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CONTENTS
Chapter One
-- Growing Up
Early life
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School
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The Question of Converting to Christianity
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Discovering the Dhamma 9
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
My Self-Meditating Life
Fighting against My Desires
Becoming Confident in My Dhamma Practice
Chapter Five
-- Becoming a Monk
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Chapter Six
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Chapter Seven
Glossary
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Growing Up
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Growing Up
Early Life
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Growing Up
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School
When I reached the age to enter school, I started
First Grade at a local public school in Suphanburi, but
after only one year, my grandmother, following her
Chinese cultural background, moved me to a Chinese
primary school. The only drawback I encountered there
was that they placed me in the First Grade again.
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Chapter Two
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Earning Money
for Studying Abroad
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An Overseas Student
One advantage of having studied at a high school
that offered international programs was that my language
proficiency was advanced enough to enable me to avoid
long remedial language instruction when I entered
junior college in the U.S. After two and a half years there,
I transferred to California State University, where I spent
another two and a half years working towards a Bachelor
of Science degree in Civil Engineering. The choice of
major was based on the fact that I was always more
interested in mathematics than in the humanities.
The usual four-year university study extended to
five years for two reasons. Working to pay for school and
expenses, I was not always able to focus fully on my
studies and had to retake some courses in which I had
not performed well enough. Though this might appear
to have been a waste of time, it didnt really matter
to me. I wasnt in a hurry to graduate and knew that
sooner or later I would graduateknowing that things
happen according to conditions over which we have
little, or even no, control.
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The Life of
an Ice Cream Shop Manager
Working for a Western entrepreneur, I found the
job quite easy. Since he wanted to serve ice cream like
it was served in the States (with flavored toppings
something quite uncommon in Thailand at that time),
I just applied what I had learned in my job while I was a
student. I was in charge of setting up the operation,
hiring and training staff, and ordering supplies for the
shop. What was ironic about this job was that it paid
a higher salary than that of an engineer in Bangkok
where I would still have to rent a house and commute.
In Pattaya, I could live at home, take a one-baht minibus
to work, and make a higher salary doing relatively easy
work.
As things progressed, I found that I didnt have to
work all day long and just made sure that things were
running smoothly. After that, I could read the newspaper,
have some coffee, or even take a swim in the sea.
And when the shop got busy, wed all pitch in and help
each other. Since weekends were high volume days,
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Chapter Three
Approaching
the Dhamma
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My First Approach
to Studying Dhamma
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the mind become cool and calm. Just let the mind stay in
that meditative state until it withdraws from that state
before you get up to do other things.
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My Self-Meditating Life
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Becoming Confident in
My Dhamma Practice
My practice of Dhamma based on a book on the
Mah Satipahna Sutta continued without any advice
from teachers or mentors. I took this book as my teacher
throughout one year-long commitment to self-meditation.
I had never doubted the Buddha, Dhamma, and Sagha
regarding their existence at any stage. As I was reading
the Dhamma book, it seemed like the Lord Buddha was
teaching me the Dhamma directly. Despite the fact that
his teachings originated 2,500 years ago, they remained
genuine just like I was listening to the teachings straight
from his mouth, giving me confidence in them.
Apart from doing meditation and attaining mindfulness, I also worked on contemplative wisdom, or
Pa, in accordance with the Satipahna Sutta. I mostly
dwelled observing the body. I also continued the constant
battle with the Vedan (feeling) and tried to overcome
the desires within me. The previously mentioned struggle
with the desire to go out and have fun was not easily
overcome. Such feelings occurred as a consequence of
inconsistent meditation practice. It became apparent
that the calmness when the mind entered into Samdhi
was not going to be permanent, and that my meditation
was going to have to strengthen before the long-hopedfor steady calmness would establish itself. It also became
clear that expecting permanent peace was, at this stage,
unrealistic.
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Becoming a Monk
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one British monk who had been ordained for ten years
(currently left the order). We had a Dhamma conversation
in English and I informed him of my intention to be
ordained at Wat Bowon. He volunteered to inform
Somdet regarding my request.
After the monk informed Somdet, I was told to meet
with him. He asked me whether I knew anyone at the
monastery or not. I answered that I didnt know anybody
because it was my first visit and that I just happened to
encounter the Western monk who had informed him
about me.
The next question was about my parents because
he thought I was homeless. I told him that I still lived
with my parents. Then Somdet told me to bring them to
meet him, and an appointment was made. I then went
back and told my parents about the appointment and
took them to meet and pay respect to Somdet.
