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“For these things I weep;
My eyes flow with tears;
For a comforter is far from me,
One to revive my courage;
My children are desolate,
For the enemy has prevailed.”
Lamentations 1:16
“Black sat down; and after Red tickled him, bubbled with laughter.”
No one knew where his mother was, or his elder brother. They search San Diego far and wide for
Sisa. But she was nowhere to be found. They look at Crispin.
His stiff body was contorted to the most dismal shape imaginable, as if clutching the air for some
blessing from heaven. His hair was matted and caked with blood from a huge gaping wound on the crown
of his head. His face was twisted in a horrifying mask of terror.
His youth drained from his tortured eyes, he stared up into the dark foreboding sky.
The people living along the riverbank of the river hurriedly dug a shallow grave, all the while
crossing themselves for fear of a vengeful spirit. Little did they know the horror locked inside the dead
heart that refused to beat within Crispin’s thin, hollow chest.
“All the waters of the river couldn’t drown the hideous memory whitewashed by this demonic
religion.” Tacio warned the citizens of San Diego as he stood over the body, lying on its back in the pit.
Tacio plucked a single leaf from the tall mango tree growing along the banks of the calmly flowing
river.
“For every death, a birth. For every murder, revenge.” He lays it down on the child’s still chest.
Somewhere across the banks of the river, a bell tolls for Sunday mass. Its clear resounding peals
reached Tacio’s ears and he shakes his head sadly.
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Mangroves: plant species that grow along the banks of rivers
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Part One:
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Spanish term for endearment, addressed to younger.
(masc; Hijo/fem; Hija)
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Crispin stared at those huge forearms and he shuddered to think of what kind of
punishment awaits him if he is to displease his master. Even Saint Peter on the far wall seemed
to condemn him with those eyes of his.
Crispin turned and walked out of the study, and he felt the bottom of his stomach churn
once more, letting out a groan.
“Are you hungry Crispin?”
He faces the priest once more. “No, sir, I am just fine.”
The priest takes one star apple from his basket of fruits, sent no doubt by one of the
impoverished farmers in exchange for a baptism or some other ecclesiastical ritual he had to
perform.
“Here, eat this while on your way.”
Crispin took the star apple; the smooth green skin of the fruit looked extremely enticing
indeed. He smiled.
The priest looked at him, with the fruit in his hand and that smile on his lips, the priest
smiled as well.
Crispin thanked his profusely and he went out to do his errand.
The priest stood there, and in the company of Saint Peter, he smiled all by himself.
Crispin walked the streets of San Diego, far removed from the stifling silence of the
cloister; he walked with a slight spring in his step. He passed the plaza where the fountain was
surrounded by the usual crowd of children, trading stories of what happened to whom and
when.
He looked at the emerald fruit in the palm of his hand, it was unblemished and of a good
size, almost filling his youthful palm.
He bit into it, as he turned right on Lepanto Street, he knew where the house of Captain
Tiago is located, and it wasn’t that hard to miss. Captain Tiago happens to be one of the most
popular people in San Diego, overshadowed only by the Iberians, the truly eccentric, and the
educated ones.
Crispin felt the sun on his back, the comforting warmth of the mid-afternoon sun felt
good to him after spending the entire day within cold and silent walls. He watched the people of
San Diego rush by in carriages, by horse or by foot. He watched the old matronly women coming
out of the Palacio Municipal wearing their long lace veils hiding their faces like cobwebs of
unsurpassed beauty. Their frantic fanning matched the rhythm of their frenetic pace towards the
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A small ornamental comb 2-5in. used to hold women’s hair in a tight bun
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women, their mouths wide open as if trying to vomit out an evil hen’s egg. Crispin went up to
one of the hanged women one day and tried to see if she had something in her mouth, he took a
peek inside. He looked at the marshy ground where her shadow fell, and picked up a pearl of
astounding size. He looked at the woman, whose now decomposing body was silently dancing
to the music of the devil. Her eyes were half-closed, looking at nothing in particular. He threw
the pearl into the river and said a small prayer for the woman whose soul is trapped in
purgatory.
The priest did not come that day, why should he? Did these women not commit a mortal
sin? Why should they be given a proper burial? He started to curse in Spanish, Let the dogs
have their way with them, let their bodies rot and attract the scores of vermin which ruled the
world of the river. Stupid idiots!
And come they did, in droves which looked like a dark, brown sea. They piled on top of
one another, trying to get at the dainty little toes of these delectable creatures. The rats did not
mind that these women committed a mortal sin, they were just happy that they did not have to
hunt for days to come. The rats feasted on their flesh and they sank their teeth into the once
smooth legs now swollen and rotten.
The people living around that area now have particular concerns about the rats and the
stench which now pervaded the area. They approached the priest about a proposal to cut these
women down from the tree and dump their bodies somewhere else. To this the priest pointed his
fat finger in their faces and swore to God that if anybody so much as touches those unclean
demons hanging from the tree, he would make sure that that person would burn in the eternal
fires of hell. He must have fire blowing out of his maw and nostrils when he said that, for no one
ever dared to cut them down indeed.
He went one day to see the women, their half-decomposed bodies still swaying in the
wind that seemed to howl out its will all over San Diego. Not too long after that, their bodies
slowly reduced to their skeletons no longer swayed in the wind, but instead hung down from the
tree as if they were some eccentric fruit that grew out of horror and sadness. The ropes of hair
that held their rotting carcasses up soon gave way, and their bones now littered the base of the
old Narra tree. People avoided that place, and they called it the tree of sorrows. The people of
San Diego believed that these three women still haunt the place where they took their own lives
and swallowed their own shame.
Crispin hears the wind whisper his name whenever he passes by the tree. It whispers
and calls to him.
He hurried on his way.
Crispin walked the way back to the church. The bulge of money in his hands felt so
strange. He pushed out all the thoughts of temptation in his head and he kept on walking.
“Good afternoon Crispin.”
