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Mark E. Smith, LCSW
Prologue
I have been writing about marital issues since I put my first brochure
together back in 1989. Many of my marital articles have the very
same theme. Im sort of a one note chump. I only know one thing and
I only have one skill. The skill I have is that, if need be, I can abrasively share this concept until most people get it. The thing I know
is the topic of my third E-Book. The book is a collection of 14 articles
that I have written over the years for our newsletter The Networker. All 14 articles are about the same topic. I attempted to
cutely and cleverly re-package each one to cover the same material in
a hopefully fresh and unique perspective. Those of you who know me
know that the one thing I know is that you marry your issues, that
there are no victims in marriage and that marital pain is all good. In
fact marital pain is a gift! Before every chapter I am adding a few
new paragraphs about that particular article, when it was written,
what inspired it and what clean and fresh angle it can bring to your
developing insight on the topic. The chapters areMe and My Sparrow, Marriage Actually is..Purgatory, Your Marriage is Supposed
to be Miserable!, Marriage Isnt What You Think It Is, Illusions In
Marriage, The Divorce Destroyer, The Mind Blowing Actual Purpose
Of Marriage, Victims No Longer!, Marital Wounds, Your Marital
Problems Are A GIFT, Can This Marriage Be Saved?, Learn From
The Pain Of Your Marriage, Rebuilding After An Affair and Let Us
Rock Your Marriage to Its Core!. Each of these articles are my babies
and I know that each of them will speak to you in different ways.
Our whole practice is based on this one amazing concept. If you read
this book with an open mind you will grasp what I believe to be an
immutable law of nature. It will explain a lot of things for you. It
can integrate your life as a whole, connecting your childhood experi-
ences with your relationship history and your adult life as a whole.
The concept in this book is not a nice little insight that can move you
a bit this week as you read the book. It is a grand and sweeping
paradigm that will re-define for you the nature of love, marriage, divorce, remarriage, dating, forgiveness, marital responsibility, and
many more concepts.
No one ever, ever, EVER married the wrong person. There are no
mistakes in marriage. There are no 'we were so young so it doesn't
count marriages. You fall in love with exactly the right person for a
reason and that reason is nature's way of forcing you to finally face
off with your issues. This I will prove to you if you come to this book
with an open mind.
I know what you are thinking -- that wacky therapist has gone too far
this time in his effort to come up with a catchy little title to his article.
Marriage is purgatory??? That doesn't exactly sound very romantic,
does it? Well, let me explain. Although my particular theological persuasion does not in any way embrace the concept of an actual spiritual destination called purgatory, my understanding of this belief is
that it is basically an unhappy place where flawed souls go to pay for
their sins and to work towards perhaps someday getting through the
pearly gates where joy, intimacy, acceptance and love abide. There
you have it; that is exactly what marriage is. Let me break this down
for you piece by piece.
#1 It is basically a painful, unhappy place. Building a truly happy
and mature marriage is difficult and painstaking work. Most couples
experience a blissful, love-filled initial stage of their relationship that
I call the "enmeshment" stage. There are few fights, if any, the sexual chemistry is hot and is very easy to
maintain, and even people who were
never previously given to deep emotional sharing sessions all of a sudden
are intimacy all-pros with their newfound soul mates.
wounds that came as a result of our childhood experiences. God designed us to be strongly attracted only to individuals who, unbeknownst to us, basically represent the best and very worst qualities of
our parents.
Marriage is the best and most common battlefield in which most people have an opportunity to finally come to grips with their issues with
their parents. A woman who grew up with a distant workaholic father
will struggle to have a voice with her now workaholic husband. A
man with disconnected, distant and under-nurturing parents will
naturally be highly attracted to the mysterious,
quiet and intriguingly distant new woman at
work. Then he will work hard at attempting to
connect with her -- at finally gaining attention,
praise, acceptance and nurturing from an individual who is supposed to love him, as his parents were supposed to love him. Marriage is
the perfect place for flawed souls to pay for
their sins, or to work at resolving the emotional baggage that comes
with being a product of their particular normal American dysfunctional family.
#3 Marriage is the natural place to work towards perhaps someday
getting through the pearly gates (of relational heaven) where joy, intimacy, acceptance and love abide. That is what
marriage is; it is an opportunity to resolve past issues, forge a new and healthier self and then finally consistently taste the fruits of a solid interdependent marriage-deep intimacy, true acceptance
even with the damning evidence of all of your
many imperfections, a deep and lifelong love and a
quiet and sustaining joy over the richness and
many blessings that life offers us all. Unfortunately, for most people,
marriage also represents a very real opportunity to sink into relation-
ship hell, which is filled with bitterness, hate, divorce, lawyers, broken hearts, rage, addiction, betrayal and the like. A marriage is an
opportunity to go either way-either through hard work, being proactive, insight, therapy, faith and forbearance to scale the heights of a
true and mature lifelong partnership and love affair or through a
lack of insight into one's own issues, a
victim mentality, a lack of commitment, an avoidance of therapy, and a
lack of faith, descending into the pits
of bitter, cold, emotionally cut off relational hell. The choice is yours.
Most people can't do this work without an expert guide to help them
along the journey.
