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33 Days
Of You

Hunab Amaya

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All Rights Reserved © Luis Enrique Amaya Vázquez.
First Edition by Hunab Amaya.
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 Thanks to Julia Pieper, who inspired me to redefine and re-
discover beauty in life. Thanks to her feminine power I could
reinterpret existence as an experience full of joy, mystery and
purpose. May God hold this love on the palm of his hand and
may all people around the world live this blessing by their own.

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 The story of this short book fills me with inspiration just by
remembering it. I had the wonderful opportunity to meet a
spectacular woman. All women are unique, but she has a
particular spark that illuminates everything around her. I was a
man who had a lot of personal work done, mainly to improve
my habits and repair any emotional damage caused in my past.
Life had shown me, with hard blows, the meaning of
unconditional love and value it through gratitude. So, when I
met this great woman, I had recently taken away my
expectations of how love should or should not be. I had already
let go the ideal image that clings to the mind about how "the
love of my life” could be, understanding that the individuals that
make up a couple are not found, but chosen and built. And she
only appeared; with a subtle and cheerful mood that reflected a
magical enthusiasm.

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 The days passed, and we both showed interest in sharing time
and space. We found pleasant our presences, and our energies
were transmuted into laughter and sincere caresses. We lived a
sober, alive and multicolored love affair. Our souls met through
glances, words and silence. I thought during that time how lucky
I was, because not only I felt attracted by her unique personality,
but I was being corresponded in every way. The "here and now"
became our center, and every second lived was extended to its
limit.

Unfortunately, she lived on the other side of the globe. The

plane ticket back to her country was already purchased. She had
to attend important commitments that she had acquired even
before we met. So, we made use of the few days we had to spend
together. We met amazing places, we talked about the craziest
topics and laughed until the stomach asked us to rest. Without
any promise, we said how much we loved each other. I had been
planning a visit to her continent for years. It was then that I
decided to travel that same year to reaffirm the love that had
been born and to share the sense of belonging that flourished
from freedom.

Then she left, and for the first time my world did not fall
apart. My heart felt pain, but I managed to temper the suffering,
keeping memories of empowerment and growth at her side.
Then I started to work harder than usual. I visualized my plane
ticket to go see her 4 months later; when, according to me, I
would have the time and money for sure. Every day we talked by
text message, call or video. That which held us together
transcended distances and reason. We always dedicated time for

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each other. I began to think that maybe I had found the person
who would stand by me for the rest of my life.

One day, during a phone call, she surprised me by sending

me a photograph of a plane ticket to my city, only 35 days away.
I almost went crazy with emotion, and of course my mind started
to work out all the things that would happen from that moment
on. I understood that she really loved me; that she really wanted
to be with me.

The day after I received this news, I saw a friend who I greatly
esteem because of his resilience abilities and spiritual mettle. We
met at my favorite cafe to discuss what happened. Upon hearing
the full story, he smiled and told me how happy he was for me,
then he continued saying: “There is only one thing you should not
forget; what you feel for her does not come from her, but from yourself.
It's because of everything you've worked on in recent years, in solitude.
Learn to love her in everything you encounter every day, and you will
have learned to truly love”. At first, I did not understand it very
well. In fact, his second explanation confused me even more. He
ended the conversation by specifying: “Find the love you feel for her
everywhere, every day, whether she is present or not. Only then, will
you learn to truly love, and both the Universe and her will thank and
reward you”.

Fortunately, I was free the next day so I could dedicate myself

to meditate everything that happened. Then, I began to write
each of the texts that I present below. It was 33 exact days from
the beginning of the exercise until our new meeting. In each of
them, I recited from my heart what my great friend had
suggested to me. Thanks to this powerful and magnificent

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exercise I was able to understand the meaning of loving and
transcending all teaching that I had until now about it. Being
Life itself the teacher that educated me in the art of love, and
my attentive contemplation on what it had to teach, today I
share with you this work made with pure love.

I hope that this story and its results inspire in you a new way
of appreciating life and the love we can find in it day after day.
This exercise allowed me to experience an incomparable
reunion, full of magic, light and power. Thanks to this
wonderful woman for deciding to love me and allow me to
discover through her the best of myself.

