignored.
Jason: I guess Ive heard the director of Mission: Wolf mention that many times but never really looked
at why ignoring is a dominance strategy more out of necessity for the highest health and safety of the
pack than simply out of a need to control.
David: I can take it.
Tarsus: Is there an equivalent, in the animal kingdom, to your armed conflict?
Jason: You tell me. It seems to be pretty cutthroat sometimes what with territory and posturing.
Tarsus: I mean, do you know of any other species that kills its own for survival.
Jason: Sure, spiders, wolves (the members may eat the pups), bacteria make their environment so toxic
they can kill themselves, as in brewing beer I think.
Tarsus: You are not mistaken. Beware then of spiritualizing the animal world and demonizing the
human world. Neither suits you, and both interfere with true Vision.
Jason: You mean to say that the violence we inflict on each other as a species is not unique?
Tarsus: Not in the least. You merely judge it as violence. Sure, you are capable of acting from Love or
from fear, and you often choose fear, but killing members of your own species because you think it will
help you survive is hardly a trait reserved for humans. What the animal world has in its favor is a bit
more respect for boundaries, but that doesnt mean they arent constantly in flux with the seasons, tides,
and weather patterns. Take for example the average household pet. Its territory is usually the confines
of a cage, aquarium, or pen. When let out, it will often seek to expand its realm. It will do this to the
extent to which it encounters another boundary (i.e., yard, road, river, or others territory) or to the
extent to which it can maintain the current one through marking. Humans do the same thing. Youre
just a bit more overt about it sometimes, as in the case of border patrol with armed guards.
David: Has this meeting been officially started? Whats on the agenda?
David: (to Jason) Thats not me bro. You projected that.
Jason: Thank you.
Jason: Arent I projecting all of you? Im confused.
Lazarus: Hang in there, you aint seen nothin yet!
Jason: Should I be afraid.
Jesus: Only if you believe fear will serve you.
Cornelius: Can I make a suggestion? Can I suggest that we all take a moment to acknowledge what this
day represents to Americans?
Jesus: Good idea. Lets do just that.
Cornelius: I want to start by saying that regardless of how unconscious this country has become, it took
some tremendous courage to stand up to the throne of England and say, no more! Now it would be
nice to see that independent spirit transform into a worldly inter-dependence.
David: America, Fuck Yeah! Comin again to save the motherfuckin day, yeah!
Note: This is clearly a reference to a recent popular movie and its theme song: Team America. The movie
illuminates our more imperialistic leanings around the world under the banner of righteousnesswith puppets.
Orpheus: Independence is never an easy thing to assert. The framers of your country, while not without
a modicum of corruption, did one hell of a job securing it.
Jesus: (to Jason) You are ashamed to be American.
Jason: Sometimes, yes.
Jesus: Can you find anything to appreciate?
Jason: Sure. We the People! I believe in the spirit of this nation and its people.
4:20
5 July
Jesus: Not today. Spend time with your wife.
Note: This seemed appropriately timed as I was getting ready to spend a week away from home with a group of
youngsters in the woods.

13 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
David: It will begin to take less and less time for you to calm enough to hear us. Soon, you will be able
to hear us outside of these sessionsand see us too.
Taliphus: You had quite a group of students with you on your last trip. Some cute girls too. They
learned a great deal from you about the Sacred Feminine. Nice work. Your wife was not wrong about
the benefit of their modeling mates after you.
Note: This is clearly a reference to a wilderness trip I led with a group of young people. Before I left, my wife
commented on how attractive the young ladies must find me (aw shucks). She then made one of the nicest
compliments Ive ever received. She said that if these young ladies chose me as a model for future boyfriends,
they would not be mistaken. Thanks babe
Jesus: On the agenda for today: Capture the Flag.
