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BRIDE
OF
DREAMS
BY
FREDERIK
VAN
AUTHORIZED
TRANSLATION
MELLIE
VON
MITCHELL
NEW
EEDEN
BY
AUW
KENNERLEY
YORK
AND
MCMXIII
LONDON
COPYRIGHT,
BY
1913
MITCHELL
THB-
NORWOOD*
KENNERLEY
PLIMPTON.
PRESS
MASS*
U'S'A
THE
BRIDE
AS
approaches
one
day,
round
clump
of
overtopping
it, the
old
and
shaped
of
top
is
sunshine
pale
the
that
town,
of
built
them
and
exotic
Cannon
were
power
They
they
sculptured
treasures,
stood
filled
as
bore
had
with
their
of
is
had
side
with
on
little
lived
short-
gaily-
gilded carvings
battleships.
harbor,
with
plate
ramparts
and
habitant
in-
The
china.
and
the
in
citizens
and
importance
authority
and
fishing
collected
furniture,
their
in
the
proud
were
portraits painted
and
crow-stepped
and
fa9ades
dome-
dreamy
and
escutcheon
tically
fantas-
sun-mist
little
some
and,
flooded
the
of
tall,
the
Then
grandeur.
sense
people
an
the
on
the
sea
either
to
prime
houses
fine
and
in
with
vessels
stories
drift
Holland's
entered
its
foliage
embellished
vessels
with
land
It
the
ramparts
green
worldly
merchant
gables
The
waters.
in
once
flaunting flags
boats,
to
yellow
illusion
rigged
the
seems
grayish
the
on
bell-tower
blue.
only
sees
ornamented
cobalt
deep
one
trees
from
city
little
my
summer's
on
DREAMS
OF
in
gorgeous
world.
of
it,
at-
BRIDE
THE
tire,they
and
names,
and
terse
pretty
befits
as
DREAMS
things their
the
gave
OF
lantly
gal-
mental
people leading a flourishingele-
life.
lives
longer
in
the
is
all this
Now
few
the
streets
But
it is
color
are
of
the
in
of
memory
through
the
dark
fee.
prosperitytoo;
and
well
kept.
lives,but
former
as
days.
an
shadowy
canals
portant
unim-
lies
is
It
only
lovely
tasy
phan-
its charm
constitutes
that
All
the
its dream
of its past.
"
for
and
furniture
museum
clean
are
curiosities for
the
look
In
ship,a
steamboat
are
and
It still
gone.
part
the
in the
have
the bloom
lows
quietly fol-
market
peace,
houses
longer
no
and
pageant
order, and
and
and
china,
be viewed
paintingsmay
is
the
city no
great world-ship.
fine houses
and
strangers,
There
the
little
but
fishingsmacks,
The
still anchored.
the
its own,
sailingyachts
of
couple
of
wake
the
harbor
life of
The
long past.
reflectingthe light
streets
drawbridges, the pretty quaintly-lighted
with
the red brick
stoops,
gables, bluish gray
chains
tar
palings,the
and
and
the ramparts
of
beauty
a
young
shops, the
rope
with
tall sombre
only
it all possesses
the
faded.
It
can
no
elm
trees
the
tal
acciden-
on
longer, like
ful.
blooming creature, will to be beautibeautiful involuntarily,
no
longer as a
and
It is
"
harbor
BRIDE
THE
pieceof
life,but
human
its loveliness is
a
brief
OF
DREAMS
pieceof
as
afterglow of
splendor of
vivid
of individual
And
nature.
the
patheticthrough
blazingup
life.
In
but
stream
of
for the
accomplishment
I live
to
the
great river,
even
as
expected of
some
from
money
of the
The
and
town,
and
foreign
name
"
taking
my
the
and
nursery,
coat
in summery
of the
shall
twelve
be
doctor
and
also
to
go
income
an
small
the
the
have
my
gray
weather
town.
along
When
see
the
and
known
as
you
read
mourners
and
the
quieted
to
me
my
larly
regu-
dike
my
to
white
ties
peculiari-
this, reader,
hired
all
sea
felt hat
are
outskirts
accustomed
They
walk
earn
lessons.
past have
grown
as
It is
club.
the
on
nursery
Muralto.
same
notary
and, besides,
by givingItalian
people
best
ever,
notoriety whatso-
no
regarding my
rumors
down,
and
I have
that
known
the
me,
I do my
eccentric.
an
with
I associate
old man,
last task.
of my
have
on
tributary
live,an
the obscure.
notice, and
escape
flows
now
small
"
obscurelyamid
not
is
life
coach
simply,
with
with
black
always kept
the
accounts
in order.
This
is
it to be.
I wish
as
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
When
this
read
you
your
attention.
truth
for you.
I know
has
Never
a
and
accepted new
man
unless he
contemporary
prophet, that
venerated
and
veil the
this would
how
were
is to
an
a
say,
man
that
know
thoughts
my
from
by
my
in this
livingfellow-men.
Therefore
petty world
the
life.
I have
under
did
choice.
no
Were
freelyand honestly, I
worshipped.
or
other
age
"
but
such
they
peace
these
the
pages
the
are
my
mind
the
nor
people of
hatred
up
this
nor
cept
ac-
straint
I live in self-re-
Thus
among
myself
on
one
of the
reject without
slavishness.
and
But
neither
is the nature
of my
either locked
be
deserve
cannot
without
should
it
speak
I to
I peace
burden
confer
not
cepted
ac-
slavishness
have
heavy
be
to
great
without
conviction
free
tremendous
and
too
are
lowly.
doors
of
the
of
cage
my
It
not
is
hard
from
thoughts.
arousing,
but
For
orderly and
and
And
they
struggle;
are
what
concise.
am
Readers
and
too, and
from
weary
it
"
restraining my
from
write
easilybored,
dulled
be
must
clear
nowadays
crave
no
are
and
patient
im-
excitement.
longer hear
so
THE
clearlythe
I have
the
BRIDE
ring
true
the
summits, and
the
of sincere
that
so
summits
social
conviction.
peace,
still built
DREAMS
OF
Yet
It will strike
of
system
to-day
is
and
the
to
penetrates
lowest
very
layers.
Do
disagree,reader?
you
Do
accept
you
ing
noth-
dependen
higher authority,but judge everything in-
on
for
Then
it is
the summit
about
and
beneath
or
Then
have
solelyfor
I also
the
lucky
hands.
Allow
that
but
to
would
and
to
last
or
lose you.
reader, with
embrace
part.
your
exertion!
to
judge
little
dependen
in-
such
world
patience
Sweet
You
without
you
and
are
for the
it has
spoils
sensible
are
having given
attention.
I write
this for
without
restless
way
you
because
understanding;
you
do
because
to
look
at
for
last
what
you
so
not
because
seeker and
a
dissatisfied,
and
unknown;
your
to want
not
faithful
act
find, that
without
won
You
painstakingon
not
enough
go
then, dear
some
are
let you
not
Listen
such
me,
do
you
treasure
ranged
expresslyand
at
me
on
of mankind
rest
this
reader.
to
is
"
written
are
you
authority
How
you.
on
Then
of mankind
All
you.
believes
and
accepts
not.
yourself?
just you I need.
have
long
want
you
lover
of the
turned
has
are
on
gently
BRIDE
THE
driven
and
pushed
OF
DREAMS
because
you;
intent
opened
wider
and
toward
which
everythingseems
this
I write
who
are
reached
for
the
and
but
cannot.
of
compromisers,
the
And
who
circle
the
wants
to
their
have
you
want
be
to
the
and
evil;
despises the
who
this
also
for
you,
and
advocates
anxiety
truth
; there
they
ter
bet-
had
plenty of pleasant
amusement.
who
reason,
far
as
flatterers
stop their
and
"
are
for
stake
their
around
lious
rebel-
of
slaves
proud
write
entertainingbooks
and
of
something else
read
longer
by fate.
wicked
blatant
against too
feel that
the
shun
who
those
God,
ears
even
complaisant and
The
and
no
you,
earnestly good
lead.
to
who
you,
the
prospect
refractory and
slavery.
all
just.
the
on
the
wantonly
the
and
meek
of
this for
for
yes,
tired
child, not
as
write
you,
maturity
treated
more
for
this
write
are
are
eyes
your
too
in
tread
as
the
cord
be
cannot
my
readers.
Only
he
forsaken
the
read
can
who
with
me
nevertheless
world
and
new
profitand
I
an
am
era.
have
am
old
true
word
"
"
he
understanding.
man
proclaiming the
share
"
the
has
word, who
the
overcome
idolatry of
Listen, then:
glory of
has
in the
gods.
great
human
BRIDE
THE
I sit here
with
its
serenelyin
look
past generations. I
I hear
continuous
the
on
gullsspeaking
of
And
sea.
match
mightiest,a
to
the Most
to
import, from
me
think
me
has
that
knows
nor
Had
in
not
in
and
shrugged
deeper
makes
me
seethinglife within
But
one
no
be
ever
it,happily,
sees
all you
after
dear
so,
halo
in
of
glory
citizen's
my
undoubtedly have
taken
and
shoulders
your
but
would
not
and
wise.'^),
with
fierychariot
it
so
dazzling raiment,
clothes, then
when
of
about
this, (is
you
gods, even
tremble,
persons
the
me!
told
the
of this
discovered.
been
the
life; it shall
semblance
some
spark
with
Sometimes
of the
one
life of
gotten
quiet,for-
this
I rule
I wrestle
High.
of the
screams
mightier than
am
fate.
glance, with
careless
of
and
sea-breeze
briny
solitude
for
wishes.
my
the
and
the
of
vast
feel that
life,I
bow
the
the harbor
upon
dike, and
in the
yet,
out
of
memories
and
murmur
the
my
of old wood
odor
musty
DREAMS
OF
for
me
poor
fool.
But
hold
In
are
a
gone
rich sage,
still a
person,
step beyond
Now,
person.
this now,
person,
am
because
I write
and
peace.
my
You
now
but
that
more
now
"
dear
am
while
is also
than
you
now
that,
are
for
and
and
longer
no
reading this.
me.
am
therefore
no
can
to
say
what,
you
OF
BRIDE
THE
10
from
any
DREAMS
would
person,
annoy
you.
For
that
there
you
submits
meekly
and
aside
then
"
its
tranquil
is
left
only
to
being
again,
message,
as
still,
closed
patiently
when
small
up
as
opened.
book,
and
ever,
laid
sumes
re-
parents
MY
childhood
Milan
loom
up
days
and
dreams.
purely
of
like
one
tradition;
impression,
how
knows
the
so
much
that
the
and
childhood
nineteenth
and
marble
carriages
and
with
lace
wide
my
proud
man,
dressed.
thick,
He
wavy
ries,
memo-
what
dream,
not
remember
the
of
it, and
memory
already
was
from
fell
century.
It
home
wide
courtyard,
half
days.
days
Our
state.
Como
olden
the
in
clearly distinguish
and
changes
home
near
pictures
ray
year
or
is
Memory
first
who
distorted
to
like
year,
and
a
tale.
vaguely-told
My
estate
cannot
does
only
and
paternal
in
me
these
but
picture
the
memory
dream-memory,
aristocrats
country
before
is
in
our
vaguely
half
what
Italian
were
was
most
had
and
stone
with
and
servants
father
with
spouting
dolphin
the
at
shiny
black
hair
glossy
11
statuary,
velvet
silk
as
fastidiously
ties.
tall,
groomed
and
whiskers
that
luxury
had
We
wore
time
of
pillared
water.
colored
and
of
time
my
palace
of
stairway
collars
was
middle
the
towards
fell
over
suits
I
member
re-
dark,
and
long,
his
THE
12
forehead
BRIDE
with
with
always
creaked
decided
manner,
his
which
softly.
and
of
he
so
or
it much
"
fact
child
his
large,gray
the
is unable
with
eyes
seemed
As
child
appearing
I
to
of it, gave
blonde
Northern
her great
beauty
for himself
she
had
rings underneath,
and
that
she
though
as
Only
shakable
equallyun-
I know
dark
confidence
determine
to
mother.
own
it often
fair
very
obeyed.
power
praisedfor
vividly suggested
the
silent
struggle
nature:
gay,
but
had
wept.
the
with
an
tears
And
me.
father
my
in
ance
resist-
her
tive
aggrieved, painful, sensi-
cool,
was
to
less firm.
more
indifferent
never
heard
and
them
politelytempered tension
dignifiedhouse, during the stately meals,
the
would
his
none
quarrel,but
even
of
that
was
and
but
Her
in
and
without
very
I heard
about
that
with
that
immensely by
himself
daily and,
was
whom
woman
make
shoes
calm
mother
My
leather
a
tight
wore
equally restrained.
this conflict
do
He
had
He
givingorders
could
and
saw
curl.
impressed me
resisted him
mother
my
DREAMS
gaitersand patent
gentleway
with
artful
an
trousers
OF
as
the
saw
servants
sometimes
joke
the
and
hum
saw
a
it.
tune
Yet
from
my
an
father
opera
his
laugh boisterously with
about
friends; but mother
always went
silently
and
the thick
gravely, gliding over
carpets like
BRIDE
THE
spectre and,
her
at
DREAMS
OF
13
wan
smile.
We
were
felt
parents
think
that
about
in
town
after
it now,
Holland,
all I feel
cool, well-bred
strongly.
very
here
where
in
I shine
father, as
well
the
as
their
and
complete, and
mother
wanting. My
fashion
was,
did
draped
two
guishing,
pale,lan-
they
and
righteous,
sidered
con-
it
much
how
was
tasteless
the
be-ruffled gown
in
see
and
for my
"
For
in how
see
did not
her
"
not
provincial
for my
distinguishedmother.
boots, then
own
my
for
compassion
when
And
little
my
my
she
"
ridicule.
how
And
father
my
his traditional
much
already been
power
undermined
did
of
know
not
heredity had
the democratic
by
ideas
everywhere astir.
luxury
Our
respects.
too
neck
an
on
suffered
I have
chillypalace;
the
ofttimes
dark
very
lavatory
proud
and
which
money,
but
where
lighta
candle
bitter
cold
in many
in the
might break
night one
stone
stairway; in some
at
and
foul
parts
disgustingstench
which
of
had
in order
my
cost
in broad
great
one's
slept in stuffyhovels;
the servants
was
strangelydeficient
was
father
enormous
was
one's
there
very
sums
daylight one
to wash
vailed;
pre-
hands.
had
of
to
I feel
think
OF
BRIDE
THE
14
for
compassion
of how
DREAMS
proud
art
treasures
he collected
and
paintings by distinguishedartists
which
contemplate for
he would
which
monocle,
and
intricate
critical
paintingswhich
daubs
of
It
value
no
was
dreamed
by
other
that
of
dream,
his friends
parents
dreamed
I dreamed
the
gathered into
carriageand
of the
son
with
fine
of
our
feel
bonnet,
and
my
mother's
of calm
this Italian
ness.
perfect soberin the
absorbed
the
with
white
mother's
my
her
by
hat,
hair
side in the
see
people bowing
breathe
the
lavender
and
clothes.
and
chants
mer-
the thick,blonde
on
myself the
"
on
stand
net.
in
velvet
large diamond
Contessa
sensation
the
purple
glory
Dutch
And
wholly
profound respect.
perfume of frankincense
from
my
the
see
small, round
"
and
plume
still become
can
illusion.
them
social
the
by
with
"
confidentlyas
as
at
wholly successful
Italian
my
through
reallyonly trifling
were
whatever
dream
all
time,
subject of long
speculationswith
after
bought
the
of
hours
the
formed
when
father
my
And
pride at
faint,
ing
exhal-
recollect
the meals
with
And
delusion
a
man
touched
am
of
so
as
when
think
of
the
self-
cal
proud, arbitrary,critical and sceptifather, who was
prejudiced so
my
this
completely by
would
have
pomp
of
and
older
to
that
assuredlyfiner,even
while he
as
reallylivingin
was
"
the
was
father
my
quite comprehensiblethat
is
feud
I sided
who
was
Also
that
with
older
thought
of
state
that
did
and
than
I, took
my
tend
not
strange how,
by
subjectof
increase
to
books
and
and
games
glances,the
entrance,
our
the
part
of the
suddenly
the
beyond
family
which
circle and
nifican
sigfore
beat
toward
suspense,
in
imminent
ken
know
our
arrested
employed
our
we
Little
these
passionshidden
artificial tone
events
in
in
of momentous
It is
modesty.
absorbed
and
conversations
the
us,
strife,which
to
that
notice
to
take
part.
submit
the
my
children, we
as
sister,
my
means
no
family
father's
began
soon
very
the main
myself was
fact
mother,
would
in this
that
my
father
my
this, and
us
civic
scornfullyupon the
seventeenth-centuryHollanders
was
He
decline.
It
15
down
which
Italian civilization,
surpass
sad
DREAMS
looked
these
yet
OF
BRIDE
THE
must
we
knew
pass
full
without
comment.
well that
side and
mother's
on
priestswere
my
But
father
fought against a coalition.
of warmth, gentlemother
I felt a sense
ness
that
my
with
my
and
over
to
was
as
was,
the
had
tenderness, and
her
side
about.
long
before
Her
already
I knew
beauty,
what
which
been
the
I
won
test
con-
heard
16
THE
BRIDE
deference
the
praised;
sanctity, which
which
no
the
sphere of sufferingand
considered
dared
mother
my
with
her
which
I
tension
and
days,
and
only
pray
with
and
secret
which
my
Then
father
we
could
all
profound
that
so
not
to her
me
score
speedilyended.
did
would
the
quets
ban-
appear
for
side for
few
weep
and
and
began
bleak
one
early,a large
very
wandering that
through
through
her
jokes
that
with
was
mother
conferences;
there
church
to
on
fend
de-
passionatelyand
for long
Strange gentlemen came
she
me.
morning,
he
frivolous
aggravated
summoned
when
moments
conflict
my
whatever
would
heroically met
became
ceased
made
this chivalrous
But
did
sometimes
giant who
strictlyfollowed
the
and
proudly
gravity.
her.
to
I went
piety, and
father
power,
she lived
reason
against him.
to
my
man,
get
very
faithfully,and
admonitions
in which
heart
could
this
for
but
"
great
tears
great
and
anything
pleased
The
father
with; her
met
as
chivalrous
my
my
her
saw
yieldingto nothing or
with faltering
mockery;
resist
only
drew
DREAMS
recognized
dared
all this
"
father, otherwise
my
one,
OF
coach
appeared
for
two
us
northern
Africa,
We
years.
Asia
grow
fond
one
place
of it, or
so
long
feel
life of
restless
for
in
in
departed.
continued
remain
winter
elled
trav-
Minor,
and
time
myself
at
never
that
home
18
THE
BRIDE
OF
mind
which
of
humanity
strength of
the
DREAMS
had
himself
from
inherited.
three
On
ones,
them, whom
he called
as
that
priestlyrobe
without
called
he
whom
into
sensation
snake.
And
scorn.
"
he
as
of
timid,
all the
me,
sion,
aver-
own
behold
shuddering as
humbly living,
he
with
feared
did
fervid
with
he neither
whom
whom
he
whom
"
despisedthem
finallywomen,
despised,but
nor
his
me
the
philistines,
much
as
black
contented, narrow-minded,
hate
with
yet unexpectedly
cannot
sight of
the
not
not
was
and, in spiteof
successfullyinculcated
so
at
he hated
of his race;
fierce vehemence
he
father
my
the
approached. Firstly,the priests,
be
to
types
hated
scoffing
dread.
And
lookingback
now,
great
distance,
upon
not
him
to
such
for
it
that
tenderness
exaggerated care
from
that
understand
now
youth
my
me,
but
so
was
drove
bitter,
or
too
keep
his
sought
enemies
than
Besides
that I
in
life,more
for love
now
were
now
in the
the
was
there
am
him;
successor
That
hands.
still
for
cunning
me,
had
philistines
and
Priests, women
of
one
been
he
too
would
world,
out
mighty
at
least
of their
great satisfaction
from
he
me.
inconsistencies
quite able
to
in his character
explain,but which.
THE
as
child,seemed
He
BRIDE
posed
as
he
him
made
"
say,
and
him
speaking to
and
"
promise
he
did
where
good
science
natural
shield
and
did
man
shocking to me.
took
pleasure in
He
called
God
men
and
amused
of
of natural
ence
sci-
with
respect.
ture,
Na-
always
beautiful
and
spoil her.
not
I '11 tell
Only
was
fool me,"
that
you
if I
speak
according to him,
19
he won't
But
hereafter."
nature
of
sport
his face
straightto
so
and
ingenuous piety.
at their expense.
would
and
queer
very
DREAMS
free-thinker
ridiculingmy
OF
called
He
our
and
religious
hypocrisy.
And
also
taking
faith
he
music.
him
visit the
pretend
But
in the
the
Blessed
by
This
hours
Virgin
poetic
my
that
and
he
temples regardlessof
the
was
own
musical
chieflyfor
go
Catholic
with
very
the
churches
the
wreathed
with
sacred
I also
holy water
before
in prayer
and
an
saw
and
even
image
flowers
and
of
lumined
il-
candles.
knowledge of
drew
he
went
incomprehensibleto
was
church,
to
Wherever
He
to
crossinghimself
kneeling for
one,
him.
confessed.
they
would
frequentlywent
with
me
failed to
never
no
father
yet my
having
illogical
workings of an
the
and
musical
the unbeliever
the
it
devout
was
not
father
yet
as
tically
artisBut
temperament.
conclusions, and
I considered
me,
ing
surpristhe
perverted through
true
evil in-
BRIDE
THE
20
fluence.
prevailed. My
of
image
all that
her
beauty,
for
shine
faithful
of my
I shall not
strange
and
to
When
me.
in
root
them.
beautiful.
the
rooms
we
be
than
parted
of the
me
countries
about
But
as
woven.
in
garden
or
cities
for
the
first few
many
little
take
not
absorb
not
of
recollection
in the
corners
which
can
which
I would
bed
to
of
some
of which
the
took
"
derful
won-
nished
fur-
ever
what-
mother,
my
I could
play
with
galleriesin
open
in the brook.
at
were
on,
pleasure
no
for
dreams,
my
further
ber
remem-
they undoubtedly
airy
dams
derings
wan-
traversed.
we
tell you
I
ject
sub-
meant
I went
absorbed
the
began
seen
does
from
material
build
not
pewter
when
house, where
small
travelling. I longed
country
our
and
and
or
boy
she
it does
clearer
even
shall
a
me,
the
which
have
must
of little cosy
have
with
vast
road
things about
I do
not
"
I must
True,
for
too
have
the
on
suffering,
arduous
Indeed,
is young
inhabited, of
found
never
soul
picturebooks,
certain
I had
and
sights,but they
surroundings
and
devotion.
long
my
beautiful
her
tenderness,
ardent
on
the
stripped her
angelic holiness,the
father.
my
about
much
her
and
dwell
with
by little,with
in pure
me
had
trivial,commonplace
little
to
mother's
absence,
memory
was
unlovely, and,
tears, her
DREAMS
her
despite
Thus,
influence
OF
that
times, and
Only
and
my
the
the
ested
time, inter-
above
all the
THE
BRIDE
the
trip across
and
Chicago
crossing the
of
Only
certain
have
Thus
Minor.
Asia
father
my
most
wretched
all
journey
should
been
I, and
could
we
the
accuse
them.
I stood
at
Amidst
face, sallow
wan
father's
and
drawn
glisteningstreaks
of
He
words
of
pistolin
of command
the brown,
sometimes
saw
with
the
the
back
peering into
hand
about
eyes,
and
an
sion
expres-
repeated a
from
again,while
us
in
came,
to
me
tune, with
and
few
times
some-
ing
mock-
unintelligible,
replies.
me
I realized
scorching wild
his
illness,with
mournful, sometimes
to
hot
will.
and
over
boundary separatingour
comes
side
the
habitants
in-
dirty,
fierce,self-interested,indifferent
the wild
Still the
of
scorching
stubborn
and
over
each
the
perspirationand
gleaming heads
angry,
in
to
vengeance
troop
from
deadly fatigueand
had
their
and
had
wanted
we
horses, for
thieves
my
tainted
thieves
when
no
in
helplessin
Meanwhile
get
feared
recollection.
ill from
lain
had
sidered
con-
somewhere
day
belongings,and
on
we
both
tavern.
our
still
lasting significance
sharper
had
and
places, and
was
with
miserable
We
food,
stolen
retained
phia
Philadel-
risky undertaking.
moments
remember
steamboat
by
perilousand
small
only
were
ocean
when
America,
to
ocean
21
DREAMS
OF
life from
beast
I hear
fiddlingand
how
odor
the sound
faces,
narrow
was
death.
of the
of
beating of
place
onous
monot-
drums
in
22
THE
the
distance, and
above
leaves
desolate
to
did not
He
The
want
had
shut
to
hostile
from
conquer.
childlike faith
it
so
actually
surprisednor
glad.
and
wandering continued,
the
it
was
world
and
who
father
my
it hostile
made
me.
did
We
and
day
after
made
sandy roads,
only by
wisps
would
long march
began
Then
would
why
he
served
then.
much
very
should
we
he
he
let
until
"
did not
purpose
follow.?
we
die?
says.'*Why
ourselves
be
chewing
what
realize
to
speak, nor
not
I bore
me.
could,
I
"
time.
all this
pleasant
hardships continue
as
this ?
we
purpose,
could
us,
did
at that
it.'* If
do
What
plaguing
and
complaints from
bravely,as bravely as
no
something
and
father
I be able to endure
does
began
guided
were,
we
any
ponder
to
as
ing
along scorch-
boy, humming
My
he endure
tired
that
guide
foot
on
and
weak
straw.
against it
up
finallyprocure
half-witted
of
all
sufferingmeans.
would
I had
neither
was
feelingthat
out
me
father
my
will-power. And
life of
bitter
that
At
world, seemed
die, and
to
out, and
irksome
dition
disagreeablecon-
long while.
palm
me.
in his tremendous
turned
This
continued
the
rustlingof
papery
heads.
have
DREAMS
all
and
the
our
must
time
OF
BRIDE
follyand
have
long
How
thought.
but
"
And
ship
hard-
to bear
it
thereby.'*Will
Or
Is
does
will
these
tormented
do
it,
so.f*"
hours
after
Then,
there
Is
23
wandering,
silent
of
justice,
this
By
this
ness,
put
had
and
abruptly
That
wanted.
had
footsore-
would
pleasure.
had
we
"
answer
this
exertion,
evidently
washed
all
warded
re-
father
My
of
need
be
all
his
did
gies
ener-
on.
when
But
this
and
He
walk
to
for
whether
proportional
reply.
"
father?
meant,
thirst
by
not
DREAMS
question:
single
"
OF
BRIDE
THE
ourselves
There
is
did
Power
reached
finally
not
with
only
could
not
seaport
he
seawater,
power
please
the
said
"
It
me.
avail
me.
was
ure
pleas-
Ill
well, dear
CONSIDER
these
writings.
with
thrilling
what
and
the
you
Illusion
dark
is
about
happening
that
word.
tattered
also
say
known
un
and
from
vital
the
the
from
wild
waters
the
the
from
swimmer
mountain
near
.f^
stream
the
Because
from
from
who
struggles
And
shore.
24
to
more
the
toward
waters
can
only
and
slowly
it has
been
penetrate
the
wherefore
still
the
are
to
foul
I
very
life
my
out
a
me.
and
desire
the
as
revealed
fleeting
to
things
worn
there
truths
unknown,
phers,
philoso-
the
for
"
all
And
the
hands
use
to
try
illumine
already
moving
swiftly moving
like
old
passionate
to
of
my
illusion
no
realities.
known
in
its
rapidly
unrevealed,
struggle
is
of
adventures.
destroy
to
things,
and
the
"
lost
is
very
constant
my
it
unknown
revealed,
to
it has
there
"
flowing
times
these
I have
But
us.
At
rag,
seek
they
to
and
up
word
all-powerful
which
but
of
selves
our-
occupy
attendance
clear
can
of
purpose
to
and
background
the
with
not
adventures,
words
my
is
recital
glowing
extent
for
It
the
the
reader,
revealed
the
lasting,
slowly
ing
flow-
centre
of
the
quiet
this
hard
also
hold
26
THE
on
us
to
coax
BRIDE
the real
as
with
satisfaction
comfort
the
with
perhaps
or
golden happiness.
of
the
fulfilled
duty
of
with
privilegefor
universe
does not
aiFords
age
be
the
I know
big
word
as
With
home
with
pure
as
the
their
suffer
go
to
such
themselves
liberated
and
revolution
of
ladder
to
as
"
all your
for
paper
ing
scal-
write
flauntingit
the
countenance
or
deceptionof
oratory
paper,
legal tender
stripof
the
who
philosophers,
of the
reason,"
contented
Europe
the
as
themselves
who
is worse,
piece of
beaming
"
are
that
upon
you
and
what
height upon
old
real,
hackneyed, transitory,un-
such
not
priestsor
to
in my
stuff.
hollow
And
plaint
com-
of the
ruler
deem
the
ter-of-fact
practical,rational, mat-
of trouble
off with
put
making
Nothing
who
persons,
the
eternity
on
the
epicureanpersons,
amount
vast
and
melancholy amusement
of these
and
of
case
them.
those
wise, especially
so
honor
such
me
foolishness
in
magistracy
conscience
finallywith
ghost
your
other
an-
mighty,
honors
or
"
and
good
tries
one
drink,
hereafter, a brief
reward
the
to
of
flatteryof
promise
the
This
the
still others
DREAMS
with
you
with
OF
good
will
for
fore
be-
pains.
citizens go
ten,
is writ-
which
on
might,"
and
so-styledfreed peoples of
the
by the hosts
honestly paid
of
with
the
French
worthless
assignments.
What
my
father
let
me
gain for
my
trouble
did
not
seem
out
to
to
me
he
obtruded
comforted
and
wearied
I
was
tall lad,
replicaof
said.
ever3^one
to
brought
came
answer
in the
stab
assume
On
sea.
as
tall and
to him.
pay
any
But
attention
to
come
But
to
me,
beauties of art
long
and
the
days
old-fashioned
and
we
I could
of nature,
the
were
seemed
never
did
any
ways
al-
"
son
blance
strikingresem-
father
attention
father
women
this,nor
before
for
the
The
bearing
with
I carried
which
to
went.
my
Italian,
bearing.
Especiallyfor
of interest.
country
return
my
back
accustomed
we
pure
which
towel
lowlier
wherever
And
"
nearly
after
quickly
more
dark
sallyof
called
turns
one
in my
early grown
attracted
the
who
arab,
than
slap with
"
to
me
I had
we
it
proud,
my
my
to bathe
way
forced
and
vexed
fiercer attacks.
even
me
upon
imitated
my
delighted
"
sharper
getting for
on
the
of
so
country, where
own
measures
lad
it
I remember
street
"
in my
ward.
re-
copiously
have
lad
hold
better
so
me
upon
As
me.
indignantParisian
:
Hey, boy, why
me
he
me.
father, as
an
of
prospect
approached maturity,
as
could
nor
which
would,
reasonable
any
The
world
fair return,
me
27
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
ever
see
jects
subto
him
woman.
appreciatethe
glance from
the
THE
28
of
eyes
had
BRIDE
woman
the
was
offer.
to
OF
That
DREAMS
all life
accounted
primarily
outweighing
gold
precious of
most
much
alloyed
un-
as
and
anguish
trouble.
I will
avail
may
to be exact
try
write, and
dead
sweetheart
when
and
were
were
discouragement.
dear
to
hatefulness
of this
beams
to
shine
been
great
five
over
passivepart
at
chose
me
her
which
as
myself
tall
and
went
out
of
boy
pale Hollander
certainlynot
one
in
the
very
to
or
of
of
speakably
un-
to
me.
bored
me,
gloom
and
never
of
also
was
loathsome
the
vital pangs.
when
recall
to
chief est
seek
the
as
it
of
was
seems
lad, whom
attractive
bright summer's
starlight,with
now
girl who
when
it
eve
the
the
attention
the
joys
And
have
played
the
But
friends.
and,
was
invited
and
began
I cannot
old.
it
first
the
of life
joy
but
me,
time, and
friend
important
importance
six years
or
of
desert
ever
possessed
me
the
the
times
of friend
most
bestowed.
right willingly
thought only
a
in
brightly for
more
much
and
barren
is difficult for
It
the
while
am
never
of other
in
tedious,
or
The
and
me,
thought
oasis
an
consolation
my
read.
thoughts were
dull
never
the
interest
greater
They
"
amidst
such
old
privilege
and
Even
duties
and
cares
absolutelysincere.
I shall be
always
was
thoughts.
my
that
nature
amorous
very
of
myself
and
later
love, I
boy,
to
wandering
me,
proached
apgether
to-
proposition of
THE
eternal
friendship. The
is called
common
proposal.
with
met
Our
Later,
such
in
of
they
the
none
and
fish.
also
for
fisher
so
and
nice
brown-eyed
lad,
because
he
swim
like
bigger, it
In
these
relations
who
that
won
with
the
subject of
the
blood
rise to
the
treasures
these
devotion
of
I may
through
unresponsive. For
and
how
the
Genius
of
young
all too
its destined
all,man
tender
Humanity
and
has
to
course
woman
it
But
this
ardent
and
night
still make
can
when
I think
squandered
I know
now
that
they
green
as
endowed
us,
alike,born
forever
with
For
a
so
grass,
which
life-longtorture.
on
life at
responsive might
instinct,with
of
too
were
wandering
remained
side I had
easilyone
turned
are
that
myself lucky
count
father's
And
cheeks
wan
my
unresponsive beings.
that
my
love.
my
heart.
most
his show
my
the
always
was
was
taught
with
impressed me
dice,
preju-
therefore
well, and
was
of
child
caste
travellingsalesman
collegesongs
me
I loved
row
ments
attach-
as
diverse, but
very
later, when
this
seldom
all these
nothing
could
too
scruples.
I.ivornian
German
young
have
transitoryand,
less intense.
And
possessed what
women
cares
and
29
repliedthat he had
eternityto dare accept
and
were
strong
so
lad
among
love
barefooted
was
pale
travellingmade
brief
search
DREAMS
conscientious
constant
very
OF
and
sense
conception of
vague
BRIDE
have
the
from
we
twofold
BRIDE
THE
30
be
the
and
nature,
contorted
OF
DREAMS
pliant young
its
and
shoot
can
easily
so
rightfulgrowth permanently
warped.
maiden
The
began
look
to
indeed,
in
saw
her
on
with
disparity,between
of
entertained
moments
very
brief
It must
I first
that
buried
have
been
that
of
everythingelse
a
so
not
whether
fair northern
between
eyed
the
under
walked
me
so
blonde.
coy
But
but
places.
common-
of ten
age
bright eyes
not
it
of
and
girl,
higher bliss,
give me.
This
that
oblivious
about
blonde
due
was
never
was
like
one
was
ing
mov-
to
the blood
could
of
ern,
south-
lass fascinate
black-haired
and
well
cool, self-possessed,
as
and
old.
insightwere
the
mother, but
dark-eyed and
interest
and
all
dream.
I know
my
and
engrossedme,
event
thought
and
an
greater
regarding the
ing
cordialityembrac-
forthwith
looking into
yet the
fervent, and
very
young
revelation
and
had,
intimacy
not
notion
vague
boy friendshipcould
in
but
was
woman,
of
twelve, that
maid.
and
intimacy and
and
these
it
some
an
all, man
of
intimacy,with
an
youth
intimacy gloriousif
of
lover's eyes.
unspeakable joy
atoning for all,but
peculiarhigher joy
great joy
long before
the
found
surpassing and
even
the lover
me
as
somewhat
maiden, slender
and
haughty
yet strong.
with
hair, attracted
wavy
with
irresistible
an
difficult matter,
and
speak carefullyif
these
and
is
delicate and
well
deliberate
must
things.
feelingsovertake
us
child,we
as
Alice
only
or
Bertha
powerful emotions
it is
all that
Alice
personality,that it is
interests us so intensely,
and
who
Bertha
and
deeply penetrate
more
it is the
think
est
inter-
power.
would
we
31
attention
my
of these
meaning
When
only
inspiresuch strange
can
of bliss and
just Alice
that
or
desire.
above
And
just Bertha
or
and
whose
more
intimate
But
and
live and
even
enviable
each
DREAMS
patience,dear reader, it
Have
the
OF
BRIDE
THE
though
feels this
ofttimes
it may
be
in
know
we
that
and
other
some
transferred
it
see
pleasant and
"
when
"
interest
same
even
die in it
from
to
one
another?
in love
Being
is the
desire
fathom
to
interestingsecret, indispensableto
beloved
maiden
the
that
every
attracts
about
her,
this
givesto
attractive
not
the
of her
and
that
receptivitythat,
accidental
Thus
in
wanderer
creature
us,
ray
dark.
kind
so
in
The
tracts
lightat-
know
we
this
shed
simply
among
creature
of
Yet
can
it is
all.
us
our
many
diance
raown
sands,
thou-
particularher
power.
I think
herself
one
as
most
can
sought
positivelysay
in my
that
beloved, but
it
the
was
re-
32
THE
flection
of
affirm it,my
must
this.
windows
When
longest and
of
many
though
years
this
on
They
by
for
while
cult
they
all the
in
resemblance
charring under
The
last
of
and
with
about
he
hero-friend
poor
classics
until
series, the
in
able
that
it
few
to
was
not
ship
friend-
and
lying
curling
eyes,
of
commercial
his
him
puppet
him
sequently
sub-
positionof
he
which
swered
an-
stammered
in
from
the
plagiarism
fatherland.
and
match.
young
maintain
I met
life
hated.
his
fluent
even
heroes
as
of them
one
ingenuousness
years
out
personal
aside
correspondence in
with
decked
glory. I saw
watering place, and
of his romantic
after
ing.
record-
ideal expectations,
flame
the
fervent
German
of
avenging
week
by
cast
the
was
my
worth
my
pierced
only
dering
pon-
of German
to
photograph
see
wash-bowl
my
I would
in anxious
in their
later, when
no
still
that
me
is not
ritual
rudely dismantled
can
last,
herself,her
imagination,worshipped
and
showed
she
wondrously
puppets
with
"
loved
spent
friends
boy
were
fertile
my
little of
higher certainty,
any
I have
son
rea-
my
subject.
list of my
The
whom
willinglyrelinquishfor
not
though
comprehends
certaintyto
the
through
But
her
shines
also
as
devotedly, then
most
is
personality,
own
it.
heart
think
that
well
as
I discovered
in which
eyes
DREAMS
light
common
one
other
through
OF
BRIDE
All went
well,
again
and
but
skeleton
ticed
no-
site
more
all
if
barren;
too
and
this
of
equal
good
will
sex
is
to
the
and
too
erts
des-
by
other
akin
exalted
expect, besides,
those
in
feelings somewhat
detect
To
by abysses all
closelybarred
all too
doors
deep, by
grateful. The
be
confronted
is not
if he
so
can
himself
sprouting within
sex
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
34
he
soul
his
to
own.
friendshipsbetween
imputing
Deity
much
too
in
whose
power
hand
we
live.
For
then, it
me,
and
Emmy,
worth
and
she
whether
her
and
look
to
at
pretty
was
She
from
that
an
I heard
"
that
as
old
an
lovelychild."
compliment,
to
but
in such
me
sidered
con-
strong
occurred
never
to
interested
was
say
others
critical
aesthetically
cannot
whether
or
it
that
I remember
really
interested
degree
her
prised
sur-
her
over
gentleman referringto
it
sounded
like
me
me
point.
stand-
and
already known
It flattered
of
who
ing
interest-
the most
me
knowing.
so.
intense
to
but
"
Tenders, the
English-Scotch merchant,
an
beings seemed
all human
Bertha,
or
particularlyEmmy
more
of
daughter
Alice
not
was
wholly
her
sonal
pernew
me.
that
I know
that
she had
of
in
heavy
say
that
or
so
to
she
lithe and
was
lightgrayish-blueeyes
thick
waves.
It is
give even
attracted
hair
blonde
an
me
that
and
framed
in her.
saw
of what
face
her
dance
abun-
an
me
it
to
was
THE
home
own
her
saw
lady, and
and
of
silent
is
brothers
like
arch
said
and
her
that
even
costs,
the cost
had
life would
When
with
What
seemed
tender
could
be
could
And
her
blonde
make
yet
dear,
to
treated
in
me
was.
what
some-
She
and
the
when
fathom
young
hair, which
me
all
at
ably
miser-
me.
it all the
making
"
"
dear
with
fervent
happy
mingled
pity.
of
and
cordial
this?
led
She
pleasant
family relations,
pleasures, ball
thought
of
would
her
push
games,
everything
"
our
her
supple limbs,
she
at
but
seemed
English girlof
I
for
secret
excursions, dances
an
the
particularto
very
meaning
and
foster
ever
feelingof mournfulness,
how
dear
she
myself :
"
the
out-door
boat
tea-parties,
that
good parents,
luxuries, man}'^
this, thus
pain
entirelywell
life,with
and
and
have
to
I said
pronounced
feelingof
it then
as
greatest treasure;
my
was
inexplicable,
is ! "
than
more
mother,
did
approach
I staked
mingled
pity.
me
concealed
feeble consideration
more
after
her
anything
nature
of my
And
moment
ing
mysterious feel-
good comrades,
she
though
the
now,
toward
felt I must
ant
pleas-
pleasantly ingeniousmanner.
her
But
say.
of
by
nothing particular,nor
illusion that
mother,
from
And
to
inexplicable
as
35
to
affectionate
was
her
lads.
attraction,which
fiftyyears,
She
of her
her
drawn
was
DREAMS
OF
in the company
Scotch
staid
BRIDE
time
happy.
playful ways,
thick,
back
now
wavy,
and
36
then
both
with
my
her
that
love
Goethe
the
meant
that
spirits.But
giant
their
sweet
the
which
and
he
Let
But
it is the
and
work
be
must
woman
before
Now
about
can
we
I turn
and
the
Emmy
had
on
before
they
of
is
whom
Every
life that
all his
from
proceed
to
yet the
me
all
employed,
understood
was
the
point
if to
cover
dis-
who, when
woman
manhood,
completely won
She
as
crystal.
first
to
and
man
and
facet
ever.
as
between
love
another
youth
for
treasures
and
past
regulated
the
was
weighs
out-
and
man,
are
we
of the
form
Tenders
part.
their
reader, and
which
better
Yet
Vulpius were
proceed to friendship.
love-life
the jewel of my
hidden
grown
friendship.
mystery
first the
offer
to
price.
love
a
contemplate
absolutely,and
her
of
that
hold
of
be
to
greatest
small
time
much
as
the
tual
intellec-
an
themselves.
patient,dear
be
is
had
secret
of
communion
What
power,
of
it too
carefully. My
matter
think
willinglybarter
would
us
would
humbled
wisdom
count
yet
One
us.
worthy
conceals
woman
ships.
friend-
Christiane
and
that, for
well
as
great
have
equals in
willinglybowed
in
up
of these
nonsense.
and
Donati
mates,
is
Dante
just
intellectual
would
one
or
Gemma
on
all it is
beginning,nothing comes
They merely divert
the
welled
tears
compassion.
DREAMS
hands, the
sheer
from
eyes
OF
BRIDE
THE
first
me
woman
at
without
I
once,
effort
eagerly
BRIDE
THE
it
sought, though
and
probably
sought
ten
I had
deepest reverence
But,
said
as
this
to
girls had
and,
me
I have
as
but
Without
"
obedience
I
was
subjected on
never
life,my
unworthy
and
while
on
But
this
the
other
itself
When
seeking had
me.
and
come,
the
retained
of childhood
and
there
for
the
mingled with
lost
than
motherly
window
the
with
it
in
of the
something
with
girls
my
in which
later
my
of
time
and
driven
appeared
that
little adventures
feelingof regret
kiss
blown
hotel
me
south
and
in
chambermaid
by
young
madic
no-
cares
roses
ence
influ-
exactness,
irritating
bitter
street
then
opportunities. The
from
Vienna,
days
acting
manner
of these
memory
had
I exalted
assailed
was
by overwhelming passions,it
I had
culiar
pe-
manlier.
and
eifective
on
my
of my
see
hand
avenged
whose
in the association
nobler
boy friendshipsas
me
of
myself,
account
feelingmade
own
childish and
women,
me
This
with
boyish tradition, to
to
in
confessed,
before,
of them
one
37
in the
found
also
the
previous
years
flattered
indeed
DREAMS
detectingthe prospectiveman
of him.
aware
myself become
me,
I had
before
some
with
was
shrinking fervor.
had
OF
the kiss
on
the
in the
on
my
38
which
cheek
listeningto
dark
music
some
simpletonthat
indignantly repelled
which
and
!
was
how
"
garden
fully
scorn-
"
often
and
in my
icy
crust
but
the
of
girlshad
also
grown
favors.
And
intervening,I
century
of mutual
game
truth
time
the Unseen
of this
One
now
without
in my
occurred
the
between
also afford
subtle
smile,and
amusement
secretlydirects
to
me
was
to
wondrously
as
green
for
seek
to
up
the
figures
the
time
consider
interestingof
mysterious and
life. And
perhaps, as I, you
exactness,
among
which
deal with
father
led
that
me
to
and
tain
cer-
alarmed
me
"
all the
too
have
the
great
mankind,
And
question?
most
always
"
of
felt
guished
distin-
and
yet
enigmas
certain
exclaim
timacy
in-
of
well-nighthe
connection
this very
connection
any
emotions
blissful
It had
grass.
continuallyoccupied me
which
only
physical sensations
because
I thought them
unhealthy.
My
this
opinion that
that
did you
half
father's
reader, that
dear
Tenders, I
Emmy
when
melted,
with
watch
cannot
who
the
gracefuldance.
Remember,
never
even
indeed
it must
been
long
me
proportionallymore
hide-and-seek
recognizesome
many
had
boyish pride
of their
chary
met
felt in
what
with
to
DREAMS
suddenly
once
oh, obstinate
"
and
I stood
where
OF
BRIDE
THE
want
of
But
how
man
who
"
like the
hesitation
much
after
glasses in
his
dropped
the
glass. He
extraordinary
that
for
he
very
such
with
up
and
failed
now
encouraged
He
reason.
very
bring me
wisdom,
and
care
when,
tried to
had
and
room
deliberation
and
his
down
carefully set
dark
39
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
boyish
my
scorn
thereby
thus
instinct and
he did not
see,
in this
he
regard
the
time
to
came
do
neglectedto
gratitude,respectedas long
seized with
blind
and
he
and
"
so.
to
indeed
notice
my
have
him
to
been
very
air of
perplexity,my
at
possible.
as
wanderings
abstraction, my
he considered
weeping in bed
final enlightenment come.
Between
two
like my
and
father
most
it with
customary
his
never
My
myself,this
difficult task.
painfuland
life.
ening
bright-
spent
father
more
had
But
undaunted
pallor,
agonies
my
the
"
time
for
refined
tures
na-
was
he
most
performed
determination.
uncomfortable
brought
and
confusion
apparent
and
was
deaf
very
abroad
Tenders
everythingthat suggestedher, my
nocturnal
I have
that
must
not
clear
it became
when
But
my
when
and
life,
for
sensitive
very
my
my
natural
and
sound
my
risk
prudishnessconcerning everything
pertaining to my body he, rightlyand to
My
of
warping
to
seem
enlightenme
my
of
ran
my
books
hour
and
in
prints
mumbled
and
me
he
dared
deal
good
of
Beads
voice.
hollow
his
DREAMS
demonstration;
better
for
OF
BRIDE
THE
40
look
not
under
at
in
breath
his
stood
perspiration
on
brow.
had
he
When
as
thought
child
end
to
itself
secret
bound
much
too
to
with
Insensible
my
And
room.
"
shriek
and
heart.
of
wept
distress.
as
The
though
"
tractive,
at-
strange,
fascinated
secret
before
to
Then
would
fell
like
now
could
lips.
my
more,
once
name
the
secret,
humiliation,
and
pain
rose
and
it.
leave
"
the
out
the
repulsive
first
crushed
was
life.
barrassed
em-
my
wrong,
But
to
me
there,
Emmy
name
done
life.
mysterious,
me
has
revolver.
my
and
nervous
room,
who
was:
wanted
the
left
down
weep
went
shivered,
ing
cry-
despairing
upon
out
the
it,
help
to
my
my
bed
very
therefore, without
be
must
lopped
do
Reader,
deep regard
who
boy
veneration
and
vital
ago,
so
not
scornfully,but
We
angel.
But
are
try,
have
in the
right way,
that
And
had
not
as
you
a
found
it
much
like
the
an
boot
with
"
like
is to
it
as
you
fifty
gentle irony
the
on
der
shoul-
Quiet, laddie, be
of
possible,
say
comes
everything bethink
you
devotion.''
learned
this, dear
same
consternation
but
the
She
a
this
of
is indeed
poet
her
ent
rever-
wiser.
and
lover
and
would
too
to
came
way
to
have
not
reader, does
not
alter
the
not
candistressingtruth, and one
disharmony bearable by denying it. So
and
is certain
my
their
into
appalling."
so
mysterious
make
that
self of
my
knowledge
philistinethen
all
But
deep
flowers
quickly as
as
caused
if the
love, and
that
strange mingling
Do
Tenders,
Emmy
at
would
of
discord
kindly:
quite bearable.
thing
because
dismayed.
reconcile
to
much
so
you
great foolish
the
and
softly laugh
him
and
ape
of
men
now
admonish
and
not
I demand
function.
sympathetically.
"
fit.
for
between
carries
former
myself
years
that
toes
would
the boot
imagine
not
important
that
so
difference
the
most
these
sentimentality,
any
off
DREAMS
lay helplesslyweeping
strange
with
OF
BRIDE
THE
42
that
horror
father's
ing
assertion,declar-
wholly unreasonable,
attempt
fit.
my
at
lopping
I resisted
off my
affected
toes
to
me
make
passionately,
maintaining
inexorable
an
road
had
branches
course
This
was
father's
my
reproached
him
for
in
reader,
facts
From
for
That
has
we
are
there
father
strange
the
accustomed
and
tender
to
from
generation
us
launch
my
the belief in
And
more
very
now
amorous
Together
with
tant
imporin
here
tal
acquitruin
to
gone
For
in
suredly
as-
deny. Every
cannot
for
and
and
once
callingthese parents
the
the
genealogicaltree
beyond
woes
Adam
accusations
at
all,
sin and
of these
and
should
even
ill
Eve
I then
Powers
which
generationhave imprinted in
their inviolability.
to
observe
strange
tence,
sen-
I hold
and
Dithecantropus Erectus,
have
sentment.
re-
designing.
mother,
to
I follow
guilt. But
or
guilt I
and
bitter
thorny labyrinth.
of human
is
never
most
tribunal
strayed
and
it is not
lute
disso-
to
impenetrable darkness?
have
Cupid's flowery
one
"
I have
the
all who
once
pronounce
whereof
unimpassioned
and
thus
dangerous
feelingsof
we
vile
and
other
But
Can
suit
still lie in
my
dreamy
it with
and
and
me,
but
the
and
low
the
on
work.
not?
Why
to
out
fanaticism
leadingto
cynicism.
noble
the
disclosed
eagerly
43
my
and
Emmy
hastily and
whose
path
for
father
wandered
DREAMS
separation between
lofty sentiments
things my
OF
BRIDE
THE
what
makes
and
illogical.I
but
also
my
of
the
am
very
not
matter
only
sensual
still
of
nature.
to
strong susceptibility
the
of
joys
OF
BRIDE
THE
44
overpowering impulse
of these
the contact
such
in
about
there
communion
soul
two
DREAMS
of
mighty
propagation.
Before
had
brought
currents
been
the
painful manner
the
went
low, dark,
other
my
this
itself to
functions,
that
tained
main-
has
this
doubt.
when
the
all the
more
But
occupied
I
brain
can
facts
explained it
came
be-
absorbing and
enticingand
so
was
thoughts that,
my
wonder
man,
half
secret
again
ponder
over
even
old
an
that
and
again
such
comparatively simple
infinitum, without
ad
now
without
having
human
them
lose
really arrivingat
any
conclusion.
Physicians
and
out
of
and
good
physician
much
he
as
time
same
would
also
their
among
day
without
be
And
us
fine words
there
point
may
be
physicians,every
exception, in so
physician,is
philistine.With
comprehension
in the
how
called
I would
though
men
unpoetical and
serve
But
reader, that
our
tions
pathologicalcondi-
sexiialis.
noble
their
and
still
of
of
speak
libido
dear
to you,
very
would
for
their
the
tions
explana-
things that
because
at
are
yond
be-
their science is
unphilosophical,
they
do
not
least.
could
one
of
these
present-day sages
THE
reasonablyexplainto
human
OF
DREAMS
that
in
BRIDE
such
type
me
character?
and
in
it
refined
then
highly cultured
and
ignoble
and
beautiful
my
aversion?
whence
its
overpowering, in
member
of the human
race
And
if any
bar
in the
with
would
freaks
strange
his
summit
and
we
series of
names
ately
immedi-
not
all
this
plague by
his
sliining
honored
most
Arezzo
father
also
of
do
de
Arnaut
"
and
poets
Verigord,
all those
rime
it stand
d'amore
usar
duty,
but
had
his dearest
this
Guittons
his
father
"
dolci
with
differently
Shelley,Byron, Heine,
My father's deed arose
the
on
for
penance
Guinicello
Guido
Is
years?
weakness
the
from
che
Did
exceptionsand
of
and
of
of
should
nature,
lipswith
here
Are we
not acquainted
historyof mankind?
Sophocles' very significant
sigh of relief at
it without
very
speak
of
being delivered
of
its
unworthy,
impertinent and
so
presence,
and
some
coupled
was
for
impulsegood
really low
lofty
without
animals
part ignoble,whence
no
were
"
this
Were
and
strong working
very
sensitiveness
exaggerated
an
noble
I, certainlynot
as
45
mai
leggiadre.
Dante
himself,with
Goethe?
wholly
from
an
different
imagined
sense
consequences
46
BRIDE
THE
OF
DREAMS
than
either
would
my
torn
nounce
straightfor matrimony or rehad
He
satisfactorily
boyish love.
steer
to
loftier
and
he knew
also
He
me.
valiantlytrue
shield her
this world
by
life
my
her
my
rest
of
it
love with
the
intention
as
their
the
and
desire
of
bridge
higher than
profaning
think
about
wooing
vivid
and
of
and
me
wedding
And
imagination and
liberty,were
as
granting them
had
what
something sacred
and
holy, I
their
not
my
now
stilled.
not
aroused
were
lawful
from
as
And
females
and
keep
food.
of
her
every
natural
as
of
world.
slumbering hounds
for
out
peal
ap-
my
baseness
sacrilegeto
thousand
craving recognitionand
The
against the
above
image
father, fed by
my
I felt
let my
of the
one
with
But
and
shield
dangers
ever.
as
I considered
confound
of the
to
body serve
earthlypool of mire.
thought.
to
he wished
ardentlydevoted
as
Emmy
with
held
as
gation
propa-
witchery
in difficulties and
to
and
the
across
her
common
confidence
behold, I remained
ever,
something
woman's
"
which
that
nature.
But
to
from
expected my
advice
for
kindred
here
concerned
was
which
surelyhave
it implied, I
and
ored
clam-
the
slightest
father
pointed
portion,but what,
was
devouring jaws
determined
cost
what
to
it
OF
BRIDE
THE
47
DREAMS
food
threatened
and
to
destroy me.
"
what
But
the
solution
model
I would
The
will
of
scheme
ahead
lamp
far
as
the
For
life.
light he
to
must
for himself
see
The
hounds
whether
from
Blessed
is he who
proper
prey.
without
death
to
to
And
would
children
do
booty
retain
you
threaten
not
responsibleand
each
myself
would
least, after
at
have
sooner
for intimate
Thames.
lawn
the
blue
and
there
the
situated
the
to my
feet
of
theory.
narrow
I had
your
experienced,
policeagent
father.
in London
on
the
well-trimmed
emerald-green,
multi-colored
flower-borders,and
porcelain vases,
on
back
of
smooth
The
with
was
starve
to the nearest
gone
advice, than
home
Emmy's
what
that,
let them
mutilate
of
their
thinks
confidence
who
will
escaping.
offer them
unbridled
to
And,
day they
can
the
through.
is certain.
some
himself, he
for
seek
or
little
thus
the
him
to
his
rubbish
and
not,
woe
for
up
ness.
dark-
forthwith
can
into the
And
danger
shoves
reach
can
food, that
want
only
draw
or
intentionally
be awakened
called to
is not
how
sider
con-
you
reader
it,young
confusion
brought
do
"
question?