You read correctly! If you have been married more than 7 years and
you have not done some major league marital therapy as of yet then
your immense marital unhappiness is right on track where it is supposed to be. Are you surprised at that? If
you are then you do not understand the
nature and the purpose of marriage.
Your marriage is actually operating perfectly well, just as it was designed to do.
The under lying nature of your marital
unhappiness goes much deeper than the
dynamics between you and the person
you said I do two years ago. The problem my dear friendis you.
I cant judge you for your not fully
grasping the nature of marriage. Who of us actually knew ourselves
and truly and deeply knew our spouses when we made those vows
that fateful day? And who of us had a skilled and knowledgeable
therapist plumbing the dysfunctional potential of our fresh and innocent union? Hear this; sorry for raising my voice but I want for you
to get it THE PURPOSE OF MARRIAGE IS TO REINACT THE
MOST PAINFUL ASPECTS OF YOUR CHILDHOOD WITH SOMEONE STANDING IN THE PLACE OF THE PERSON(S) WHO HURT
YOU THE MOST. That is why you arent happily married. You werent healthily and happily enough raised. Please take that truth to the
bank it is pure gold.
Your childhood is the very foundation of you and all that you are.
Your flawed parents were no doubt wonderful people, but dont kid
yourself, they had more issues than a barrel
full of monkeys. While they did their best to
love you and give you a stable childhood they
came short, way short of all that you needed.
So you were wounded. And then you thankfully developed some pretty sturdy psychological defenses whose purpose was to protect you
from truths and pain at your very core. So you
left home full of hope and love and you landed
at the altar like we all doin a deaf, dumb, blind and relational inexperienced condition. But trust me; you were standing at the scene of
the crime with the right conspirator. Your internal radar system drew
you to the perfect person for you to marry. No one ever, ever married
the wrong person. Your beloveds role was to blissfully skate by with
you for 5 to 7 years of early love bonding or enmeshment and then
to eventually and imperceptivity show their true colors to you. This is
what love and marriage is. Once the enmeshment is over you wake up
one day and realize that your jerk of a husband is actually a dead
ringer for your controlling and critical mother or that your betraying
wife is a Ground Hog Day
rehash of the father who
abandoned the family when
you were 4, or that your know
it all alcoholic boyfriend is a
carbon copy of your know it
all workaholic father. And 10,
15 or 20 years in without therapy you expect to be happily
married? No. Not in the
cards.
Marital issues are an opportunity for you to look at you and to examine your flaws and wounds. It is not a place to point the finger. Divorce really isnt a good option at all. Mainly because you are guaranteed to marry the same person all over again the second time
around. Theyll just with a different name and a different face and a
whole lot of messy baggage for all concerned. Face your pain. Embrace your pain. Normalize it. It is normal as breathing. But you cannot figure this out for yourself. If you could have you would have by
now. One of you needs to realize that there is a serious condition that
needs attention and seek the proper help. By proper help I mean
ONLY a therapist who ties your
childhood wounding to your current
state of marital unhappiness and
who fosters a community of Recovery for both of you in a safe and directive environment where truths
about both of you are boldly and
cuttingly named and owned. It isnt
about fixing the marriage. It is
about fixing two broken wounded
people who have been trying like hell to push each other to the very
end of themselves. It is time.
I love attending weddings. The beautiful music, the innocence, the joy
and the unbridled faith in eternal love never cease to make me shed a
few tears. The message is almost always given that marriage is THE
source for such priceless goodies as unconditional love, bliss, happiness, fulfillment, joy and a
life blessed by God. In the
weddings that I attend the
stars of the show are usually
in their early 20's. Bless their
hearts; they have no idea #1
who they are, #2 who their
beloved is or #3 what in the
world they are committing to.
I can't help it though it still
makes me cry.
During these lovely services I frequently day dream about the young
couple asking me, as the renowned expert on marriage to the microphone to say a few uplifting and pithy statements about the blessed
institution of marriage. The bride and groom swell with anticipation
as I clear my throat and direct the following statements in their direction "You have no idea what you are about to get yourself into. Marriage is not at all what it has been painted as in this wonderful service
today. In fact, marriage in reality is ultimately the following - a reenactment of the most painful experiences of your childhood, a Trojan
horse, a seemingly cruel cosmic double cross and the great un-masker
of your unresolved childhood issues, an opportunity to heal deep
emotional wounds, and just plain brutally hard work. In my day-
masking of the marriage's real nature. A scary burst of rage that explodes out of a seemingly gentle
young husband or an intercepted email from what he thought was his
happy and forever faithful young
wife's new lover. In this work couples face both the loss of innocence
in their relationship as well as the
beginning of real growth and communication.
#5 Marriage is an opportunity to heal deep emotional wounds and it
is just plain brutally hard work - Marital pain is an opportunity to
work as hard as you have ever worked on anything. If your spouse
breaks your heart it doesn't mean that they are the wrong person for
you " it means that they are the perfect person for you.
Mike and Sue fell madly in love during their college years. Sue was
very attracted to Mike's confident, strong, and sensitive nature, and
Mike loved Sue's sweet, easy-going, and giving personality. It seemed
to be a match made in heaven. The early years of marriage were easy,
fun, and connected. Mike finished in graduate degree in engineering
and accepted a lucrative position with a fortune 500 company. Mike
had been extremely poor as a child, and he was hungry, focused, and
highly driven to be as successful as possible.