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 Day 1
I had already planned this trip with my dearest friends. We
visit the majestic mountains of the north, where the jealous
desert prevents abundant life. After a long day of walking and
exploring, we climbed a narrow canyon from which a mysterious
bird song came from. We climb in spite of the apparent danger,
discovering along the path an unexpected harmony of greens.
Thus, reaching the top of the commissure of the mountains,
hundreds of flowers sprouted in front of our eyes, small as the
jewels of the finest rings. Such was the surprise that I leaned
towards one of them; one with a color as striking as a flame. I
took it between my fingers and without tearing it I convinced
myself how beautiful it was. And then I reminded you, and I
thought that such a tiny object was capable of evoking your
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magnificent beauty. I found you in a tiny flower high in the
mountains, because despite their delicacy, both cling to bloom
and to beauty, just where anyone would think that there is only
forgetfulness.

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 Day 2
This afternoon I reunited with an old and dear friend. She
looked as beautiful and as happy as a year ago that I remembered
her. It's true, I loved her, and she loved me, so we saw each other
again to tell us everything that had happened. After an elegant
dinner, we went for a walk along the sidewalk of the park we
visited the most. There, under an illuminated night by the
crescent moon, I told her about you. I felt her mood fade, and
that a slight disappointment gripped her smile. So, I gently took
her face and in a calm voice I said: "Thanks to you, today I can
love the way I do". Then I saw you in the smile she gave me in
response, and I understood that I thought, felt and did the right
thing. I could recognize you in the wisdom of a woman who
loves and lets the others love in freedom.
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 Day 3
Today was rainy. We had the opportunity to chat through
text messages while I was traveling back home. You sent one in
particular that left me stunned: "I not only love you, but I love
who I am when I am with you". I stopped a couple of seconds to
taste your message, when suddenly, from the top of a tree fell a
drop of rain on the screen of my mobile. The drop magnified a
letter "o", and then I saw you there. I felt love for that little piece
of water, of sky, because it made me think of your clarity and
your fluidity to love and to be loved.

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 Day 4
Today I woke up earlier than usual, when the sun has not
come out yet. I was not entirely happy to interrupt my dream, so
I went out to the garden to get some fresh air. I looked still at a
bright spot in the sky. It was Venus, the mystic planet linked to
love and war. I thought about how many men have been guided
in their voyages throughout the history of humankind by the
shine of this planet. Its light was so radiant and pure that I could
only think of the glow that your eyes reflect. A wake that made
my heart vibrate as strong as your words of love in my ears. I was
able to find you at the brightest point of the night.

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 Day 5
I had been invited to play some music at a cocoa ceremony.
As is the custom, people shared love, joy and celebration. I saw
that all of them were accompanied, and those who were not,
were able to meet to start something new. I felt that I missed
you for brief moments; that your absence caused a void in my
heart. The moment of music arrived, and with my eyes closed, I
began to play the first notes. A waltz was born which danced
between an F# minor and an A major. As you know, A is the
note shared in both chords. By singing that note, I could feel the
perfect way it was dressed by harmony. I thought of you and
repeated your name again and again in a low voice, following the
A note. And I found you there, in a beautiful tone that colored

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a moment of joy and happiness in my life; in a sweet frequency
sustained in the perfection of music.

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 Day 6
I had a heavy day at the office. It has been one of those days
when I feel that my efforts are insufficient. The secretary of the
organization is an old woman, and constantly complains. I
understand her perfectly, because her personal history is hard,
and the amount of work she does in comparison to me is brutal.
Today I saw her go crazy for unfinished slopes, and I could feel
her desperate desire to finish with everything. Then I
understood that, despite her appearance and her thoughts, she
was a completely loyal woman. She maintained her job because
she loved to help, and her dedication to her family was such that
she was willing to spend days like that to support them. Then I
understood the great power that women possess when they love,
and I thought of you. I saw you in her desire to succeed, in her
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old age and in her intention to protect those she loves. I felt such
tenderness for that woman, that I hugged her and told her that
everything would be fine.

