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STUDENT LIFE
Tales of
Student Life
HERMANN HES SE
Edited, and with an introduction, by
THEODORE
ZIOLKOWSKI
Translated by
RALPH MANHEIM
YORK
1. Students-Germany-Fiction.
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Contents
Berthold
Friends
BY
THEODORE ZIOLKOWSKI
( 1907-8)
(I 907-8)
vii
3
5I
(1934)
First Version
I 25
Second Version
I 95
Introduction
N
I
viii )
( ix
Introduction
( xi
Introduction
T i.ibingen
agai nst
the
is virtually
pro
youn g men.
xii )
Introduction
( xiii
"
xiv )
Introduction
XV
xvi )
T A L E S O F STU D E NT L I F E
Introduction
( xvii
xviii )
Introduction
( xix
B urk and Oscar \Vach ter . And in the text i tself Hesse
recounts certain episodes from Oetinger's life tha t h e
could h ave found onl y i n Oetinger's autobiography. Of
course, Hesse had read a great deal more: he was gen
erally familiar with the history and culture of \Vlirttem
berg in the later seventeenth and eighteenth centuries.
But by far most of his material came from the cited biog
raphies of B engel, Zinzendorf, and Oetinger.
Josef Knecht , to be sure, is a fictitious figure in "The
Fourth Life ." B u t he moves through a framework of his
torical reality th at reveals Hesse's c areful study of his
sources. M any of the fi gures in the s tory-Bengel,
Oetinger, Rock, Zinzendorf-are historical personages.
Knecht's birth ( around 1709) I S dated by reference to a
historical even t- the treaty of Rij swijk , which in 1697
settled the War of the P al a tinate Succession . And even
thou gh Hesse does not mention the ruling monarch by
n ame, the characterization of the m an and his reign in
the opening paragraphs is so clear that we h ave no diffi
culty in recognizing Eberhard Ludwig, the profligate but
popul ar Duke of Wlirttemberg from 1693 to 1733, who
was courageous enou gh to shel ter French emigres from
the religious persecutions of Louis XIV.
The his torical background is conju red up by a variety
of means. I n every case, for instance. Hesse borrowed the
n ames of his non-historical figures from contemporary
sources . In the first version Knech t's sister is c alled
Benigna, a name th at Hesse knew from Oetin ger's auto
biography as the name of Oetin ger's daughter. Knecht's
first teacher, Preceptor Roos, bears the n ames of a well
known pietist, l\Iagnus Friedrich Roos ( 1727-1803).
Another key fi gure of Knecht's you th , Spezial Bilfinger, is
a nominal cousin of Georg Bernh ard Bilfinger (I 6931750 ) , Professor of Theology and superin tendent of the
Tlibingen Stift, who was a protege of Bengel and a col
league of Oetin ger.
xx)
(xxi
Introduction
many passa ges are simply copied word for word into the
second version-but trying to integrate his m aterial more
effectively. This striving for integration is the principle
tha t explains almost all of the s tylistic changes between
the two versions . As Hesse worked and as the conception
of the novel itself changed, however , it became evident
that the material from this richly documented period of
German cultural history was too overwhelming to allow
itself to be reduced to a brief chapter in The Glass B ea d
Game on the scale of t h e o ther three "lives." So Hesse
discontinued his work on one of his most fascinating and
revealing literary endeavors.
These three s tories, then , afford us an unusual glimpse
into the writer's workshop, representing as they do the
archetypal structure of De mimz, the preliminary plot of
Narcissus and Goldmmzd, an d a discarded section of The
Glass Bead Game . A n d l ike all of Hesse's works , they
amou n t to exe rci ses i n symbolic a u t obivgraphy tha t pro
vide us wi th i l l um i n a t i n g i n sigh ts into the life and mind
of the a u t h or . Sp ec i fic a lly they reflect H esse's profound
concern with guc<> t i o n s of rel igion and edu c a t i on and
they reveal his growi n g i n terest i n the cultural past of
Ger man y. Above all, however, t h e y arc good s tories tha t
provide t h e ultimate justifi ca ti on for H e s s e s strong-willed
deci s i o n , at such an earl y age, to reject the institu tions of
for mal education \\hich had exerted such a s t i fli n g effect
upon a generation of German creativity in order to devote
h i m self to t h e expl01 ation of his own consciou sness and
to the wri ting that e x pre ss e s i t .
,
'
BE RTHOLD
Berthold
Fragment of a Novel
ERTHOLD
Berthold
( 5
Yery
little
\\ith animals.
Why,
for
i nstance,
also Cod's
And
or
beheaded, s i nce
if e \ cr y th i n g th a t hap
'
in
van
his s u ddenly a l e r t e d
6 )
Berthold
( 7
8 )
( 9
Berthold
IO
Berthold
II
12
Berthold
( 13
was the inform ation that the injured boy was not dead,
but had recovered consciousness in the course of the
night.
Timidly B erthold's darkened soul opened its eyes, saw
that its wings, though damaged, were u nbroken , and tha t
the s k y w a s clear again. Tears brought release, carrying
away the despair and deadly fear that had followed him
into his dreams .
But a t the same time his wildness and bravado, the
soldier and bandit in him, fell away like a mask, and to
his father's j oy the face of the old solitary, contemplative
Berthold reappeared . For a week or two, his father-who
day after day with a sigh paid out money to appease the
mother of the injured boy, who l ay sick for quite some
time-distrusted his quietness , expecting the demon to
erupt at any m omen t . But B erthold seemed to be thor
oughly reformed ; he abandoned all dealin gs with boys of
his age, kept away from the streets and playgrounds,
worked hard at his Latin , and devoted himself more than
ever to medi tating abou t God and life. The sorry ou tcome
of his last ba ttle had taught him that earth ly glory is tran
sien t, and he found further confirmation of this truth i n
the fact that his former comrades did not seem t o miss
him . They followed new captains . At first they spared
Berthold's feel ings by keepi ng ou t of his way, then they
teased him for a while, and then they forgot him . No one
spoke of his heroic deeds any longer, and because he w as
studying Latin and desti ned for t h e pries th ood, the town
boys, partly in envy and parLly in contempt, resumed their
old habit of calling h i m S t . B erthold . The one thing th at
was not forgotten \\' as his i l l luck in almost causing the
death of a com rad e. Like his father , h e thought h e was
changed and reformed ; the tru th of the m atter was that
his na tural i m patience and his unsatisfied lust for life
were merely expressing themsel ves in a different way.
Berthold's teacher saw with concern what h e and his
14 )
Berthold
( IS
"
16 )
his heart, but he had lost control of the reins. And though
he reproached himself for this, he was glad to have so
bright a pupil, with whom he could engage in loftier dis
pu tations than with any of the monks.
I n his pride, Berthold failed to see that he was living
the years of his childhood in an utterly unchildlike man
ner, depri\'ing h imself of something irretrievable. Once he
h ad become interested in reading and Father Paul took to
pro\'iding him with books, he led a quiet but intense
shadow life in the pale land of written characters , and
forgot the world that he belonged to and that should have
been his . He did not miss the companionship of his con
temporaries , whom he more or less despised, and when
his father or uncle occasionally told him that he looked
pale and had been studying too much , he took it as a
compliment . Sometimes, to be sure, he was seized with
the old hun ger for a rich , full , active life such as he had
once sought in war games . bu t now h i s yearning was di
rected toward a fu ture in \rhich he hoped to attain honor
and po\Yer. and toward the world of thought, which for
the precocious child had become a challenging game with
the unknowable. He considered himself noble and distin
guished, because he stro\'e for intellectual riches , and n o
o n e told h i m that h i s stri\'ing for knowledge was merely
an unwholesome hunger that no amoun t of knowledge
could satisfy. because in it he was seeking n othing bu t
h imself.
\\'hen Father Paul said the time h ad come to send the
boy a\Yay to study. Berthold's father. in the belief that his
hope of seeing his son ordained was nearin g fulfillment,
gladly gaYc his consen t . Berthold himself was even more
delighted. l or he was now fifteen and lon ged to see the
wide \rorld.
