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CS 115
Prof. Summerlin
10/2/19
Fall of Rain
She kept singing this haunting tune to herself as she stood adorned in her apron and
rubber gloves scrubbing the dishes from a Sunday lunch. Just those words. I’m convinced she
“I swear I heard it the other day while watching one of those videos where the dog
reunites with their owner after not seeing them for like 5 years.” She insisted. “God, those
I glanced at her with a look of pure love cleverly disguised with acquiescence.
“Oh shut up don’t give me that look I’m not crazy. Lots of normal people do it.” She
remarked.
As I sat there staring at the golden afternoon sunlight piercing through the window
and beaming on her perfectly sculpted face, I understood that sensation entirely and my smug
look was replaced with one of wonder. Her chestnut hair glowed from the golden haze and
bounced from shoulder to shoulder as she continued to sing her beautiful tune without
resignation. The tune itself was rather sad but, from her mouth, it was reborn into a beautiful
melody that could pacify the devil himself, and what a beautiful mouth it was. Over her shoulder
I could see her scarlet lips curl into the most beautiful smile that fit her bright disposition
seamlessly. As she smiled, her cheek rose up to scrunch up her eyes, crystal blue, to match the
small flowers that covered her yellow flowing dress. A breeze picked up from the open window
and blew her hair aside, revealing the rest of her face. I swear it was almost as if the world
around her existed only to complement her, like she was an angel. She turned off the water and
“You know this Friday the weather is supposed to be even better than today. We should
take a trip back up to the waterfall. We haven’t been since last year. Although I don’t know how
you’re going to top last year, what with me coming home with a brand-new ring and all, but I’m
sure you’ll find a way. You always do.” She said batting her eyes at me.
I looked at her and raised my eyebrows and said “You keep that up and we may just be
leaving that waterfall as 3 of us instead of just two. Well, after 9 months and an unbelievable
She laughed and went to brush back her hair with her gloves still on, getting soap bubbles
all on her face and in her hair. I laughed at her and so she threw her gloves at me and turned the
water back on and sprayed me. Before we knew it we were both drenched in water and soapy
bubbles and laughing, and I looked at her and she kissed me. I got that feeling that I get every
time she kisses me like I was floating in the clouds. The kind where you look out of an airplane
window and all you can see are great billows of pure white and clear blue sky and then me and
her floating between them. We could’ve stayed there for the rest of our lives if we wanted,
embracing each other and connected through a common and undying love. Suddenly I heard a
raindrop against the window. And then several more. I turned to look and the world went black
I woke up lying on my back staring at a bright white light in a strange room. I heard
muffles of voices chatting about in low tones as I watched the men in white coats move their
mouths. The man to my right had black slicked hair and a strong jawline and glasses that rested
on his chiseled cheekbones. The man at my head was balding at the top with fraying brown and
gray hair on the sides that matched his bushy brown mustache that covered his mouth. His
double chin spilled out over his shirt and tie that was barely visible underneath his white coat.
The man to my left was a young, skinny man with piercing blue eyes and wavy blonde hair. One
of the white coats on my right jotted down something on a clip board that I could tell from the
movement was a checkmark. The white coat that was standing at my head reached down behind
me and started pulling at something. I know he was pulling because my head was moving and I
could feel pressure and then finally something sliding out of the back of my neck. All at once
every sound in the room, every smell around me, every breeze against my skin came rushing in.
He placed some sort of patch where the object had exited my skull and stood back up.
The double chinned man looked and me and gently spoke “Try sitting up.”
Hesitant, I engaged the muscles that were required to make me sit and I suddenly shot up
with alarming ease. I studied my arms and legs and the rest of my body as if it were the first time
seeing it. It looked like my body but different somehow, like I was looking at myself from an
“Whoa whoa take it slow.” exclaimed blue eyes. “It may take you a while to get
acclimated. Now I know you probably have a lot of questions so I guess I should start from the
beginning. You are dead.” said the double chinned man from somewhere beneath the mass of
hair on his upper lip. He went on to tell me how I slipped and fell and hit my head and died
inside me knew I should be panicking and breaking down in tears, but my face did not change. I
just stood there staring at a strange room with strange people, emotionless.