He
he
as
what
"
of the
is not
old Muralto
"
ask ;
nothing about
do
it,old hermit
about
do
you
reader
young
you
would
summer
extended
afternoons
the
to
the
water,
family sat
on
BRIDE
THE
48
OF
DREAMS
chairs
cane
"
multitude
graceful little
of
dressed
in
gig-rowers
regular
friends
of
swish
match
on
training,shooting by
with
which
the
lightemanated
at
mingled
with
human
seemed
my
strains
assumed
the
is
there
Not
flood of
father, and
my
all my
fair
father
strange and,
most
that
and
had
when
cent
inno-
told
me
at
it makes
behind
from
us
race,
Tenders,
every
for
of
person
horribly manifest,
only Emmy
and
bright,merry,
excitinginfluence,when
leers
boats
house-
happy people,
of music
with
angelichuman
glaringly and
more
this
night.
temperament,
of
and
ming
swim-
ugly fairy-tale.
an
London
glamour
of flowers
world, then
but
But
suburbs
I lived in the
all
amidst
way
by shouting
competitorsin
their
every
echoed
followed
and
oars
by, full
floating
from
softlyblending
lar
muscu-
making
cheered
tumult
ably
fashion-
white, the
horseback;
on
in
women
of green,
tones
and
men
with
crafts
all the
exercises
and
the black
the
but
cultured
more
demon
denly
sud-
veil.
of
woman
every
English
woman,
animal;
some
there I could
resemblance
still conceive
to
the
and
female
imagine
50
THE
in their
own
OF
BRIDE
boat, in affectionate
and
greatly embarrassed
did not
to
seem
to
all the
And
view.
the
pure
the
impure
whom
to
human
old hermit
The
the
the
to
old
heaven, despitehis
the
human
satiated
the
did
he
or
like
excitement
same
and
through
Paris
a
had
hotbed
seduction, on
wiser
words
ardent
of
precious
the
Muralto
indeed
thank
though seldom,
love-life
would
It has
sage.
years,
consider
in these
wanton
the
many
mourned
eyes
of
and
natural,
poeticlover
young
man,
feel better
reader, but
the
dim,
naturalist
the
that
the
could
loss.
of
to
disharmony.
or
days
such
at
gard
rean
tress,
pleasingdis-
former
days
herself
he
naturalist
philosopherwithout
sweet
not
deeply
And
soul
philosopherMuralto
from
distance
long
occurred
old
as
and
remark, that
a
admired
of whose
love-life seemed
my
philosopher.
ancient
here
ous
hide-
so
and
not
to
peculiar
could
unexciting as
and
that
plainly on
so
bright mirror
of the world
breath
the
common
was
the
creature
wholly
me
appear
I honored
more
to
that
and
itself
obtrude
and
me
here
the natural
depravitymade
inborn
be
to
it occurred
Then
be to blame
myself must
Emmy
me.
appeared
or
that
attitudes
distressed
them
see
thereby.
undisturbed
I
DREAMS
"
yet
times, but
may
err,
experience!
of first true
now
my
And
love
ened
enlightI, who
in
child
passed as an innocent
hailstorm
of sensuality and
a
singletwilighteve
in London
THE
had
four
which
BRIDE
five
or
and
in the
imbedded
remain
seed with
sweetbriar
fibres of
thorny
which
arrows
and
flesh,smarting
the
Hke
burning
barbed
as
memory
51
particulars of
the
encounters
in my
remained
DREAMS
OF
has
one
itching
cactus
or
into too
come
close contact.
the
When
cast
race,
conviction
which
the game
as
the
aside
her
pride and,
needs
English
chastity
casts
"
though
she
longer
no
"
their
profession,
certain
homage
or
the
to
grace
and
lofty secret
desecrate.
German
or
God
"
bunglers !
with
differenc
in-
need
charming glamour
and
game
Latin
from
of love
natural
poor
they must
But
it
make
the sorry
play
as
their
country, of
my
away
still retain
they
and
of
women
be
off her
gracious
modesty
were
glad
! let
us
that
say
as
who
woman
these
downrightly
as
she
to
lays
need
though
not
the
carry
greater
absolute
depth of her fall resulted also in a more
like
hopelessnessof ever arisingagain. Cold, business-
and
practical,they
regard the human
and
unexcited
But
as
just
dreadful
the
to
this class
reminded
as
old
an
the
day,
me
unmoved
and
philosopher.
toward
and
of
English
queenly love,
pure
my
who, fiftyyears
parks
profession
between
the present
or
nobly represented in
creatures
their
on
love-life
naturalist
contrast
so
woman,
and
carry
ago
ably
prob-
twilighthaunted
in the most
the
and
unabashed
recently
received
BRIDE
THE
52
fatherly disclosures
passions
aroused
Was
for
them
well
it
hideous
this
Let
reader.
caused
not
satisfied with
fast
also
did
Then
not
shame, but
who
followed
the
and
him
to
when
Emmy
and
who
let
could
nature
demands
the
marmots.
tractable
race?
the
mine
nor
unknown
hidden
Breeder
involves
it
honor
no
of
account
with
than
that
power
ape
had,
and
pasturage
angel
to
my
love
for
impure images
that
my
he did
drove.
of attraction.
thanks
match-making, gone
the
glory,
I, what
surprise you
away
turing
pas-
or
my
savage
drive
The
design.
the
me
their
of
that
probably
were
honor
knew, better
not
destroy
to
render
he entrusted
Neither
never
willingly
were
would
this
rear
the
and
to
alone
they
Possiblythey
of docile cattle
I choose
beasties
your
contentedly to
both
discernment
and
that
the
mothers
indignation, dear
submit
yours
accord
tormented
or
yourself
count
The
leaves,
will, or
you
procure
hyenas.
trouble, that
leash.
too
they would,
Eat
your
lettuce
at
matrimonial
But
arouse
much
then
carrion!
gladly believe
you
would
they
wolves, became
became
dogs
roar.
up-
heart
filled my
food.
other
were
untamable
an
that
themselves
though
newly
creature
"
to
me
the noble
for
good
within
the
this stirred
just
"
tormented
The
DREAMS
OF
The
human
our
father's
fatallywrong.
onciliation
rec-
ling
bunghope-
THE
less
BRIDE
had
separation
the
and
thoughts
My
startled
of
white
the
London
beast
in
suffer
difficult
direct
to
flies.
could
lily
in
stinking
parks
seething
or
drive
scarcely
carrion
was
what
with
wild
own
paths.
desecration
fatherly
of
as
wonder
them?
had
thoughts
a
off
them
from
of
lesson
swarm
away
brought
black
his
accessible
in-
seemed
angel
keep
chamber,
my
53
no
the
But
me
the
sought
would
up
DREAMS
arisen,
sacredness.
Emmy's
as
OF
roomful
the
then
the
nocturnal
one
that
EMMY
her
developed
her,
inconsistent
this
all
strife
the
in
all-
an
trembling
deep
the
by
self-
confusion
household
intimate
and
ing
wildly-blaz-
and
caused
usual
un-
courted
of
changes
self-reproach,
being
but
not
capricious
shyness
dismay,
"
years
devotion,
sudden
violent
shrinking,
the
the
naught-fearing
and
happiness,
and
all
is
as
age,
three
made
sixteen,
was
curiously
with
way,
contempt
in
but
that
For
country.
my
steadfastly,
daring
and
at
when
old
years
acquaintance,
fully
in
nineteen
was
of
my
soul.
Emmy
a
make
can
excellent
an
now
natural
dear,
good,
as
was,
without
say
and
and
partiality,
child,
simple
born
housewife
loving
to
and
consort.
often
How
to-day,
with
little
gentle
into
little
stay
"
hint,
and
and
two
safe
So
I, the
patriarch
would
knowledge,
present
journey.
a
that
imagine
the
boats
prosperous
needed,
my
between
stepped
two
currents
on
little
would
loving
everything
54,
steered
easily
word
would
joint
have
of
of
have
the
and
been
direction,
have
been
BRIDE
THE
well.
these
But
OF
DREAMS
idle and
are
not
was
three
was
her
years
though
junior. Emmy's
parents
liberal-minded,like
were
insensible to rank
though
the Catholic
faith.
the
amiable
most
he
would
been
had
surelynot
Italian
noble
young
family, even
Thus
title,and
and
precludedthe
have
too.
suitor, even
undesirable
so
thoughts,
after-
tormenting
55
their
from
brought
in
up
child
my
customary
the
among
English, schooled
be
old
It
enough
much
from
hidden
out
less curious
well, much
and
would
knows
body
boy.
not
be
able to
everythingat
had
thought
Though
our
the
me
express
more
though
as
better
and
of the
not
coming
think
teries
mys-
about
it, and
in any
other
and
continued
flames, my
longer in
of my
heart
and
wished
to
hiding from
reserve
my
the
still,my
London
than
it
yet she
travellinglife
stopped oftener
he
formed
in-
for her.
father
time
surprised,and,
sooner
does
until
suit
my
to
and
course
She
while
press
seemed
concerning the
than
the
me
dare
to
sometimes
urgently.
a
girlwas
self-
imperceptibly,encouraging
should
in
thoughts.
submit
him
me
the true
to
un-
this
the
state
And
after
when,
again on our
timid
sign to
Valentine's
full
colored
rosy
evident
was
rude
of thanks
long
to
wrote
it, which
course
as
the
her
of
her
in my
the
and
beautiful
as
parative
com-
studied
make
to
nothing of
about
well
the
as
the
invisible
its
as
great,
of
be
"
beings with
like animals
and
the
a
of
that
missing in
base
gray,
the
elements
being
well be
not
desecration,
smoke-darkened
sea.
sensually visible
our
are
and
wished
thoughts
my
to
very
beloved,
my
I noticed
there
could
sort
All
seem
big city.
our
letter
I had
diary
appointed.
Berlin, but
the
Just
about
father, who
my
of me,
something of
and
churl,
with
met
London
thought
London
swarmed
came
rapturous
get-me-not
for-
it
I, awkward
from
away
I
in
him
of
peace.
diplomat
with
of blue
denial.
was
and
St.
elegantly
whence
and
her
subjectswhich
the
from
source
rejectionand
As
with
hand
enough to me,
enough to send
for
first
On
correspondence.
woman's
The
was
the
gave
curved
cool
who
were
we
of which
I knew
significance
scrap-picture arrived, representing
the
meeting,
Emmy
was
into
enter
DREAMS
first
our
it
way,
day,
well,
OF
BRIDE
THE
56
manifest
so
the
peculiar
of
elements
and
passions
They
peculiarnature.
desires
children, hearkening
"
to
the
only
her
redeem
day,
and
with
emotion,
went
about
world
and
hat
I
and
might
Thus
but
I
for
be
how
and
not
that
has
that
good,
that
want
to
their
if the
downward
we
are
and
the
need
does
own
way,
And
these
told, the
same
are
and
his
for
the
he
guidance
that
always
yet
sink
the
mind
given us
nature
own
patient;
nor
rest;
of
hungry
patient;
demand
and
also
defile themselves.
to
and
and
moods
were
howl
reasonable
government
unguarded.
as
buzz
rest
never
spirit,that
have
And
to
still
There
control, apparently
neither
are
themselves
from
them
to
natures
right,
in this world.
there
and
reasonable
be
may
saint
melancholy
"
"
Man
actually
out
twenty.
again,discouragements
through the dusky parks.
whine
to
dogs continued
continued
to
thought-flies
that
heart
what
smoothly
Emmy
come
returned
walks
straw
I.
have
followed
light,
sun-
in my
matter
no
so
and
seventeen
was
great
reallybelieved
unworthy
run
the
broad-brimmed
"
everything might
things do
of
us
May
dizzy
trembling and
the
wife,
my
awaited
longer wavered
no
dially
cor-
her
dress,
her
saw
bright,sunny
her
shining eyes
her
wanted
she
on
positivelydetermined
was
seeing nothing
save
saved, and
was
when
tion
devo-
her
carriage that
meet
and
me
the
the
to
white
the
And
station
suburban
the
DREAMS
encouragement,
me.
from
bowing
at
her
presence,
could
OF
BRIDE
THE
58
fatally
leaves
by
which
ture,
naac-
cording to
OF
BRIDE
THE
father
my
is
DREAMS
59
always good
if
does
man
spoilher.
not
So
disturb
to
not
as
dear
reader, which
your
own
driving of
you,
I shall mention
and
my
This
defeat.
hurt
you.
I fell under
the
need
not
and
between
the
of the
his attention
father
could
to
came
said
hope, Vico
will remain
When
we
upon
upon
an
careful
dog
sharp
in the
say
so
poral
cor-
contrast
that,
has
as
duck-yard,
into
the
mouth
self-
accursed
There
's
steadilyfixed
without
remain
one
nothing
morning,
Italians
it
as
a
suspicion.
installed himself
in all
have
remained
an
small
perceivethat
attentive
invitation
work
to
and
that
would
someone
with
set
us,
we
together
up
of art, and
hearing
application,so
and
things."
friendlyconversation
me,
upon
nobleman
complete
give it
not
room
my
there, and
with
following
anyway."
me
With
and
the
"
one
man
rupture between
finallythe
and
makes
that
lost with
look
of the
ducks
inquisitive
"
contempt
enter
old
the
as
strangler,
an
incomprehensible contradiction,
decoys
"
precaution of
who
He
struggle
"
effect
to
my
joint influence
excitingan
my
troublesome
particularsof
spiritualdesires,
its
with
the
make
might
more
fatallyarisen
the
things:
team
no
agination
im-
by excitingyour
you
gladly
zealouslyassist
something good
we
BRIDE
THE
60
fine be
and
carrying
of
When
I hear
landers
Hol-
two
conversation,
it
villageschool
repeating
sounds
their
embarrassed
"
on
children
like
more
forth.
brought
DREAMS
OF
if
"
father," I answered,
My
how
quitewell
I do
wish
you
know
not
he
Do
I believe
or
self
him-
comport
refer
are
know
to
should
you
circumstance,
with.
over
nobleman
how
everything.
in
it
to
any
ticular
par-
speaking
you
"
generally?
"
If
all intimate
avoid
must
Vico,
persons,
have
"
recognizegenerally that
you
in mind
is
That
intercourse
remains
can
saw
too.
that
the
To
we
have
body,
"
Without
they
remain
agreeing
of
either
side
then
And
this:
"
and
speak plainlyhere,
reply:
know
as
desires
in the
the
It is certain
spiritthat
we
And
to
mate
call it inti-
you
this
body
singleproof.
question: natural
as
do
spiriton
I must
but
this
thing
some-
painfully. Slowly
said
no
long
as
distance?
first I make
itself from
have
the
start
sharply, he
that
I have
yet
ignoble desires?
have
But
this
where
father
my
eyeing me
"
First
infinite
an
nobleman
at
ignoble
included."
plain,father.
to ask.
more
with
intercourse
therein
are
nobleman
particularinstances
the
"
natural
rate
sepa-
nothing
the
concerns
are
can
never
and
ond
sec-
ignoble
channels."
"
first,"I replied, I
do
we
If
ask.
ignoble,how
how
do
Have
"
If I
"
use
what
reflect.
to
lose
to
"
the
Let
us
I have
then,
that
come
into
"
with
"
you.
you
deal
not
age.
I don't
The
with
realized
he must
that
in
call
noble
ig-
moment
order
not
the
eral
gen-
from
turn
lest
son,
and
low
believe
do
in
or
not
you
both
care
do
not
contact
you
I understand
bad, but
very
and
vileness
into that
that
passionsthat
seek
Take
desires
me
in this baseness
desires and
we
it."
low
in
that
that
say,
surely talked
child.
to
entangled
low.
impatient and
grew
popes
become
we
with
vile
unnatural
But
conversation
happily established
contact
father
were
the
from
My
for
discrimination
calls natural."
is all I wished
the
But
of
asked.
he
beware,
aversion
an
"
ignobledesires?
and
particular.
in words.
have
and
natural
discrimination, father, I
Then
not
in all men?
good
my
father
to
ignoble
to
me
father
ground,
to
thus
desires
power
arrested
more
and
my
my
father
My
much
drive
unnatural
no
you
that, Vico?
it
can
anyway.
gives me
is natural
me
ent,
differ-
too
other
distinguishbetween
desires and
noble
61
are
each
second
all natural
Are
"
in
then
things?
And
the
to
desire
natures
our
understand
not
answer
your
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
you
are
common
relief from
them
in
when
have
to
absolutely
at
with
your
un-
62
THE
worthy,
licentious
I have
OF
BRIDE
already
forget that
moments
defilement,devastate
I do
"
yourselfabout
trouble
"
what
is
humble.
Can
You
life."
proud
to
low-graded creatures."
be
to
proud.
is well suited
me
not
through
can,
also be too
reason
deliver
you
ugliness?
and
in
passing on
Do
father."
such
gladly have
I would
you
should
you
danger
I not?
entire
your
forget that,
not
the great
have
you,
few
"
Of
persons.
warned
in
DREAMS
have
yourself
keep
to
me
from
me
But
it
aroused
in me."
"
**
"
I?
By
time
I had
captiveand
badly
with
it, and
can
chop
human
beyond
to
's not
prevent it.
drive
With
listened
said with
"
you
need
get
One
must
not
of
these
to
first
thing is plain
get married
seek
the
long
very
or
finest
to
words.
now,
that
go
to
the
father
my
Then
he
scornful
boy,
that
soon.
fear
visions.
my
pitying,half
me
I cannot
me."
outspoken
little laugh,half
put
can
the better.
sooner
an
these
away
I shall
lost with
I foresee
but
hands,
power.
much
so
ate,
desper-
am
It will end
cat.
is certain.
off my
thoughts and
my
is
nothing
and
eyes
control
That
do
Now
tormented
father, that
me,
that
explanations. Before
comparative peace.
my
called,frowning angrily.
scientific
your
like
out
father
my
refusal.
wears
You
can
petticoat.
be bashful, Vico
Don't
blood,
pure
got
laughed
"
shall
and
name,
fine, strong,
what
have
can
you
noble
the
supply
Be
money.
for
want
you
of
worthy
not
a
preservative,
who
father
to
assure
had
father
My
"
calm
and
whoever
surely,and
mother
drains
can
it
all mothers
were
lad!
into your
black
her
I would
me,
passions are
that
my
sible,
exaggerated,impos-
Then
reasonable,
got
been
nonsense!
your
to
low
painful:
children
bore
it not
and
man."
attempted
fanatical
foul
own
words
Good
who
such
spoken
name
safety valve,
that, had
you
artificial and
was
as
for my
is that I should
pronounce,
drain
challengedthe
have
and
pure
that
believe
meaning
decidedly your
passions.
face,
deeply indignant.
theatrical
laugh.
use
am
be
have
up,
Most
make
You
63
asking."
DREAMS
handsome
healthy body.
calm, my boy,
the
OF
BRIDE
THE
You
head.''
Your
the
worthy,
un-
low,
and
"
mother,
It 's terrible
friends.
early poison
not
are
foul
not
Do
thoughts
of
how
her
child."
"
then
If
one
it
of
was
my
not
my
mother.
worthiness
own
through my
through outside persuasion.
understand
thoughts,
parents poisoned my
that, because
realize
my
consciousness,
But
he
my
is
father
un-
not
not
can-
stranger
to
and
deepest
though your
my
But,
me.
been
be
lost
both
wrath
look
and
and
struck
the
and
home
the
mind.
the
wondrous
my
cancy
va-
while
he
shall
We
that
painfully
more
"
brought
to attain.
from
mother
got
!
see
up,
"
save
he
since
of
and
that
tortures, my
our
night, in
gave
my
stand
under-
that
her
she
country
our
departure
composed
raptures,
my
of
writing to
tears
conversation
surely
name
the
sion,
impres-
I knew
me.
first time
about
One
the
would
the
self-contempt.I
into
stared
not
I also knew
many
love
my
lifted
father
still remember
had
he wished
letter to her
all my
It's
gloom, long-nurtured
After
man
thought
Amid
and
words,
perhaps
stilllived and
that
foresee
room.
poor
that
I '11
now
it matter?
My
was
all, I retained
was
For
the
of what
above
seat.
that
of the
out
me
full of
it at the time.
Again
it
look
with
room.
desperation.
sighed,and
contrary
the
forehead
wonder
by
walked
does
his
to
from
years
young
marry
Scornfully shrugging
about
ran
with
what
all ! "
after
hands
not
in three
oh!
positively.And
shoulders, I
does
pelled
re-
is idle.
advice
your
your
have
already
hopelesslylost.
anyway,
only I,
good, father,
moreover,
of seventeen, and
man
Even
feelings.
would
An
"
had
advice
DREAMS
sacred
most
expressing it
of
manner
OF
BRIDE
THE
64
from
entered
a
which
my
long, passionate
I told
of
struggles,my
deep self-degradationand
no
sensi-
66
is
mother,
est
redemption?
father
how
is
them
off
with
at
it
which
my
being,
and
good,
bring
make
and
me
so
the
long
time
from
benumbed
kissed
and
fervor.
Italians
We
here
in
and
affected,
my
small
even
the
like
to
town
kissed
read
the
for
the
itself
of
with
and
always
be
we
flood
warm
pour
more
would
though
with
and
and
heart,
are
myself
eyes.
tormented
all
hid
not
every
hope.
bolted,
could
seemed
and
and
envelope
contents,
And
hope.
least
all
my
sent
post-office
the
securely
streamed
the
the
to
after
tore
and
pages
much
without
room,
many
went
came
for
when
witnesses.
still
thinking
without
last
benediction,
cried
or
there
of
always
wrote
vainly
hands
that
tender
thing
is
me,
nature
straits
venture
my
and
And
good,
answer
in
trembling
tears
be
the
the
paper
it
strain
toward
But
Is
for
help
that
terrible
weeks
two
day,
DREAMS
"
this
In
my
What
such
unhappy?
for
still
it
can
into
me
there
speaks?
and
OF
BRIDE
THE
wholly
over
course
greater
little,
called,
be
out
of
what
theatrical
without
VI
1AM
far
as
who
those
lives
of
and
never
and
the
her
admirers
forget
dead
conscious
clearly
a
blind,
how
we
the
face
faults,
senseless
of
so
druggist
botanist,
has
the
of
my
praise
our
so
and
her
thinking,
ing,
feel-
and
many
Deity,
or
teach
us
to
in
homage
monstrous
cruelty.
the
little
gradually
bounty
consider
finally
religion
proselytes
most
her
responsible
torture,
is
never
carelessness,
they
and
relentless
worship
makes
the
much
much
Nature
and
in
who
scholars
her
thing,
rificed
sac-
admiration
amazing
force;
persist
can
so
or
have
beauty,
upon
ural
nat-
offered
who
her,
whether
us
living, a being
or
her
stress.
have
and
with
they,
apprise
to
who
Nature,
bestows
she
philosophers
themselves
call
reverence
praising
even
"
of
question
sufficient
understand
to
cease
best
ready
al-
ago
the
with
those
thus
without
peace
the
preference
everything
speak
I know,
service
the
to
mother
my
themselves
by
years
many
so
to
philosophers,
their
that
as
to
put
never
Even
it
addressed
which,
have
of
proud
town,
renounced
67
which
served
unob-
nowadays.
who
his
is
Even
a
slack
clever
Prot-
BRIDE
THE
68
for
estantism
ardent
an
he
When
his
of
and
devout
search
southern
truly
to
DREAMS
accompanies
occasionally,on
stirred
OF
to
me
for
nature
nursery
my
plants, he
enthusiasm
make
to
for
place
but
Nature,"
the
and
"
of his adored
dead
stars
"
This
nature
the
"
inspiresin
him
is all very
lovable, but
his
beloved
Whether
begins.
also
of
what
he
part
as
admiration
slums
Nature
should
counts
of
and
curious
so
be the
the
opponent
product
and
great good
and
as
else
products
why his
if so,
before
the
only partly,
is that
and
man,
beautiful
man
their
or
of, and
enemy
often
considers
turn
it then
sea
good
he
and
if not,
peculiar something
the
and
sudden
the
something
man
nature,
make
Amsterdam;
and
ends
Living
thusiasm.
slighteren-
no
"
clouds,
it
find
had
Bible
periodical entitled
sight
all the
"
His
Nature."
be
can
the
at
wonders
ship.
wor-
has
yet
ated
cre-
should
debarred
of
unity
from,
all other
things.
Yes, yes,
great
and
careless
beautiful
so
of
deal
dear
thoughtlessbabbling, and
way
Nature
forth, without
with
the
those
of
prate
and
among
or
mean.
my
Mother
knowing
even
But
fellows
of
or
and
in
so
vague
and
and
on
distinguishing
exactness
yet there
do
men
Nature,
nature, and
human
slightestdegree
reallysay
that
reader, I know
have
what
also
they
been
good friends,like
my
Spinoza, and
comrade
amiable
friend
Goethe, who
hollow
phrases
proved
Nature
much
as
knowable
into
of
some
her
in the
who
they do,
domain
to
and
never
is
bring
all that
to
judge
yet
let
as
yet
right to praise
men's
force
products,
for
least
well-nigh constantly
things, and
as
her
greatlybeloved
my
care
also
sufficient
with
not
and
these
about
thought
did
69
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
us
of
baboons,
say:
drunkards, philistines,
tyrants, grand inquisitors,
and
bad
buildingsand
modern
aesthetically
disapproving
call this
to
then, the
See
quite
was
opinion
have
to
nail.
"
Nature,
subject to
sin.
has
she
to offset nature
is the
wonder
of Divine
us
redemption
than
power
be
believe
of his blood.
performed
sin, but
faith
powerfully
miracle
from
has
as
been
there
grace,
and
and
us
in
Christ
nature
blood
and
in
bring
him
toward
scaldo
ferro
mai,
ne
che
can
is the
required
redeeming
is
the
so
shall
deeply
into
salvation,and
corruption, the
wrought things
a
That
we
of Grace
fall
works
which
more
can
none
can
and
to
over
of Christ
Miracle
the
Then
in
through
Christ
in
delivered
nothing
'
non
hole
is the miracle.
The
sin.
redemption,
to
She
**
But
of
mind.
is blind and
son/' she wrote,
decree
which
we
Through a Divine
Satan.
of
over,
more-
mother
my
young
dear
my
penetrate
medium
from
cannot
find
and,
natural.
plausibleto
really seemed
ethically
an
sense
I received
answer
as
in
verses,
natura
batta
incude.'
**
DREAMS
this is
whereof
letter
The
OF
BRIDE
THE
70
adored
and
first
the
In
profound impressionon me.
a
came
as
tangible,livingtoken
greatlyvenerated
which
struck
now
familiar
the
feelingsby
natural
to
of
tones
the
thankfully
me
parted
de-
old, tender,
with
And
something entirelynew.
so
piety,
experienced ears
more
my
place it
well-nighas
"
mother,
of the
made
fragment
as
thusiasm
en-
eager
and
ently
rever-
discovered
I had
which
fillthe gap
to
life.
spiritual
Exactly !
of
influence
the
just
what
who
also
had
felt.
must
but
I had
us
Thus
not
ask.
this
is
the
On
nature
free
Divine
side
other
decree.
To
Of
it.
own
You
Why?
certain
tent
ex-
difficulty,
the
"
spiritbecomes
the
too, I
is left to its
was
is God,
That,
allure.
to
This
us.
upward.
times
unhesitatingly
to
draws
but
"
at
Satan
once
shuts
felt.
draws
and
desires
who
Satan
through
is downward
trend
Nature's
door
ciled
recon-
something impenetrable
course,
remain!
may
And
It
the
was
field of my
sprouting
fifty years,
Christ.
salvation:
the
now
this word
vision,like
in the
garden
it is not
of
yet
new
was
brought
plant
that
my
life.
Now,
full
grown,
but
into
saw
after
gives
BRIDE
THE
blossom
promise of
transformations
First
it has
what
not
human-God,
but
what
who
that
was
drew
I had
upward
me
The
felt.
again, did
had
knew
of him.
more
offer
to
her
morning
the
pronounce
she
Lord,"
that
yet
could
knew
did
whereof
learned
drew
nothing.
and
long
as
and
prayers,
with
"
he
as
in her
but
she
spoke.
At
when
was
mained
re-
ily
fam-
I heard
Christ,
Jesus
such
doubt
creative
I felt
customary
was
not
the
who
words
it
Satan
lived, died
me
good,
me.
the
It
and
felt,God
had
God,
man,
words.
Christ
affect
gained
of sense,
all well
"
Of
he
not
Words,
imperceptibleto
Now
it.
I had
that
assurance
risen
Man
downward
me
with
me?
to
the
are
devoid
word
do
to
Divine
Marvellous
undergone.
hear
to
71
DREAMS
fruit.
and
I seemed
knew
and
OF
our
expressive fervor
that
she
the
time
of
power
positively
I had
the
not
suggested
word.
So,
queer
the
who
in the
course
suitor
that
dear
of
I was,
asked
girl and
morning gallop,I,
merry
began
her
theologizewith
to
"
squarely:
Emmy,
"
is Christ .^^
Now
in my
artlessness
questionedby
person,
about
friend, would
earnest
good
manifest
heartilygive the
seemed
an
I had
desired
thought
and
not
acquaintance
pleasure
and
information.
exceedinglysurprised and
that
indifferent
and
dear
gladly
But
even
one
any-
and
Emmy
alarmed.
72
but
Don't
"
be
I want
why
Do
wish
you
That
want
that.'*"
'
though
seems
as
with
it."
"
Of
without
you
I know
course
feel that
"
to
said
do
they
Lord,' it
our
what
only
what
knowing
reallyknew
!"
me.
Christ,
Jesus
say,
you
to
Protestant?
difference
words
satisfy
not
is."
turn
no
use
When
mean.
to
makes
to
he
does
I also want
nothing.
what
that
but
Emmy,
me
is and
Christ
not
is
taught
Catholics
you
sure,
It tells
me.
"
asked.
To
"
that
but
Emmy,
aren't
Emmy
"
"
voice.
of
tone
what
some-
of him."
more
"But
in
said
religious."
she
reserved
and
please her,
all
at
her.
"
that?
know
you
sullen
to
not
evidentlydistressed
more
"
DREAMS
question did
the
though
as
OF
BRIDE
THE
you
meant
Emmy,
crossly.
"
Can't
To
my
make
you
continued
it clear
to
me,
astonishment
then ?
"
seemed
Emmy
to
had
been
risen
"
may
now?
this
an
born
again
man,
died
had
for
our
sins,had
"
No, Emmy,
all be very
all that
true, but
means
what
nothing to me.
good is that to
"
"
It
me
74
how
glad
OF
BRIDE
THE
she
when
was
question and
Christ
croquet
DREAMS
last
at
began
talk
to
the
abandoned
and
tennis
of
conversation
this
that
in truth
to
me
Emmy
positivelyrevealed
knew
nothing of Christ, but used the word on her
sponding
parents'and society'sauthority, and as a corre-
realitypossessed nothing
fleeting
phantom of a good and
long hair and pointed beard,
yet living,
"
and
and
man
beautiful
who
vague,
with
man
and
dead
was
and
nowhere,
but
these
known
easily
which
images,
with
him,
and
cannot
that
words
through
in
addressed
and
and
resemble
not
pleasantly ingratiating
are
familiar
the
most
pictures
need
all
of
account
on
of
tones
precious
associations.
for
scorn
the
greatest
Surely
of
are
man,
in
in
faith
is
reality;
merely
senses,
But
we
and
will not
we
no
and
very
comparison
our
my
his
father
imprinted
ties
unreali-
still retain
left to
it
covering
me,
me.
there
realities which
he
treasure
grades
of
this kind
from
and
as
adopted
readil}^
I had
But
to
illusion
what
only
are
call
phantasmagorias
realities,created by
fleeting
the
we
eternal
apprehend
which
there
"
must
give to
with
be
human
of
and
immutable
our
soul
and
higher origin.
creations
honors
BRIDE
THE
alone
due
hollow
words
yet
with
the
was
Pray
me
and
will not
and
even
Satan
chastise
so
the
as
rich
was
Now
and
had
to
been:
the flesh."
subdue
of
causes
soul.
advice
Mother's
and
gift had
fight Satan
to
was
aid.
pronounce
in my
confusion
and
75
maternal
the
but
"
of God
for
and
of
necessary
God
on
DREAMS
suggested phantoms.
idea
for
discord
all that
"
Christ
ideas
this sad
call
adore
value
no
Divine,
nor
the
Thus
as
the
to
OF
I tried
it
believe it
I
seemed
myself,it
prayed night
upright way,
and
to
almost
morning
and
delicate
ice-cold water,
forced
seemed
beside my
rather
bed
up
go
well ! of that
is strange
consider
though
with
the
maternal
an
in
deal
great
what
an
on
on
the
when
even
that
For
down
again
Satan
hand,
floor.
than
with
sleeping
I would
Satan
"
convinced.
positively
most
with
that
God
was
descending into
upper
the hard
on
anyone
stranger
foot, and
on
getting the
God
as
ing
makclothingmyself insufficiently,
himself
with
I felt
God.
food, bathing
marches
to be
inal,
orig-
own,
myself,denying myself
imposed penaltiesupon
wine
in my
which
the power
upliftinginfluence,callingit
good.
too
blind
man
arrogance
It
can
high.
I went
wisdom
to
And
it may
all this
deemed
be
called
trouble, the
salvation
even
while
possible
even
net
which
of the
faith
not
would
that
the
it had
tions
evolu-
encirclingmeshes
the
same
gested
sug-
before
once
turned
in alarm.
away
helped,there
evolutions
the
For
about
that.
above
all, purer
felt
soon
and
horseback,
country,
not
in the
consider
the
infamy
often
heart's
This
of
shock
of
worshipped
content,
success
faith
without
not
was
my
of
and
the
mother's
solutely
ab-
croquet,
in
walking
fall
her.
not
out
and
from
But
result
my
loved,
beher
saw
her
adored
the
I did
wiped
thinking far
in Christ, but
produced by
and
dangerous parks.
unworthy
one
and
went
not
and
timidated
considerablyin-
respectfulaloofness
as
be
to
rode
maintained
Satan, if
stronger.
studied,
doubt
no
was
cheerful,braver,
more
nor
myself.
these
by
it into
land
in
awaken
not
see
which
from
which, though
in Christ
entered
now
could
I, certainly,
which
I could
The
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
76
to
my
ahead.
of
miracle,
probably
of
letter and
of
the
a
glad
strong
During
through
clearer
these
its
to
me.
I had
exercises
of virtue
countervailing influence
Satan's
became
crafty,evil power,
officially
recognizedby my
The
image
whose
ever
istence
ex-
declara-
of
tion
itself with
yet
that
that
all
again,awaited
arose
of
actions
himself
demeaned
as
fested
mani-
the
At
time
engender
also
are
suggestions.
auto-
himself, surreptitiously
his chance,
weak
and
unguarded
and
suggestion can
retreated, hid
Satan
77
stronger reality.
know
reality,and
DREAMS
obviously flattered
was
war,
I did not
OF
BRIDE
THE
taking advantage
and
moments,
a
in
live and
very
word
one
sagacious
Satan.
cleverest
His
of my
advantage
weeks
of
little
fell
sleep and
of
to
the
After
few
food,
clothing, I naturally
kind
Tenders
I should
be
family
tended
would
elsewhere
not
than
home.
own
Behold
finally
taking
virtue.
insufficient
it that
in their
of
excess
in
self-torture, over-fatigue,scant
ill,and
hear
artifice consisted
splendidchance, which
Satan's
excellent
He
account.
kept
still
as
he turned
a
mouse;
had
now
domestic
by
the
that
though
and
to
pets
were
look
as
upon
hushed,
Satan's
first
by
faithful
the
suggestion,
auto-
grant
them
nobler
prey.
Indeed,
I did not
else could
ardent
come
it
acknowledge it to myself, to
these daily more
lead
tender
relations
"
between
the
what
and
desperately enamored
the
dear
78
THE
The
flame
with
beef
of
voice
I could
in these
such
What
God
time!
house
my
anticipation of
nickels
of
instead
"
bless
ain't gone
I
love!
the
her,
the
on
chair
the
thanked
and
her
for
before
to
to
came
say:
gentleman
morning!
bring
"
the
young
get
she
And
the
up
would
us
at
later
once
dainty
some
me
And
first sit
perchance
at the
followingday,
loving care,
of
before
gown
regalement.
bed, but
the bed.
either
her
for my
my
all her
an
approaching footstepsin
her
chats, when
beside
was
old
rustling of
edge of
I
would
of
of
little
merry
he
if the
this
with
scow
these
concocted
she had
on
in the little
with
she
as
jag
who
blissfullyintoxicated
the
morning,
end, when
me,
sound
the
which
also
of
aroma
beheld
on
got
indeed
am
heady
the
and
ary
liter-
of
shore
though
as
smiling in
fisherman
the
under
heart, and
my
the
on
up
from
expression
Well,
been
hours
pennies,and
hauled
from
way
smiling in sweet
by the wayside got
children
all the
I have
disobedience
by
afternoon
my
remembrance.
self-indulgence,
to
mistress.
what
to
nursery
my
eggs
honor
to
time!
adoration?
swiftlyquenched
and
sweet
malaga
was
gentle commands
charming
his
to
possiblyrecognize Satan's
not
I think
could
to
martyrdom
tea, soft-boiled
wine, and
DREAMS
insensitive
assuredly not
nurse,
nor
OF
BRIDE
she
really knew
bent
what
very
and
over
we
about
were
it seemed
so
"
consciousness
her
the
each
other
on
shed
when
she
had
these
"
for
"
are
could
never
of
then
know
dear
the
very
as
upon
that
and
perceivedfrom
that
it lies
must
grow
oaks.
the
grass,
swans,
sunny
kernel
whom
to
about
of
loved
listened
subtle
served
ob-
I have
best
valued
behind
us,
and
one
beauty
at
few
which
lovely days
I
spent
round
in
shadows
ous
glori-
hammock
between
turf
green
sun
of
upon
the
happy people
radiance
glacier,
clearly
more
be
can
smooth
the
saw
ago,
are
and
full flavor of
the
the
above
bliss
perception.
weather,
stretched
and
of
moment
Long
distance
old to taste
summer
white
certain
is
happiness
its setting.
rock
beauty
distance.
still followed
There
the
most
when
very
sublime
very
still
that
and
joy
than
imperishablematter
more
the
that
too
dure,
en-
they not,
of our
earthly joys,
highest summits
shine most
radiantlywhen our sun is near
But
tears
undeserved
the
yet
usually look
we
blessed
the
things,
are
which
reader?
gone,
kissed
had
we
"
And
lips.
least,perhaps
at
me
happiness,which
of this
grace
to
clearer
was
79
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
me,
joy,
the
best, and
all this
to
and
in their
wavy,
who
summer
Schumann,
midst,
golden
only
lent
glory.
and
penetrating fragrance of
the wonderful
fragrance
I
the
full
hair
as
of her
the
I read
the
true
Heine
breathed
the
linden
soms,
blos-
of
poignant
THE
80
BRIDE
melancholy
our
and
senses
and
had
yet
wondrous
truly
then
But
lazy
last
life
and
Heine,
parting
pressed
restored
was
gift,
to
my
our
lands
many
so
the
the
of
the
through
made
to
And
also
perhaps
brought
in
den
lin-
great
Emmy's
golden
mer
sum-
shine.
to
me
which
heart
I
and
and
the
mindful
conversation
to
small
health
Emmy,
unsatisfactory
rather
nestled
though
as
touch
not
perfume
was
she
as
ended.
was
the
fragrant
just
power
sun
it
become
had
tree
that
so
does
through
smelled
never
that
deeply
travelled
blossoms,
linden
has
love
had
DREAMS
longing
sweet
ere
Heart.
OF
offer
gratefully
began
to
of
on
our
back
horse-
antidote
an
Testament
New
lovely,
and
peruse
for
as
reverently
diligently.
practical common
of waiting.
more
few
and
set
years
of father
time
is their
different
different
it in
of
of wrong,
but
the
I had
recently
in
liar.
of
one
that
the
was
of
out.
the
And
one
would
should
not
I would
soul
think
this
be
tions
transac-
reality.'*
I
the
tainly
cer-
arrogance
him
make
fine set
of
with
which
was
gradually
that
the
preciousand
so
had
books
but
women,
oaths
my
collectingof
bric-a-brac
tion,
civiliza-
England,
first of
quarrellinghousehold
that
suppose
youthful
be
to
try
we
Thackeray's
with
oath
solemn
This
if
natural
be pure
mended
for
of
perhaps
may
we
to
fitted
ribly
ter-
man
of modern
come
and
man,
pure
sworn
a
the
corruption,of unworthy
statement
no
may
man
possiblythere might
that
out
then
the
for
but
"
the
between
When
stead
good
periods hide
read
are
the
how
and
"
shepherd lad
reader, what
frank, dear
such
years
for
significance
Testament
borne
have
periods
temperament.
Old
The
seven
years
stories, from
in the love
Jacob's
few
lightlythese
how
down
written
demanded
sense,
"
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
82
the
tion
ambiable
break-
generallypraised
worry
and
the
if now,
most
in the
it has
embittered
emotions
beautiful
end, I,
at
least, saw
the
of my
the
best
life.
way
years
And
clear.
BRIDE
THE
dear
reader
but
"
begin again,from
know
how
yet
that
through
how
act
for
one
of
the
like
hero,
throw
it
cat, I
But
unjust.
know
not
all I
yet,
not
was
stronger
was
so.
into
drawn
after
I advise
this
there
is consciousness
bear,
I know
with
be
even
and
is
I would
door.
rebellious
and
guiltto
willing
for
this burden
ease
if
but
"
of
sense
giving
unfor-
and
unworthy,
justly ready
to
in my
reader, relentlessly
your
as
worry
place
of sin and
who
us
of
vile and
the
now
dear
out
to
all this
remorse
you,
guest
toward
with
give to
certainly continue
us
toilers.
poor
The
constitution
convention
are
of
moreover
struggle,because
so
little
comprehension
difficulties. Where
there
and
that
know,
besides
and
bear
still call it
it I do
yes !
"
nounced
pro-
rebellious
and
once
greater majority.
not
house,
prevented
weakest
this
would
like
nature,
have
the
But
our
equally disgracefuland
fought
than
nevertheless,
own
I could
to
was,
my
have
should
the very
to
still consider
the
83
"
And
to
if I
truly !
but
what
promises again
impure and unworthy, I
make
to
DREAMS
OF
where
strong
were
knew
the world
of the
I felt
walls
no
no
of
nature
danger
ever,
whatso-
of strict convention
positivelythat
offered
true
defence.
would
cumb,
suc-
With
of
one
girl or
of eroticism
shadow
in
arisen
and
and
left
safeguard
than
I detected
in
respect
laws.
not
were
have
better
But
innocence
as
soon
as
ferent
indif-
and
totallystrange
woman,
me
together for
us
herself,her
Emmy
tractive,
at-
sent
all moral
have
witnesses, and
scruples and
own
my
have
or
With
me.
lovely and
danger
without
weeks
and
days
without
might
cent
inno-
another
or
how
matter
no
journey
on
DREAMS
friends
Emmy's
woman,
one
off
OF
BRIDE
THE
84
the
that
at
me,
parting
the
from
beginning
in
would
fall
myself
lost
modesty
already
felt
spite of
all conventional
assault, I
first
my
of
wall
restrictions.
I sometimes
ugly
vainly
would
woman
her
advances
the
least
with
have
herself.
it.
It
castingoff
her
await
even
her
debasement
only
out
true
love
When
that
body
my
of
for
refuse
not
was
as
though
and
not
shot
say,
my
range
request
I must
at all costs
as
long
heart.
behind
nor
prevent
by
my
own
she desired
as
My
the
of
excess
an
woman's
woman,
stumble,
me
by
how
repel
me
Every
make
As
modesty
is to
make
to
could
even,
simply by humbling
could
be
to
imagine
to
coolness.
stony
attractive
chivalry,I
endeavored
heart
walls
mained
re-
of my
Emmy.
physical
desires
and
spiritualsensibili-
BRIDE
THE
ties
are
never
severed
once
the first
could
veil of
while, with
the
how
and
nor
any
deemed
in
that
permanent
fashion, from
that
freedom
For
and
in
all the
well
I know
between
that
one
strange
ever
And
rest, I
this
call
to
was
circumstance
absolute
good-natured
that
neither
dear
see,
would
me
reader,
in
angel
for
up,
do
to
leave
each
to
and
the
and
his
fragilehouse.
constitutionally
strong
was
soul
that
people
and
conceptionsof good
narrow,
and
little,
cise
exer-
tified,
entirelyjus-
childhood
it will not
in
most
me
knew
who
and
ape
different
balanced
the
things
it is to
And
me.
her
and
you
by
inclined
over
and
of the persons
between
beautiful
Emmy,
did not
power
to
connection
such
before
women
In
madness
to
Emmy,
me
possible. Thus
have
life.
for
respect were
me
highly necessary
two
of
noblest
seduce
could
ties
possibili-
along seeming
came
low-born, sensual
coarse,
woman
have
excited
exception
jealousy in
Emmy
be
guilelesstrust
of
want
and
throughout
slighestalluring
Emmy's
other, they
the
modesty drop
beautiful,sweetest
the
85
passionatelove
that
woman
let the
to
remain
and
pure
my
bodily desires
my
from
one
confusion
sad
spiteof
DREAMS
entirelytogether again
grow
of
OF
nervous
and
breaking down
invisible
Of
body.
part
troubles
disease
of the
of
our
bond
nature
nowadays
was
me.
the most
in my
perplexingand
that
difficulties,
ing
confound-
when
the
BRIDE
THE
86
it
by
by
consciousness
activity and
this
All
of
and
I did
as
only
can
you
with
help it,but
I cannot
at
contrary,
have
must
of
this
by
even
honor
would
maintain
conscience
for
it need
not
Satan.
remain
My
the
same.
life
in
struggle, the
these
him
be;
to
he
help me,
it with
In
and
me
because
able
for he
all
But
science
con-
the
Pure
gnaw.
is satisfied with
the
torments
one
which
of
being
"
tion,
tradi-
of
to
do
anything
really suffered
was
at
to
under
stake.
he even
seriouslyconsidered
helplessness
following the example
covertly proposed our
his
of
certain
he
declared
girl was
from
man
poor
told
long, secret
only my father
was
years
fierceness
suspected,without
world
cheap group-fabrication,and
any
to
seems
I have
as
"
low
fol-
should
explanation. On
who
elemental
and
it not ?
moral
was
the
rated
invigoincreased
an
the
fort,
com-
time, by declaring it
the
hushed
is not
it
save
contemptible artifice
most
it
Perhaps
flagrant conflict
order.
and
that
punishment
misdeed.
the
in
renewed
thought,
for
me
and
"
upon
you,
rewarded
traditional
the
of
clearing
life, a
you
he
with
DREAMS
his way,
finallyhad
had
ape
OF
worse
aristocratic
he
knew
engaged
excesses,
English
families
where,
positively,a pretty
to
keep
until
the
son
the time
of
for
servant
the
a
as
house
respect-
able
with
allusion
mere
passion, little
shall
How
of
what
life is
than
for
between
my
strugglingof
two
being in
clouds
and
the snake
**
sea
of
The
many
and
change, a
dark
therefrom
toward
strange,
Emmy
to
Before
so
she
often
draw
back
long
strongly
somewhat
his
as
wild
I, but
behavior
my
and
uneven
so
turmoil."
the
self-contempt,
by it, and
cious
capriwas
so
more.
a
English
young
equallygood
right
care-free
check
made
rival:
measured
own
the
little
had
built
more
of
sublimityand
and
and
felt hurt
officer,equally handsome,
and
calm
Many
despair resulting
careful
ideal
struggle with
terrible
distress,the shame,
that
earth, between
inextricablyblended."
"
And
like the
was
years
and
outwardly
an
anxious
life,an
painful
more
deadly dispute,rising
eagle of
scale
and
in
me,
in his love
earthly brutishness.
Feather
For
these
heaven
the
"
never
pride.
reminder
every
degrading
in
powers
fallingbetween
and
such
to
child?
and
parent
life and
sent
indignant
to
it,that
unbearable,
more
girlwas
me
entitled
recognizesas
man
87
the
and
roused
was
account
we
never
Mj
as
DREAMS
remuneration.
liberal
the
But
arrived
had
marriage
home
OF
BRIDE
THE
to
somewhat
and
somewhat
and
virtue.
look
at
calmer,
more
For
sured
as-
these
BRIDE
THE
88
qualitieshe
bitterness
secret
man.
pure
could
at
the
for
disgust
such
sincere, and
they
for
this
feel the
would
But
my
strong
and
English
my
that
me,
reason.
was
it in
to
ways
al-
habits
and
coarsenesses
seemed
and
it tormented
thoughts
valued
furious
me
time
my
present.
are
mocking non-comprehension.
same
hypocrite
me
well
themselves
women
no
make
it with
knowing
anyone
when
freer tone
answered
And
calling
coarse
enough to make
comparative strangers and
toward
jokes
behavior
that
with
caddish
often
assume
call
those
even
are
Such
for
him
men,
to
but
me,
many,
country, in Spain, in France, also in Ger-
In my
sexual
to
cause
recognized his superior rights,be-
I took
bred,
hateful
was
DREAMS
OF
same
in
as
friends
this
respect.
rival.Captain Truant,
My
in
and
everything and
pleasant,but
looked
upon
of
lower
realized
that
man
and
he
as
me
race
he
toward
could
would
think
a
duke's
and
a
So
title,but
Persian
match
for
without
there
any
pretty
mental
also
are
noblemen,
a
is to
who
say,
are
cultured
civilization.
it very
herself
True, I had
foreign type.
he
that
blonde
away
upon
and
money
Japanese,
therefore
Turkish
not
English
scruples, with
unsuitable
sweet, well-bred
throw
rect
cor-
cordial
was
quitehide
backward
and
dark
not
he
me
Italian, that
an
politeand
was
yet
maiden.
the
calm
90
free.
looked
at
shaking her
toward
head
ail you,
your
mind
than
had
to
my
head
get
force
"
"
as
you
not
much
else
one
worthy
shall
trouble
of
bark
rough
sobs,
I felt
when
me.
and
voice
Never
ever
of you,
stand
in
Vico
"
of
you."
she became
that
Of
course
bad.
kindly
un-
severely.
more
can
said:
cautious.
more
off
hand
worthy
not
am
I realized
and
her
I shook
choking
tell me,
No, Emmy.
no
further, leaning
to
but
jerk
in
touch
cooler
Can't
the
use.
no
was
tears
shoulder.
my
dropped
began
It
little
against
nervous
and
not
somewhat
on
face,
her
felt the
fists.
ardent
the
expression of
restrainingmy
shoulder
hand
strangely
so
she said.
with
Do
went
upon
!"
Vico
But
she
behave
bear.
my
hand
and
by
is
is it that
What
you
could
and
up
gentle hand
The
that
clenched
and
coming
"
Vico?
more
tree,
said, gently
she
confidential
were
Then
"
me?
Her
with
does
What
lurkingin
my
are
and
while, irresolutely
me
expression.
sorrowful
"
You
me.
."
She
"
to
DREAMS
yourself bound
consider
not
OF
BRIDE
THE
and
your
yourselfabout
"
love
Think
you.
I want
way
what
that
no
you
I love
I
But
.
to
be
longer.
will become
you
am
happy.
Do
not
of me."
"
boy
Poor
"
OF
BRIDE
THE
!"
it
Is
said
91
DREAMS
and
earnestly
Emmy
really something
derly.
ten-
able?
insurmount-
so
"
"
it
no
"
God
more,
with
half
resignedthan
More
farewells
Such
also
look
often
there
I liked to
and
the
not
passion,and
swift
made
afforded
I avoided
visited
there
of
his
with
which
a
friends.
of
use
Captain
few
weeks
later
receive
the
what
realized
noble
enough
Among
him
"
the
fellow
lucky
to
those
stepped
wish
who
there
to
him
saw
spare
also
was
gallant capting
I felt
vantage
ad-
this
to
up
"
by
an
the
fellow
quented.
freenter
congratulations
and
meant
me,
he
seated,
read.
to
was
not
me.
noisilygreeted and
blusteringlittle
whom
the
also
Truant
the
My
still occasionally
But
that,
purpose
perseverance.
house, but
evening and
one
vehement
him.
club
And
here
But
equality of
prosperous
Emmy's
the
have
and
reconciliations.
singlenessof
and
resigned.
see.
overridingall scruples,wins by
rival
half
by reconciliations,yes,
mutual
the
not
following
Emmy,
place before
taken
followed
farewells
was
said
sorrowful,
have
been
several
!"
Vico
you,
of
!"
bless you
bless
God
me
by
Think
Absolutelyinsurmountable, Emmy.
lated
congratu-
officer,nicknamed
others, an
with
cant,
insignifi-
monocle,
particularaversion, because
for
he, al-
though
volubilityand
the
laugh
drunk
had
then
his
with
me,
ing
stranger. Loudly laughhe
and
came
close
stood
me.
asked
Dina,
about
how
"And
"
he
and
now
talking to Harry
and
beside
on
DREAMS
dupe, when
would
measure,
brutal
turn
the
himself
ever
good
OF
BRIDE
THE
92
now.'^
"
the
braggart
Truant.
Hush
hush,
discretion,if
the
But
!"
man
please!
you
tipsy fop
"
said Truant.
little
"
would
be
not
shut
so
up
quickly.
"
Will
authority to
give me
you
place, Harry?
vacant
authorized
lawfully
As
fill the
forter?
com-
"
"All
get rid
to
All
right!
right!"
said
Truant,
Harry
of him.
I had
permission to
The
do
exactly
body
desired.
of
and
destruction.
The
began
with
and
.
my
tormented
struggle
what
to
the
room,
agreeable,even
an
fade,
silent
the gas
to
lights,
ant
pleas-
float,to wheel
murderous
about
resolution
that
in like
forefathers
Truant
by
circumstances
of the masculine
the
throat.
had
characterized
line,I clutched
my
Harry
BRIDE
THE
these
If
memoirs
American
that
fists
boxing
knocked
would
to
the
state
Muralto
they
laws
the
by
the
soul
very
I
That
upon
of
year
same
their
and
last
duel,
his
stamped
and
but
and
Harry
wife.
journey
Vico
as
Vico
that
and
those
by
him
ent.
pres-
at
in
highly
respect.
together.
time
eyes
but
father
cepted
ac-
the
my
went
with
not
was
dishonor,
his
that
conflicting
which
Emmy
and
prefer
blows
ugly
country,
officer,
ling
Kip-
and
Truant
separated
excuse,
Italian
thing
Any-
consequences,
cowardice
only
not
husband
and
me
tised
prac-
the
Yet
some
of
English
vexed
to-day
as
morals
and
greatly
for
nounce
an-
Rudyard
course.
other
challenge
of
Harry
difficulty
to
his
up
or
unconscious.
of
deadly
with
were
The
the
each
without
but
politic
with
public
that
English
an
be
corner,
for,
truth:
93
doubled
the
stand
dealt
night,
that
not
would
ease
into
of
find
Englishman
with
him
short
it
the
DREAMS
to
were
publisher,
here
and
OF
which
to
India
entered
as
VIII
IN
youth
my
and
poet,
though
and
vaguely
shatterer
herd,
of
beauty
the
and
bliss,
making
But
call
it
the
intimate
but
wished
first,
Medea
did
that
I
could
I
was
equally
which
forming
her
suggestion,
the
from
for
and
joy,
these
all
may
even
and
felt
always
entities
though
father-in-law
ing
say-
barrier
and
and
into
kill
must
this
the
great
personal
my
as
the
admire
separate
felt
both
are
me
of
speak
we
so,
Let
me.
cure,
as
and
JEson,
"
do.
not
my
of
administering
before
with
characters,
sorrows,
into
property.
them
you
metamorphose
to
emotions
public
suit
have
myself
not
honor
wholly
searcher
reality
then
perhaps,
thing.
same
singers,
when
did
verses
and
of
term
not
was
poet.
unwillingness;
impotence,
also
me
the
wanderer
but
of
it
destroyer
lover
called
employed
yet
group,
characteristics
are
am
idol-hater,
an
they
random,
at
For
unjustified.
a
sometimes
people
impotent
in
their
weaknesses,
new
own
my
way
follies
personalities
94
imaginary
create
to
with
revealed
and
my
my
tues,
vir-
independent
life:
as
friend
dear
my
and
Faust, Egmont
and
Divine
But
love,
intimate
too
these
send
to
my
of
aU.
Moreover
into
nature
own
role
let it
such
but
it
also
love
not
bard
world.
that
sacred
and
verses
and
singing birds,
as
in
and
edification
make
applause;
friend
Nietzsche, who
the
actor
had
his Alfonso
lances
dians,
come-
much
perceive how
to
an
histrionic
always
artist.
truly humble
the
have
must
is the
as
and
against actors
seem
my
well-sustained
moved
proud friends,Shelleyand
and
it.
little
decidedlylacked
of mankind
less
not
the human
humiliatingto
the
human
tirades
does
of
delightand
mask
young
vehement
emulation
proof
too
world
the
aspire for
of my
custom
mility
hu-
me
into
the
found
to
it
relief and
own
of
attempt
put
into
out
Werther,
great delight
strong
admirable
never
to
been
My
created
enrichingof
could
myself
have
also
an
and
Creator
95
Tasso.
and
consolation
DREAMS
Goethe
it must
I realize that
and
OF
BRIDE
THE
surely
my
Goethe.
seemed
In
to
see
the
the
courtier.
Ariosto
Carl
Goethe
his
August.
And
the
great
bards
of
freedom
Hugo
courtiers
Demos.''
they not
I
and
d'Este
am
not
an
of
enemy
King
of
of
the
Ah!
King Demos,
and
past
were
I know
96
BRIDE
THE
that
his
and
rule
all
until
kings
But
be
to
his
there
like friend
Nietzsche,
realization
of his worth
to be
and
keep body
to
of
istine
the
Demos
that,
So
power.
be
together,I
all now,
And
here,
be
play
vi coactus
potent
im-
courtier,
must
and
much
too
forgottennook.
it be
he
without
the
by
And
shall
help
yet
for
even
in my
weakness
because
thing
some-
the
and
phil-
not
for
of
instability
and
himself
not
of
tyrants
Lord
am
he
ones
with
I wrote
first
redeemed
to my
mother
throne
be
driven
shall
righteous Lord.
still
think
the
critical and
these
are
the
us
profound
know
to
or
about
could
it and
I strove
sorrow
who
this Christ
redeem
read
us,
and
diligently
preciousgift.
mother
reply,which
of
effort
had
Emmy's
My
days
greater
even
who
and
his power,
prefers.
these
In
ascend
and
mighty
more
this
fault-finding
subject,but
in
againsthim,
theless
applause; while I, a lowly slave, neverthrough my quietmental activityenjoy the
highestfreedom
was
ander.
