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BY AN UNKNOWN DISCIPLE
BY AN
UNKNOWN
"He
DISCIPLE
johiU Yttoy^
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"My
travel."
humanity
road by which
men must
Suso.
NEW YORK
DOUBLEDAY, DORAN & COMPANY, Inc.
GARDEN CITY
THE NEW
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AS
TILDEN
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Copyright, 1919,
By
BY AN UNKNOWN DISCIPLE
UNKNOWN
BY AN
JOHN
MARK
what
DISCIPLE
he wrote
down
then,
and
madman
How,
then, did he
know enough
of course,
were
to tell
he heard the
He
teller.
He
and
true.
that even
You
when people
man
could never
it
they
make Peter
believe
may
still
speak falsehood.
By
an
Unknown
Disciple
it
happened.
He
he was sure
Peter never
listen.
They
liked their
so,
own way
one day
it
of seeing the
would
If
prevail.
it
and
were the
So
kept
By
and
Unknown
an
Disciple
the headlands.
to sleep,
group.
The
in a little
was purple
was broken only by
stillness
but
do not know
if
God
near,
and
followed in silence.
and
its
When we
way towards
us.
The
of
all ages
only with
ate, pigs
grunted in anger as
Jesus stood
he smiled.
still
When
it
By
10
"No," he
He
said,
They
clean'?
an Unknown Disciple
"why should we
man came
turned as a
is
it
them un-
call
we
all are."
There are
man
him
looked
and the
speaking.
"They
are possessed
their flesh
night.
are
Jesus.
could
it
fierce
tear
demons?" asked
"What
They
It is
"How
by demons.
They
are too
to be tamed."
tried to
Jesus.
"Yes,
Rabbi.
He
saw.
break a chain of
field flowers.
Then he
ran,
foam-
silent.
By
an
Unknown
and
it
was
man
spoke again,
made excuse.
demons make the man
as if
"Rabbi, the
11
Disciple
he
him now.
He
Men
goes naked."
"Have men
way
to
he asked.
"What
man.
"There
Let us try
other
way
is
there,
is
"Come.
it,"
back.
"Rabbi," he faltered.
He
panions,
ward
again.
me
answered.
The
and
and doubting, they, too, folThe swineherds, who had drawn near to
lowed.
pigs rooting
It
men, and
left their
and grunting.
to the tombs,
we reached
By
12
"Do men
an
live
Unknown
Disciple
"My name
is
many
pos-
sessing me."
"Why
mons?"
said Jesus.
By
Unknown
an
it,"
13
Disciple
"It
was
who
ture
me
said
it
again
if
men
came
behind, seeing
quieted,
nearer.
men
his
clothes,
"There
You
you now.
is
none that
body with
away."
The man
to stand back.
at peace!" he said.
will torment
your
him
fell
on
his face,
his
like straws
"Fear
is
and
was
in fear."
from you."
"I will."
him and
fled.
And
And
it
out
led
remembered
their swine,
cliff.
By
14
Unknown
an
Disciple
We
some of them."
They ran warily, one to each end of the cliff
(knowing the nature of swine and how they refuse to be driven save where they wish to go),
meaning to get between the swine and the sea;
but the other men being ignorant and unskilful,
in danger.
shall lose
down
the hillside
them come
turned quickly and rushed in a mass to-
wards the
sea.
"You
The swineherds
cliff
sea.
drowning
"It
is
in the
them now.
It
"How
It
could
is
your fault."
We
had but
they are
We
left
all lost
cannot save
And
they men-
But
the
men answered
we
tell
fault.
We
came
back:
By
you say
it
had spoken
an Unknown Disciple
was our
15
fault."
to Jesus about
suddenly
"It
is
the devils.
them
the Rabbi,
derstand.
"It
other.
could
must be
"We
By
will go
we watch
see that it
this
so,"
said
and
against
our master.
demons?
He
How
will surely
By
16
an
Unknown
Disciple
as if they
"Will any
man
When
thing.
away out of
their country,
boats.
And
the poor
madman came
too,
and
home.
at
tell
them of
all
God
has
By
an
Unknown
Disciple
17
"They
will
The
was well
It was sin
It
to keep them."
But he
not heed
said
when
no word to
Jesus,
I tried to tell
and he would
what kind of
devil
LUKE was a
just
He
his fellow
men
mind
to theirs.
He
It
he loved Jesus.
and
He
that, I think,
leant
was why
on him, finding
rest
By
him from
an Unknown Disciple
own
19
his
uncertainty.
it.
how
The
Pharisees
What
Romans
we can
tie their
disputing their
So,
authority.
too,
they
who
men
who
like Peter,
whose
They hated
Jesus,
men
to
By
20
him
in
an
Unknown
Disciple
in the
wrong
Were you
Peter's
"No,"
"a
answered,
it if
man
of Peter's trade
hands clean."
his
was by the
lake,
stained robes.
They
others as well.
Andrew,
When
too,
fill
By
(and no
man
an Unknown Disciple
likes to
21
it
Their
hands are
defiled.
Jesus looked at
He
was an
'It is
who
now, for he
God's
commandment
that
you
working
is
and mother.
Is it
honour
not
your
?'
not to be clean.
toil
it
was
also the
law
I cried,
Then he
said:
Which
is
better?
To
eat with
hands soiled
ents, like
in the service of
your par-
By
22
Unknown
an
neglecting to serve
Is
Does
them?
God
to pay-
when you
by giving to him
what ought
it suffice
lip-service to
ger?
Disciple
to keep others
from want?'
do not know
Temple
you?"
if
Jesus
knew of
much
him
is
What
think
I asked.
"There was
High
Priest praised
talk about
when
it
the
spoken," I said.
"He
must be
his
own
evil
it
as
thoughts and
all
him end
the imaginations
in evil deeds.
Eat-
his soul
untouched."
Bv
others.
separating himself
we had reached
By
Unknown
an
group of
men
23
Disciple
we saw a
standing.
to join Jesus
and the
others.
and idly
ears of corn,
away
the
There
is
from the
chaff,
and
it is
pleasant to eat.
now?'
The spokesman
old
man
grain.
"What have
they fastened on
a.
lips.
tall,
He
pointed to Peter.
ciples
is
dis-
bath?"
Jesus's eyes followed the gesture of the Phari-
it
in his face,
By
24
Unknown
an
Disciple
sun,
rejoices
in life.
read what
own
them
trap.
It
mocks
as friend
"Do you
was
as if he
friend.
Temple with
his
friends
Priest to give
Priest
asked?"
The
No man
gave back
"And do not
still
smiling.
Temple break
and yet
are not
counted guilty?"
"It
is
eagerly.
"Why
said
and
rest
week.
now
Is
"They have
toiled all
the week,
God?"
By
"They
an
Unknown
25
Disciple
the servants of
men
sourly.
God?"
answer.
"They
And
The
murmured agreement.
God
yourselves, for if
you were
his
friends
By
26
was
Unknown
an
Disciple
his face
sad.
"The Pharisees
own
their
seek to
all
tie
men down by
rules," he said,
man
"Only the
Jesus.
rules to
which a
The
own
their
all,
is
lost," said
man
consents
Pharisees
make
men.
he answered:
"All
are
Law
put the
The
if
who
men
ar
from
man
know
it.
that
They
is
holden."
questioned
all
still
more, he said:
By
Unknown
an
Disciple
low men,
let
him
sure he
far
is
cast
make him
himself?
them
27
out, for he
is
may
be
divided from
his fellows."
they,
and they
silent then,
and love
his neigh-
By
this
time
looked round.
The
a man.
pushing
his
old,
as
he pushed
his
if seek-
his
arm
is
withered.
tie
would be healed,"
the
man
He
seeks Jesus.
who had
finished
his prayer,
By
28
and,
stood
Unknown
an
Disciple
and looked
at Jesus.
He
spoke no
knew
that the
man
arm
Then he
to
No man
help.
his
if
gaze
seeking
man:
all
men and
his
misery
made
manifest.
if,
"Is
it
Jesus spoke:
May
save
life,
or only
destroy it?"
No
suffer.
Once more,
By
an Unknown Disciple
their faces,
and
and
as if a lightning
29
lit
up,
was
Ill
He
know
"But, Simon,
is
a follower of
flesh.
His
By
an Unknown Disciple
31
"He
is
John had
They
say he consorts
makes
much with
and
who
If he be a prophet, he will
yourself.
manner of women
He
outcasts.
see for
know what
and
He
there.
Mary
Mary,
me more
of this Jesus.
was on the
of Magdala,
like
Simon, knew
She could
all.
Mary's house,
and there
who
like
tell
Ra-
found her in
making play
hab's,
wall,
woman, upright
raven's wing,
beautiful,
when
men around
too,
as a flame,
she was
When
her.
with a
moved
little
with hair
Her
like
voice
was
hoarse break in
it
eyes.
I told her I
had come
she answered
By
32
an Unknown Disciple
wave of her hand towards her
scornfully with a
companions.
"They
He
who aped
fop
is
new Prophet.
Boman way
the
We
so new.
cried Sadoc, a
young
of speech.
"He
fore."
'Old prophet or
new
Mary,
Prophets come not
prophet,"
"it
my
way."
said
said the
man. "But
new Prophet
for condemnation.
when they
there
they
at first he
pressed
When
him
in
Mary
first
stone."
looked up suddenly.
By
Unknown
an
33
Disciple
say
that*?''
"Of
course
woman?
not,"
Mary
What happened
"And
echoed.
the
to her?"
still lives."
Law
take
Is it
Why
not the
the Prophet?"
again.
like
say his
name was?"
see
how
beautiful you
Mary
shortly
see the
By
34
an
Unknown
is
Disciple
different.
are."
Mary
rose suddenly
from her
carpet, flinging
man," she
her house.
"Stay, Mary," cried Sadoc.
leaving
back to
in,
Mary's
"That
fool
Mary
is
"How,
asked.
He
any man.''
By
an
Unknown
35
Disciple
"He
told
me
he had dancing
Why
girls.
not
man
with a laugh.
in,
lingered,
hoping to
see
him
again.
my
is
companion
we
many
and I could
not see Simon. I separated from my companion
and stood apart, waiting for Simon to show me
my place. As I waited I searched the faces if
perchance I might be able to pick out the Prophet
from the other men before Simon came and
Inside there were
It
is
people,
always an interest to
gloomy or gay,
were talking, some
ugly,
subtile or foolish.
silent,
most were
Some men
in
washed
By
86
Unknown
an
Disciple
My
on a group of men
in a corner
and stopped,
ar-
me
held
who
rested
men knew.
my
The
soul.
his eyes,
and
me to pity.
"He seeks friends.
And my heart leapt
"He
He
is
asks
lonely," I thought.
somewhat of me."
within me.
The
eyes held
to answer.
come
in,
for there
By
Unknown
an
Disciple
37
the guests
I
He
What
asks some-
Would
it?
is
he
came and
sat beside
When
but, after
me
he saw
he
my
"You have
buked me to
Mary
my
face,
"Mary
There
is
has
some-
He
re-
my
party
is
spoilt."
"What
has happened?"
I asked.
saw.
You
always crooked."
and her
eyelids swollen.
By
38
Simon
an
up
rose
Unknown
to
meet
her,
Disciple
but before he could
"Do
"He
rebuked
meant but to
look upon the Prophet, but Sadoc's perfume was
in my hand and I could not help myself."
me
to
my
muttered Simon.
"And well you deserved it, Simon. You offered him no honour. You gave him no kiss. No,
not even wherewithal to wash the dust from his
He
feet.
why
See, I
all.
harlot
is
did
it.
better than
no
am weeping
And
again."
"How
said
I to
room.
"He
And
my
am
He
sins.
said
But
a sinner.
"You
Sadoc
"How
can
Mary,"
by the
sleeve.
when
cried
have
By
"You
an Unknown Disciple
39
disgust.
Mary
"You
You
fool!
you cannot
knows the
see he
is
fool!
He
He
harlot.
will never
And
a giving.
have
know, for
it
And
in return.
never
till
this
"He
the
men.
"Are you
body.
she said.
of every
all
man? He
If he
makes me
his friend
he will never
desert me."
