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Sand Castle Time Share I can see the wear and my lap as we roasted marshmallows foolish men, generations and even stealing our land
tear melt away. over the flaming hibachi. For Heidi kings of the past. In a nutshell what My name is Stands with the Wolves and
Once we unpack and put the and I, the true spirit of Christmas is they’ve taught us is that we all need I’m taking a stand
con't from cover story the giving of ourselves to each other.
groceries away Heidi and I kick back somebody: the shoulder to cry, ear to I come from the Kopahawakenum Band
Clouds All too soon, our time together is
and relax without a single concern. In listen or the security a hug provides Fuck Parliament they eliminate hope
Spreading shade over life’s scorched over. With our happiness comes the
between the cuddling and passionate when we feel lonely. Word to the rope around Louis Riel’s
inhabitants distinct sense of pain and depression
love making we eat whatever strikes It is fear that inhibits us and sets throat!
Raining water upon their parched lips that follows each of our separations.
our fancy. internal limitations hindering us from They weakened us with diseases,
Bringing life to their dead lands We shed our tears. and bury the ache
We both enjoy cooking and each seeing people for what they are. alcohol, diabetes, false treaties...
Then I am afraid deep inside as we remind ourselves
day the heavenly smells of seasonal Their true intentions whether they then conquered us because they
You have misunderstood that our cup is half full, not half
delights permeate every room. Apple have your best interest at heart or couldn’t win in a fair fight, forced us to
What it means to be empty. The wonderful memories of
pie, oven roasted turkey, Scottish their ulterior motives. Differentiat- believe in Jesus!
A servant of God this time will sustain us until we’re
short bread and chocolate chip cook- ing between someone having good They disrespected the Mother that’s
I felt liberated to finally be able to together again this summer.
ies are all on the menu. Every day intention and bad is important and beneath us
see the world in its true colours. This Conjugal visits are often seen by the
life doesn’t afford us the opportunity should never be confused. and slaughtered buffalo, to control the
feeling only intensified as I slowly public as an indulgence to prisoners,
for these luxuries so we tend to go all Know your friends and recognize way they would feed us, Mistreat us!
took the shackles off one by one. This but I can emphatically state that our
out when we get the chance. your enemies. Understand and ac- They made it look like we needed them
process began a few years ago and week-long visits have changed my
Under the circumstances, we natural- cept the people in your life that may but they need us...
continues to this day. life. They put an end to 19 years of
ly treasure our private time togeth- be different from you they’re still To feel superior, important, we were
How do I view my experience? De- enforced celibacy, and have allowed
er, particularly during the holiday your friends and there for you and peaceful, they were morbid
spite its hardships and painful losses, me to re-enter the realm of human
season. Simple acts, routine with your perception of them shouldn’t We only took what we needed they
I see it as a blessing. Sometimes I tell beings. Those 19 years without
couples who live together full time, change because you choose to wanted more of it...
myself that I am acquiring a PHD in companionship, or the simple act of
like snuggling on the couch or playing ignore the writing on the wall. to make profit, they were greedy, they
Life Studies from the University of human affection expressed through
Scrabble at the kitchen table, take on Never make an enemy of a friend “gifted” us with sugar, then they sugar
the Incarcerated. I live a very mean- a caress, had a devastating affect on
a whole new meaning for us. In fact, because there is no limit to which coated those treaties
ingful life despite living behind bars me. Before my first trailer with Heidi,
during our Christmas vacation, Heidi they’ll go to show you the mistake We offered them tobacco and squash
and I am incredibly optimistic about my self-respect had been based on
and I spend more time together than you made. Cherish what you have and taught them how to trap beaver
my future. To God I am ever grateful being a solid, stand-up con. That’s all
most couples would in two months. because to lose it could mean losing They gave us guns so we can kill each
for all of this. I could aspire to be in this concrete
We’re together every minute of the everything. other...not to make hunting easier
I ask the Canadian public to forgive and steel fortress. It helped me
day, 24 hours a day, for the entire Only the strong survive they say The trees we used to make tipis were
me for betraying their trust and survive, but that’s all it did. It’s not ex-
week. Some might consider that a but sometimes you need 2 play the chopped down so they could make
welcoming arms. actly something that will impress the
nightmare, but for us, it’s Utopia. We sucker to create a sucker and falling books
I ask the Muslim community to Parole Board. But now I’m proud to
become so caught up in ourselves into the trap could be your demise. That way they can say to the future
forgive me for causing them so much say, I’m just a man, a man who feels,
and our special time together that we Don’t fall victim to pride and the generations that we were the crooks
apprehension by helping to cast shares, gives and loves. Heidi and I
continuously forget where we are. thought of how you’re perceived by We gave to them, they took from us,
them under a dark cloud of suspi- had to wait seven years for our first
At set intervals the kitchen phone others. now tell me who’s truly crooked!?