Alex-
to
I had
again
unwillingto
soul
part, though
human
off
and
after
actor
an
glory, as
wished
to rebel
and
into this
driven
was
lord
supreme
and
self-denial,
the necessary
have
replace
rules
prosperity and
imagine, must
he
May
Christ
King
him
I wish
Diogenes,
DREAMS
is at hand.
earthly realm
men.
among
OF
wrote
I read
me
long prolix
letters
in
and reverently,
unattentively
heart
communed
intimate
for
into
is,though
her
all that
And
with
all
all the
living and
sea
things,I
of the
their
from
he
And
and
in
this
And
early
not
believe that
of
was
be
how
this man,
who
like
calendar.
that
he
some
what
the
the
mysterious
it dead
so
aside
it.
knowing
tiful
something beaupeople and the
for
boon
absolutely would
could
had
do
been
what
able
Hollander.
none
to
do,
But
I revered
him
Yes, I wished
might
with
with
revelation,such
perfectlycommonplace
here, and
in the
as
the
of
yet another,
themselves
that
and
livingmen
life lead
greatest countrymen
my
regarded him
way
living or
to
did
me
the
soul
matured
my
for
even
such
was
man
him
done
though the
themselves
ugly.
grand,
things were
this
world-life
pictured this
prove
to
as
patriots.
vision
and
without
world-life
vaster
it
doubt
some
about
had
personal
own
there
father
my
awakened
showed
he
And
speak.
and
"
befits Italian
meaning
everything,be
life of
to
the
with
dead
Sea
showed
he
"
North
with
that
saw
the
thing
every-
meaning.
newly
my
as
"
the
acquired a meaning,
prejudice,as
life of
coast
voice
of Rembrandt,
and
then
And
her
soul
perceiveit
not
most
There
ears.
on
unbelief
do
we
the works
see
being with
we
and
aspects
other's
each
me
DREAMS
to
secrets
became
sea
OF
BRIDE
THE
98
above
in
I
carnate
in-
be Christ, for
sort
then
of
I
what
should
know
fine to
manifest,
Rafael
and
and
be
and
salvation
and
mean
and
ugly
anxious
an
out
something
it
ray
great
of the
task
poor
us
were
ever
so
to
seems
everlastingbeauty,
of
faint
the
ugliness,and
was
me
bring
to
visible,perchance
was
it
desperate struggle
least
at
there, it
was
in
and
is beautiful
by
that
canvas
unlovely,
dwells, and
even
fort
com-
more
in the
though
even
in many
like
life
is
nature
is
there
yet
beautiful
as
^een
human
revealinghow
beings. Yes,
imperfect,as
"
in
the divine
be
can
human
but
imagined;
Angelico,and
Fra
beautiful
Titian, how
can
and
Giotto
as
be very
it may
For
believe.
to
99
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
solation
con-
offered.
and
patientlybored
confined
I
saw
thoughts
could
of
heard
of this
equanimous
myself
no
example
better
as
It has
the
time;
little
was
soul
with
such
come
an
outlet.
which
And
after
when
scape
quiet,peacefullandlonely,sober, chaste life
devout
to
Jew, I desired
be able
for
follow
his
thought
at
to
longer than
more
continued
necessary
to
rubbing
charge my
the
possible.
as
world
rough
emit
and
through
the
the
and
the
find
and
stronger
with
hole
lot than
soon
taken
the
all, and
I would
not
would
it has
contradict
BRIDE
THE
100
you
if you
who
drew
said that
for
labors
the
for
other
On
the
day
was
free
informed
she
was
the
cordial
There
she
the
hair
heard
with
eyes
paler
knees
kissed
with
me
before
on
emotion
her
saw
amber
one
on
heart
behind
closed
the
of
door
soft,
"
guidly
lan-
when
face, with
another,
the
and
now,
beneath
and
the
near
me
delicate
my
own.
blonde
lace
with
I fell upon
hands.
up.
She
I trembled
white
chain.
lifted
I felt her
once
the black
and
black
face
same
the brow
tints and
the
in black
dressed
was
years
My
invitingme to enter.
stood, tall, straight,the
much
She
many
voice
the
showing silverywhite
veil.
the
last I
at
"
lightgray
them, but
of
front
so
I stood
as
she
that
when
me
memory.
trembled
north
the
again.
saint, adored
my
and
from
arms
for
day
moreover
hoped
and
my
that
me
and
journey
in her
from
letter
ways,
Holland
porter in
hotel
not
already dear
reminded
own
her
clasp me
apartment
with
in
she
my
on
hands
my
their
by
task, had
life's
age
and
sleek
go
again
see
in the
beat
of
momentous
to
was
of my
in which
stop
at last
might
sanctified
regions
came
that
would
It
to
me
Spinoza
reasons.
arrived
now
and
me
mother
DREAMS
Rembrandt
was
fulfilment
this meditative
to
it
the
to
me
OF
pale
violet
little lines
And
and
ing
cross-
I breathed
was
been
I should
mother,
my
and
awe
eration
ven-
distinguishedwoman
stately and
this
for
felt
have
It
she not
had
Even
ender
lav-
brow.
my
upon
of consecration.
moment
breath
pure
and
of frankincense
perfume
felt her
and
101
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
with
her
chastity that
purity and
my
and
threatened
longed
foulness
in my
through
her
soul,
in the
her
years
from
her,
still
Thus
greatly
it
revered
feared
influence
of
an
that
the
the
could
power
power
unknown
now
position
tance.
impor-
saw
my
nations
some
priestessesand
of witches.
potency,
lover.
the
minor
why
of
of his
sexless
it, when
comprehended
tains
sus-
fulness
of
not
part
new
derstands
un-
clothed
creature
another
toward
ternity
ma-
well
wisdom
with
male, and
the
conceived
sibylsor
and
if she
in the
Man
remains
ever
fulfils
mother, and
purify
life,when
her
human
new
is directed
and
should
can,
positionand
new
higher dignity.
Woman
so
period of
last
it, become
a
uglinessand
power.
slipsaway
with
she
mind
my
flood of tears.
all the
that
so
to
came
reveal
to
her.
surround
to
relieve itself in
to
confess,
to
Woman
humiliation
and
shame
All
seemed
I felt the
natural
secration
con-
solve
forgive, purify, bless, ab-
to
priestly
God
and
BRIDE
THE
102
it than
ordained
Nature
and
officially
driven
make
meeting,had
first
thought
of my
with
had
fresh
serious
complexion and
down
low
twisted
to
knot
dressed
in black
breast
pin
plaitsof
shy
and
but
in
with
which
hair.
saw
her
eyes
that
she
had
that
pretty
appreciated.
gentle
She
lace collar
enclosed
while
shining with
gold
brown
somewhat
mother,
my
tion
kindly satisfac-
allowed
been
and
some
greeted
also
was
the window
at
that
temples,braided
in back.
white
eyes,
glossy hair
the
were
embarrassed
and
dark
over
stood
She
was
and
immediately saw
brought
and
This
moment
I remembered
veil.
other
an-
than
beauty,quitedifferently
large, dark,
white
was
the
this
of
aware
For
room.
have
at
even
become
soon
the
whose
Emmy,
She
full confession
I not
taken
woman
young
undoubtedly
sister,but then
sister had
it.
would
in
person
authority
human
conferred
formally
to
me
DREAMS
where
impulsive nature
My
my
OF
to
witness
this
Lucia
del
scene.
mother
My
her
Bono,
And
could
notice
the
two
deal
and
that
not
this
the
visits to
one
mother
was
adopted daughter.
Lucia's
veneration
deep
mine,
as
talked
meeting was
unbearable
my
as
had
women
this
and
that
almost
was
that
that
me
friend
faithful
mother
my
told
about
an
and
me
for
also
great
important event
alone.
grief for
and
her
my
lost love
beautiful,
these
sympa-
THE
companion
thetic
it
and
long
suspicious
discouraged
silent
he
realized
He
both
current
did
felt
and
what
catastrophe.
was
from
from
been
sweeping
the
from
and
listless
his
his
compressed
going
father's
my
made
and
solace
greatest
saw
suddenly
and
had
we
which
tightly
ask,
103
my
glances,
was
not
that
before
aged,
appear
DREAMS
became
which
air,
man
OF
now
not
was
and
dark
BRIDE
still
orous
vig-
almost
lips,
variably
in-
that
on.
did
not
seized
us
speak.
by
toward
an
But
we
irresistible
an
table
inevi-
IX
HOLLAND
the
whereof
be
may
frame
the
hermit
who
towns
easily
can
from
the
heavens,
he
people
the
ancient
his
cell.
turn
of
clouds
hermit
to
Sometimes
life, instructive
with
because
and
consider
enough
to
with
ass
But
on
and
one
conceit,
and
in
would
rats
owe
agreeable
dis-
and
live
of
quiet
little
of
think
good
on
my
town
them,
this
To
am.
would
insight, they
reputation
I
Were
man.
my
as
they
them,
of
really
as
sharper
them
treat
attitude
revelations
this
how
see
respectable
and
modest
them
with
haughty
the
interesting.
myself
which,
attitude,
let
never
the
toward
their
of
vast
But
annoying
in
the
of
the
"
spiders
are
inhabitants
show
never
the
too,
and
the
gods
sea.
they
little
peaceful
assume
toward
amid
contemplation
the
learn
must
place
meditation
the
and
pressive
im-
most
dwelling
and
the
to
sometimes
terms
inward
painting
the
fit
cows,
revelations
greatest
is
It
dreamy
meadows,
hazy
as
constitutes
part.
for
described
humble
equals by
being
then
me
call
as
ural
natceited
con-
cad.
point
we
understand
104
each
other,
"
106
BRIDE
THE
life's task
my
challenge it
It
was
who
the
of
round
the
her
the
felt
biting
he
was
for
sailing
from
the
safe
homecoming,
the
deadens
a
weighing
total
sion
submer-
It
then
was
melancholy, as
toothache.
gnawing
willingpupil, eager
emotions
violent
wild
me
breaking
rigging.
his
passions
and
and
the
ocean,
this tumult
it deadened
in
hand,
one
waves
for
found
in
to
amid
mense
im-
driving
pennant
and
wood
contempt,
of
fallow
rope
bow,
happiest;
And
the
to
while
breaking of
on
taut
horizon, from
chances
or
he
in the
trembling the
against
slave
about,
sail to
boat
me
strainingtiller
from
made
not
them.
thrillingsuspense
surging waves
the
I should
I think
deceive
prefer to
father
my
amidst
clouds
DREAMS
undisturbed,
and
intoxication
out
OF
tortured
all the
as
by
self-
of lost
pangs
love-joys.
In
Holland,
hired
boat
had
understand
of
Yet
One
father
North
lake
and
in
rough
any
rash
and
few
oilskins,and
waist, had
the
weather
we
had
Scheve-
to make
would
small
weeks, he managed
him
the
not
was
enterprisesin
I followed
afternoon
Sea
immediately
and
trouble
quitesome
the
had
ocean,
that
after
object
my
sail the
to
ningen seamen
gulf or
too
to
him
Italian
an
not
mit
per-
sailboats.
attain
his
gladly.
sailed
out, dressed
in
our
the
the
had
breakers,
hours, for
it difficult for
nodded
had
had
else and
caprices of
the
North
hour
an
had
coast
which
above
my
the
thing
someputed
com-
formidable
and
gray
like
father
to
faint
lay
horizon
mist
rudder.
the
hung
foam
deck, glanced
then
"
line
luminous
the
on
quently
fre-
was
holding the
thin white
and
land
as
silently,
on
dwindled
breakers.
the
toward
at
watch,
my
said:
and
"
Come
hear,
to
seem
"
of
penetrated and
ago
sailed
we
wont,
our
of
father
My
Sea.
For
The
long
and,
current
strong
thinking
were
two
in
set
land.
to
us
he
though
as
ebb-tide
breeze, the
north
within
back
be
the
time
107
DREAMS
to
us
that
at
make
would
warned
fresh
the
with
OF
BRIDE
THE
It 's time
did not
and
to
in
!"
about
come
want
toward
I turned
hear.
He
had
closely,luffingsharply,
and
drawn,
was
him
Then
the
not
repeating:
that
saw
hauled
staring fixedlyand
did
He
the
sheet
he
sail
main-
tightly
straightahead
His
large yellow sou'-wester.
eyes had
the hard
grim expressionof old people who after
a
long life of struggle still fight for the bit of
breath
left them, or of indulged and long-tortured
invalids,or of the starved or shipwrecked who no
the
under
longer
their
gray
"
feeling for
have
own
distress.
whiskers
what
before
and
anyone
Between
his
I had
anything
or
his
close-cropped
noticed
but
"
two
saw
sallow
deeply furrowing
lines
felt
as
"
pity,such
though the
wind
"
and
You
began
He
there
though
were
him.
about
waves
no
said
three
years
be
lost.
I think
would
you
suddenly
I asked.
regardlesslyas
talking away
no
"
father?
ails you,
What
griefwhich
now
eyes
before
him
of all the
very
once
consciousness.
penetrated my
"
at
felt for
never
my
All
cheeks.
realization
under
suffered
he had
his
I had
as
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
108
that
ago
right.
are
you
this time
by
You
are."
"
father, I think
No,
beginning to
"
You
do
not
in her
know
the
They
suck
replace
her
She
makes
sorrow
God
the
"
the
attracts
of
prints
in
the
error?
part
healthy
archangels
her
object
as
scars,
you
do
you
vulture.
life-blood
and
and
Was
heaven.
she
worship, and
hanging
matter,
better.
exactly
there
her
are'
ness
bitter-
feet,covered
the
and
in
and
gloom
corpse
sores,
masses
murders
of
hideous
horrible
more
dull
papers.
"
woman,
the
pierced hands
blood, wounds,
spittle,
harpy;
gall. Melancholy
are
with
cross
your
has
Suffering,pain, grief,trouble,
picturesher
a
is
Part
half
away
these
am
ruin.
see
mother
Your
She
monsters?
idols.
"
well.
clutches.
it with
see
it very
again
mistaken.
was
salvation."
see
I understand
And
the
as
barbarians
ever
dirt
more
on
with
and
that
colored
depicted
devilish
"
if salvation
And
for
"
!"
Jew
mouth
his
eyes,
"
"
contempt
Jew
barteringmorality? Buy!
can
be
you
can
can
be
price and
mankind
the
for
and
bargain!
contract
Blood
of
son.
My
bond
deeds
Do
upon
everywhere?
Jewish
They
have
will make
to
see.
the
made
of you
heir !
law!
the
bond
'
hated
are
infected with
been
priesthood,the
of
too.
cause
be-
resentment
bastard
God
himself
And
that
my
black
brood.
and
son!
they
my
"
sufferingon
Tears
Jew
bond
My
crave
Germanic
Jewish
one
child,the
The
then
reads
the Jews
it has
The
poison.
is
is instinctive
It
feels that
the world
forfeit of my
you
vermin,
head!
my
penalty and
The
the
his
price,nothing
Thus
my
to
of sinners
the blood
If not
What
holds
is the fixed
all
My
so
he
Shylock,
is
blood
for
"
'
"
everything
Buy!
Salvation
cheap !
of a singleJew.
corpse
that.
the
let it be
dirt
God
! his bond
change
can
learn
you
fixed
bond
did
! where
this
demption
re-
ing
snapped at me with glitterdrawn
utterable
disdainfully in un-
father
my
pain,
price of
the
sufferingwas
sins?
our
with
only be bought
can
If all this
father?
109
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
father's
my
began
to
face
flow from
was
terrible
BRIDE
THE
110
I tried
it 's
"
'11 go
We
on
freezingin
mad.
All
us
make
you
What
with
What
these
did
for
hereditary sin?
ha !
hereditarysin
debt!
Once
the
at
"
Come
But
"
he called
Go
ahead,
then
And
considered
"
whilst
what
death.
And
we
it must
be
real
life of most
is
no
honor
back
men
and
attempt,
!
tary
Heredi-
"
one
standingupright
!"
greater vehemence
even
!"
about
the
over
and
sea
do:
Vico, there
must
live
as
life too.
no
and
about
"
I looked
to
is
ha!
Ha!
vigorously:
with
I tell you
tell you,
an
father
about,
sin!
for
get
idea."
an
I cried
mast
received.'*
crafty,bartering Jew
such
I made
more
Did
you
invention
an
child.
usurer
did
What
ance
accept-
own
value
"
Hereditary
be to invent
must
it?
! what
What
this
his
of
debts, Vico?
this
accepted by
sly,heartless
get
you
blood
son
burdened
had
and
us
his
of
pleasure,and
the
going
was
blood
he himself
on
the
again.
out
thrust
will and
for
Jew
"
with
there
I sat
! the
son
which
debts
own
paid
What
his
of
against our
us
he burst
his
"
with
said
veins, fearinghe
my
once
blood
The
buy
to
at
he
yet,"
airiness, and
blood
"
about, father
come
while
affected
ghastly
Do
DREAMS
!"
time
over
"
him.
calm
to
OF
slow
merit
is life and
long
Death
miserable
in
as
is
we
no
there
is
can.
But
life.
The
death.
maintaininga
There
life that
should
enervated, four,
do
men
not
wanted
and
yet
that
shame
teach
something began
Then
soul, like
snake
about
waves
to
very
and
not
am
you
be
The
to
flow
and
ern.
cav-
the
tinglingdown
Yet
to
as
he
my
not
was
harpy?
by
even
shall
die if it should
But
father."
my
red-rimmed
fixed,now
eyes
abundantly.
in
be
to
Will
me
you
Will
reason?
Will
softer, trembling
much
true
saved?
your
believe
teachingme.
your
not
the
cried
you
life and
you
without
more
yourselfbe
accursed
wind
how
from
"Will
voice:
forget the
finger tips.
murdered,
!"
Vico
her
even
tears
began
to
in
rise up
from
afraid, father.
well
quite as
I won't
let
Are
"
spoke firmly:
be necessary,
"
die.
succeed
not
forth
True, I felt
me.
my
coward
know
die.
to
stir and
to
goaded
I, too, began
"
how
to
you
greater
even
I did
But
that
shame
live,and
still less
live.
you
is
It
bloodless,
"
afraid?
back
to
know
shall
how
know
have
life.
rotten
they
to
now
my
called death.
truly be
more
111
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
you
Will
then?
save
your
you
cious
pre-
abjure this
you
sinister
the
escape
band?"
But
replied:
whomever
that
"
I shall
I find
curses
Then
irritated
was
my
his
save
worthy.
and
excited
myself,I
I do not
and
shall
proudly
be
respect
to
true
the
man
mother."
face
changed horribly,he
lifted up
OF
BRIDE
THE
112
DREAMS
his
off the
knocking
the
damp
canvas
from
cap
hair
gray
thereby awkwardly
his head
fluttered.
in Michel
Angelo's
sign of doom
:
screaming loudly meanwhile
"
Then
I had
started, but
him
the
only
the
that
he
ideas,
thought
he
that
his hand
!"
you
left
to
attempted
have
up
across
in
see
the tiller.
to grasp
"
But
from
and
by
these
at
wounding.
him
to
mind
infected
clutch
than
At
my
been
should
sounding
nothing, walked
said
you,
imprecation!
an
flashed
also
must
more
weapons,
curse
utmost
very
my
sentiments
such
to
judgment,
curses
Testament
tried
the
himself
Jewish
Jesus'
maniac.
raving, irresponsible
time
same
father
be indifferent
to
last
hear
you
Your
of Old
enough
not
me
do
you,
Muralto.
Lodovico
in
curse
made
He
tliat
so
behind
!"
About
I cried.
"
and
with
hand
us
of
directly
Even
the
he
pulled
instead
hauled
at
that
and
that
and
on
sheet
had
greater
!"
so
that
scorn
I cried
the
cried
sailingbefore
the
the
with
beam
fiercely,
tiller out
violentlytoward
it
of
my
himself,
so
it struck
wind
mainsail
closely
fixed.
I desired
time, yet
father
my
wrenched
death
I would
now
Seamanship
still
!"
well ! about
Very
teaches
for bad
out,
eagerly as he
have
instinctively
did
of
but
as
scorn
manoeuvring.
hastilycutting the
death
out
into
the
"
taut
wind
sisted.
re-
head
Blockrope
like
for
WHEN
upon
four
wave-swept
nothing
has
of
after
I had
I had
but
been
once
successful
is to
be
won
treasure.
was
did
gain by
portant
im-
thing
it
highly ;
stubborn,
was
ever
but
after
to
life
value
the
cost
to
so
this
effort?
others,
me.
hard-
What
of
none
glorious
them
of
of
so
as
induces
what
of
attempt
everything there
know
all these
And
desperate
dearer
this tremendous
it?
joy,
the
become
concerning the
frantically at
My
my
that
against
forsooth, praise
desirable
and
sea
maintenance
before
so
it, it had
I make
Why
trouble
to
resistance
known
whom,
so
life
my
determined
Now
the
for
with
wood,
the
but
though
incited
of
me
of
benumbed
us.
valued
never
robbing
do
to
piece
consider
to
all, even
indifferent
so
fought
begins
thing, one
and
about
round
fallingnight, one
wet
hours,
to
and
it
cling to
much
pain
and
?
father
mother
reasonable
had
and
taught
the
beings
me,
and
priestsdenied
who
ought
114
to
no
one,
it, that
act
not
we
even
are
reasonably.
BRIDE
THE
To
and
it is
for
naught
then.
felt
Spinoza,
myself
who
by
for
sober
these
words.
be
could
have
merely
different
in
love
it.
that
and
life must
suffer
willingto
be
liberal
as
be
"
Yes
mother,"
But
Father
denounced
must
be
to
who
he
the
I
the first
on
parted
I defied
as
these
his
are
curse,
the
trouble
he
stead
in-
throws
his
fosters
ness
lazi-
recovery.
my
distress.
and
cursed
blockhead.'
not
himself
saved, dear
of
day
all
balance
who
been
while
the
'
him
but
superstitious,
much
of
cost
thing
some-
as
lets
the
he
has
life
my
for
generous
disturbs
chair
off his
I said
and
He
highest strivingin
the
balance, and
now
at
ing
feel-
strugglefor
and
and
sion
pas-
this
good
own
Jew,
out
with-
wished
he
And
is for
of
it because
Jew
opposition
Spinoza.
imagined
are
pushed
in
me
inborn
to
believe
not
even
Italians, but
of
nature
"
I did
give
God
love
stirred
was
to
the
than
My
return.
true, not
could
best
be
we
in
or
justice.
should
one
truth
return,
if
that
of
Jew
able.
unreason-
label
may
sider,
con-
the
from
of his age.
love
of
do
to
idea
my
more
says
expecting
idea
well, you
"
also
was
considers,
me
Jewish
naught
That
then
with
everyone
If
115
something undesirable,I
oneself for
exert
DREAMS
OF
me
and
am
not
ories.
comforting mem-
I resisted
him
and
re-
BRIDE
THE
116
tained
that
he
for
has
preserved
there
without
been
fear
that
is
salvation;
no
should
you
God
But
repentance.
that
so
you
me
not
it had
boy.
my
father
cursing and
he died
tells
Who
that
it so,
unhappy
your
what?
"
die?
willed
has
God
DREAMS
right and
to
me
for
But
not
was
for
better
"
life.
my
OF
for
live
him."
"Preserved
then?
me
The
stars, the
me?
is
How
"
love.
to
and
fixed
the
nebulse
needs
.
"
preserve
need
You
he need
Does
sun
the
and
way
that, mother?
wished
He
the
of
creator
milky
him?
live for
to
me
through
you
Therefore
him.
his merciful
must
you
for
If
and
me
needs
not
"
need
I for
not
him.
him.
him
soul.
You
must
suffer
be
must
for
him.
equally
dear
to
God
is
you
surely
"
all your
ready
have
and
who
anyone
heart
offer
to
bear
received
sorrow
because
and
all to
life and
it must
"
it
to
thing
every-
Joy
live
must
"
be
You
.
can
willing to
him.
from
I
with
love
You
How
But
must
You
he
then
for another?
all your
be
mother,
him,
all
from
comes
him."
"
reason
my
when
I
Dear
my
trusted
mother, then
and
my
father
gave
that
these
surely have
I must
from
tastes
me
watch
things
would
him
received
too.
and
And
compass
point right.
THE
I then
of Heaven
the
another.
from
the
come
from
of
the
How
"
devil, and
is the
And
heal you,
"
Is it less
thank
the
which
is
he
made
feel
and
to
him?
and
row
sor-
one
it
though
or
come
is bitter
it
just
though it
differently."
what
need
you
to
"
should
And
and
pleasing
from
come
taste
not
bitter
taste
He
necessary?
glad
this be
is sweet
bitter,therefore
giving a
Creator
it matter
it
quinine
bitter
Vico ?
miserable
Almighty
can
I cannot
calls
reason
and
can
must
fore
Where-
happiness desirable
Sugar
God.
tastes,
My
wretched
reprehensible,whether
from
117
and
then?
sake
calls
DREAMS
point wrong?
being? What
taste
my
them
Earth.
and
supreme
And
these
lead
to
for
life,even
reason
receive
it nonsensical
to
gives me
that
suppose
did
OF
God
when
And
BRIDE
thankful
tastes
the
to
has
made
sweet, but
and
me
over
more-
which
that
so
gives happiness
for
not
even
get sick,
medicine
whatever
for
affliction and
bitterness."
"
That
is your
that
away
your
through
into
pride, Vico
pride.
love
Learn
you.
Your
to
love
to love
Learn
God
thankfullyto accept
the
father
God!
stilled
in-
Lay
humbly
and
bitter from
him."
"
can
Listen, mother.
repeat
myself
it all
that
might
after
you
say
now
Yes
exactly
But
! yes !
and
suade
per-
then
118
lie.
would
rather
help
thankful
be
he
If
me
it.
then
desires
no
reason
afflictions
for
and
creator
the
I know
sweet
I would
that
so
jto God
bitter
is my
for
DREAMS
made
has
can
call the
should
or
lie if I
should
why
God
And
not
OF
BRIDE
THE
tiful.
beau-
the
ugly
he
is also
sponsible
re-
feelings of
and
his
creature."
"
What
I tell you,
understand
You
I
be
poured
out
to
true
light.? You
shut
what
advise
"
But
"
would
unless
to
and
hear
will
grace
the
of
sake
not
the
yourselfto
want
to
hear
and
obey
to
standing.
under-
surely do
you
what
accept
light,mother.
every
so
what
consider
everything.
obey
gladly,I cannot
to
ever
am
told
advised
and
me."
break
God
May
your
self-conceit ! "
my
sighed.
What
collective
which
years
is open
acceptableto
mother
his
son
rea-
wiser
heart
accept
seems
that
blind
want
grace.
you."
My
and
and
and
human
for
not
can-
You
their
so,
surely will
teaches
willingto
though I
am
heart
lightof
faith.
And
you.
your
older and
pray
loves you
who
wish
church
only
over
mother,
to
trust
can
your
the
the
again through
all who
as
now
something you
except through
be bom
must
is
Vico,
type
here
written
have
of
I had
following.
hundreds
many
with
With
is
my
the
mother
an
average
of
and
tions
conversa-
during
the ten
zeal
indefatigable
of
BRIDE
THE
flies incessantly
buzzing up
window
againsta
our
a
aggressivelove,
more
in my
that
the human
other.
herd
And
to the
considered
like two
their
defensive,
militant.
less
of the
ableness
reason-
convictions, neither
simply
was
accustomed
struggle
was
one
idolatryof
the
true
falls
before
on
as
trying
to
almost
all
the true
word,
we
education
that
had
of
of diiferent
another
one
said that
now
made
thought
to
The
four
hours
boat, my
father's
grim sinkingface
such a deep gash into
first I would
dream,
in
which
of
one
the
the father's
was
my
the
for
my
eyes,
and
young
awaken
the
old
my
had
help
feud
struck
morning
thing was
in
fluence:
in-
ears,
tender
every
whole
the
the capsized
on
ringing in
before
as
maternal
suspense
curse
it
continued
of anxious
his
at
too,
holding up
until
the
oppose
though they
and through me.
me
faith
refractory,just
me
as
about
fellow-man
our
his knees.
the mother
father
idol
missionaries
symbol
And
with
could
that
the
whereof
natures
cratic
auto-
another
the
conceit
this
and
mother
on
feelingsand
our
two
subject the
two
universal
noticed
us
between
both
the
by
of
of
more
self-assertion,none
Possessed
one
striking
one
upon
peculiarindividuality.My
own
but
and
tenacious
thrust
to
119
down
and
two
we
pane,
tried
persons
DREAMS
OF
voice
soul
from
lived
hoarse
from
screaming
lonelydusky
dreams
would
they
these
did
till late in my
and
whenever
recur
the
across
gradually
very
cease,
long
so
my
life
of resistance
power
weakened.
was
These
mother's
been
right now.?
life
worth
was
defiance
your
the
the
to
These
live and
the
depths
these
compelling
dwelt
power
soul
and
within
did
that
this power
weaker
of
want
the
and
to
herd, which
beset
every
me
more
once
sounded
issued
whence
seemed
strong coercive
listen.
And
in
father
to
Was
had
possess
force
when
observed
soon
proportion
discouraged.
my
vain
find
which
increased
more
mother.'*
your
distressingthoughts.
me
not
tinuing
con-
In
to
surance:
as-
doing right by
vision.
my
this
in
morning lighthad
fearful
of
seek
was
that
warnings
the
morning when
dispelledthe
your
really
"
father
your
are
you
you
now
adhering to
the
were
must
that
that
that
desperatelydefended?
taken a heavy responsibility
You
assurance
and
wrong
so
had
mother
your
have
and
if he
sure
you
What
have
yourself.
upon
Are
you
you
that
sure
you
saving?
life which
of that
By
Are
your
ideas
what
And
death.
to
event.
chosen
and
rejected his
sacrifice?
this
deserved
"
him
peating
warnings, re-
terrible
the
father
have
You
driven
thereby
of
repelledyour
side.
like
me
upon
lesson
stern
have
You
acted
dreams
the
"
Only
sea.
evil memory
cried
I had
as
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
120
as
it the
taught
I felt
voice
me
to
BRIDE
THE
122
For
it
is
hardly
the
and
himself
render
the
making
everyone
wearing
and
out
account
wherefore.
and
why
DREAMS
see
trying to
anyone
of
to
strange
greatest efforts
OF
self
him-
to
the
Especially
so-called
as
their
and
ignorance;
complacently without
own
their efforts
pretend
of
manifest
not
but
little power
for
otherwise,
to
machinery
would
free, such
as
true
faith
much
concerning the
words
living
on
earnestly persevering
They
reaching a conclusion.
believe in the
to
yet they go
them.
attract
sheer
to
come
their
It is
standstill
reader,
dear
truths
and
and
the
truly
find
I, would
perceive them
and
their
before
them
pick
them
up
feet that
their
as
so,
entire
no
to
do
have
good
uncertainty,the
a
all
idol, because
important
most
from
you,
in
they
word, but
in
for
terously
dex-
they,
own
discoveries.
Lucia
also
del
Bono
bright,clever and,
and
me,
good
her
parents,
into
her
noble
and
home
whatever
we
mother
was
the
could know.
as
Italian
beautiful, but
mother
my
She
who
had
assured
had
taken
her
mother
Whatever
said
nearest
And
woman.
mother
my
as
wished
only
not
was
soon
true,
was
to
God's
I
did
what
will of
was
lost
her
her
good,
mother
anything
perceivedthat, among
BRIDE
THE
things,mother
other
become
only
for
suitable
"
me
with
is
face
the
love
never
can
fervently than
of the
world,
Emmy,
shield
everywhere for
temptation.
there
that
myself.
humiliating,
particularlyfor
haughty nature,
from
away
and
men
be
but
God
To
me
temptation
not
like to
myself
and
and
proud
turn
match
for
overpowering
defenceless
in the
of women."
this mother
splendid and
denies
left
I have
with
willingto fightan
has
in the
is bitter
It
does
I feel
enemy.
would
majority,
hands
an
who
and
one
is
was
tions
tempta-
escape
like
one
the
If I remain
know
more
love
the vile.
I shall nowhere
to
and
this
from
me
make
promises.
truly
even
squarely
realitytoo
and
was
Now
and
again
more
"
veranda.
resolves
"
to
and
low
enough
seen
hotel
woman
strong enough
not
when
mother
to
trines
doc-
the
to
of salvation
way
my
I look
promises,but
solemn
to
holy
have
other
no
the
on
sidered
con-
life.
said
once
her
indeed
may
"
alone
in
all, there
After
for
such
to
sions,
pas-
my
monastery,
myself
reconcile
once
and
however
pets,
to
loss
Emmy's
Through
myself peculiarlyfitted
"
Lucia
wished
long
voracious
Satan's
if I could
123
unchanging persistenceof
the
through
had
wife.
my
DREAMS
OF
and
replied:
lofty
than
suppresses
transitory feelingsin
"
There
that
all the
order
to
of
is
the
no
life
more
monk
who
eternal
de-
BRIDE
THE
124
velop the
to
consecrate
If
only
"
am
you
No,
mother!
not
strong enough
I want
and
will I remain
good.
then
hands
kind
his
power."
You
And
Think
demons
"
fall
will not
of
how
and
succumb
to
least.
give you
them
away,
to
give an
Lucia
came
in
me
too, Vico.
tormented
much
what,
could
who
by
well
conquer
"
my
my
of her
room.
know
I would
too
feel
would
demons,
as
frightenme
not
from
mother
An-
pretty,
and
not
that
monsters
them
do
too
them
would
that, and
troubled
much
are
about
they
ladies
With
all those
read
imagine
you
say.
I know
They
before
Did
Than
had
there either.
were
that
They
And
Teniers
"
I have
pretty
should
ashamed.
in the
the
of Padua?
poetic,I
again
petted
temptations."
temptations.
tonius
saints
the
weeks.
and
in peace
you
paintings,proves
on
my
leave
and
life,only then
monastery
absolutelypure
an
Satan
ill in
because
world
nursed
was
then
even
the
dear.
!"
I have
seen
Vico
just
abstemious
an
and
can
Satan
be in
by
"
lead
it
resist
to
deal
requiresa good
do
to
I must
environment
But
it
yourselfwholly to Jesus,
are
strong enough for that
fleshlydesires.
my
But
freely.
more
DREAMS
OF
my
dreams.
easilydrive
"
"
asked.
But
strong disinclination
nature
of my
visitants,
"
do
What
It
Vico
"
mien,
curious
was
look, her
to
dark
it could
that
could
and
will
If Christ
to
"
she
realized
in
said
deep
became
shame
voice
solemn
emotion.
with
"
fine ! "
is
deep
all too
of
blush
was
a
suppress
help betraying an
not
it
felt it and
she
when
and
"
that
not
mother
from
travelled
eyes
She
painful surprise.
blush, however,
change
cleverlyconcealed
she
of
expression
peculiar wide, shining
the
With
great
but
me,
to mark
priesthood."
the
enter
"
embarrassed
almost
grave,
to
face.
Lucia's
on
with
wants
to
say
said
mother
my
you
125
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
he
Oh,
good
to
will
you
she
am
still half
surely accept
!"
said
you
Lucia, in
than
spoke
"
Emmy's
Jesus
be
will
he
tone
cording
ac-
heathen."
trayed
be-
which
more
whom
two
you
"
I said ;
being
Christ
of
our
Lord."
"
do
How
well?
so
"Do
with
*'
shall
What
know
we
"
What
asked
you
explainto
him?"
she
the
little
I
would
whether
Lord
you
you
Do
me
cried
comprehensive
reply, mother
dear
"
you
Can
know
surely,Lucia
so
attentive.
asked, immediately
him
that
know
you
"
know
you
what
he is.^"
ately,
passion-
out
smile at mother.
He
asks
whether
Jesus."
yourselfreply, Vico,
knew
me,
your
if she
mother?
"
126
THE
I
two
women,
said
"
know
for very
But
my
him
much
near
as
her
near
time.
had
always
remember
can
you
all the
you
I have
me.
Lucia
than
had
not
is she with
long
as
have
leaves
never
me
Then
better, Vico,
you
long,nor
Jesus
the
thoughtfully regarded
mother, for
you
DREAMS
obviouslyconvinced.
so
your
him
OF
silent, and
was
know
BRIDE
and
day
night."
I said
nothing,but
intimating that
she
of Jesus.
more
eagerly than
And
here, yet
to
and
weak
it
this
rub
and
my
me
more
all
not
was
is
very
instructive
of
convenient
to
no
were
the
sponge,
mother
it all to
repeat
firm
and
whole
realities.
was
no
with
word
all sorts
of
bounds
and
suggested slate
our
eternal
tirely
en-
transitory reality.
if there
from
suggested
and
to
explainingby suggestion,we
out
clear
it
though
existence
meaning easilyadaptable
to
far
"
captivatingand
was
nor
Suggestion
but
tell
gladly,
long
too
implied the
me,
neither
and
"
and
on
go
she did it
encouragingly,
connected
and,
her
at
should
Emmy,
clearly and
you
looked
tions;
explanaend
no
might
of
well
as
life,with
beautiful
world
of
of Lucia
suggestedfancy,but
ing
liv-
reality.
But
Of
My
an
what
the
was
Bible
he.''
the
two
Catholic
knew
women
Northern
education
little.
very
origin,had
as
well
as
had
Lucia.
THE
BRIDE
this,for valid
In
did not
They
of his
his death
deservingof
And
of
nor
teachings. It
and
all
much
person,
the
another
New
adventures,
his
Jesus
as
nor
his martyrsuffering,
dom,
to them
to be above
seemed
if the
"
Nazarene
had
narrates
identify him
borne
have
never
the
with
curred
oc-
Deity
mother.
my
that
it
might perhaps
to
me
now
of
Testament
it
worshipped by
But
life of
known
not
name,
to
is forbidden.
meditation.
if I had
whom
that
Bible
127
of the
his
was
DREAMS
the
reasons,
speak
historical
an
OF
needs
I must
that
assume
all information
to
women
was
me,
that
and
of
of
millions
found
be
to
occupied the
so
lives of these
human
in these
sides,
beings be-
ancient
writings,
the
of which, contrary to my
English translation
mother's
I began
now
wishes, I faithfullykept
"
read
to
But
a
to
power,
more
us
its detriment
his
four
obvious
Hiob:
as
fanatic
declarations, and
I found
full of
a
master,
retold
with
falsifications.
And
was
just
as
times
sensitive
delicate,more
thought, just
light.
touching narrative
written
by the hand of
of this narrative
than
attention.
and
and
hero
closer
even
nothing to give me
beautiful
dramatic
and
renewed
I found
very
but
with
very
and
bold
in
and
even
mortal,
nearer
akin
to
flightof
his
the
unmoved
the
human
immoderate
bellishments
em-
by
the
in
less
lot
was
the
this wonderful
ings
struggle,his disappointments, waver-
of his
truth
DREAMS
threatening him
drama.
OF
BRIDE
THE
128
and
discouragedbearing,his
fluence
caused
by the inexplainable self-deception,
his
and
alternatelyproud
very
of
fatal
his
childish
his
and
and
necessary
result
heroic
But
followers
human
of
what
did
which
they lived
to
any
for
example
even
security,
which, in which
as
"
careful
many
who
was
she
threatened
to
Lucia
tragedy
and
all their
for
her
in
the
the
been
as
well
theus
Prome-
"
ing
lovingbe-
steps and
versations
con-
presence
when
her, I became
taught
for
tain
livingfoun-
gratefullydrew
forsake
But
attentive
and
Lucia,
fair
the
suffered.
mighty
path.
which
had
the
blance,
resem-
they might
of
hero
their
with
that
that
directed
through
mother,
he
now,
lightupon
from
for
derful
won-
millions
and
little outward
me
other
named
that,
wisdom
human
the
with
their
and
joy
death
the
name,
it seemed
rest
but
nothing
the
my
in
as
found
And
immutable
"
mother
my
all their
found
do
to
with
shed
but
strength.
her
have
desired
weakness
with
the
worshippers,
reality in
and
foreboded,
of
self-denial,
and
that
her
vinced
con-
the divine
BRIDE
THE
130
found
have
If
to
broaden
topple
we
just
our
seek
must
we
build
as
had
we
herd
does
than
we
need
not
its
Jew, who,
have
now
his enslaved
meek, the
No
so
have
felt
than
he, when
to
as
have
of
the
years
anguish from
redeemer,
new
the
whom
the divine
it
called
king,
as
the
man,
whole
earth
flown
Christ, so profoundly,
his subdued
from
to
was
reality,which
clearly living in
more
Alexandria,
centuries
the
cry
them
to
tragicheroic figureand
many
for
known
have
and
country
ingenious
pregnant.
millions
many
the
to
out
great and
Chrestus," with
"
can
one
urgently
more
eighteen hundred
countrymen
felt herself
The
attained.
leading
than
more
Christ, pointed
as
heaven
been
wisely responding
ago,
wisdom
individual
following.
it must
True,
wise
foundations, other-
our
our
once
higher,
higher and
the
imagined
in
commonplace things.
such
with
bold
make
towers
over
happiness
nor
Therefore
speak plainlyof
would
we
loneliness,
spiritual
contentment
wisdom.
unshared
and
life.
is neither
There
mind
tranquillityof
peace,
in this dead
to
DREAMS
foretaste
more
OF
he
created
chose
be
personificationand
the
desolate
and
the
himself
mighty
that
name
and
for
so
accepted by mankind,
epithet
of
this
same
reality.
But
fearfulness
charge
he
him
withdrew
gravely
his
own
that
with
person
Jewish
from
the
BRIDE
THE
which
strugglein
or
be
to
art
into
changed
have
might
What
masterpiece of art,
Parthenon,
how
in
man
false
like the
the
or
ithe
as
of
creations
the
or
of
Athene
Olympus, showing
of
Zeus
Hiob,
the
or
poor
wonderful
of
book
of
history.
of
elevated
and
Vinctus,
fered
suf-
work
true
piece
humanity
Prometheus
Iliad, or
and
noble
gladdened
blinded
sufferingand
the
his
131
perish,and
he
wished
even
DREAMS
OF
rises
artist
the
has
as
as
now,
truth
living human
been, have
still
mutilated
immortal
Pauline
pot
has
inspiration
and
joy
but
"
the beautiful
of art
work
had
world
might
Egyptian
become
evil
an
in the
mixed
and
and
have
with
Byzantine
Chaldean
podge,
hodgewretched
spirit for
kind.
For
the
with
actually
ever
beneficent, embellished
and
metaphysics
sorcerer's
as
beautiful
more
Christian
barbaric
which
falsifications
imitation.
of
has
us
"
occurrence,
rudest
neglectedthem,
and
figureof Jesus,
human
the
race
brought
miserable
been
to
impossibleefforts
and
any
after
historical
gloriousshapes of Phidias,
The
than
world
blood,
in flesh and
seen
invented
an
the whole
driven
of
been
never
eighteen hundred
dupe
of
years
this marvellous
his work,
changed
history.
know
in
no
fatal
the
world
dramatic
hour
from
stronger proof
has
been
genius and
fiction to
for
the
ex-
BRIDE
THE
132
istence of
malicious
amusing
our
And
the doves
the
on
that
joy
would
and
unconfounded,
was
that
and
urged
had
had
men
mightily
so
them
and
with
earnestly
revealed
smooth
beauty
what
the
bridle
soul, who
own
to
power
the
give us
miracles, and
a
human
human
faithful
strongly
peace,
word, and
true
this
of
voice:
instead
looking
the
through
for
of
them
if
they
to
the
deep
to
alone
has
of
worshipping
outward
signs and
beautiful
creations
of
seduced
to
be
and
word
and
in their
it
learned
and
to
God
their
warncr
desires
"
the
perceptible will
follow
and
in
himself
constant
true
extent
attentively hearkened
and
my
if,unprejudiced
audible
so
of
out
asked
such
in
spoke
the
earth
reignon
now
the
on
the
softlywhispering
I wander
over
hours
and
warm
in the
coo
gaze
for
musing
pressure,
pleasure in
takes
it is
cit}^walls,
devil who
night, when
and
elms
DREAMS
errors.
many
calm
sea
OF
to
cism,
fanati-
reality,to
of poverty,
sicklypursuit of pain, glorification
fear of knowledge, scorn
of the world, hatred
of
beauty,
stray sheep!
poor
Then
the great and
and
good works of Greeks
"
Romans,
of Indians
thoughtfullycarried
esteemed, and
the
and
on,
Saracens
art
garden
of
would
have
been
preserved,knowledge
peace
made
verdant
BRIDE
THE
with
While
fountains.
of
thousands
to
inspired
grossly
be
good
of
though
the
and
his
and
by
the
voice
gloriously
by
forth
heralded
crucified
of
in
you
risen
and
again.
the
me,
me
live,
dead,
is
and
you
also
the
do
in
asunder
trumpets,
in
itself,
longer
flock
You
made
nevertheless.
No
directions.
devil
spent
soon
the
the
game
increase.
drive
dogs
the
has
sick
the
different
hear
lose
poison
shepherdless
and
lie,
destroyed
reader
my
shall
but
of
hundred
truest
favorites
flat
image
cheer,
good
move,
powers
the
the
error.
falsehood
The
the
poetical
sensuous
But
by
in
die
must
dearest
his
pure
again,
because
of
one
two
and
again
Christ
cross
besmirched
was
true
the
beautiful
most
he
utter
the
upon
that
alas
now,
these
from
beauty
hearts,
death
bitter
word
of
springs
clear
133
DREAMS
OF
my
reader,
and
as
"
learn
that
victoriously
XI
IT
found.
was
it
high
digger
mother
time
the
by
own
that
way;
as
address
every
prayer
and
to
one
is
and
in
forcibly
.^^ As
deception
observe
to
belief
the
But
also
that
is
tiny
he
church
carries
lay
of
the
with
in
134
of
exhortations
soul.
own
it is
that
and
self-
for
still
and
during
shame
Is
ble
possi-
continue
to
worthily
village,
my
through
image
coffin, already
fisher
in
Nevertheless
and
pose
long
someone
possibility
it
the
and
to
an
youth,
acting
My
vation,
reser-
which
self-observation
playing
body
in
praying
is
one
man,
usually
and
child
oneself
that
for
The
constant
one's
greater
clam-
too,
uttered
changes
act
any
creates
one
through
did
of.
sure
suggestion
protestations
there
not
was
letter
dunes
prayed
with
write
the
reward.
and
body.
say,
invocation
of
Deity
is
thrown
and
Rhine,
me
the
might
one
whose
words
of
side
of
promised
with
father
my
had
foot
the
the
there
went
the
at
of
claim
of
body
nor'-wester
shore
mouth
to
the
stormy
on
the
came
before
up
from
far
not
weeks
three
was
at
he
honestly.
this
the
act
game
assumes.
closed,
it
in
seemed
in
as
survivingspiritmocked
father's
though
my
for
words
trifling
the
thought
to
and
of
sea,
reach
candles
reed-covered
which
the
roaring
sand
hills,and
When
funeral
for my
would,
mother
if
the
sun
and
With
make
can
could
not
all
seem
sunshine, and
and
to be
the
the
realized.
vintage
browning foliage,merry
"
and
length
barren
most
tion.
consolaof
blessed
life
the
that
beforehand
At
of
ing
deceiv-
whose
the
even
many
Northerners,
imaginary Italy.
indeed
of the
considered
Italy
travelled
memories,
distance
with
pectation,
ex-
wonderland
childish moods,
increases
of
for
seen
sweet
it is to all
of dear
separation,and
country gleam as
not
the
to
company
the
of
charm
of
have
in the
thousand
sweetness
back
thought,I
with
beauty which
might
in
I had
leave
to
There, in Rome,
way
Italy,that
combined
of the world
the
from
talking little,full
usually deep
me
decided
we
my
the continent
women.
lured
find
Solemn,
swiftlyacross
with
with
eye
earth
her
country.
anywhere,
church.
years,
the
over
glowing
upon
over,
was
native
and
two
the
looked
wind
the
sea.
the
Holland
of
priest
the
of
voice
chanting
settingsun
the
across
ing
childish the burn-
How
the
seemed, with
of clouds
soul
the
move
stars.
the
and
to
me
I, foolish boy,
which
with
and
and
sun
135
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
real
promises
beginning they
It commenced
golden light
country
folk
and
of
did
with
upon
song;
136
THE
of
gleam
solemn
BRIDE
better
North:
home
world
who
beloved
mother
flexible
for
craving
without
in
that
the
with
as
lad
that
what
and
they
I
then
native
it
task
land
and
the
of
Hundreds
writers
fancies
sensuous
with
and
rude
and
poor
the
street
little
how
do
can
reason
or
say
did
not
that
heart
my
with
charm
which
held
I be-
when
emotions
do
to
fulfil in these
can
delight you
can
comfort
writings.
with
you
the
with
for
subtle
a
ment
mo-
beautiful
dolent
in-
woven
through the
thought, so that
in
the
the
not
Ah!
my
nothing
that
duty
my
kind?
my
has
It
of
wildness
on
convince
on
stirred
again.
at
say
into
simply
people
If
could
here
dwell
cannot
Dutch
beings of
are
to
and
soul.
soul!
penetrates my
dared
barbarians:
inmost
this
being
down
sings something
among
me,
my
Northern
penetrates my
of
sounds
elegance
roughness
the
and
dignity,not
who
rags
rude
teU
certain
dull
something wanton;
vigorous
and
circles:
coarse
the
beauty
lowest
very
the
myself
do
to
and
and
tongue,
after
like
DREAMS
glorious sensation
people
among
OF
all
calmer
and
sorrows
force
unsensual
you
can
will
know
taste
of
a
every
unchanging
point of rest
pleasure with
attention.
In Rome
my
disillusionment
came
with
the
rainy
138
BRIDE
THE
the
into
fellow
citizens
this
In
the
gale on
sea-dike
open
hear
cannot
wind
its
than
hills of
But
much
so
fare
beauty
and
and
of the
fear.
but
and
But
in
smaller
also, and
and
"
in
nobleman
or
inn,
hall
or
But
and
higher
countries
The
were
manity,
hu-
horde
of
minority nobler,
caddish
more
often
stand
out
of
as
than
see
prince
Dutch
the
lage
vil-
ment.
respectableentertain-
more
and
your
life
the
sea
safer
are
of middle-class
below
of
to
bility
respecta-
level than
in most
above.
first
the
is the
inmates
standard
here
landers,
Hol-
minority
great
imagination I
purse
your
the average
for
the
world
a
among
the
among
ing
bloom-
salutary
more
present
loafer
and
of dulness
ugliness,
passions stifled by
the horde
and
Neapolitan tramp
should
genitive soul
beautiful
country
no
lift
theless
never-
the Italians
is
evil of
exists
beauty
to
in Holland
that
the
in the
Everywhere
sensitive
cads.
more
unfelt
great
is suffered
glowing life
sadly among
preferred by
the
would
land.
sharp anguish
than
and
For
still
the
to
razes
more
nation.
prosperous
man,
imply
the
luxuriant,blue-skied
native
not
and
anguish
the sunny,
beautiful
this does
low
standing alone
rude
among
my
this
envy
less
head,
petty
my
it.
bends
where
gray,
restless
bleak,
DREAMS
OF
ones
that
priests,whom
sought
my
father
in my
native
had
always
land
made
THE
me
shun.
not
satisfythe
intuitive
ah
me!
the
best
the
his
by
could
great
that
goes
herd
has
address
out
the
which
"
I
in
myself
each
from
the
one
magic
neither
But
less than
none
the
face
much
adapted
to
beginning
from
the
into
whose
suggestion
hands
of deference
his
environment,
in
appearance,
and
Subsequently he
and
He
that
be
I must
bony,
or
was
foolish
committed
making
"
geois
bour-
the
rose
illusion.
also
strengthenmy
the conviction
back
impressed
tastelesslyfurnished
upon
one
political
boorish
me
prelates of
and
was
his outward
nor
refer
to
youthful errant,
me,
and
name,
gloomy apartment
with
quence
elo-
there, my
influential
and
of salvation.
pressed
style,
and
her
of the Vatican
withhold
subjugation.
half
mistaken
enabled
;
guide
to
path
not
sadly
rank
intimate
an
celebrity,was
into
in
lacked.
were
powerful
most
age,
swiftly
logicalargumentativepower
we
self
her-
evidently
so
versed
someone
positionand
the
she
and
easilyand
be
did
I.
the very
of
wisdom
her, seemed
to
heard
139
reason,
my
should
knowledge
and
Her
to
of
what,
the
and
mother
sentimental
wants
true, if I but
But
mother's
that
of
convinced
her
OF
My
thought
DREAMS
BRIDE
less
was
very
little
listened
a
fused,
con-
appearance.
me
to
the
care
of
BRIDE
THE
140
of
one
his
willed, ambitious
doctor
I did
her
her
as
could
the
I would
street
the
saw
under
the
they
bore
the
appointed
was
and
an
was
he
our
came
of
people
gained sufficient
edge
knowl-
to
me
man
young
I knew
to
the
young
with
help
this
At
me
"
the
for him
these
But
extravagances.
to
for
once
conceive
contempt.
hero
that
vain.
moment,
and
Italian
for
the
guilt
ing.
toil-
were
ignoble character.
an
one
hatred
longed
anyone
though
as
mark
insignificant
man,
not
learned, in
of
some
be
would
from
out
was
the
of
on
pleasant
positivelyun-
It
shepherd,then
my
his labor
deadly
But
peering
poor
spiritual world
as
priest,nor
often
my
had
them.
the
peopled
with
faces
in which
moved
and
long. Even
repulsion when
very
foreheads
sooner
no
of the
time
their
upon
painful
reallybelieve quite
felt hats.
rough, black
And
He
shudder
villainous
misery
all that
through
she
visit,as
on
pictured
insignificant,
coarse,
and
for
it
carry
I went
not
had
father
my
not
this first
sake, too,
I could
circles which
bad
tremendous
the
hopeful expectation by
agitation.For
so
notice
experienced at
betrayed
mother
let my
not
that
in the
scrutinized
priest, who
young
strong-
very
well-nighimpertinent searchingness,like
his patient.
with
shock
pale, seemingly
manifest,
soon
was
as
DREAMS
disciples,a
younger
timid, but,
me
OF
are
expected
and
pretension,but
when
fell
considerably below
devil
the
him
to
him
out
of my
by
the
of
mark
kick
to
of meditation
house
learned
have
liked
in my
Here
sea,
hero, I wished
have
would
and
door.
the young
that
the
141
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
consider
to
talents,great
priestpossessedmany
nature, a
learning,a keen knowledge of human
careful
clear, practicalmind, an ambition
enough
for attaining the firmly
not
to seek base
means
and
goal,
whether
inborn, acquired, or
confirmation, and
further
of mind
to
allowed, seemed
the
oh!
But
these
people.
deadly
Their
with
the
confession
beautiful
flowing stream,
and
making
fruitful
; not
the
well
and
to
stood
in
in
cut
proportion
to
itself
of
himself, so
practisedin
all
watering
world;
was
box
strong-
times
needs, they
so
in his
lives,safe and
of
tranquillity
well versed
it
square
stated
at
as
constantly changing,
spiritualconsolation.
He
was
so
astonishinglycalm,
sure
not
was
revealed
their moral
of
faith
of their
which,
stocked, from
of
continuous
entire
corner
ligion
re-
under
his
assurance
its substance
with
might
desirable.
most
of
those
sterile
and
richer and
all his
among
him
to
no
sufficient tranquillity
him
himself
set
needed
adopted,
gave
to
which,
religious conviction
desired
mind
only,
went
and
tremendously
patriarchs,so
logicaldisputes,so thoroughly at
home
all the
in
and
all the
with
up
he
poor
locked
in
up
in the
hollow
adrift
upon
not
to
his
of
issues
he had
of
wild
science
in which
he
ropes,
and
unmanageable
either, and
caught
convincing phraseology
artfullypainted panorama
I
separate
exacting
was
the
with
they could
it
as
just
to
submit
I felt it my
as
were
duty
to
not
break
tented
con-
better
no
ideas
the
ploys
em-
world.
was
understand
to
devil
true
and
days
people, who
I did not
be.
duty
in those
fine and
the
free
his
to
argument,
is the
which
the
from
us
them
correct
that
but
"
troublesome
hitched
word, the
the
logicalsnares
all these
and
the
to
his
was
knew
than
better
He
reality.
formulas,
the true
bug
wood, helplessly
of
or
it
miserable,
system, like
piece of
truths
faith,
yet how
and
naked
mates
case-
take
And
earth.
on
well
as
his
dare
waters
words,
of faith
might
fanatic
and
car
he
dead
the
his
of his
formulated
narrow-minded
citadel
how
me,
alleys,the
of the
doubters
seemed
the
though
as
DREAMS
and
caves
bastions
the
it seemed
that
OF
BRIDE
THE
142
that
they
of the
loose
than
felt
group,
from
it.
tues,
recognizethe relative value of their virlike cyphers, in
because
to me
they seemed
I did not
front
of
which
the
naught-fearinglove
I
was
man
his due
absolute
path
timid
still too
of
unit
of
and
too
modest
cold-bloodedly,to
sinceritywith him,
pride
which
each
and
to
break
give every
the
to mount
truly pious
bond
the
man,
of
steep
"
as
BRIDE
THE
and
you
I, dear
will
losingtime,
life and
and
the
name
man
though
with
as
the
shining halo
the
priest:
her
ascend
all kinds
innocent
pale, calm
as
though
desires
that
knew
he
was
the
fine
This
the
toward
seeking,the
and
When
wanted
blind
and
lame
and
rhetorical
evading
paths,
me
with
of
congealed
"
It
desired, and
feel
and
him
made
a
and
I saw,
of
possibility
word,
true
to
by
fectly
perhis
was
burning
my
could
vine,
di-
and
and
him
loved
helplessly
no
in
believed, felt
to
was
mistaken
He
and
me.
be
not
nothing.
that
to
it
highest humanity,
eyes
unutterable
so
smashed
self-satisfied countenance.
his
they
thereby took
and
it
and
growing
winding
My
head
follow, escaping
of
life.
she
wanting in him.
this path, he became
to
erted
ex-
hand
her
very
has
highly, and
refused
he
my
him
I could
the continuous
were
own
from
the
upon
is
this he may
read
influence
honored
pavement.
tentacles
life
idle
present: he
at
you
effect
and
was
this
when
tremendous
admired
upon
here
Through negative
pope.
mother
cernment
dis-
subtle
the
struggle.