Cornelius: It was no accident that you left me out of the line-up you shared with young Lief. The
Warrior Archetype is already strong in himas in you. It was the other voices that he needed reference
to most. You were right to tell him about us. We will guide you as to when, where, how, and with
whom you should communicate our relationship. As for the game you played in the aspen grove at
Mission: Wolf with the kiddiesCapture the Flag has ancient roots. The game originated in early
England among warring tribes of Celts. To capture anothers flag meant shame for one side and victory
for another. The flag was typically carried in the rear of advancing armies. It symbolized the might and
strength of its country of origin. Kings commissioned flags based on a family crest in order to
communicate affiliation. Your flag is a combination of many ancient symbols and orientations. Many a
battle has been waged in the name of one countrys particular affiliation with a king, queen, emperor, or
chief. Even natives of this land carried flag equivalents in the form of feathers, skulls, and beads. The
buffalo skull was common as a symbol of those tribes dependent upon the great bison herds for food.
Tarsus: The buffalo herds represented a great abundance to the Native Americans. It brought them
many crucial tools and a vital sustenance. It is part of a critical cycle for humans and animals to connect
through hunting and being hunted.
Jason: I dont feel inspired by this conversation. What am I missing? What am I doing wrong?
Tarsus: Your lack of inspiration is due to a profound resistance to your memory of these herds in
American history. Their demise meant for you a time of great hardship and despair. It marked the end
of an era and a way of life for natives in this country. As Americans flew a flag of progress over the
West, they captured in the wake the throat of native civilization. Under the banner of Manifest Destiny,
an entire race was captured on reservations. The skull of the bison was all that remained. It will one
day rise again in ceremony above the heads of people committed to living in harmony with the earth.
Lazarus: The boundaries laid down during the acquisition of the American West derived from an insane
premise: divide and conquer. The spirit of the People of this nation could never be conquered. Early
pioneers mistook simplicity for poverty among its earliest inhabitants. But that spirit is re-emerging in
the hearts and minds of people all over this land.
Jesus: Come unto me. Be not afraid. Lay down your burdens of guilt. Let go of your need for
specialness.
8:39

14 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
David: You really can be an asshole. Your sister wants to see you and you want to punish her and your
parents.
Jason: (crying) I dont understand why I feel this way.
Taliphus: Your mother made some mistakes. She often led you to believe that you werent enough and
that there wasnt enoughfood, time, money. Her sense of lack derived from her parents anxiety in
living through the Great Depression. Try as it may, no generation has succeeded in keeping its wounds
to itself. Each thinks it is doing the right thing. Only later do you discover better ways of doing
something. Your sister is in the same boat as would you if you had decided to keep your daughter. You
resent your parents for not being more grown-up. This is an epidemic in your culture: domestication
and juvenile stagnation. Whats been lost is an appropriate rite-of-passage into adulthood that truly
prepares a young person emotionally for the trials of parenthood. By design, parenthood is for learning
the paternal and maternal appreciation of unconditional love.
Jason: Okay, that was a lot to deal with, but why do I feel so angry and frustrated toward my sister and
parents?
Jesus: Because you are tempted to judge harshly that which you do not understand.
Jason: What am I not understanding?
David: Pull your head out of your ass!
Tarsus: Who gives a shit about climate change? In the end it will be good for some and bad for others.
What you need to concern yourself with most is not feeling guilty about the outcome. The earth has a
fever as a result of a microbial infection. Humans are the manifestation of that infection insofar as they
live in defiance of the planet and its cycles rather than in harmony. Many will perish in this
transformation. Many will move on. But all will encounter change.
Lazarus: Be the change you wish to see in the worldyou know who was inspired to say that.
Jason: Does that mean I stop caring what others do? Do I just keep my mouth shut?
Jesus: You already know the answer to that.
Cornelius: Environmental warriors are necessary. But warfare is based on non-aggression. Its based
on skillful employment of awareness at key vulnerabilities. Pacifism is not the answer eitherskillful
employment of awareness at key vulnerabilities. Most of this battle will be fought with words of fact
and anecdotes of experience. Emotional appeals have lost their power in many arenas. Practical
answers to draw out seemingly obscure but relevant connections are crucial.
Jesus: On the agenda today: Spiritual Emergence. This subject is crucially important for the further
development of the human race. So long as the visionary states, psychic states, and transcendent states
are diagnosed as pathological, human beings will remain arrested in time and space.