cion. opportunity to be alone. Now we only
rings three times per day, this being A portion of the Black Hills was trans-
I ask my dear parents to forgive me
for breaking their hearts.
the only intrusion on our solitude. wait six months. It’s still a long time, WARRIOR formed into four ugly ass faces of the
We exchange a knowing look as I pick but not the eternity it used to be. white race after they took it.
I ask my brother and sister to forgive I’ll be applying for Parole in 2002, 24 By Nolan R. Turcotte
up the receiver. The conversation Was that racist? I don’t care.
me for causing them so much stress years after I first walked through the I am from...
never varies. They created racism in the first place.
and sadness. front doors of a maximum-security the bloodline of Revolutionaries
“Hello?” I practice Truth because Turtle Island’s
I ask my ex-wife whose loss I never penitentiary. There is nothing in life the ones who got their plots hon-
“McMaster, you and your visitor my birthplace!
recovered from, to forgive me for that could have prepared me, or oured in the cemeteries
step out for count.”
abandoning her and devastating her anyone else, for this inconceivable they’re alive in my veins but forever
“Yeah, sure.”
in such a way. journey known as a Life Sentence. buried
And I hang up. The communica-
I ask her entire family to forgive me Ironically, it was within prison that can’t call bullshit on this one...
tions are always short, if not sweet.
for turning their lives upside down. Louis Riel the greatest Metis known
We put on our bathrobes, push open I found the skills, humanity and ets O
I ask all the young men who became to mankind nTwe
involved because of me to forgive me
the screen door and step out onto compassion necessary for my suc-
Who’s great-great-great-great grand- Priso
the small cement porch. Standing cessful re-integration into society.
for everything. Over the years I made many of the father was Sioux war chief Standing
under the watchful eye of the gun
I ask their families for forgiveness necessary changes on my own, but Moose from Minnesota?
tower’s surveillance cameras, we wait
as well. I never would have evolved into a MINE!!!
for the guard to make his rounds. It’s
Last but not least, I ask my beloved
An idea developed by Jeff Craig
count time at Collins Bay Peniten- fully rounded human being without Rising up for Our People’s in my family
daughter to forgive me for leaving the benefit of a loving partner and tree
tiary.
her without a father. Princess, when accessibility to the Private Visiting So I smudge and thank Creator just for Cell Count contributor Jeff Craig
As a Lifer with 22 years of incarcer-
I see you in my dreams I hold you in Family Program. planting the seed... came up with "Prison Tweets." A
ation under my belt I’m accustomed
my arms and weep, and weep, and For those that would criticize con- As I sit and ask myself, “Why follow "tweet" is a super short quote,
to it all, but I often wonder how Heidi
weep ‘till I wake. Beloved, knowing jugal visitation, l would suggest they when I can lead? shoutout, piece of wisdom, thought,
internalizes the sights before us. The
what I know now, if I could go back in re-think their conclusions. A man can Why run when I can bleed? Why eat update, or anything you can come
gun tower resembles the turret of a
time to be with you, I would be there walk out the front door of a peniten- when I can feed? Why take what I up with! Mail us or call with a tweet,
castle and is so close it could be hit
in a heartbeat. But grieve no more, tiary with a belief system based on don’t need?” and you might see it in an upcoming
with an apple. The massive perim-
for I once heard that “the Truth shall being a solid con, or he can return to And the answer is, “I come from a issue. Let's see what you got!
eter wall, with its razor wire, looms
set you free”... loyal breed.”
Now I know that what I heard is true.
directly in front of us. Our small that special place called home, where Kyle King Tweet
yard, caged in, with a padlocked gate, he’ll find stability, support and a com- My name is Stands with the Wolves
TIME SHARE rounds off the picture. We exchange mitted partner. It shouldn’t be too and I’m an Indigenous man with an + Appreciate what you have before it
niceties with the prisoner and his hard to figure out who you’d rather ingenious plan. I’m willing to vision becomes what you had.
