LOST MOON: MY OWN NEW MOON

Bella’s POV:
Chapter 1: The Forest

“Bella,” Edward called, his voice ringing in my mind, bringing me into the
present. “Come for a walk with me.”
My heart dropped to my stomach. A talk… I had wanted to talk with him
about his behavior for the last three days. Now was my chance, but it was
too intimidating to even say something.
He took my hand and led me into the deep, dark forest. At another time it
would have been pleasant and romantic… but not now. Not when my life and
soul were threatened. We stopped in the path. He took a deep breath and
began: “Bella, we’re leaving.”
NO! My mind screamed. “Ok, I’ll come.” I said, unsure of what to expect.
His cold, dark eyes flashed. “No. You will stay here. I don’t want you to
come! You can’t come with me, Bella. Only my family is leaving Forks.”
I was stung. I stepped back. So this is why he wanted to celebrate my
birthday, to break up with me. He got a good reason, Jasper attacked me.
Safety reasons.
“Oh. Okay. Well… Can I say goodbye to the others?” I tried to stay calm but
my mind was stumbling past all the possibilities.
He stood as calm as always, as though we were debating on our favorites.
“Bella, the others are gone. They wanted to say goodbye, but I told them a
clean break would be better for you. No reminders.”
I was shocked, paralyzed. Time made no sense to me now. “They’re…
gone?”
“Yes. And so am I.” He said, taking a step back. “I won’t bother you again,
I promise. But you don’t do anything reckless or stupid.”
“Please! Don’t do this!” I whispered, choking back the tears and sobs. Too
late. He already had. He began to turn. “WAIT!” I choked out, reaching for
him.
He pinned my arms down my sides and leaned closer, pressing his lips to
my forehead for the very shortest second. “Goodbye, Bella.” When I opened
my eyes, he was… gone. No Edward. No life.
I was numb and betrayed. He had broken his promise to stay with me. I fell
to the ground not bothering to see where I landed. That was it. My life was
over. He had ended it with his leaving. I shouldn’t even have believed him in
the first place; Of course he was a vampire, how could he not hate me? I was
as plain as ever. He had lied to me, all the time.
I don’t know how long I lay there in the forest. Time meant nothing
compared to what I had experienced. I had understood that he meant for me
to move on. I could not. It was impossibility. Moving on from him was
impossible. He could; he had more beautiful vampires on the way-
everything I was not. Yes- beautiful, powerful, strong, pretty, sweet, smart
vampires- ALL things I didn’t possess and would never again possess.

Some hours had passed. I was only aware that the sky had darkened the
forest more menacing than before. Nothing was real anymore. Only the
horrible truth- that he left. Nothing was more important than that. At his
name- not only his name, but the only single he I was gripped with an agony
nothing could compare. Everything was unnecessary. Except the truth and
the lie- He left, he lied to me, he didn’t love me. Of course, it was the truth.
All three of those facts that tore my chest apart, emitting a huge hole,
punched into my chest and awakening every time I came near it. Some time
later I heard voices. Who could it be? Not him, of course. It was a man’s
heavy, booming voice. I didn’t hear it I was too lost in my personal dark
ages. “Bella!” It cried. I could not answer. My body heaved with tears. Even if
I tried to control them, they would come anyway.
“Bella!” And again. “Bella!” So on and forth. Suddenly somebody appeared.
It was a huge man with a broad, bare chest. “Bella!” This time it was an
acknowledgment that I was found. I was flopped onto his chest and in his
arms. I didn’t care. There was nothing to care. The world had ended.
“Bella!” This time I recognized the voice. Family. Charlie. He mattered, if
nothing else.
I was carried inside. I didn’t know where I was. I fell down onto the couch
and went unconscious.
I woke up to daylight. Charlie peered over me. “Hey, Bells.” I nodded. My
throat was too dry to speak. Even if I could, I didn’t want to.
“So… err, how do you feel?” He asked awkwardly. I managed to speak this
time, though my throat rasped.
“Cold.” I shivered.
“Anything else, Bella?” He was concerned.
“Just- Just cold and weak.”
“Bella, what did he do? Did he dump you?” I cringed. That was it. I nodded.
“Where? In the forest?” I nodded again. “What did he say?”
I cringed again. “Dad, I don’t want to talk. I’m going to sleep in my room
now.” I raced upstairs. I flung the bedside drawer open for pictures. Empty.
My heart sank, I could almost feel it. No pictures, no reminders. It’ll be as if I
never existed.. He took my life away with him, all my possessions.
I sank down onto the floor and didn’t surface.
October
November
December
January

