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Prologue

A young man stood on her stoop: tall, with lanky hair falling in his
face, and thin, busy lips that he chewed while she studied him across
the threshold. No one she’d met before. The sun was sharp; the maple
outside her house was spiked with buds. Spring had arrived without
her noticing.
“Georgia Calvin?”
She turned to check on Violet, in the dining room behind her, jab-
bering in her high chair.
“Miss Calvin? I’m Nat Krauss.” He shifted his knapsack to offer
her his hand. “I left a message I’d be coming.”
Several messages, in fact, from a young man at the Crimson: she’d
erased them all without playing them through. There was only one
matter that reporters ever wished to speak to her about, though years
had passed since anyone had tried.
This May, it would be ten years, exactly, since Julie Patel’s murder.
Georgia always marked the day, May 5, and made sure flowers were
delivered to the family: Mr. and Mrs. Barid Patel, 32 North Beatty
Street, Pittsburgh, PA. Nine bouquets and no replies. Nonetheless, she
kept sending them, hoping that, if she hadn’t been forgiven, she might
at least be accepted as a valid participant in the family’s tragedy, some-
one who’d been involved in those events the way they had: directly
and against her will—­unlike the many others who’d taken an interest
in the murder out of some personal objective, the Nat Krausses of the
world. “You’re the Crimson reporter.”
“Right. Editor in chief, actually.” His hand remained outstretched;
she took it at last. The boy’s palm felt sticky; his fingertips were stained
with newsprint, black under the nails.

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The nurses had warned her again this morning: Mark could only
be safely released to a clean, contained environment. No welcome home
bouquets, no gifts of food, no guests.
“I’m sorry, this really isn’t a good time.”
A crashing noise came from behind; she rushed back inside, re-
lieved to find Violet strapped into her high chair, her bowl of mashed
bananas spinning on its side across the floor. Georgia knelt to clean the
mess; when she stood again, the young man was in her living room,
laying his unwashed jacket over one armrest of her sofa.
“Ms. Calvin.”
“Reese. I’m Reese now.” She hadn’t taken Mark’s name when they’d
married, but with the onset of his illness, she’d filed the papers. She
would be Reese and remain Reese, whatever happened, from here on.
The clock in the living room read 10:15; by noon Mark would be
prepared for discharge; Violet still needed her nap. Food lay scattered
around the high chair; the reporter had tracked mud across the floor.
“Look, if you’ll just leave me your number—­”
“One question. Please. Give me five minutes and I swear I’ll get out
of your way.”
Despite the unkempt hair and rumpled bowling shirt, nods to hip-
sterism, the young man was clearly fanatically determined. The kind
of guy that she, ten years before, would have found easy to comprehend
and master. These Harvard boys had not changed.
She was the one who’d changed. Her shirt was stained; her leg-
gings had a hole in one knee; her eyes were ringed from lack of sleep
and white hairs had multiplied among the gold. The past year had done
the transformative work of a decade; just over thirty, she must seem far
removed from anything to do with sex or scandal.
Violet let out a whimper of exhaustion.
“I need to get her to sleep first.”
“No problem. I can wait.” The young man dropped onto the sofa.
Georgia resigned—­“one question”—­and leaned down to unstrap
the baby from her high chair. When she glanced up, Krauss was star-

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ing; her shirt gaped and, since she was nursing, she hadn’t bothered
with a bra.
Krauss’s cheeks flushed; he turned away, to pull a notebook from
his bag. A moment later, from the stairwell, Georgia caught him watch-
ing her again: a more prurient curiosity shone in his expression.
It was a look that she remembered, encountered often after the
murder, in the faces of strangers who’d linked her to the figure in the
news. Rufus Storrow’s student girlfriend. The seductress or the naïf,
the betrayed or the betrayer, the partner of a killer: she’d been all these
things to different people, might be any one or more of them to this Nat
Krauss.
She shut herself inside the baby’s room. Almost half an hour went
by while she nursed and rocked and hummed; the presence of a visitor
made Violet agitated. By the time Georgia laid the baby, sleeping, in
her crib and tiptoed down, she’d allowed herself to hope that Krauss
had given up and left. Instead she found him typing into his phone; his
feet were up on the coffee table’s edge, beside a stack of unpaid bills:
mortgage payments, insurance claims.
“Good to go now?” He pocketed his phone and picked up his spiral
notebook.
She took a seat across from him, inside this living room she’d
scarcely used, furnished with items she and Mark had bought over the
summer at local auctions: one way to introduce an element of chance,
some playful chaos, into the seemingly staid business of setting up
house—­as if chance and chaos weren’t already with them, as if she’d
forgotten the lesson of ten years before.
“You can guess what’s brought me,” Krauss began.
“The memorial this May.” Every member of her graduating class
had received notice, and she’d been made aware of it much sooner,
since Charlie and Alice were both involved in the arrangements. Over
lunch, that winter, Alice had warned her that the ten-­year anniversary
of Julie Patel’s death would have consequences: the media was taking
renewed interest in the story and the investigation had been reopened;