Through the padre. who came from the Rhineland and
still had fri end s there. lodgings \rere found for the young
s tudent i n the great city of Cologne, which swarmed wi th
Berthold
( 17
18 )
( 19
Berthold
across the Rhine. And then came more and more little
men, and all night he was busy rowing one boatload after
another. And in the morning he found his hat, which he
h ad left on the bank, full of little gold pieces .
He told them how, long ago, two seminarians had
taken a third u p on a high church s teeple to rob crows'
nests. The two p u t a board out throu gh the sound hole
and held i t fast while the third c limbed out and robbed a
nest in a niche i n the wall. When all his pockets were full
of eggs, the others wan ted some, too, but he told them
they could climb ou t there themselves if they weren't
afraid. They threatened to let go of the board unless he
gave them some eggs. He thou ght they wouldn't dare, and
gave them nothing. Whereupon they let go of the board,
and he fell into space. But, lo and behold, the air caught
under his long buttoned coat and blew it up like a bell,
and to everyone's amazement he floa ted down to the
marketplace as slowly and g en t l y as a big black bird .
He a l s o h a d a w h ol e s a c k f u l of s tories abou t the devil .
For i n s t a n c e , the one abou t the three j ou rneymen who
p lay ed c ards i n c h u r c h d u r i n g services . The devil sat
d ow n and p l a yed w i t h t h em . O n e of the journeymen
r eco g ni zed h i m and w e n t a w a y , and so did t h e second ; but
in t h e exci t e m e n t o f t h e g a m e t h e t h ird noticed nothin g
a n d wen t on p l a y i n g w i t h t h e devil. Suddenly a fearful cry
of d i s tress w a s h e ard ; t h e c o n g re g a t i on ran away in hor
ror . La ter on , a gre a t spot o !' b lood w a s found in the place
w here t h e pl a yer h ad b ee n , a n d rub and scrape as they
m i g h t , t h e spot could n ever be removed .
J o h a n nes a lso told stories a bou t th e
fi n d ing of treasure;
their houses at
fr ie n d l y , g ood -n a ture d ghos ts, gob
kin gs .
not al
comrade Adam .
to
h ear and t h a t he
told onl y to
his
20 )
Berthold
( 21
22 )
( 23
Berthold
the grisly
w h i l e l is t e n i n g
to a ppl a u d t h e t ri u m ph of j u s ti c e a s to d i s p e l
fee l i n g t h a t had grad u a l l y come o\ e r h i m
t o th ese s t or i es .
girlish eyes
in Lu x e m b ou rg ,
a n a rch i t ec t . . . " But Berthold in ter
pleaded . "F o r goodn ess' sake, tell me a
J o h a n n e s l ooked a t h i m . a n d h i s i n t e l l i g e n t .
t\\' i n k l ed as h e \\e n t o n :
th e re w a s o n ce
ru p t e d h i m a n d
sto ry
" B ac k h om e
a bou t some t h i n g e l s e . . .
Then he took
you go to
- N o , d o n ' t den y i t , I k n o w w h a t I know.
h e saw th a t .J oh annes distru s ted him and sensed
B e r t h o l d h e s i t a t ed i n embarr a s s m e n t .
cou r a ge a n d sa i d , "Tel l m e w h a t
sec
girls.
When
i t's
l i ke when
24 )
Berthold
( 25
26 )
Berthold
( 27
28 )
Berthold
( 29
30 )
Berthold
( 31
spared. And this one they bled only sparingly and on fes
tive occasions, mostly for the sake of Johannes, who de
spite his tender years was already a connoisseur and
occasionall y claimed tha t h e n eeded a choice dram .
If anyone had told B erthold before he went to Cologne
that he would there learn to s te al , lie, drink, and indulge
his lust, he would h ave crossed h imself. Now he did all
these things with an easy mind and could not have been
happier. Without exactly neglecting his studies , he gave
himself up to the pleasures of the flesh and found a con
tentment he had never before experienced. S turdy enough
to begin with, he grew in height and breadth , and blos
somed out into a strapping young man whom one would
have been glad to see engaged in some w orthwhile
pursuit .
Twice a week, o n M onday a n d Thursday evenings, h e
h a d h i s meetings with B arbara. Trusting i n his strength
and cunning, he went to her own room, something none
of her other young lovers h ad dared to do. She rewarded
him not only with caresses but also with helpings of roast
and cake and o ther tidbi ts from her kitchen, while he
brough t a bottle filled with wine ; he often s tayed the
whole night, or most of i t .
I t occurred t o him after a whi l e th a t she had been
astonishingly willing to gran t him her favors . And when ,
as happened now and then , he asked l eave to come on
o ther nights than those she had set aside for him, her
agitation and the fmnness of her opposi tion did not
escape him . Then he began to wonder why h is friend
J ohannes had referred him especially to B arbara , and the
question tormented him . He plied .Johannes with ques
tions , and after trying to p u t him off with evasive an
swers , .Johannes finally told him in his free-and-easy way
what he knew of the girl . As he saw i t , she was a good
sou l , but with a great weakness for young boys , especiall y
seminarians. She had been only too glad to teach Jo
hannes , Adam , Berthold, and an unkn own number of
32 )
Berthold
( 33
34 )
"Not really. But I 've seen that learning doesn' t make for
happiness, and that a scoundrel can become a priest, an
abbot, a capitulary, or anything else you can think of."
"What can I say? Is the cloth to blame if a scoundrel
puts it on ? And besides, it's hard to j udge. God needs u s
all, even the wicked, for His purposes. Unworthy men
h ave done great good, and saints have brought great
misery into the world . Think of Father Girolamo in Flor
ence, whom I used to tell you about."
"Yes, I suppose you're right. I didn't mean anything in
particular, and it's not for me to judge. Probably the
whole world is just as it should be and the trouble is all
with me."
"Still so bitter ? Can't you tell me what the trouble is? I
might be able to advise you ."
"Thank you . You're very kind , but I h ave nothing to
say. All I know is that there must be something better in
human life than what I know of it; otherwise, i t wouldn't
be worth living or talking about."
"Perhaps you weren't cut out to be a priest."
"Perhaps . . .
A feeling of distrust came over him . He had no inten
tion of asking the old man for advice, still less of confess
ing to him . Bu t in the course of the conversation a
yearning, a wild lust for life, more passionate and hope
less than ever, arose in him . He thought of his pleasures
in Cologne, the stolen wine and coun terfeit love that h ad
gone down so sweetly, and saw the dismal emptiness of
his follies and dissipations . His whole life , past and pres
ent, became a bad tas te in his mouth . Here he was, seven
teen years old, big and strong, healthy and by no means
stupid, and yet he h ad nothing better to do than read
Latin and learn scholastic philosophy with a lot of pale
schoolboys and to join in their silly exploits . And to what
end ? At best he would become an unneeded priest, saying
his Masses, keeping a good table, and picking up the
crumbs of love that others have left over, or else content"
( 35
Berthold
ERTHOLD
B
Berthold
( 37
.'
"
..
"
can't
h e r fi rs t .
" I d o n ' t k n ow h e r " J o h a n n e s s a i d . '"You'll h a\c t o po i n t
.
h e r ou t t o m e . I 'm a f r a i d t h e re's n o t m u c h w e c a n d o .
B u rgh e r s d a u gh t ers d o n ' t u s u a l l y
'
bother
w i th t h e l i kes of
"'
Berthold
( 39
"So
l o g i c , j u s t i ce
But
W h y are so m an y
with a
u gl y ?
W h y arc
you,
body l ik e J l crcu l c s , m e n t a l ly u n s t a b l e a n d m e l a n -
40 )
Berthold
( 41
42 )
Berthold
( 43
44 )
Berthold
( 45
Berthold
( 47
off .
of
t l t c Tit irt y
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on lt is
way
to
t h e adven
FRIEN D S
Friends
HE
52
Friends
( 53
54 )
Friends
( 55
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he
h ad
been
the
patien t .
l o n g-su fferin g
dol t .
s6 )
Friends
( 57
to keep c a l m , to i gn ore
especiall y
those he disliked ,
the offended
fri end, the beneYole n t men tor : saw their expres sion s of
coldnes s , disappro,aL i n comprehen sion , almost of h a tred.
