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Thank you to Daniel Leyva from the Reunion Latina Training Planning Team for
inviting me to speak at the Reunion Latina Annual Dinner, and of course a big
thank you to the Latino Commission on AIDS for hosting this beautiful event.
Now I hope that I seem relaxed at home and como entre familia, like I belong up
here wearing my suit and tie about to embark on a big speech, a speech about
health care reform, the National HIV/AIDS Strategy, immigration—all the policy
But things aren’t always quite what they seem. Who are you, quien eres? You
may be asking. Brothers and sisters, yo soy el esposo con SIDA, el hijo,
hermano, primo, tio, compañero y vecino que tiene SIDA. I am the husband with
AIDS, the son, brother, cousin, uncle, friend and neighbor who has AIDS.
HIV and AIDS affect all kinds of people from all different backgrounds. Before I
address head-on our fight to end AIDS in the Latino community, I need to tell you
my story. How I got here, on this stage tonight, wearing a suit and tie. Looking
happy, healthy and well-fed. Because our debating, our passionate arguments
for or against different strategies to fight AIDS, in the end, are really about
Williamsburg, Brooklyn, “The South Side” or Los Sures, el barrio where I grew up
in the 1970s. In those days, you did not see white goateed hipsters
skateboarding to yoga. As a kid, I used to look out the back window of our
apartment at an abandoned building and watch the huele pegas, the glue
sniffers, doing their thing. In those days, huele pega was an insult--but those
guys were having a grand ol’ time. And I was always happy to see them. To get
the glue that they sniffed, the huele pegas had to buy airplane or car models
meant for kids. They didn’t give “un enfueno” about the models. They would just
grab the glue and throw the model aside. What an opportunity! After the huele
pegas were gone, I would crawl into the abandoned building and scoop up the
discarded models. Guys this was free toys, Christmas and birthdays on a regular
basis!
Now I hope this is a charming story, but it had a downside: Like many urban
Latino kids, I had already begun to see drug use as cool. And, like many urban
Latino kids, my home life was full of turbulence and quite challenging. By the time
I was 16, I was heavily into heroin and running with gangs. By my mid-20s I was
Since I’m giving this speech at an AIDS gathering, perhaps you have an idea of
watching friends, family and fellow drug users die, I still didn’t have a clue what
was in the cards for me. By 1991, I thought I had finally pulled my act together.
Thanks largely to Narcotics Anonymous and my faith in Jesus Christ, I was drug
free. I was also out of the relationship with the mother of my first three sons, and
that we did not need to use condoms. Every one that I knew who had AIDS had
died almost immediately—hey, I thought I’d made it! Got over, scot-free!
Now, in 1991, hope was in short supply for people with HIV. For six months
straight after I was diagnosed, the sky was always gray. I felt like I was in a
perpetual thunderstorm. I would cry all the way to work. Man I could taste the
Like many of you, by helping others worse-off than myself. I started working as
Unit” for a CBO called “The Sharing Community.” Needle exchanges were illegal
in Yonkers, so we did the next best thing, we took the people we served across
the border into the Bronx for clean needles and we provided the bleach kits
including cookers.
To my great surprise, a couple years after my diagnosis, I was doing great. I
looked great. Like some of us with HIV, I had gone holistic: exercising, eating
healthy, doing acupuncture, taking herbs. I even had a great new job, as a case
Still, my charity had limits. I was fine venturing into tough neighborhoods and
working with strung-out addicts, going into shooting galleries or crack dens. But I
was not comfortable dealing with the other group suffering most from AIDS:
Executive Director, Charles King, casually greet his partner, Housing Works’
other co-Executive Director, Keith Cylar--with a kiss on the lips. I literally ran to
my phone, called my wife at the time and told her to update my resume because
I can look back and laugh today, but my homophobia and the homophobia of my
traditional Catholic upbringing ended up costing me--dearly. Only two weeks after
the Bronx. I was escorting one of the client’s assigned to my shared caseload
who was having trouble getting housing assistance. As I entered the office, I saw
a frail-looking woman and did a double take. The woman had lost most of her
hair and looked like an old lady, but I still recognized her, it was my sister
Yolanda. I hadn’t seen her for five years. I called out her name. She looked at
Yolanda was a lesbian. When my stepfather found out, he made her use a
separate set of dishes because he thought being gay was contagious. He told
me that she was no longer my sister, no longer part of la familia. No wonder she
had disappeared from our lives. She had been cast out.
