The corridors of my mind

Thoughts of a sceptic bastard...

About the author

I was born on Tuesday, 15th January 1980, at St. Luke's Hospital, Malta (EU). I
grew up in a family of four in a town named Birkirkara, and, lived there for most
of my life with the exception of occasional travel. Although I do not know my
date of death as of the time of writing, I am sure that this will be published on
my tombstone eventually.
I was educated at St. Francis School, Birkirkara (primary education), St. Aloysius'
College, Birkirkara (secondary education) and at other schools for postsecondary and tertiary education, including the Institute of Financial Services,
NCC Education (based in Manchester, UK) and the London School of Economics
and Political Sciences (based in London, UK). My main areas of academic
specialisation are Information Technology and Management.
My career history and work experiences are available on my Curriculum Vitae,
and, the most prominent roles are available online at
http://mt.linkedin.com/in/jonathancamilleri/.
I had been diagnosed of Asperger's disease and find my tendency to prefer
creative tasks very odd considering that my mental habits limit me to have
repetitive thoughts.

About my hometown
Birkirkara is a city in central Malta, with a population exceeding 20,000
inhabitants (March 2013). The Republic of Malta is an independent sovereign
state otherwise known as the Republic of Malta, and, Birkirkara is one of the
largest towns within the Central Harbour area, although the capital city is
Valletta.

About my family name

Camilleri is a common surname in Malta, and, to a lesser extent in Italy, and, the
surname has been borne by many personalities including writers, sport
professionals, diplomats, singers, a senior managers leading Philip Morris
International, philosophers, actors, and, media professionals.

References and bibliography

References and sources of information for preparing this book include reliable
websites on the world wide web, which have been professionally verified.
Further information is available by reading the following pages and bibliography:
1. Malta, available [online] at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malta.

Table of contents

Chapter 1: Ontology and epistemology...what fuels my

thoughts?
I was brought up in an urban setting, and throughout my life I have attended
privately funded education. I am business minded, sceptical, and, consider
myself to be rational, but nonetheless not immune to emotional bias, as I am
empathetic, and, I consider myself quite skilled in dialogue with people, except in
cases where people are deceiving me out of intuition, which is one of the skills
brought about by hacktivists and marketing agents, as then engage in a
propensity to sell any idea that comes across as a feasible business idea.
Nonetheless, whilst we are aware that regulations are meant to guide us, we still
have a right to object to a legal basis or a legal principle, hoping that our voice is
amongst those heard and upheld within a fair system, without there being a clear
and unifying definition of what constitutes fairness within an environment that
has been engineered by experts in administrative policy. The challenge is that
they appear to have written these rules and give us the impression that they are
set in stone, using careful wording to convince us that these are what we must
do, in a system that is governed by rules, expectations and a world where it is
always the individual responsibility to adhere to rules that are written by
someone sometime in the distant past. Empirical evidence and coherence to
context is thus not gauged in the right level of detail and this is quite true of
many systems that I have come across and that I have analysed.
I consider myself as a nihilist and being firm in my philosophical belief this leads
me to struggle and gasp for fresh air as I try to influence society to have the
same vision as I do, with little success I have to write, unfortunately.
I am inspired by news, current affairs and tragedies and I am concerned about
humanity, fearing the worst may come and hoping the best will some day
provide a silver lining on the horizon.

References
1. The Treaty of Lisbon, available [online] at
http://ec.europa.eu/archives/lisbon_treaty/index_en.htm.
2. The Dublin II Regulation, available [online] at http://eurlex.europa.eu/legal-content/EN/TXT/HTML/?uri=URISERV:l33153&from=EN.
3. E. Rose, The Root of the Revolution of the Modern Age, available for
purchase at www.amazon.co.uk/.
4. ISBN Search, available [online] at http://www.isbnsearch.org/.
5. Online dictionary, available [online] at http://www.thefreedictionary.com/.
6. Cambridge Online dictionary available [online] at
http://dictionary.cambridge.org/.

7. Oxford Online dictionary available [online] at

http://www.oxforddictionaries.com/.

Chapter 2: The politics of I...

Some have asked me what my motivation is in life, and, frankly, having
compared myself to Peter Pan, and, someone who wants to travel the world, I
have not really made radical changes to my philosophy of life, but have
nonetheless become more prudential in the way I have challenged authorities,
societies, and raised very critical political aspects. I have been asked to leave
companies because I am a person who is not afraid of criticizing in a society that
appears to be conservative and to present itself as classist and certainly not
devoid of being discriminatory. Notwithstanding that our teachers have
presented us with a philosophy that advocates free thinking, it is our actions
which appear to contradict these values, which some may label as childish, but
in any case I still consider to be morally and ethically viable.
I am a global pacifist, and my consciousness is bound by my imagination where I
hope that some day reality will be closer to what we originally envisaged, in a
world that is not devoid of terrorism, war and hostility. Hostility can be
institutional, bureaucratically induced or else arise out of individual
confrontation.
"Imagine there's no countries..."
John Lennon, Imagine

what is holding me including financial, political, social and a few personal

things, but mainly its bureaucracy that stifles the movement of capital
and other goods across the borders.
Democracy, does it represent the will of the majority of the agenda of the
politician? what about minorities.
Feeling like a rat in a cage and socialism, or a regime centred around taxism, minimalistic budgeting and dependence on external funding and
private enterprise that puts the state at the mercy of the enterprise.
What is power?