Tacio the philosopher, one of the more colorful characters in San Diego came by with his
ill-fitting suit and taciturn expression.
“What have you got there?”
Crispin liked Tacio; he is a good man, no matter what the priest said in his fiery sermons
about traitors and old senile philosophers being the instrument of the devil.
“A parcel for the priest.”
Tacio looked at the road where Crispin came from; he could still see the shiny gate of
Captain Tiago’s house and snorted.
“Thought as much.” He muttered to himself.
“Sir, have you seen my mother? How is she?”
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Spanish noun which means islander or native. Later on became a derogatory title synonymous with
indolente
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The priest did not say anything. He just looked at Crispin.
“Stand there.”
Crispin obeyed.
The priest continued to write, but his mind was already wandering far beyond the
writings of Saint Mark. Things should not be regarded as sanctified as they seem to be, for
within that belief lies all evil. He thought about things. He filled his mind with thoughts of
white doves and virgins. In her white garments and adornments, the virgin looks at him with so
much love and adoration. He prided himself to be quite pious, as did so many of our pompous
Iberian masters did, that only a man with a strong will could hold the reins of these vicious
natives.
A certain Messianic epidemic was rampant.
And it flowed through the priest’s veins like firewater. Every part of his body burned
with a self-righteous flame which condemned every brown-skinned creature to eternal
damnation. His own skin, as white as it was, stood as a covenant between him and God. Not
unlike the way the South American tribes worshipped the Portuguese conquistadores who gave
them not only civilization but syphilis as well.
Indeed it is a sexually transmitted disease this cancer which has infected hundreds of
colonized people around the world. The syphilis of the “White horse of Rome” spread far and
wide. The Horse, from whose loins came the vile and bitter jism that rained on the fertile valleys
of the barbarian lands, impregnating these countries with sorrow and avarice.
The priest was a smart man. A product of a toothless whore living in the most depraved
brothel in the outskirts of Madrid and a traveling sailor who happened to enjoy having his toes
licked while he beat her and kissed the insides of her thigh with the burning tip of a maduro cigar.
After a night of desperate lovemaking, he walked out the door of the brothel and out of her life.
She thanked Saint Michael, her favorite saint. She could only imagine what another night with
the sailor would’ve meant to her body as she gently put iodine on the burns on her legs.
They only met a night and their chance encounter produced a priest.
The priest ran his fingers through the mass of red hair on his head, a feature he inherited
from his mother who sported immense volumes of lice infested hair. After years of drifting in
and out of prison, charged with everything from petty theft, vandalism to disturbing the peace
and manslaughter, the priest finally saw the light. He went into the seminary under the guidance
of a Jesuit, who later invited him to visit the Philippines.
The first time he saw Manila, he crumpled up his nose. He viewed these “monkeys”
with the same derision he held for caca. He could not understand why his Jesuit companion
Sisa watched the sun go down through the windows of her house. She loved watching
the sky burst into flame as the bright yellow orb of the sun touches the water on the bay. As if for
a moment, fleeting and irrevocable, the home of God is enveloped in flame. She rested her chin
on her thin, fragile arms and sighed.
She remembered the time when Crispin first saw the sunset; he sat there, in Sisa’s arms
and bosom. Transfixed at the sight of the magnificent light show, he clutched at his mother’s
sleeve and refused to let go.
Sisa stood up and went out to the back of her hut. He lifted the lid of her clay rice pot,
the aromatic grains looked very white with a sprig of pandan peeking out of its pristine soil. She
checked her salted fish cooling under a cover of banana leaves.
She went back into the house and sat by the ledge once more. Collecting her dress under
her, she sat on her haunches and looked up the quickly darkening sky. The moon shined down
upon her, his gentle rays touched Sisa’s cheeks and kissed her full breasts.
Her eyes trained to the darkness, Sisa stared at the lovely moon. The bright shape of a
man appeared to her on the moon. She was taken aback by this apparition.
He smiled at her, and was riding a silver chariot. He was handsome, a tall man with long
flowing hair and had powerful work-honed muscles.
Sisa reached out her left hand, her fingers slowly moving towards the moon, her new
fascinating suitor.
He reached down and opened his mouth. She did not know why, but she heard a sound.
A sound so beautiful it made her heart bleed with longing. He was singing to her.
Sisa reached behind her and undid the knot which held her dress together. She felt the
longing rise from her chest to her throat.
She wanted to fly away; she wanted to be swept up and away by her lunar warrior. She
wanted to shed her clothes and be a star, one of those lucky beings which shine out far above
everybody, free from all the worries of the world.
Someone else was awake during Crispin sojourn towards the kitchen.
The priest sat in his study, carefully reviewing one of Saint Paul’s illuminated letters. His
eye shifted from one letter to the next, the beautiful calligraphy shimmered under the dim glow
of the gaslight lamp standing on the priest’s desk.
Brother Germain,
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A small gas or kerosene powered lamp
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A local celebration, usually held during the feast day of a town’s patron saint
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Salud! I write to you now in response to your correspondence
sent to me three days ago. It saddens the sacred heart of Mary that we
hear of such atrocities against the authority of our Church. Truly,
something must be done to convince these heretics to listen to our
reason. Something must be done in order to restore the peace in this
colony.
I ask you now for your prayers that this unspeakable horror will
not permeate the sacred subservience of our outer provinces; already
the embers of discontent are being fanned by the incessant efforts of
our enemies. It saddens my heart as well that we, after everything
that we have given these unfortunates, are now under attack against
false words and terrible mistruths.
The son of the fallen Don Rafael Ibarra has returned from Spain.
We are told to watch him closely; he was unaware of the unfortunate end
of his once illustrious father.
It is with the most hopeful of expectations that I ask you now
how you are faring there in Manila. It must be warm there. So far
removed from the sublime climate of home, I must confess that I dream
about it everyday. But I know that there is a mission to be
accomplished here and that is exactly what I intend to do. I am
inclined to ask for your prayers in this matter, pray that I may
continue to do God’s holy work here and not to lose my spirit.
