POST SCRIPTUM:

One of my personal letters to myself is entitled ”Normal Deviance”. In effect all deviance is
normal on a sin cursed planet. Show me people who do not understand less is more due to less
problems where this truth has been abused and I’ll show you a smoker as myself. We are semi-
conscious human animals with a soul so in essence all of humanity is a oxymoron. Life can not be
captured by any art. This is the complex sides to every issue. We crave beauty maybe in a centerfold,
but can a writer or photographer describe an ideal marriage? Could I by writing Storm Blue create the
perfect plan or by writing the Halls of Karma escape karma without grace? Could I define the
experiences leading from liberal to conservative or vice versa with age or unite Christendom by pages?
Could I design the perfect program or protocol in every situation with or without those I love by my
side? Can a book or movie impart the experience for you? Can every science encompassing its cousin
lead to truth beyond theory? Does every effect need a cause or is there room for faith? The God I knew
in my youth nearly destroyed me from exalted glory to very bad decisions leading to the next and so
forth until know. In these pages you will not find perfection, but maybe all we can find beyond our
pride is redemption or just forgiveness. None of us can earn our way to greatness or human immortality
and in denial of such we toked a joint, took a drink, took a drag or threw the dice to avoid the humility
we find in the person of Jesus Christ. Mostly sexual, racial or ideals of nationality riddle Christendom in
historical division yet in all of this I believe the God, I knew was really Satan. He in fact deludes and
blinds us to semi-consciousness while we accept it as sanity therefore plung into mysticism, the occult,
the schools of philosophy, mythology and then run to the physical, social or biological sciences for your
anthropological secret. Today only money is the lowest common denominator yet it does not order the
cosmos as does any one secret.

As for Normal Deviance, the notes I can not be laid to suit are as follows:
NORMAL DEVIANCE?

All I can say is I am perplexed as at times when I can look at Playboy only to appreciate the rare

beauties in perfect settings with color compliments or fabrics and make-up without reaction. At

other times a girl in a catalogue seems to demand to be defiled or a female drugged or ditzy also

demands a reaction. Was it my mother was a friend who became an enemy, but despite her efforts

she demeaned more than ever comforted that causes me to prefer self pleasure to the company of

a woman? Women who pretend to be stupid use it to string men along.

Sound of Silence-Simon&Garfunkel recommended song to illustrate these points.

Farewell,

William F. Matters Jr. 5-18-2009 Anno Domini