I have studied politics at length over the last few years as I wanted my
intelligence and my writings to be influenced by the widest possible journalistic
and political thoughts in an attempt to balance my arguments as being objective,
inquisitive and independent of bias, although escaping the shadow of bias is
almost an impossible feat to achieve. I have lived life life a person who enjoys
life and being aperson who lives for the sake of living not for the sake of other
peoples thoughts, I am labelled in various negative manners most of the time as
people tend to be egoistic, disinterested in my thoughts and thus achievement
becomes an individualistic feat, and, that alone.

Many consider my calls for support to be a personal issue, but this is not true, it
is the manner by which lawyers want to interpreted falsedoms as they feel
obliged to neglect responsibility rather than to take on responsibility, and this
happens throughout most of my life, and, is a major influence, leading me to feel
as nihilistic as possible, deep down, but having to tolerate a minimum level of
structure, regulation and order imposed upon me through my education and
through societal norms, amongst other books I have been indoctrinated to read.
Without knowing or having a worldview of collectivist thoughts, my only
prevailing philosophy has been solipsism, and, this is not sufficient to analyze the
external environment, thus this bias makes me feel like understanding other
persons around me, and, trying to suggest solutions for their problems, however
the problem of proposing solution is one that does not necessarily result in
profits, because people are miserly, mean and bargain anything that their
consumeristic instinct allows them to bargain for, until such time that they
become the sales assistant representing the trader, and, it is only at this point
that they realize what it must feel like to engage in suitable business analysis to
understand the real implications behind a business process, that includes stock
management, process control, structuring of an organisation, budgeting, some
control measures and other checks and balances devised based on systems
written, developed, standardized, customized and where information passing
over the wires is one that is thought to have a material value, but that is still
subject to demand and supply economics as well.
Thus, I ask what is discussion beyond a sense of absorbing secondary materials
as has been already been conveyed to us and does participation convey a false
sense of freedom as we are illuded in participation within a moderated form
where content has been adapted for our age? What other controls restrict our
sense of freedoms and is this unfair towards us as we feel we are worthy of trust
being registered legal individuals in the place we work and socialize?
Politics somewhat seems to have the same level of interest as opium has in the
mind of the addict, it gives us the impression that we are participant in choices,
but nevertheless the sceptic remains questioning how well reality is supporting
the idealism proposed by the objectives as any good management student would
do. The fact that the job seeker depends on a job offer in order for them not to
be materially deprived out of subsistence makes them dependent on a system
that obliges them to feel part of the system that holds the glue of society
together.
We are probably brought up in some environment that resembles a home and
some are lucky enough to have a family that establishes the basis of one's
cultural identity. We have to go to school, and, eventually we try to seek to work
for a living or else we start-up our own entrepreneurship, others may inherit a
business they do not own and manage it throughout their career, thus this very
awareness is the evidence that there is inequality in the manner profits are
distributed amongst members of society a principle of sociology [Marx, 1867].

