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CHARLES STEVENS
In my sleep I dreamt I was back home in Nowy Sacz with all those 1
knew and loved - my parents, brothers and sisters, friends, and the
people who worked in our factory. The Germans had invaded Poland
in September 1939 and people were in a terrible panic with many
rumours circulating. There were thousands of people in the streets,
running in all directions, and doroshkas [horse-drawn carriages], cars,
buggies and bicycles cluttered the roads. Lost children wandered
about crying, clutching onto their pathetic bundles of possessions.
People in the town considered my father to be a wise man and
would frequently seek his guidance on matters of importance. He had
decided that running was pointless, as the Germans would overtake
us wherever we went, but I believe he lived on memories of the Great
War of 1914, when Nowy Sacz and surrounding Galicia was
occupied by the Austrians.
In those days the German-speaking officers were gentlemen in
every respect, and some were even Jewish. There was no Hitler or SS
killing squads. My father was under the illusion that the friendship
and business transactions he experienced in 1914-18 would be
repeated. He disregarded the rumours of barbaric acts reaching us as
highly exaggerated; he did not believe that such a dramatic change
could possibly occur in a civilised nation. He had no objection to my
brother and myself going away on our bicycles if we so desired and
was convinced we would soon return home.
The local authorities made hasty and inadequate preparations
against bombing and gas attacks. I was involved in a group that was
given intensive instructions, tested by examination, on what to do in
the event of an attack in the locality. Being young I was stupidly
elated in anticipation of something excitingly different; my spirit
craved for danger and new adventures, but I was ashamed to mention
those feelings to anyone.
The Polish infantry, retreating in disgrace, offered only sporadic
resistance- as effective as a child with a pea shooter against the tanks.
From my recollections and observations, discipline in the Polish army
was maintained by not so much a 'pecking' order, more a bullying
order; each level of rank would torment and give absolute hell to the
one below. I personally witnessed an off-duty lance corporal vilify
and degrade a private passing with his girlfriend. Whether it was to
impress his fellow NCOs or for his own ego I never discovered.
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consider yourself a lucky boy.' I was lucky, their faces reflected regret
at missing the chance of a kill to report to their superiors.
These groups with rifles also had orders to shoot at enemy
aircraft, should they see any. I believe they did bring one down,
which was a rare feat, but unfortunately it was one of ours! One day
a German fighter plane ran out of fuel and had to make a forced
landing in a large corn-field near the Nowy Sacz railway station. A
group of students surrounded the plane. The German pilot, dressed
to kill with a revolver in his hand, came out of the plane stiff and
arrogant and demanded to know if anyone spoke German. Several
men did. 'I have to inform you that the army will be here very soon.
I ask you to surrender peacefully - it will be to your advantage.' The
students looked at each other in confusion and eventually decided to
take the pilot's gun and detain him at the railway station.
On the day the German army reached our town the students
placed a machine-gun above the escarpment of the River Dunajec on
the walls of the ancient Jagielonski castle. Below them was the
beautiful iron bow-bridge called 'Helena'. When the first German
armoured car approached the bridge the machine-gun opened fire. It
was a feeble show of resistance; the bridge could easily have been
blown up. That would have stopped the Germans crossing for at least
two days, maybe even longer with an organised defence. In fact,
within ten minutes a German plane was on the scene and smashed the
machine-gun nest, killing six students.
My whole family sat out the German attack in the vast cellars
extending the width and breadth of our large house. Three days
before I had suspended a circular steel plate from the spiral iron
staircase in our yard to act as a gong in the event of a gas attack. This
was suggested at the course I had hurriedly attended; but no gas
masks were available. We busied ourselves in the cellar selecting an
inconspicuous place to hide our valuables, like jewellery and gold,
and eventually agreed on a place of my choice. Carefully removing a
few bricks from the wall, we dug out a hollow space. Small items -
rings, watches, and gold coins - were wrapped in a linen cloth and
put inside condoms, while the larger pieces, such as silver goblets and
cutlery, antique scent boxes and religious paraphernalia, were
wrapped in the inner-tubes of tyres, paper, and linen cloth. The
bricks were carefully cemented back and then dust from the earthen
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floor was rubbed over the whole area. We were all pleased and agreed
that it was a job well done. My father told us to imprint the exact
location of the hiding-place in our minds and very subtly said, 'We do
not know what will be, my dear ones. We may all survive but some
of us may not. This treasure will remain for the survivors. Let us all
be fair, kind, helpful, and understanding at all times.' Then, in
Hebrew he added, 'The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh, may His
will be done.'
