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FROM NOWHERE:
1
I will speak
only
in pronouns,
verbs,
things,
possessive
adjectives,
such as
wide,
blue,
fragrant.
FROM NOWHERE:
I pick
one thing,
the
thing itself
is
poetry,
dream
and
reality:
ars
poetica.
FROM NOWHERE:
The one
desire I have:
to say
the word
for real,
palpable,
plain,
and speak
straight to the heart
of those
still able
to hear,
way under
the ice.
Ninth Idyll
Villages and Plains the Streams Flow Through
Fouteenth Idyll
Market days
Mondays, way before dawn,
before even the first hint of blue in the windows,
we'd hear it start, off the road past our place,
over on the highway nearby,
in a clatter of market-bound traffic.
Riding the rigs packed with fruit and crated live fowl,
or on foot, with cattle hitched to tailgates slowing the pace,
or sitting up high, on raised seats
(the women all wore their garish kerchiefs,
the knot under each chin carefully tied)
22. Neighbors
Where are you, old Ignotas, coming every autumn,
carrying swingle and hackle -- to thresh rye,
comb the flax or dig potatoes --
25. Children
26 WINTER
When the snow blankets the houses, covers te fields,
the pastures, and the river valley and the fish traps -the cold sets in. And in stinging blows the wind
I sit
drink beer
gaze through the window
it's raining
a man rushes past
with a newspaper
on his head
a woman
a green rain coat
red
intersections
the wet
sidewalk
ripples
I sit
drink beer
gaze through the window
4.
I
wander
and
wander
sad
beneath
streets
of words
waiting
until
someone
takes
me by the hand
and
leads me
home
6.
I pound
on my own door...
on my own door
I pound ...
Heavy stones
lie on my heart, on my memory,
and separate me from myself,
growing always heavier and heavier,
and the roots of words
burn.
9.
P.S:
A detail:
Father shoved up against
a wall.
I lie
with my face to the ground.
White potato
blossoms.
11.
Days pass.
Nothing changes.
In the newspapers
there is a huge political scandal...
Only my life
remains boring, monotonous,
and papers lie scattered
across my desk ...
I feel empty and guilty;
in my heart
there is confusion.
41.
Lush
tree tops
rush past ...
Verdant ...
Civilization's
death throes
quiver
in the wounded
nuclear power plant
air.
71.
Montefiascone
you don't remember
oh!
We stood
and evening's arms
stroked a circle around us
and your hair.
76.
Damp, cold,
and like on the Western Front
Nothing has Changed.
red,
reflections of light
a sidewalk,
America.
knowing
that you are alone
8.
My head sags
from prowling
to salvage
scraps
of my days.
In a wheezing
voice,
the preacher
curses
his city.
Head
hits
night's
down.
28.
I learned my geography
from war
maps.
Human anatomy
I came to grasp
from
accounts of
concentration camps.
47.
wet
underfoot
nameless
gravel.
48.
Sing in
calm
I no longer can.
In deep
anguish
I cant write down
I follow
the death
of my own
irresponsible
generation.
52.
late at night
drinking wine
think of friends
late at night
late at night
think of friends
drinking wine
late at night
53.
O when we stomped
we stomped, tracking the flax
for tears.
O when we dug
we dug
canals
digging down deep
57.
and on my soul.
68.
fruit
bread
milk
death
life
this month
dropped
one half
percent
you pay
more for
everything
nothing for
nothing
night on
cold
concrete
* * *
Update (2003)
Winter, don't ever be over. So that Spring
never has to show up, and no armies can
come marching in on us, while they're still waiting for Spring. Wild
forest creatures will stay calm asleep, dreaming of
utopia.
and shattered from what not long before had been the proud
the core and center of Europe.
So we pushed on
and saw people starved down to nothing
come out from under the broken brickwork, in clusters
up from the dust, in vivid stripes of concentration-camp inmates,
death-like, their hands shrunk to nothing,
the women and children surfacing in swarms.
summer shimmer:
II
Under a burning Australian sky
lies my Regina's grave. Burned by the sun,
with hot sands and cool nights like hands
caressing, keeping it safe.