In the end h e smiled as though the whole scene \Yere
ss )
T A L E S O F STUDENT LIFE
Friends
( 59
6o )
Frie11 ds
( 61
fraterni ties
according
to
origins
a n d wealth .
the
uouser
He
wore
thick
a n c e s tra l
laden
co a t
b e a n
.
e t s o m eh o \\ u per io r s m i l e . I l e c u t a r a t h e r c o m i c ,1 l fi g
-
u r e . ,,-hich u -, u a l l s tr u c k H a n -. a -. p,Hh e t i c a l l y t om b i n g .
bu t a t t i m e s he fou n d t h e m a n i m p rcs -, i , e . ;\o\Y he r e
flected t h a t th i -; nobod Y ,,- a .., cl o:-er t o him t h ,m all h b so
c a l l ed conn ,l d c " . and he em i ed h i m a l i t t l e for the c 1 l m
.
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t o m ai n t ain
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me to sav a n v m ore.
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fully s .i tisfied . The p ro f e 5 5 0r looked .lt him 1:ind.ly our of
his somewh a t ctr ed gr2.y eye s .
- sure l y .- h e 5 aid "ith .1 mill e . -you didn t inu g:ine that
w h en the fr ..uern i t Y
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Friends
68 )
T A L E S OF STUDENT L I F E
Friends
( 6g
70 )
T A !. E S O F S T U D E N T L I F E
( 71
Friends
popped
diminutiYe
roll s
into
his
mouth,
and,
a ttended a l ec ture,
durin g
72 )
s treet
gen t l y
gave
rol l i n g
way
to
farm l a n d .
wagon
track
leading
bec ame
I I an s
Friends
( 73
"
"
74 )
( 75
Friends
And
one."
"That's true."
"Goo d . And Schopenhauer builds en tirely on Kan t . So I
was bound to haYe confidence in him, j u s t as an aeronaut
has more confidence in C ount Zeppelin than in the t ailor
of Ulm , simply because real progress h as been m ade since
then . So you see, the s cales were not quite e\enly b al
anced. Still. the crux of the ma tter was el sewhere . Let's
say I \vas confronted by
\\"hole bein g ,
"I
'"
friend, but he could not tell whether the other took him
seriously in return ; indeed , he vaguely suspected that for
all his seeming opcnhcartcdncss Wirth was much too
sure of himself, too set in his ways, to give himself easily
in friendship.
It was the firs t ti me he had fel t such respect for a man
scarcely older than himself and felt himself to be on the
receiving end wi thou t rebelling.
Beyond the black, snow-spotted fields the l igh t-colored
roofs of a h amlet could be seen amid bare fruit trees. The
lowing of cows and the rhyth mic sound of threshin g came
to them across the si lent deserted fields.
"Tha t's B l aubachhauscn ," said Wirth . Hans though t he
wou l d take his leave and turn back . He fel t sure tha t his
new friend woul dn't want him to sec his no doubt
wretched lodgings , or else tha t this vill age was his home
and he lived with his father and mother.
"Well, here you are," he said. "''ll leave you now and try
to get back in time for l unch ."
"Don't do anything of the kind," said Wirth affably.
"Come and sec where I live . You'll see that I've got a very
nice pl ace and th at I'm not a tramp. You can cat in the
vill age . Or be my guest if you can make do wi th milk."
The invitation came so naturally that Hans gl adly ac
cepted . They made their way to the vill age by a sunken
lane bordered by bushes. Ou tside the first house there was
a watering trough . A boy was waiting for his cow to drink
her fi l l . The cow turned her head and l ooked at the new
arrivals ou t of big, beau tiful eyes . The boy ran up to them
and held out h i s hand to Wirth . Otherwise the win try
s tree t was deserted and sti l l . Coming from the city's
bustling s treets and l ecture halls , I f ans was a mazed to
fi nd himself in this lost vil l age, and he was also am azed a t
h i s companion , w h o seemed at h o m e i n both pl aces and
who took this l ong, lonel y walk to town and back once or
perh aps even twice a day.
Friends
( 77
"
TALES
O F
STUDENT LIFE
Frienrls
( 79
up o f r a n d o m g i f t s , t h a t people d r : 1 g from p L 1 c e to p l a ce
hu t m a k e no u e o f . N o , t h e e were g oo d hooks i n good
s i m p l e b i n d i n g s , orn e of t h e m n e w a n d a l l e \ i d e n t l y :l c
q u ired w i t h i n t h e s pa c e o f a l"ew y e a r s . One boo k c a se w a s
d e v o t ed to t h e l i tera t u re o f a l l n a t i o n s a n d a ges . f r o m t h e
n u mber
i nc l u d i n g s e \ er:d o f To l s to y , a
p a m ph l e t s
of
and
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heal thy young men . Erwin flew into a blind rage and
bloodshed was narrowly averted . He flung himself on the
other, who was with difficul ty torn from his grip. His
older comrades could fmd no other way of calming him
than to make the offender apologize. But since the apol
ogy \vas as forced and lacking in conviction as the older
comrades' insistence on i t , the rift remained unhealed .
Now Erwin had an enemy he was obliged to see every
day, and what was worse, the condescending pity with
which the others seemed to treat him made it impossible
for him to be ave naturally. Formerly his j olly-goad-fellow
act had been solely for his own benefi t : now he put
it on for the others as well, but not very successfully.
It was on the day of the insult that he had tried to see
Hans . His failure had left him resentful-why hadn't
Hans been in his room ? -yet at the same time he found a
certain morose satisfaction in the thought that the
moment of unappeased pain and anger that would have
enabled him to act boldly and so set himself free had gone
by. Now he let things take their course, and their course
was downhill . In the presence of his comrades , he kept up
appearances , making a special effort at fencing class and
at riding school. But he could do no more . He felt ill at
ease with his comrades , who always seemed to be observ
ing him and going out of their way to spare his feelings.
On the other hand, he couldn't bear to be alone for very
long and couldn't keep his mind on his studies . He began
to spend his days at cafes and taverns-here a few mugs
of beer, there a j u g of wine or a glass of liqueur-with the
result that he went about in a daze . Thou gh never really
drunk, he was seldom en tirely sober, and in next to no
time he had taken on certain of the habits and gestures
specific to drinkers , which on occasion seem delightfully
droll but in the long run became dismal and disgusting.
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could from him and go his w ay, but h oped, and felt it to
be possible, that h e would learn from Hans and find a
guide in him.
Still busy with their thoughts, they took their leave of
one another. They tried to take a cordial tone but were
u nable to. They had come together too quickly ; both in
stinctively dreaded the moment of surrender and perfect
openness without which acquaintance c annot become
friendship .
\Vhen h e h ad gene a hundred yards or so, Hans turned
around and looked back, h alf h oping that \Virth , too,
would look back . B u t \Virth w as plodding b ack to his
village through the early dusk with the firm and even s tep
of a man who h ad found himself, who could go his h ard
road as unswervingly by himself as with a companion,
and was not easily turned aside by inclinations and
desires .
He walks as if he were wearing armor, H an s though t to
himself, and fel t a burnin g desire to strike this tower of
strength a secret blow , to find an ungu arded cleft in his
armor and wound him. He decided to wait and to s ay
nothing u n til this m an , so sure of himself and conscious
of his goal , should one day show himself to be weak and
human and in need of love. Though H ans didn't know i t
and wasn't even thinking about it, his hope a n d yearning
and suffering in tha t momen t were not very different
from the patient yearning with which l on g ago, in his
boyhood, he h ad courted Erwin . B u t he wasn't thinking of
Erwin now ; he seldom thought of him . He didn't know
tha t Erwin was suffering and going astray on his account,
and through his fault.
Erwin w as still in J ove with Fraulein Elvira, or so he
thought. Nevertheless, he wen t abou t his life of vice with
a certain cau tion and his moments of stock-taking and
good resolu tions had become more frequen t. Though
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numbed and helpless for the time being, his true nature
rebelled in secret against his sordid associations. The
capricious Elvira made i t easier for him, for more often
than not she treated him h arshly and gave two or three
other regulars precedence over him.