This all happened on December 22, 1993. Reunited, Yolanda and I made plans
to see each other on Christmas Day. I never saw her alive again. On Christmas
Eve, her lover called and told me that Yolanda had passed away. Her ashes
Yolanda gave me a precious gift before she died. If it hadn’t been for seeing her
in that DASA office, I would never have faced my homophobia and stayed at
Housing Works. I believe, I would have never learned to love two of my sons who
are gay, unconditionally. If I hadn’t stayed with Housing Works, I probably would
never have gone back to school. I would never have earned an associate’s
would not have risen through six promotions to become a senior vice president at
Yolanda, I would not be standing before you on this stage and for the first time in
my life, coming out publicly about living with AIDS.
In a moment, I’m going to say some pretty harsh things about President Barack
Obama, health reform and the national HIV/AIDS strategy. I wouldn’t be true to
the memory of my sister if I didn’t say them. I wouldn’t be true to myself. Yes, I
just came out of the closet about being HIV positive. But I’m not having a
AIDSphobia--to name just a few of the challenges of living with HIV. I am not
Our nation’s response to the AIDS epidemic has shifted dramatically in the last
year. In July, President Obama unveiled his National HIV/AIDS Strategy. The
strategy has big, big flaws. But it’s also a breakthrough. If we do it the right way,
our National AIDS Strategy could transform the way we fight the AIDS epidemic
in this country. The other huge change this year was the passage of the
Affordable Care Act in March, which will have a large impact on Medicaid.
I know that many of you were happy, joyous even, about the National AIDS
Obama. But I have to be honest. I found it medio crudo, not completely cooked,
“half-baked.”
Yes, the strategy talks about HIV-related racial disparities and health imbalances.
Yes, it calls for community-based, culturally appropriate HIV prevention. Yes, it
seeks to increase the number of HIV-positive Latinos and African Americans with
an undetectable viral load. It even goes much further. Its goal is to make the
United States a place where, and I quote, “HIV infections are rare.”
Now, it’s one thing to have a vision and quite another to make it a reality. As
somebody who has been spent 20 years coping with a fatal disease, I can tell
you, this plan is out of touch with reality. Way out of touch. We’re 30 years into
the AIDS crisis. Our national AIDS strategy calls for a reduction of new HIV
infections by a mere 25 percent by 2015. Mis amigos, that will be too little too
percent in the next five years, we will still be faced with more than 250,000 new
HIV infections in 2015, that’s right en cinco años! That is too slow! Latin men are
diagnosed at three times the rate of white men. Latinas are diagnosed at five
times the rate for white women. We are more likely to die sooner after an AIDS
Yet few of us have criticized the National AIDS strategy. Most groups greeted it
with cheers and applause. As the plan gets implemented, I urge the Latino
Commission on AIDS and other Latino AIDS organizations to raise hell when the
administration lets us down. The plan is already eight months old. Many of the
federal agencies that are supposed to implement it have offered only vague
ideas about how to do so. And there is no federal money to support President
Obama’s strategy. I can tell you, we are in for a long fight.
There are two other major problems with our new national AIDS strategy: its
failure to address the ADAP crisis and housing for people with HIV/AIDS.
Nearly 7,000 people are on AIDS Drugs Assistance Programs wait lists. That’s a
scandal. And yet Obama’s national AIDS strategy does not address those
There are nearly 200,000 people enrolled in ADAP and 26 percent, or about
50,000, are Latino. And yet no Latino organizations criticized the president’s
AIDS strategy because it did not address the ADAP crisis. We will never be a
nation in which “HIV infections are rare,” if we do not ensure that our poorest
With regard to housing, the National HIV/AIDS Strategy is pretty much silent. It
Now I know that when most people think of HIV prevention and treatment, they
believe deeply in all of these and other conventional strategies to fight AIDS. But
I want to make the case to you that housing is just as necessary, just as urgent—
groundbreaking analysis of HIV in urban areas. The report showed that 2.1
percent of heterosexuals in high-poverty urban areas in the U.S. are infected with
HIV.
means that all sexually active adults are at high risk of becoming infected in
those communities. Our urban poor are in the midst of an AIDS epidemic on par
The analysis also showed that poverty is the single most important factor
associated with HIV infection among inner-city heterosexuals. One of the study
authors, Dr. Kevin Fenton, the CDC’s head honcho “El Hombre” on HIV, said the
infection in the United States, we need to address the larger environmental and
structural risk factors that fuel HIV, such as poverty, homelessness and
substance abuse.”