As the years went by, Sue's complete focus became the home and the
kids (there were three now). In the first 10 years of his career, Mike
had accepted four promotions, which had also meant four longdistance relocations. Recently a company on the East Coast had purchased Mike's company, and he was under a tremendous amount of
pressure dealing with a massive downsizing of his department. His
weekly work schedule, which had always been intense, had ballooned
to 70+ hours a week. It had been years since he felt like he had time
to work out, and he was beginning to put
on quite a bit of weight, especially around
his waist.
Sue was feeling absolutely overwhelmed at
home with kids' homework, discipline issues, soccer, and a house that never seemed
close to being clean. A thick emotional wall
had developed between Sue and Bill. In
the early years they made love at least 3 or
4 times a week, but lately the frequency had been reduced to about
once every other month. Sue was extremely lonely and depressed.
This isn't what she had imagined family life to be like. It felt like she
was a single mother. When Mike was home he was grouchy, exhausted, abusive, and pretty well useless when it came to helping with
the kids or the house. When Sue would bring the issues up, Mike
would instantly become defensive and angry. He was sick and tired of
being criticized for, in his mind, was simply the need to work hard to
provide for his family. It seemed like neither of them was able to truly
hear and empathize with the other. Sue felt a very deep, seething anger towards Mike. It felt to her if he had actually chosen to abandon
both her and the kids. She did not want to divorce because of the
kids, and her strong faith, but her marriage was completely barren
and miserable.
Mike felt pressure from all sides it seemed like everybody was angry
and disappointed with him. Since Sue never seemed interested in sex,
Mike rationalized that getting involved with Internet pornography
was a harmless substitute. This became a very addictive habit. It got
to where Mike needed to log on to a porn site several times a day. Sue
was absolutely furious when she discovered what Mike had been doing on the Internet. After talking it over with her minister, Sue decided to give marriage counseling a try before proceeding with a divorce.
Like a lot of men, Mike seemed mighty nervous upon
his initial visit to my office. He was sure that marriage
counseling was a mechanism that Sue would use to
punish, and blame him. I began the session by allowing
both Mike and Sue to share their perception of the
marital issues. With a great deal of emotion, Sue
poured out a litany of Mike's numerous sins as he sank
deeper and deeper into my couch. From Mike's perspective the problems centered around Sue's not being supportive re-
garding his stress level at work, refusing sex, and just generally being
angry and critical all the time.
Having explained the need to shift the focus off of the current conflicts and onto their life histories, I began with Sue. As we got into
Sue's story, the room somehow changed. Instead of being a tense,
conflict-filled situation, the mood became one of vulnerability and
openness. I asked Sue what her father was like when she was a little
girl. Sue began to quietly weep. Sue's father had been a traveling
salesman whose territory included the entire Midwest. He was frequently on the road from Monday through Friday, and when he was
home she described him as being short tempered, controlling, and
critical. Sue had always had a tremendous hunger in her heart for
her father's love and attention. She told herself that she would never
marry a man like her father. During their courtship and the early
years of marriage, Mike had seemed to be the very antithesis of her
father. He was tender, and intimate, and nurturing. Sue was so
happy during those years. At this point, however, it almost felt as if
Mike had deceived her into marrying him he had majorly over promised and under delivered for too many years now. In recent weeks,
Sue became aware of a very deep rage towards Mike. She was actually beginning to hate the man she had once adored. As she sat before
me, I knew that she had very little faith that her marriage could be
salvaged. I also knew that was going to change very soon.
Mike's father had been an alcoholic who had raged and beaten
Mike's mother. He completely abandoned
the family when Mike was 10. Although
Mike's mother did her best, she struggled
to provide for Mike and his little brother
with her waitressing jobs. Mike became
the man of the house. Mike swore to himself that he would never rage, abandon his
family, or, most importantly, EVER,
EVER be poor again. The twin "barking dogs" of fear, and never
feeling quite good enough constantly nipped at his heals. Mike was
not a bad guy he was actually a very good man just trying to do his
best given the tools that he was given. Mike seemed quite irritated
and embarrassed when a few tears trickled down his face as he spoke
about his lonely, impoverished childhood. As we ended the second
session I prepared Mike and Sue for what was coming their way the
next time we met. I told them to come with open hearts and minds,
and if they did, that the feedback session could very well prove to be
the most important 1-hour of their lives. I told them that feedback
was not for the faint of heart, that it was psychological surgery with
no anesthesia provided. I could tell that Sue's hope level had risen a
bit as we scheduled our crucial next meeting.
When Mike and Sue arriving at my office on feedback day they were
both extremely nervous. Their hearts seemed wide open as I launched
into my presentation. I focused on Sue, whose sense of victimization
was threatening the existence of the marriage, that God had developed a very wonderful and a very terrible mechanism for healing our
unresolved childhood issues. It is called marriage. Anyone who has
ever been married has been in therapy, even if they have never darkened the door of a therapist's office. I explained that we are all
equipped with an infallible radar system that causes us to be attracted to exactly the perfect person for us to marry. We pick a person who will love us with the same type and quality of love that our
parents loved us with.