At time it seemed to Erwin that the worst was over,
that he kn ew the way back to self-respect and well-being.
All that was needed was a firm decision, a brief period of
stubborn self-control, possibly a confession. But unfortu
nately such a change didn't come of itself, and the piti
fully inexperienced young sinner soon discovered to his
horror tha t bad h abits once acquired cannot be cast off
like a shirt, and that before a child knows what fire is and
learns to avoid it, he must be seriously burned. He
thought, of course, that he h ad been burned enough and
been made sufficiently unhappy, but in that he was very
much mistaken. Unsuspected blows were still in wait for
him .
One morning, when he was still i n bed, he received the
visit of his senior brother, a j olly, personable student
whom he had formerly bGen fond of. But his relations
with the fraternity as a whole had become so s trained and
artificial that e seldom met privately with any of i ts
members. Consequently, this unexpected visit made him
uncomfortable and aroused his suspicion.
Sitting up in bed and affecting a yawn, he cried ou t,
"Hello there!"
"How are you doing, son ? Still in bed ? "
" I w a s j u s t getting u p . Have w e got fencing this
morning ? "
''You must know that as well as I do."
"Yes, I suppose so."
"Now listen to me, son. Surprisingly enough , there
seem to he a few things you don't know . So I'd better
enlighten you ."
"Does it have to be now ? "
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your silly ideas will pass, too. Look here, other men h ave
been through i t . What do your little excesses amount to?
Much worse things have been straightened out . And be
sides-! may as well tell you-if you thought of getting
out now, things migh t be made unpleasant for you."
''Why?"
"Don't you see? We might s teal a m arch on you ."
'Throw me out, you mean ? Because I've been in the
Golden Star a couple of times ? "
"Yes, strictly speaking it's n o t sufficient grounds, b u t if
necessary we might do it. I t would be harsh and unjust,
but there'd be nothing you could do about it. And that
would be the end of you . I t may be amusing to drink a
beer now and then with those derelicts, but to become
dependent on them-no, that would be ruinous, even for
a s tronger character than yours ."
'Then what should I do?"
"Nothing at all . Just keep away from those places.
Don't worry, you won't be called in for questioning. I'll tell
them you recognize that your conduct hasn't been all i t
should b e and that you promise t o turn over a new leaf
i mmediately. That will be the end of it."
"But what if I don't fit in with you ? What if I'm not
happy in the fraternity ? "
'That's your affair. All I know i s that others h ave fel t
the same way and got over i t completely. And s o will you .
Or if you feel you have to, you can still resign . But not
now ; it just wouldn't be right."
''I can see that. I 'm grateful to you for trying to help
me, I really am. All right . I won't go to the Star any more
and I'll be on my good behavior. Is that enough ?"
"I think so. But just this . Please bear in mind that
I . . . well , you sec, I've taken this stupid business pretty
much on myself. I wanted to spare you an official repri
mand . You realize, of course, that I can't do it more than
once. If ever again you . . .
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for more. Now all these bottles, meticulou sly listed, stared
him in the face, grinning malignantly. The total was so
enormous that he couldn't possibly pay it out of his
monthly allowance, not even in installments. And unfor
tunately, this was not his only debt.
"Is i t correct or isn't it?" Fraulein Elvira asked with
majestic serenity. She fully expected him to protest. If
necessary, she would have canceled a good part of the
debt. But Erwin did not protest.
"Yes, I guess i t's correct," he said humbly. ''I'm sorry, it
must h ave slipped my mind . Of course I'll pay you as soon
as possible. Can you wait a l ittle ?"
Her success so much exceeded her expectations that
she was touched and took a motherly tone. "I didn't mean
any h arm," she said gently. "I only wanted to remind you
that you owe me something more than h arsh words. If
you're a good boy, my little notebook will stay right where
it ls, I don't need the money, and one of these days I m ay
just throw i t in the fire. But if you make me angry with
your complaints , I might take i t into my head to discuss
your little bill with your fraternity brothers."
Erwin stared at her in horror.
"Come, come," she said, laughing. "You needn't be
afraid ."
That came too late. He was afraid. He knew he had
fallen into a trap and that from then on he would be at
the mercy of a coldly calcul ating woman .
"That's good," he said with an idiotic smile. And, sadly
and humbly, he left. Up until then, he realized, his de
spair had been childishly absurd . Now suddenly he saw
what a bit of lightheadedness could lead to, and the
company into which he had fallen so innocently for all his
guilty conscience appeared to him in a glaring, merciless
light.
Now something would have to be done. He couldn't go
on with a noose around his neck . Suddenly the squalor
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c are of i tself .
By morn i n g h i s p l a n w a s m a d e .
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MPlease d o . And don't s p are m e :
"Oh . you h ardly fi gure in it. though I thou ght of you the
\\hole time. I should have got out when you did . You \Yere
kind of brusque a t the time and tha t made me obstin a t e .
This time. I decided, I wouldn't folio\\ y o u throu gh thi c k
a n d thin . B u t You know all tha t . From then o n I h ad a bad
time of it. but I mYself was to blame :
Then he told his s tory. Hans \Ya s surpri sed a n d h orri
fied to h ear \\h a t his friend h a d s uffered \\hile h e . h ardlY
ghi n g En,in a thou gh t . h a d been m a n a gin g quite well
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pretty sure it's not cowardice ; i t's just that I couldn't bear
the though t of seeing that dive or even the street again.
Besides , I thought, i f you go, you'll see the place with your
own eyes, you'll have a kind of illustration to my s tory.
Then you'll be able to share the memory of my Blue
Hussar period with me."
That seemed reasonable to Hans and he undertook the
errand with a certain curiosity. When Erwin produced
the money and counted out the bills and coins on the
table, Hans laughed . "Good God !" he cried ou t, "that's a
fortune !" And he added more seriously, "You know, i t's a
shame to pay all that money. I'm sure Elvira charged you
triple. She'll make a good profit and be perfectly happy if
you give her half of this. No, it won't do. I could take a
policeman with me in case of trouble." But Erwin
wouldn't hear of i t .
"You may b e right," h e said calmly. "''d thought o f i t
myself. B u t I 'd rather n o t . Let her have her money. Of
course she's overdoing it, but once i t's all paid up, I'll be
free. And another thing : I 'm completely cured now, but I
was in love with her for a time."
"Pure imagination !" said Hans angrily.
"Perhaps. I was, though . And I 'd rather have her take
me for a decent fool than for a cheat like herself."
"There's something in that." Hans admitted. "Don
Quixote was the nobles t knight of all . I t's foolish of you ,
but nice. All right, I 'll attend to it tomorrow and give you
my report."
They parted in good spirits. Hans was glad of the op
portunity to work off a bit of his guilt by doing something
for his friend. On the following morning , he went to the
Blue Hussar, where Elvira , after keeping him waiting for
quite a while, received him with extreme distrust . Intimi
dated by her grand manner, he soon abandoned a halting
attempt to take her to task for her underhanded maneu
ver and contented h imself wi th handing her the money
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to t a k e a m i l d er and
fa i rer \'iew of h i s comrades and their d em a n d s . He was
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l h a l p r: l t l i cc s h o u l d fo l l ow from l l t ou g l t t . n o l l h e o1 l t e r
w ; 1 y ; m n l l l d . 0 1 1n ' I set' 1 hc ; u i \';J n l ;q.,:c o f 1 1 t a 1 k i nd o f l i fe .
I ' l l I )( ' rc;l d \' t o L 1 k 1 ' i t u p . I l o w c 1 1 1 I g o i n l o i t w i 1 h m y
l'\'l'S l ' ! OS!'d ? "
" T h ; l t 's u p t o \ l lt l . You ; 1 k cd for ; l d \' i c t . ;1 nd I g;t n you
t l w o n l y ; u h icc I k now . You \\ ;J i l l to s l a rl w i l h l h i n k i n g
( III
Fric 11 ds
t o ponder
\\ h a t ' s
w ro n g ?
