INITIAL MESSAGE FROM "THE COMMANDER":

I enjoyed seeing your profile.

Can you tell Me a little bit more as to what it is you are looking for?
Commander,
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REPLY from girl, 10/29/07 8:50 PM
hi. i really want to find a man that will just take me. i'm so tired of
guys that can't give me what i want.
some of my fantasies are: getting raped, being a slut, being tied up
and gang-banged, being trained as a slave girl. i've never tried any of
it though.
____________________________________________
10/29/07 11:04 PM
Sounds good to Me.
All of what you stated is very very doable. How far and how soon do
you see yourself doing this?
Commander,
p.s. I am Commander on Yahoo
____________________________________________
11/1/07 2:36 AM
So on these fantasies how close have you come to ever trying to make
one happen?
Commander,

Commander: your "shout" makes Me have to ask

Commander: is a2m something amy is into
noblowjobsgirl: ive never done it. ive never even given head
Commander: tsk tsk tsk [-x
Commander: :P
noblowjobsgirl: hi i thought this would be easier
noblowjobsgirl: sorry wrong person
noblowjobsgirl: why tsk tsk
Commander: making conversation
Commander: :D
noblowjobsgirl: it just seems a bit scary to me
Commander: really
Commander: why
noblowjobsgirl: not sure i have terrible time giving up control even
though i want to give up all control..... and giving head seems like i
would be giving up control
Commander: hmmmm
Commander: why that activity more than others?
noblowjobsgirl: because its the mouth, i had the same problem with
anal and just barely have been able to try it

Commander: hmmm
noblowjobsgirl: its strange because i am very uninhibited in so many
ways
Commander: so getting fucked is no issue
noblowjobsgirl: nope
Commander: getting it in the ass is a new skill
noblowjobsgirl: yes
Commander: but sucking cock is a taboo
noblowjobsgirl: not taboo just scary
Commander: ok
Commander: hmmm
noblowjobsgirl: i hate to fail
noblowjobsgirl: is it strange that im 25 and have never sucked cock?
Commander: I am 41 and never sucked cock
Commander: so objectively
Commander: no not strange :P
noblowjobsgirl: i think i will have to though. i am determined not to be
a control freak
Commander: here is a path forwards for you
Commander: work it out in logic
noblowjobsgirl: how would i logically approach this?
Commander: logically

Commander: is sucking cock any worse than fucking or anal

noblowjobsgirl: worse how?
Commander: on an objective scale
Commander: short story
Commander: separate irrational fear from objective facts
noblowjobsgirl: well im sure it would hurt a lot less than anal
Commander: that is the track to go down
noblowjobsgirl: but taste is something you dont have to deal with
when fucking or doing anal
Commander: taste is something very superficial
noblowjobsgirl: if your not the one tasting :P
Commander: nah realistically
Commander: ever gone down on a girl
noblowjobsgirl: yes
Commander: how was the taste?
noblowjobsgirl: some good some bad
Commander: is the taste just initially
Commander: or all through "the meal"
noblowjobsgirl: at the beginning
Commander: now imagine a guy
Commander: there is not a large amount of fluid involved
Commander: (like going down on a girl as she is or gets wet)

noblowjobsgirl: true
Commander: so while here might be some initial "taste" (which in
reality is hygene)
Commander: but after that it is your saliva
Commander: that is almost till the end
noblowjobsgirl: thats another problem
Commander: how is that a problem
noblowjobsgirl: semen is gross
Commander: really
Commander: how do you know
noblowjobsgirl: i was married and have kids i had to deal with it all the
time the smell is terrible
Commander: couple of hints
Commander: 1) smell/taste are quite different from person to person
Commander: 2) there is no need to finish all the way to the end
starting out
noblowjobsgirl: dont men get offended?
Commander: nah
Commander: men are easy
noblowjobsgirl: i wish there was a class
Commander: how many girls do you know that give head
noblowjobsgirl: probably lots thats a good idea

Commander: <== smart cookie

noblowjobsgirl: :)
Commander: but first
Commander: seperate
Commander: rational for irrational
Commander: idenify your issue
noblowjobsgirl: scared of giving head
Commander: well that was a given
Commander: now dissect it
Commander: in the form of
Commander: "i am scared of giving head because of .... and ..... and
....
noblowjobsgirl: im scared of giving head because i think i may be
terrible, and i dont want to puke from my gag reflex and the taste
Commander: 1) skill
Commander: 2) puke
Commander: 3) gag
Commander: 4) taste
Commander: we already established taste would not be a big deal
correct?
noblowjobsgirl: true

Commander: 1) skill, nobody expects someone w/o experience to be

skilled
noblowjobsgirl: ok fair enough
Commander: so 2
Commander: and 3
Commander: do you have a dildo
noblowjobsgirl: many
Commander: or any other cylindrical object
Commander: how deep can you take that w/o gagging orpuking
noblowjobsgirl: havent tried
Commander: anyway
Commander: good bj technique for starters
Commander: any portion that doesn't fit inside the mouth
Commander: gets attention from one or two hands
Commander: but for your own edification
Commander: try a dildo
Commander: and see how far
noblowjobsgirl: i can only get like 4 inches in i think i have a small
mouth
Commander: ok how many guys do you know
Commander: or how many cocks have you seen?
noblowjobsgirl: know lots havent seen most of their cocks

Commander: in your layman opinion

Commander: how many 8" cocks have you had to deal with?
noblowjobsgirl: 1
Commander: how many smaller ones?
noblowjobsgirl: a lot more
Commander: how many bigger?
noblowjobsgirl: maybe 1 or 2
noblowjobsgirl: ouch
Commander: so
Commander: is it fair to say that for most cocks you delat with
Commander: you can take half of the cock in your mouth w/o gagging
noblowjobsgirl: yes
Commander: that is realistically all it takes
Commander: don;t get me wrong
Commander: I love it when My balls hit their chin
Commander: but a good BJ doesn't need to be all that deep
Commander: so are we at a point where logic tells you that BJ's are
very doable?
noblowjobsgirl: yes i definately think so
Commander: so now you know it is just your irrational fear you are
battling
noblowjobsgirl: yes

noblowjobsgirl: i may need to use your logic again sometime

Commander: ppl look at issues as insurmountable objects
Commander: break it down
Commander: in smaller steps
Commander: separate logical from illogical
Commander: rational from irrational
Commander: and soon there is only one small piece left to solve
noblowjobsgirl: it makes a lot of sense

Communication with Bridget:

Commander: hey there
Bridget Mason: hi
Commander: this is The Commander from collarme
Bridget Mason: nice to meet you, bridget
Commander: I am also BBQ-ing some chicken so I will be off/on
Commander: so how long have you had these fantasies
Bridget Mason: about a year now
Bridget Mason: but my boyfriend is not into it
Commander: ok not at all, or not to the extent you are looking for
Bridget Mason: only nibbles and the occasional spanking
Commander: ok so have you discusse this with him in detail, oronly
given hints?

Bridget Mason: no details, i'm scared to scare him off

Commander: ok does he know you are pursuing this alone now
Bridget Mason: no....i feel bad, like i'm betraying him already
Bridget Mason: i'm nervous
Bridget Mason: is that ok that i made u a friend?
Commander: ok I am back
Commander: done BBQ-ing
Bridget Mason: how is ur chicken?
Commander: looks good
Commander: so first Question
Commander: to what extend do you intend on going w/o bf's
knowledge
Bridget Mason: i'm not sure yet
Commander: nudity
Commander: exposure
Commander: sex
Commander: asignments
Commander: etc
Commander: ?
Bridget Mason: i feel really weird about it, but doing stuff behind his
back kindof turns me on...i'm thinking about ending the relationship
soon anyway

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Commander: ok
Commander: so for all practical purpose bf is no factor then
Bridget Mason: ur right
Commander: and I'm fine either way I have in the past helped couples
find "the way"
Bridget Mason: do u have a pic? 41 sounds like it might be kindof old
for me
Commander: I do have a picture here somewhere
Commander: www.commander-xxxxx.com
Commander: check there
Bridget Mason: is that you with the camera?
Commander: yes
Commander: it is My site
Bridget Mason: i can't see you
Commander: I am looking for a better picture but I am on My laptop
Bridget Mason: is photography what you do for a living?
Commander: no it strictly is a hobby
Bridget Mason: what do you do?
Commander: I am an engineer
Commander: (Director of Engineering for a small engineering
company)
Commander: what about you what do you do

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Commander: that pic is about 2 yrs old

You have received 1 file from Commander.
__hr_MVC-425F.jpg
Open (Alt+Shift+O)
Commander: not the best
Commander: but happened to know where it was online
Commander: if need be I'll fire up the webcam one of these days
Bridget Mason: which one is u?
Commander: looking at the cam
Commander: rh side
Commander: black shirt
Commander: spiky hair
Commander: blue eyes
Bridget Mason: ah, very attractive
Commander: thank you
Commander: so is that what you seek
Commander: being told
Commander: letting go off control
Commander: someone who will really take charge
Commander: and not hold back?
Bridget Mason: yes, but it's scary because i've never done it before
Commander: how far

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Commander: to what extent?

Commander: or maybe some better questions
Commander: let me know if too personal
Commander: 1) What is the wildest thing you have ever done at a
party
Bridget Mason: dance on tables and kiss a girl
Commander: 2) wildest thing while drunk?
Bridget Mason: suck a guy off that i just met
Commander: 3) wildest thing on a bet or a dare
Bridget Mason: streak in a park at night
Commander: 4) wildest thing ever in (semi)public
Bridget Mason: gave my boyfriend a blow job in my car infront of my
job at 645am
Commander: ok
Commander: not to bad
Commander: so you have done some things
Commander: what is the biggest turn on
Commander: the exposure
Commander: or being told to do so
Bridget Mason: i think both equally
Bridget Mason: i like the demanding aspect of him telling me to blow
him

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Bridget Mason: but i also like the fear of getting caught

Commander: aha the excilleration ever played truth or dare
Bridget Mason: yep
Bridget Mason: frequently as a girl
Commander: some of the highlights?
Bridget Mason: letting a guy finger me while everyone watched
Commander: at age?
Bridget Mason: that was in a hotel room when i was 16
Commander: exposed t what extend?
Bridget Mason: he had his hand down my pants
Bridget Mason: i was so hot
Commander: ok next highlight
Bridget Mason: i licked a guys jizz off of his stomach after he jacked
off in the bathroom, that was around that same age
Commander: so you like being told heh
Bridget Mason: yes
Commander: and nudity sex seems fairly low treshold
Bridget Mason: i guess so
Commander: so
Commander: in your dreams
Commander: if there was no social stigma
Commander: what would you do

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Commander: and how ar would you go

Bridget Mason: triple penetration, bondage, gagging, blindfolding
Commander: gagging with a ball gag
Commander: or gagging by being throat fucked
Bridget Mason: from being throat fucked
Commander: I am due to get offline here in a bit
Commander: but if you are open to it I would like to give you an
assignment
Bridget Mason: me too actually, i have homework to finish
Bridget Mason: what is it?
Commander: I want an email
Commander: commander@commander-xxxxx.com
Commander: in that email
Commander: describe
Commander: your current thinking/limits/desires/and what it is you
seek in submisison
Commander: with the email
Commander: 3 pictures
Bridget Mason: i can't do the pics, my friend took the one on my
profile and i have no more, i don't have a cam
Commander: cellphone camera?
Bridget Mason: i don't, i'm sorry

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Commander: that is OK
Commander: just write the email
Commander: doable?
Bridget Mason: yes
Commander: looking fwd to it
Bridget Mason: i look forward to your response
Commander: if you want to entertain Me
Bridget Mason: ofcourse
Commander: write some additional t or d or wild stories
Commander:
Bridget Mason: i can do that
Commander: talk to you later
Bridget Mason: goodnight
Commander: night, cop the email addy
Bridget Mason: when should i have the email sent for you?

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<insert email
here>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Commander (11/26/2007 11:23:01 AM): morning

Commander (11/26/2007 8:57:27 PM): hey there
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 8:57:49 PM): hello

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Commander (11/26/2007 8:58:02 PM): how are you?

Commander (11/26/2007 8:58:07 PM): I enjoyed your email
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 8:58:15 PM): fine, thank you...i'm glad
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 8:58:19 PM): how are you?
Commander (11/26/2007 8:58:25 PM): I am good
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 8:59:56 PM): good, did You have a good
day?
Commander (11/26/2007 9:00:09 PM): you ahve some nice fantasies
Commander (11/26/2007 9:00:11 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:00:14 PM): great day'
Commander (11/26/2007 9:00:32 PM): had to do some business
travel tho but that is good too
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:01:30 PM): thank you for the
compliment, i had a good day at school myself
Commander (11/26/2007 9:01:54 PM): you state you want to feel
used
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:02:03 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:02:04 PM): how long have you felled tat
way
Commander (11/26/2007 9:02:09 PM): that*
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:02:23 PM): probably since i was a teen
Commander (11/26/2007 9:02:38 PM): ever come close...?

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Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:02:55 PM): individually, probably

Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:03:01 PM): but not by a group
Commander (11/26/2007 9:03:09 PM): [and let me know if I am
keeping you from something important]
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:03:16 PM): not at all
Commander (11/26/2007 9:03:55 PM): individually as in...
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:04:24 PM): maybe it wasn
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:04:34 PM): 't in a scene situation
Commander (11/26/2007 9:04:46 PM): can you elaborate (that is if
you are comfortable)
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:04:56 PM): but i've been used by
partners for their enjoyment
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:05:41 PM): like having sex simply for
my partner's enjoyment
Commander (11/26/2007 9:05:44 PM): use as a wethole to cum upon
or in?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:05:53 PM): pretty much
Commander (11/26/2007 9:06:20 PM): to what extend have you been
used like that?
Commander (11/26/2007 9:06:35 PM): i.e. deliberately or simply
because the guy didn't know any better
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:07:07 PM): probably just because the

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men were just looking out for themselves...but it was fine by me

Commander (11/26/2007 9:07:19 PM): in high school
Commander (11/26/2007 9:07:27 PM): were you the girl known as
easy
Commander (11/26/2007 9:07:31 PM): or as putting out?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:07:36 PM): i'm satisfied when i am
satisfying
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:07:42 PM): probably by some
Commander (11/26/2007 9:08:09 PM): in hindsight would you have
wished to take that further
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:08:51 PM): oh yeah, i would like to be
demanded of and ordered
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:09:10 PM): by someone worthy of
course
Commander (11/26/2007 9:09:16 PM): of course
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:09:20 PM): that would look out for me
as well
Commander (11/26/2007 9:09:33 PM): so what has stopped you from
pursuing being promiscuous
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:10:16 PM): physical safety, the more
people you exchange fluids with, the higher the chances of ending up
with an std

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:10:23 PM): true

Commander (11/26/2007 9:10:28 PM): yet
Commander (11/26/2007 9:10:30 PM): condoms
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:10:34 PM): very true
Commander (11/26/2007 9:10:35 PM): and common sense go along
way
Commander (11/26/2007 9:10:45 PM): what has really kept you at
bay?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:11:14 PM): probably societal
expectations
Commander (11/26/2007 9:11:22 PM): stigma?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:11:33 PM): ya
Commander (11/26/2007 9:11:41 PM): what is different now?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:12:19 PM): feeling pressure to be
vanilla and monogamous...i've started to feel more comfortable since
exploring websites
Commander (11/26/2007 9:12:22 PM): [and I am deliberately being
somewhat sceptic ]
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:12:39 PM): why?
Commander (11/26/2007 9:12:44 PM): hmmm
Commander (11/26/2007 9:12:54 PM): I want to make sure you have
thought this all the way through

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:12:58 PM): that make sense?