"How do
Mary?" asked
seen him."
Mary
looked bewildered.
about him,
By
40
"Was
asked,
Mary
Disciple
it
my
Unknown
an
Mary?"
me in amazement.
"How did you know? Were you there? He
looked at me, and I know not what came upon me.
It
turned to
seemed
thought, or
me.
were not so
as if life
men
so wicked.
I go,
as
as if
he called
was
It
but
had
evil
know
must
follow."
must
too went. As I
up
to go, a dark
man
mind.
passed
alone.
did not
He
as
my
he
thirty
pieces of silver.
I
came forth
"Who
is
that
that
has
passed?"
asked.
"That? Oh,
man. "He, too,
that
is
is
a follower of Jesus."
IV
day
THE
was dawn,
was not
it
Men
in the town.
told
me
came to
was room.
went
out,
hoping that by
might
edge.
lingered,
All around
away and
me men were
had
cast out,
some saying
number of
this
and some
seen her.
"I thought she might be outside with Jesus,"
he
said.
They say
it is
closed.
By
42
"But, Sadoc,"
pute.
Is
"He
of
"these are
women
of re-
likely
is
his,
dom
I said,
Disciple
Mary?"
such as
"It
it
Unknown
an
and now they follow him. What a kingOutcasts and publicans mixed together with
men!"
preached the kingdom
"None but
Sadoc.
the
mad
cried
but
men
"How
I replied.
said Sadoc.
"He
is
and
a carpenter himself."
asked;
They
dom.
that
old,
told
me
Jews.
is
too serious.
The Romans
now
Nicodemus
is
are wiser.
They
live their
By
Unknown iDisciple
an
^ll
ill
43
,.
...
tell
He was
He
go to him.
By
this
time
it
found Nico-
down to eat. He
asked me to join him, and when food had been
put before us I told him why I had come.
demus
the
and that he
Romans,"
"Sadoc
is
is
I said.
Roman
"It
it is
is
true
not true
rule, or that I
"What
is
kingdom?"
I asked.
By
44
Unknown
^_Disciple
an
__^__^__^ ^
.
"Sadoc says
more dangerous
is
it
than
that
preached by John."
govern their
lives.
Jesus
is
"What,
then,
is
this
kingdom?"
asked.
is
hard to explain," he
Jesus
is
men
all
said.
I cried,
his doctrine
"seeing the
is
that that
Romans
rule
Judea?"
him of
this
see the
when
wondered, asking
again
when he was
if a
man
man
could
again,
and
could be born
man was
By
Unknown
an
45
Disciple
dom."
it is
"but he seemed
to think that
was that
if
He
inner certainty,
him
questioned
his statements;
when he spoke of
how
When
as to
if
spoke out of an
if
and
earth-
he spoke of
heavenly?"
"What
did he
mean by that?"
I asked.
at least,
was how
I think,
understood him.
and
He
has the
his teaching
is
cer-
God."
his follower?"
I said.
up
all
duties
to follow him.
many
By
46
an
Unknown
Disciple
up to go,
"I have it in my mind that I may become a follower of Jesus. I go to seek him now, to ask of
And Nicodemus answered sadly:
this kingdom."
"You are young, and I am old. I do not say
that if I were thy age, and not a Ruler of Israel,
Go, and God be with
I would not do likewise.
"Well, Nicodemus,"
I said, as I rose
you."
some mules
When
in the distance,
reached them I
"But
By
Unknown
an
others,
47
Disciple
whom
knew
later I
to be Peter, answered
"He
out.
has taught
He
The
come a
all
day, and by
now he
is
tired
servants
and that
one so rich should be honoured, and one of them
beckoned to Peter and said in his ear
"The Prophet will not like it if you keep him
back.
He comes to know what office he may
hold in the kingdom."
Peter wavered, and one of his companions
John, I think said, "We must not send them
day's journey to see the Prophet,
away.
Peter, undecided
me what
still,
he said."
turned to
me and
asked
wanted.
"We
shall find
him
where
we
all
climbed, and
upon
to
set,
Jesus.
it
By
Jesus
By
48
an
Unknown
Disciple
footsteps.
to speak
to see them."
Then he
in the
Keep these."
have observed them all,"
command-
ments of Moses.
"I
man.
"There
is
young
said the
"Thou
"What
else
do
lack?"
and
young man.
silence,
young man
as he
spoke
"There
is still
Go
and
sell
JWI
all
-By
.1.1.
Unknown
an
I
49
Disciple
-
Ill
.I.
moved
uneasily,
head, as
on the ground.
The
him
si-
servants
if
and stood
not.
his
Jesus
spoke again:
"How
is it
yourself?
Is
as
hill.
Jesus watched
"How
dom
hard
it is
of God.
tired
I tell
it is
easier
Simon was
"Who,
man
to
come
astonished.
he asked.
"God
is
is
the
possible,"
all
By
50
an
Unknown
Disciple
"Good master
me.
"Do
not
God," he
me
call
No
'good.'
and suddenly
said,
one
is
good but
and
he questioned:
He
watched
for a
smiled.
went away," he
"So will not
"What!
said,
me
I," I
Though
little,
"All that
so he
said.
answered.
you, too, have riches?" he
mocked a
believe,
in his eyes
as if he
have
is
yours,"
I replied,
and then
was
my
friend.
hard.
up
their heads,
and the
work
"I have a
me
your help.
me who
I told
trust
him
and he looked
wont was. "I ask
to do," he said,
me
I
it,
but when
can deliver
men
was proud to be of
his
company,
By
52
an
Unknown
Nathaniel came
ciples.
too,
Disciple
women and
visions,
On
the
who
profirst
how
of
she
had
it
it is
not needful.
all
men
him
into
For
"Why,
give his
asked.
"It
was
his relatives
who would
not believe,"
"We
believed
of his mind."
John
said,
By
an
Unknown
53
Disciple
all
mystery that
in
is
He
forgets
everybody."
We
is.
saw
seen
is
how
no ex-
great
it."
him
back.
The
forests of oak,
and
and
corn-fields.
its
olive gardens,
its
its
vineyards,
The
The
other dis-
ciples
By
54
Unknown
an
now and
Disciple
talk.
then to regard
us,
as if
much of
Jesus
It
was
from those who had been with him from the be-
ginning.
told me.
all
agree in
what they
baptizing," he began.
let
him
finish,
but interrupted,
saying,
"He
lake
when
was
me
at Jerusalem,
but at the
fishing."
at the
Jordan too,"
It
"What
does
when
and
silent,
see
a great
like
al-
if
any
Nazareth."
By
"It
a dirty
is
said Peter.
ings in
an Unknown Disciple
it
little village,
and built
in a hole,"
And John
said,
"The
hills
freedom
find
55
But go
there.
A man
on, Nathaniel.
can
Tell
us more."
He
cian.
many
a magi-
followed
"They work
by the power of the Devil. Jesus works only by
the power of God. What you tell us is nothing
compared to what I have seen him do. But see,
the people are coming out from the villages. The
women must have told them that Jesus is here."
We looked, and saw that from all quarters the
people seemed to be coming towards our moun"Magicians are
tain.
tell
away up
him.
yet a long
way
off,
and after
56
"What
By
an
his
powers are
"Though he
He
is
Unknown
Disciple
care not," he said.
way
am
men
can-
a simple
man
that
when
forget
It
belongs to
me
can never
then."
to Nathaniel.
his."
"The people
gently.
listen because
life to
them."
I asked,
and Nathaniel
am
replied
wonder
if
it."
"He
does
we were
silent
and spoke
as they
By
an
Unknown
The
villages.
Disciple
57
and
makers,
and needlemakers,
smiths.
potters,
dyers,
seemed
as if all the
down
and
in peace to listen.
the
air.
By
58
an Unknown Disciple
fell a
great
si-
lence.
"I have a
new
thing to
tell
you," he said.
"I
clear,
"You
all
know
it
was
not so?'
assent,
men
saying one
on the Sabbath
in the synagogues.
Then they
"The message
By
Unknown
an
59
Disciple
The
judges,
treasurers
who rule over men, will not welcome it. For God has commanded me to tell you
that his Kingdom is already here; yea, though
you know it not, it is now in your midst."
sheriffs
and
all
There was a
moved
like a
stir in
wave of
men
leant for-
to hear.
to
me
me
to
who
those
God
tell
He has sent me
me
to
you who
He
all
all
who
who
are in slavery,
has sent
me
to
labour
suffer.
and told
to comfort
and
to give joy
ashes.
for
goodness,
to
the
clean-minded,
for
God
to
thirst after
those
who
It is to these
speaks."
He paused
for a
moment.
its
Far
off
on the moun-
^ By an Unknown
60
Disciple
still-
ness.
No
men
you
the Kingdom,
deliver to
mandment
if
is
is
to say
And
you?
Do
not
all
outcasts do this?
Our
ancestors ordained,
'An
wrong.
You must
you
would wish them to act to you. If you have injured a man, it does not help you to be sorry for
If you have done a
it if he hurts you back again.
wrong, it does not make you haste to repair it if
men do another wrong to you. I say unto you
that wrong can never be appeased by wrong. It
can be swallowed up and blotted out by kindness
only. Therefore, you must be gentle to those who
___
an Unknown Disciple_.
By
j
61
Kingdom
of God."
"To what
who sows
it.
It is like
He knows
not
his seed,
how
it
So
is
the growth
of love.
"When
dom will
all
men
be fully here.
up
war any
But they
ploughshares, and
more.
shall
beat
men
learn
their
rise
swords into
By
62
and war
I
Unknown
an
shall cease
Disciple
first
This, too,
love one
another."
He
ceased.
by one the
No man
stars
had begun
to shine
above
One
us,
in
your homes.
you."
aloud.
"Oh, Teacher,
womb
you suck."
Her words died on the
God
be with you."
air,
By
an
Unknown
63
Disciple
am
my
death.
him
It is
nigh
speak, but
Be
another.
who most
bitterly
wrong you."
VI
GALILEE
tour
a great
stir
is
we tramped
all
over
it,
At
first
it
who
and the
simple people said that a virtue went out from
him, so that their pains and aches left them, and
6a
suffered,
By
an Unknown Disciple
65
who was
the one
true
hold the
66
By
The God
God,
whom
Unknown
an
a free
man would
Disciple
be ashamed to wor-
if
man
God
if
When
he talked
God
asked
worth of the
life
of
men
when
saw that the people paid more heed to his healings than to his teachings, but I wondered when
I saw that many of the disciples did so too. Some
even of the Twelve when they spoke of his power
liked more to tell of the demons who had been
cast out, or of the lame who walked, and the
blind who saw, than to spread the news that God
only asked of
men
another.
Galilee, I
made
By
an
acquaintance with
Unknown
Disciple
67
all the
learnt to
know
cussions
their ways.
nature of each
man by
and
dis-
like
and a clash
arise,
gauge the
I learnt to
the
I
When
all
men
He
together.
went
way
well, for
of linking
kindliness
when we
discussed
it
before.
When
he was there,
all
most readily
their opposites,
how
else
who have
the gifts
By
68
an
Matthew had a
heed to the
He
Unknown
Disciple
letter of the
Law and
to the Prophets.
He
his opinions as
the cud.
Iscariot, too,
make than
Judas was a
careless
day
all that
He
they
planned
He
there,
Judas
was the only one who understood) would begin and would talk for long. He
(as if he felt Jesus
men as Jesus
if it
agreed or not.
did.
He
his
mind
as
He
was
satis-
By
fied
with his
an
Unknown
69
Disciple
to change
it.
self
in their courts,
seen
much
evil
If
it
but
never
Jew
would dominate over them and force his righteousness upon the world. Judas never doubted of the
righteousness of the Jews or of his own, and, indeed, he was righteous in that he seldom thought
of his own comfort. Yet, when I heard him talk I
felt that to gain his end he would spare neither
himself nor others, but would run his course as
a mad dog does, looking neither to right nor to
left.
if
he was angry.
Like a child,
and changing
Peter was
his opinions as his feelings changed.
not clever like Judas, and grew restive when mat-
and hating
ters
of.