Requesting Permission
for Ordination
Once I encountered Dhamma and experienced
meditation, I became so fascinated with it that I just went
with the flow. I had neither an issue to be concerned
with nor a problem about leaving anyone behind. I was
still single at that time and, therefore, didnt have to take
responsibility for anybody. Also, my parents were not
having problems that required my help. I made my
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A Monks Life
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Changing My Perspective
My experience at Wat Pa Baan Taad as a monk
very gradually caused a shift in my perspective about
monkhood and meditation practice. Before, I had never
thought of seeking teachers to lead me on the path to
enlightenment. Besides, I had studied another religion
during my school years and continued my studies in
other parts of the world. Why could I still come along the
path to inner peace in spite of these circumstances?
It was because I did not feel I belonged to any of the
places where I lived and worked. Moreover, I went to the
U.S. as part of my responsibility for studying. After
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Monastic Life
at Wat Pa Baan Taad
The novices and monks staying with Luangta Mah
Boowa were treated as if they were his sons while
Luangta himself was regarded as both father and mother
to them. Therefore, these novices and monks called him
Por Mae Kru Jarn, which means Father, Mother, and
Teacher.
During my early monastic life at Wat Pa Baan Taad,
Luangta accepted only about seventeen residents.
Whoever was the eighteenth person was ineligible
to stay and was required to leave. Luangta gradually
increased the number of the residents later on due to the
rising number of people wishing to study with him.
However, the senior monks who could help him teach
and train younger monks had grown much older and
declined in number. Therefore, Luangta needed to bear
an excessive burden, which subsequently affected the
quality of the monks.
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Enhancing My Dhamma
Practice by Reading
Luangtas Books
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Eating to Live
On a regular basis meditation masters ate from
the alms bowl containing the combination of food and
dessert once a day as a certain portion of food was just
enough to meet the bodys needs. Having more than one
meal indicates that one cannot withstand the strength
of the defilements and is still attached to the flavor of
the food. For picky eaters, mixing all the food in the bowl
before eating is a way to suppress the defilements.
They only need to employ this method until the bad
eating habit disappears or until they can eat whatever
is available. Eventually, they would not even have
issues with rice mixed with only fish sauce.
The monks at Wat Pa Baan Taad were not allowed
to choose the food they ate. Each monk would dish out
the food into every monks open bowl after receiving
the plates passed on from Luangta.
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Fasting to Defeat
the Defilements
After ordination, I didnt really experience much
suffering because ever since I stayed with Luangta,
I became steadily immersed in meditation all the time.
At that time I attacked the defilements first, instead of
letting them trample all over me. I fought them by fasting
in order to make the defilements intimidated. In the
evening, if I didnt fast, I would always think about
food and wanted to have something to eat. However,
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they found that this approach did not suit them well,
so they had to choose other ways. In my case, I could
fast for nine days at maximum. If the fasting period was
extended, it wouldnt be effective anymore, because
I wouldnt be practicing meditation but more likely falling
asleep instead.
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When I saw this truth, I decided not to use a flashlight when walking in the dark. If I stepped on a snake,
and if it bit me, I would let it do so. When I thought I was
going to be bitten by a snake, I was extremely scared.
I knew I had to accept death. When I did, my mind became
calm and peaceful. I thought that I was really going to be
bitten by a snake and that I was going to die when in fact
I was just imagining. I was deceiving myself. But I needed
this deception to force me to let go of my life, to obtain
peace of mind and to get rid of my fear.
This is the way to test if I can handle fear and the
way of getting rid of fear from my heart.
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just yet, Luangta let them take care of the kitchen and
do sweeping and cleaning tasks. Those whom he felt
were able to perform delicate tasks would not be given
menial jobs. Whenever he saw them work at menial jobs,
he would tell them to stop.
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Appropriate Time
for Meditation
There was one time while practicing walking
meditation that I was very sleepy, but I tried to keep
myself from falling asleep. I forced myself to continue
walking and concentrate on the words Buddho, Buddho
and Left-Right along with the practice. After a while,
the mind entered the deep state of tranquility. I was
suddenly wide awake and felt fresh. I was not unconscious,
but totally mindful when I experienced the tranquility.
Before I went to bed, I usually felt very exhausted.
When I woke up, after having enough rest, the mind
would become refined. The average sleep hours for
practitioners range between 4 -5 hours. It is recommended
that they wake up at 2:00 or 3:00 a.m., which is the time
when the mind becomes the most refined. At this time
of day, the environment outside is also wholesome and
quiet which enhances serenity of the heart. Of course,
there are some differences in people, but in general,
this is the best time to meditate.
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Reprimanding Students
with Loving-Kindness
At Wat Pa Baan Taad, Luangta also participated in
a Pavra meeting (inviting admonition or inviting
others to advise one). On Pavra day which usually
falls on the full moon day of the eleventh lunar month,
the Lord Buddha established a rule giving the opportunity
for resident monks within each monastery to invite
one another for reprimand at the end of each retreat.