I shall not
be
143
alas ! is
"
strength,and
God's
of
DREAMS
obligedto take
penalty of
pleasure,under
reader,
against his
strife and
OF
say
desire
thing
everythe
thus
vehemently and
longed-forreality,as it was
I
not
doubt.
And
thus
I learned
BRIDE
OF
important
truths
THE
144
two
most
about
chiefest
the
that
is
say,
prattle
less,and
just
to
no
more,
for mutual
all
part of
most
be
than
other
his
human
this
wiser
and
me
to
him
and
and
kindred
the
of
as
and
of
godly,
I, and
the
servile
was
he
his
all
contrary
again
had
equals and
place
of
God's
all the
the
subtle
child, the
beautiful
light of
crier
his
out
with-
ruling idea
"
clear
judgment
What
Grace
the
came
beand
impress
teacher
timid
public opinion
of
impels
peasants, the
else!
the
personality!as
market
free
guidance.
persuasion! nothing
personality on
the
only by
Revelation?
as
what
absolute, with
the
now
his
that
them
on
never,
directed
and
group
not
more
mother
my
large
they do
groups.
mother
him
not
accept with
himself
from
adopted
of men,
thrust
human
that
selves
them-
thinking that
on
is
what
my
saw
spirits,and
their
sense
yet I
from
adopted
the
than
that
feel and
priest considered
better
groups
in
men
feelingslet
go
no
quate
inade-
best
the
even
and
beings or
talk,
conviction,as
to
and
and
constraint, but
talk
mere
misleadingand
as
they,and
all
chatter, worth
and
this
For
being is
our
communication
necessarilybetter
realize
first that
their
by
DREAMS
eral
gen-
witness,
"
impels
BRIDE
THE
146
merely
little
of
more
helps one
If
all hold.
lost
the
of
arms
ask
seemed
to
it had
not
him
with
Do
to
or
who
slightfeather
is the
Here
he
saved
him
she was,
to
And
evil cannot
be
lost.
make
Satan, and
me
better
did
ever
As
the
evil
one
than
turn
his nature:
himself
to
in
Just
I,
as
as
and
so
any
tinue
con-
believes
even
wanted
Nietzsche,
was
so
whoever
good
over
of
in mind!
simply had
scapegrace
bolt
well
but
"
saved
Satan
manifested
he
because
Not
tender
breath,
this
hold
reader;
young
now
all,nothing but
himself.
him.
the
later
voice
pitied with
mother's
my
believingin
as
my
reader.?
dear
after
in
death.
profound explanation
me
away
unworthy;
into
whom
Satan
Satan, dear
me,
me,
upon
than
less
none
to
then.
far
father's
saved
Lucia,
was
was
my
with
because
compassion
a
better
go
know
you
with
been
it
I deemed
crown;
me
beautiful
the
whom
one
ruin,
beloved
My
lost her
had
saint
nothing
has
but
"
close to
stood
ever
had
too
politics,
the divine.
with
do
particular proficiencywhich
that
in
on
possesseda
ambitious, who
and
clever
the
DREAMS
OF
evil, I
kind
kind
that
faced
he
human
did
being
me.
if to
himself
manifest
followingthe
of all
custom
incarnate.
came
very
plainly,Satan,
came
mighty principles,be-
into contact
with
young
with
and
prince
of
known
to
his
fallen
that
brown
that
eyes,
cruel
the
above
lipped mouth,
in
sarcasms
over
straightthin-
the
long chin,
the
uttered
feminine
almost
high,
low
furtively,and
out
kindly,while
narrowing, twinkled
most
peeped
in
hidden
to be
rather
eyelids hung
His
them.
any
forehead
his low
appeared
horns
two
of the
that
emphasize this,
if to
as
above
locks
angel
arch-
an
closely than
more
even,
of
name
resembled
that
angels
He
me.
way
under
face
his black
twisted
such
it
the
bore
who
seminary student,
147
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
voice.
yet it
And
than
more
In
the
was
an
place, by
Irishman
jokes
he
also, because
but
wrath
learned
look
to
life.
between
as
when
Once
was
make
him
sensible
"
You
of
his
come
time
their
and
made
of what
was
and
to
arguments,
at
an
he
susceptible;
seemed
who
had
potent
im-
to
"
not
yet
recognize
teachingsand
attended
had
and
unwillingnessof
impotence
I had
wont,
priestly institution
meshes
as
one
sharp
he
great, dumb,
my
teacher
young
my
my
he
only
of
the
between
the contradiction
very
universal
at
upon
was
for
wit;
those
of
the
was
the
at
which
"
something
understand
mankind
full
which
to
his
of
me
circles.
clerical
in
met
reason
and
attracted
who
man
had
anyone
first
delicious
to
just this
was
their
conversation
myself, in which,
fruitless
lackingin
free myself
said
opportune
in
efforts to
the entire
from
the
leaving:
moment,
dear
BRIDE
THE
148
The
Muralto!
Count
been
in
vacant
it any
assume
already
are
company.
more
toward
of
aware
and
remark
Michael.
found
learn
you
It all
depends
double
leara
the
That
"
the
on
himself
would
his
office as
starve
business
we
at
firm
of
and
concern
that
"if
on
careful
business
good
the
head,
thoughts.
your
exactness,
has
same
I shall
that
verge
trading
because,
honor
in
he
how
Michael,
man
nothing
to
must
we
way
of the business.
Without
foolish.
Our
question
to
know
to
which
In
sacred
merchants
and
played, dear
Well
is all."
the most
upon
is
order
our
afraid
am
but
but
on
order
keep
to
They
is such
there
said
difficult,"
so
not
great astonishment
wished
business.
keep
to
"
and
me
private bank-account
with
upon
the directors.
bookkeeping. Every
"
in
all, I
not
long
need
you
only
do
has
it
"That's
has
But
immediately began
Above
wish
to
ingenue
thick."
aroused
interest.
of
it now,
too
on
DREAMS
role
our
thing as laying it
This
OF
learn
never
a
merchant's
ingenue!
"
business
is
merchants
in
prison.
there
and
rightly call
's
the
trade."
Michael
said
foolishness.
look
To
the
Holy
The
no
harm
sacred
it
I may
be its
youngest
Father
world
whole
consider
down
longer naive,
most
existence.
no
look
to
servant
in that.
business
worthy
trusta
great
and
am
thankful
that
wits
about
mj
demand
ideas
my
not
as
confusion, I consider
cause
moderate.
and
in
all
nothing
like
is
It
There
's
so
soldier.?
little
each
which
fitting its
true
Each
for
fish
make
you
will
find
and
have
care
that
net
in
exactly
is
doctrine
just for
get through
is
he
that
wanted
and
No
law
no
coffin of
mesh
and
order, said
fashion
Can
very
uniform
the
large
the
on
trance
dimensions.?
own
everyone,
must
lid
the
screwed
he
as
the
keep
to
become
to
keep
of
private account
the ledger of
carefully separate from
that
farmer
his
if I
it can,
The
also
me,
practicalaffairs.
the
time
same
pleasure.
firm, so
just
the
at
149
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
all.
the
meshes."
"
your
than
what
for
"
out
I must
cynicism
the
all
to
and
hypocrisy of
about
say
seems
tolerable
more
obstinate
you
Michael, that
admit, brother
me
the
law
worthy
upright
prelates.And
more
our
that
I think
be
cannot
just
of consideration."
"
Michael
"
dear
cried
young
rotten
apples.
wildly you throw
your
clever animal, but
A dog is a good-natured and
for that reason
it is not doggish to discriminate
man,
how
correctly. And
do
as
understand
not
hypocrisy is
of
the
which
long
that
as
you
proper
artless
and
blockheads
successful
BRIDE
THE
150
duties
will
nothing
to
became
more
more
passions in
me
weakening
beasts
get
is blocked
The
Rome,
often
at
weeks
which
does
to
than
like unto
the
me
before
easy
in my
every
wild
our
its
course
the rudder.
to
just
put
in
London,
band
for
hunt
shamelessness
cold
With
ship when
of
And
that
in
it
out
not
was
peculiar temptation
itself forth
with
with
debases
defencelessness
the
riotingand
maenads, go
men.
but
charming thoughtlessness,
and
still.
were
disappointedin humanity,
who
give ear to the women
was
not
difficulties
my
in life
joy
less attention
night, upon
many
and
troublesome.
rein, as
vociferous
more
ranting
and
looser
began
the turbulent
disappointment,they
in
spiritand
amazement
sight,the dogs
in
again ended
pays
suspicious.
appallingcondition
meanwhile
the
more
more
attitude
my
ful
long as I lived in the hopeshipwrecked who believes that
safety is
of
said
As
of the
this
and
and
calmed
not
same.
restive, bold
grew
which
profound
and
But
were
of
when
curious
system.
suspense
the haven
changed
God."
of
Kingdom
with
long
Trinity, so
cautious
began
the
the
remained
reserved,
social
our
the
mother,
to understand
But
the
conversation, about
my
and
of
come
this
After
of
DREAMS
already taught by
nothing
More
OF
wanton
good-natured
ered
discov-
itself,had
and
or
made
of
me
an
prey.
The
assumed
complex feeling of
self-con
fear
light-heartedness,
of
tempt, shame,
undesired
en-
BRIDE
THE
and
counters,
yet
not
in the
deservingof
envy;
there
in face
consider
to
shown
this
it
was
douche
cold
heart
struck
flame
brightly flickering
visage of
"
into
out
Well
mother
"
Well
such
at
match
the
he
and
three
we
wall,
lit up
the
after
first
perplexed,
laughter.
in
out
his
from
words
"
again .f^
meet
I stood
there
most
absolutelyand
ashamed,
self-control.
something resembling a
cried
my
the
of
witches'
reader, that
miserably confused
bit
moment,
suddenly
!"
over
on
and
me
temerity
devilish burst
met
shall
confess, dear
has
and
Michael, who,
then
and
When
utterly without
for
cautiouslyand
truly
tongue,
Macbeth:
brother
me
met
shock
when
the
at
man,
of
temptress having
having leered
better
monstrous
my
broke
in my
as
less.
or
aristocrat's
Satanic
antly
luxuri-
conscience, is
bad
when,
especially
oneself
more
miserable
proud
soil of
dark
that,
aggravating circumstance
entire haughty priesthood,one
has
an
dared
most
the
is the
of
Thus
thieves
disreputablehouses,
flourishes
case,
of
of
shadow
in the
of Rome's
doorways
151
despicablefear
more
cut-throats, that
and
DREAMS
OF
But
I stuttered
reproach
and
out
cation
justifi-
:
"
"
I,
at
least,wear
Neither
do
no
clerical
garb."
"
am
incognito
private business."
on
"
Oh
double
!"
said
scornfully
;
book-keeping!
"
"
concerning
the
152
"
let
don't
on,
and
it well.
But
Perhaps
I '11 be
turned
about,
not
overtook
"
Two
"
he.
fair
Like
me
might
we
as
instinct
an
Brutes
we
the
converted
don
must
it your
follows
man
so
Michael, but
are,
us
morrow,
to-
hide
and
I do
foulness.
and
rottenness
I at
myself. You,
saintly garb
your
instinct
an
hopelessdisgrace.
most
I loathe
it.
the
in
self-preservation
for
of
both
acknowledge
under
Michael
pursuit.
well have
in the
self-justification
least
who
woman
also."
desperate danger,
"
some
sinner
most
by
me.
to
seems
her
disappointed in
been
the
from
flatteringremarks
very
had
already
street, followed
the
swiftly up
ran
had
frightI
in my
But
not
you."
envy
"
It does
have
We
portion
to
where
one
filth and
of
that
and
they
fleas and
has
every
work
confession
befit us,
not
God
whom
one
me
you
double
the
later."
back
of
Michael, with
said
Concerning
disturb
me
"
remembered
have
book-keeping,you
go
"
smile.
sweetish
his most
ingenue !
dear
Exactly,
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
one
must
off
created
of
us
it does
alone,
belong
to
and
all
chop
with
Muralto,
dear
after
his
been
saddled
not
as
image.
own
with
enviable
seem
you.
loathe
to
can
to
to
go
are
the
bitten
same
by
the
hatchet.
same
We
154
ority,which
life which
reveal
to
and
This
is
itself.
story that
know
it all too
we
this process.
In thousands
generation the
life
new
group-ideas. In
subjected to the
the
by
the
in
hide
of
by
Thus
a
for
this
without
still
time
peace
bright, true
of every
the
break
it is
old
and
overcome
very
few
it breaks
and
then
is annihilated
of
soul
and
body
insanity,as
others,
an
disheartening
as
and
in you
as
way
way
of
of
the
tiny
seed
assimilation
growth.
I have
years
the
in
withstands
birds
about
wandered
independentlife of
my
battle
until, strengthenedand
of
undergo
thousands
to
not,
you
to
ones
disguise,as
and
estranged,leading an
all
human
self
maintaining itworld, protected by a tough
twenty
and
few,
In
the
stranger
subjected
moment,
out, finds
and, thrown
like
In
for
hostile
pretext
swallowed
only
and
reader, it finds
dear
me,
well, do
torture, suicide,or
inspiringexample
warning to many.
the
constantly repeats
tragic destruction
of
death
from
attempts
old.
total, absolute
into
of them
most
the
not
are
could
move.
old
And
reader?
to
inner
an
and
anyone
separation
I had
an
You
in
back
me
inner
which
in
find
not
drove
prevail,of
make
not
could
none,
solitude
world
I could
I
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
own:
rest,
apparently hopeless;
taught by
brief
period
action
THE
and
BRIDE
nameless, deep
I have
sorrow,
glad delightand
mother
of
my
priesthood.
that
the
passive calmness
to
her
observer
the
bear
This
the
which
which
did not
scheme.
show
and
marriage
only sorrow
head
"
not
in me,
"
am
the
subtle
from
ordinary
very
gradually
lack
man
hu-
come
of
self-
difficult for
she
readily abandoned
son
priest,for
realization
she
But
and
the
of her
intended
compassion,
is not
to
shaking
the
overcome,
viper's
Vico?"
poor
obedient
to
that
which
you
mean?
is most
divine
mother."
Your
human
Mother,
this is true
sense,
Or
man
hu-
your
"
what
the
hide
pride
crushed,
pride?
"
forced
achievingthe
now
your
in
I had
seeing her
favorite
So
customary
practice
of
that
of
it with
to
irritation.
saw
proud hope
probably
grown
without
time
would
so
her
of
possibility
"
mansion
the
listened
had
desires.
and
these
perception in
She
undercurrents
passions
observe
nothing
continuous
through
but
resignation,
to
with
future.
my
me
entered
now
joyous insightupon
I told
to
155
with
and
trust
tion,
resignafeelings,
voluntary hermitage,to build with
this last
come
DREAMS
different
wholly
of the
OF
!'
other
truth
means
save
exactly
as
the
our
have
sense
eye
for
we
that
tells
tinguishin
dis-
tells
'
us
us:
this
156
THE
is
'
light!
and
me
'
light,or
because
"
call it
you
cannot
"
But
Ah, dear
their
happiness,but
pleasure and all joy
Listen
and
right.
that
learned
have
for
if you
But
all of us,
obey
life
that
we
of
we
to
devilish
is
false
not
to
me
call
The
ness
happi-
believe
that
was
given
we
chaos
must
and
trolling
deepest, all-con-
very
passionsis
tell
perfectly
that
world
your
no
selves
flingour-
are
you
invention
our
God
should
has
created
not
follow
all-controlling
passion he
God
and
make
all
that
for
happiness
the true, lasting,
ness,
peace-givinghappisometimes
mistakenly seek in idle
pleasures. If
that
joys
now
if you
anger
happiness,which
and
offence.
an
for
joy,
is
I,
"
my
never
Saviour."
said
careful
want
joy
then
"
!"
on
basis
and
you,
sacrifice
to
of the
love
be
must
we
desire for
your
resigned."
I have
bubble.
second, mother
away
not
to be
that
to
what
Do
Vico.
known
the
see
only
happiness, don't
my
"
wrong,
see
learned
I wish
son,
for
seeking
and
Would
"
mother?
"
you,
I have
desire
!'
warm
"
with
you.
you
is
is darkness,' where
right?
argue
right to
seems
this
right,'where
is
this
'
this
say
DREAMS
OF
skin
our
'
have
you
BRIDE
fool
who
has
has
us
the
with
life
tion
inten-
profound,
most
planted
given
the
in us,
to
then
cripples.
Profoundly
the
find
toward
is
wish
to
follow
nor
do
another
see
to
none,
none
mother
but
Then
I
earth
she
did
lure
as
shall
heavens,
him
for
deny
to
to
sad
her
to
of
shrug
eyes
ders,
shoul-
the
reply.
not
dropped
word,
better
rightly
her
understood
none,
And
handkerchief
with
have
person.
as
able
be
it
nature."
her
head
from
me
will
the
in
or
slavishly
so
carried
her
shook
and
on
other
beauty,
turn
for
star,
always
toward
Never
any
profoundest
true,
My
in
to
me.
guiding
one
myself
subject
wish
to
"
myself,
light,
destroy
to
searched
toward
impulse
happiness
to
my
have
as
157
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
"
to
whether
see
than
she
to
drive
stood
under-
herself.
"
Is
Lucia
n't
We
coming?
were
to
the
Pincio?"
The
a
handkerchief
did
not
knew
that
this
gave
that
know
Then
was
Of
"Lucia?
moment.
in
and
dropped
that
estranged
nevertheless
had
to
to
her
is
go
guessed
from
me
eyes
she
course
intended
you
her
my
unconscious
sparkled
coming.
with
us."
right,
and
mother,
while
desire.
it
XII
Holland
CALL
I
and
beauty
is
black,
wildly
with
enhancing
in
still, clear
hide
luminous
when
a
the
tinted
fairy
blue
the
when
tread,
blue
when
"
striking
breathes
of
all
that
of
the
the
bliss
is
sounds
clock
on
driving
in
"
one
158
this
must
cloudless,
gold^
and
wondrous
mony
har-
with
pails
heavy
of
cobalt
harmonious
tower
cart,
and
to
selfsame
have
in
merged
trees
the
to
goes
the
Hollanders
coarse
wrapped
poetic evening
the
sides
on
sea
sun
home
come
their
at
in
dreams.
the
orange
of
unite
haze
homeward
from
seems
shadows
milkers
balancing
rattling
cows
the
the
with
fully,
of
from
city
ing
mean-
more
flooding
heavens
and
pastures
radiance,
beauty
when
eve,
bell-tower,
blue-green
ants
inhabit-
and
describe
or
"
entire
deep mysterious
little
my
the
tender
peculiar
seen
"
the
the
September
behind
cities
is
it
dispiriting
weather,
explain
to
have
and
canals,
with
its
Sometimes
indescribable
an
everything
must
dream.
mild
trees,
resembling
One
calm,
its
impossible
and
of
because
country
inhospitable
in
sparkles
that
as
suddenly,
country
dreamy
from
to
all
the
the
that
dull
peaceful,
seen
it thus
understand
to
how
much
illusion
wondrous
of
of
glow
and
beauty
days
when
the
in
some
heavenly splendor
for
resembles
dreams,
the
159
this
all
our
inexplicablemanner
with
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
fillour
can
unspeakable
and
the
with
memory
bliss of it.
the inhabitants
But
do
like
not
the
by
deserved
better
the Hollanders
at the club
dreamier
broker,
is
that
than
people
dreamer
stand
under-
As
selves
them-
flattered,though quiteerroneously,when
casuallyremark
much
dreamy.
but
little country
dreamy
compliment
countrymen
feel
I
called
word, it is
own
my
be
to
of this
they.
blockhead
little fellow
Italians
the
and
with
the
To
are
lander
Hol-
dullard, and
gray
beard
and
littleleeringcunningly-stupid
eyes, who
thinks
self
him-
our
he
because
smart
very
profit everywhere
account, always states
and
he
it
what
knew
never
knows
thus
with
thus
the
And
strong
doctor
mulatto
natured
that
less
all
type
dreams
for
are
them
is
punch
before
Dutch
peasant
flooded
f at
"
by
the
than
even
cordialityand
medicine
rum
of
"
his
satisfaction
dream.
to
sleepshe sleepsabsolutelyand
eke
to
swell
to
much
was
how
j ovial
bank
that
he
When
is conscious
when
out
he
young
of nothing,
is awake.
fellow
of
and
"
pathologicaland the
a
good cigar and a
best
stiff
retiring.
in his blue
blouse, on
golden evening
sun,
meadow
amongst
160
the
black
of
BRIDE
THE
and
outline, is
himself
than
and
the
of
the
country
barefooted
humblest
his black
light,is enough
of the
is
bad
of
Now
it also
more
awake
third
better
has
so
vivid
and
always
many
than
when
clear
as
ception
con-
whereof
rare
loungers of
he
equally
course
among
the Toledo
shopkeepers in
and
to
seems
than
he
for
the
sank
several
into
times
who
sons
Kalver-
from
arise
it.
in
And
my
he who
ness
unconscious-
sleepyhead and
dark
nights are
lie like
to
dreams
that
pulsing life.
shame
to
utter
the
whom
with
rich
hours, and
called
be
to
he
sleeps,and
seemed
we
that
me
he who
deserves
dullard, than
also
portly,blond-bearded
the
among
hills
foot-
Amsterdam.
at
spends a
have
are
in
golden evening
beauty
dreamers
officers and
the merchants
straat
is
as
of
of
lad, clambering
in the
to
it,
But
the Piedmontese
concert
and
revealed
yielded.
peasant
dreamer
broker
thousands
In the cities it is of
everywhere,
Naples
has
goats
grand
the sleek,smart
in
of
singletone.
reverie
even
dreamer
has
many
singingdown
and
behind
how
or
the
when
he
But
little
And
Ruysdaal
record
papers
him.
only recognize it
or
undulating
beauty.
this, as
of
background
in fine
dream
beside
cow
Rembrandt
the
dunes
green
nothing
the
DREAMS
cattle, with
marvel
doctor
as
and
pale
knows
less
such
white
and
white
OF
To
a
for
stone
sleep no
after
it
me
wiser
having
early youth
perienced
ex-
that
OF
BRIDE
THE
162
blessedness.
the
impels
in rank
it is the second
all the
us
mighty passion
so
the
"
toward
and
sublimity,
this, though
to
hind
beautiful
most
for
seek
untiringly to
of life,is subordinate
of
the lead
our
Even
which
knowledge,
of
toward
beauty,
purest
take
and
uniting
toward
flock
timid
and
wanton
DREAMS
of the flock.
And
if in
sleep
our
distinctlythan
more
give them
then
not
reader,
to
"
the
as
the
profound
point
now
new
life and
of
union
should
"
we
closest attention?
our
first
we
purest bliss,
out
to
idea, strange
the
present world,
with
pulsing
the
I would
this
And
perceive,
day life,signs of the
in the
and
highest beauty
dreams
and
first
till
"
now
thought-child
promise, born
experience and
future
my
dear
you,
of
the
plation
contem-
The
solution
of
the
do
you
of
secret
lives lies in
our
dreams.
our
You
is not
least
think
"
attainable
not
through
to
the
to
mortal
medium
not
"
that
this
solution
man.
Nor
indeed
man.
And
is it
of its naturalists, is
"
at
patiently
that
are
inevitablyleads
still
digging in a
into a blind alley.
BRIDE
THE
that
the
attract
reach
not
where
the
the eyes
which
and
unmeasured,
do
into
the
begin
hear, the
not
cerning
regionscon-
much
enlightenmentas
than
more
manifestations
as
"
day.
long
As
as
the
among
and
reader
sympathizer, are
traditional
the
creed
became
words
of my
with
intercourse
discoveries
forthwith
which
before
of
the world
has
not
possiblefor
in this
life,with
beauty
and
me
life amid
to
moments
have
low
to
and
of
lands
the rich
my
and
and
aroused
nightsfull
none,
from
alone
monotonous
the
path
is
contentment
souls
rapture
est
lat-
I could
and
Thus
unruly.
sordid
from
me
nor
the
alienation
find peace
narrow,
brief
these
me
and
me
lighton
my
and
brothers,
discover
Thus
made
aside
study, I
hero
For
of
and
trod.
had
me,
for
narrow
great
And
group
contemporaries,nor
science could satisfyme,
outlet
had
one
no
them.
my
an
see
too
too, dear
you
of the
ideas
the
of suggestion,
of
one
know
the breakers
just as
pathfinders,
neither
therefore
dreamer;
myself among
count
always been
I have
remember,
can
vivid
and
great
must
it
the
extend
want
we
even
yes,
"
But
ears
do
the
with
end
and
shut, the
are
ones
searchers,
the
grave
body.
feel,and
of
the
sleep,yet unexplored
of
of
attention
beyond
withering of
the only
day-life,
of
manifestations
the
For
163
DREAMS
OF
sea,
barians.
bar-
daily
by the
by work
of marvellous
164
observe
and
record
all that
of
fields of the
DREAMS
gratefullyand attentively
by day. Thus, despitethe loss
dear
was
consciousness
"
OF
realities which
mystic
of
BRIDE
THE
to
me,
being
useful
the
The
wilderness
promise of
with
Lucia
of
this
Elysian
The
dreams
their
it
had
vehement
deadly, hopeless
and
saw
a
or
not
of
furniture, and
could
with
and
a
then
small,
walls
in
too
vivid
struck
me
inexplicable,
remember
room,
without
windows
about
in
the
dream.
corner
terrifyingweird
narrow,
some
sion
impres-
other
by day; ancourtyard
square
even
with
overgrown
ivy, which
descripappallingbeyond tion,
of meetings
again blissful dreams
and
strange youth
garden, or
the
"
you
with
dreamed
shudder
me
by high
also gruesome
"
in
moving
make
of
one
was
be
to
drous,
disgust or the wonwere
quite disproportionate
explained by, the things we
object,whose
indistinct
acquaint you
must
and
bare, gray
riage
mar-
long, outwardly
immediately
terror
experienced
dream
enclosed
the
sensations
perfect bliss
could
unknown,
And
intensity.
of my
you
bliss,that
and
of terror
not
are
to, and
and
earth."
observations.
nocturnal
surely
that
del Bono
I
period following,
my
the
later birth
prosperous
in
laborer
future, ploughing
For
to
in the
happy
am
or
maiden
in
some
unknown
in
old
my
this
delight.Only
youth
it
who
make
would
sense,
scenery
The
him
and
the
friend
not
weird
first the
At
it
mysterious, for
objects and
its
a
in
great deal
all kinds
life I have
are
to
and
in
about
than
improper
of remedies.
been
that
more
no
of
rain
will make
the
endure.
more
countable
unac-
cent
inno-
most
usually seek
doctors
the
and
throughout
and
observer
talk
have
gest
sug-
long
come
culation
and improper cirindigestion
of this nightly
the cause
and wind, though a frail condition
one
Wait, my
experienceda
any
some
circulation
But
close
times,
of.
dreamed
digestionand
poor
to the conclusion
terror
scenes
girl.
much
seemed
simplest and
the
the
and
resemble
cause
much
without
not
connected
was
my
day-life.
my
terror
with
way
We,
of
sweetheart
or
in
meet
the
earliest
marvellously happy
often, and
very
terror
that
my
would
of
"
In
singleword,
me
around
boy
though
by
me
love.
whom
boy
was
and
dreams
with
dealt
blissful dreams
plain to
was
would
recounted
impressions
its
even
when
happy
me
dream
yes ! that
"
make
can
age
vividlyrecall them.
No
one
hearing such
be able to comprehend
or
weeks
with
filled me
memory
and
delightfor days
sweet
now
trees, whose
chestnut
leaved
165
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
as
well
as
the other
dreamer
as
I am,
and
are
you
harder
as
old
shall
for
see
OF
BRIDE
THE
166
yourselfthese terror-inspirersand
blood-
work
in the
shapes in
life-like
in
know
their tricks
so
and
tracks
track
to
the game
loathsome
with
corpses
and
playing
causing
of
the
you
face
see
tricks
it did
things
filled
with
of alarm
mud,
or
now
fear,
the
prehend
ap-
you
malignity and
be, duly
its
knew
you
because
and, if need
their
"
without
you
before
"
you
path
on
in their wretched
them
dog
their swamps
degree
slightest
all these
the
as
"
spectaclesbefore
as
You
peculiarscent of gruethem
unfolding their
their
fantastic
them
to
it were,
as
to
the
dwelling sphere.
besmirching your
"
depressing you
cause
their
battlefields
shall learn
inventions, and
them,
dark
and
portrayed
malicious
shall
You
someness.
Teniers
and
You
by
"
jestersat
manner.
furnishings of
shall learn
or
and
Breughel
them
queer
DREAMS
to
dare
chastise
them.
These
"
and
The
of
the
are
ghastly people
world's
Indeed,
sages
would
existence
Goethe,
nor
Shelleycalls
realm
of the
miserable
whose
activityneither he,
the
that
creatures
and
seers
ever
not
this
doubt
nor
of
dreams/'
and
any
restless
other
doubted.
signifythat
ourselves
illusions
all bear
an
that
menace
unmistakable
of
we
of
scene
ob-
at
BRIDE
THE
with
imagination,compiled
thus betray
and
low-thinkingone?
in which
of
of
it
to
you
Or
do
hold
contrived
It
that
chance
on
by day against my
on
absolve
irresponsible.For
Not
of
I
only
dreams,
in
the
exasperated
as
though
my
most
sacred
feelingswere
shafts
of
it
was
not
shame
ridicule.
only
and
with
wrath
not
sleep renders
I, myself,
was
it
wicked
And
about
absurdities
after
often
resolutions
very
ones
morning
to
also
I discovered
draw
most
their
morning
with
on
nose
seemed
and
after
night
the
by
It
surprise,but
that
the
Night
led
earnest
and
low-minded
and
also
fashion.
the
done
it.
me.
and
ridiculous
most
carry
I would
night had
of
have
not
upon
to
me
low,
honest, well-meaningfel-
an
baseness, but
the
imposed
was
that
of malicious
I would
that
excuse
dream-life
in the
things,and
fully
art-
passions,also
night, and
at
I knew
Muralto,
this?
incited
I had
war
troublesome
the
with
myself
who
And
beget such
can
The
guard
my
I, Lodovico
it?
escape
deception that
of
sort
indignant defiance.
me
fear
responsiblefor
soul
to
put
der,
mur-
complexities?
this
was
dream
of
retinue
lies to
own
your
believe
you
horrid
lies upon
discoveryand
do
all the
with
through covetousness, of
cent
kill and inciting
the inno-
plottingto
"
the
guilty of
be
yourself to
though
know
not
you
murder
bloody
theft,or
of
know
you
tion,
delibera-
and
reason
thinking mind
Do
167
DREAMS
OF
ing
grow-
awaken-
168
THE
ing, how
could
on
me
it was
determined
it and
carried
on
well
life with
not
the
the
and
act
fication
self-puridoubled,
was
which
another,
has
day
the
by
same
by night
one
of
me
and
by day,
upon
physical senses
to
say
it is the
forces
stand
I may
for
as
For
react
and
not
Thus
well
as
aced
men-
defending my
salvation
same
myself
what
night, and
form
sleep to
which
been
been
nightly
life.
morning
the
judgment.
little clearer
of
means
toward
are
accustomed
by night
by day
as
senseless
the
they
have
it. I would
great advantage.
to
This
judgment,
lifelongstruggle
advance
soul, and
made
free
and
fooled.
it must
and
to endure
not
and
indeed
and
mind
my
vehement
my
being
as
myself,
earnestly sought
healthy soul
that
again been
infusion,that
suggestion,
confounded
and
was
from
issue
DREAMS
OF
I had
absurdly
not
thrust
BRIDE
should
had
occurred
the
in
fixed
memorize
to
to
evening
carefullyin
throughout
me
before
going
to
resolutions, auto-suggestions
continue
working
also
in my
dream
life.
And
realized
that
first essentials
the
life.
of
realize
tie of
would
Thus
guard.
all to
the
Who
while
that
memory
Every
sleep,like
night
Theseus
was
be
must
dreaming, I
wanted
and
dreaming
connecting
I stood
with
before
not
with
me
the
Ariadne's
in
also
cheated
not
were:
be
above
to
the
dark
thread
on
lose
day-
cavern
in his
170
able to create
these
as
the
at
awake
in the
sound
deep
eye, of
the
clearly
my
of
how
the
sent
includes
shut
that
could
reproduce
light
vibrations
less
no
structed
con-
tions
vibra-
objects
complicated
of
molecules
attained,
now
and
the
world
there
must
be
and
from
out
actly
exas
of
mote
day-lifere-
something
which
combinations
infinite
molecular
reality,while
observed
all these
been
impressions with
were
calmly
the
upon
wonderfully
trillions
identical
and
thus
"
I recognized
have
day-lifewhich
are
results
same
were
eyes
of what
billions and
these
felt
midst
oughly
thor-
now
swift
fine,infinitely
infinitely
construction
and
"
of
light,which
combination
time,
explainedby
whose
same
sleep,I pondered
visionary impressions
of
DREAMS
ing
compiled movextraordinarily
And
images?
wide
OF
BRIDE
THE
motions
of
with
an
And
reader,
you
that
success,
that
found
awakening, I
had
attempt had
my
gone
on
met
observing
with
tively
atten-
"
thinking deeply
observing,and thinking
clearly,with full recollection and calm self"
and
in that
consciousness
of wonder
and
mysterious,senseless sphere
deception.
"
sion
deluphilosopherswill talk of
philistine
that only the perceptions of
contend
and
The
"
day
are
But
real
have
and
said
those
of
it before:
sleep a
there
delusion.
mere
is
no
delusion,
or
the
day
the
perceptions of sleepare
do
richer
promises
life,but
has
what
clearness
and
them,
with
which
the
the
to
me
hard
I
reach
of
act
and
study
joy
found
has
not
all
me
in this
forsaken
helped me
has
bear
to
also,above
with
and
all,to try
this
voluntarily in
hoped
point where
practice,to
constant
longer
first elation I
the
filled
success
fortitude.
observe
to
and
could
my
first
comfort
domain
searched.
day-lifeare
this
the
precisionwith
and
purpose
determined, by
accuracy
In
same
life with
further,
contemplate
would
that
now
study
in day-
of the mind
realities of
unexplored
their
found
are
ture,
na-
is steadiness
the
and
day,
than
tion?
atten-
no
delight at
My
the
revelations
that
of their
senses,
our
connected,
un-
it follow
strangeness
of
need
no
because
And
deserve
they
the very
Through
which
that
or
does
more
fleeting,
more
mysterious, does
exist
not
realities
What
beyond perception?
possess
more
they
171
DREAMS
delusion.
everything is
"
OF
BRIDE
THE
that
I could
still greater
to what
extent
senseless
I
might
pass
go
sphere.
sometime
from
waking
to
the
life.
calmness
of
Moreover,
demonic,
also
to
to
seek
dig
day
I
"
thus
doubling
fight the
my
evil
hoped
to
the
pure
and
heavenly and
up
from
the
unknown
entire
world
and
haps
per-
of
172
THE
Of
course
BRIDE
OF
in
myself
field
and
put
the
time
to
spared
writing for
your
for
further
research.
the
than
me,
you,
will
perusal, well
if
reader,
my
them
as
guide
follow
can
you
in
penetrate further
and
me
repeated
bequeath
that
tent
con-
honest
of
be
ordered
I know
by
I must
will
To
gain
we
series
which
others.
by
test
can
unknown.
leavingbehind
observations
be
slowly
very
wholly
so
with
careful
and
with
my
disappointment. Only
ground
DREAMS
I.
For
although
expectations were
my
measure
only brieflymention
not
not
fulfilled in the
of
one
any
that
them
was
wholly disappointed.
retain
To
the
night throughout
that
and
were
they
is
nothing
three
two
or
The
conditions
excellent
body,
entire
The
came
to
good nights
for
sleep
moments
of
tion
observa-
be
weeks
follow
and
absolute
Neir
in
then
satisfactory observation
body
and
the
passivenessand
are
calm.
i tristi lai
comincia
presso
senses
la
mattina.
are:
mind
the
la rondinella
again
succession.
che
tion,
dura-
Sometimes
the
era
"
of brief
intervals.
for
observe
after
of
to
long
night
duration
continued
at
mind
when
of
ever
and
there
the
achieved.
never
of
clearness
in
and
ing,
morn-
state
alle
few
carne
times
only
with unbroken
I
was
Then
all at
sensation
had
and
before
A
to
I have
long
wonderful
desired
the
sleep
termined
de-
found
refreshment
its needed
the
suspension of
invisible
vital
But
being.
conditions
favorable
in the
weariness
whose
body,
my
senseless and
are
rare;
the
made
of
series
this
me
deep sleep.
deliberation
calm
lest it should
perception, anxious
of
sphere
when
occurred
realize with
with
that
extremely
feel
fallingasleep
quicklyinto
necessitatinga
usually I
This
relief that
acted
activities of my
these
fell
in
longer felt,had
without
I succeed
did
and
conviction
no
pensier presa,
divina.
I would
joy
and
glad
quasi
and
once
of
come,
da'
men
consciousness.
tired
very
vision
sue
pellegrina
nostra
mente
dalla
piu
la
che
173
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
of it.
most
has
observations
all:
above
pass
there
that
clear
made
various
are
mediately
gaining consciousness, one imrecognizesby their peculiaratmosphere,
spheres which,
impossible more
what
depths,
on
closelyto
describe.
fields
what
of
One
knows
observation
one
traverses.
There
world
its
of
is
day-life
"
landscapes
altered.
is meant.
sphere
It
and
is not
wherein
the
we
earth
same,
have
we
habitations
the
see
"
but
all
we
again
seen
the
with
strangely
know:
this
174
Thus
and
over
paternal home
but in its
luxury
"
in
and
England
dream
the
image.
Sea
dream
they
themselves
it is
old-time
Lake
also
always
the
forest, and
remain
day.
without
and
same
the
dream
the realities of
the
saw
Pisa, and
but
"
its
Moreover
near
London, differing
totallyfrom
But
with
city
night
many
of Gombo
the North
and
sea,
the
dream
the forest
and
DREAMS
again
over
my
Como
OF
BRIDE
THE
there
this
In
it is
sphere of ecstasy
and
wholly
which
the undoubted
unlike
sense
realityof
the
vast, splendid,more
sees
pattern,
with
admiration.
And
with
In this
intense
very
qualities. One
and
with
sees
them,
wondering
meanwhile
and
the
feet
still
as
and
clothes
waking hours.
less clearlylighted
with
worn
own
rivers,but
overwhelming
tinctly,
perfectly dis-
full consciousness.
peculiarbody
definite
the
that
"
opened
eyes
feels one's
one
at
death
the
and
seas
them
sees
feels one's
sings
lie there
reality,
though
thing,
every-
and
speaks
wonderful
of
also possesses
one
the
admires
sharp intensityand
sphere
of
according to earthy
fillingus
one
strongest, and
and
or
indeed
and
great joy.
our
mountains, trees,
beautiful
with
views
one
landscapes,fashioned
more
idea
impossible to give an
with
and
of self is
consciousness
our
clearness
One
is
top
the
one
clothes
by day.
of
wide
mouth
and
voice
one's
"
sleepingbody
should
one's
hands
sees
one
It
own
resembling
wears,
is all
little dif-
it is
ferent,
through running
as
fleetingly
seen
175
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
it
when
has
one
the
retains
the
calm
and
dream-body
it
for
more,
not
can
one
such
unwonted
cannot
compare
and
day
And
sense.
free
might
it
deep sleep of
sphere
is
very
soar
reason
and
fly.
But
chasm,
and
more
that
lightand
It feels
yond
delightfulbe-
this
but
it
cannot
discern
even
perception of
speak of a new
soaring power is
dream-body can safelydescend
sphere.
taste
acuteness
sense
any
And
the infallible
and
feel,hear,
Yes
an
perceptions
sense
clearlyand
good
for
it.
wakened
waking body
see,
it to
lying
been
wholly dead,
subtlety and
description.
The
only
with
can
though
"
it has
of mood.
delicate subtleties
with
that
all the
the
ing
awak-
on
activelystirring,
have
possesses
pendent
inde-
been
not
would
energiesof
all the
and
knows
still,though
noise
remembers
has
one
both, each
of
One
body
waking body
unaccustomed
the
other.
the dream
that
but
the
And
it.
to
recollection
sense
of
returned
again
rise
and
to
into
the
est
deep-
height.
every
often
efforts.
unlimited.
not
meets
with
176
BRIDE
THE
The
observation
careful
the
into
body
one
OF
DREAMS
of the
other
reversion
of the
is most
awakening
on
remarkable.
One
wake
always
can
And
sphere.
to
waning
with
its distinct
The
above
high
the
at
folded
is
distinct
so
the
lying
is the
follows
and
we
out
and
raised
and
right side,
eyes
with
arms
ever,
howimpossible,
seems
of
speech, of
and
yet there
consciousness
one
sings,but
sleepingbody, still
the
this
into
imagine,assumes
us
it shouts
its
on
each
bodies,
two
stretched
arms
the breast
over
let
it knows
time
death,
as
the
dream-body,
joy-
recurring anH
ever
when
same
an
this
bodilyrecollection,merge
attitude, with
an
it is
me
wonder
never
another.
voluntarilyfrom
of transition
singleindescribable moment
of the
regain the physical consciousness
sleeping body
the
with
silent, immovable,
of
having lain
quite another
memory
in
unseeing,
attitude.
Who
of
once
times
observed
has
observed
the
of this
of
and
reintegration
and
perception. No
father's
of the
that
can
"
"
or
hundreds
meets
with
decline
exclude
no
possess
we
part
spectre
separate itself
from
the
and
flat
decay
possibility
consciousness, will
will he dare
more
of any
existence
the
of renewed
opinion that
I have
longer
it, no
suppositionthat
visible body does not
denial
we
this,as
of
or
sign or
my
proof
being,whether
our
"
to confirm
by
another
the visible
name,
body.
178
THE
safely,that
right and
surround
as
of
ocean,
the
is the telluric
green
spheres
describe
this
meaning
my
But
and
life,just
of the
color
more
vation
slowly,by repeated obserall
more
minutely in
other
can
naturally not
be
unknown
to
writings. The
computed solely
of
Years
ing
know-
where
itself,
only
before
history of
know
to
my
record
pages
fall
may
philistines.For
of the
could
we
only
believe
note
tastic, and
sober
because
of this nocturnal
sary
neces-
life of
greatly influenced my
by the fear that
they
will look
for
will be
hands
of
the
it
upon
lot.
these
as
idle
an
by Rudyard
their
Kipling or
some
H.
G.
dear
You,
amusement.
of
herd
and
the
life,it
the
tales
Wells, conceived
rightlyfollowingthe
into
curious
as
wonder
reader,
in
something
it, undisturbed
phantasy,
of
career
the
universal
trust.
brief
support
gation
repeated investiby followinggenerations are still required.
opens
If
and
color,the
observations.
an
and
favor
thorough knowledge of
impressions. I have tried
acquires
one
from
divine
vaster
Very gradually,very
full
DREAMS
earthlyexistence.
limited
these
OF
is the cosmic
Blue
me.
and
sky
BRIDE
of
am
truth.
a
am
anything
faithful
and
devoted
truth;
but
naked
she reveals
herself
do
not
but
phan-
follower
deny
by night instead
of
of
her
by
day,
and
to
me
it does
whether
remains
revelation
does
or
not
179
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
to
come
revelation,
the
through
me
senses.
the
That
situation
and
by
I
could
child
profound sphere
without
in my
Euphorion,
Helena.
This
metaphor
its vast
The
landscapes.
joy-sphere,however,
pranks
and
of
spook.
I had
bling
resem-
winged
is
to
and
Faust
though
deep wholly as a
joy-sphere with
deeper
"
inevitablyfollowed
sphere of
the
waking by
toward
their
still
beautiful
the
and
already compared
word
the
only
which
from
cares
child
sphere lay
than
"
the
understand
must
one
ceived
per-
Once
creatures
"
rangement
ar-
they
in which
and
mortal
dream,
Goethe's
area
of succession.
most
which,
definite
the
as
order
but
men
likely,because
consider
joyous encounters,
very
some
well
as
voluntarily awaken
not
to
fixed
in
was
day,
in
appear
adhere
dream-spheres
the
This
with
demons
sphere
is
easily
the
sees
visionary objects
recognizable. One
able
sharply and clearly,but they have an indescribA single
yet very distinct spectralcharacter,
or
anything of the
object, a brush, a horseshoe
kind
may
the horror
suddenly
and
is to
it is
very
common
let you
morning,
before
my
eyes
ghastlinessissuingfrom
recognizeit
A
come
as
an
invention
and
by
diately
it,I imme-
of the demons.
your
eyes,
look
around
and
BRIDE
THE
180
bedroom.
recognize your
however,
OF
When
all at
see
you
DREAMS
that
once
room
chair
"
different,unaccustomed,
that
realize
you
still dreaming
are
The
spectres.
I
me,
wake.
false
sharp
and
land
without
when
it
demons
bloody,
But
have
mocking
immoral
when
clear
and
better
than
and
the
dreams,
obscene
images
the
and
convey
in
to
shape
us
and
that
color.
as
by
it.
they
And
very
Then
vile, offensive,
joy-sphere and
of
presence
in
thus
mind, I
action, while
describe
I cannot
and
were
day,
dreams.
themselves
Teniers
not
are
memory
Breughel
have
them.
me,
frequent
the present
to
traversingthis spectralworld.
them
the
me
dreamers
even
consciousness
the strange
see
strong
most
from
come
made
to
dream-domains.
consciousness
the
of
occurred
caused
world
lightinterested
voluntarily as easilyand
you
experiencesof
few
once
that
intense
other
of
this
longer
no
all at
in
nervously
ment
gar-
thing
every-
"
and
times
curious
and
from
from
as
This
The
outlines
I woke
calmly
it
awakening
light
landed
after
But
alarm.
slightest
its
few
first
frightenedand
was
efforts to
this
have
and
thing
some-
empty
yet awake,
not
are
you
is
spectralabout
and
an
by itself,
moves
rise,
to
there
want
you
trayed
pornot
constantly changing
they
do
this not
only
of
their
accord
own
sometimes
them
but
curious
feel
my
become
nameless
obtrusive
too
to
of the
lash
that
alone
If this
form.
much
for
shout
at
and
you,
test
one
such
all my
efforts
low
my
the
old
visitations and
true
to
and
me
of
does
even
good
no
forthwith
appears
I
assure
does there
freer
vile
has
helped
the demons.
struggleswith
lightof
new
demons
than
more
me
to
temptations. Thus,
tales
than
morning
fightingthat,
transmitted
in the
too
them,
strugglewith
by day,
and
pable
pal-
or
becomes
refreshed,never
more
this sort
was
stand
under-
successful
by
plastic
thrashing. And
happier, serener
also
certain
if that
which
"
sound
awakens
Yet, it
whip
will
you
never
follow
from
statements
my
after
for
command
begone," and
givethem
and
"
"
them,
wish
I must
loudly
tance
dis-
strange
visible,audible
they
sphere, thought
spectralcompany
I must
me
sounds
never
in truth
senseless
of
expression in shape
at
must
efficacious without
is not
them
authority and
you
the
in
even
when
perhaps
reader, but
dear
you,
This
whip.
keep
of
about, and
and
dread
can
words
by vigorous
a
bering
throngs num-
varies, yet
them
grow
by making
moved
I have
over
old
the
Amid
shapes.
power
again
and
command,
my
blue, and
or
of them
hundreds
at
181
amuse
assume
though
also
smaller, black
larger or
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
come
over-
much
regarding
has
evil
appeared
experience.
I must
Here
waking body
our
and
comfort
in
But
thought.
of
in the control
grief,in
in
"
stirringemotion
"
It then
control.
or
that
subtlety of
in
weaker, namely
itself in countless
gances,
extrava-
curb.
this
From
learn
must
we
of peace,
looses
countenance,
check
it is
and
the
which
not
of mood
sense
also
and
respect
one
regulate
to
conclusion
the
I draw
control
and
only
can
and
dream-body
our
vision, in the
happiness,
strange
very
in sensitiveness
"
of
keenness
feeling,in
respects it is superior
In many
dream-nature.
our
"
against
you
warn
DREAMS
important peculiarityof
and
to
OF
BRIDE
THE
182
life is
it,
to
ciplined
dis-
and
itself of well-mastered
avail
our
passions.
Therefore
without
abiding
If, with
danger.
haughty
little
more
repented, for
and
and
And
manner,
carried
was
could
no
extravagances,
sorrow,
along by
restrain
could
self-
assume
if I associated
tribe, I
their
I,
myself
to
soon
ness
wanton-
the
longer subdue
nor
never
much
to
the bold
familiarlywith
folly,I
disgrace and
toward
reserved
and
little too
induced
is
demon-sphere
in the
my
in my
ter
laughown
wrath
them.
this
most
especiallyapplies to
licentious-
BRIDE
THE
of which
ness,
They
advantage.
I
success.
long
and
when
But
Thus
reader,
from
stand
passions are
animals
of
and
batted.
for
at
the
body
material
only
demon
above
the
body,
harvests
resulting
are
be
is
taming
Demons
and
has
longer
what
nocturnal
is
domestic
the
to
The
nature.
tamed,
that
sions
pas-
never
com-
the
master, and
which
wasting
can
of
away
power
to
main
reour
tame.
by day.
sown
life
domain.
accomplished by day,
fading
no
mies
ene-
are
useful
difficult to
more
demons
household,
own
me.
of
obscure
In
our
this
effect
individual
own
should
this
the
own
our
personal
own
night they
after
Yet
our
to
emotions
And
of
rightly,dear
me
friends, the
our
belonging
economy
the better
passions.
outside
over
power
struggling with
and
But
demon
As
consciousness
of my
salutary
and
woman.
I have
they get
the
regards
as
this
is not
this
much
sexless
are
or
understand
must
you
man
the clearness
is dimmed
memory
they
as
clearly realize
as
them.
It
that
alternately appear
can
with
weakness
my
take
to
in lascivious
masters
past
are
noticed
soon
183
particularlyready
are
practisedon
and
pranks
they
DREAMS
OF
the
deeper insightwith
being and
better,
spheres impure
the
lust
its
no
to
our
less obscure
higher
and
regard
base
or
besiegers.
deeper dream-
lasciviousness
do
not
do,
BRIDE
THE
184
Love
occur.
however.
sphere,
a
curious
and
it
of
humiliation.
raptures
though
very
more
peculiar
quality
aversion
and
separation.
is
it
similar
to
beautiful
that
disgust,
and
is
is
in
it
eliminated
leaves
with
any
shame
unions
love-life
and
it
feel
tranquil.
vile
with
with
we
are
the
joy-
matters
which
there
the
to
carries
for
acteristic
char-
unfailing
sexual
never
lust
Yet
splendor
pertaining
and
that
unknown
almost
an
over
passes
disregard,
suggestion
of
everything
that
DREAMS
transports
But
of
OF
and
of
day,
But
the
behind
subtle
186
BRIDE
THE
all the
grown
and
still
great
nooks
of
in its
only
And
owners.
the
with
satin
the
Christmas
the
showed
old
had
paving
under
entwined
and
about
abode
and
me,
and
my
not
often.
not
continued
to
mother
They
which
attain
I could
which
maid
to
probably
of my
the
life.
thirst
for
see
it,or
and
the
the
stone
and
quiet, temperate
by myself the
meals,
us,
but
reckoned
books
gathering
tion
consecra-
with
Lucia
and
aside
among
her
saw
that
from
years,
the
good
way
and
my
inner
knowledge.
the
But
"
stone
and
stucco
quietlywent my own
studied, followingonly the guidings of
years
white
columns.
live with
be
of
and
rigorous,tranquil,secluded
were
may
where
find in Rome.
the
at
as
hind
be-
and
"
through
withdrew,
by study
life endeavored
her
the
of
still there
was
way
extent
according
pink
crumbling
their
pushed
this
Into
the
the
thousands
the
brooklet
of
front
sheen
pillared portico,
from
roses
The
rose.
caretakers
were
with
in the
home
at
gentle breeze,
mountains
of the
rooms
its smooth
few
we
moire
or
by
derness,
neglectedwil-
directlyin
lake, with
the
were
though
as
touched
was
beautiful
inhabited
we
comers
garden was
deep blue,
it
DREAMS
and
instead
more
OF
women
did not
the
heed
enfant
it.
Bernard
terrible
among
I did
not
jamin
Shaw, the Benmy
brethren,
THE
tries his
BRIDE
best
wins
the
there
is
who
woman
and
surely
herd
common
him,
for, desires
and
him
seated
useful
instincts,of
child.
But
woman
in her
does
the husband
Lucia
was
She
features
in her
criticism
teachings
the
of
the
facets
"
honor
as
that
some
an
the
"
yet of firm
firm
build
and
had
which
she
all its
her
That
mental
the
personal
might
called honorable
ity
real-
Thus
it
spiritual
belonged.
be
what
tion
concep-
and
fixed,clear, clean-cut
as
un-
out
With-
the
unalterable
ingly
dar-
and
sentiments.
to
the
but
women,
less of that
showed
sublime.
with
diamond.
ages
only, but
father.
Titian's
of
bining
com-
usually she
woman,
possessedfor
the
to her
was
deep-
beautiful
take
the
large
to
group
was
livingand
of
and
give,and
subjectedherself
she
her, tradition
to
her
true, and
to
feelingsand
conventional
The
because
spirit.
Latin
characteristically
also
was
Germanic
the
had
exuberant
She
want
gentle
softer, and
were
eyes
primarily
of
is not
all to
very
regular, massive
her
woman
man,
good
higher than
character.
of
not
values
desired
all this
the
interest
lieve
be-
to
and
the
the
activities
to
the
to
the
after
that
"
than
were
one
selfish ends
accepts
reverse
this
in
if
But
it is the
the
not
imagine
only
finds
she
should
187
that
truth
more
suspects.
one
world
and
man
considers
thereby
cares
the
show
to
DREAMS
OF
social
and
mutable
im-
variable,
was
now
BRIDE
THE
188
dishonorable,
considered
she
of the
lastingkernel
and
vice
she
me.
