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now,
soundless gasps escape my lips
countless tears slid my cheeks
without you being with me anymore
but,
i'm terribly sorry
those are lies i've made
but,
i don't see you as the most handsome
or attractive man.
you know, even the boy next class is cuter than you.
your jokes are still as lame as usual.
also, that cold attitude of yours is still as intriguing as a potato.
instead,
i find that your face is the first thing i seek in the morning
(that's why i want to wake you up every day).
i find that your smile is my mood booster
(that's why i still can laugh though things are getting worse).
i find that your hug gives me joy and home
(that's why i want it to be everlasting).
despite of everything,
i find that you glow because
you are the only one who matters to me.
"I can't keep doing this. I can't keep hurting you," you
continued. "At the moment, I can't give you the affection and
attention you should've got. I don't even know what I shall do with
my life in the future."
"What if, I only need you to stay with me?" My voice broke,
tears started rolling down my cheeks. "We can go through it
together."
"You can. But, I can't." You smiled sadly. "I can't risk
dragging you down with me. You deserve much more than this.
There are other men who can treat you better than I do, or I will
do."
I took my breath sharply. Did you not know any person
could not fill your empty spot in my heart?
"Smile for me, okay?" You said softly. "Please do. I want to
remember your smile, not your tears."
if i have you,
i will know what home feels like.
if i have you,
every second will be a manifestation of fairy tales.
if i have you,
i will not need anybody else.
then i realize...
if i have you,
it will be a dream.
our love
cannot even beat
our despair,
our doubt,
our fear,
our wrecked egos,
the truth is
i hate you.
only fools would say
i love you sincerely.
Especially, ours.
I hoped,
that someday you would find the life goal
you had always searched for.
I hoped,
that someday you would be genuinely happy
though I might not be there anymore.
I hoped,
that someday you would proudly rise up
and fight those demons inside you.
I hoped,
that someday you would still remember
we had memories together and smiled.
do you remember?
do you remember
when we went on our first date?
i recall how we sneaked out silently,
so none of our friends
would bombard us with questions.
do you remember
the cloudy evening when we were going to our favorite ramen
house?
when it started raining,
you stopped mid-track to fetch your umbrella,
because you were worried i would catch a flu.
do you remember
when i was sick a couple of months ago?
i know you're not a big fan of porridge.
yet, you ate porridge with me nearly every night,
because it was the only thing edible for me.
do you remember
how i cried myself out?
each time, you smiled sadly.
you had already realized i wasn't fine.
still, you waited me to tell you myself and comforted me.
do you remember
how we spent our leisure together?
you were my favorite pass-time.
do you remember
why i gave those presents to you?
even though it's just a little,
i wanted to leave some marks in your life,
so there were recollections of us.
do you remember
why i asked you to give some little gifts?
i just wanted to have a reminder of our history together,
something that i could hug when i missed you.
do you remember
who i was to you?
i was your colleague.
i was your best friend.
i was your beloved girl.
Because,
I get to see your ticklish laughs,
I get to hear your off-note humming,
I get to inhale your freshly bathed scent,
I get to hear your stories ─ the ones you've never told anyone
about,
I get to contribute in your projects,
I get to share my secrets with you,
I get to be a reason of your happiness.
People judge you from your exterior persona. They can label you
as a cold, solitude man.
Thank you,
never even once I've regretted being with you.
You sighed. I knew you always sighed when you didn't like
what you were going to say. "Let's say I have this little space in my
heart right now." You showed me the shape you made with your
fingers.
"It would be okay if the one who was finally destroyed was
me. It's my fault to strain our relationship. But, what if it was you?"
He continued, ruffling his hair.
"I would not be able to live with that. You have heard my
past, my tales, and my history. They're not some things I could say
casually to anyone. You are the closest person to me. I could not
afford to ruin you. And, I would not leave you hanging in ambiguity
either."
Salty, that's what I tasted. I wiped my moist eyes. "Do we
really have to do this?" Tears were building up, slamming the walls
of eyelid.