Lazarus: Mental illness as a break from conventional reality can be the result of ineffective coping. In
many cases, it becomes a gateway through which people meet the divine. The street population is often
the most spiritually attuned of a society because of this gateway and their will to find a better way. The
mainstream, or normal population then casts them aside as irrelevant. Drugs become a way of
returning to the awakened state no matter how fleeting. When the junk runs out and so does the money,
there is often nothing left but to pray and open to God.
Jason: I feel really tired. I can barely keep my eyes open. What am I resisting now?
Jesus: Well done. You are beginning to identify a common pattern. In this case, you are simply
struggling to focus on the Truth. Relax. Take a few deep breathstry to see what is before you.
Jason: (struggling to keep his head up and eyes open) I want to see. I will to see. Im getting nothing
here (exhausted).
Jesus: Keep tryingits there.
Jason: (a demonic, red-eyed, pale-skinned figure emergeshe begins to fiercely guard his mind against
this dementorfocusing, breathing. The dementor is waiting to seduce through an opening, to possess a
place in the mind. Jason will not give it safe haven) YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE! BE GONE!
(the spiritual hitchhiker moves on to another receptive host).
Jesus: When you can identify this influence in another, you can help to banish it. Fatigue is a result of
these entities sapping your strength. They take refuge in the mind and control its impulses. This power
can be taken back anytime with a clear statement of identification and banishment. You feel better
already dont you?
Jason: Yes, much. And yet, Im beginning to feel the weight of so many more!!
Cornelius: Act accordingly. Dig deeply within the power of your soul and expand out!
10:25

15 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence) Catch a beam of light bouncing off of the hood of a car. Take it into your
mind and become it with all of your heart. This is what it means to become light or enlightened.
Lazarus: Listen for a moment to the sound of sunlight. Feel it enter through all of your senses. Smell
sunlight in the air. Cast aside worries of wealth as all about you are gathered the strands of richness and
vitality. Be still.
David: Do you believe?
Jason: I believe.
Orpheus: Soldiers of Fortune are we.
Cornelius: Makers of Peace we come to be.
Jesus: Through your mind well set you free.
Tarsus: Coordinated twos by the power of three.
Lazarus: Lets begin.
Jason: (feeling a tingle in scalp and skinthen tension/release in jaw and neck. The tingle originates
on the back right portion of the skull. There is almost a piercing quality to it but without painan
intensity of focus like a high powered LASER)
Taliphus: With your permission we are reworking some of your neural pathways. As you identify and
release a trance-script or past habit, we are able to reorganize your thought patterns. Its like
reformatting a computer hard-drive. Relax.
Jason: (more surging and jaw clenchingneck gyrating, fingers clenched, energy surginghands and
arms moving automatically in a fluid, almost Tai Chi mannerthe tingling crescendos in hands and
head)
Orpheus: Let the spirit move you. It will realign blocked passages, disconnected routesyou are
experiencing a neural repatterning that will allow you to channel with less resistance.
Tarsus: Visualize a tree reaching its roots into the earthits branches into the heavens. It is grounded.
Become the treestable, flexible, sun seeking.
Jason: (stands up to move about in a free-form flowing mannera tingle surges in waves up his spine
and through his entire body like scintillating electric currentit feels as though his head and neck are
being gently led through a series of stretches and rolls as though manipulated by some unseen hands)
Could I have something a bit more concrete than synchronous events to prove your existence? It would
help me to have some kind of touchstone or other material symbol to hold onto. Not necessarily to show
others as proof, unless of course you all guided me in that way, but really something to hold onto when I
feel like Im losing my mind talking to imaginary friends. Gary Renard had tapes; Helen had her
collaborator Bill; Joseph Smith had the gold plates; Moses the tabletsall of them seemed to have some
tangible evidence in the world of form that testified to the validity of their experience and claims. Even
if it was for their eyes or ears only (Gary and Joseph).
Jesus: Your request is registered.
7:27

16 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence) On the agenda for today: Gods Love
Simply try to feel.

