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Think about sitting through a very loud, very long piano recital"
a candle
a man seated, uncomfortably
linear, bright white
(Oliver, whose eyes could barely be seen, as he was seated behind a bowl spilling over with candied figstook a moment but still eventually coughed...)
Youve already taken your share. I dont know why I cant have this.
The journalist was confounded. There was far more to this castle than her
research had indicated. As the caretaker guided the team down a winding
stone staircase into a hitherto unseen second basement, the journalist tried
to imagine actually living in such a place. A massive Mahogany door barely
on its hinges was moved aside. The caretaker reminded the team that other
than family, nobody else had been allowed to see what was left in these
depths. The journalist noted however, that there was little of interesta
dingy gold three legged sofa, various certificates in frames hung on the
walls, and a small trampoline with what appeared to be dirt or sand caked
all over it. Upon entering the final room, the journalist paused for a second
in disbelief, but then instinctively motioned to the photographer. There it
was before them. This meant that even the vilest rumors could be true, the
old bastard autocrat had actually built a glass coffin.
The meeting had been its usual interminable self. As ever, the agenda was
carried through without variation. The upper management all sat at the
head of the table, and would decree a policy change. The employees who
formed the next tier of power all clustered together at the opposite end, and
judging by their eye rolling, body language, and wordless tut-tutting, you
could tell which regulations would stick, and which would be forgotten. And
while the form of this meeting was the exact same as every other, the tone
could not have been more different. And as the second level sailed along
on their steady stream of hushed bantering, the department head muttered
an aside that they would be lucky to even make payroll this month.
Camilles head spun around in cold shock. She looked to the insiders, and
then even the outliers for any type of confirmation that someone out of this
large group also just heard what she had.
"Did you hear that? Did you hear that? Camille grabbed my arm
and shout whispered as I was walking by the ladies room. Emily
made that comment about not making payrollhow come nobody
even noticed that? This is bad, this is bad news, Matthew
I saw Camille again three hours later and she handed me a crumpled
note. I nicked into a supply room and opened it up, smoothing out
the paper against a cold, tall cabinet. She had written This reminds
me of when youre a kid, and youre sick, and your mother is driving
you the doctors office. Youre miserable, and every turn of the car
makes you nauseous. Youre out of school, but youre not having any
fun, and youre looking at people walking down the sidewalk and
having a normal day, and you wish that you could be just like them
because it feels like you wont have a normal day again.
White van, I know that Im not supposed to, but I looked at the driver through the glass
I couldnt identify him, but I noticed he didn't return the glance
Pure
Henry: "I like music that has piano in it. Not sad piano, but you know, more upbeat type piano"
Yes, we insisted that everybody have a clean work station free of clutter and personal decorations
Henry: "Quotes are dumb"
Yes, we considered that they were only trying to please us
Henry: "I just don't think it's realistic to have a separation between church and state. How can your faith not inform how you vote?"
Yes, we spoke with each worker individually, giving both minor critiques and positive re-assurances
Empty aisles
Empty desks
Empty rooms
Empty elevators
Half of the lights humming
Leave Vacant
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: You said, you said it was basically a competition
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: It was, you knowand it shouldnt have been.
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: Because nobodys gonna win?
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: Yeah, theres that, but there arent even losers. They just keep it all the same. Its just another coat of paint.
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: Is it like bacteria in a petri dish?
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: Thats a better way to put it. Bacteria doesnt care. One evening I actually overheard one them say "I don't think nothin".
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: Oh my God. Wow. What else do you think played a part?
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: Jealousy. Its jealousy that fed into their need to gossip, and that kept them from thinking, and kept their minds so small.
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: But couldnt jealousy have been a positive? Like, it could have banded them together?
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: No, because jealousy is shallow. And that shallowness was expressed in all these different ways. And that was encouraged.
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: But wouldnt that
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: Yeah, and that was their folly, right? They were determined to play pre-determined roles they had no part in determining.
A simple phone call/Another issue averted/Another afternoonand then it was time for lunch. They couldnt hear when Emily
repeated herself the first time. And again. And then again. They took the somber disbelief out of the moment. Compressed
insecurity into a nuisance. They performed their programmed function. Wandering vacant spaces, staring past outer edges,
interrupting themselves under exit signs, gawkily hovering at oblique angles. Without divesting themselves of possessions,
surviving on the offerings of passersby, or ridding themselves of family.
name in a circle. Repeat. Name. name in circle. Repeat. name in a circle. Repeat. Name. name in
circle. Repeat. name in a circle. Repeat. Name. name in circle. Repeat. Pronounce the word. Break the
word into syllables. First syllable. Second syllable. Repeat each egressive sound so carefully as to be a pin
prick. Repeat. First syllable. Second syllable. Third syllable. Fourth syllable. Repeat. Repeat each
egressive sound so carefully as to be a pin prick. Repeat. Pronounce the word. Break the word into
syllables. First syllable. Second syllable. Repeat each egressive sound so carefully as to be a pin prick.
Repeat. Renounce distraction, resist corruption. Resist distraction, renounce corruption. Repeat.