Commander (11/26/2007 9:13:15 PM): I am trying to shoot holes in
your thinking, so I can address them in follow up conversations
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:13:29 PM): really?
Commander (11/26/2007 9:13:35 PM): really
Commander (11/26/2007 9:13:43 PM): lots of ppl pounce upon D/s
Commander (11/26/2007 9:13:46 PM): and BDSM
Commander (11/26/2007 9:13:55 PM): but have a very romanticized
vision of it
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:14:05 PM): i could see that
Commander (11/26/2007 9:14:20 PM): taking a quick inventory early
on
Commander (11/26/2007 9:14:25 PM): helps Me
Commander (11/26/2007 9:14:35 PM): and eventually can help you
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:14:58 PM): ok
Commander (11/26/2007 9:15:17 PM): so current bf could be in
heaven, but he wants no part of BDSM heh
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:16:04 PM): i still haven't really
discussed it with him in detail...i don't think he would though...i think
that's coming to an end anyway
Commander (11/26/2007 9:16:19 PM): does he know he is on his way
out?

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Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:16:48 PM): i think so...its hard

Commander (11/26/2007 9:16:59 PM): this is after how long?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:18:07 PM): two years
Commander (11/26/2007 9:18:12 PM): oh wow
Commander (11/26/2007 9:18:27 PM): yet still I admire someone
who is willing to do what it takes to pursuit what she wants
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:19:05 PM): he doesn't intrigue me
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:19:19 PM): he doesn't command me
enough
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:19:37 PM): therefore i can't completely
submit
Commander (11/26/2007 9:19:39 PM): is he too respectful
Commander (11/26/2007 9:19:45 PM): i.e. too much princess
Commander (11/26/2007 9:19:48 PM): not enough slut
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:19:57 PM): yea
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:20:29 PM): although i think respect has
to be there in whatever type of relationship i'm in
Commander (11/26/2007 9:20:40 PM): I understand what yiu are
saying
Commander (11/26/2007 9:20:45 PM): let me rephrase
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:20:52 PM): i just want to submit to a
worthy Master

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:20:54 PM): too much walking on eggshells

Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:21:03 PM): yea
Commander (11/26/2007 9:21:15 PM): you want to be respected for
your talents and commitment
Commander (11/26/2007 9:21:23 PM): while still being able to be the
slut you can be
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:21:24 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:21:28 PM): just a great and talented slut
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:21:54 PM): of course
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:22:23 PM): so how many women have
You introduced to this lifestyle...or trained?
Commander (11/26/2007 9:22:31 PM): hmmm
Commander (11/26/2007 9:22:33 PM): introduced
Commander (11/26/2007 9:22:38 PM): 6-8
Commander (11/26/2007 9:22:41 PM): trained
Commander (11/26/2007 9:22:54 PM): as in really trained
Commander (11/26/2007 9:22:59 PM): 5 or so
Commander (11/26/2007 9:23:04 PM): some of those 5
Commander (11/26/2007 9:23:07 PM): were not new
Commander (11/26/2007 9:23:11 PM): to the Lifestyle
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:23:55 PM): hmm.. why do You think
they chose You?

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:24:03 PM): hmmm

Commander (11/26/2007 9:24:11 PM): I am experienced
Commander (11/26/2007 9:24:19 PM): I have been active in the local
Lifestyle
Commander (11/26/2007 9:24:24 PM): I have a good reputation
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:24:50 PM): interesting
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:26:18 PM): so tell me how our first
meeting would go
Commander (11/26/2007 9:26:27 PM): not sure yet
Commander (11/26/2007 9:26:39 PM): maybe there is no first
meeting
Commander (11/26/2007 9:26:43 PM): maybe it is coffee
Commander (11/26/2007 9:26:54 PM): that pretty much covers the
gamut of first meetings
Commander (11/26/2007 9:28:14 PM): there is this woman
Commander (11/26/2007 9:28:27 PM): I have been guiding/training
her for well over 2 years now
Commander (11/26/2007 9:28:35 PM): I have touched her maybe 3
times in that time
Commander (11/26/2007 9:28:41 PM): each of them hugs or
handshakes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:29:02 PM): never had sex

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Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:29:07 PM): wow

Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:29:32 PM): does she belong to another
Master and You are just teaching her?
Commander (11/26/2007 9:29:48 PM): that situation has changed a
couple of times during that time
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:30:06 PM): interesting
Commander (11/26/2007 9:30:22 PM): it is an extreme example
Commander (11/26/2007 9:32:22 PM): what did your first meeting
look like in your mind
Commander (11/26/2007 9:32:28 PM): before I answered
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:33:24 PM): it was a bit romanticized, i
don't know if You really want to hear
Commander (11/26/2007 9:33:36 PM): actually I do
Commander (11/26/2007 9:33:48 PM): I want you to always be able
to speak freely and openly
Commander (11/26/2007 9:34:01 PM): I will let you know when it is
too much information
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:35:17 PM): i fantasized about showing
up to an unfamiliar home and waiting patiently for my Master to
arrive, no matter how long He takes
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:35:30 PM): patiently waiting.....eyes
closed

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:35:30 PM): the opened door

Commander (11/26/2007 9:35:33 PM): the note
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:35:37 PM): palms sweating
Commander (11/26/2007 9:35:38 PM): the direction to undress
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:35:43 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:35:44 PM): all to an anonymous person
Commander (11/26/2007 9:35:52 PM): I like that
Commander (11/26/2007 9:35:54 PM):
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:35:59 PM): me too
Commander (11/26/2007 9:36:16 PM): short of the safety concerns, it
sounds like something I'd do
Commander (11/26/2007 9:36:26 PM): (and have done as first visits
to scene)
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:37:15 PM): it makes me really hot to
think about that
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:37:52 PM): i would love to beg to come
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:38:31 PM): i guess orgasm denial would
be another interest
Commander (11/26/2007 9:38:37 PM): in line of your thinking
Commander (11/26/2007 9:38:44 PM): you cumming is of no concern
to Me
Commander (11/26/2007 9:38:57 PM): you can cum when it doesn't

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interfere with what I want

Commander (11/26/2007 9:39:05 PM): wet holes do not need to cum
Commander (11/26/2007 9:39:09 PM): they need fucked
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:39:36 PM): agreed
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:04 PM): wet holes need to be used
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:10 PM): condom with legs
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:13 PM): need using
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:15 PM): when
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:17 PM): how
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:19 PM): and by whom
Commander (11/26/2007 9:40:22 PM): they are told to
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:41:16 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:41:29 PM): couple of general remarks
Commander (11/26/2007 9:41:34 PM): 1) online safety
Commander (11/26/2007 9:41:40 PM): Bridget Mason
Commander (11/26/2007 9:41:55 PM): your full or partial name is out
there at the first exchange (Yahoo and gmail)
Commander (11/26/2007 9:42:01 PM): while I am safe
Commander (11/26/2007 9:42:10 PM): this is not something you can
always assume
Commander (11/26/2007 9:42:19 PM): having your full name "out
there"

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:42:25 PM): connected to your desires

Commander (11/26/2007 9:42:33 PM): might be something you want
to rethink
Commander (11/26/2007 9:42:41 PM): (enough lecture)
Commander (11/26/2007 9:43:10 PM): 2) submission/submissive:
you do not owe submission to everyone that comes along and states
he/she is a Dominant, submission is negotiated
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:43:20 PM): agreed
Commander (11/26/2007 9:43:23 PM): 3) SSC: Safe Sane Consensual
Commander (11/26/2007 9:43:41 PM): I am a Dominant
Commander (11/26/2007 9:43:53 PM): I in general will assume a tone
that is somewhere between
Commander (11/26/2007 9:43:56 PM): guidance
Commander (11/26/2007 9:43:59 PM): friend
Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:01 PM): Dominant
Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:06 PM): every so often
Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:17 PM): the Dominant in Me will show
up
Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:24 PM): the more and further you let
me get away with
Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:29 PM): the further I will go
Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:34 PM): I do not apologize for that

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Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:44:48 PM): ok

Commander (11/26/2007 9:44:59 PM): you understand this
Commander (11/26/2007 9:45:06 PM): that the more you show up as
a submissive
Commander (11/26/2007 9:45:13 PM): the more I will show up as a
Dominant
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:45:22 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:45:28 PM): I have few limits
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:47:38 PM): i understand
Commander (11/26/2007 9:47:55 PM): your behavior and enthusiasm
shapes where this conversation goes
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:49:21 PM): i want to please You
Commander (11/26/2007 9:49:49 PM): I like that
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:49:54 PM): i want to be used by You
Commander (11/26/2007 9:49:55 PM): how do you see that
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:51:05 PM): me in four point restraints
and blindfolded and You fucking any wethole You like
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:51:25 PM): for as long and as hard as
You like
Commander (11/26/2007 9:51:58 PM): I enjoy that
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:54:31 PM): You finally cum in my mouth
gagging me and smacking my breast viciously

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Commander (11/26/2007 9:55:23 PM): you like to be throat fucked?

Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:55:39 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:55:57 PM): how often has that happened
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:56:58 PM): i've always been
enthusiastic giving head, but i think there's only just been one person
who took control
Commander (11/26/2007 9:57:28 PM): I love it when a slut is gagging
on My cock to a pont where they ahve actually thrown up on My cock
Commander (11/26/2007 9:57:39 PM): which only slowed Me down
enough for them to clear their mouth
Commander (11/26/2007 9:57:45 PM): and slam My cock back down
Commander (11/26/2007 9:57:53 PM): is that how hard you like to be
throat fucked
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:57:58 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:58:04 PM):
http://imagefap.com/image.php?id=1001643114&pgid=&gid=808746
&page=0
Commander (11/26/2007 9:58:11 PM): could that be you at a party?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 9:59:10 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 9:59:17 PM): or this
Commander (11/26/2007 9:59:18 PM):
http://imagefap.com/image.php?id=1001643114&pgid=&gid=808746

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&page=0
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:00:39 PM): it's the same picture, so
yes
Commander (11/26/2007 10:00:47 PM): lol
Commander (11/26/2007 10:00:49 PM): My mistake
Commander (11/26/2007 10:00:53 PM): but it was the same theme
Commander (11/26/2007 10:00:56 PM): so
Commander (11/26/2007 10:01:10 PM): lets back up a little bit to
some of ur past
Commander (11/26/2007 10:01:15 PM): your wild adventures
Commander (11/26/2007 10:01:25 PM): I believe you were going to
reveal a little bit more
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:01:54 PM): i don't really want to
Commander (11/26/2007 10:02:03 PM): ok fair enough
Commander (11/26/2007 10:02:11 PM): care to elaborate why not?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:02:56 PM): i would rather imagine
future adventures
Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:04 PM): Me too
Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:22 PM): I want to make sure there
are no really bad things lurking in the shadows
Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:26 PM): rape
Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:27 PM): abuse

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Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:30 PM): molestation

Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:50 PM): something that might raise
its head oif the circumstances are just right (or wrong)
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:03:51 PM): experimentation as
children with a cousin, but otherwise, no
Commander (11/26/2007 10:03:59 PM): male cousin?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:04:21 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 10:04:51 PM): to what extend at what age?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:05:29 PM): digital play when i was
around 5 and he was 10
Commander (11/26/2007 10:05:36 PM): ok
Commander (11/26/2007 10:05:44 PM): do you live w/ bf?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:05:54 PM): yes
Commander (11/26/2007 10:06:15 PM): does he have access to ur
computer?
Commander (11/26/2007 10:06:34 PM): and I apologize for being all
over the map
Commander (11/26/2007 10:06:40 PM): trying to cover some bases
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:06:47 PM): no, it's my laptop
Commander (11/26/2007 10:07:09 PM): how much privacy/alone time
do you have
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:07:54 PM): he works swings during the

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week and i work all weekend, so i get lots

Commander (11/26/2007 10:07:59 PM): ok
Commander (11/26/2007 10:08:08 PM): have you cheated on him
yet?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:08:13 PM): no
Commander (11/26/2007 10:08:29 PM): what has stopped you
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:09:08 PM): fear, history of monogamy
Commander (11/26/2007 10:09:53 PM): how long do you believe you
will remain faithful? and I am asking 2 answers 1) how long w/o
getting involved w/ Me 2) how long if you get involved with Me?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:11:08 PM): i need to end the
relationship first
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:11:25 PM): which is going to happen
soon anyway
Commander (11/26/2007 10:11:26 PM): I am pretty sure
Commander (11/26/2007 10:11:35 PM): you are ready to violate
monogamy
Commander (11/26/2007 10:11:40 PM): lot sooner than that
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:12:45 PM): i don't know
Commander (11/26/2007 10:13:01 PM): are you ready for an
assignment?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:13:13 PM): ok

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Commander (11/26/2007 10:13:18 PM): an assignment you said you

could not do yesterday, but to which I will open the means
Commander (11/26/2007 10:13:32 PM): you realize this is not a
negotiation
Commander (11/26/2007 10:13:34 PM): right
Commander (11/26/2007 10:13:39 PM): I give the assignment
Commander (11/26/2007 10:13:43 PM): you complete
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:14:20 PM): i can't commit if i don't
have the means
Commander (11/26/2007 10:14:50 PM): you are a resourceful female
Commander (11/26/2007 10:14:55 PM): I am sure you can
Commander (11/26/2007 10:15:11 PM): so with the understanding
Commander (11/26/2007 10:15:20 PM): that I hand the assignment
and you complete
Commander (11/26/2007 10:15:26 PM): do you still want it?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:15:50 PM): i can try, but i can't
promise
Commander (11/26/2007 10:16:54 PM): I want 3 pictures of you,
showing as little or as much as you like. Any and all means to get
these pictures are allowed and expected. When I say all means and
resources, I include bribery, fuck, suck, manipulate, exposure, flash.
Anything

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Commander (11/26/2007 10:16:57 PM): questions?

Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:18:02 PM): i will try
Commander (11/26/2007 10:18:25 PM): is it doable?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:19:24 PM): checking some resources
Commander (11/26/2007 10:19:46 PM): ok what can I expect, and
when?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:20:38 PM): give me 2 days
Commander (11/26/2007 10:20:57 PM): ok 2 days
Commander (11/26/2007 10:21:04 PM): what should I expect?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:21:41 PM): i'm not having nude photos
of me out there with my head on them
Commander (11/26/2007 10:21:54 PM): as I said
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:22:03 PM): i understand
Commander (11/26/2007 10:22:06 PM): show as little or much as you
please
Commander (11/26/2007 10:22:15 PM): nudity is nice
Commander (11/26/2007 10:22:24 PM): but definitely not required
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:23:13 PM): ok
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:23:19 PM): 2 days, done
Commander (11/26/2007 10:23:30 PM): as a general rule
Commander (11/26/2007 10:23:34 PM): if it is too much
Commander (11/26/2007 10:23:36 PM): at any time

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Commander (11/26/2007 10:23:43 PM): if I ask too much

Commander (11/26/2007 10:23:47 PM): or require to much
Commander (11/26/2007 10:23:53 PM): or it simply is not doable
Commander (11/26/2007 10:24:00 PM): let me know as soon as you
know
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:24:12 PM): ok
Commander (11/26/2007 10:25:51 PM): what time does swing shift
end?
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:26:26 PM): 1130
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:26:43 PM): but i should get ready for
bed soon, i have school tomorrow
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:27:03 PM): your pics will be awaiting
your approval in 2 days
Commander (11/26/2007 10:27:16 PM): cool
Commander (11/26/2007 10:27:19 PM): that was easy
Commander (11/26/2007 10:27:20 PM): ;)
Commander (11/26/2007 10:29:00 PM): and have a good night
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:29:18 PM): goodnight
Commander (11/26/2007 10:29:37 PM): I will look for you tomorrow
night
Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:29:46 PM): i have plans

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Commander (11/26/2007 10:29:57 PM): ok night there after

Bridget Mason (11/26/2007 10:30:05 PM): yes
Commander: nighters
Bridget Mason: goodnight

i'm really sorry but i couldn't take pictures for You. i had someone in
mind to do it for me, but i got scared that he might tell my boyfriend
and tip him off to what i'm doing.
the fact that You're so much older than me intimidates me a little too.
please let's talk about the Lifestyle and what's involved so i can get a
little more comfortable.

bridget

That is fine and fully understandable. Let's talk tonight, and get you
settled down a little more before pursuing assignment.

I understand your fears, and I know it is not easy being new to this.

Commander

bridget (11/28/2007 5:47:24 PM): patiently waiting

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Commander (11/28/2007 6:33:12 PM): hye there

bridget (11/28/2007 6:33:37 PM): hi
bridget (11/28/2007 6:33:44 PM): how was ur day?
Commander (11/28/2007 6:34:18 PM): very busy
Commander (11/28/2007 6:34:23 PM): so first of
Commander (11/28/2007 6:34:33 PM): I fully understand your fears
an hesitations
Commander (11/28/2007 6:34:44 PM): simple things that seem easy
when you commit to them via IM
Commander (11/28/2007 6:34:56 PM): become very large when they
become real
bridget (11/28/2007 6:35:10 PM): yes they do
Commander (11/28/2007 6:37:24 PM): so no fears there, I
understand
Commander (11/28/2007 6:37:28 PM): so
Commander (11/28/2007 6:37:37 PM): Lifestyle what it is you want to
know
Commander (11/28/2007 6:37:40 PM): what is it you seek
bridget (11/28/2007 6:38:47 PM): give me some examples of scenes
that you like do
bridget (11/28/2007 6:38:53 PM): if you don't mind, ofcourse
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:06 PM): I like japanese rope bondage

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Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:11 PM): I enjoy spanking

Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:20 PM): especially otk (over the knee)
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:23 PM): electrical play
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:35 PM): TENS units
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:38 PM): Violet wand
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:40 PM): but also
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:43 PM): sexual play
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:46 PM): orgasm denial
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:50 PM): orgasm control
Commander (11/28/2007 6:39:56 PM): flogging
Commander (11/28/2007 6:40:08 PM): being tied to a bench at a
party
Commander (11/28/2007 6:40:10 PM): the gamut
Commander (11/28/2007 6:40:23 PM): anything catch your interest
or attention?
Commander (11/28/2007 6:40:40 PM): I also enjoy giving
assignments to send ppl in public dressed less than appropriate
bridget (11/28/2007 6:41:07 PM): explain to me about the electrical
play, TENS units, and violet wand if you please, i'm not familiar with
those
Commander (11/28/2007 6:41:46 PM): I am online on-site where I
cannot google either of those

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Commander (11/28/2007 6:41:53 PM): otherwise I'd send you some

links
Commander (11/28/2007 6:41:59 PM): how about later tonight?
bridget (11/28/2007 6:42:48 PM): i need to go to bed by 9 or so, but
before that i would appreciate it, thank You
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:13 PM): hmmm
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:24 PM): I will be in between
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:30 PM): being here and My hotel
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:33 PM): and dinner
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:34 PM): so
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:39 PM): just google
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:41 PM): violet wand
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:45 PM): and TENS unit
Commander (11/28/2007 6:43:49 PM): or electrical play
bridget (11/28/2007 6:43:52 PM): i will, thank you
Commander (11/28/2007 6:44:08 PM): so any of those spark an
interest in you
bridget (11/28/2007 6:46:59 PM): interesting
Commander (11/28/2007 6:49:18 PM):
bridget (11/28/2007 6:49:45 PM): do they produce pain, or just odd
stimulation?
Commander (11/28/2007 6:49:53 PM): could be both

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Commander (11/28/2007 6:50:00 PM): pending intensity setting

bridget (11/28/2007 6:50:32 PM): i see
bridget (11/28/2007 6:50:47 PM): very interesting
Commander (11/28/2007 6:50:57 PM): violet wand also is quite
spectacular to see
bridget (11/28/2007 6:52:06 PM): i can imagine
Commander (11/28/2007 6:53:27 PM): ok I need to bail here
bridget (11/28/2007 6:54:29 PM): have a good night, i look forward to
chatting with you tomorrow
Commander (11/28/2007 7:27:00 PM): hey there
Commander (11/28/2007 7:27:06 PM): I am in My hotel for a little bit
Commander (11/28/2007 7:27:18 PM): so
bridget (11/28/2007 7:27:21 PM): cool
Commander (11/28/2007 7:27:21 PM): Lifestyle
Commander (11/28/2007 7:27:36 PM): I assume you slowly are going
to want to imerse yourself
Commander (11/28/2007 7:27:43 PM): immerse even
bridget (11/28/2007 7:27:58 PM): that sounds accurate
Commander (11/28/2007 7:29:01 PM): how do you see this
happening
Commander (11/28/2007 7:29:16 PM): i.e. how do yous ee yourself
going from the online realm

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bridget (11/28/2007 7:29:16 PM): slowly...not sure otherwise

Commander (11/28/2007 7:29:22 PM): into the real life realm
bridget (11/28/2007 7:30:06 PM): maybe after a month of 2 of talking
online
Commander (11/28/2007 7:30:45 PM): that sounds like a reasonable
expectation
bridget (11/28/2007 7:31:26 PM): i'm glad You feel that way
Commander (11/28/2007 7:31:46 PM): it is not like I have a choice or
say in the matter
Commander (11/28/2007 7:31:53 PM): but in this case I actually
agree
Commander (11/28/2007 7:32:19 PM): nobody ever got hurt going
slow
bridget (11/28/2007 7:32:29 PM): exactly
Commander (11/28/2007 7:33:56 PM): so out of curiosity
Commander (11/28/2007 7:34:07 PM): you must have gotten a ton of
messages on collarme
bridget (11/28/2007 7:34:45 PM): i did
Commander (11/28/2007 7:35:03 PM): I heard this before from
submissives that show up new with a picture
Commander (11/28/2007 7:35:12 PM): they get responses from
everywhere

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Commander (11/28/2007 7:35:17 PM): no mater how far away

Commander (11/28/2007 7:35:21 PM): no matter how extreme
bridget (11/28/2007 7:35:49 PM): yep, it's true
Commander (11/28/2007 7:38:00 PM): so... what else is new
bridget (11/28/2007 7:42:07 PM): i have 2 long clinical days
tomorrow and friday, ugh
Commander (11/28/2007 7:42:15 PM): clinical?
bridget (11/28/2007 7:42:23 PM): i'm in nursing school btw, and i
work as a cna
Commander (11/28/2007 7:42:30 PM): aha gotcha
bridget (11/28/2007 7:42:40 PM): i remember u asking me what i do,
but i never told u
Commander (11/28/2007 7:42:49 PM):
Commander (11/28/2007 7:42:53 PM): with that said
Commander (11/28/2007 7:43:05 PM): I am going to hunt down some
food (and drinks) here
bridget (11/28/2007 7:43:11 PM): ok
Commander (11/28/2007 7:43:13 PM): I will catch you either later, or
tomorrow
bridget (11/28/2007 7:43:20 PM): sounds great
Commander (11/28/2007 7:43:31 PM): laters
bridget (11/28/2007 7:43:36 PM): bye

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bridget (12/3/2007 12:50:47 PM): hi there

Commander (12/3/2007 12:51:21 PM): hey there --- online on phn,
might be slow typing etc. --bridget (12/3/2007 12:52:06 PM): its ok, is there a better time to talk,
later maybe?
Commander (12/3/2007 12:53:10 PM): nah now is good
bridget (12/3/2007 12:53:16 PM): ok
bridget (12/3/2007 12:53:27 PM): so how was Your weekend?
Commander (12/3/2007 12:54:00 PM): was great
bridget (12/3/2007 12:55:57 PM): good, mine was busy with clinicals
and work
Commander (12/3/2007 12:57:21 PM): how r things w bf?
bridget (12/3/2007 12:57:55 PM): not so good
bridget (12/3/2007 12:58:21 PM): i don't know that we'll make it
through the holidays like i thought, i don't know yet
Commander (12/3/2007 1:00:57 PM): ouch
Commander (12/3/2007 1:05:24 PM): that cannot be easy
bridget (12/3/2007 1:06:39 PM): its not, but i'm the one with the
issue
Commander (12/3/2007 1:07:12 PM): how so...
bridget (12/3/2007 1:08:23 PM): i want things that he doesn

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bridget (12/3/2007 1:08:25 PM): t

bridget (12/3/2007 1:08:41 PM): and he can't get me off
Commander (12/3/2007 1:11:02 PM): can you get yourself off?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:11:21 PM): yeah, with mechanical assistance
Commander (12/3/2007 1:11:51 PM): what about prior bf's (or gf's)
bridget (12/3/2007 1:13:26 PM): i'm attracted to women, but have
never done anything with any....i haven't gotten off with a man
Commander (12/3/2007 1:14:01 PM): if there were no vibrators
Commander (12/3/2007 1:14:08 PM): would you get off?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:14:23 PM): i haven't yet
Commander (12/3/2007 1:14:52 PM): so expectation wise that seems
a tall order for a guy
bridget (12/3/2007 1:15:17 PM): agreed
Commander (12/3/2007 1:15:57 PM): but let Me guess the non-O is
not a major issue if everything else was right
Commander (12/3/2007 1:16:15 PM): i.e. it is easy to incorporate a
vibrator
bridget (12/3/2007 1:16:30 PM): no, but me wanting to do things he's
not comfortable with is
Commander (12/3/2007 1:17:06 PM): yup
Commander (12/3/2007 1:17:17 PM): so how far apart are you 2
Commander (12/3/2007 1:17:37 PM): on what you want vs what he is

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willing to do
bridget (12/3/2007 1:18:47 PM): ah...well, like i told you he wants to
nibble and pinch and that's about it...i want more domination
Commander (12/3/2007 1:19:22 PM): to what extend, and you have
told Me some of this already
bridget (12/3/2007 1:19:22 PM): oh, and spank
Commander (12/3/2007 1:19:54 PM): let's say a compromise was
found
Commander (12/3/2007 1:20:14 PM): what is the minimum level you
are willing to accept
bridget (12/3/2007 1:22:49 PM): i want to submit, relinquish control,
be taken care of, it's not just the sex
Commander (12/3/2007 1:23:05 PM): oh I know
Commander (12/3/2007 1:23:16 PM): been there and still doing it
Commander (12/3/2007 1:24:14 PM): but just to play devils advocate
Commander (12/3/2007 1:27:30 PM): what is the minimum level
you'd be willing to accept to stick w bf?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:34:30 PM): i guess bondage, sensory
deprivation, enemas
bridget (12/3/2007 1:35:23 PM): i mean i guess i could compromise
on the multiple partner and triple penetration thing..he wants
monogamy...

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Commander (12/3/2007 1:35:44 PM): you enjoy getting fucked in the

ass?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:35:59 PM): ya
Commander (12/3/2007 1:36:18 PM): does he at least do that?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:36:58 PM): sometimes, when i ask him to
Commander (12/3/2007 1:38:56 PM): hmm so if once or twice a
month you would be used as a gangbang slut, would that improve
your life?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:39:49 PM): i think that would bring some
satisfaction
bridget (12/3/2007 1:40:50 PM): i don't think he would go for it
though
Commander (12/3/2007 1:43:40 PM): I am not asking him
Commander (12/3/2007 1:43:40 PM): ;)
Commander (12/3/2007 1:43:47 PM): on monogamy
Commander (12/3/2007 1:44:09 PM): he just doesn't want you fucked
by others
Commander (12/3/2007 1:44:36 PM): or he doesn't even want a 2nd
girl involved
bridget (12/3/2007 1:45:18 PM): i think he just doesn't want others to
have me
Commander (12/3/2007 1:45:53 PM): but he'd be happy having fun

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with another girl right?

bridget (12/3/2007 1:46:08 PM): probably
Commander (12/3/2007 1:46:58 PM): ever suggested a f m f
threesome?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:47:21 PM): no
bridget (12/3/2007 1:56:46 PM): i guess i could though
Commander (12/3/2007 1:58:21 PM): have you ever been able to be
slutty at all. as a teenager or so
bridget (12/3/2007 1:59:09 PM): so, i'm curious about the next couple
assignments, would You be willing to share with me what they'll
consist of?
bridget (12/3/2007 1:59:24 PM): oh, sorry, i didn't see that You
responded
Commander (12/3/2007 1:59:56 PM): I am going to leave the one
assignment standing
bridget (12/3/2007 1:59:57 PM): i always shied away from that
because it was stigmatized
Commander (12/3/2007 2:00:33 PM): u realize the stigma is the same
right
bridget (12/3/2007 2:00:34 PM): and when that can be completed,
then what?
Commander (12/3/2007 2:00:47 PM): gimme a second

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bridget (12/3/2007 2:01:27 PM): what do You mean by Ur last

comment?
Commander (12/3/2007 2:02:04 PM): that even now, the word or
stigma slut is still there
bridget (12/3/2007 2:03:11 PM): yes, but is it stigmatized within the
BDSM Lifestyle?
Commander (12/3/2007 2:03:22 PM): sometimes yes
Commander (12/3/2007 2:03:42 PM): some ppl belive that BDSM and
sex should never meet
bridget (12/3/2007 2:04:22 PM): hm...i wouldn't have thought that
was the case
Commander (12/3/2007 2:04:47 PM): it very much so is
bridget (12/3/2007 2:06:44 PM): wow
Commander (12/3/2007 2:06:56 PM): so be aware of that
Commander (12/3/2007 2:06:59 PM): to Me
Commander (12/3/2007 2:07:05 PM): sluts are great
bridget (12/3/2007 2:07:28 PM): good to know
bridget (12/3/2007 2:10:34 PM): so will you be on later tonight
bridget (12/3/2007 2:10:41 PM): You?
Commander (12/3/2007 2:14:21 PM): yes
bridget (12/3/2007 2:14:41 PM): i can be back around 9 then, k?
Commander (12/3/2007 2:15:05 PM): sounds great

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bridget (12/3/2007 2:15:19 PM): k, i'll talk to you then

Commander (12/3/2007 2:16:49 PM): kk

Commander: and it is 9
bridget: i'm here
Commander: hello there
bridget: how was Your evening?
Commander: so far so good
Commander: your question
Commander: about assignments
Commander: the first couple of assignments
Commander: are to flush out people
Commander: they are assignments that show Me the person on the
other end of this
Commander: is
Commander: a) real
Commander: b) committed
Commander: c) not afraid to follow through
Commander: d) willing to put some "skin" on the line
Commander: after that
Commander: there is no blanket answer
bridget: can You give me some examples of assignments You've

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assigned in the past

bridget: ?
Commander: yes
Commander: sexual actions
Commander: exposure
Commander: inappropriate dress
Commander: masturbation at work (was a CNA in the ER btw)
bridget: wow
bridget: i don't know about all that
Commander: nor do you have to
Commander: as I said
Commander: there are no blanket answers
Commander: or assignments
Commander: the first couple
Commander: are there
Commander: to flush out ppl
Commander: who all they want to ever do
Commander: is talk and talk
Commander: while I believe strongly that everyone is on their own
schedule
Commander: but there has to be some forward progress
Commander: that make sense?

