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Niyah Goco

Ms. Mckiddy
English 9, Per. 5
23 August 2018

Bob

When I was five, church to me was a place where I would color pictures of Jesus and sing

fun catchy songs. I knew who God was and what he was about but I didn’t imagine him as a

being that lived in the heavens. God to me was like an imaginary friend. A tiny person on my

shoulder that would whisper jokes into my ear and tell me what to do if I can’t make a decision. I

would tell God everyday he’s my best friend and that I love him. Since God was my friend, I

called him Bob.

At age ten Bob changed. Bob wasn’t my friend anymore, he was better. My parents took

me out of Sunday school and brought me to the nave of the church. That’s when I learned Bob

isn’t Bob. Bob is God. My guide, my father. I still called him Bob in my head though.

Last year I had lost God. I had read deeper into the Bible and became afraid of God. The

stories scared me of the things he is capable of - starving the people, flooding the earth. Instead

of praying of choice and worship, I did because I thought if I hadn’t, I would go to hell. Our

preacher said that God forgives. That we are all sinners and we will sin again. Jesus paid the

ultimate price for our sins. Therefore, if I were just to believe in God and be thankful of Christ,

God may forgive me of my sins. Though I still had my doubts.

My dad gave me a book a little while ago about Mother Teresa. Someone in the book

asked her how she enabled the ability to love so many people. Mother Teresa said she loves
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people because they are Jesus. I’m pretty sure this is true because it says so in the Bible. This

idea contradicts reality. Not everyone can be Jesus, as reality would say. But I believe that we all

have Jesus in our hearts. Our heart and mind don’t connect. The heart believes in things that

don’t make sense to our head. It’s like love. Love wraps itself around the heart and the mind

shoves it into a crate of deep thoughts.

I truly gave into this thought of us all being Jesus and it allowed me to really feel in touch

with God and put my fears aside. I came to a realization that God is not a being. God is like a

place. A place that opens its windows for you to climb inside and feel free in you mind. By doing

this you can apply God to your daily life and feel free all the time. You worship this place and

thank it for showing you the way to go about in life. So when your body is gone, God will open

his gates where your soul will remain forever free and happy.