The moment my father spoke the last word there was a
tremendous explosion, with such a great concussion that the
foundations shook and dust fogged the cellar. In the excitement and
overcome with stupidity I ran upstairs through the corridor into the
yard, grabbed a wooden mallet and started banging the gong
fervently. This signal was to be used for gas only, but I was so
overcome I banged anyway. A German plane had flown very low and
dropped a bomb on the main street of Nowy Sacz, Jagielonska Street,
about 100 metres from our house. The effect was to terrify the
population prior to the arrival of the troops. German tactics certainly
worked; they had made a psychological study in their preparation for
the war and as a result used clever deception, horror, atrocities,
public hanging and shooting to subdue the local citizens, who became
frightened, submissive, and even resorted to grovelling.
Later, in the cellar, we heard the rumbling of heavy motorised
vehicles above us. Inside I felt a mixture of fear and excitement, and
my father had to restrain me from going upstairs to watch the
frightening modern army on wheels. The Polish army that I could
remember consisted of marching infantry with only horses to pull
the heavy guns and provision wagons. I could not hold back any
longer so, under the pretext of a call of nature, I climbed upstairs
and secretly observed the passage of the mighty columns, protected
in the air by roaring, low-flying fighter planes. Only then did I
understand the hopelessness of any army to withstand this new
disciplined and very methodical colossus. Loudspeakers issued
orders that any resistance or disobedience would be answered by
immediate execution. Shops and businesses were told to open
as usual.
As soon as we re-opened our shops, German soldiers started to
come in to buy pastries, cakes and chocolates. They were polite and
56 THE JOURNAL OF HOLOCAUST EDUCATION
the snwinl{ - ir did not pt·<,duct· tht· hliHhH·t< uad " lm 1\ tl nn tlH
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und d ·sp ltch ·d m · with s'·v ~ t tl d sl!,t'\1111 h•d I + lc 11 nnt 111 tl lit
th ·it· gam · tnt.Jr nruu si n ~ .
Th • prison wns ov ·l'flowint·h ltHI .1s lh · h ,d hud 1 tu I lui dw
wi th all their m : timiu~, killin~. nnd robbi n~, tlw lie w \, op,• twd HHI,
one at n ti m -., w · wcr · nhl<: ro t·un <•ut , Thr SS on •adl ld"· ol tl w
gJte hi t, whipp "d and h ·nr thOI'lC with ·nou p.h S tl't: tl ~ lh 11HI '0 111 w,('
ro run the raund ·r. My broth 'I' nnd I mmngcd to w •n v · du oup.h
successfully - b ·in r lucky c nou ~ h nut ru hew· bctn hit h ud t· noiiHh
ro drop down on the growing pil · of hod its. hlUI' srt onp. men w~:r <'
kept hnck to remove the hodi ·s of th • d ' fHJ .lnd dying.
Once we were home my pnr nrs ri ·d wirh 1eli .f. My Lu h~r told
my mother rhat I had probably sa v •d his nnd Mot ·I'Nli fe. M 'Y'''' wns
proud of me, and relar ·d the sto ry of my hnir ·m. ' I didn 'r Cl y. I ft: lt
like a hero.' Ev ryone look ·d ar m wi th pt id · ond piry. My f tc · w 1s
bloody and filthy, li ttl tuft s of hair stuck out of my rn w ~l< ull ~md I
was covered with blood and du st. Deliv •ring th · ott/} d · r.:r'-' l', I
emptied my lar re fob pocket full of mon · y~ saying th:u I was nut
going to give it all to those fil thy Nazis. My hr·orh ·r Maycl' snid, 'You
silly fool, for the love of God, you could h:tv · h ·n sht)t,' I low ·v£·r,
there was love and pride in his eyes.