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bridget: yea, i guess, i'm just nervous yet excited by this

Commander: and that is good right
bridget: i guess
Commander: are you scared
bridget: a bit
Commander: what is it you fear
bridget: stigma, bf finding out, family finding out, getting abused by
the wrong person
Commander: ok
Commander: the stigma
Commander: very possible
Commander: bf finding out, does that really matter?
Commander: familiy findingbout is in your control
Commander: abuse is a genuine concern
bridget: ok
Commander: so in the end it comes down to a choice on your end
Commander: or to quote
Commander: "And the day came when the risk to remain in a bud was
more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
- Anais Nin
bridget: i can appreciate that quote
Commander: does oit ring true to you

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bridget: to an extent
Commander: how long have you known about these desires
bridget: about the last year
Commander: how long are you going to sit on the fence?
Commander: (curious what sparked you about a year ago?)
bridget: until i'm not scared anymore i guess...i was looking at
websites and just got curious and started investigating
Commander: what made you pick enemas
bridget: i know i like anal so i thought that might be interesting
Commander: inyteresting is an interesting ord
bridget: but just haven't had the nerve to try
bridget: well, i should go and fix something to eat before he gets
home...can we talk more tomorrow?
Commander: yes we can
Commander: so
Commander: what is on ur schedule tomorrow
bridget: school until around 5
Commander: ok
bridget: so i'll get on tomorrow after taking my online tests..i'm not
sure when that will be, it shouldn't be later than 8 or so
bridget: does that work for you?
Commander: of course

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bridget: ok, i'll talk to You then, have a good night

Commander: good night

Commander (12/6/2007 8:09:51 PM): hey there --- online on phn,

might be slow typing etc. --Commander (12/6/2007 8:11:18 PM): how r u?
bridget (12/6/2007 8:13:12 PM): fine, how are you?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:13:46 PM): I am traveling this evening
from san jose to seattle
bridget (12/6/2007 8:13:58 PM): wow, nice
bridget (12/6/2007 8:14:38 PM): so i found a list of questions i
thought might be helpful in our conversations
Commander (12/6/2007 8:14:45 PM): well it could/would be if it
wasn't for the fact that I travel almost weekly
Commander (12/6/2007 8:15:06 PM): let's hear all about the list of
Q's
Commander (12/6/2007 8:16:05 PM): is it a checklist?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:16:19 PM): like a BDSM checklist?
bridget (12/6/2007 8:16:28 PM): some You may have answered
before, but they're on the list so oh well.....not really
Commander (12/6/2007 8:16:44 PM): ok let's go for it
bridget (12/6/2007 8:16:59 PM): 1. How long have you been involved

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in the D/s lifestyle, and what led you to it in the first place?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:17:39 PM): been involved hmmm 15 or so
years
Commander (12/6/2007 8:17:55 PM): last 8 or so much more
involved
Commander (12/6/2007 8:18:47 PM): I always have been into kink
never knew the name for it
bridget (12/6/2007 8:19:05 PM): i see
Commander (12/6/2007 8:19:19 PM): my old ideas of BDSM were
incorrect, so I didn't identify as such
bridget (12/6/2007 8:20:01 PM): how were they incorrect?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:20:49 PM): I was thinking much more pain
chains whips. not as much D/s
bridget (12/6/2007 8:22:08 PM): 2. How many submissives do You
have right now, on or offline?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:25:40 PM): one slave we have lived
together almost 5 years
Commander (12/6/2007 8:26:03 PM): and I talk to several
submissives male and fenale frequently
Commander (12/6/2007 8:26:36 PM): there is one specific female sub
who I am training
Commander (12/6/2007 8:27:07 PM): over the years trained many

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Commander (12/6/2007 8:27:33 PM): only collared 2 (incl current

slave)
bridget (12/6/2007 8:27:41 PM): i remember You telling me that, like
5 or 6, right?
bridget (12/6/2007 8:27:45 PM): ah
Commander (12/6/2007 8:28:24 PM): yup
bridget (12/6/2007 8:28:25 PM): and what does "collaring" a sub or
slave entail exactly?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:29:40 PM): it is a commitment sort of thing
Commander (12/6/2007 8:30:28 PM): claiming either ownership
Commander (12/6/2007 8:30:38 PM): or a binding commitment
bridget (12/6/2007 8:31:28 PM): i see
Commander (12/6/2007 8:32:04 PM): where did you find the list of
Q's btw
Commander (12/6/2007 8:32:18 PM): ( I like them )
bridget (12/6/2007 8:32:47 PM): i can't remember the exact site...3.
What sort of relationship are You looking for? Online only, phone, real
world, potential marriage/permanent partner?
bridget (12/6/2007 8:33:19 PM): or are You not looking for another at
all?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:34:05 PM): hold on airport security brb
Commander (12/6/2007 8:43:01 PM): ok back

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Commander (12/6/2007 8:44:09 PM): the maximum I am looking for

is RL play and RL training
Commander (12/6/2007 8:44:34 PM): anything under that is
negotiable, that make sense?
bridget (12/6/2007 8:45:12 PM): yea, i guess
Commander (12/6/2007 8:45:32 PM): by all means ask ahead
Commander (12/6/2007 8:46:22 PM): i'd be happy to clarify or
elaborate
bridget (12/6/2007 8:47:03 PM): feel free, RL means real life i
presume?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:47:38 PM): yes
bridget (12/6/2007 8:48:07 PM): what does play include?
bridget (12/6/2007 8:48:19 PM): scenes?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:48:25 PM): as a minimum, all we ever do is
talk/chat online, even less commital than W/we do now
Commander (12/6/2007 8:48:33 PM): play can be scenes
Commander (12/6/2007 8:48:36 PM): parties
Commander (12/6/2007 8:48:44 PM): scenes/sex
Commander (12/6/2007 8:48:46 PM): sex
Commander (12/6/2007 8:48:51 PM): sexuality
Commander (12/6/2007 8:49:05 PM): most of those things are
negotiable

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Commander (12/6/2007 8:49:29 PM): I always try not to be too

narrow or judgemental
Commander (12/6/2007 8:49:48 PM): making most things as
negotiable
Commander (12/6/2007 8:49:51 PM): example
Commander (12/6/2007 8:50:09 PM): one girl wanted play but
sex/sexuality was out
Commander (12/6/2007 8:50:16 PM): I am fine with that
bridget (12/6/2007 8:50:39 PM): so then what did that include then?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:50:55 PM): by being flexible and adaptive I
have been able to find common ground
Commander (12/6/2007 8:50:58 PM): flogging
Commander (12/6/2007 8:51:03 PM): bondage
Commander (12/6/2007 8:51:12 PM): other forms of play
Commander (12/6/2007 8:51:34 PM): also had girls that were
supersexual
bridget (12/6/2007 8:51:38 PM): ah, but just no sexual contact?
interesting
Commander (12/6/2007 8:51:46 PM): or wanted to be gabgbanged
etc
Commander (12/6/2007 8:51:59 PM): and were not .uch into flogging
bridget (12/6/2007 8:52:24 PM): i see

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bridget (12/6/2007 8:53:01 PM): sounds like there is a great variety

of ways to indulge in this Lifestyle
bridget (12/6/2007 8:53:10 PM): 4. How much time are you willing to
devote to training a new sub, and how much of her time would you
require in return. Would you have daily contact with your
submissive/slave?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:53:17 PM): there is indeed
bridget (12/6/2007 8:53:30 PM): sorry, forgot to fix the caps...lol
Commander (12/6/2007 8:53:39 PM): probably daily contact
Commander (12/6/2007 8:54:10 PM): probably on average
once/weekly or so play/training/etc
Commander (12/6/2007 8:54:37 PM): but again
Commander (12/6/2007 8:54:42 PM): negotiable
Commander (12/6/2007 8:55:25 PM): I have been
talking/guiding/training this one submissive for 2.5 years now
Commander (12/6/2007 8:55:36 PM): touched her 3 or 4 times
bridget (12/6/2007 8:56:53 PM): is she just not very sexual? or do
You just have her have sex with other people?
Commander (12/6/2007 8:57:51 PM): she is very sexual,
Commander (12/6/2007 8:58:01 PM): I have refused to have sex w
her
bridget (12/6/2007 8:58:10 PM): or deny her?...ah

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bridget (12/6/2007 8:58:36 PM): why?

Commander (12/6/2007 8:59:02 PM): she knows only way I will ever
scene her or have sex with her is on My terms
Commander (12/6/2007 9:00:10 PM): this is a unique case tho
Commander (12/6/2007 9:03:00 PM): it took her almost a year to
figure out what "on My terms" means
bridget (12/6/2007 9:03:28 PM): what exactly does it mean?
Commander (12/6/2007 9:04:06 PM): it means that there is no
negotiation
bridget (12/6/2007 9:04:30 PM): she couldn't say no to anything?
Commander (12/6/2007 9:05:41 PM): she would have to put her trust
in Me
bridget (12/6/2007 9:06:23 PM): would you respect her hard limits?
Commander (12/6/2007 9:06:25 PM): but this is a special case
Commander (12/6/2007 9:06:38 PM): she has issues with letting go of
control
Commander (12/6/2007 9:06:53 PM): I typically respect hard limits
Commander (12/6/2007 9:07:24 PM): but in her case
Commander (12/6/2007 9:07:34 PM): I made it explicitly clear
Commander (12/6/2007 9:07:42 PM): that anything would go
Commander (12/6/2007 9:07:52 PM): long story
Commander (12/6/2007 9:08:07 PM): ask Me when I am on My comp

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bridget (12/6/2007 9:08:14 PM): k

bridget (12/6/2007 9:09:34 PM): 5. So what measures for health and
safety do You take in your play/scenes..etc?
Commander (12/6/2007 9:11:42 PM): safewords
Commander (12/6/2007 9:11:54 PM): safer sex practices
Commander (12/6/2007 9:12:07 PM): regular checks (6 mnths)
Commander (12/6/2007 9:12:29 PM): safety precautions for
bloodborn ...
Commander (12/6/2007 9:12:47 PM): (although I typically do not
break the skin)
Commander (12/6/2007 9:14:21 PM): also besides safewords, I really
do make an effort to talk and connect with the submissive so I am
aware of where they are and how they are doing well before a
safeword comes in the picture
bridget (12/6/2007 9:15:00 PM): thats good
Commander (12/6/2007 9:16:01 PM): and when I said reg checks
(6mnths) I meant cdh or ppi for a full std screening
bridget (12/6/2007 9:16:27 PM): i figured
bridget (12/6/2007 9:17:52 PM): 6. What sort of training/education
have You had to be the dominant member of this relationship? Have
You had experience training a submissive who is new to D/s? What
made You decide this was for You?

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Commander (12/6/2007 9:18:43 PM): did I answer your last question?

bridget (12/6/2007 9:19:11 PM): yea, i think Your answers were
pretty thorough
bridget (12/6/2007 9:22:36 PM): maybe we should save the rest for
next time
bridget (12/6/2007 9:22:47 PM): i should get off and make some
dinner
Commander (12/6/2007 9:24:19 PM): ok
bridget (12/6/2007 9:24:37 PM): be safe in Your travels
bridget (12/6/2007 9:24:42 PM): goodnight
Commander (12/6/2007 9:24:48 PM): nighters

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Commander: later on would be good

Commander: have a little tme now
Commander: want to hit Me with a couple of more questions
bridget: are You on Your computer?
Commander: yes I am

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bridget: cool
Commander: so when is the last time you got laid?
bridget: last night with my boyfriend
Commander: aha must not be fighting all the time then
bridget: no
Commander: when is the last time you got "used"
bridget: before he and i got together
bridget: so back to my questions
Commander: sure
bridget: 6. What sort of training/education have You had to be the
Dominant member of this relationship? Have You had experience
training a submissive who is new to D/s? What made You decide this
was for You?

Commander: hmmm 15 years exerience

Commander: yes I have trained new submissives
Commander: it took Me a long time to figure out this was "it" for Me
Commander: hence the 15 years experience
Commander: but only 8 where it became My mainstream
bridget: 7. What are Your basic philosophies with regard to D/s? feel
free to elaborate

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Commander: hmmmmm
Commander: that question is wide open
Commander: too wide
Commander: can you ask a little more specific
bridget: well, that's what the question says......maybe think it out in
terms of philosophies related to each side
Commander: philosophies
Commander: that is such a broad question
Commander: plus it culd be about major philosopy as in Gorean vs
protocol
Commander: or philosophies on life in general and why D/s it life
Commander: or philosophies that try and justify why males are
superior
Commander: I am noit Gorean
bridget: share with me whatever You would like to
Commander: and I do not believe that Males are superior
Commander: I do believe that D/s should be a consentual power
exchange
Commander: I'll leave it at that
bridget: so You don't believe in superiority related to gender, but in
terms of personality
Commander: I do not believe in superiority altogether

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bridget: You don't think Doms are superior to subs?

Commander: I do not believe that a Dominant is superior to a
submissive
bridget: wow
Commander: or a stronger person
Commander: or any of that
Commander: yes
Commander: the submissive
Commander: submits
Commander: and defers
Commander: but that does not make the Dominant superior
bridget: i agree
Commander: that just puts him (or her) in charge
bridget: 8. What are Your rules, contracts, agreements, etc.? What do
You require of Your slave and of Yourself?