Renounce distraction, resist corruption. Resist distraction, renounce corruption.
(Four Years Later)
I was on a camping trip, sleeping in a tent. It had been so cold overnight, that when I woke up,
there was a small pile of snow next to my mouth that had formed from my breath. And as funny
as this might sound, it made me feel like spring would be soon.
"Honestly, by this point I just cannot believe that there is any ambiguity around this."
I could debate with my own thinking
I could edit my dreams to better illustrate my desires
I could watch myself acting out daily rituals
We were well within
Our limitations to wonder if you
Were ghosts, and Later ponder
Can the sun touch the arms of an organism
That evades capture both in the corporeal cells
And the interred image
A few depleted souls whose supposed sins
were outliving their age and not possessing
the ability to arrange safety for the coming days
"Stop. Next."
"I'm sorry"
This boil or sore or whatever the hell it was had
developed on my upper inner thigh. And this was in
the horrible heat of summer, and where I was seated
they kept the windows open all day. I was forced to
face West. Every afternoon, I had no choice but to get
assaulted by the sun. The one day I tried closing the
window, or at least lowering the blinds, it started a
fight. To try and resolve the argument, it was put to a
vote, which I of course lost. So, I had this thing
preventing me from walking normally, exacerbated by
grime, sweat, and, constant friction. It was like this
sore was the center point, and there was a nerve
connecting it to the apprehension in my mind and then
out the other side into the musky, thick pressure that
made this room constantly stink. So I spent these
seemingly time stopped weeks, roasting in my own
resentments and bodily fluids. The puss in my leg kept
accumulating, the sore growing ever largeruntil one
early eveningI all of a sudden felt this wetness on
my crotch. It was more than the normal late in the day
humidity, and I first thought I know I didnt piss
myself, what the fuck is going on? The walk to the
bathroom was awfulI dragged along at an almost
elderly crawlI locked myself in a stall lowered my
trousersand this thing had burstand looked like a
bullet holeblood soaking my legs and clinging to the
material of my clothesthe raw wound hurting and
throbbing as I forced myself against my will to squeeze
out the collected, calcified chunks of pussand with
each pinch of my fingers, another half second of
exaggerated wincing irritationanother spurt of
blood shooting acrosslanding on my other leg, on
the toilet seat, on the wall. I cleaned myself as best I
could, and hobbled out of there to grab some band aids
from the nurses station. After that, I had no choice
but to wait out the next few hours, exasperated and
trying to figure out what the purpose of all of this was.
(Whilst walking quickly through the lobby, heading out the door, Jack was approached for his thoughts)
I dont really think in terms of legacy. You know me, I am focused on the here and now. But theres no harm in
restoration. Itll stay clean this way.
Why am I leaving precisely right now? Hmm, well I'm not paid to stay
(Sean, barely able to conceal his resentments, and ready to rip the paintings from the walls chortled a retort that pushed
through his nasal passages and out his mouth.)
You must be mad. Absolutely. And right now your face looks like the worlds cheapest costume jewelry.
"I'm sorry"
ONE IMAGE
With your hand wet, shape the shari rice
into a long, oval from.
Cut a slice of fish, about 1 cm thick, 5 cm
long, and 3 cm wide.
Take a pea-sized portion of wasabi, and
smear it along the middle of the fish.
Place the slice of fish, with the wasabi side
facing down, on the rice.
AT A TIME
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SUPERVISOR: Or,
it could mean you know, like a chop
shop, taking out each individual element.
ACCOUNTS PAYABLE SPECIALIST: No
doubt, thats where that term probably got
its start.
we sit huddled together in the attic
sharing a maroon blanket
watching the wax
drip down the candles
the raucous holiday party sounds
seeping through the floorboards
we're so tired of the darkness
in our lives
but there's no distractions
on this side
listening to the majestic, but muted
piano playing in the parlor
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White van, I pointed one out to her
And then she started noticing them, too
Seemed like logic had stopped working
We uneasily joked that we should wake each other from our dreams
Or, I said under my breath is this a new part of our reality
Oddly and yet tellingly, the real sign of their closeness and friendship was that together they had planned this elaborate ruse. I know that at first glance it seems
almost totally counter-intuitive, but theres a well-established pattern of behavior that it touches on.
Im only here
To accept my responsibility
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
And as time went on
I felt more and more disconnection
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
until I had almost complete
Separation of my selves
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
and this wasnt troubling
I thought it would help
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
And that I could make
A true observation
And learn and improve
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
But I found that the obverse was true
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
And that the more I remained detached
And considering the reflection
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
The more I became unnatural
And obsessed with my own protection
I walk through a world I don't like
I walk through a world I don't like
Good? Good is neutral. Good is not a force. Good is just being normal. You do one act of good, theres always
more good to get done. Evil has tentacles and just tries to get in everywhere and upset the order.
"and it had been a great time, but as the evening wore on, they eventually ran out of things to say to each other. Each knew every story and one-liner the
other had. I couldnt help but think how conjoined they must have been in their early years."