This is truly a magnificent place, touched and molded by God, but
the creatures that crawl upon it are lawless and crude, it is with a
heavy heart and conscience that I shake my head at this sorry sight.
I pray that we will prevail after everything that the devil has
laid out in front of us.
In Gods name.
The priest signed his name and stamped it with the seal of the parish. He carefully
dusted the letter with some talc.
The priest laid back, his aching back against the plush seat of his chair. He loosened his
collar.
It is a melancholic truth that the colony was in fact extremely beautiful. He could not
stop gazing at the emerald fields and pastures of San Diego. He marveled at the natural beauty
of the tall grasslands which spotted the landscape.
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He dusted off the excess powder on the letter into the trash bin. He carefully folded it up
and slipped it into an envelope. He took out a candle, a stump of wax and his box of matches.
He lit the candle and heated the tip of the wax in its flame.
It is a shame that God created such a wonderful place, only to be infested by the vilest
creatures he has ever laid eyes on. He recalled their flat noses, dark skin and small, weak bodies.
Dumb as hell, he muttered to himself the first time he saw the natives, befitting only as slaves.
He remembered how one of them had the gumption of looking him in the eye. He wanted to
strike that man dead at that particular moment, and he would have, if only there were no other
people present.
The people of the colony filled him with such rage and he felt the disgust rising from the
pit of his stomach into his throat, tasting as bitter as his own blackened soul.
He pressed the melted wax on the tongue of the envelope sealing it shut. And he took
his ring off his finger and impressed the seal with his signet. He tosses it aside, along with his
daily correspondence to be mailed and delivered in the morning.
The night was deep and he looked into the fire burning brightly within his fireplace.
He remembered how the devil played tricks on him once, how his flames reached out of
the fiery pit and wound themselves around his lonely heart, when the soft and supple body of a
native fell into his arms. Her skin was of the most pleasing shade of chestnut and she smelled of
freshly harvested grain, aromatic and with the intriguing touch of dew. She kept her eyes closed
as he ran his hands over her body. She did not utter a single word as he pressed his lips upon the
smooth skin on her back.
His eyes glowed under the lost sensations in his groin, pulling his hips forward as if
retracing the steps of his lost masculinity. His hands instinctively finding the source of man and
the source of his pleasure, his fingers slowly, intrusively exploring her; she moved naught.
Cold lips meet hot, passionate breath as his holy mouth closed in on her. Descending
upon her body like a swarm of locusts. His shadow fell upon her face, her round breasts and the
solemn swell of her womanhood, and she laid there, a victim of her own choosing.
The priest’s voluminous effulgence and his rapidly softening manhood lay on top of her
like a spent snake which vomited its own young. His labored breath coming out like puffs of
steam from a spent engine, matching her silent cries into the silken pillows of his huge four-
poster bed. He ran his hands over her skin and forcibly pulls her closer to face him.
Her eyes met his, and they were like balls of dark fire reaching out from the depths of
those beautiful dark brown eyes under her bushy eyebrows. The devil took his staff and ignited
a small flame which spread inside him like a freezing maelstrom of terror.
Juli left the church and she looked for Basilio. She walked along the halls of the sacristy,
among the stern portraits of the former parish priests of San Diego.
He spied her roaming the empty corridors, but he dared not approach her. Her clothes
made a slight muffled rustling noise which made his heart race with whatever reason it implied
in his pubescent brain.
He held on tightly to the balustrade of the loft, his small grubby fingers encircling the
posts which held up the sky. He watched her as she walked past him, and into the sanctuary of
Mary, disappearing in a cloud of fine, embroidered loveliness.
He stood, his knees slightly wobbly from kneeling out of sight for too long, and slowly
walked towards the bell tower with a light heart. Basilio could not fully understand why he felt
that way. All throughout his life, perhaps, he will wonder what it was that made him love Juli.
He clambers up to the top of the bell tower. He felt the breeze blow through the large
gaping window. He rushed out of the north window and swung himself onto the ledge. He
climbed upon the roof and stared over the plaza. He spotted her, walking across to the grocer in
front of the church. He watched her keenly, his eyes following her every move. He saw the soft
lines which defined her body, the smooth, almost surrealistic way her hair was piled on top of
her head. Her light olive skin holding on to a fan. Basilio daydreamed of the time when he will
have the strength to hold that pretty hand in his own and fill those empty dreams of his with her
full and passionate kisses.
He picks up a small shingle which has come loose on the roof by his feet. He held it in
his hand; it was warm after the sun has shined on San Diego all morning. He held it close to his
side as if imagining that it was her warm palm pressed against his.
Basilio called out from the darkness of the stairwell up into the rafters where Crispin fell
asleep, leaning on one of the posts which held up the massive pyramidal roof.
Crispin didn’t hear him at first. He cried himself to sleep, swimming in a sea of his own
tears. He faintly heard the wind call to him; he heard it calling his name. He turns around,
keeping his head above the water.
“Crispin!”
He wakes, steadying himself he looks down to the bell platform. Basilio stood there with
a small bundle of food for him. He climbed down and faced his brother.
“How are you? Does your arm still hurt?”
Crispin just nodded and calmly took the stale bread Basilio snuck out the kitchen. The
priest wasn’t content to punish Crispin with the books; he wanted him to really learn his lesson
by depriving him of his dinner as well. Filthy monkey, he muttered afterwards.
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A hot tea, prepared by boiling water and ginger root
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The old man shook his head once more.
“I beg to differ sir, the classical school that you refer to is dead and buried under the
ashes of its ancient civilization. It no longer exists, nor will it rise from beyond the grave.”
His predecessor was right; the priest thought to himself, the man is also a poet. He
steeled himself; that makes this old man twice as dangerous. He sips gingerly at his tea.
“This is extremely good tea Señor, would you mind telling me what is in it?”
Tacio sipped from his own cup.