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 Day 7
I’m usually in a hurry, and often my diet is not the most
correct because of it. But today I dedicated a special time to
prepare my breakfast. In the solitude of my apartment I played
Frank Sinatra, Mia Farrow and Billy Vaughn, while cutting
fresh fruit. So, I looked at a small peach, soft and reddish. This
fruit in particular reminded me of your smooth skin and the
sweetness inside you. And I thought how wonderful it was to
taste the food without hurry. I gave thanks for the senses that
allowed me to contemplate food with such love. I understood
that food is alive, and that if one eats it with love, they nourish
us with the same feeling. That is how our love is.

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 Day 8
This day was fantastic. After a few hours of traveling, I
arrived at my favorite beach in the town of Tulum. I thought of
you during the whole trip, and how much I would have liked to
share a good conversation with you. When I stepped on the
sand, my body felt a unique relief. The turquoise sea looked
totally clean, and the people there appeared to be taken out from
a movie; everyone was happy and full of cheer. On one side, a
group of young people playing with a ball; on the other, a family
sharing the food. I decided to lie down for a few moments under
a palm tree that offered me shade, so I contemplated the
immense blue carpet of water. I went swimming in solitude and
stayed in a space where the water reached my chest. The waves
were slightly choppy, enough to separate my feet from the floor
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on several occasions. I felt that I was again a child who was
playing in the sea. I felt fun, joy and adventure in each wave that
lifted me. The subtlety of the sea was such that I felt I was
floating effortlessly. Meanwhile, the clouds gradually took on a
hallucinatory violet tone, which painted the moment with
nostalgia. Then I saw you in the water and in the sky. I
recognized you as the blood of the planet. I felt that this was our
love; like the sway that waves caused on my body, like the game
that water and I were playing.

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 Day 9
After a long day of work, I visited the park in front of my
house. I bought some fruits to eat, including my favorite: a
mamey. While I was buying the fruit, a group of scout children
passed by me. I heard in the distance what the group leader said.
It was an environmental education tour through the park. I
decided to follow them to listen and learn together with them,
while still eating my fruit. The guide stopped the group in a large
area of land, without trees or large plants. He invited all the
children to plant the seeds that he had provided from the
beginning, remembering the importance of life and the patience
required to contemplate their birth. Then I took the seed of the
mamey that I ate and I began to dig a small hole in the ground.
While doing it I thought of you. I recognized that our
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relationship, despite distance, was like that seed. I thought about
the process of waiting, taking care and loving a plant to harvest
its fruit in the future. With a lot of affection, and surrounded by
children full of enthusiasm, I looked at my hands stained with
earth and thought how wonderful the process of life itself was.

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 Day 10
Today I had a moment of clarity at the office. I had finished
my chores very early, and was looking out the window, right into
the garden. I took three deep breaths of fresh air and closed my
eyes. I began to imagine the tone of your eyes, blue as the sky. I
remembered your look at dawn, and I felt an overwhelming
desire to go back in time. Then I opened my eyes and
unexpectedly fluttered a beautiful blue butterfly in front of me.
I marveled at its beautiful dye and its way of flying. I understood
that your beauty resembled that friendly butterfly's, which with
the intensity of its color illuminated my attention, reminding me
that it was your freedom to fly what captivated me.

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 Day 11
I walked along a market near my house. I was looking for
some fruits and personal hygiene products, because activating
the local economy is nowadays the best. While a salesman
convinced me to buy handmade soaps, an elderly woman in a
traditional dress approached me to ask for some coins. I told her
that I didn’t carry coins with me, but maybe some other time.
Her downcast eyes looked at the floor and full of anguish she
dragged her feet following her path. Immediately I bought that
soap with the bill I already had in my hand and received some
coins in change. Then I followed the old woman, who was
already asking for help from a clothing merchant. I touched her
shoulder to get her attention. She turned her head around slowly
and acknowledged me with a smile. In that moment I felt the
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fragility of her existence. I wondered how much she could spend
every day walking around alone asking for help from hundreds
of strangers, and still continue smiling as she did at that
moment. Then I imagined you in your elderly, and I knew that
the last thing I wanted for you was that vulnerability. I took all
the coins I had in that moment and gave them to her, hoping
that there was someone at home waiting for her. I wished from
the depths of my heart to accompany you until you were old, so
none of us were alone.