Sue grew up being abandoned by her critical, raging, workaholic father. She then was drawn to Mike because she sensed, on a purely unconscious level, that he was, in fact, a carbon copy of her dad. That is
what we all do. We can't heal if we are hiding behind a whole battery
of psychological defenses. Our spouse's job is to break us down and
cause us pain, and Mike was doing a fine job of this with Sue. One
picture I give new clients is this" Imagine yourself at the front of the
OK, maybe the title of this article is a little bit dramatic sounding,
but I really wanted to get the attention of those of you whose marriages are teetering on the brink of divorce or those of you who know
couples in dire straits. Through my 23 years as a therapist, I have
come across a profound truth which has saved literally hundreds of
marriages. With every couple that I work with, my goal is the same:
to get this truth deeply embedded into the heart, mind and soul of
both the husband and the wife. As I introduce this topic during the
initial feedback session with new couples, I frequently say that it is by
far the most profound concept that I will ever have to offer them. I
encourage you to come to this information with an open mind;
frankly, it will probably sound like "psychobabble" at first, but I can
assure that it is about as far from meaningless and powerless psychobabble as possible. The purpose of this article is to give hope where
there currently is none. This article won't fix your marriage, but it
can point you in the right direction. You will need a lot of help from a
skilled and caring therapist in order to repair your marriage.
With all that fanfare, here goes. There are absolutely, positively no
victims in marriage-ever. That is a shocking statement to the ears of
the spouse who comes to therapy because they feel extremely victimized by their partner's infidelity, neglect, abuse, rage, abandonment,
responsibilities, etc. Surely I'm not saying that spouses who have
been cheated on or raged upon have not been victimized? Actually
that is exactly what I am saying; and what is more, if you have an
open mind, I think that I can prove it to you. I will take it one step
further; the most appropriate and proactive response from an individual who feels victimized by their spouse's behavior is actually to
be sincerely thankful for the opportunities for deep, life-changing
growth that the spouse has provided. Not quite there yet? Let me explain further. It will make a world of sense to you very soon. If you
get it, it very well could change everything; it could turn a negative, bitter,
powerless, miserable situation into a
positive, team-building, marriagehealing project that could ultimately
yield the fruit of a happy and fulfilling
marriage to the very person you have
been seeing as such a stinker. Does that
sound too good to be true? I have seen
it happen many, many times with people who are probably no different than
you are.
Here's the thing; there are no victims
in marriage because you not only chose
your spouse, you actually knew exactly who they were and what they
were all about before you married them. We are all equipped with an
unconscious and infallible radar system that causes us to be attracted
to absolutely the perfect person in the entire world for us to marry.
The reason we are attracted to them is that, unknown to us, they possess the combined worst attributes of our parents. They are qualified
because they are uniquely wired psychologically to be able to hurt us
the most deeply, the most effectively, and the most completely. In fact,
that is their mission, to hurt and challenge us to our very cores. For
those of you who haven't tossed the article yet, hang in there; I will
piece this together soon.
Nature heals itself. When trees are damaged, the bark begins a natural healing process that saves the life of the tree. If you were to cut
your finger, immediately red blood platelets arrive on the scene, begin to coagulate the blood, and the healing process begins. In several
weeks the cut is gone. Doctors do not heal the body; the body heals itself. Doctors only help the body to best do its healing work. It is the
same thing with our hearts, if our hearts get cut when we are children
(and I believe that that happens to all of us to one degree or another).
What was your childhood like? Were there any of the following: parents, who were either overly critical, or controlling, or addictive, or
oblivious, or workaholic, or full of rage, or not there for you for whatever reason? You are completely
normal if that was your experience.
A child whose heart is cut and
hurting will naturally erect thick
psychological walls as a coping
mechanism. That cut cannot be
healed until their psychological defense mechanisms come crumbling
down. Many times this doesn't happen until about age 30 or later
with the help of the pain of relationships. I believe that God has created a very wonderful and terrible system for reaching our walled off
hearts; it is called marriage.
Basically, we are attracted to people who fit a certain psychological
profile; they are the physical incarnation of our unresolved issues
with our parents, people who are all about giving us the very same
type and quality of love that we received as children. I like to give this
picture . . . you are at the altar and the minister says, "I present to
you Mr. and Mrs. Mike Jones" and as you gaze into your beloved's
face, they pull off a mask like Tom Cruise in Mission Impossible and
it is your father (or the parent who caused you the most pain) standing there. That is what we all do. The mating process is driven by an
instinctive drive on our part to both connect with and heal our core
childhood scars. You say that you don't have any childhood issues or
scars? Yes you do, or your marriage would not be in shambles at this
point.
Does my theory sound like a stretch? Remember I said that I would
prove it to you? Here we go. Take a sheet of paper and write down
the first ten or so descriptive words each that come to your mind
about your father, your mother, any step-parent, any long-term serious dating relationship, previous spouses, and your current spouse.
This will only work if you are able to be open and honest with yourself. Many times people tend to over idealize their parents out of a
sense of loyalty. We certainly aren't into blaming parents, but it will
be very important to name the truth about what your childhood experience was really like. Now, compare your lists. Isn't that a kicker?