“Is it not enough to enjoy a good cup of tea? Why must you ask, your Eminence? If I
happen to tell you that I have put honey in it, will that make it sweeter? If I happen to say that I
have infused it with poison, will it diminish your appetite for it? It is a good cup of tea, it is best
enjoyed ignorantly.”
The priest felt the blood rush to his cheeks.
“I just wanted to know. But since you are most disinclined to tell me, then I shall not
insist. A gracious guest does not intrude upon the host’s good tea after all.”
Tacio watched the priest through heavy-lidded eyes.
“A gracious guest you are, your Graciousness. Nothing more.”
The hairs on the priest’s nape bristled in offense.
“What does that mean, old man?”
Tacio placed his teacup on its saucer and laid it aside.
“Does your Eminence take offense with that statement?”
“Yes.” Growled the priest.
“Then let me tell you this. Gracious guests, as you claim to be one… do not say yes to
that question. So, are you now a gracious guest Monsignor?”
The priest put down his teacup down beside him with a loud clatter.
“Be careful Tacio, I might be new to this parish, but I will not stand for you insulting my
person, sir.”
“I insult you not sir.” Tacio looked at him calmly. “I only speak and parrot the truth you
say yourself.”
The priest sat down once more.
“Why do you refuse to go to church?”
Tacio let out a small laugh.
“What for?”
The priest puffed himself up. “For forgiveness.”
“For forgiveness which you will give? Is that what I should go to church for?”
The priest was no longer seen walking the long lonely path towards old Tacio’s house.
He never did take any civil action against the old man; after all, he had other plans. He would
never speak of the old philosopher. Not even with the Archbishop of Manila, with whom he
shares a very close bond with.
Tacio was left alone most of the time, his neighbor, Sisa and her children looked to him
with respect, and were perhaps the only ones he bothered to actually talk to. He notices the
dreamy expression in Sisa’s eyes when they pass each other on the dirt road.
Sisa with her sewing, and Tacio with his books, they would meet. She would nod
modestly, like a shy young lily, and Tacio would bow like a true gentleman. The dust they raise
the only mute witness to this age old practice of chivalry so rare in the world.
Tacio’s trained eyes noticed something in the glazed look of Sisa which intrigued him.
The priest was right on one thing though; he did study in the same academy that the
priest attended in Madrid. He would walk along the wet and warm streets of the Spanish capital,
a cigar between his bony fingers, and books in his other hand. He would walk past shops with
dirty windows, reflecting back the depressing depravity of a city’s forgotten streets.
Peddlers, beggars and nightwalkers are plentiful in the Spanish heaven. It amused him,
and subsequently disgusted him; that Spain had its fair share of unfortunates as well. They had
their own half-crazed prostitutes running after men instead of the other way around.
He would sit in his room above a bookshop and he would stare at the open window into
the darkening sky over the Iberian homeland. Even the clouds that form here are the same as
those which bring rain in Manila, he noted in his journal. He wrote well, and read voraciously.
He watched people scurry about and he laughed gently to himself. Chiding himself all the time,
it is funny, he remarks, how we are all running the same race. And no one seems to be winning.
Sometimes, through the foreign darkness, he would laugh and laugh for no reason at all.
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A dish made of fish, vinegar, peppercorns and aubergines
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Crispin looked at the steaming plateful of ham and mutton glittering under the bright
noontime sunlight filtering in from the kitchen’s grease-stained windows. His stomach grumbled
as most stomachs do when tempted by cooked animal flesh.
Basilio went in through the back door and hurriedly came over to Crispin’s side.
“How’s your arm? Does it feel better now?”
Crispin moved it. The pain has lessened now.
“Yes, it’s better.”
Basilio led him away from the kitchen and they move back into the church where a long
row of idols needed to be polished. The Head sacristan said that when we finish with all of them
we could get our salaries, he told his brother excitedly.
Crispin immediately took a rag; nothing seemed a more cheerful task than to clean a
dozen wooden idols bigger than himself at that time. Getting their salaries means they could go
home, and going home means they get to see mother again after such a long time.
With short skinny arms, they carefully cleaned the statues. The faces on them rarely
resembled Indios. Most of them were sharp nosed, fair-skinned Europeans with eyes that
seemed to be so hollow. Their clothes, tunics and togas of unsurpassed finery were strangely and
disturbingly proper and familiar. It is hard to believe the irony of it all, had these tunics and
togas actually existed during the time of our Lord Jesus Christ, the apostles would have spent
their long, ancient and holy hours admiring each other’s outlandish fashion sense. Only through
beatification can this miracle be explained, and the abstract, distorted concept of heaven that was
so popular during those times offered the wealth of heaven in vanity.
There is therefore no doubt that the Filipinos took so kindly to the Spanish friars who
sought to build a new Rome in Asia. It is quite apparent that the indigenous people whom the
Spaniards discovered were already, in their most primitive of social circles, suffered a certain
illness of the brain.
The Church saw to it that this nonsense would never be removed from the brains of these
“mindless” (note the irony, once more) monkeys; for it is a sad truth that they themselves suffer
from it.
The Spanish friar’s mind was the most infested of this fearful sort of disease.
They preached in shorelines, later in huts, and even later still in churches made of stone
and mortar. The venue was changed after years of constant, deliberate ravishing, but the
message remained the same. The priests talked of heaven and hell, emphasizing and appealing
to the natives, as well as their own visions of vanity.
Basilio wiped the head of the virgin mother very carefully. The last in the long line of
statues they had to clean, he wiped the sweat off his forehead. He took off the heavy golden halo
of the image and placed it on a small wooden table next to it. He looked at the size of the
diamond, set in pure gold, on the breast of the virgin mother. It was so shiny, he thought, like
the morning star. He took some soapy water and started to wash the idol’s wooden head.
Crispin was finished with Saint Peter and sat down beside him.
“That’s the last of them. I wonder how much we’ll get this time?”
Basilio just shrugged his shoulders. “Fifteen coppers maybe, I don’t know.”