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 Day 12
As part of my work’s activities, we organized a tour with a
group of international artists to a Mayan community, located
south of Coba, Mexico. We started at the archaeological site,
and then went with a Mayan family to share traditional foods
and know the sanctuary of the melipona bee. It is said that the
melipona bee is considered sacred to the Mayan people, not only
because of the healing properties of its honey, but because it is
the only stingless bee. The people of the community gave us a
warm welcome, offering us an extraordinary culinary experience.
After eating, we went to the meliponarie, where besides
participating in the ritual to be accepted by the hive, we were
taught in detail about the wonderful animal. The magic
happened when we looked inside the honeycombs built by bees.
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I could also taste the honey directly from the honeycomb, which
did not bother the bees. The colors, aromas and flavors
reminded me to your skin, hair and mouth. I thought you were
as beautiful as each one of those bees and that your love was like
their honey, a sweet road to ecstasy.

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 Day 13
Tonight, I attended a meditation near my house. The
residents welcomed us with a family spirit, totally warm and
pleasant. We began to musicalize the environment, harmonizing
the moment with mystical tones. People formed a circle around
a humble altar, where three lit candles held the only light on the
site. Everyone kept their eyes closed, but I looked at the flame
of one of the candles, following their serene and spontaneous
dance. Then I saw you in that precious fire, so calm and eager to
continue existing. I understood that you were for my life as what
that spot of light represented for the whole circle of people. My
attention clung to the luminescence so much that my
consciousness experienced an indescribable pleasure; as similar
as looking at your silhouette during sunset.
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 Day 14
I was walking again at the same beach where our first kiss
happened. This particular night was naked, with a completely
clear sky that revealed the stars we contemplated together. And
there was Sirius, the brightest point of the early night sky,
pulsing and attractive. I remembered that long explanation I
gave you about the birth of the stars, and how Sirius in
particular, was composed of two of them, which danced in a
perfect orbit in spite of having such different properties. It was
then clear that our love was like the one those two stars had, that
despite being so distinct, together they formed the most
illuminated spark of the sky.

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 Day 15
I know how much you love Yoga, especially in couples. I have
felt you so excited about this part of your life, that I decided to
practice it so I can accompany you. I met with amazing people
who arrange their bodies in a friendly way. Today I experienced
for the first time an approach to a body that was not yours.
Fortunately, she had more experience than me in this discipline,
so she guided me to calmness through respect and trust. While
my feet supported her legs balancing her in the air, she made a
posture that dignified her totality. Then, I thought of you. I
imagined you in such a position, contemplating the turquoise
sea that in the distance decorated the view. And I was as excited
as you were, not only to understand the beauty of the work done,

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you were in that Yoga posture.

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 Day 16
Early in the morning I went up to the roof of the building
where I live. As you well know, I love doing exercises to activate
my body since the sun rises. Today I decided to climb to the
highest part of the place, just above the roof of the last
apartment. There, with the opportunity to contemplate the
horizon from above, I could enjoy the first beams of light hitting
my eyelids. I then began to move my body slowly, adopting the
postures that I enjoy the most of Qi Gong. For a few moments,
the wind began to blow more intensely. I allowed my body to
respond lightly to the directions indicated by the air itself.
Surprisingly I found myself following the direction of the wind
according to its rhythm. I felt that my limbs lost weight and that
each caress that wind offered to my body, dissolved me in
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serenity with it. You were like the air, which moved me from
one place to another in a magical and spontaneous dance.

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 Day 17
I decided to spend all day at home and dedicate myself to
painting. I have a coloring book that allows me to clarify and
relax the mind to improve my creativity. The piece I worked in
simulated the night sky, where it was possible to see stars,
planets and galaxies. I started using the purple tones to define
the interstellar light that can be appreciated in the clusters of
distant galaxies. The background music perfectly harmonized a
good audiobook of spirituality and self-improvement, so my eyes
and my ears were all stimulated. I decided to use the violet color
to give life to the luminous fibers that connect massive bodies to
each other, and then I thought about you. Not only did I relate
the tone of your lips to that lively color, but I realized that you
were in each of the strokes necessary to paint the work. I
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understood that it took a lot of patience and love to finish that
job impeccably. I knew that beauty is also built, and I continued
the work with a big smile on my face, thinking that it would be
for you when it was finished.