Thus, while many appear to be pro-active in taking on the role of the prosecutor,
they ultimately fail in understanding their own mistakes since, they engage in
renegation and lies and vague discourse, this happens all the time in our society,
and, it leaves me feeling hopeless as I depend on the good values of other
people who are meant to support my pleas. In essence, I wish I was more
independent of the system, but I am locked within a group of societal systems
that I cannot unlock myself out of unfortunately and being a loner does not make
society go away, it has to come back and ask for money, resources or
information about my private life, at some point in time. They might feel it is
polite to do so, I feel it is very impolite to do so, effectively and the worst feeling
I get is the feeling of being controlled by other peoples influences, I am a free
thinker, I prefer to form my own independent opinion from others who seem to
think that they know best, I am not always interested in their opinion neither do I
feel obliged to agree with anything I have agreed upon till one minute ago, I
have the right to change my mind, so says the rape victim during trial.
I was educated to engineer systems, because they are meant to serve, but there
is the moral question of who they serve first and foremost this has to be covered
first and foremost since some system users are more powerful than others,
people who sign executive orders and feel that their writing is more authoritative
than that of others because the constitution of the legal jurisdiction within which
they authorize allows them to do so. Smaller entities consider themselves to be
independent because they operate within a set of internal regulations purposely
oblivious to external influences or else being biased in neglecting what is not
within their circle of interests to execute, such is disappointing in analyzing
stakeholder management and the external environment as we have been taught
in management school. We have been taught rules of politeness that sometimes
we find ourselves breaching, and, do we ask why or do we justify this through
rationalization, or is this considered as an excuse by some? To my mind
negation of an argument is a shallow attempt to stifle our freedom of expression
and this right is the only reight I will fight for during the rest of my life, because
everything else seems to have weaknesses that the written expression is able to
articulate in clear and unequivocal English language. Many have said my English
is good, others have preferred to focus on negative aspects of my skilling, person
or performance, and I have felt insulted, so I realized I had something new to
learn every step of the way, thus realizing the human is forgetful, fragile and
inherently imperfect, ever since it stood up on its feet from being another
mammal, at least according to the theory of evolution of the human species.
We socialize and exchange views as we interact with other people using all the
senses available to ourselves and trying to sleep comfortably from gaps between
one dream and another and we define this as our conscious life. Most of us have
neighbours, no matter how far they might be and most of us interact with
shopkeepers, school masters, managers, listen to speeches made by mayors and
other politicians listening to the substantial parts that appear to coincide with
our senses and views and we react to our perceptions continuously, probably
forgetting what we did last summer as we hardly remember what we ate last
week in detail, unless we write it down because our nutritionist has put us on a

strict diet or else we have a good reason to take notes. Most of us have goals in
life, some of us feel helpless and disabled, and, we might write down these goals
as a way to motivate ourselves simply because nobody else will bother to
understand our needs, them being highly personalized, individual and selfcentred. Societies and entities have expectations of our time , resources and we
might work regularly contributing towards a larger goal that is met through a
carefully organized structure that is good enough for the needs of the objectives
of that organization and usually appearing to interact with other entities, such as
when we are communicating on a business-to-business level in a structured
manner. We appear to forget our individual identity and leave our dreams back
to the place where we sleep, and, we engage in another role where we are made
to follow different sets of regulations falling within the objectives of the
organization that has planned out these mission statements, regulations and
procedures. If we were conservative, we would avoid making questions, as
giving rise to unnecessary organizational democracy might lead our boss to
consider our termination of employment.

We might be deviant to conservatism and engage in behaviour that appears to

voice our concerns, such as when we protest against a regulation, typically if
there is a deviance between our culture and the regulations being brought about.
Different regulators have divergent approaches to bringing about change, and, it
does not really depend solely on one's personality as our personality is one that
takes on different roles and our personality is one that is influenced by changing
pictures that revolve around us in visual or other format that gives rise to our
creativity being stimulated, perhaps. We might feel that we want to protect
ourselves and our members of family or even members of our neighbourhood, at
times giving rise to behaviour that is considered deviant or even criminal by rule
of law. We say that we are only human, a standing up version of the ape, and,
that we will always learn through mistake, and thus we question whether
repenting is the ideal way that religion, penalty, penitence or jail makes us
repent and what lesson do we learn from our mistake, actually?

References
1. John Lennon's website available [online] at http://www.johnlennon.com/.
2. Marx, Das Kapital, published during 1867.

Chapter 3: My business ideas...

I have had an entrepreneurial mind since I was very young, my father is a
person who uses his hands to work, and, he taught me the ethics of work,
and, the economic value of labor in work practices.
I was brought up hoping that I will have an occupation that helps me earn
a sufficient wage for myself to bring up a family, but I found out that I was
wrong and society sought ways to make me feel guilty for their own
perceptions. I have had private and public schooling and I have been
influenced by peers. Academic grading is one that disappointed me, I
thought perhaps if I obtained a better grade I would stand an increased
chance of being offered an opportunity, however, within my realistic way
of reflecting I realize that the economy does give us a lot of risks to plan
ahead not just at policy level, and, the factor of being one amongst many
others makes me feel very small and lacking of the necessary drive to
compete. Thus power is not given, influence is the way of the
entrepreneurial mind who wants to promote their ideas to investors,
financiers, stakeholders, shareholders and other professionals whose
services are required amongst other resources that prepare the
foundations and frameworks of business organisation. I am one who has a
heart and therefore I hope to built a charity on the side, so that a portion
of my earnings not only help my business grow and prosper but start
contributing towards the wider community and such economies of scale
are possible only with putting ones money where ones heart is at, with
the little provision that I am one who has little money so I depend on my
ability to convince others that my investments are viable in the short to
medium term. The long term is left for economists to analyze, it is very
complicated to analyze external influences when one is still struggling to
keep the house in order, thus the need for adequate structure is important
to any start-up.
My business plans vary they include technical projects, and, other
business projects involving import and export activities, however, capital
funding was found to be very lacking of flexibility towards my needs as a
small start-up entrepreneur, and, eventually I preferred to focus on finding
employment, only to find out that short-termist employment and the
culture of helter skelter has a side effect on the reputation of others,
although people have to take necessary or unnecessary decisions
sometimes.
My major obstacle is skepticism, where people do not put their money
where their dreams are at, unfortunately as even affiliate providers who
are meant to support my start-up come up with a lot of barriers and
unnecessary questions that are not their remit to analyze as I consider my
business as a private venture.

what are they?