She
also
no
which,
myself sometimes
was
which
fact
French
And
step.
did
not
husband
and
she
it
ingenuous
into
be turned
would
soon
as
What
his honor.
the
home,
were
for
But
the
her
be menaced
be she would
her
had
honor
of
sacrifice her
been
bounds
did
had
never
as
indulgence
stepped.
over-
were
his
riage
mar-
yet jeopardized
honor
wife, the
family
name
which
of
these
"
realities,which
might
if need
life to defend.
in
reared
majority
this way
before
actions, and
certain
ognized
rec-
preferred
Lucia's
man
circumscribed
by
tion
equallyrigidcondemna-
an
honor
disturbed
un-
blindness.
that
countries
her
though
and
me
assumed
young
in Latin
had
She
so
painfully.
perfectright to
conventional
as
it
to
me
wife, and
realized
also
But
light
Englishwoman's need
prematrimonial purity
annoyed
or
with
over
impressed
feel the
had
dissipations,
allusions
illusion of
thinking,yet
Emmy's
bore
the
upholding
that
she
to
seem
in both
passed
it often
that
She
she
bachelor
young
himself
allowed
to
constantly
must
a
which,
despised,but
she
That
this
enviable
very
I, she
as
life's behest.
at
of mind
which
the
Through
peace
seemed
tendencies
no
ideals
curtail
like
had
for
seek
did not
that
on
versa,
changing idea.
often
perplexities,
in my
of
DREAMS
possesseda serenityand
she
of
and
reflected
never
OF
luxury,
large
and
fortune
on
at
ing
reachher
dis-
BRIDE
THE
she
But
posal.
mother's
simplicity.That
it I dare
about
forever
my
mother
and
worthlessness
hear
observe
her
for
endangering
The
with
not
want
conscious
with
admitting
in
and
it to
whole
biology,my
great endeavor
to
writ of the
and
in
of my
Thus
lasted
bound
was
have
mind
my
to
win
as
women
it,
strength of
about
word
And
it
sorbed
ab-
was
physics,in physiology
mind
engrossed
was
deciphersomething of
phenomena
of life and
the dark
degree to penetrate
some
in the
the mysterious
Nature,
recesses
nature.
own
the
for
and
intent,but
themselves.
chemistry
possible
peace.
not
saying
ever
resisted
was
obstinate
all the
arrange
I therefore
as
serving
de-
making
match-
to
determined
deliberate
of
time
same
motherly
I did
were
women
the
at
household
because
sistance.
re-
the miserable-
nothing,however.
two
thing
stubborn
only thing
much
the
other
an-
was
disagreeablyto
and
as
little
as
earthly life,and
son.
machinations
profitedme
it.
on
her
utmost
this
me
the
as
the
to
of the
thought,
just
my
unconscious
secret
marriage
without
It
with
how
silent
for
talkingof
attention,
our
and
rich
and
hereafter
blessedness
of
say,
cared
maintaining
most
impressed me
It
the
not
with
house
mother
my
189
give it
to
for
reason
ness
seemed
never
lived in my
and
DREAMS
OF
conflict
years
was
unequal
finallyfound
"
and
though
it
myself conquered
BRIDE
THE
190
for
than
I
had
unconscious
the
conquered
in the
illusion that
the
this, mark
it
longer
no
that
moreover
is
finer
no
myself
the
was
macy
diplo-
acting,
the
and
devoted
most
all
But
conquering party.
well, with
sible
pos-
diplomacy of women.
tained
withal
wholly main-
and
been
attacking and
the
was
responsible. There
alone
was
it
back, and
draw
to
me
DREAMS
I felt that
by surprise.
as
OF
selfish
un-
love.
in
Actually
never
with
was
Lucia
that
in
for
would
than
union
the
seem
make
for
call her
she
this
her
and
balance
to
as
conceit
power
that
rational
of
very
sentiment,
for
love,
do
also
well-considered
life.
own
that
and
and
had
for
thus, from
that
rose
never
all
son.
rea-
and
believed,that
affection
suffice
giving direction
I lived
my
able
lov-
happy
sensible
many
everyone
solid basis
mother
my
happy,
my
passion.
reallywas
more
me
this
making
in my
our
her
for
mad
reason
believed, as
for
common
and
must
lacked
so
paroxysms
people, and
I could
same
most
height of
And
staid
the
But
'
to
me
her, because
creature.
to many
But
excited
Emmy
love
must
charm
everyone
she
this,despite
admired
just
mysterious, impenetrable something
Lucia
loved
and
great
what
character.
certain
that
for
and
beauty
stainless
to
del Bono
her
Tenders,
Emmy
years' companionship.
many
her
with
as
nature,
amorous
my
love,
in the
nature
own
out
very
tirely
en-
the head-
BRIDE
THE
of
quarters
OF
DREAMS
191
self-consciousness,could
my
her seemed
for
I thus
whom
and
who
me.'^
as
to
But
I should
what
I had
felt for
Then
how
life to
my
accorded
wife
my
True,
have
to
her
again swore
also
faithful
and
to
Now
less
no
make
own
human
person
such
to
my
I would
be
her, and
to
servient
happiness sub-
is, according
person
word, also
he
mask, has
his ideals
breeding.
to
that
ever
And
live himself
believe himself
of human
if he
into
to be what
the
he
part
wrought
such
worth,
means
it
so
the
cere,
simply sin-
has
assumed
to
mask, and
so
wholly uncomplicated,but
according
tries
I also
husband
be
living,
and
intention.
"
there
for himself
naive
in acting
no
fragile
of this
so
the
wrong
saw
good
primitivemeaning
no
with
mankind
I
feel.
hers.
every
is
disappoint
expected to
never
exemplary
all times
at
desire
to
"
and
would
seemed
humiliation, I should
such
to
woman,
considered
with
part
better
do
surely never
from
such
she
feel
ever
Emmy,
excellent
what
would
save
could
an
brotherlyuprightness,and
meant
happy by marrying
That
believe.
devote
to
Lucia
doubt.
woman
not
than
make
beyond
another
could
of
counsels
deliberation.
reasonable
That
freely
role,
of fitness
honestly,he
that
he
pretends. Thus,
can
fol-
192
THE
lowing his
BRIDE
himself
fashions
and
be
the
he
assume
form
own
of
plasticity
is called
indeed
the
part
best
This
that
lover
true
of my
in
and
followed
the
saw
mother's
The
the
their
voice
former
that
in
far
Lucia
expected
the history
as
was
and
she
and
honoring
be
she
as
with
which
her
tial
essen-
accepted
it all
of
mark
She
desire, that
own
wished
she
sumed
as-
she
her
to
so
for
whatsoever.
difficulty
no
it, with
had
continued
the
trusted
in
to hearken
of the herd.
snowy
love.
reallyfillthe
husband
suggestion of
complacence
and
become
related
pleasing
and
between,
honestly hoped
I would
past,
not
was
affection
time
devoted
my
everything would
to the
just estimation;
confidence,and
my
is
simply tried
nature.
some
I also
reverently,as
same
and
Lucia
boundaries
thus
and
me.
heart
to
knave
toward
degrees of
would
nature
find
to
unattainable
and
and
difficult and
not
form
the
moved
re-
ably,
nature, he fails miser-
my
the
emotional
was
true
my
efface
to
the
merge
But
far
part
ideals
played
entirelyforeignto
my
enact
cided,
de-
wretch.
Thus
one
itself.
manifests
his true
will
pronounced,
more
scoundrel
ideals,he moulds
personalitywhich
mask,
his
from
the
into
unchangeable it
and
to
form
respected the
more
would
others'
or
own
DREAMS
OF
caps
of
the
extent,
had
mountains
the
mimosas
suddenly
to
about
bloomed
melted
half
pro-
BRIDE
THE
194
force
the
of
landing place
before
event
The
church
the
and
Lucia
formed
and
earth.
on
and
roses
returning
line
multi-colored
music,
of the
good days
and
serene
was
though
cheeringas
candles, and
long
ran
though
as
on
the
draperies trailingthrough
songs
still in the
of
at
as
urchins
street
even
hundreds
with
lake,
water,
cathedral
the
to
the
from
up
joy
signifiedan additional
of
was
fragrant with masses
gondolas
our
lined
The
was
The
represented.
were
boats
our
there
with
radiant
Como
royalty.
and
us,
this
were
we
Borgias.
ness,
quiethappi-
with
beaming
but
clear
of
a
of
arrival
the
of
populace
street
violet
only the
Not
glittering
pageant.
crimson
clergy were
and
but
DREAMS
OF
dimmed
eyes
She
tear.
it
me
beautiful
comedy
When
the
by only
nothing ahead
saw
not
was
that
the
hard
It
scene.
and
to
of
sun
not
was
enacted,
sank
sustain
us
but
I sat
contemplating
of
the
the
the
bliss,
lake.
The
mountain
colors
much
in this
role
or
lovelydream.
the
terrace
tating
medi-
colors
of the
darkly
green
foliageof
on
mountains
sky,
and
slopes and
merged
and
the
opposite,
evening light,above
purplishviolet
so
part
my
perhaps
as
shimmering well-nighblackish
blue
slightest
suspicion
welcome
For
blue
the
it the
below
the
soft
steel
became
one
THE
the
with
BRIDE
this
marking
me,
representative
back
back
looks
of
one
as
to
to
the
buoy
rounding
sur-
table
unforget-
which
look
we
life
of
journey
our
on
blossoms
lemon
moments,
repeatedly
skipper
the
of
fragrance
195
DREAMS
OF
the
as
lighthouse
or
passed.
brilliant
sharp
of
and
the
of
thought
the
more
myself,
of
and
real
"
which
why
the
when
myself
and
compared
and
impressions
asking
day,
really
dream-world
my
of
night
I
the
was
two
with
most
worlds
the
those
truly
was
XIV
THERE
which
well
it
in
and
Then
them,
others
first,that
you
you
had
the
day
had
that
that
if you
But
that
one
relation
of
I
we
say
them,
them
their
call
these
from
without
proofs
it is not
and
ever
is but
God
nice
to
seen
of
cerning
it,con-
are
him
presumptions
and
who
196
fool
to
the
is
fully
scorn-
It
people
superman,
even
for
value
presumption.
thrust
ions,
vis-
causes.
not
"
chapter,
regularityin
presumption
away
before
Long
last
or
these
passing
dream.
in the
dead,
reason,
has
that
that
says
so.
with
culiarit
pe-
ber
remem-
are
persons
whose
you
two
not
met
to
who
persons
do
others
see
the
formed
All
of different
these
your
I told
presumption
all that.
in
happened
observed
usually
persons,
observed
had
the
dead
of which
already
have
as
ing
distinguish-
vividlyof
forgotten
and
no
dream
also
are
it has
may
or
surely been
have
doubt
very
in
dream-world
without
you
your
the
probably
dreamt
you
in
reader,
Without
moreover
near
dear
I, but
as
died.
have
sphere
you,
such.
as
that
you
is
is
for
whom
slighterthan
THE
BRIDE
presumption, into
God
Christ
and
father
are
and
skin
their
be
from
and
reader.
the
presumptions.
mother, too,
your
deduced
but
are
sumptions,
pre-
experiences,aroused
their
imply
to
seem
eyes
by
and
for you.
to conceal
Thus
waggishly
experience than
more
though they
even
superman,
what
as
Believe
Your
hands
idol.
contrived
But
their
197
DREAMS
OF
presumed
when
that
sphere,and
sleepingman
always
the dead
the
this
retains
also have
cannot
sphere and
fore
there-
and
own
living,
ference
the dif-
grasp
his
their
of
dream-body
there,he
enters
between
that
the dead
are
still alive.
I had
Now
on
still
was
terror-dream
beginningregularlyrepeated itself.
This dream
I consider
nothing but
echo
in
violent
the
deeper
shock
that
waking
my
this
Beyond
of
chasms
attach
of
him
sailingwith
last
our
that
First
father.
my
this dreamed
before
often
very
the
it
to
at the
of
had
body
the
painful
soul,
my
to
no
the
tained.
sus-
deeper
significance.
But
as
of
wholly
came
in
perceptiblydifferent
with
walked
around
dream
then
my
though
father
my
shoulders
he
was
and
while
cried.
trying his
best
acter,
char-
different
which
sphere, in
he
put his
It seemed
to
show
to
me
arm
me
the
THE
198
he
did
remember
not
that
asked
for.
Latin
it
moreover
nonsense.
to
him,
and
some
such
of
out
words,
also
and
make
think
me
I woke
fullythat
and
my
suddenly
making
The
was
remorse
he
me
shiver
first hours
who
for
had
his
that
I knew
nounced
pro-
the
and
is to
say:
apparently
was
just
wondrous
sign
de"
plas-
nonsensical
as
in the
dream
between
word
sensible
meanings
interchange thoughts
knew
well
very
that
in which
way
the
at
wanted
father
my
the
this
formed.
was
it took
me
was
struck
me
like
from
head
to
after
waking
communed
at
with
me
long
dead.
father
rage
remember
relation
also
I
has
and
something about
about
butterflydecoration
Then
intention
awaking
on
see
longer
construe
and
"
it
wings,
species. But
and
the
his
word,
can
nonsense
without
time
one
as
ous
curi-
different
wholly
and
spirit,
and
the
butterflywith
Latin, that
said
and
fine
pointing to
he
for
of
part
dream
wings
name
is
dead
was
embarrassed,
no
good
my
or
there
he
let him
only
was
"
my
fond
was
my
to
word
But
the
raodic
to
that
word
species. The
on
than
unexpectedly gets more
So as also to do something on
evident
he knew
usuallyso sparing.
was
pleasehim, I caught
blue
arabesques on
the
DREAMS
side somewhat
his
by
child
as
which
of which
walked
to
OF
of tenderness
marks
and
BRIDE
time
And
cold
ize
to real-
this realization
whirlwind,
foot.
I
was
sure
that
me,
that
he
in the
last
it
felt
moments
of his life,and
toward
tender
OF
therefore
cried
ornamented
the
from
that
the
day
are
to
of
hostile,
spendthriftand a miser.
but
undergoes this
regularly befalls
that
the
at
when
Even
of
end
No
day
one
and
of
philistine,
man
so
after
I face
so
acter
firm in charit still
And
many
years,
night with
the
its
unbelieving expectancy.
fallingasleepI
transition,and
turns
dull
influence.
me,
critical
with
wonders
even
another
devotee
religious
and
poet
me.
different
so
possible,as though by
in the company
atheist, of
only
realize
cannot
the next
the
I
morning
ing
com-
again
how
know
I could
again
that
clear
yet
an
unusually
was
the
of
those
absolutelyas
had
albeit not
impressionsof
the
But
as
meaning,
full of
and
of
wings
and
I also
me.
199
DREAMS
BRIDE
THE
the
face
the
image
completely.
of
in
our
men
like
deadly frost
blossoms
cruel
of
their
steep
group
are
surprised
have
faded
so
prodigious fallacyof
most
cripplestheir aspirations,and
low
bends
between
group
this
struggle between
can
be reached
and
kills the
growing wisdom,
young
walls
and
and
could
memory
mightiestand
The
love
we
one
"
heart
is the
belief and
and
tender
ing
erect-
tween
heart, be-
fallacy that
unbelief
through something
that
in
verdict
they
call
200
BRIDE
THE
Reason
that
and
Word.
But
of
and
is
the
only
as
in
of
that
the
truth,
"
most
ancient
expecting
to
get
the
nearest
illogical.'^
the
of
the
realm
of
the
But
the
truth
in
actual
not
where
perience
ex-
and
Reason,
nation,
and
the
see
the
logical
reasoning
did
of
language,
reason
and
True
realm
childish
confuse
patient
truth.
call
we
actual,
that
the
word,
and
Athens,
"
in
of
what
not
person
Logos
lead
himself
young
In
the
weapon
only
realm
symbol.
Reason
its
as
rules
the
in
scheme
bears
reason
imagination,
DREAMS
OF
deed
in-
must
father
his
Plato
logos
is
While
gazed
my
The
subtle
carried
after
death
Shall
be?
clearlyas
clearly I
to
"
"
something
words
strange
to
her
and
shake
her
rested
so
"
without
had
close
come
doubtfully,as
about
her,
to
her
her
listen.
I asked
she
what
well
very
fold her
head
Then
in my
and,
I heard
arms.
with
the
motion
again
mouth,
I remembered
upon
At
surprise me.
sounds
as
as
me,
and
But
slender
though I
of a wildly
face
stay?"
I wanted
fingers on
at
As
dear
awake
unusual
not
them, and
with
you
Then
did
understood
I
say
"Will
should
here.
"
her, somewhat
at
were
moment
saw
tion
percep-
yet entirely."
These
meant
hear,
whisperinglyreplied:
Not
the
the
life
"
Emmy?
there
she
the
spoke calmly:
I looked
Then
and
alive
it you,
though
now
and
trees
am
will
perceiveafter death,
was
and
me
Is
rest,
sense."
While
up
while
cannot
and
these
seldom
Surely
too?
positiveas
as
see
now
now
now,
body
be
never
play.
perceive,see,
we
then
subtle
so
"
or
she would
what
their
on
night
"
DREAMS
her, wondering
at
thoughts
say,
OF
BRIDE
THE
202
that
And
sounded
re-
all
that
heavy responsibility
knew
that this trampling
THE
BRIDE
gallop was
connected
drive
to
or
great
fear
But
"
was
put
And
fetch
me
end
to
this
felt
while
me,
an
to
horrible,
sounds
the
came
nearer.
smiled
Emmy
I shall
Then,
where
tender
"
smile
gracious
again."
come
the
at
the
met
sky,
could
not
face
toward
of
father
my
life, a
he
horse
or
but
it
to
the
ing
narrow-
Then
of
and
"
nearer
terror.
row
proaching.
ap-
bull
came
shield
to
mingling of
of
space
all
trees, the
he
walked
her, saying:
diver who,
the
dreamt
meanwhile, only
only
moment
and
light, one
of
air
dreaming
and
two
place,
spheres of
turning around
consciousness
from
took
as
again relieving,
the transition
I had
and
up
strange transition
chaotic
of the
loses
water,
rose
oppressing,then
sensation
small, and
very
appeared,
rolling together
moment
and
late ! "
this that
is like
beeches
galloping beast
"
though
as
It is too
which
fear
my
Emmy
After
until
distinguishwhich
sideways through
once,
pale
the
saw
black,
was
and
nearer
straight lane,
red
path gleamed
mossy
It
"
the
of
alternatingbrownish
appeared
green
spruce
lightgreen
and
end
very
the
blackish
at
to
It
203
said:
and
the
risingin
DREAMS
it.
happiness.
and
nearer
with
Emmy,
away
serene
choking
OF
now
ago,
up
and
and
the
under
down
daylight,
"
waking.
actuallywoke.
to
I had
thought
And
that
could
there
be
never
those
to
the
which
senses.
in my
Emmy
in
our
arms,
opened
which
of
red
thick
carts
stood
glossy hair
wife
in the
which
glance
disarray
was
love.
in
cold, soulless
the
wardrobes,
pealing,
were
cracking.
in it I
dishevelled
of
still
the world
about
and
as
other
clasp each
doors, bells
out
It
other's
saw
to mine
next
stirred
to
to
white
the
It
other
An-
dark,
saw
on
morning.
was
my
thoughts and
like
commotion
bee-hive
against. Vainly
and
harmony
restore
My
me.
knocked
has
someone
sought
by calm
peace
in
myself
reflection.
strongest feelingwas
inexpiableguilt.
oppressed
toward
looked
agitationseized
violent
feelingswere
My
each
her
Lucia.
"
to
spread
"
so
whelming
over-
ears.
bed
on
seen
her, her
wanted
Out
carpets.
were
cushion
I had
apartment, mirrored
hotel
and
body
dazzling,more
in my
awakened.
perplexed as
voice
and
eyes
my
I had
luxury
and
tasted
had
we
belong
to
without
seen
her
had
we
out
senses,
life
more
ever
eyes,
and
"
all turned
Emmy
"
I had
positivelyas
lived
yet
memory
and
body
ceptions
per-
waking.
on
came
distinct
and
the
astonished
was
then
But
clear
the
to
"
morning
many
after
now
dream
such
life without
in the
as
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
204
me
this
Much
after
my
one
graver
of
guilt,terrible,
guiltthan
had
youthful errings.
gentle,dark-haired
woman,
who
ever
Guilt
lay
sleepingby
become
wife.
For
able
loved
we
made
And
I knew
to
me
all it
her
seen
other,
permitted to
was
deceit
and
spoken
I should
as
to
fright.
nervous
also
father
my
this meant.
the
manifestation
went
which
me
had
"
not
her.
ing
appear-
of
instance
an
oft-propounded correspondence of
of the
how
her
Might
distinctlythis night be
so
death
and
quietly,dressed
and
spirit?
anxiety I got
my
to
be
with
the
In
"
never
and
back
came
but
what
where
but
"
with
Emmy,
seen
after
memory
shiver
me
only
each
still existed
another
Then
I had
205
this other.
to love
Emmy
whom
I had
stillexisted.
her, and
DREAMS
side, and
my
my
Emmy
OF
BRIDE
THE
up
out.
The
smoke
air
from
We
the
already
last
farewell.
and
forsaken
the
of
wood
and
houses,
formed
cool
I roved
balance
about
returned
only
from
and
the
and
work
sent
of
bidding
covered
snow
the
the
soft tender
the
transparent
bridges, towers
white
of the
snow
afternoon
more
mountains
and
than
"
spiritual
my
ever
and
estranged
world.
telegram
to
harmony.
woods
in the
winter, which
on
noble
the
umns.
straight col-
here
and
of the
toward
human
the
and
layer
restored, but
the
in
up
mountains,
green
antique
rose
Italy, was
thin
sparklingly fresh,
Lucerne
at
bright emerald
the
and
houses
were
had
roofs
keen
was
Emmy's
family
In Lon-
"
don
this
Not
night,but
I attached
died.
fact
the
that
she
though
I
her
mine.
showed
Lucia
sad
my
I wished
with
not
did
and
utmost
not
calm.
ask
It
was
would
and
She
ingly
willthan
more
me
had
she
as
spond
corre-
she, and
been
introspectivemood.
me
do,
thereby explaining
message,
tell,just
to
the
the
and
forgave
did
me
had
many
really mine,
now
she
so
it had
made
died
Truant
ago
time
that
death
was
remain
Mrs.
months
point of
I knew
certaintyof
ever
"
as
significance,
the
And
Truant."
Emmy
three
no
exactly.
as
Mrs.
DREAMS
the reply:
night came
Simla
January."
fever
the
OF
address
Wire
toward
to
BRIDE
THE
206
always
met
her
discretion
in my,
to
had
hoped
that
me
inex-
humors.
plainable,
if
But
would
now
would
be
now
bestowed
now
now
felt it
wife, but
side and
as
it
who
went
out
I had
seen
so
whose
as
the
cold
day
not
was
bore
desire
with
great
toward
the
the
presence
never
daylight could
done, and
only
who
one
reverse.
felt that
fervent
being whose
I had
procured
for
I had
slept by
fair
whose
me
my
passionate
wished
tenderness, and
had
love
miserably
was
I had
wrong.
clearly,whom
unutterable
had
what
name.
my
her, she
heart
my
entire
my
exactly the
was
fullyrealized
only
and
on
effect
The
deceived.
she
perchance
image
to
brace
em-
voice
bliss such
THE
all
night
I
felt
day
that
the
to
arms
should
of
And
the
have
perhaps
burn
to
weakling,
man
adulterer,
an
earth
on
the
by
abused
ever.
would
into
taken
my
assumed
an
ever
another
in
of
news
conscience
my
more
tenderness.
guilt, which
lulled
on
than
and
loyalty
been
offer
to
had
certainty
friendly mask,
of
able
be
whom
feeling
bitter
with
never
wife, than
my
207
DREAMS
and
"
woman,
appearance
began
long,
poor
as
OF
BRIDE
with
myself
might
her
death,
tensity
in-
greater
as
coward,
for
something
have
imputed
that
to
no
me
as
guilt.
But
knew
that
is
sin
deed
realized
the
as
sad
patience
its
but
whole,
law
Maker.
to
for
and
the
bad
of
often
which
the
sake
out
of
had
and
and
acted
just
salutary
must
of
and
submit
the
respect
sacred
to
the
have
I, thus
as
consciousness
of
consequence
pernicious,
law,
pain,
would
never
baneful
we
with
distressing
logical
as
effect
individual,
this
the
not
are
writhed
who
one
and
remorse
judgment
guilty
as
that
of
free
my
condemned
"
while
then,
even
but
for
for
love
character
sublime
it
humanity
unjust
with
that
will
the
and
of
of
XVI
order
IN
actively
dream
world,
actual
the
by
It
swift
in
on
is
after
usually
full
before
time
next
before
in
that
and
like
of
instruments
had
and
him
full
he
was
first
the
one
the
during
astronomical
as
sun.
calling
on
so
memory,
selected
in
one
some
for
this
father.
my
seen
with
that
the
of
eclipse
determined
And
was
an
just
the
do
distinctly
hand
at
very
evening
every
the
be
that
more
upon
pace.
with
shall
once
"
rushes
dreams
then,
is
it will
observation
had
dream.
purpose
never
tool
during
I
it
the
out,
what
And
stamped
ready
moments
Thus
asleep,
Sometimes
happy
plan
up,
dream.
my
falling
formulated
getting
short,
too
delay
to
these
I
ing
Dur-
everything
able
that
consciousness,
morning
my
of
one
usually
that
so
being
my
is
betimes
plan.
fleetingly.
flight
without
me
time
too
pass
the
upon
the
it
upon
the
in
thing
resolve
must
dream
incidents
soar
out
carry
definitely determine
and
the
to
times
many
consciousness,
dead,
never
happiness.
208
in
never
in
the
my
dreams,
with
sphere
the
of
but
ory
mem-
light
210
to
see
to
see
my
father.
my
father
Then
saw
before
out
is
BRIDE
THE
Oh
sunny,
little
"
inside," said I.
through
many
continued
my
when
This
I had
known
left
he
and
He
mild, and
"
!"
"
to
day,
him
and
than
as
when
his face
and
was
bright.
!"
and
with
him.
mio ! "
And
seeching
be-
heard
it
was
his face.
was
hand
my
hand
my
press
it
ditional
ad-
an
toward
Vico
And
father
younger
Father
than
more
I gave
"
I walked
Good
I ;
there.
sitting
like my
clear
ran
room.
him
blue
I made
expressionon
shone
said
to
saw
dark
The
gesture
say
! I
He
him, but
see
room
exactly
wore
his eyes
Father
him
not
me.
"
small.
and
empty too,
behold
felt hat.
did
from
looked
he
low
room
And
time
house,
and
search
room.
I wanted
landscape spread
green
Here
rooms
the last
saw
father !
yes ! my
!"
a
me,
DREAMS
OF
and
he
took
it seemed
to
it.
cost
He
him
physical exertion.
said,
I
It
he
was
tried
or
utmost
with
I must
he
and
looked
something, but
I have
effort
"
seek
do, counsel
at
saw
that
mildly.
me
I could
not
stand
under-
fervor, I asked
I
glorioussensation;
warm,
sincerest
advice?
forgivenme
you
his best
it
me
Have
murmured
He
the
"
for
me
!"
the
"
best.
Can
Tell
you
me
give
what
he
But
Then
and
"
without
my
Father,
the
"
him
butterfly."
that
he
the
meant
the blue
with
last dream
in the
say
I understood
And
"
is Christ?
what
it :
anything about
having resolved
said,
unexpectedly
in me,
questionarose
I heard
Ask
211
nothing.
old
an
Then
"
said
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
butterfly
decorated
wings.
I asked:
"
Can
tell
you
Then
with
and
"
gently and
only his
saw
that
thing
every-
felt
with
him.
absolutely certain
went
to
sleep again
after
happens
I related
and
thing
every-
had
spoken
dreamed,
knowing
without
quently
fre-
as
of
dream
but
dream,
my
that
head
The
awoke.
was
"
no
"
very
vanished
dream
"
shaking
day
his head
he shook
in my
nothing?
me
that
sleeping.
was
That
and
morning
voice
day, Vico
the
in my
was
I had
the
**
words
repeatedlyI
And
of his
sound
the
Good
tried to recall
tones.
this dream
of
because
day
with
ears,
mio ! "
exact
extraordinarilyrefreshed
was
the whole
And
happy.
at
Emmy,
the
myself whether
time
some
and
I
I should
time
before
had
asked
was
take
still in
Lucia
the
first appearance
for
advice,
conflict
for my
with
wife.
XVII
"
little
your
"
after
Lucia
looked
at
to
then
in
you
of
trinkets
candles
Regarding
in
to
her
She
but
to
wired
to
lavish
dreams
of money,
was
she
appeared
"
further.
no
had
and
tained
re-
popular superstition
attached
by
pecting
unsus-
importance
the
Pope,
to
to
the
lets,
amu-
ing
offer-
saints.
maintain,
it
some
chastity:
Catholic
she
held
although
of blood
creed, elaborated
of
accuracy
I
To
singlestrikingproof.
of water,
me,
kindly
Then
strict
blessed
detail, the
every
many
thoughtfully
questionedme
a
the
of
country.
to
so
then
full of delicate
Lucia
remained
much
of my
with
said
understand.
and
had
asked
only
I nodded
She
Lucia
silentlyand
me
then
while, and
Oh,
"
died,
her."
earnestness,
"
had
I, myself, had
Because
friend
late that
so
you
left Lucerne.
had
we
inquire about
for
wired
after?
months
days
they
is it that
XOW
TT
"
which
never
dream
she
tinued
con-
heard
from
of
flowers,
it all meant
thing,
some-
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
213
making
it
But
was
dream
partner
of my
strange
and
that
remarkable
her
whereof
and
tain
cer-
attached
nifican
sig-
no
made
dream-lore
no
with
night and
in my
mine
experienceof
certain
and
experiences.
own
she herself
which
to
things
these
in
against contradictingher
day
life.
another
Whenever
with
union
of my
brown, sometimes
of them
three
or
did her
but
it
black,
;
there
"
of
dreamt
for
it
For
serious
and
on
this
temptation
our
And
mother
me
been
as
too
and
Como,
at
journeys
numerous
to
again
years
with
her
worried
I
know
the
that
sometimes,
as
peaceful
very
horses.
only she,
as
other
soon
she had
story that
troublesome
well
fallen into
the
she would
not
idea
quite inevitable
was
"
again
warning.
covert
I had
innocent
by
be two
least
the
which, after
"
down
she had
having
stern
bore
frightenedher,
when
failed, whenever
never
secluded
come
was
or
also would
and
me
horses, without
me
of
dream
and
always faithfully
She
unsuspectinglyreported to
that
my
white, sometimes
was
they menaced
harm.
no
would
frightenedher
Sometimes
her.
she
Lucia,
that
horse
large,wild
upon
across
in
path
stepped
woman
but
women
my
I
been
have
known,
have
way,
I would
advise
this.
to
chance
and
proper
to
me,
it
may
in
dear
reader,
have
persons
also
have
if
have
women
But
meaning.
we
not
should
After
make
first vision of
my
state
of
To
Lucia
did
not
the
"
out
And
fact
and
from
life,the
iar
pecul-
happiness.
solicitous,but
could
nor
of
sense
I approach
guilt.
life as
At
youth
absence
of
of
the
atmosphere
temptation, the
little
domestic
support and
given me
appearance
baseness
and
with
travelled
Lucia
to
to
for what
The
lawful.
fought
and
fore
be-
kept
of difficulties.
revealed
her
close
when
sin and
and
The
serene
circle
inward
and
without
this
innocent!
temptationsbesettingmy
simple, rural
me
such
as
the men,
I lived in
vanished.
pure,
into consideration
the
tender
kind,
was
feel
her
had
universal
reservations
Emmy
calm
outward
with
ascertained
yet
sowing suspicionbetween
Como
peculiarly
more
take
we
strange
associated
a
tention
at-
pay
also be
the
strange
to
been
it may
this
warned
may
wonder,
no
DREAMS
presumable slightcooperation of
the
that
It
and
me
meaning, and
the
you,
coincidence
but
"
OF
BRIDE
THE
214
me,
of
the
love
Emmy's
everyone
temptation against
which, bitterlyashamed,
now
repeatedlyyielded,
but
hapless prostitutes,
strange
no
just
^hich
I
theless
never-
longer went
from
the
out
beautiful
amiable
and
all have
would
but
sounded
for
once
all it
life in its
own
It
was
forced.
whom
woman
of
when
I had
when
occurred,
for
heart
life
and
I had
yieldedto
and
love
were
forced
that
so
of
and
my
wife
to
interest.
lusts
counted
ac-
me
tortured
life.
children
and
grieved bitterly
task
My
my
marriage, I
loveliness
and
beauty
in
knew
my
hard
as
other
the
as
as
strange
the wild
all who
charms
relations
and
strained, and
and
natural
my
years
just
was
well
as
account
on
Lucia's
ordered
devotion
much
one
While
long
and
be
not
myself how
I told
incongruous
not
people,
would
intriguesof
to the
were
lucky
me
My
that
judged,
untamed.
remained
and
world
the
other
It
spiritresponded to
my
nevertheless
wife.
my
to
queer
avail
no
succumbed
But
woman.
so,
made
originalway
the
differently
unhappy
I had
very
was
215
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
did
not
was
giant
seemed
and
what
I attained
what
was
expectedas
everyone
a
good
husband
fell
short,
showed
me
When
in the
power,
clear
to
me.
and
no
mighty
self-understood.
and
effort
enormous
too
for me,
tract
at-
father, but
it cost
me,
would
one
I
one
no
and
how
was
knew
far
believed
have
called
I
me
the
still
or
sympathetic understanding.
I had
in
succeeded
knew
which
dream-sphere became
summoning
that
I
my
father
possessedthis
penetrated to the
all the
more
important
216
THE
And
OF
BRIDE
when
had
DREAMS
in the
Emmy
seen
common
thought
the
of
sphere
eludes
said
for
me
great
before,
months
as
after
morning
this
clarityhad
sometimes
the
soon
once
the
good, happy
three
four
or
But
pointed
disap-
not
after
perception
dreams
are
day.
I
dreamed
would
think
in
"
some
me
one,
beg
meanwhile
that
was
Emmy
!"
crowd
in the rain.
little friend
through
call
I
but
!"
among
mind
my
some
one,
said
to
indeed
did
my
look
I must
giving publicityto
but
the
the
name.
matter
thought
that
too
was
Then
searchingand calling:
Meanwhile,
ant
pleas-
very
walked
Tenders
not
would
night
realized.
street
pardon,
your
Emmy
blessed
Hastily
Emmy.
I
forth
the
it shot
light that
summon
comrade
for
of
ray
all
perception
excursion
I walked
people. Beside
youth. Suddenly
of my
tiringand
of
crowd
like
that
the
completely
mountain
long
Then
of
moments
the
on
summons
all, came
most
come.
succession.
project was
my
was
clear
nights in
last, after
at
in which
It
and
fore
besuch
was
this
inexplainablecause
some
as
open
order.
ordinary confused, insignificant
at
first
I awaited
suspense
and
out
with-
my
should
perception
that
vexed
call her
to
was
morning
and
as
with
and
night,
For
clear
And
me.
a
morning
but
"
ran
Emmy
I should
be
Then
the
the
refuse.
After
that
its
slope a
saw
"
door
she
it
"
upon
it rested
blossoms.
smelled
the
as
her
wound
had
head
her
and
myrtle
little reddish
the
and
orange
her
at
and
though
twigs
of
the
they
were
fragrance
sweet
serious
ance?
assur-
saw
I looked
very
give me
around
of
wreath
and
leaves
green
that
She
her.
ferent
quitedif-
people are
can
in braids
hair
blonde
that
it.
from
resemble
not
closely.
up
thick
does
How
came
and
Waiting room,"
figureemerged
happens
in dreams.
and
down
knocking
"
it said
She
she?
often
so
and
mountain
is."
which
on
it,preying upon
heard
foaming
sea
above
house.
it be
Can
And
of
saw
hurriedlyflew
opened slowly.
it
and
house.
"There
thought:
luxuriantlywooded
the
into
went
wake
gullsflyingaround
saw
on
the
in
as
me
DREAMS
and
myself soar
I felt
beneath
OF
BRIDE
THE
218
absorbed
and
"
soms.
blos-
orange
her
in her
dark
eyes
"
deep
own
thoughts.
Then
I folded
that
"
Are
came
than
was
you
there?
after
all ! "
any
I woke
also, for
tired.
it
moment
up,
the
no
her
in my
she and
How
It
arms
I called
sweet
very
was
of my
waking
longer sad,
first time
after
but
such
I knew
and
:
passionately
out
of
that
you
happy
very
you
happier
"
life has
tively
posi-
been.
ever
serious, and
dream,
trifle
THE
did
making
"
find
not
whether
Lucia
she
said.
full
heavy
when
let
It
me
kept
pass.
quiet
cry
me
You
long
close
he
asked
speak
or
lying
were
believe.
was
stood
and
tears
was
did
splendid
white
or
him
frightened
not
harm
and
early.
about
and
red
and
to
me."
that
with
creature
tail
beside
still
awake
was
dream
disquieting
mane,
eyes.
not
"
219
sleep.
such
horse.
white
heard
my
sleeping,
had
again
had
in
tranquilly
I
she
DREAMS
of
marks
any
noise
No,"
OF
BRIDE
ing
glitterhe
death,
would
but
XVIII
few
VERY
will find
these
them
anything important
idle
scholar
will
is
solved
the
"
and
hollow
few
should
is
dream
has
something.
I cannot
furnish
to
the
that
facts
my
creations
me
it
at
could
was
of
my
pronounces
"
Open,
sesame
unspeakable
Then
ders
won-
"the
he
with
surely
as
my
be
upon
positiveproof, dear
my
beloved
are
peared
ap-
Some
accounted
imagination, but
220
who
betrothed.
observations
own
it well
the
probably
nocturnal
have
to
this
you
night
his
one,
reality,saying:
and
said
reader, that
all the
to
fulfilled."
wish
an
matter
Mind
he
"
as
untrodden
is contented
man
then
which
admission
this
of
And
mystery.
pretends
of dreams.
mystery
phrases,
give
who
me,
the
is such
of
words
few
his
tine
philis-
The
consider
There
before
entire
entire
will
settled.
lying
the
he
sider
con-
imagination for
the
smilingly utter
authority, whereby
book
will
lay philistine
of
play
in
curious
or
speedilyforget them.
and
amusement,
explained
The
records.
an
reader, excepted,
dear
people,you,
proof
as
not
of
merely
that
they
THE
concern
BRIDE
world
There
was
and
the
that
and
in the
The
proofs.
that
We
communicate
firm
my
the
is
reason
has
obstinate
while
away;
also
can
the observations.
subsisted.
to
one
Galvani
the
other
an-
observed
of
small
peated
re-
of
significance
is like the
piece of amber,
muscles
"
by
plete
gained com-
I observed
the
dead
like
frog
that
phenomenon
in which
unbelievingridicules,but
of new,
the
easily
who
have
value
rubbed
of the
would
those
only
what
For
from
contraction
the germ
ing
feel-
cation
communi-
lines of
repeated observation
tiny spark
of these
suggestivelines,not by
clear as
proofs were
tal
crys-
rock,
assurance
the
the
certainties
primal
as
them
and
occurred
need
no
subsists,nor
never
proofs. Though
that
I had
But
had
me,
intuitive and
along
the
to
feelingalong
illusion that
reason
peculiar nature.
this
in
are
the
correspondence between
things seen by me at night
life.
an
and
also
one
of
221
others
has
which, unknown
waking
DREAMS
which
which
indeed
heard
words
with
and
communion,
OF
the wise
sees
never-guessed-at
conceptionsand
deeds.
that
From
at my
a
summons,
double
did
night when
not
life,in
seem
more
of
with
as
Emmy
the
in the
my
which
appeared
Emmy
bride, I
the
night.
incidents
important
A
to
to
me
of
than
successful
joy sphere of
the dream
me,
years
the
the
day
servation
ob-
reunion
was
to
BRIDE
THE
222
best and
the
me
the
than
The
dailylife.
recurringonly
the
long
had
years
them
the
that
of
better
Yet
and
deeds
can
visions
deeper meaning,
define
nights than
by
and
saw
the
was
lead
and
barren
not
it
not
death
in
nary
ordi-
that
and
sensitive
could
they
with
accordance
has
men
satisfied,
un-
the
penetrate
destruction
and
the
at
of
end
and
attache
worked
and
Outwardly
all who
showing
me
sweet,
later
my
pretty
healthy children,I
luxury
and
countries, first
or
wife
had
plenty,and
the
of
seekingto
who
harm
bore
enough
did my
work
be
I had
me.
four
me
money
could
therefore
without
me,
as
legation.
as
prosperous
envied
me
ill will
as
was
and
diplomat
secretary
as
life
knew
different
in
wishes, which
father's
my
sanctioned, I became
mother
lived
and
the
career.
In
my
with
and
their
effects
after-
though
as
the
but
wise
many
because
so
few
crowded
me
empty,
thousands
so
during
deep
measure
of
not
was
that
already left
experience;
life
times
night,
day.
life
my
to
seems
and
the
of the
events
of
days
many
it
by
by
in the
impression and
the
now
flown
number
of my
outweighed
so
incident
solitarymoments
and
year,
I desired
that
faction,
grateful satis-
more
fortunate
limited
minutes, in force
events,
with
most
few
DREAMS
joyous event,
most
remembered
and
more
OF
for
with
fair,
life of
apparent
devotion
of
OF
BRIDE
THE
and
Transferal
success.
frequenttravel, and
world.
civilized human
DREAMS
saw
223
the
was
of
large part
the
Madrid,
lived in sunny
We
cause
of crime
Marseilles, full
felt safe ;
never
in
"
surroundings ;
Paris, where
illusion that
they
they
still live
the
are
luxury
without
and
misery, full
happily
on
of
leaders
of
immutably
in its
dangerous
life,but
intellectual
villain ;
hardened
prosperous,
in
"
in the
civilization;
much
ful
beauti-
in blithe and
"
grim
we
sagaciously
so
in the not
"
they strive
culture
for
diligently
rabble, where
and
orderly,methodical, soberly
bourgeoisBerlin, where
and
in restless
"
strong,
St.
wanton
extremelypolished,yet withal
in vain, amusing
ever
equallybarbarous luxury ;
of
all thought of the possibility
Vienna, where
Petersburg,with
its
"
still
has
higher culture
the
insulting
;
in
Washington,
with
"
buildingsof
blase
air
midst
of
state
of
long
its trim
play
at
as
affected
and
white
in
state
bustling,bourgeois, informal
world
real, where
Metropolis and
where
"
that
the
even
as
style,with
and
calm
and
lawns
green
in confectioner's
intenselylivingAmerican
to
given up
curiously grave
aristocratic
the
been
ago
finallyin
is
good
the
so
its
the
but
the
difficult
Hollanders
diplomatic
chic
could
the
that
have
not
the
without
well-cast
and
very
and
the
and
what
I did
how
had
the
last
observe
I should
therefore
could
unless
"
they
too, that
the
colleaguesdid
bitter
self-derision
nothing
but
for the
Something
an
daily work;
vigor and
of
formal
And
and
sort
may
of
carried
the
But
task
what
profitand
not
the
for
his
Government
fancied
with
on
it remains
ing
bicker-
fact
fights for
man
without
largestmorsel.
fightdirectlyfor
with
of
cureani
melancholy epi-
lies in
identifies himself
admit,
independent
their
be
religion
I must
the
not
severance
per-
stand
under-
remarkable
on
not
for
greatest profit,
diplomat does
but
on
time.
next
and
fine forms
say
insignificant
persons,
Diplomacy
and
in it I could
continue
and
return,
others
were
not
heard
how
advanced
most
membrance
re-
But
my
the
account.
cheerfullypersevere
do
I would
in her
the
to her
neglect my
that
miracle
and
seen
solelyon
the
without
me,
what
calmly,
out
withexperiences,
looking forward
considering of
not
existence
this
befell
stage.
nocturnal
again
without
and
borne
of
aspect
preoccupation with
of
Emmy,
amateur
stay of my
constant
again
DREAMS
well-nighcomic
acquires the
world
the
OF
BRIDE
THE
224
the
profit,
own
he
resents.
rep-
really personal
one?
that
Thus
of the
the
diplo-
BRIDE
THE
226
pathetic to
share
of
human
every
body
needs
the
through
hollow
the
the
of the true
art
of her
age
no
the
"
she
for
But
the
meditative
the
most
a
had
Hebrews
to
enter
and
still touch
her.''
the
like
of
fleetingshadow
And
in the
reallyand
in the
poetry
wholly feel,
thought
science
and
not
that
be
seek, because
only in
all the
wonderful
God
about
consecration
these
for.
sought
which
round
had
ages,
been
indicated
in vague,
and
of
to
by
for
quire
ac-
reality. I
learned
smell,
did
that
new,
ished.
van-
living,direct expressionof
must
me,
could
age,
realized
one
found, and
is
to
she
of her
in these
her
of
of the divine.
sense
which
in the
"
Ages
long
declaiming priests
magnificence of the churchly
tones
outward
music
impressionsfrom
and
Middle
brought something
edifice
or
the
of
the
as
dead, nerveless
could
thoughts
and
sounds
was
daily
much
as
How
Only
it
But
her
purification,
and
spiritneeds
bath.
consecration
the
Faithfullyshe sought
me.
consecration, edification
that
which
DREAMS
OF
to
into
relations
with
what
seemed
to
me
"
repeated
one
chimera,
or
after
the other
suggestion,the
as
empty
existence
sound, idle
of
world
BRIDE
THE
the
beyond
had
senses,
I knew
beside
a
the
rested
DREAMS
for
I had
actual
another
animce
an
one,
227
become
me
that
now
ordinary
world
proper
OF
cor
perience,
ex-
body,
with
pus
of
upon
wonder
selfsame
of
the
I, from
the space
as
What
another
by day.
some
nothing
takes
room
up
is neither
what
we
of
the
one
perception of
of
ways
but
here
there
nor
place,could
my
arrive
in many
worlds,
the
evidence
same
full of
And
no
realize how
can
all with
of real
for
me
human
the
this
phantasy
perfect and
defective
work
in
me
an
influenced
stirringfrom
proper
space,
beauties
matter
different and
conjunction
for
which
that
ego
all with
of
only knowing
one
the
neither
totallydifferent world,
sensations, full of
this became
"
ous
numerinfinitely
I, without
in
and
room
become
had
"
That
thought.
call
occupies space,
nor
concluded
being that
our
and
presumed
that
"
is
had
sages
by speculation
place
of observation,
centre
same
the
perceivedby
space,
the
how
and
of
transports
ence.
simple experi-
it from
much
hearsay
more
found
pro-
experience.
eternal
error
of
the
wishing to flydirectlytoward
the
in
wanting
OF
BRIDE
THE
228
its creations
make
to
in human
beautiful, in
too
perfection,such
soulless
affording a
DREAMS
by
art
its
after
decay
is manifested
as
period
every
of bloom.
unmixed
and
world
insensible
The
constantly wander
do not
nobility. I
loftiness
full of pure
is not
in flowing conversations
Elysian fields,absorbed
regarding important questions with
and
dignifiedbearing.
spectres of noble stature
all reality,the realityof the beyond is unAs
expectedly
in
there
full of
this is of supreme
has
subject
to
same
reason
that
to
new
the
to
can
awaits
of familiar
nothing in
again repeat
equal the ecstasy of even
"
in the
And
new
this
for
be
equal
given nothing
all, he only
and
sounds
actual
our
a
have
we
ployed
em-
tones.
day-life
singleawakening
sphere.
would
who
that
appeared
had
the
use
clusions
con-
ties
facul-
the
say
"
tion,
crea-
the
would
us
life
own
from
To
own.
Beethoven
that
combinations
I
our
nothing new
assertion
our
by practice and
life made
in this
part
with
day-life,
our
which
powers
daily
our
will, built up
our
gathered in
and
is in
world
the insensible
that
stimulating
more
than
beautiful
more
whole
the
on
at
then
my
now
confront
probably
summons
as
the
my
me
with
dear
bride
the
being
and
sertion
as-
that
made
BRIDE
THE
in her
supremely happy
me
creation
would
reply
of the
whole
of his
Does
it make
to
and
"
of
distinction
the
product
also
are
his wife
and
else than
thing, vehemently
of
name
of
the
and
the
idle
with
mark
the
and
sun
and
subtle
there
But
is the
is
stars
potently
thought image
endowed
of
name
Everything
imagination.
very
tensely
in-
and
reliable
two?
enervated
give
we
the
or
know
anyone
God's
whether
fancy
imagination,the
imagination ;
one,
the
and
same
strong,
line between
anything
were
between
works
is weak
children
and
difference
does
of
entire world
the
much
felt, the
reality?
own
imagination.
the
and
one
that
proofs
family included,
product
also my
was
arms,
can
for
with
senses,
229
the
to
him
asked
latter
him
to
"
DREAMS
OF
tive
crea-
boundary
and
the
personal being
ated
cre-
and
reality.
absurd, in the lightof
How
seemed
to
believers
joys
with
as
"
its
and
death
change
had
into
been
the
All that
what
we
by
idea
common
though
the
of
the
earthly life
purer,
the
so-called
with
all its
all at
here.
Here
continuously, we
right
to
reward
from
on
weave
on
once
transition,
miserable
more
earthlyexistence.
can
expect is directlyconnected
attained
we
and
not
the
me
now
experience,
my
with
earth, imperceptibly
our
future,
high, as
com-
BRIDE
THE
230
pensation for
OF
of
irrespective
awarded
and
disaster,accounted
and
sorrow
DREAMS
action
any
part,
our
on
but
the
desirable.
most
knowledge
closer
the
Therefore
the
immaterial
reality does
the
earthly life
and
humanity,
their
of
believed
have
and
that
transports
obtained
life
lost
the
the
our
the
the
also knew
that
the
harmony
with
and
defective
mortal,
dependent upon
day body through
into
brought
in
only from
For
are
the
by
for here
tain
at-
being with
can
transitorybe compiled.
immaterial
my
of
and
heaviness
conception
mis-
phantasy
we
the less
decease
or
repose
the
that
alreadybe sought
can
knew
now
striving
in the
defective
and
from
away
all
of
taught.
will,must
transient
study
ascetics
mortal
the
and
idle
lead
cooperationwith
the fanatics
as
not
and
its
joys
happiness
active,wise
an
the
development
of all mankind.
The
with
effective
serener
my
and
the
moods
beautiful
more
soul
labor
"
the
transports
scenes
and
the
my
days, the
my
life, the
loftier also
of my
influences
gladder
are
nights,the
behold, the
more
crowded
more
the
more
tions
exalta-
ous
glori-
beneficent
undergo.
and
the
often
True,
but
the
necessary
higher
after
jection;
deepest de-
very
that
know
and
is
struggle for
the
happiness, when
common
inwardly hopeful
all
am
am
right road.
the
on
more
splendor
earthly affliction
of
consequence
and
the
this
when
only
of
time
brighten a
to
comes
231
sublime
of most
dream
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
But
misery, affliction
poverty, want,
not
are
desires
smothered
and
better
life,
travelling
good
not
liness
lone-
and
companions.
will
The
brightlyin
happiness
for
of
some
the
higher through
but
the
and
to
keep
is the
It
of
spark
that
not
into
folly when
want.
for
ground
the
strivingfor
game
of
which
unites
we
abundance
wealth
bloom
of
our
stand
ourselves
He
another
who
created
link
is the
is
nature
us
between
child,broke
after
to
out
only nurturing
can
in
we
our
called.
play
sole destination
God's
we
he
long
feel ourselves
our
abundance
to
that
shown
beauty, whereto
of abundance
which
sorrow;
being.
came
But
land
beauty
cannot
like
higher life,we
in the
Only
often
luxury and,
stand
could
period of
has
all
up
gladnessburning
human
of every
so
visiblyglowing,
of
lamp
man
shoots
accumulated
remain
must
sacred
primal duty
is true
its flame
all the
joy
the
that
us
burn
indeed
may
must
and
And
nature.
learn
the
to
if
custom
ac-
it.
leads
Him
us
by
and
us
the line of
does
not
joy,
exist.
BRIDE
232
THE
Though
the
That
us.
is
of
voice
luring
is
Forgive
to
men
courage
them.
God's
and
to
before
go
disagreement
will,
the
facts.
most
over
know
that
confirmations
But
you
of
shall
and
over
there
long-known
the
keep
sions
conclu-
them
ancient,
because
to
the
join
must
again,
originality
among
that
see
facts
well-known
and
if
reader,
dear
me,
many
truths.
and
will
the
gloom,
continues
happiness
our
dismal
through
misunderstanding.
but
are
lead
way
DREAMS
OF
very
be
simplest
repeated
they
their
lack
hold
to
the
on
BRIDE
THE
234
OF
lightenment,and in the
do it by day with
never
and
alone.
bashful
I cannot
pray
I abandon
and
life
immaterial
times
the very
to
but
me,
But
unable
visions
Emmy
that
Christ.
saw
many
of
the
always
world
inner
but
what
blue
heavens
all
in various
natural
call
we
strongly urged;
shapes
from
conclude
the
perceptible to
senses
never
skies
clouding with
brightening or
"
and
and
existence
the
or
seen
beauties
flaming evening
an
as
living,
or
invocations
my
have
ardent
image,
times
perceivedanything
at
to
consciousness,
affected
it is that
about
when
had
at
it.
these
At
even
prayer,
beings,dead
at
the
control.
divine
true
passionate and
my
is
gene
with
my
restrain
as
feeling
passions in
all
fact
not
when
this
prayer
as
have
But
to
has
man
night
at
Human
always
circumstances.
prayers
at
appeared
almost
came
But
remarkable
in my
as
of
to
absolutelynever,
angel or
for
exaggerated and
never,
invocation
by day
seems
am
the
now
even
fear
viction
con-
am
embarrassed,
passion during
moment,
daytime
going beyond
"
I could
earnestness,
the
In
even
"
devout
my
much
so
myself to
passion,sometimes
Christ.
way
and
same
eloquence.
eloquent,but
DREAMS
signs
from
anything
sunlight;
radiant
zons,
hori-
promising
or
warning significance.
And
is
this
where
repletewith
the
history of
human
stories of visions
of
tion
civiliza-
angels,of
BRIDE
THE
Christ.
of
and
Mary,
like,yet it proves
we
the
create
their
Marys,
while
yet
their
have
their
the
it
for
as
that
because
non-appearance,
king
long-hairedman
as
of
child
and
and
wise
be
to
the
Father,
old
was
the
God,
Jesus, of
as
to
angels,
the
as
had
of
their
not
until I
man,
understand
to
demons
it
for
longed
vocation
in-
enough
not
The
but
seen,
as
often
old, bearded
an
that
235
explain this
may
is
self-suggestion
Ages
prayed
enough
We
visionary image.
Middle
DREAIVIS
OF
of
glad
apparition of
white-robed,
winged
man
an
as
fancied
human
phantasy.
Does
life
not
that
simplest reason
our
is
beings,whether
have
senses?
Do
limited
all endeavors
not
to
create
to
something
been
the
with
must
impossibleone
that
also
teach
Christ, or
of
above
that
our
can
five
nation
imagi-
Has
not
the
being always
wings?
Yet
beauties;
us
all
remain
man,
with
man
his
and
art
superhuman
of
God,
with
man
but
its form
unimaginable as long
faculty and
at
is
there
exalted
more
and
manner
that
us
perfected humanity?
conception of
know
or
perceptibleto
sole
we
human
superman,
form
no
than
more
tell
knowledge
clear
reflection
remains
as
have
our
ceptible
impertive
percep-
not, in
that
in
be
phantasy, must
much
seemed
to
sphere.
changed
to
the
ground
and
There
yellow spots.
of
speciesof
Then
men
quite clear,
still I
that
my
color
blue
there
"so
to
me.
Of
earth
!"
that
human
felt,but
was
trees
saw
and
cried,
"
another
not
in this
that
sky
it resembles
blue
color
the
and
on
The
inhabitants
kindly disposed
I have
hills
or
membrance,
re-
something
raptures.
my
no
ing.
understand-
cordial
I fell into
clusion:
con-
and
and
and
the
and
atmosphere
givesthe
words
or
yet
attention.
close
pay
is oxygen
there
resemblingthem,
tude
multi-
dressed
gazed at the
immediately drew
language
but
Then
and
extremely sympathetic
toward
but
intensely
was
our
were
with
consciouness
atmosphere. I went on
landscape changed repeatedly.
to
scape
land-
waves,
on
it is oxygen
too," because
it
I remember
was
began
that
remember
seeing the
but
happy, luxuriouslylivingmen.
"
though
different
sea,
ocean
demons,
not
planet, and
Thus
like
human,
park,
also bushes
remembered
the
of
speckled
were
were
and
wholly
festive, richly
happy,
beings. They
a
to
moving
magnificentlyblue
beingsthat,
creatures.
many
was
and
familiar
"
peopled with
that
the
night I dreamed
something else,
One
by Dantesque
worlds
belong
to
me
formed
saw
resembled
they
as
all their
therefore
erroneous.
indeed, I
Sometimes,
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
236
"
earth ! "
my
and
earth.
beloved
my
Then
Just
resembles
America
as
it,"I thought in
and
thing
every-
earthlythings and
from
"
them.
yet resembled
of
me
that
noticed
somewhat
differed
Europe
it reminded
emotion, because
with
wept
237
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
my
dream.
this I
Upon
and
part
saw
that
it
the way
my
and
farther
eyes
travelled
rocks.
rose-colored
behold
to
and
the
at
me,
left,was
mountain
distant
mind
fully conscious
was
clear
was
terrific
the
"
prospect.
the
at
all
faint-
ridge of
the
saw
My
I
along
Below
terrible
luminous
dizzy extent,
"
sea,
perspectivestretched
The
oppressed me.
farther
out
affectingand
so
uninhabited
and
the
of
rising out
steep, but
and
barren
perspective of mountains,
chain
mountain
into
came
tinctness
disand
time
made
depth
dizzy.
me
Thereupon
saw
slate-colored
like baked
and
the
were
earth.
thought
like
clay,the
They
my
the
They
luxurious
mind
were
busy
with
whether
Then
pointed
back
"
That
toward
"
these
in this land
had
wood
or
red
work
at
just
fire and
One
brownish
hard
people
them
here."
other
were
crossed
demons.
not
"
who
perchance the proletarians,
supported
seen.
derness.
strange beings in the wil-
beings also
Human
was
two
I
I
now
asked
believe.
is
the
scarce
land
238
where
"
THE
BRIDE
I had
left the
it is not
Yet
OF
DREAMS
scarce
intimated, how
laughed,feigningindifference,and
I
of
these
this, that
be
it should
even
would
now
that
All
I awoke
so.
I did
dare
not
and
into
be
can
all
do
as
other
no
and
art
that
depended
and
explainentirely.
much
scientific
analysis and
fixed, universal
thought
selection,
and
lasting
There
revelation
than
of
that
by
all and
ative
cre-
for
on
could
and
comprehend,
science,established
would
What
meaning
waking perceptions.
our
true
of
all.
the
the
buildingup
truth,
essential,that
not
not
to
exactly as
comparison, critical
and
envious
not
were
pondering
demands
us,
they
things were
dream, which
this
of
that
longer remember,
no
be affirmed
in
few words
and,
the
unreceptive?
suggestion, forced
upon
it not be as though the Divinityentrusted
Would
by
to
apostlethe
the
himself
he
where
convincing thousands,
found
had
only
one
susceptibleto persuasion?
apostle
"
of
work
revelation,spread by inculcation
draw
me
me
to
the
away
work
study
from
in it with
because
of
the
the
world
and
pressure,
all the
I learned
else than
immaterial
of
more
to look
did
day, but
zeal and
upon
such
Can
be anything
by authority and servility,
passing fancy, and fleetingdeception?
