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who I am today. Although each factor may stem from my own choices, I believe they each
Regardless, the personal theory that I express to others does not tell my entire story. My theory
that I express on paper only tells a portion of who I am as an individual and who I am striving to
affected the way that I communicated with one of my supervisors. I say this because I believe
worked with the same supervisor for seven years, I admired not only my relationship with her
but the system that she implemented to carry out tasks daily. In a way, I viewed her as my
mentor. For this reason, when a new supervisor filled her position, I had a difficult time
accepting change. To say that the process posed a challenge is an understatement. As a result, I
often clashed with several of the views that my new supervisor presented because I believed that
the school site functioned smoothly with the system that we had in place. At the time, I believed
that I knew what worked and what did not work at our school. I eventually decided that I needed
to have a conversation with her so that we may coincide and work together in harmony. I wanted
us to have a mutual understanding in which we each felt our voices heard. Luckily, the
lead in the workplace. According to my fieldwork theory, my previous supervisor believed that I
was well equipped to fill-in as her substitute in her absence. She prepared me by helping me
become familiar with the process of completing paperwork. She also guided me as I coached my
fellow team members in the process of helping them improve their skills in the classroom.
Despite the vast amount of preparation, I feared leading in her absence. Although I approached
my supervisor due to my interest in becoming promoted to the next level as supervisor, I doubted
my abilities of adequate leadership. I wondered whether I would meet the standards set before
me; especially since families and coworkers alike, admired her work. More specifically, I feared
not only disappointing the people with whom I worked but also myself. The role appeared more
filled in as the standing supervisor for a day, I began to doubt my abilities. Perhaps I felt this way
because it was my first and only time leading my team. However, I felt overwhelmed because I
felt as if all our stakeholders had their eyes on my performance. Although my team members
expressed to my supervisor that I no longer desired to become a supervisor for the after-school
program in the future. Of course, she sounded dumbfounded by my feelings because she
continuously reassured me that my skills exemplified that I was ready. I, on the other hand,
disagreed with her feelings. Therefore, I asked her to train an additional person in case I
coworkers, and my new supervisor because I felt that I no longer had a voice in a place in which
I once felt that I contributed to a team. I specifically resented my team members because I
believed that they somehow agreed with the new supervisors views. While I held on to my
loyalty towards my supervisor, I felt as if my team members betrayed the positive program that
we had created together. I then began to resist and challenge my supervisors requests.
Considering that I strongly disagreed with her views, at the time, I believed that following what
she asked of me only meant that I relinquished my own beliefs. In fact, I often opened my eyes
in the morning feeling angry that I needed to return to work again that day. I felt miserable
because I once enjoyed working in the program. My happy place no longer existed.
believe that I needed to take charge of my actions. I needed to evaluate how I was treating the
people with whom I worked. My mentality needed to change for various reasons. I needed to
change in order to harmoniously coexist with my supervisor. I also needed to change so that my
actions would not have a long-term negative effect on the future of my career. This was
especially important because another supervisor that held a higher rank had previously taken
note of my positive actions in the program. I feared that my negative actions would influence her
knew that I needed to look deep within myself. I gradually convinced myself that I created the
notion of fear in myself. In fact, I approached my supervisor for her reassurance that I could
handle the position of supervisor. After seven years of growth in the program, I was bound to
learn something. She helped me stray from my negative thoughts by encouraging me through
tough love. In fact, considering that we had a close relationship, she suggested that if I continued
to fill-in as her substitute in her absence, she would treat me to lunch. I gladly accepted because I
to continue to build on my abilities. After feeling reassured of my skills as well as opening the
lines of communication between my new supervisor and myself, I knew that I was on the right
path. It was the path that my life needed to continue moving forward. I accomplished this by
making friendly conversation with each of my team members. For instance, I asked about their
day and occasionally brought treats to the office. My goal consisted of building the relationship
and comfort level that we all needed to enjoy learning together. I also asked for suggestions and
advice regarding various scenarios that many of us may encounter while working with the
having conversations about such issues, we may then have the opportunity to learn and grow.
This is ultimately based on each individuals desire to work towards what we want. I say this
because we each make our own choices and we each need to live with those choices. Ones
willingness to positively contribute to their team shows courage, but it only requires that we each
illustrates transparency. I say this because since nobody is perfect, we each cannot hide every
experience we encounter. Doing this would result in an injustice to oneself because it shows a
lack of desire to acknowledge a mistake. I also believe that this would also prevent us from
desire for change in everyone. Although I mention the issues that I needed to resolve within
myself, I believe that I also needed to acknowledge the impact that my team members
contributed to my isolation and disappointment regarding the change in our program. I say this
because I felt as if I was alone in what I was feeling. This significantly bothered me because my
team members shared mutual feelings about the change in supervisors, yet nobody contributed
their opinions. By expressing this, I do not imply that they rebel. I simply wanted to feel
expressing my feelings of the possible turns that each negative experience could have taken.
Although I recognize that each outcome reflects my own actions, I believe that my opinions
matter as well. I say this because without including my opinions I appear to condemn myself in
each incident fully. My acknowledgment only tells a part of my story. I believe that in order to
tell ones story, we need to include everyone who contributed to the story. Only then will we