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 Day 18
Today I had a long walk through the city. I made several
important purchases for the new project that I am working on,
which I’d love you to become a part of. The day was clear, and
the heat of the Caribbean manifested itself in plain February.
While I was on the sidewalk of a main avenue, I remembered
that journey we had through the jungle. I thought about the way
I took my favorite necklace, wrapping it around my hand and
placing its stone in my palm. Thus, we held hands carrying the
gem and walked in silence back home. So, I took my necklace
again and entangled it in the same way, only this time I could
not take your hand. However, I understood the power of the
symbol we give to objects, and I understood that my necklace
was not a simple necklace, but a wonderful memory of a valuable
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and unforgettable moment. I saw and recognized you in my
necklace, knowing that some way, I take you with me wherever
I go.

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 Day 19
I got involved in an amazing maritime expedition in the
Bacalar lagoon. A group of 8 people made up the boat. After a
journey of at least 50 kilometers through the water, we arrive at
a small island in the middle of the lagoon. We all went down to
explore that mysterious piece of land, in which we immediately
recognized an old and big tree. I climbed to the highest part,
where I could see the turquoise water from above. Up there, I
decided to practice my balance, trusting my legs and the tree's
resistance. When reaching equilibrium and peace, the wind
caused the leaves of the tree to fondle my body. Then I was able
to recognize you in the trust and love I felt for this living being.
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heart.

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 Day 20
Today I visited that beautiful community in the jungle where
we once were. I had the opportunity to talk with the grandfather
and guardian of those lands. He wisely shared the meaning of
the "American dream," while a few young people were listening.
He said that the American dream was a particular moment in
the history of America when the indigenous people forgot the
origin of wealth and abundance. Then he took a handful of soil
from the floor and said with certainty that there was real wealth
and that until we did not understand this again as humanity, we
remained condemned to sleep. "Awakening means to remember
that wealth is in the earth”. I could see you then in that fist of
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the planet is called "mother" and I discovered wealth and
invaluable abundance in you too.

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 Day 21
This was my last day in the apartment you met. I decided to
leave as a preparation to lighten up and be able to visit you this
year. After packing during the early morning, I decided to
receive the sun on the terrace for the last time. While I breathed
the fresh air of the morning and received the first beams of light,
I heard the song of birds approaching quickly. I opened my eyes
and in front of me were standing two Xtakay, the mayan yellow
bird. After a brief silence they sang subtly together, and then
flew away in synchrony. As they flew, they continued to pour
their beautiful whistle through the streets. I thought then of our
love. I recognized how free we are, and I wanted to fly by your
side like those birds did, who in total freedom decide to join
together to sing for the world.
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 Day 22
I spent all day ordering and arranging my belongings in my
new home. Time to tidy everything was not enough, so there
were still boxes and clothes scattered throughout the room
where I sleep. Exhausted and hoping to continue the next day
with more light, I leaned on the floor and prepared to sleep. As
the place is new, the room where I find myself is lit by a small
cloth lamp on the floor, which with its tenuous whitish reveals
the sign of Om. Staring at it, I understood the great function
that light fulfilled in my daily activities despite its subtlety. I
thought that your light was very similar, not because of its
intensity but because of its opportune lighting.

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 Day 23
This morning I did my physical exercises at the community
palapa of the new place where I live. Even before the dawn gave
color to the morning sky, my body was already being activated.
Not only did I give myself the opportunity to experience new
yoga postures, but I could feel in all my systems the vibrant
energy of the place where I was. So, in the position of the
Warrior, raising my palms gently, I looked at the ceiling and I
perceived the first rays of the sun passing through a small hole.
This trail of scarlet light embellished the zenith of the palm leaf
structure, reminding me of the tone of your cheeks when you
smile. I thought again that you were so similar to the light in all
its facets that I understood that our love is light.