“The emergency services arrived fairly quickly to the scene. They immediately called
911 and they brought you into the hospital here. Because you were an organ donor, some of your
organs were kept including your brain which we took to conduct a series of experiments for a
I was processing everything they were saying but I wasn’t quite listening. My mind was
racing in a thousand different directions and they all seemed to be shouting in my head at the
same volume. I turned my eyes to the floor to try and quiet all the noise and allow myself a little
time to think. The men were still talking but their voices and the rest of the noise in the room just
went back to mumbles except for the sound of a door opening. I glanced up and everything fell
I don’t know why I spoke but my mouth just opened and that word just happened to fall
out of it without my even thinking about it. That was just the logical thing to say and that seemed
to be the only concern in my mind and only logical actions were important. If I had been in
control of it, I would’ve come up with something more clever to say and not just a simple
greeting between two people of no relation. She stepped slowly toward me with tears in her eyes
examining me as if I were a display in a window. Her expression was conflicted, and I could read
her face like it was a book. She was happy to see me but she had reservations while stepping
toward me. Finally threw her arms around me and held me in her embrace. I could smell her
fruity shampoo ad I could feel the warmth of her body against mine, which seemed to be lifeless
in temperature. I put my arms around her purely as a reaction and held her there with a blank
stare on my face and no movement. It was the only logical thing to do. Something inside me was
screaming to shower her with kisses and squeeze her so tight and never let her go, but logically
“It’s good to see you.” Said the voice that came from my mouth, again not my own
doing. I said it because that’s what is said when you haven’t seen someone in a while.
“I thought I’d lost you” she cried, her face still buried in my shoulder
“Well it’s a good thing you found me again.” I replied, this time all on my own.
“Strange. Like there is something inside me that is trying to burst its way out and take
over completely but the other half won’t let it. It’s like my mind is constantly battling with itself
I could tell by the look on her face that she was disturbed. I wasn’t myself anymore and
that was breaking her heart but she was still optimistic knowing that there was at least some part
of me left. How could I tell all of this from just a glance? My mind is racing again and the battle
is raging on once more, but on the outside there was nothing. No show of distress or any
She turned to the doctors and spoke in a soft longing tone. “Is he alright? Can he leave?”
“We’ve already run all of our tests and he is in perfect working condition, as far as we’re
concerned, we have nothing to do with him anymore. He’s all yours. However we will be
reporting in every so often to see how he interacts in everyday life.” Replied the man with the
glasses. After getting a better look at them all I could tell that he was the one in charge of this
Before I knew it she was grabbing my hand and rushing me out of the room before a
thank you or even a good bye could be said, like she was trying to run away from the reality of it
all. She pulled me straight through the hospital, out the doors, across the parking lot and into her
car. I stepped in and sat in the passenger seat and she got behind the wheel on the drivers side. I
watched her as she closed the door and sat there gripping the wheel and staring out of the
windshield. It started to rain, and with it came a wave of emotion, and she began to cry slowly at
“Why are you crying? Everything is okay now.” I exclaimed. This was a happy time and
the nonhuman part of me knew that this was not a logical action.
She spoke, fighting through tears. “You don’t understand. Well, you would understand,
but you’re not you, are you? The complete version of you. No, that is gone and I’m left with this
thing that looks and sounds like you, but in reality it’s just some shell of a half-dead soul walking
around reminding me of what I used to have. It’s been almost an entire month since you died,
and somehow this is the worst day of them all. For the first few days after your death, I didn’t
plan your funeral it was too hard, I didn’t let anyone inside the house, I didn’t eat, I didn’t even
leave the bed for the most part. I just laid there unable to cry anymore and unable to move. On
the morning of the 4th day I got up and made myself breakfast and started planning your funeral.
I spoke to my family and yours and we shared our stories and memories of you and then that
Friday we had your funeral. It was a beautiful day and we were supposed to go to the waterfall
that day. The next day I tried to kill myself. I drowned myself in alcohol and pills and sat outside
on the front porch in the rain waiting for the world to swallow me up. I woke up in the hospital
with your mom by my side. She had come over to pick up her tray that she had left at our house
during the wake and she found me laying there. This young psychiatrist came in a spoke to me
and asked me why I wanted to kill myself. I told her I didn’t, I told her I was already dead the
moment your heart stopped beating so at this point I was just a walking corpse. She told me
about a new experimental procedure that would allow you to come back and live with me again.
That was the only shred of hope that I had left, I thought that if I could see you again we could
go back to our lives. The funny thing about hope is it’s only good when the outcome turns out
how you were hoping it would, but when it turns rotten you’re crushed and left feeling beaten
“Well I owe you a trip. Maybe taking me back to a place that means a lot to me will help
you see whatever you feel is missing inside of me. It was rude of me to go and cancel on you
without even saying anything. So unlike me. Why don’t I drive to make it up to you.” I said
cheerfully.
