Академический Документы
Профессиональный Документы
Культура Документы
mymotherlovedtotellme
thegrassisalwaysgreener
butiknowforafactthattheotherside
holdslessfunerals
whereistheholylight
inthebloodshed?
asachildidrewhalos
overthemedicsclutchingcorpses
totheirchestsbut
ineverdedicatedhymnstothe
peopletheyheld.
icalledmyselfapacifist
untilallmygoodbloodranout.
istartedwavingfiststokeepmyhopealive.
ifitisunholytohate
(ifitisunholytohurt)
iamnotmadeinyourimage
memory
swallowmeincitylights
todrownintheendlesswinternight,
andweaveacrownofsmokeandfrost
untiliforgetwhatihavelost.
weakenedcoffeeformidnightstretches
oftvlightandthoughtsinfected
bydreamsofother,muddylives,
whichdawnthenslices,asaknife.
pleaseforgivethesinfulsun
itdoesnotknowwhatihavedone.
theskyisblood,theheartisweak
thereisnodarknesswithoutsleep.
allthebestpoetsarecynics
theresnothingbeautifulaboutbelieving
everythingisdamned
hellwouldbefartoocrowded
ivespentapproximately
athousandmidnights
believingthesunwillneverriseagain
fatalismisprettyfuckingeasy.
wecanrollthebodiesuptofacetheskyandsay
iampoisoned
wearepoisoned.
blamegod.blamepain.blamehate.
dontblameme.
asifwecouldnthavestoppedourselves
asifwecouldnthavetried
hopeishard
painful
brave.
itisworthit.
thesongbirdssangandicarusfell
envythequickdeathoficarus
waxwhichsettlesintoseaglass
featherswhichsinkbeyondreach
achildishwhisper,frozeninmist
daedalussearched
(themanwhodesignedthegreatlabyrinth)
tonoavail
lindmoorcreekbed,3:32am
thecreekalwaysfloodsinthespring.
isinktomykneesin
waterthecolorofash
andwonderhowbigsomethingmustbe
beforeitrisesandfallswiththemoon.
thestarslightmelike
somethingdivine.
pallidandghostlysuitmewell.
crownmeinflowers
andmoonlightandmud.
iwaneclosertomadness
thanihaveeverwaxedimmortal.
inthemorningiambacktobeing
thepatient.
inthemorningiwillbesickagain.
but
thenightisliftingandthecoldissettlingandiamsogladtoexist
mygirlfriendisafraidofspace
youcantcountthestarsbut
youcantry.
therearelessnobleways
towastealife.
thereisdust
greaterthanus
wecannotfathom
ofthesun.
iamsmall
iamterrified
withoutagod
iamhardlysanctified.
isitunholy
tobesmall?
isitunholy
tobeatall?
dearbukowski
ihateyourgutsbut
youwerethefirstpersonwhotoldme
thatsometimesitdoesnt
stophurting
andthatsokay.
livingthroughthepainis
worthit.
idontrememberatime
ivebeenfreedfromhell
butivestoppedtallymarking
thewalls.
ivemademyselfalifeworth
living
whichinvolvesahell
ofalotofpain.
theworldisstill
abeautifulplace.
thereanimatorofthedead
astraightshotout
ofmortality
throughfabricationof
divinity.
defydeath
createlife
itwillkillyou
youdidnotcreate
amonster
notofcorpse
notofyourself.
intheend,
ithink,
youwishedthatwasntso.
itishardtobe
human.
oneden
i. in bible school, they told us god madeevefromadamsbrokenrib.tracingtheshallowsofmy
chest,iwonderwouldminecreate?orweretheycreated?
ii. eve may have been the first sinnerbutadamsawthatsinwasgood.adamswalloweddefiance
evenafterhesawitbeginningtofester.
iii. the fruit, the knowledge of good and evil, made us human. not because we knew good, but
becauseweknewevilandlovedit.
iv.didadamandeveeverspeakofedenaftertheirfall?didtheirsonsfallasleeplisteningtotales
of paradise, locked away? or did cain and abel grow up learning to never mention the garden
acrossthewaytheangelwithhisswordoffire,eternallywaiting.
v. who cares for eden now? does the angel raphael ever leave his post to water the flowers and
feedthebirds?or doesheleaveedentodie?tostarveandwiltinthememoryofhumanitysmost
innocentsin?
Thisworkislicensedundera
CreativeCommonsAttributionNonCommercialShareAlike4.0
InternationalLicense
asofSeptember5,2015