Commander: most of thses are negotiable

Commander: some non negotiable
Commander: 1) I wil never S/switch
bridget: why is that?
Commander: 2) I always expect the truth (i.e. donlt tell Me what you
think I want to hear, tell Me the truth)

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Commander: I am a Dominant
Commander: I am not a S/switch
Commander: I have no desire to submit
Commander: or find out what "it" is like
bridget: do you consider that controlling?
bridget: You
Commander: is it controlling that I have no desire to S/switch
Commander: yes
Commander: control over My own destiny
bridget: ok, more rules, if there are more
Commander: Commander: 2) I always expect the truth (i.e. donlt tell
Me what you think I want to hear, tell Me the truth)
Commander: 3) Most things are negotiable, but when yous ay you are
going to do something I expect it to be done
Commander: time to negotiate is up front
bridget: what if the sub changes their mind and decides what You ask
is too much?
Commander: that is understandable
Commander: i.e. if it is indeed towards a limit
Commander: like your original assignment
Commander: also
Commander: W/we have not negotiated anything

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Commander: and 4) when you decide to submit, submit, if you are not
ready, don't (which is kind of related to always tell the truth)
bridget: any more?
Commander: nah that is pretty much it
Commander: rest is negotiable
bridget: do You sign contracts with subs or anything like that?
Commander: I do sometimes
Commander: not that much
Commander: with new submissives
Commander: it is such a dynamic situation
Commander: that putting things on paper
Commander: doesn't really pay off
Commander: contracts are for ppl who know exactly what they want
bridget: what about as a safety mechanism?
bridget: to avoid pushing limits
Commander: I like limits better
Commander: as a safety mechanism'
bridget: 9. What sort of structured training do You prefer to use? What
sorts of discipline/punishment for infractions? What kinds of tasks do
You assign Your slave to perform for You?

Commander: preset expectations

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Commander: multiple times/week comntact

Commander: on average 1/week RL interaction
Commander: punishment can be physical or mental
bridget: examples?
Commander: punishment and tasks are negotiable
Commander: ok
Commander: a masochist
Commander: likes pain
Commander: inflicting pain on a masochist
Commander: defeats the prupose
Commander: other example
Commander: someone who is very into the mental aspect of
submission
Commander: being told she disappointed the Dominant
Commander: is probably the harshest punsihment one can give such
person
Commander: so while I like the question
Commander: much of it is on a case to case basis
Commander: and needs to be negotiated
Commander: assignments also go incremental
Commander: does that make sense

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bridget: i guess, i don't know about that mental punishment though, it

sounds like manipulation
Commander: ok let me elaborate
Commander: lets say girl A
Commander: is a masochist
Commander: she enjoys pain
Commander: how do you punish someone who enjoys pain?
bridget: i agree
Commander: punishment
Commander: ...
Commander: I am not a big believer in punishment
Commander: I am not a big believer
Commander: in
Commander: taking by force
Commander: I assume
Commander: the submissive is "here" because she likes to be
controlled
Commander: that control is freely given
Commander: I do not need to push her
Commander: punish her
Commander: or manipulate her
Commander: all I need to do is

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Commander: a) control her to the extent where she feels "engaged" in

the activity
Commander: b) show her that I can be trusted with said control
Commander: c) keep that level of control challenging enough as she
progresses, so she stays engaged
Commander: that make sense
bridget: even though i fantasize about it, i haven't actually submitted
before so i hope You don't mind that i'm kinda apprehensive
Commander: I understand
Commander: I just got a call and need to bail here for a while
Commander: but let me ask you something
bridget: ok
Commander: what is on ur schedule for tomorrow?
bridget: i have a final most of the day
Commander: ok what is ur bra size?
bridget: 34C
Commander: OK I have an easy assignment for you
Commander: as an example
Commander: but I would like for you to do it
Commander: in the end it is up to you
Commander: it is a realistic assignment that is relative easy
Commander: and would be an interesting start

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Commander: game?
bridget: ok
Commander: tomorrow is braless day
Commander: that means
Commander: you will wear
Commander: no bra
Commander: nor a Victoria secret top with build in support
Commander: but an outfit
Commander: that will not hide the braless fact
Commander: doable?
bridget: yes
Commander: accepted as an assignment?
bridget: sure, it doesn't sound so bad
Commander: as I am heading out here, send Me an email describing
the last time you got used, email it to XXX@XXXX-XXXXXX.com
Commander: laters
bridget: later

EMAIL TO THE COMMANDER:

So, the last time i was used was about 3 years ago before i met my
boyfriend. i was at a party for work and had a little too much to drink.
My co-workers brother started coming on to me so i decided to take

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him and a condom to the coat closet. He had me hold onto the hanger
bar and wrap my legs around him while he pounded me for a half an
hour. Then he had me kneel and swallow his load.

Btw, i obeyed braless day and it was very liberating.

bridget (12/11/2007 5:30:12 PM): did You enjoy ur email?

Commander (12/11/2007 5:30:22 PM): I just got it
Commander (12/11/2007 5:30:26 PM): have yet to read it
Commander (12/11/2007 5:30:30 PM): how was braless day
bridget (12/11/2007 5:31:03 PM): very liberating
Commander (12/11/2007 5:31:29 PM): got any looks?
Commander (12/11/2007 5:31:34 PM): nice email
bridget (12/11/2007 5:31:51 PM): yes
bridget (12/11/2007 5:32:23 PM): there are only a couple of men in
my class and the one sitting next to me gawked...lol
Commander (12/11/2007 5:33:14 PM): what did you wear exactly
(i.e. gimme an idea how exposed/free/etc)
bridget (12/11/2007 5:33:44 PM): i blouse and tight jeans
Commander (12/11/2007 5:33:47 PM): hehehe
bridget (12/11/2007 5:33:48 PM): a
Commander (12/11/2007 5:33:51 PM): I like that

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Commander (12/11/2007 5:35:28 PM): nice

Commander (12/11/2007 5:35:40 PM): so what felt best
Commander (12/11/2007 5:35:43 PM): being exposed
Commander (12/11/2007 5:35:47 PM): or being obedient
Commander (12/11/2007 5:35:54 PM): or being seen as an object
bridget (12/11/2007 5:36:32 PM): all of that felt good
Commander (12/11/2007 5:37:14 PM): so how far into the questions
are we
bridget (12/11/2007 5:37:49 PM): i like being objectified, i liked
knowing You would be happy with me for doing it, and it felt free to
know that only a thin blouse kept everyone from seeing my bare
breasts
bridget (12/11/2007 5:37:53 PM): k
bridget (12/11/2007 5:37:57 PM): 10. What are Your deepest desires,
pleasures, hopes for this relationship? What, in Your opinion, does the
Dom receive in return for his time, love and protective care over his
sub?
Commander (12/11/2007 5:38:19 PM): My ultimate desire is that you
and I regardless of how this goes
Commander (12/11/2007 5:38:28 PM): and what W/we engage in
Commander (12/11/2007 5:38:35 PM): will remain friends/friendly
Commander (12/11/2007 5:38:38 PM): indefinitely

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Commander (12/11/2007 5:38:44 PM): safe for 1

Commander (12/11/2007 5:38:56 PM): I am on a friendly basis with
everyone I have ever played with
Commander (12/11/2007 5:39:09 PM): I hope to train you
Commander (12/11/2007 5:39:22 PM): I hope to scene you and play
with you
Commander (12/11/2007 5:40:26 PM): in return
Commander (12/11/2007 5:40:32 PM): the Dominant receives the
pleasure
Commander (12/11/2007 5:40:35 PM): and knowledge
Commander (12/11/2007 5:40:42 PM): of His talent and actions
Commander (12/11/2007 5:40:48 PM): as they are propagated by
training
Commander (12/11/2007 5:40:51 PM): and scening
bridget (12/11/2007 5:43:29 PM): i don't know, i've never been with
someone so much older than me
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:04 PM): I understand
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:14 PM): what is it you seek
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:20 PM): what is it you want to learn
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:26 PM): how did today make you feel
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:31 PM): doing as told
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:38 PM): putting yourself out there

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Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:45 PM): nipples poking through your

shirt
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:48 PM): guys looking
bridget (12/11/2007 5:44:53 PM): i'm not sure yet.....it felt good to
know You would be pleased
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:53 PM): checking you out
Commander (12/11/2007 5:44:56 PM): as an object
bridget (12/11/2007 5:45:45 PM): it felt interesting
bridget (12/11/2007 5:46:45 PM): i'm not sure how to describe it
bridget (12/11/2007 5:47:18 PM): i felt a little shy, but it felt good to
be desired
Commander (12/11/2007 5:47:29 PM): ;)
Commander (12/11/2007 5:47:40 PM): do you like to be pushed in
that direction
bridget (12/11/2007 5:48:45 PM): i don't know, braless was no big
deal, but i don't know about even more public exposure
bridget (12/11/2007 5:50:10 PM): 11. Do You have any references
available that i might contact?
Commander (12/11/2007 5:50:14 PM): yes
Commander (12/11/2007 5:50:20 PM): I have a plethora
Commander (12/11/2007 5:50:40 PM): let me check with a couple
and I will give you their (yahoo, email, ?)

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bridget (12/11/2007 5:51:04 PM): k

Commander (12/11/2007 5:52:00 PM): so yahoo
Commander (12/11/2007 5:52:03 PM): or email
bridget (12/11/2007 5:52:37 PM): either
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:22 PM): ok
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:37 PM): so today was an example of
the sort of assignments I do give
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:42 PM): then I solicit feedback
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:45 PM): ask how it went
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:50 PM): and move on from there
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:52 PM): the likes
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:56 PM): dislikes
Commander (12/11/2007 5:53:57 PM): fears
Commander (12/11/2007 5:54:01 PM): concerns
Commander (12/11/2007 5:55:18 PM): how "hard" it was to do on a
scale from 1-10
bridget (12/11/2007 5:55:33 PM): 2
bridget (12/11/2007 5:57:08 PM): are You too busy right now?
Commander (12/11/2007 5:57:24 PM): no not at all
Commander (12/11/2007 5:57:31 PM): quite the opposite
bridget (12/11/2007 5:57:37 PM): oh ok
Commander (12/11/2007 5:58:46 PM): so that being a 2

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bridget (12/11/2007 5:59:42 PM): yes

Commander (12/11/2007 6:00:06 PM): does that mean that more is
better/welcome/doable
Commander (12/11/2007 6:00:09 PM): or that
Commander (12/11/2007 6:00:19 PM): bridget wants to be pushed in
other directions
bridget (12/11/2007 6:00:46 PM): i'm not sure
bridget (12/11/2007 6:01:07 PM): that was just not so bad, but i don't
know if i could be more exposed
Commander (12/11/2007 6:01:27 PM): oh I know you could
Commander (12/11/2007 6:01:39 PM): just not sure if you would
bridget (12/11/2007 6:01:56 PM): lol, could be true
bridget (12/11/2007 6:02:01 PM): brb
Commander (12/11/2007 6:02:10 PM): kk
bridget (12/11/2007 6:06:16 PM): i'm back
Commander (12/11/2007 6:06:21 PM): wb
bridget (12/11/2007 6:06:39 PM): ?
Commander (12/11/2007 6:06:48 PM): wb==> welcome back
bridget (12/11/2007 6:06:59 PM): ah, thank You
bridget (12/11/2007 6:07:21 PM): 12. What level of submissive do
You feel You're looking for?
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:27 PM): hmmmm

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Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:32 PM): in an ideal world

Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:40 PM): I control what time the sun
comes up
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:44 PM): I control
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:46 PM): who you fuck
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:48 PM): suck
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:49 PM): when
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:51 PM): where
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:53 PM): why
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:55 PM): and why not
Commander (12/11/2007 6:07:59 PM): tell you what to wear
Commander (12/11/2007 6:08:01 PM): not to wear
Commander (12/11/2007 6:08:06 PM): tell you when to cum
Commander (12/11/2007 6:08:10 PM): how hard to cum
Commander (12/11/2007 6:08:13 PM): or not to cum
bridget (12/11/2007 6:09:25 PM): wow, thats a lot of control
Commander: I control
Commander: EVERYTHING
Commander (12/11/2007 6:12:07 PM): in a more realistic world
Commander (12/11/2007 6:12:18 PM): I control you to a level
Commander (12/11/2007 6:12:24 PM): that W/we both agree on
Commander (12/11/2007 6:12:42 PM): a level that makes it fun for

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both of U/us
Commander (12/11/2007 6:12:56 PM): while still making it enough of
a challenge as to encourage growth
Commander (12/11/2007 6:13:27 PM): ;)
bridget (12/11/2007 6:15:25 PM): that sounds realistic
bridget (12/11/2007 6:29:32 PM): im so sorry, my computer wigged
out
bridget (12/11/2007 6:29:52 PM): are You still there?
Commander (12/11/2007 6:34:36 PM): ok back
Commander (12/11/2007 6:34:40 PM): network reset
bridget (12/11/2007 6:35:31 PM): ah
Commander (12/11/2007 6:35:46 PM): Commander: a level that
makes it fun for both of U/us Commander: while still making it enough
of a challenge as to encourage growth Commander: Bridget Mason:
that sounds realistic
bridget (12/11/2007 6:37:46 PM): so what do W/we talk about now?
Commander (12/11/2007 6:38:04 PM): lets talk about what level of
control you are really looking to give up
bridget (12/11/2007 6:38:42 PM): i don't know, mostly i want to give
up control in the bedroom
Commander (12/11/2007 6:38:47 PM): aha
Commander (12/11/2007 6:43:17 PM): what holds you to the

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bridget (12/11/2007 6:43:19 PM): at least at this point
Commander (12/11/2007 6:43:25 PM): (and I love bedrooms btw)
Commander (12/11/2007 6:43:31 PM): so to you BDSM is mostly
sexual
bridget (12/11/2007 6:43:35 PM): is that too little for You?..oh ok
bridget (12/11/2007 6:43:39 PM): so far
Commander (12/11/2007 6:44:05 PM): so promiscuity
Commander (12/11/2007 6:44:07 PM): sluttiness
Commander (12/11/2007 6:44:15 PM): is right up your alley?
bridget (12/11/2007 6:45:35 PM): i've always been
monogamous...but i have inner fantasies about being with multiple
partners...it might take a while to get to that point
Commander (12/11/2007 6:46:21 PM): you are on the right path
bridget (12/11/2007 6:49:27 PM): i hope so
Commander (12/11/2007 6:49:38 PM): so bridget
Commander (12/11/2007 6:49:42 PM): how are things with bf
bridget (12/11/2007 6:49:53 PM): ok
Commander (12/11/2007 6:50:19 PM): that is good right
bridget (12/11/2007 6:50:59 PM): we'll see, its kind of up in the air
right now
Commander (12/11/2007 6:51:34 PM): bit seemingly you are gonna