He
By
70
an
Unknown
Disciple
Peter's assertion
On
the inner
his diffidence.
was
in
his
talk
ignored
even
Jesus;
but
Jesus was not angry, but watched Judas with interest, listening
Roman
system and of
The women of
how
we saw
little
of them, for
Mary
But some-
By
an
Unknown
^
Disciple
71
Mary
was the
It
first
at
first
like a
ment.
I sat
and when
see that
I
it
woman of the people in a coarse blue garHer hair was plainly braided, and there
face.
Mary laughed.
am no longer clad
still,
moment
"You
see I
like a
King's
"But your
clothes
"Yes; but
day
I shall
dom comes
their
wear
I
regret.
as beautiful,
wear
this,"
but
till
Some
the King-
coarse garment.
"Is not the
"Not
for
Kingdom
asked hastily,
"How
My
tears
can
be happy
till
my
soul
is
clean*?
my
By
72
Some of
Unknown
an
Disciple
had drawn
near, for Mary was like wine to men and they
Even now, when she no longer
still sought her.
the others seeing us talking
and excited
desires,
and
their minds,
till
she stirred
held them.
Peter, hearing the sadness in her voice, said in
his hasty
of self-importance
in his tone,
"Men do
per, answered,
me
I
or not.
know men
What
me
sins I
My
condemn myself.
lived a dirty life
is
"I
one,
"Why
I,
somewhat
the
surprised, said,
Kingdom cannot
By
an Unknown Disciple
73
be established so
There
easily.
is
too
much power
soon
may
See
be.
how
is
"I don't
"A
said Peter.
is
"The
You
are a Judean.
We
Romans.
You
think too
much
of the
in Gali-
lee."
"Is
it
"When
hear
it
Kingdom
is
here
already, I marvel if
dition of this
better
it.
do, the
be here.
But
there
"But that
John.
is
Kingdom without
unity."
teaches," cried
By
74
"Jesus
is
pose there
"What
an
wise.
Unknown
Disciple
He knows
is
thaniel.
cried out,
"He
He
wants to up-
"Can God
still
reign in
Judea
if
the
we
all
Romans
are
stood silent,
At
upon
us, said,
last, I,
come
He
does
is
kingdom of the
"But
it is
Matthew.
And
Peter,
"God
it,"
"But not
in
It
forth if
God
my
is
By
coming
is
an
to see
am
sure
it
75
Disciple
Mark
too.
One day he
talked to him.
"I
Unknown
will
do
it."
thaniel.
"Why
out,
"Here
is
Jesus himself.
down
the mountainside,
and
we
all
went out
to
into speech.
Judas would
"Master!
rid us
of
all
oppres-
sors."
He
"What
turned to Judas,
down on
op-
a big stone
to hear.
"The
"You have
said Judas.
judgment
in
the province.
if
the
"By
"By
thrusting
them into
By
76
By
the sea.
an
Unknown
Disciple
When
Judas
height on which
we
villages
and
its
stood,
its
signs of the
towns,
its
works of men,
of the sea.
He
as if to gather strength,
to Judas,
like
and
his face
was
full of graciousness,
None came,
Judas,
fell silent,
we
all,
even
VII
SOMEWHERE
we
the coast,
from
way
to
village to village,
Way
Damascus
to the
Matthew knew
Roman
this
it
seaport of Ptolemais.
and
lake,
its
at
way
lay
Capernaum
and the
had
sat at its
who
used
it.
its
Jesus
upkeep on
knew
it
tolls
all the
too, for it
had spent
his
cities
much
Via
amongst us of these
and of other roads which the Romans had paved;
for at one time or another we had all travelled
along them, and there is no talk so engrossing as
talk
77
By
78
Unknown
an
Disciple
Jesus told us of
how
as a boy,
had loved to walk the miles that lay between Nazareth and the great road to the East, merely to sit
by the roadside and watch the traffic that passed
along
and
it.
He
of the Empire.
"You may
see in a day's
We
ment
it,"
all
he said.
proaching caravan.
"They go
to
thew answered,
"The Romans have made all travel easy. I always say that from Damascus you may now reach
Baghdad and the Indies as easily as a man may
go from Jerusalem to Jericho."
"Easier!
Iscariot,
but Jesus, as
if
By
"The road
to
Damascus
salem to Jericho
may
Unknown
an
is
Disciple
79
is
lurk."
He
led the
way
we walked on
with dim forms loom-
it
that
bans of the
and
their
tur-
ropes of hair,
One trudged
chests.
The
on the
flank.
men and
The
camels.
upon
Ptolemais or to Tyre.
Then
and of
and the
soft
"Such
it
grow small
sights held
in the distance.
By
80
along
an Unknown Disciple
this
oil
and balm,
fine
and embroidered goods, iron, cassia and calamus, white wool, ivory and ebony," he quoted
linen
as if he loved the
this road."
too,
bitterly.
"That caravan
Jordan by the
all
is
being
ing.
We
and descended to
the coast plain to a village where the women, who
had gone on before us, had prepared places for
v/ent on towards the sea,
us to sleep.
many
way
guests
into his
to welcome us.
"May
a blessing rest
upon
this
house," said
Jesus.
"May
You
are wel-
By
come,
Unknown
an
the
said
sir,"
showed us where
to
sit,
woman.
were
The head-man
his wife
us.
began to pre-
It
thin,
was
81
and
of a hard-working family.
stalls
Disciple
The
clothing of the
woman
offered to us generously
much
too, as if the
grain.
Jesus asked
if
she
had
was poor,
children,
fall.
bright-eyed girl
fore them.
"Here
are
the children,"
all
them to keep
quiet.
The boys
seeing Jesus
By
82
an Unknown Disciple
in the place of
honour
sat still
two
and
bread.
"You must
munched her
am
afraid
she will weary you, sir," she said, but Jesus put
his
arm round
"Do
the child
and
said,
Kingdom
of
Heaven
belongs."
When we
had
head-man
said to Jesus,
"You
are a Prophet,
your message.
hear you, but
Many
we
sir,
are poor
find
By
he
said,
an Unknown Disciple
know what
and
new
my
have done
things stored
my
by
shall
grain.
When
I will eat
ease.
my
store all
this,
down
I will pull
I will do.
enough to
ones, large
83
and
will take
to that rich
man and
am
going to
said,
"
take
'You
fool
away your
soul,
you have
laid by?'
all
"
it
look.
"That
your
is
why
who do not
what you
said.
if
nor
eat,
Can
are to wear.
is
seek to add
moment? So
thing, why be
lay by
life here,
who
this smallest
life.
one
Is
not
God
life
a greater gift than food, and your body more wonderful than
its clothes'?
that
By
84
you need
an
Unknown
Disciple
also to you*?"
The
to interest.
He
sighed as
and listened
if in relief
"Think of the
They have
reap.
ravens.
or
to
as precious
of the wild
not
toil
lilies
or spin,
"If
God
O woman
of
lit-
faith?"
The
eyes of the
woman
filled
with
but she
tears,
If she asked a
fish,
would
gifts,
will not
God,
who is all good, give you help when you ask it?"
The woman wiped the tears from her eyes with
a corner of her ragged
veil,
but she
still
did not
By
speak.
leant
an
Unknown
Disciple
85
to his lap,
and was
his shoulder.
fast asleep
Way
we
also,
steal
of
What
it.
this
think you %
If
if
The man of
from
his back.
He
It
was
as if
their hearts.
in
I tell
By
86
an
Unknown
Disciple
'Come unto me
all you who toil and bear burdens, and I will give
you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn to
be gentle and lowly minded. Walk in the good
way, and you shall find rest for your souls.' For
God's yoke is easy, and burdens borne for him feel
cares for you.
God's message
is,
light."
He
ceased speaking.
herself,
and
The small
half-lifting her
head from
girl
roused
his shoulder
me more
"Tell
manded, and
laughed, and
rose from his
"It
is
We
all
And
then
we
all
new peace
went to our
rest.
VIII
ON
our
way
to
that city.
gate.
see
outside, sooth-
make
who
no man, stepped slowly forth, bobbing their heads. It was some time before all was
clear, and we could pay our tolls and pass through
the small gate into the city.
This sea-town was
full of foreigners, and speech with them was difficult, for though Jesus and some others of us
knew Greek, we did not speak it as our mother
haste for
tongue.
The
settled inhabitants
to listen to teaching,
and the
sailors
were
full of
see
the sights.
The
By
88
sheep.
The
an
air
Unknown
was
filled
Disciple
Near
herded them.
men who
shep-
we watched while
their dou-
on
them from
houses.
When
rising
till
men had
tied
its
knee was
Roman
as
fore-
we went
we met a squad
temple.
Greek took
this city.
It
has
knew much
history.
By
an
Unknown
89
Disciple
Matthew made
reply.
the work.
They
foreigners,
and through
their
hands of
open seaports
all
No
tired the
sights.
we could hear
way
out to sea.
Many
By
90
Unknown
an
Disciple
blood
and he was
way from
we could reach the beach. I alone followed, and we walked along the sand in the direction of Tyre. When we had got some way from
by
steps,
Ptolemais, so that
distance, with
down on
its
roofs only
showed
in the
we sat
others. The
them,
foam on the shore. After the turcity there was soothing in the roar of
in long lines of
moil of the
it
all.
Once he
said, half
"God
is
holy in
all his
fell
silent again.
By
with
for
all
an
rest,
were to
so they threw
sandhills
We
sleep in a village
91
Disciple
we had
night,
Unknown
down on
themselves
tall
the
ate.
all
we
the wonders
if
And
so, as
we
had
seen,
He
and of the
told of
how
ters
to
Alexander Balas
in
lit-
to be married
is
the
him.
now
And
then
lemais.
ery
upon
Rome, and
By
92
an
Unknown
Disciple
if
he
"Our
rulers
an-
a Deliverer."
"We
rising will
we
"How
gers*?"
"It
our
power they
own
do.
We
replied,
Romans hold
do not govern
the
as well as
they."
"It
now
Do
is
the
I
us to
their
our
rulers, I tell
High
Priest
is
"Even
a friend to Pilate.
know.
would like
follow the custom of the Romans, who make
Emperors gods and worship them. And
Pilate
By
an
Unknown
93
Disciple
Look
how
the conquerors
bing them of
all
And
he went on to
tell
of
man was
se-
and
rebels.
Jude,
who were
shep-
how
talk,
and
their sheep,
These things we
tell
more
tales,
all
knew,
and urged
listening,
now
having
silted
a causeway,
Then he
no end
men from
to the con-
fire
that
said,
was
and
in
his
him,
By
94
Unknown
an
He
must take
it
man
Disciple
for himself.''
"You
shall
these," said
Jesus.
"What deeds?"
cried
Peter,
if I
told
you now,"
low
it
"I have
no
And
then he
"When you
Do not be afraid.
What I teach you
light,
and what
Or hide
it
do you put a
the housetops."
"Then why
will
you not
tell
us
now?"
said
Peter.
"Your mind
is
and you
Take care how you
By
an
Unknown
95
Disciple
At
last
he
said,
"It
is
not good to
let
then he
we
rose,
:
and shaking
"Come,
it is
time
5 '
fall.
Judas walked with me, but he was silent too, his face dark and gloomy. Once he muttered to himself, "Playing with children and with
meaning.
was
late
The woman
"There
this place.
is
saw how
a
woman
tired
he was,
of
sir."
By
96
an
Unknown
Disciple
Her
face
in great distress.
as she looked
up
at him.
"Sir," she said, "I hear
have the
gift of healing.
entreat you to
you
are a Prophet,
My
daughter
and
is ill.
her."
"Oh,
sir, I
her hands.
but his
"Do you
think
The woman
it
it
fair to take
the children's
to dogs?"
Her
bright eyes
brimmed
"No,
their lids,
sir,
tears that
down
bowed
"You
are a witty
woman.
Of
course I will
By
an
Unknown
Disciple
woman
said,
him away.
and the
heard aright
97
from her
IX
was under the cedars of Lebanon, where HerIT mon
looks down on the sources of the Jordan,
that Jesus told us of the great deeds he asked from
his followers.
We
had
towns far
us.
The country
was not
now
safe to leave
them unguarded.
