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A tale
two
to beat the best of them
Arms
holding
holding off hanging on
Impossible whispers
now merely silence
Armed
holding
beating beating away
Hounded
haunted
shadows long and lingering
Grinding
tales of possibility
possibilities
Safe now
saved possibly
By the twice
two times
almost always arriving
Arrived
OLIMPIA WHISPERS
Sara Chong
ISSUE
NO GRAVITY
Bence Bakonyi
BREAD
Michael Kearney
(MP3)
formations located in
arms and was dangling from the bolt holes where the
capital.
MATRESSE DE LA MORT
Julie OYang
OK, students, attention please! You have two hours. The riches of the land, and of the sea, and of the air. I have a total of about twenty-two more minutes of
We are leaving Rose Ash by sunset. I repeat: everyone Animals, flowers, scalloped clouds, and insects, the gargantuan lifetime to slide away from me like runny
must return to the bus after two hours or youll be left kisses of the sun. Its a promise older than the world, yolk down the backsplash of stars and into the black
behind! My professor gestures significantly, pointing
not supposed to be here, but then thats how the curve am responsible for buying the plane ticket, I paid for
Im here to take you home, young man. Im suicide however suicide by definition nonetheless. I
a sharp turn. I looked out the window, and my breath of Time works Come play with me?
caught in my throat.
You bet.
As she gestured for me to be seated opposite I must have asked for the plane to go down just not
her, I watched her placing under her arched wrist aloud. I have credit cards full of J. Crew garment dyed
ineffable lost to fogs and ill winds like souls crossing two little stones onto the Go-board in front of us: a shirts, sandblasted 36x30 denim, crew athletic socks
ages. Bizarre, dark elements of unpredictable episodes
round black stone and a round white stone. A twofold of all the same brand, all fourteen pair of those Sams
of black and white. I would make a Kasparov of Go Club specials. My entire life is now one long orated
should I have flouted lifes peculiarity to letter of inventory hell-bent on dying over a span of
become a scholarly corpse dealing with seventy or so meters when we all meet the abrupt
dead plants!
gave her a patchy, inconsistent, almost dont even have six friends. I just wanted to impress
variable existence. They were held behind the girl I was dating or the six friends I did have. I
her by four birdcage-masked figures wanted to fake them out, lie to them. I once purchased
dressed in ink black, the sort of fashion a twenty-eight hundred dollar red English leather sofa
popular over two thousand years ago, in just so some rescue kitten could sharpen its claws in
the First Dynasty. I was aware that the polka dots all over the seat and backrest. I sacrificed
The light of the smoking torches hardwood dining room table for seating eight when I
A long time ago I dont know how racing gearwheel noise came from the masked men, that sofa for that little bag of fur that wouldnt take
designed to predict something. But what? Presently, a notion of respect to find the friggin litter box. I had
I see youre a daredevil. You still need to wanted to be included into the normality of American
exercise options, she said in a voice tenser than fire society. I used to masturbate to other womens
unmistakable fragrance. Small creeks gliding through but yet chilled me to the bone. Listen, here are the faces not the porn magazine kind either I mean
moss-covered visions like liquid willow singing in low rules. If you win, you can leave, but if you lose She the clothing catalogs girls with skimpy yet revealing
sound of voice to lull one into delicate daydreams;
looked up, our eyes met. I jolted, appalled to find two outfits. Somewhere in all of that fantasy I lost the only
dim marbles as if the dark membranes were coated in real love that I remember in Jessi. She claimed I was
age-old dust.
addicted to porn.
colour is known to be a plain white to common people. his blood belongs to Ari Arban?
We fourth-grade students specialising in Botanic
upon a time there was a tea plant growing on the mans blood. Her flowers are not just flowers. The
rock cliff, and the singular flowering tree of stretched, scarlet tea roses produce Dancing Water, the juice of
austere arms would give a handful of blood-red eternal youth.
I nodded and chose black. She brushed the we would have had more sex. Or maybe not. I once
my eyes on the challenging landscape and its fearful two stones from the board.