I stepped out of the car and opened her door and went to pick her up in a grand romantic
gesture, but she fought me and stepped out and around the car and got in the passenger side
herself.
The clouds cleared out and a bright sun was shining down as we drove onward to the
waterfall in silence. The human part of me could tell that there was a tenseness in the air and she
was upset so I tried making small talk to cheer her up, to which she responded with more silence.
As we arrived there was not a soul in sight and the massive waterfall was glistening in the
sunlight. I got out and opened her door and offered her my hand. She stepped out and placed her
hand in mine but did not hold it, so I held her limp hand and led her onward. Hiking up was a
long trip because of the sheer height of this monstrous landmark. Inside I could feel the battle
raging on again between wanting to kiss her and love her like I once did and the other unfamiliar
part of me that held control. Once we got to the top, we stood right at the edge and I watched the
view as it sprawled outward for miles past the limits of the human eye. This was the first time
ever seeing it in this way since I was looking at it through new eyes and I could see for miles and
miles on end.
“But what do you feel? Nothing. You’re incapable of anything real.” She said bitterly.
I turned to look at her and she was staring at me with tears in her eyes. She slowly walked
over to me and took my hand and placed them around her hips and she put hers around my neck.
She pulled my head toward hers and pressed her lips against mine and help them for a few
seconds. She pulled away with a look of realization that the human part of me could tell was pure
despair. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and fell back, barreling down with the water.
All noise inside my head quieted and all I could hear was the falling of the water and a slight
breeze blowing in my ears. A quiet and serene scene that provided a juxtaposition to the
screaming pain that my human soul was feeling. I wanted to leap after her and catch her and just
be with her for those moments when we were falling. I knew that after she was gone, my soul
would slowly slip away and die and the nonhuman art of me knew this as well. My foot stepped
forward with a great amount of resistance and following it was another step. I could tell that the
nonhuman part of me was conflicted but nevertheless a few more steps and then a great leap as I
hurled myself down the falls. What good is a body without a soul, like a computer without
programming. It was not logical to remain at the top of the falls if there was no purpose left in
my existence without her, so both parts of me jumped. My body was a greater density than hers
so I darted toward her and caught her midair so that we were both falling together in an embrace
looking at each other soul to soul. As we fell, time moved much slower than before and we fell
for what seemed like forever as I watched my body and hers age rapidly and vanish altogether
until we were just particles in the air floating down to Earth. I looked around and saw millions of
us scattered all over and as we fell together in each other embrace for an eternity, it began to
rain.
Works Cited
Abrams, J.J. “Star Trek: Into Darkness” Performance by Zachary Quinto as Spock, Paramount
Pictures, 23 April 2013. Amazon Prime.
The role of Spock in this film offers a view of how his emotion got in the way of making logical
decisions. He shut out emotions in order to become a more efficient star fleet officer and he
made every decision purely based on logic.
“ Be Right Back” Black Mirror. Season 2, episode 1. Netflix. 11 Feb. 2014
https://www.netflix.com/watch/70279173?trackId=13752289&tctx=0%2C0%2Cb389235
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This episode of black mirror is the inspiration for the idea behind my paper. It displays a man
and his wife living happily together until the man dies and is replaced by an artificial version of
himself who learns only from his social media presence. It helped me to establish a central idea
for my paper.
Minsky, Marvin. The emotion machine: Commonsense thinking, artificial intelligence, and the
future of the human mind. Simon and Schuster, 2007.
In this book, Minsky points out that emotions, intuitions, and feelings are not distinct things, but
different ways of thinking. Minsky says we can explain why our thought sometimes takes the
form of reasoned analysis and at other times turns to emotion and how we can apply this to
artificial intelligence in order to make them think and behave like us.
Rohde, Klaus, et al. “Benefits & Risks of Artificial Intelligence.” Future of Life Institute,
https://futureoflife.org/background/benefits-risks-of-artificial-intelligence/.
This article describes how AI is programmed to fulfill a function whether it be bad or good. A
strong AI will still have the need to fulfill a function and will not be able to act on it’s own. The
breakthrough comes when you can create a AI that decides what it’s function is on its own and
makes decisions based on moral and emotion and not just logic.
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This paper examines different parts of the brain and their roles in processing and dealing with
emotion. I applied this knowledge to my paper when thinking about how a creature with no
emotion would interact in every day life.
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https://www.brookings.edu/research/what-is-artificial-intelligence/.
This article discusses artificial intelligence that we have today and the role of the turing test to
determine whether or not it is a strong AI and is able to think like a human. Understanding how
AI work today was a key part in understanding how to make the man in my story so different
than what we have today.