Most people are too close to their situations to ever see it before they
see it in black and white. That controlling, critical, irresponsible, raging husband has actually just been standing in for your father of the
very same qualities. It is almost as if you handed your husband a
script and asked him to play the role; he could do it very easily because that was who he was anyway. If you didn't pick this spouse who
hurt you in this way, you most certainly would have selected someone
just like him or her. Be careful in discarding this spouse. If you don't
fix your issues, you will pick the same person all over again; they'll
just have a different name and a different face. They are actually neither here nor there in the equation.
If you had some pain in your childhood (like most people do), the last
thing that you would consciously do is select someone who clearly
had the very same qualities which were so hurtful to you as a child.
However, when we first meet our spouses, we are intrigued with them
and attracted to them in very powerful ways. We let them in through
the walls of our hearts not knowing that inside them are some very
powerful destructive forces which are tailor-made to humble and
break us down. Look at your list again. That is not a coincidence.
That is an immutable law of nature at work, potentially for our own
good and benefit. They might look like your enemy, but your
of the back of the church if he knew the true meaning of the love that
drew him to his bride. Like the rest of us, once he got a dose of the
magic and energy of genuine early love, nothing could keep him away
from his special girl. Love and marriage are worth the pain and they
are worth the tremendous risks. Marriage is all about opportunities
for healing, growth, depth, insight, forgiveness, maturity, and recovery. Sadly, if you do not understand that the pain of love and marriage is all about YOU and your childhood and not about your beloved then you probably will miss out on the incredible opportunities
for growth, lessons and healing that love offers. No matter how your
spouse hurts you it is ultimately about you and it is all good. There
never has been, nor will there ever be, a victim in love and marriage.
My prayer for my nephew and his bride is a life-long fulfilling relationship that enriches everyone their lives touch. There will be ruthlessly tough times though. I hope that there will be a great deal of
time spent on a therapists couch someday they will absolutely need
it. You will need it as well. It is normal to have a really dysfunctional
family and to ultimately have extremely serious marital problems. It
is all about embracing the work, embracing the pain and finding out
what is laying deep in your
gut when you embrace the
cutting of the buzz saw. The
hundreds of couples that I
have worked with over the
past 22 years who have gotten
this concept have proactively
healed, thrived and blossomed into healthier and happier people. Not all of their
marriages could be salvaged
but the vast majority of them were not only salvaged, they were rebuilt from the ground up into something truly solid and wonderfully
special. The divorce rate for those who didnt get the mind blowing
In our culture, I believe that there exists a very common misperception about individuals who seek help in therapy. Many times they are
seen as weak, whining, blame
-shifting, ungrateful people
who get "relief" from some
of their misery by dumping
their load of venomous anger
about their spouse, parents,
children, boss, etc. at their
therapist's office. Actually, it
has been my experience that
this is how many people do
begin their first session. They
are hurting, and they believe and feel as if they have been victimized
by someone or several someone's in their adult lives. However, at
Family Tree Counseling Associates they soon discover that they are in
fact not victims, but rather that their own unhealthy choices, and
their inability to set boundaries have caused the very situation that is
causing them pain.
This perspective-that we do not believe in victims-strikes at the very
heart of our therapeutic philosophy here at Family Tree Counseling
Associates. I would like to share with you why we take this stance,
and why we believe that this perspective is so vital to anyone who
really wants to improve his life.
There is a story that illustrates this concept really well. A man was
hiking in the mountains when he came across a frozen snake. The
man felt sorry for the snake and he decided to try to save the snake's
life by warming him by a fire. Sure enough, after several minutes, the
snake began to thaw out, and he was OK. The snake then crawled
over to the man and promptly bit him. Since the snake was poisonous, the man knew that he was going to die.
He said, "Mr. Snake, that hardly seems fair. I
saved your life and now you have killed
me." Then the snake said, "Well mister,
that is just what snakes do. It is our nature.
Why did you pick me up?" Like the hiker,
it is our decisions to invite or to allow the unhealthy and unsafe behaviors of others into
our lives that result in our feelings of victimization.
We believe that for many people, no doubt,
most of us, that there was a time when we
were truly victimized-in childhood. Children
are so innocent and so powerless. If they are subjected to abuse or neglect, they cannot help but grow up and carry those wounds into their
adult relationships. And by abuse and neglect I don't necessarily
mean alcoholism or sexual abuse, or parental abandonment, as
prevalent as those issues are. Most of our work here centers around
some of the more subtle forms of parental abuse and neglect: the
workaholic, emotionally unavailable father; the emotionally needy,
overly controlling mother; the rigid, shaming, authoritarian addictively religious family; or the passive, materialistic parents who were
unable to set effective disciplinarian boundaries for their children,
e tc .
Our focus is on healing these childhood wounds. For most people that
process begins when the protective psychological walls that they have
built in order to better survive the pain of their childhood are broken
down by some painful situation in an adult relationship. Many times
that is the point at which they seek therapy.
