Hit it hard: a situation makes you so upset that you have difficulty deal with it

Her death has hit us all very hard

Flabbergasted /ˈflæbəɡɑːstɪd/ (adj): extremely shocked and surprised (informal)

When I heard how much money we’d made, I was flabbergasted.

In the public eye: well known to many people through newspapers and television

She doesn't want her children growing up in the public eye.

Jump at: to eagerly accept the chance to do something

I jumped at the chance of a trip to Hong Kong.

Sth takes a heavy toll on Sth/Sb

Illness had taken a heavy toll on her

beat yourself up (about/over something): to blame yourself too much for something
Look, there's no need to beat yourself up over this.