A re
y ou
sick ? "
Fra u
S t ri.i h l c
a s ked i n s u r p r i s e .
" N o t rc.l l l v . B u t m i l k is n w r c w h o le s o m e . "
She did
a no t h er \\' o rd .
hu t s h e
w a s n ' t h a ppy ;d m u t i t . C le a r l y . h e r l o d ge r h a d a s ne w
l o o s e . So y o u n g a nd a l w a y s w i t h h i s n o s e i n a hoo k .
12
T A L E S O F S T U DENT LIFE
to
delivery
man
who
had
brou ght
him
m agazi n e .
While H a n s was spC'nd i n g his days in t h i s w a y a n d
feel ing n o n e too cheerfu l a b o u t i t . Erwin d i d not show
h im sel f . Tha t last evening h a d left him out of sorts, and
he had no desire to sec \Virth a ga i n . B esides, it was the
last week before the spring vacation a nd he was kept very
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Friends
''
"
'
"Good G od H a n s ! Leave h i m to h i s ph a n t o m s . T h i n k i t
,
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Friends
( us
I I6 )
into b loom , filling the whole town with the smell of lilacs
and j a smine. Th e days were a brilliant blue, the nigh ts
su mmery-warm . C olorful groups of s tu dents swaggered
through the stree ts, rode horseback, or , playin g the part
of coachmen , drove the new j uniors about town. At night,
singing could be h eard from open windows and gardens.
Hans saw little of this j oyful life . He had moved to
Blaubach h au sen. Every morning he walked to town with
Heinrich Wirth to a t tend a Sanskrit class. A t noon he
dipped bread into his milk. Then h e went for a w alk or
tried to h elp with the farm wor k . At nigh t when he col
l apsed on his h ard straw tick, he was dead tired, b u t
h e didn't sleep wel l .
His friend didn't make things e asy for him. He was still
only half convinced of Han s's seriousness, and was deter
mined to pu t him through a h ard course of training.
Without departing from his serene c al m , withou t ever
commanding, he compelled him to live as he did in every
way.
He read
the
Friends
II7
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Friends
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Friends
"
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T A L E S O F S T U D ENT LIFE
T H E F O U RTH L IFE
Th e Fourth Life
First Version
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( 1 27
th e o thers o n the
and
d i ed . Th e
t h e cou re of
h u n d r ed s of w h i c h
the year
from h ahed
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1 30 )
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into a s tupor came over him, the foun t ain m aster not only
avoided his house b u t kept away from the town alto
gether, and from all the places where he was ordinarily to
be seen . Even when he was so drun k tha t he seemed to
have los t all willpower and sense of responsibility, he
never set foot in his usual haunts and never confronted
his own diurnal life, so to speak. He made his sacrifice to
the night side of his n ature in concealment, either taking
his liquor out i n to the country with him or drinking in
obscure taverns on the outskirts, where there was n o
danger o f meeting a burgher o f h i s rank. And he never
went home drunk , bu t always cleansed , sobered, and re
pentant . Consequently, it was years before the children
heard of his escapades, and e\en then they lon g refused
to believe what they heard .
Thus, from both parents the boy inheri ted a love of
music ; from his father a certain unstable balance between
spirit and nature , between duty and indolence ; and from
his mother a de\'otion to religion and a taste for theology
and specula tion . U nconsciously , he felt a s trong kinship
with his father , who taugh t him to lo\e solitude and the
woods. Father Knech t's stringen tly disciplined life in his
wife's shadow made him a kind of gues t in his own house.
This the boy sometimes sensed , and i t filled him with a
tenderness close to pity. On the other side s tood his
mother, with her world of order and pi ety, and behind her
the church , that transcenden t home. Thou gh only a small
church , it was then the only one he knew, and side by side
with the smiling memories derived from his life with his
father there were others , no less beau tiful, no less beloved
and sacred : his mother and her fine voice, the spiri t of
her Bible stori es and hymns, the priestly fi gure of the
rector, and the atmosphere of the town church , to which
his paren ts began taking him when he was s till a very
small boy. Among the memories th at the Sunday hours
spen t in this church left with him , three were most
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pr om i n e n t :
T A L J: s
O F
S T U D E N T
LIFE
She became h i s
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directed, admon
holy, a n d
a l s o heroic, n o t a h u m a n i n d i v i d u a l . b u t o n l y a fi g u re ,
represe n t i n g a n d embodyi n g t h e pri estl y office, transmit
ting the d i v i n e wmd and a d m i n i steri n g t h e sacramen t s .
You n g K nech t a l s o k n e w h i m from t h e s t ree t ; t h ere h e
w a s n earer, more accessible and h u man , m ore a fa ther
th an a pri es t . G ree ted respec tfu l l y by all who pas sed , the
rec tor s trode along. tall a n d i m posi n g , s topped
to c h a t
w i t h a n o l d m a n , a l l owed a w o m a n t o d r a w him i n to
c onversa tion , or ben t clown over a c h i l d . Then h i s noble,
spi ritual countenance, n o l on ger official a n d u n approa ch
able, radia ted k i n d n es s a n d frien d l i n e s s , wh i le J ove a n d
tru s t came t o h i m f rom every face , h ouse, and s t ree t . The
patri arch h a d seve r a l t i m e s spoken to you n g Knech t . H e
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had felt the patriarch's big h and around his little one or
on his head, for B ilfinger esteemed Frau Knech t both as a
parson's daughter and as a zealously pious member of the
congregation ; he often spoke to her on the street and h ad
visited the Knech ts at home on occasions of illness and at
the deaths of the children .
And then suddenly an u nforgettable moment gave the
priest and patriarch, the preacher and demigod, a new
face in the boy's eyes, and inspired him with new feelings
toward the rector, which brought him both dismay and
happiness.
The rector lived not far from the church in a well-built
stone house, set slightly back from the street. Eight or ten
wide stone steps led to a massive walnut door with heavy
brass fittings . On the ground floor there were no dwelling
rooms, but only a l arge empty vestibule with a stone floor
and a low-vaulted assembly room . Here the parish elders
conferred now and then, and here too the district clergy
gathered every few weeks for a few hours of ecclesiasti
cal sociability interspersed with lectures and disputations.
The rector and his housekeeper lived on the second floor.
Thus, his daily life was invisible to the outside world, and
this dignified seclusion was eminently suited to him,
though he owed it to chance : the rectory had formerly
been the official residence of the count's bailiff, and some
of the old townspeople still spoke of it as "the bailiff's ." Of
ten, when the boy Knecht was in the neighborhood, he
stopped to look at the distinguished, mysterious house ;
once or twice he had crept up the cool front steps, touched
the shiny brass on the weather-darkened old door, exam
ined the ornamen ts on it, and even glanced through a
crack into the silent, empty vestibule, at the back of which
a flight of s tairs could be seen . Other, ordinary houses al
lowed a glance at the life of their inhabitants-you could
look through a window and sec someone sitting inside ; you
might see the house owner or his hired man or maid at
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1 36 )
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T A L. E S O F S T U D E N T L I F E
( 1 39
to
three
names
such
as
Simphori a n u s
Pollio .