Crispin felt the cold stone floor under him and he looked towards the open door where
the sunlight was making everything outside seem twice as brightly painted. He wiggled his toes,
those small, gnarled toes.
“Are you big enough to work in the farms?” He asked his brother, who is stubbornly
scrubbing away at some offending stain with great concentration.
“Not yet, maybe in a year or two.”
The wind blew through the huge, gaping doors of the church.
“I can’t wait for that time. I promise I’ll be better behaved than I am now when that day
comes.”
Basilio kept on cleaning. “Yes, you’ll go to school by then. You better be good in school.
I will work, and mother will cook good, warm meals for us when we get home.”
Upon the word “school” Crispin felt a small twinge of apprehension.
“Can’t I just stay with mother all the day?”
His brother wrung out his rag in the small tin tub beside the statue. He tightened his
lips. “No, you have to go to school.”
He twiddled his toes once more.
Tacio looked up into the sky and then to the road ahead of him. He quickened his pace,
the rumbling in the sky threatened to drench him to the bone. As eccentric as he was, he
admitted, he still preferred to be dry before he reached the safety of his hut.
He was walking a lot quicker now, his cane making sharp clipping noises against the
pavement as he scrambled to get home. Another rumble of thunder and the undeniable drizzle
which he felt on his head forced him to go into the nearest shop he could find.
“Hello Tacio, terrible weather ain’t it?”
He looked behind him and saw the scraggly, bearded face of Manong11 Domenico; the
town’s master mason.
“Good day Menico. Would you mind if I take shelter here in your workshop for a
while?”
The old mason just waved his thick, muscular arms in a dismissive gesture and started a
fire. “Not at all Tacio; I was just preparing for my evening prayers, why don’t you join me?” He
went to one of his huge wooden cupboards and produced two glasses and a gallon of clear tuba12.
“How about it Tacio? It’s a sin to pray alone.”
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A hairy, mythical creature, giant in stature and unworldly strong, rumored to be found guarding the jewels
of banana hearts
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A unit of measurement, one cavan is equal to one sack of rice; approximately fifty kilos is to one cavan
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A filial term of respect, synonymous to “elder”
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A native wine made of fermented coconut nectar
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The old philosopher just smiled and shook his head. It wasn’t a secret to the citizens of
San Diego that their master mason without his wine was not their master mason at all. He sat
down in front of his friend’s gaping furnace and he warmed himself.
Menico poured himself a drink, and filled Tacio’s glass as well. The crystalline liquid
sloshed around the glasses and it sparkled in the firelight.
He sat down across Tacio.
“So, old man, what should we toast to?” He lifted his glass to eye level.
The philosopher thought for a moment.
“Let’s toast to the rain’s long life and health.”
Menico raised his eyebrows questioningly.
“May it cleanse San Diego of its sins; God knows San Diego needs it.” He tilts his head
back and drank the bitter liquid in one gulp.
The mason’s eyes just twinkled and he smiled and drank as well.
“Let me tell you a story Menico. I hope you won’t fall asleep, it really is quite good.”
Tacio flinched as lightning zigzagged the sky, illuminating everything outside the small window
he faced in a momentary burst of brilliance.
Menico nodded as he poured another glass of tuba for himself.
“You have a man, who had ten gold pieces in his house. He kept them in a small box
buried under a pile of clothes in his clothes chest. And three leagues away, you have a widow,
with two gold pieces she kept in a small jewelry box on her dresser.”
He looked at the old mason, who was calmly smoking on his pipe.
“Then one day, two thieves went into the town where these two people lived. One thief
went into the house of the man and found the box with the ten gold pieces inside, the other went
into the house of the widow and stole her jewelry box with the two gold pieces inside.” Tacio
smoked his own pipe, sending a billowing cloud of smoke up towards the ceiling.
“Now, both thieves were apprehended, and brought to trial. You are the judge, you
should decide on the fate of the two criminals before you. You have three options, one is to flog
them, the other is to put them to the death, and the other is to hand them over to the church. You
cannot impose the same amount of punishment for both men, for one sinned more than the
other.”
The mason thought for a moment.
“Tacio, you old trickster, only you could make such wild stories. But to humor you, this
is what I would do. I would send the man who robbed the widow to the barracks where he shall
be flogged and I will send the other to the gallows.”
Tacio smiled coyly.
“Why?” he asked the mason.
“Sisa!”
She spun around, drenched from head to foot, her long hair was matted and dripping
with rainwater.
“What are you doing there? Son-of-a-bitch! You dirty whore!”
Sisa just stood there and collected her blouse around her, covering her shivering torso as
best as she could.
“Stupid girl, who’s out there?”
“Nobody, I swear.”
Her husband emerged from the shadows. Large and menacing, his bushy eyebrows
were contorted into the most horrifying frown. He strode over to where she stood and pushed
her roughly aside, throwing her into the wall. She hit the wall, making the reliquaries fall from a
high shelf, shattering themselves at her feet.
Her husband looked out into the night, beady eyes scanned the area, he called out horrid
obscenities at the moon, but the moon refused to answer back. The darkness closed in upon his
eyes and he turned and faced Sisa.
She cringed as he bent down and reached for her neck.
“Your lover can run very fast, but I will catch him one day. As for you, my dear beloved
wife.”
Sisa heard a dull thud, she wondered for a moment where the sound came from, and
then she felt a numbness grow from where she felt the moon’s warm caress just a few moments
earlier. The numbness spindled its way up from her womanhood into her belly where it
exploded into a blinding ball of pain.
Sisa woke up, sore and sprawled on her bamboo floor. She opened her eyes and noticed
that there was water splashing on her feet. She got up, as if in a daze.
The rain was still continuously harassing her small nipa hut with all its might. The floors
were wet and slippery; her husband did not even have the good sense to close the windows.
Neither was she immediately inclined to do so.
The dining table was littered with her husband’s accouterments of feeding. A small
coconut shell was overturned in one side, the ants swarming all over the spilled rice which now
“Basilio.”