In Go you start from nothing and build. The are truly free to do anything. Really I might say that
board is square, it signifies the Earth. The stones of the only freedom one gets who is losing everything
temperature, hurrying along in the gloom of time, the two sides yin and yang scattered in groups all is the freedom to be completely honest by cutting
alive and breathing
over the board, they correspond to celestial bodies. through the years of built up cover-ups, the lies, the
One week ago I celebrated my 20th birthday. Dealing with people enthralled by the mystique of Go, convenient truths. Thinking about my finances, I think
In my prospect as an academician, it is wise I choose that play of black upon white, white upon black. Some that credit card bill by credit card bill, I have achieved
a dead person to be my friend from the Kingdoms say it is a fine art, like love; others believe it is a game an adequate and measurable bottom line figure to my
of the Oblivion. In the shades of massive domes of motion, a dialogue, like making love. Its a flow of losses. The ole credit score will finally plateau out at
enclosed by tiered pagodas of faint implications the spirit and a harmony of songs where two minds around 730 by the time the estate is resolved. Above
and pale delicacies, its hard for me to imagine Im are intertwined. The vanilla sky bends down to kiss all things, I can now say with a certainty that at least
merely a passerby caught in the web of mysteries. the earth in sweet music! Life is a song, thats why we I will hit that rock bottom that I have been trying so
succeed. Fate and chances. How does a butterfly fly? acutely to hit.
How does one ever lose a game of love?
she wore merged with the sharp, spicy smell of the big from which I came. I was once flying compost, 220
floral embroideries that transfixed me. Serene, wild lbs. of recyclable waste to grow the next generation
flowers fresh from dew, with a dash of putrefaction. of American babies. When I hit the ground facing up
Hard to believe, she wore a garden on silk! Weaved into the eyes of a God who has seemingly forsaken me
sceneries and composing stitches of Time glint with so many times, I will at last know the true meaning of
a strange vivacity like a dead face of lingering beauty. darkness. I do find peace in just about anything now.
Ruins of red palaces, dark forests hiding huntsmen on For instance, I remember that this mornings sunrise
horses, monstrous vines, rosebuds of trickling pearls was the most exceptionally beautiful moment I will
of bloodUnknowable wonders unfolding like petals have ever witnessed and never even saw but a glimpse
of flowers, and shriveled this instant as if touched by of it. As I descend, I can remember noticing that the
Deaths breath, ruined, wasted. I stole a glimpse into evenings sunset glowing orange-red into the window
the fetid bowels of Earth
Rooted to the spot, I stared at her ever- most birthing panoramic epiphany, short of my sons
changing black crown of cloud hair, and my eyes hurt birth. I had missed it too. In this end I finally have
from feverish invisible needles. Suddenly, I stood up.
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warm puppy.
Leaning across a cliff it was cliff between us I spoke the same cornflower blue noose Ive been swinging
softly in her ear as if afraid to wake her from a dream from these last seven and one half years in an office
we shared. If I put it down, I win. But thats not what I that undervalues good ideas and team effort. Seems
want
I breathed deep to absorb her. I pressed my the advent of capitalism. The tie flashes off into the
lips on her ivory, pulsing throat and kissed her for a blackness and I smell the rush of musk and cologne
second which lasted till eternity.
She flinched. The four figures carrying four I woke up this morning with full intention of flying
torches crept up, their looming shadows stretching west to tell a woman that I was infinitely in love, that
long and sharp to lock me in. Horrified, she took the I could not live without her. How apropos this is or,
stone out of my hand to place it on the board between at the least ironic. Our relationship crashed so many
us.
times I wonder how the plane ever got off the runway.
You won! she cried, short of breath, If I had thought about that this morning I wouldve
snatching a torch from one of the masked ghouls. laid out more appropriate attire. Instead of dressing in
Now run, my love! Run for your life and dont look the slave clothing of marketing whizzes, I would have
back!
I kept running until I reached the dawn in the eastern could I care about you when I dont even care about
sky. To my surprise, I was standing in the open place myself? God please crash this plane!
where the bus stopped the day before, the track was
still fresh in the soil. I felt exhausted. I sat down and
wondered where clouds go do they visit a parallel
world sometime somewhere do they leave a trace
does anyone witness such a disappearance. I must
have slept for some hours. When I opened my eyes
again, the pale wintry sun had climbed toward the
mid-sky. I felt something. I reached in my pocket and I deliberately rolling over in this enormous womb of
scooped a stone. A white stone! When did she put it in negrous midnight so the sleeves will pull back and
my jacket, this crucial stone that decided I was going off of my torso. I have things working on all cylinders
to win the demons run? And Why? Feeling woozy now. With each button release, the wind howls as it
from questions and curiosity, I recognised a faint trace swallows the buttons, the strings and eventually the
of her perfume. Entranced, I decided that I wanted to whole shirt. I watch the whirl of the invisible arms
make sure I didnt dream it up all by myself.