This religious practice would start with senior monks.
Generally, Luangta would criticize and warn his students.
It is the principle of forest tradition that once a monk has
entered the monastic community, he has to be prepared
for others to criticize his conduct consistently. However,
monks generally follow this principle as fulfillment of
ritual obligations. In fact, this practice should be seriously
observed from the first day of their ordination because
monks are supposed to be open to admonition.
As the aim of ordination is to develop selfcultivation, monks need to admit their wrongdoings
and correct them. On that ground, it is essential for monks
to be reprimanded or criticized for their unbecoming
behaviors. If there is the practice of Pavra in the
society, there wont be any problems. Before warning,
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teacher and told him about it. She said, Ever since I had
a chance to listen to your Dhamma talks, my mind has
become so peaceful and blissful, and I no longer feel
angry with anyone. The teacher said, Liar! Right after
that, her anger suddenly manifested.
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Frugality of Luangta
I heard that when Luangta came to Bangkok,
he would take a third-class train with a wooden seat.
He didnt fall asleep at night but remained sitting upright
throughout the journey. Even though he was offered
a sleeper class ticket, he refused to take it. By doing this,
he intended to strengthen his mind and subdue the
defilements so that they would be unable to afflict his
heart. Therefore, it is recommended that we should
follow what he did by always being frugal and content
with little.
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Behaviors of an Arahant
Luangta used to tell his students that what he
expressed or did was not out of anger. The forceful tone
of his remarks derived from the power of Dhamma. He
felt no anger or resentment toward anybody. It was just
an act. How about us? Can you act like him? For example,
if you fail to get the desired result, will you get upset?
Anger is not beneficial at all and it hurts you. If you get
angry, it is because you might be too obsessed with what
you are doing and forget that youre only acting. When
you take things so seriously, it shows that you are still
attached to sensual happiness. For instance, when you
cannot get what you want to eat, you will get upset.
Why not just think you are acting the role of whatever
you seem to be in this world?
Healthcare of Luangta
There are a number of monks who meditate regularly
and yet never develop osteoarthritis of the knee.
Likewise, when Luangta was more than 90 years old,
he could still go to many places to perform his duties
with efficiency. Thats because he knew how to maintain
good health by doing yoga exercises, practicing constantly.
When he came to watch the monks while they were
sweeping and cleaning at the meeting hall, he would be
doing stretching poses. Moreover, there were always
monks doing massage for him because when his muscles
were tight and stiff, rubbing could help release tension.
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Dhamma Therapy
Most forest monks do not depend on medicines
or treatments, relying instead on herbal medicine when
sick and not going to the hospital to see the doctor except
for the diseases that can be treated effectively. If we have
malaria, we will rely on Dhamma Osoth, which are the
therapeutic qualities of Dhamma.
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Knowledge Excluded
from Tipitaka
According to the biography of Venerable Ajahn Mun
written by Luangta, Ajahn Mun was visited by the Lord
Buddha and his Arahant disciples who came to deliver
discourses on Dhamma and have conversations with him.
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Chapter Seven
Moving to
Wat Yannasangvararam
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The
History of Meditation
Residence at Chi-On Mountain
His Holiness Somdet Phra Yannasangvorns vision
for Wat Yan was that it would be a meditation retreat
temple. For many years Wat Yan didnt have an abbot.
As senior monks from Wat Bowonniwet then werent
meditation teachers, His Holiness had asked meditation
monks from the Northeast such as Luangpu Jia, a venerable
master in the Forest Tradition of Thailand, to stay
temporarily for a couple of retreat seasons. Some other
meditation monks intermittently came to stay. Finally
in 1982, Phra Ajahn Whan Chulapandito, a disciple
of Luangpu Khao Anlayo, from Wat Tham Klong Pane
was invited to become the head monk and stayed for
several years.
While there, Phra Ajahn Whan saw that the mountain
was a quiet and peaceful place conducive to meditation,
so he asked His Holiness for his permission to develop it.
At that time there was only a walkway through the
woods and buildings materials were donated and
carried up through the paths by the villagers to build a
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Meditation Center
on Chi-On Mountain
The meditation center on the mountain is not that
well-known, so there are very few visitors to disturb
the peaceful environment. There is also a check point to
prevent any unauthorized entry into the preserved forest.
Most merit makers at Wat Yan arent always aware of
its existence. They tend to come and offer alms in the
morning, listen to Dhamma talk, and leave. Because
the center is quite small, care has been taken to keep it
private.
