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anonymous
“When one reaches out to take the
bread and brings it into one’s mouth
to eat it, one goes out of oneself in
order to return so as to remain within
the domain of one’s own subjectivity,
proximate to the bread, sincerely
The idea of everything food had touched
ready to feed oneself. In this case, the
was unbearable, the sheer information of
bread did not stop in front of the
it. Of every time he had held in his mind
senses. It instead slid before them,
an orange.
almost becoming not so much an
object as something nutritious.
“Daily life turns into a terror as soon as
But really to see reality must be you start doubting food--” (Kraus 2000,
something quite different. This 160)
involves entering into the mystery of
the as of reality, which could be "To protect her last optimism, she goes
found, for example, in the way of crazy." (Berlant) The web gets tighter until
making bread or in the peculiar nothing can get past it without pinging
beauty or ugliness of it, or in thinking off monstrous significance in
of the one who kneaded it, of how that unbearable/intolerable directions- A
was done and how much they were refusal to eat and be eaten. Perhaps
paid, or, going even further, thinking you'd like to sample an anti-psychotic
of the long history during which bread marketed for children? Perhaps spend
has fed man, and, in short, ending up the next month laughing at a tranquilizer
in the mystery that bread exists. But with a smiling giraffe on the wrapper?
here bread is no longer an object. It
becomes something sacred. The as of “But since food’s a disembodied signifier,
the bread is recovered, its simple, there’s almost always something missing,
though tremendous, presence. At this something wrong with the picture. (When
point it is difficult to eat it without I can’t eat it’s because I feel totally
further ado, since one may look at it or alone.)” (Kraus 2000, 165)
worship it because it is now a lot more
than a solution to hunger, and in a This alimentary doubt is often articulated
way, it moves into the domain of as a fear of contamination, implying a
salvation. There, in the case of eating unitary self coherent enough to be
it, one transcends simple nutrition and invaded. This accounts for some of the
one feeds on the true dimension of stickiness of brattiness surrounding
the food. anorexia. Kristeva's trifold categorical
abjections, broadly: "in relation to food
That is why to see the as of bread is
and bodily incorporation, to bodily waste,
terrifying. It is not because of the
and to the signs of sexual difference."
bread itself, but because of the mental
(Warin 82) Certain foods and substances
inclination of the average man of the
lend themselves more to contamination
big city, protected by a secondhand
than others, especially those that are of
science, thinking in terms of utility,
an uncertain phase state, "Calorie girls
believing that the issue has been
are worried about airborne contagion
treated with sufficient seriousness.
whereas the fats and oil girls and
Because of all of that, the surprising
concerned with touch." (Warin, 84).
dimension of bread must appear
Perhaps this fear is more of a concern
monstrous to him. It is the monstrosity
with etiquette within a scene of
that peeks out in the presence of
heightened porousness and dispersion
things, when they are not alone in an
than a belief in the preciousness of the
empty space, but rather are tainted by
interior. It seems to me cynical to imagine
a numinous background which
that the practice of preparing foods with
provides them with a raison d’tre that
gloved hands or of stuffing towels under
transcends their mere utility.” (Kusch,
doors to prevent flying calories is strictly
152-153)
the representational outcome of a drastic
internalization of popular nutritional
information and body image hegemony
concerning fats and fatness.
She comments that "these bodily Berlant often wonders if "cruel optimism
memories are so unevenly submerged is better than none at all." (Berlant, 16).
and revealed, so distorted...that they But of course, some optimisms are
may as well be completely invented." crueler than others. Optimism is a space
(Berlant, 132) to move across, a place to lend our
fantasies of sovereignty to for
safekeeping. (Berlant, 18)
"
That is why a few vital anecdotes are "But the friendship did help to improve
sufficient to produce a portrait of a Simone [Weil's] miserable diet. Dining
philosophy...It will be argued that often with her friend's family, she should
most philosophers' lives are very be tricked by Dietz's...father, who would
bourgeois: but is not Kant's stocking- go out of his way to declaim the
suspender a vital anecdote superiority of Judaism to the Christian
appropriate to the system of Reason?" faith; while Weil was preoccupied with
(Deleuze 1994, 72) launching her counter-reply, he would
slip some extra food onto her plate. She
never noticed." (Yourgrau, 96)
t h a l a s s a
"What is the biological nature of the This is what Ferenczi identifies as the
drive before it makes contact with the thalassal trend. Ontogenetic inclinations
external world? The search for a are defined by Ferenczi as the desire to
starting point to object relationality return to the womb, phylogenetic
presumes that there are biological tendencies are defined as "the desire of
processes (hunger, for example) that all creatures to return to the water."