At
this
It
had
left us.
we walked
and the freedom of the wide views around had restored them to another mind. Peter had ceased to
talk of the sights he
had seen
98
By
an
Unknown
99
Disciple
its
island
site,
of the
him
We
had skirted the new town of Csesarea Philippi which Philip had built, passing the grotto
where the Greeks worshipped their god Pan. We
had seen on a hill spur the white marble temple
which Herod the Great had set up for the worship
of Augustus. And then we had climbed to the
cedar forest.
The
stillness here.
cedars
floods
fell
into the
valley.
We
gan
it.
there.
Judas
Iscariot be-
kingdom, had
418504
By
100
an
Unknown
Disciple
of
is
fig tree,
fig tree
brought forth
fig trees.
in par-
ables?'
And
"Shall
abler'
So he told us
By
an
Unknown
He
to travel to
101
Disciple
them
To
five
and to a
ents, saying,
me
five talents,
and
ten.'
"And
By
102
an
Unknown
Disciple
if
said,
I justified
myself?"
He
all
men
grumbled
as if
But
is
the great?
little,
who
will give
you
Begin
wax
great."
By
an
Unknown
103
Disciple
Judas
said,
"Men
They
prefer
repose."
I tell
you
sword on the
am
earth.
preached,
into
it.
It
and have
men everywhere
is
it
men
in greater fullness.
If a
should have
life
Think you
this
man
dom,
hold,
and even
he
who
men
is
own
house-
whom
am here
But
way
to be lawgivers to themselves,
daunted by any
man
is
and
not worthy of
me."
tell
you
said
we
should do."
Jesus looked at
at Judas,
and a
By
104
an Unknown Disciple
The
them
seemed
tion in
He
as
them Benefactors.
over those
who are
The
whom
men
seek
after power.
out in dismay.
Jesus turned to him.
"Do
justly.
The
Judge
is
and
truth,
and he gives us
is
love
By
an
Unknown
the giver of
is
^
i105
Disciple
all, is
the servant of
all."
Peter was
silent.
his
But Nathaniel
said,
And
Jesus answered,
darkened.
become
In truth
kingdom of God.
reign.
I tell
If a
man
He
you
that, unless
men
to the
learned."
to light?"
John
asked.
lives
an
it
he
up
By
106
ing;
Disciple
if
become
what
Unknown
an
blind.
know.
So
it is
with the
Heaven and
spirit.
speak
When
swayed slowly
The
in a sud-
bough cracked
in the forest a
For a time
They spoke of
themselves.
amongst
fell to talk
the crowds
who
fol-
say,
and
of what
risen
Baptizer, new-
disciple,
while another
said,
"I heard a
"No,
>ho had
was Jeremiah,"
it
"They
woman
all said
said a th'rd.
to
them and
said,
moment
mind seemed
By
to
make
Unknown
an
a jump,
and he cried
107
Disciple
Jesus looked at him, and there was a great affection in his eyes, but his voice
he spoke.
it
means to be a Messiah,
Peter?" he asked.
Jesus went on, speaking
man
"If a
man would
be a Deliverer he must be
ready to undergo
will be rejected
and the
cillors
priests
He
listen to him.
will be spat
on and despised;
He
last, it
may
ceased,
and began
life."
moment he
rallied
him-
to rebuke Jesus.
"You
on things
a
work
it is
God
to do,
finished.
does, but as
however great be
If a
my
distress before
to the plough
By
108
an
Unknown
Disciple
soul.'
Again he was
silent,
man
He who
kingdom.
take
up
his cross
wishes to be
the world a
life for
Where
man
is
the
who
is
men win
It
man
For
is
will
Can he earn
I tell
you that
my
sake has
life for
it is
by endurance that
Greek
man
life."
was
disciples
if
If a
kingdom he
enter the
he
cost.
follower must
my
was
speaks of
men
suffering
it
cities
the summer.
to
way
of the
THE
was
drawn up
for repair.
There was a
one corner of
tall
this
palms nodded
Capernaum was a
plenty of work for a
plumes together.
large town,
carpenter.
The
boats that
were the
fittings
tools of the
husband-
men who
the lake.
him in
the face, but of a heavier, harder make. The other
brothers, Simon and Judas and Joseph, were not
always at home, but came and went as the work
109
like
By
110
called.
The
Unknown
an
sisters
They were
much
his
how
talk of
message
first
had accepted
they could.
to him,
by
this
why
think
his living,
time they
he and his
it
was be-
it
village,
when
there.
came
for,
his teaching
I
Disciple
and
make
He
could teach as he
and go
who was
off to teach in
another
it,
draw water.
The beaten
and
By
those
Unknown
an
who were
ill,
Disciple
111
whole city
his door.
own
leaders
from
and
him
came
tell
Here, too,
lands.
new
more often
in the teaching.
And
to spy
teacher
had
here, too,
came
I to sit
with
was master
of flocks and of herds, of cornlands and vineyards,
but when I asked Jesus what way I was to deal
with them he shook his head and would not tell
that
summer
was hard
at work.
me.
"How
do*?" I urged.
had the
riches?" he asked. "You must do it for
How would you learn if I told you?"
"Must
could I teach
if
poor?"
of
cares
yourself.
questioned.
in
you
if
you
is
want?" he answered.
I felt Jesus himself would have given all away,
but I was of a different build, so I set to work
with Nicodemus, who was in some sort my guardian, and during all that summer I came back-
in
112
By
an Unknown Disciple
i^
to tell Jesus of
We
We
This was
all
it
was a
rest to
scorned
ploughshare, and to
together.
He
fit
"The oxen
are
If
By
an Unknown Disciple
fit
Therefore
113
it.
to
you love
If
work without
I take pains/'
how
well
his heart
it fits,
God
what then?
But
if it is
not
so,
man
with a wise
It
may
man
with
with eyes
like jewels,
knows that
if
man
is
it
talk.
he will
He
is
God
our
left to ourselves.
The
peo-
There was a
love.
They came
to
By
114
him with
and soul.
an
Unknown
No
matter
Disciple
how
got to
know
when
the
my
returned
ways
there
is
was
on the clean-
trees
heard Jesus
God
man.
I first
remember that
where
was on
a day when the peace of the courtyard had been
broken by the Pharisees. It was summer and dry
weather. The sun had shone all day long, and the
sky was as blue as the lake. When the day's work
was done Jesus had swept the chips and shavings
from the courtyard with the broom of twigs, and
Mary, the mother, had brought us out round bannocks of meal which she had just made, and bowls
of sour milk. Then, when the sun was low and
the palms showed like moulded metal against the
pale, still sky, the people had gathered one by one
speak of
in
it
By
They were
from the
Unknown
an
115
Disciple
lake,
who had
drawn up on the beach, and men from the tanneries and dyeworks who had brought their wives.
There were some merchants of the better sort, and
the courtyard was nearly full, when a party of
These were men of substance,
Pharisees arrived.
cheesemongers
much
tion
and
deference.
They were
all
the others
men
of posi-
respectable,
whom
one perfect
class.
As
their
their
watched them
Though a
cannot
There
no depth
is
lie
and
dis-
lines of
Amongst
and
these
his
men
for flattery.
They looked
from
side to side,
By
116
an Unknown Disciple
And
idle hour.
way
before their
palm
Some
trees.
"This
man welcomes
all
He
outcasts.
even
logs,
when
they had
on the only
seat,
resentment
in
amused look
this,
his
attitude,
There was no
but there
was an
in his eyes,
pressed closer
say.
"Cannot you yourself decide what is right without a miracle? When you see a cloud rising in
the west, straightway you say 'There
is
a shower
By an Unknown
You know how
pass.
to judge of earth
in this also
"But we want to
said the fat man.
117
Disciple
sky.
see a sign
He
and
4?''
if
sum up
he
men
Then
before him.
said,
"No
The
They leaned
Then one
tall,
said aloud,
"He
cannot do
it.
He
if
by the
is
powerless."
"How
kingdom stand ?
good
bad
tree
fruit.
Is
this,
said,
they heard
If he does,
not a tree
Will Satan
how can
known by
his
its fruits
know
By
118
and
fruit are
Unknown
an
Disciple
tree
and
fruit are
good."
The
Pharisees had
and
this tax-gatherer.
and give
One of
stifled it at once,
on,
and he smote
his breast
I tell
you
this
man
The uneasy-eyed
Pharisee, as
if
he feared a hurt
And Jesus
"I am not
but sinners.
this
answered,
here to call the righteous to repent,
Those who
any physician."
are well
do not need
By
"We
Unknown
an
119
Disciple
"You
take care.
greatly
And
Jesus said,
"Why
You
You pay
the tithes
He
were manifest to
all
if these
things
we
all
heard,
his
his
man
Are not
brothers Joseph and James and Simon, and
mother Mary? How comes he to talk like this
to us?"
By
120
The
an
Unknown
Disciple
"Listen.
rich
him and
said,
You
about you*?
'How
is it
So the master
To
and one by
debtors,
the
he said,
first
lord?'
And
the
oil.'
is
your
Sit
bill.
down
quickly and
'And you/
" 'Here
is
your account.
Change
it
to fifty-six,'
By
Unknown
an
121
Disciple
"That may be,'' answered Jesus, with tran"But such men are often wiser than you
quillity.
For they make friends for
children of light.
themselves, even with their sins, while you make
no
friends at
friends even
"You
you
it is
better to
make
go through
to
it is
I tell
all.
life friendless."
cried
the Pharisees.
"You
and he spoke
to fall also.
I tell
sternly,
will
The
their fellows,
less
than
teach
"The man
insane.
out,
srone.
When
silence
till
to
they had
had withdrawn,
'
By
122
and the
an
Unknown
Disciple
air
their leaven.
less,
is
Neverthe-
if
do not do anything
for they teach what they do not
to heart, but
practise."
A woman
cried out,
in her
voice,
"Do
Tell us your
own
And
Jesus answered,
"My
If
teaching
you do God's
is
will,
you
God
will learn
who
sent me.
whether the
or whether I
made
it
of
myself."
"When
shall
we
see the
kingdom come
to pass?"
will never be
found by
"You
is
the
within you.
find it."
Jesus answered.
'Lo, there
is
it,"
!'
By
an Unknown Disciple
Let him
dwelling.
not
till
you
moment, Jesus
men
in the hearts of
is
he find
who
that
seeks the
Strive to
it.
pondering over
silent,
123
know
this
said,
God
has his
kingdom
cease
and
yourselves,
shall be
No
father.
another
we
live in
world.
is
the
gives
5 '
"The bread of
Just as
God
life is this
knowledge of God.
they
may have
men
the same
It is
life.
life.
by love that
He who
does
A workman who
in the dyes in
silence nothing
was
Then he answered,
"Men
know God
they think to
in a day.
By
124
an
Unknown
Disciple
gently,
"God
he
is
doing.
Is it
shall be taught of
them
all that
shall be the
Jesus had
XI
summer before the disciples
was
ITturned
to Capernaum. Judas Iscariot was the
re-
full
denly he seemed to
memory,
fit
me
And when
I said
if his
"Is Jesus at
Capernaum?"
mind
purpose so
"What
filled his
is
he doing
that there
And when
answered
By
126
"He
is
Unknown
an
working at
Disciple
darkened
and he muttered,
"He works
He
when
at his trade
Israel
is
perishing.'
than before.
When we
aside for
no
Though
one.
spoke to
we reached
men
several
the courtyard
And
behold,
made
when
The door
made
for
But Judas,
a dog seeking
The men,
and every
line of his
and stared
at
him
They stopped
as if
their
dust,
work
spoke,
You
look very
tired."
"When
By
an Unknown Disciple
127
he
said.
"Where can we
What mat-
talk*?"
Come
me and
and
he put his shoulder to the gunnel of the boat, and
As she took the
I helping, we pushed her off.
water I jumped in to steady her, and Judas folapart with
lowed.
too,
The
other
in,
it
up, and
me
with Jesus
made no remark on my
know
not,
but
would
it
if I
So
it
came about
that I heard
sail.
I set the
silent
By
128
an Unknown Disciple
eat.
dom
said, "I
They
will never
In a short time
win us
will be too
it
late."