While our cook, gloorna, bathed my wounds wi th wnrrn wnr ·r nnd
iodine, she alternated between crying and pr~ising th Lord. Th • iodine
stung like hell. She kept !amen tin)" over my b nutiful hair, tha my lov ·ly
curls were gone, and thought they had pull d th · roo ~o u t nnd I would
be bald forever. l eventu::ally shu t her up, 'Stop munning and d prcssinf!
me. Surely I've had enough for one dny without you ndding <-)il to th"
fire.' "'rh·:tt made Bloomn burst out ..:rying loudet· thnn b ·for •,
1.he next day, when my adrenaline stopp d flowing and r.h ·
excitement subsided, the reaction to th · traum atic ven s hi t me h;1nL
I suddenly realised how lucky we were to b" nliv ·. ~ had to do
so met~ing - our previous day's experience wns just a b •ginning nud
next t1mc we may not be so lucky. l could sec that the sad istic mob of
SS in their. ~lack uni.forms was created for the sole purpos · of kill in ~
and tcrror1s1ng at will: there was no authority above th ·rn, they did
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exactl as they pl ased. History repeats itself; wars are instigated
because of greed. Young people crave for danger, recognition, medals
and uniforms. Rape and robbing follows, and of course there must be
a convenient victim. The leaders must have someone to blame when
things go wrong. The soldier fights better when he has been
indoctrinated with hate, so the Lord has given the world the jews.
Opposite our house on Sobieski Street, large wood and iron
double gates opened into a huge cobbled yard. On the left side, past
the gates, jozef P., a widower, and his family lived. He had three
beautiful daughters, of which the eldest was married and the middle
one had a 15 year-old illegitimate daughter, Ruta. The youngest, 19
years old, lost both her legs attempting suicide by laying herself down
on a railway line in front of an oncoming train. She could not face
the shan1e and stigma when she found herself pregnant, especially
after. her sister had been through a terrible ordeal with the pregnancy
and birth of Ruta. At the time it had cast a horrible shame on the
family.
The girls were all very feminine and sexy, and jozef's
granddaughter was a joy to look at, slim with long light-brown hair
and a lovely smiling face. Jozef adored Ruta and became very
protective, taking great care to ensure that she never came to any
harm. Jozef was an old legionnaire who had fought in 1919 at the
Polish uprising against the Russian occupation, under the command
of Josef Pilsudski, later Marshall and President of free Poland. Jozef
still sported a moustache like that Josef Pilsudski was renowned for.
Although he was Polish born and bred, he was fond of our family, and
in turn my parents were always kind and helpful to him and his
family. jozef scraped a meagre living by owning a doroshka, which
my father would often use.
Encouraged by her grandfather, Ruta often helped out in our
household - especially when the grandchildren were around. Jozef
had told her, 'Stay there and learn how decent people live. Keep away
from the scum and louts that ruined our family. I'm determined that
your future will not be laced with shame.' Ruta was about the same
age as my youngest sister Lola and they confided in each other. Lola
once told me that Ruta was deeply in love with me and blushed when
I was near. My extreme shyness kept me away from this delicious
flower of youth.
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About a week after I was released from the prison Jozef and his
doroshka were hired to drive to Krynica, the beautiful spa town, a
day's journey south. My married sister Rozia, her husband Abram,
their children and myself were to go. My parents thought it would be
safer there and I did need to recuperate. While we were preparing to
leave, Ruta sat next to jozef, wearing her white Sunday dress. She
cried on hearing of my ordeal with the Gestapo, then implored her
grandfather to take her along on the journey.
I loved driving through the countryside savouring the smells of
horses, cattle and farms. We were stopped several times by patrols
and cursed and spat on for being Jewish. Jozef and Ruta bowed their
heads shamefully avoiding our eyes. At about 1 pm we moved off the
road to rest the horse and have lunch.
Jozef had unharnessed the horse, who was grazing nearby, when
we heard motorcycle engines approaching. Two German NCOs
slowed down as they came near, passed by about 100 metres, then
decided to turn back. They carried no rifles but had revolvers in
their holsters. They were both very tall, one being about 24 years
old and the other about 30. They asked if we had any water left,
but were obviously staring at Ruta, who was rather well-endowed
for her age. Jozef nervously picked her up, put her on the horse and
called me to hold the reins. 'Will you both go down to the river and
water the horse please. Quickly!' The two Germans whispered
something between themselves and I am sure I heard the word
'virgin'.
I led the horse, with Ruta seated on it, through the forest towards
the river, and on looking back was relieved to see that the two
Germans were leaving. About 15 minutes later we reached the river
and the horse drank eagerly. Ruta called me to help her down - I
sensed she wanted contact with me. I held up my arms and brought
her down and her loveliness and softness made me giddy with
excitement. Clinging to me she kissed me, passionately whispering
that she loved me and always would.