By Gregory J. McMaster quest and protest against what’s
For the second consecutive year, my family next door through the open have walking the streets and living in Nick Paccione Tweets
links of the fence that separates us. your neighborhood. against Our teachings from Our land!
wife and I spent Christmas together I ride for what is right
in what Heidi affectionately calls They’ve received the same abrupt + Keep in mind that whenever you
our Time Share in Eastern Ontario. phone call. And, though we can’t see Untitled If I fall when I fight I will get up and undermine another person's hu-
them, there are four other prison- fight harder manity by, say, calling or referring to
Actually, it’s a small three-bedroom By Kyle King I could use a tomahawk but I think
duplex with a living room, kitchen ers stepping out onto small cement that person as a cunt, a pig, a fag, or
porches with their loved ones, wait- We refuse to acknowledge the right my mind’s a little sharper... a n----r, you lose a part of your own
and full bath. The duplex is in a shel- in a way that promotes recognition I’ve been called heartless
tered spot, off the beaten path, far ing to be counted. humanity in the process."
There is a total of six Private Family and insist on accepting the wrong but my heart goes out to every Mur- + Whatever you give your attention
away from the frenzy of vacationers giving the illusion that it’s the norm. dered and Missing Indigenous son
and holiday party enthusiasts. It’s not Visiting trailers at Collins Bay. We call to, you give power to. So be very
them trailers, but in reality, they’re Ask yourself when the people that and daughter... careful what you give your attention
entirely isolated, there are several appear to be the strong pick on the I find it ironic how I’m a leader, but
duplexes just like it nearby so we small duplexes, all huddled together to, and be very smart by giving it to
in one comer of the prison. They are weak who should be wearing what I’m following in the footsteps of my kindness and positive change."
do have neighbors. Although the shoe? The strong are supposed to ancestors.
surprisingly nice considering their
neighbors are different each time, we
location. Heidi and I affectionately protect the weak not victimize them Those are big moccasins to fill Forgotten Warrior Tweets
all have one thing in common due to which begs the question if it’s done I got a big buffalo to kill But still...
our similar situations. refer to Trailer #6 as our Time Share. + We learn what we live & we live
During this trip Heidi and I hung as a show of strength the person I will.
Heidi and I utilize our Time Share what we learn
homemade decorations, watched the with the bad intention is most likely
twice a year for a much-needed week + You first have to do you and the
first big snowfall of the season, and trying to bring someone down to Whether the results are minor or
of intimacy. For the rest of the year, right things will fall into place
set out treats for the family of mice their level. The bottomless pit of major I’m still playing my part
we live apart, separated by several + When I left all I took with me was
that live under the sidewalk. We scum sucking hatred for oneself and One thing I can promise, I won’t stop
thousand miles. Essentially, we have my scars
cuddled in the living room, watched everything around you that you feel once I start...
the classic long-distance relationship, + You cannot kill what you did not
rented videos, listened to some of that the only way to make yourself My voice will be heard like a drum
though we stay in constant contact create
our favourite music and, worked to- feel better is to be as ignorant and But actions speak louder than words
through phone calls and letters. + This is where dreams & nightmares
gether in the kitchen on devilish food insufferable as you can be. So my acts will be seen like the artifacts
Heidi is a lawyer, an Appellant begin
fantasies. On clear nights, I would It’s not only what you say it’s how Discovered under Mother Earth…
Specialist in the hectic arena of + I know you’re mind altering, but are
carry the living-room reclining chair and just as important where and I am from…
Criminal Law. Her daily life is filled you life changing
outside to watch the moon and stars. to whom you say it to. Words my The bloodline of Warriors.