Therefore
the
"
not
caused
faction,
satis-
this world
THE
as
BRIDE
field of
real
our
shall
count
on
OF
DREAMS
labor, where
the
riches
of
higher plane
239
that
vision
are
prepared.
only give us slighthints,the
Dreams
be
But
dreams
my
and
seclusion
and
purest bliss.
were
joy,
could
also
showed
never
lead
and
transcendent
wave
festive bliss.
the
were
whether
the
them
they
would
the
were
of
dawning
sound
were
to it ; and
confidence
toward
and
Thereby
learned
all.
our
all
they
know
not
future
or
but
enthusiastic
titudes,
mul-
people streaming
solemn
rhythm, with
in
of clarion.
feelingof
bright and
from
of
in
festive
jubilationand
into
beloved
my
dreams, and
countless
marching
I,
happy
"
together and
and
taneously
simul-
already existingreality
processions of
beloved
universal
proclaimers of
spectaclesof
see
and
often, such
beautiful
most
bride,
human
"
of radiant
had
which
were
as
dream
my
beings
along myself
I have
highestjoy
enthusiasm
carried
"
solitude
Unspeakably happy
fillingmany
beings
the
to
meeting with
surpassed by those in
great
that
me
of
moments
they
must
in this life.
done
the
work
And
part thereof,
festiveness
and
we
we
two, my
belonged
of unlimited
up
tracting
joyous mood, and yet not demutual
affection,but transfiguring
strengtheningit.
""
as
to understand
them
"
truths
were
pointed
out
BRIDE
THE
240
to
once
saw
large
house
it
with
in
and
And
them,
there
did
no
was
directions,
give
to
they
and
path,
alacrity.
due
was
down
builders,
the
point
or
and
personal
tormentingly
effectual
the
prehended
com-
did
therefore
felt
reform.
and
path
not
from
social
my
better,
and
what
dered
hin-
out
the
life.
impotence
dawning
the
"
blessedness
universal
pure
and
comprehended
upward
his
on
of
one
knew
better
hints
clearly
more
brightly
more
and
work
the
each
that
least,
very
work
these
man
fact
which
direction.
slightest
and
of
the
entire
understood
more
the
to
to
the
need
with
swiftness
incredible
advanced
an
out
building
people
many
laying
command
The
ever
dream
my
Thus
way.
anything.
out
rays
symbolical
peculiar
marvellous
to
one
in
me
DREAMS
OF
shone
chaos
of
all
But
to
for
our
the
bring
me
fused
con-
more
about
THE
242
faces
and
BRIDE
OF
the
paper.
on
as
DREAMS
And
this
on
mess-
work
work
squandering they
and
their
clothingand
their
words
From
employed
the
food,
habitation.
and
understood
wrongly
arose
their
prepare
bloody frenzy
wrongly
of revolutions,
the
and
working
the
and
that
joy
all wanted
they
which
I
other's
each
and
Word
True
they employed
how
saw
but
safety
"
miserable
confusion
from
tie of love,
so
wretches, and
this
people
once
who
the
same
thus
more:
with
for
and
no
how
pulse
imthe
of their power
rich
and
they
all
own
and
one
same
poor,
because
happy
in
attains
because
thing.
mighty
group-sense,
individual
the
"
the
the
wretchedness.
into
luxurious
be
can
that
terms.
personal,independent
weakened
corrupted and
realizing
conviction, to their
and
craving
own
thing,for
same
time
from
grouping
the
saw
the wholesome
mean
the
different
same
reasonable
and
And
and
many
acted
judgment
alone
one
the
at
thought they
is
happiness,not
sacred
and
herd-instinct, the
the
of
son
rea-
destroyed their
men
all acted
they
faith in
their blind
In
powers.
word
there
know
that
world
he
of
blessedness.
are
no
that
two
they
our
the
of
the
saw
to
group-sense,
influence
the
through
start
poor
who
envy
would
known
had
rich;
of self.
the
poverty
and
than
possible without
were
and
though
As
but
and
though self-insight
as
currents
catchwords
nothing
better
be
fatal
up
hollow
of
over-estimation
ridiculous
the
243
And
of
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
tion
self-restric-
culture;
though
as
ideal,
and
which
could
be
in
is called
name
attained
practice,without
all
at
development,
the
Christian
once,
without
without
patient
discipline.
All this I saw,
of
activitybound
superiors.
me
fixed
to
in
worked
could
beyond
this
I do ?
duties
and
to
my
group-confederacy,
diplomats, and to
of
immediate
meant
sphere
My
definite
politicalworld
the
go
what
and
expulsion and
ostracism.
Well, yes,
speak
more
the entire
sarcasm
clubs
freely.
There
smilingly,as
sometimes
of
national
me
people
hears
ridiculed with
rank,
and
cynical
the
riors
supe-
though regrettingthat
"
circles
sometimes
one
speech.
"
and
diplomaticservice
by those of inferior
listen
their
in the
them
a
this freedom
sharp word
prosperity,
still
of
would
ture
struc-
everywhere
BRIDE
THE
2U
based
the
upon
the
mighty
the
concerning
and
art
of
when
And
human
from
"
too
as
wisdom,
confusion
vague
"
as
red
their
of
chaos
the
Christian
the
something
say
"
the
rassed
embar-
gifts
some
of
there
known
was
sometimes
obligedto
characteristic
thought,
often
so
garding
re-
whom
with
earth
yet
were
also
and
weaker,
on
highest
beauty.
ideas, I
ones
who
foolish
DREAMS
of the
want
associated, and
and
OF
duke,"
or
diplomat."
with
conviction
that
nothing could weaken
my
chaos is busy arranging itself,
at first blindly,
cruel indifference
to suffering,driven
a
by
an
inscrutable
But
the
clearer
impulse
consciousness,
but
"
graduallypairs itself
active
wider
It
there
Messiah,
is
foolish
more
would
be
be
not
must
that
me
history in
in human
hero,
power.
plain to
was
skill,in
insight,more
more
with
by degrees
no
if there
which
room
moralist
the
one
for
time
was
awaiting
were
men
redeemer, it is
than
ever
that
ion
opin-
No
ours.
in
our
prophet.
age
he
But
preaching repentance,
man
in
not
of
very
deed.
than
Riper
advent
of
general
the
an
and
advent
was
revolution
French
for
the
organizingand suggestivelypowerful
for
time
ruler like Napoleon, is our
of
who
the
the
wise
will make
and
use
high-minded
of
the
istrator,
admin-
group-confed-
THE
the
eracy,
BRIDE
also
knew
this
hero
should
the
of
time
soldier
as
talents
is
becomes
longer
no
preserving. The
world
that
of
course,
aid.
secondary
of
the
The
police,
preserver.
the
the
of
qualities
general,the abilityfor
for
the entire
only
more
of
of force
power
covers
and
before.
qualitiesand
The
brute
war
the
peace
But
be.
alliance
tolerates
honor
the
245
stronger
ever
establishing,
only
commercial
and
what
past, the
for
needed
than
to-day
DREAMS
much
so
herd-spirit,
consolidated
is
OF
Messiah
of
who
organizer
remain
the
the
equally
time
our
brings
operations and
for
order
bearing of
sponsibility,
re-
necessary.
must
be
into
the
half-conscious
the
hero-
confused
action
of
our
in the time
of the generals,it
as
society. And
the great dreamers
of
was
only the poet-generals,
a
such
world-realm,
who
heroes
shone
as
Alexander,
Caesar
through
all the
out
geniuses,so in
poet organizer,the dreamer
who
and
attain
will
still
time,
our
of
and
poleon,
Na-
ages
it will be
world
as
the
fellowship,
much
lastinghonor.
more
The
time
phrases
of
and
of the
But
the
past, and
of
eloquenceis
oratorical
even
who
time
of the
he who
logiconly
America
orator
knows
also past.
The
blind
young
outgrowing the
solelyan orator.
is
is
drama
how
and
of music
to handle
elusive
these
tions,
na-
ity
author-
is not
mighty
can
turn
the
course
of
will
follow
him
though
he
suggestive expedients
have
Ibsen
and
But
to
them
lead
some
the desert.
or
probably
and
the
hero
of the
these
And
suggestively
and
my
not
the
was
rests
peace
this
the
see
philistines,
knowledge.
"
"
Soter
of mankind,
But
shall be
born
with
which
statistics
below
and
speedilymoreover,
majority
the
race
if I
And
the
I had
of
has
need
myself
of
cannot
certainty
of
number
is
surely as
as
after
sons
birth
His
still know
and
of
what
I knew
infallible
number
and
in my
this
be
to
those
niuses
ge-
above
approaching,
the
of
birth
man-slaughteringwar.
him, Christ
be
requireshim.
he, still I
can
be
enthusiastic
dishness
the
foretell the
normal.
the
and
for
I knew
defectives, the
and
attempt
not
him.
with
John
this
upon
requiredof
he
For
the
among
I could
drama.
or
that
shall
green
ing.
gift for ruling,for organizing,for leadof
the power
not
not eloquent. I had
was
hero,
man.
one
led into
satisfied and
hermit
it, I, old
say
music
in
maturity dawning.
of
day
shall be
and
pastures
perchance
or
be
herd
shall the
then
only
come
new
shall be united
powers
rare
it will
soon,
ner
Wag-
it.
proved
day,
that
pass
herd
The
humanity.
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
246
provincialism.
his
and
of cad-
XXI
been
married
1HAD
youngest
child
returned
to
Little
had
fair
were
as
the
things
it.
have
them,
to
its forced
would
the
nearer
make
strain.
long
and
the
I felt
as
was
its
being
and
daily companions
I
call
remained
for
approaching
tained
re-
I should
fear
having
I grew,
when
intense
more
not
them
older
The
me.
I did
age
became
die without
death, but
revealed
mother,
content
ever-growing dis-
An
though
die without
dren
chil-
felt my
their
affection
time
be doomed
My
symbiosis,I might
my
lived.
sphere of
the creatures
been
powerless,the
me
peace
satisfied and
up.
to
to
quality.
saw
to
and
inmost
really having
life,this
them
gathering in
was
the
brought
from
my
and
the
wholly
is attached
that
with
Yet
stranger
to
affection
an
"
well
and
creature
every
Order
so
fastened.
quietdevotion.
with
attachment
growing
life.
seemed
Lucia
household
her
in my
where
destiny are
family, prosperity in
my
activities.
ruled
of
my
when
old
Holland,
same
rope
changed
reigned in
my
this
and
years
eight years
was
of my
strands
many
seventeen
my
to
to
true
me.
BRIDE
THE
248
DREAMS
OF
I lived on,
strengthenedonly by
seemed
as
though they
it
but
spurring me
to
to
on
outbreak.
an
something
They became
nights,
dream
my
driving and
were
more
to
"
act,
an
and
rarer
countered
en-
and
but
desperatestruggleto
the
attain
could
longer
no
I called
grew
of
Moreover
As
soon
always
lost
its power
the
old
are
knows
one
older
one
And
and
could
no
longer
when
and
though
as
dimly, the
their
wanton
seduction
to
same
as
most
easilyevaded.
harder
to
shame
and
stincts
in-
maternal
allurement, which
her
the
the
for
stronger.
more
Lucia's
in
spoke
became
and
life in
greater;
appears
one
longer
weak, sometimes
was
easier but
years,
no
greatly desired, I
so
influence
tormenting
through
of my
the
and
was
I could
of life burns
their
it
husky
seemed
had
not
joy
satisfied,and
were
what
way
successful.
more
are
anew,
force my
dying man.
temptations
my
regain
tricks
pray
the flame
as
demons
Often
sky, I
it sounded
Emmy,
tones
of
ecstasy
dream-body
the
blue
unobstructed
the
dreams.
garrets, corridors.
chambers,
see
in my
seeing Emmy
the
big
with
and
the
contrast
the
to be before
But
cities
bear
began
the
vancing
ad-
tempt
self-conbetween
world, and
more
me,
what
painfulthe
grows.
intentions
and
even
that
I harbored
planned
deeds
thoughts
for
which
life
abilities I should
new
"
in
seemed
nothing
in
change
unreal
my
submit
if I
deed
in-
was
must
but
"
disturbed
and
the
was
about
bring
incited
that
submission
though
as
me,
could
existence.
to
something
was
acquire,
surely never
that
view
willing humbly
there
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
250
greatest
very
sin.
last
extremity
But
the
filled
perilsof
acquired for
To
die the
death
an
honor
The
before
day
The
was
little
of
fell
rose
the
from
!"
rest, and
sing
and
deeper?
my
and
in
reallyI
move
retained
deepest dejectionto
of
life
am
"
not
vast
the
let the
at
about, flyand
perceptiveenjoyment."
doors
night, I
transition
wondrous
thought ;
is
boyhood, and I
be, then why not
from
asleep that
joyous, soaring
heaven
father.
my
pressed.
expeditionI was deeply dewas
blowing strongly, but it
and
fallingasleep
In
in the
companion thought as
postponing our undertaking.
day
I did
as
When
was
wind
summer
our
again
greatest bard,
Shelley,my
still
with
Sea
all it must
I sink
before
now,
North
desired
after
If
thought:
of
attraction, as
former
the
had
was
sailingexpeditionshad
their
me
brought to the
aversion and disgust.
with
me
my
I sailed
when
days
before
suicide
Wanton
wooded
Soon
that
knew
sciousness.
perfect conI suddenly
light,free,
the
"Thank
dream.
all tired
soar
after
now.
thorough
with
I
can
out
was
landscape under
of
sunny
blue
For
sky.
been
not
beautiful.
so
soared
and
world
enchanted
was
I met
upward.
251
dream
the
time
long
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
and
ful
grateing
talk-
and
bird,
had
to
"
that
but
mental
communion.
I
saw
white
dreams
him
Then
"
over
"
but
Emmy,"
and
smaller
than
But
I went
to
I talked
Then
cloud
the blue
sky.
proud
was
to
saw
fold her
From
error.
smooth
blonde
I
out
and
I had
hair.
though
as
talked
with
pretty well
This
and
was
happy
in my
and
not
But
arms.
my
symbol
it
her.
mastered
of disaster.
afraid
she
was
of
long
line of
and
gone;
human
beings in
then
But
wanted
mistake
perfect clarityof
my
not
the maiden
thunder
called
same
nevertheless
walked
Dutch, which
always.
as
approaching, younger
with
her
I
danger.
had
this
high
time.
that
by
maiden
Emmy,
and
Emmy,
soared
no
noticingmy
meet
and
it I
Elsie," and
most
beloved, just
knew
feared
the
"
was
nary
in ordi-
which
fear
no
there
my
repeated,without
dim valleyI saw
a
were
myself
me
I felt
sea
called
before
But
but
animal
the
"
alarmed
most
dream-animal
above
bull
the
not
attained
happens. I
bondage, like
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
252
them
life,heresies
their
others
about
and
religion,
false
by
hatred
their
but
anger,
with
far out
soared
And
seize
was
the
was
wanted
touch
to
the
them, and
saw
large
might
none
priests.
saw
only
one
deny
to
me
sort
laughed
But
me.
There
everyone
there
prieststried
the
and
priests
of silent
that
the
do
and
to
even
them
paralyzed
this,
when
them, and
at
was
tion
recogni-
could
fact
above
and
me
But
above
astonished, and
that
tures
crea-
the
above
Then
moss.
green
windows.
the
by
brought
the poor
saw
out
permission of
without
enter
evil
the
cost
sive
peculiarlybeautiful and impresmighty pillarsof gray stone and
most
temple, with
carpeted
I soared
powerless.
was
building,a
would
fright and
with
growing pale
pale with
about
many
they
with
gesture.
there
And
but
no
palsiedpride or
of
self-consciousness
calm
was
authority
triumph
and
"
hatred
herein,
freedom, personal
good
beautiful
and
emotion.
I awoke
When
Dutch
had
with
I had
hers
and
form
before.
was
indeed
my
seen
we
little
her
the
whether
face
in such
sailed with
city,which
talked
I had
doubted
she, although
followingday
toward
surprisedthat
And
Emmy.
been
indeed
The
was
was
it
like
youthful
wester
stiff sou'then
to
BRIDE
THE
the
for
see
were
rain
sea.
My
first time.
and
When
harbors.
and
us
waves
the
the little
the
billows.
with
which
pier for
the
with
us
calm
had
the
and
yet
The
to
pier which
the
in
with
who
stood
out
ran
stood
to
water
see
into
the
watching
whether
we
unusually
was
drowned
that
with
this time
fect
per-
it
was
his
at
entrance
excited
way,
and
we
the
the
safely
ran
port.
sober
He
landers
Hol-
little
answering cheer.
glided along past the line of people
up
we
Hungarian sparkledwith
furled
narrow
sent
as
toward
distinguishthe
and
have
I knew
of the
eyes
manoeuvring,
Then
bailing her
fillwith
could
We
shouted
into
be.
black
through
the boat
gathered
but
boat
pecting
directlyheading, ex-
see
I would
happy.
mist,
deep
gazed
landing safely. I
composure,
not
to
of the
up
we
in the
in gray
nose
the
was
sea
of
rear
keep
interest, anxious
mute
make
should
stone
crowd
sea.
the
on
the
were
rigging break.
people
harbor
suspense
we
minute
every
or
mute
keep
refuge
city veiled
to
yellow
The
sinkingher
was
had
We
busily,and
the
saw
little
yacht
full to
taken
dashing over
were
and
the
we
had
rising
our
right course.
there
and
donned
hands
fisherman
deserted, the
the
in the
time
to
rough
I had
our
253
time
with
and
had
we
DREAMS
From
showers, mist,
companion
oilskins
before
OF
thronging
the
stone
quay,
amid
the
stupid
and
indifferent
pair of
attention, that
relief,in
coolly
critical
fishermen, rough
seemed
the
Amid
of
out
still
pale
stood
men
wet,
blonde
She
had
thrown
she had
run
cheeks.
around
just
her
she
as
though
as
straightat
me
with
interest and
woman,
about
shawl
gray
house
the
from
us.
or
suspense
dark
for
with
as
blowing
expressionof
an
caught
young
hair
watch
to
was
from
a
bareheaded, the
her
weather-
and
lightup gladly
to
faces
boys'
wood,
full of intense
eyes
little face
anxiety.
DREAMS
carved
though
as
sightof
or
of the
the faces
beaten
OF
BRIDE
THE
254
looked
She
and
concern
gladness.
I nodded
woman
has
to
her,
Italian,seeinga
every
as
in his danger
manifesting concern
the general attention, would
aroused
gaily and
nodded
her
for
her
smile
and
waved
her
to
She
sympathy.
nodded
back,
though
as
just
sweet
which
do.
to
a
gave
thank
little
rassed
blushing,nor embarand
confiding as
grave
not
but
prudish
though she had expected it.
or
At
the
glances I
I had
"
exchange
had
of
curious
this
sensation.
forgottenmyself for
recognizemyself, and
as
greeting
if
moment
It
did
saw
thought of
and
without
dream
yet consciously drawing
inferences
or
comparisons, I for a moment
entirelygone from the ordinary waking world
in the land of dreams
again.
not
fit in the
life of
the
day.
if
as
was
and
everything
these
and
not
did
my
any
was
and
"
Hallo
! Muralto
called
With
seemed
if
everything I
I
though
hand
the
of
boat
with
the
as
more
once
she had
But
shawl
gray
of the
and
us
me,
though
as
now
went
home,
What
ails
she
as
She
port.
as
to
eyes
woman.
young
and
to
sufficiently
senses
my
it
absence.
long
way
familiar
my
figure in
solelyfor
come
to
along
great
been
the quay.
slender
crossed
garian
Hun-
my
earth, and
to
hook,
the
of
from
vanished
off
had
back
the
those
sought
been
again after
came
over
back
came
saw
it
saw
Before
!"
out.
if I had
as
255
hook
the boat
"
shock
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
had
and
calm
well satisfied.
"
's the
What
?
Do
matter
see
you
ralto
Mu-
you,
anything particular
or
"
"
anyone.?
"
Did
quay.?
"
"
her.
of
know
no
went
ourselves
one
the
there
that
you
pretty girls
were
them."
knew
here.
"
I 'm
here
for
the
hotel
and
the
ordered
dried
and
dinner.
gables,the
the
first
curtly,abstractedly.
to
and
Hungarian,
course
that
not
time," said
We
the
said
I knew
here, but
"
standing on
woman
I asked.
!"
No
the young
see
you
narrow
so
dear
to me,
little streets,
warmed
looked
to
"
the
be
at
seen
pretty
glisteningwith
BRIDE
THE
256
the
in which
little
dignified
that
After
drink, and
with
structure
mine,
pretty,
seen
gable,
yet
and
without
of
semblance
had
sky
tiled marble
the
young
the
quay,
We
was
so
nifican
sig-
any
of
character
found
me
that
melancholy
decided
so
who
from
came
went
us,
before.
that
was
But
she
was
noble
Her
that
wooden
had
the
chamber.
upon
nodded
and
I had
and
that
long,
eyes
were
bright and
I had
seen
in
only
one
the
than
time
gracefuland
ning
run-
Again
confounded
nevertheless
features
ceiling,
stood
eyes
white
and
out-buildingand,
more
very
early.
stopping
the blue
even
and
yesterday
straight in
me
cordially. I
hotel
the
down,
gone
sail back
to
the brown
flooringand
looked
lustre
of
morning
vestibule, with
woman,
past
hands.
had
the
merry.
the
leaving the
were
in the
moment
and
for
"
had
blue.
was
we
fine
all I
possessedme.
weather
The
and
after
dreams
itself
sleep
gently elevatingjoy,
As
so
long
other
or
and
food
good acquaintance of
some
little friend
abstracted
That
with
that
said
companion
my
some
quiet,so
day
the
saw
its free-stone
regaled ourselves
we
surely have
must
she
thought it
live,and
now
I also
sea.
in
groaning
creaking and
and
the
DREAMS
yellow raging
the
storm,
house,
elms
sombre
the
water,
OF
to
mark
re-
she had
aristocratic
had
the
clear
of
eyes,
pair
XXII
As
soon
I went
day
the way
the
beyond
the locks
not
mentioned
my
felt
of
a
married
strange
woman.
To-day
it
sheet
of
it had
who
looked
appeared
wild
and
sparkled
waves
in
windmills
lay
rosy
perfect dream
instead
way
hours
lay
full of
and
of
three,
lightand
as
as
drifting isle
leafy,blue-gray crowns
before.
with
and
steeplesand
before,
the
of the
about
six hours
and
bliss.
trees
my
they
were
little
My
The
with
in
me
on
bright glow
of the blessed.
258
time
sun
their
was
sunny
sweetly pensive in
as
with
friendlyas
the
placid round
splendor.
by
great yellow
the
with
shores
The
guilt
sweetlysoothing murmurings
little boat.
The
wicked
of
day
peaceful and
as
theless
never-
charmed
summer's
blowing.
and
I had
but
sense
himself
feels
warm
breeze
water
little
The
man,
with
one
o'clock.
secret
knew
Hague
Lucia,
to
that
of
was
light eastern
eight
for
now
no
I left The
encounter
none
took
and
before
free
myself
water
daybreak
At
was
make
sailingagain.
out
and
this time.
me
could
as
of
city
light
sun-
round,
the
little
THE
belfry peaking
them, appeared
above
out
of water
"
"
Du
bist
Das
there, and
all assumed
through
meditated
phantasy
words
the
on
of Moricke
he
the
able
was
beauty,
yes,
dreamed
Orplid that
boys
were
harbor
"
to-day
at
me
dark
all the
the
"
with
the
"
with
youthful
few
so
that
there
fisherman
the
shines
waking
green
of
thrill
the
not
afar,
more
behold.?
we
the
on
anyone
like
thousands,
hardly
was
sat
fishingin
many
ured
meas-
deep, mysterious,
filled
has
for
lands
few
of the
waters
familiar
window-eyes
the
inevitable
the
stove
Dutch
pipes
harbor, where
the
it smelled
rustling elms;
the dinner.
imagination.
I landed
quay;
lend
ably
presum-
yearningly passionate
real longing.
Is
with
a
with
When
Orplid
to
ingless
mean-
magic glory it
of my
to which
"
myself,
than
people,who
the power
land
the
between
wondrous
glowing splendor,which
real
"
at the contrast
lived
"
leuchtet
and
Land
Orplid, mein
feme
I smiled
I sang.
if
as
sparkling silvery
the
259
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
of
the
from
out
its
in the
doves
cooed
of
pitch and
tar
cool,
softly
and
of
wives
were
cooking
already
were
loved
attire
shop
stepped
with
"
flower-pot,at
"
the
to
been
I felt like
a
gallant
successful
trifle faster
with
would
with
the
Clivia
to
on
of
glad expectation
at the thought of
directlyfor
made
not
out-house, after
the
hotel
man.
prize after
only
beat
perhaps
"
eyes
tend
usually at-
heart
felt
entious
consci-
married
claim
My
my
summer's
shyness, the
that
the
as
on
point-
I also
city.
nervousness
shame
times
such
this
on
as
of the
before
of
with
adventures
present itself
with
couple
never
examination.
out
schoolboygoing to
little fear
I asked
where
already
little Dutch
beloved
gables
stone
inevitable
the
directness
scruples,the
the
barber
side chambers
dark
have
but
absolutelynone,
none,
the
Love,"
or
as
you,
blank, unabashed
in my
Sunday
Toelast."
de
gallant adventure,
day
"
in
have, indeed,
confessed
the
basins, past
ancient
"
behind
from
peeped out,
my
shops,
rope
shop, past
with
Fortune
at
loudly through
daughters
hotel
little
brightlypolishedbrass
the
representing
the
statelymansions
the few
the
of
as
pected
longingly ex-
solitaryvisitor
out
and
the
sounded
when
street
empty
goal
my
myself wondering
past
door-bell
the
where
went
toward
lover, smilingand
assurance.
DREAMS
ahead
straight
went
though
OF
BRIDE
THE
260
type
too
that
the father.
keeper.
his appearance.
At
my
From
place of
full of
cigar ashes,
his mouth,
his feet.
and
after
When
drooping
moustache
perhaps
"Are
which
Dutch,
at the
Italian
*'
the
in
"Yes,"
though
'*
Van
"
She
we
are
the
!"
's
indelicate
to
not
then
you
said
"
say,
'11 go
in
asked
any
nounced
pro-
taking
the
rate.'^ "
uncertainty.
just as curtly, as
Are
through
you
soon
sleepagain."
the
"
man.
of Juffrouw
father
"
have
have
that
the
embraced
communication
compliment
know
"
She
has
no
father.
foundling."
I could
could
had
other
of
answer
to
Vianen, who
No
nose
disagreeablestate
he wanted
But
lost.
hotel-keeperat
the
came
Then
now?
time
crooked
Vianen?
Van
for
except
was
now
flushed,
the
self
my-
accent.
are
you
I asked
saw
in
his mouth.
cigar from
"But
vest
slipperson
!"
No
sleepyeye
one
Mynheer
you
holder
small
once
paper
clean-shaven
under
in this face
open
his face, I
into
countenance,
and
tie,an
some
full-moon
"
and
soiled shirt
flowered, green
worn,
looked
finally
silk cap,
cigar in
ill-
slovenly and
very
missing collar
the
261
DREAMS
suit, a black
fittinggray
in
in
on
shuffling
came
man
OF
BRIDE
THE
and
expected
his brutal
unsightlyboor.
seemed
the
from
to
me
the
His
piest
hap-
gladdesttidingsthat
him.
He
rudeness, which
could
not
he in Dutch
BRIDE
262
THE
fashion
seemed
"
like
subject"
him
this
would
loveliest moments
in
dark
of
for
was
chamber
at
thus
Dutch
of
charm
grace,
after
was
all much
could
one
"
longer
Then
to
The
that
I
was
around
speak
The
word
opening
an
and
sure
the
that
had
forted
com-
race
can,
forth
in the
solitaryeye
a
geniuses
family
most
but
this
ling
found-
of any
it unnecessary
to
subject.
tell Juffrouw
who
someone
Van
sires
de-
urgently
"
fell from
also
With
of
genius
ancestors
the
gaping
mouth
and
opened perceptiblywider
hippopotamus emerging
scrutinized
thing were
solace.
found
is
blind
ism,
provincial-
distinction;
kindly
to her.?
"Urgently?"
"
lovelyday.
noble
now
you
there
cigar now
of
and
the
would
that
Vianen
the
of the
also
sweeter
too
preciate.
ap-
presuppose
nationality. I
talk
able to
be
a
womanly
provincialhotel-keeper,
noble
one
anywhere, bring
through atavism;
me
it was
freely,
of boorishness
and
time
the
being descended
not
perspectives. To be
myself with the thought
any
for
was
like
me
thing
some-
talkingaround
hardly
this
suddenly revealinga
romantic
of
more
"
foundling
lusty candor,
rudeness
indeed
I breathed
"
for
advantage
he
DREAMS
be bothered
that
blessing. The
from
take
to
I won't
"
OF
from
like
the water.
while.
he
growled,
as
improbable and
Yes, urgently."
though
also
such
improper.
THE
"
!"
Hm
OF
BRIDE
paper
mouth-piece with
mouth
and
shuffled back
the while
be
going
on
slippersto the
stirringseemed
his
on
remarkable
brains
later
Elsje
house,
outto
black
the
underneath
in the
his
into
cigar back
the
the
stuck
He
Dutchman.
the
said
263
DREAMS
cap.
A
moment
was
reallyless
now
I knew
But
she
deeply when
blushed
it
saw
it than
for I also
she
time
although
me,
for
reason
joy,
was
This
came.
there
last
time.
her
eyes
saw
sparkling.
"
is it you
Oh,
"
"
Did
!"
wish
you
to
it is convenient
If
speak
to
restrained
with
she said
with
me.'' "
Van
Juifrouw
you,
prise.
sur-
Vianen?"
"
friend
French
"
is
of mine
doubts
good!"
as
and
said
The
not
table
she found
would
Toelast
particularfriend
cover,
felt
has
long
steel
since
somewhat
I
refreshed
room.
remember
can
chairs, a crocheted
cane
tea-set, horrible
"
in sweet
good.
walls.
man
gentle-
other
Elsje, leaving me
red
what
to
went
"
either."
We
over
n't your
you.''
alone.
sea
Hungarian,
"Oh,
the
Did
room.
upper
with
come
crossed
the
step into
Just
been
cover
engravings
adorable
!
more
the
on
"
But
what
"
de
rebuilt.
embarrassed,
yet
not
pressed.
op-
into
her
eyes
clearly.
Did
the
on
last
It
in the
or
too
intimate,
stood
watching
was
me.
you
rain
the
pretty
was
part of
only
see
only
account
our
on
"
"
gravely.
nodded
Yes
drowned.
be
quitefrequentlythat
afraid
was
indeed
has
It
little
yachts
And
there
blowing.
wind
face
rightlythat
I guess
would
the
much
too
Sunday?
that
I could
judge.
not
pier out
She
you
Whether
I could
beloved,
"
DREAMS
homely
too
OF
BRIDE
THE
264
happened
with
sunk
were
no
was
that
of
way
saving them."
"
Yes,
that
"
we
we
and
the
saw
know
did you
from
realized
how
But
"
coming?
were
Well, I
quay
off well.
came
there
was
the
boat
in
peril."
"
would
But
boat
too ?
eyes.
Her
dared
"
not
I have
when
"
She
But
or
yet
other
any
be
to
you
at
me
her
gathering in
as
she
though
laughed at.
night before
strangely anxious.
Only
morning.
so
looked
timid,
did
shook
mist
feared
felt
your
of me?
saw
all
never
saw
Then
dreamt
it
uneasy
too.
sounded
answer
say
was
it for
and
silent
remained
thought
long.
done
"
she
Then
have
you
know
my
The
tranquil."
face ?
Had
you
"
her
cannot
head.
say
"
that
Not
your
that
face
know
of.
is strange
THE
of those
dark
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
266
and
foreignerstoo,
is not
Dutch
my
You
to
stranger
no
are
softlyand earnestly.
I believe
then,
that
gazed
and
felt
both
did not
probably
knew
keeping we
room
used
since
bed
"
"
"
"
each
other
for
the
without
of
responsibility
our
with
who
but
us,
One
in whose
everything and
in
time
long
findingit
oppressing.
with
rest
best
safe.
were
last she
your
nothing
though
as
situation
At
at
said
embarrassing or
in the least
We
we
got
put
to
you
were
"
saying:
up,
It has
rightsagain.
last and
here
surelywant
You
been
not
saved
your
linen."
Did
I
thought
Did
Yes
This
she
was
so
so
said
"
artlessly.
known
I had
feel confused.
me
experienceof
woman's
love
no
that
dispensewith
can
about
already quite an
twenty
years
some
she
sought in
me
me
and
man
for
substitute
she
that
formerly known;
her
unknown
for her
was
apparently
Perhaps
younger.
she had
one
took
old
other
replied,that it
conception or
have
would
what
from
totallydifferent
had
women
made
!"
"
back.?
come
would."
you
hope
you
I would
that
then
know
you
father
unengaging
sembled
re-
haps
peror
sup-
determined
"
Will
do
you
the
me
city this
the
about
and
attractive
"I?"
she
asked
glad
very
to
evident
like such
me."
pleasure.
first
firmly
guide
my
It looks
But
to.
being
little town
with
267
all this,
of
favor
afternoon?
pretty
be
DREAMS
porter.
OF
BRIDE
THE
"I'll
must
you
eat
something."
"
Will
your
Elsje
"
smiled
Who?
surprised and
Jan
"
no
difference
me
either."
Baars?
him.
to
thankful
How
I '11 see
that
Then
while
three
o'clock
And
full of
When
expectancy
as
astonishingto
round
an
straw
tailored
lightgray
she
was
lady
artistic Hollanders,
quaint
most
old
simple
suit, a lavender
For
as
national
tasteless
birthday.
it
people
boorish
on
soon
the
as
costume,
in the
silk tie
and
was
she
means
standing collar, a
the
at
angel and
an
dressed, and
what
white
among
of her town.
women
and
of tasteful distinction.
appearance
a
as
his
on
had
with
see
hat,
child
she
out
quickly.
eat
you."
behind, blithe
a
me.
said:
with
out
made
eating I
I '11 go
went
authority over
get something to
you
makes
! that
words
I remained
we
achieved
she
scornfully.
no
no
proud
room
're
you
bit
has
He
objections?
no
Why
"
these
"
stepfatherhave
well-
"
and
bourgeois
probably
world, and
the
of these
the
of
women
probably
As
the
even
walked
we
the residents
saw
window
Dutch
North
very
worst
along
the
with
provincialtown
are
dressed.
hot
peeping at
screens
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
268
quiet
streets
their wire
through
us
we
well-nigh angry
amazed,
glances.
"
Do
"
Elsje.
"
And
"
whole
don't
of
about
what
I anxious
We
to
in his
the
"
no
The
Amid
corner.
sion
expreshave
myself think
accost
good, anyway.
And
I do not
hear, nor
It
the
was
am
silent,cool
door-keepersat nodding
relics of that
old, stout,
merry
here,
"
dares
museum.
there.
deserted
and
talk
to
find out."
to
went
left who
one
other
to each
they say
said
Elsje?
pretty
exactlywhat
them
It does
it.
that, Juffrouw
personal dignity:
is n't
there
something
Elsje, with
I do
"
at?
again."
mind
and
that
Now
right.
give them
said
power
taught them
me
"
being stared
are
week
you
no!
Why,
we
will
That
for
about
how
see
you
the
amid
prints and
strove
and
to
fort
com-
paintings of
the
graceful,gorgeous,
of
placards,the
porcelain from
together
a
and
few
in
hours
and
this
of
the
East
cuirasses
rare
and
and
bibelots
profound
and
intimate
the
brought
West
lances,
we
spent
happiness.
THE
Elsje knew
very
and
she
such
listened
desire
eager
that
it made
her
not
had
indeed
to
read
much
in
demanded
To
Ah
the
means
the
wandered
the
colored
wind,
heavens,
the
to
to
dike
the
her
it grew
into
is
as
cooler,we
gateway
the open
to
what
is
to
the
of
the
sea
back
came
to
our
now
my
lous
marvel-
and
of
her
the
ing
glitterground
back-
rose-colored
I told
sky, and
flame-
against
Venus
brightly-sparkling
against the
up
green
settingin
sun
attention
colors
greenishwhite
Then
of the
such
gullssoaring motionless
the
the
of the
deal
circle here.
old, dark
walked
We
I drew
flightof
begged
and
the
watched
we
and
though
narrow
vast
great,
through
majesty.
nursery,
small
thicklywooded
fields,where
for
"
scholar
daylightfaded
out
deference.
charming
When
the
no
edge,
knowl-
and
good
seen
rapt
days.
our
are
you
across
and
! I live in such
me
with
by
oracle
an
such
in my
faith
feel confused
for
me
was
explanationswith
my
learning, with
me
stand,
under-
quick to
was
unlimited
take
world, yet I
she
to
for
such
attention, with
"
but
little,
269
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
all I knew.
conversation
of
the
morning.
"
Have
you
often
"
Yes,
going
before.
to
forebodings as
when
happen
It
never
in
to
"
approaching
was
such
me,
fails."
good
or
bad,
I know
is
it
BRIDE
THE
270
"
This
it
time
be in the harbor
should
quite a
stand
I
of your
her
her
and
that
and
I did
by
foolish
relish
so
yacht
blowing.
they
can
weather."
I would
that
I knew
face
of your
and
it
look
with
not
Dutch
was
want
risk
to
sobriety and
But
happiness must
wanted
rest
on
I wanted
"
to
and
no
tell me,
Do
you
my
name?
had
know
saw
I knew
one
respectfulself-
I had
spoken of
you
never
about
too
my
"
of
rightness
up-
positionclear.
my
yet
subtle
was
honest
had
anything
deal with,
to
foundation
make
Yes, really,
Elsje; and
of you,
be
firm
trolled
con-
Italian
an
was
and
But
there
this
to
her
fragilehappiness
my
And
this
I
had
girlI
extravagances.
in
that
I reflected
ness.
tender-
before
kisses.
and
tears
with
melted
kneel down
to
me
eyes.
heart
my
desire
hands
control.
wind
in and
of you,
innocent
myself,for
"
little
were
assured.
said
this
I felt
now,
such
rough
dreamt
frank,
Before
"
with
but
sail
not
your
"
name."
"Really?"
cover
like
more
and
I had
you.
with
bit
calm
was
must
fishingsmacks
all the
Even
see
You
Boats
recklesslyagain.
"
nevertheless.
alarming
"
was
"
DREAMS
OF
never
to
you
heard
of
me?
Do
heard
And
me.
me
you
either?
know
"
your
name
in the hotel
nothing of
you
wise
register.Other-
until I
saw
you."
Also
not?
"Really
271
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
."
not
"What?"
"
That
four
"
children?
I burst
effort to
brave
have
and
married
am
good
roughly in
out, almost
and
myself nothing
spare
wife and
to
my
risk
the worst.
Elsje
without
in
wife
good
and
"
married.
probably
"
know
"
She
she
am
not
was
not
asked
I deemed
knew
enough, and
and
I
well
care,
without
silent and
thinkingof
the
her
same
roof.
now
enough
that
day.
understands
one
night. With me
I am,
sleep grows
advancing
who
words.
as
happy
"
But
she knew
ourselves
in dreams
happiness,that
Or
though
as
know.
to
that
saw
little that
the
with
is true.
that,
her
about
in mind
balanced
but
after
happy
more
does
slept very
night
under
no
one
as
after
more
I also
communicates
elusive
were
you
necessary
spoke
felt
We
that
not
are
you
that I would
what
we
But
nothing
thought
and
thought
it."
No, I
rather
and
four
softly,pensively.
all,I
tively
long,attencerned
distinctlydis-
me
compassion.
tender
"
at
I
thoughtfully. What
her glance was
a
questioningdoubt
and
startinggazed
drives
in
But
years.
it away.
bright
cloud
also,
more
it is not
I
lay all
of joy,
lay peacefullybreathing
Then
toward
morning
I had
BRIDE
THE
272
short
that
which
dream,
for the
measure
transference
little
my
I
city,Elsje
was
terrible,I
woke
up
My
all been
the
cried
and
in that
way,
my
with
tears.
reallywet
and
sobbed
face
And
anguish
My
desperatelyand
and
then
pillownow
my
the
"
of
relief,the
the
reality
newly-found happiness, my
my
ory
dawning memsome
day, of Elsje's win-
yesterday'sbeautiful
of
and
ways
her
dream
world.
transition,the gloriousrealization
of
and,
Hague
in my
and
The
containing my
sailing excursions,
it had
"
I dreamt
joy.
my
me
gave
letter
Japan.
to
terror
office at
found
again deep
was
its dark
by
in my
I
coming home,
DREAMS
brightnessof
back
was
OF
the
and
ready sympathy
tender
then
really comprehended
me.
was
no
would
what
life had
human
all without
not
die after
my
solitary breakfast
eyes,
compassion. Only
been
had
longer a stranger
life,the sacred
in her
in the
won
me
given
world
"
back.
human.
At
into
which
greet
back,
yacht
but
me.
would
anchored
go
in
duties,stopped a
that
said
home
the
room,
upper
the
shining,Elsje, amid
was
sun
of her domestic
pressure
to
the
in the
I had
no
moment
time
to
sail
harbor,
to
call for
it the
followingSunday.
"
That
is well
of
comprehension.
XXIII
^'
\EAR
I
II
Lucia,
have
like
had
We
in
looked
and
to
then
followed
her
was
the
endeavor
careful
before
we
that
quet
ban-
court
looking
over
Lucia
night.
"
is
to
n't
she
said,
surely something
seen
in such
you
good
what
foolish
bridge it.
seated
were
abyss yawned
vast
we
between
undertaking
spoke slowly:
know
I don't
paused
is
It
me
then,"
me
silently. When
I shall
attentively,and
a
very
succeed
of that."
barkened
I
arrived
time."
and
convincing you
again
an
it
But
Lucia
stood
with
realized what
worlds
good.
dress
I have
long
two
"Yes,
from
room
my
our
in
had
is n't it?
quietlyI
home
gala
our
regarding
spiritsfor
I
would
and
mind
my
moment?
interestedly.
up
Come
good,
me
tell you
to
off
it
come
which
letters
"
have
to
just
and
the
something
hear
bed."
to
go
will you
moment,
precision in
my
so
as
endeavors
understanding.
274
to
to
again
proceed
bring
and
with
about
THE
"
So
have
you
spiritsnow,
I
has
good
there
And
you.
that
the
highest content
A
vast
thing
some-
cause
be-
happy
not
that
it opens
up
rest, of
and
human
any
calm
sea,
it, and
of peace
gloriousprospect
me
expect.
that
you
was
found
I have
for
than
happier
am
to
better
in
am
was
now
happened.
that
something
that
it proves
and
so
275
DREAMS
noticed
rather
or
It is
was.
OF
BRIDE
being
and
of peace
ocean
can
joy...."
Lucia
"
Let
me
this
that
"
for
you
for
me,
affection
my
to-day
nodded
If
I
me,
Does
the
call
now
love
not
best
.
but
Will
believe
you
me
But
shadow
the
saw
and
this
signifyto
faith
still
to
and
youthful brow.
me
and
believed
love
and
this
desire
the
in
faith.
happiness of
that
believe
judge
the
of
he
this
self
him-
ness
happi-
Well
to.?
our
"
?
.
of
day
weakened,
never
loved
upon
know
also
"
ever
and
one
care
And
pretty, placidcountenance
have
you
can
"
from
has
mutely.
her
loved
the
home.
contractingthe white,
frown
"
this ?
I tell you
passingover
our
deeper.
constantly grown
Lucia
your
children,
our
until
marriage
when
listened
intently.
begin by saying that I am profoundly
gratefulto
for
and
waited
?
"
"
said
Lucia.
"
Where
are
you
ing
lead-
276
"
Would
have
nothing, to
Can
True
to divide
Lucia
bowed
settled
unites
head
she
great
all other
us
the truth
and
gold
of
clay
"
away.'
fixedlyat
her
her
around
ment
comple-
very
in
stared
and
deeper
was
something of
to take
is not
her
hands, which
frown
of
love
That
feel
you
love
greater
power
and
strengthens
affections.
The
still
the
believe that
to
you
ing,
great aifection,noth-
Yes, that
even
from
nothing
it?
DREAMS
possible for
it be
it detracts
love
OF
BRIDE
THE
and
bitter
pretty
expression
Then
mouth.
she
whispered hoarsely:
"Who
is it?"
Now
endeavor.
my
"
First
from
truth
with
any
"Is
But
which
was
the
saw
the
hopelessnessof
on.
was
followed
Do
general facts
of the
one
particular. Do
indicated?
and
the
train
you
disagree
you
that
of
know
I cited?
her
"
thoughts:
Thorn?"
it Countess
This
all I
I went
judge
she
But
for
Lucia,
contemplate generalities,
those
the
it
and
once
well-known,
said, had
live at
to
come
mundane
beauty who,
The
Hague
on
account.
my
"
What
anxious
motive
to know
happiness?
have
the person
You
feelingsshould
you,
care
one
for
cherish
that
me,
Lucia,
for
gives me
don't
toward
so
much
What
you?
some
being
one
who
THE
makes
BRIDE
beloved
Lucia
"
glanced at
miserable
sophisms.
than
better
were
this
worse
childish
thankful
her
happiness.
deeper in my
then
Only
end
with
now
But
men.
head
regret
it and
falsehood
did not
at
knew
has
only
it threatens
just as
makes
to
I had
of you
as
it
make
and
sort
I resolved
the
to
which
still
But
bility
impossidid
not
resolutelyto persist. It
clearing of
I had
about
absolute
attempted.
it.
life from
my
hopefullybegun.
so
directly,and
me
now,
so
sink
you
the
she went
that
speak
that
though I ought to be
destroyed my domestic
as
really felt
answer
you
esteem."
essential
was
these
that
you
who
tempt.
con-
furtively.
always thought
my
That
of what
That
on.
immediately
you
is what
expected
and
Tell
Tell
to
nonsense,
to
good
of
laugh
disappoint me
that is terrible enough.
But
don't
by foolish self-deceptionof this
you^
"
over
That
woman.
every
by
him
swiftly and
an
other
hanging
was
does
scornful
me
make
Vico,
Come,
277
"
laughed, a short,
She
and
happy
person
measure?
beyond
DREAMS
OF
me
hope
is.
know
Say
who
and
it
what
me
it is.
to
as
whether
have
I
Let
fear.
directlyas
it is but
know
me
Tell
right
me
what
.
possible,so
a
know.
to
have
how
bad
that
I may
passing infatuation
it
or
us
That
worse.
and
me
"
the tears
and
call the
"
!"
No
"
Not?
is it then?
it is
bad,' then
."
worse
her
into
.
bad
as
chief.
handker-
Who?
.
"
she
Do
...
her
she
Does
her
all."
at
this
pronounced
known
you
know
don't
You
"
Have
If
"
her?
"
'
sobbed
Lucia
"Who
know
stood,
under-
well
be
to
possiblyimagine, or
Lord
tremble
to
passing infatuation.
of this
reverse
can
you
began
anxiety
my
wholly unlike
It is
you
voice
continued:
as
her
came.
Falteringlj,in
"
children."
At
awaits
what
know
may
our
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
278
live
great
The
at
she
Is
long?
with
tonishment.
as-
Hague?
of
person
rank?"
"
in
She
live at
not
her
only
housekeeper in
"
Lucia
tearful
looked
is
it
rank."
no
relief
on
it
her
could
possible?
are!
Is
What
.
she
She
And
head.
her
men
."
.
shook
pretty?"
Drily and coolly I
I
have
rank
Her
then
But
that?
is
"How
creatures
*'
thus
"
surprise and
up,
paused, reflected,
again:
time.
countenance.
Vico!
"O
hotel
Holland.
of
short
very
but
Hague, Lucia,
The
provincialtown
little
known
is
does
young
then
happy
un-
and
say
answered:
neither
one
nor
the
other
"
"
In
and
"
husband
That
have
we
had
Oh
much
for
enough
fresh
"
But
It is n't that
of
making
spirituallyunhappy
I wanted
"
Why
"
"Why?
try
to
give
Was
then
But
and
old?
too
often
you
no
see
it.
not
for
speak
have
been
useless."
Tell
what
you
missed.
you
"
that.
bility
possiI
was
death.
sooner?
"
it would
what
not
give me."
me?
you
always
all
of
longed
could
have
warn
me
have
happy.
understand
you
happen
you
not
nothing
Poor
that
missed.?
means.
any
make
sake."
it is
Lucia,
to
fail to
growing
And
respect."
man
now
entirely well
is
was
your
Am
by
Must
you.?
dear
for.
was
never
it you
was
excitement?
No,
be
to
Until
you
Lucia, I realize
me,
what
Guido
in that
are
men
also
Vittoria
this should
forgive.
to
reproach
to
winter.
! that
Forgive
been
appreciate it,
too, Vico.
happy.
so
this
debut
have
tried
then,
you,
"
me.
it.
to
you
to
been
nothing
alike all
"
have
just
again.
How
wife
her
you."
to
you
were
her
Lucia
grateful for
am
good
dear
excellent
and
good
wife
good
think
quiteyoung."
I fall short.?
did
nothing,
is
she
been
Wherein
Vico.?
n't
Have
think
I do
pretty, but
279
would
I don't
exactly.
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
long
for.
Let
I
will
me
do
THE
280
what
for
can
this
.
not
Can
not
that I should
prevent
save
weeks
from
that
say
in
Let
And
"
have
known
twice, and
have
her
known
should
you
"
be
so
help you."
expression of
her
but
eager
her
her
to
hand.
her
except
"
short
very
only spoken
even
touched
never
It
happened.
I not
but
deeply?
is only
my
had
time, Lucia,
"
give?
ingly.
gazed at me beseechhopelessness of making
what
And
has
she
understand
only
time
the
which
deeper
sin?
have
you
me
sinking so
this
short
so
lost?
irretrievably
her
What
able to
be
not
from
you
you
you
it be that
can
is it?
Can
two
DREAMS
What
you.
other
.
OF
BRIDE
."
yet
!"
What
said
"Is
amazement.
and
more?
it
nothing
happy
spirit
"
?
friendship
A
spiritlove, I
"
"
do
With
have
Men
with
:
No,
Then
violent
You
as
you
Lucia,
Oh,
are
she
phantasies. And
will it remain
I don't
not
rose
so
and
and
Vico,
of
man
you
honor.
."
and
.
wide, searching
"
to
want
remain
say."
I believe you,
know
such
certainlywill
"
maid
whispered emphasis
"
"
hotel
lie.
not
eyes
rather
would
deceive
you.
It
so."
walked
about
the
room
in
emotion.
but
my
God, Vico,
what
possesses
wrong,
you?
the
282
THE
BRIDE
sobbing
and
crying and
implored me
and
begged
her
then
least
at
OF
DREAMS
hands.
kissingmy
have
to
the
with
pity, if
children
She
with
not
and
with
myself.
Then
"
I said:
Dear
day,
that
it.
me
to
can
In
the
for
the
latter
even
than
She
"
perhaps
got
see,
have
be
me
control
suffer,
you
see
wish
you
must
you
be
to
and
shall
Of
she
the
upright
do
and
You
now
her
ize
real-
for.
hope
Then
tears.
covering
re-
Satanic
charm
I desire
course
bear
to
has
been
ness.
upright-
your
everything
I shall pray
for
and
you."
stood
what
in front
now?
of
me.
"
you
into
sufficiently
made
came
to
uttered
said:
endeavor
you,
Yes, but
that
her
dried
Thank
in which
tone
words
my
Vico, that
you.
"What
"
would
you
light
following
do
nothing more
up
upon
But
"
call the
from
me
night
or
me
this choice:
the
more
she had
make
to
me
temptation not
herself,she
cast
make
case
more
the
for
deter
or
you,
night
the
have
you
you."
that
"
you
you
grows
was
them
can
only leave
yourself,
stronger
into
or
deceive
than
more
darkness
upright?
It
more
no
see
toward
no
change day
to
power
into
Lucia,
her
put
mean?"
asked,
not
thought-life.
into a
me
position
entering
which
THE
BRIDE
known
have
myself
in this
have
much
Of
consideration
much
as
duly
"
hearsay
and
claim
thought
never
will
you
that
me,
live
women
possible. That
as
from
surely
will
you
all I
after
you."
Lucia,
course,
for
283
of
experience. Thousands
But
position,that I know.
me
may
from
DREAMS
to
so
spare
only
OF
shall spare
you
myself, but
for
much
as
possible."
as
"
I do
You
You
will
of
of
of
into
the
intuitive tactics
shrewd
and
troops
until
best
honor
children
The
I felt that
yield in
good
respect my
the
drag
our
it for
you?
upon
us?
You
family,
the
the
careful
main
like those
are
general, who
battle
she had
now
woman
his
saves
almost
seems
declared
point, I
name
"
streets?
of
the
our
dren.
chil-
our
won't
name,
won't
won't
ask
not
herself
could
lost.
ready
refuse
her
to
no
concession.
"
"
What
do
That
all
That
the
world
our
I could
"
So
which
this
avoid
you
not
you
for
demand
you
of me,
remains
all
public
household
scandal.
as
"
between
That
withhold
my
us.
before
it was."
slightlydisdainful
yourselfyou
secret
remains
suppress
would
Lucia?
smile.
uprightness,
greatly desire,from
so
the
world?"
"
do
Oh,
care
"
Of
Vico,
for us,
course
you
don't
I do."
will
promise
you?
"
me
that.
You
BRIDE
THE
284
"
And
family.
your
sensible
is
"
"
I
And
of
the
Even
obligations
your
most
corrupt
man
those."
of
too
DREAMS
sensible
are
you
toward
OF
sensible
am
do
you
Lucia."
them,
of
that
recognize
have
you
wronged
me."
"
That
Lucia
have,
not
"
but
now,
before
this."
"
then
But
amends,
it 's
somewhat
to
free.
not
make
even
this
children
our
taking
step
far
as
Then
knowing
we
that
take
wished
we
life
to
not
pry,
then
you
ask.
Spare
each
of
pronounced
far
just
enough
tion.
exaggera-
weak.
said
other
when
easy
nor
was
account
had
go
not
heartedness
friend,"
dear
possible
lutely
abso-
you
do
all
is
it
answer
my
well,
Very
is
and
in
half
neither
Therefore
"
That
when
"
you,
But
some
disgrace."
critical
with
and
leave
question
prepared,
not
was
blow
the
allusion.
too.
make
to
shall
not
an
family
our
spare
See
it.
shall
want
mitigate
do
to
easy
so
surely
you
I.
your
good
an
"
shall
as
desires."
night,
idle
wish.
well
XXIV
not
ITgiven.
was
strict
But
and
still it
definite
self-reproach.
unbeaten
that
is counted
herd,
virtue
as
is vice
in
the
skulked
how
the
half
to
safe
wolf
of
keep
of
unbounded
shall
medium
between
extravagance
The
it remains
how
knew,
balance
the
how
the
upon
easily the
into
and
knew
giddy
down
the
of
sense
gulfs
of
madness.
to
find the
consistency and
exact
reckless
all
in
know
bold
tendency
like
of the
confederacy of
one's
falls
always
member
But
fanaticism, hysteria,bigotry
Who
What
fanaticism.
by
freedom,
all tenderheartedness
how
originality,
pathfinder,overwhelmed
high,
measures.
faithful
the
out
with-
the
overcome
seceder.
difficult it is to
chooses
have
in the
immediately beyond
group,
who
leads
der-hearted
ten-
He
should
tracks
yieldingfrom
deplore, though
was
that
I had
promise
toward
self-sacrifice is
others, beautiful
harmony
and
helps along
who
has
in the
given them
to
with
all
and
our
us.
285
But
useful
other
battle
common
an
stinct,
inwhen
instincts,
for
Christ,
this instinct
can
be
and
perverted
for
passion
heroic
in
feud
open
nothing
And
lose.
would
remained
fear
not
fanatic
sufferingwould
not
should
I should
then
And
world
break
"
anyone
a
mother
for
itself,as
I
to
might
in
saw
mock
by
what
do
right
would
be
action
my
to
or
clear
at
to
the
an
right.
with
it is
untrue
me,
left.
Should
was?
that
then
in
war
conflict
I
done
well
as
I deemed
my
as
matter
no
I had
that
lay
Lucia's
that
just
always
the
union,
be
it.
the
there
day,
remorse
not
what
knew
rest
signify, powerless
convince
children
also
me
would
I turned
whether
let
feel
if I did
consciences
Two
which
my
for
my
conviction
my
I
right.
consideration.
much
and
and
torture,
firm
brave
to
livingand
or
self-torture
myself
between
refined
how
Lucia
on
so
have
above
bonds
all this
of
danger
For
live
to
own
my
high salary
absolutely beyond
I did
the
the
save
doubt
position,be
my
still
was
most
declaring an
I should
mother
had
and
without
lose
to
me
who
being
against me,
should
circle.
My
too.
had
myself
the
world
my
lead
this meant
whole
the
expelledfrom
poverty
into
hunger
highest,holiest
and
"
included.
children
as
with
have
should
and
asceticism
consistencymust
the
me
emotions
blessed
into
as
self-mortification,
that
re-awakened
wild
run
myself openly
unite
DREAMS
gluttony and
I knew
OF
BRIDE
THE
286
the
I
right to
life,to
THE
assert
the
thingseternal
true
It
fallen
not
first
want
it
little
hours
that
awakened
had
When
I went
might
me.
accompany
intuition
and
by
Elsje
pater-familias
real,
and
town
restricting
who
it alive.
kept
boat
my
and
of
sense
my
raised
have
sport-
whether
fourteen, asked
In
starting
was
Guido,
son
her,
no
guiltlessness
objection,
the
object
me
at
the
journey
plan.
my
his
pretence thwarted
awaiting
of
station
and
had
misunderstood,
as
always,
he
immediatelyinterposed,with quick
clever
was
irresolute double
an
my
guessing at
a
theless
fetters, never-
my
perhaps
would
his mother
but
like
explain.
world, hiding my
seaport
for E
of
to
want
happy
same
get
loving youngster
I
at
it and
to
night before
the
disappear
possiblethat I, after
was
of the
man
only
still led
years
life in the
the
wrench
vigorous
prosperous
who
to
's another
There
I should
to excuse,
it to
pursue
blessedness, and
"
said
and
bog,"
for many
true
to
feelings,
it clear how
make
and
and
in the mire.
