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Quest to Peace
Volume 7
Contents
mask of normal ................................................................................................................. 3
reaching into dark places ................................................................................................. 5
so gladly would I offer ..................................................................................................... 6
positive ............................................................................................................................... 7
The dreams and the dreamer .......................................................................................... 9
sacrifice of the ego's dream........................................................................................... 11
this little seed ................................................................................................................... 12
sandcastles........................................................................................................................ 14
seeking in the cold .......................................................................................................... 17
the gauge of peace .......................................................................................................... 19
dreams of ......................................................................................................................... 21
so we may speak it .......................................................................................................... 22
mask of normal
in a place where we would let others slaughter meat for us
yet back away from blood on our own hands
with no judgment on the butcher
nor the purchaser
let us look
with my napkin in my lap and elbows off the table
my mother smiled as now
I too tell my children the same
teaching them how to appear to the world
and fit upon their little faces
a mask of normality
the world's harsh eyes will judge every ounce
of what is perceived to be normal or not
let me slip on this mask just enough
to squeeze by another day
for there may be a day that comes
no longer can I even pretend
let me take this mask and try
one more day
to live in a world I do not understand
its corporate eyes like lasers
beaming coldness that would
seal the hearts of so many
tonight I take this mask
and rip it from my skin
let me swim the seas and hunt
like a shark
and kill for my own food
finally breathing again in the open water
soul passing the steel cage bars that confine my body
as I sit down before this page
naked as I could ever be
and tell of what lies beneath
swimming to seek the wild and strange night
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positive
positive is like a cookie I achieved
full of delight and joy and then gone
all physical form ends in a neutral state
peace is like the earth beneath my feet when I walk
I feel it everywhere and when I forget what becomes me
Spirit is met and to this I return as I roll along its belly
if I could take off this skin you will see a scar upon my heart
and you would see the memory of a man who knows what it is like
to die in anger and hatred
and when the world holds out an offering
a token of some form of a gift from it
it is meaningless to the deeper part of me
I have seen leaders like puppets dangling in the faces of the world
and watched people argue their sides
when I close my eyes I see great leaders beside a campfire
and they were our chosen because they had not lied to us, even once
when I open my eyes I do not discriminate from the ways of this world
I see every gift and I smile
but for a different reason
to cry tears after a pay raise and know the reason I cried
was because it could not change who I was any more than
if my very job was taken
if you see trace lines of past pain
it does not haunt me
I carry it like an old friend and memory of that which
lost what was once my faith in the world and its ways
when I see you I see myself
sometimes so much so these words could not tell you
it bursts out of me and Spirit dances
as I watch both grateful and confused
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sandcastles
walking the shoreline
we see a young child cry
as a wave washes over the sandcastle
they built
we remember the day we once
thought it was going to last forever
and once cried at what we would smile at today
it seems so easy now
walk with me down the beach
for a minute
and let us fly into the air
and smile
look and look again
that we would see sand as sand
and nothing more
I remember thinking much about what Jesus meant by
"give to Caesar what is Caesar's"
I saw a dollar in one hand
and a quarter in the other
that one would take a tree and a rock
and make this bill and coin
the coin makers always get their coins back
as those who seek power find it
I saw only part of what these words meant
taking another step back from the palm trees
and into the sky
we watch the big ball of earth we dwell upon
circling and rotating
like food it digesting itself
nothing new is created, only recycled
only temporarily changing structures
form upon form lusting to devour so it may live
it is all the sand knows
it does not know it cannot hold its form
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dreams of
and in the days
your thoughts were of a crown
and winning was sign of your success
and in the nights
your dreams spoke of a castle
gold and riches one day to stumble upon
let me tell a story of a death
a most welcomed death from the memory of
a most strange dream
the dream believed peace was to be found
in the fruits of trees among woods in which I lived
the dream could not understand
fruit was only fruit
the dream was dark and cold and I had terrible fear
in my own failure to win
it offered only nightmares of lying beside a hard lonely road
having given my all now tired
wanting to quit but not knowing
how
the dream knew no other way to anything
like a madman it drove my body
seeking for peace in the only world it knew
dreams of these I remember
their need to prove to be loved
their need to be great for themselves
the trembling of what lied within
dreams of
quiet crept in slowly
month by month
year by year
dreams of peace
slow and strong like waves
began to wash the struggle
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