When
somed a y decide
to
become
t heol o gi a n
and
tr a n s fo r m i n g t h e d r e a m t h a t l i es d or m a n t w i t h i n h i m i n t o
rea l i t y , t h a t \\ i l l n o t on l y ked h i m a n d br i n g h i m h on or
but a l so m a g n i fy a n d f u l f i l l h i m . 1\ l a n y cond i t i o n s m u s t be
met bcl'ore so fort u n a t e a c h o i c e c a n be m a d e a n d fol
l owed th rou g h . P e r h a p s we a rc m e r i n c l i n e cl to d r a w h a s t y
c o n c l u s i o n s f 10 m t h e c a reers o f t h e so-c a l l ed gen i u s e s o f
t h e p a s t , a n d t o c o m fort ou rsc hcs w i t h t h e bel i e !' t h a t
m e n e n d owed w i t h t nl l' t a l e n t a nd s t re n g t h o f c h a r a l'l e r
h a ve a l w a y s fo u n d t h e m se l ves a n d w o n t h e i r p roper p lac e
i n t h e w o r l d . T h i s i s a c o w a r d l y , ph i l i s t i n e a ss u m p t i o n ,
pos s i b l e on l y i f o n e s h u t s o n e's e y e s t o t h e t r u t h . For a l l
th e i r
g re a t
a c h i cH m e n t s ,
many
of
the
gen i u ses n e v e r r ea l l y f u l f i l l e d t h c r n s e l v cs
i r n nr m e ra b l c l r i gl r l y gi ft e d
mos t
famous
a n d m o reo v e r ,
m e n w e re p re ve n t ed h y c i r
fu t i , I H r t
th i s i s b e s i d e t h e po i n t
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T A L E S OF S TUDENT LIFE
( 1 43
1 44 )
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1 46 )
All the neighbors knew that the boy was to learn Latin
and become a student ; they called out to him, praised
him, congratulated him , gave him a bun, a handful of
quills, a piece of cherry cake. The blacksmith, whose
anvil sounds filled the street, called him into his sooty
smithy with its blazing forge fire, held out his big horny
hand, and said, "So you're going to study Latin and be a
minister? Look here, son, I don't give a hang for that, and
neither does the Saviour; He didn't know any Latin Him
self. Don't forget, when you tie on your bands and climb
up in the pulpit, that your father was an honest crafts
man, which is as good or better than a scholar. Now
don't fret, I don't mean any harm, but i t's too bad. Well,
that's that, and now wait a second ." With that he walked
ou t of the smithy and came back after a while with a
goose egg, which he gave to the boy. During the black
smith's absence, young Knecht hadn't given a thought to
his words , but had taken a small hammer from the work
bench and several times, with long pauses in between,
tapped lightly on the anvil, listening with delight to the
sweet, full tones .
The short holiday was over. One day, in the cool of the
morning, his mother brought the young scholar to Pre
ceptor Roos. She took with her a basket full of peas and
spinach as a gift to the preceptor, left young Knecht in
the preceptor's sitting room, and returned home with an
empty basket and no son. Roos was an old man; his hand
trembled so that i t took him quite some time to get a
proper hold on his slate pencil or pen, but then, slowly
and carefully , he wrote out row after row of beautiful,
perfectly shc.ped letters and figures . He had once been
famous and feared as a teacher ; two of his pupils h ad
become prelates and one a court astronomer ; six had
become rectors , and many had grown up to be town par
sons, village parsons, or Latin teachers. In his old age, he
( 1 47
was still a passion ate and irascible teacher, but the atm o
sphere in his sittin g room was calmer than in his old
Latin school, where he sometimes seemed to devote whole
days to thrashing, scolding, and running furiously back
and forth. All his pupils had feared him , some had hated
him ; many years ago one of them, in self-defense, had
bitten him so hard on the left hand tha t the scar was still
to be seen . Thou gh he h ad given up the thrashings, or
almost, he was still a s trict and domineering m aster. But
on the whole Knecht was well treated , for from the start
he h ad an ace in the hole, or rather, two aces . In the firs t
place, the preceptor admired Knech t's mother, whose
father he had known, and his weakness for her some
times expressed itself in the forms of an older, more
chivalrous day. In the second place, the old man was n o t
only a teacher but also a musician ; h e h ad played the
organ for years and directed the chorus of the Knorzel
fingen Latin school , and though it was originally as a
favor to Frau Knech t that h e Look on a pupil in his retire
men t, he soon grew fond of the boy , because he could
read music and sing in perfect pitch and tim e. And so,
something that no one had though t of came to pass.
You ng Knech t's musical educa tion was con tinued and his
hours in the schoolroom , which were not always peaceful
or pleasan t, were followed by music lessons, in which
scoldings were rare and moments of festive j oy freq uen t .
At t h e start La tin w a s h i s main subjec t . fn addi tion to
mastering the grammar, it woul d be necessary to learn ,
not on ly to tran s l a te correc tly and fluen tly, bu t also to
speak , wri te, and debate in Latin , a n d to compose Latin
hexameters , distich s , and odes-a goal whic h , though in
his first year it seemed far beyond his reach , Knecht
nevertheless attained in the end. There was also a bit of
ari thmetic. As for Greek, that wouldn't begin until his
third yea r . A wh iff of scholarship carried over in to the
music l essons, as, for example, when they transl a ted a
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w a s b l u n ted , h e h el d i t ou t t o h i s t e a c h e r a n d a s k e d h i m t o
s h a rpen i t
Roos t oo k t h e q u i l l , w h i c h
"
( I SI
s aw the
to become a
s erm o n . N ow t h a t he was s tu d y i n g L a ti n , h e
rector in a new ligh t . for h e
too w as
d e s t ined
to t h e
to
to
bl ame . H e
w a s n o b l e a n d a rd u o u s , bu t h e a l s o k n ew t h a t a l l i n a l l
t h ere w a s n o sect e t t o i t ; you n e ed o n l y s t u d y La tin , t h e n
G reek a n d I l e bre w , e tc . , l o n g a n d d i l i ge n t l y , a n d then o n e
d ay you ot there. B u t even i f you achieved t h e t i t l e a n d
the d i g n i t y a n d perh aps even the abi l i t y t o preach , wh a t
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T A L E S
O F
S T U D E N T
L I F E
w a s most sacred a n d m i ra c u l ou s w o u l d s t i l l h e J a c k i n g ;
y o u wou l d s t i l l h e b a rr ed f'rom t h e secret i n to w h i c h h e
h ad o n c e b y c h : r nce c a s t a for h i d d (' n a n d a l a r m i n g g l a nce,
a secrd t h a t h a d no p l ace at t h e a l t a r or in t h e p u l p i t , h u t
d wel t i n a l l i c room s a n d l o n e l y l l i d d c n p l a ces :
d irec t ,
c h i l d l i k e con r m u n i o n w i t h C od . l i e k n ew f r o m h ea rs a y
t h a t a l l m en , e v e n t h e o l d a nd v e n er a b l e , c a n a n d s h ou l d
reg a rd t h emsel ves as c h i l d re n o f Cod . l i e h ad h ea rd tel l
o f t h e c o n r n r u n i o n o f sa i n ts a nd k n ew t h a t i t w a s g i ven to
s o m e to a c h i e ve s a i n t h ood ; among t h ese you n g K n ec h t
u n h es i ta t i n g l y
m n n he red
the
rec t o r ,
and
in
h is
own
t h a n a l i l l i e La t i n s c h o l a r
t h e n h e p l a yed w i t h l i t t le B e n i gn a , l is
a l i e n c o nce m s , h e w : r s s o n 1 e h o w s l i p p i n g a w a y from h i s
h o r n e , beco m i n g d i s l oy a l a nd u n fa i r t o h i s f a m i l y ; a n d h i s
l i t t l e s i s t er t o l d l r i r n t h e s a m e t h i n g m u c h more c l ea r l y
a nd c l i r< 'c t l y . S i ne<' K r H'c h t h a d s t a rt ed goi n g to t h e p re
c e p t o r's h o u s e , c or n i n g home l : 1 te , a nd s i t ti n g w i t h h i s
pa pers a t t h e t a b l e , w h e n n o o n e w a s a l l owed t o d i s t u rb
h i m , s h e h : r d fel t d e p ri ved o f h e r b ro t h e r a nd betra yed by
( 1 53
"
'
w a n t s t o s i n g l r y m r r s a l l t h e t i m e , y o u a n d n o o n e e l se ! I ' m
s u re !'a t h e r l i kes t h e o t h er s o n g s be t te r . a n d m y b ro t h e r
l i k es t h e m t oo . I I' v o u d o n ' t l e t u s s i n g
th e m , I
won't joi n in
t h e h y m n s . " A n d i n d eed . s h e k e p t s i l e n t d u r i n g t h e h y m n s
u n t i l t h c re l i g i o u s t ra d i t i o n w a s b re a c h ed a n d t h e s i n g i n g
of
F a r l ' r o rn bei n g ge n t l e a n d y i e l d i n g l i k e h e r fa t h e r a n d
b ro t h e r . s h e l w ei a s t ro n g , s t u bborn c h a r a c t e r . L i k e h e r
1 54 )
mother, she had a will of her own , but not the same will
as her mother's . Her mother was too intelligent and too
pious not to break off the battle before it went too far, but
a battle it was , and if for the time being ou trigh t unpleas
antness was avoided and peace always restored in the
end, the guardian angel of the household was song,
music . The mother gave in, the father conciliated; a num
ber of folk songs that were not too frivolous or too
worldly were taken back into the repertory. Conflict and
anger were still in the air, but the family sang, and often
young Knech t accompanied the singing on the fiddle. He
was always glad to sing with his sister ; he brought her
music, taught her to read notes and to play a small flute.
