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Wow. Really, it could be that is about all that can be said, right
now. This post may contain little else, but let’s see.
To those who still may not be quite in tune with the quantum aspects
of journaling, please at least register what I’m saying about it. That
which is hidden, that which you desire to get deeper into, is almost
always (for no thing can be an ‘always’ in 3D-land) there awaiting you,
in the journal flow. To heck with “why?”! It just IS. (And see my other
postings.)
No, get the mental mind out of it; this is not anything the mind can
grasp. But you can see it with the heart. The heart, the soul, even the
body is better equipped to perceive and understand this. And, of
course, ‘the proof is in the pudding.’ ‘Nuff said. Just drop into the
heart.
Okay, and what’s different? I am. For one thing, I note all the use of
“I,” which did not come easily to me, before. Why did I not choose to
use the word “I,” before? It has to do with identification, and what
one chooses to identify with.
Okay, that’s easy enough to see–and it makes sense. (Not everything does, of
course. It's getting almost spooky when stuff makes sense, lol!)
What next? Rather, what else? Heck, I don’t know! Now THERE’S something that’s
true, at least mostly so: I don’t know. That is probably the most
profound thing I or anyone else can say: "I don’t know." From where
“I” stand right now, that’s the heart of it – and of Matrix Energetics.
Who cares, right? What the heck, it is what it is, and it is real in this
now, and that’s enough, and quite sufficient. I’m just along for the
ride, lol...and rofl.
Okay, let’s find out. What is? Not ‘what is different?’ but just ‘what
is?’ Nothing. Hmmm. What? Nothing? Yeah, that’s right. Nothing
is. Ah! No thing is. Okay, that is ‘true.’
So, what do I now ‘know?’ Nothing. Darn. Heck. How does one get
around that? One doesn’t, is what I hear from within. Hmmm. But I
thought that was perhaps the one real truth that I knew, dad-gum it! I
really felt I knew that. What gives?
Me: Okay. Actually, I thought I’d already done that. Guess not. I still
seem to feel I know this particular something. Help me let it go.
Me: But truth with a capital T cannot be known in 3D. This I do know!
Within: No, you don’t. You only think you do, and it is getting, or will
get, in your way; in the way of your infinite possibilities.
Me: Oh. Hadn’t considered that. Heck, and this is just the first thing
I’m running into that I seem to think I know. And here I also thought
I’d accepted the reality that nothing can be known. How MPD* we are,
as humanity. Always running into our self.
Within: What you are is what you are. Don’t put any strictures or
limitations on that.
Within: Yes! That’s right. That’s it. No thing means no thing; not
something, or mostly no thing.
Me: So, what about this: Truth (note the capital “t”) cannot be known
or grasped or stated in any way with words. Does that work, and if
not, why not?
Within: Yes, it appears to work, at first, but that is because you have
a left brain that is not quite tame, that is intruding. Think about it; is
not this, too, a mental knowing?
Me: OMG. I’m speechless. Yeah, I guess it is. It must be, right? I
stated it with words. Hells bells!! What kind of a bind am I getting my
“self” into, here? Am I to be completely tongue-tied?
Within: Maybe. I would say “What do you think?’ but I won’t, for
obvious reasons. Please, don’t think. That serves best, okay?
Me: Hmmm. Okay, I see that. I’ll just say it’s challenging to imagine,
then. It is certainly and definitely some ‘place’ I’ve not been before.
Me: Oh, heck! What am I to say, nothing?! And how is that helpful...in
a journal, of all things?
Hmmm. When all you can say is hmmm. Inner Self, would you please
rescue ‘me’ here? What gives? Must I give up journaling? Talk about
just plain unimaginable!
Within: If you can be silent for a time, I can assist; not otherwise.
Me: Okay, agreed. There, I’m zipping my lips, see?
Within: We’ll see, I’m sure. ... (Pregnant pause.) Good. Now, please
imagine, as follows: You are not. Said otherwise, you are naught. You
are also nought, as in zero. Get used to it, okay. Yes, that’s right: try it
on for size, so to speak. Let it settle in.
You are not. Non being, non reality. Actually, it is non-duality, but that
is not yet obvious. It will be, will become so. Just open to this. Be
gentle with it, with yourself. You are nought.
Yes, you’re right about that: Source does, indeed, have a worthy
sense of humor, which you are only now beginning to touch or
grasp. Just keep imagining, that’s right. Never limit the
imagination, for it is your vehicle into the suchness, into the no
thing.
Yes, you will lose readers. So what? Do you care? It does not
matter. The seed is planted, the energy shared, and it will bear fruit in
others, or it will not. It does not matter.
The reality is that it is no concern of Yours. Yes, Yours, capital ‘Y.’ Got
a problem with that? No, I thought not.
Yes, this is much like what Nisargadatta says. That’s true. Now hush.
There is no do-er...least of all You. Things happen, that is all. They just
happen.
It is fun to let and to watch things happen. Just do that. Then You will
begin to really See the magic show that is on-going. Right now
you, and most people, are so caught up in the pieces that you cannot
see the Whole.
Yes, of course, to see the Whole one must back off, must get some
distance. Thus, the letting go, the recognition of the no-thing. Yes, like
seeing the trees for the forest–which you’ve got backwards. Now
hush! Still that thing!
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4:37 pm
Okay, that was strange. That’s all I’ll say about that.
Went back and read, and re-read this entry a number of times, getting
deeper and deeper into it. Powerful. Changing. Transforming.
Yeah, still strange, but that’s okay. So what? And that which makes
sense has done us so much good, thus far, right?? I think not. I’m
open to this, anyway...and I trust that at least a few others are, as
well.
There are not words for the experience. Let’s just say it’s experiential;
it’s accessible, experience-able. That’s probably even saying too
much.
Wherever they are held there is generally a free Friday-night session, where, for a
couple of hours or so, you can sit and bask in the non-sense, the no-thing of
Matrix Energetics, of this energy. In 'person' (not that there is any such thing as a
person, mind you), is best.
Heck, maybe then this blog entry will even make sense to you! What a
thought. rofl.
Where is this leading? I could not care less*. It does what it does, and
goes where it goes...and I am just along for the ride, as far as I can
tell...whatever the heck “I” is. Hell’s bells. Ding-dong, ding-dong. Yes,
I’m coming, I’m coming.
** Yeah, it is not strictly correct to say “I could care less.” That would
mean that you do care, at least a little, right?...because you could
care less.
New to the concepts and the foundations of it I’m not, though. Theoretical
quantum physics has been a love of mine for some time, along with
near-death studies, and so much else that resonates with Matrix
Energetics.
Thus, maybe like you, I was already 'this' before "I" found this (Matrix
Energetics). It is a beautiful fit. Wheeeeeee!!