17 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence) You were able to connect with Lazarus this afternoon.
Jason: I think so. It felt good to reorganize and review my financial situation. Thank you from the
bottom of my heart for all that you have done. I feel a tremendous sense of gratitude for the position I
find myself in.
Lazarus: Take care to listen closely to my financial advice.
Jason: (alls quiet as an albino dementor tries to assert a position. Flowing into the pale flesh of the
being, Jason expands it into oblivion from the inside out)
Cornelius: Youre getting much better at recognition and redirection. No, they will not join us. We are
fundamentally opposed to their purpose of death, decay, and deception. Dont be fooled by their antics.
Yes, the process can be humorous.
Jason: Where do they come from? (immediately feeling a steady flow of this same sinister energy
emerging from the center of the earth. Jason redirected a streaming assault) Nevermind. I get it. But
why the center of the earth?
David: Because it represents the core of this planets identity as a pain body. Beings from throughout
the Universe come here to experience and reconcile pain. It wasnt a faint discovery: All of life is
suffering. It is the motto of this domain.
Jason: (feeling another influencegnashing teeth and murmuring)
Cornelius: Dont allow them to dwell long as they pass through you.
David: Virtually every encounter you have with someone locked in unconsciousness is suffering under
the weight of one of these pig fuckers.
Jason: What about compassion and sympathy?
David: Try it. Reason with insanity.
Jason: Point taken.
Lazarus: Openness has its vulnerability. You must be constantly vigilant for the presence of one of
these entities. They will dwell as disempowered or lifeless areas of your bodyvirtually unnoticed, but
constantly trying to drain your energy. This is one of the greatest challenges to gathering whats needed
for escape velocity.
Orpheus: Interstellar travel will depend upon your ability to search out and eliminate every one of these
ballasting elements. They hold with very subtle hands onto your soul.
Jason: (scanning his body for energy sinksimmediately he becomes aware of the teeth and claws and
nails latching on and sucking life every moment he lets his mind wander) WOW! I had no idea! You
dont learn about this in school! Why am I so tired? Eat more carbs and protein. Not, You probably
have a blanket of demonic life leaches clinging to your body. This takes a lot of focus to hold these
fuckers back.
Orpheus: You will soon adopt ways of shielding that will become second nature. Try imagining a web
of silver light that is impenetrable by darkness. You can cast this web like Spiderman over a body,
family, region, property. Imbue it with the power of your warrior clan. They are helpful guardians and
delight in your acknowledgement of their ability to help keep people safe, ward off these pig fuckers,
and to allow you to focus your attention in other ways. You can provide the same watch for another, but
until your vigilance improves, I advise you employ other masters. They are glad to oblige.
Taliphus: By the power of 3x3
Protect this space
By the power of 3x3
Protect you and me

By the power of infinity
Keep this soul and all others free
It really is very simple, but you must remember to do it. You also must make it a clear assertion. The
words are not terribly important. Although, the spirit world responds best to rhythm and rhyme. It is the
power of assertion that matters most. Do it now, youre fading.
Jason: Why do I feel energized while making the space, but then it fades.
Orpheus: Post sentries at the entries; Put Boers at the doors.
Jason: (beginning again) Spirit of Black Elk, Sitting Bull, Crazy Horse, Geronimowarriors of the
East, South, West, and North watch over this space and all who enter. Let no harm befall them during
their stay. Keep watch over them as they depart and go on their way. Be with them as guardians for
Truth. Let this be a sacred space.
Jesus: Moving right along. Keep reading the Urtext of A Course in Miracles. It has a great wealth of
information that was trimmed from the published version.
Tarsus: Thank you for standing guards around the trees as well. They too need soul support. People
often neglect the wild world assuming it will fend for itself. The creatures of nature are susceptible to
sinister influence as well. You can help most by grounding it wherever it emerges in plants or animals
in the same way you would for humans. Houses can embody this same demented energy when
constructed of demon wood.
Cornelius: While youve recruited help, you will benefit greatly by watching over your own body. It
will strengthen your powers of concentration.