This process of realization, of discovering the true roots of their problems, of experiencing deep and powerful insights into themselves and
their families of origin is basically making an ideological shift from
seeing oneself as a victim, and moving to a position of selfresponsibility and recovery. I tell my clients
that if I am feeling victimized I go stand in
front of a mirror and ask myself what I did or
didn't do that allowed this situation to occur.
This awareness is life changing. Suddenly, I am
in control and no one has the power to victimize me. Victims do sound whiny. They tend to
want to ventilate their hurt and anger at or on
third parties as a way of "getting things off
their chests." Many times they come across as
persecuting and bitter.
It isn't clients in recovery therapy who sound
and act like victims. They don't ventilate their hurt and anger to
third parties. They assertively set boundaries with whoever has the
misfortune of attempting to violate them. They don't sit around and
whine and shift the blame. They take the responsibility for their lives
with positive, affirming attitudes towards others, and they don't run
from and bury the painful childhood issues which for most people are
actually unknowingly dictating their lives. They courageously face
themselves and their childhood pain,
which results in them gaining healthier, more manageable lives.
Far from being victims, during their
sessions, these psychologically open individuals have the refreshing innocence of real, precious, healing children as they wipe the tears from
their eyes from week to week. They have the guts to re-experience the
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
2) I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
3) I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in . . . It's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my responsibility.
herself. They are whom I needed to pick to help me grow and heal.
They aren't doing me wrong; they're just being the person that they
always have been in their heart of hearts. They are doing me a favor.
I should sincerely be thankful. The problem is not my spouse. The
problem is my unresolved childhood pain. The marriage is just a
symptom. When that light goes on for a couple, it changes everything.
They are no longer enemies lashing out at each other; they become
therapy buddies who support and encourage growth in the other person. Victimy pain is the worst kind of pain. If fate or some evil person
just deliberately hurts you as an innocent victim, there is powerlessness and an anger to it that is overwhelming. However, if we are
"eating our own cooking," then we can proactively grow and learn
something about ourselves. It hurts, yes, but it is a positive because
we are correcting something that we know that we have brought on
ourselves; it is completely fair and it makes sense in the moral universe. That is my point; all marital wounds are our responsibilities.
Our marital misery is not about our spouse; it is all about our unresolved childhood issues. That is good news, because that is the one
thing that we have the power to fix and control.
I want to share a beautiful example of how this shift in thinking is
currently being played out in the therapy of a couple that I am working with. We'll call them Lenny and Becky.
When they first came in, Becky acted sort of
like Linda Blair in The Exorcist. Her head didn't twist all the way around and she didn't
spew pea soup, but it was close to that. She was
filled with so much anger, reactivity and hurt.
At times it felt like her head was going to explode as she hurled accusations at Lenny.
Lenny frequently raged himself and it was so intense that it even intimidated me and I never get intimidated.
Lenny and Becky have come a long, long way. In a recent session as
depression (and then quickly medicated into oblivion) is healthy, appropriate pain that should be a large part of our growth and healing
process. Fixing your marriage entails fixing yourself, and fixing yourself entails healing the deep emotional wounds sustained in childhood. Facing yourself, warts and all, is definitely a necessary aspect
of the marital therapy process.
The fourth building material involved in rebuilding a marriage is
trust. Trust in your partner, in the therapist, in members of a group
you might be in group therapy with, and in yourself. Some people are
so trust damaged from their childhood experiences that it is virtually
impossible for them to trust. Frequently, after we are well under way
in the therapeutic process, clients do develop a great deal of trust in
the therapist. That trust is earned as a result of progress made, new
insights developed, as well as the provision of a consistent, safe, caring, connected environment.
The fifth needed building
material used in order to develop a new and greatly improved marriage is trustworthiness. The lack of personal trustworthiness has
sabotaged many attempts at
marital therapy. In this context, trustworthiness means
following through with your
commitments, doing what
you say that you will do, consistently making appointments on time,
check in hand. Many times people are well intentioned, but they lack
the discipline, focus, and responsibility that they would need to complete any type of rebuilding project.
The sixth building material is an obvious one, lots of patience and lots
of time. People are used to instant results. They want quick fixes.
There really are no quick fixes if your goal is to truly make your marriage significantly healthier. We work with most of our clients over a
matter of years, rather than weeks, or months. Think about how
deeply ingrained issues are. They are part of the foundation of our
personalities. They literally have been part of us for decades. That
simply will not change very quickly. The change will be genuine, and
long lasting, but it won't be quick and easy.
The seventh and final building material needed to rebuild a marriage
might surprise a lot of you-group therapy. Group therapy is by far
the most effective form of therapy, even for marital issues.
As couples work in their separate groups on the real core issues-their
individual childhood stuff, the marital issues almost take care of
themselves. Almost every client that I have ever worked with, who
has made a significant amount of progress has done a great deal of
group therapy. In group, clients find a great deal of insight, support,
encouragement, accountability, perspective, community, friendship,
and laughter. People get healthier quicker when they help each other.
Group is like the gym for emotional muscles. Of course, a great deal
of marital work is done as well,
but it is not the main focus.
Most marriages can be saved.