with snarling Judges, conniving + The love that I lost wasn’t worth
friends are as painful as any physical
Prosecutors and prisoners desperate For two decades, I had never seen
blow. ORIGINAL SAVAGES, Part 1 what it cost
to have their Appeals heard. Heidi’s the twinkling of a star or watched + I’m not here to love my twisted soul
the moon as it traversed the night- If we construct the wall strong By Nolan R. Turcotte
work often leaves her feeling as if the into your life
time sky, so I find myself naturally and high enough you’ll isolate They’re calling us savages... they’re
weight of the world is resting upon + Days turn into nights, nights into
mesmerized by these celestial gifts. yourself. Isolation is dangerous it’s calling us savages...but they are the
her 5’10” willowy frame. When we years
To celebrate the last full moon of the written so much in history yet we savages... They’re the ones killing our
walk through the front door of our + My horizon is limited to the next
millennium, Heidi sat bundled up in repeat the same practices of the women and raping our children and day’s struggles
5 // news on the block
CELL COUNT//ISSUE 84//SPRING 2018
Chiefs, three levels of court heard
Part II: “Why” Restorative Justice? to do. This is an extremely important where the victim is relieved to know thing I can mention at this point is ers” together so they can come to
distinction to be made when going the perpetrator has been caught and that there is not too much available some form of reconciliation. Perhaps
Photo by Katy Belcher on Unsplash
through the Principles of Restorative even somewhat relieved to get some for the perpetrator inside the system the person who broke into the house
Justice. So hold that thought we will of his/her things returned but what is to give them a better chance to will need to repair any damage that
come back to this in a few minutes. to follow? succeed upon release (compared to was done, maybe some added yard
The question today is “WHY” Restor- The person who committed the a couple of decades ago) but that will work to help make up for some of
ative Justice? crime is now “in the system.” The be a discussion for a different article. the pain of suffering (Yes I said that
Restorative Justice should be the victim is able to observe some of the There is no way to know if the victim right: of not and). As well an opportu-
go to, because it was how we, as a process but inevitably, the perpetra- will ever get closure when it comes nity to apologise for all the victim was
species, meted out Justice before we tor of the crime is going to be dealt to being the victim of a break and put through and within the apology
became too big as a society to handle with by people who are being paid enter and in that, no way to know if the victim might get to hear why or
our own difficulties and frailties. to mete out “Justice”. They have no the fear will ever completely go away how the perpetrator ended up in a
Again, this is not a panacea and may real connection to the crime, other with time. We also can’t know if the situation that could allow them to do
not necessarily be the first step in a than to decide, “What law has been debilitation created through fear is something so hurtful to another
crime as horrendous as murder but broken, Who did it and What do they going to have a lasting effect on how person. This in turn affords the per-
I can assure you, even in that case, it deserve?” At the end of this process they interact with family, friends and petrator an opportunity to gain some
could be invaluable one day. But let’s how is the victim reassured? How is people they come into contact with insight into how much pain they have
start this discussion with an example the victim able to move on without in passing. I can tell you from the nu- caused in just one shameful act.
Hello fellow sentient beings, of a break and enter. fearing retribution? Why would the merous conversations and an abun- Will this be the end of crime for this
Welcome to part two of my Restorative A man breaks into a house and victim fear retribution, you ask? Well, dance of literature that there are particular person? I don’t know but I
Justice article... steals some of the homeowners’ it really is a matter of how Retributive considerable effects to all of these do know that we have been able to
By Michael Hector valuables. Let us first focus on the Justice is meted out. The victim and interactions that I have mentioned, give some emotional and physical
I think I should once again mention victim of this crime, as we should. the perpetrator of the crime have not due to fear. Please keep in mind that relief to the victim and in the process
that I am in no way advocating an Only a few days later, the perpetrator really had any contact to this point this is only one of the many variables and we have also saved the taxpay-
end to Retributive Justice, I genuinely of the crime is arrested and placed in and this lends itself to the fact that that can be perpetuated through ers a considerable sum of money. So
believe that the two (Restorative custody for the Break and Enter. Only the victim has no way of knowing if being a victim of a crime. regardless of your motivation Restor-
and Retributive Justice) should move some of the items stolen have been the perpetrator feels any animosity Now let us consider for a short ative Justice can bring considerably
together through our Justice system. recovered and the victim has to place toward the victim for having been time the difference if we infuse more to the table of Justice.