Basilio woke up, he was still standing in the bell tower, leaning against the pull of the
wet rope in his hands. Crispin melted out of the shadows to where his brother stood.
“Crispin, where have you been, I have been waiting for you for hours!”
Crispin said nothing, he rushed forward and wrapped his arms around his brother’s
chest.
“Protect me brother, please don’t leave me here in this place. I want to go home, I want
to go home to mother, she will not stand for this…” Crispin was speaking frantically,
mechanically, as if knowing the futility of his own words. Saying them with eyes blank and
expressionless, the child driven mad by his fear of the inevitable unknown end. His grip
tightened around the only refuge and comfort he could find.
Crispin lay on the dirty floor. His eyes wide open, his mouth as well…
His eyes watched with interest as clouds of dusty vapor floated around him. His temple
pressed against the cold floor. He tried to roll over on his back, but he seemed to be nailed on the
ceiling, he wondered which way was up. He notices a small patch of light from the corner of his
eye, he grunted as he moved a little to see where the light came from, permeating the darkness.
He recognized by the beatific smile of the Holy Mother clothed in blue that he must be in the
sanctuary of Mary.
He struggled to get a close look at the Holy Mother. Her eyes a soft powder blue, it
reminded him of the sky. That broad expanse of emptiness that filled his mind with wonder, he
stared into those eyes. The face seemed to be so familiar. He tried to focus his gaze upon her
face, but it proved to be quite impossible.
With every gasp for breath, he slowly sees Mary take off her cloak, lifting it above her
radiant crown of stars. The small light which reached out to him before now illuminated her
face. Her light permeating the darkness, parting it like a glorious torch upon entering a tomb, it
grew until he could see the soft line of her smiling lips. Crispin watched as she opened her arms
and reached out to him, her resplendent clothing beaming in the sheer holy light. She looks at
him with kindness in her eyes, her skin turned into living, breathing membrane. He watches her,
transfixed by her glory and majesty. Her crown of gold and the royal diadem shining on her
breast, that enormous diamond, now mystically showering him with facets of God’s light. She
opened her mouth as if to speak…
“Shhh… everything will be all right…”
Crispin’s heart stopped.
He felt himself being lifted up and violently pushed into a chair in the corner. It was the
strange chair he saw once before. With the huge solid wood seat, a high backrest and two arms
stretched out on both sides like Christ’s cross. He looked at the man who bore the voice and he
saw the dark shadow of the priest standing over him.
“…please sir…I did not steal anything…” he wheezed out between short drafts of air.
The priest just stayed silent.
Crispin felt his arms being stretched out on both sides, his wrists being tied down with
rough leather straps which burned his skin. His head flopped to and fro as he felt dizzy. The
Sisa was sitting in her living room when she realized something was terribly wrong. The
stench she has recently forgotten now returned.
She looked around her, a moment of unspeakable fear crossed her mind, and she
frantically tore open her clothes chest. She dug through her clothes, panicking, she threw them
out and they flew, like lace ribbed birds. She felt around at the bottom, and her hands came out
with a small silver icon in her hands, the icon of Mary the heavenly mother, in her shining blue
dress.
She went to the window, and she looked up at the now clearing sky, the smell of the rain
still hung low and heavy in the air.
She looked at the face of the Madonna; her lovely, oval face, the bright glint of the silver
found its way into her own eyes, she shielded them with her hand and she looked at her once
more. She saw her own image, strangely familiar, but still not her own. Her eyes moved
downwards to the child she held so near to her bosom, and she saw the unmistakable innocence
of Crispin.
Basilio sat down on the floor, the rope of the bell swinging above him. He sits, his hands
folded on his lap. The rain has stopped; his ears now only hear the whisper of the night wind
whistling through the shingles even higher above him. And beyond that, the moon shines down,
touching his forehead, making him forget for a short while, the sounds which haunted the rooms
in his mind.
That fragile glass attic, shining with an unnaturally bright light, held up the child’s mind.
He looks up towards his adoptive father; he gazes at his luminous face. His smile
descended upon the boy, filling his head with the peace he has rarely known, truly, the lack of an
emotion forces one to deny its existence.
The head sacristan did not look at the stars, no matter how lovely they shone. He
stopped looking a long time ago.
He took a drag from his European cigarette, not the cheap local cigars they hand-roll
down at the tobacco plantations a few miles from town; one of the more sublime perks, no doubt,
of being a servant of God.
But for some strange reason, he looked up the night sky and he saw God’s departed
children, shining down on him. Their bright happy faces smiled down on him. He sneered,
never had much use for God, he thought to himself.
He was a practical man, and securing his job in the cloister is his obvious first priority. If
you live close to God, you distinguish yourself above that of pithy mortals feeding on the scraps
of grace which fall from your table like maggots. Such is the sad and almost humorous truth
behind the Philippines socially twisted sense of power. He mused, smoke coming out of his
blackened nostrils, where was God when he was a child? He looked at the stub of his burning
cigarette between his fingers. It sent a trail of smoke, spiraling upwards into the night sky, he
breathed in the sticky, moist air which circulated around the church’s front. He leaned against
the cold stone statue of Saint Michael, using his haloed head as an armrest. He took another drag
from his cigarette.
It is interesting to note at this time, the identity and the origin of this child of earth, but it
was all but too sad. There were no palaces of gold, no beautiful christening clothes of the finest
Sisa was peacefully dreaming, gazing at the moon, when Basilio knocked at their door.
“Mother, please let me in.”
She walked over and undid the small wooden slat which held the door closed. She opens
the door and her poor simple heart broke in two.
Basilio looked worse than how he felt, and Sisa immediately showered him with kisses.
The poor boy’s dirty, bloodstained face suddenly enveloped in the soft caress of his mother’s lips,
her arms went around his young, brown body and held him close.
Basilio breathed in the familiar smells of their home. The smell of the cooked dinner still
lingering, hanging from the rotting rafters of their ceiling like many strings of smoked memories,
he nuzzled close to the dirty lace which clothes the most beautiful women in the world. The
familiar smell of sweet dried sweat on his mother’s chest, it all came to him so strongly after
being so far away for so very long.
