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I’m writing to you today to tell you what is going on in my head at the moment. I want the best
for you, and I want you to make the right choices for you. Maybe that will come out of me sharing my
At this time in my life, I’m nearing the end of my first year as a Master’s student in Student
Affairs & Higher Education in Miami University. My experiences here left a bitter taste in my mouth, and
there have been too many times I’ve decided to spontaneously drive back home to New York and never
come back. Too many tears slid down my cheeks. Despite my woes, I’m coming back to get my degree.
I’m the first in my family to both be born & raised a U.S. Citizen and to get a college degree. As proud
and honored I am to hold the title of a first generation college student, I also am relieved and thankful that
you don’t have to. I’m glad that you have two parents who can provide for you. I didn’t have that growing
up. I relied on working lousy part-time jobs to even afford a bagel with cream cheese as an after school
snack. Fun fact - NY has the best bagels, and the best bagels with cream cheese. For a long time, I didn’t
own make up because I couldn't afford it. Now, I can, so I do, & I own a lot of it, & the good kind, too.
Part of why I wanted to leave was because my marginalized identities were being attacked so
often that I wondered why I was letting myself get beat down. I grew up in Astoria, where I saw so many
people that looked like me. I thought diversity was normal. I thought it was normal to have Muslims
dispersed everywhere. I knew Islamophobia was a thing, but I didn’t think people were actually afraid of
Muslims. People were actually afraid of me and my family merely because of who we worship and how
we worship. Society didn’t want the whole story. Society condemned us and misguided people through
media and atrocious acts. When a Muslim achieved or did a good-hearted act, that was not nearly
publicized as much as when a proclaimed Muslim hurt someone. I use “proclaimed” because anyone
Muslim who kills a human in the name of God is not a true Muslim. Islam promotes peace, and death can
only cause pain. People perceive Muslim women as submissive, Muslim men as aggressive, all of us as
incapable of being competent and rational, and all of us as a threat1. But we are not threats. You are not a
threat. You are brave, strong, and an agent of change. Commented [1]: Thank you for sharing so honestly
here, Jenn.
I have never changed my last name and I never intend to. I legally changed my first name a few
years ago, to be officially called what I had been informally called, but changing my last name was never
a thought that even knocked on the door to my mind. Though your father and I chose your name with
great thought, it is ultimately up to you. It is up to you on whether or not you want to hold my last name
as well. It is up to you on whether or not you want to practice this faith. If you don’t, it should be for the
right reasons. Not because you are afraid of the glances and slurs, among other things, that society throws
your way, but instead because you connect with the faith and its values. I have fought too much for you Commented [2]: Yes, to this!
before you were even a thought to be conceived, let alone the living & breathing person you are when
reading this letter. If you do choose to be a Muslim, you should do it for the right reasons. Not because
you think this is a great way to fight for Muslim rights and practice resiliency, but rather because you
connect with it. Are you noticing a theme? Follow your heart. It can be tiring to constantly explain
yourself and your ways, to listen to the horrendous words that ignorant people associate you with. To me,
one of the most irritating acts I face every day is whether or not I’ll find something that I am able to eat in
a dining hall. But you’ll find a community, and you’ll find ways to resist the system, and you’ll always
I’ve made Islam my own. I know that my intention is what matters most. Your Dhadha and
Dhadhi think that it is necessary for me to cover myself head-to-toe and wear the hijab. I disagree. What
is the purpose of covering myself? Some say that it is to deter the male gaze. Well, they can control
themselves. And what about the woman gaze? Or the non binary gaze? What if I attract all of the gazes?!
Some say covering oneself promotes modesty and keeping yourself more focused on the pathway to God.
Well, I can still be on the pathway if I don’t cover myself. That’s another thing - Islam is so subjective.
There are a few things that are not negotiable - ie, don’t kill people. But other “rules” are not really rules.
For instance, I don’t need to cover myself to be considered a Muslim. I love my hair & I love my body,
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and I will style as I please. I don’t identify as a Muslim; I identify as a Modern Muslim. There’s a
difference! I believe that love is love, regardless of sex or gender. I believe that abortions are okay,
depending on circumstances. I believe that I should be able to not cover myself and still be a good human
being. I believe in a lot of controversial ideals in relation to traditional Islam. I didn’t do any research on
the term “Modern Muslim” until after I started calling myself by it. I knew I couldn’t be the only one who
felt this way and thought this way. I knew there had to be a name for all of us who were both Muslim and
liberal. I knew they shouldn’t be separate entities. And I was right. I came upon the term & was ecstatic
that I thought of something that happened to be an actual thing before researching about it. Commented [3]: I appreciate your thoughts in this
paragraph; they prompt thinking!