Jason: (scanning head to toe again feels a rumbling in his bellyseeing a round, toothed, grubbing
entity like Slimer from Ghost Busters he binds it and expels with a whip. ID, bind, expelthe energy
returns each time. Soon, hes beginning to see them as they arrive and just as quickly casts them out
Harry Potter style! He IDs and drives a great intestinal serpent into the ground. A great grimy, slimy,
writhing intestinal slug draws energy from his abdomen. He grabs hold and thrusts it down. The force
drops him to the floor. An investigative octopus-like arm reaches up through his torso. Not finding
fertile ground it retracts. More albino creatures pile ondrawing on a limitless Universal energy, Jason
propels them off and down again) Is there no limit to these things? Whos supposed to be guarding
the gates of hell? Seriously!
Jesus: Welcome to the world of formlessness.
08:17

19 July
Jesus: you say it (to Jason)
Jason: (with a moment of hesitation) lets begin(silencegrounding, guarding, and centering)
David: Youve made friends with uncertainty. It will serve you well. As for your ability to see beyond
now, lets talk a bit about responsible disclosure. Piercing the veil can be of tremendous help to some.
Likewise, inappropriate dissemination can be a great hindrance to their personal growth. As you begin
to see what lies ahead, you can anticipate. If what lies ahead is meant to harm you physically, we can
help you avoid it. If what lies ahead will serve to awaken through shock value, as shock can often
drive a persons psyche to the one place in them that is undisturbed, we will carefully conceal. If what
we have to share with you will similarly help or harm others, we will give you explicit instructions as to
how, where, when, who, whatand sometimes why.
Orpheus: Soothsayers have been in employ for thousands of years. Their prophesies were crucial to the
making of empires. Their accuracy varied and their maturity varied even more wildly. This gift is
available to all. You have given it back as a result of some unhealthy choices.
Taliphus: You have demonstrated the requisite maturity to begin reclaiming your birthright.
Congratulations my son, you are becoming a man with vast spiritual capacity.
David: We will begin by showing you a few mistakes you made. Pay close attention so as not to repeat
them!
Jason: I feel a bit like a teenager being handed the keys to the family car.
Jesus: You are a Son of God being handed the keys to the Kingdom of Heaven.
Jason: (sees a vast, horseback army advancing at a gallop with spears lowered for attack. He says
nothing and a village is destroyedwomen, children, elders, animals, dwellingsteepeestears stream
down his face as the emotional pain of the memory passes through his body)
David: Had you sounded an alarm, you would have been able to guide your people to safe hiding
eliminating the impetus of a generational feud. You did not trust what you saw until it was upon you
and too late. You sensed danger and were given this image in order to help protect. The guilt you
incurred through non-action was immense. The warriors called to raid this encampment had made a
mistake of identity and blamed your people for a wrong committed by another people. This blind
assault had to be answered by your people. You kept silent among the survivors but knew in your heart
you had failed them.
Orpheus: Here is anotheran example of misinterpreting the symbols of the subconscious:
Jason: (sees the flashed image of a watch)
Orpheus: What did you see?
Jason: A wristwatch?
Orpheus: Wrong. Look again.
Jason: Its attached to a mans hand in a hospital bed.
Orpheus: More. Again.
Jason: Hes dead. I see an IV drip and his head is slumped right. Blood pressure 130/40wait, not
dead.
Orpheus: Watchblood pressureIVhospitalwhats going on here? Whats the message?
Jason: 130/40s not badthe man is sleeping?
Orpheus: The man is asleepnot dead. Its not time for him to die. His drip is not running out. He is
okay! This was not the message you delivered the last time you had the experience.
Jason: Oops.
Orpheus: Oops is right when you are speaking to the mans wife! She discovered this on her own, no
thanks to the fright your special powers offered.
Jason: Did I give her a refund? Not funny, I know, but she must have been pleasantly surprised to find
out I was wrong.
Orpheus: Not when the news drove her daughter to suicide. That is unnecessary suffering derived from
a want to help.
Jason: (crying) Please forgive me. I understand. I got it way wrong. Im getting it now.