Once again I climbed the dark brow of the I open my mouth as wide as I can, until it hurts in
illuminated rock, tracking down the razor-sharp edge, my jaws. I wrap my mouth around the infinite barrel
led by an extraordinary buzz of noises that seemed of my life and blow a sweet fear into the reeds of my
to make sense to me. It took me only an instant to skull. If this was going to be suicide, then this will be
find the slit opening. The pathway was gone. I forced bliss. The hairs of my armpit are tickling in the wind
aside a thorny bush I hadnt seen before. Damn it! and my undershirt is annoyingly riding up into my
I mumbled in my head, sucking a swollen rivulet of chin. I take a few seconds from looking down to tug
red surging from my thumb. The tree stood alone, and at the sleeves, rolling in the wind as if I am a breach
on its one russet and gold-hued arm, a blotch of ruby baby and struggling for the correct exit. I was face first
petals was opening up to frosty blue sky like a dead toward my door, my body knock-knocking against
turquoise, charcoal stamens glinting like a banging this heavens door. Bob Dylan was a genius after all,
headache. A suspended armour of bees guarded the and a saint to show me the way home after all. I hope
languid oozing of fragrance. So that was the noise.
I reached for the flower. Oddly enough, the it. After silence, the nearest-most sound to expressing
bees shrunk away. I let the white stone drop out of the inexpressible is music. So I hold tight in my grasp
my hand and picked the flower. Afterwards I began a balled up Ramones tee shirt then release into a
De la mort 3
to walk to the west where I saw a fishermans boat in pluming black magpie darting away with the last of
the river the day before. The fisherman could take me my love of music.
A piazza? the fisherman arched his eyebrow, oddly enough hard as chickpeas. I toss off my penny
his paddling arms stopped for a moment. But thats loafers into the bite of the wind and watch them shrink
It was the name of the only genus in the entire tea
family that bears scarlet flowers. The oldest species,
whose memory had been erased from our collective
memory for some strange reason. And yet my common
sense screamed at the same time: Ari Arban ought to
be a fabulists invention! There is no such tree on earth
except the idea of it! Tea with red flowers is madness.
But only those things are beautiful which are inspired
by madness! I bobbed slightly and stepped out of the
bus.
impossible, young man! The village with the temple from sight like raisins in the night air. They didnt even
was destroyed in the war. Of course, nobody wants to put up a fight with the wind. I suppose they also know
hear a word of it, because the bomb was dropped by they are as helpless in this fall as I would be waving my
our American friends. They had us believe it was an arms against it. This is inevitable; this is me spiraling
accident.
How is that?
God who has its back turned right now. I am freer than
People were scared. The Americans used to I have ever been. As I burst through a chubby pillow of
have an army base in the village, top secret. I know, it cloud, I fling my fourteen-dollar socks to the shadows,
all sounds like some bad movie. Is this the potato farm watching the squares of Middle American cornfields
with scarecrow hamburger?
What!?
Nothing. Im a poet trying to sell souvenirs rolled down car window. I understand now how my
in my spare time, the man cracked a smile. They say shepherd-hound mix would find sublime intoxication
young soldiers were lured to that weird place, all of in his muzzle being swallowed by the breath of God.
them have vanished like fog.
Dead?
They were killed by an old legend. Groundless and swirling airplane parts. I had made poor judgment
rumour, I stick to true love story, you know, how does that all the parts had fallen before me. I watch it snag
wind extinguish candles and fans fires We all deserve on the extension handle of a rolling luggage as if hung
to die once in a lifetime
The man fixed his eyes on me. Dyou know every contorted weave of shrapnel, of every stolen limb
what Ari Arban means? A-R-I-A-R-B-A-N. He spelled in the dark pockets of Middle America. I am stroking
cautiously, lowering his voice to emphasize the drama, against the heavens a masterpiece of nakedness and
A rose is a rose by another name.
originality.
The fisherman narrowed his eyes, his jaw my newly acquired artists hand out to the dark pallet
dropping a tad. My sweet goodness! he mumbled and make my first etch into the black canvas. I watch
weakly. Youve done it, young man! Now theres no my hand make shape a line and twine it into a river
and then I make quadratic angles turn to highways,
with fancy which are more true than they are. Call it
hell with the hip lines of every woman who had ever
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much as hell with the ones who never did. Hell with
to see.
into my shoulder and a third nearly broke my back. If world, I worked as a forensic researcher at the
anybodys life needed saving, it was mine. That was municipal
police
headquarter.
Obviously,
my
what my head was thinking, but my heart surprised professors oracle didnt come out; I was not the
me: the tree is telling the plain, unvarnished truth. unparalleled virtuosity he had expected of me. At
The tree is trying to make love to me! Make love like the job interview, my future director had informed
a stranger, all night long, no complicating motives, no me about an unclosed case classified under a curious
possible pre-meditation, in full faith and confidence. dossier name: Matresse de la mort. The eponymous
The best of lover, fascinating, tantalising and
dangerous!
