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English 1050
December 5, 2020
For this project I decided to analyze the way religion has impacted my life. I am writing
this as a personal story and will not be providing any other sources. I am the only source.
I was born and raised in the Mormon religion. I was born of parents who were very strict
when it came to following and obeying all things pertaining to the church. I was to go every
Sunday, even if I was sick, as no excuses would be good enough to not attend. Following
commandments, guidelines, principles, leaders, and teachings were a must. Religion was a
priority.
As a kid, I was so used to it that it seemed right and there were no negative feelings. As I
grew in age, I became more unsure of how I really felt. I felt guilty, as if something was wrong
with me. I felt as though I was a bad person for not wanting to attend church. I believed the
teachings, so it’s not that I was a non-believer. I was planning on spending my whole life the
discouraging things from leaders of my church. These people, who I spent every Sunday with,
who taught me, who I listened to my whole life, said things that broke me. As I heard these
things, I instantly “woke up”. I began listening to everything that was being told to me and it
friends in the hall, go find my mom to talk to, or would simply pretend I was super sick trying to
avoid going at all costs. I became sick of feeling forced to go and my anger grew. I blamed the
church for everything, which looking back was not right to do.
Eventually, I stopped going. My mom had given up on forcing me to be there. She knew
where my heart was at and knew she could push me no longer. I can safely say, this life change
grew harder and harder on me. It definitely put wear and tear on me emotionally and spiritually.
After leaving, I felt alone. Nearly all my friends were really involved in the church and it felt like
they couldn’t accept me after I had left it. Every discussion to me, felt church related. I felt guilty
Everyone acted like I had bad values and morals. I was the same person, but all because I
didn’t sit in a building every Sunday, they treated me like I was a bad person. I was judged not
by who I was, but who I was suspected of being for not attending religious practices.
This is where age and lifestyle began to play their parts. After a certain amount of time, I
finally felt at peace with life again. I was counted as an “adult” and felt the freedom I have
always desired. I surrounded myself with good and non-judgemental people who accepted me for
who I am and let me embrace it. With age came responsibilities which are exactly what I felt I
needed. By focusing on work and my future, I felt more successful and busy with no time to
screw around and waste time. My lifestyle gave me a solid work ethic and also peace.
By working hard to get where I wanted, my family became more accepting and actually
grew to be proud of me. I began forming healthy and happy relationships with my family which
healed a wound that had been there since my father passed. Looking back, I see many faults that
I committed, and many things I could have done differently. It wasn’t religion, it was my
I learned to communicate, obey, follow, listen, trust and believe. It gave me a feeling of
importance, it gave me a feeling of purpose. I will never look back with regret. I can look back
and say that it wasn’t religion's fault, it was the way I was living my life; my lifestyle.
Culture is more than race. Culture is knowledge, belief, lifestyles, pastimes and so much
more. I am proud of my culture. I embrace who I am, where I come from and my story. I am
Connections
An article that I feel that relates to my story is “You Are My People:’ Inactive Gay
Mormon Shares Powerful Insights After Attending Church For The First Time In Years” written
by John Bonner. For those who haven’t read the story, it is about a guy who grew up Mormon
and left the church after he came out as gay. After years of being inactive, he goes back and
attends a sacrament meeting. He explains the feelings that overcame him, and how it relieved
him after all those years. In this article, he explains his feelings he felt when he said “ I
remembered sobbing for hours at a time until my eyes were so red and swollen I couldn’t always
drive myself back home. I thought about what it had meant to feel lost and alone for so many
years, to be both within and without when it came to my native faith.” I can honestly say I
related to that. I felt rejected, lonely and like a disappointment. As the story progresses, he
explains that he finally felt like he belonged. He felt overwhelmed with joy when he felt
accepted. I related to this when my mom and family began to accept me for who I was.
Another article I used was “ Religion, Culture, And Communication” written by Stephen
M. Croucher, Cheng Zeng, Diyako Rahmani and Melodine Sommier. Throughout this article,
they gave their insight of the importance of religion in culture. They explain how it coincides
with religion, and how communication plays its part with religion and vice versa. In their article
they say, “There is an interplay among religion, community, and culture. Community is
essentially formed by a group of people who share common activities or beliefs based on their
mutual affect, loyalty, and personal concerns. Participation in religious institutions is one of the
most dominant community engagements worldwide. Religious institutions are widely known for
creating a sense of community by offering various material and social supports for individual
followers.” For me, the hardest part of leaving the church was feeling alone. I had so many
friends in my neighborhood and ward that made me feel embarrassed to be seen outside on
Sunday’s. I felt like I was avoiding everyone in my community just for not going to church. It
In the article “The History Of The ‘Ideal’ Woman And Where That Has Left Us” by
Jacqueline Howard, she used a quote by Sierra Filucci that says,“When kids are entering
adolescence, they're developing their own identity and trying to figure out what's socially
acceptable so when they're inundated with images of a particular body type in appealing
scenarios, they're more apt to absorb the idea that that particular body type is ideal," said Sierra
Filucci, executive editor of parenting content and distribution for Common Sense Media, a
nonprofit organization focused on helping children, parents and educators navigate the world of
media and technology.” Even though my story has nothing to do with body image, this text
applied to developing my identity. Like Sierra said, children try to develop their own identity at a
young age. I felt I was robbed of developing in the way I wanted to as I was forced for many
years to be someone who I wasn’t. I was told where to be, who to be, and when. I felt I couldn’t
be myself.
In “Perfume Dreams”, written by Andrew Lam, he explains how he felt speaking English
and how it helped him escape tragic memories. He says “Speaking English, I had a markedly
different personality than when speaking Vietnamese. In English, I was a sunny, upbeat, silly,
and sometimes wickedly sharp-tongued kid. No sorrow, no sadness, no cataclysmic grief clung
to my new language. A wild river full of possibilities flowed effortlessly from my tongue,
connecting me to the New World. And I, enamored by the discovery of a newly invented self (I
even gave myself a new name -- "Andy, call me Andy," I would tell each new teacher and each
new friend who had trouble pronouncing my Vietnamese name) -- I sailed its iridescent waters
toward spring.” When I read this, I was completely captivated as I completely related to this.
When at church, I felt embarrassed to speak. I kept my mouth shut and didn’t feel like a happy
person. It wasn’t the church’s fault, I just didn’t feel like I fit in. When he said how he felt when
speaking English, I could remember the way it felt to hang around people who shared the same
situation as I did. I could be my happy self and didn’t have to worry about being judged. I felt
Bonner, John. “‘You Are My People’: Inactive Gay Mormon Shares Powerful Insights After
Attending Church for the First Time in Years.” LDS Living, 9 May 2018,
www.ldsliving.com/Inactive-Gay-Mormon-Shares-Powerful-Insights-After-Attending-Church-fo
r-the-First-Time-in-Years/s/87741.
Croucher, Stephen M., et al. “Religion, Culture, and Communication.” Oxford Research
oxfordre.com/communication/view/10.1093/acrefore/9780190228613.001.0001/acrefore-978019
0228613-e-166.
Howard, Jacqueline. “The Ever-Changing 'Ideal' of Female Beauty.” CNN, Cable News
www.cnn.com/2018/03/07/health/body-image-history-of-beauty-explainer-intl/index.html.
Lam, Andrew. “A Viet Kieu Shares His 'Perfume Dreams'.” NPR, NPR, 30 June 2006,
www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=5523004.