Chap. 1 part 2…Waking Up

Four months had passed, four months since the agony. The agony that he
left. I rarely thought of him, but it was still enough to bring me down to my
knees, wrap my arms around myself to protect my chest from bursting into
pieces, and sob.
He had it planned from the start, I was sure. To break my heart and enjoy
the scene. I even wondered if he really had loved me. I shuddered. It was
sometime in the night, a cool night of February. I was lost and helpless. I
could not concentrate enough on my work.
I hoped that my life could end. I didn’t want to live this meaningless life
anymore.
A/N: I WANT TO SKIP THE JACOB PARTS… THIS CHAPTER IS ABOUT
HER DRIVE TO VOLTERRA TO SAVE EDWARD.
CHAPTER 2: VOLTERRA

“Bella,” Alice’s voice said. We were in the Porsche, weaving through the
traffic, on our way to the city. To save Edward from being killed and to stop
my being catatonic again.
 “Bella, don’t panic now and don’t trip either. No time for concussions
today! And just head for the Palazzo de Priori, or the Clock Tower. Edward
will be there right at noon!”
I panicked. I couldn’t help myself. Jasper would be some help. Even the
vision was bad- how could I see so much in so less time?
The car stopped at a standstill. “Go Bell go!” Alice shouted.
I raced forward to an alleyway, ducked into it and sprinted forward. The
fountain blocked me so I jumped over in it- and saw what I’d missed for
months.
There, in the opening of the alley, in the shadow- stood Edward. He wasn’t
in the sun yet but would be with just two steps. I had to hurry now. All of a
sudden everything was in slow motion. I tried my best but it looked like I
was crawling. Finally I reached the steps. I jumped upwards and captured
him in my arms.
“Look at me, Edward! Open your eyes! I’m alive! Rosalie was not telling the
truth!” I choked.
His eyes slowly opened- a deep black beyond dark. His perfect, long eye
lashes whipped the shadows under them- deep purple. Had he not hunted for
months?
“Amazing.” He said in wonder.

EDWARD POV:

I was about to reach the alley. Aro and Marcus had said they didn’t kill for
no reason. Caius was as uncaring as ever. Could they not understand the
circumstances? Could they not grasp the idea that when Bella- wince- died, it
meant I had to die too? It was obvious that I could not exist when my
midnight sun died too. Was it so mundane?

Bella died yesterday. She had jumped off a cliff, to end her life. Alice had
pitied our leaving from the start. She had told me it was wrong, and now I
believed it. I had left Bella for nothing. I thought I was leaving for the sake of
her happiness, her safety. Instead, it was the other way round. Now I see
why. I had involuntarily killed her myself. It was piteous- above that. To kill
an angel so pure- who had not even started her life, and I had killed her. It
was deplorable.

I finally reached the alleyway. Only two steps more then I would appear in
the sun- and die. Die… My lips curved into a smile at that… death.
I closed my eyes and tried out. That is when I was attacked by a
breathtaking fragrance.
“Look at me Edward! I’m alive! Rose was wrong! Open your eyes!”
I slowly opened them. What I saw was wonder. For I was looking at Bella
myself.
Bella! Bella, Bella! My Bella Swan! Alive!
“Amazing.” I said quietly. “Carlisle was right. You are with me in death. SO
selfless Bella, my amazing soldier.”
At that she frowned. ”I’m not dead Edward and neither are you! Please
move before the Volturi come!”
“The VOLTURI??” I asked, afraid of what Bella would have to suffer. She
nodded eagerly, and clasped her hands together.
 At that moment two cloaked figures appeared on the entrance- Demetri
and Felix, guards of the Volturi. Felix was huge, like Emmett, but not totally.
Demetri was slighter but still stocky, and politer.
“Aro wants to see you again.” Felix said tonelessly. And take that stupid girl
away.
I tensed. “Aro already saw me, Felix- I have no more issues.” I smiled
warmly at Bella but she looked too panicked. I felt culpable. I had led her to
clutches of Volturi. It was unforgivable.
“Felix merely meant that Aro had an important- ah- issue to discuss with
you.” Demetri said soothingly. At that, I was attacked by Alice’s voice:
Edward, you idiot! If you step in there I swear I will revenge you! Stop it!
Bella’s alive, she should meet you! Demetri and Felix are on their way!
Ah, Alice. I missed her tones. She came soon, and Bella’s heartbeat
accelerated. Bella looked frightened beyond belief.
Go for it, Ed. They do not wish to be thrown out by you, or Aro will see to
that. Tend to make it easy? Alice flipped through her visions and I read them
all. Marcus, Caius, Aro standing beside Bella’s writhing body; Jane attacking
Bella; Demetri fighting me off; Felix growling…
“Fine.” I said curtly. I put my arm on Bella’s waist and dragged her
forwards.
After a sea of elevators we stepped atop the akin marble pillars that led us
to the Volturi’s yard- Courtyard of Death, as many called it.
“Edward, Bella! How nice to meet you! And Alice too!” Aro sang.
“We were forced in by your guardsmen, or more seemingly your flank men,
Aro!” I said in a furious voice. “Deal with it.”
Ah, brother, you remind me of Carlisle… Only he was calmer than you, I
believe… So I have heard that Bella is immune to yours and mine talent. I
want Jane to do that. AND I will.
At that, I froze. “No way, Aro.” I hissed. “Do anything but that. Not Bella!”
I felt helpless now… Not my Bella.
BELLA POV:
Jane looked at me and suddenly I was yelping on the floor, writhing in
sharp agony. Memories flew by and by.
Jacob, drawing back from my touch, Jacob screaming at me to go, Jacob
spitting at me to go away… Me in the room, blank, emotionless… The hole
ripping me apart, gashing my wounds… Edward turning away, the horrors,
the nightmares, the fears… the meadow, Laurent stepping closer, the
wolves… Edward drawing back from me, telling me I was not good enough,
me on the floor.