I do
this
the
287
DREAMS
the pure
be
merely
into
stone
To
and
Christ
to
would
OF
sentiments
true
our
remain
BRIDE
with
back
even
but
nothing
though
the
same
one
for
fear
expresses
limited
of
we
first
able
likes
being
oneself
means,
to-
BRIDE
THE
288
ward
human
DREAMS
OF
the
being having
all
comprehensive faculty as
with
love
here
For
men.
its
limited
same
interpretive
the
infinite
power,
few
of
has
listener
by
whom?"
'*
her
With
What
"
Lucia."
After
about
and
"
world
will you
said
first
say
was
Elsje
But
be
wife,
calls my
the
have
say
not
never,
about
nevertheless
and
a
spoken
of
singletime.
"
me?
tell you
tell
me
"
was
"Yes,"
"
must
"
name.''
did you
"May
signed
de-
Elsje."
home,
at
and
been
applied but
plan.
spoken this, I
had
wife."
What
cause
be-
intellectual
no
lofty
speaker
beginning
us
the
children."
is her
and
this fixed
whom
of my
"
both
in
very
of
use
spoken
"With
mother
the
with
I have
"
from
understanding,
higher wisdom,
harmony
"
plan
from
is made
material
and
sympathy
beautiful
the
in
magic
that
structure
was
I said
right?
said
that
still
she
I had
after
sight and
that
would
wanting
said, Elsje.?"
met
two
in my
of
woman
brief
give me
softly.
encounters,
the
life.
whom,
at
I could
that
rightly
290
BRIDE
THE
"And
did Lucia
"
first
She
yield?"
whether
asked
nodded.
"
"
What?
"
That
Oh!"
proud
would
sacrifice for
duty
is
much
to
care
and
for her
dreadful
very
dreadful
more
n't
You
word
myself
sophist.
this consideration
is of much
us.
my
greater
Consider
all the
after
that
"
you
"
Consider
grieved her.
so
nobly forgivethis to
have
like Lucia
the
than
that
remember
for
defend
remains
and
anger
had
seekingto
always
woman
Consider
it my
secret."
indignantly:
sinner, and
man
Elsje!
import
women
then
And
be
really cared
never
I felt while
nature
Dear
much
she
!"
And
by
Then
her
remain
cried
stood, poor
say.
for
would
There
"
world
everythingwould
Never
did n't
that
condition."
one
That
"
surprise.
to
the
before
either.
on
"
husband.
"
that."
promise
right,Elsje.'*"
was
yielded,but
she
Then
that
think
She
to
silent.
Elsje remained
you
remain
it could
refused
spiritfriendship.
"Do
DREAMS
OF
how
how
few
their
bands.
hus-
past makes
children.
grace
Dis-
comprehend."
"
I consider
but
illogically,
a
lie before
the
just
to
disgrace,"said Elsje,
point, to want to keep up
that
the
world."
"
THE
"
should
would
a
not
of
not
want
terrible
DREAMS
Consider
me.
OF
BRIDE
see
sorrow
it would
children
my
them,
upon
for
mean
again. They
I should
recognizeme.
to
291
and
am
bring
fond
very
them."
"
Would
forgiveit.?
"
Not
"
asked
of
one
their
I fear.
remember
that, beside
also
lose
position. My
Lucia
"
is
wealthy,but
Would
"
asked
poorer.?
ironical
In
fashion
had
again
adore.
mean
if
were
you
directness
naive
the
me.
only
."
.
suffer
Elsje, with
to
they
...
not
am
it
were
wife
it,to
children, I should
my
health
your
Even
mother, whom
And
my
understand
to
try
Elsje.
them,
of
account
on
of them
none
and
question almost
a
impolitic
very
reserved
weakest
my
ment
argu-
that !
Not
much
too
that !
Not
but
.
should
spoilt
perhaps
the
have
am
whole
...
world
and
against me
that
know
don't
if all
."
.
felt that
end
going
was
doubt
by myself casting a
sacrificing
power
of
wrong,
love.
my
thus
upon
I
the
would
self-
Elsje helped
me
of it.
out
"
Yes
May
?
Then
listen !
by
from
you,
now
so
the
greatness
suddenly
so
am
and
of that
so
dazed,
which
you
so
too ?
whelmed
over-
I receive
that
bewilderingly,
292
BRIDE
THE
must
you
It
ridiculous
satisfied
than
be
to
know
world.
be
able
cared
for
"
is
"
And
like to be with
confess
would
it
openly
in Lucia's
my
I should
to
agree
religionwith
of
one
always
all the
really
moment
beside
and
that
think
power.
I should
husband
of
these
before
me.
lived
sorrows
never
to
you
know
you
for
me,
of the
place,and
n't want
it would
as
all the
matter
marriage
experienced their
upon
I don't
"
to
and
world
not
another,
Lucia
the
strange
think
it, that
bear
terrible than
it is
not
what
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looked
were
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I would
you,
to
were
much
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feelings. Your
grief for
can
comprehend. But all
nature.
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you,
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difficulty
understand,
like to
for
to bind
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that
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you.
have
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and
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that
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my
things and
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night,
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should
money
this
my
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be
not
offer me,
would
you
again
you
if in your
children
rest
that
should
after
saw
according to
the
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me
least
never
forgive me
your
to
judge rightly.
to
once
am
should
at
me
DREAMS
much
more
getting so infinitely
could
have
hoped for or expected.
ever
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yet
the
with
that
now
expect
not
seems
OF
me
n't
and
secretly
much
more
divorce."
divorce.
her.
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Catholic
is indissoluble."
are
yourself,also
you,
voutly
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Catholic?"
''
Lucia
says
Elsje looked
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me
religionwhatever."
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me."
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that!"
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parents."
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heart I laughed, because
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my
showed
herself apprehensive of
said
And
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me
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of
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voice
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of romance,
cried;
all
"that
had
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already knew.
little
poor,
dear
upon
the grass
was
OF
BRIDE
THE
294
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one
by
DREAMS
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crying,it
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royal child,Elsje!"
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to mention
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never
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on
be wrong,
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thinks
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absurdity.
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assume,
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very
very,
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how
consider
never
so
necessary,
choose
and
295
yourself be baptized,isn't
let
understand
can
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Elsje,
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have
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Christ, Elsje."
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can
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"Isn't
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that
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all
knows
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are
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with
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child
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men
believe,Elsje,
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that
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mean
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that
mean
they
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is
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for
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me
that
me,
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"
words
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be
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me.
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298
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much
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than
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you
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know
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"
least
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mean
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my
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brought
me
well
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to
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that
so
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her
creed, confessed
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do
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mild
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know
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have
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for
more
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thankful
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love.
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surely
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of
you
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So
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OF
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300
never
get," said
than
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you
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you
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probably
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me
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speak
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myself
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my
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fluent
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Love
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My
DREAMS
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THE
302
of
some
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her
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that
horses
303
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
influences.
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and
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never
and
of
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
304
knowledge.
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and
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of
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or
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me
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men
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the
at
Guido,
son
my
landing there
days.
summer
of
sailingyachts, ten
for
port
sometimes
them
fine
the
readily
understand.
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looked
was
simply
man,
scandal
whether
caused
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as
because
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or
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of
display
mutely
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of
freed
I had
pride that
to
world
the
that
spared
of
which
Elsje, to
was
it went
though
felt virtue
sitive,
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acted
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ity
generos-
and
me
sin, where
comprehension;
its
all
was
friendly,sarcastic
though forgiving me
beyond
It
myself.
the
me,
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
306
telligent
unin-
same
herd.
often
As
look
of
as
anxious
at last taken
had
now
her
dear
lipsremained
my
of
spoke
We
nearest
to
of
the
great
that
we
And
had
and
everything that
of
speak.
was
wait
what
and
men
affliction,
would
most
difficulties and
attain
the
great
deal
And
help
spoke
and
sense
a
suffer.
gladly.
of
heavy
the
felt
unspoken,
so
the
heart
And
way
dawning
understand
to
parting
heard
a
we
seeking in
and
remained
without
and
bear
the
every
had
and
of the
without
her, and
let her
until I should
experienceand
to
at
yet have
her
about
questionme
blessedness.
something
leave
could
conquer
truths, trying
would
only
waited
full of
world
Christ, groping
other.
did not
struggle so
it,of my
could
purest
of
toil and
from
beautiful
pale
But
our
had
grow
love
our
we
we
She
family either.
her
and
She
shut.
question whether
asked,
eyes
the
suspense
in her
read
Elsje again, I
saw
each
again
that
whereof
never
she
did
blessingthat
because
I must
I
I
she
For
womanly
tender
And
could
she suffered
endurance
infinite
love
the
sorrow
both
that
and
is
Remorse
that
the
But
her
consumes
soul.
bad
thing,a weakness,
permit
and
the
weakens
morbid
myself, for
in
remorse
no
it harms
these
for
punishment
of
years
that
best
But
us.
is
being, in
contented.
kernel
the
power
like hers
of her
kernel
touches
symptom.
is in
the
The
soul
body
know
in
as
myself that
bear.
delicate
pure,
long
as
her
of
she could
pure,
suffer.
can
hide from
not
than
more
only
as
for love
made
natures
by degrees I
of
suffered
suffered, she
307
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
is
wavering,
me
awaits
and
and
ask
mutely
till the
darker
gone
as
ask
so
from
long
thin, and
so
in my
of old
cheeks,
the
luxurious
the children
the housewife
toward
amiable
Pardon
fresh
an
and
old
soft
let
her
for
an
swer,
an-
deeper
the
and
red
the
lipsso
into
their
blood
had
delicate
nose
colorless .f^
everythingcontinued
healthy and happy : Lucia
home
and
correct
me,
and
wait
tions
ques-
why
"
and
sank
bright eyes
the
and
breast
my
answer
my
growing hollows,
became
And
it sits upon
then
"
diligentas
without
ever,
not
friendly
un-
fering,
sign of spiritualsuf-
hearty.
man,
dear
reader,
if he
spares
himself
and
does
not
years.
He
is not
like to
give in
One
night
the
at
with
an
The
I dreamt
me.
"
the
on
feet
under
my
spark
of bluish
betokened
the
had
later.
would
"
had
Lucia
that
Her
face
I had
was
never
Elsje
it
be,
"
she had
the
pected
long-exI dreamt
I carried
that
The
ice cracked
was
snapping
lightning. This
afraid.
came
same.
the
glorious sense
escaped
letter
it with
of
lips.
my
and
few
recognized
positivelywhat
awaited
old
stood
I under-
the
dreamed
I felt
God
seen
it
now
peared
ap-
equal-longing.
bright.
wanted
transferal, detained
be
not
knew
and
Thank
also
flash of
the
my
the
and
and
crack
was
was
saw
But
!"
ice.
I had
also
envelope.
last
hended
compre-
and
me
that
Elsje
fire like
But
Thereupon
every
of which
letter
relief,and
knew
at
no
come.
and
ill,but
contents
and
great plain of
hand.
you
was
fleeingwith
across
weeks
for
it
that
Rome,
was
The
an
for
that
he meant
too
not
walking in the
old man
sitting
was
envelope too.
is not
This
transferal
her
saw
was
saw
and
letter
title
does
and
strugglewas
the
from
that
the
in his
that
I
of
end
letter
said,
Then
of tears
opened
and
man
friend
anxious
these
expatiate on
Hague
that
name
DREAMS
melancholy.
to
proclaimed to
park
OF
BRIDE
THE
308
deceivinghim
to
by
ask
the
by doing
the
ambassador
thought
so,
but
that
I had
for
I should
a
suspi-
She
another
sense.
"
good
"
secretlyexertingherself
was
she
It
to
That
to
in
thing
some-
"
too,"
me
and
trembled
hand
my
seems
look, quickly!
something good
seems
replied;
Just
me.
"
said.
in my
it, but
relief from
expected
too
Rome,"
From
309
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
heart
my
beat.
"
Where?
"
Stockholm,"
"
Thank
The
story
That
! but
No
of
has
face.
is not
here
hand
can
"
going."
not
am
cried
out
"
you
resignation."
in my
and
then.'*
."
in Holland."
Remain
"In
Holland?
my
money?
on
the
then
shadow
and
darkened
resignation
"Your
"
"
refuse."
can't
"
Lucia
impossible,"she
's
advancement."
severelyand gravely,so
while
turning point.
I read.
is ended."
her
upon
with
said
bright look
anxiety fell
"
her
at
her
reached
!"
here
story
I looked
"
"
replied,
Heaven
wretched
that
asked
"
Vico, that
without
And
of me,
demand
can't
Live
salary?
this liaison?
continue
And
you
that
No,
is too
much."
"
Lucia,
of
"And
"
That
there
is
something
else I want
to
mand
de-
me
to
you."
that
you
is?"
release
me.
That
you
allow
put
for
end
an
as
have
want
ask
opportunity
the
is
wife
the
before
will
you
this
do
to
"
really my
wife
my
whether
you
stillthe father
of the house?
make
to
much
as
you
not
world.
grant
you
head
us
takes
."
not
are
The
whom
and
And
can
world
The
are
we
Don't
you?
children?
of my
"
and
wife
"Release
freedom
this falsehood.
to
and
man
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
310
give
me
by dissolvingour
marriage."
Italian
her
Then
I had
gestures, as
Give
break
what
Vico?
How
cast
do
humble
have
give up
my
me
you
disgraceyou
children?
I still love
you.
"
and
hoped
and
come
it all you
bringing upon
are
"
you
back
do
to
this
borne
would
you
me.
this, now
"
be
I shall
another
I
yet
abet
and
the
my
upon
provoke
for
me,
ing
capable of murderbecause
I pitiedyou
have
soon
But
and
yet
rightsfor
doing me
me
don't
should
and
I have
that
are
you
Should
"
you
me
whom
an
her and
Would
and
you
I did
what
deadly offence?
to
crazy,
you
Would
more?
the
before.
Are
would
women
bear
me
break?
cannot
many
and
pardon
now
God
matic
dra-
Opportunity
opportunity?
you
and
her
seen
never
mosity
ani-
and
rage
vehement
with
face, and
her
upon
"
with
in all its
itself
revealed
temperament
now
enough
that
on
of it
top
yieldnothing
of
more.
THE
nothing.
with
marriage
A
man,
you,
"
I go,
Lucia,
for
good.
going
"
Are
shall
That
drunk.
or
crazy
Off
"
You
understand
will not
am
again."
me
see
her .? And
to
well, I
me
what
shall you
Surely not
on
money."
your
children?"
gladly
the
see
they won't,
But
me.
see
but
"
know.
the
"And
I
be dissolved.
"
I don't
"
are
311
excuse."
going
you
live on?
"
only
DREAMS
cannot
you
"
be your
can
OF
BRIDE
children
if
will
you
they
will
surely see
to
that."
"
I '11
it.
shan't
You
able
to
hope
for
"
it is
with
cope
Poor
we?
never!
Never
Good-bye!
it.
or
them
to
possible. For
distressing.Others
reconciliation
need
us,
advise
Be
some
them.
see
!"
children
"
to
see
are
So
we
better
need
not
agreement between
an
"
it
swear
God
by
and
by
cent
inno-
my
children."
"
I do
not
shall make
leave
swear,
any
further
of absence
again. Forgive
A
*'
me
need
not
and
that
hand
in my
each
probably
not
if I have
grieved you.
come
laugh
see
ignation.
res-
other
tended
I in-
"
! intended
no
ill!
I shall demand
attempts.
day
fear
ill."
sarcastic
Oh,
you
this very
shall
We
no
but
Say
that
to
Satan
312
when
to
want
have
then,
go,
Then
packed
up
the
And,
the
station
the
first
"
laughing,
"
well.
"
Lucia
able
And
grow,
will
and
good."
at
me
officials.
It
crying
for
as
haven't
"I
I.
little
so
to
earn
be
in
was
for
brought
know
with.
how
of
Now
it.
you
strong."
so
can
so
manage
clever,
you
will
again."
lawfully
married
either.
that."
to
said
nothing,"
and
money
give
never
and
good
so
cannot
we
dispense
the
reason
said
are
you
be
may
much
as
need
we
"That's
world
for
embraced
Elsje
of
eyes
noon.
after-
same
coming
am
at
money."
And
surely
affairs
my
that
torture.
public.
Elsje!"
much
Oh,
the
the
laughing,
in
is
There
along
"
before
time
"
regulated
in
was
and
sobbing
you
God
And
too.
end
to
clothes,
wired
had
time
it
and
legation
If
fire.
soul."
thought
some
off
right
go
your
on
mercy
DREAMS
everlasting
the
before
stand
you
OF
BRIDE
THE
The
"if
Elsje,
ceremony
shall
see
only
we
how
well
the
well
can
shall
there
taken
to
and
the
and
"
lodgings in
regulatemj positionas
had
far
sphere of
entire
superiors
my
activities
my
cable,
practi-
was
as
to
from
Toelast,"
de
correctly
as
possible.
as
been
had
what
made
originalityin
"
world
quite
above
or
the
And
raise his
of
average
the
his
ruler, wander
Just
where
there
these
practiceI
feared
all and
by
away
fact
have
was
was
than
of
looked
more
fallen
indeed
by
strong
or
ward.
down-
upon
to
an
sometimes
as
my
compatriots,
my
turning
and
My
none.
pitied than
prey
an
"
possibilityof
remained
the
originalin
more
any
say,
aspirationsof practicalaccount,
into
thus in
be but
above
actions
absolutely no
was
is to
in his
if he
may,
because
private thoughts
That
in
ality
person-
far
aspirationstoo
manifests
private thoughts
this
then
even
masses.
he
aspirationswhich
itself
it manifest
unless
ruling personality.
not
vigorous originalityis
all, a
intolerable
must
unpleasantly obtrusive
matic
opinions. In the diplo-
any
actions
"
harmless,
popular everywhere
me
and
an
impersonal, without
as
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
314
sudden
lapse, and
scorned.
breaking
I
was
ambitious, selfish
happened
to
the
was
in
said
to
woman,
best
of
men.
I received
many
moralizingletters
my
chiefs and
from
former
compatriots.
efficient
so
be
myself
saving
saved
and
that
taught
endured
dolt,
he
dirty lout,
all
did
toward
Elsje
through
nor
the
about
have
is not
in novels
there
is
But
the
buzz
if
or
one
far
as
hum
goes
as
ahead
no
one
is not
wrong,
afraid
and
the excitement
it contended
I could
boor,
things.
by
us
self
him-
trouble
not
gossip, nor
burgomaster,
And
customers.
provincialworld
it is sometimes
the
In
in
tured
pic-
beginning
hive.
bee-
disturbed
quietlyand, just
hand, if
ing
train-
stood
the
Dutch
Jan
intentions
my
about
comedies.
and
was
he
did
his
and
dangerous by
as
his
churl, but
that
about
that
noticed
later
He
generous
nor
nor
baker
Baars
Jan
and
thin, and
minister,
the
about
Jan
ment.
environ-
Dutch
life.
fact
conventions,
about
by
speak, the
a
honorable,
were
and
thick
kind
the
of
convinced
Once
from
respect.
narrow-minded
of
sorts
tolerate
present
my
to
to
so
schooling of
the
Without
have
to
me
let
not
myself
therein
learned
touchstone
the
was
would
and
qualitiesbeneath
Dutch
apparent unpleasantnessI
Baars
drowning
poor
concealed
even
good
whose
Baars,
the
callers, faithfullyassisted
all
not
of
like to lose
organized noble
even
obdurate
I remained
But
man.
the
315
did not
they
They
power.
for
endeavors
that
saw
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
hold
shows
and
the
it could
with
that
one
as
firm
tends
in-
subside
asperities
petty
never
world
endure.
erates
tol-
316
BRIDE
THE
But
Elsje
"Elsje!"
and
had
said
I,
have
wavered
must
brave, but
rupture
with
but
making
the
the direction
world?
follow
but
the
know,
knew
see
to the world.
"
good
"
how
and
that
asked
Christ
that
and
can
calls
must
we
this for
find
never
On
over
the
ever
so
some
no
it is not
be
to
anything
arise
matter
it.
from
"
to
seems
do
the
And
us.
it must
me
salutary effect,when
dares
one
it
But
in
not
only a dark,
saw
would
Elsje?
me,
have
honest,
that
does
alluringto
the contrary, I
I do.
always
world,
happinesswould
our
understand
I believe
that
see
And
personal joy
misapprehension
after all
capacitiesfor
the
course,
If
it be
highest,though
you
For
of
we
radiate
manner
Do
suppressed.
be
that
happiness.
foul
thing,
some-
versal
alone, for the highesthappiness is uni-
ourselves
I did not
achieved
highesthappiness,the brightestlight;
I also
some
ness
useful-
my
my
and
light of joy,
the
this
my
thereby
how
we
of others, and
and
qualities
seek
through
us
the
now
shall
Elsje
increase
perhaps
of all
know
originalityprevail.
my
myself,if
I did
should
restrained
have
wretched
arrival, "I
my
because
only
I have
For
under
not
after
day
world
my
greater plans.
also because
will I have
I did
made
a
feared
had
long, not
so
in life.
own
DREAMS
knowing this,I
not
life for
OF
what
what
he
considers
it costs
people must
people
also
him."
see
and
the
don't
less
good
and
at
all in
our
see
do
they
wrecked
ralto, he has
of
victim
he throws
now
caprice,an
love
for
world.
the
that
the
no
attitude
And
That
out
For
in this
unity
also
that
and
every
stands
under-
man
for
now
the
of the
realization
act.
is
usuallyquiteright.
the unity of the
menaces
is its
mon,
com-
eyes,
Elsje,
true
my
own
for
deceivinghimself."
of
said
the
and
is very
too
in his
wisdom,
toward
whoever
cast
nothing new
noble motives
from
than
by
the world
is
for
"
deceives himself,
moreover
man!"
alarmed
first time
his passion,
blessedness
That
reallysins
dear
"Poor,
the
become
ness
prospects, his happi-
his eternal
he acts
one
Mu-
art better
no
"
Poor
restrain
not
his
takes
world's
could
righteouscause.
for
one
has
sinner
unhappy
fine and
his life,he
amourette.
It
pretendingthat
say
it
consider
cannot
They
away
will add
some
"
he
woman,
they
so
either.
beautiful
and
good
and
know,
not
they
impelledme
What
case.
that
And
beautiful.
dons
aban-
he
that
something better
it is for
feel that
317
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
security,it
is
It must
group.
sacred, holy,
And
it cannot
Polynesians say.
each particularcase, whether
possiblyinvestigate
'
taboo,'
as
the seceder
a
or
the
is
perhaps
faithful follower
simply an
truly originalspiritor
weakling.
in the
face
understand
That
of the
the
seceder
rightly.^^
Christ,
eccentric
himself
condemnation.
world's
"
me
must
of
Do
fool
prove
you
said
"No!"
don't
OF
BRIDE
THE
318
think
you
believe.
quite,I
it
good
secede
to
not."
or
"
I shall
That
of
Both,
the
are
unity,his judgment,
holy
and
every
resistance.
But
and
good
vigorous
has
and
the
tree
is
not
union
he
the
is
its
burst
new,
better
old
the
constitute
our
new
cells
of
the
cells, the
and
guided by
voice.
the
But
manity
Hu-
forth
of
the
single cells
the
kernel
body
corporal
germinal
no
are
are
of
has
two
cells
that
too
developed.
will
new
cells from
The
the
seceders,
longer tolerate
directly called
Humanity, by
minal
ger-
the
and
Christ's
be men,
with
patience,designed for
stern
they
growing.
sending
of Christ
of
Genius
the
are
and
group
with
ing
burst-
who
originalspirits
of
is met
perfect growth
union, forming
organisms
in the body
is
groups
branches,
bark,
organs,
prehension.
com-
The
organization. Our
principalkinds
our
incomplete, defective.
function
is the
That
that
old
above
disturbance
Christ
dividual
in-
becomes
of the
constantly developingnew
shoots.
union
herd-
they cohere,
beautiful
attained
yet
is still
union
through
which
and
The
better
far exalted
the
Therefor
the
The
cells.
the
herd-men
of.
need
sists
con-
lives,it is his
his
of
"
has
Christ
Humanity
you.
the
form
men
explainto
principalkinds
two
seceders.
own
"not
Elsje,
whether
know
DREAMS
must
then
also
OF
BRIDE
THE
DREAMS
endurance
and
constant
hate
and
persecute
them
For
those
them
them.
this process
of
create
good
only
if
and
who
and
persecution
and
better
herd-man
the
"
struggle. The
world
withstand
can
annihilation
union.
and
existingorder
must
hilate
possibleanni-
new
to be
union
has
319
are
able
and
Therefore
it is
to
as
it is called
if
"
one
the
But
strength for that and nothing more.
it is good to break
this order
if one
feels oneself
light
very distinctlyimpelledto it by the inward
of Christ, by true
sciousness
knowledge, by the firm conof
with
and
truth,
absolute
inevitable
survivingher
hatred
one's
and
just
to
the
power
struggling,for
good right to
It is not
has
one
enduring and
resistingthe
indeed
knows, knows
moreover
certainty,that
abilities for
the
and
denounce
and
the
be
to
world
nal.
origiand
to
virtue
And
the
on
world
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but
which
which
for
to
must
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to
Thus
from
the
persevere
sake
my
dear
union
and
conquer,
not
punishes according
breaking
power
with
virtue
sake,
own
his privilegedservants,
originals,
of
to
husband
the
yield.
to
sought
for
victory.
his deserts
has
to
be
not
its
The
him, who
overestimated
his
triumph."
will not
be
martyr,"
said
the
OF
BRIDE
THE
320
Elsje,
DREAMS
always practical,and
as
keeping
to
point.
"
if he
Not
with
only
them:
for
is your
'Where
world
my
'
have
We
Christ's
with
gospel?
bought
you
dealing
are
goods,
before
came
thorns, might he
of
crown
If I
help it.
can
our
ask
not
And
what
with
your
his
with
Christ
joy
guish?
an-
goods, Elsje,
is his sorrow,
sorrow
our
is his
joy
price
for
his
paid,
the
gospel
the
of that
joy
world,
soon
as
is
as
Elsje
long,
I
for
for
do
but
Christ
to
pay
benefit
"
is not
of
would
also
with
how
to-day
But
you
is
this
for
are
and
there
said
Elsje, with
so
For
to
world,
in it.
But
I did
I want
Therefore
am
no
I live.
wavered
and
how
am
so
little
well,
me
for
myself,
quite ready
whatever
good
not
fice
sacri-
just account
his
to
Understand
personal sorrow
of Christ.
yet
brighten this
still is.
do
weak
in whom
has
Christ.
want
been
yet
of this
all believe
joy
life
for
not
naught
But
kingdom
could
know
Elsje, I
for
joy
nothing.
achieve
can
the
to
want
there, but
we
mortal
as
poor
never
kingdom
heavenly kingdom
as
has
his
Though
come.
of thorns
crown
is for
is also my
the
good.
nothing."
so
much
her
strong
you
and
can
you
do
know
for
charming pride.
the
so
much,
world,"
the
and
life is
new
America?"
"To
Elsje;
"Yes,
are
willing?
you
of
proximity
shall
earth, but
remote
some
stand
in
the
what
aware
of
divine
what
is to
and
the
how
I shall go
Then
"
in
whirl
for
tender
and
of
child?
"Why
become
best
what
in deed
anything
the
he
country
yet quite
sure
the
not
palled
ap-
but
prospect,
as
overwhelming images.
new
will there
still be
for
And
and
room
little,
"
Elsje?
not,
dwellings and
born
and
thoughtful:
small, peacefulhome?
the
shyly :
in this battle
And
of
mankind,
us
not
am
the
it."
grave
she asked
time
frightened by
or
though
about
looked
Elsje
of
people, though
of
intensively
best
can
with
achieve
can
I know
it is there.
shall
We
midst
most
expected
intends
If I
me.
the
cape
es-
ful
pain-
corner
very
There
be
Christ
of
expects
world.
human
growing
the
of life.
sphere
fiercelyburning life,in
most
are
in
ourselves
bury
"
old
my
shall
We
Evade
not
stirring,
intensely."
seething most
and
foaming,
DREAMS
the
where
country,
new
OF
BRIDE
THE
322
tender
many
The
there.
There
too
peaceful
are
little children
fighting does
not
also
go
on
constantly."
"
I shall
she was,
in
see
that
good
time.
am
And
XXVII
stood
WE
Atlantic
in the
with
sky heavy
light gray and
a
clear
of the
the
and
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the
in
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calm
to
which
side,above
one
white
dark
and
to
on
into mist
out
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shone
about
flurry,glittering
and
contrasting
of
sign of
and
sea,
gulls round
background
bow
rain-
houses,
colors
bright sunlight
and
of
brown
faded
flowed
bright
under
sea
fragment
the
cliffs
grayish-purple,
whirling,livingsnow
the
with
screaming
"
of
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ship,like
sharply
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which
of the
lightemerald-green
blackish-graycloud
against
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land
green
rich
short
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stretchingstraight across
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our
rain clouds
trans-
great
color-thirsty
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rain.
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risingout
of the
risingabove
hills of Ireland,
us
steamer
drank
eyes
and
the deck
upon
clouds
"
ceaselessly.
the
the rainbow.
"
such
"
Do
you
really believe,Vico,
signs to
What
Elsje
do
looked
men?
you
at
that
God
"
mean
me
by
with
323
'
God,' Elsje.?"
pensive wonder.
gives
"
Do
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bride
the
324j
then
you
DREAMS
believe in Christ
only
and
not
in
God?"
"
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employ
I
After
them
not
"
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what
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believe
with
Christ.
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one
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may
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idea
but
image,
predictionsand
is the
idea,
an
in which
believe
asked
see
them
in
firmed
con-
faith that
herd-men
originalsand
and
poets
all
are
of."
need
God
does
"And
give
not
such
then?"
signs
Elsje.
the
higher being
sun,
that
But
emotions
of what
this
made
I behold
here
and
of whom?
Of
For
earth
Surely.
sign,are
more
than
manity.
hu-
experiences
perceptibility
Being,
point to a supreme
inward
our
which
created
the
Almighty, who
and
all the
stars,
on
and
whom
all is
to
comforting spectacle.
and
Christ?
than
the
come
follow.
conclusions
glorious, beneficent
is a sign. But
That
and
fixed
scholar
every
make
can
scholars
and
Because
hypothesis,and
by experience. This
then
or
more
absolute
certainty,but
hypothesis,without
an
ever-increasingdegree of probability,so
that
"
tion
observa-
and
Why?
form
I could
as
thing.
some-
professorscall
may
mean
something
picture,not
thought
mean
many
inward, that
and
of
I say
so
it to
I want
years
when
obtained
I have
word
beginning to
am
less distinct
his
many
whom
the
all
and
sun
we
subject.
know
No
the
is
matter
earth
ent
dependwhat
THE
think
we
It is
BRIDE
impossiblenot
or
God
no
name."
to
said
Nature,
"
Dear
earth
it
is
feeling,
such
we
call it Nature
for
Being.
still
give
it
again God,
me
all that
"
is not
living
"
"
at
living,feeling,
loving being.
sun,
325
better
"but
Elsje;
whether
"
something else,or
or
"Yes,"
And
arrive
always
must
we
DREAMS
OF
Elsje, only
in
the
beginning of this
century, before the professors had yet thought
out their impossiblehypothesis of a dead
matter
and
soulless Nature,
few
words
have
and
when
*
he
Of
The
Is
is the
"
they
have
fessors
pro-
half
gone
Shelley,
twenty, he
eternal
will have
named
was
than
and
the
in
wrote
world
element
.
moveless
pillarof a mountain's
weight
active, livingspirit. Every grain
Is sentient
And
only
which
we
poet
who
poet
which
older
not
was
Soul
This
was
wisdom
again, before
further.
century
the
forgotten and
remember
to
forth
set
there
the
world
Remember
both
minutest
atom
of loves and
these
them
unity and
in
words
comprehends
hatreds.*
will
well, Elsje, I
and
more
once
part.
translate
them
peat
re-
for
you."
And
I did
consisted
so,
only
for
Elsje'sknowledge
in what
she had
learned
of
English
from
me.
"
I continued
Then
the
world
and
child
every
Lord's
the
maker
back
did
as
them,
But
Spinoza.
be
can
or
their
called
brought
truth, only by
the
is to
that
to learn
has
science
natural
God,
to
world
Atheist, just
an
modern
all
The
prayer.
ought
table
multiplication
the
necessarilythan
more
the
from
forth
brought
Jesus-Drama,
issued
words
most
has
DREAMS
These
and
strongest
OF
BRIDE
THE
326
these
words."
"
Of
before
"
and
the earth
"
gloriousspectaclea livingsign of
the sun?
Elsje asked.
is this
Then
!"
course
also
are
of
emotions
relations
nearer
joy
to
these
"
All
ity.
sublim-
of all that
characteristics
and
love
sign.
outward
an
splendor,beauty,
the
their
But
yet be long
it shall
but
such
of it is:
These
is divine.
"
I ;
comprehend
we
understand
we
said
inner
our
do
we
not
comprehend."
"
And
"
deities
as
"
asked
outward
operation
the
of
signs thereof
Nature,'
and
of life
that
as
are
the
is fixed
force
issue from
and
the
what
of
the
plants
these
But
physicallaws.
of the Almighty.
they
the
humanity,
that
power
wife.
my
point
signs I have seen
limited, imperfect beings
celestial bodies.
the
in
the
All
"
God?
all
and
gravitationand
These
And
to
seem
call
alone
still we
supreme
can
are
Power.
or
animals,
work
The
unchangeable.
scholars
to
Laws
of
all chemical
be
not
signs
sure
"
Life
sensible
tells
consciousness
inner
Our
signs
the
of
the
that
us
preme
su-
the
finite,temporal. But
be
cannot
327
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
Life
supreme
according
to
our
all
is
there
put it:
irreversible
standstill.
This
processes.
be
must
the
of
and
Beside
the second-class
stood
us
last land
the
toward
of
trying
to
catch
something
carried
on
in low
tones
scarfs
arms;
brown
in
and
tall
blond
felt hats
Siamese
their
around
Poles
cool-blooded
with
of
and
and
in
wark
bul-
vainly
language strange
with gailywomen,
heads
shabby
and
conversation
our
a
of
the
across
Europe,
to them.
caps;
is
perceptible
passengers
gazing
their
Life
it."
signsof
colored
the
It
condition.
highest
discover
also
shall
we
are
Life.
supreme
the
irrefutablythat
there
satisfyour
not
know
more,
does
and
we
scholars
the
As
increasingentropy
consciousness
inward
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to
come
that
motion
of
laws
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mobile.
perpetuum
know
Universe
The
end.
an
coats
and
and
in
children
astrakhan
Scandinavians,
square-jawed,
patient; short, sturdy Italians
of pale; a handful
gay cravats
jugglers
or
gymnasts
with
flat
nuts
and
oranges,
sometimes
828
THE
BRIDE
making
music
and
of life
they
had
expectationof
eyes
her
with
these
amid
"
amid
the
our
subtle
strange
saw
dark-rimmed
joy
of her
the
could
hours.
was
hands
word
of my
She
all the
understood
in the
overflowing
ways
that
cried
my
were
heard
because
heart
inmost
wringing
nothing of
my
second
and
my
children
silent
would
for
fall
absence, it
was
torn,
the
entrails
them
before
one
rich
sublime
my
they
of
that
to
of
that
exceptionof
the
from
leads
memory
often
more
imagined
they
I had
this little
with
herself
deeply dejected
though
as
and
pride
cheerful,but
very
all the
me
with
age
of
and
Above
that
strange
soul.
not
When
ill,or
herself
globe,making
grave
make
false
my
together from
gentle melancholy
thought.
like
grew
life.
new
myself was
and
shiningwith
rubbish.
blown
in all sorts
profoundly
wife
conversation
quiet
troop of humanity
loved
delicate
"
and
vague
their
but
But
of
the
her
and
plant amid
exotic
quarters
battle
pleasurein
sweet,
my
and
pale,delicate features
singing,eating,chatteringand gaming
joyous fervor,
and
now
eyes,
and
wealth
future
with
and
through
gone
anxious
fierce and
usual
dulled
half
all
gaming,
the
frightenedby
DREAMS
OF
of
my
or
my
parture
de-
ing
brief, comfort-
daughter, the
third
in
teen.
children, a shrinking,gentlegirlof sixwrote
in Italian
for
it became
too
us
for hours
hand
of colors
on
of
peace
Dear
sometimes
very
have
seems
sea
stars
"
then,
that
is
"but
yet
it
had
you
for
moreover
Still it is
me.
the
"
though
even
remains
just
as
made
God
This
tiful,
beau-
sun
and
the
I have
Christ
nearer
to you,
have
n't I?
Yes, but
"
True,
intimate
also
and
and
father
our
them.
above
then
when
then
they
are
love
truly our
most
is
see
that
can
we
It
we
but
us,
we
mother
and
Later
And
confidants.
When
real.
is
hide
the
further
no
or
really brought
of his
made
therefore
to
"
him
robbed
wish
oppressing. Inwardly
There
And
"
to
near.
there.
stand
much
profound incomprehen-
its
nearer
wrong
in these
!"
truth,
God
always
being
thinking,feeling
"
me
Elsje;
inaccessible
and
And
taught
though
as
already terrifyingin
siveness.
to
and
justification
our
true," said
wicked, awful
is
that
felt that
we
lie
could
you
and
distant
For
time
From
mind.
man,
comforting
gloriousplay
great things
thoughts.
our
sat
we
blue-black, seethinglight-
the
the
gazing at
waves,
of
spoke
we
and
endurable
foaming snowy-white.
occupied
our
DREAMS
more
in hand
the
blue, and
time
OF
BRIDE
THE
330
him
are
perfection."
dearer,
children
more
sider
con-
we
perfect. Thereby
that
they
they
have
do
beloved
stupid,childish
indeed
faults
them, faults
and
we
too.
and
all,
trusted
tendency
al-
BRIDE
THE
to
ways
is
above
when
he
said
there
add
that
And
Memory.
Christ
feel
the
loftiness
that
there
has
created
are
yet
above
and
beyond
his
humble
and
will
faults
which
he
number
of
comprehension,
and
with
is
equal
he
weak
equally
the
wise
near
profoundness."
the
to
that
power
that
there
all
beings,
and
yet
in
learns
perfection:
lives
and
low
fol-
ity,
sublim-
higher
and
one
to
incomprehensible
in
faulty
and
able
when
be
powerful
who
be
man
without
in
ness.
Good-
one
superiority
infinite
Most-Sublime,
all
be
and
and
but
blessedness,
also
him
him,
then
is
truly
perfect
one
all
in
spoke
but
was
may
may
an
Bible-Jesus
pure
there
331
perfection
there
only
to
that
The
that
DREAMS
demand
to
us.
will
to
and
expect
that
OF
far
lofty
all
of
of
power
all
them
and
etrates
pen-
XXVIII
1D0
not
dear
give
to
propose
reader, and
has
Elsje's parentage
to
and
me
the
have
Mr.
Conan
America
to
I wish
But
man
fare
may
maintain
position
plan
the
of the
that
efforts
I sowed
thing
and
trip
my
and
I myself
failure.
complete
distinctlyrealize
that
ordered
to
that
the
faithfullyperseveres
in
knowing
that
later
generaland
to
the
learn
that
foreseen
were
have
endeavor
is
his perseverance
in the great
peace.
possiblethat,
my
aware
his failure
victoryand
It is
"
of
sort
soldier, who,
untenable,
hopelessfailure
and
that
position without
charge, though
his
a
is
of the
romance
everyone,
you
the
as
unknown
directlythat
in what
make
to
life.
colleagues.
first,considered
at
too
for
public libraries
tell you
resulted
look
not
remained
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his
and
Doyle
prises,
sur-
story of my
for
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your
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So
motive
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foundling
you
always
pretty
must
you
in the
thrillingexcitement
dramatic
you
were
though
even
after
seeds
that
332
it seemed
wise,
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still in
ful,
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shoot
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enchanted
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down
as
dear
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words
my
mighty ferment,
who
also
strongly,and
so
me
and
in this
that
of those
heads
in the
me
me
and, like
their way
find
stirred
made
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write
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this and
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my
lonely life,because
has
the
333
carried
I have
regret
of
none
me
know
not
understanding.
and
rich
I do
it, to
know
I do
after
it. I have
understood
as
so
about
trouble
not
DREAMS
only long
plants.
as
up
OF
BRIDE
work
reader,
nality,
experienced the painful blessing of origi-
have
know
and
what
with
contact
it is to
Christ,
the
live
ate
immedi-
in
Genitive
Spirit of
humanity.
efforts and
shone
"
one
wonder
This
is
poured
that
an
of
of the
the
themselves
out
the true
ing
increas-
ever
light
brighterglow
describe, because
it and
to
insincere
over
every
it in riotous
scruples to employ
to indicate
tinued
con-
marriage.
true
know
and
vain
my
sublimity,one
and
difficult to
so
mankind,
steadier
ever
eloquence and
one
of
beauty
professesto
insincere
So
with
the
anguish
of
void
out
confusion
dark
through
painfulexperiences,
terrible
and
the
all
Through
any
streams.
word
wonder, because
have
with
where-
all words
THE
334.
have
OF
BRIDE
pollutedand
been
DREAMS
defiled
through
horrible
misuse.
wonder
is
originalspiritwho
has
The
the
true
all domestic
the
on
herd,
conventional
of the
all the
moment
long
seemed
terrible
anguish of
all
apparent happiness,how
to
the
mighty
gained
were
intimacy of
into
destroy
peace
these
among
tute,
substi-
in what
lived
dured
en-
of
rupture
affection
and
this, how
"
this
sorry
slightthe anguish
pared
com-
things that
transcendent
and
to
I have
violent
only
rest
miserable
attachment
of
to
union.
happy
as
of
man
would, if he had
I have
is
insignificant
how
the
domestic
as
glory.
bonds
firmly-knit
but
for
imitation,
true
world
the
it
happiness and
great human
a
found
hesitate
not
power,
great that
so
the
"
true
of
one
cells in the
two
great body of
humanity.
I have
good
oh !
"
qualityand
also that
by
falser
far
the
than
this
respect
turn
and
majority
were
back
of
most
men
And
oh !
"
herd-man
this
herein
immediately, because
inferior
false union.
and
to
riages
mar-
by
to true
susceptibility
left free
Christ
most
conventionalist
if he
the
with
that
are
"
own
the elemental
"
conjugal happiness is
weakest
most
my
in this matter
believe
to
reason
to
deep
do
so
would
elemental
that
"
still works
it is the
the
even
most
in
stinct,
inwith
directly
deep-
THE
seated,
has
BRIDE
DREAMS
absorbing passion
most
335
with
which
he
ocean
of
equipped us.
And
with
even
grief,confusion
herd
the
bonds
would
crusade
against
the
land
be
to
road
and
and
what
follow
the
arise
lead
break
were
of the
all
untrue
appalling knowledge
them
such
to
on
matrimonial
lie, since
perhaps
they
the
would
lead
to
the
that
zeal
this
hesitate
not
know
with
even
"
disaster
fanatic
in
of
vision
itself to
apply
to
clear
and
Originals and
on
OF
had
curse
begun;
and
name
my
but
the
denounce
prize is
worth
the
sacrifice.
Marriage
sacred
is without
human
through
is
dissolved
true
one
with
the
of
one
institutions, but
inward
churchly ritual
truth
doubt
truth,
and
make
can
in
wanting
and
it sacred
it.
And
formula
if the
better
false
broken
most
sacred
only
civic
no
the
inward
thousand
than
marriages
or
untrue
one
sacredness
upheld.
Christ
But
is
yet
Our
in the throes
world
of God.
not
the
is yet in distress
true
is
as
But
less
of
my
as
birth,in
brother
I add:
painful.
marriage from
and
the
said
wound
healing wound;
And
the
He
pains of growth.
Hebbel
anguish.
what
untrue
fore
there-
distinguishes
is this
very
THE
336
BRIDE
qualityof pain.
what
I suffered
OF
DREAMS
did I suffer
Never
the
In
through Elsje.
and
happiness there
is contentment
in
everlastinggnawing
the
real
an
desire
longing,a
oneself
to express
closelyunited,
fully,the
more
be bound
to
to
emotion, by
and
to
express
happiness,by
what
life and
be
to
never
blessingof
the
ich
Mich
ganz
of
pain
von
of the
like
that
knew
our
love-life of
cup
of life I
stream.
side
of
in
welfare
regard
by
us,
wish
our
at
words
her
with
in
arose
tief
devout
me:
gestillt
begniige
tender
of
all the
Christ.
By
the
recognizedthe
one
tang
water
through
with
of
from
the
pain
."
siderations
con-
and
concerning present
wholly dying
gentle, never
And
quality
cares
was
to
ments,
peaceful mo-
mysterious,
love-life
our
company.
gazing
sorrow.
and
powerless-
other's
love, independent
firmly,
depth
serenest, most
was
more
experienceconstantly
other's
Moricke's
world
great
to
heil'genWerth
in my
"
bring
deinem
and
future
each
Anschaun
there
to be
our
the
deinem
mit
then
even
that
so
Wenn
her
by
I sat
attention
and
in the
when,
Even
desire
uncertainty
would
each
the desire
"
by
another
our
parted
ing
tortur-
everlastingly.Elsje
one
death
and
together more
anxiety for
our
apparent
complacency,
more
constantly tormented
were
ness
**
morey
indissolubly,more
more
for
Lucia
through
echo
this I
great
in
our
the world-
THE
338
it, because
will
be
than
DREAMS
would
disobedient
these
of
influence
the
the
mass,
be
depends
possible.
Did
independently,they
the
But
enough
voice
Original element,
the
few
hates
the
man
But
felt
reveres
by
destroys
is
if the
the
"
to
to
the
in advance
of
originality
make
ence
influcloser
of
as
of
something
humanity,
Genitive
our
Spirit,
ferventlyas
originalindividual
does
herd
him.
herd, then
feel
the
now
original,the
group.
voice, the
And
closelyand
nearly as
who
act
own
Genius
of the
originals. If
and
and
changed through
herd.
group
is all too
the
of the
the
not
to
individuals, original
the
stand
the
though
as
powerful enough
All
are
is
group
few
members
the
subsist
not
union
no
think
the
not
may
members
humanity's
by
originalideas
they
the
few
some
followed
of these
their
of
could
Christ, and
themselves
which
the members
understand
to
of
of
through
otherwise
group-formation
influence
the
tions
group-forma-
strength of
obedience
the
on
The
of life.
Not
herd,
judge independently,because
feelings
voice of the
the
these
group-ideasand
continuallychanging.
are
and
in which
would
ideas
to
he
wild, and
run
falsifyhis
twist and
completely
But
he
otherwise
sooner
herd
OF
BRIDE
That
follow, but
not
is the
martyr
"
of his
age."
singleindividual
the
and
respects and
statues
in his honor
it follows
it erects
is
and
eulogizeshim.
talent
more
And
all the
339
if the
more
seceder
and
presses
im-
one
amazing
peopleby the displayof some
while
Meanorganizing,dramatic or musical.
"
this leader
and
than
the
unison
bring
with
the
has
example
nothing
in
organizationmore
outer
inner
done
life of
humanity,
Christ's
being.
own
consideration
This
led
thoughts,and yet
standing so much
my
that
he could
with
one
the
talent
organizing
and
the
all
for
whom
would
that
in his inclinations
than
nearer
influence.
an
the
and
"
demands.
originaland
too
signifya
useless
ings
feel-
the herd,
some
still
the
ability,the
the
mediator
better,
herd
ates
toler-
between
me,
practicallyunqualified,
make
to
attempt
an
absorb
extraordinary
some
which
Thus
man
Moreover,
with
ruling power
and
I to
learnedness, or
as
"
for
independent to
prestigelent by
other
qualityor
aplomb,
exert
seek
to
me
and
sufficiently
intelligent
himself
and
martyrdom,
prevail
the herd,
in its
of the
Before
made
to
DREAMS
personallysuggestivepower,
possesses
OF
BRIDE
THE
my
call the
name,
as
governor
member
choice
mind
my
neared
we
man
he
of
of
as
from
the
the
American
that
persons
for
qualified
my
shores
had
had
purpose.
need
come
I shall
and
at
my
Supreme Court,
arrival
the
was
real
been
a
highest tri-
bunal
in the
It
United
esteemed
and
was
DREAMS
of this
men
the white
the
Hudson
of
the
and
saw
little
the
from
blowing
tug-boats rocking
and
amid
out
among
shrill whistles
the great
for prey,
the
splashingwater.
Upon
the
elongated
mouth
stretched
river
of the
the
toward
tall
appeared
be
to
pack-ice.
the
one
up
on
like
was
Wall
the
activity,where
though spurred
by
on
the
the
the
island
like
other
were
other
end, there
the
the
upon
that
so
of
point
the blocks
where
facing each
stood
of
the
of
mighty city,
houses
piled
block,
upon
at
heaped
There
set
centre
block
of masonry
masses
and
sea,
coating
protruding into
up
as
island
solid
and
ing
hunt-
sea-monsters
with
ice from
wide
waters
running quickly in
ships,like
the
valiant
the
turbulent
the
covered
were
and
sky,
on
of
centre
blue
steamed
we
buildingmasses
the
wide, grayish-yellowstream.
realm.
mighty
up
was
the most
and
trusted
OF
BRIDE
THE
340
est
high-
ing-blocks
giant build-
Street, the
restless
uncomprehended
stir, the
instinct
of
accumulation.
As
we
drew
colors, the
buildingsin
soft
the
nearer
reds
we
and
saw
the
creamy
clear, smokeless
delicate, fresh
whites
of
the
atmosphere, the
BRIDE
THE
white
exhausts
OF
the
sky, and
houses,
row,
upon
light with
severe,
myriad
the sea,
the
of
globe
who
streamed
this land
to
all the
from
of
fixed
tioning
ques-
arrivals
new
future
the
strong,
square,
grave,
of
row
and
firm
341
the
of
out
DREAMS
from
quarters
and
promise
expectation.
Then
the
followed
impressionsof
the
confusing and
landing,where
the
seems
compelledby experience,
and
apparently
we
animals
were
the
me
bitterness
/, the
here
come
of
with
with
ments,
ele-
ing,
humiliat-
endurance
though
alleviated
aristocrat, who
proud
than
otherwise
treated
and
itself
of undesired
strictness, as
cheerful
tion,
na-
be examined.
and
Elsje'ssmile
for
to
great
guard
to
selects
heartless
confounding
had
surrounded
distinction
never
by luxury,
as
honored
an
guest.
When
finallyreleased
were
we
life,where
the
ants
selfish
of that
seeking of
the
few
"
seemingly aimless
or
bees
one
sees
and
a
orderless
selves
our-
tremendous
and
secret
into
the
tumult
found
and
is
by
together
as
out
of
agitationof
well-plannedstructure
THE
342
arise,
BRIDE
rattling of
the
amid
"
the
ill-keptpavement,
trains
elevated
ceaseless
the
the
the
graceless
this
attracting attention, in
or
of
thunder
between
running
and
worn
buildings and
business
trucks, the
the
of feet upon
thousands
of
shuffling
DREAMS
OF
doing
so
eminently
pre-
incomplete,imperfect, half-barbarous
and
world,
half-polished
wife, overwhelmed
her
the world
to
this
did
everything
that
here
the
town,
the
city
preys
find it in
where
the
directlyto
spots
be
can
enced
inexperiof those
one
the immediate
of nature,
found
midst
to
outwardly
put
up
move
It
further
did
to
man
wooden
sheds
or
barns,
soon
"
would
houses
that
as
though
probably
one
may
comparativelylittle money.
not
look
invitingfor
the choice
the well-sustained
where
than
in the
better
no
on
occupy
be
of
quickly and
colony. There
carelesslygrowing human
woody, rocky territory little,dingy,
are
ity
vicin-
still wild
in the
neglectedprecinctsof
remote,
houses
as
day, knowing
upon
villagesin
wild,
run
the
went
scattered
again
or
me
still attracted
powerless to
me,
in
arrival, but
of
confounded, clingto
with
remain
not
vaguely
dear, delicate
my
of life.
tumult
saw
sought everythingthat
she
though
and
and
woman
tomed
accus-
of
solidity
Dutch
house, and
intimacy of
Dutch
landscape,
nature
through long-continued
symbiosishave
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
together in
grown
343
harmonious
union.
the woods
through
all
Everywhere
down
tumble-
were
dirt,
and
left
and
down
chopped
trees
to
burnt
of
by,
between
the
colors, rushed
their
But
all it
that
the
boards,
sign-
and
was
home, and
long
of
years
with
all the
sufferinghad
left
the dear
sion
illu-
waiting
into
in her, Elsje
of
of
rows
smoke.
after
energy
long
painted in glaring
trains, besmirching everything
monstrously drawn
with
imity
prox-
And
world.
rot,
reality.
when
And
somewhat
the
humble
habitable,
with
stocked
dwellinghad
the
kerosene
night,so
while
Elsje
at
when
a
daily
threw
lamp
that
I could
sewed
and
table with
to
young
to
the
help
domestic
few
been
wan
of
completeness
countenance
cover
and
upon
light
the paper
head
thoughts,
"
of
the housewife
found
who
came
made
pantry
busily,her
mended
girlhad
read
great satisfaction
negro
its circle of
sit and
tenderly solicitous
full of
and
was
extremely fresh
provisions,an
bedroom,
spotlessly-kept
which
there
when
been
"
and
then
in her
ideas, a
I
necessary
Elsje's
clear, dark-ringed
saw
upon
eyes
Only
its
or
then
perfect
distressing
shone
that
light
memories
OF
BRIDE
THE
344
above
out
all
gloomy
forebodings.
sad
DREAMS
saw
radiant
realization
faithful,
her
glory,
of
but
its
loving
also,
frailness.
alas
nature
! with
in
the
THE
346
OF
BRIDE
DREAMS
the original,
thus
nothing,but he inclines toward
making the entire herd more
adaptable to change,
while
he
lacks
originalsto
herd
the
ever-dangeroustendency of
break
loose, and
The
ideas of human
elemental
little brother
has
English gentleman
in the
as
nations
of
in the
Shaw's
become
ideas
humanity,
The
"
term
them.
enriching oneself
oneself
oneself
without
groups
of
lawful.
But
themselves
by
"
ancient
the
is comprehensible,
herd
and
Un-Christian
means
the
group-ideas of
craft,
doing
any
by
these
In
these
It is
one
of
may
of the
without
enrich
craft, at
one
the
even
this
And
work,
calling
lawful,
admitted.
form.
not
ably
unmistak-
so
the
many
were
nations
of the
riching
en-
enriching
things
among
generally
means
the
measure.
great herd
the
others, the
of
cost
or
worst
the nature
tency
consis-
times
in the very
zation,
civili-
mediately
originalim-
every
Christian, include
honorable
of the
just
of
actions
true
is with
means
bound
un-Christian
moreover
the
at
so
Christ.
to
un-Christian
applied to
the
Anglo-Saxon
which
hostile
as
type
that
with
recognizesas conflicting
of
the
And
extinct
or
current
are
the
group.
tremendous
West-European
from
rarer
lament
entire
the
respecting
diverge
nature, the
becomes
"gentleman"
my
ideas
group
of
in
the
of the union.
sacredness
the
more
alive
keeps
virtue
lofty,indispensable
upholding the
and
of
the
oneself
expense
self
onerestrictedly,
un-
of
THE
the
of the
herd
made
Reason
conceivable
The
and
nigh impossibleto
new
the
as
The
respecting
time
of
only
the
and
him
this
from
It is well-
without
originality
of
the
still
of
anarchists, forming
to
the
great herd.
the
at
same
feelings,
strainingof
truth
that
honest
people succeed
represented the fast
gentleman,
and
knew
possiblethrough an
suppleness of mind, fineness
in.
appearing
disthat
dinary
extraor-
was
feeling,and
or
group,
original human
one's
Primal
ever,
changed, how-
group-ideas and
Elkinson
type
for
and
hostile
forcing and
sagacious and
Judge
has
union
few
"
one's
preserve
stand
preserving
demands
deviation
herence
co-
possible.
socialists
that
groups
unprecedented magnitude
in this process.
separating from
without,
347
unparalleledfirm
gentleman
rarer
grown
and
"
of
type
its
and
great
so
DREAMS
the
Only
poorest.
very
OF
BRIDE
of
tact
philosophic broadness
of
view.
in the
Honest
strict
naive
uprightness
than
any
that
"
some
other
giving
desired
himself
be
to
honest.
distortion
necessary
union,
the
as
the
with
patients.
