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character-driven story. As I try to see the world and the people in
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through the darkened entryway and locked the glass doors, stopping
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he turned and went toward his pickup.
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a month or a year, God would send someone to ask Jerry to put his
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it made sensethe headaches, the mood swings, the memory lapses.
For weeks he had thought he was losing his mind. Hiding the pain
had only made him more irritable, had only made his behavior more
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on. An elderly man appeared in the hall, next to the stake presidents
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as the saying goes. Shall we begin? he asked.
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temple, he said. He returned his attention to the sticker, picking at it
studiously.
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Whats happening to us? Camille asked.
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Dear Brother, the old man said in a voice, strong and hollow,
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filled with canned goods, dry cereals, and boxed dinners, they stopped
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which its Shannons turn to fix tonight.
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Stop by a while.
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an hour is a whole lot better than nothing. And right now, thats what
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and took a seat at the kitchen table.
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grandpa, but no dad?
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Where is he now?
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mother.
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spoon. Your dad died trying to hike Mount Everest, she said simply,
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Norman?
Hi, Grandpa.
Holy Moses. What took you so long to call? What happened? Are
there reporters there? Who knows about the situation? Did they give
you problems?
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was troubled. Im the first to admit that. But do we need the whole
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Gotta go, Grandpa.
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Click.
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would have been appalled. He would have turned away and pretended
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cinnamon and sugar hair. I straightened her long, knobby fingers as
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priesthood holders do to newborn babies. I had the power now, didnt
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that sounded so poor sport. And anyway, here was little Douglas looking
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have a happy day now, could it? And, on that thought, she turned back
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today . . . She set her bowl down next to the pies and sprinkled yeast
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she had to agree with Latham. Oh, br-rother.
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should be sentenced to homes with children!
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in his arms, the crowd always swelled up to caroling-party size, and
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seem to have fit in a shower.
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their well pump went out, they camped here. When the last hurricane roared up the coast and knocked out our power, we stayed there.
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stop going steady with the Runyons. Maybe when I call and she puts
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leave. Alone.
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the librarys Story-hour lady. Here, weaving down the sidewalk, was the
chubby boy straddling his stingray bicycle. He always waited down at
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closer. And the truck always played Do Your Ears Hang Low?
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and clear my head. When I got back, Barbara had the phone to her
ear, which wasnt unusual, but she gave me a sideways look and then
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he managed to broadcast the ten seconds that I sounded most like a
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sugarcoat things. She never had any problem saying that she loved
me, but she also never struggled with telling me when I acted like an
idiot either. I could always rely on her to tell me the truth, whether I
liked it or not.
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field with lights shining over his shoulder and down into the Cove.
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they looked similar to common garter snakes, the kind that slide
around in irrigation ditches and creeks all over the valley, certain
markings on their bellies suggested they might be something else. He
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sometimes turns out to be lower than a principal would hope.
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the water. I looked at my watch and tried to count how many came
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stake president. But he doesnt pay his taxes.
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guys about how the government doesnt have power over a mans money.
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voice.
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hip and side. I looked up and saw Shawn.
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stilled. I heard nothing.
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as Sarah finished wrapping gauze and pressure bandages around my
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He hasnt said anything else? Sarah asked.
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stood up. He said hes sorry. He walked to the door and put his hand
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all sorry one way or another, eh?
I wondered what he was thinking. I hadnt said anything to anyone
about unpaid taxes or chasing a husband away, the dog, the cake, or
Jodie English.
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the church and the police department arrived to search downstream
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while an bandaged my legs. Id been bitten more than a dozen
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what Shawn said about the snakes and sin.
Yes, I guess we are all sorry, I said.
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miles and miles, yelling, my voice raw and wheezing. In my dream, Ed
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Going Mainstream:
Chaim Potok as a Model for Mormon Literature
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When I enrolled in a creative writing class at
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required texts was Potoks third novel, My Name Is Asher Lev.0VS
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a novel that by typical standards shouldnt have been a bestseller but
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about a small religious communityparticularly about ours. In Potok,
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Latter-day Saints. David Hansen, writing the -JTU SFWJFX PG
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universally communicate to the reader. . . . I think Mormon literature
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But what techniques does Potok use to bridge the communication
gap? And how might those techniques aid Mormon authors? Potoks
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patterns in introducing a reader to a completely alien community. In
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in much the same way.
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The Chosen begins when the
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expectations. When the team enters the field dressed in traditional
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Reuven typically expects on the baseball field.
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used without definition at first, allowing the characters to speak naturally in their cultural context. A definition can be inserted later when
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about the contrast with the usual meaning or use and simultaneously
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epithet, but no definition is then given. However, several pages later,
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we then find out the word means a Jew educated in Judaism who denied
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The Chosen
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Ashers head. Allowing the same to happen to the audience has the side
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to the reader, much like Potoks child narrators.
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to the community. Both A Little Lower than the Angels and The Giant
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the protagonist will leave the community, only how long they will
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and avoided addressing stories peculiar to the Jewish experience.
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community, the emotional situation represented in Potoks writing is
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community, so the decision to condemn it is much easier. In condemning the community, the protagonists lose nothing that they valued and
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love rather than condemnation.
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mothers suffering, and so Asher is asked to leave the community (Potok,
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avoid hurting his parents any more. In this way, although Potoks charBDUFSTPGUFOEFQBSUGSPNUIFJSGBJUI
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resonates with us. Potoks writings provide Mormon writers with an
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examine Mormonism while grounding their loyalty unquestionably in
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with supposed contradictions. I believe it is this aim that causes many
Mormon writers to admire Potoks work. He interests them because
he tells stories about people who remain loyal to their religion and
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has defied the critical commonplace that good boys, like good men
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in making our paradigm relevant to a mainstream audience, Barber
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and Catholic writers? People are interested in them. As I understand
it, Judaism and Catholicism are much more universal, much more
ancient and puzzling to the public mind than is Mormonism, which
many consider a quaint, odd, right-wing cult, mainly known by its
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propelling Mormonism into the public eye seem small and temporary
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was glad now that she had not stood in his way, but she would not
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Big Man, who laughed at it heartily.
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Youve landed it! he cried, shaking an official document at the Boy.
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those heelers and lobbyists pulling at the game. I simply put in your
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prestige, but the experience. Four years in Europe, and in the tip-top
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with technical expressions, suppressed egotism and large outlook.
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games later on, both in diplomacy and politics.
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called people pikers who did that! Well, they should see that she
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Its certainly fineyour getting the position, she said, though Im
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the Central Committee or at political meetings and state stumping,
seemed harder to bear. His step on the porch during that time became
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as I do.
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with these questions, which seem to echo intermittently throughout
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How will years in this land be anything but hard?
How will she and everyone near her not wear down
and tumble away like so much alluvium? ()
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the whole book:
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remains a regional attraction.
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one scene, Elly, in an accusatory tone, tells Connor, You always leave.
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intriguing, and it is an idea that is explored throughout the book. In
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