We heard footsteps approaching and looked round to see that the
two German NCOs had returned, now with their guns drawn. My
first instinct was to jump into the river and hope for the best but I
could not leave Ruta alone. They leered at her with appreciation, then
one ran over to her, grabbed her lovely long hair and pulled her head
NOWY SACZ 63
back, his eyes shining with lust. 'lch gehe zuerst.' (I am going first.) He
poked the gun towards his chest. Ruta paled, her lips pressed tightly
together. Her body had gone limp. I was backing away from the other
but he stretched his arm towards me cocking the gun. 'Take one more
step and you are dead.' Like lightning he pistol-whipped me on the
head, knocking n1e down. He rolled me over onto my face with a
sharp kick of his boot, lashed my hands with some wire, then dragged
me to the nearest tree and tied me to it. I was only semi-conscious; the
wire was so tight on my wrists that my hands went numb, blood was
trickling down the side of my face and my head hurt badly. Ruta cried
out in despair, looking at me sadly. A horrible nausea swept over me
- shame and frustration eating my guts.
The German who was holding on to Ruta holstered his gun. The
moment he let go of her hair Ruta hit out with both hands and kicked
out, scratching his face. He cursed and shrieked at her, calling her a
Jewish cat. 'I've got myself a wild young virgin. What a lovely war! Let
it last. Let it last! I've always dreamed of raping a virgin.' The other
German giggled hysterically, fiddling ·with his fly and getting impatient.
'Come on, hurry up,' he called out. Ruta was held round her throat and
pulled down to the ground, pleading and crying. One German pinned
her hands down to the ground while the other took off his tunic and
lowered his trousers. Tearing off her best Sunday dress and ripping
away her knickers, he lowered himself down.
'Please, no! No! No!' whimpered Ruta in agonising spasms. He
then tore off the top of her dress to expose her milk-white breasts.
'Please don't, I beg you, for the love of God!' 'Silence, you Jewish
whore.' He slapped her hard across the face, knocking her head
sideways, and spread-eagled her on the grass. The horse appeared to
sense that something was wrong, he kept stamping his foot, snorting
and looking around. I was overwhelmed with frustration and hatred
and wept tears of heartache.
After they had both raped her and re-adjusted their clothes, they
began laughing and boasting about deflowering a Jewish virgin. They
tried to guess Ruta's age. I suddenly blurted out, 'She is not Jewish.'
'Ha ha! Of course she is. Anyone who isn't German is Jewish if we
say so. Isn't that right! Heil Hitler!' After a few minutes they left.
I started screaming for help. Although it seemed like an eternity
the whole horrible rape could not have lasted more than 20 minutes.
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I thought Ruta was dead. She was lying with her legs spread out and
bloody, her body badly bruised and her breasts bitten. I kept on
shouting and the horse joined in, neighing repeatedly. Abram arrived
with Jozef, who went berserk with grief, crying in agonising spasms.
He called on the heavens, screaming, 'Oh Lord, why do you punish
me so much, where are you?' His little adorable angel, his love, his
life, his protected granddaughter was half dead, raped and bleeding.
Abram turned his head away, shocked, in pity, with tears falling on
his cheeks. He was a scholar, well versed in the Talmud, a gentle giant
and humanitarian. He untied me and rubbed my bruised and bleeding
wrists. My scull, still raw and damaged from the saw haircut, had a
new gash welling up. Abram dipped his handkerchief in the river and
started cleaning me up.
Jozef, a broken man, gently washed Ruta's naked body then took
off his shirt and pulled it over her head. He was crying inconsolably.
Ruta was in a state of shock with a distant look in her eyes. She
moved mechanically - as if she were in oblivion - and was unable to
walk, so Jozef held her close on horseback as we made our way back.
Half way up the hill the horse stumbled on some undergrowth and
went down on his knees but managed to steady itself. The sudden jolt
caused Ruta to start screaming as if she were back under the rapist.
Her grandfather stroked her head soothingly and tried to pacify her.
Her screams triggered off in me an inner pain bursting to come out.
I began to sob spasmodically and progressively I sobbed louder and
louder uncontrollably.