The reason I say together, is quite a claim with his/her insurance com- arrested. Is that a rational thought? Restorative Justice into this equation I would be remiss not to mention
simple. I believe that we cannot have pany. Keep in mind this is a second- I can’t tell you because I have only by using the Three Pillars; “Who that there will be times when one or
or find Justice without balance and ary thought for the victim up until been on the perpetrator’s side of this has been harmed, What are their both parties have no interest in Re-
we will never find balance with the the point of the perpetrator being equation but I know from numerous needs, and Who’s obligation is it?” storative Justice and when that is the
implementation of only one or the caught because until he is caught conversations that it is something We know who has been harmed case Retributive justice will have to
other. Now having said that I think it the victim fears that the person that the victim goes through and fear and what their needs are as well we do. However, I hope I have been able
only fair, at this point, that I qualify may come back. Think of how that no matter the motivation is in many know who’s obligation it is. It really to help you to see how Restorative
the word simple. might feel because that is one of the ways debilitating. But let us move is simple in this case to figure all Justice is able to bring so much more
Just this past week I started a new mitigating factors when it comes to through this scenario to the point three of those things out, isn’t it? But to the Justice table and its value to all
Restorative Justice Principles group deciding Restorative Justice is some- where the perpetrator has been remember earlier when I mentioned of us as a Community.
with the Chaplain from the minimum thing that should be utilised in this found guilty given a chance to apolo- simple versus easy? Well here we As I sign off for a second time, I
side of our institution (BCI). In that situation. gise to the victim (through the court), are, it is just that simple to figure out would like to tell you that I owe my
session as we began discussions on Here is where we start to apply the and he does. If for no other reason the answer to all three Pillars but it new found sense of community
just what Restorative Justice is by principles of simple vs easy. Some of than to be able to move on and it is not that easy. We know who has to my involvement in Restorative
breaking down the words Restorative what comes next may be simple in was something that was expected of been harmed and how it happened. Justice. As well, the principals I have
and Justice, in doing so, some of the principle but I can assure you from him, according to his lawyer. Now he We think we have an idea of what the learned from my involvement in
discussion brought to light, that the both sides of this equation it is not receives his sentence, and is sent to victim needs, now that we know that various Restorative Justice Groups
principals, as they are, seem “simple”. easy. And, I will leave it up to you as a facility to do his time. The victim is the victim is fearful of the perpe- are principles I use in my everyday
This is where we need to make the an individual to decide the value. still left to wonder if the perpetrator trator possibly coming back. And life. There is something powerful and
distinction between “simple” and Let us get back to the problem at will come back after he gets out? The we know without a doubt that the prized to living Restoratively. Which
“easy”, because as we have learned, hand, the victim has experienced fear victim may also be wondering if the person who broke into the house is is something I endeavour to share
simple and easy may seem the same and now that the criminal has been person who broke into their house obligated to do something to make at every opportunity and if you have
but there are many times when caught, does that end the victim's is going to get the punishment/help amends for their transgression. The read my first article on Restorative
something may be “simple” to under- fear? Unfortunately, it is only the they deserve. This depends on the not so easy part of this equation is to Justice you can see (I hope) just how
stand but not necessarily be “easy” beginning. Sure there is a moment victims personal perceptions. Some- somehow try to bring the “stakehold- much that means to me and “why”.
concrete blossoms
Yet a century later African Americans kids. I have two grandchildren now.
had only traded their iron shackles The father of my first kids took off
for the shackles of poverty. America’s to Saskatchewan when I was 18. He
black leaders rose up and spoke out. took the kids with him without telling
Men like Elijah Mohammad, John A column for self-identi- me. I waited for them at home and
Lewis and Martin Luther King, Jr. took
center stage in a fight for a better life,
fied women, genderqueer when I realized they weren’t coming
better housing, jobs, health care and and non-binary folks. back, I cried and cried. He never even
called.
education in what history calls the By Mary Ellen Young I went out to a bar and ended up
Civil Rights movement, a movement This photo is of me. I’m 37. I’ve meeting a guy named Shortman. I
that united the black community in a lived in Winnipeg, Crosslake, and told him I wanted weed but he said
fight for equal rights. Bloodvein, Manitoba and can speak he only had some back at his place,
The police brutality that erupted both the Soto and Cree languages. so I went there with him. I ended up
into L.A.’s Watt’s Riot incited Huey Because my parents went off to with a crack pipe in my mouth. We
Newton and his Black Panther Party the day with her gettin into deep university while I was at a young age, also ended up in a relationship for
to take advantage of California’s By Forgotten Warrior topicz while we were high. After we I lived with my auntie. There was a the next several months. Once all of
open-carry laws to arm themselves I just stepped outta the cab, here spent the day 2gether, she spoke lot of abuse in my auntie’s home, his dope and money dried up, to the
and intimidate the police to ensure I was Main & Hastingz, one summer of forwarding to the crib on the and to escape it I’d go to my granny’s point where he couldn’t pay the rent,
that black men were not brutalized day heading 2 count 4 a soft case. I next trip 2 court, so I gave my girl a place to tell her, or I’d just run away he told me I had to find somewhere
during routine arrests. Rather than ran into one of the girlz I knew from big hug, a kiss and told her that no completely. My cousins would be else to stay.
