My Dear Ancen Suerte,

Who would have thought that you were once a stranger who I used to just exchanging message to
miles away from me is now my someone with whom I share the best moments of my life? That is you.
Only you who inspired and love interest with me from the beginning. You were the first I ever loved,
and it breaks my heart to say that you are not my last. This letter is for you, so that you know how much
I cherished you and how important you were and are in my life. My first love, even though I do not see
you and only merely know about your survival through Facebook and Instagram, I just like to
occasionally check in, to see that you are happy. Even though you may or may not read this, I have to
admit that you were the first one to make me see life in different shapes and colors. It’s like we have
just started getting to know each other but it’s been our 11th month day and I am still so madly in love
with you. Hopefully, you feel exactly the same as I do. I’ve been able to discover how good a person
you are. That’s one of the things I love the most about you. You never fail to show me how much I
mean to you. You always treat me someone so special. You made life so full of excitement and passion
that I felt exhausted but could not stop. I wanted all you could give me; you are the reason I do not want
to settle because you raised the bar so high. I am saying you are perfect guy; you are certainly flawed.
We are all flawed, but you already knew that and learned how to understand me. We were committed
to our relationship and our love was only for us to share. My freedom and dreams were never
compromised because you always supported me and believed that I could do anything. Looking back,
I now laugh about how jealous I would get and how I would deal with my jealousy. It was only because
I feared losing you, and no matter how much you told me you loved me, I was always be confident
about you. We were always ourselves in our relationship, we got too comfortable. This is why, you are
my first love, it is so difficult not to glimpse back and open the vault of memories, to remember the
butterflies in my stomach each time I saw you and feel a little out of breath after each magical kiss. Our
whole relationship was magical, come to think of it; it was strong and powerful. Sometimes, I even
wonder if it ever even happened because it ended so abruptly and without closure. I guess this is why
you are my first love. The wound is still fresh, even after so many years, and all I feel for you is love.
Remember how I mentioned before that I just want you to be happy with me? It is true. It does enchant
me that we can be happy together and live our happily-ever-after. However, it fills me with happiness
to know that you are happy and sharing your love and passion with some other girl who loves you, too.
Even though I was very selfish and jealous when it came to our love, I cannot be selfish with you. I want
you to be happy with me. Even though all I have from you is memories, pictures and high standards, I
am grateful that I was able to have someone like you are in my life, once upon a time. Ever since I met
you and you are became part of my life, I’ve never felt so happy and blessed. You live me with the
ability to love and to cherish, to never give up on something that matters, to never give up on love.
Please know that having you as my boyfriend, makes me feel so lucky and secured, which I never felt
before and also I just wish you had not left me with a broken heart and many nights of crying myself to
sleep. I have concluded that no matter how much you love me, it is hard not to hurt him or her. It is a
matter of hoping for forgive and forget. You were my first, and it doesn’t break my heart to know that
you are my only one. I still want you for being my first love and my first everything. Thank you for stay
and stable our relationship goals. Thank you for everything that you did with me. I love you and God
bless as you.

Sincerely, Lyka Mariñas