Sisa felt her son’s warmth against her own warm body. And she felt a sadness rise
within her gut up to her throat. For a moment she was filled with unspeakable dread.
“Where is Crispin?”
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Basilio felt a pang of anger shoot through his heart from Ares’ shafts of fury. He pulled
away from his mother’s apparent half-hearted embrace.
“Crispin is still in the church, I had to jump through the belfry window to get
home…then a couple of soldiers shot me.”
Sisa’s eyes were unfocused for a moment, filling him with even more resentment.
“So he is all right?” She finally ventured out.
Basilio shook his head.
“They say he stole money from the priest…two gold pieces.”
Sisa’s face turned ashen.
“What?” she croaked out.
Basilio turned his back on her and sat down by the windowsill. Sisa followed him there
and she sank down beside him. She tried to place her arms over his shoulders but he pulled
away, he did not need her pity.
“The priest says that he stole…I don’t know the truth as of yet. Crispin denies it.”
“Of course he is speaking truthfully, he is a good boy. He would never do such a thing!”
The boy could just let a tear fall unseen.
“How could they accuse him of stealing, we have always been faithful servants for the
priest. We are so poor…” she started to blabber.
Basilio could just gaze out into the twinkling night sky outside the window. Empty, as
empty as his own soul; lovely Crispin and his laugh, his mother’s favorite. He stretched his tired
limbs and he rubbed his hurt foot with his hands.
Sisa was sitting beside him, but not really. In the dull glow of the one candle burning on
their dining table she was lost in herself. One of the many times she found herself swimming in a
pool of her own making, she unconsciously weaved her fingers into each other.
A few moments of silence, just the singing of the crickets outside, the muffled sound of
leaves brushing against each other, blown about by the gentle breeze, they sat.
“Your father came home.”
Basilio momentarily forgot his thoughts and they flew out the window as the mention of
his father sparked a deeper anger hidden in the innermost pocket of fetid bile in his gut.
“Are you all right? He did not hurt you again did he?” he frantically looked at her face
and her limbs.
“No, he didn’t.” she nodded shyly.
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The Alferes sat behind his neat, hand scrubbed desk. His papers were all in order and
somehow, he found his filthy wife in a relatively pleasant mood. Doña Consolacion, his wife,
was in such a good mood, she prepared a cup of hot coffee for her stalwart husband with only
two curses under her breath after he ascribed her inability to mix a proper Hispanic cup of coffee
to her indigenous ignorance. He shot her a look, but he mentally reminded himself that striking
her only meant more exposure to his wife’s stupidity, not to mention her sharp nails. He wisely
just continued sifting through the warrants lying in a small basket next to his seal.
He drummed his stout fingers on his table, a nervous habit ever since he came to the
Philippines…A single gentleman, full of ideals, morals and a distempered libido, thinking that he
would ride into Manila on his white steed, pass by some large estate, catch the gaze of some
budding señorita and elope with her. He was, after all, only thirty-five, and still looked quite
young and handsome. He was a strapping gent, with his handlebar moustache and his sad eyes.
The beauty of a colony, he chuckled softly to himself, is that there weren’t many mustached, sad-
eyed men like him. Not like in his native town of Cordoba, where there were more than enough
moustaches and sad eyes to go around.
He taps his fingers on his desk.
From the corner of his eye he sees his wife, sitting, her legs far apart, as if inviting a train
to come swooping up her genitals, looking out the window. There she sat, the wife of the great
and powerful chief of police, her cheeks stretched beyond capacity as she engulfed wad after
sweet-smelling wad of betel nut chew, spitting the putrid black remains of her dignity out the
window, much to the dismay of everybody passing by the barracks down street level.
“Stop that.” He doesn’t even look up from his paperwork.
“Go to hell, I’ll do whatever I want.” Her eagle sharp eye catches sight of a vendor
passing by. She grips the balustrade tightly as she hawks back and lets loose a thick globule of
black muck which hits the woman clear on the forehead, dripping slop all over her old, wrinkled
face. Doña Consolacion squeals with laughter, not even bothering to hide her guffaw behind her
huge anahaw15 fan.
“Stop that Consola.” He puts his pen down.
“Did you see that? Did you see how perfect my aim was? You should have seen it!” She
rushed over to the sofa and collapsed on it, laughing horridly.
“Stop doing that, it upsets me.”
She sits up, a small dark string of dribble gathered at the corners of her mouth. She lifted
her fan and started to move it to and fro. “Does it really bother you?”
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“Yes. It does.” He maintains a slightly commanding stare on her ugly face.
She just simpers and coquettishly continues to fan herself. “Since when did I do things
for your sake? I will continue to chew and spit at people if I wanted to.” With that, she turns her
back on him and walks over to the window once more, scanning the street, she sees no sign of the
woman she so recently defiled with her saliva.
“See?” She spoke with great pride, “She does not even speak up to complain. That’s
what’s hilarious about this place. Don’t you think it’s funny?”
“Just because they don’t complain, it doesn’t mean you have the right to spit on them,
you stupid wench.”
“But they should be spat upon. These were the very people who spat on me. They think I
don’t know what they are whispering about when they escape my sight…these stupid idiots.
They don’t know that I am aware that it is me they talk about. You only say those things because
you don’t love me.”
He stood up and walked over to where she was standing. He picked up the ornate box
which held her betel nuts and hurled it out the window.
“Hey, you can’t do that! That’s mine!”
He looked at her coldly. The box hit the street with a high pitched crash and her precious
betel nuts rolled in every which way, and then scooped up by the enthusiastic mid-morning
traffic.
“I bought you that, therefore, it is mine to take.”
She reeled back and slapped him clear across the side of his face. The slap produced a
sound akin to that of a silent whistle. He alone heard it, and he grabbed her arms and threw her
halfway across the room. She hit the big chair which stood next to his desk, an inch to the right
and her head would have been cracked open like a duck’s egg. She picked herself up and took
hold of a candlestick, which she started to wave to and fro, daring her husband to try and come
closer.