destroying their own neighborhoods the dope housez of east hastingz matter what, that she was loved and sent to look for me but they could At this point I went off to the
in riot, they demanded better hous- street. I was clean & sober, had a nice always had a place 2 chill any time never find me. street, where I saw how girls made
ing, education and freedom from house. My friend, she had been up 2 she wanted it. Just page me and it all When my mom finally came back money as sex workers. I wanted
police brutality while remaining with- many dayz. I ran across her heading be good. I was so relieved and happy. During crack, so when I guy called me over I
in the law. The Black Panther Party’s 2 court, she was up 2 long, looking 2 So then the day forwarded 4 me 2 this time, my mom enrolled me in a agreed to stay at his place with him
community mindedness, which had nest up. I asked her if she wanted 2 hit court once again and after hit the school where I met the daughter of for the night. The next day I was on
been previously adopted by black forward 2 Nanaimo 2 the house I was bar lookin for my friend, well nobody one of the teachers. The daughter my own again, so I built up the ener-
gangsters as fierce as Chicago’s Vice renting out, and have a rest from the seen her around, here I am wander- was a fancy dancer and she taught gy to become a sex worker. I told my-
Lords in the 1950s, brought badly game, get a grip on her health, and ing the block paging peepz. Then I me how to do it too! It became my self that it’s so simple and that I could
needed lunch programs and health get some much-needed rest. saw it, taped 2 a telephone pole – her dream to get an outfit, regalia and do this. I would stand on the corner
clinics to their neighbourhoods. Now this was a rider! A money picture, her information, her pres- dance at a Pow Wow. I finally went to and get picked up, do my thing, and
While the sons of WWII veterans maker, a solid Katty who had a heart ence! All down 2 wordz on a paper one in Sioux Valley! I had a beautiful get paid. I didn’t mind it for awhile. It
were needed to fight in the jungles of gold. Her and I used 2 sit in the bar taped 2 a pole in a city of sorrow and fancy dance outfit that my Granny felt like easy money and I met lots of
of Vietnam, black celebrities began and have deep conversationz 4 hourz pain. Another dead memory in my made for me and I won first place! cool people in the drug scene. There
to rise for their due of acclaim. And for the life we led. She was one of the head the pain and loss of true friendz This was the happiest I’d ever been were a few close encounters where I
when Corporate America compared many who you couldn’t judge by the – the friendz we lost, true friendz, growing up. almost died though. One guy sexually
the threat of teenagers being influ- lookz, her sad story was the same peepz who were old school, depend- Things started to get worse after assaulted me and threatened to kill
enced by black artists like Fats Dom- one thatz occurring every day across able and good 2 their word- gone my mother decided to leave my me when he was done. He told me
ino, James Brown or Chuck Berry, to Klanada. Every day dirtbagz are de- unjustly. Gone before their time, father. When I was 11 or 12 and living he had killed before. He tried to kill
seeing leaders such as an articulate stroying beautiful innocent livez and many friendz and family left behind in Crosslake, I saw my mom at our me but I defended myself and luckily
black militant like Malcolm X or an feeding the shreetz lost soulz. 2 bare the pain of their loss, the loss home rushing around packing stuff survived.