And where, with your eyes open wide, so clear and child-like,
are you now, Marcele -- left behind as you were
in some small nameless town in central Germany -and you, Vladas?
III
Again I see that powerful broad stream, one nonstop shimmer of colors
Still it is strange how happy a summer that one was for us.
Even its bleak phases, for all our standing around with food parcels
or soup tins, had a shining
off the slopes and orchards and townships;
even while hanging out wash in the yards, or scanning
bulletins for the names of lost ones,
or grimly pacing the small squares
to track down each scrap of fresh news,
we kept a child's feeling for white Wiesbaden.
Even while sitting in some low, cool beerhall off the marketplace,
scanning notices posted on walls, taking the cool summer air
with a pale green Rhine wine -- hearing the farmhorses
and girls in clogs clop by over the cobbles
down narrow alleyways -- all the while drinking in
a chestnut-and-apple smell.
IV
Early that fall, midSeptember already,
I. Images
1.
Someone
stands
where he
waded in,
midstream.
Nothing
seems
to be
bothering
him,
standing
there
calm,
stock
still,
to watch
the
float
bobbing,
fog
drifting.
2.
Once
again,
it's
raining.
I
lie
here
and
listen
to
rain
drops
breaking
on the
yard
as
though
raining
into
the soul
itself.
3.
The man
sitting
deep in
orchard
shade
is
watching
appletrees
the heat
struck
sky
all
trembling
linden.
4.
It's just
this image
just this
river
-willow
a bird
swings
just this
burning
sun
in the lips
of a stream
just this.
5.
Motion
-less
skiffs
burn
in a pale
noonday
sun.
Where
I
sit
there's
no
breeze,
no
sound,
except
for a
power
-boat
from
across
the
bay.
6.
Someone
sitting
on
shore
watches
the sun
being
reflect
-ted,
the
grass
shifting,
then
lifts
his
eyes
back
up.
entered
a
dark
woods,
lost
track,
saw
no
more
signs,
and
now
have
to
start
all
over
again,
and
all
I thought,
I thought
was
my
real
self,
drops
off
just
now,
so
I
stand
stripped
down
to
basic
first
things,
asking
where
I
am
and
what
I am,
straining
to
hear
some
-thing
in the
silence,
hearing
bound
-less
void
inside
things,
seeing
the
past
keep
falling
back,
feeling
that
with
each
new
word,
urge,
sense
that
I am,
I am
back
at my
source,
with
all
my
gain
and
loss,
sheer
night
all
around
me
now
I
stand
here
alone.
2.
I
look for
new
forms
which
would
let me,
let me
disclose
the whole
memory
of my
experience.
Aimlessly
pacing,
going
this
way
and
that,
just
to keep
coming
back,
while
everything
inside,
breaking
and
raging,
raging
to escape,
stays
locked up,
un
-told.
Life's
abs
-cess!
Was
all
I drummed
myself
up
for,
for nothing,
nothing at all,
going
deeper,
deeper
in,
going
in
ever
widening
circles,
in
-scribing,
scribing
ever
larger
circles
inside,
trying
and
trying,
again
and
again,
to reach,
reach for
the untold
sense and
purpose
to
my
existence,
asking
and
asking,
starting
again
to listen
in on
silence
itself,
ignoring
the fact
that
silence
never
speaks,
or
the fact
there's
nothing
to follow
the
question,
that
the
answer
to
every
question
is
still
only
silence,
not believing
in
silence,
I go
on,
to no end
touching,
touching
and
rubbing up
to
things:
their
cold
stare
comes
piercing
through
and
stays here,
stays in,
im
-pene
-trable,
dumb,
to corroborate
all there is.
3.
So
I'm
back,
back
to
trying,
trying to
wrench the
mystery
out
from
the core
of myself,
trapped
inside
an un
-breach
-able
isolation,
stray
-ing
deeper
and
deep
-er
in.
In
rock
I
found
my
source
solid
stiff,
waiting.
At times,
it seems
I'm
so
close,
close
to
things,
I tremble
to set
foot on
the earth.