At
his hands.
into
my
his eyes
with
throat,
and
He
not waver.
silence
In a
till
Judas with
himself.
He
"When
ear to me.
But now
not listen?
but to
you.
lift
You
Will you
You have
Never has
The
By
an Unknown Disciple
129
upon
earth.
"I cannot do
it
myself," he said.
"The people
lack something.
have not
tion."
as they are,
God
to learn
how
to deliver
and
world and
It
an answer
to find
wrestled
their splendour
Your
it.
evil.
is
devils.
me
'These will
all ac-
God
who sent you. But you must first unite the people
and drive out those who stop them from living as
God would have them live. Then will God have
the kingdom, the power,
and the
glory.'
In
my
By
130
an Unknown Disciple
For
ship you.
and then
by
if I
And
if I
No, Judas,
I will
force.
He ceased speaking.
sat silent, shaken,
It
is
He
stress
he gnawed his
knuckles.
his
you,
I tell
said,
may have
bread*?"
"That temptation,
has given
me
bread only
live
by bread
in him. If
power, but
alone, but
God
first
God
use
must seek
my power to give
Man does not
traitor.
if I
should be a
too, has
is
the kingdom of
God and
Men
his right-
eousness,
By
an
and
Unknown
131
Disciple
be added to
them."
After a
moment he
"God guards
he
his servants,"
"It
said.
is
nat-
"What
"Judas," he said.
not stand by ?
God
am
again in
If
I,
What
man sows
will
you go to Jerusalem?"
Jesus replied,
By
132
an
"But, Judas,
Unknown
Disciple
Was
it
met you*?"
"You have never preached the kingdom in Jerusalem,'' said Judas, and the lines of his face
twitched and then hardened as if he sought to hide
not in Jerusalem that
thought.
his
I first
Jesus,
seated
still
on the
grass,
his eyes.
and
said,
"You
amazed
will
at his
own
if
success.
is
"You
You
and, suddenly, as
if
will go to a
hastily,
triumph"
You
have promised?
You
and
had
rejected.
said,
And
Then he turned
XII
f*T^HE
my villages began
people of
their plough-
me
gered as late as
Jesus,
lips,
and the
though then
I lin-
knew
not,
it
was
his talk
with
Now
from
with success.
all
come back
still
of the crowds
teaching.
greatest in the
talk, as
new
Kingdom.
how men
who
Often,
should be
and
his understand-
I noticed that
if
he read
sometimes as he listened
if
he doubted
Once or twice
134
By
an Unknown Disciple
would begin
his boasts,
The
father, in despair,
when
at
By
an
Unknown
woman
135
Disciple
rest of the
crowd.
would
Seeing
help.
the
her,
bitterly,
do nothing.
What
They
are only
who shaped
deafening.
son,
Of
see.
In
By
136
an
Unknown
Disciple
away.
spirit,
"Oh
must
teach you %
with you ?
"How
lift
fell
when
and
the mouth.
into convulsions,
"How
long
this*?"
Jesus asked
the father.
"And
and
the
If
fire
man
answered.
or into water,
an Unknown Disciple
By
"Why
do you say
possibly*?
137
Everything
is
pos-
sible to
one
Help thou
my
lack of it!"
"He
But Jesus
took his hand, and raised him up and gave him
back to his father; and then he went away to his
and
their heads
said,
is
dead."
When we
disciples pressed
"Why
could
in,
the
we not
"Every
said Jesus.
sacrifice is salted
by
You
salt.
are the salt of the earth, but if the salt has lost
its saltness,
how
not,
it is fit
but
It
only by
is
it
be salted again %
If
it
can-
hill,
is
can
fire
that
it
Have
another.
Now
told
and
By
138
an
Unknown
Disciple
'Say
about him,
him."
He
much
ten-
"Be
word men
But
Peter,
still
like
do well to be angry."
"If you cherish anger against your brother you
cannot be friends with God," said Jesus. "Anger
is an evil demon.
If your brother has acted
wrongly to you, you must go to him alone and tell
him his fault. If he listens you have gained your
brother.
If you have acted wrongly to him you
must seek his forgiveness before you can be friends
with God. How can you expect God to forgive
you your sins against him if you do not forgive
your brother when he wrongs you?"
Peter, still obstinate, was silent, and Jesus said,
"Listen, Peter.
The kingdom of heaven may
be compared to a certain king who began to have
I
By
Unknown
an
officials.
who owed
139
Disciple
And
ten thou-
his children
be sold,
ment of
the debt.
"When
man was
hor-
rified,
But that
same man on going out from the court met a
fellow servant who owed him one hundred shillings, and he took him by the throat and nearly
set
him
free
"And
owe
his fellow-servant
me.'
"But he would
not, but
all/
till
he should pay.
"When
saw what had happened they were greatly distressed, and went to
the king and laid the whole matter before him.
Then
before
him3 and
said to him,
By
140
"
'I
forgave you
all
for mercy.
sion
an Unknown Disciple
to
Even
he, too,
begged
mercy ?
as I
of your debt.'
"And he
cast
heart."
When
few moments.
Suddenly he turned
his face,
and
said impulsively,
"How
often
he sins against
"No!
did
vantage of
me
if I
forgive
him he
again."
"He may."
"Must
no mockery now
"If your
If
fool
By
Unknown
an
141
Disciple
him.
mile, carry
them
you to carry
for two.
his
goods one
It is in this
way
that
And Jesus
"Men are
answered,
ready to
move mountains by
faith,
to pray, forgive
God
"Then
entreat
Ask great
Ask, and
things,
and
it
Pray
al-
shall be
little
things
added to you.
again.
listen
By
142
an
Unknown
God
Disciple
given."
your own room and shut the door and pray there
to your father
father
who
who knows
all
is
When
you.
And
who
those
trials,
It
to
was with
my
this talk in
ploughing.
And
evil.'
my
head that
went
XIII
MY
ter,
and
I see Jesus.
In South Galilee
off
from
my
this
villages in
traffic;
and
in
143
By
144
an
Unknown
if
Disciple
swered
Nicodemus.
"There
cried.
dangerous,"
is
great
an-
division
There
is
no open discussion
city
is
full of whispers,
in secret.
Some say he
others insist he
say that he
is
is
and rumours
fly
about
is
Many
by David, and
Some
the Messiah.
is
who
bear rule."
is
By
"It
an
Unknown
would only
ordering of other men and be content
would be,"
forgo their
145
Disciple
said,
"if they
to serve."
Nicodemus looked
at
me
eyes.
"The
said.
risks
last thing
"Jesus
that
is
men
'
that," he
know
They
in such teaching.
lie
is
will forgo
the
will kill
I said.
"A way
I
will be found.
Do
all,
not
But
Am
know?
let
me
tell
you
"Tell on,"
talk,
listen.
the Coun-
and
so I
know.
Some of
Romans would
Im-
deal with
fall
upon
So they have sought to show that the teaching of Jesus is the same as that taught by Judas
of Gaulonite. You are too young to remember
them.
By
146
have heard of
put a tax on
Unknown
an
by
It
it.
this
Disciple
us, in the
first
ponius.
until
opposing
But
it.
this
his
was the
beginning of slavery, and that the Jews were cowards if they endured to pay a tax to the Romans,
seeing that
God was
mind me
One
this.
and famine.
was
my
father speak of
it
when he
alive," I said.
"All
men
spoke of
it,"
said Nicodemus.
'This
Even now
is
Now
I will
By
an
Unknown
Disciple
147
tell
us honestly, are
we
right in
'
"He
is
Nicodemus answered,
"Yes.
But that does not endear him to the
Priests and Council."
"I hate them for their enmity," I cried with
passion, but Nicodemus said,
"Your friend would not have you feel thus.
How can you help God to undo the evil such
men do if you are so blinded by hate that you
cannot see what was in their minds when they
did it? Look you, I am old and have seen much
of
life,
these
but
I try to
do likewise?"
I was abashed and
they
said,
feel.
Cannot you
By
148
an
Unknown
"When
Disciple
have seen
Your
am
friend
is
way
not because
Has
Jesus ever
into the
Kingdom?
it
his anger."
will be
hate
him?"
I cried,
un-
believing.
"To Caiaphas
a clever
man
preaching folly
cause of a misunderstanding?"
I said.
By
"No
an Unknown Disciple
ruler will
149
"And
indeed, if
change.
and the
first last.
first
change.
down
to us.
He
preaches more
man
lib-
He knows
God
will teach
not train
men who
Romans
upon
us.
if
will force
They
can-
By
150
"He will
own good
the will
sincere
an Unknown Disciple
be killed by
remember
am
from Jerusalem
straight
that
if
Jesus goes on
The
They may
Roman
If there
rule.
wins, he
is
Kingdom by throwing
is
a rising, whatever
and Rulers
no friend to
off the
their
will lose.
its
If Jesus
will
If the
Council."
"But
it is
rebellion," I said.
"It
is
in the heart of
some of
his disciples,"
said Nicodemus.
mind
that he tries to
make a
Judas
my
It is in
tool of Jesus.
do
"He
said.
"He
demus.
"Judas
From what
is
By
sway
able to
Unknown
an
But
his will.
if
Disciple
151
He
a dangerous
is
My
man
to disappoint."
Nicodemus
hope.
"Pilate's position
is
He
Council.
even
if
he distrust
peror looks at
it.
Men
him with
The Rul-
he cannot
resist,
Em-
The Jews
salem.
again
is
misunderstanding.
Here
know
but
if
now
pass Jerusa-
it,
and
this Pilate
knows.
from
there
is
If he cannot
and
on top of
if,
make
There
is
and perhaps
By
152
an
men
speak of
High
Unknown
Disciple
by
aqueduct to Jerusalem.
These Romans
like
to
Pilate wants
pay
"What
one
life to
him
if
He
ficing it?
is
has shed
much blood
before and
will again."
We
fell
silent
again,
He
is
is
I said,
Herod has
may
be angry
if
If he killed
He
is
on the Romans.
Herod
By
Unknown
an
153
Disciple
and he
under Pilate
is
there."
"They cannot
arrest
he preaches rebellion,"
demus.
that
fail,
They
ance.
will indict
How
"Treason?
"Our
is
for treason."
4
I asked.
Priests
Therefore to
The
God.
him
blasphemy.
may seem
their
son of
God and
"Of
God
And
if
God
is
the
teaching that
is
is
"It
is
part of his
we not be
so.
his
sons?"
when he
tells
of the divine in
is
God.
man
they say he
The punishment
By
154
for
blasphemy
Let
me
tell
who had
Unknown
an
is
They mean
death.
you more.
Disciple
There
a withered arm.
is
to kill him.
a man, a mason,
the
men
asked them
all
why
The Chief
Priest
mon
people,
who
you
too, as
By
Unknown
an
155
Disciple
" 'The
rance.
common people are cursed in their ignoNone of the Rulers or Pharisees have been
taken in by him.'
that I asked
judge a
man
thought
all
was according
if it
this so unfair
to our
to
me
Law
They
all
and Jonathan, the son of Annas, said, sneering, 'Are you also from Galilee?
Search the Scriptures and see whether they say
turned on
then,
is
to
inspired."
"What
it
up.
I asked.
They
By
156
an
Unknown
Disciple
he,
as to his authority
to Caiaphas
to Jerusalem.
At
You must
Pilate.
go
warn Jesus
mind
that he
"He
flee," I said.
mav have
to suffer.
has
it
in
mind me
He
him.
And
if
"Death
is
"Must he
"If he
resist,
rise.
Jesus would
he
resists,
Has he
not mean
to follow?"
By
I
buried
my
an
Unknown
face in
my
Disciple
157
hands.
wisdom
We
will
in the service of
do what
man
who have
can.
It
may
learnt
heart.
be possible to
XIV
was night when we reached Capernaum, and
ITsave
for the barking of the dogs who arose
from
we
entered, there
through Capernaum.
Near by
mule,
leaving Nicodemus,
worn out by
travel, to
to the house
night.
I
down from my
who
me
train
rest that
that I felt
fall
from me.