This was his answer to the little girl's love and jealousy,
and thanks to music she gradually became reconciled to
her brother's s tudies and even to the preceptor.
And so Knecht grew. Dreaded difficulties tha t h ad once
seemed insuperable had somehow been overcome. He
spoke Latin very nicely and read Cicero with ease. He had
started Greek and even learned to cut pens quite tolerably.
In addition he copied out whole notebooks full of music .
And then one day old Roos dismissed him . The learned
old man was so grieved to be losing the pupil-no doubt
his last-with whom he had sh ared his study for several
years, that to hide his emotion he spoke more gruffly than
usual . As they stood beside the desk, the old man de
livered a parting sermon ; he wanted to make it friendly
and affectionate, for he was very fond of the boy, but
dread of the leave-taking put a lump in his throat. It cost
him a brave effort to speak, and the result was an unin
tended harshness . "You've been doing tolerably well in
Latin for the last year, I can't deny it, but wha t does a
young flibbertigibbet know of the pains i t has cost his
teacher? And when it comes to Greek, you still have a
long way to go. Preceptor Bengel will be amazed at some
of those second aorists you invent. Oh well, it's too late to
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\Yith
this h e
apage ,
'"\'ade. (est i n a ,
( 1 57
time you get new clothes, maybe it will be for Ti.ibin gen ."
It was the same in many ways . Again he w as on vaca
tion. B u t the last time the smell, the sound, the taste h a d
been differen t . Th at would never come a gain . His father
was no longer a m a gician from the wood s ; his sis ter was
no longer a gentle child ; even his mother, with her pride
in Knecht's black suit and her scanty Latin , h ad lost some
thin g ; the whole world had become more disenchanted
and at the s ame time more difficult. Only the beau ty and
magic of music had remained and, if anythin g , h ad grown
s tronger, but l i t tle by little this music; which h ad h eld the
Knecht household together for so l on g , was drawn into
the sphere of probl em s and diffi culties . Knecht's musical
world had grown l arger and more v aried from year to
year, and his paren ts coul d no longer keep up with him .
To h i s fa th er m u s i c was a n atural gift and need . He was
always glad to hear m u si c or to play ; but to read notes, to
study the compl ica t ed scores , whether of old polyphoni c
choral m u s i c o r of modern organ pieces a s h i s son did,
s tru ck him as ou t l and ish ; it sm acked of s choolwork like
Latin and Greek . His w i fe could go along if she pleased,
h e w a n ted n o part i n i t . B u t his wife didn't really go alon g ;
t o h er, rel i gion mea n t more t h an m u s i c , and she was
begin n i n g t o be afraid t h a t the opposi te m i gh t be tru e, n o t
on l y o f her dau gh ter, b u t o f her son as wel l . And of t h a t
s h e c ou l d n o t a p prov e . l\I u si c was a good thin g ; there w a s
n o h arm i n e n j o y i n g a good polyphonic s o n g , y e t what
rea l l y m a t t ered i n the end was not the singing i t s el f b u t
T A L E S OF S T U D ENT L I F E
( 1 59
1 60 )
( !61
He brou gh t
Like other
1 62 )
( I GS
y o u t h i n k o f m e at Denkendorf,"' h e s a id i n l e ave - t a k i n g .
i nclude me i n your e\en i n g prayer . as I t o o shall remem
ber y o u i n my pra y e r s . I 'm a n a i l i n g old man a nd you're a
spry young s t u d en t . b u t before G od we're both poor s i n
n ers a n d i t 's plea s i n g to H i m t h a t we s h o u l d pray for e a ch
other. i\ l y prayer for you is t h a t He should m a ke you grow
and im p r o ve and become a s t a u n ch 1 1 1 i 1 1 istcr dili 1 1 i zcrlJ i ,
and you . l h op e . w i l l pray t h a t H e forgi,e a n o l d m a n h i s
fa i l in gs a n d h el p h i m to d i e a bra ,e dea t h . "
W h e n Knec h t next retu med home. t h e rec t or w a s s t il l
al i ,e bu t cou l d n o l on ge r r e c e i H vis i t ors . a nd soon t h c re
t h e s o l e m n . o f l ic i a l \\'orld o f c h ur c h C h r i s t i a n i t y .
i n g h i m . K ne c h t t h o u g h t . h e m i g h t s u ccee d i n b e c o m i n g a
J H i c -; t a n d . r t t h e s a n r t' t i m e a c h i l d o f Cod . a sc h ol a r a nd
a t t h e s a m e t i m e a r n a n o f s i m p le h e a r t . To be a t ru e
s c h o l a r . 1 \c r r gl'l h a d o n c e s a i d . \\' a s t o scnc t h e \\ onl o f
G o d . t h e i n i H' r m o s t e s s e n c e o f s c h ol a rs h i p \\' a s u n c e a s i n g
p ra i se o f Cod .
A l m o s t e v e n d a v ! : e n g e l took o n e o f I r i s pu p i l s a s i d e
f o r a l'c \\' m o n H .' n t ..; . h a l f a n h o u r or a w h o l e h ou r . a cc o r d -
1 66 )
delecte fiJi, you will see that this difference is what makes
theology necessary and important. Theology is service to
the 'Vord , and in theology the 'Vord is of firs t importanc e ,
for the 'Vord is the core a n d foundation of revelation, and
to accu s e theologians of qu arrelin g over words is in my
God's word s , not our own. Remember, son of the fou ntain
master , t o keep t h e fou n t ainhead pure ! As for your mis
givings, they point t o the core and center of our holy
calling,
regard such
U n d ou b t e d l y
1 68 )
( 1 69
1 72 )
T A L 'E S
F STUDENT LIFE
pose and ultimate end of this study was to give the student
certainty, to m ake him a useful and reliable servant of
God and the church, the goal seemed to become more
remote with each passing day.
But side by side with this confusing and often frighten
ing study was something else that brought h armony and
consolation. Knecht took organ and harpsichord lessons,
sang in the church choir, practiced four-part songs with
his friends, and spent m any hours studying and copying
organ and choral music . His teacher h ad once studied
under the great Pachelbel and had been friends with
J. G. C. Storl, the Stuttgart kappellmeister and organist
who had published a h ymnal entitled King David's Harp
Restrung, and who h ad composed hymns which were
widely sung at the time and several of which continued to
be sung by Wi.irttemberg congregations for more than two
hundred years . Whenever Knecht h ad h alf an hour to
spare, he spent it practicing the organ. The difficulties and
complications he encountered were never too much for
him; here there was no discouragement, no self-doubt or
sudden weariness . As far as music was concerned, Wi.irt
temberg, apart from the court, was then a remote, insig
nificant province, bu t in those same years music, both re
ligious and secular, flourished with such creative vigor
that even in the poorer, less cultivated regions anyone
born with a musical gift breathed a j oyful, invigorating
air, the freshness of which is h ardly conceivable to us to
day. A century of song and melody had filled the world
with music ; though less exuberantly than in the past, folk
songs still sprang from the heart of the people, and though
certain branches of art music, choral polyphony, for ex
ample, wer on the wane, a new era of awareness and
creativity had d awned . Men seized upon their musical
heritage with unprecedented enthusiasm, built more and
more m agnificent organs, and reorganized the orchestra ;
innumerable musicians were at work, composing cantatas,
( 1 73
and
polished by
Il is miraculous
1 74 )
or five other voices play and leap around this simple air
or tenor as though in j ubilation , m arvelously gracing and
adorning it , and dancing as it were a he avenly round,
meeting one another fondly and seeming to caress and
embrace one another, so that those who understand this
a little and are moved by it cannot but be filled with won
der and convinced that there is nothing more precious in
the world than such song, adorned with m any voices .