People just need direction. Before
they come to therapy, many times
they are fumbling around in the
dark, cursing the darkness that is
usually represented by their
spouse. So much of their attention
is on what their spouse is doing or not doing that they have a hard
time taking responsibility for their own lives. When both parties are
working hard on their own issues and they are patient and realistic in
Your coffee better be really strong today because we are going to get
deep in your free 5-minute therapy session. This article could really
change your life and your marriage. Marriages can be brutal places
to be. They have the ability to unearth our deepest pain " rage, abandonment, betrayal, depression, tears that won't stop, hatred, defensiveness, feeling unheard, and that awful crackling tension in the air.
If you are currently in such a marriage I want to help you to make
some sense of it all.
Somewhere along the line we got it
in our heads that the purpose of
marriage was to provide unconditional love, happiness, nurturing,
safety and a little heaven on earth.
That is absolutely, positively not even remotely close to the real purpose of marriage. The purpose of marriage, get this, is in fact to hurt
us! You read that right. Let me explain - as children we all sustained
some emotional wounds along the way, some more than others. It
might be the premature death of a parent, a distant father, a divorce,
addictions, an overly critical parent, or even a tragic event that happened outside the family. Fortunately we came equipped with the
ability to protect, defend and bury those wounds so that we could
cope and then get the heck out of Dodge. When we hit our early twenties we are idealistic enough to believe that by physically leaving the
This is another difficult issue that we obviously deal with quite regularly. Just as with other marital issues, there is a healthy and proactive way to deal with this situation and there are many other very unhealthy and destructive ways to deal with it. I will cover 5 extremely
important principles concerning the issue of extramarital affairs.
Most of the insights that I have gained from my years of working
with these issues are boiled down and covered in these five principles.
1. There are NO victims in marriages, even if your spouse cheats on
you! I am serious as a heart attack. This is by far the most important
concept that you will need to come to grips with. You will certainly
feel victimized initially. Family and friends will certainly view you as
a poor unfairly betrayed victim. In my many years of experience as a
marital therapist and from all the professional reading that I have
done, the evidence is quite clear; affairs do not occur in highly emotionally and sexually intimate marriages. They do occur with startling regularity in marriages that are distant, emotionally cutoff and
lacking in intimacy and commitment. Our marriages are not about
the other person. They are about us. Whom did you choose to be
solely in charge of loving you? It is so important that you get this.
Our marital choices are based on our unconscious "radar system"
which attracts us to partners who basically will give us the same type
and quality of love that we grew up with. Bummer, huh? It is absolutely the truth though. If you had some form of abandonment from
parents during your childhood-a father who died or abandoned the
family when you were very young, a mother who wasn't there for
you, or if you are adopted, there is a very strong chance that you will
unconsciously select a marital partner who will abandon and betray
you by having an affair once the "enmeshment" or the close honeymoon over-idealizing is over with. It just might be who they are. God
and we are in charge of our destinies, not other people. We are responsible for the choices that we have made in our lives. Our learning
about the affair is our invitation to work really hard on our issues
and ourselves and to learn what it all means about us. If you get this
insight, then the recovery process will be in full swing. If you don't,
then you will be mired in a dark, bitter, nasty, depressing and powerless place for a long, long time.
2. Playing the victim role will destroy whatever chance you had left of
saving your marriage. Oh the stories that I could tell. Let me contrast
the stories of two couples that will help me to illustrate the right way
and the wrong way to deal
with the revelation that your
spouse has had an affair. The
examples that I use here are
not specifically about two actual couples that I have
worked with, but rather they
are a mixture of many couples
that I've worked with through
the years. The first couple
we'll call Dave and Sue. They
are in their mid-fifties by the
time they cross paths with me.
Dave is still obsessed with a
brief affair that Sue had 30
years before! Dave was a hard charging lawyer clocking 80 to 100
hours a week during the early years of the marriage. Sue was desperately lonely and a womanizing acquaintance picked up on what was
going on at home and he started to give Sue what she needed from
Dave but wasn't getting on an emotional level-attention, compliments
and romance. Although Sue never thought that she would ever cheat
on Dave, the new relationship did become sexual. And, for the past 30
years she has paid dearly for her indiscretions. Dave still gets tearful
as he talks about the affair. It has been the major issue around which
all other conflicts have centered. I like to share a little story to help
such husbands understand their responsibilities in marriages like
Dave and Sue's. If you go away on a vacation and you not only leave
your front door unlocked, but you also leave it standing wide open,
and you return home to discover that your VCR has been stolen, then
you have not been victimized. You invited it. If you have a pretty,
young wife and you check out of the marriage in your insecure pursuit of "success," if you stop meeting her emotional needs, then
somebody is liable to come along and start to meet those needs in
your stead. You have to own your part. Affairs happen for a reason
and there are no victims.
The second fellow was a workaholic accountant who ignored his
pretty, young wife. He was devastated to learn of her affair. However,
in the next few months, he focused on his own issues. He learned that
an affair was all but inevitable in any marriage that he would be part
of because he knew very little about emotional intimacy. He even got
to such a wonderfully proactive place that he held no bitterness towards his ex-wife and he stated that the affair was actually the best
thing that had ever happened to him! It was his emotional and psychological wake up call. The things he learned about himself and the
ways in which he grew were priceless to him.