I felt the
158
blackness would
By
an
Unknown
159
Disciple
hairy trunks.
desolate.
seen.
ters
were
tight, the
For a moment
It
At
The water
were no boats drawn
up on the
desolate.
I
shore.
It
lingered
by the
as if
my
all
loneliness of a house
strained
Here, too,
seemed
lake.
talk.
woman
crouched as
if in
pain.
my
step,
and stood
went towards
she turned and
hesitating.
The
moonlight
lit
up her
face,
By
160
that
must know
I felt I
"Do
At
not be afraid;
Disciple
her,
it is
and
I cried aloud,
I."
that she
"You
gone.
Unknown
an
They
said,
are all
who
She
and
am
my
said,
"Oh, son,
I
hand on
am
bewildered by
many
thoughts.
in pain."
And
the pain."
answered.
may
"It
ease
no longer
is
neighbours
lem to take
his
where that he
For
it is
to be our king.
rumoured everySo
dressed
my
hair
said, the
crown.
is
"And they
I,
for
am
many boats'?
to say farewell.
By
an
Unknown
161
Disciple
My
me
umph,' he
back.
'We go
said.
to
Jerusalem to a
tri-
Soon he will be too great for the people of Capernaum.' But I pushed past him, and the neighbours seeing me,
made way
4
As
for me.
Why
should
the pins
me, and
home he
am come
to ask
a favour.'
" 'Ask,' he said, for you
I said,
'I
these
my
there,
"
and
ask that
two
sit,
to
your kingdom
^By
162
<
an Unknown Disciple
ask.'
whom you
your
table.
this glory
will,
I
with
at
my
sons, that
And,
am
said,
" 'Yes,
fast,
For
it is
their
it
who go
to take
kingdom.
Thy
of
upon me.
my
will be given to
is
'I
came not to be
whom God
wills.'
And
with that
my
two sons."
That
And
By
Unknown
an
163
Disciple
He
on me.
is
but a carpenter.
How
Then
I,
her.
"He
I said,
heeding.
forth,
is
power
why should
For a moment
Else,
in him,
and that he
is
great.
be thus?"
him
way
that
saw that
was not
in other
there
men.
was something
He had a high
men made
mean, and
I felt
done to him?
gay with
there
He
has changed.
He
used to be so
but
By
164
.
an Unknown Disciple
*-
He
us all?'
"Mother,"
to hold
by the
of
is
Whether he
life.
master.
still
life,
at
enough
life
master of
is
"men
They grasp
for them.
Jesus
I said,
it,
but
It
is
too high
it.
lives, or
whether he
dies, h<
igno-
rant."
to establish a king-
dom?'
"Yes, mother, but not a kingdom like this
world's kingdoms.
It
is
was a kingdom of
love,
Then
He
sees
What
to
is it
woman? For I
king.
And my two
old
was dim
And I?
He has
me.
to.
turned
Am I only a fool
By
an
165
_______
Disciple
Unknown
He
sons ?
"What
will
become of
my
two
What
"Nay, mother,"
in her eagerness.
answered.
"How
can
say?
"Is
it
death?" she
cried, peering at
me
through
the darkness.
to
"And what
"Thy
her.
"He
sons
may
He
lie
"
his face.
could not
My
sons,
will be slain."
And
weeping and
XV
THE
Beyond Magdala where
to close in
upon
we were delayed by
the lake
bound
way
fish
the
and
the people
Tiberias.
The
We did not
new
city of
and
clatter, the
The
gaiety
saw
little
my
My
to
him?
Beyond Bethshan we caught up with more
t66
By
camel
an
Unknown
trains, this
we
167
Disciple
We
made what
haste
Damascus Gate
the crowds grew thicker, and it was harder to press
through them. It was the day before the Passover when we came out on the flat table-land above
Jerusalem. Even then, when in the clear air of
noon the Holy City set on the hills rose before
us in all its glory of towers and bastions, I was
in such haste to find Jesus that I had no mind to
look at it. But somewhere on my inner eye that
picture must have stamped itself, for to this day,
if I
we neared
could, but as
but close
my
lids, I
the
can see
its
On
wonder.
the
Tower
of David
still
stands on
Mount
Sion,
Mount
of God, but
went
it
to his death.
The
people.
Men
full
of
or earnestly, and
moved
restlessly
way
of those
who wished
had never seen such restlessness in a Passover crowd, and my mind misgave
me that the tumult and excitement boded ill to
Jesus; so I slipped from my mule, and sending it
to enter the City.
By
168
Unknown
an
Disciple
what men
said.
it
in that current, so I
pushed out
of
It
men had
A small
group
"The man
is
crowd without.
a dangerous rebel,"
heard one
who
is
You
follow him.
"You
man in the
am no friend
a rough
"I
this
I call riot-
Temple unlawful,"
"It
is
is
unlawful.
Men
have
By
Unknown
an
169
Disciple
right to
making."
"He
it
was not so in my day. The courts of the Temple grow more heathen every year.
It is more
"It
like a street
of prayer.
It is
"They
a scandal/'
said a fat
as
not take
Roman money
him
"The bartering
"
short.
is
wrong," he
said.
"I do not
way he
"What ought he
does
it."
done?" asked the Galilean, and the other touched perhaps, by the scorn
in his voice, answered, with some heat,
"He could have gone to those in authority. If
he had pointed out to the High Priest what was
to have
"
wrong
The
fat
man
it
men
joined
By
170
an
Unknown
Disciple
"How
else
Galilean.
cried the
it*?"
defiling the
Temple.
for there
was
customs of Rome.
The wily
Scribe, seeing he
had not
carried
many
may have
he goes too
far.
said,
we once admit
mat-
his teach-
man
his
lips,
broke
but before he
in.
"What
answered shortly,
"He
preaches blasphemy."
him
inter-
rupted,
"Were you
No?
By
'
'
"
II
Ml
an
, lW
Unknown
Disciple
171
,
,,,
thought as much.
If
it.
He
slipped
it,
first
spoken
of blasphemy.
And
the
luctantly,
"I
was not
a friend
there myself.
who was."
But
was told by
Jesus
Scribe
replied,
"I heard."
There was a
silence,
said,
"He
Scribe.
said that he
what he
said."
By
172
Unknown
an
silence,
Disciple
"Go
Tor no good
to slay him.
deed,' the
men
replied,
man,
"
"What
impatiently,
"He
law,
asked
said,
'I
children of the
if it
Ye
are gods,
Most High.'
and
all
of you are
The men
said
it
was
whom
why
was God's
son.
It
was
when he
sent as
said he
"He
very clever.
is
He
got out of
it
neatly,"
man.
blasphemy.
is
He
"No
no.
It
is
ought to be stoned,"
wrong
to take
life,
before.
and there
By
is
great
Unknown
an
wisdom
Disciple
173
man.
"Jesus will lose his
repeated
"Who
"Our
He
Rulers.
talks too
much
of the need
Temple
The Council
courts.
this
will
out a tumult of so
hear what the
and
men
us Galileans
and with
many
said.
first,"
this there
said
broke
But
sick at heart I
street
Now
the house of
Nicodemus lay
close to that
Iscariot.
I seized
him by
the arm.
By
1?4
Unknown
an
Disciple
man
would
speak with. Come apart here," and I drew him
aside into an embrasure where there was a stone
"Judas,"
He
seat.
am
"I
I cried,
resisted a little.
in haste,"
he said, but
overbore him.
He
Jesus.
"Jesus'?
Where
in danger.
is
is
must
he
?" I said.
see
reluc-
tantly.
But of
Mount
of Olives.
there.
No.
the house of
on the
He
added
mean
hastily,
those
and
I,
who were
first
wondering at the
must
supper.
No.
see him.
Where
Judas looked
Not now,
after the
will he be then?"
at
me
eyes.
"He
ane.
You
It is at the foot
reach
it
from the
Garden of Gethsem-
Mount of Olives.
Temple. By the Golden
of the
Gate."
"Of course,
know where
the
Garden
is," I said,
By
wondering
aside
I
an
Unknown
had
my
wonder
just heard.
When
still
had
Then he began to
"He throws away
175
Disciple
put
moment.
speak.
all his
We Judeans
chances.
such as few
follow
up.
it
Jews want a
king, not
he would not
new
He
act.
teaching.
had but to
but
I urged,
lift his
hand,
Amazed
at his talk
when
had
just told
him
I said,
dom."
Judas looked at
"He
"It
me
askance.
is
not
folly,
but the
way
out of folly," I
listen.
He
sat
his knuckles.
Suddenly
By
176
an
Unknown
Disciple
if
he
"He
light.
own
this talk
now when
come
he would but
of blasphemy
the city
it.
is
If
full of Galileans,
unknown men, we
The Romans
are a
flee
before us.
asked.
"No man
"Other
if
he willed.
freedom.
If I
Is this the
If he
when
is
for ever.
left
I
By
He
Unknown
an
Disciple
as
177
Then
silent.
who
one
I,
talks in
"Yes, Judas.
said?"
He
"It
is
naught," he said.
Then,
rising,
he added
as if to reassure himself,
But we
will see.
I could."
"Caiaphas was
him
am
my
added,
father's friend.
a friend of Jesus, he
may
If I tell
listen."
if
"How
do you know?
Have you
seen
him?"
I asked, astonished.
"I?
Why
High
as a
Priest?" said
man
picks his
"Men
say there
is
per."
And
went on
his
way.
XVI
NOWman
Annas,
He
money.
liberty
Priest,
was
of a
soul
little
men
assent.
Because of
this
Roman
seen to
it
still
in his family,
and he himself
know what
it
was.
it,
only
Unknown
fsy an
to find it
gave
move
further
off.
179
Disciple
So
after a time I
it
High
Priest.
Caiaphas was a
and
tall
was no
man
of a fierce countenance,
flesh
on
were
beak of a hawk.
His
There
thin,
and
eyes, too,
me
eyes,
"It
is
an
You would
ill
The
be better away.
tumultuous doings."
He
city
is
full of
voice
much
ill
of you.
You
are
known
my
"He
sake I
Jesus?
He
is
my
friend," I
a dangerous friend.
180
By
my
of those
Unknown
an
who
You
Disciple
It
was angry
"Who
"I say
at this.
says he
is
He
it.
"You have
dangerous?"
is
I cried out.
him yourself?"
talked with
I asked.
"How,
then,
is
leading the
people astray?"
glow of anger
"He
is
in his eyes at
all order.
The
up
my
to up-
nation was
is
making men
discon-
tented."
"The teaching of
the
Kingdom
is
in our
own
Scriptures," I said.
"Why,
welcome
the Prophets?
What
it?
can
do not know?"
"You have
By
know,"
on
"How
the poor
181
his eyes
an Unknown Disciple
me
for a
moment, answered,
man
government.
bear rule %
He
dom comes by
opportunity of
leisure.
How
shall
of bullocks?"
is
dom?'
I asked.
Caiaphas looked at
me
madness,
as if I uttered
said,
and
answered,
"Jesus would have the wise teach those
ignorant,
who
are
it
"How
man.
Envy and
greed, hatred
till
how
No.
If
them that
the ground.
Jesus for-
man
left
who
By
182
an
Unknown
Disciple
^^^
must be by the
it
rule of
the strong."
Caiaphas spoke as
if this
moved me
is
a greater
power
thai?
fear."
At
Caiaphas looked at
me
sternly.
by
this
this
"You
do not
see
of Jesus.
him
He
as he
I will tell
is.
For why?
his
make a fresh
"He means a
It is the
The
"It
You
secret
all
old things.
in old bot-
man.
you the
So, forsooth,
we must
start."
law of love/'
men.
I said.
it."
And
at that I spoke
out.
"Men
ported
wrong
They have
re-
to you.
By
you
an Unknown Disciple
High
to teach the
the fury of
"Jesus
For
my
is
my
my
and being
laid aside
heeded
it
mind.
friend," I said,
sake, will
"and
back a
we looked
it.
pain of other
One note
love him.
at one another.
Then
I fell
step, for I
had stated
183
saw
men
on a
made
On
himself.
I
in his
know
make no mark.
could
Yet nothing
strive
more
But
"Caiaphas,"
too,
It will
I said,
love him.
He
has
many
followers."