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The center is situated in the 2,000 rais (approximately 791 acres) of the non-hunting area of Chi-On
Mountain, with a nearly 8 km-long road running around
the areas. The ten or so meditation buildings for monks
sit on approximately 80 to 100 rais (approximately
32 to 40 acres) around the circular walkway. Usually only
five or six of these buildings are occupied at one time
because monks ordained at Wat Yan, in order to practice
meditation, usually come to study with me. Others who
are temporarily ordained dont usually prefer to stay at
the mountain center because it looks barren and lacks
water and electricity. Unlike the main temple below
where water is plentiful, the only water available for each
Ku on the mountain is rain water stored in two or three
tanks. However, monks can also take a shower at the main
temple in the morning before going on alms round.
During the earlier days, water conservation was severe
monks could only use four or five bowls of water to wash
each day.
Whenever I want something, I can get it without
asking. The walkway was originally made of dirt, and
in the rainy season, the path became muddy and difficult
to walk on. The mud would stubbornly stick to monks
sandals and cause them to slip, making walking hazardous.
I thought that a concrete walkway should be constructed
instead. Not long after that, a lay devotee asked me if
I needed anything, such as Kus. I told him that there
were enough Kus to accommodate the monks and
explained the need for a concrete walkway. The lay person
gave me a check after I told him about the estimated cost
of the concrete road construction.
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Observation of Myself
When I was first ordained, in order to stave off
afternoon hunger, I used to drink hot cocoa with several
spoonfuls of sugar. This practice had no ill effects until
I got older when I started to notice that I was experiencing
an allergic reaction to sugar. I developed sores in my
mouth. Generally, most people tend not to think about
the cause; they just treat the sores with medication.
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about it, and she said that the poison from this type of
snake doesnt kill right away or make your heart stop
or destroy the nerves. It makes the blood thin so the
bleeding would not stop. The doctor had to keep checking
to see if the blood would coagulate. He said that since
the bite happened early in the morning, the nocturnal
snake had likely used the poison for hunting during
the night, and the poison that got into the body might
dissipate without treatment, saving the patient from
a possible allergic reaction to the serum. Until the
explanation was given to me, I was quite anxious, thinking
that my time might have come and trying to resign myself
to the fact.
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Conclusion
My life has been with the Dhamma since the day
I started to read a Dhamma book. Reading my first
Dhamma book filled me with the conviction that I wanted
to practice the Dhamma, and I have been eager to focus
on it to the exclusion of almost everything else. In so
doing, the results materialized quickly. The Lord Buddha
predicted seven years at the most. When I read the
prediction, I never gave much thought, as to whether that
was possible or not, because at that time I just wanted
to practice Dhamma without interruption and without
giving up. The only thing that I was afraid of was failure.
I did not care how long it would take me to attain the
ultimate goal. I knew that as long as I kept on practicing,
I would definitely get there. To me, practicing Dhamma
is like eating. If I keep on eating, I will eventually get full.
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Addendum
Addendum
Daily Life Schedule of Phra Ajahn Suchart Abhijto
5:54 a.m. 6:40 a.m. (approximate time) Walking
with other monks from Wat Yan for alms around Baan
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Glossary
Abhidhamma:
cariya:
Anatt:
Not-self; ownerless.
Anicca:
Arahant:
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Avijj:
Baan:
(Thai). Village.
Bala:
Bhvan:
Bhikkhu:
Bojjhaga:
Buddha:
Glossary
Buddhnussati:
Buddho:
Chanda:
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Citta:
Dna:
Desan:
Glossary
Dhammayuttika-nikya:
Dhutaga:
Dukkha:
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Isaan:
Kammahna:
Glossary
Kahina:
Kya:
Kyagat-sati:
Khandha:
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Kilesa:
Kusala:
Ku:
Glossary
Luangpor:
Luangpu:
Luangta:
Magga:
Mah:
Majjhim:
Mett:
Mondop:
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Opanayiko:
Pli:
Pasukla:
Pa:
Pram:
Glossary
Pariyatti:
Pimokkha:
Phra:
Piapta:
Rai:
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Samdhi:
Sagha:
Sakhra:
Sati:
Glossary
Satipahna:
Sla:
Sukha-vedan:
Sutta:
Tah:
Theravda:
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Ti-lakkhaa:
Upekkh:
Upekkh-vedan:
Ubosot:
Vassa:
Glossary
Vedan:
Vinaya:
Vipassan:
Viriya:
Wat:
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SOURCES:
cariya Mun Bhridatta Thera: a Spiritual Biography,
by: cariya Mah Boowa asampanno; translated by
Bhikkhu Dick Slaratano. Udon Thani: Forest Dhamma
of Wat Pa Baan Taad, 2003, Glossary, p. 487-496.