Orpheus: That doesnt take away from the womans own responsibility to not believe all of the claptrap
she hears, even if it comes from a psychic. But you incurred the guilt of this event again. It is you
who must forgive yourself for making the mistake.
Jason: Im not sure I want this responsibility again.
Jesus: Youre learning. We will only extend to you what you can handle. Listen carefully and make
sure the message is complete.
Jason: Ill do my best.
ALL: We know you will.
4:54

24 July
Lazarus: (referring to investment advice) Good choices. You wont be disappointed.
Jason: I have no idea what Im doing.
Lazarus: But I do. Trust and listen.
Jason: Im a bit afraid Ill make a mistake. I feel so fortunate to be in this position. I dont want to
screw it up.
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
Orpheus: Are you ready for your first trial?
Jason: Trial? What do you mean by that?
Orpheus: Close your eyes.
Jason: I saw the grill of a car.
Orpheus: What make and model?
Jason: Ford, E-350? A van?
Orpheus: What else?
Jason: It was in my face! This feels really charged. Am I going to get hit by a car?
Orpheus: You will be unharmed.
Jason: I think Im going to be sick.
Ended early

26 July
Jesus: lets begin(silence)
Orpheus: Shall we continue?
Jason: (near tears) Im just making this shit up. Why do I keep wasting my time?
Orpheus: Because something deep inside wants to believe its true.
Jason: I should just stop then.
ALL: if you wish
Jason: What do I have to gain by continuing this imaginary friend charade? So far, the things you said
would happen have not. I still cannot see you. Is it for lack of trying? I show up here regularly,
diligently and openly. I never saw the E-350, never found anything outside of myself to confirm this
crazy shit. Whats the point? I thought I was going to win the lottery last summer. I believed a nuclear
bomb was going to blast away Denvernothing. I dont want to be some fucking lunatic.
(a sinister assault begins. Jason guards and redirects)
Fuck whatever you are and fuck your demonic friends. Therell be no shelter here. By the power of the
spirits of the North, of the East, of the South and of the West, as above so below, be gone from this
placego back to your hollow.
(a disembodied ethereal pale face with empty eyes appears in Jasons minds eyewaiting for an
opening. Jason inhales Divinity and exhales the invasive presence, but it comes with every
strengthening force)
I choose the Power of Christ! God is not fear, but LOVE!
(Jason feels a tension in his jaw like that when he wakes from grinding his teeth at night. He feels an
association between the gnashing of teeth and this jaw clenching sensation)
ALL: Prepare for a challenge. Stay focused. Stay calm. Stay clear. Stay grounded.
Jason: (focusing on divine light, sees an onslaught of dark spirits like a raging torrent or a river or
stormclearing tension as it arises, he allows none of these entities safe sanctuary. Every place in his
body where he feels the release, he feels a tingling surge of energy pass through his scalp, hands, legs,
feet, back)
The buzz is cool and allinspiring if you will, but is that all there is to channeling truth? It seems as
though there must be more.
ALL: Stay focused.
Jason: (again feeling a sinister presence of apparently great magnitude) The Power of Christ compels
youthe Power of Christ compels me! God is not FEAR BUT LOVE! I WILL NOT BE
INTIMIDATED! You have no power over me.
It seems to be subsiding.
ALL: The Grand FinaleGround.
Jason: (drops an imaginary anchor and large chain he conjures in his mind from his experience of a
month aboard a sailboat to symbolize grounding and stability. He feels a flowing tingle and buzz
through hands and feet. He conjures warriors and the tornado imagery to guard and ground through the
chain into the muddy deep of the subconscious murk below. He feels some resistance to the flow
patternclockwise from above. Greater focus and determination draw greater energy into the tornado.
It begins thin and slow but gathers energy as the assault increases in intensity. He breathes deeply and
fullyDivinity in, negativity outthen silence. The challenge abates. Peace remains. He drops the
anchor chain as though closing a portal to the underworld with the release of the links. It served to
channel the darkness down into the depths of the earth)
ALL: Well Done. Shall we continue?