By
184
With
an Unknown Disciple
the depths of
my
soul rose
The
which
High
found Nicodemus
in
Priest,
and then
perturbed.
Israel,
and
all
men
trusted
may be in
see how that
"Judas
do not
Even
if
The
them now.
The Passover
is
too
it
By
an
Unknown
D isciple
185
we must get
him away at once."
So it was settled. Nicodemus was to go to the
house of John close by on Mount Zion, to see if
Jesus was still there. Joseph would order mules
to be sent out of the city,
Therefore
and
I,
had said Jesus might be in the Garden of Gethsemane, was to seek him there and warn him.
"The
"You
will
meet you.
came
Here
XVII
THE
man
valley of Jehoshaphat
is
so deep that a
down on
his
hill
feet,
The Garden
trees.
saw no one, and, despite myself, I slackened my pace and steadied my breathing.
In such a quiet the tumult and evil of the
God himself might walk
city were but a dream.
in that stillness and beauty in the cool of the
I
heard no voice,
evening.
Dead Sea
dark-
By
an Unknown Disciple
The glow
in the west
187
dyed the
it
fire
flat
It
desolate, but
For a
moment
stood forgetting
my
my
I felt
a hand laid on
my
At the
welfare passed away as a
and misery possessed my soul. An immense loneliness lay upon him, and in his eyes was
desolation. Seeing my distress he bent and kissed
cloud,
my
still
my shoulder,
on
asked after
membered
his danger,
"Jesus," I
you.
"Where
my
flee."
shoulder.
"Can a man
climb up to heaven
flee
his
hand
If I
*?
and
at that I
knew
is
he not
vail.
"It
is
"God
death
is
if
you stay,"
whispered.
By
188
Unknown
an
Disciple
fell
upon him,
"My
soul
full of trouble,
is
say?" he
cried.
me, but
may
it
God
He
to this hour.
gave
to save
have come
me command what
to say
in
my
and
peace
listen, helpless.
"God has
forsaken me.
death
I cry,
upon me.
but no one
is
world of the
I pray,
but there
hears.
spirit.
am
wander
is
no answer.
in desolate places,
"Is there
I cried,
"The
no way of escape?
but he answered,
gifts of
God
cry,
And
If
then
By
Unknown
an
men
my
soul,
and no
man
heeds.
will
ought
My
189
Disciple
I to
do?
you
his face,
and he wiped
it off
me
men
the
way
as their king.
and how
of
life,
but they
them from
They
the agony that must come upon them?
know not what they do. It is not me they reject, but God."
When he had said this he went forward and
hate, not love,
shall I save
The deep
blue of the
Dead Sea was black now, and grey clouds covered the Mountains of Moab. The red glow still
lingered over Jerusalem. Then it too died away,
and darkness was upon
us.
from the
earth,
also, waiting.
and
When
I stood
he spoke again
saw that
God
is
defeat," he said.
has given
me have
"Even
not seen
my
those
whom
meaning.
By
190
am
Unknown
an
to be reckoned
world
is
among
Disciple
But the
the lawless.
when men
and
selves,
dom
to pass.
too feeble.
It
But
victory.
love, being
and courageous to
God
conquer, for
It is
born of God,
suffer.
I fail,
is
strong
yet liveth."
"The world
I
beautiful,
and
it is
hard to
die.
comes to me.
a
is
way
It
is
me and
said,
but surely
And
fear.
it
he
No man
can help
me now,
I sat there
of the night.
in
like ghosts
came out
the firmament above me.
I must
and shone
to the noises
stars
By
have
my
an
slept, for,
Unknown
191
Disciple
They
A
me,
gate.
dim
light.
me.
Let us be going."
And
then he said,
way down
I,
me and
dazed,
followed him.
at hand."
The
armed men
rose
By
192
-
ward down
him.
an Unknown Disciple
--
He
and we went
after
thinned, and
In a
moment
men
up
The
showed him
Iscariot.
The
officer,
lit
Close beseeing us
made a
step
hand
as if to kiss
it.
his arm,
in the eyes.
Then he
Then
the
But
At
"Why
staves to take
me
as if I
were a robber?
Have
By
an
Unknown
193
Disciple
arrest
me?'
followed.
down
the
hill,
and
XVIII
THE men
led Jesus by
way
High
When we
men began
to debate
whether
it
was
and
High
Priest slept.
"We
"Wait, then,
till I
this
Temple
man
before him,"
officials.
rouse the
High
Priest," said
104
By
The
Unknown
an
servants of the
High
195
Disciple
Priest
many
sat in
the inner-room.
men
He
as to
taken him,
to Jesus.
offer*?"
"You know it is against the law for you to question me thus in private and at this hour. Where
are those who are to witness against me ?"
4
At
moved
Annas
this
his
fell
into
a perturbation and
fro,
playing with
what to
do.
The men
one at another as
if
know
were disturbed.
By
196
an
Unknown
Disciple
Annas had all his life carried out the law, and the
Temple officials had obeyed his orders and they
knew that Jesus was in the right. The law forbade
At
who were
last
Annas
phas has
said,
know about
"I do not
in hand.
it
those witnesses
all
He
"Yes.
the
men
"It
as he
in his voice,
Take him
And
to Caiaphas."
then as
would be better
to bind
him
lest
he escape.
to
men bound
Annas, they
at the
Here we waited.
man who
has
And
made up
his
as he
By
an
Unknown
if
197
Disciple
security also.
"You
Then he
said,
am
he."
"You
And you
alone?
Where
are
your followers?"
Do
world.
question you as to
spoke openly to
By
198
an
Unknown
who heard me
those
teach.
Disciple
said."
and he half
rose
from
his seat.
Seeing
this,
one
?"
he said.
it
off
and he
smite
At
If I
am
me openly
before the
why do you
Council.
is
me?"
this
Caiaphas
and motion-
"They go
and the others laughed and said that Caiaphas was not one to let the grass grow under his
officials,
By
feet,
an
Unknown
was cold;
men
199
Disciple
could
warm
They
themselves.
at
which the
all
stood near
fire
dried upon
it.
way he
lord the
And
spoke.'
another said,
What
And sud-
men came
close to Jesus,
and
said,
"Why
you are a
if
who
"Who
If
you
who
struck you
"You
will
me by
the arm.
"He
in their power.
You
will only
make
it
is
worse for
him."
I
ing.
saw that
I
it
could do noth-
my
tied a kerchief
soul
round
By
200
an Unknown Disciple
make a
diversion
to question Peter,
him answer
Soon they
fell into
don't understand."
lean?"
By
moment
ly for a
Unknown
an
up
lit
201
Disciple
put
man
forearm up as a
his
does
who
shields his
of the lantern
the latch.
his soul
tears
on
fell
From
forsake him.
You saw
I
light
he fumbled with
his face as
his
The
But
"And he
I followed,
said I should
though
was
afraid.
And now
Let me go. I
Let
me
go.
must be alone."
So I released him and he went.
By this time it was near daylight, and soon
there came more stir as members of the Council
began to pass through the courtyard, and the messengers returned guarding those
ness against Jesus.
It
was
full
who were
to wit-
or-
Caiaphas.
and ranged
in a half-circle
on
By
202
either side of
an
him
Unknown
Disciple
was not
It
was stood
cil,
Then Caiaphas
members of the Coun-
nesses
rose,
rose the
witnesses.
ready,
from
and unrolling
it,
"Forget not,
life.
In a
money may
if
thou
sin,
money
if
a trial for
is
But in
blood of the accused and
the
this trial,
the blood
many
impressions
seal
may
strike off
shall
be
the
Wherefore
let
man
as
he whose
life
was
cre-
now hangs
The
group.
witnesses
listened,
standing in
little
By
Unknown
an
the
203
Disciple
his teeth
with a
pin.
men
if after
to swear,
and an
official
official,
added,
God and
to the
is
mind
of this Court.
you take
God who
"
on,
seemed
as if there
was no end to
their dif-
The brows of Caiaphas knitted themselves and the members of the Council grew wof*
ried, but no progress was made.
At last there
ferences.
By
204
Unknown
an
Disciple
came two men who witnessed that they had themselves heard Jesus
Temple and
saying,
that he
hands and
days
in three
without hands."
When
the
High
Jesus,
"What
is
the
ing?"
his peace,
place,
men
"The
The law
It leans
prisoner
is
of the Council
of the accused.
who
Therefore
That
if
pulled down,
the
Temple
God
could
God
indeed
less this
house
By
an
Unknown
God
asks
205
Disciple
is
is
men
to give
mercy not
sacrifices.
main-
and that
And
Jesus answered,
"If I
tell
I question
lease
you
in
my own
Nor
if
re-
me."
Then Caiaphas
called out,
And Jesus
"You say
said,
that I am."
it
to the
Council,
"He
need
all
is
has
spoken blasphemy.
heard him.
What
What
further
think you?
Is
he worthy
of death?"
The members
206
By
and Caiaphas
an
Unknown
Disciple
first
and put
man,
And
the
man
an-
swered,
"For death."
And
mathea,
who
answered,
"For
life."
Then
the whole
company of them
rose
up and
XIX
JERUSALEM
the
The people
with Jesus.
seeing the
High
Priest
and a prisoner guarded by the officials of the Temple were curious to know what had happened, and
many of them followed us to the Prsetorium. The
Romans had made their Government House of
the palace that Herod had built for himself on
the north-west
city walls
hill,
and by
and
its
here, protected
by the
On
the lowest
At
his order
called aloud,
pillars.
and
in
answer a
Roman
soldier
came
down on
us.
The
"
By
208
an Unknown Disciple
as
of
another race than ours, and there was some insolence in the
ranks,
Judgment Hall.
My
lord
work within."
The official of the Temple answered, "We cannot enter the Judgment Hall. It is the Eve of
the Passover and we should be defiled.
Pilate
The
if
is
at
soldier, puzzled,
looked for a
moment
as
High
Priest waits
without."
Whereupon
By
His
an
Unknown
209
Disciple
like
its
the soldier
than
there
there
of a
When
"It
is
the
Eve of
We can-
came
out.
know
"We
judgment
also forbidden
"This
is
he took his
(for before he
gun
seat.
Then commanding
Priests
silence
had be-
officials
By
210
an Unknown Disciple
The men
his accusers.
cleared
"What
man?"
criminal
He
to you.
"Why
High
Priest coldly.
the power."
The High
"It
is
Priest answered,
a capital charge
him to death."
"Of what do you accuse him?"
to put
Pilate again
asked.
"He
says he
is
High
Priest.
Roman law.
own heresies."
for
You
is
not a question
have power
to
judge your
By
At
an
Unknown
this a turmoil
all
so that
was impossible
it
began to speak at
manner of
once,
211
Disciple
to hear clearly
crime,
even what
man
made an
but no
selves.
to
The
listening also,
in-
quickened as he looked at
commanded them
to be silent.
Before his
when
there
was
much
"Do you
Jesus
to reply?"
other answer,
is
priests
we bring
and
said,
By
212
"He
an
Unknown
Disciple
found him preaching sedition against the Emperor, saying that he himself
our King."
is
"Do you
man
"He
claims to be a
lying,
Emperor and
says that he
is
the
King of
the
Jews."
is
Then
Judgment Hall."
And
Pilate said,
him
inside the
So the
officers
of the
him to
Temple
By
an Unknown Disciple
213
and he scanned
over
me
speaking as a
"Am
Roman?"
Jew?"
Pilate
replied
scornfully.
livered
this
world."
"Then you
are a
king?" he
said,
and Jesus
"You
it
is
say that I
am
King, and
But
Every
it is true.
By
214
one
who
Unknown
an
might
my
of
For
kingdom.
Pilate's eyes
and
is
Disciple
for a while
seemed to grow
half wistfully,
tiently,
"What
is
the truth"?"
saying: "Truth
this earth."
the portico
and the
is
And
like
your kingdom.
not on
When
It is
no crime
and called
in this
priests
out,
with
man."
and the
against the
Roman
Governor.
Pilate waited,
lull
he said again,
"There
is
no crime
in
him."
"You
He
is
preaching sedition
is
a dangerous
all
over Judea.
