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Self-Analysis
Being a white, middle-class, and educated female has its own privileges when seeking to
pursue a career in teaching. I have experienced other privileges in my life as well due to mobility
(both physically and ability to travel), communication, opportunities, and fair judgement. Having
these privileges puts me at an advantage in many situations and by recognizing this advantage I
see how it has positively influenced my life experiences. With this privilege I am able to inset
myself in many social situations feeling comfortable and confident. Gaining social confidence
has been extremely influenced by the opportunities I have had in my life to practice and adapt
social skills. Having the opportunity to travel and meet a variety of new people from different
cultures, backgrounds, and life experiences has an impact on shaping my identity. This
influential force on my identity has given me the skills to be social and thus dependent on being
social. Being social, to me, is a combination between conversation and company. These aspects
of a social situation are both areas where I feel comfortable and relaxed due to my personal
characteristics.
Contextual Rationale
Throughout my life I have always used verbal conversation and my ability to start these
awkward if there are minimal moments of silence. With this special talent and constantly
placing myself in situations where I can use this talent I am your typical social butterfly. The
need to network and the dynamics of a social gathering are the strategies I use to feel at ease but
more importantly, confidant. With these qualities I found it hard to find a scenario where I would
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feel discomfort or different from the people around me. With my need and persistence to start
Being a socialite and chatty I decided that putting myself in a situation where I was physically
alone; however, also restrict myself from oral communication would make me feel the most
different. Seeing people alone in restaurants makes me uncomfortable and distressed let alone
be that person who couldnt speak even to her waitress. This was an area that pushed me out of
Experiential Description
I was nervous all day anticipating the event of my dinner for one scenario. Getting out of
my car in Browns restaurant parking lot a child was screaming and crying which metaphorically
The host asked me, Just you tonight or are you waiting for a group? I flashed him my
pointer finger like I knew I was going to because I have over thought this particular moment
before entering the restaurant. I instantly find myself getting red and feel the pit in my stomach
grow. I sit down in my booth staring at the empty leather seat and think about the one hundred
people that could be there to make this situation go back into my comfort zone. This thought
instantly makes me nervous for the waitress to come to my table. I quickly grab the wine list
(because I need a glass of Cabernet Sauvignon) as I wait embarrassingly for the waitress to come
and find me sitting by myself. It is interesting to be an outsider seeing who was out for dinner
and my eavesdropping talent finally could be used for good to lower my anxiety levels. The
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restaurant is filled with families out for dinner, friends getting drinks, dates, and double dates and
me. The waitress greets myself and asked me how I was and if I wanted a drink
What I wanted to say: 9 oz. Cab Sauv please also I am alone for a personal school experiment.
What I did: point at the Cab Sauv on the menu and underlined the 9 oz. with my finger
The waitress looks at me so strange, repeats the wine order, smiles at me politely and
walks away and my first 10 minutes of my stomach turning challenge has been completed (and I
have not died yet). I find myself frustrated that I am put in this situation, why cant I just say
what I want to say. The frustration built knowing I will have many more interactions with her in
silence. The moments alone waiting for my drink were the most uneasy and uncomfortable. It is
these moments where you wonder why people are staring and wondering what people are
thinking about you. I distract my self, my fears, and awkwardness with golf on the T.V. (and I
would like to note I have never been so interested in golf before). The waitress comes and brings
me my drink and a water I had not even asked for and I smile and nod at her trying to portray
thank-you as much as I could with my body language. I always had to consciously restricting
myself of my voice. She then asks what I would like to eat for dinner (I instantly become
discouraged)
What I wanted to say: Veggie burgers with yam fries please also sorry for the confusion before.
What I did: point at the Veggie burger with my finger and when she asked if I wanted fries I
shook my head and pointed at the yam fries on the menu and smiled.
The waitress again repeats my order to ensure she saw it right, smiled patiently and left
me to my own thoughts at my booth, which was too big for one person. I then scanned the room
of the many other people enjoying conversation and company over their dinners (how jealous
was I). If only I could use my phone to reach out to someone in my life or look at Facebook and
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Instagram to check out of this situation as I am approaching longest 30 minutes ever. Being alone
then made me very aware of the world around me how fast the restaurant moves, the different
demographics of people coming for dinner, the heighten sound around me when I am silenced.