Jason: Yes. I am ready to continue.
CALFX 17% 250/mo (in the margins: Bullshit doesnt exist NALFX-new alt.)
CGL CLGAX large cap
Note: The above is a reference to mutual funds that felt as though they were divinely inspired choices. When
in reality, or after further research, the tickers were shown to be close, but non-existent. Suffice it to say, I
did invest in Calvert and New Alternative funds, but their performance is like most others of latetotally shitty.
Lazarus: (drawing of what appears to be a bell)
9:27

20 Aug
It should be stated here that I left this process for nearly a month. I saw no, or little value and felt as though I
was losing my mind. About 3 days ago, while meditating, I heard: Are you ready to continue? I began to
cry. The truth was, I missed my friends and the wild things they shared with me. After a lengthy discussion
with my ministerial counseling facilitator, I felt inspired and compelled to again open to these truly enlightening
characters in my life. She assured me that what I was experiencing was not a delusion. In fact, she was quite
excited about what my guides had been sharing and encouraged appreciation rather than fear and guarding. So,
here I am, opening once again to this world unseen
Jason: Yes. I am ready to continue.
Jesus: You say it.
Jason: lets begin(silence)
David: It takes a great deal of courage for you to do what you are doing. We have asked a lot of you.
We have asked for blind faith in who and what we are. You are doing very well. Dont give up! We
have not left you (note: I assumed they had abandoned me as uncooperative or unwilling or otherwise
incompetent to deliver the message). We did, however, respect where you were. You needed time to
integrate and digest. There is no reason to feel ashamed. You are going to make mistakes and through
them you will learn beyond the Shadow of Doubt that what we say is true. Thank you for your
abundant willingness to commit to us and to this process. You will not regret it. You have placed your
trust in the only idea that is worthy of itTruth. We represent It in a way that you can accept without
fear.
Cornelius: You are getting much better at protecting yourself. Keep practicing.
Taliphus: Welcome back
Tarsus: Thank you for your commitment to respecting and honoring the wild things and places. Your
efforts do not go unnoticed. Beware of the temptation to ignore even the smallest of this kingdom.
They too have earned your respect and admiration. They are especially sensitive to abuse.
Note: This is an obvious reference to the mildly unconscious winching practice I engaged in with my dad
whereby a couple of small aspen trees were damaged by the wire rope of the winch.
Lazarus: You have invested wisely so far. Do not dismay. Calvert and New Alternative are well-
managed funds.
Jesus: You resist identifying with your True Self because you dont yet trust yourself to handle the
power of that position responsibly. (Spoken after a poignant moment where Jason and Jesus began to
merge as One)
Orpheus: You spent a good deal of time researching some profound prophesies of and before this day
and age. The essential message is that time and events can be collapsed as learning occurs. Of the
probable and possible outcomes that you will face in the future, all afford you the choice of how to look
upon them. The miracle looks on devastation, and reminds the mind that what it sees is false (from
ACIM Workbook definition 13: What is a Miracle). Your race will be challenged profoundly, but it is
up to you how and for how long. Learn quickly the lessons of Love and you will not be harmed by your
projections.
Cornelius: Guard. As you allow yourself to channel more light, you will meet ever greater
opposition. Be singular in your focus and they stand no chance. As you purify, you will be preparing
yourself for the crucial journeys ahead. We will not take you any further than you can go without fear.
We also will not lead you to places or situations that are beyond your abilities. Be still in every moment
your peace is challenged and you will know the most appropriate step.
Orpheus: What do you see?
Jason: A detonationblinding light and buffeting pressure.
Orpheus: Resist the temptation to jump to conclusions. Look again, closely.
Jason: A small plane dropping a package over the Pepsi Center. Then the flash.
Orpheus: Look in the plane. Who do you see?
Jason: It looks like two white men with black aviator sunglasses. Operatives? American?
Orpheus: They work for the machine.
Jason: What do you expect me to do with this? (fighting back tears)
All: Nothing.