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 Day 24
The garden of my new home is full of plants and flowers that
harmonize space. This morning I spent a few minutes observing
each of them. A flower with orange petals was supported by a
green stem with long thorns of the same color. I thought that
such a beautiful being could need spines to protect itself from
being torn from life. So, I remembered those bitter experiences
in which I stumbled into love, and I thought they were like
thorns lightly touching my skin, reminding me of its sensitivity.
But I knew that thanks to those spines, today I was able to
respect the flower, letting it blossom and be alive.

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 Day 25
Today I visited a community in the middle of the jungle. It is
part of the projects in which I have been involved as a volunteer
to contribute to society. We arrived at a central park, where the
children played under the shade of an immense native tree. The
mission was clear, to evaluate this tree and transform it into a
natural treasure to guarantee its protection. While the specialists
were working on it, a beautiful child in a traditional dress
approached me and asked me about what we were doing. When
I explained, she looked at the tree and said: “Thank you”, coming
from the heart. Immediately she sat on a bench next to the tree
and watched intently the work we were doing. I could see in her

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eyes innocence, compassion and hope for life. I saw you clearly
in her big eyes, so sweet, sincere and full of faith.

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 Day 26
I decided to receive the sunrise at the beach. I love feeling the
sun's essence spilling over the horizon and caressing my skin.
Definitely I enjoyed a deep meditation, in which authentic calm
and temperance was manifested. As I prepared to leave the place,
I looked over the sand and found a tiny snail shell. I touched it
with my left hand and took it directly to my chest. I imagined
that this perfect spiral resembled the dance that our hearts
perform when they are together. I realized that this was the
home of a snail, and that the teaching was in the relationship of
the snail and its shell. I saw home in you and the possibility that
home goes with me wherever I am.

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 Day 27
I attended a cocoa ceremony led by two of our friends. I
arrived early to help with the preparations. As the sun concealed
behind the palms and poured its last beams of light over the sea,
more people came to the place. I noticed that many couples
arrived, who spoke to each other with familiarity. We lit a fire
and started the ceremony as soon as the first stars announced
their appearance. Music and dance began, and the souls that
were there were slowly stripped of shame and judgments. I
played my guitar, sitting in front of the fire’s heat and
accompanied by a couple of musicians. As I watched the feast
unfold, the light of the flames attracted my attention until I fixed
my gaze on its wobble. Then time dissolved, and the energy of
the flames impregnated in my totality, melting it slowly with its
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substance. Then I knew that you were in that heat, which took
me back to the moment when, in intimacy, we melted into one.

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 Day 28
Today we had a phone call in which we talked about the
things we would do when we were together. It had been a rainy
day, so I was lying comfortably on the sofa in the living room,
listening to the sweetness of your voice and watching the rain
hit the window. I had just told you how powerful I consider our
forces when joining, when in synchrony with the prayer the roar
of a lightning was heard, causing a rumble in the house. My
heart was startled, and my entire nervous system was activated
instantly, as if reaffirming what was coming out of my mouth. I
understood that our energy was like that lightning, bright and
vibrant, capable of igniting our intent and will at fleeting speed.