Now I found the singular tree on the spot had gathered a circle of powerful patrons, including
was burnt. I touched my finger to the charred black celebrities from soap stars to politicians. Appalled as
shadow of dead limbs with knots and holes made by
birds, when an electric thrill radiated through my ribs witches certainly knew how to whip up and play the
and spine. Aghast, suddenly I felt large raindrops hit
cold, homeless tears. Chopin, a twofold of black and disappearance of young men in the city. The police
white. The light dimmed quickly as the heavy winter
torrents soaked me. Thick, black liquid and toxins practised the cherished old tradition in which they
shattering noisily, flying apart painfully on my bare excelled like no other, Tea, the inspiration for eternal
skin like toothed, strayed kisses buried so deeply in youth being their soul-liberating mantra.
your mind it is like a lost file, demonic castle and
tender skin
The sky had turned a wine dark, sinisterly because he wanted me to meet someone. A very
to find my way back. I cant believe what this is doing the oldest tea, havent you? Well then you must talk to
to me, kissing frog and making promise to the moon!
little reserved.
I paused to think clearly. I sniffed at my press was taking more pictures. The lady has been
ending snapping me back to the broken corners of club that has made our city famous
memory. I have found it! I must go back to the black
tree because thats why Im here. Thats why I ever in the flickering candlelight like a crow. Yeah, thats it,
have lived. The ripe earth, new rushes of bitter and like a crow, pacing back and forth, youll never hear
honeysweet spraying into my soul, containing depth
smooth, tricolour course hidden under crumbled her eyes: two dusky marbles wrapped in age-old dust.
walls, which I gathered were the remains of primeval
temples. This time it took me longer to locate the tree. never forgot. She didnt change. I squeezed the hand
The stone gate had disappeared, a greenish glow lured she offered me. She pulled back her black lace veil.
me in the dark. I walked closer, astonished to find the
quest for the oldest tea tree. You lost your way and
was the New Years Eve, black rain poured like rats. I
of the massive stature. In the sea-grey shadows remember it was in the same night my own Ari Arban
of torchlight, the edifice looked quadrangular and in the garden gave me her first flower after so many
robust in complexion, not great big but yet it made
such a tough impression on me that I almost choked and have kept it with me ever since.
in my own breath. My heart bouncing in my throat, for
the first time in my young life I understood what fatal shred of foxed paper.
attraction of poets meant. Its a knife that demands
blood but wont kill you. Audacity is the virtue of men with a burnt, charcoal black stick clenched in his
youth. Now I can die with tingle of pride, what a man!
I didnt know when the rain had stopped. In exactly ten years ago, with a bone made of water next
front of me a piazza unfolded. A woman sat in the four- to him that sings me lullaby, like a midnight express
sided, abandoned space, her feathery red silk gown taking a band of lovers to their immortal mistress
floating in the blustery weather, tangled, erupting
flames. Surrounding her white powder oval face of
wide-apart eyes and full red lips, her cloud hair-do
rustled pearls, precious stones, and jade ornaments,
a hymn of such splendour finished off with the last,
dramatic hairpin. She didnt speak as I had expected
of those appear in my dream, dreams have their own
syntax. I could see straight into her eyes, a maze where
I could be lost gently and deep, a latticed mesh of will
as if saying there must another language, beneath
and beyond. But then, in the middle of her miracle,
she suddenly raised a clear, dense voice.
AUTO-TUNE
Jeremy Fernando
(Roland Barthes)
Are we in tune?
Or, are we only ever in tune with? Thus, always already a relation,
only echoes another, but perhaps also always steals, takes over, away,
her voice.
Prosopopoeia.
the self, one, and the other that one is attempting to be in tune with.
And yet, both are also already in tune with each other.
they are both quite possibly detuned, this suggests that it is a tune
coming to meet me, into the eyes of the stars and find
all.
A tune that tunes them; that perhaps moves them in manners that
remains unknown to them.
Auto-tune.
And since this is something that is beyond us, perhaps the only thing
that we, one, can say, that is left for one to say isallowing the irony
that I have borrowed the voice of another to say it to resound
nothing I tell you will enlighten you. I await the poetical expression
of what I have to say ...
(Jean Genet)
OUT OF THE
URBAN NEUTERED
ENVIRONMENT
Michael Kearney
(MP3)
OCTOBER 2013
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