have not yet been brought under the (Wilson, 106). As Ferenczi claims, the
sway of phantasy. These debates birth of all land-faring creatures out of the
usually presume that psychic action is seas is ontogenetically traumatic in a
a secondary elaboration of prior manner mirroring the individual trauma
(purely?) biological stimuli. Here I of birth. These trends are latent in all
would like...to dissolve the idea that tissue but are often stimulated by
there is a developmental point before heightened state of what he articulates as
which biology is not minded." (Wilson, 'psychopathology,' or when the 'normal'
39) psychic structures have been destroyed
by trauma. "In such moments, when the
psychic system fails, the organism begins
to think." (Ferenczi, 6)
Ferenczi identifies this "hysterically
reacting body" as being composed of
semi-fluid, semi-substances that have
partially redissolved into a psychic state,
and change their structure and function
and thereby express wishes and
repulsions, thoughts, et al. (Ferenczi, 6)
This cross-classed or cross-phylum
amphimixis is echoed in Janis Ledwell-
Hunt's studies of anorexic memoir and
'pro-ana' platforms, "A frequent motif
appearing across literatures of anorexia,
and especially present in the utterances of
self-starvers, is the human body’s non-
mammalian transformation. Very seldom
do I come across an anorexic who testifies
to her emaciated body’s resemblance to a
boy’s or man’s." (Ledwell-Hunt, 264)
This is not so much psychosexual
regression as perhaps what Deleuze and
Guattari identify as involution, "not
regression at all, but involution, involuted
body." (Parnet & Deleuze, 81) Drawing up
into the ontogenetic potential of one's
egg body, a direction different than
common speculations about the
androgynous aims of feminized anorexics.
Wilson, reading bulimic memoirs
in which narrators develop the capacity
to vomit at will, articulates this as a fluid
regression to "primevality in which
peristalsis and antiperistalsis were
mediated by the same digestive tube."
(Ferenczi 1924) The tissues of the larynx
and pharnyx are psychically alive and
have become active in becoming-worm,
in an experiment of antiperistalsis, in
which the alimentary tract enacts object
relations rather than provide the
substratum upon which to project these
relations. This conceptualization situates
itself at a theoretical aporia within
Freudian psychoanalysis- that is, what is
happening, from the perspective of tissue
states, at the "jump," or in the "break" of
hysterical conversion. Importantly, in this
pharynx-larynyx-antiperistalsis scene, to
paraphrase Ledwell-Hunt, relations
"between" the head and the gut are
formed or elaborated, in this disordered
eating, rather than split.
"To repeat the question once more, is Emptying to conjure a new feeling, eating
hunger an attempt to forego and to remain in hunger. Elaborate food-play
numb the material needs of the seems hardly a food refusal but an
organism, or is hungering a way to tap elaboration. Does the practice of cutting
into them, to continually experience food into 32 equal pieces or eating a
the vicissitudes of a body moving and yogurt over the course of an afternoon
being moved by the material world?" ring of a lack of appetite or a disinterest
(Ledwell-Hunt, 199) in food? Anorexia produces strange time
logics, distorting meal-time, productive
time-wasting, productive precisely
because in this time, nothing is done,
eating is delayed. Hysteria makes loops
in time, repetition until the originary
event drops out of the middle, celibates
are given the gift of time, set adrift in
certain ways, perhaps alchemically
transforming the body to undermine
imagined futures.
"If pleasure is not the norm of desire, it "Such beauty in the lack of ducts or
is not by virtue of a lack that is orifices, unitary and complete, impossible
impossible to fill but, on the contrary, to feed it or cause it pain. A pasture full of
by virtue of its positivity," (Deleuze veal cutlets sitting under the sun, looking
1987, 157) eyelessly up." (Kleeman 27)
i wanted to write
i wanted to write about
becoming-anorexic becoming-hysterical
becoming-celibate
"In this scene, activity toward i wanted to cultivate disaffection
reproducing life is neither identical to a disaffected approach to the material
making it or oneself better nor a anecdotal without being sentimental
mimetic response to the structural because what i am fascinated with is girls
conditions of a collective failure to who take the implications over-seriously
thrive, nor just a mini-vacation from of the things they read
being responsible–such activity is also girls whose minds are snapped like twigs
directed toward toward making a less- in conversations
bad experience. It's a relief, a reprieve, girls who think they can read minds
not a repair." (Berlant 117) who know they can
but to meet it out there rather than
dragging it all towards me
consuming it all in order to throw it up
to push the pleasant towards obscenity
by pure plenitude
girls who have to either explode through
a logic of nothingness or a logic of
infinity
a slutty celibacy
a celibate dykeness
a greasy anorexia
the semantic slip letting go less gracefully
into the trade in signifiers
grabbing onto something
just to leave marks on it
"As an alternative to the confessional
model candour is no less that why would sex mediate rather than
performative, but it may work against exacerbate the intolerability of gendered
the identifying moment of admission, life
preferring the disidentifying force of the spatiality of rape and sex is not a
forthright speaking out as well as to gradation or a spectrum
set the story in motion by telling and is not a definitional other
sharing it and not pinning it down to is constitutive is the activity that allowed
one person and their feelings of guilt." activities now called sex to produce value
(Meunier, 81)
academics are sad because they don't
work for g-d no more
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