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 Day 29
Once again, I was walking at the beach where our first kiss
happened. I was just a few steps away from the eccentric
restaurant where we had a long and revealing conversation,
when I heard music coming from the place. They were typical
sounds of the Caribbean, cheerful and energizing. I remembered
that moment when together we tried to dance those rhythms for
the first time, laughing after each attempt. I closed my eyes and
decided to imagine you by my side, making a slight effort to
dance together again. I felt your presence clearly, as if the music
evoked our childish souls ready to play. I loved the ridiculousness
that surrounded me, because despite dancing with a memory, I
enjoyed that state of pure happiness knowing that soon you
would be with me again.
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 Day 30
I arrived home very exhausted, so I allowed my body to rest
for a long time on my bed before sleeping. In front of me was
my mother's picture on a shelf, which I stared at for a few
minutes. I started talking with her image aloud, knowing that
she was able to listen to me wherever she was. I told her about
you and about the great love I felt since you arrived, as well as
the great excitement that resides inside me for your return. Then
a voice coming from my heart answered, assuring that you were
a manifestation of the unconditional love that my own mother
had for me, and that through you, the power of cosmic female
energy would nourish me like never before. Then I understood
that you are a means by which Mother Nature incarnates, and
that together we represent the whole as Shiva and Shakti.
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 Day 31
Today I was in a fabulous ceremonial space in the middle of
the jungle of the Caribbean. I arrived much earlier than
necessary, so there was still no one in the place. Outside the
temple there was an open space in which I could sit on the trunk
of a fallen tree to let time pass. Sitting there, I could feel the
great calm that nature offered. The sounds I perceived were
produced by the movement of the trees with the wind, the
diverse singing of the birds and the walking of wild animals. My
whole body felt a deep serenity and I let my eyes close slowly,
falling into a reverie where my attention remained active. My
mind remained clear, and the flow of my thoughts ceased. Then
I felt not only that an inner silence was manifesting, but also that
every sound around me vanished. Then I was immersed in a total
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silence that seemed as timeless as a dream. After a few seconds
of contemplation of this "nothingness", the memory of the first
time we shared music with our instruments came to my mind,
followed by a quick reproduction of all the moments we shared
together. The last image presented was watching you sitting next
to me on that tree, in that jungle, outside that temple, staring at
me and smiling in peace. I understood that you were even in the
deepest of silences, and that your soul had permeated my being
deeper than I could imagine.

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 Day 32
During the morning, I looked at the mirror in my bathroom
while I was tidying up. I had finished shaving, so the mirror was
splashed with water and foam. I took some toilet paper and
began to clean its surface, so that no stain remained. While
doing this, the philosophy of reflection came to my mind: we are
all reflections of ourselves. There have been many conversations
with my colleagues about this fascinating subject, but I found it
curious that it came to my mind at this particular moment. So,
I thought carefully about the way I find my own reflection in
you. I realized that every time I think or want something for your
benefit, I do it for me too. Then I reviewed everything that I
wanted for myself and put my intention that you had it too. That
included harmony, fulfillment, freedom, prosperity, happiness,
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peace and love. I even noticed that I began to clean the mirror
in a more subtle, soft and loving way, as if you were that same
mirror. I thought then that the way of cleaning that reflection
symbolized in a powerful way the commitment that I acquired
to keep clear and radiant this way of perceiving each other.

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 Day 33
I am in a state of contemplation right in the community
garden where I live. The trees bloom again with red cayennes,
the pastures green and the waters become clear. Two hours have
passed since I decided to meditate, seeking again to intimate
with inner silence. During the final stretch, I had the
opportunity to visualize the day my mother left this world. This
time, my emotions were different, because I re-experienced the
event with a sober interpretation compared to my childhood. I
went to that memory to heal any remnant of abandonment that
might persist in me. Thus, I clearly remembered when my
mother's sister came towards me and said firmly: “Your mother
will always live in your heart". Over the years, after several
emotional setbacks during my adolescence and my youth, I was
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finally able to understand this powerful affirmation. In fact,
whenever I needed guidance, consolation or company, I had to
concentrate my attention on my heart and think about my
mother. So, it was possible to summon her essence, her
immovable spirit in space and time, and from there sprang every
answer inspired by unconditional love.

Today, with my eyes and my heart open, I realize that

preserving the essence of the people we love is a unique power
of the Being, and that the last 33 days you have lived not only in
my thoughts, but in my feelings, in my heart and its beating.
Today, knowing that we are a few hours away from our reunion,
I find you in my heart as a complementary part of my existence.
In this way, I understand that, while divine consciousness
manifests, your physical absence is but a way to activate your
etheric presence inside me, and that because of this magnificent
love that I feel for you, you will stand by me for the rest of my
days, wherever we both are.

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“Our bodies are temples that harbor the supreme spirit of
creation, life and reproduction. In every object and living
being there is a reflection, physical and metaphorical.
To recognize ourselves in that reflection is to reconstruct
ourselves through it. That is pure and evolving love”.

I love us

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