All you
people
I've
seen
no
more
into
than
into
things -
seeing
you
merely
as
move
-ment,
po
-etry --
just as
a rain
-drop
will
spill from
a brim
-ming
cloud,
not
of
its own
force,
or
heat,
yet
in
-sep
-erable
from
both.
Just
what
makes
you
so
different,
or better,
more in
-depen
-dent,
or
free,
and
what
from?
No
-thing
I
can
say.
From the
brink of
dreams,
I
look
into
the rain
as
into
my
-self,
my eyes
fix
on
things
and
so
merge
with
things
I look
at
as
at
myself,
just as
remote
from both --
so
the fault
right there
is
my own
fault.
My own
wretched
head.
4.
O
friends,
I was
aching
to tear,
tear out
some
bit
of
the
truth
from
inside
myself,
or of
beauty,
fingers
grop
-ing
blind
in a
thicket
all emotion.
For
all
the
many
times
I tried
to get
clear,
I
just
strayed
deeper
in.
Silence
is all
there now
appears
to be,
as I
look out
from
inside,
an artic
music
of the spheres
the only
sound
agrippa
von
nettes
-heim
the
time
-lines
runn off
and
merge.
O
my friends,
I
didn't follow
your
fate,
nor
you
mine,
and
I
don't know
where
we are
now,
what
distance
or
nearness
we
share,
if it's
language
of matter
or
of spirit
we
speak --
the con
-spiracy
of things
I'm
trying
to
break
free of --
my
heart's
own
impul
-ses
drive
me
to
disrupt
my
rhythms
and
constantly
confine me
to
the heart
of space,
without
reprieve.
5.
O
Europe,
like a
child,
you
still
have
a gleaming
past.
Though
you
shattered
my childhood --
so I
still
carry
my
rui
-ins,
even now,
sorting
and
patching,
trying to
pick
out
some
sense of
unity,
or
conti
-nuity.
And
it
was
you
turned
and
burned
me
into
a
stray
scrap,
with no
place to
fit in,
fall
-ing
and
fall
-ing.
6.
To
-day
it
all
fell apart,
nothing
makes
sense,
it's
things
I'm alone
with.
No more,
to
aim for,
except this
desire
thirsting
under
a heavy
sky.
And
second
now,
I might
break
apart.
Alone,
I sit
staring
out
the window.
In
daytime,
street
noises
are like
a knife.
I don't
know how
I hold
out, with
-out
shatter
-ing,
col
-lap
-sing --
Looking
at
my
hand,
the
veins
twisting --
un
-able
to
solve
life's
rid-dling
si
-lence,
I sink
deeper
in.
7.
To
-day,
I'm
all
alone,
all
by
myself,
trying
to grasp
every
-thing
over
again,
fresh
from
the
first,
out of
nothing --
pre
-positions,
propositions,
words,
things --
start
out
word
by word,
thought
by thought,
act
by act,
and try
to build
myself
up
by leaving
everything
open,
with no
assumed
direc
-tion --
all on
intu
-ition,
letting
improvi
-sation
guide me,
a
-voiding
the
paved
roads
(I know
where
they
lead
to,
Eu
-rope!)
or any
straight
lines --
even
to
going
around
dis
-oriented,
in
no
hurry,
with
no
place
to go,
no
more
to
look at
either,
so
to
go
this
way
or
that,
to
no
purpose,
and
listen
in
on
each
and
every
new
er
-eratic
heart
-beat,
non
-sense
soun
-ding
new
word,
soul
shim
-mer,
try to
start
prying
the
truth
open
again --
not
by
questioning,
or
responding,
but
by a given
grace;
leaving
logic
and
reason
behind.
(I
know
that
logic
and
reason
of
yours,
Eu
-rope!)
So
I go
more
by
instinct
than
insight --
groping
-ly,
strain
-ing
to
hear,
going
by
touch,
as
often
getting
lost,
fin
-gering
tracks
that
cen
-tur
-ies
im
-bed
-ded.