Another extremely taboo act in Islam is getting a tattoo. In my last semester of undergrad, I got
my first tattoo. It was the infinity sign with the word “hope” intertwined in the loop on one side and
Allah’s name in Arabic inside of the other loop. Tattoos are taboo because they puncture the skin and
body that Allah gave for you to keep pristine. My argument against that is that I know too many Muslims
and people who have piercings in various parts of their bodies. Another reason people like to say that
tattoos are forbidden is because they say that there is a permanent barrier to the skin and water cannot
seep in when cleaning the body before prayer, so the body is never completely clean. My argument
against that is that that is not how science works; water doesn’t get in the skin unless there’s an opening.
A lot of these rules are so outdated, which is why I’m a Modern Muslim. I got my tattoo because if
anyone were to question my devotion to Allah based on my interpretation of Islam, I’ll know that they are
not truly a Muslim, or good human, because a Muslim wouldn’t judge another on how they choose to
practice the faith. Also, I have Allah’s name on my body - how can one argue against that?
If you choose not to follow the faith, that is okay and I will still love you. A lot of Islam is about
intent. I may not agree with that concept for all situations, but for many. It truly is the thought that counts.
I know your heart is always in a good place, and I want to do all I can to keep it that way, even if it means
For the future, find a person who will respect and support your decisions like your father respects
and supports mine. I consistently find a new reason to love your father. Ze would rarely eat pork when we
would share a meal together, knowing how sinful it is in our culture. If ze did eat any variation of pork, ze
would use Listerine to wash away the subtle signs of Christian dominance before kissing me with
celebration, appreciation, and love. Ze also celebrates every holiday with me. Little Oxford, Ohio is a
very white and a very Christian town. I had been striving for a community to celebrate my holidays with
me. I used to think that holidays were kind of boring because we didn’t have too many family who also
immigrated to NYC. Holidays back home were usually Tanim, Tammanna, Konika, and Mahbuba
visiting for a little, if they had the time to spare, and a lot of food from everyone. If I gave my salaam to
my parents and older siblings and cousins, I got money. I always gave my salaam, more so for the money
than the respect and appreciation concept. My first Eid here was so lonely. No one here knew what Eid
was. No one here texted me a Happy Eid or Eid Mubarak to me. Fortunately, some friends from back
home did and my family certainly did. I didn’t appreciate what I had back home during those boring
holidays until I got to a holiday that I didn’t have anyone by my side to even acknowledge the day.
Fortunately, I found out a Muslim friend of mine from NYC was visiting Columbus for work purposes. I
drove two hours to visit her and somewhat celebrate for a few hours. We ate an amazing brunch and
bought make-up - what an amazing day! It wasn’t directly on Eid, and I didn’t have my closest and
dearest people with me, but I had someone on some day next to my holiday, which is more than I had the
day of, so I was very thankful. Now, I have your father, who will never let me stay unhappy for too long.
Your Dhadha and Dhadhi don't support our relationship but that's okay. They don't support a lot
of my thoughts and doings. I’m fortunate to have been born and raised as a US citizen in one of the most
lavish cities in the world - New York City. To this day, your grandparents don’t know that Abba is mahu.
They think ze is male, and use masculine pronouns. They don’t understand that gender is a spectrum.
They don’t understand the difference between gender and sex. They don’t understand that love is love,
and labels are arbitrary and unnecessary. To them, gender and sex are one and the same, and there are
only two boxes available for people to pop out of. I have the privilege of being my authentic self, at least
with my gender identity and expression, around anyone, while Abba has to pick and choose where ze can
do so. It pains me when I have to pick and choose what pronouns to use when referring to zir in the
presence of someone who may not be accepting. I fear someone mistreating my love because ze is
incapable of checking off the appropriate box on the census or any application form. I know living as a
mahu is so much harder for Abba, but I cannot help but always think about how to protect zir. I know ze
is perfectly capable of handling situations zirself, but I don’t care. I love zir and will do as it takes to keep
zir safe and happy. Same goes for you, little one.
I tell you the truth because I love you. I’m tough on you because I love you. I’m sharing my
experiences with you because I want you to learn from them as I have and I want you to make whatever
decision is best for you. All because I love you. Don’t dare question my love. Your Dhadha, Dhadhi, and
Khala do that, and I can’t stand it. It upsets me when the people I love the most and do everything for
cannot see the sacrifices I make for their happiness and success. Thank you. Commented [4]: Jenn--this letter captures so many of
your values in a clear, accessible way. I appreciate the
Love & Sparkles, care with which you wrote it and how it exemplifies who
you are.
Amma Stephen
Writing, grammar, flow, and APA Writing was clear and understandable. 3/3
(as necessary)
Total 15/15
Works Cited
Ali, A. I. (2013). A threat enfleshed: Muslim college students situate their identities amidst
portrayals of Muslim violence and terror. International Journal of Qualitative Studies in Education,