Godhead

My conception of godhead is of consciousness itself - specifically in its

state of eternal omniscience beyond conceptuality and intellect: mahamudra,
the state of awareness which produces buddhahood when stabilized. This is
the direct experience of absolute truth: gnostic awareness. This is not the
cliche subjective truth which concedes that "life is whatever you make of it,"
or "truth is whatever you find to be true." This is one specific eternal state of
awareness with distinct qualities. Words can never suffice to describe it since
it is above all experiential in nature. I have had fleeting glimpses of this state
but only by artificial means. A specific neurotransmitter biosynthesized in the
human brain directly corresponds with this state, so consuming that
substance is the most easily accessible means to produce it but is not a good
way to stabilize it. Artificially inducing godhead is also likely to cause
premature realization that can be psychologically damaging or exceptionally
challenging at the very least since one may have not endured the rigorous
spiritual training necessary to properly integrate the experience. This
chemical substance can be artifically synthesized or extracted from certain
plants but I won't say more than that. It is much more beneficial to produce it
endogenously with shamanic or yogic techniques.
Perhaps the most time tested and meaningful way to attain this state
(to produce it organically and stabilize it rather than merely "inducing" it
artificially) is by the methods of yoga - especially kundalini and guru yoga.
With kundalini, yogis practice special physical and psychic exercises designed
to awaken the energy of the subtle body, journeying up the central channel
and activating each chakra until godhead is attained in the ajna "third eye"
and sahasrara or crown chakra. With guru yoga, a student engages with a
teacher in such rigorous study, personal development, and devotion, that the
student develops a direct psychic link with the guru. This direct link allows
the guru, who has already stabilized and mastered mahamudra, to transmit
gnostic awareness directly to the student in what is known as "pointing out"
instruction. The pointing out can be unexpectedly simple in practice sometimes literally just pointing the finger at some object or at nothing, or
snapping, or the utterance of a word or mantra. The diligence, discipline, and
wisdom of creating the conditions by which this one sudden action can
transmit the state of mahamudra to the student is what makes this seemingly
simple act so effective.
From my own limited, artificially induced experience, I have struggled
to find words that come close to describing some qualities of this state of
mind. I find myself having to rely on such esoteric terms as absolute knowing,
eternity beyond time, blissful ecstasy, awesome terror, etc. Perhaps the most

peculiar quality of all was a sense of profound familiarity - a kind of divine

sense of nostalgia - that this was the most familiar experience I've ever
known and I have felt it before in the countless times that "I" have died and
transitioned back to this eternal awareness.
Consider consciousness as if one of the senses. The eyes are the sense
organs which mediate vision. The brain is the sense organ which mediates
consciousness. I choose my words precisely here to not state that the sense
organs produce the senses, but only mediate or process them. Eyes require
the right amount of light to see as clearly as possible. Imagine the mind itself
shrouded in relative darkness as if the body and brain actually produce
something like a state of slumber for consciousness compared to the vivid
clarity of wakefulness revealed in death. The mind is necessarily limited in its
capacity by the brain, whose specific function is specialized for navigating
this plane. The state of mahamudra then is like the eye opening, or the mind
waking from slumber, and taking in a dramatically altered experience of
absolute clarity.
Perhaps an even better analogy is like the clarity of visibility cast over
the earth when the sun rises at dawn. When the right conditions allign, the
eye has the necessary light to produce far greater clarity of vision. When the
right conditions allign in the brain - in mystical states, out-of-body or neardeath experiences, and in death - it dramatically enhances the vivid clarity of
consciousness itself. Absolute clarity of consciousness is revealed. Nature of
mind blossoms like a lotus. It is not "knowing" every little particular thing
such as "this and that," but the direct experience of eternal omniscience beyond all concept and transcending space and time. This state is ever
present even right now however obscured by the limitations of the conscious
mind, and concealed or guarded as if for our protection by the mysterious
Unconscious.