By
It is
an
Unknown
if
215
Disciple
in
hand."
shrewdly,
"Why
bitterly.
And
I slay
When
away he
"The man
said impatiently,
only a dreamer.
is
all?"
And Caiaphas
in a
"Jesus
be a dreamer, but he
is
a dangerous
one.
in
may
He has
"Then he
is
High
is
Priest.
subject to
in Jerusalem
He
now.
I will
forming
his
The
centurion,
in their midst,
and
By
216
Unknown
an
Disciple
way
for itself.
closed
up behind
the soldiers,
The
either side
Was
the Emperor.
it
Roman
dominion.
for that
fears
"It
ing
He
lightly, look-
am no
friend to government
by
priests,"
an-
grily:
"What
if
Rome
tween
priest
you slay
it
will
this
and
soldier*?
man you
was mockery on
Priest's
Then,
and looked
scoffing,
if
the
head
in
Judea."
at Caiaphas.
There
its
his lips as if he
ignorance of
you, Pilate,
Pilate paused
tell
arts
marvelled at the
of government.
Jew?
his
XX
was as Caiaphas
ITlodged
in the Old
predicted.
who
Herod,
Herod was
too
ac-
much
Jesus claimed to be
King of
the
it,
reasonably, saying,
217
By
218
Unknown
an
"You brought
this
man
Disciple
before
me
I
charged with
examined him
against him.
for
you
see
Nor
him a
fore give
slight
I will there-
punishment and
release
him."
"Away with
man!" they
this
shout,
cried.
"If you
"Barabbas
is
a robber, but
done?"
He
an ugly look
noise died
Crucify him!"
him!
listen,
make
his voice
heard above
and when
in his eyes,
away he
said,
at last the
"We
to us
will not
have him
as our king.
Release
Barabbas!"
seeing the
By
man
219
Disciple
There
I will
to have a
is
Unknown
an
therefore scourge
him and
set
him
free."
The
it so.
voice
sets
himself up as king
And
the
mob
is
took this up
"We
Then
enraged,
Pilate,
ordered
Jesus
be
to
He
people.
was very
nearly broke
my
tired, for
he had been on
heart.
his
white face
Pilate looked at
him
in
Crucify him!
Crucify him!
He
is
and
,v
At
Pilate's
command he
held these up
By
220
an Unknown Disciple
Then
washed and
am
"I
See you to
And
!"
it
replied,
The judgment
seat
The
whose duty
centurion,
it
was
tablets,
crowded round to
and Pilate
crucified,
and he wrote.
The
see
in scorn read to
"There
But
am
accusation.
"What
have written
He
no
Do
derstand.
'He said
is
have written."
it
so tran-
By
an
the centurion
and
him
to the
Roman
Unknown
Disciple
barracks in the
Tower
221
and led
of An-
XXI
was in the barrack yard of the Antonio, high
IT above
the city and Temple that Jesus was
Jews afraid of
city beyond.
The
By
an
Unknown
Jews
223
Disciple
row?" they
said.
"These
They want
The more of them
up a
to set
king,
do they?
had
him by
the
arm and
"A
row?" he questioned.
He
He
it
round Jesus.
like a
king now," he
"There
looks
more
cried.
The
out,
"Where
is
his
throne?"
the wall,
rolled
it
soldiers ran to
it
it
on end,
ward and
"He
told
him
and
for-
to be seated.
get
him
one.
By
224
an
Unknown
Disciple
kindling
fires.
At
"Hail!
King of
the Jews!"
The blood
he
down
made no
It
trickled
protest.
who
moment
There was a
at the
Jesus took
it
it
into the
the rod
hand of
paused
fell
in their cruel
game.
The
in as-
soldiers
in his weariness
They
By
fell silent
an
Unknown
and Longinus,
225
Disciple
mocked no more,
too,
but said,
"Perhaps, boys, that's enough.
get on with the scourging.
I'll
The
We'd
better
on duty
men.
struggled,
and the
had to drag him along. When they began to strip him he bit and tore and it took several
men to overpower him. The other walked quietly
soldiers
and submitted
to
be
me
I stole.
The
soldiers
said, gruffly,
"It
is
silenced,
sol-
body twitched
all
over in terror.
By
226
an Unknown Disciple
it.
aloud.
is
Let us bear
it
bravely.
It is for
all the
world.
God."
so
savagely to Jesus,
"You
ought to be
crucified,
I've
You
we done
to
deserve it?"
At
this
or-
up which no
its
assault
was
stone trav-
By
flags
live in
my mind
when
looking
I sat
to this day.
was
227
down
still
on,
in this
palsy
He
an Unknown Disciple
you?"
He came nearer and I, still in a dream, said
"What is it, Judas? You look like death."
At that Judas came close to me and cried out,
"Judas!
Is that
bitterly,
me?
to
seen
my own
death ?
soul.
What
see
is
is
do not
No
and
knew
trusted,
care.
one cares
him he
but
me
He
should betray
and
did be-
tray him."
He
sat
full of
down
beside me.
hand on my arm.
"That I should have done this to him when I
love him. It was for him I would have fought."
His tone changed and he said pettishly,
His face is al"I tell you man I miss him.
ways before me and the kindness in his eyes."
his
By
228
I
an Unknown Disciple
it.
I said
to console him.
The
soldiers
round
his
letters,
"Jesus
The
thieves
came behind.
By
been
an
lighter,
They,
too,
Unknown
had
Disciple
229
ner and
Several rough
when
men
waited in a cor-
there were
me
So Jesus steadied himself, holding by the hand of a soldier, and the heavy bar
was laid on his back where his tunic covered the
marks of the scourging. Then the centurion's
guard formed in front and behind the prisoners,
and the carpenter came too, with his ladder and
nails, and they all moved forward out of the gate
and down the stairway. The crowd that stood below looked up in excitement and came closer to
see all. Some women, whose veils hid their faces,
were waiting and followed in a little group. Gesmas, the man who had fought the soldiers, walked
in front, boasting that he was not afraid to die,
but Dysmas who came behind did not speak. His
with Pilate.
By
230
Unknown
an
Disciple
ment.
down
hot,
and
up the
street,
soldiers
depression
as if reluctantly.
When
in
some paces
and lurched heavily and Dysmas called out sharply, "He's not strong enough to carry it"; he was
not rebuked, but Longinus halted the column and
it
set
felt better.
more
if
that
again.
reeled
and
fell.
him up.
who
veil
it
with fresh water from his goat-skin and she tenderly wiped the blood and sweat from the face of
By
an
Unknown
smiled.
At
and beat
their breasts.
231
Disciple
women
"My
spirit is willing,
Then he turned
but
my body
weak."
is
to the
is
women and
He
children."
me
who
carried
two
market baskets
willingly, but
full of vegetables.
remembering
his baskets
he paused
men
could
see.
The
prisoners
it.
loin-cloth,
By an Unknown
232
Disciple
to the cross-
Then they
man
of Jesus,
till
Then they
the
same
it
tied
to the
securely.
two
thieves.
When
this
was done
it.
Then
The
tears rolled
down
his
market baskets.
and from
with the back of
off
his hand.
By
And
an
Unknown
233
Disciple
"Where
is
Jews'?"
I felt as if the point of a
broken
my
off inside
heart.
suffer?
sun
shone
still
human
how much
watch with
me and though
the
Surely
Gesmas had writhed his body upwards, so loosening the ropes that by tearing his palms with the
nails in them he could get one elbow over the
cross-bar.
He was drugged and half drunk and
he cried out to Jesus.
God
take
us and yourself."
the pain.
to the right
we have broken
Then he
said to Jesus,
their laws,
By
234
"Do
an Unknown Disciple
not forget
into your
kingdom?"
And
voice
drawn with
still
kind, answered,
pain
is
over,
we
shall
man, comforted,
the
saw
this,
agony of remorse.
sights
this
And
be together again."
When
For
all
my
life I
by those
it
in
had been
Because of
power.
so.
my
Man
He
men
raised his
the remedy.
God
en-
of the
men who
Because of
my
By
blindness
aside
my
an
Unknown
friend
must
235
Disciple
die.
turned
my
face
and wept.
of Jesus.
They had
The
depression
silence,
Mary
He
the
Mother of
and Jesus
"You
Jesus,
closer
said,
choked with
tears,
and John,
of Mary.
Jesus said to his mother,
"He
His
lips
were parched
By
236
"He
women
comfort
to
"These others
this before
are
them.
them.
soldiers
and
beat
down upon
their limbs
Gesmas
still
tered,
Longinus to the
stronger.
We
an Unknown Disciple
Dysmas
hid
my
time
we stayed
thus.
The
hands
is
who
heard, for
"It
his eyes
it
commit
my
spirit."
And
The
centurion turning
away
By
rowed
it.
He
an
Unknown
237
Disciple
moment and
then
he said,
"Truly, this
And Simon
man was
a son of God."
up
XXII
JOSEPH OF ARIMATHEA
of Jesus in his
to Pilate,
cross.
Pilate
went back with Nicodemus to his house, and after that I remember no
more, for something seemed to break in my head
with a great pain, and I lay ill for weeks and knew
no one. The summer was waning before I was
the burial of the dead.
able to go about
One
my
Galilee, I
went
to the
Garden of Gethsemane.
trees
at the sunset.
could
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now.
After a time
stay there ?
turned aside.
it
the earth.
Why
should I
There
prayed in his
Was it here
agony*? What did
trees.
that Jesus
had
matter?
He
it
by man, the
olive trees
and
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to begin.
around me.
It could
not be a
to
come from
man
for there
all
was
my
footsteps.
moved
and there
was a thick wrinkle all down its pale brown neck
where the skin and feathers doubled. For a moment it gazed at me with an indifferent curiosity,
and then it turned its head away and went on
with its snoring.
I leant against the tree and
watched it, and something smote me in the heart
with agony that it should be alive, so young and
so quaint, and that Jesus should be dead. It was
a little owl.
It had not been alive when Jesus
it.
It
its
head
as a kitten does,
died.
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men were
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Mary came
my
face
"How
is
is
sleeve.
so did
I.
But
stopped
she said.
"Seen him?
I said.
Sit
the
us.
Her
hand on
"We
body
my
arm.
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But
Am
look at
me now.
the
misery?"
thought
that
it
it
she said.
"At
first
But then
saw
was Jesus."
"You were
dreaming, Mary.
You
have de-
and smiled.
"You
think
am
mad.
I
Look
at
a wild
me and
see if
it is
tell
not
not true."
was mad.
"You think you saw his spirit?" I asked.
"I suppose it was his spirit," she replied. "But
what does it matter what I saw, body or spirit?
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saw Jesus
am now
an
alive
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still,
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in misery
full of joy."
I!
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be happy
if
I said
if
dom
impossible?
Men
When
you
see Peter
Peter
is
'How have
altogether changed.
How
Our minds
We
burns.
"It
is
Who
fire
in-
that
cannot be unhappy."
"Would
fire
and
these barbarous
structed?'
us.
despising death,
for
a dream?"
she cried.
and was feeble of understanding, but that now he is inspired, and men
hear from him things that enrich them and make
life
Can
finger of
I
us,
this
be without the
God?"
me
it
broke
my
heart.
Mary
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The voices of the children driving the cattle home came from the plain,
and far in the distance a cow lowed to her calf
ready the evening meal.
The wild
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came the
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No bird cheeped,
stillness.
dawn
It
was
saw nothing.
spread slowly
before
my
heart.
have no words to
me
I
tell
it
it.
And
it
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wonder the
was so
with the spirit of man. In tribulation and in agony
happiness died, but in beauty and glory joy lived
again.
I rolled over on my face on the coarse
mountain grass and lay there thinking.
The
greatest miracle in the world had happened to me.
I had seen the transfiguration in the look of life
that an emotion brings. A remembrance of beauty
and love and immortal passion, the romance of the
earth and of life had taken hold of me.
The
smallest, meanest things had gained a power of
in
on
it.
was
full
of wonders.
It
The world
love.
The
Their
When I sat up
longer caught
life
my
vision
was
The beauty of the world no
and looked
my
before I stirred.
breath away.
it
In the bustle of
did not mind.
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