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there was a chance that Georgia might be contacted by police or press.


“You’re covering the ceremony?”
“Also.” Krauss shifted forward; the smell of cigarettes wafted from
his clothes. “But my question has more, specifically, to do with Joe
Lombardi—­the officer who headed up the Patel investigation.”
“I know who he is.”
“Right, though maybe you’re not aware he’s Chief of Police Lom-
bardi now. I don’t know how much you keep up with Cambridge
politics—­ there have been complaints of corruption, incompetence.
Which must come as no surprise to you: given what went on with the
Patel case.”
That case had been mishandled in a dozen ways, but she’d never
thought to blame officer Lombardi more than anybody else involved:
the politicians who’d pushed the department to name a suspect quickly;
the press that never clamored for a broader investigation. Everyone in-
volved, it seemed, had played his eager part in persecuting Storrow.
Storrow had been too perfect a target, after all: too well dressed
and too well spoken, with a high Virginia drawl and the sort of fair,
delicate good looks that called to mind outdated notions like breeding.
A charmed, young Harvard professor, whose reputation she’d assisted
in sullying forever.
Across from her Krauss brushed the hair off his pimpled forehead;
he was sweating, talking on excitedly: “And not just any statements,
potentially exonerating statements. I’ve already spoken with one wit-
ness who claims Lombardi completely disregarded what he told him: a
classmate of yours. Miguel Santina. You might know him.”
“Know who?” She rubbed her eyes; the night before she’d scarcely
slept, woken by Violet twice and kept awake by her own fears that the
day would bring bad news, that Dr. Poole would tell her Mark’s im-
mune system was still too compromised, that his release from the hos-
pital would be postponed once more. We can’t be overly cautious; he’s
undergone a very serious surgery, gravely serious, the name notwith-
standing: Whipple—­a word better suited to Violet’s toys and gizmos
than to a procedure to remove half of Mark’s insides.

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“Excuse me, Nat is it? What exactly are you after? Because when
I agreed to talk, I thought we’d be discussing the memorial, not the
investigation.”
“Obviously, they’re connected.”
“Maybe they shouldn’t be.” A ceremony to mourn a murdered girl,
to provide some comfort to her family: that was not an excuse for pur-
suing a separate agenda.
“Look, assuming Lombardi botched the investigation and Julie
Patel was denied justice, it needs to come out—­even if it’s painful. I’m
sure the Patels would feel the same way.”
“Yeah? I kind of doubt it.” On this almost hopeful morning, she
didn’t need to recall death; and as unpleasant as returning to this sub-
ject was to her, it would have to be pure torture for Julie’s family.
She studied the reporter, perched at the sofa’s edge, knee bouncing;
his pen ran, buzzing, up and down the notebook’s spiral—­a creature
positively twitching with ill-­contained ambition—­as if he’d given a
damn about Julie Patel or her family, until he’d seen his chance to earn
some notice from Reuters or the Times.
“If you’re here to discuss details of the case, I really doubt that I
can help you; I said all I had to say to the police ten years ago.”
“To Lombardi, you mean.” Krauss looked down at his lap; he’d
stuck his pen inside the notebook’s spiral. He lifted the book, trying to
shake the pen free without her seeing: a flush bloomed again beneath
the rash of tiny pimples; he was a child suddenly.
She smiled, despite herself. She supposed she was being rather
hard on Krauss—­too hard, probably, conflating him with the reporters
who’d once assailed her, or with Alice, who’d been the one to expose
her affair with Storrow, first to Charlie and then in the pages of the
Crimson. Long ago, when they—­she, Alice, and Charlie—­were all re-
ally just children too, self-­preoccupied and reckless.
“All right,” she resumed, more indulgent with Krauss now. “Your
question then: there was a classmate.”
“Miguel Santina.” Krauss abandoned the stuck pen and pulled a
second one out of his knapsack. “The name came up in an old Globe