3. It is natural to try to grovel and to cling to the betraying spouse,
but it is exactly the wrong thing to do. Affairs touch people on a very
deep level. The knowledge that your spouse has been with somebody
else brings up powerful feelings of abandonment. These strong feelings many times sort of override our judgment in terms of what the
Does your marriage seem hopeless? Does it seem like kind effective
communication with your spouse is utterly and pathetically impossible? Have you ever asked yourself why relationships, love and marriage are so difficult and so excruciatingly painful? Have you been to
a marital therapist or two only to walk away with little progress, lots
of meaningless psychobabble and ultimately less hope? You are not
alone. The above paragraph describes the vast majority of my brand
new clients. But they come to our offices having heard or read that
we are different, that we can actually help them. They have heard
that we dont pull punches, that we accurately, courageously and
bluntly called a spade a spade. They have heard that our approach
rocks and they heard right!
Let me describe for you what differentiates our approach from other
less experienced and less established
practices. On September 4th we celebrated our 21st year as a vibrant,
powerhouse fixture in our community. Marriage rocking therapy is
about truth, confidence and respect.
Great therapy isnt about your
spouse. It is ALL about you Skippy.
Do not call us and come to our offices unless you are ready, willing
and able to be confronted, enlightened and even assaulted (if need be)
with the cold, hard truth about who you are, where you came from
and why you married the person you married. I really only know
one thing and I really only have one skill. The one thing that I know
is that in the history of marriage there has NEVER been a victim because we ALL marry exactly the right person who gives us pretty
much the same flawed, dysfunctional love that we got growing up
from our parents. The one skill that I have is the ability to abrasively
communicate that one thing I know deeply into the often resistant
psyches of my clients. It is actually a fabulously wonderful and positive message. Our message of truth is that #1 your whole life from
the day you were born to today makes all the sense in the world
there are patterns in your relationship history that fit, #2 your life is
completely fair your signed on for the lessons that you have an opportunity to learn in your relationship, #3 Nature, the Universe or
God, however you view it, is using your relationship to reach, break
and heal your deepest childhood wounds (whether you like it and cooperate with it or not) and #4 you and only you have the power and
the responsibility to heal and fix you and your situation. It is a shame
reducing message. The mess of your life is your responsibility but it
is not your Fault. Abrasiveness is an awesome thing if breaks down
walls of marriage smothering denial. We attempt to comfort the disturbed and to disturb the comfortable. We all have our comfortable
denials, half truths, rationalizations, blind spots and BS. We are all
about razor sharp psychological surgeries that reduce the cancers of
marriage and life BS as small as possible.
Therapist generally have been taught to taught to passively nod their
heads, stoke their beards and facilitate a process wherein you have to
try to figure your own stuff out. Are you freaking kidding me? If
you could figure it out yourself you wouldnt be shelling out the big
bucks for therapy. People want and need answers! One client described her former therapist as a sweet, jolly, huggy snowman who
would never hurt a fly. That was nice but it didnt help her much.
She didnt need a hug; she needed whacked in the head with the
truth that she was not victimized in her marriage (even though every-
I met my now ex-wife during my 2nd year of college at Taylor University. There was something very intriguing in her quiet demeanor.
When I would return from a horrible weekend of rage, depression
and hurtfulness back at home she would listen to me, wipe away my
tears and hold me. She loved me like I had never been loved. She was
quiet, nurturing, sweet, generous, strong and stable (or the exact opposite of my Mother). During our lingering hugs in front of South
Hall I felt waves of powerful, unconditional liquid love surging between us. I
had become a strong Christian and I
was certain that my wonderful new
loves of both Lisa and Jesus would
heal me and put into the past forever
the sadness and the brokenness of my
painful childhood. I was not aware of
any flaws that my sweetie had and she
at least wasn't mentioning any of mine.
We didn't fight, we prayed together a lot and our love grew every
day. I now know that this was our "enmeshment' stage. Everyone
who ever fell in love goes through it " it is addictive, bonding and a
whole lot of fun. The problem with it is that it just doesn't last, for us
or for any couple.
There are no marriages made in heaven. That is a myth. If you think
that yours is, then just give it 5 to 7 years and come talk with me
then. When the enmeshment wears off and your spouse starts to
knock down your defenses and touch you in your deeply wounded
spots then I like to say that the marriage is in purgatory. Through
hard work, quality therapy, accountability, communication, insight,
voicing needs directly and non-reactively, couples can reach up and
occasionally taste a marriage that includes true slices of heaven. Unfortunately, what takes place more often than not is that couples
scend to an awful marital hell through finger pointing, rage, victim
stances, shaming, blaming and just not understanding what marriage
Epilogue
I hope that you have benefitted from this book. I have poured a lot of
myself into these pages. Learn from what you have read. Don't get
divorced. You don't have to. Get your spouse in with you and to
work on eliminating any victimy thinking in your marriage. Nature
or God or the Universe - Whoever you want to say it is - has offered
us a difficult, painful but proven path to the healing of our unresolved childhood wounds. We all marry our issues. I wish it wasn't
true but it is. It is good news. We all married the right person.
There is no bad luck or marrying too young or making a mistake.
We can all grow and heal AND stay married. Good luck with your
marriage saving generation impacting recovery work!