All due respect to Kevin Fenton, I did not see that recognition in President
Obama’s AIDS plan. The plan includes one minor reference to housing in its
The Obama administration put out another report last year called Opening
Doors: Federal Strategic Plan to Prevent and End Homelessness. That report
acknowledged that people who have housing assistance have reduced HIV risk
behaviors and improved health care outcomes, que cosa. Opening Doors said
that housing assistance coupled with health care decreases overall public
Let me put it more plainly. When you have a home, you don’t have to trade sex
for shelter. When you have a home, you have a refrigerator for your meds and a
phone to call your doctor. When you have a home, you can build a support
system of friends and family. When you have a home, you have an address that
you can give to potential employers, so you can get a job. And best of all, when
you have a home, we ALL save money! If you’re not familiar with the National
See what happens when you invite someone from Housing Works to give a
Joking aside, I challenge all the Latino organizations here tonight to make
housing one of their top priorities. As Obama’s AIDS strategy gets implemented, I
My feelings about health care reform are similar to my feelings about Obama’s
AIDS strategy. The Affordable Care Act breaks new ground. We also need to
make big changes to it or it won’t help Latinos with HIV/AIDS, mi gente.
bowing to pressure from governors who want total control of their Medicaid
programs. That could spell disaster. Let me give you one very scary, very real
possibility.
Medicaid recipients to five drugs per month—but only two of them could be name
brand. This is a frightening prospect for people with HIV. We frequently depend
Housing Works and others sued Governor Barbour in federal court. Lo and
recipients. That was great for people with HIV--not great for everyone else on
could face dozens of Haley Barbours. And we would have limited legal recourse,
entiendes?
Right here in New York, Medicaid cuts could erode the quality of care. Our
Lists, while eliminating the “provider prevails” provision. This simply cannot
happen, no puede pasar.
The Affordable Care Act also neglects undocumented immigrants. In his big 2009
speech, President Obama practically boasted that health care reform would not
couldn’t take it. He yelled, “You lie!” Wilson apologized, pero te digo, he wasn’t
wrong. States and community health care providers do find ways to funnel
federal money to care for undocumented immigrants. It is our little secret that
there is no preclusion from using Ryan White Care Act money in this way. We
need to discuss this situation publicly. Going public is a risk. But unless we speak
among undocumented immigrants, we will never end AIDS among Latinos in the
U.S.
In New York, the Latino Commission on AIDS has called for community services
for undocumented immigrants, for testing, and for linkage to healthcare. That
should be only the beginning. Latino AIDS groups must get involved in the fight
for immigration reform and win the trust of immigration advocates and immigrants
themselves. We must join our agendas so that the national movement for
immigration reform addresses AIDS. Where were we during the fight over
Arizona’s “driving while undocumented” law? Where are we now as that state
and other U.S. territories were forgotten in health care reform. The federal
government covers at least 50 percent of the bill for states’ Medicaid programs.
candidate Mr. Obama said he wanted to “raise the cap on federal contributions to
Medicaid in Puerto Rico until it disappears.” Puerto Rico has received a bump up
Insufficient Medicaid funds force many Puerto Riqueños living with AIDS to rely
on Ryan White Care Act programs. But Puerto Rico’s Ryan White money has
been notoriously mismanaged. The bottom line? Access to AIDS drugs in Puerto
Rico is under constant threat. Of course, Medicaid alone will not solve Puerto
Rico’s AIDS crisis. 40% of HIV transmissions in Puerto Rico are among IV drug
users, yet the Puerto Rican government refuses to use its own funds for needle
users who would have lived if they’d had adequate health care. Just last month,
they held a rally to demand that, el alcade, the mayor of Fajardo take action. The
slogan they used on their T-shirts touched me: Yo tambien soy Fajardo. What did
that mean? It meant that everyone in Fajardo—even the lowly drug users with
drug use. I was in denial about the possibility that I might have HIV. I was in
denial about my homophobia. I had to lose my own sister to understand that, yes,
we have been forced to live with for three decades. I too have a vision of the
United States were “HIV infections are rare.” A vision of a United States where
the chronically ill have housing and healthcare and supportive services. In my
vision, the United States respects immigrants, a respect that includes healthcare,
and HIV prevention and treatment. In my vision, the United States meets its
Standing before you tonight, I am a long way from those days in Williamsburg,
when I gazed out the window at the huele pegas. The AIDS epidemic has taken
innocence away from all of us, taken away the lives we should have been able to
lead. But today, AIDS is preventable. AIDS is treatable. If we fight, we can heal
Tonight, I leave you with a simple Spanish Proverb: A Dios rogando y con el