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article. Turns out the guy had phoned Lombardi, reported spotting
Storrow’s BMW on the night of the murder. Fifteen to thirty minutes
before—­parked on Cowperthwaite.”
The street adjoining Mather House, where she’d been living senior
year. Back then she’d never have imagined Storrow would risk seek-
ing her out in her dorm, that he could be so rash or obsessive, but sub-
sequent years had made her less certain. “This is the first I’m learning
of it.”
“The first anyone is learning of it. Seems no one pursued the claim.”
Krauss repressed a grin: so pleased to have surpassed the achievements
of the many adults who’d dedicated months to these same mysteries
before.
“We weren’t together, Storrow and me, if that’s what you’re won-
dering.”
“No, I know. You were at a party. Kirkland House.”
A detail she hadn’t had cause to recollect, not since she’d been held
inside a detective’s office for three grueling hours of questioning. “So
if you read the police report, you already know everything I know. I’d
have mentioned seeing Storrow or his car.”
“You’re sure of that? Because Lombardi might have left it out.”
“Of course I’m sure.”
“Maybe there were other occasions; he’d come by another time?”
“Not that I ever knew of, no.” No meetings on campus: foremost
among Storrow’s many rules. It had seemed the height of irony, really,
that after all the disagreements they’d had about his precautions, bor-
dering on paranoia—­Who gives a damn who you’re sleeping with?—­in
the end, every move Storrow had made in those months, including with
her, had been scrutinized publicly, and judged.
Krauss chewed his bottom lip: it seemed this wasn’t the answer
that he’d hoped for. “I’m not here just on the word of Santina, so you
know. There was a girl, on your floor in Mather, who also thought she
heard a man’s voice in your room.”
“Well, she was mistaken.” Not that it was necessary to defend her
statements to this kid: Nat Krauss was not police and she was no lon-

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ger a guilt-­ridden girl of twenty. “Look, I’ve told you what I can and
now, really, I’ve got other things to do.”
She rose and stood in front of Krauss; he remained seated, deter-
mined.
“If you don’t want to help me, I get that, but I’d assume you’d want
to help your friend.”
“Storrow, you mean?” Even during their affair, she wouldn’t have
described Storrow as her friend. Charlie was her friend. Alice, too, or
so she’d thought. But not a man she’d spent the last decade avoiding,
not a man she couldn’t swear had been incapable of a brutal crime.
“We haven’t spoken in five years.”
“Regardless, I’m sure you’re aware of how he’s been ruined: profes-
sionally, personally.”
“Is he your concern now? I thought it was justice for the Patels?”
“I’m concerned for everyone Lombardi’s lies affected—­and if Stor-
row had his reasons for keeping quiet then, it looks as if he has a differ-
ent story to tell now.”
“What story’s that?”
“I hope to find out when we meet.”
“You’re meeting Storrow?” The last she’d heard from the man, he’d
been living in India—­where she’d hoped he’d had the good sense to
remain. Doing penance, so he’d said, with deliberate provocation: the
memory of that improbable encounter, inside a tiny Mumbai kitchen,
made her jittery still.
“Next week,” Krauss explained. “I’m driving down to see him.”
The news gave her a jolt: Storrow back on American soil, in contact
with this kid who was now inside her home. “Driving where? Where is
he now?”
“Great Falls. Visiting his mother, so he claimed. Though I got the
distinct sense there was more he didn’t want to tell me: government
business, maybe.” When he spoke of Storrow, Krauss lowered his voice,
and his tone became more knowing. That was Storrow’s absurd ef-
fect, she recalled, on a certain kind of young man, even one as smart
as Charlie. There had always been a bunch of them trailing Storrow