The Alferes knew better than to try and restrain her at close range, he knew that as far as
his wife is concerned, anything remotely hard in her hands meant a deadly weapon. She has
been around enough soldiers to know how to defend herself; and in that respect, she was far
from ignorant.
He took his pistol from his holster.
She smirked; he wouldn’t dare use it against her, not in broad daylight at least. She
laughed outright as he took aim and she twirled the candlestick she held even faster.
A deafening bang.
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“And risk the wrath of the priest? Are you prepared to face his holiness sergeant? Send
him in.” He grinned, extremely pleased with himself. His sergeant shook his head and
disappeared.
A few moments later, a young servant appeared in the doorway of his office. The chief of
police politely nodded towards him and bade him enter. The boy fidgeted a little, and then
walked in. He had a small note in his hands, bearing the seal of the priest and he stretched it out
towards the Alferes.
He took it and broke the wax seal between his fingers. He unfolded it and started
reading.
Salud,
I am notifying you that two of my altar boys have done something
abominable; they have stolen something from our holy mother’s offering
box, we have one of them in our custody but the other one got away. We
trust that this most atrocious deed will not go unpunished. It is by
the mandate of God that these ruffians should suffer and repent for
this dire and terrible act. They live in the outskirts of town, the
boy who got away is named Basilio, and I trust that you will fulfill
your office. Arrest this boy; he has to be taught a lesson. Please
send your reply speedily.
The Alferes simply went over to his desk, where he sat down and rummaged through his
desk. He took out a pen and started to sign. He looked at the messenger, obviously quite
uncomfortable inside the office of the most powerful political figure in the town next to the
priest, and besides, rumors of what went on downstairs did not help. Rumors of tortured bodies
hanging limply from the lintels, of crucified beggars and thieves. He noted that when he passed
by the threshold of the office, something resembling a whip caught his eye. That whip, it would
amuse him perhaps, if he knew that it was Doña Consolacion’s plaything, cast aside carelessly
and not a plaything of the chief’s as he thought it was.
He sealed the envelope, securing the small slip of paper within, he then signed his name
and handed it to the aide. The boy nodded and left his office in a hurry, his imagination running
amuck with all the pictures he had conjured up while standing in the presence of the captain. He
was left sitting there. It isn’t for anything else but for the fulfillment of a duty he swore by. He
sits, looking down on the street.
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She continued to walk towards the church while Doña Consolacion went upstairs to her
quarters, ready to scream at her husband anew.
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“Everybody knows you are a faithful wife and mother. They must take after their father,
good for nothings.”
Sisa suddenly found the strength within her to cry. There were three diamond-like tears
that flowed from her large expressive eyes, then a molten river of glass began to pour from both
pools of light, trailing a wet and painful streak. She opened her mouth, and a sound much like a
dying animal reverberated around the room, shaking the rafters, letting the dust fall like fine
rainfall on he heads of the servants.
“Hey! None of that in here, did I not tell you that the priest is not feeling well? Stupid
woman, go out and cry in the streets if you want!”
Two servants picked Sisa up by her arms and flung her out into the streets where she
continued to howl; her face full of dust.
Sisa stood up, wiped the tears from her eyes and looked around her. The people looked
at her with wonder in their eyes. She collected her tray and she smoothed down her hair. She
felt it, their deep penetrating stares made her feel as if she was losing her clothes piece by piece,
uncovering her nakedness.
She looked up and saw one set of eyes which did not try to undress her. Those eyes
which were full of another sort of wonder, they looked at her. Sisa could not help but stare back
at a face of the finest porcelain, of eyes which shone of a youthful fire which were once hers as
well. She looked into those eyes and somehow understood that the emotion locked within them
was not of disdain or hatred, but of sympathy and tenderness. The young woman took off her
veil and revealed herself as the goddess of beauty. She looked at Sisa and shed a tear. A single
tear, glistening on her perfect alabaster cheek.
Sisa looked towards the east, where the sun now hung high above the clouds and she
went on her way home as fast as her legs could carry her.
The sun’s rays poked through the needle-like holes in the walls of Sisa’s home. They
traced they’re lines across Basilio’s face. He slept and dreamt for the first time in a long while.
The rustling of the leaves on the trees, swaying along to a pagan music, unheard for a
thousand years ushered in Basilio into the real world of the spirits. He had his mother’s blood in
him, and within that filial tie lies the key to the fairy gates of enchantment. His eyes twitched
under their warm lidded blankets as they darted from one sight to the next.
He found himself in a vast and dark forest, where the only source of light seemed to
emanate from hundreds of pools radiating with a blinding white glow. He neared one, his feet
Basilio woke up, sweating and shivering, he noticed the sun gleaming high, nearing its
zenith. He sat up and breathed heavily. The sound of the trees above him continued to rustle
and sing their hypnotic hymn. The boy looked out of the window and watched the clouds roll by
against a clear blue sky.
He heard footsteps along the path and he looked outside towards them, a few moments
later, he realized that they were heavy footsteps and he saw above the bushes the plumed
helmets of the police. He quickly hid under the windowsill, he thought quickly, they were
coming to get him, he instinctively knew. He crawled to their back door and slipped silently into
the woods.
He heard shouting, and some cursing behind him, but he kept on, he went farther and
farther. Far away from the home he loved and cherished, deep into the jungle he went, dodging
low branches, and pushing through thorny bushes which left scars and scratches on his youthful
Sisa could not understand why Basilio was nowhere to be found, she came to the door to
find her home ransacked of anything that may be of value. She ran to her yard to find her
precious hen missing as well. She sat by a small stump beside the spot where she washed her
clothes and she looked up towards the mountains. The soldiers have obviously been here she
thought, and they took everything. She gazed into the woods, where she thought her beautiful,
mysterious suitor was calling for her.