"Sometimes, the best you can do for your loved one is to let
her go."
one day,
you walked off our story.
of course,
terrible things happened too, such as
when i and the girl next door had quarrels,
when a lizard in your room made you worried,
when i got stung by a bee,
when you woke up late and had to hurry to class,
or when someone broke in to my room.
however,
terrible days are not so terrible.
because,
i got to pass through them with you.
for me,
our home was so precious.
it stored our moments together, either good or bad.
it witnessed our journey with each other.
now,
our home doesn't feel like home anymore
without you in it.
gold,
which was valued so precious by human
you,
who were my eternity and beyond
would you take over the role of pillar in this relationship of ours,
or
pretend we were fine and alright?
"If I knew you were hurt this much in the process, I would
not have let you go through it." You sighed.
To our friends,
We turn each other's life upside down,
either flying to the ninth sky or falling into the darkest pit.
To me,
Our story may not be the most peculiar one, or legendary.
Is it a sin
to miss you as soon as arising
dawn and as late as midnight is seen?
Sunbathing
Loving you is no different than sunbathing.
I love the how sunlight illuminates the dim soul of mine, making it
looks glowing brilliantly rather than plain as usual.
it's better
I never figured before how much damage one sentence could give.
Why did I still drop everything I was doing at the moment and
come running back to you only to make sure you're okay,
whenever I heard you had a problem?
Why did I still think you were my top priority, when I was placed
low on yours?
16:17 sorry. :)
When things get hard, I complain here and there, though I don't
mean to burden you.
But for you, I'll try to replace my laments with smiles and turn my
groans to laughs.
When you look close with another person, I get terribly jealous and
insecure.
But for you, I'll try to be a good girl and not show my fangs to her.
When you ask me to quit loving you, I close the door of your heart
and walk away.
But for you, I'll try to stay alive without heart anymore, leaving it
at the doorstep.
or
Love is...
when you offer me your jacket, because you know I can't resist
coldness.
Love is...
when we make time to eat together in the midst of our duties and
work.
Love is...
when I arise sooner every day to wake you up, even if I don't have
to.
Love is...
when you still wait for me, though we are running late (and getting
kicked out from the class).
Love is...
when we spend our little spare time for a quality moment with
each other.
Love is...
when I push you to do your project, because you are too lazy.
Love is...
when you pinch on my cheeks at the moment you see them
turning reddish.
Love is...
when we do our homework side by side, so we can steal a moment
or two to link our fingers.
Love is...
when I smile to you in the crowd, because I always look for you
every time I saw people.
Love is...
when you set up the water gallon on the dispenser for me, because
I am not strong enough.
Love is...
when we help each other in own duties, so we can finish together
earlier.
Love is...
when I buy you snacks now and then, just to see you full and
content.
Love is...
when you take me to doctor every time I get sick, even if you have
awaiting work.
Love is...
when we lie in bed together, just talking about nothing and
everything.
Love is...
when I support you in everything you do and aim, either at the
moment or future.
Love is...
when you hug me from behind with those strong arms of yours all
of a sudden.
Love is...
when we laugh at each other's stupidity and foolish mistakes.
Love is...
when I take a shower to ensure you, that I am clean before
entering your room.
Love is...
when you tolerate my dull, just-got-home scent, because you
know how tired I am.
Love is...
when we bury our heads in each other's crook of neck as a way to
say good night.
Love is...
when I blow your ears and neck, because you're ticklish in those
spots (many spots actually, they are just my favorite ones).
Love is...
when you lift me up a bit to fix my awkward sleeping position.
Love is...
when we study together for the upcoming tests and teach each
other about things.
Love is...
when I think about you as soon as the sun arises.
Love is...
when you care about how I will get home safely after the sun sets.
Love is...
when we look into each other's eyes and see the stars of sincerity
in each other's soul.
Love is...
when we make sure both of us are happy together.
Love is...
the pure joy in little things we have done for one another.
Love is ours.
You’ve Changed
You convinced me to let you touch my heart.
You said you were madly in love with me.
You promised we were in everything together.
You declared I was your beloved princess.
So, why are you treating me as an invisible statue?
Yet, why is your back the only thing I can see now?
Falling for you is the most forceful, yet delicate thing I have
ever felt entire my life. It feels really natural, like how gravity
gracefully keeps our feet on the ground. I am in love with you. I
adore you more than butterfly admires the flowers.
You always wanted the best for me, and thus made you
considered my well-being thoroughly, even if it complicated
things for you.
Saved as a draft.