My food arrives and I give the waitress my best thank-you smile and nod. I eat by myself but I
am now feeling more comfortable being alone in the restaurant. I have to consciously slow my
eating because natural conversation is not forcing me to eat slowly. The waitress routinely
I then realized what I would have done if the food wasnt okay? How could I have
communicated I was unhappy with the service without my voice. Having the inability to express
myself this way and consciously inhibiting my use of my phone would make this task next to
impossible. I finish my meal and the waitress returns with my cheque without me asking. I put
my credit card on top and wait for her to return. I smile and shake my head when she asks if I
need the receipt. I exit the restaurant after over an hour of being alone and not hearing my own
voice. The date with myself was not terrible and I also am a cheap date (which I can not
complain about).
Personal Insights
By challenging myself and putting myself at a difference I originally thought that I was at
the disadvantage and that I was the outlier in the restaurant; however, this is not necessarily true.
I had an amazing meal with myself I got to focus on my own thoughts rather than thinking about
the next thing to say. The interactions between the waitress and I were uncomfortable and
somewhat confusing but not impossible. After the first couple of times she had came to my table
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she was already watching my physical actions to communicate with her. This showed me that we
could say many things with our body language and actions than we can with our voice. Yes,
sometimes difficult with a degree of disconnect but not unachievable; however, when
communicating more detailed information I would find it extremely difficult to do this without
I found myself desperately needing my phone, like a security blanket to check out of
reality and talk or look at anyone in any different place. If it looked like I was texting then it was
less weird or depressing of myself to be out for dinner alone. In addition, I could have used my
cell-phone to type words on and show to the waitress. This I found particularly interesting
because I originally thought of myself unattached to the technology world, where this experience
The overall relevance of this experience gave me insight and perspective on experiences
that many people endure everyday, someone elses normal. It further showed me the privilege I
have every single day is much farther and deeper then being a white middle-class female. By
having the ability to express myself and use a common understanding of communication with the
rest of the world is a privilege. Not being able to orally communicate feelings, questions, and
requests makes it difficult to create connections and transfer information. How can we expand
our common view of communication to be much deeper than just oral communication? I also
discovered how uncomfortable it is to be alone in social situations where the social norm is to be
with a companion. The significance of this experience was for my personal gain that I am
capable of being alone and feeling unnerving is normal and part of life. Being sympathetic
towards these feelings of others can help build trust and understanding in relationships. Also
being an understanding and patient human being when people are using a different form of
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communication is also important because if the waitress was not with me the experience would
Professional Applications
This experience can be applied to education in many different ways. This particular
assignment could be used to challenge students to step out of their comfort zone. By asking
students to recognizing their own privileges and situations where they would not feel
comfortable can help explore difference and start meaningful conversations. Students could
reflect on their experiences to help them explore deeper into their insights and take-ways from
the assignment. This could give students the ability to be sympathetic towards others and a
peers find themselves feeling this anxiety and un-comfortableness everyday. Recognizing these
feelings and creating a safe community in the classroom to try and minimize these differences is
important. We need to ensure we are connecting with each student without any judgement or
relationships and connections with our students. Developing these relationships and
understanding with our students can help further our students learning and appreciation of the
world. Showing students that we care will create a better foundation for students ultimately
In regard to my specific experience showed me how important good body language is. It
demonstrates that by communicating purely orally is not fully communicating to all students.
Being mindful of our body language as teachers can make an impression on our students
negatively or positively. In addition, exceptional students who are non-verbal or students that are
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English Language Learners (ELL) would feel similar to my experience of the inability to
task; however, not impossible and worth the effort to find different strategies. I am now more
sympathetic to these students by feeling the frustration of not being able to clearly communicate
Students who are often alone may also feel this feeling of uneasiness in the school and as
a teacher we should recognize this. We can impact students lives and assist them in creating
years of our lives so helping students make relationships are important and influential.