Suddenly the pain had gone… And I writhed on the floor, weary and tired.
Edward rushed to me and straightened me up. He helped me up, and held
me in his arms for support. Then he addressed Aro, “That was off the limits,
Aro. I respect your law but I detest your powers! Let us go now, and I
promise to make Bella immortal…”
Aro laughed. “Very well, Edward. I will let you go. Only stay until evening
for mealtime.”
EDWARDS POV:
I could not believe that Jane had used her foul talent on my Bella… It was
cruel. We reached the lobby and waited for what seemed like eternity. Finally
Demetri came and told us to go. We went out and Alice stole a car and drove
towards the airport. Bella slept the whole way. Finally we reached Forks. My
family waited there and I was choking, in a way- I never thought I would see
them again. Esme hugged us three and the rest greeted us. We lifted Bella
into the car and soon we were on our way to Bella’s house.
BELLA POV:
I woke up in my street where a furious Charlie waited.
“SO!” he bellowed. “BACK ARE WE? I TELL YOU EDWARD IF YOU EVER
HURT HER AGAIN I WILL KILL YOU! AND YOU BELLA ARE GROUNDED! NOW
GO AND SLEEP!”
I winced and Edward carried me to my room. I fell asleep in a minute.
When I woke up my thoughts were hazy I didn’t know where I was. I
recognized my room and saw Edward sitting there.
“Am I awake?” I asked.
“Yes, Bella you are. I’m sorry Charlie gave you a bad time but I deserved it.
Please forgive me for leaving Bella. I just wanted you to be safe.” He
pleaded.
I was furious. “Yes you deserved it Edward. I can not believe you could do
that to me! I went through hell for the past seven months! I could not
breathe without you, I couldn’t live! And here you come back as if- as if
nothing happened. I saved you for your family!”
He looked pained. How fitting, I thought sarcastically. “Please Bella! I know
it, and I am sorry for what you went through. But please forgive me- I feared
for your safety when Jazz attacked you- it wasn’t my intention to leave . But
I figured it later- I am sorry, Bella. I still love you, those words were a lie,
and I wanted you to believe me so you could move on even if it hurt us.”
I was elated at that. “Really? You love me? Well, I do too!”
He was too. “Thank you Bella- please do you forgive me?”
I thought. He wanted my safety, he loved me- it was a hasty decision…
So... yes. “YES I DO!”
He hugged me close. “Thank you love.” HE moved to kiss me but I blocked
him. He looked confused.
“Morning breath,” I explained. I quickly hurried to wash my face brush my
teeth then I went to him and he kissed me not being careful at all.
I was finally whole again.

“Come on Bella! Shoot it shoot it- Damn!” Emmett yelled. We were playing
Shooter games in Edward’s house. Charlie forgave Edward when he heard I
had too. He ungrounded me and here I was, in Edward’s house. They all
welcomed me warmly, even Rose. We were friends now. Edward was gone
hunting with Jasper and Alice and Rose shopping. Carlisle was at hospital,
and Esme was watching us fondly from the sofa.
Edward came back in a minute and he pulled me into his arms. He kissed
me and I forgot everything except him. Then I pulled away and yelled, “My
duck escaped!”
Everybody laughed and I smiled. It was my future now. I was happy.