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Sionil Jose
I always knew that someday after I finished high school, Id go to Manila
and to college. I had looked ahead to the grand adventure with
eagerness but when it finally came, my leaving Rosales filled me with a
nameless dread and a great,swelling unhappiness that clogged my
chest.I couldnt be sure now. Maybe it was friendship, huge and granitelike, or just plain sympathy. I couldnt be sureanymore; maybe I really fell
in love when I was sixteen.Her name was Teresita. She was a proud,
stubborn girl with many fixed ideas and she even admonished me:
Justbecause you gave will be accepted.It was until after sometime that
I understootd what she meant and when she did, I honored her all the
more. Shewas sixteen, too, lovely like the banaba when its bloom.I did
not expect her to be angry with me when I bought her a dress for it
wasnt really expensive. Besides, as thedaughter of one of Fathers
tenants, she knew me very well, better perhaps than any of the people
who lived in Carmay, theyoung folks who always greeted me politely,
doffed their straw hats then, close-mouthed, went their way.I always had
silver coins in my pockets but that March afternoon, after counting all of
them and the stray pieces,too that I had tucked away in my dresser I
knew I needed more.I approach Father. He was at his working table,
writing on a ledger while behind him, one of the new servants stooderect,
swinging a palm leaf fan over Fathers head. I stood beside Father,
watched his hand scrawl the figures on the ledger,his wide brow and his
shirt damp with sweat.When he finally noticed me, I couldnt tell him
what I wanted. He unbuttoned his shirt to his paunch. Well, what isit?
Im going to take my classmates this afternoon to the restaurant,
Father. I said. Father turned to the sheaf of papers before him. Sure,
he said. You can tell Bo King to take off what you and your friends can
eat from his rent thismonth.I lingered uneasily, avoiding the servants
eyes. Well, wont that do? Father asked. It was March and the
highschool graduation was but a matter of days away. I also need a
little money, Father. I said. I have to buy something.Father nodded.
He groped for his keys in his drawer the he opened the iron money box
beside him and drew out a ten-pesobill. He laid it on the table.Im going
to buy I tried to explain but with a wave of his hand, he dismissed me.
He went back to his figures. Itwas getting late. Sepa, our eldest maid, was
getting the chickens to their coops. I hurried to the main road which was
quitedeserted now except in the vicinity of the round cement
embankment in front of the municipal building where loafers weretaking in
the stale afternoon sun. The Chinese storekeepers who occupied
Fathers buildings had lighted their lamps. Fromthe ancient artesian well
at the rim of the town plaza, the water carriers and servant girls babbled
while they waited fortheir turn at the pump. Nearby, travelling merchants
had unhitched their bullcarts after a whole day of travelling from townto
tonw and were cooking their supper on broad, blackened stones that
littered the place. At Chan Hais \store there was aboy with a stick of
candy in his mouth, a couple of men drinking beer and smacking their lips
portentously, and a womanhaggling over a can of sardines.I went to the
huge bales of cloth that slumped in one corner of the store, I picked out
the silk, white cloth withglossy printed flowers. I asked Chan Hai, who
was perched on a stool smoking his long pipe, how much hed ask for
thematerial I had picker for a gown.Chan Hai peered at me in surprise;
Ten pesos he said.With the package, I hurried to Camay. In the
thickening dusk the leaves of the acacias folded and the solemn,mellow
chimes of the Angelus echoed to the flat, naked stretches of the town.
The women who had been sweeping theiryards paused; children
reluctantly hurried to their homes for now the town was draped with a
dreamy stillness.Teresita and her father lived by the creek in Carmay. The
house was on a sandy lot which belonged to Father; it wasapart front the
cluster of huts peculiar to the village. Its roof as it was with the other
farmers homes, thatched anddisheveled, its walls were of battered buri
leaves. It was washed away. Madre de cacao trees abounded in the
vicinity butoffered scanty shade. Piles of burnt rubbish rose in little
mounds in the yard and a disrupted line of ornamental SanFrancisco
fringed the graveled path led to the house.
Teresita was sampling the brothe of what she was cooking in the
kitchen . There was a dampness in her brow and aredness in