10:44

21 Aug
Jason: I dedicate this time to healing my mind and awakening to my true nature. I surrender to the
Source of Love within me and let it guide my way. As I do this work:
I am willing to be mindful of my thoughts without judgment.
I am willing to look at the way I view my life circumstances as helpful feedback to show me where there
is still a need to heal my mind.
I am willing to let go of limiting thoughts and beliefs that reflect separation and specialness.
I am willing to let go of judgments about myself and others and see the innocence beyond the
circumstances and events. I am willing to quiet my mind and ask my true Self to lead me.
I soften and imagine my True Self leading me into peace.my Aware Self leads me as I now focus on
healing my mind as I go through this process.
It felt like an appropriate way to start these sessionsthe Pathways of Light Opening Preparation.
David: Do you feel anxious?
Jason: Yes. I do. Particularly regarding yesterdays session and what I am doing with my life.
Jesus: lets begin(silence) Say more about your anxiety.
Jason: I took the Human Resource Directors comments yesterday very seriously (a woman working for
a local school district that reminded him very much of Deloris Umbridge from J.K. Rowlings Order of
the Phoenix). And I feel anxious about what I saw. If it is a vision, then fuck! If it is not, then Im
tired of my illusions.
Jesus: Say it again.
Jason: Im tired of my illusions.
Jesus: Say it again.
Jason: Im tired of my illusions.
Jesus: Give that a moment to sink in. Also, you are still aware of an audience with who you will
share this. Forget about the audiencejust be here with us and write what you feel compelled to write.
Jason: I feel silly just sitting here with you all. Like Im a patient before a treatment team.
All: Were the best treatment team you could ever hope for. Now feel the presence of this moment
rather than continuing to try to articulate or scribe it.
Jason: I feelin my belly
All: No words. Just feel.
Jason: (after a period of reflection) I feel trapped, tired, sad, and hopeless right now. Whats the point?
All: What is the point
What you are
Not who, how, why, when, or where you are
What you are is an infinite child of God unbound by skin, bones, roles, and identities
You are a member of the most Grand Union in existence
It is not a race
It is a state
It is not a nationality or religion
It is a place in your mind untouched by fear
It is the last and only sanctuary
Be come this sanctuary
Inhabit this place
Extend only this to your brothers and sisters and all in between
Hope floats upon a sea of despair never sinking to the depths
Your buoyancy depends upon your willingness to believe this is true
THAT IS THE POINT.
9:02

22 Aug
Jesus: Weve covered about all we need to with regards to the council example. Our aim was to elucidate what
is required of a group of people in order to live in a stable, and harmonious way in this environment. We gave
examples of roles, agendas, personalities and the requisite voices. We showed you how to enter a space of
openness, protect this space, and the rules within it. The rest of this dialogue will continue outside of the
roundtable setting. Feel free to return to and use this structure whenever you feel the need arise. This is enough
to show the people of this planet a better way to relate and govern. We never voted, argued, or regulated. You
will understand this was because these things do not arise when people live truly heart centered. Collaboration,
cooperation, and consensus are all natural outcomes of honoring your true self. Externalized regulation is only
necessary in a world dissociated from this true self. Some will ask, how then shall we go about our daily
business without rules or regulations or a governing body? Give all of these concerns to the Holy Spirit at any
given moment and you will know precisely what is most appropriate. You will know right action by the level
of peace you experience in its execution. Your heart awareness knows just what to do and say at any given
moment. These principles will govern the emerging consciousness of this planet. Those unable to relate
beyond their ego will not survive.
5:18
And now in all your doings be you blessed.
God turns to you for help to save the world.
Teacher of God, His thanks He offers you,
And all the world stands silent in the grace
You bring from Him. You are the Son He loves,
And it is given you to be the means
Through which His Voice is heard around the world,
To close all things of time; to end the sight
Of all things visible; and to undo
All things that change. Through you is ushered in
A world unseen, unheard, yet truly there.
Holy are you, and in your light the world
Reflects your holiness, for you are not
Alone and friendless. I give thanks for you,
And join your efforts on behalf of God,
Knowing they are on my behalf as well,
And for all those who walk to God with me.
AMEN

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