There
are
times
I'll
feel
a breeze
fresh
on my
fingers
or
eyes --
or
less
often,
drops
of
light,
spray
-ing
sparks,
briefly
throw
light
on
the
horizon -then go
all
dark
again --
8.
I
keep
going
in
circles.
Grasp
-ing
none
of
it,
while
the
latest
words
and
images
drift
out
of
reach,
ir
-retrievable.
Darkness
encloses
me
on
all
sides.
I'm
standing at
the last
stop
there
is.
It's
here
the
fo
-rests,
vast
deserts
start,
dark
-ness
and
silence
alone
wait
for
me.
Old is the hush of rain over the branches of underbrush; and the hoarse
cries of the black cocks are old in the red summer dawn
each foot of land still speaks and breathes the fathers. For from
these cool stone wells
they watered their evening herds,
and when the clay floors of their cottages wore out
Old is the hush of rain over the branches the horses whinnying in the
summer nights, the chirp and chime of harrows, rollers, ploughs,
grindstones of the mills, the green smells from the meadow, steeping flax,
white gleam of kerchief of the weeders in the gardens.
Old is the hush of rain over the banches of underbrush; and the hoarse
cries of the black cocks are old in the red summer dawn
From Letters
In Praise of Heat
Ah, the summers of
New York!
Adrenalin of 95 degrees! 100!
Happy I walk the streets of New
World, panicking about the next
bill, on top of all the others -banks, Ft.Lee, and the Fluxus artists
of last October, still not paid -I don't open Jackson Mac Low's
letters --
East, anno 1953 -she serves us beer for free, and we'll
play pool, maybe --
go up, heat,
go!
NEXT DAY
we sat at Dempsey's /we didn't feel like
going to the Mars Bar somehow/
Audrius and Auguste, drinking our Irish amber
beer. "I saw the morning come," said
Auguste, "and it was a very clear &
beautiful morning, so it's a good sign
for the Millennium."
So we drank to that. Then Auguste said, "Ah,
remember how they gave us
all that stuff, in madhouse, the Russians,
and I used to push it under my tongue
and later spit it out."
"I did the same," said Audrius.
Ah, my friends!
We all had some great times occasionally.
NEXT DAY:
We all had a lot of music and dance and wine at
Anthology, and the Indians, the Uta Nation came and blessed
the avantegarde, they never did that for
Hollywood. And the Bear Boy sang a Uta Nation song in
our honor. And the snow was still falling
outside.
DAY AFTER:
Espresso with Raimund. More bad news. Robert
just moved out of his Bleecker Street place, his leg
hurts too much, can not be operated, heart too weak,
moved into a room with an elevator, now looking at
New York through a twentieth floor window,
a great view, he said /supposedly/.
And DoDo is very very depressed, she said so on phone,
very depressed.
NEXT DAY:
The snow melted. I spent three hours chipping ice
from the sidewalk, with Andy and Robert. Broke the
shovel.
NEXT DAY:
Talk with Stan. "I have accepted it, I am not
worrying about it any more. I am continuing
my work, now, scratching film with my nails &
LATER:
We played and danced into the morning at Anthology,
all the lonely souls with no other place
to go New Year's Night. It was really quite amazing
with all those musicians coming from the street
out of the Lower East Side night -our own Free Music Philharmonic sort of,
we thought. And we all had a great time & at
midnight we all went into the streets and danced
and played happily, not minding the cold
at all --.
it," he said.
NEXT DAY:
Pip came back, visited Stan. In bed all the
time, too weak. "They told me I should self-hypnotize
myself and face the cancer cells and kill them.
Which I did -- I mean, it's no big deal for me
to go in that kind of state -I've done it all my life, working on my
films. So I faced them. I saw them, the cancer
cells. And I saw they were so beautiful, I couldn't
kill them, no..." said Stan.
So that's that.
But this doesn't mean I am giving up in what all those
before me, before us, those who were foolish like me
and some of you, of us, believed in and worked hard
to preserve in order that the City
wouldn't be destroyed by gods -- that is, as long
as there is at least one who believes in the not
believable, in short, in
Poetry.