And h e who takes n o loving pleasure in it and who is not
moved by so gracious a miracle, must indeed be a gross
clod, unworthy to hear such gracious music, fit only for
the ass-like braying of Gregorian chants or the song and
music of dogs or swine.
( 1 75
J.
S. B ach
misgivi n g . For
t h ou gh
no
the
( 1 77
( 1 79
1 80 )
( 181
( ! 85
1 86 )
C l e a v e i 1 1 love a n d fa i t h t o Thee ?
M a tt y lt i d dc 11 t h o u gh t s a 1 1 d deep
I l a t lt o u r t c 11de r i n wa rd n ess .
M o re t h a 11 w h e n we lay a s leep
Los t i n sordid worldl i n e s s .
B ridcy roo111 , w e 1Jclo11y t o Thee,
H ea r t s arc Tlt y es t a t e .
Tlw i r reproach o r p u ri t y
1 1 u 11 1 hl c s Tltec o r 111 ahcs Th ee g rea t .
88 )
T A L E S
O F
S T U D I: N T
L I F E
o f a h u m a n h e a r t hro u h l d i sgrace on t h e S a v i o r . B u t a t
t h e J ll o m c n t t h ey were a l l over powered hy t h e speaker
a nd h i s word s . I l c see J n cd t ra n s f i gured hy t h e j o y o f h i s
fa i t h . a l m o s t a s t h o u h h e were n o l o n c r a m a n , no
l o n ge r an c r r i n s i n nN a n d seek e r , h u t one red eemed a nd
s a n c t i fied , s u l l"u sed w i t h l i gh t .
Z i n z c n d o r f re m a i ned a t T i ih i n e n for some two wee k s ,
a n d K n ec h t J l l i ssed n o occa s i on t o s e e h i m a nd l i sten to
h i m . T h o u gh
the
l i n gu i s t i c c o n s c i e n ce
Ben gel h ad
in
s t i l l ed i n h i m s o m e t i m es f l a red u p i n w a rn i n w h e n the
cou n t spoke o f .Jesus in t e r m s m o re ;1 p p ropr i a te to a poet
i n love, a nd r h a psod i zed a b o u t the c ross a nd the w ou n d s
o f t h e La m b ,
K n ec h t's a d m i ra t i o n a nd e n t h u s i a s m re
dea l
more.
All
the
same,
h e's
no
m od e l
for
hy God , h u t
he w a s s u s p i ci o u s of s u c h q u i c k
i n T i i h i 1 1 gc n , I l l' w ro t e to h i s w i fe :
" I ca n n o t
i l l . J es u s , a l t h o 1 1 g h
I h a ve h a rd l y a l ii O l l l C n t's
am
p repa r i n g to l i s t e n a nd s pea k t o t h e m . G re a t a s a rc t h e
( 1 89
isn't
t h ere s o m e t h i n g you'd
rea l l y l i k e to d o ? "
"'Ye s , t h ere i s , h u t I m u s t n ' t t h i n k o f i t . M u s i c - t h a t"s
wh e re m y t a l e n t l i e s . B u t l "m n o t
fi t
fm s ec u l a r m u s i c
and
you r p a re n t s , K n ec h t . Tel l
ex a c t l y h o w y o u fee l . G od h a s a u s c for
each
them
o n e o f' u s ; we
lot
of' men h a v e h a d
to g o t h ro u gh t h i s ; w i t h s o m e i t t a k es a l on g t i m e before
1 90
God can really use them . We can only put the matter in
God's h ands, my friend ; we h ave no other recourse."
Looking affectionately into the student's eyes , he knelt
down and saw Knech t do the same. For a time, Oetinger's
friendly but penetrating gaze held Knech t fast; then he
began to pray . He prayed both for Knech t and for himself,
en treating God to consider their weaknesses but also their
desire to serve Him, to send them the j oys and sorrows,
the trials and encouragements they needed, and to use
them as stones in His edifice wherever and however it
pleased Him. In tears but comforted, Knecht took his
leave.
The day was drawing to an end ; clouds raced across the
sky, now and then the small rain came down in showers,
a murky yellow glow appeared in the west. Knecht had
taken leave of all his friends . Early in the morning he
would start for home on foot. Sadly he climbed up to the
Schloss for the last time, then descended the Neckar
halde, took the Hirschauer Steg to the bridge, and crossed
back over . Circling the town and returning by way of the
Ammertal and Lange Gasse, he saw the towering Stifts
kirche against the darkening sky. As he approached it, he
heard the organ playing within. Slowly he crossed Holz
markt, climbed the steps of the church , and stood for a
long while by th e balustrade, listening to the music, a
Telemann toccata. Softly ligh ted windows shimmered in
the houses below . There lay Ti.ibingen ; there lay a few
years of his you th, years full of zeal and doubt, hard work
and vague expectations . What was he taking away with
him from this town, from these industrious, fearfu l , and
hopeful years ? A chest full of books, h alf of them copy
books filled with his own writing. A chest of books, a
reference from his professors , and an anxious, uncertain
heart. His heart was heavy, and not only with the sorrow
of leave-taking; the future, it seemed to him, held ou t
( 191
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T A L E S OF STUDENT LIFE
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( 1 93
1 94 )
URING
1 96 )
( 1 97
not a single plum u-ee in the whole regio n . Then our duke
sen t a regiment of soldiers to Vienna to help the emperor ;
on the sixth day of September I 6 8 8 , they s tormed the
bas tion of Belgrade, and \'ery few of them came home
again . It was those few \\ho brou gh t the firs t plu m s to our
coun try ; we have had them since then . and \\e are very
glad . "
O ur
the
!> p r i n g
thaw
th e
brook
came
th u nderi n g
1 98 )
( 1 99
200 )
( 201
202
T A L. E S
F S TU DENT LIFE
( 203
with
us
children,
there
were
no
admoni tions ,
204 )
TALES
O F
STUDENT LIFE
( 205
was
subject to
endeavors
at the end
of all
these
206 )
'
( 207
208 )
( 209
2!0
T A L E S OF STUDENT LIFE
( 2I I
212 )
( 2 13
214 )
TALES
O F
STUDENT LIFE
( 21 5
216 )
( 2 17
21 8 )
( 219
t h ere w a s c h u rc h
sol e l y o f s h or t organ
pre l u des a n d
m u s i c , consi s t i n g
po'it l u d es , i t occ u
the
I was
boy<;
La t i n
a nd
p r e p a re d
them
fur
the
h i gh e r
m y m ot h er
'
time, he
p r e <; u r n p t u o u <,
u nderta k i n g.
If
pl a n
the
i n to
rc:<,pc;c tc:d
l e g i t i m a te ,
Wool
Cod
W e a v e r <;
t h e; r e c t o r
h i m '> e l f pu t t h e m o n e y d o w n c m t h e t a b l e , t h e n c l ea r l y t h e
p r oj e c t h a d C o d \ b l e '> '> i n g Th a t d a y brou gh t a fr; <, t i v e a i r
.
220 )
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222 )
( 223
O\ c r . I r e a l i ; c t h <l t -,o m e t h i n g
of m y s tu d ie s . a n d n o t o n l y L a t i n . u n fo r t u n a te l y , h a s
s t u c k t o me a l l m v l i t e . I soon bec.1 m e a l i t t l e s t u d e n t a n d
<>chol a r , prec. oc i o u <> a n d r<t t h c r a rrog<1 n t . m y m i nd w a s no
loner t h a t o f a c h i l d , a n d much of m c. h i l d h ood w a s los t .
Ye t , c. on t r a d ic t ory a -. i t m a y -.cern
t h e c. h i l d l i k c q u a l i t y
a n d t h ose \v ho e n tered
into it
224 )
( 22 5
226 )
( 2 27
228 )
( 22 9
as
230
T A L E S OF STUDENT LIFE
( 231
23 2 )
( 233