Detachment

5-14-16
Am I the person my parents are expecting from me? Am I loved by them? Am I
special? Do they really care about me? Do they really care about my emotions? Can
they understand me? Did they feel my long for them?
No parents are perfect right? But they can be perfect through Jesus. How can they
be so insensitive?
I grew up as a child, deprived from love. I never really feel how it is to be loved by a
father never really feel to be defended by a mother. Those are two things Ive been
asking for from my parents. Theyve never really cared about my tears. All they care
about is the so-called family, but I as an individual I am slowly getting broken inside.
It pains me to just remain quiet in front of them though my heart wanted to speak.
It pains me to remain quiet when all I wanted is to talk to them heartily. Every time I
wanted to speak up, my emotions run through my tears. Every time I planned to
speak up, my fears are paralyzing me. Thinking that my parents couldnt be so
wrong, perhaps! But .. but but Im tired. So Im making my way out and far from
them. I cant stand to talk with them. Im not angry at them, nor mad at them. Its
just that I got hurt, really hurt, yes really hurt by them. DETACHMENT