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bridget (12/11/2007 6:52:51 PM): maybe
Commander (12/11/2007 6:53:54 PM): ;)
bridget (12/11/2007 6:54:45 PM): so You were going to tell me more
about the woman You're training that You don't sleep with....i
bridget (12/11/2007 6:55:09 PM): i'm sorry, if You're on the phone, i'll
wait
Commander (12/11/2007 6:55:48 PM): I am off the phone now
Commander (12/11/2007 6:55:59 PM): refresh My memory a bit
Commander (12/11/2007 6:56:11 PM): that conv was on My phone
and I cannot look back to the history
bridget (12/11/2007 6:56:51 PM): i'm not sure, but You were going to
elaborate on that situation
Commander (12/11/2007 6:57:04 PM): ok
Commander (12/11/2007 6:57:08 PM): first of
Commander (12/11/2007 6:57:17 PM): she came into the situation
Commander (12/11/2007 6:57:25 PM): from a sniffing at the Lifestyle
situation
Commander (12/11/2007 6:58:20 PM): and that we were all freaks
Commander (12/11/2007 6:58:24 PM): and she was the lady
bridget (12/11/2007 6:59:27 PM): what does that mean?
Commander (12/11/2007 6:59:37 PM): she felt better than "us"

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Commander (12/11/2007 6:59:39 PM): anyway

Commander (12/11/2007 6:59:45 PM): I told her right out of the gate
Commander (12/11/2007 6:59:54 PM): (and I remember the topic
now, limits)
Commander (12/11/2007 7:00:55 PM): I told her she was a slut
bridget (12/11/2007 7:01:32 PM): then what?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:01:40 PM): she kept sniffing at the bait
Commander (12/11/2007 7:01:46 PM): and eventually came back for
Commander (12/11/2007 7:01:50 PM): some real guidance
Commander (12/11/2007 7:01:53 PM): took a long time
Commander (12/11/2007 7:01:56 PM): as I guided her
Commander (12/11/2007 7:02:07 PM): she told Me about all kinds of
issues and hangups
bridget (12/11/2007 7:03:51 PM): like what?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:04:20 PM): never realy wanting to submit
Commander (12/11/2007 7:04:26 PM): but just wanting the sensation
Commander (12/11/2007 7:04:33 PM): so she would "play"
submissive
Commander (12/11/2007 7:04:41 PM): while never letting go of
control
Commander (12/11/2007 7:04:46 PM): that is how My stance became
Commander (12/11/2007 7:04:52 PM): "on My terms"

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bridget (12/11/2007 7:05:07 PM): hmm

bridget (12/11/2007 7:05:19 PM): i bet that happens frequently
Commander (12/11/2007 7:05:33 PM): and "on My terms" means no
negotiations, what I say goes
Commander (12/11/2007 7:05:37 PM): it does
Commander (12/11/2007 7:06:58 PM): it does happen frequently
bridget (12/11/2007 7:07:03 PM): so by doing that You used sex with
You as motivation to completely submit
Commander (12/11/2007 7:07:05 PM): hence My past remark
Commander (12/11/2007 7:07:16 PM): yes
Commander (12/11/2007 7:07:19 PM): or better
Commander (12/11/2007 7:07:25 PM): any/all interaction with Me
Commander (12/11/2007 7:07:29 PM): would be on My terms
Commander (12/11/2007 7:08:18 PM): hence My past remarks
Commander (12/11/2007 7:08:24 PM): that the first couple of
assignments
Commander (12/11/2007 7:08:30 PM): are meant to flush out fakes
Commander (12/11/2007 7:08:42 PM): make someone show some
involvement and willingness to take some personal risks
bridget (12/11/2007 7:09:08 PM): that makes sense
Commander (12/11/2007 7:09:17 PM): pictures typically will do tat
Commander (12/11/2007 7:09:20 PM): that*

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bridget (12/11/2007 7:10:03 PM): i'm working on that

Commander (12/11/2007 7:10:06 PM): or better pictures is one way
Commander (12/11/2007 7:12:01 PM): so bridget
Commander (12/11/2007 7:12:13 PM): when do you want to be
pushed farther
Commander (12/11/2007 7:12:17 PM): what do you want to do
Commander (12/11/2007 7:12:23 PM): what do you want to learn
bridget (12/11/2007 7:12:42 PM): since i am new, i'm not really sure
Commander (12/11/2007 7:13:02 PM): I am looking fwd
Commander (12/11/2007 7:13:07 PM): to take that next step
Commander (12/11/2007 7:13:11 PM): that next question
Commander (12/11/2007 7:13:16 PM): that next learning
bridget (12/11/2007 7:14:18 PM): do You have any suggestions?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:14:22 PM): yes
Commander (12/11/2007 7:14:29 PM): for you to switch it in gear
Commander (12/11/2007 7:14:38 PM): lay something on the line
bridget
bridget (12/11/2007 7:14:59 PM): i'm not sure what You mean?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:15:04 PM): take that next step
Commander (12/11/2007 7:15:11 PM): take some risk
bridget (12/11/2007 7:15:50 PM): like what?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:09 PM): pictures

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Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:18 PM): an assignment

Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:20 PM): something
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:25 PM): that conclusively
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:31 PM): gets you from
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:34 PM): sniffing at it
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:40 PM): to doing/learning it
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:43 PM): and I have time
Commander (12/11/2007 7:16:47 PM): you have time
Commander (12/11/2007 7:17:52 PM): patience
Commander (12/11/2007 7:17:55 PM): and understanding
bridget (12/11/2007 7:19:40 PM): i understand
Commander (12/11/2007 7:21:53 PM): so bridget
Commander (12/11/2007 7:21:58 PM): what is it you are after
Commander (12/11/2007 7:22:05 PM): both short term
Commander (12/11/2007 7:22:12 PM): lets say now til january
Commander (12/11/2007 7:22:16 PM): and mid term
Commander (12/11/2007 7:22:22 PM): january-march
bridget (12/11/2007 7:24:25 PM): well, from now til january, i'd like
to get a better idea of what the Lifestyle entails...get a feeling of what
it would be like to submit
Commander (12/11/2007 7:24:42 PM): theoretical or RL
bridget (12/11/2007 7:25:00 PM): online for a while...

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Commander (12/11/2007 7:25:10 PM): ok

bridget (12/11/2007 7:26:19 PM): i'm willing to continue to negotiate
assignments though
bridget (12/11/2007 7:26:43 PM): i want to learn what it's like
Commander (12/11/2007 7:26:49 PM): ok
Commander (12/11/2007 7:26:52 PM): monogamy
bridget (12/11/2007 7:26:53 PM): so i know whether i want to live it
Commander (12/11/2007 7:27:16 PM): fidelity
Commander (12/11/2007 7:27:25 PM): exposure/nudity
Commander (12/11/2007 7:28:16 PM): assignments bridget
Commander (12/11/2007 7:28:23 PM): which one will be offered up
first
Commander (12/11/2007 7:28:26 PM): monogamy
Commander (12/11/2007 7:28:31 PM): exposure/nudity
bridget (12/11/2007 7:28:54 PM): do u mean like pushing my
monogamy tendancies?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:29:02 PM): no
Commander (12/11/2007 7:29:06 PM): breaking them
Commander (12/11/2007 7:29:20 PM): in the assignments youw ant
to negotiate
Commander (12/11/2007 7:30:13 PM): which areas
Commander (12/11/2007 7:30:17 PM): are you open to

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Commander (12/11/2007 7:30:41 PM): My standing assignment for

you still is pictures, of which I know you are working on
Commander (12/11/2007 7:32:09 PM): what other assignments/areas
are up for grbas
bridget (12/11/2007 7:32:59 PM): i don't really want to be unfaithful
Commander (12/11/2007 7:33:12 PM): don't reallyw ant to
Commander (12/11/2007 7:33:15 PM): that sounds
Commander (12/11/2007 7:33:20 PM): as if there is some wiggle
room
bridget (12/11/2007 7:34:35 PM): i don't want to put bf at risk of
getting anything, that's for sure
Commander (12/11/2007 7:34:48 PM): obviously
Commander (12/11/2007 7:34:57 PM): the first person I want you to
look out for is you
bridget (12/11/2007 7:36:38 PM): so You would never ask me to not
to use protection then?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:36:49 PM): Iw ould never ask you to be
unsafe
Commander (12/11/2007 7:36:54 PM): or take an unreasonable risk
Commander (12/11/2007 7:37:03 PM): safer sex
Commander (12/11/2007 7:37:07 PM): is a numbers game
Commander (12/11/2007 7:37:13 PM): W/wehad this conversation

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before
Commander (12/11/2007 7:38:02 PM): but eitherw ay
Commander (12/11/2007 7:38:04 PM): as a Dominant
Commander (12/11/2007 7:38:10 PM): I do not want to break My toy
Commander (12/11/2007 7:38:15 PM): or have it broken
Commander (12/11/2007 7:38:22 PM): I want you to be in this for life
bridget (12/11/2007 7:38:38 PM): that's good to know
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:18 PM): so risking you getting a STD
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:19 PM): or VD
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:30 PM): or for that matter any other
unacceptable risk
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:34 PM): is not on My agenda
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:44 PM): I will ask you to take risks
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:48 PM): calculated risks
Commander (12/11/2007 7:39:51 PM): accepted risks
Commander (12/11/2007 7:40:40 PM): or better acceptable risks
Commander (12/11/2007 7:40:44 PM): example today
Commander (12/11/2007 7:40:47 PM): tits
Commander (12/11/2007 7:40:50 PM): wiggling
Commander (12/11/2007 7:40:53 PM): poking
Commander (12/11/2007 7:40:56 PM): probing
Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:00 PM): came with some risk

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bridget (12/11/2007 7:41:06 PM): true

Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:10 PM): but each of U/us deemed it
acceptable
Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:13 PM): so
Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:16 PM): bridget
Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:19 PM): pictures?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:26 PM): accepted as an assignment?
Commander (12/11/2007 7:41:39 PM): it involves a risk
bridget (12/11/2007 7:42:07 PM): i know, i'm trying to work it out, i
can't commit yet
Commander (12/11/2007 7:42:19 PM): wow
Commander (12/11/2007 7:42:24 PM): I am reading that line
Commander (12/11/2007 7:42:36 PM): and it doesnt even look like:
Yes Sir
Commander (12/11/2007 7:42:46 PM): ;)
Commander (12/11/2007 7:42:56 PM): here is where I stand
Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:03 PM): I know you can commit
Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:12 PM): I also know you are weighing
the risks
Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:29 PM): correct?
bridget (12/11/2007 7:43:36 PM): yes

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Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:36 PM): if you deemed the risk

acceptable
Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:46 PM): you could almost have it done
inside an hour
Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:52 PM): or at the very least fast
Commander (12/11/2007 7:43:56 PM): correct
Commander (12/11/2007 7:45:03 PM):
bridget (12/11/2007 7:45:17 PM): possibly
Commander (12/11/2007 7:45:37 PM): I am going to ask you to take
that risk, step over that threshold
Commander (12/11/2007 7:45:56 PM): I will hear (or see) your
answer at the other side
Commander (12/11/2007 7:46:02 PM): shutting down computer
Commander (12/11/2007 7:46:06 PM): switching to phn
bridget (12/11/2007 7:46:10 PM): k
bridget (12/11/2007 7:50:12 PM): r You there?
bridget (12/11/2007 8:05:15 PM): i'm so sorry, my computer took a
crap again
Commander (12/11/2007 8:07:09 PM): sorry My phn is being a pain
bridget (12/11/2007 8:08:45 PM): its quite ok, my computer is being
a pain as well
bridget (12/11/2007 8:09:39 PM): so what else did u want to say

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Commander (12/11/2007 8:10:36 PM): that I want you to take that
risk
bridget (12/11/2007 8:12:31 PM): i can't promise, but i'll try
Commander (12/11/2007 8:14:17 PM): nice
Commander (12/11/2007 8:14:57 PM): I am entering a freeway in
california here
Commander (12/11/2007 8:15:06 PM): gonna be slow typing
bridget (12/11/2007 8:15:20 PM): its ok, maybe i should let You go
for the night
Commander (12/11/2007 8:16:49 PM): catch you tommorrow or later
bridget (12/11/2007 8:17:01 PM): ok, goodnight

bridget (12/13/2007 5:27:43 PM): i'm sorry i missed You last night
Commander (12/13/2007 5:27:53 PM): hey there --- online on phn,
might be slow typing etc. --bridget (12/13/2007 5:28:10 PM): how are You tonight?
Commander (12/13/2007 5:28:54 PM): I am grreat, you?
bridget (12/13/2007 5:29:42 PM): good..i made it to winter break
from school so that's a relief
Commander (12/13/2007 5:30:59 PM): how did u do on finals
bridget (12/13/2007 5:31:12 PM): good

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bridget (12/13/2007 5:34:41 PM): so, why are You great tonight?
Commander (12/13/2007 5:35:33 PM): flying home
bridget (12/13/2007 5:35:46 PM): awesome!
bridget (12/13/2007 5:35:59 PM): how long will You be home?
Commander (12/13/2007 5:36:31 PM): till monday
bridget (12/13/2007 5:36:54 PM): that's a nice long weekend, good
for You
Commander (12/13/2007 5:42:18 PM):
bridget (12/13/2007 5:44:06 PM): whats on Your mind?
Commander (12/13/2007 5:44:32 PM): well first of, the assignment
bridget (12/13/2007 5:46:07 PM): yes?
Commander (12/13/2007 5:48:02 PM): any updates/progress?
bridget (12/13/2007 5:48:21 PM): still working on it
Commander (12/13/2007 5:48:32 PM): good
bridget (12/13/2007 5:49:54 PM): anything else on Your mind
tonight? besides happy to be going home ofcours
Commander (12/13/2007 5:50:08 PM): any concrete progress to
report?
Commander (12/13/2007 5:50:17 PM): and yes all kinds of things
bridget (12/13/2007 5:51:39 PM): i'm close to completing Your
assignment
Commander (12/13/2007 5:52:01 PM): wow

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bridget (12/13/2007 5:52:16 PM): You're welcome to share whats on

Your mind, if You want
Commander (12/13/2007 5:53:04 PM): I am wondering how far along
you have thought this out
bridget (12/13/2007 5:53:34 PM): what do you mean?
bridget (12/13/2007 5:53:39 PM): You
bridget (12/13/2007 5:54:58 PM): i guess i would have to say a little,
not too far
Commander (12/13/2007 5:55:23 PM): how long do you feel this will
be compatible or secret from bf
bridget (12/13/2007 5:58:22 PM): maybe a month or so, then i might
be ready to just end things with him
Commander (12/13/2007 5:58:33 PM): ok...
Commander (12/13/2007 6:03:02 PM): so you have thought about
that part
bridget (12/13/2007 6:03:48 PM): yes
bridget (12/13/2007 6:04:15 PM): i'll just get an apartment on my
own
Commander (12/13/2007 6:05:47 PM): wow
Commander (12/13/2007 6:06:00 PM): so besides study, do u work?
bridget (12/13/2007 6:06:20 PM): all weekend
bridget (12/13/2007 6:06:26 PM): 3 12 hr shifts

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Commander (12/13/2007 6:07:21 PM): as a cna?

bridget (12/13/2007 6:07:35 PM): yes
Commander (12/13/2007 6:08:01 PM): (that is what My slave used to
do 3x12 in the ER)
bridget (12/13/2007 6:08:27 PM): im on a medsurg unit
Commander (12/13/2007 6:08:39 PM): cool
bridget (12/13/2007 6:09:45 PM): so do You think i can be a good
submissive?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:10:17 PM): I believe so, but time will
really tell
bridget (12/13/2007 6:13:17 PM): what makes a good submissive?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:13:38 PM): someone who can do as told
bridget (12/13/2007 6:14:35 PM): ok, anything else?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:16:11 PM): what makes a good
submissive, is someone who eventually can move from just enjoying
the physical sensation
Commander (12/13/2007 6:16:28 PM): to being able to connect
enjoying submission
Commander (12/13/2007 6:16:59 PM): for the sheer enjoyment and
intrinsic value of submitting in and by itself
bridget (12/13/2007 6:18:24 PM): hm
Commander (12/13/2007 6:19:19 PM): yes...