educated leader as charismatic I alwayz reminded her of her of friends that are never 4gotten, up. She told us to get in the car. I I have an appeal coming up and
as Martin Luther King, Jr. and his brainz, how connected she was 2 the hurt of wordz left unsaid, doubt hid in a bush instead because I didn’t am going for manslaughter. I would
powerful ‘I had a Dream’ speeches, social issuez. We’d do a smash of of wondering if enough was done 2 want to leave my dad alone like that. get out after time served, maybe in a
‘My Ding-a-Ling’ won the contest and down, hit a hotel room and nod out prevent their fate. She called out my name and looked year or less. I don’t want to go back
‘Johnny B. Goode, who never ever 2gether, talkin and talkin and more Another friend gone, another for me but I didn’t come out. So, she to the same lifestyle. I’ve never had
learned to read or write so well’ be- talkin, alwayz talkin, about every- dead memory within my head, drove off. I went inside to tell my dad a job or even a driver’s license. I hav-
came the cultural images approved thing, about the streetz, the trickz dead memoriez that will never be that mom had left him with the other en’t finished school either. All I know
by the white corporate promoters, who were dangerous, the dope, who forgotten or eased by time, always kids and our things, but that I had is straight street life. I only know
just as Malcolm X had recognised had good, who to stay away from, in my thoughtz every year round the stayed. My father is an alcoholic to how to make fast money. I want to
when he said that black people were then about our own livez, what was time whe went gone, so much pain 2 this day, and during the year I stayed learn to live a different way though
“scientifically manoeuvred by the goin on. It was as beautiful 2 know much 2 express! Just no way in put- with him, while he was out drinking, I because I don’t want to come back
white man into a life of poverty”. someone so deep and trust with no ting it into wordz, always tell those would drink and smoke weed. here. Thanks for reading my story,
As James H. Cone reports, it was questionz. I was her sounding board, in your life what you feel, what they Eventually, my mother came back I hope you learned a little bit about
the fear of a Black Muslim uprising someone who wasn’t alwayz trying mean 2 you. Don’t hold back you and took me to Winnipeg. I contin- me from it.
that kept Malcolm X from destruction some way 2 get something from her. never know what fate might hold,
at the hands of white Americans who Her friendship, companionship was love when you can love and never let
loathed the thought of an organised enough. go of love cuz there may come a time
and educated black tide in America. She was always someone who no when 2morrow may never come.
The northern black perspective of matter what, could always have a Then itz 2 late, and lastly 2 all of our
Malcolm X’s militant and violent call good conversation, a breath of fresh Native women, you will never be
to arms is what made Martin Luther air in the streetz so when I asked her forgotten, you touched 2 many livez
King, Jr.’s southern pacifist mes- if she’d forward 2 my crib, she was with your power. Respect always my
sage palatable but when Malcolm 2 deep in the dope. Had me spend Red sisterz – Forgotten Warrior xxx
X criticized capitalism, his bombed
out home and other gentle warnings
became lethal. In the age of McCa- Love & Generosity
By Grizzly Bear
I’m conceited but it’s the truth. Why? Cuz
I treated them all with love and respect.
In some cases I was the knight in rusted
rthyism, Roosevelt’s New Deal had
Corporate America, feeling neutered All my life I have loved with all my armour that saved them from trouble or
by the sudden appearance of the heart, mind, body and soul. Every woman a bad boyfriend or abusive father or took
EPA & SEC, co-opt Christian America I have been with you see, loving people them away from their troubled life for a
comes naturally to me, like breathing. time and treated them like royalty and
into painting socialist programs that showed them a great time. My generosity
When I fall for a girl I fall hard and truthful-
help the poor, as a sin against God’s ly. I have had many relationships - most has no bounds, even though most of my
8th Commandment, ‘thou shalt not have ended or been put on hold due to money came from crime or drug dealing,
steal’ and that a poor man decry- me going to jail or prison, some I have I still spent it with or on all the “friends’
ing his poverty committed the sin started when on the run from the law on around me. I share everything, even today,
of coveting his neighbour’s house. my way to jail. A few could be considered 11 years into a 24 year sentence in a Max
While Republican President Dwight like Bonnie & Clyde type relationships, Prison, I am kind, respectful and generous
Eisenhower, and his pillar of strength where it ends up with me in the back seat with what I do & have. I wear my heart with a smile and a “good morning” or hard, when I’m in love I love my life and
Jerry Falwell, gave the Koch brothers’ of a cop car, and in court, taking all the on my sleeve, my right arm is covered in “good day”. In fact, I have learned to say all around me, love is one of the most
message of greed a Christian bent, charges for the lucky girl I was with. tattoos of family members, some lost to “good morning” and “good night” in 10 powerful feelings one can feel.