He
humane
the
was
the
not
word, with
be any
of the
at
least
impression that
He
forgave
demanded
by
physician does
lies he
also
he could
he
But
everyone
of
member
faithful
astuteness.
sense
tells for
comprehended
the
more
herd,
with
capable of
he always
himself
the
not
good
the
group-
charge
of his
the relativeness
OF
BRIDE
THE
348
of
ness
and
everywhere
great
Growth
opinion.
excluded, but
the
support
tiveness
and
"
character
of
man
thereby
were
and
he
was
cised
thereby exer-
influence
beneficial
posi-
the
cost
it were
as
personaldevelopment,actuated
love, by a preservativeinstinct
by
the
most
His
masses.
moral
code
respect which
though
his
neither
could
He
called
that
maintained
it with
the
as
judge
he
by
rogue
rogue,
mankind,
to
was
admit
considered
a
harmful
that
the
an
the
though
mutable.
im-
"
sacred
exclude
means
any
as
same
told
philosophic reason
conscious
un-
the
point
demanded
of
for
broad
as
beyond
complete comprehension
he
at
but
group-ideasallowed,
He
was
of
sake
herd, that
the
of
fixedness
for
His
everyone.
regularityafford.
depend on him absolutely;
and
"
called
for
development
necessary
not
cumstances
extenuating cir-
demand
sacrificed
he
so
could
One
his
in
lay
power
nevertheless
was
found
he
that
broad-minded
so
but
communion,
all
faulti-
conceptions,the
of
DREAMS
that
injustice.
he realized that
complete forgiveness;
means
anarchist
monster,
criticism
to
enemy
though
even
anarchistic
an
of
he had
society
well founded.
If the
group-ideasand
calling themselves
wretchedly vague,
science and
hollow
the
group-union of
socialists,had
confused
and
rhetoric,he would
been
not
based
those
on
so
pseudo-
perhaps have
joined
that
brotherhood.
he
For
American
of
measure
in that
union.
But,
he would
"
if it is
in the
socialist
representedby
herd
uncultured
than
a
had
very
realization
about
union
of this group
upon
the
the
With
try
my
but
to
this man,
then,
luck.
had
He
according
very
he
referringin
his wealth,
I called
York,
and
as
had
body.
clean-shaven
soon
as
received
was
Elkinson
muscular
him
face
that
rich
might
by clever,
of
had
this
fine mansion
Toward
was
me
jokingly
connection
I knew
he
was
cordially.
large, bony head upon
He
all sorts
he
cuse
ex-
to
the sage.
of Seneca
on
it his natural
to
commissioner
it
that
to
in
the
entirelybased
so
I considered
large undertakings,and
of
the
Moreover
transfer
grown
transactions, as
money
ers,
lead-
the union.
for
respect
him
And
better
much
badly formulated,
negative,so
Originalswho
of the
weak,
so
and
fanatic
by
movement.
was
impossiblefor
was
driven
the
had
people.
nothing
saw
followers
sorry
brought
he
old
shun
one
inferior
the
natural
makes
aristocracy that
group
in
as
the
company,
"
gentleman
gentleman," he
every
full
resolution.
"
have
as
the
had
and
courage
representedthe
confederacy just as well
And
349
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
in New
most
was
of
not
a
yet sixty,and
youthfully fresh
lean,
his
and
still thick
His
the
and
be
himself
clear, gray,
the
imposed
upon
twinkled
his eyes
with
of the
and
middle
thin-lippedlarge
would
who
man
the
let
not
of
out
put
or
at
nance;
counte-
occasion
slightest
roguishness,evidence
jestingand
for
inclination
generalAmerican
commanded
steady eyes
subtle
expressionof
an
the
energy;
marked
respect and
the
strongly-pronouncedjawbones,
firm chin, lent him
an
expression
snow-white, but
was
full, parted in
and
cut.
DREAMS
hair
His
ruddy complexion.
trimly
OF
BRIDE
THE
350
joking.
"
It
kind
ralto,very
been
you
kind
is very
of you,
assigned
the
to
how
again.'* And
to look
indeed
dear
my
me
the
are
again.
up
post
Mu-
Count
Have
Washington
at
and
the
title,Mr.
El-
countess
children.?"
"
kinson.
about
bother
Don't
It must
be
using
my
to
distressing
your
democratic
spirit."
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mocking
On
atavism
as
though they
joyed
en-
sally.
my
"
twinkled
eyes
the
!
contrary
It
does
us
on
the contrary !
good.
We
are
that
"
above
is
such
reunion."
"
Then
pleasure.
become
regret
I
am
no
that
I must
longer
citizen of your
depriveyou
count
and
republic."
of this
intend
to
that
"What's
that
is
"
that
after
all."
it 's
pity to
Would
No
excellent
And
"
No
by
be
never
"
H'm
Judge
eyes
vanished
as
my
make
it?
The
Elkinson.
and
"
his kind
of my
lot.
Muralto.
with
and
her
is my
is
the
judge.
companied
ac-
such."
grave,"
very
the
severe,
with
heart, I recounted
Mutely
to you.
and
roguish twinkle
assumed
my
wife, but
true
grave,
he
as
to
like you.
men
Contessa
simply as possibleand
uprightness that would make
appeal
have
of such
use
positionclear
who
that
"
expressionof
Then,
yet
and
museum
emigrant, poor,
an
woman
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disappearing."
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said
remains
to make
here
come
to
say
completely with
I wish
it 's
castles.
date.
need
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powers.
madame
broken
I have
glad to
are
Muralto
Contessa
old^life.
can
we
"
does
feudal
and
another
into
me
titles
these
of
rarer
are
me.^^ "
working
what
have
put
support
after
one
see
you
the state
counts
out
you
this transaction
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unpracticaland
are
"
Italian
"
one
as
I believe
by
sailingvessels
with
as
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a
is lost
citizens.
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same
"
do !
hearty
as
American.
true
something
Perhaps
than
the
of
expect
think
"
is not
enthusiasm
Your
should
decision."
remarkable
tell me?
you
351
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
the
in his
rable
inexo-
the trusting
strongest
the
tudes
vicissi-
he listened to my
story,
BRIDE
THE
852
of this
make
"
expect
what
now?
are
positiondoes
not
"
not
life to
know
expect
of
sense
you
offer
you
do you
to
deep sensibility
of
passion is one
after
have
enough
that
sense
present
your
chance
much
all you
of
cess,
suc-
country."
desire
or
the word.
I shall endeavor
I want.
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But
and
in this
even
I do not
tender
the
boy,
experienceof
and
characteristics.
longer
no
that
know
call
national
your
"
asked.
finally
he
here
we
case.
"
now?
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and
obviouslyinterested
to
OF
to
can
in the Ameri-
success
is all
frugal existence
that.
obtain
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had
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by
!
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have
old
in that
me
to
be in any
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direction?
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asked
the
ful
care-
practicalAmerican.
and
"
hoped
you
"
not
did
the
not
to
you
slightestintention
of
come
acquaintancesby presuming
for
that.
burdening
on
our
I
my
former
relations."
"
Good
"
I know
a
"
!"
bit
You
don't
them
too
what
You
you?
You
woman,
friends
"
Elkinson
honestly.
well for
that," said I,
haps
per-
scornfully.
know
position.
of
said
If I had
it would
easilyput yourselfin
defy public opinion for the
but
should
can
you
can't
do
thought
it for
that
expect that
your
they
your
their
sake
mer
for-
sake."
were
friends, I
THE
354
BRIDE
OF
DREAMS
Elkinson
and
"
"
On
the
"
system
that
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to deal with.
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from
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un-Christian
inhuman,
breaking through
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had
gruffly.
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"
shattering
The
morals.
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what
he understood
wall of horrible
institutions."
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"
and
all, that
of
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of the
The
he
does
nothing
and
morally
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lawfully
the
products
and
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without
control, by
agency
of
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of
labor
common
through
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men.
property
by
the
honorable,
of craft,
middle
countless
unlimited
tolerated
accounted
even
means
rich, even
exploiting of
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irresponsiblepersons.
is
eration
remun-
remuneration.
deserve
to
the
"
he
simply because
rich
condemns
everyone
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nevertheless
everyone
though
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tenant-
the tenant-farmer.
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the
speculator, and
speculatoragain exploitsall
thus
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word, of mutual
in
one
of
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system
in which
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of
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less
what
ideal is to
do
finance
infinitum.
ruthless
the
exploitsthe
The
system,
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ruthless,squandering.
each
holds
in view
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as
the
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without
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measure
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as
asking
they
and
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which
under
that
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and
can
that
of its suicidal
declared
thinks
that
"
know
we
not
are
with
cent
of the
system
higher element
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any
of
or
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tion
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any
preserve,
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believe in
is
only
nothing
disappear because
system that can only
to
lasting and
remained
Elkinson
serener
to
him
who
education
and
by
necessary
capable of
open
eyes,
shall
seek
ever
ruin."
own
finished
wish
is doomed
development and,
their
with
character.
men
per
by large masses
one
no
because
better,and
be
than
or
approve
maintained
humanity
est
rich-
highest possible
trace.
the
that
the
perfect bloom.
maintained
system
ninety
from
and
happiness.
science,no
no
to
of
been
ever
and
givespeace
the
live.
even
that
to
none
removed
sentiments
has
"
attain
can
man
art,
no
many
demoralize
system
is lost without
wealth
as
they
to the core,
least
at
have
to
how
development
system by which
in
and
are
bring
of
355
out
withpersonalprofit,
own
nation
can
grade
national
and
care,
the strongest. A
and
DREAMS
slowlybut surelymust
impoverishevery
to
or
for his
who
that
system
OF
BRIDE
THE
speaking.
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silent
while
expressionin
after
his eyes
had
was
now.
As
his head.
"
criticism
"
But
Government
nothing new,"
what
new
aid.? "
he said,nodding
remedy
do
you
pose.'^
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"
initiative ;
publicopinion,the
how
And
than
More
has
heads
that
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no
the
Give
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bite, and
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of facts
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little as
as
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sible,
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deed
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milestones
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it that
of
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shepherd dog
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to
take
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men
talk
has
who
mother
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And
see
clearer
impossible.
not
flock find
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on."
graze
well!
"Very
metaphors,
Eastern
no
"
Elkinson
Judge
psychology of
individuals
of which
the
it is
state,
out.
worth
is
acquainted
composed.
He
conducted
laws
He
knows
thousands
and
their
abilities.
the
he knows
and
mass
organized and
undertakings, instituted
their
two
facts."
American
carried
child with
name
own
make
guideposts. Let
bark, but
effectual.
not
of it and
your
the
ing
noth-
democracy
potion another
color.
shepherd'sstaff
with
"
ings
meet-
"
me
proved
dead
for
would
if you
better, give it
"
it
social
child is ashamed
color
and
to
seems
has
its
more,
no
name
more.
your
pamphlets ?
"
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enough.
itself made
the
borne
powerful
"
enough?
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ment
Govern-
necessary,
That
"
exactlynew either,nor
one
deformity like the
Is
ernment
Gov-
"no
instinct."
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"
the most
with
group
addresses
? and
it
said
perhaps, if
Begin
assistance.
"
laws,"
morals, then
First
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
356
and
of
He
has
erned
gov-
cial
commerseen
them
individuals,
enjoys
the
THE
universal
confidence,and
alone
His
name
and
of the very
best
of
the group
in which
"
How
As
every
Select
what
the
his
works."
concrete
if you
business,
staff of the
that
so
of the
it
to
great herd
the
know.
late
Formu-
marked
out
the
way,
the
as
out.
not
herd
quickly as
And
on
them
of
the
graduallygo
be
of their
less
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and
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is fed
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object
Teach
least about
the
in
"
heed
teach
them
fightand
what
"
in following,
and
gratification
and
the
reality
concrete
the
your
of
gratification
marked
once
them,
tell
or
that
see
stabled
and
comprehend
find
to
his
organize, practically,systematically,
it find
well,on
general
frightening
by peculiar,unusual
troublingyourselfin
sheltered
ness
busi-
every
missed, without
terms, theories
And
course
please.
capable and
course
As
every
most
them
in the
be
cannot
one
then
that
higher
evil,than
lives and
more
is essential for
doubtful
And
plan
chief idea
or
now
began always.
group
forms
army.
off any
he
group-
and
and
good
you
man
them
better
customs,
wrong,
form
"
do
"
right and
him
Let
moreover.
group-ideas,with
still and
Clearer
help of thousands,
the
357
great influence.
possesses
guarantees
with better
group,
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
then
accord, if it
less in need
they
agrees
of
to
will
with
guidance.
358
THE
Promise
as
but
possible,
as
result,and
the
bj
little
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
show
and
that
predictnothing
prove
not
can-
you
immediately prove."
"
Thus
organization?
non-political
cal
ethi-
An
"
corporation?
"
proposition.
for
business
and
much
proposition,judge,
business
But
great and
making
good time,
eat, must
have
and
have
its future
If the group
much
and
enough
greater wealth
by
"
herd
only learns
that
it
of
is possible.
that
obtain
can
much
"
happiness and
more
another
longer pilferingone
no
kind
before
than
even
must
abundance
What
kind
much
and
have
must
Every
more
accumulating as
assured.
is indifferent.
business
for
money,
business.
as
must
holy
business
tent
con-
and
mutual
agreement
squandering,but by intelligent
and
by restriction of personal boundless liberty
"
of the whole
sake
the
for
And
your
own
"
the
As
part
How
do
"
imagine that?
you
welfare."
common
of
match
at
forest fire.
For
the
of his
benefactor
people, the
liberator
of mankind."
"
And
glory,no
"
This
for
honor?
you
"
nothing?
No
money,
no
"
disinterestedness
seems
incredible
to you.
THE
it is
But
BRIDE
natural
of
glory
that
we
find
which
is
vision.
clear
with
ganizedlybut
also
follythan
imagine
to
shall be
No
it
greater
then, with
think
found
mass
who
sages
In
Elkinson, have
quality. Humanity
do.
the
aid
the
formulas
of
these
let
them
find
would
and
must
the
that
exercises
scholar,
the
each
his
own
the
good
every
member
alone.
the
and
the
when
herd
and
Humanity
by the light
advance
think
it must
thinking
"
statesman,
this
completed,is
of
of these
peculiarfunction
only
of all is
it must
masses,
in this great
business-man,
the
abstractions,
but
reflection,
contemplationand
organizedly,so
the
and
or-
instinct,or
uncomprehended
way
think, and
for
the work
at
this
greater
what
out
am
But
act
way
blind
own
for
only
safe
than
nonsense
coveries
dis-
all.
me
not
itself think
few
affords
of correct
of
ganization
or-
example.
an
organizedly. No
its
culiar
pe-
sensible
as
need
must
that
by
can
slinga
would
process
own
practicallife
incorrectlyinterpretedterms
of
our
very
organized
money,
very
involves
so
the satisfaction
Judge
as
take
may
you.
that
are
different
contemplative,speculativeand
and
herd
work
in what
yield.
you
enjoyment through
unhappy,
involves
We
enjoyment only
can
359
different functions.
our
Practical
honor.
and
endowment
work
of
function
desires.
love
DREAMS
outcome
different
Every
passions and
My
OF
the
the
organization
there
will
chance
participate
THE
360
and
more
delightsof
also in the
world
thinkingfunctions, and
in the
more
of free
and
men
anarchistic
poor
thus
obtain
we
the
in which
flaming ideal
moths
still scorch
now
and
majors, a trulymature
full-grown humanity,
the
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
their
wings."
"
dear
My
that
Faustus,
to whom
would
in
placing me
are
you
Muralto, in
Mr.
sign
ambition
his
"
will
gladlygive you
the
"
good
Until
now,
the
after
But
other
"
all that
opinionsvery
is
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grateful to
I
hope
search
to
be
your
counted
considered
myself
criticism."
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"
the
that
And
guiding spirits."
only an opinion,as all
to
open
for
thing
some-
demons."
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possible!
you
have
without
capable of gettingon
"
the
should
bad
pardon
name.
occasion
friend,
my
held
he
probably
whether
or
Dr.
desire, if
will
sign your
every
deepest conscience
among
will
than
do
to
positionof
could
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name.
comparison, I hope."
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more
the
reallyfeel
imaginableglory was
every
human
way
am
very
ence.
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most
we
rate
any
continue
may
it another
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there
"
Much
your
to
you
at
address.
any
obliged!
confidence
entertain
my
of
and
me.
I shall be at your
posal
dis-
moment."
"
feel
by
the
Once
myself
honored
"
many
by
seem
thanks."
THE
362
usually
One
woman's
the
OF
attaches
little
judgment
faith
perfect
creative
mighty
confusing
to
favorable
of
see
oneself
light.
pure
DREAMS
value
to
she
man
spirit
is
for
blinding,
reflected
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good.
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clear
loving
loves.
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alone
not
but
consolation,
and
power
and
the
upon
comfort
wondrous
not
BRIDE
also
And
it
and
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glass,
in
is
XXX
SHALL
campaign
firmly convinced
But
be
the
idea,
new
idea
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skilfullyand
their
life.
own
succeed
did
the
and
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not
prove
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one,
not
found
the
the
even
the
most
with
the
oneself
ings
graftciently
suffi-
not
was
it and
had
Still this
does
principle.
too
often
sagacious,broadest
363
by
grafting did
first botanical
I
as
their
nourished
method.
right
remind
one
practised in
and
their
as
surgical
or
the
because
"
in such
performed
grow,
case
impossibilityof
never
can
the
as
succeed
experienced
to
them
to
it.
botanical
becomes
idea
in my
just
be
not
inoculate
of it
by
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batants.
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itself in
them
on
conceive
continues
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it
action
to
operation
that
nature,
own
to
come
carefully as
grafting, so
reveal
only
idea
I could
originaland
an
driven
are
then
But
they
main
future
to
which
impress
to
the
impossible to
with
even
that
manner
own
and
could
my
ill contrived.
or
service
of
plan
that
fault
is not
Elkinson
like
not
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of
one
which
and
practice.
men
it had
of
aware
will be
and
correct
was
the
unpracticable
was
I remain
that
admit
never
that
no
mind,
364
THE
is led to
assume
OF
DREAMS
different fundamental
reasonable
by
is
BRIDE
The
arguments.
even
always indispensable,
ideas
solely
element
of
purely
scientific
in
faith
questions.
I said to
What
entirelysufficient
into
powers
but
The
that
marriage
of my
in
me
in
afford
contact
with
once
also
he
expectedof
as
much
it may
everywhere
club
there, in
conversations
gained
and
or
with
the
and
in the
him
see
and
me
he,
as
of
vincing
con-
then
and
evinced
as
much
as
could
illogical
words
my
stood
longer
formerly,
was
an
on
met
me
distinguishedcircles, had
salon, carried
me,
and
the
purpose
of
now
mindedness
on
above
impression that
with
end
position. But
no
we
Had
the
in
him
influence
slighterbecause
equal footing.
not
the
seem,
interviews
opportunity
in his
man
private
broad
and
interest, kindliness
would
he
that
the
to
came
this to be
me
indeed
I did
him.
foreseen
and
secret
was
circle of Elkin-
the
I had
to
enough
keeping
be
ent
differ-
illegitimate
my
nevertheless
thought
with
often
outside
intercourse.
but
confer
too,
stances
circum-
oftener, from
it
the
in
favorable
poverty and
stood
now
social
sure,
him
son's
stir his
to
told
been
in different words.
and
persons
and
him
more
heard
have
would
it been
under
if he had
or
convince
to
action, had
words
same
Elkinson
Judge
of
the
same
all, had
spoke
he
he
tionally
inten-
rousing
him
THE
BRIDE
OF
action, he would
to
these
then, I
ideas
same
initiative would
own
DREAMS
am
lated
assimi-
have
sure,
and
have
365
seemingly
commenced
to
his
on
act
upon
them.
the
But
of
position and
their
because
logical,
lipsof
spoken by
though they
the element
man
convincing lose
are
when
persuasive power
the
upon
distinction
eccentric,even
or
that
arguments
be
may
erratic
an
exactly as
of faith and
of trust
wanting.
are
Thus
the
liberated
spirit and
my
and
honestly assert
time
had
When
he
could
had
stop
at
the
upon
his
the seed
take
and
us
of my
lessons
to
I
endeavored
in
arms.
to
I tried
languages
editors
make
and
find
to
strove
magazines
short
articles
of
great
pupils to
to
of
ideas
tinued
con-
provide a
ground for
to
fertile
seeking a
composed
of
thoughts.
the
same
powers.
coat
working restlessly,trying
living for
the
my
his
to
courage
myself,at
buckled
longer move
Hot
convention, which
me
gave
maintain
knight
no
I did
social
crippling effect
the
from
release
gain
and
in
mission
ad-
papers.
news-
which
importance
interestingand readable.
Urged by
attempted to write short stories,
necessityI even
and
value
which
me
For
were
purposely
unworthy
manufactured
and
art
is
humiliatingas
caused
shame.
just
as
true
art
sipid,
inis
sacred
and
also
tried
to
with
had
used
besides
Now
ran
who
with
a
to
and
make
another
an
happy
or
People
have
would
even
name,"
forming
of
the
not
sound,
"
and
in
influential
world
the
riches.
chance
warn
this
minute
one
thing
every-
my
would
one
campaign
it is called.
of
ple
Peo-
one
hastilyto
spare
me.
anything
as
over
everyone
fabulous
amass
no
an
reform
to
"
more
bravely entered, I saw
I was
facing. In
difficulty
out
or
knew.
and
"
cranks
calculated
category
and
ingeniousinvention,
in that
against me
Every day
carry
success.
pursue
millionaire
to
listen to
available,
in America.
have
They
it
livingworld
to
system,
idea
lost, that
was
"
called
realize their
counted
Once
But
troublesome
everywhere and
giganticscheme.
and only want
person
less
but
flourish
to
infallible
an
most
with
met
are
seem
about
go
the
as
other
Elkinson.
Judge
harmless,
many
who
there, and
of
fools, who
tiresome
interest
best
my
the
of
one
the
him
others
all the
up
worship,
engage
rightlyselected
and
is divine
of time.
influential persons
I had
last
The
exalting.
first waste
the
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
366
centre
through
of
distinctlythe
order
should
And
I had
which
on
be
to
have
making
to
a
"
but
a
fatal
able
to
make
the
name,
suggestive influence
essential worth
so
ing,
work-
through
idle
contemplative
and
nature
of
will make
action
he
unashamed,
being honored
is
instincts
anything
that
printedor
it for
bear
could
it of
that
bring
to
it discussed
it
own
my
sonality,
per-
should
that
he
for
It is harder
else to act
contrary
the
uphold
be
willing
that
realized
if I
and
name
my
see
impossiblefor
was
end.
disposition. To
of
horror
quite indifferent
was
sake,
him
serve
for anyone
For
equipped
been
limelight. To
Christ's
But
me.
he has
in
ity,
personal-
name,
disagreeable.I
thus
only
myself to
than
the
very
pleasure
it
tant
transitory,spectralunimpor-
to hear
even
for
work
renowned.
and
a
man
for this.
tend
would
into
being
will
insurmountable
an
most
my
to me,
had
myself
The
am.
unadulterated
celebrated
and
he
name,
finds
the suitable
But
to
of
capacity the power
indispensable.Wisely
in his
with
realityas
lover of
367
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
demanded
me
the
exert
to
Original
to his natural
truths
important
whereof
did not
name,
my
also
So
rarely met
for
the
attract
with
success.
days, weeks,
months
and
slightestresult.
A
after
pupil, sent
few
out
with-
I worked
weeks
to
me
me
"
journalistswho
had
known
me
in
by
without
paying
thus
me
former
heard
Some
days
and
superficialfriendliness
But
they did
something for me.
with
received
me
promised
to
nothing
do
speedily absorbed
"
interests.
Of
brought
into
of
hundreds
conversations
with
his
folly.
through
as
also does
forget
Muralto, shipwrecked
in
restlesslyonward
rushed
me
him
to
The
hill.
own
been
presidential
the
for
reason
own
he had
that
for
consideration
their
in
again
Elkinson, I heard
sufficient
candidacy;
Just
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
368
world
about
fog
ing,
striv-
"
on
"
than
more
no
me
that
worker
this
heavy
and
the
the machine
that
catches
in
its wheels.
And
yet I knew
that
obedient
tool
structure
most
that
precious gifts,
that
was
the
was
entrusted
had
that
power
same
its blind
tures
crea-
as
tremendous
of the
lost
thousand
the
under
crushed
are
cruel
tread,
of
any
had
urged
with
me
me
less
care-
way,
my
on
responsiblefor
my
strengthand
proportion as
the
want
its
for
my
weakness.
in
And
my
little house
struggle for
the
to
age
worn
same
grow
when
and
more
grew
existence
and
more
that
reigned in
real and
more
anxious, in
more
also
began
proportion this
humble
home
dearer
approaching
to
man,
more
out, still,
me.
even
was
though
than
ever
not
the
yet tired
the
and
BRIDE
THE
370
able to
not
wished
teach
to
devout,
and
horror
this
in truth
"
slunk
laugh
of
dared
assail her
the
but
and
and
and
as
the
increased
tenderness
the
pressure
"
grim
who
had
the
that
dearest
ure,
greatesttreas-
her
when
she
saw
Her
her
consumed
with
keeping
up
it tortured
pain.
unfailing
me
sand
thouwhen
exhaustion.
saw
Her
yield under
me
sake
her
with
me
for me,
home
well-nighpowerlesswith
for
man
And
my
more.
and
of
variations
heavy
sublimity.
cheerfulness
brave
waging,
was
and
enemy
herself upon
she menaced
physicalbeing all
was
house
the
of
devout
truly
beautiful
falsely
and
patience
fiercest
sacredness
comforting
prepare
she
my
most
so
It seemed
was
into
offered me,
won
she
every
revenged
scorn
she struck
life had
to
I had
the bride
and
Christ's
terror
poverty
friend
Jesus'
which
the poverty
to escape,
men
proclaimed as
poverty from
The
give.
DREAMS
OF
of care,
that
I had
given up
life of
my
prosperity.
Then
that
the
the time
of
our
expected and
highestblessing maternity.
which
Elsje
for
longed
had
as
"
I too
it with
how
at
had
desired
fervent
could
now
fatherly devotion
the child
and
had
longed
tenderness, picturing to
bestow
without
all
the
for
myself
interest
and
self-constraint,from
THE
BRIDE
OF
natural
instinct,from
should
DREAMS
371
overpowering love.
How
and
because
had
hoped
now
the
all to be
air, has
dreams
my
what
promise
subtle
felt
Toward
as
of
she
of her
feign hopefulnessand
but
"
to
me
that the
of
my
myself
my
un-
the
as
tenderly
to
as
this.
with
me
less
relent-
dailyclearer
take.
The
glad
the
eyes
sweet
and
faith, would
would
be
absorbed
child,toward
enter
into
not
my
never
being
in
Elsje I
her
sweet
deceive.
side
my
could
tasies
phanI knew
teasinglyheld
behold.
the
out
I knew
conviction,the strength
submitted
torture.
the
announcement.
tranquillysat by
I could
genuinenessof
insensible
my
and
calamity threatened,
would
tiny garments
prospect
sense
diabolically
mocking sound,
falseness
at
in
it became
it and
full
yet breathed
forward
that
calamity
Elsje
sewing
that
it had
perceptivefaculty of
the
sweet
I knew
this
had
me,
lovely miracle.
ferventlyloved,
as
betokened
form
this
foreboding dwelt
certainty.
in the
perception
devoutly looked
dark
clear
before
been
ever
passed by
father
delightin
to
child
discussed, as
But
with
and
abating interest
no
had
participatedwith my entire
growth and their development, I
after
word,
Surely
children
not
in their
being
of
Lucia's
to
the
severest
Then
too,
makes
which
clear
became
loudly, it
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
372
to
I wish
"
Oh,
"
Why,
that
"
Do
hold
taken
had
long
you
nodded
She
her.
do?
you
It
been.
!"
"
homesickness
was
her.
"
in Holland?
be back
mutely,
had
like you
dream
upon
to
"
to
understood
so
her:
would
What
had
dreams
my
where
escaped
to go
try
about
seen,
that I could
Elsje?
I should
Then
had
words
the
once
"
whom
and
what
she
what
me
in
immediately added
but
livelier tone:
"
I don't
But
want
mind
to
you
that,
dear
my
husband,
after
all,isn't there,
bigger
"
as
that
"
go
endeavors
If my
than
we
they
have
so
"
when
back
to
is
live in Holland?
with
meet
child
our
better
no
far, Elsje,we
can
little
"
success
just as
well
live in Holland."
Then
"
no
longer restrainingherself,she
I should
been
had
born
have
in
thought
so
Holland, amid
it
Dutch
our
shown
lovely if
the green
said:
baby
my
pastures
the
house, under
sea.
him
And
all the
then
beau-
tiful
things that
and
museum,
dunes.
Here
ugly
I
have
only
and
the
the
373
in Holland
remain
to
hard, and
big, so
here
the
money,
she
the time
to
could
be
not
in Dutch
the
in the
Holland
with
And
her
she had
where
her
mind
and
her
been
learned
in
so
and
No,
also
purpose.
things
has
for
couraged
dis-
home
induce
sociological
practicaldirection,
your
For
if I
that
But
yet
That
is
in
to
a
led
say
to
that
human
way.
listen
the
to
deeds .?"
Christ
his purpose,
for
has
then
that
like superstition.
thought seems
like
hither,
you
thoughts into
assume
think
to
me
influences others
he
such
of
others
particular,for
in
think
divine
and
move
to translate
me
stupid
drawn
easilyalso
Elsje.
influenced
can
who
Jesus
now
is it
husband,
Dearest
could
"
aversion
said:
that
you,
its
test
child
brought up,
to
attempt
and
society to apply
knowledge
biological
"
useless
was
desire
her
I had
strength
growing
strange country,
the
that
had
Even
But
than
knew
had
trip.
environment.
the food
have
not
constantly occupied
But
fulfilled.
would
take
longer
no
strictlynecessary.
wish
she
the
"
promised
and
the
in
and
houses,
so
our
"
paintings
peasant
everything is
her
to
DREAMS
"
considered
at
we
little town,
quaint
so
OF
BRIDE
THE
regarding
Yes,
of
if Christ
374
THE
went
to work
that
he did not
"
But
loves
with
the
ness
of
little
And
human
for
often
must
all, but
us
laws.
all
Are
not
our
body
he
suffer.
His
all
Cannot
tendencies
our
full of
slightwound
wonderful
still,to
and
impulses,
which
good,
are
than
more
nevertheless
And
with
Think
what
birth
to
not
and
is not
comprehe
ingenuity in-
an
it
thousand
give
dividual
in-
the
danger.? Is
not help
we
Must
or,
through
acts
laws
full of
nificant
insig-
impulses degenerate.'*
defects.?
to
how
perfect,any
not
of
account
no
always
the
know
knows
under
He
power.
we
yet take
all, but
improve continuously.?
heal
divine
he
ruthless-
seeming
things, instincts
serve
for
and
individuals
us
better than
us,
are.
universal
must
good
and
worries, because
they
that
toward
acts
body,
own
surprised
thinking,feelingbeing,
force, of
know
be
should.
we
is
might
we
greatness
and
our
as
he
natural
us
then
still he
us,
cells of
great,
act
DREAMS
OF
man,
exalted
love
our
as
though
that
can
BRIDE
to
means
times
human
new
more
being!"
"
the
But
new
plantsand
construction
ingenious.
as
Let
me
say
of
Is
Jesus
animals
plant
that
all
instead
are
or
of
too, and
animal
an
the
bom
work
of
Christ,
is
just
Jesus?
I love
that
better."
name
"
in this
name.
When
in
my
dream
intimate
asked
my
BRIDE
THE
father
about
beautiful
And
Christ, he
markings
is.
It is
One
began
of
the
me
butterfly.
suspect what
to
either
other:
the
to
vious.
simple,so perfectlyob-
reallyso
or
out
wings
375
DREAMS
pointed
the
on
this in mind
with
Jesus
OF
this
butterfly
made
it was
or
originatedaccidentally,
tion.
intention,feelingand thoughtful considera-
decoration
with
For
centuries
has
been
when
the
in
many
so
in
finallycould
contradictions
and
that
that
which
is
Phidias
is
to
know
that
be the accidental
forces.
one
That
great
also
be
are
ings
mark-
to
or
statue
And
think
by
lutely
abso-
improbability. But
sun
and
human
of blind
of
One
blind
the stars
than
this
"
being should
forces,supposing
or
unconscious
revolve around
Egyptian hieroglyphicsare
all this is
the granite
on
"
cidental
aceven
deal
beings that
and
or
speak
the
scratches
flower
product
the
they
foolish than
improbable
more
may
beautiful
formation.
of extreme
a
butterfly,
then
contrary is impossible.
the
prove
nothing
that
tions
imperfec-
many
Rembrandt
accidental
an
merely speak
can
more
even
etching by
an
so
the
And
dentally
originatedquite acci-
butterflyhad
the
it.
longer believe
no
an
tence,
Omnipo-
Supreme
responsiblefor
held
scholars
the
God,
less
have
still
created
flower
butterfly,
and
man
changing
376
BRIDE
THE
OF
DREAMS
with incomprehensible
genuity,
inthem, with infinite skill,
nevertheless with
perfection.
imever-recurring
And
probablybeingswho are by no
means
always in harmony with one another,that
and
fightand struggleamong them, supplanting
replacingone another, whose desires,endeavors,
far beyond the comprehenare
sion
joys and sorrows
individuals as we
of insignificant
but whose
of life we
nevertheless clearly
discern
expressions
and species
as
races
as
gling
strugseparate entities,
side by side, sometimes
with, sometimes
sharplyoppositeto one another. The beingthat
has created us, whose spirit,
sibility
mind, will and sendoes our
binds us together,
as
body its
cells,into one great unity,outwardlyimperceptible,
but perfectly
evident to our inner sensibility,
of Humanity, the Primal Reason, the
is the Spirit
but
"
Thus
animal
"
and
How
every
plantthen
and
"
must
Certainly,
every species
soul,
own.
of
species
must
"
every
Christ."
"
cell in every
connected
and
how
that the
they are separatedfrom one another
will learn gradually.They are scarcely
biologists
at the beginning
of their knowledge."
the Supreme Omnipotence nevertheBut God
less
this
just calmly tolerates all this struggle,
and this imperfection."
suffering
Certainly for it is."
"
"
"
"
and
Jesus
a
to
"
Yes, it is
in it.
but
Middle
Ages
truly
and
nature.
knew
she
who,
as
is manifest
than
ours,
but
their
of him
itself to
as
belongs to
we,
love
my
Emmy
not
was
for
deep
as
Elsje.
you,
perfect
with
any
generation.
modern
more
never
"
humanity.
of
branch
perfectlymated
be
never
can
phase
is
their
faulty.
more
She
ours.
ancient
more
much
was
knowledge,
earlier
an
him
much
was
entire
their
in
of
sensibility
love for
My
and
Jesus
Middle
are
inner
on
of the
outgrowing. The
lived in him fervently,
we
Their
it reconcile
But
livingfaith
piety belongs to
blossom
tantism,
Protes-
was
definite realization
Lucia's
false
dead,
she
really,as
stronger
tion
contradic-
no
see
lived
can
in
Emmy
Lucia
And
Elsje.
so,
"
is that.?
How
to you.
stranger
always remained
has
Lucia
But
me.
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
378
and
as
It
Never.
strong
a
was
superficial,
personal sentiment, not
powerful to
encouraged by return, not sufficiently
much
more
further.
out
stream
through Emmy,
that
in my
Emmy
learned
never
I did
as
dreams
for
my
power
of love has
development,that
otherwise
than
as
privilegethat
*'
And
do
you
attained
I shall
the
Jesus
through
it
as
to
were
to
me
kind
man-
And
you.
reserved
Elsje, so
me
that
perfect,glorious
to
never
love
be
able to
regard
let
experience."
me
believe,dearest,
even
though
now
THE
work
your
that
believe
and
highest
best
of
of
judging,
"
wife
shall
write
in
He
it
all
His
into
and
human
it
up
own
regard
firmness
and
way
and
our
forsook
in
faculty
exert
shall
not
His
into
exalted
is
to
testify
own
so
are
by
and
everything
leave
invented
and
the
to
our
body
machine
give
through
my
am
noblest
my
sensibility
powerless
am
not
down
Perhaps
;
and
and
as
as
according
act
impulses
our
ours
responsibility
wisdom
now
influence,
recognize
I
ingenious
most
though
shall
The
us
responsibility
comprehension.
inclinations.
above
the
bring
by
bility
responsi-
my
Our
our
what
whose
exalted
And
than
gave
beyond
care.
my
to
who
Him,
But
benefitted
be
goes
knowledge.
my
to
above
it
But
obedient
and
far
it.
further
simply
here,
useless
entirely
nevertheless
beyond
no
goes
remain
shall
379
DREAMS
"
love?
"
OF
should
humanity
our
BRIDE
man.
direct
of
time,
rest.
Him.
will
practice."
child,"
me.
said
my
poor
XXXI
THE
child of
When,
after
born
hundred
brother
my
his
Christ
in
lauded
the
enter
life
tongs
of
he
until
iron,
this
of
only-
child, who
the
he
cutting sarcasm
would
not
it
with
into
dragged
was
and
"
his
lost
life,he bitterlyreviled
With
wisdom
day.
one
earlier,it befell
he
that
of
sorrow.
only
years
Lessing
singleday
lived
love
our
night departed
same
again.
brother
My
not
devout
sufficiently
and
majesty
had
Christ
in
had
his
also
of Human
called
testimony
him
the
afforded
to
the
Mankind
the individual
is not
my
a
him
no
the bitterness
I wiU
not
the
the
he
did
Bible-Jesus, the
for
too
belief
the
But
the
which
high
price,
reconcile
not
him
of life.
laud
mortal.
did
yet
true, living
fancy.
and
solace
strength.
my
overwhelming
poor
The
product of human
future
Glory of
sufferingof
amid
testify,and
to
spare
beauty,
Being
undergo.
to
but
man,
the
revere
artificial
in
devout
to
greatness
sufferinghe
not
Lessing was
as
sorrow
As
long
880
as
one
my
was
as
weak
might expect
wife
survived
in
of
her
THE
love
child, my
or
for her
there
while
But
nothing or
was
cheerfulness
was
no
the
and
knowledge,
had
sensibility
grief.
and
been
old
exists
above
as
me
is
age,
for
ture,
crea-
from
stifled
the
there is
which
and
higher
And
so
that
death.
He
sufferingand
is
is
and
row,
sor-
always
more
contemplated.
I knew
within
dwelt
youth
tiny spark
most
in-
our
something
wretchedness
eternal
and
this
through
which
excess
ourselves
time
above
of my
midst
gladness
in
contemplates
than
in the
and
himself
exalted
by
height of
age
all
though
contemplate
pain, old
thereby
that
for
me
to
me
broken
even
and
we
observes
accurately
that
from
spiritual,intellectual
dulled
long
As
the
force
ness
bitter-
resignation,and
forsake
not
that
wardly
strength out-
to
one
crushed, beaten
knowledge, could
with
the
me
gave
381
of
DREAMS
show
display of
a
OF
to
me,
BRIDE
of
contemplative
power.
I
which
a
knew
we
and
forgot
never
live does
littlemore
or
not
less of
take
that
the
anxious
Eternal
in
account
of
sufferingand
does not
spare
of seeds to
perish in
order
his creatures.
It suffers thousands
that
knew
a
one
that
of them
the
cravingnow
may
pain
grown
attain
I felt
perfect growth.
the
was
useless
and
after
effect
that I should
I
of
no
382
longerbe
sensible of it
been
had
of
as
DREAMS
soon
saw
to doubt
reason
no
blessedness
and
above
joy
life had
been
tial
unessen-
of the
supremacy
because
few
short
to
suffer
the
utmost
as
all human
beings,but
of
knowledge
shone
above
all my
made
of
years
that
endure.
weak, weak
was
inconceivable
a
the
all sorrow,
I, insignificant
individual,in
from
what
unattainable.
I
could
I considered
as
desisted
attained, and
and
And
OF
BRIDE
THE
spark
And
it
reader,
upon
is upon
that
this
little
like
out
infirmities.
dear
twinkling star,
fix your
I would
dark
an
attention, and
not
frailties.
my
What
else is it but
that
weakness,
able
weakness, miserable, lament-
is
spread
before
out
us
in the
bitter invective
called
are
that
them.
the
created
and
is the
faith
that
the
but
will, the
Originals.
that
and
true
blessedness, and
this true
being
for it is the
foreseeingconviction.
is
be
its advent
courage
but
upon
it must
for
Wherever
"
and
blessedness
pure
first condition
the
tide
bearing me
is pure
there
to attain
the
and
the
Being,
of
ebb
century?
are
that
in the
were
shiftingof
full well
Human
strength of
part
the
risingwaters
know
yet in
obtains
at
they
of this
middle
born
was
know
not
the
as
the
being
it is
our
willing
THE
is
BRIDE
OF
each
of us,
creating and
follows his
inevitable
from
of
sea
not
I allow
do
and
thrill
side
sad
is
for
lime
and
Elsje
but
only
do
without
so
thing
worst
but
the
our
sad, but
sadness
knows
yourself,guard
rods that threaten
mood
of
death
is not
of
horror
that
dying,
permitted us
apprehension.
or
about
age
permits so
it is far
opportunity and
Our
of
mire
the
actual
to
the
For
dying,
it sometimes
casts
sensibilities.
our
That
tions
aberra-
in the
frequentlyspoken
vigorous
the breath
upon
is
when
I have
thoughts.
your
had
of
scenes
that
be
wallowing
dismal
it
gloomy
of all demoniacal
yourselfagainstthe
flightof
with
things may
Guard
free
help
can
shall I try to
Nor
dreariness, of melancholy.
the
reader,
worst
passion
life.
the
as
The
tell you.
of
than
on
dear
heart,
your
melancholy,
to
longer
to dwell
myself
melancholy
the
towering waves
with
it all.
moment
hiding myself
the
not
fires
above
out
But
truly
has
The
beamed
is
grief,for
sorrow
towers.
building in eternity,
plan.
own
optimism
My
383
DREAMS
few
that
worse
the
less
how
die.
to
quiteunappalling death
Philistine's death,
it
courage
generationill understands
even
to live
of the
as
beautifully
gives to so few
to die worthily.
how
Most
to
live,but
die, not
hero, but
Goethe
the
called it.
it
the
rible
hor-
384
BRIDE
THE
beautifully and
die
To
wish
dearest
life in
nearly
as
after
us,
And
as
had
worthily
of
unison.
happy
desire
both
of
DREAMS
OF
of
that
long
attained
Elsje
wretched
our
the
been
this
circumstances
allowed.
"
It is
felt the
"
that
have
for
she
she
And
and
had
that
say
of
been
experienceafter
"
shall
we
the
I think
our
actual
being.
have
our
that
what
senses
of this
more
like what
so
to
certain, when
I can't
except this
shall
cult
diffi-
so
"
is that
we
delusive
then
we
thus
each
see
other
image, a product
of
other's
the
longer, as
no
nothing
the
perhaps
to
same
convince
as
what
now,
us
we
life."
say
"
and
derful
won-
comprehend.
For
my
we
is
and
body's decay
perceive is
we
perceivedin
"
be
refreshingsplendor.
know
to
must
and
anxieties
imagination,instead
own
tinue
con-
about
morning
every
serene,
it is not
again,whether
of
this
be
never
time
same
despite my
wanted
always
describe
to
man,
it
state, that
to
dear
the
at
place,
it would
For
poor,
questioned me
honestly
dreams
and
take
to
she
work."
your
dreams
could
you,
child alone
the
Eagerly
for
hard
so
with
my
said when
she
now,"
been
care
all
after
good
in
much
that
even
to
answer
in the
that, dearest,
brief
have
moments
felt
assurance.
of
OF
BRIDE
THE
886
that it
comfort
can
And
her
dim
when
And
sorrow
to
bitterlyof
cause
nature
dejectiontoo.
me
then ?
ask
he
that
and
Strong,
But
there
Will
not
think
you
wait
did
he
more
your
periods
bitterlyof
cause
Christ
is the
us
governs
!"
have
said
much
way
to
left you
to
my
Mighty,
the
and
who
bears
two
are
poor,
helped
one
each
For
forgive
so
you
not
abilities.
our
only gratitude!
Yes
when
are
point out
distinctly,and
long.
so
to
me
Wise, who
the
best of
"
thing
every-
I will
Elsje, whether
much
think
forgive me
you
greatest responsibility.We
the
I induced
never
you
dominates.
induced
and
sooner
pine
that
course
that
me,
that
suffering,
me
moments
"
Rather
Christ
gloomy
your
of
"
of
and
me,
in your
real,true
super-
you
I know
"
have
you
will
again, dear,
you
the extreme
at
question.
fluence of my
"
smiled
eyes
"
to?
I '11 want
Whether
you
If I know
to?
I '11 want
"
DREAMS
another
to
we
have
for each
other
other
"
Elsje,contented;
"
only gratitude."
And
to
absorbed
would
her
the
find
lonelyday.
the
of
moments
comforted
and
still have
and
last
in
the
nights,in
strength and
her
life she
thought
which
that
I would
encouragement
was
for
call
the
THE
"
"
To
is
forgive
at
least
of
him
"
just
another
said
For
time,
would
if
only
Elsje,
is
you,
as
we
feel
we
is
the
to
say,
absurd.
not
Source
humanity,
how
it?
387
him
love
think
might
human."
as
Everything
what
of
isn't
much
as
DREAMS
she
Jesus,"
absurd,
really
OF
BRIDE
of
absurd
were
When
Life,
then
only
But
have
we
think
turned
re-
Genitive-soul
the
to
words,
our
absurd.
shall
but
how
her,
in
realize
we
true
our
feeling."
last
The
for
care
me
"
words
toneless
Then
mighty
were
me,
and
once
lips
the
blossom
had
of
heard
more
her
stem
bloom
her
formed
from
her
when
the
withered,
grown
"
whispered
richer
love-breathing
Will
had
"
and
life.
grown
Call
fell.
through
call
you
voice
word
anxious
her
!
But
the
"
the
tiful
beau-
XXXII
AFTER
in
the
her
dreams
wife.
of
the
sacrifice
time
long
up
land
the
toward
give
the
passed
night
place
her
of
resisted
work
that
peace
though
as
to
on
My
me.
Holland,
I had
found
seemed
to
only
my
drive
longing.
this
I had
carried
and
of
where
supernatural being
Her
after
more
no
seemed
It
had
homesickness
and
had
country.
new
spoke night
Holland,
me
Elsje's death
desire, unwilling to
with
begun
with
through
much
so
much
so
anguish.
Then
heard
received
through
Italy, with
whom
my
mother
my
children;
had
attained
accept
the
whole
in
died
her
had
remained
and
that
but
give it
to
fortune
determined
was
to
Lucia
ing
hav-
an
to
dren
chil-
My
me.
was
to
not
independent,
or
in
touch, that
daughter Emilia,
scattered.
was
in
family
my
left her
had
my
married
of
agent
majority,
money
family
and
the
abbess
religiousinstitution.
Then
which
and
all
were
business
communication.
strange
I could
did
not
no
cease
longer
resist
night
or
the
secret
day
and
craving
so
dis-
THE
BRIDE
tinctlyappeared
dead
and
wife,
where
to
bought
DREAMS
like
me
which
from
my
to
present house
my
389
warning
back
went
garden,
nursery
OF
and
still furnishes
the
small
me
daily
occupation.
What
received
I
but
much,
sufficient for
life
provincial
in
here.
accustoming
strange
as
daughter
my
maintaining
life is
my
still have
I could
simple,
succeeded
provincials to
petty
now
not
was
my
Gradually
the
and
ways,
that
any
from
my
endurable
as
hoped
find
to
on
earth.
this
by
Only
Emilia's
communication
strange
friendlyact
I aroused
was
stupor into
which
I would
perhaps
have
interest
in life and
not
myself to
an
perhaps have
Elsje
in my
Elsje'sdeath
fallen illand
dreams.
had
For
could
not
body
separate
to
the
and
itself
attain
to
had
the
to
power
in my
dark
the
plunged
would
seeing
once
despairand my
clarityof my
sickness
homedream-
and
reintegration
me.
rouse
work,
died without
my
also dimmed
sleptlittle
life.
had
from
and
soul
less
rest-
dental
transcen-
perception.
Emilia's
act
saved
comforting observation,
from
period of deep
is
And
me.
that
with
affliction the
I made
the
in Paris, where
before
go
I should
to
we
power
had
the
recovery
heightened.
extraordinarily
daughter again
meet
then
of
saw
joyment
en-
my
agreed
Holland, and
the
to
one
BRIDE
THE
390
there
singleday
OF
DREAMS
marked
was
by
wondrous
describable
in-
joy.
It
overcame
America
from
journey
quite suddenly
me
that
"
in which
dead, heard
beloved
her
saw
too
came
brief
dark
the
tense,
in-
but
the
summoned
eyes.
Paris
In
her
the
night,
I for
felt
then
the
perception during
clear
And
the
during
"
children
the
who
had
gentle devoted
understand
with
reunion
remained
girl who
and
the
true
me
the
"
continue
to
father
her
of my
one
to
wanted
help
to
only
an
was
"
to
quisite
ex-
joy.
is
It
place in
is
the
soul
filled with
was
The
firmly
then
must
restored
at
that
bliss.
With
eifect
the
spiritualbody
and
suddenly be suppliedand
the
caused
was
weakness
of
this
by melancholy
all
relieved.
once
All
and
wonder.
the
again, and
joint that
spiritual
takes
what
experiencingit, I
devout
between
words
time,
while
even
continual
connection
waking body
such
at
strange that,
so
into
impossibleto put
And
saw
that
above
everythingI
prospects
of
day
all
was
it
"
saw,
I felt the
joy
and
existence
beauty
that
finite
of in-
were
"
dicated
in-
but
unmistakable.
There
was
large exposition
"
one
of
these
THE
banal
of
beauty,
and
dawning
DREAMS
I had
thousand-fold
my
and
joy
OF
fairs which
world
with
now
BRIDE
But
heightenedsensibility
it all
saw
of
precursor
391
as
untold
distinct
approaching
glory.
The
wide,
gleaming
in the
gallerieswhite
thousands
of
the
joyous
the
odor
festive
aspect,
at
"
musicians,
ah !
"
betokened
intense
this
seemed
who
was
look
I could
my
rooted
upward
that
be
to
about
this
where
me
group
of
of sunlit trees, at
the
girl who
daughter
walked
by
everything
"
joy,
of
great,
secret
happy day
in my
expectation
new
our
power
the
weight
of
of
or
even
on
is
is
example.
enjoyment
our
of God
firmly
were
on
its
healing,
common
measure
truths
these two
the wound
that
course,
wonders.
soul:
is in store,
beyond
is
this
sides,
ful
beauti-
me
fa9ade,at
leafy row
to
and
faintly
powerless
never-suspectedmysteries and
On
all
on
and
land,
every
music
how
Eastern
an
at
side and
my
the
pretty, well-dressed
sweet,
from
dust, of linden-blossoms, of
all
joy whereof
fleeting
proclaimer.
I would
assembled
picturethe indescribable,the
to
summary
gildedstatues
sunlight,the temples
stately, the thousands
and
clothes
perfumed
the
clear
people
of
with
avenues
sunny
mortal
And
continues
body
and
glory
secondly,that
to
grow
that
under
there
is
392
BRIDE
THE
nothing improbable in
believers that
what
from
Even
the
cient
expectationof the anshall only then reallyknow
we
blessedness
true
is when
the
of
power
is not
opposition of
outward
acquiredknowledge
tribulations
the
with
and
is
blessed
being
the
spiritretains
developed
are
overpowering,so
of
loving and
the
developed under
the
livered
de-
forever
are
by opposition,provided it
also
we
this burden.
all
as
DREAMS
OF
is able to endure
and
prudence
to
conquer
them.
This
did not
advantage I
solitarylife. My old
lonely though
lose
age,
again in
and
monotonous
it may
times
few
again
pleasure of having
my
being able
with
about
my
to
speak
daughter
of
else of this.
and
that
it
wife.
and
Aside
do not
cleared
from
find
her
despisethe
nevertheless
something
these
pleasurein
always
I do
and
gentle
outward
of
and
honestly
Elsje, my
speak to
listened
not
that
doubt
no
tentively
at-
but
it broadened
mind.
few
most
I leave
me
and
I could
Emilia
But
her
visit
openly
and
reverently,
taught
great
life,about
eternallybeloved, true
one
the
had
her
wardly
in-
later
my
my
eminentlyhappy days,
trifling
dailypleasures
"
little
city but
the beauties of my
seldom.
little town
and
BRIDE
OF
universal
being
THE
394
into
being
the
of
our
clearer
was
Then
yet
than
me
all at
seen
once
that
I should
and
the blue
saw
Then
find her
sky
passed into
I
one
and
the
upon
of
I did
nothing
saw
in the
rocks,
fair
out
of doors
ing
Follow-
of
themselves
the
there
once
valley,with
green
tall-stemmed
low
tropicaltrees.
and
calm
deeply-significant
The
land
in
enwrapped
of
peace
populated
was
and
by
joy.
the water.
the
An
breathless
The
peaceful,happy
golden
lay
a
before
clear,
and
indescribable,
reignedthere.
consecration
light-bluepeacocks
saw
in
the
thicklysettled, but
the
sun,
their
colors, the
the presence,
of
by
up
shrubs,
stillness
and
universal
quietlystruttingabout
reflected
scape,
landcrevices
gently-flowing,
winding stream, quiethouses
few
vid
fer-
entrancing mountain
sharply outlined,
then
and
and
rapture
And
radiance.
me
the
the mountain
sun,
cries
an
clearlyand
and
in
gloriousspectaclesunfolded
I
go
ness
conscious-
ecstasy.
most
thanks.
must
in E
I went
the state
utter
not
magnificentlandscape.
other
but
the
was
there.
and
I have
waiting,I
Thereupon
dreaming
was
tention
re-
experience. This
thought :
is
she
her.
quickly to greet
complete
before.
the
came
with
our
ever
beloved,
my
that
and
memory
to
DREAMS
the
images
pure
solemn
mosphere,
at-
lence,
si-
of thousands
felt but
not
human
beings,the lighthori-
seen,
THE
with
zon
this
was
mighty
too
beautiful
"
I did
felt
I
the
toward
whence
after
Then
as
I heard
her dear
My
I gave
father
and
but
myself
and
and
we
no
each
beloved
which
and
dissolved.
dream-world
saw
quently
elo-
for
any
thee.
we
love
thee
in each
other.
But
I know
for thee
and
am
bitterness
no
"
for
between
question of
gratitude,even
For
I love
forgivethee, I
thou
forgivestme
weaknesses
cannot
tude
Grati-
that
longer be
of
surely
art, and
I feel
suffered.
my
and
day-time.
thou
love
is love
before
suffered
beloved.
therefore
only
cloud
to.
mother
I know
only
my
I for
Elsje'sdeath
in the
thee, and
have
and
shall
dark
done
have
follies and
there
the
utterance
for
grief I
all my
lightcame,
in the
my
suffer
forgive thee,
the
only gradually
never
love
despite all
the
facing
and
pray,
until
be able to do
willingto
my
and
come
Christ, passionatelyand
to
had
never
and
know
should
sun.
spoke
would
time
first time
to
saw
there
seen
that
the
for
And
longer
no
which
and
all
"
flowers ! "
direction
always
thee
she
her, but
desire
I had
us
that
see
chain
words.
the
for
for
quantity of
Then
thee
395
saying:
What
"
not
DREAMS
sun-lit mountain
beloved
my
too.
voice
OF
the
I called
look
BRIDE
as
sufficiently,
other,
that
that
between
conceive
cannot
thee
giveness,
for-
even
as
the love
we
for
in her I love
And
thee.
thankful,
feel
blessedness.
thee
a
for
and
find thee
As
I said
of
by
the
to
transport.
faint
from
awoke
morning
in my
have
behind
draw
away
others
refreshed
was
still fear is
as
years
theory that
by
want,
that
and
fied
forti-
well
the
have
I should
hopelesswreck.
and
or
weep
weakening of
exertion
contemplativepower.
this theory has yet
But
Ah
prevent this by
can
one
and
so
Ah
and
with
gracious
I would
not
from
shine
to
only cry
I did
that
for
prudence
for
long
the
such
I felt that
decliningyears,
drift about
to
that
began
seemed
I could
Then
againsttrouble.
The only thing I
mind
it
This
but
joy,
but
I shall leave
and
and
that
in my
That
nothing,
lightmists
saw
sun,
me
in power
gratitude so
blindingradiance.
revelation
served
and
it."
this,I
of
face
the
for
thy Glory,
trail
glowing
may
ask
thee
I shall grow
attain
recognizeand
and
happy
am
followed
and
regret
no
to have
content
DREAMS
OF
BRIDE
THE
396
cious
saga-
of
exercise
the
example
As
would
not
I retain
my
alone
long
as
to be
be
proved.
sufiicient
clearness
of
And
my
for that.
mind,
I have
place
...
THE
The
To-day
within
sight
belonging
caused
vessel
his
following
age
endeavoring
sea.
Mr.
The
the
boy
sympathy
in
manner,
our
up
town."
and
by
jumped
the
loved
death
pite
des-
Muralto,
board,
over-
on
both
home-sailing
some
out
his
arouses
to
sloop,
deceased
the
for
per's
skip-
haven
pulled
As
his
The
companion,
current
Elsje/
lamp.
Mr.
to
drowned.
respected
unassuming
swim,
not
picked
was
alcohol
an
bor
har-
presumably
started,
his
carry
strong
was
Muralto
universally
and
could
who
But
planks.
to
fire
yacht
swimmer,
strong
the
ablaze.
speedily
great
lad
of
the
outside
On
12th,
June
account:
town.
our
upsetting
was
of
occurred
Muralto^
the
by
entire
of
397
issue
its
accident
Mr.
to
in
the
sad
DREAMS
OF
Journal
published
1908,
"
BRIDE
was
benevolence
universal