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bridget (12/13/2007 6:19:47 PM): sounds intriguing

Commander (12/13/2007 6:20:22 PM): does it make sense
bridget (12/13/2007 6:20:32 PM): yeah
Commander (12/13/2007 6:21:01 PM): good, so work tomorrow?
bridget (12/13/2007 6:21:09 PM): a good submissive not only submits
for the physical pleasure or attention but because they genuinely want
to serve....yes i do
Commander (12/13/2007 6:23:12 PM): u got it down
bridget (12/13/2007 6:24:40 PM): so i've made a little break through
of understanding tonight
bridget (12/13/2007 6:28:11 PM): since You are on Your phone,
maybe i should let You go for tonight, i should be home around 830
tomorrow so i could chat for an hour or so then, would that be ok?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:28:40 PM): I will be in the air for a while
Commander (12/13/2007 6:28:57 PM): so this is as good as it gets for
tonight
bridget (12/13/2007 6:29:34 PM): tomorrow? or are You busy?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:29:55 PM): nope online all day, but
obligated during the eve
Commander (12/13/2007 6:30:04 PM): what hrs do u work?
bridget (12/13/2007 6:30:16 PM): 7a-8p
Commander (12/13/2007 6:30:32 PM): I will be online all day

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Commander (12/13/2007 6:30:47 PM): eve I have a Xmas party to

attend
bridget (12/13/2007 6:31:00 PM): maybe we should chat Sunday
evening, how does that sound?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:31:15 PM): sounds good
Commander (12/13/2007 6:31:36 PM): let's play it by ear
bridget (12/13/2007 6:31:45 PM): actually, i just remembered, i'm
actually obligated that evening, Saturday?
Commander (12/13/2007 6:32:05 PM): and I hope the w/e will bring
an assignment completion
bridget (12/13/2007 6:32:27 PM): as soon as possible
bridget (12/13/2007 6:32:52 PM): if not Saturday, then im free
monday
Commander (12/13/2007 6:33:04 PM): sat eve I have another xmas
party
bridget (12/13/2007 6:33:46 PM): ah, monday then.....
bridget (12/13/2007 6:34:08 PM): but You will be traveling then,
fooey
Commander (12/13/2007 6:34:24 PM): we will hookup mon night
Commander (12/13/2007 6:34:44 PM): but let's find some time in
between or maybe email

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bridget (12/13/2007 6:35:04 PM): what time is good for You? that
works...
Commander (12/13/2007 6:35:29 PM): just see if I am online
bridget (12/13/2007 6:35:52 PM): ok
bridget (12/13/2007 6:36:11 PM): have a safe flight and i'll talk to u
soon
bridget (12/13/2007 6:36:16 PM): You
Commander (12/13/2007 6:37:05 PM): laters
bridget (12/13/2007 6:37:13 PM): later

Commander: I am going to be online most of the night (Monday)

bridget: i'm here, how was Your weekend?
Commander: was great, yours?
bridget: friday and saturday at work were pretty bad, but sunday was
pretty good
Commander: that is good
Commander: so what did you do today
bridget: laundry and shopping
Commander: that sounds like polar oipposites
Commander: fun vs absolutely no fun

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bridget: what about You? what did You do today?

Commander: I flew to Monterey
Commander: oops San Jose
Commander: then drove to Monterey
bridget: way cool
bridget: i bet it's beautiful there
Commander: it is but I have been here so much now and the weather
is shitty
bridget: awe
bridget: i'm sorry
Commander: don;t be
bridget: how long will You be there?
Commander: till thursdya
bridget: then back home?
Commander: yes
bridget: cool
Commander: so what is new in ur life
bridget: not much, just relaxing during winter break when i'm not
working anyway
Commander: ok is bf working
bridget: yep, until 11 or so
Commander: that gives us some time to talk

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bridget: yep
Commander:
bridget: so what do You feel like talking about tonight?
Commander: well as always
Commander: how is the assignment
bridget: check your email
bridget: Your
Commander: oooh checking now
Commander: NICE
Commander: when did you make those
bridget: thank You
bridget: saturday after work
bridget: my girlfriend took them under the guise that i was making
them for bf
Commander: very nice
bridget: thank You very much
Commander: did you take "extras"
bridget: nope, just the 3
Commander: I am proud
Commander: was it hard to do?
bridget: i'm glad, a little
Commander:

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bridget: i was nervous that she might say something, but i made her
swear she wouldn't tell because it was going to be a surprise and i
wasn't going to give them to him soon
Commander: true
Commander: but if she does tell
Commander: youc an always say he asked too early
bridget: i can always give him the uncropped ones
bridget: yep
Commander: I saw you cropped them
Commander: and send them in a pretty low resolution
Commander: but I am not complaining
Commander: it is another step in the right direction
bridget: good
Commander: so fidelity
bridget: yes?
Commander: your thoughts
bridget: i don't want to cheat
bridget: i'd rather have things end first, but i'm not sure when that's
going to happen
Commander: last time we talked
Commander: youw ere more
Commander: "i do not want to get caught"

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bridget: it makes sense to not want to cheat to avoid getting caught,

but i see what You're saying
Commander: it is a difference is it not
bridget: i guess so
Commander: in that difference
Commander: which one are you
Commander: 1) no cheatig as it is moral and ethically wrong
Commander: 2) no cheating as I do not wnat to get caught cuz this
relationship might still have life in it
bridget: both i'd say
Commander: well 2 leads to
Commander: 2b if there was now ay I would get caught, I'd cheat
bridget: i would really rather just have things end first
bridget: and not have to worry about being unfaithful
Commander: I understand
Commander: I am just trying to set the stage
Commander: and test the boundaries
bridget: i understand
bridget: i'm just not really sure where they lie on that subject
Commander: is cheating a mental act, or a physical act
bridget: i would say it needs to be physical
Commander: ok

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Commander: I would say

Commander: mentally
Commander: i.e.
Commander: well not true
Commander: yes
Commander: havings ex
Commander: is physical
Commander: and the physical act constitutes cheating
Commander: yet the coversations we have been having
Commander: is it being faithful
bridget: i would say that because it doesn't involve me having sexual
contact with someone else other than bf, than no, it's not technically
cheating
bridget: but sometimes i do feel a little guilty
bridget: brb, want to get a drink
Commander: ok
bridget: im back, ended up rotating the laundry too
Commander: welcome back
Commander: what drink did you get/make
bridget: i made a citrus vodka drink with cranberry juice and 7up
bridget: yummy
Commander: yummie

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bridget: what do u like to drink?

Commander: G&T
Commander: or martinis
Commander: brb
bridget: k
Commander:
Commander: so
Commander: I am back
bridget: welcome back
Commander: so q
Commander: given the pics were covered
Commander: why crop?
bridget: because i didn't want even scantily clad pics of me with my
head online
Commander: W/we need to reach an understanding
Commander: and this is longer term
Commander: i.e. I do not expect this immeditely
Commander: but stuff between you and I
Commander: is that
Commander: between you and I and it goes both ways
bridget: agreed
Commander: so things like pictures

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Commander: I want you to become comfortable enough and trusting

enough
Commander: that thois emesurements are not needed
Commander: damn
Commander: I am sober and typing is going to shits
bridget: lol
Commander: maybe I should drink
Commander: so do we have an agreement?
bridget: about what? our convos? ofcourse
Commander: I meant in general
Commander: conversations
Commander: pictures
Commander: scenes/playing
Commander: thinsg we share
bridget: definitely
Commander: I hope we will get to a point where there is no censorship
needed
bridget: W/we shall see
Commander: good
bridget: so whats the next topic of discussion?
Commander: next is
Commander: what is ur plan

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Commander: what is it you would like to know

Commander: what is it
Commander: you are after
Commander: between now
Commander: and you beingr eady for "action"
bridget: support, teaching, practice
Commander: ok
Commander: lets talk about final goals
bridget: ok
Commander: in My dream world
Commander: a trained submissive
Commander: when told to fuck
Commander: she asks whoa nd where and does it
Commander: whentold to strip she asks how ar and does it
Commander: and when told to expose she asks to whom and
where/when and does it
Commander: she is at complete disposal
Commander: and does as told
Commander: on the spot
Commander: assuming her Dominant/Master would keep her safe
bridget: that sounds like a lot of control
Commander: Commander: in My dream world

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bridget: i know
Commander: so ur dream world
bridget: i would submit to my Dominant's will in our bedroom provided
They didn't push hard limits and kept me safe
Commander: ok
bridget: how does You feel about that?
bridget: do*
Commander: I feel good about it
Commander: just somewhat concerned
Commander: as to the bedroom
Commander: refernce
Commander: but I already knew you were a sexual submissive
bridget: why so quiet?
Commander: kinda reflecting upon were to go from here
Commander: I would love to talk chat teach guide practice
Commander: but all of them woud hit the
Commander: fidelity limits pretty fast
Commander: I want to push you
Commander: and expore some stuff with you
Commander: does that make sense
bridget: yes...but i'm not sure...
Commander: I know you are not

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Commander: so in lieu
Commander: ask ahead
bridget: what can happen between us if i don't want to be unfaithful?
Commander: whatever u r ok with
Commander: you set the limits here bridget
Commander: My next step would be
Commander: 1)show Me more, take some risks
Commander: 2) new assignments
Commander: 3) assignments involving doing things
Commander: 4) maybe meet for coffee soon
bridget: interested in new assignments, but not anymore pics for now
Commander: ok what are ur plans tomorrow
bridget: bf is off work tomorrow evening so we're going out actually
Commander: that sort of limits the RL ability to go and do something
or go places "underdressed"
Commander: I liked braless day
Commander: especially the guy gawking
Commander: wonder how much more of that path is left to travel
Commander: how much "out there" you want to be
Commander: question bridget
Commander: u enjoy being told
Commander: directly

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Commander: to do things
Commander: as you are right now
bridget: sometimes...sometimes i'm not in the mood
Commander: ok
Commander: that is a non-committal answer but that is OK
Commander: what attracts you most to D/s
Commander: and how do you see the use/gangbangs
bridget: thats a lot to think about...can i answer You next time we
talk?
Commander: sure
Commander: question overwhelm you?
bridget: a bit
bridget: maybe i should go for now
Commander: I feel like you are right on the teeter/totter
Commander: where this is now becoming such a real opportnity
Commander: that is is also getting scary
Commander: right
Commander: before his it was all
Commander: a potential fantasy
Commander: and feel free to excuse yourself
bridget: what you presume is true, i need to think
bridget: why don't W/we chat more on Wednesday?

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Commander: sounds great

bridget: ok, goodnight...i'll talk to You soon
Commander: nighty night

Commander (12/19/2007 7:37:52 PM): hey there

bridget (12/19/2007 7:38:35 PM): hi, how are You this evening?
Commander (12/19/2007 7:39:06 PM): I am great, yourself?
bridget (12/19/2007 7:39:27 PM): i'm well
Commander (12/19/2007 7:39:37 PM): how is your time off treating
you
bridget (12/19/2007 7:40:33 PM): very well
bridget (12/19/2007 7:40:46 PM): our dinner last night was kindof a
bust though
Commander (12/19/2007 7:40:57 PM): how so
bridget (12/19/2007 7:41:34 PM): we had a fight
Commander (12/19/2007 7:42:04 PM): just a fight or one of those
where you feel the house will come falling down
bridget (12/19/2007 7:42:35 PM): just a fight
bridget (12/19/2007 7:43:06 PM): we are ok now though
Commander (12/19/2007 7:43:15 PM): that is good
Commander (12/19/2007 7:43:28 PM): I have been there

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Commander (12/19/2007 7:43:44 PM): in a relationship where every

fight has the posibillity to be "it"
bridget (12/19/2007 7:44:23 PM): ya, that's not cool
bridget (12/19/2007 7:45:27 PM): so, i'm in the mood for fantasy
tonight, can You give me some hightlights of things You've done in the
recent past?
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:00 PM): sure
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:07 PM): I did a threesome
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:17 PM): not too long ago scened both
My slave
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:23 PM): and another girl
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:30 PM): after which we relaxed in the
hottub
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:32 PM): and then
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:40 PM): started flirting etc in the tub
Commander (12/19/2007 7:46:45 PM): and moved to the bedroom
Commander (12/19/2007 7:47:19 PM): week later
Commander (12/19/2007 7:47:23 PM): I scened this girl
Commander (12/19/2007 7:47:28 PM): tied her to the bed
Commander (12/19/2007 7:47:31 PM): arms spread
Commander (12/19/2007 7:47:50 PM): lower legs tied to upper legs
(knees bend)

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Commander (12/19/2007 7:47:58 PM): and then legs spread wide

open
bridget (12/19/2007 7:48:00 PM): ouch
Commander (12/19/2007 7:48:09 PM): scened her including impact
lay on genital area
bridget (12/19/2007 7:48:18 PM): what does that mean?
Commander (12/19/2007 7:48:28 PM): hit her cunt
Commander (12/19/2007 7:48:31 PM): with a flogger
Commander (12/19/2007 7:48:34 PM): a small paddle
Commander (12/19/2007 7:48:40 PM): used a violet wand on there
Commander (12/19/2007 7:48:45 PM): and eventually fucked her
bridget (12/19/2007 7:48:58 PM): wow
Commander (12/19/2007 7:49:30 PM): A while ago used an inflatable
dildo on a girl
bridget (12/19/2007 7:50:10 PM): that inflates inside?
Commander (12/19/2007 7:50:23 PM): let me see if I can find an
example
Commander (12/19/2007 7:51:10 PM):
http://www.extremerestraints.com/inflatable-dildo_156.html
Commander (12/19/2007 7:51:59 PM): and yes
Commander (12/19/2007 7:52:04 PM): you can inflate it once inside
bridget (12/19/2007 7:52:35 PM): ouch