Malcolm X could speak against Chris- In all my years of crime, love and pain, I the sky, some still struggling in the streets, languages. The love of a mother to a child is one of
tianity calling it a tool used to enslave have broken a few hearts. Mine for years others have been blessed with kids and a When it comes to love & generosity, I’m the most cherished and unconditional, like
was shattered and I built a brick wall out of family of their own. loyal to both. I love to a fault and will liter- a diamond. The love of a father to a son is
black people and not suffer too dire You see the way the Roussau family
the pieces and put it around what was left ally give the shirt off my back to someone one that can and will stay true, like a rock.
a reprimand from the white man. But of my heart. There are still a lot of those was raised is to be polite, respectful, and in need. I have put others first my whole The love of siblings is love of respect, trust,
when Malcolm spoke of ‘capitalist girls grown into women & ladies who to never raise a hand to a woman or be life. I have taken charges and done most faith, built stronger with time, troubles
blood-suckers’ in November 1964, have families of their own, that still hold a disrespectful to elders, or anyone. In truth, of my life in prison for crimes that were in and tribulations. The love of a husband &
the Nation of Islam’s estranged and soft spot for me in their heart, others are even in my life, I was still the guy to help some ways to “help” my friends. This last wife is only one step away from the love
still in love with me, but all of them still with carrying someone’s heavy bag or to sentence almost cost me my life, in more of your life. The love of God should be the
continued on p. 8 miss me. You might read this and think open the door for an old lady. I’m quick ways than I can write. When I love, I love love of your life.
8 // news on the block
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© Jeremy Hall
11 // health and harm reduction
CELL COUNT//ISSUE 84//SPRING 2018
Harm Reduction
By Reginal Nixon
a lot of internal pain and shame.
What I have noticed with these
ple featuring recipes, stories, images, and more!
Ideas for Cookbook Contributions:
•Recipes
people is to try and find out what is
I have done a lot of time to think going on inside of them and become •Food stories and memories
and one thing that keeps coming •Poetry or creative writing about food, cooking, or
their friend and show them that you sharing meals
up is one common thing people care. One of the biggest causes of
say, “what causes a person to do •Commentary on food and access to food within
self-harm is bullying, which causes jails and prisons
self harm, and how can we change a lot of people to become abusers
the outcome.” I have spoke with a •Drawings or illustrations
of drugs or alcohol and some of •Collaborative works of writing/art
lot of people that had an addiction them even get so overwhelmed and •Other ideas are welcome!
to either drugs or alcohol, and I ask discouraged and ashamed that they How to Submit
them why they do it? I have also kill themselves and far to often the To contribute to the COOKBOOK, please give
asked them if they realize that Harm person is a youth. your contribution to your contact (whoever told
that they are doing to themselves I have spoke to some people in you about this opportunity), or, if you have access
and they asked me what I meant, and jail and on the street that live the to email or snail mail, please send the original
why I care? GAY life and they have told me document, or a photo/scan of your work to:
The one problem that I see with Chloe Taylor
about some of the members of the chloe3@ualberta.ca
especially with people that abuse LGBTQ community that do self harm
prescription drugs because they Department of Women’s and Gender Studies
to themselves because of a lack of University of Alberta
don’t realize the harm that they are help and no respect from family
doing, not only to themselves but 1-17 Assiniboia Hall
and friends because of their lifestyle Edmonton, AB T6G 2E7, Canada
to the person that’s medication that choices, and they have asked me In addition to your recipe, food story, food
they are taking. I find that a lot of what to do. memoir, commentary or artwork, please include
people that have an addiction to pre- What I decided to do for the your name, contact information, and a brief
scription drugs were introduced to people on the street was send them biography (a few sentences or paragraphs) telling
the medication at a young age. I also addresses of organizations in their us about yourself.
deal with people that do cutting of area and give them names of people We will try to find a publisher for this Cookbook! If
themselves and they are dealing with that work there, that will help. we find a publisher, we will ask for the individual
consent of all contributors to publish their work
Share Your Recipes & Food Stories!
By Chloe Taylor
and you will have the chance to approve of the
COOKBOOK in its final form before it is published.
pes, ideas, and skills around food within You will also receive an author’s or artist’s copy
While working with currently or the walls of the institution. Inspired of the book once it is finished. If you are being
formerly incarcerated people, we have by the imaginative ways in which food transferred or released, make sure to leave your
learned about the restricted access knowledge and memories are shared, address so that we can send you a copy. We will
people within prisons have to quality as well as tasty meals, we hope to also contribute copies of the Cookbook to the
food, as well as the creative ways in compile a COOKBOOK co-authored by institutions from which we are soliciting contribu-
which incarcerated people share reci- currently or formerly incarcerated peo- tions.
12 // resources & about pasan
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