Well, I have listed them in various websites, they include import/export
and other forms of business ventures:
Here's one https://www.scribd.com/doc/285515820/Business-Plan-Sun-TzuAI-BI-2015-05-V2, and, here's another - http://slyth3.wix.com/jon-business,
until they remain published on social media, that is.
The plans are still on paper and capital is required for such projects
to take-off and to start being successul. They include plans for
import/export, servicing and administrative services, and appear to
lack the necessary innovation to meet criteria made by fund
managers and agencies, and, intermediary organizations.

how will my business ideas improve humanity, or are they just

complementing the current system? how can they be improved to create
artificial wealth?
why all this laziness? banks, venture capitalists, paranoids etc
Nobody appears to want to read and appraise my essays and proposals,
but why am I a boring person?
Further reading
1. ILO, article at http://www.ilo.org/global/standards/subjects-covered-byinternational-labour-standards/forced-labour/langen/index.htm.

Chapter 4: My political ideas...

how will the world become a worse place than it is?

We tend to believe that economics gives us the foundation of making
rational decisions by which we create budgets, plan the future, forecast,
and, try to make sense out of an otherwise chaotic world. Yet, even
though sociologists as early as Karl Marx accurately outlined the fallacies
of Capitalism, we have not yet evolved to become a globalized society.
What will then happen when we think about moving to other planets?
Will humanity aim to destroy itself, as it has done for the history of
mankind?
We are just human beings, we just want to live, in freedom, without paying
taxes that lead us nowhere, and, without having our lives pervaded and
invaded by arrogant and ambitious managers, whose commission is only
based on productivity measures...
We do appreciate the contribution that the industry has made to our
civilization, however, if the benefits are not outweighing the consequential
damages, we will naturally prefer to do away with them.

will we have to flee to Mars?

the end of the world...do we care?
the environment, ozone layer, the 'not-give-a-fuck-about-anything-exceptmoney' capitalist
should we shoot these bankers, or should we just withdraw all of our
monies?
Political scepticism and adversity to change
Technology and its future

References (chapter 4)
1. Enric Duran is a blogger who discusses the speculative workings of banks,
and, his blog is available online at http://enricduran.cat/en/condemnation-to-thebanks-2/.

Chapter 5: Social life

now this is going to be a problem

music...does it help as therapy or is it just another business?
how has music influenced your social life...
I enjoyed games especially computer games and I am quite a geek
I am the laziest guy on the planet
love life...obsessions, games, sex etc

Chapter 6: Non-human animals, the environment,

natural habitat

how are we different from non human animals?

is this going to make us feel responsible for the care of non-human
animals?
will non-human animals going to take care of us?
what about other living organisms

Chapter 6: Activism

The roots of protesting and anarchy

Feminism, sociology, history of civilization and liberalization
How are we different from non-human animals? Are we?
The World War II, Fascism, Colonialism...
Violence
Hacking
Ventures
Politics

Achievements and do I feel an under-achiever?

Money, greed and other goals in life...I did not choose to be poor but I got
by quite well.

Chapter 7: Psychology...

Slavery to post-modernism...one big fucking trend indicating addiction and

greed.
why is it important to capture 'emotion'? Should we judge or should we
remain oblivious to our impressions?
what Freud taught me about dreams and life... and the dreams that I
cannot comprehend
sociopathy and the extremisms of the human mind and how it differs in
other living creatures, therefore why do we have a set of laws and rules?
how psychology influences our lives
how I influenced others

Chapter 8: Laws...

Legal jurisdictions in the world and fundamentals...are we moving away

from them?
Law and the abuse of power and its interpretation.
Law and bureaucracy.
Law and civil rights or the pretence of these rights.
Law and its perception, is it one that should fit all sizes but effectively
does not.
Law and penitentiary systems, do they serve to integrate or to feed the
administrators?
Law and their constitutional values.
Principles of law and which should prevail e.g. human rights and their
interpretation, civil rights and infringements, the law enforcement and
their interpretation of the law.

Glossary

Urban terminology
Academic terminology
Legal terminology
Philosophical terminology
Botanic terminology
Technological terminology
References

References and bibliography

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