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Commander (12/19/2007 7:52:52 PM): why ouch

bridget (12/19/2007 7:53:23 PM): that sounds painful, to be stretched
inside
Commander (12/19/2007 7:53:48 PM): hmmm I am sure you have
been "opened up" with a speculum
bridget (12/19/2007 7:54:00 PM): yes
bridget (12/19/2007 7:54:07 PM): but it's not fun
Commander (12/19/2007 7:54:10 PM): and from talking to other
females
Commander (12/19/2007 7:54:14 PM): it is uncomfortable
Commander (12/19/2007 7:54:20 PM): but you live through it right
bridget (12/19/2007 7:54:24 PM): yes
Commander (12/19/2007 7:54:38 PM): an inflatable dildo is much
different
Commander (12/19/2007 7:54:43 PM): as it is equal pressure
bridget (12/19/2007 7:55:00 PM): gotcha
Commander (12/19/2007 7:55:39 PM): any of these activities appeal
to you
bridget (12/19/2007 7:56:53 PM): i'm not sure, the hot tub sounded
nice, i'm not sure about the flogging the genitals though
Commander (12/19/2007 7:57:04 PM): lol
bridget (12/19/2007 7:57:05 PM): that sounds a little too painful

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Commander (12/19/2007 7:57:14 PM): what about being tied down

spread eagle open
bridget (12/19/2007 7:57:50 PM): i haven't done it but i fantasize
about that
Commander (12/19/2007 7:58:06 PM): brb
bridget (12/19/2007 7:58:34 PM): k
Commander (12/19/2007 8:09:00 PM): and back
bridget (12/19/2007 8:09:07 PM): wb
Commander (12/19/2007 8:09:15 PM): thx
Commander (12/19/2007 8:09:20 PM): so when you say: Bridget
Mason: so, i'm in the mood for fantasy tonight, can You give me some
hightlights of things You've done in the recent past?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:09:23 PM): what does that mean
Commander (12/19/2007 8:09:30 PM): in the mood for fantasy
bridget (12/19/2007 8:09:55 PM): just that i could use some material
to think about
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:11 PM): aha
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:15 PM): so your fantasy
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:18 PM): gangbangs
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:20 PM): being used
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:22 PM): what ese
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:24 PM): else

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:27 PM): also

Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:34 PM): when you hear flogging or
impact play
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:43 PM): lots of girls think pain if not
major pain
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:47 PM): while in reality
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:53 PM): it is often more abouts
ensation
Commander (12/19/2007 8:10:57 PM): than it is about pain
bridget (12/19/2007 8:12:28 PM): i don't know
Commander (12/19/2007 8:12:36 PM): I know
Commander (12/19/2007 8:12:48 PM): w/o experience it is hard to
tell one from the other
bridget (12/19/2007 8:13:08 PM): it sounds painful
Commander (12/19/2007 8:14:02 PM): when I said play etc
Commander (12/19/2007 8:14:07 PM): I did not just mean genital
Commander (12/19/2007 8:14:13 PM): but all over
bridget (12/19/2007 8:15:03 PM): gotcha
Commander (12/19/2007 7:28:22 PM): hey where are you?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:28:44 PM): welcome back
bridget (12/19/2007 8:28:55 PM): i'm so sorry, my internet acted up

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:28:59 PM): thsi is what I got what did I

miss
Commander (12/19/2007 8:29:00 PM): ridget Mason: gotcha
Commander: but youwould have to assume as well that a real life
gangbang Commander: is not gonna be all roses either Commander:
Commander: hey where are you? Bridget Mason has signed back in.
(12/19/2007 7:28 PM)
bridget (12/19/2007 8:29:55 PM): very true
bridget (12/19/2007 8:30:20 PM): but i don't imagine those involving
beating
Commander (12/19/2007 8:30:46 PM): true
Commander (12/19/2007 8:30:49 PM): but beatings
Commander (12/19/2007 8:30:52 PM): lots of scenes
Commander (12/19/2007 8:30:57 PM): do not involve beatings
bridget (12/19/2007 8:31:10 PM): good
Commander (12/19/2007 8:31:27 PM): beatings is an ugly word
Commander (12/19/2007 8:31:33 PM): I am not into pain
bridget (12/19/2007 8:33:00 PM): thats good, i mean i like pleasure
spiked with pain but pain by itself doesn't appeal to me
Commander (12/19/2007 8:33:12 PM): exactly
bridget (12/19/2007 8:35:51 PM): i read about mindfucking today, do
You do that?

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:35:57 PM): yes

bridget (12/19/2007 8:36:22 PM): what does that entail?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:36:55 PM): there is no cookie cutter way
Commander (12/19/2007 8:37:10 PM): what that means for you
Commander (12/19/2007 8:37:16 PM): might mean zilch for someone
else
Commander (12/19/2007 8:37:22 PM): but in general
Commander (12/19/2007 8:37:28 PM): to me it means engaging the
mind
Commander (12/19/2007 8:37:34 PM): the largest mosta ctive sex
organ
bridget (12/19/2007 8:39:10 PM): so what is involved? what would
You think would be involoved in mindfucking with me?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:39:18 PM): sending the mind for a tailspin
Commander (12/19/2007 8:39:28 PM): I do not know youw ell enough
to know what it would involve
Commander (12/19/2007 8:39:55 PM): but I will give an example
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:01 PM): of a classic mindfuck
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:05 PM): a scene witha girl
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:13 PM): laying on her stomach
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:19 PM): and we do a sensation play
scene

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:24 PM): at one point

Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:30 PM): a knife comes out
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:40 PM): and I say I am just goingt o
scratch her a little bit
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:50 PM): than I go "AAAH SHIT"
Commander (12/19/2007 8:40:58 PM): make a stroke with an ice
cube
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:03 PM): dip the knife in red dye
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:10 PM): and place it in front of her
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:20 PM): so she sees what she thinks is
blood
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:24 PM): I tell her not to move
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:31 PM): pretend to clean it
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:39 PM): bandage it with a 4x4
Commander (12/19/2007 8:41:41 PM): the works
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:08 PM): and continue to say how sorry
I am
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:21 PM): and if she likes we can do a
different scene and she consents
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:24 PM): not until
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:27 PM): an hour later

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:33 PM): when I send her to the bath

room
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:36 PM): turn her around
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:41 PM): and ull of the bandage
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:50 PM): so she could see she had not
even a mark
Commander (12/19/2007 8:42:58 PM): did she know that I didn;t
really cut her
Commander (12/19/2007 8:43:00 PM): and the
Commander (12/19/2007 8:43:10 PM): looks and expressions on her
face were priceless
bridget (12/19/2007 8:44:11 PM): that sounds really intense
Commander (12/19/2007 8:44:15 PM): yes
Commander (12/19/2007 8:44:30 PM): and it was a beautiful
mindfuck
bridget (12/19/2007 8:45:14 PM): that sounds crazy
Commander (12/19/2007 8:45:35 PM): it was the rights cene for the
right person
Commander (12/19/2007 8:45:39 PM): scene
bridget (12/19/2007 8:45:48 PM): i guess if i trust that i wasn't going
to be seriously hurt, then it might be exciting
Commander (12/19/2007 8:45:58 PM): it is about

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:46:04 PM): geting inside a persons head

Commander (12/19/2007 8:46:08 PM): and flip some switches
Commander (12/19/2007 8:46:16 PM): some swicthes she herself
could not even flip
Commander (12/19/2007 8:46:20 PM): or even knew were there
bridget (12/19/2007 8:46:51 PM): do You have another example You
could tell me about?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:24 PM): here is another example
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:26 PM): a girl
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:28 PM): in a scene
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:31 PM): and I ask her
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:34 PM): why she is there
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:39 PM): why she is doing it
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:45 PM): while I continue to scene her
Commander (12/19/2007 8:47:53 PM): and no matter what answer
she gives Me
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:01 PM): none of them are good
enough
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:07 PM): none of them are satisfactory
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:12 PM): and I deliberately
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:21 PM): become very non-consistent
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:31 PM): and unpredictable

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:34 PM): where she falters

Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:37 PM): and contradicts
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:48 PM): now I am even more irregular
Commander (12/19/2007 8:48:59 PM): and get her so confused and
caught uo in her statements
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:03 PM): where she
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:07 PM): completely loses
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:09 PM): focus
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:16 PM): on doing what it is she does
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:21 PM): was an interesting scene
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:29 PM): a form of mindplay I seldom
do
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:33 PM): but with this girl
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:41 PM): I bet it was 5 years ago
Commander (12/19/2007 8:49:47 PM): and she still talks about it
bridget (12/19/2007 8:50:06 PM): i can imagine
Commander (12/19/2007 8:50:16 PM): but as I said
Commander (12/19/2007 8:50:27 PM): different strokes for different
folks
bridget (12/19/2007 8:50:42 PM): very true
Commander (12/19/2007 8:51:11 PM): there is no "one-size-fits-all"

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bridget (12/19/2007 8:52:47 PM): so how long does training typically

last with You?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:53:21 PM): depends for the end goal
bridget (12/19/2007 8:56:28 PM): if i wanted to train to be a good
submissive, but not necessarily end up with You as my Dom....how
long do You think You would end up training me?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:56:42 PM): hmmm
Commander (12/19/2007 8:56:52 PM): reasonable time frames are
Commander (12/19/2007 8:56:56 PM): 3mnths
Commander (12/19/2007 8:56:58 PM): 6 mnths
Commander (12/19/2007 8:57:03 PM): something like that
Commander (12/19/2007 8:57:14 PM): depending on what all you
want to walk away with
Commander (12/19/2007 8:57:43 PM): there are girls/woman who I
have "guided" for well over 2.5 years now (I believe W/we covered
this)
Commander (12/19/2007 8:58:11 PM): also depend sonfrequency and
intensity
bridget (12/19/2007 8:58:18 PM): i guess we have somewhat
bridget (12/19/2007 8:58:42 PM): what if i ended up wanting to be
Yours?

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Commander (12/19/2007 8:58:47 PM): and with that I mean the 2.5
yr story
bridget (12/19/2007 8:58:54 PM): or You ended wanting me for Your
own?
Commander (12/19/2007 8:58:56 PM): the latter part
Commander (12/19/2007 8:59:14 PM): almost w/o fail I am not into
this for LTR
Commander (12/19/2007 8:59:22 PM): however there are people
Commander (12/19/2007 8:59:30 PM): who started out as training
with Me
Commander (12/19/2007 8:59:36 PM): whi I still ahve contact with
Commander (12/19/2007 8:59:42 PM): who I still play with
bridget (12/19/2007 9:00:31 PM): i see
Commander (12/19/2007 9:00:58 PM): some of these questions
Commander (12/19/2007 9:01:04 PM): are somewhat meaningless
Commander (12/19/2007 9:01:12 PM): as there are so many factors
to them
bridget (12/19/2007 9:01:16 PM): ok
Commander (12/19/2007 9:01:22 PM): that w/o them the answer has
zero validity
Commander (12/19/2007 9:01:30 PM): that make sense
bridget (12/19/2007 9:01:35 PM): yes

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bridget (12/19/2007 9:02:08 PM): so You lead

Commander (12/19/2007 9:02:23 PM): lead towards
Commander (12/19/2007 9:03:22 PM): (i.e. the statement you lead is
wide open, could mean many things)
bridget (12/19/2007 9:03:29 PM): the conversation, toward whatever
you feel like chatting about
Commander (12/19/2007 9:03:53 PM): I saw you removed your
profile from collarme
bridget (12/19/2007 9:04:24 PM): yes
Commander (12/19/2007 9:04:40 PM): too many replies
bridget (12/19/2007 9:04:48 PM): yes
Commander (12/19/2007 9:05:00 PM): besides Me
Commander (12/19/2007 9:05:03 PM): any keepers
bridget (12/19/2007 9:05:21 PM): i talked to a few
Commander (12/19/2007 9:06:27 PM): so in an ideal world
Commander (12/19/2007 9:06:37 PM): what would your first
scene/play look like
bridget (12/19/2007 9:07:19 PM): 4 point restraints
Commander (12/19/2007 9:08:28 PM): Commander: what would your
first scene/play look like
bridget (12/19/2007 9:08:29 PM): with multiple people getting to
screw me

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Commander (12/19/2007 9:08:40 PM): did I miss anything there

bridget (12/19/2007 9:08:46 PM): but that's just a fantasy
bridget (12/19/2007 9:09:09 PM): being totally restrained and having
multiple people screw me
Commander (12/19/2007 9:09:24 PM): ok
Commander (12/19/2007 9:09:36 PM): that seems like an easy
fantasy to fulfill
bridget (12/19/2007 9:10:12 PM): i can't say i would be ready to do it
anytime soon
Commander (12/19/2007 9:10:32 PM): oh I know that portion
bridget (12/19/2007 9:12:12 PM): so what next?
Commander (12/19/2007 9:12:30 PM): talk or real life?
bridget (12/19/2007 9:12:40 PM): talk
Commander (12/19/2007 9:13:09 PM): do any of your friends/gf's
know about any of this
bridget (12/19/2007 9:13:20 PM): no
Commander (12/19/2007 9:14:27 PM): have you always been into
somewhat rougher sex
bridget (12/19/2007 9:14:47 PM): yeah, in my relationships
Commander (12/19/2007 9:15:13 PM): do ur friends know that?
bridget (12/19/2007 9:15:45 PM): a couple

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Commander (12/19/2007 9:16:23 PM): what is the roughest it has

gotten
bridget (12/19/2007 9:21:01 PM): not rough enough
Commander (12/19/2007 9:21:11 PM): ok...
Commander (12/19/2007 9:22:03 PM): that is not a real answer, that
is more of a statement
bridget (12/19/2007 9:23:02 PM): well probably being scratched and
fucked hard raw then
bridget (12/19/2007 9:23:45 PM): lol, is that better?
bridget (12/19/2007 9:24:05 PM): that's it, being nibbled, scratched,
and fucked dry is about it
Commander (12/19/2007 9:24:08 PM): yes
bridget (12/19/2007 9:24:44 PM): and spanked i guess goes with that
too
Commander (12/19/2007 9:24:59 PM):
bridget (12/19/2007 9:25:21 PM): i should go soon so i can fix dinner
before bf comes home
Commander (12/19/2007 9:25:40 PM): ok
Commander (12/19/2007 9:25:47 PM): have a great rest of ur
evening
Commander (12/19/2007 9:25:50 PM): btw
Commander (12/19/2007 9:25:55 PM): do you masturbate?

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bridget (12/19/2007 9:25:59 PM): yes

Commander (12/19/2007 9:26:11 PM): strangest place you
masturbated
bridget (12/19/2007 9:26:35 PM): in a public bathroom
Commander (12/19/2007 9:27:25 PM): nice
bridget (12/19/2007 9:28:05 PM): i should go now, will You be
available to chat tomorrow evening?
Commander (12/19/2007 9:28:12 PM): yes
bridget (12/19/2007 9:28:47 PM): i'll look for You then, goodnight and
enjoy the rest of your stay in cali
Commander (12/19/2007 9:28:59 PM): thx

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