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across the Yard, enamored of his West Point lingo, entranced by his
stories of the JAG Corps, suggestions of covert operations he was part
of, the precise definitions of which always remained elusive. Whatever
elite connections Storrow had once possessed had been severed long
ago. A decade ago, come May.
“He’s not back for the memorial, is he? For God’s sake, he doesn’t
plan to use the occasion for grandstanding?”
“I can’t guess what’s on his mind.”
But she could guess. A man like Storrow, so devoted to the perfec-
tion of his image; he wouldn’t allow himself to be remembered as a
villain, or to be forgotten either.
“He cannot be there. It would be a disaster for that family.” Her
voice was shrill. A small cry sounded from upstairs. She paused, wait-
ing to be reassured that Violet hadn’t fully woken. “The Patels must be
allowed to have their day.”
“I understand your feelings here.”
“No, I don’t think you do.” Nat Krauss couldn’t begin to under-
stand what it would do to Julie’s parents if Storrow showed his face,
what a horror it would be for them to see the man they believed had
taken their child from them. Until Violet was born, Georgia couldn’t
have grasped it either: what it meant to care for a creature of such
sweet defenselessness, from the soft crown of her head, to those feeble,
immaculate feet—­to tend to another body, its needs and pains, more
thoroughly than to one’s own. Even the ghost of a child was a mother’s
possession. Mrs. Patel ought to be left in peace at least with that.
“Storrow keeps out, or I’ll take steps to make sure. You can tell him
I said so.”
“He does have a right to have his story heard, though, don’t you
think? He’s suffered too.”
Suffering: what did this kid know about it? She wasn’t about to dis-
cuss suffering with him, not after a year like the last one, spent watch-
ing Mark lose his hair and nails and so much strength he couldn’t lift
his nine-­pound daughter.

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She crossed to the sofa’s edge to retrieve Krauss’s jacket. He took


it, blinking up at her. “I’m sorry if I’ve upset you, Ms. Calvin.”
“Reese. And my husband is waiting.”
From her stoop she watched Krauss unlock his car and drive away,
the sun reflecting upon his rear windshield. The brightness hurt her
eyes; she went back inside.
Soon Violet would wake and the house still had to be readied: me-
ticulously disinfected. She had no time to spare on thoughts of Julie
Patel now, to indulge in guilty musings of the sort that had kept her oc-
cupied for years after her classmate’s death: imagining that she’d been
sacrificed instead and Julie was living in her place. So it would be Julie
with a child, a fitter mother, fitter wife, a better defender of the fami-
lies of murder victims, more accomplished in everything and more de-
serving of existence in that parallel universe where she’d been the one
struck down and Julie Patel lived.
Wallowing notions: such games just served to flatter, to convince us
we had more profound consciences than we did. What good did it do
anyone—­Julie’s family, or her own—­to blame herself?
Still, once Mark was home and she was calmer, she supposed she
should call Charlie and discuss this matter with him. Something should
be done to prevent the scene she now envisioned: ten years since he’d
been hounded from the campus, Storrow choosing this solemn event to
surface once again.
He might just be capable of such a thing, a man who’d been mad
enough, after all, to make an appearance at the vigil following Julie’s
death. Suspected of her murder, he’d dared to mix among the mourn-
ers, to stand before her family; he’d even dared to speak.
That was one more miscalculation that had ruined him: no falsely
accused man could be ever so measured and so poised. He would shout
and protest. He wouldn’t give thoughtful speeches in remembrance of
the victim. Such efforts to be proper, such measured dignity, especially
for those who didn’t know him, had only lent credence to the notion
that Rufus Storrow was a monster.

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Even she, who’d once lain beside him, couldn’t quite muster cer-
tainty.
But why place the blame on Storrow? Who could hope for any kind
of certainty in this life? Dr. Poole put Mark’s chance of surviving the
year at fifty percent. This was up from twenty; this was progress; it
was the closest she could come to certainty. Human nature might not
be designed to manage such odds—­but life didn’t care what we could
manage, and death, even when it didn’t hunt beloved husbands of forty,
or strike down eager girls of twenty, was no kinder.

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